#long post tag

[coeur-de-fruk]

The Chronologies

So I wanted to go on ahead and create a timeline for both France and England, mainly as an excuse to draw them in period clothing. Of course, I've included some (to none) historical footnotes (that may NOT be accurate mind you) in the very beginning while sprinkling in some of my own headcanons.

France:

Forgot to add his ages but by the time reaches the present he's like 35-36 years old lol

England: ...Now with 0 Historical Footnotes

England's present age: 32

[bookofmirth]

how might acotar5 start?

This post has spoilers for hofas!!!!!

The intention of this post is to talk about how SJM might connect hofas and acotar5 narratively. It is purely thinking about the logistics of the situation, not where the plot could go in the future.

I will have a follow-up post with discussion about why Az makes even more sense as the next MC, based on everything we learned in hofas that strengthens my rationale from acosf and hosab. I decided that Azriel as the main character and Azriel as the connection POV are too much for one post, and slightly separate (though obviously overlapping) arguments.

So let's go!

After the crossover in hosab/hofas, the narrative needs to take into account a few things:

We have readers who don't want to read 2000+ pages of urban fantasy and want to be able to stick to acotar and fully understand that series in itself

Readers who read both series and don't want a bunch of repetitive scenes

sjm needs to think about how to communicate the information that was learned in hosab/hofas, or at least the information that is vital for moving forward with the acotar plot, in acotar5 that accounts for both those perspectives.

So how does sjm manage all of those tasks?

Azriel's POV

Starting perhaps just before Bryce landed in Prythian, though it could potentially start right where acosf left off. Allow me to explain.

Azriel was preset for a majority of the crossover, but he wasn't with Bryce the entire time. This is important! Because he was in and out of the Hewn City, this gives us an opportunity to see what was happening outside of Bryce's perception. Azriel's pov means:

We could see how the IC reacted initially to Bryce's arrival.

We could see their decision-making process in terms of what to do with Bryce

We could see if they made use of the research that was being conducted on other worlds

Bryce goes straight from landing in Velaris at the end of hosab, to being in the Hewn City at the beginning of hofas. We could learn how they came to that decision to take her there. That's not super important, but possible with Az pov.

We could also get a moment away from Bryce where Az is thinking about his own emotional reactions to everything happening with Truthteller, perhaps getting better insight into why he is reacting the way he is when it is near Gwydion, and how he feels upon learning the information about the Asteri making the Illyrians, and the info about Ramiel, about Enalius. We learned a LOT that is relevant to Az, and have almost nothing in terms of his reaction to it.

We could also get a better idea of how this knowledge is changing the IC in real time, as they are grappling with the implications.

This also means that the information we learn via the info dump in hofas could be supplemented with what Rhys already knows, based on Merrill's research. It wouldn't just be a verbatim repetition of Silene's story, but a fuller picture that includes what the IC knows and further implications for Prythian.

We could also get more insight into the argument that occurs as a result of Nesta letting Bryce borrow the mask. It ended up being a huge source of friction, but right now, we have zero knowledge of what was actually said between the IC when they found out.

One of the most important points here is narrative: everything that we learned in hosab/hofas was from Bryce's point of view. The narration didn't have to do that. Instead, the omniscient narrator could have given us insight into Azriel and Nesta's feelings. However, sjm kept that relatively close to the chest. For example:

“What is it?” Nesta asked Bryce, motioning to her back. “How is a bit of writing on your skin … Made?” “I can’t answer the question until you tell me what the fuck Made means.”

SJM does not fill in the gaps for Bryce, for readers who have only read Crescent City. Someone coming from acotar obviously knows the importance of the tattoo being a Made object, but sjm isn't doing anything to help out CC-only readers, here. She is working from Bryce's perspective only, and Bryce has no idea. This is just one example of what Bryce's perspective read like; the entire thing is like this, Bryce trying to piece information together while the omniscient narrator chooses not to fill the reader in on what Bryce doesn't know. This means that, again, we have no idea how the IC and other acotar characters responded to these events, other than how Bryce can observe them responding.

Azriel is quite literally the perfect go-between between the CC and ACOTAR series, as he was both observing Bryce and working with the IC. That means that sjm has given space in the narrative to give us Azriel's pov without it being repetitive. By using Azriel's POV, we are also learning this information anew, filtered through his thoughts and his emotional responses. We get the information we need, but we get it from a Prythian perspective.

It's possible that sjm do an info dump at the beginning of acotar5, of course. Lots of things are possible - they aren't all likely. Perhaps sjm will take an easier route and have Az give a recap, but to whom? And why? Everyone who needs to know will already know, and so I don't see a need for him (or Nesta, or Rhys) to spend time in the book explaining the situation.

Could sjm start post-hofas events, and just assume that acotar readers have gotten on board with Crescent City? She could, but that would be pretty shitty of her to do, considering how many books in we are. The way I have read it, you could read Crescent City without having any knowledge of acotar, and be fine. She tells us what we need to know in hofas. Why not do that in acotar, so it could be treated as a separate entity?

It will be interesting to see what tactic she takes, either way!

