#lou personal post

[tillthelandslide]

Me? Watching daisy Jones and the six for the fourth time? Nope. Definitely not.

[thepringlesofblood]

[emiko-matsui]

how badly did you handle being dumped on a scale from owen carvour (faked his death, betrayed his country, killed over a thousand people, tortured his ex in disguise, tried to launch a worldwide surveillance system during the lavender scare despite being gay) to delissandro katzon (used the last gift he ever got from his ex, a knife, to mutilate himself to never be able to let go of the memories, appointed a younger girl he knew was in love with him in the position in his court that he invented for his ex, started a war)

[clarionglass]

so i have been bitten by the sam reich!master bug courtesy of some phenomenal art by @northernfireart and uh. as is too often the case i had to write something otherwise if i didn't get it out of my brain i would go absolutely insane

(there may be more vignettes coming if i have ideas..... there are definitely other episodes i'd like to give the Treatment to, plus with the new dw series coming out on the weekend i may have ideas for how to incorporate the dw gang! however, i promise neither more writing or no more writing. that said, this was a lot of fun so there'll probably be more at some stage :D )

this has full spoilers for the game changer ep "escape the greenroom", but hey that's been out for a while now so,,,, if you haven't seen it i'd highly recommend it as an episode!

so, without further ado:

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Samuel Dalton was a complete fiction, of course, but that didn't mean that when Sam Reich snuck back upstairs to get tied up in the “out of order” bathroom, the Sam that remained on the monitor, laughing at the contestants, was a pre-recording. And if Brennan, Siobhan and Lou had snorted at the idea of a time-travelling evil magician great-grandfather (for good reason), going in with the actual truth of the matter would have sounded like jumping the shark.

It sounded bizarre, but the time travel bit was the only part about his new partner in crime that was confirmably real. Admittedly, the jury was still out on “evil”—he gave off a weird vibe at times, but so far, no lines had been crossed, and it had all been funny as hell—so for now, Sam was willing to roll with it. But perhaps most surprisingly, there wasn’t even the possibility of blood relation between Samuel Dalton Reich and the guy who had shown up out of the blue one day with his exact face and a plan to really fuck around with things on Game Changer.

Yeah, the whole alien thing had really ruled out that particular prospect.

There had been various bits and pieces of confirmation that this guy wasn’t human through the time Sam had known him, but the final nail in the coffin for that one was when his doppelganger had looked him dead in the eye and tried on one of the heart rate monitors—sorry, “range extenders”—for As a Cucumber. The damn thing had literally sparked up, then died completely. Trying to process input from two separate heartbeats at once would do that, apparently. 

His doppelganger was a Time Lord, or so he had nonchalantly said one afternoon in casual conversation, though Sam still wasn’t sure if that one was a joke or not. It was hard to tell, sometimes, because he said the wildest things with the straightest face, and so far, most of them had turned out to be one hundred percent certifiably true. The time travel, the space travel, even the changing faces thing—it sounded objectively insane, but the proof was undeniable. 

There were some notable exceptions, though. Saying he’d been trapped for aeons inside Neil Patrick Harris’s gold tooth went just that bit too far to be believable, though Sam did appreciate his double’s slightly warped sense of humour.

It was that offbeat line of thinking that lent itself well to game design, as it turned out. He had a knack for coming up with ideas for Game Changer episodes, albeit with the occasional suggestion that went way beyond the bounds of good taste, and, as in the case of Escape the Greenroom, had devised some blinding twists on concepts Sam had already half-formed. The letter puzzle unlocking the secret door? It was perfect.

Understandably, Sam’s doppelganger had wanted to observe the fruits of their labours in real time, rather than watching the recording later. It happened, sometimes, particularly when it was one of his ideas that had made it through to the episode list—they’d swap places for a session, with nobody being any the wiser. Watching those edits back always felt a bit weird—it was uncanny how flawless the mimicry was—but hey, the guy was right. It was always fun.

Escape the Greenroom, specifically, with its “Samuel Dalton” conceit, provided them with a unique opportunity. Instead of swapping out the camera feed for a recording when the cast piled into the tiny secret room behind the wall, as per the original plan to get Sam in position to be discovered in the bathroom, they could just swap out the people. Sam would go upstairs, and his double would take his place at the podium, ducking out of sight when everyone came back to the main stage to “defuse the bomb”.

