#literally went

[softpng]

the workday/weekend ratio is so off. like ethically.

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

bumblebees first day out of sublevel 50

[actual-corpse]

Having a professor with ADHD is fucking wild (and should be sought after). I was talking about the Cybertruck and the fucking madlad managed to circle it around to UI design... The ADHD relation train of thought.

[iwillfightgodandwin]

The only queer role model I'll ever need is Gee Way

[cryptidjeepers]

When i was like 10 or so, my class was getting vaccines at school and i always got super nervous about them. So i sat down and was like visibly terrified so the nurse started asking me questions to distract me. With all good intentions, she looked at my shirt and asked me if i like angry birds.

This was my shirt btw

I was so offended that i started explaing who perry the platypus was. I didnt even notice her giving me the vaccine until she was putting away the needle. Moral of the story, if you want to distract a kid get something wrong about their special interest. It works everytime

[bastardlybonkers]

i feel like not enough ppl are factoring in the cultural clash between laios and shuro and the many micro agressions shuro faced while being in their group. literally the name 'shuro' in itself is one

his name is toshiro 😭 lets also not forget that he has his own communication issues, in the opposite way that laios does- thats literally a factor in their argument, that his envy for laios's ability to express himself sincerely manifested as part of his distaste for him.

ig all this to say like, was their fight heart wrenching, especially when reading laios as autistic? absolutely. anybody whos ever been in laios's position knows how much it hurts to realize someone you thought was your friend doesnt actually like having you around, especially when they didnt tell you and you had no way of knowing due to not understanding their cues. but im begging yall to step back and see the nuance of this situation cause im gonna be real a lot of you are kinda just brushing over it acting like everything is toshiros fault and that hes a terrible person when in reality hes an average guy who really, really clashed with laios and it led to a very long misunderstanding due to their supremely opposite methods of communication. even laios and toshiro, after letting everything out in their fight, were able to come to an understanding and start a foundation for an actual friendship built on better communication

ok yknow what Edit: i shouldve made it even more explicit at the end of this post, i hadnt thought i would need to since i started the post with this, but i think a few too many people are missing my point so i just wanna clarify. i shouldnt have said 'really clashed' and left it at that because yeah they did, but it wasnt just their opposite methods of communication, it is also very much that toshiro was experiencing microaggressions via laios. it may have been unintentional on laios's part, but it still happened and wore him down, made it harder for him to communicate on top of both the more subtle social cues that he was raised with and his own communication difficulties. i also want to say that the fandom reaction to toshiro and the complete ignorance of this point is also racist tbh or at the very least ignorant. i understand that the anime did not cover this panel, and neither did the manga, as this was an omake, but im gonna be real with you guys. there are enough context clues within the story to clue you into this. if you didnt pick up on it thats ok, but i think this is a good lesson in picking up subtext in the stories that youre watching and/or reading. kui shouldnt have to explicitly say 'by the way laios was racist to toshiro' for this point to be understood, and at the very least, when the author portrays a character in a sympathetic light (as kui clearly does) it should make you question Why they are doing so and what makes them sympathetic, rather than youre immediate and only reaction to be 'well i hated what this guy did/said so i hate them and they suck'. idk exactly how to finish this, just. idk. question your biases and gut reactions to things you see in media and stories, and think about whether or not theres subtext that youre missing.

[chillingpenalty]

it has been some time and alas my completion of the fontainian story quest has reignited my desire to write for Wriothesley. I apologize for the sudden inactivity, I’ve been focused on League of Legends and DC comics with friends of mine.

[emberglowfox]

i dont think the sages are distinctly aware of everything their avatars are doing, but i imagine some things probably bleed through

[rel312]

I find it so funny that Logan had no idea who wade was or even that he had regenerative healing powers until he literally tried to kill him and then had no reaction when wade didn’t die

[liquidstar]

genuinely this is the funniest joke in the series so far to me

[finsterhund]

"Goodbye Christopher Robin" is a movie that came for my fucking throat. I had been told several times that it was "extremely triggering" and to exercise extreme caution and knowing the context I fully knew what I was getting into.

I've been hyper focusing on Winnie the Pooh for the past few weeks so I finally watched it tonight and fucking christ.

There is so much shared trauma and so much is different and yet so much is the same. I remember especially as a stupid preteen I RESENTED C.R. Milne with a fiery burning passion for what felt like what was a betrayal, completely unable to separate how my trauma affected me with how his must have affected him and could not fathom how he could have "abandoned his childhood" and things that would have been my everything.

And ultimately it was because people always brought it up "oh he hated the books he wanted nothing to do with his toys he gave them away" as some edgy "childhood ruined" shit but never actually the full story. They fucking victim blamed him and acted like he was ungrateful and I completely swallowed the propaganda.

But with experience and processing of my own trauma I came to realize that the alienation was because our childhood traumas though similar were like opposite sides of the same coin and even though the outcomes of our sense of self could not have been more different in the end, the way our childhoods had been denied of us was virtually the same.

