#lop kin

[pastelporcini]

Me trust

[kodafur]

Making little pictures! If anyone wants a specific animal or photo please let me know cause I’m having a great time

[little-lucub]

Silly tan lop bunny doodles!

Thank you @little-bunny-in-space for the request ;33

Transparent under the cut! F2U but don't remove my watermark please ^^

[soundleer]

Bro why is jevin is a female??

bc my jevin's a pretty gurl, he's peak gender to me :33 💙✨

[kthecritter]

hi hi! Me again!

I would like to request two user boxes to use on my alterhuman blog @what-do-i-call-this-14

The first one have Strawberry Crepe Cookie with text reading "may be inactive due to fixing wafflebots!"

The second one with a black floppy-earred rabbit with red themes with text reading "this rabbit is slow"

Pls and thank u!

here you go, I hope you enjoy! fun themings, I like it :3

[catwings-kinhelp]

Fashion board for a black lop ear bunny with grunge themes!

[2-dsimp]

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Yandere Dullahan Incel x Crybaby! Fem reader!

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Cw: incel tendencies, obsessive/possessive tendencies, abuse/neglect, infidelity, slight angst, coercion, manipulation, toxic behaviors, codependency

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Yandere Incel who dislikes you to the point where they grow to love you.

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Yandere Incel! Who came from a broken home, his father was a habitual drunkard ever since his mother up and left them. Saying she couldn’t take it anymore, couldn’t take waking up everyday to the disembodied heads of her husband and son.

Said husband was a Dullahan where it was seen as normal practice to not have a head on one’s neck. But of course her reason for leaving was a lie, it’s because she had found someone new to fawn over despite the 7 year marriage. His father always had a sneaking suspicion but he didn’t want to believe it until divorce papers were carelessly thrown at him and his 13 year old son, Cynix who were just bonding in the living room.

Yandere Incel! Who became all too desensitized from his father’s drunken rant about women. Namely his wife, Cursing her while swigging on a poor strangers soul he had just reaped the night before. His father didn’t realize the impact he had on his son. What was merely some drunken venting became life lessons for his impressionable kin.

Yandere Incel! Who met you at a birthday he was forced to attend by his dad. He was in his freshman year of high school. And Cynix complained about going to a stupid girls birthday party. When he could’ve been on discord horsing around with his online friends.

However his Father wasn’t having it seeing how much of a reclusive hermit Cynix was. Never going outside only when it came to being forced out of bed. And always hunkering down in his room surrounded by energy drinks. With his Pc monitors glowing upon his head that was placed on the desk. Shit talking everyone while he looked at the chat logs of his streams. As his headless body did all the work of shooting everyone’s heads off.

Whenever his dad wasn’t drunk, the single father would try his best to do damage control. Knowing how traumatic the experience of Divorce must’ve been. As he picked up on his Cynix’s hostile behavior towards the opposite gender. However it was too late, his father and his mother, were already the direct cause of his evident dislike for women.

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Yandere Incel! Who had given you was his head. He brashly plucked it off of his neck and tossed it into your arms. Cynix carried a crass grin on his face at a job well done. You were the birthday girl after all so what better present than having a lopped off head chucked into your arms?

Cynix wanted to scare you off, after all his mother always said that he was an abomination with and without his head on. So it was expected that you’d fuck off. After all it was normal for girls to run away at the first sight of anything remotely inconveniencing them right? just like his cowardice bitch of a mother.

Yandere Incel! Who had a shocked blushing expression on his face when you hugged his head close to your chest. Innocently asking your parents if you could keep his head. Since he gave it to you, that’s when he came to know that you were oh so cherished by a family.

A family that was whole, with a doting father and a caring mother. A mother so different from his who upped and deserted them as if they were just toys. The fact alone made him envy you with gritted teeth. Cynix wanted to throttle you by the neck, and choke off that cute grin of yours.

It just wasn’t fair! As a woman you had everything given to you with a bat of your lashes. The fact made him despise being in your presence. Why couldn’t he have what you’ve got? A functional family. A mother who actually gives a shit about you, A father who wasn’t a drunkard that got suicidal every time he drank. Reliable siblings to confide in instead of rotting alone with dark thoughts. A normal life in which you weren’t seen as a freak, just because you were initially born without your head attached to your neck.

You had everything that he craved deep down. And he hated it, but the way you cradled his head as if he was something precious. Made his heart squeeze uncomfortably making him feel utterly sick and yet giddy simultaneously.

