Portal to My Heart (Book 3) Chapter One
Loki x Reader
Chapter One: To the TVA
Summary: (Y/N) and Loki arrive at the TVA, but their bodies keep distorting.
Mouse Note: Welcome back to Portal to My Heart! I know I've been looking forward to sharing this story for a long time, ever since the first episode of LOKI Season 2 came out. I know that for me this is going to be emotional since I love Loki and have been a fan of his character since I discovered Marvel. I am very happy with how this story turned out, and I'm so excited to show you all. So, please enjoy and comment your thoughts so I can interact and freak out with fellow fans (it also makes me want to keep posting haha). And thank you all for supporting me so far. You're the best and make writing worth it!
Previously…
(Y/N) landed roughly next to where Loki was sitting, disheartened, in a TVA interrogation room. She cried out as her wound ached from hitting the ground.
“(Y/N)!” Loki’s eyes widened in horror, and he rushed to her side, holding her tight against him. “Gods…did Sylvie do this to you?”
“It was an accident,” coughed (Y/N). “But shit, it hurts.”
“Someone!” cried Loki. “I need someone!” Cursing as no one came in, he lifted (Y/N) up and set out in search of help. “Keep your eyes open, everything’s going to be all right.” Loki brightened in relief as he saw Mobius, free of any bonds, speaking hurriedly to B-15.
“Sixty-three new branches in this unit alone? Does he want us to just them all branch?” said Mobius to B-15.
“Mobius!” shouted Loki, slowing to a stop. “We made a terrible mistake, and now everything’s gone wrong and (Y/N)’s hurt!”
“What?” asked Mobius. His eyes widened as he saw the bleeding woman in Loki’s arms.
“Freed the timeline, found the bastard, war…need to prepare…” murmured (Y/N), dizzy from blood loss.
“I don’t know what happened to you analysts—” (Y/N) and Loki looked at him in confusion and alarm “—but we need to you to a medic, now!” Mobius flipped open his Tempad and called medics. “Now, who are you guys?”
“What…?” breathed Loki.
“We need boots on the ground, stat,” said B-15.
Loki just sank to floor and held (Y/N) close as he realized they had really messed up. They could both see the statue looming over them on the elevator, not of the Time-Keepers, but of He-Who-Remains. Everything had gone wrong, and now they were in an even bigger mess. Loki took a deep, shuddering breath as he waited for the medics to arrive.
“Please don’t leave me…” he whispered. “I need you here. You were right about everything. Please stay.” “It’s a pity she won’t live as long as you.” Loki’s heart clenched at the reminder of (Y/N)’s mortality. “You can’t die today, (Y/N). You can’t…because I love you.”
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“Hey, we’ve got a medic!” called Mobius, running back towards Loki with B-15 and a medic at his side.
Loki stood and picked up (Y/N). No, no, he needed to protect them. This Mobius didn’t know them. If this was some other reality or something, he couldn’t trust them to heal her. He needed to escape, get somewhere where he could help (Y/N) and make sure they recovered.
“Hey, where are you going?” asked Mobius.
B-15’s eyes narrowed, and she glared at them. “They’re not analysts. They’re variants.”
That settled it. Loki ran, holding (Y/N) tightly to him.
“Wait!” shouted Mobius, running after him.
Loki ignored him and ran. B-15 ran in front of him with Minutemen behind her.
“Hold it right there, Variant!” shouted B-15.
“Mobius, it’s me. I’m not a variant. Well, I am, a little, but we’re friends, we know each other,” pleaded Loki.
“I don’t know you,” said Mobius. Around Loki, the Minutemen grabbed their pruning sticks.
Loki did the only thing he could and threw himself out the window. He held (Y/N) tight as they fell and wished that he had his magic to make sure they were protected. They hit a truck hard, and Loki and (Y/N) groaned. His heart jumped in his chest. They were barely responsive, but they were still there.
