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creeping-willow · 7 months ago

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I only ever really post abt Ghosts since its my fav and first cod game, but as I'm replaying mw2019 I can't stop thinking about Farah right after Hadirs betrayal.

Farah, incredibly distraught and angry, but above all confused. Her brother, who had grown up in the same world as she, who remembers how poisonous and deadly the gas was, using it against Barkovs forces in a way they swore they never would, killing not only the Russian soldiers, but their own brothers and sisters as well.

Farah, not knowing what to do, how to feel, what to say, only to express herself through her anger and vengeance against him, yet she couldn't find it in herself to mean it. He was her older brother, the same one who protected her when the Russian forces first invaded their home, who protected her countless times when they were captured by Barkov, who nearly died trying to keep he safe. Hadir was all she had left, the only family still alive, so how, after all they had been through, could her love for him so quickly turn to hate?

Farah, who couldn't properly mourn the loss of her brother. Even if he wasn't dead (yet, lmao), she couldn't mourn the loss of who he was, of the Hadir who was too young to be in the world they were in, the Hadir who did everything to protect her, who loved her so dearly he did something he knew she would hate him for, all to keep her safe.

Farah, who could never bring herself to fully hate Hadir. She loved him, even if she desperately tried to convince herself she hated him, who made sure others knew that she despised his actions, could never bring herself to fully hate the boy she grew up with.

#call of duty #cod modern warfare #call of duty modern warfare #modern warfare #mw 2019 #farah karim #farah cod #farah karim cod #farah #hadir karim #hadir cod #god i love how cod portrays siblings #makes me wanna kms every time

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rollercoasterwords · 1 month ago

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love when i make a post on tumblr.com like “this is how i feel about this” & then someone reblogs it & the tags are like #i actually completely disagree with this #i feel the complete opposite way #here’s an explanation of why this post is wrong. like u know u didn’t have to reblog the post right….

#many such cases & it baffles me every time #once any post breaks containment there is almost inevitably someone in the tags explaining how they don’t understand and/or don’t like #the post….why r u putting it on ur blog then….#& it’s not like posts where people need to correct misinformation or where i’m having an open discussion often it is literally just posts of #me saying something about my own opinion on dumb things that don’t matter very much. like ok sorry u disagree & think it would be fun to #have people speculate abt u being taylor swift….not sure why u reblogged my post abt how being called ts would make me wanna kms then…#txt

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knightjockey · 3 months ago

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Casually thinking (SCREAMING AND CRYING) about how Kate not only slayed the monster (MIB) but saved the princess (CLAIRE) at the end of LOST

Please watch Billiams final instillation of his Lost retrospective

#every time i watch the end it makes me wanna scream and cry and kms #so fuckimg good such a good show I don’t care that a bunch of people hated it and didn’t understand it #i did and i LOVED IT AND IT WAS PERFECT #lost abc #lost tv show #lost #i finished my last rewatch like a month ago and cried for two hours #I’m on season 1 again #kate austen #claire littleton

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firesofdainix · 4 months ago

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That "Ford has NPD" post did irreparable damage to the gf tiktok fandom

#chel babbles #gravity falls #ford pines #stanford pines #the post was made by a npd person so its still valid but then THOSE fans decided to associate every negative trait ford has had to npd and #makes it SEEM like a bad thing. the way people will in tiktok never give the time of day to sit and think back about their thought process #is baffling to me. and the fact that i had to see some comments comparing bill's abuse to ford leaving stanley makes me wanna kms #hey! learn some nuance please?

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ripgray-moved · 6 months ago

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i can't believe i didn't clock that the reason i've been such a Fail on the ic front is because of the fucking heatwave—

#♔ ⋮ 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞. ( out. )#the heat makes me wanna kms!!!! i just lay there like a beached fish!!!!!#i hate it here i miss the time when britain had my back n was overcast every day

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alaskan-wallflower · 6 months ago

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you ever just rly want a hug so you wrap yourself in a blanket burrito while drawing and pretending you’re being hugged or is it just me

#i’m so done #i need to finish this before sunday tho bc i wanna post it before my flight home in case i die/hj #and because i don’t wanna be online after tagging anyone id literally kms #anyway this turned dark mb #i don’t have expectations for anyone responding but im lowk a little frightened!!#i’m gonna lie and say a friends sent it to me and that i have no idea who made it #because i do not want to look like a creep 😭#so yay lying!!#hopefully gonna finish this soon but it’s doubtful since i have bulunteeeing from 7 to 1 tmrw and i have choir rehearsal at 4 😭#and my mom is making me go to every social event she can because i “don’t soxialize”#i shut down liek 4 times today trying so maybe i need the practice 💀#this turned into a rant #oops

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itsalwaysdark · 1 month ago

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and when i live on my own ill be able to decorate like real life decorate ive never gotten to do that in real life b4