[marnz]

Destiel anon again! Aha! hopefully you’ll be living your destiel autumn soon then 😄

For fics tbh I dont have any specific criteria, just that it needs to make ur brain a little crazyyy like american oracle or the new rec ziz gave with the author you like! Anything posted after the confession is the best since you know the author cooked.

For other recs Id actually love to hear your stucky recs if you have any! Im rereading NEC bc it made my brain crazy, but any other ones are appreciated!!

Also tbh for any fandom, if you have like really good recs, I always like reading in different fandoms if the writing is really really good!

Thank you so much!

it's been literal years since i've posted fic recs anon, this is great. as always my caveat is that i like to have some fun with it. for stucky, it's been about one hundred thousand years since i've read stucky but i do have very fond memories. let's get to it

Destiel

to be restored by serenityfalls E - 47k - graphic depictions of violence The Empty sends Cas back different

commentary: every time I think of this fic I start rotating like i'm in the exorcist.

he showed me what was love E - 11k - no warnings season 9 fic from when Cas was homeless

commentary: incredible prose! incredible characterization. so tender and aching 😭

on labor E - 24.6k - chose not to use warnings Cas is back from the Empty, and Dean knows how to be grateful.

commentary: thee repression......thank you.

Stucky

i of course recommend not easily conquered and all other old stalwarts but here are my favs. hopefully at least 1 is new to you

ain't no grave (can keep my body down) E - 107k - chose not to use warnings commentary: you know...just trust me.

4 minute window series - 23 works - variety of warnings "Look, if they catch me," Bucky muttered, "they're either going to kill me or they're going to put me in a box with a little window and—Steve, I can't."

commentary: i love this series, it's so original, and I look forward to thanksgiving and the first few days of december every year, which is when the fic updates <3

timestamp series E - 5 works, 30k summary from the first work: april, 1939 Bucky knows what Steve wants when he comes in like that, hair wet, robe slipping off his shoulder. commentary: I looooove this series and I remember it so clearly...really good Bucky characterization and narrative voice.

good boy E - 13.4k - no archive warnings Bucky is still adjusting to life with the Avengers, and Steve is willing to do whatever it takes to make him feel comfortable. Increasingly, though, what seems to make him comfortable is strangely intimate.

commentary: when I first read this 10+ years ago I had not encountered petplay before but given, like, everything in CATWS all I could think was "wow" and "this makes perfect sense!" anyway, read it, let yourself be changed, enjoy.

stuff I have filed under my 'ultimate fic rec' tag

leave no soul behind star trek - 258k - graphic depictions of violence If you're Starfleet, you spend your whole life wishing you never see an EPAS uniform right up until the moment they become your only hope. Whether you're dying a slow, cold death in space, or a long painful one on some godforsaken planet, they're going to come for you. So count your last breaths, son, and hold on tight. They leave no soul behind. commentary: save this for a holiday or when you are sick and need something to curl up with and lose yourself in. an incredible canon au of star trek that will completely carry you away. have patience and you will be rewarded.

so wise we grow star trek - 81k - chose not to use archive warnings* "Commander Spock, we have located your son," the Vulcan lady on the screen says, which would be great, except Jim can tell by the look on Spock's face that he's never heard of this kid before in his life.

commentary: this is one of my favorite fics of all time, period. it's sooooooo good. i love the characterization, the banter, the pacing, it's just exquisitely crafted. please read it, but: please mindful that this fic deals with themes of CSA.

world ain't ready les miserables - 185k - no archive warnings apply* High school AU. Grantaire the disaffected stoner is pulled into a cause bigger than himself. Or: in which there are pretend boyfriends for great justice.

commentary: if you're like, that's a long fic/i don't know canon/i don't like high school aus -- who cares? would I steer you wrong? on this my ultimate fic rec list? no! read this, if it's the last thing you do. let yourself be overcome. warnings for bullying and child abuse

an ever-fixed mark pride & prejudice - 190k - major character death A deconstruction of the "soulmate identifying mark" trope, using "Pride and Prejudice." Trigger warnings in the tags.

commentary: i've got this friend @lady-sci who exclusively recs me very long life changing fic. life changing. she recommended me this (and leave no soul behind, mentioned earlier) and I sat down to read it and emerged so shaken and so changed and so amazed that I count it as one of the most pivotal reading experiences of my life. just incredible stuff.

you're in my blood like holy wine by magneticwave game of thrones - 72k - chose not to use archive warnings* Sansa finds it difficult to look at Jon’s face, with its weathered lines and cragginess. It is the face of the North and a face that northerners trust; the face of Sansa’s brothers and her father, who had been loved and respected by their tenants as their forefathers had been when they were kings. How can Sansa feel anything but resentment, looking into that face and knowing that all of her years of hard work will never earn her the respect that that profile engenders within seconds? But she does. It is a small, burning coal of something that must be smothered.

commentary: I urge you to read this even if you do not care about a) game of thrones b) regency romance novels c) the weird cousin situation. i also urge you to read everything, yes everything, by this author, who is one of my favorite fic authors of all time. impeccable vibes. anyway this fic KILLED ME and kept me going thru the early days of covid lockdown. please be aware this fic deals with past sexual assault

teen wolf

please. understand it is teen wolf autumn. just like it was for the past 2 autumns. here are the fruits of my labor.

