#literally only 2 or 3 photos of this guy online :( of that time period at least

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Robert Cogoi - Près De Ma Rivière

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This needs to be addressed:

I'm on reddit regularly. Today I saw something as I was scrolling that deeply disturbed me & I feel needs to be addressed.

For those not familiar with reddit's format, let me explain. The website is basically a host to multiple forum style 'subreddits' that are based around various interests where you can post photos, videos, gifs, links to websites, links to articles, or just good old fashioned text.

Some subreddits are very broad (r/aww is pictures, videos, & gifs that are adorable & make you say "awww") & some are extremely niche (r/picturesofiansleeping was created by a dude where he just posted random pictures of his roommate, Ian, sleeping because the dude could fall asleep anywhere). Each subreddit is it's own community with its own culture & rules, while also being a part of the reddit community as a whole & abiding by its overall culture & rules.

Below is a screenshot (with the username redacted) from a post in the Ehlers-Danlos subreddit, which I scroll through from time to time just to see what's there, but not regularly because the overarching culture there is not one I want to be a part of (& what I'm about to show you here is a perfect example of why).

So a photo of Joaquin Phoenix filming a scene for the movie Joker is making the rounds with the caption above it, stating that he dislocated his knee filming that scene (not written is that he continued to film after the dislocation) & demanding he be given the golden globe. Given the quality of that performance, even prior to knowing about his knee, I agree that he should have a golden globe for it.

What I take issue with is the fact that that was posted to r/ehlersdanlos with the title "My knee dislocates 5-20 times a day. Where's my reward?"

So let's chat about why this is ABSOLUTELY unacceptable, despite the fact that I see similar sentiments throughout the chronic illness communities.

First of all, this person is 100% exaggerating. I'm not one to doubt anyone's claims regarding their health but as someone who has had knee dislocations since I was quite small, it's not feasible. Subluxed knee 5-20 times a day? Eh, still not really believable. 5-10 subluxations? Sure, maybe. But no way is this person having 5-20 full knee dislocations in a 24 hr period.

Exaggerating like this actually really hurts credibility & not just for them as an individual. I'd be will to bet that if they are stretching the truth that casually in an inconsequential post online, that they do it in real life to medical staff as well. If the medical professionals that we all rely on for care hear enough exaggerations from specific demographic groups (say... women under 25 with an EDS diagnosis), then eventually when they see a patient that fits that criteria, there will be an unconscious bias & assumption of exaggeration. Then it hurts the chronically ill community as a whole.

Second, this person is minimizing & invalidating Mr. Phoenix's (i spelled his first name once & was quote proud, but it is not happening again) injury simply because... why? Because he is able bodied? Because the poster is chronically ill? Those things don't cancel each other out. This is the bit I see FAR too often.

There is this weird line of thinking that is prevalent in the chronic illness community where some chronically ill people think that because other people aren't chronically ill, any illness, pain, or injury they go through isn't as valid as their's is. Lemme just hop up on my soapbox here to say...

📢 THAT LINE OF THINKING IS FUCKING BULLSHIT📢

I've seen it first hand via my aunt. She is diagnosed with fibromyalgia. She has all the hallmarks of EDS, but despite me getting diagnosed & telling her she needs testing, she is weirdly attached to her current diagnosis. Any time my cousin (who is 3 yrs younger than me) is sick or hurting, my aunt says something about how much worse she feels. Cousin says she has a headache? Aunt: "Now you know what I deal with 24/7." Cousin has a stomach virus & can't stop puking? Aunt: "That's literally my life 4 out of 7 days of the week."

When The Spawn was in middle school, right after I had started to trend downward health wise, I noticed her wincing & holding her head a lot. I asked what was up & she said she had a headache & it had been hanging around for 3 days now. I asked why she didn't tell me sooner so I could help & she told me that she knew it was minor compared to what I deal with, so she didn't feel right bringing it up.

I immediately sat her down & had a long talk explaining that just because I am dealing with the dumpster fire I was given does not at any time mean that whatever she is going through isn't every bit as important, painful, or difficult for her & that at no time do i want her to have to handle it alone. I made sure she knew that no matter what was going on with me, I am here for her because what she is going through is important & valid. I've only had to have that talk 2 more times with her.

I've had to have a version of this talk with a few friends & my dad, as well. I'll see my dad wince or hear him do what I call "The Dad Huff" & I'll ask what's up. Dad: "I know I shouldn't complain to you because it's nothing compared to what you deal with but..." BRO i am EXACTLY who you should complain to. I know tricks that could help with a myriad of physical ailments PLUS i have a whole ass Walgreens in my bathroom.

My point is that as a whole, chronically ill people need to stop invalidating healthy, able bodied people's illnesses or injuries. PERIOD. It's not a fucking suffering competition. What? You think if you keep invalidating healthy people & boasting about how much more sick or more injured you are that at some point a guy is going to leap out of the bushes & hand you a gold medal & a giant check for suffering the most?

No.

Also, you'd think if someone was suffering that much, in that much pain, was that ill, that they wouldn't want anyone else to feel even close to the way they do & would be happy to help or be genuinely distressed/concerned for the other person's wellbeing.

So fuck off because people who do this shit just sound like they lack empathy, compassion, and other generally human qualities which implies they have no fucking soul.

Just be supportive of one another, able bodied, disabled, chronically ill, chronically healthy, or whatever. Just be kind to people. Fuck.

[dear-selena]

Omg, if you’re feeling it could you make a Caught Web Handed part two? I loved part one sm!

Caught Web Handed (Pt. 2)

Peter Parker x Reader

Request: “Omg, if you’re feeling it could you make a Caught Web Handed part two? I loved part one sm!”

Summary: When a new Tumblr blogger who claims to be Spider-Man starts reblogging a ton of Spider-Man fanfiction, including yours, the community goes into a frenzy and you confront the boy who promised not to say anything. 

Warnings: Some swearing, this is literally so meta be warned

A/N: I would like to thank the anon who requested this two months ago! I’m sorry it took me so long to write this out! I genuinely didn’t know how to continue this story until recently. If you want me to continue this, please let me know! I could possibly write one more part to this, but only if you guys want it. 

Words: 1971

REQUESTS ARE OPEN 

Part 1

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You love that Tumblr started the group chat feature, but damn, you wish you got notifications from it.

Yawning, you cover your mouth and suddenly crave your bed. Last night, you stayed up messaging a ton of bloggers in a new group chat someone created for your favorite web-slinging hero and didn’t even realize how late it was when the conversation whined down. 

The group chat is called “Them Spider-Man OCs 😩😍🕸🕷❤️💙” and is filled with a bunch of your mutuals. The entire night was spent complimenting one another on each other’s fanfictions, and sharing anything and everything about everyone’s OC’s. You couldn’t help the giddiness you felt when people told you how much they loved Trevor Trenton, your Spider-Man OC. 

Because Tumblr mobile refuses to send notifications when you get new messages, you stayed on the app for hours to make sure you were as involved in the conversation as possible. You knew you could have left the conversation at any moment, but you were just way too excited to finally bond with all your mutuals at once. 

Walking down the halls of Midtown High, you lazily stroll to your first class as if you had all the time in the world to get there. You hadn’t seen your friends yet this morning, making time go especially slow. Not knowing what else to do, you decide to open the Tumblr mobile app and check for new notifications in your group chat. To your surprise, a green circle appeared on the group chat photo someone edited of Spider-Man swinging through Queens with heart emojis all around him. 

You open the chat, and your heart jumps immediately. 

(Your Favorite Spider-Man Blog): Guys did TheOfficialSpiderMan account reblog your work too or is it just me?!?!

Suddenly frozen in place, you reread (Favorite Spider-Man Blog)’s message. With your heart bouncing in your chest, full of uncomfortable adrenaline, you quickly leave the chat and check messages and had to stop yourself from screaming. 

An account called TheOfficialSpiderMan had indeed reblogged your latest update on your Trevor Trenton fanfiction. 

Tapping on the blogger’s icon, you start investigating if this was truly the “Official” Spider-Man. The first thing you do is read the bio: 

“Yes, I’m the real Spider-Man XD. Still trying to figure out how to use this site so bear with me.