Maybe…Maybe their abilities will let them survive. Loki dearly wished that was true, but even if it was, in the TVA, there was no magic. There was no way for them to survive even if there was a chance.
The driver screamed and panicked upon seeing them. The truck hit the side of a building, crashing through a window. Loki and (Y/N) were thrown from the back of the truck, and Loki tucked (Y/N) into his chest so he hit the ground harder than them.
Loki grunted and stood up, holding (Y/N) up. They were struggling to keep their eyes open. It was clear that they had no idea what was happening as their blood loss got to their head. It was partly a relief since that meant his confession wouldn’t be remembered. Loki had spoken in the that of the moment, but now was not the time to be dealing with that, as much as he wanted to. (Also, Loki was awkward and a bit nervous).
“We’re fine. We’re fine,” muttered Loki as TVA workers stared at them. Behind him, the truck tipped back out the window. Everyone watched in horror as it fell to the ground below and landed with an echoing crash. Loki coughed. “She’ll be fine.”
The TVA timeline display landed on the ground and cracked it. The people gasped. Loki panted in exhaustion and looked down at (Y/N)’s nearly unconscious form.
“Level five intruders,” announced the PA system. “They’ve hopped into a mail cart and descended to the lower level.”
“Casey,” breathed Loki in relief as one man drew closer.
“Have we met each other?” asked Casey in confusion.
“Casey, help us. Please, tell me you know what’s going on,” said Loki. “Don’t you remember us?”
“I got them! I got the intruders!” said Casey nervously into his communicator. “I got the intruders!”
Loki’s eyes widened, and he backed up worriedly. And then his entire body distorted. (Y/N) groaned and winced as her already exhausted body glitched alongside him.
They disappeared from the room with Casey and reappeared in another room of the TVA. Loki looked around himself in confused and checked on (Y/N), making sure nothing bad had happened to her when they distorted. To his dismay, it was clear the energy going to keeping her alive was getting exhausted by the glitching.
“Loki. (Y/N).”
Loki looked up in relief to find himself in the same room, just decorated differently, and Casey looking down at them.
“What? Just a second ago, you didn’t know us,” said Loki in confusion. “Casey. Casey. Casey, something terrible is happening.” He pulled (Y/N) closer. “Please.” He trailed off when he noticed a crack on the floor from where he had just seen the TV display fall. Only now it was hanging up again. “Has…Has that always been there?”
“The crack? It’s been there as long as I can remember,” said Casey.
Was it possible that time had passed? When Loki and (Y/N) glitched? But that was impossible. And yet…
“We were in the past,” breathed Loki in realization. He shook his head. “No, no, it doesn’t matter now. Please, Casey. (Y/N) needs help.”
Casey nodded shakily and ran to call someone.
Loki sank to his knees in relief and held them close. “Don’t worry, darling. You’ll be alright. I’ve got you.” Before he could rest, though, they distorted again.
They landed in front of Casey, and Loki stumbled, holding (Y/N). He nearly cursed but just looked to Casey. “Casey, where is Mobius?”
“He’s…in the War Room,” said Casey, staring at Loki and (Y/N), bloody and tired.
Loki stumbled to the War Room and kicked the door open. No one was in there, and he groaned. In his arms, (Y/N)’s heads lolled and hit his chest. Her consciousness was completely gone. That meant her life was really in danger. He needed to find Mobius.
Loki stared at the carvings of He Who Remains on the wall of the War Room and felt anger course through him. HWR was still haunting him.
And then he and (Y/N) glitched, and he nearly collapsed as he appeared back in the War Room. This time, Mobius, B-15, and several other TVA members were staring at them. He grunted in pain.
“Loki? (Y/N)?” said Mobius, eyes widening as he saw their states.
“Mobius! You know us!” cried Loki.
“Where the hell were you two?” asked Mobius worriedly.
“Help us,” said Loki, pulling (Y/N)’s body closer to him. “Please. A moment ago, you didn’t know us. Tell me you know who we are.” Behind them, a Minuteman went to attack, and B-15 blocked him.