what I did on my summer vacation by grimm sterek - 118k - chose not to use archive warnings There's something weird about Beacon Hills that Stiles can't quite put his finger on.

commentary: trust me <3

stand fast in your enchantments sterek - 76k - E - graphic depictions of violence "Stiles knew damn well what a pissed-off wolf sounded like, and every hair on the back of his neck was telling him that somewhere in this room was a very pissed-off werewolf." An AU in which Derek is feral, Stiles is magical, and they eat a lot of fast food.

commentary: this is my favorite teen wolf fic of all time.

the broken radio is playing suicide sterek - 73k - E - graphic depictions of violence Stiles only wishes they could actually be safe. They haven’t been for nine months now.

commentary: teen wolf with a decidedly spn flavor.

enjoy anon <3

[roughentumble]

ok so timeline goes:

-yen gets taken by the hunt

-geralt goes after her to save her

-meets letho, becomes allies

-geralt offers to trade himself for her life

-geralt rides with the hunt, letho and co ride with yennefer

-letho and co and yen get captured by nilfgaard, interrogated, and letho gets strongarmed into sewing discord in the north

-yen stays in nilfgaard, whereabouts unknown

-letho goes out to kill kings for nilfgaard, getting into bed (metaphorically) with síle to do so

-somewhere in here, geralt somehow escapes from the hunt. wracked with amnesia, he doesnt even know to look for yen

-while letho kills kings, geralt recovers in kaer morhen, gets seduced by triss, and defeats the salamandra who are after witcher secrets

-geralt hears warnings about the wild hunt and the white frost, but doesnt know what it all means yet

-geralt saves foltest's life, and gets strongarmed into staying by the king for safety

-letho and geralt's paths cross again as letho kills foltest and frames geralt

-geralt goes on a quest to find letho, clear his name as kingslayer, and recover his memories

-the lodge, including síle, have been trying to gain power for mages this whole time, and continue to do so in the background

-geralt unwittingly helps philippa cast a spell to gain control of saskia for political maneuvering, which the lodge intends to use to further their purpose of getting the council reinstated

-geralt hunts letho to a meeting of kings, where letho lies and says the lodge is guilty of multiple regicides

-this sews massive discord among the north, as there's already political unrest with several heads of state dead, and now a prominent (though previously hidden) political force of magic users is seen as betrayers

-nilfgaard advances on an askew north, which starts infighting and grabbing for power and performing witch hunts amongst itself

-geralt retreats to kaer morhen and his witchering, knowing yen's last whereabouts but having lost the trail and with no way to regain it

-yennefer, presumably now with memories intact, sends geralt a letter insisting they meet, at the behest of emhyr

-there's been sightings of ciri, who disappeared many years ago, and so they set off on their own missions to find her

-the wild hunt had taken an interest in yen and geralt as ways to get to ciri, who the hunt is actively hunting

-after a massive hunt for her, geralt beats the wild hunt and finds her first, injured but alive

-they hold off the hunt as long as they can, vesemir dying in the process

-the lodge recovenes, still grasping for power, and ciri tells them all to fuck off

-they have a final showdown with the hunt, and ciri faces the ultimate threat-- entropy itself, the white frost

-depending on your choices, ciri destroys the oncoming icy death of the planet, the north pushes back nilfgaard and manages to find some semblance of order, and ciri lives her life as a witcher

-geralt and yen can finally rest, with the problems of the world once more put to rest, even as chaos still rages on

i think i have that right, but i played the games out of order like some kind of fool

[onespookygoblin]

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Oh boy let’s go

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[elkian]

I’ve been thinking about fedorafreak.

More than that, I’ve been thinking about the kids’ session (Beta) vs what we know of the other sessions.

The Alpha session, as far as we can tell, only transported the core four (and Dad Crocker, and the rapbots). No one else on Earth B seemed to have been playing Sburb.

But in the Beta session, we see tons of meteors! Rose and Dave’s homes are under siege - though given where Rose lives, it does quickly confirm that the Cruxtruder to Meteor ratio is not 1:1.

But we see FedoraFreak talking about being transported to a strange place, laying down on a strange slab. Karkat -then CarcinoGeneticist, a mostly faceless antagonist beyond the screen- says “there’s nothing sadder than these null sessions”, implying an awareness of sessions beyond the Beta Kids’ and Trolls’. We see the damn GameBro magazine, before we even encounter a Sburb disc, reviewing it! Yeah, he didn’t play the game (the review would be quite different if not outright nonexistent), but he had the ability to do so. And so did countless others.

Compare and contrast the other sessions we know most about - the Alpha Kids, and the initial Trolls. Both of them post-Scratch, though we don’t know that at first for one of them.

Both of them lonely.

The Alpha kids, as far as we can tell, is a game of four players and four alone. The Trolls similarly, it’s heavily implied if not outright stated that they are the only players on Alternia, if not across the entire empire (if not, then the Empress might have made use of that.... hm). The Pre-Scratch Trolls, we just don’t have as much data on the matter.