Sam was keen—hell, if their situations had been reversed, he’d want to be there to watch, too—but caution raised a flag. “You don’t think it’s too risky?” he’d asked when the subject was first raised. “Both of us being in the same place?”

His doppelganger had shrugged one shoulder with supreme unconcern. “The crew won't notice.”

At the time, Sam had shot him a sceptical look, but right now, Sam-Reich-in-a-purple-tie and Sam-Reich-in-an-orange-tie were standing backstage post-record, clearly visible and and calmly chatting, and not a single member of the crew had given them so much as a second glance. 

…Hardly even a first glance, come to think about it. If anyone looked over their way, their eyes seemed to… not exactly go through them, but slide over the two of them like water. He was tempted to wave to Nico or Ash or someone, just out of pure curiosity, but something in the back of his mind told him that wouldn’t be the world’s greatest idea. He had a funny feeling he wouldn’t like to see what would happen next.

(He’d given the prop bomb back to the crew once the cameras stopped rolling, and though it looked the same as the one he remembered from before he’d headed upstairs, it felt different in his hands. Heavier, more… serious, somehow. He was sure nothing would have happened—but at the same time, he was suddenly very glad that the cast had cut the correct wire with no less than a minute fifteen to go.)

(The jury was still out on evil, after all.)

“Worth coming in for?” he asked instead.

“Absolutely,” his double replied with relish. “Locking those three in a small room for an hour? Brilliant, fantastic. Inspired. It was absolute chaos.”

“Have you seen up there?” Sam asked, a smile starting to spread across his face. “They messed up the set real bad.”

His doppelganger smirked at him. “You know it took literally two seconds from you telling them to escape the greenroom for Lou to smash that guitar?”

Sam shook his head. “Oh my god. Yeah, they were stressed.” 

“Mmm. Some real panic in that room,” his doppelganger agreed, and Sam chose to ignore the faint note of satisfaction in his voice.

He shifted his weight, settling back to lean against the table behind the set, in the exact instant his double decided to do the same thing. It really was freaky how similar they were, down to the smallest mannerism—like looking in a mirror, only weirder, because the face that looked back at him was truly his own face, not mirror-reversed. Even now, it still caught Sam off guard from time to time, but at least it had faded into a more comfortable kind of strange. He had an exact lookalike who was an actual time-travelling alien. Cool. Doesn’t everyone?

The pair shared a companionable silence for a few moments, before a thought Sam had been turning over for a while rose to the top of his mind. He shifted again, this time on his own, and he felt his double’s regard swing up to fix on him like a magnet. 

“Okay, real talk,” he started, and his doppelganger frowned back in an approximation of confused innocence. “What’s all this for?”

“Who says it has to be for anything? Aren't we just having fun?”

Sam hummed, considering. “Yeah. No, I'd believe that, if I didn't sometimes walk into production meetings and find out I'd apparently been very specific about the people I wanted for certain episodes.”

“Point for Sam,” his doppelganger acknowledged with a grin. “You got me. Wasn’t hard to make a few phone calls on our joint behalf.”

“Yeah, but why?” Sam pressed. “I mean, Siobhan, Brennan and Lou are always great comedy value when you put them together, and it was awesome to have them for this, but I get the feeling you’re thinking of something other than making good content.”

“Who, me?”

With that, his double gave him a look of such overdone pantomime innocence that Sam suddenly and thoroughly understood why, not half an hour earlier, Brennan had very seriously threatened to push him down the stairs. 

He rolled his eyes, which earned him a smirk for his troubles.

Dropping the act, his doppelganger continued. “I’m expecting an… old friend, I guess, to show up at some point, and—well, I’d like to put on a really special show for them. I thought it would be a good opportunity to try a few things out, you know?”

Ominous pause aside, that was actually kind of sweet. Sweeter than he’d been expecting, that’s for sure—he was half anticipating the revelation that he and his cast were subjects in some weird experiment. Hey, that still couldn’t fully be ruled out, but still.

“Okay,” he acquiesced. “Well… just let me know, next time? Before you start ordering in my cast like takeout?”

“Who says they’re your cast?” his double shot back with a twinkle in his eye, and Sam snorted.

“Fine. Our cast, then. But seriously, let me know?”

His doppelganger nodded, which, if not quite fully convincing, was good enough. 

“Oh, and do you know when your friend might be arriving?” Sam asked. “Because if you wanted to plan something, we can—”

“I don’t know,” his doppelganger interrupted. “So yeah, we’ll have to move fast when they do get here. But I’ve got it under control.”