Queens, NY | Avenger | Science Nerd”

Looking at the blog’s avatar, you see that it’s a selfie that the hero took while swinging in the air. You’ve never seen a photo of Spider-Man like this before, but you couldn’t tell if it was edited or not. If this is a fake account, this person must be really good at photoshop… 

Scrolling through the blog, you notice that this person’s not only reblogged your fanfiction but almost all your mutuals too. You recognized some of the stories as one’s you’ve read prior and almost all of them were from people who were in the Spider-Man group chat with you. Eventually, however, you scrolled to the bottom of the blog and found a simple text post. 

“Hey Everyone! It’s me, Spider-Man. I’m just here to interact with you guys cause I’ve heard that I have fans on this site. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for supporting me. Love you all

The post, although wholehearted and sweet, immediately fills you with worry. If this truly was Spider-Man, that means your favorite hero, the hero you’ve been fantasizing about through your writing, was reading your stuff. He was reading this personified version of himself that you created for your silly romantic pleasure, and that scares you shitless. A part of you feels exposed in a way you never thought possible, and even though your Tumblr username doesn’t quite give away your identity, you still feel extremely vulnerable. The thought of the man behind the mask seeing your work makes you feel quite uneasy, especially because you don’t know who the man behind the mask is. 

Suddenly, the bell for first-period rings, and you’re brought back to reality. As peers shuffle through the halls around you, you shove your phone in your pocket and pick up the pace to get to your first class. While walking, you couldn’t help but wonder Why Spider-Man chose to solely reblog fanfiction. There are plenty of Spider-Man Tumblr posts consisting of gif-sets, fan edits, and general news about him, so why fanfiction? 

It was as if Spider-Man has some sort of motivated intentions. 

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Peter Parker hits the reblog button on yet another well-written story about him. 

Well, better yet, him as a superhero. 

Ever since he found out that you write fanfiction about Spider-Man a couple of months back, Peter couldn’t stop wondering what else was written about him. After a self-debate for whether or not it’d be a good idea to actually make a Tumblr account and find your work, he decided to go for it. After all, he was pretty bored last night, and what better way to interact with fans that through a popular fandom website? 

So he created “TheOfficialSpiderMan” and immediately started reading fanfiction. 

He has to say, he was quite amazed at how talented his fans were. A lot of the stories and characters they created were so unique, and the plots they wrote up were quite clever! He instantly picked up on some tropes people would write about, including ones where the reader was Iron Man’s child (he has to admit, he found those stories quite meta). 

And after a ton of scrolling and reblogging, he came across a story about a version of Spider-Man named Trevor Trenton. He immediately knew that this story was yours, and took notice of your Tumblr name, (Your Tumblr blog name). He wanted to follow you but figured he should lay low right now. ‘I shouldn’t be giving certain fans special attention… especially if this certain fan is a good friend of his and possibly his crus-.’ 

“Hey, Peter!” 

Peter turns around to see Ned with his usual smile on his face. 

“Oh, Ned! Guess what?” Peter proceeds to shove his phone in his best friend’s hand. “I found (Y/N)’s Tumblr account!” 

Ned’s eyes go wide as he examines Peter’s phone, seeing a post with your blog name on it. “Oh my god, Peter,” Ned starts to laugh. “You did not just join Tumblr to find her fanfiction.” 

“Of course not,” Peter protests, going to show the blog account. “Spider-Man did.” 

Ned looks up at Peter with a raised eyebrow and a smirk. “Damn Peter,” Ned says sarcastically. “Didn’t think you’d be one to join fandom culture.” 

Peter rolls his eyes as the bell rings, indicating that second-period was about to start. Saying a quick goodbye to Ned, Peter quickly makes his way to his robotics class, a class that you just so happen to share with him. As Peter enters the room, he scans it and instantly spots you at one of the workshop tables, head buried in your phone, and wide-eyed. 

Peter smirks. He knows exactly what’s going on. 

He makes his way over you, and plops down in the seat next to you, causing you to look up at him in surprise. “Oh, hey Peter.” you squeak out, completely caught off-guard. 

Peter couldn’t help but stifle a laugh. The last time he saw you this flustered was when MJ caught you writing Spider-Man fanfiction back at his place, and he had to admit, you looked pretty cute. “Hey, (Y/N). What are you looking at?” 

You look back at your phone and quickly snooze the screen, shoving your phone in your pocket. “Oh, i-it’s nothing…” You say unconfidently, a blush appearing on your face. “Just a stupid Tumblr update.” 

“Oh?” Peter asks, knowing what you meant by ‘update’. “Does it have to do with Spider-Man?” He couldn’t help but push the conversation on you. He was too excited to see your reaction. 

“Actually, yeah.” You finally admit after a moment. “My mutuals and I are kinda freaking out cause a blog that claims to be Spider-Man is reblogging our stories. It’s weird.” 

“Really, weird?” He questions. “What makes that so weird?” 

“Why would a superhero go online just to read fanfiction. Superheroes shouldn’t even know about this kinda stuff. They should be focused on, I don’t know… saving the world or something. It’s just weird that he’s only reblogging fanfiction and-.” You cut yourself off when you look up at Peter and see he’s just sitting there, head propped up against his hand, leaning on the table with his elbow, sporting a knowing smirk of some sort. Confused at why he was looking at you like that, you almost question him. But that was when you started to connect the dots. 

It feels like Spider-Man has some motivated intentions. Peter Parker is intentionally talking about this with you. 

You squint your eyes at the boy in front of you. “Peter, did you tell Spider-Man about fanfiction?” 

Peter blinks, his smirk off his face. “W-what? No, I didn’t.” 

Your glare intensifies, and Peter sits up straight. “Are you lying to me? You just had your ‘I-know-something-you-don’t face on.” 

Peter swallows, suddenly nervous. He didn’t think you’d react like this. “I’m not lying, (Y/N). I did not tell Spider-Man about fanfiction.” 

You did… a couple of months ago… 

You look away, now glaring at the table. “Then explain how Spider-Man knows about fanfiction and why he only reblogs it?” 

Peter starts to sweat. “Uh, I-I don’t know. Maybe he likes to read?” 

“Or someone told him to find it?” You look back up at Peter, whose clearly uncomfortable, making it easier for you to believe that he’s lying. “Maybe while they were at their Stark Internship or something?” 

Peter mentally facepalms. He’s not getting out of this, is he? 

“(Y/N), please.” Peter pleads. “I promise I didn’t say anything to S-Spider-Man. And even if I did, why is it so bad? Why is it bad that he’s reading fanfiction?” 

“Because!” You shout, catching the attention of some of your classmates. Embarrassed, you force Peter to crouch down close to you so you can whisper. “The stories on Tumblr can get a bit uncanny. What if he finds smut about himself?” 

Peter raises an eyebrow. “What’s a smut?” 

You roll your eyes. “Exactly, and I’m NOT going into that right now.” You shudder, realizing what could happen if your favorite hero finds stories like… that.

Nevertheless, you push those thoughts out of your head and continue on. “But seriously Peter. You told me you wouldn’t tell him about this stuff, and how he’s reading a ton of it? Something doesn’t add up.” 

Peter wants to argue back, but he honestly doesn’t know what to say. He can’t assure you that your writing is good and that he’s enjoying seeing his fans’ creativity because he’d have to reveal his secret to you, and that’s the last thing he wants to do. Especially now. 

Before he knows it, your packing your stuff back up, getting out of your seat and slinging your backpack over your shoulder. “Find me when you can tell me the truth.” With that, you walk to the other side of the room and sit at a new table, just in time for the teacher to walk in and discuss the new project. 

Peter couldn’t help but mentally beat himself up. Was doing all this a mistake? He genuinely just wanted to find your work and actually interact with his fans. He never expected it to backfire like this. Now he has to find a way to assure you he wasn’t technically lying, all while keeping his identity a secret. With all the thoughts racing through his mind, there was one that stood out: 

He fucked up.