And to his horror his father saw this as an opportunity to make him socialize with a damned girl. Immediately chatting up the couple who happened to be his close friends from work. And becoming his sons unwanted wingman by setting the two of you up on play dates by your request of course.

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Yandere Incel! Who scowled on the outside from having to put up with you always following him around like a damned puppy. But was inwardly growing to adore the pitter patters of your feet hurriedly trailing behind him.

He hates that he loves how much of a crybaby you became, whenever he’d deliberately leave you alone. His head was hiding just out of reach to see you pretty face when you’d cry out for him. It made him shiver in ecstasy every time, at how much control he had over you. How much you needed him. He hadn’t ever felt so wanted by the opposite gender. Especially since his mother treated him like a disease. So he couldn’t help but to abuse that fact of codependency for his own gain.

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Yandere Incel! Who was proactive in keeping you on a tight leash. Making sure your days revolved around him. Though he found women in general to be an eyesore, gradually you became an exception.

With every play date he’d make sure to condition you into always finding him. Like a sick game of hide n seek, he’d leave you in a dark graveyard which his father owned. Making you all fearful and desperate to seek him out for comfort. Until it became an instinct of yours to search for him out of your own volition.

He’d cause rifts in the relationships with your other female friends. Successfully isolating you from them, making you feel alone with nobody to confide in. He didn’t need those dumb whores to put silly ideas into your head. About how he was a damned creep, that he was bad news. He’d make sure you remained untouched by those vile vermin who were just like his mother.

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Yandere Incel! Who’d occasionally get his buddies to terrorize you, just so you’d always come running into his embrace. Whenever you strayed a bit away from him. He’d never allow you to go so much as a day without you hanging off his arm like an obedient pet at his side.

Yandere incel! Who’d Oftentimes make you cry with his silver tongue. Only in the next minute lick them off murmuring garbled half assed apologies. He doesn’t mean to make you cry with his involuntary use of insults that weren’t supposed to be aimed at you.

The incel was just terrible at communicating with women in general. Always on the defensive as His brain immediately generalized the lot of them to be useless bitches out of habit. As that was how deep the resentment he bore for his mother.

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Yandere Incel! Who also sucks at any type of physical boundaries. After you guys started college, his obsessiveness grew palpable. As the nerd was all over you, absentmindedly pulling you into his lap anytime and anywhere. And groping you all over like a stress ball. Not giving a shit about who saw if they were in public.

He’s a touch starved degenerate but he’d gaslight you into thinking that you were the one who needed his hands all over you. His tongue to lick any perspiration off your skin, he found all of this to be completely normal. You were his to do with as he pleased after all.

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Yandere Incel! Who denies all simp allegations. You’d never catch him being a so called simp despite the numerous bodies he had marked for death. All because he caught a group of students ridiculing you for hanging out with a freak like him. Thanks to his undead nature as a natural soul harvester.

It definitely wasn’t simping if he just tossed you the things he knew you liked at your lap whenever he’d drag you into his college dorm room.

Yandere Incel! Who’d shrug his shoulders and claim that it was on sale. When it costed a chunk out of his allowance to buy. It wasn’t simping when he’d take the time out of his busy schedule to help you study. Though it did came with the price of you giving him full access to your body in return. Even though he had that to begin with. He just liked the embarrassment on your face when he’d tell you to do lewd things for him.

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A/n: I’ve been itching to do an incel concept for awhile now let me know if you like this manchild lol ψ(｀∇´)ψ

[shepherdsplash]

temp intro!!

hi! welcome to my kin blog! you can call me fenris or fern.

my main pronouns are [he/it] but i also really like canine themed neos (woof/bark/paw/bite) especially when kinshifted. masc/neu/nonhuman terms only. no she/they or fem terms.

my theriotypes: australian shepherd, holland lop rabbit & tanuki(?)

i also identify as otherkin, otherhearted & etc which i’ll talk about sometimes too. i consider myself to be partially human as i still feel some connection.

dni: basic criteria, anti-alterhuman/therian/otherkin/etc (obviously), nsfw/18+ acc, proship/profic/etc, anti-sfw agere/petre, radqueers, i block liberally!! so if i don't want you to interact with me i'll just block you.

divider & userbox by: @chocoperrito

[gallifreyinstituteforlearning]

Hi Noraxoekodurosugofbyn. I’ve got a very baffled time lord trying to pick out a new name, (new regeneration, old one doesn’t fit as well with the new look). I want to help. But i’ve got no clue. How do gallifreyan names. . . work. How’d you go about making a new one? Not like there’s a Time Baby Naming site.