“Yes, yes,” assured Mobius.
“Everyone, stand down!” shouted the general of the TVA, Dox.
“Please, Mobius, we found him, but (Y/N)’s hurt, and we keep disappearing, please, she’s dying, please help her—” Loki’s rambles continued.
“Hey, hey, who did you find?” asked Mobius in confusion.
“Him.” Loki looked at the wall where the carvings of HWR had been a moment before. He handed (Y/N) to Mobius, who was startled but held them, and grabbed the pruning stick from the Minuteman.
“Loki?” asked Mobius, glancing down in horror at (Y/N)’s bleeding stab wound.
“Get back!” said Loki when the hunter tried to attack. Then, he stabbed the stick into the wall, and the mosaic of the false Time-Keepers burned away to reveal HWR’s face carved into the wall. The truth of the TVA hidden just beneath the surface. “That’s who built this place!” shouted Loki. “That’s who stole your lives! That’s who’s coming back!” He stared at Mobius pleadingly. “Now, please, get (Y/N) help. Please.”
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“She’s going to be okay. The medics say the wound will scar, but otherwise, she’ll be alright,” said Mobius as Loki hovered at (Y/N)’s bedside.
She still looked so still. Loki didn’t want to leave (Y/N) for a moment. He needed to watch over her, protect her, succeed where he’d failed.
“Loki. We need to talk about what happened,” said Mobius.
“I need to make sure she’s alright,” said Loki fiercely.
“Okay, okay,” said Mobius. He sat down next to Loki. “We’ll talk here. That way you know how she’s doing.”
Loki nodded shakily. “Right. Right.”
“So what happened? The last thing I knew, you guys were going to face the cloud monster,” said Mobius in concern.
“Alioth?” said Loki. He shook his head. “Alioth was a distraction. He was a guard dog. We found him. A Citadel at the End of Time.”
“But where’s Sylvie?” asked Mobius.
Loki’s eyes narrowed. “I don’t know. She’s still there. She…She stabbed (Y/N) trying to kill He Who Remains. She’s the reason she’s like this right now…We just wanted time to think, and Sylvie wouldn’t just stop, and now (Y/N)’s…” Loki was spiraling, and he slumped over. “It was an impossible choice, but she seemed so certain. How could she be given the circumstances?”
“Okay, okay, slow down, Loki,” said Mobius calmingly. “You wanted time to think, so let’s think.”
Loki took a deep breath and looked at Mobius. “Mobius, we got the man at the End of Time, and he made sense. We thought it was about freeing the Timeline, but that brings only more malevolence, more violence, more war. More of him. They’re coming. They’re all coming. ‘You came to kill the devil.’ ”
“I don’t understand,” said Mobius.
“Maybe he was,” murmured Loki. “But maybe he wasn’t. Sylvie was convinced he was. We fought, Mobius. She kicked me through a Time Door, and she and (Y/N) fought, and (Y/N) got hurt, and then Sylvie kicked her through, and…”
“Well, I’d ask who won…” remarked Mobius.
Loki huffed. “It was a draw.”
“You all kicked each other through Time Doors simultaneously?” said Mobius.
“No. (Y/N) and I were actively trying not to fight her,” said Loki. “That’s why (Y/N) was hurt…” He looked at her and reached out to her. He drew his hand back awkwardly. “She was trying to stop Sylvie. She was trying to kill him.”
“Stop, relax,” said Mobius. “(Y/N) is going to be fine. She’s alright. Look, just calm down.”
“I just wish I had tried harder,” said Loki ruefully. “I wish we’d had more time.”
“Don’t do the coudlda-woulda-shoulda. Focus on what we know,” said Mobius.
“War is on its way,” said Loki. “That’s what we know. I have no idea if he was right about everything because his variants are on their way! It was about preventing more of them! There was no simple choice, no other way.”
“That’s who you showed us in the War Room?” asked Mobius.