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-Peter Parker Tag List-

@sweetcoffeeblandtea // @house-arya // @jovialpeanut // @bookstoreblossom // @jackiehollanderr

-Marvel Tag List-

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-Permanent Tag List-  

@mindset-jupiter // @romance-geek // @imcharishope // @fakindob // @cutiekoa // @wowursofunny // @cals-cigarette // @supernerdycookietrashblr // @delicately-important-trash // @unlikelygalaxygive

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onision.co questions part 3

Oh fuck. It’s nuts in there. So many people are asking questions. It’s getting really repetitive now. After this part I’m not going to post anything with similar answers.

Really important. Please. Greg. How do you sit here and say your husband never sent the photos when most of the internet, including myself, has the photos? How do you feel about other creators reporting you to the FBI? Or the entire internet having proof that your an abusive predator. And why respond to all of this with a BDSM thread on Twitter? Why won’t you respond to anybody with the photos? Is it because you know your caught?

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

I am not Kai, I kinda wish people would stop acting like I am. Secondly, Kai would never want to send anyone under 18 photos. That’s all I’ve said. People don’t know how to process what I say/read exactly what I say. I’ll say it again in a different way, Kai has never had any desire, in his adult life, to ever send anyone who is not an adult, anything inappropriate like a nude photo or whatever. Everyone involved knows Kai would never want to do that.

Do you think you're a good person? Every ex-girlfriend and ex-friend you’ve ever had says you’re abusive, and all of their stories line up with the same pattern of abuse you put them through. And keep in mind that all of these different people don’t claim that every single one of their exes were abusive, so there’s definitely something specific about you. Why do you think this is?

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

I hope they will eventually recover from me no longer wanting them in my life. I want better things for them than dwelling in me breaking up with and/or rejecting them. Dwelling in the past is no way to move forward in life.

replied 5 hours ago

That’s actually not what they’re dwelling on, but nice try! I too hope they recover from the psychological abuse they’ve all consistently stated you’ve put them through. And you’re clearly not moving forward in life either, considering that you’ve apparently used the same manipulation tactics and abusive behavior for 10+ years. Also your videos haven’t changed or improved either so there’s that, too! So maybe rethink your strategy 🙂 .

Why Onision won't just admit that Kai sent nudes to a minor Because it’s true! But the “fact machine” doesn’t want to admit this fact. So he’s using manipulative wording so he doesn’t have to admit that his parter actually broke the law! Something that “the most honest youtuber” says he would never stand behind. That’s the truth, isn’t it Greg?

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

If Kai broke the law he would be in jail by now… so, that’s reality *shrugs* Second fact is that Kai would never want to send a minor nudes in his adult life because he has no interest in sending a minor nudes. Neither of us condone that behavior. Again, Kai has never had any desire to do so. Also, realize the legal age of consent is 16 here, and Kai has to this day never performed any inappropriate acts on anyone under 18 in his adult life, despite it being legal — my husband is a pretty great guy.

replied 5 hours ago

That’s actually not reality… tons of people who break the law aren’t in jail. What world are you living in? And again, love that manipulative wording. “Would never want to send” is not the same as “has never sent”. But you can’t say that second phrase, can you? And the age of consent law isn’t the same as “sending communication with a minor for immoral purposes” law. For someone who knows so much about age of consent law, I’m surprised you don’t know this. For example: Didn’t you say that your dad had molested a minor? Why isn’t he in jail?

What does 'Kai has never had any interest in sending any non-adult nudes.' actually mean? I’m sorry if I’m missing the point here. Please could you expand just a little bit?The facts I can see. 1. Sarah has nudes of Kai (evidence posted online) 2. Sarah was underage when she recieved them (you can tell by matching Kai’s hair and clothing to a certain time-period)So did Sarah steal them? How did she come into possession of them if  not? You’re going to have to explain clearer because it doesn’t look good, if got to say.

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

The legal age of consent in Washington is 16, no one dated or did anything sexual to said person regardless. This points out something incredibly obvious: No one wanted to be with someone under 18, and clearly, no one was even though legally they could have been. There was no guardianship as I have been informed, only a medical waiver was signed. Kai never had any desire to send any minor any photos, Kai never did anything sexual to said minor despite being around them often. People try to paint Kai as some perv, when in fact, he is a great guy. If someone leaked photos of them, they should be dealt with, but Kai never had any interest in sending anyone who was not an adult photos like that.

Quick question https://twitter.com/maakenshixx/status/1173280285439299584 Hey James, I saw that you posted a tweet saying that you and Kai never sent nudes to Sarah went she was underage or any other minor for that matter. I then saw this, I’m wondering what’s going on. Is there any explanation for the fact sarah is saying that Kai sent her these when she was 15?

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

Please refer to the numerous other questions on this site for the answer. It makes everything fairly clear Kai is innocent of being evil or having any ill intentions as people seem to believe. Kai deserves better.

replied 4 hours ago

If you were making it clear then people would stop asking.

Accusations Ok, so on your Facebook page half the comments are accusing you of grooming children and/or being a phedophile. There seems to be a lot of evidence. If there’s any truth why aren’t you in jail? If its not true why have you gotten tired of saying your innocent?

Onision Staff answered 5 hours ago

Your first question answers the second one. Please refer to other sections of this questions page for more extensive answers. Kai is a really good person who would never want to do what people say he did. People have been mixing us up, and even targeting him just to hurt me, seems like silly internet drama as usual.

replied 4 hours ago

People get away with so many things without being in jail. You are extremely black and white in your views, there is literal proof of Kai doing the things he has been accused of, just because you’re worse doesn’t make him good

[migleefulmoments]

I'm from SC and to be fair, it's the Palmetto state. I'd feel like it'd be pretty easy to act like SC palms are LA palms. It's so weird to me that they use her as a source, nothing she says can be backed up or validated? Doesn't she claim to be a PR insider, or something like that? Why would she live on the opposite coast, in SC of all places

That’s an interesting tidbit-something I hadn’t considered.

No, her posts were never backed up with proof- she never provided enough information to make it possible to vet her posts. Here are a few from the last week of March 29-31, 2017.  These are literally all the post that she wrote for that period- aka this is the the information her followers were getting except for a thread about Ben that I left out and the reblogs.  

Nomie party (X)

You did????? When? Was I annoyingly perky or in professional mode??

That’s freaking awesome. We must have lunch.

Didn’t post the ask cause that was too many details on that party. 😂😂 already been in trouble thanks.

Glad I’m not the only one that thought he is an ass.

Anonymous asked:

You are gloating aren't you?

Who me? I would never……😇😇😇😇😇

Yeah okay maybe a little. 😈😈😈😈😈

Anonymous asked:

Just being nosey...what are you gloating about?

I might have overheard some of the highlights to a certain article and had mentioned them. The nomie didn’t believe me. 😁 guess they do now.

Anonymous asked:

Thoughts on the recent posts of the sock acct?

She seems like she has had a meltdown. Maybe she is high? Honestly not being funny here.

She is all over the place. One minute she is deleting. One minute saying his Fandom is over, another saying let’s be friends and nice to everyone no matter the ships, then next raging at everybody. Deleting even her favorite responders comment’s…

All this while insisting she isn’t able to be online. 😑😑

Anonymous asked:

You have overheard the lea's article??

More like… at the right party at the right time.

Anonymous asked:

I wonder where m is? And what's happening in the next couple days.

Couldnt tell you.

I mean in in La and in hollywood right now working. (Well not today I had a free day)

we hear different things here. Pr talk is a bit different here. Its kind of like…. everyone knows stuff. But it different than what or wants you to know. So I couldn’t even begin to answer what GA folks are being fed.

Anonymous asked:

You have overheard the lea's article??

More like… at the right party at the right time.

Anonymous asked:

When did you see them out? Details

Can’t really say where I was as it included what I was doing and with whom. But it was here after the first of the year

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These are typical posts she would make about her personal life- cryptic, over-the-top and full of BS. She claimed at the time that she was staying at the home of some uber-wealthy guy who was letting her stay there with the roomies and she had permission to take his BMW anytime she wanted- but she never did-she took Uber and posted about her favorite Uber driver.  She claimed she was an working actress and model for Fenty among other companies. She had an IG which was full of Fashion Nova posts where she called herself an actress, model and influencer.    

La chronicles day… I think I just live here now.

Feeling better yeah!!!!

On the list of things I never thought I’d say with such enthusiasm..

“I fought the housekeeper and won!!”