How do you create a Gallifreyan name?

Hey, you'll find some of the grounding information in this topic, which discusses names:

However, actually coming up with one is a creative venture. You could quite legitimately smash your head onto the keyboard and use what comes out, but ....

GIL uses its own list of "root" particles in order to create names with vague meanings by combining particles (this is from the conlang). If GIL could make a baby name generator it would, but unfortunately I tried and failed 👶

agu=ADD

aki=GAIN

jak=REPAIR

ark=CREATE

uso=READ

bop/pob=KINETICS

dos=REGENERATE

dur/rud/yaw/way=INTERACT

fog=CALCULATE

kin/nik=AFFECT

kow=LIVE

roy=HELP

lig=LEARN

mox=PHYSICAL PASSIVE

jum=PHYSICAL ACTIVE

kup=ENHANCE

nel=PROGRESS

nap=SUCCEED

oke=REALITY

sha/ahs/opa/apo=EMOTION

oxa/pli/dam=COMPLIANCE

gal/tem=STABILITY

ras=STRENGTH

ola=RELAX

tim=TIME

vat/tav=TRAVEL

tro/ort=TRADE

kli=ELEMENT

nor=COMMUNICATE

hol/qoh=MOVE

tyo=GROUP

lun=INGEST

uga=REDUCE

ika=DISCARD

kaj=DAMAGE

kra=DESTROY

osu=WRITE

sod=DEGENERATE

gof=GUESS

wok=DIE

yor=HINDER

gil=TEACH

xom=EMOTIONAL PASSIVE

muj=EMOTIONAL ACTIVE

puk=DIMINISH

len=REGRESS

pan=FAIL

axo/ilp/mad=DISSENT

lag/met=ANARCHY

sar=WEAKNESS

alo=STRESS

mitANTITIME

sta/zap=ATTACK

hep=OWN

nul=EXCRETE

zip=SIZE

dro=CLOTHES

zul=OBJECT

pig=STRUCTURE

ria=BODY

lop=LIGHT

myi=FOOD

paz=GOD

eja=AGENT

noi=LANGUAGE

lia=NATURAL

shu=ACTION

lya=FORCE

byn=STORY

ega=ASSET

zym=MACHINE

pol=DARK

nyi=WATER

zoa=PERSON

However you choose to do it, you should aim for long names with a 2-3 syllable nickname.

Hope that helped! 😃

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[nonspeakingkiku]

Since y'all know Kiku is part of a system and other system mates sometimes use this accout Kiku has decided to make a list of frequent fronters and a little info about them (and Kiku of course). Kiku is planning an update to Kiku's intro but not sure when that will happen.

Body is an adult. Body is unreliably speaking. Body is autistic, ect.

Kiku is a child/teen alter, but doesn't talk about it much because some people might not understand. Age is complicated with plurality. Kiku is usually around 15 but also age slides younger/has a sub system with a little part (like Kiku said it's complicated).

Kiku | 🍉 | He/Fae | FTM | AroAce | Age slider | 0-7, 15, 19 | Age regressor | 0-5 | Host | Nonhuman alter | Primary user of this blog. | Prefers to communicate with gestures, noises, a bit of signing, echolalia, and our communication device (mainly Proloquo, P4T, and Touchchat) | Finnic Fox, Shiba Inu, and bunny therian |

Jellybean | 🍬

| Fae/Faer | System kid/little | 0-7 | Host | Nonhuman alter | Communicates mostly with sounds and gestures/pointing/leading | Shiba pet regressor | Kiku when age slid down/Kiku's little part

Percy | 🦊 | He/Him | Genderfaun | FTM | Bi, Oriented AroAce | Age Slider/subsystem | 0-6, 12-16, 21 | Age Regressor | 0-3 | Host | Nonhuman alter | Prefers to communicate using LAMP wfl, picture cards, and PODD | Red fox, flame point siamese, and bernese mountain dog therian | Kitsune otherkin |

Oliver | 🚀 | He/Him | Genderfaun | FTM | middle | 12-16 | Age regressor | 0-3 | Host | Nonhuman alter | Communicates using LAMP and picture cards | Red fox therian | Kitsune otherkin | Percy when age slid/middle part

Oli | 🍼 | He/Him | boy | syskid | 0-6 | nonhuman alter | red fox | communicates mostly by pointing/gestures, and a few sounds | Percy's little part

Lavender | 🐺 | He/Fae | Genderfaunet | FTM | Age slider | 0-7,13, 15, 22 | Age regressor. | 3-5 | Host | Nonhuman alter | timber wolf, cross fox, holland lop, draft horse therian | werewolf otherkin | Communicates using P4T, Proloquo, LAMP, P2G, signing, echolalia, and letterboarding.