Scratching seems to isolate a session - or perhaps more accurately, it generates a variant of that specific session, and that alone. The more I think about it, the more sense it makes. Alternia is a galactic goddamn empire, and Roxy can’t have been the only hacker of her caliber on her Earth, past or future form. It doesn’t make sense, in a vacuum, for them to be the only players in their timeline when the Beta Kids’ is implied to have so many more, including groups that didn’t self-generate and can’t complete the game. Amongst so many duds, there are almost certainly viable sessions - and the fact that there are duds at all, given how heavily Sburb and the comic itself leverage fate and destiny, is very interesting.

I think what it boils down to is: Homestuck is the story of this specific session. Hussie’s author commentary often touches on the importance of the concept of a narrative within the narrative itself, so it only makes more sense. There are uncountable other sessions out there, but Homestuck readers will never know them, because Homestuck isn’t about them.

Come to think of it, I wonder if that comes up in the video games? I’ve only played the first installment, so I really don’t know how it shakes out yet.

[cykestr0gen]

@drtoomuch !!!

🎮 HEY I WANNA MAKE A GAME! 🎮

Yeah I getcha. I was once like you. Pure and naive. Great news. I AM STILL PURE AND NAIVE, GAME DEV IS FUN! But where to start?

To start, here are a couple of entry level softwares you can use! source: I just made a game called In Stars and Time and people are asking me how to start making vidy gaems. Now, without further ado:

SOFTWARES AND ENGINES FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO CODE!!!

Ren'py (and also a link to it if you click here do it): THE visual novel software. Comic artists, look no further ✨Pros: It's free! It's simple! It has great documentation! It has a bunch of plugins and UI stuff and assets for you to buy! It can be used even if you have LITERALLY no programming experience! (You'll just need to read the doc a bunch) You can also port your game to a BUNCH of consoles! ✨Cons: None really <3 Some games to look at: Doki Doki Literature Club, Bad End Theater, Butterfly Soup

Twine: Great for text-based games! GREAT FOR WRITERS WHO DONT WANNA DRAW!!!!!!!!! (but you can draw if you want) ✨Pros: It's free! It's simple! It's versatile! It has great documentation! It can be used even if you have LITERALLY no programming experience! (You'll just need to read the doc a bunch) ✨Cons: You can add pictures, but it's a pain. Some games to look at: The Uncle Who Works For Nintendo, Queers In love At The End of The World, Escape Velocity

Bitsy: Little topdown games! ✨Pros: It's free! It's simple! It's (somewhat) intuitive! It has great documentation! It can be used even if you have LITERALLY no programming experience! You can make everything in it, from text to sprites to code! Those games sure are small! ✨Cons: Those games sure are small. This is to make THE simplest game. Barely any animation for your sprites, can barely fit a line of text in there. But honestly, the restrictions are refreshing! Some games to look at: honestly I haven't played that many bitsy games because i am a fake gamer. The picture above is from Under A Star Called Sun though and that looks so pretty

RPGMaker: To make RPGs! LIKE ME!!!!! NOTE: I recommend getting the latest version if you can, but all have their pros and cons. You can get a better idea by looking at this post. ✨Pros: Literally everything you need to make an RPG. Has a tutorial inside the software itself that will teach you the basics. Pretty simple to understand, even if you have no coding experience! Also I made a post helping you out with RPGMaker right here! ✨Cons: Some stuff can be hard to figure out. Also, the latest version is expensive. Get it on sale! Some games to look at: Yume Nikki, Hylics, In Stars and Time (hehe. I made it)

engine.lol: collage worlds! it is relatively new so I don't know much about it, but it seems fascinating. picture is from Garden! NOTE: There's a bunch of smaller engines to find out there. Just yesterday I found out there's an Idle Game Maker made by the Cookie Clicker creator. Isn't life wonderful?

✨more advice under the cut. this is Long ok✨

ENGINES I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT AND THEY SEEM HARD BUT ALSO GIVE IT A TRY I GUESS!!!! :

Unity and Unreal: I don't know anything about those! That looks hard to learn! But indie devs use them! It seems expensive! Follow your dreams though! Don't ask me how!

GameMaker: Wuh I just don't know anything about it either! I just know it's now free if your game is non-commercial (aka, you're not selling it), and Undertale was made on it! It seems good! You probably need some coding experience though!!!

Godot: Man I know even less about this one. Heard good things though!

BUNCHA RANDOM ADVICE!!!!

-Make something small first! Try making simple: a character is in a room, and exits the room. The character can look around, decide to take an item with them, can leave, and maybe the door is locked and you have to find the key. Figuring out how to code something like that, whether it is as a fully text-based game or as an RPGMaker map, should be a good start to figure out how your software of choice works!

-After that, if you have an idea, try first to make the simplest version of that idea. For my timeloop RPG, my simplest version was two rooms: first room you can walk in, second room with the King, where a cutscene automatically plays and the battle starts, you immediately die, and loop back to the first room, with the text from this point on reflecting this change. I think I also added a loop counter. This helped me figure out the most important thing: Can This Game Be Made? After that, the rest is just fun stuff. So if you want to make a dating sim, try and figure out how to add choices, and how to have affection points go up and down depending on your choices! If you want to make a platformer, figure out how to make your character move and jump and how to create a simple level! If you just want to make a kinetic visual novel with no choices, figure out how to add text, and how to add portraits! You'll be surprised at how powerful you'll feel after having figured even those simple things out.