Aka I made dinner and it is full of veggies.

Because apparently some men don’t understand that I’m not 99% muscle

😑😑😑 they are acting like I demanded they be drawn and quartered. Eat the damn veggies you big babies.

Side note, you know that heifer glared at me, sighed and mumbled under her breath that I would mess up her kitchen. Bite me lady.

la life

eat the damn veggies

veggies won't kill you

Legit conversation that happened at lunch

Background. Met the rookmies 😄😄 (this just tickles me) for a late lunch before my shoot. As I’m sitting at the table waiting for them… cue ego tripping hetero male who apparently thought he was gods gift to manhood. (I didn’t get the memo) . He will hence forth be called male chauvinist jackass or Mcj for short …….

Mcj: hi babe, how you doing… Me: 😐 Mcj: I said hi babe how’s you?….

Me: I heard you I was just waiting for you to say hi miss or hello ma'am or something.   Mcj: whatever. This seat taken (as he sits down)

Fill in pointless small talk. Me mostly using one word answers.

Me: yes actually Mcj: whatever so I was thinking, you me dinner then maybe head back to my place, watch a movie….

Me: no thank you. Mcj: babe, come on now, don’t you know who I am? Me: no, should I?

Mcj: why yeah I’m on tv. Me: so? I’ve been on tv and will be again.. your point?

Cue more pointless small talk me just nodding. At some point the rookies show up and are headed over to the table. And I point them out.

Mcj: look so I’m doing you a solid, you can go far being attached to me, so ditch the gay boy band. and let’s go.

This mofo actually pulls out my chair and takes my arm.

………

So what did I learn this evening?

1). 5 inches wedge heels apparently hurt like a bitch on ones instep.   2). Apparently some dudes think this is cute. 3). Don’t piss off the gay boy band, any one of them can kick your butt and not break a sweat.   4 ). Telling a woman to get a real job after I mention why I was busy that evening is probably not the way to get a date. 5) all of the above behavior is not the way to get a date.

I’ve totally summed this up. But for the first time I was able to project anger in photos 😂😂😂 usually I have problems going there lol.

la life

some dudes are idiots

So break in the shoot for some entertainment.

Overheard conversation

“Sandra…. sandra. Bring the butt pads.”

“The lifters or the volume?”

“She has lift, bring the volume” Then heard mumbled “ she’s black… how does she have a white chick ass? She has boobs for days but no ass.”

Then… you realize sandra is walking towards yours truly.

Well ya can thank my German ancestors for that one. Don’t blame me the stylist put me in this maxi dress.

Oy vey………

la life

I'm not bad I'm drawn that way

La premorning gameshow

When your sitting in hair and makeup, wondering if you think they think you can breathe through osmosis.

Omfg. Could you have picked a tighter pair of jeans?

I’m not exactly sitting … more like reclining with style.

FYI deserts before the sun comes up… are cold as heck. Holy crap. 😜😜😜

Ugh. La chronicles .. . time to catch up .

Paying for those two days off. Make up time. Shoot before the Crack of dawn (and i do mean before the crack of dawn) and one this evening.

la life

Busy busy.

Okay soooooooko Goes from cold to….. let’s melt you skin off. 😂

On the plus side. Done til 5pm and I get to do it all over again.

Beach side this time whooo hooo.

[renegade-is-in-my-blood]

Hey. In summer 2015 my family and I went to Bulgaria. Why do I mention Bulgaria if this is supposed to be story about Dracula in Romania ?

Well as I’m from east of Slovakia on our car ride to Bulgaria we had to ride quite a journey and most off our ride was through Romania.

As a teen fascinated by popular vampires like Twilight saga, Vampire diaries, True blood or classic Bram Stoker’s Dracula I convinced my fam to make a stop and explore Romania for a bit and visit some notorious places connected to Dracula. After our online search we picked 2 places – Dracula’s castle and grave. Plan was to visit grave, stay the night at a hotel we booked ahead and continue our long drive to our final destination – Bulgaria, and on our way back visit castle, also stay the night and continue home.

But reality was slightly different.

Here is the rough distance we took from our place to Bulgaria:

We clearly went through a lot of Romania and unfortunately there were very few, almost no high ways and we was stuck behind trucks that were slowing us way down all the time. Because of this terrible road experience we did not have enough time to visit Dracula’s grave and we headed straight to our place for the night and continued to our holiday destination so we’ll be on time at our hotels check up.

All along our ride we could notice this incredibly marvelous houses. It would probably look luxurious in different setting , but in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by pretty much nothing it looked so odd. We could see 5-7 of this fairytale houses in a row and then just road and fields. It was not even like a village cuz there would be no other buildings just this huge houses. I also noticed them in bigger towns as well. It was still very spectacular to look at them.

We arrived safely and had amazing time in Bulgaria but I’m gonna talk about that in separate article soon.

So on our way back we had full program for one day – we wanted to visit both of attractions we planed and stay the night in Romania as well.

Let’s talk about Dracula for a while. Ofc we were not looking for actual Transylvanians vampires but tracking the life of Vlad III/ Vlad the Impaler/ Vlad Dracula – ruler of Wallachia. Vlad’s life and especially his cruelty inspired famous Bram Stoker in his novel Dracula which added great popularity to this historical figure. Not that he needed any more popularity I mean this dude was not called impaler just for a fun. This guy was impaling people through their rectum all the way up ( I once saw this brutal documentary where scientists were testing if it was possible that the victims of this kind of piecing could actually survive several days while being impaled as legends tell (spoiler alert – they could but it required a great amount of skills)), dipping bread in his enemies blood while dining near their dead bodies (allegedly – who can really tell)

I once saw this documentary explaining why legend of vampires came from countries like Romania or  Bulgaria.  I don’t remember the dates or name of the plague but to explain it simply, somehow dead people were not actually dead and they were waking up in their graves and dying horrible death, so to prevent this you had to imply them with a stick to make sure they are actually dead. I guess not everyone was familiar with this. Also they were making very shallow graves for their dead so when the float came and brought up the dead implied with the stick – obviously people freak and the legends begun.

There’s a bunch of articles about Vlad and his life if you’re curious for more.

Truth remains Vlad Dracula’s sadism and Stokers book are great for Romania’s tourism.

  We had all of the directions in our GPS so it was easy to find the place while we were in a car. Turns out the grave of Vlad – Comana Monastery is in the middle of lake on a small island. What surprised me the most was the lack of people,  I assumed we would just follow other tourist and won’t have to do such search on our own.

And the strangeness just began.

We came to this island where we could see the towers of the monastery and small pavement leading to it. When we came closer we met this family that were clearly residents as they were all in their comfy home clothes just chilling in front of their house right next to the monastery. The had this 2 small dogs that were laying in the heat on the grass. I remember this 2 old ladies, probably grandmas, small kids and one middle-aged lady all staring at us as we just entered their property in the middle of the day. I still have no idea what really went on cuz the weirdness was just too much. We quickly considered leaving but decided to go on and see what happens. The lady came to us and of course she did not speak english, nor could we speak Romanian, but somehow we let here know that we’re looking for Dracula’s tomb. She understood and led us to the monastery, actually unlocked the door with a key from her pocket in font of us – obviously there were no other tourist beside us.

We wanted to ask how much is for the ticket and lady handed us paper where she wrote the number (as it was easier to understand the number that just words) but it was in Romanian currency called lei, and all we had was Bulgarians lev and euros. Lady picked up calculator and paper with all of currency written on it. I guess she was not very good at math at school cuz the price she wanted for ticket to see the monastery – where we were already standing and it was  just this one room – was over 1000 euros. We laughed and tried explain to her that it must be a mistake that  she can’t charge 1000 euros for this place, so she was calculating it again and again for several minutes and the language barrier was making this all so hard for both of us. It turned out to be 10 euros in the end but no one can be really sure so my dad gave here like 20 euros just in case and joined us – while we already seen everything there was.

It looked like any other orthodox church in our place, gold, pictures of saints, mosaics, crosses and on the ground simple grey rectangle with picture of Vlad III and I guess there was a candle on the ground and that was it – that was the tomb.