Ender | 🖤 | Genderfaunet | FTM | Middle | 13 | Age regressor | 3-5 | Host | Nonhuman alter | Fruit bat, wolf, therian | communicates with P4T and Proloquo mostly, some ASL and letterboarding | Lavender when age slid/ Lavender's middle part

Moonbeam | 🌈 | Genderfaunet | He/Fae | Syskid | 0-7 | Host | Nonhuman alter | bunny, fox therian | mlp pony fiction kin | communicates using gestures, sounds, echolalia, Proloquo, letterboarding (with in system help), and occusionally picture cards and our podd book | Lavender when age slid/little part |

That's the hosts. Because of how the subsystems work (we think median subsystems, or something like that) Kiku, Lavender, and Percy each feel like one person/alter (Kiku is distinct from Lavender, ect) but Kiku's parts feel like still Kiku (less distinct).

Other frequent fronters

Frisk | ❤️ | FTM | He/Him | Syskid | 5-11, usually around 9 | Age Regressor | 3-5 | Fictive | Mute | Communicates with ASL and writing and occasionally Prolquo4text (highly prefers ASL) |

Strawberry | 🍓 | Female | She/Her | Ageless (?) Adult (?) | Caregiver | Nonhuman | Pink Raccoon | Generally doesn't interact with meatspace |

Jamesy | 🦕 | cis boy | He/Him | Little | 2-6 | Fictive | Doesn't interact with people outside the body much but likes hanging out in the front room when his interests come up |

Soldier | ⚫️ | cis male | He/Him | Adult | Protector | Doesn't use the body much, stays with Jamesy in Headspace |

Lili | 👻 | Trans girl/enby | She/They | Grey Aro | Bi | Age Slider | 0-3, 19 | Protector/Caregiver | Communicates using Proloquo4text |

Barney | 🎃 | FTM | He/Him | Gay | 20 | Fictive | Hasn't fully fronted yet (he's new) |

Anthony | 🍝 | cis male | He/Him | Gay | 27 | Fictive |

Angel | 🕸️ | Cis male | He/She/It | Adult | Nonhuman | Spider Demon | Fictive |

Wither | 👾 | Male | He/Him | Ageless | Nonhuman | Animatronic | Fictive | Caregiver/Protector | Communicates using deafblind manual |

Peter | 🟥 | FTM | He/Him | Teen alter | 16 | Age regressor | 1-3, 6-12 | Fictive | Caregiver | Communicates using LAMP, gestures, noises, and Echolalia |

Max | 📜 | FTM | He/Him | Gay | 17 | Gatekeeper/ISH |

Recent fronters:

Buck | 👨‍🚒 | FTM | He/Him | Bi, Demi aroace | 28 | Fictive | Caregiver, Protector |

Eddie | 🔥 | cis male | He/Him | gay | 33 | Fictive | Protector |

Munson | 🎸 | male | Hi/Him gay | 20 | Fictive |

Steve | 🩷 | male | Bi |He/Him | 20 | Fictive |

Yadriel | 🗡️ | FTM | Gay | 16 | Fictive |

Ending here for now. This took forever and we aren't completely done. Oops 😅

[little-lucub]

Hi fren! Can I have a tan lop bunny moodbard with a fall theme?

specifically very woodsy, dark and rainy, with lots of orange leaves and cozy feel! Thank you!

(Also, if you can (no rush at all) a tan lop bunny doodle? You don’t have to do it at the same time, I just know I’ll forget to request it later!)

⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ Tan Lop Bunny fall moodboard!