-If you have a programming problem or just get confused, never underestimate the power of asking Google! You most likely won't be the only person asking this question, and you will learn some useful tips! If you are powerful enough, you can even… Ask people??? On forums??? Not me though.

-Yeah I know you probably want to make Your Big Idea RIGHT NOW but please. Make a smaller prototype first. You need to get that experience. Trust me.

-If you are not a womanthing of many skills like me, you might realize you need help. Maybe you need an artist, or a programmer. So! Game jams on itch.io are a great way to get to work and meet other game devs that have different strengths! Or ask around! Maybe your artist friend secretly always wanted to draw for a game. Ask! Collaborate! Have fun!!!

I hope that was useful! If it was. Maybe. You'd like to buy me a coffee. Or maybe you could check out my comics and games. Or just my new critically acclaimed game In Stars and Time. If you want. Ok bye

[yumenikkii]

just another average day in gravity falls

[valdotpng]

an accomplice turned victim his apology, long overdue

[flame-shadow]

hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)

[aesethewitch]

When I was a kid, we moved into a house that had a huge lilac tree out front. It was mostly rotten, and it needed to be taken down before it fell. It took a while, but eventually, it was gone.

Mostly. A couple years later, little lilac babies popped out of the ground in its place. My mom was determined to get rid of them, because she'd planted a beautiful flower garden there, and the lilac trees would overshadow and kill the whole garden. I insisted on saving at least a few saplings. She said fine, but I had to dig them out and put them in pots myself.

So, I did. I spent days digging little lilac bushes out of the ground and putting them into pots. Some couldn't be saved, but some could. When all was said and done, I had five brand-new lilac saplings. Seven or eight years old, and it was my absolute pride and joy.

Three died due to sun scorching, severe drought that no amount of watering could save, and perhaps just being moved from their place in the ground. But two survived, and I was awfully proud of them! I'd go out and talk to them every single day. I watered them by hand and made sure they were fertilized properly. I learned all about their favored environments, and I was determined to make sure they lived.

One of my mom's friends saw what I was doing with the lilacs. She asked if she could have one to put in her backyard, and I agreed on the condition that she take very, very good care of it.

It's now fucking enormous. I'm talking ten feet tall and bursting with beautiful purple flowers every spring. My mom still gets updates each year as they start to bloom, which she forwards to me. And all I can think is, "That's my friend! Thriving some twenty years on, there it is."

The other tree nearly died, too. It lived in a pot for far, far too long. I wanted to plant it somewhere in my parents' yard, but my mom was reluctant. Eventually, we agreed to put it in the far back garden. It grew okay for many years, despite the shade, but in all these years, it's never bloomed.

Last year, the massive tree casting massive shadows over the lilac and the garden cracked in half and fell. It tumbled into the garden, crushing part of the nearby shed and destroying a few plants beneath it.

It missed my lilac by inches.

The clean-up is long done. The rest of the tree has been cut down, and my lilac has full sunlight for the first time in fifteen years. It won't bloom this year, I know. But it's got new shoots up. It's taller than ever. I spent half an hour a few weeks ago praising it for surviving all this time, dreaming about its future and telling it how I believe it'll become the tall beauty it's always been meant to be.

I think next year, I'll see flowers.

[coeur-de-fruk]

Happy Birthday to

ALL French people,

especially Francis Bonnefoy

14.7.2024

[bookofmirth]

Sh anon once again. If it’s not already taken, I’ll go by 🦄 anon. You already know my account, but I’m still a little shy.

So, my thoughts on why I think Gwyn interacting with Mor and Rhys will be important. Something I’ve noticed is that Feyre & Cassian were neglected as children while Nesta & Azriel were abused as children. They share similarities and are close friends. Feyre is mated to Rhys and Nesta is mated to Cassian. I believe that Gwyn is Azriel’s mate and she will become friends with Rhys.

Gwyn and Rhys share similarities. Both won the Blood Rite, both had to be carried (which I’ve seen people shame Gwyn for) by their friend, both are Carynthian warriors. Rhys is a half breed and Gwyn is a quarter nymph and not “pure” High-Fae. And this one is more of a headcanon, but I think both of them are somewhat nerds given the researching for other worlds. (I could see them having a book club of sorts or like a science convention kinda thing. Fan-girling over each other’s theories and the thing Rhys built.) Even their trauma is similar. Both of their sisters were decapitated and saw the traumatic remains. And both of them are survivors of assault. (I was surprised by how much they have in common.)

I think Gwyn will be acquaintances with Mor, or at least somewhat friendly, since I believe Mor will help train the Valkyries and could be a love interest for Emerie. I think Cassian + Azriel + Mor will become a trio in ACOTAR5, which is something that really intrigues me. I would love to see this. Az is so fixated on three brothers + three sisters, but I think the real trio is him, Cass and Mor. I think (and hope) that Azriel & Mor will sit down, fully discuss everything, and have a good friendship again. I think this could happen towards the end of the first part of Az’s book and what will start a slow healing process for him; when he accepts it. But I don’t think Mor should be blamed or responsible, which I could see some people do. It’s not her fault and she doesn’t owe him anything in my opinion. I think deep down he knows (or has an inkling) that she’s queer. He goes after women he knows he can’t have to avoid getting hurt.