We did not take any photos as we figured it was forbidden as lady just said “no” and pointed to our camera. She actually tried to tell us something about this place using hands instead of words and it was like playing charades. From what we guessed she was telling us about tunnels that was underneath the monastery, and Vlad was probably hiding there at some point, and most interesting part was when she “told” us that this was grave of Vlad’s headless body. Dracula’s head is buried in some other place but I might have guessed her gestures all wrong.

What was most fascinating for me was the strange feeling of this place AND (!!)   there were satanic looking symbols all over the holly pictures and walls painted  with deep dark reddish color.

It was creepy as hell. And I’m really not making this up even when this was 3 years ago ( i could never forget this) me and my sisters were just checking them all like what the fuck is that. There were pentagrams, stars, birds and other animals just simple ornaments all over the lower parts of walls on this place and it remind me of literally any episode of TV show called Supernatural ( cool show I would recommend  watching if you’re into creepy horror like theme but it has like 20 series and I got bored after half of it) I tried to search for it online but I can’t seem to find the proof of my words anywhere. It might be just local vandals or something but it was odd like this whole experience.

BTW how cool is this family – imagine you have Dracula buried in your backyard. Forget the part about  the vampire stuff  but you have a guy who’s famous for his sadism buried in your backyard. Forget about that as well but you have your country’s ruler’s headless body buried in your backyard. This family is wild.

  All of our Dracula’s grave visit took us around 15 minutes and we wet out, sat in a car and headed to Dracula’s castle – Castle Bran

Storm was coming, air got thicker the closer we got, dark clouds and Dracula’s castle in the distance. This image looks like straight out of Dracula’s novel:

As I mentioned – great for tourism – the closer we got the more of this gift shop we saw alongside the roads.

Make sure you remember the opening hours to this castle – or any other place you want to visit – otherwise you’ll be standing 5 minutes after closing hours like we did. We missed it. So we adjusted the plan again – we had dinner under the castle, checked out some souvenirs and headed to our place for the night. We stayed with some locals that offer a room, or whole floor in our case for tourists. It’s much cheaper and feels more at home than hotel.

  We tried it again in the morning – opening hours of Bran castle 9:00 – 19:00 – price 15 euros. The place was lovely , lot of tourists though. There were huge gardens underneath the castle and you had to climb you way up to the castle.

  Insides had quite small ceilings, so someone as tall as my dad would need to be very careful. You could find descriptions and stories in every room in different languages. Old rooms, displays of fashion, weapons, furniture, combs, torture instruments and incredible view – here are some photos:

  Fun fact: even thought its famous as Dracula’s castle – actual Vlad Dracula spend there only very short period. All of the tourists are there for the place where Bran Stokers novel occurs. And tourism is benefiting – I myself got shit ton of Dracula’s souvenirs.

To be fair I was not as thrilled about this castle. Being from middle europe I’m very well familiar with castles or monasteries as we have a lot of them in my country and since I was a kid I took family or school trips to almost every of them. And in the end they all start to look the same (sorry) I’m sure it would be fascinating for someone who never visited such place – it was just nothing new for me. And the connection to Dracula was very little – his tomb was at least creepy and I would never forget that but I can hardly remember the castle now.

I would still recommend both places as they were both very interesting and memorable experiences for me.

Thank you so much for your attention

xo Natalia

Visiting Dracula in Romania Hey. In summer 2015 my family and I went to Bulgaria. Why do I mention Bulgaria if this is supposed to be story about Dracula in Romania ?

[chelseyroseblog]

PROPER REST TIME DEPENDING ON YOUR FITNESS GOALS

Hi beauties!

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I would like to start this by saying that I am currently sitting in a coffee bean, SUCCESSFULLY ignoring my massive craving for a bagel with peanut butter right now…just pretending to enjoy this cappuccino with burnt milk, living my best life.

Also - listening to the new Kevin Abstract album, on repeat. Anyone else a fan? Ugh it’s so good.

ANYWAY - I want to talk about rest periods because there’s a lot of contradicting convos going on and I feel like it would help to just clear the air up a bit.

> I have a lot of clients say they want to get a bigger butt or sculpted arms but they don’t want to lift any weight.

> I have other clients who are so used to the quick fast paced environment of fitness classes that they tell me they don’t feel like they’re getting in a good workout unless they sweat a lot but they also don’t feel like they’re getting any stronger in their weekly classes.

> And I have other clients that I train online that just want to know how fast they should be going. How much rest is too much rest? How much rest is actually too LITTLE? What’s the benefit of longer or shorter rest periods?

WELLLL it all depends on your goals, but you can really think about it in 3 separate categories. Let’s start here:

STRENGTH TRAINING

Strength training of course means using weight but today it holds more meaning than just that. If your goal is to build strength faster, then your focus should be on doing strength training workouts. According to ASSM, if you’re looking to get stronger faster, then the best rest time for you is 3-5 minutes between sets.

Keep in mind though that if you’re doing proper “strength” training then you are doing 1-6 reps per set MEANING that you are using a weight that you can literally only lift between 1-6 times before failure. With that said, it’s pretty clear that whatever you’re doing is HARD and heavy af.

During this kind of training, your body uses phosphagens from your ATP system (Adenosine Triphosphate Phosphocreatine System) in order to produce energy VERY quickly without the use of Oxygen (less than 10 seconds).

BUT your body’s phosphagen reserve is like the shitty street light that everyone hates. It lasts for about 15 seconds then takes 3 minutes before it turns green again.

So we use up our reserve within that 15 seconds while we do our 1-6 reps and then if we wait the proper 3-5 minutes before we try to go again, then we’ll be able to lift more weight, and get stronger, faster.

According to Bodybuilding.com :

In one study, athletes lifted a weight more times in 3 sets after resting 3 minutes compared to when they rested only 1 minute (Kraemer, 1997). Another study showed a 7% increase in squat strength after 5 weeks of training with 3 minute rest periods.

The group that rested for 30 seconds only improved their squat by 2% (Robinson et al, 1995). Two more studies that examined very short rest periods (30 to 40 seconds) found they caused nowhere near the strength gains from longer rest periods (Kraemer et al, 1987; Kraemer, 1997)”

MY SUGGESTION:

If you’re looking to build strength in a specific area (like booty for example) then try adding one day a week of STRENGTH TRAINING. Try doing 5 sets of hip thrusts for 5-6 reps, then rest for 3-5 minutes before trying again.

Follow that up with some complimentary exercises like:

3 x 12 Romanian Dead Lifts

3 x 10 Goblet Squats

And then end with some band work and really chase the burn with:

3 x 30 band walks.

UNLESS - you are a beginner. If you are just getting into weight training then you might want to do a month of training where each exercise is done for a rep range of 10-15 to strengthen ligaments and avoid getting hurt.

2. HYPERTROPHY TRAINING:

Who’s heard of this one?!

Hypertrophy training is what you do when you want to get bigger, faster. The rep range for this type of training is typically anywhere from 6-12 reps.

The rest time for this kind of training is 1-2 minutes because this short rest period causes a greater release of anabolic (growth) hormones than longer rest periods. Resting for shorter periods of time also causes more of a burn in the muscles which I’m sure we’ve all experienced. This burn is the sign of lactic acid building up and the “pump” for lack of a better word, is the blood flow to that area, which is actually a great thing because where there’s quicker blood flow - there’s more protein being delivered to that area as well! Woooo!

I think hypertrophy training is my favorite kind of training. You might be thinking, well I don’t WANT to grow my muscles, and I don’t WANT to get BULKY. Fortunately for you, getting bulky is SUPER hard to do. You may think that your training is making you bulky but chances are, it’s your diet that’s throwing you off. Plus - we don’t have nearly enough testosterone to grow the way that men do.

Guys on average have 300 - 1,000 u/dL whereas females only have 30 - 90 u/dL. We’re like delicate little flowers lol and thinking that we’re going to get as bulky as men is like thinking a little flower can turn into a huge palm tree. It’s just not going to happen, unless you’re taking steroids…then, well…we know what that looks like.

True anabolism from hypertrophy training only last about 48 hours which is why for someone who wants to grow their ass, they need to be CONSISTENT and SHOW UP REGULARLY in order to see the kind of results they’re expecting. If you do hypertrophy training 1-2 times a week then don’t do it again for a week, your muscles are just in a maintenance phase rather than a growth phase.