Tysm for your ask!! Hopefully I got the dark and cozy vibe right TwT

I'll post the doodle separately and I'll tag you :3c

[headmate-ideas]

Hello!! :] could we please get a headmate that is an emo rabbit anthro with some roles related to music? When talking it’s pretty quiet and tends to mutter and mumble, but when they sing it suddenly is loud and confident! They like platform boots, ornate knives, and BJDs. 🌙☕️🎤📸⛓️‍💥❤️‍🩹🥀🐇 for the emojis!

🎤 HEADMATE TEMPLATE 🥀

✦ Name(s): Onyx, Chains, Wednesday ✦ Pronouns: they/them, it/its, x/xs/xself ✦ Species: anthro rabbit ✦ Age: 22 ✦ Role(s): performer, socializer, trauma holder, musicnaut ✦ Labels: aroace, gendervoid ✦ Xenos: death, roses, music ✦ Interests/likes: platform boots, ornate knives, BJDs ✦ Dislikes: when people assume they're closer to it than they actually are ✦ Music taste: pop punk, nu metal ✦ Aesthetic(s): emo, goth, lovecore ✦ Kins: roses, ghosts, dolls ✦ Emoji proxy: 🎤🥀 ✦ Details:

Onyx is an emo rabbit anthro with black fur and lots of piercings in its lop ears. They love music and singing, and while they are normally quiet and tend to mumble, their voice becomes much more confident when it sings. Emo is its favorite type of music, but it enjoys talking about any kind of music, going to live concerts, and organizing the system's playlists. Onyx holds trust issues as a result of the system's past trauma, and while they enjoy socializing with others, they are very hesitant to become close to them or trust them. This leads to a cooly distant exterior that a lot of people don't see past or even realize represents distance between Onyx's public persona and their more authentic feelings.

[These can be edited and changed as needed, and headmates will almost definitely not turn out EXACTLY as described.]

[kthecritter]

Hi!! Could I have a brown and white holland lop therian pfp if you're not busy? Thanks :3

here you go, I hope you enjoy! aww hey, another lop therian!!!

[wolvenpackins]

Anya Mouthwashing Fictive

reminder that beings will almost definitely not turn out exactly as described, and these can be edited & changed as needed.

this blog is anti Radqueer / TransID

✦ Names : Anya , Luna , Rhea , Phoebe , Ariel , Molly , Lina , Shyla , Helen , Stellar , Emmi , Scout , Kori , Callisto

✦ Age : 25 - 32 ( Whimsy , Anatrikian , MuttChronal )

✦ Pronouns : She/Her , It/Its , Lune/Lunes , Moon/Moons , Star/Stars , Sh*/H*r , Fluff/Fluffs , Med/Meds , Clean/Cleans , Scrub/Scrubs

✦ Gender : Genderfaer , Flyxian

✦ Xenogender : Panhospimojic , Lunagnawic

✦ Dynamics : Qoppa , Astra

✦ Attraction : Bambi Bennetian , Bennetian

✦ Other IDs : Moonlector

✦ Species : Human + Weredog + Deilunare

✦ Source : Mouthwashing

✦ Birthday & Zodiac : 3rd July + Cancer

✦ Roles : Adoration Holder , Organidemic , Fessuspars , Bambi

✦ Sign Off / Proxy : 🌑 , 🌕 , 💉 , 🩹 , 💊 , 🏥

✦ Likes : The Moon , Sour Gummy Worms , Bugs , Creating OCs , Rain , Sleeping.

✦ Dislikes : Coffee , Parties , Talking To People , Hot Weather.

✦ Kins : Holland Lop , Corsac Fox , Carrion Crow

✦ Extras : Medicalcore , Nursecore , Dazecore , Autumn , Desirpaws , Desirbunny

tagging: @goldtouchsys

[a-sylveons-inner-eevee]

Therian types:

- Hyena

- Wolf

- Calico Cat

- Black Cat

- Lamb

- Grizzly Bear

- Panda Bear

- Dalmatian (Long-haired)

Normal kin types:

- Corgi

- Raccoon

- Lop-eared Rabbit

- Squirrel

- Kitsune

- Dragon

- Sylveon

- Eevee

- Vaporeon

- Ursaluna

- Appletun

- Angel

- Mushroom Fairy

Character kin types:

- Crona Gorgon (Soul Eater)

- Freminet (Genshin Impact)

- Nepeta Leijon (Homestuck)

- Pomni (The Amazing Digital Circus)

- Sunny (OMORI)

- Yuu (TWST)

- Futaba Sakura (Persona 5)

- Princess Luna (MLP)

- Dogday (Poppy Playtime)