This link https://www.tumblr.com/azrielsbaby/650618221310984192/gentle-reminder-that-az-only-lets-rhys-see-the is one of the reasons why I believe we will see Gwyn interact with Rhys and Mor. As the OP said, “Az only lets Rhys see the full extent of his cold rage and darkness because only Rhys can match that same level of rage and darkness. Which means that Az feels the most comfortable to express his true self with Rhys without the fear of Rhys being scared or repulsed by him.”

And then this with Mor, “Mor was the only one to be able to console Az out of his dark emotions. Which means Az is the most comfortable with Mor when he's at his most vulnerable without the fear of her using that to hurt him or feel weak around her. Rhys and Mor are the two people Az is the most comfortable to be vulnerable in two different aspects. And it warms my heart to think about when Az finally meets his mate and Rhys and Mor will completely love her because she'll love their friend wholly, for every part of him - just as they have and always will.”

When Gwyn was assaulted, she saw Azriel’s rage and darkness. She saw him slaughter those men without hesitation. And Azriel saw Gwyn at a very traumatic and vulnerable moment in her life, but he doesn’t see her as a victim. Doesn’t treat her any different. He sees the warrior in her. He does treat her differently in comparison to how he treats Mor and Elain. I know Elain hasn’t seen that rage and darkness and I don’t know if Mor has seen it to that extent.

I feel like when Azriel does develop healthy, romantic feelings for Gwyn and when the mating bond snaps, Rhys & Mor will be happy to see that Az has someone that loves him wholly. Gwyn and Mor are similar to each other, or at least to me. I think Az needs someone that’s a little like Mor, but doesn’t have to walk on eggshells around him. I understand why she does. It’s not her fault. I want Mor to tease Azriel and encourage him with Gwyn, have lunches together, and just hangout and talk. I want their friendship to be like it was in ACOMAF. (ps, I wasn’t in the fandom then. I joined the fandom very late.) I’ve seen some theories where people think Rhys either knows or suspects that Gwyn is his mate. I don’t know if it’s true, but I just wanted to add that.

I hope their friendship/relationship is healthy and respectful. It isn’t Gwyn’s job to fix Azriel. Help him and offer support? Sure, but I don’t want him to become reliant on her. Does that make sense? If Gwyn and Azriel do end up together, I think it won’t happen until the middle of the book or towards the end. Which I’m fine with as long as he gets his shit together.

I feel like this was all over the place, but I had a lot to say! I’m sorry for the long post!💜 I might have more thoughts to add on for later, but my mind is a little jumbled right now!😂

ps, on what you said: “My thoughts re: acotar5 are that it starts just before Bryce lands in Prythian, following Azriel's perspective.”

I could definitely see Azriel’s book starting off like this. It makes sense. Especially since it was switched from nine months to instead three months.

(I am tagging op just so they know their post was mentioned) @azrielsbaby :)

When you list it out like that, yeah, Rhys and Gwyn have a TON in common. So much. And in acosf when Rhys tells Nesta to be nice to Gwyn, it was kind-of interesting that he singled Gwyn out, when he knows that Nesta is around all the priestesses. (It actually annoyed me when he did that because he is constantly up Nesta's ass, but that is beside the point. It's still interesting that he made a point to be protective of Gwyn.)

I just finished rereading acosf and Nesta teases Gwyn about memorizing things even if it wasn't her job. So I totally see the interest in the history of their world being a common interest between Gwyn and Rhys, not just because of the immediate plot needs, but Gwyn at least seems to enjoy that type of work.

I think Cassian + Azriel + Mor will become a trio in ACOTAR5, which is something that really intrigues me.

I am so interested in this because they seemed so tightly-knit in acomaf and then her rearranging of the plot to accommodate the following books really blew holes in their relationships. I miss the acomaf-era IC so much. I have had that thought as well, that the trio is actually Mor/Cassian/Az, because those three are on more equal footing with one another than they are with Rhys. Rhys will always be the High Lord, the one with all the power, the one they defer to. Cassian, Az, and Mor consider each other siblings, after all.

I just really want their dynamic specifically to be addressed, because I am so, so tired of reading homophobic and misogynistic takes from the fandom about what Mor owes Azriel, while they also try to claim feminism by saying Elain doesn't owe Lucien. Which the fuck is it??? Anyway, that's another side rant of mine haha. I want people to stop saying the Mor is leading Az on because she's literally just existing and he reads into it. And I want people to stop thinking Cassian was in love with Mor when you can clearly see in acosf that he thinks so, so highly of her but has no regrets as far as them never becoming romantic.

I think your connection between Az, Gwyn, and Mor is intriguing. There are definitely plot things connecting them, with the Valkyries and Illyrians training, Az needing to resolve his feelings towards Mor, and Mor working with the Valkyries (and probably starting something with Emerie). I think Mor could probably have some words of wisdom for Gwyn about how to proceed.