MY SUGGESTION:

Do 2-3 days of hypertrophy training a week with your 1 day of strength training. I make sure to set my timer during rest periods to ensure that I get going again as soon as I need to… or else I end up getting distracted and taking 5 minute rest periods which is no bueno.

3. ENDURANCE TRAINING:

Endurance training is best for anyone who is looking to increase their muscular endurance. This is what most of us ladies are used to with all the classes that we typically attend. As a trainer I know that if I take a women through a endurance style workout that she’s most likely going to do a great job BUT if I were to take a man though the same kind of workout, it would kill them. Men don’t do as much endurance training as they do strength and hypertrophy.

Classic endurance training is when you use light weights for 15-20 reps and rest for 45 seconds to a minute between sets and it’s biggest purpose is to make your muscles more resistant to fatigue. If you want to start applying true endurance training to your workouts, try doing a 1:1 work to rest ratio or a 1:2.

So if you did the 1:1 ratio you would do for example, squats for 30 seconds then rest for 30 seconds. If you did the 1:2 ratio then you would do squats for 30 seconds then rest for 1 min.

MY SUGGESTION:

Add one day of endurance training to your weekly training regime!

So now you can see why if you’re someone like the old me, you’re wondering why your butt ins’t getting any bigger even though you’re going to Orange Theory and Barry’s every day.

Or maybe you can now see why going to Yoga and doing cycling a few times a week isn’t exactly getting you the toned look that you want.

As women we need to work on not being so afraid of the gym and of lifting weights. We don’t have NEARLY the same amount of testosterone that men do so we can get away with doing the “same” training as men and experience great results without looking like a man.

Also something to note is that you can’t spot reduce (burn fat in one particular area on your body) but you can build muscles in specific areas.

So for me, I might do 2 lower body hypertrophy days a week + 1 lower body strength training day and then I’ll do 1 upper body hypertrophy day + 1 full body endurance day.

My main focus isn’t to grow my arms but I never neglect them and I still use heavier weights than most women. I’d say my arms are strong and toned and not bulky. Before when I was using 2-5 pound dumbbells for my upper body, I had flabby arms. Now I curl with a 40 pound barbell, bench with 35’s, do overheads presses with 25 pounds, etc and my arms have done nothing but toned up.

Just try it and see how it benefits you!!

If you feel like you’re lost or would like some personal guidance in the gym, e-mail me at info@chelseyrosehealth.com to talk about your goals and get a personalized work out plan!

x

[thedispatched]

Ok so I finally read the soompi post defending Lucas and I wanted to share my thoughts:

They presented some strong points, but their bias is also pretty obvious and they always land with such bold assumptions that just don't make sense. It makes me a bit skeptical.

Anyway, I'll start with the information they got from the ooooshiiim account and the twitter prediction account:

The user ids they represented are def real, that can be easily confirmed by going to websites that translate user handles to ids.

But them comparing one manga character to lucas and assuming that somehow that disproves OP 1's claims is hilarious LMAO. The description of the fictional character would literally fit most male idols, idk how they went like "oh this guy severely resembles lucas, another evidence yay!"

As with the Instagram account, I can't seem to find it?? If, say, it's really OP, did they happen to find the soompi post and decided to delete the Instagram account/change the username? This is also poses the possibility that the Instagram account isn't actually real, but I guess we'll never know.

I also wish the soompi lumi provided a link to the account and some more elaboration on how their cyber investigator found it through the twitter acc's digital footprints. The manga part is very elaborate but most else is just pretty vague which I find a bit questionable?

The said fabrication of the chat records: doesn't the gaps depend on what version of WeChat it is? I searched for "wechat screenshots" and some gaps can indeed be as big as the ones in the chat records.

It would also have been better if they highlighted the gap inconsistencies/misalignments they are pointing out because personally I don't see it(but maybe it's just my eyes bluffing).

I don't have much to say about the schedule parts since I don't follow their schedules closely and I'm too lazy to search for it, but I guess what those fans said do make sense.

The voice messages: I don't have much to say either since I don't speak korean. But last time I heard the alleged voice message and the bubble one lumis are using as proof, they didn't sound alike. But then again, I don't know korean.

The sasaeng photos: I guess it also kinda makes sense. But I feel like the fan who said they got the same photo OP 1 had provided should have just showed a screenshot of her conversation with the sasaeng she claims to be selling them, I mean, the photo is already out, so what difference of not specifying which photo it is/not showing the screenshots of her conversation with the sasaeng would make?

The ring part: the soompi lumi's argument also seems pretty valid. It really does not look like his finger.

The OP 2 part: I don't know mandarin or cantonese so I can't really comment on the nuances the fans are trying to point out. I don't understand the red boxes though, were those part of the original photos OP 2 provided or are they highlights of the misalignments lumis are trying to point out?

The OP 3 part: Oh they can definitely be a guy, but it's also possible that they didn't use their actual gender in the account(I myself do that all the time, for privacy reasons). But once again, we will never know which is true.

The photo is indeed very questionable. Why is the background blurred? Why are there plushies everywhere? Why is there a reflection of what seems like a man in the glass when they're supposedly alone? But there seems to be a door and a small hallway reflected on the glass too? It looks clean and hotel-like. And the one who took the photo seemed to be sitting right besides him based on the photo's angle. If it's taken by a sasaeng staff as fans have claimed, how did the sasaeng staff secretly took a photo like that while literally sitting besides lucas and with other people around them(like the "man in the glass") without the other people in the dorm questioning what the fuck is that staff doing? But another explanation I can think of(if the photo really came from a sasaeng staff) is that a member took the photo(with Lucas being aware of it) and somehow the sasaeng staff managed to get it?

With OP 3's chat records, again I don't see the gap mistakes or misalignment they are pointing out, I again tried to look at WeChat examples on the internet and the difference between the size of the messages and the dates is a normal thing, so is the gap between 2 messages vs the gap at bottom of the chat. And the "difference" between the two s's in lucas's username they are pointing out is honestly ridiculous. The photo is taken from an asymmetrical angle, of course the sizes would look unequal.

The sleeping photos: the plushies' textures don't look the same, dorm plushie looks more rough while the plushie Lucas is sleeping with looks softer and fuzzier. And if it was taken by a sasaeng in the wayv dorm as fans have claimed, how the hell is the sasaeng within such a close proximity? There's so many people in the dorm and I doubt they'd be all asleep at that time to not notice that a sasaeng is right besides their sleeping member literally photographing him.

The jacket and photo receipts: Oh I've seen this on another article. I'm convinced with the debunking of the jacket part, and receipts are everywhere in the internet. I guess it isn't impossible that OP 3 might have just took the receipts somewhere online.

OP 4's surfing video: Yes, same pose, but different angles? That does not look exactly the same as the one he showed in his socials. But that black spot is definitely questionable.

OP 4's WeChat records: Oh another questionable one. Especially the imbalance in the color value. But once I again I think it would have been better if they provided the links to the other debunk posts they included because man I can't see the cutting traces in the chats that they are pointing out.

OP 1's second post: again I think the difference in wechat date layouts depend on the version? And why did most koreans themselves didn't question the difference in OP 1's wechat? Like if korean wechat really don't look like that, wouldn't they point it out?

"their account creation dates and account activity all falls within the same time period." Um no?? 2015, 2019, 2018 are same time periods??

In conclusion, as I said before, I think the soompi lumi presented strong points that really make you question the credibility of the allegations, but their intense bias towards lucas makes them quite questionable, too. And the way they treat every debunk post like the absolute divine truth is pretty off-putting.

I'm convinced not everything in the allegations are true. I'm just curious about the severity of his actions. Maybe he dated them, but maybe he wasn't an asshole? But if that's the case why would they try to ruin his image if he treated them right? Or maybe he really was an asshole but some of the story isn't true? Ah I'm still so confused of what to think but I believe there has to be some truth in the story, but just how bad is the truth???

thank you for sending me your thoughts! it's always interesting to see what other people think. (and sorry for the late reply!)

i'm not gonna say much as i've talk about my thoughts on the post already.

i agree about the manga, it's absolutely ridiculous how comparing one manga character to lucas debunks their claims. that's just one example of one of the far fetched assumptions that made me lean more towards not believing the article.

part of me also wondered if they created the ig account for their article but like you said, we’ll never know.

even if it doesn’t look like his finger in the messages, I’m pretty sure he mentioned winwin in the texts ??