“He Who Remains,” said Loki, nodding. “This is his kingdom. And he says he keeps us safe, but how can you believe that? He built this place.”
“No, how would I not remember that,” said Mobius. “How could he—”
“He wiped your memories.”
Loki’s head whipped to the cot where (Y/N)’s eyes were open and she was trying to sit up. Instantly, Loki was by her side and supported her. In relief, he saw that the wound was healing well due to the TVA’s technology.
“You’re alright,” said Loki.
(Y/N) smiled at him and covered his hand with her own as he helped her. “Of course. A stab isn’t going to keep me down.”
“We’re glad you’re okay,” said Mobius, smiling.
“Thanks,” she said, nodding. She frowned. “But what happened? Last thing I remember was falling through the Time door…”
Loki stared at her. She didn’t remember. (Y/N) couldn’t recall his confession of love. The injury had been too much, and she had no idea what had happened. Part of Loki was disappointed since he couldn’t get her response, but the other part of him was thankful. He had no idea how to tell her again, how to deal with everything. (Y/N) was the person he loved, and he wasn’t sure how to tell her again, and with all the chaos going on, Loki was afraid of adding more to it.
But he wanted to tell her. So, so badly.
(Y/N) frowned and touched her chest. “And it felt like I was coming apart at the seams.”
“We, uh, glitched?” said Loki. “I’m not entirely sure, either.”
“Is that how you appeared in the War Room?” said Mobius in confusion.
“Yes,” said Loki. “Well, partly. We were in the past.”
“Don’t you mean the End of Time?” said Mobius.
“No, we were in the War Room already,” said Loki.
Mobius looked at (Y/N) in confusion, and she shrugged. “I believe Loki, but I was way too out of it to know what was happening.”
Loki was once again torn from disappointment that he still didn’t know how she felt and relief that the chaos of feelings wasn’t involved in the difficult situation developing.
“We were in the past,” reiterated Loki, shaking himself from his thoughts and looking at Mobius.
“What do you mean in the past? Where?” said Mobius in confusion.
“Here, in the TVA,” said Loki.
“No, there is no past TVA,” said Mobius, shaking his head. “Time doesn’t work like that here.”
“It does, it’s happening to us,” said Loki.
“It’s impossible,” said Mobius.
“It’s possible,” said Loki.
“No, it’s not,” said Mobius.
As if on cue, Loki and (Y/N)’s bodies distorted and came back together. They disappeared from the room, appeared in the same one but empty, and then popped out of existence again, reappearing in front of Mobius. (Y/N) groaned at the sensation. It was painful, but at least she wasn’t bleeding out.
How skewed are my priorities that my cells rearranging is preferable to a stab wound? thought (Y/N). “See that? I think that confirms Loki’s story,” she muttered.
“Uh, yeah, I saw it,” said Mobius.
“Yeah? What does it…What does it look like?” asked Loki.
“It looks…” Mobius grimaced. “I mean, how does it feel?”
“It’s not that bad,” said Loki, lying.
“I think my cells are getting spliced,” muttered (Y/N), brutally honest as ever.
“I think (Y/N)’s assessment is better than yours,” said Mobius, looking between (Y/N) and Loki. “And we definitely need to get you help. Let me call Miss Minutes.”
“No,” said (Y/N) and Loki sharply.
“What?” asked Mobius.
“You can’t trust her,” said (Y/N).
“Are you sure?” said Mobius.
“Pretty sure,” said (Y/N). “She was there with him at the End of Time.”
“We still need to get your guys checked out,” said Mobius. “Yeah, let’s swing you by Repairs and Advancement. Come on.”
“(Y/N) needs to rest,” said Loki instantly.
“I’m fine,” said (Y/N), standing. “The tech did enough; it was just blood loss.”
Loki hovered nervously. “Are you sure?”
“Yes, Loki,” said (Y/N), glancing at him with a fond smile. She looked down at her torn shirt from the stab wound. “But, uh, I do want a new shirt.”
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