Perhaps Mor is the person who can recognize Azriel's feelings for what they are. She has been on the receiving end of his feelings for centuries, has seen how it impacts him, and I think she would recognize the difference in how he acts around Gwyn, compared to how he has acted around Mor and Elain.

I know I keep making jokes about how Az doesn't recognize that he has a mating bond and thinks it's indigestion, and so... maybe he needs to hear it from someone else. Not necessarily Gwyn, but from someone who knows him better than almost anyone else, and who knows what it looks like when he has developed an unhealthy attachment. I think that right now, Azriel is too jealous of Cassian and Rhys to hear it from either of them. But I think that Mor has experienced a different side of Az and so her insight would be more meaningful.

I prefer Mor and Az having this kind of conversation that focuses on someone else, that helps him move on without forcing Mor to disclose information about herself that she isn't ready to yet.

I also think he knows she is queer, and if he doesn't then I swear to the Cauldron, Sarah. The rant posts will be endless.

🦄 anon, I think we might be on to something!

[marnz]

2023 book post

I read 63 books this year (i do count short stories & novellas) and there were epic highs (everyone read the school for good mothers) and epic lows (y'all read this shit? for real?).

here are my top ten, in no particular order, followed by thoughts on the rest. it's so long lol okay let's get into it

top ten.

the school for good mothers by jessamine chan - a perfect commentary on the prison industrial complex and how poor, single, and mothers of color are treated set in a chilling near future. loved it. i read this book in june and think about it daily.

edinburgh by alexander chee - this book is a modern classic for good reason. gay tragedy lovers this book is for YOU. the prose is so beautiful, so dream like, that i couldn't stop reading. i read this book in one sitting, very nearly a year ago, and i was completely devastated by it.

in the woods by tana french - love this for: unreliable narrator who sucks but is compelling; prose about the woods and the 1980s mystery; cassie; a police procedure that starts off by being like 'crucially you must understand that the police lie.' i have a weakness for atmospheric books and this has that in spades.

homegoing by yaa gyasi - this book is SO good and the prose and character voices are excellent. it's extremely epic but somehow only 300 pages?!? each character only gets 1 chapter but gyasi does SO much with each chapter 😭 i read this in one day because i could not stop reading. i also read gyasi's other book, transcendent kingdom, which was also very good.

some desperate glory by emily tesh - this book is a mindfuck and is one of the few times i've seen [spoiler] done well. there are a lot of things this book talks about--imperialism; artificial intelligence; fascism; white supremacy and how it intersects with gender; queerness; eugenics. i posted about it early when i had only read like 49% and i was soooo wrong to do so. read this and just trust me.

x by davey davis - okay are you ready for this? X is queer/trans bdsm neo noir mystery set in a dystopian near future. it is dark, it is consuming, it is surprising, it is a book i turn over obsessively whenever i can't sleep. i need to reread and i only read it a few months ago.

baru cormorant series/the masquerade by seth dickinson - this is 3 books but let's count it as one book. much has been said about baru as a cringefail autistic marxist lesbian icon (affectionate) but what i really appreciate about these books, other than how fucking gay they are, is the specificity of the world building. i have a theory that modern readers are in search of detail (and cruelly denied by much of publishing rn). seth dickinson loves details. seth dickinson is going to take semi familiar narratives and tell them in a brand new way using details; math; hyper specific words. god i love it

poverty by america by matthew desmond - relatively short book, read it in a day. i also read desmond's first book, evicted, and it is also SO good but what's sexy about this book is that modern american society and esp. politicians frequently likes to be like 'oh no, poverty is so tragic but it can't be solved' and desmond is like 'watch me.' for people who enjoy reading andrea long chu take downs reviews and want concrete solutions for how to build a better world.

station eleven by emily st. john mandel - many people told me this was the best book they've ever read and i was like 'whatever. i'll get to it when i get to it.' DO NOT BE ME!! read this!! i wouldn't say this is a happy book but it was a beautiful book. i loved it. i cried for about 90 minutes afterwards. for art lovers, weird theatre kids, people unafraid of plague books, non linear timeline lovers, people who have been divorced.

piranesi by susanna clarke - okay i read this on my flight to frankfurt earlier this year and it totally bowled me over with how lovely it was and how emotional i got. just a beautiful, delicate, haunting, eerie book. for fans of mysteries, people who love oceans, gothic houses, people who earnestly believed magic was real as kids and hope it's real today, people who love academic drama they aren't involved in.

okay damn honorable mentions: in the dream house by carmen maria machado (SO good, maybe deserves my rec more than piranesi), normal people by sally rooney (mainly because it did make me insane), under the banner of heaven by jon krakauer (thorough, horrifying), honey & spice by bolu babalola (SO fun), sula by toni morrison (stunning!!), severance by ling ma (millennial alienation during a plague, amirite?), trust exercise by susan choi (who knows what really happened? you'll understand).