I know some people blur the background of photos for either aesthetic, or mostly for privacy reasons.

I honestly don’t know how people are seeing a man in the reflection. It’s a literally blob. You can’t make out any (person) shape.

The jacket and receipts is the only thing I took away from that article that I actually kind of believed. I talked about this with another anon. That is super easy to fake, but the photos were also originally blurry so a “blur” around the words would be hard to solidify as evidence unless the photo is in ultra hd or something lol. But to me this is the most believable to be fake.

I once saw a twitter thread pointing out how the messages weren’t photoshopped and explained why they looked “misaligned” or whatever but I can’t remember what it said exactly besides auto translations. I won’t be able to find it again because it was so long ago :/

Someone can correct me if I’m wrong but wechat is more of a China thing? Like not a lot of people outside of China/non-Chinese use it. You’re right about why Koreans didn’t point it out, but I don’t think they’d know if they don’t use it ??

You asked a lot of questions and pointed out a lot of things that are something to think about, but I don’t think anyone has a clear answer unless you have an extreme bias.

I also wondered the severity of his actions. I think this whole thing is a mix of truth and lies. We all want to know the truth and the worst part is we never will. Like you said, how bad is the truth?

(I might edit this later and add some stuff 😅)

[jerometbean]

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Customize Video clips, images, GIFs: You can add customizations to add personality or to contribute to adding emphasis to your message.

Export video up to 4K: High-quality video, which allows your customers to understand that you are at the top of their game by exporting your video up to 4K in HD.

Millions of stock images: Covrr studio gives you access to stock photos and stock videos that you can use. It’s worth the price all alone! You can use icons of Covrr Studio to customize your video, more than 100 icons.

Preview Prior to rendering: before rendering, you can see how your video is going to look, which makes editing your video perfect and ready to render smooth.

Timeline Editor: Add any item in the video and scream for attention at any point in time.

Who “Covrr Studio” Is Suitable For?

Content creators

People who work as a freelancer

Digital marketers

Coaches

Local businesses

Bloggers & website owners

Local business owners

Ecom sellers (eBay, Amazon, Shopify, etc.)

Youtubers

Agency owners

Literally, anybody who uses videos in their online/offline business can benefit from using Covrr studio!

Everybody wants high-converting influencer-style videos for their business and with Covrr Studio you can do just that…

In addition, it allows you to charge higher prices than you can for “ordinary” video marketing videos because they are proven!

You can create highly engaging, profit-driven Videos in minutes with Covrr Studio and know that your customers will have a real result.

The Advantages & Disadvantages

Advantages

Get more engagement on any videos

Convert any video into profit getting videos

Add urgency to videos

Add your authority branding to your video

Turn boring videos into attractive videos

Build a huge list

Get more leads and sales from the same video content

Skyrocket your conversions

Save time on complicated tools

Bring down your advertisement costs

Disadvantages

Launch special included commercial license only if you act now

It could be excellent if the software does rendering

There is no email notification alert once the video render finishes

What Are The Best Ways To Utilize This Software?

BE A LOCAL MARKET SUPERHERO:

Right now, local businesses need YOUR help more than ever. You must take note and ring the register. Period.

Covrr Studio is here, and you can create these profitable videos that ring their register and make a difference in the bottom line of your business.

Simply reach local restaurants, lounges, dentists, fitness centers, etc. and show them sample videos of your portfolio and inquire if the videos can be optimized for example.

Once you notice how it looks and performs, it is an excellent way not only to sell your marketing services to video clients but to find customers that bring long-term cash flow.

You can sell more of your services by perfect foot in the door.

HIRE SECTION INSIDE CRAIGLIST & WARRIOR FORUM (AND OTHER FORUMS):

Hundreds of jobs are posted daily on platforms like Craiglist & forums where buyers are ready to pay you immediately for your services.

SHOW OFF YOUR VIDEOS:

Show off your videos on Facebook Groups, Pinterest, Slideshare, Reddit & more. Thousands of business owners with ready wallets are looking for serious help with their business.

START SELLING GIGS ON FIVERR/UPWORK:

Both of these sites are flooded with business owners that need video marketing help. Simply list your service, build a small portfolio of examples, and have orders coming in.

Moreover, these are easy to accomplish since the Covrr Studio app handles every ‘work’ you need so that you can turn projects into minutes and get paid!

CovrrStudio Frequently asked questions

If I buy the commercial license – can I sell it to clients? With Covrr studio commercial license you can create unlimited videos. Most importantly you can use it to create profit-pulling videos for your clients.

How many templates Covrr Studio has? You have 100 ready to use done for your templates. You can customize these pre-made templates as well.

Should I subscribe to third party stock media platforms? No, Covrr Studio app has millions and millions of stock footage and images.

Is this one-time fee the only fee? Yes, if you buy it right now you only pay a one-time fee during the launch period. It will be a monthly subscription product after a month or so.

How does this compare to other video tools? This is a video tool with a lot of first to market features… So Covrr Studio doesn’t have any competition when it comes to incredible video wrapping technology, progress bars, countdown times, and automated captions.

Does it support 4K video? Yes, with Covrr Studio you can export your videos in 4K mode.

Will this platform be supported over the years? Yes. Covrr Studio has been developed by Karthik Ramani and his team. These guys created amazing products over the last 15 years. Some of them are EverLesson, Extempore, Skilexa, MarketPresso & many more. You will see constant updates and improvements happening over the years for Coverr studio.

Covrr Studio Upsells, Pricing & Evaluation

Covrr Studio FE – Commercial ($37 one-time)

Create unlimited attention-grabbing videos

100 handcrafted templates

Create video from scratch

10 MOV templates

Import video from multiple sources

Header & footer wrapper

Automated fully editable captions

Add captions in any language using your own transcription file

Video of any length / no time restrictions

50 top-notch fonts

Add your own branding/watermark

Video progress bar

Add shapes, emojis, images, GIF’s

Export video up to 4k

Millions of stock footages & images

100+ icons

Add countdown timer

Preview before render

Timeline editor

Up to 1GB internal storage & unlimited external storage

CovrrStudio OTO #1 – Professional ($67 one-time)

Convert your video into multiple layouts in 1 click

Unlimited custom font uploads

Create your own template

Upload own transcription file (.srt file)

Download caption to use in website/blog clone campaigns

Additional 100 pro templates

Upload your own MOV file for wrapper

Collaborate with up to 10 team members / virtual assistants with separate login

Assign specific projects to team members

Monitor status of all projects (submit for approval, pending for review, approved)

200 high-converting wrapper text/captions from videos with millions of views

Priority rendering

Text animation

Directly share on social media

CovrrStudio OTO #2 – Template Club ($27 monthly)

25 Facebook ad video templates

25 Instagram / Facebook story video templates

25 e-commerce video templates

25 meme video templates

25 YouTube video templates

25 Facebook post video templates

100 local business video templates

10 new templates every month for 12 months

5 custom template request

Share template feature to sell your templates to other Covrr Studio users

exclusive Facebook group for template club members

Access to list your templates in the template marketplace for selling to other users

CovrrStudio OTO #3 – Agency ($67 to $97 One-time)

Share videos with clients

Commenting option for client review

Status – submit for approval, pending for review, approved

Add up to 25 additional users to edit your projects

DFY agency website

DFY marketplace inside MarketPresso

DFY sales video to sell video wrapping & caption services

10 DFY social media ads to sell your services

DFY Fiverr gigs

High-converting email swipes

Cold-calling script

Client presentation

Contract document

CovrrStudio OTO #4 – Reseller ($97 to $197 one-time)

Sell 100 Covrr Studio (FE + Pro) access

Sell 250 Covrr Studio (FE + Pro) access

Covrr Studio Vendor Given Bonus

BONUS #1: 4 VENDORSEK COVRR STUDIO SUCCESS TRAINING

Live Training every week for an hour for 4 weeks to help you transform your videos into highly engaging profit-pulling videos using Covrr Studio. This is an exclusive training available only for the founding members of Covrr Studio. At Covrr Studio we are committed to your success and we will leave no stone unturned to fetch you massive results with Covrr Style Videos! In this training, vendors will hold you by the hand and help you create stunning videos using Covrr Studio.