He broke off, then shot Sam a mischievous grin. “In the meantime, though, I’ve had this fun thought about time loops…”

[astoopidfool]

I keep thinking about it, and keep thinking about how emotionally devastated I'll be if they don't get back together. 🫤 On one hand I want to have hope, but on the other hand, writers - and in this case one in particular - are notorious for trying to do zaney and surprising things because "that's where their muse took them." As an audience member, and a neurodivergent one at that, it's a really shitty way to watch characters I love. 😓

[miksterrr]

so like, i know we, as a fandom, don't like Sensei Wu that much-

BUT how many times do yall think the ninja called him dad?

[egberts]

louis 9 weeks old vs 12 weeks old with the ball tower

[evankinkley]

listen, if you post buddie content in the lou ferrigno jr tag, automatic block. what are you trying to achieve?

[okruee]

How do we know half of the Gaza posts are real when it comes to these GFM? Some of the stories seem "off" with the age, and stories.. the written paragraphs are too clean.. Even copy, pasting and googling some of them link to a ton of other stories, pages, sites.. and some are dated from 2022, and prior.

Most of the donations i reblog are people who have messaged me on here which I'm more than willing to share since I know it'll reach a lot of people:

I try to vet before I reblog - I check this masterlist of vetted fundraisers managed by trusted people on tumblr, I check if they've interacted with the posts if not on the masterlist yet.

photos - I'll reverse image-search to make sure they're not stolen, people might create fundraises on multiple platforms - i don't see an issue with that.

their stories - i assume they're using google translate or someone else has translated it into English for them.

timing - Gaza has been facing violence from the IOF for decades so I wouldn't immediately discount something from years ago

Obviously donate to gofundme's at your own discretion, you always have the option to donate to registered charities too

[thelaststranding]

--- and he murmured, spittle halfway down her chin as she wailed, distinctly curling her paunchy fingers around one of his. his tears were long stained, wiped and remedied by the inside of an elbow. his only notion was i'm going to treat you so much better than how daddy treated me.

[tillthelandslide]

Writing fan fiction during my lecture is iconic behavior idgaf

[kommandonuovidiavoli]

When the whole family has your back…

I swear this is funny in my head with my context, ignore that I haven’t introduced adult au design for half these people, pretend you know who is who…

[mountedeverest]

You know what? I like Oliver. Am I disappointed in the comments he made about Buck turning back to his 1.0 days since it plays into a major toxic bisexual stereotype I’ve personally been victim of after he said he’d handle this story with care? Yes. But he’s human and under scrutiny the likes of which us regular people will never be and can never possibly understand. We can’t be perfect and say the right stuff 100% of the time. Oliver’s not a saint. He’s a person with a job. We’ve all fumbled situations or misspoke at times or had views which we had to change or adjust after learning, that’s part of the human experience. So yeah, I liked BuckTommy. Yeah, deep down I still like Buddie. Yeah, I know Lou had some questionable posts on his Instagram from some years ago. And yes, I like Oliver, Lou, and Ryan even though none of them have been perfect. There’s nothing today that would suggest an immense clash with my current values, and if there were, it seems it was all in the past and there’s been growth, evolution. I hope we can all appreciate the humanness of actors and the plasticity inherent to us all through time and learning.

That’s all I had to say.

[fortjester]

got told over brunch by my partner that a friend has decided to read tlt and it is "mostly [lou's] fault" and i am soooooo vindicated. like yes i take my duties as an advocate for tlt incredibly seriously. another tally on the board for the amount of people i've managed to convert

[blusthings]

I might regret even posting this, but I have to tell this to someone or share it or else I might loose my mind.

I think I'm more depressed, anxious and self loathing than I have ever been my entire life. I can't draw, can't write notes or poems, can't have fun playing video games. I can't do anything like I used to. Can't even pray. I sleep a lot, or sleep very little, and yet somehow I'm always exhausted. I cry most nights, with or without reason. I eat a lot, or very little. I often can't look myself in the mirror and spot one thing I like. And when I do, it's always temporary. I always criticise everything I do, everything I say and I can't keep up with this anymore.

I'm finding a therapist though. I don't wanna take meds, I'm not sure I even want a diagnosis, I don't even know if I can afford it atm. But therapy is a good start, I need to pick myself up. I will be okay somehow, I really don't know but I want to be okay. I'm sick of living like this.

I hate being perceived, but I want help.

[smokinghotpastorswife]

it’s murphin time