okay now the worst books i read this year, aka books i did not vibe with:

broken harbor & the trespasser by tana french; did not enjoy broken harbor due to the themes and did not enjoy the trespasser due to how cringefail the ending was. you can't depict ongoing harassment a woman of color is experiencing in her workplace, make her decide to leave after two years of this harassment, and then back track it in the last chapter? please. this is a problem tana french runs into a lot, but that is a different post

the witch elm by tana french; parts of this book were absolutely delicious. but a lot of it felt very tedious and in need of a stern editor. so many books these days need more thorough editing and the result is that a potentially amazing book is just like, okay. i understand the power fantasy that this book is designed to be, but i'm not the right audience for it (disabled). also, generally i need a character to root for.

amateur by thomas page mcbee; SO sorry thomas. i didn't vibe with this book mainly because i don't think i'm the target audience for it. i'm not cis and i'm not straight?? i also am not interested in narratives about trans men wanting to prove their masculinity by taking up a violent sport. i think this tension is addressed in the book but it wasn't addressed to my satisfaction. violence is often all the world gives to men as a source of power and thus serves as a solace for everything patriarchy takes from them, so i suppose i understand wanting to be able to get a piece of that...logically that makes sense. but also. why.

the late americans by brandon taylor; the thing is, i fucking love real life by brandon taylor and i enjoy brandon's criticism and read his substack (although i disagree with almost every aesthetic opinion he has). so possibly my expectations were too high, but i read this and i guess i was just...wanted to know what the point is. gay people suffering in the midwest? as a genre, it slaps. as a book, i feel frustrated. it felt loose, pointless, in great need of editing. brandon talks about this book by talking about the importance of moral fiction, and this book lacks moral urgency for many of its stories. i've read a lot of moral fiction and this isn't it? anyway I read this in July and looking back all I remember is Seamus' journey and the way brandon dragged workshopping.

the angel of the crows by katherine addison; look. if you're going to write sherlock wingfic, put it on ao3. if you're going to file off the serial numbers, please work harder so i can't tell what it originally was. and absolutely nix the author's note saying it was sherlock fanfic, because that makes me very unhappy! personally!

99% mine by sally thorne; classic second book syndrome. except the third one is also not very good. too bad!

touched out by amanda montei; okay obligatory disclaimer that i'm not a mother or parent but rather an adult who loves my friends' kids! this book really frustrated me and i think i would have enjoyed it considerably more if it was all cultural criticism instead of a memoir (other than the dworkin parts????). a memoir is an art form, a set narrative, but criticizing it feels weird because i am criticizing the author's life decisions as presented to me, in a flattened context, in a controlled narrative. if the memoir parts were instead part of a fictional book i would not hold back lol. this book is marketed as the most important work of feminist scholarship in the last 30 years and...it ain't. i also felt the focus was incredibly narrow. while montei does attempt to cite a broad range of theorists i just kept finding myself wondering, what about people from other cultures? what about disabled mothers? what about queer mothers or parents? what about this? WHERE'S YOUR RESEARCH? WHERE ARE YOUR INTERVIEWS? there is a specific kind of feminism where white women act like their specific experience is the pinnacle of all suffering and tbh it isn't. this book reminded me of that very strongly. like, if you're telling me you won't have an epidural because it was invented by a man then you are not a useful person to engage with, thanks.

books that would have been amazing if not for that one part

he who drowned the world by shelley parker chan - man i have mixed thoughts on this book. look away my beloved swbts mutuals. okay the epic highs (ouyang & zhu!! ma!!) were set off by baoxiang lmao. i'm mainly interested in queer masculinity and femininity and a femme straight guy is like. well, good for him, but i don't really care? bring me back to my loveds zhu and ouyang. but my main gripe...tbh i think baoxiang is a hugely unreliable narrator that protests about a lot of things too much. being straight for one thing; not having a thing for esen is another. AND MORE COULD HAVE BEEN DONE WITH THIS? like i honestly wish the implied incest thing, which was brought up at least twice, was more present. taking a step back, if you're like well i'm straight and i don't have a thing for my dead brother i helped kill but i absolutely will be seducing the spitting image of him while i fuck my way to the top of the throne? that should make me insane. possibly it would have in a book that didn't already have ouyang. who can tell. so i wish SPC had leaned into that a lot more, i wish baoxiang hadn't felt like such a plot instrument, i wish there was more Ma, i wish spoilery completely unbelievable storyline was better, etc.

in memorial by alice winn - damn, this book. it was so good but it fell apart at the end. i respect winn's decision to not have it be perfectly easy after living through the untold horrors of the trenches of wwi but the idea of two brits running away to brazil to live out a life of colonial bliss because being gay wasn't explicitly illegal in brazil at a time is like. what? i guess. anyway, it was good, i just have some notes.

romantic comedy by curtis sittenfeld - here's the thing, i love curtis sittenfeld and i knew going in that this is a book by the author that wrote rodham but man, this is a book by the author that wrote rodham. this is the most Online book i've ever read (derogatory) and it's very specific in its liberal i'm an Online author on twitter type of deal. the point of the book is that Not Tina Fey falls for Male Taylor Swift on Not Saturday Night Live and it was good, it was fun, i wasn't expecting [spoiler] ummm but it worked. i had a good time.

this is very long, sorry.

[roughentumble]

every single one of these ao3 tabs is teen wolf related

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