#like im not barred from doing it Nd i do like. a little bit kind of but its like. Idk my entire life is a very transient thing and im rly #rly rly not used to being in one place for a long time so as a kid we never rly decorated ever #and like obv i wont be Owning a house or anything like that so itll still have to be moveable but i can like. but furniture that i like and #stuff... ive never gotten to do that b4 even in um. wa. i didnt rly get to do any of the decorating even when i was in the actual house bc #him and the roommates umm. did all that. Okay well now ive sort of freaked it by making myself think of that so im going to go stare #longingly at the floorplan i did #bc umm. well ideally id like to move into one of the apartments thats right across the way bc theres a couple of apt buildings like right #there 5 min walk tops and one of the places Has an open one but no floorplan #i wont be movjng out for ages i just wanted to look at floorplans yk #but like i said no floorplans BUT theres one a bit further away not rly walkable bc its umm #youd have to walk on the interstate and stuff and um. no sidewalk and everything but theeeeeeeeee thing had a floorplan #still very close by like 2 min drive but yk. but i still did my little mockup floorplan with that apartment instead #i want it to be closeby so everybody can come visit and so that i dont die and explode . i dont rly want to continue living in this town #4ever once km like Normal and have savings and ive got everything worked out i wanna maybe move to chicago or something since il is better #for the transgenderisms. + ive always wanted to try living in a big city at least once and i think itd be awesome #but thats Ages and ages away like maybe 5 years depending on how good i am. weeee will see if 5 years in the future is like on the table 4 #me LOLLLL 24 year old connor seems rly crazy to imagine. but anyways....#but itll be nice to move out and still be in town bc then i can have the same job yk . and maybe ill know how to drive atp and i can like .#buy a car ..or something . if i do know how to drive #which i probably should since this town very car dependent and i dont want my mom to have to drive me to work esp if umm. i dont live with #them ... im just rly rly rly rly rly fucking scared of driving but i know also in my heart that when i do know how to drive the bond between #me and that car will be crazyyyy like. idk how many of you followed me last year but you may remember my insane bond with angel my cart from #work and there was a lot gokng on woth that <- was Very delusional at the time and i was convinced that she was a sentient thing and had the #power to make my life better or worse if i upset her so i said good morning and goodnight to her every single day so that i could have a #good day . looking back on it probably was something to be concerned abt but whatever.... she is still my best friend and i do miss her #deeply #her bathtub and heater were my besttt friends when i was in wa LOL. i was quite unwell #bathtub is still in my room tho yayyy. heater lives with lamp now and angel is of course at my old job....#bathtub currently is holding a project i gave up on. everyone say thank.you bathtub im looking at her right now

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clowngirlpony · 23 days ago

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When I'm in a fatphobia contest but my opponent is the writers of gravity falls

#ive been watching the show for the first time #every scene with grenda makes me wanna kms

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powerbottom · 1 year ago

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#makes me wanna kms every single time #taylor swift #exile #folklore

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sensitivegoblin · 4 months ago

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Vent

Tw: sh, suivide

#i hate that my brain is broken and it makes me fight with my family....#i.wish i could jjst shut my mouth like thsy qant me to.....#it smells like human shit n piss in my room cus im too scared to ask my dad to change it :')✨️💕✌️#i wanna cut so that i get release and attention but last time my dad didnt even notice and my sister didnt take it seriously :(#i feel like cuttong is the only way to let out my Ick and show how not good im doing #mental illnesses are invisible and so fucking crippling......#my family thinks im lazy i just know they do #im such a fuvking failure at 25 i should be taking care of my dad like he did to his..#also my dad always says hes in catholic hell sooooo guess im not real then :')#he spefically says he died as a kid and this is his hell.....🥹✌️💔#i just....hate my life and already dont feel real #he basically vents and says whatever without thinking about the impact on ME the adult child with autism.#i think about my words affect on everybody all the time and it seems like barely anyone thinks the same #....maybe i can s-xually -buse myself instead of cutting #but cumming always brings a biiiiig wave of crying #i shpuldnt cut for the attebtion but FUCK i wanna get a hug or see someone have a soft voice n soft eyes for me #....all i do is annoy my dad #i should just kill myself so i dont annoy him anymore #but im too scared of failing #also im scared of Hell #i need a hug that doesnt start with me asking for a hug......#if i didnt do anything affectionate for a whole day i would go without it #i would trade every present in the world if my family could at least just UNDERSTAND my emotional brain #instead i get “i just dont understand” over n over n over n over again.....#im not trying to be an attention seeker when i say this: logically the only answer i can come up with is to k-ll myself.#its like 2 + 2 = su!cide #my family says that theyd kill themselves if i did....i dont believe that #theyre less broken than me so they would heal and move on.#for clarification #the most violent thing km gonna do is c-t myself im NOT attempting tonight

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neonsbian · 5 months ago

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i stop reading the vampire armand for a couple days and i come back to it and that entire chapter made me wanna kill myself thanks anne rice

#literally every time im like well the worst of it already happened something else happens that makes me wanna kms #vinnie talks

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robinsnest2111 · 5 months ago

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I know that it was just a small thing, the manager wasn't even mean or super mad at me, just a little annoyed, and I know better now and will do better from now on, BUT STILL, the urge to kms over this already solved issue has way too strong of a hold on me lol orz

#why am i so fucking mentally ill?????????? not cool!!!#trying so hard to not be so dysfunctional and mentally ill but man. participating in the human experience this way is TOUGH AS SHIT #and i don't like it very much. every little misstep and any bit of trouble or conflict physically hurt and make me wanna kms all the time #like no worries i will not kms for real. BUT THE URGE IS THERE AND SO PAINFUL AND ANNOYING AUGH

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monsterbisexual · 1 year ago

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another day another having a body sucks + is scary :(((

#p #theres so much that can be going wrong at any time like not even counting the general pain n fatigue i know abt already #part of me wants to google a symptom n part of me knows that will probs make me more anxious #but im anxious anyway so. kms #i dont wanna have organs n stuff theyre gross n can be fucked up n i could be dying idk #i know i make posts like this like every day sry #theres just always Something :(

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lesbiansanemi · 1 year ago

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Me: maybe 8 days off will fix me, maybe going back to work won’t be so bad. It’s fine. It’s fine. It’s alright

Also me: *is at work for less than two hours and already Wants to Die* Ah. Great.