- Rambley The Raccoon (Indigo Park)

- Lamb (Cult of The Lamb)

- Epel Felmier (TWST)

[twidiarie]

mother dearest

I'm still your baby

Why won't you cradle me?

mother dearest

It wasn't long ago as weak knees grew strength and the infant who crawled

became the infant who walked

waddling and tumbling, under your care

I'd never fall or trip, my tiny fist enveloping your finger

I was safe, your lips spilled words of praise and prayer

To ask the Almighty to keep me steady, to never let me run off into unsafe terrain and linger

Mother dearest

When I stopped being your cute little doll

When my lips were no longer puppeted with the sounds of obedience and agreement, when I developed the gall

To say no, to say otherwise, to put on different glasses and lenses

Our worlds were now in different colors and in different focuses and perspectives

mother dearest

You spoonfed me mashed fruit and cleaned my drooling chin with tissues and gently wiped away my tears

Now I eat in silence while you tell me that fruit has too much sugar and serve me the bitter vegetables I never liked and I wipe away my own tears

Mother dearest

My face and my body and my beauty is like yours, right?

Yet you've taken your carving knife, determined to shape me into your picture perfect sight

You've poked and prodded, stabbed and mutilated, a sick carnage

Now with my trembling hands I hold your knife, our knife, guided and steadied by yours. my heart and my pride and my joy lopped off, collateral damage.

Mother dearest

When I look in the mirror

Bile rises in my throat, every part triggers a blaring alarm, “error, error”

I perceive and see the scars and bruises, invisible and visible, littering the expanse of my skin,

I realize that I am no longer the product of love of you and my father and my grandmother and my grandfather and all my ancestors and my kin

I am a blight, I am broken, I am no longer your pretty little doll, your pretty little baby

I am defected, not worthy of being declared as a grade C product, I am unsellable junk, faulty

I am misshapen and unsightly.

If only someone would unmake and rebuild and refashion and fix me

mother dearest

I'm still sensitive, I'm still your child

I still get scared when you, from sweet lamb morph into canine-gnashing wolf, feral and wild

Mother dearest,

The mother hen worrying over her chicks

has become the lion who tears away the flesh of her cubs with curled, bloodied lips

Mother dearest

I want to be cute and soft and small and tiny

So that you'll look at me lovingly and hold me

Now you cast me away and push me aside

Wanting space, wanting your own time

Mother dearest

Do I bore you? You used to listen to my nonsensical rambling and babbling

And now when I spout off my hopes and dreams and speak with passion and intention

You roll your eyes and sigh, look away, your head and your body turned away in aversion

The sun, a star, a daily sight, I will see until the day I die

Will capture your attention, it shines far brighter than I

A ball of gas, scorching and blazing

Melts away the lumpy, awkward me into a puddle, unworthy of remembering

Mother dearest

I understand why you love the sun as you do,

I am a young sapling, a withering flower, and you are the sun aren't you?

Vines crawl up spiked barriers,

desperately reaching for warmth through an imprisoned container

Towards you, I reach, but shades surrounds me at every corner,

I have been ignored, I have been shunned, my cries mimic those of the most distraught mourner

I am so cold, I am dying,

My petals are flitting off, my leaves wilting and drying

please, keep me warm, o mother of mine

I still cower in the face of the dark. I know my fears are asinine

But I am alone and you swore to protect me. You swore it. How foolish, how naive I was, this earnest heart of mine

I didn't know that promise had expired past its deadline

Mother dearest

The cruelest things I feel I will never hear from the world outside

Because words are like arrows,

drawn with intention

with aimed direction.

Stray ones bounce off my armor and graze my cheeks. But you know all my chinks, and your arrows pierce paper thin skin, into the vulnerable flesh inside

Your cute little doll is a fragile thing after all, her stuffing is spilling

Her seams have burst, she is hollow and her pain is agonizing

Mother dearest

I'm sorry I'm sorry forgive me forgive me.

I'm turning into you, into my father, into the wretched Frankenstein of the detestable parts of both of you and you hate me.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Please don't hate me.

I'm enraged like you are. I am just like you are but it's wrong because it's me.

Mother dearest

Please love me again,

Even when I'm not good.

Even when I'm bad.

please will you love me again?

Even when you're angry will you love me again?

What can I do, please love me again?

Mother dearest

I'm still your baby

Why won't you love me?

If you don't

How can I love me?