Especially the whole "people only care about a fake me that doesn't actually exist but is being forced into me" thing.

Like I was denied a proper childhood and as such latched onto the fantasy world as a source of identity and comfort while he was denied separation from his childhood and as such wanted nothing to do with it. His mental state is incomprehensible to me because it's the antithesis of mine but it comes from the same source and that is childhood trauma.

For me the fake boy was the one denied of a childhood that was made to be "an old soul" and for him the fake boy was the romanticized childhood that he could not escape from under the shadow of.

Also generational trauma just in general. His father was a more complicated and sympathetic individual than mine (who was straight up just a predator) and especially in the way the movie portrays it you can see that he's maladaptive coping through his own trauma using his son and it's just. Wow. Extremely identifiable and painful.

Also the mother acting like giving birth to this kid is enough to justify the level of control she exerts over him and the manipulation of A.A. Milne and the whole "wanted a daughter stuck with a son" thing is a gutpunch too. I try to be sympathetic towards her too because she's very clearly not coping with the fear that she's just going to lose her son like she lost her husband during WWI but she just lacks empathy for others seemingly. Like she resents her husband for "coming back wrong" when he literally has fucking PTSD.

Just fucking christ.

And then to top it all off the only healthy relationship the kid has (with his nanny) is taken away because she stands up and says she won't allow him to be exploited anymore. Followed by him needing to go to school which is like being thrown to the fucking wolves.

Canadian public school system is bad enough, I know this, it made shit so much worse.

But goddamn fucking late 20th century English boarding school is like a pit of fucking demons. The British school system is one of the worst things ever created by mankind and pretty much exists solely to abuse children.

And how in the end all his father wanted was to stop what he went through from ever happening again and his son to his horror wants to be enlist just so he can be his own person. Trauma is a cycle. It keeps happening unless it is broken. Agonizing.

Ultimately it's a movie and like the memoir of C. R. himself we are just getting one window into the past and what truly happened so I want to be careful with how I process things but it's just a lot to take in.

Winnie the Pooh (both the original books AND the Disney version) had significant meaning in my younger life with the books instilling a lot of comfort and the Disney stuff serving as an early special interest alongside Dumbo (yeah, you can't choose your autism as a toddler) and dogs and penguins.

And in the end my compulsion to revisit this and finally tackle the movie about his life was because in the end I wanted to revisit both the books and the Disney content for creative inspiration for a story I am trying to write after not being able to write for years because of trauma and grief and finding out that my brain had repressed that one 1996 Disney movie because it related with an agonizing degree to my own trauma.

The movie did not touch on how his marriage was with his cousin or that he eventually took the residual checks but only to care for their disabled daughter. Or how he went completely no contact with his mother at one point. (His mother did not approve of his relationship with her brother's child because they hadn't been on speaking terms for like a decade(?) I also vaguely remember reading that one of his parents his mother I think was the product of something similar.) Which I mean. I think that is very important to the conversation. Because once again, unhealthy relationships and the cycle of abuse/trauma.

Also at one point C.R. Milne did an interview where he spoke about the neglect and abuse and his mother "was so upset she buried a statue of him in the yard so she wouldn't be able to look at it again." Which 1. What in the fuck and 2. Why do you have a statue of your estranged son?

Just.

Fuck.

I don't even know where I'm going with this or what I hope to gain by sharing it.

Processing trauma is good and all but I'm exhausted.

The entire time my brain keeps trying to go "HOLY SHIT LOOK AT THE TOY RECREATIONS. THEY'RE LIKE... SO GOOD. THEY LOOK LIKE THEY'RE ACTUAL COPIES OF THE STUFFED ANIMALS HOW DID THEY DO THIS YOU MUST FIND OUT" To try and pull me away from the trauma and I'm like "we can fucking wait to do that. Come on" fighting with myself.

Because yeah. Either they actually tracked down mint condition copies of the original stuffed animals or they skillfully recreated 1 for 1 replicas intended to look as close to what they theoretically would have looked like as possible.

And that's evidently the way I cope with things. Stuffed animals.

Shit man. Also my roommate has been pestering me and I'm trying so hard not to snap at him because I am going through it right now.

[chloesimaginationthings]

Gregory has it best out of the new FNAF protagonists..

[teapot-of-tyrahn]

"right, one more attempt, and then i think we're gonna have to call it the end of the session."

mumbo died on his last attempt. right before grian would have ended the session. right before grian could have saved him.

"but i just don't want to kill jimmy..."

he could have taken the shot then and there. he could have lived.

but the miner didn't want to kill the canary. he wanted the canary to live. and he died for it. because miners aren't meant to go into the coal mines alone.

[michaelwheelers]

Our fates are sealed. But I think we have one move left.

We can try.

[egophiliac]

queen of diamonds, upright + reversed 💎

I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no 🫠

[adhdedrn]

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