BONUS #2: 50 ADDITIONAL COVRR STUDIO TEMPLATES

Vendors have already given 100 Covrr Studio Templates on the Front End. But Vendors wanted do something extra-special just for our founding members. That is why Vendors have included additional 50 Covrr-Studio Templates as a special bonus to our founding members. So you can have more options and create more beautiful videos using Covrr Studio!

BONUS #3: 25 PREMIUM FONTS

With this bonus, Vendors have included 25 premium fonts that are proven to grab attention and wow your visitors. This is in addition to the existing fonts only for our founding members.

BONUS #4: WATERMARK PROFIT PROTECTION PACK

Vendors will give you an exclusive watermark profit protection pack which you can add to videos you create using Covrr Studio. Grab any video of a potential customer, change it to Covrr Style Video, add these watermarks. Now show this to your potential customers and get paid easily to remove these watermarks because once they see the videos they are going to want them so bad!

BONUS #5: EXCLUSIVE SKYPE SUPPORT GROUP

Your success is our priority. Apart from the support desk you also get access to our exclusive skype support group. You can use this group to get quick responses from our team and fellow Covrr Studio members. Share your Covrr Studio success stories and even find your potential clients. Vendors are going to be around when you need us the most. This is an extra level of commitment Vendors want to show to help you achieve massive results using Covrr Studio. This Bonus again is restricted only to our Covrr Studio Founding members.

BONUS #6: GIF BUNDLE

GIFs are crucial conversion triggers which you can include in your videos to maximize conversions. With this bonus, Vendors have included an exclusive GIF bundle which you can use in your Covrr Studio videos to maximize conversions.

BONUS #7: INVISIBLE LIST BUILDING TRAINING VIDEOS

Vendors are going to show you how to build a powerful “Invisible List” inside of FB that you can run ads to over and over again, and some secret psychological patterns to creating content that you can deploy to skyrocket your conversions!

source https://spsreviews.com/covrr-studio-review/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=covrr-studio-review from SPS Reviews https://spsreviewscom1.blogspot.com/2021/01/covrr-studio-review-make-your-videos-go.html

[majiimeebts]

KIM SEOK-JIN IS A NARCISSIST?: A NOTE TO PROVE YOU WRONG

I've been an active ARMY for idk months (welcome me, fam I just got converted lool), and it really stressed me out when people are saying that Jin is a narcissist, Yoongi is freaking lazy, Jungkook is bossy, Taehyung is annoying alien, Namjoon and Hobi are ugly and Jimin is fat. Wtf?! Who gave you the permission to talk sht about them when you yourselves are nothing near perfection. Lmao

Anw, I'll write some assessment that I actually observed (live shows, bts episodes, fancams, interviews, variety shows, etc).

Let's all start with our very own WORLDWIDE HANDSOME, KIM SEOK-JIN!

Objectivism + Subjectivism will infulence this thread. Since, I'm a Pyschology graduate and will pursue my masteral degree, I believe that my assessment and evaluation would be reliable. This will be long because I have lots of observations and analysis that I’ll put in here. I HOPE YOU BEAR WITH ME.

People say that Kim Seok-jin (a.k.a. the car door guy, the third guy from the left, the worldwide handsome, the great guy, and now the --guy with the grey sweater) is a freaking narcissist, that his mouth is flaring by his big ego, that he's too full of himself. Let me all tell you everybody that KIM SEOK-JIN is not a freaking narcissist.

For you to understand, you have to know well what are the REAL qualities of a narcissist.

I'll input some psychological perspective on this one.

There are two things you have to know: 1. Narcissism is a personality style (w/c means that narcissism could be dominant to you but you can change your attitude based on the situation. In simple term: you can adjust it to fit with your fellows.) 2. Narcissism when it's too irrational and cannot be adjusted, could lead to personality disorder. This is definitely not good because it will be hard to treat someone like this. This could turn out to some more other disorders--distorting his perspectives.

NARCISSIST person: 1. Interpersonally exploitive, taking advantage of others to achieve their own ends.

Argument: So let me ask you, when did Jin take other's advantage just to achieve his own success?

Let me remind you this shitty reality: KIM SEOK-JIN got 2 sec screen time in NOT TODAY MV; he has the shortest line in every damn songs, since he's not too good in dancing, he's always at the back and can't even got a center position, there are times that he didn't get any lines in a song, he is somewhat least appreciated in the group because he doesn't have lots of exposures! 

2. Has a lack of empathy and an inability to recognize and experience how others feel.

Argument: If you are really an ARMY at heart, you definitely know that Kim Seok-jin is like the "MOM" of the group. (I'm not telling that he's the mom-mom like a woman, but he acts like one and the other BTS members say it, too) He's the one who comforts the members especially when they are feel upset, disappointed and down.

REMEMBER THIS?

This is when Jimin got eliminated from high jump competition in ISAC. We all know how hardworking Jimin is, and he tends to be disappointed to himself every time he screws up. So here’s Jin, making the atmosphere light while comforting Jimin who was closed to tearing. He’s emphatic, people!

Another, this one was Hobi’s birthday. Hobi burst in tears when he watched all the video message for him (esp of his family). Here’s our Jin, wiping Hobi’s tears.

This is just another scene--which was happened naturally. Jin has an innate caring quality.

And this one is my fave:

I literally cried while hearing his letter to Yoongi. I suggest, you search for that video. You’ll see how caring, sweet and kind our Kim Seok-jin.

There are lots of situations, happenings that Jin manifested his empathy and care to his members and even with the people around him. To see how caring Jin is (even to other people), try to watch the Law of the Jungle episodes 247 - 253.

3. Is preoccupied with fantasies of success, power, beauty, intelligence or ideal romance. | Shows arrogant behaviors and attitudes.

Argument: Let’s see this one, [POWER/SUCCESS] recently it was exposed that Jin is a son of a CEO. Did he ever mentioned it? Nope. Did he fantasied about it? No. Also, [INTELLIGENCE] remember when they asked him what are his favorite subjects? He never brags about it, he just said nothing. To tell you, this guy has lots of achievement. He graduated his gradeschool, high school/mid school, and he’s also a college graduate-- and now, an online student for his master’s degree. Did he brag about it? No. He also became an student exchange in Australia, so don’t be surprised that HE CAN ACTUALLY SPEAK AND UNDERSTAND ENGLISH WELL. Though he’s not that fluent like Namjoon, but he can freaking speaks and understands English--but did he brag about it? NO. I remember during fansign event, the question addressed to him was in English, a fan asked him if he understands it and he nodded as response as he wrote down his answer to the post-it.

I’ve been thinking, why can’t he just speak in English when he obviously understands it, there’s two reason that I think he’s thinking (this is an opinion based on my observation): a) he don’t feel confident enough to do it. b) he doesn’t want to get too much attention about it--or maybe thinking about the other members’ feelings (who are not really that good in English).

[BEAUTY]

Remember this? He said that he is worldwide handsome but the he added “To tell the truth...it’s really embarrassing to say this stuff. But it makes me feel good about myself.” This might sound contradicting, but I’ll explain it in a simple way: all of us have threats that can stress our ego, and in Psychology, it may resulted for you to become so insecure or can cause you other irrational feelings. That’s the case of our Kim Seokjin. The threat to his ego is his lack of confidence. Next, to be able to lessen the threat, we all need to defend our ego--so that’s what we all know: DEFENSE MECHANISM. So yes people, it’s only Jin’s defense mechanism. HE’S VERY INSECURE PERSON but to be order to regain his confidence, he needs to boost it with the compliments given to him by us, AMRY’s--which is not a FANTASY because in fact, he is really handsome. There’s no distortion of truth (narcissist believes that they are handsome/beautiful even they are not). So it’s definitely okay to say what’s true.

4.  Requires constant attention and admiration.

Argument: If you will observe, during Bon Voyage or any overseas’ trip with the members, you can see all hi dorky and bright side. He’s hella funny and it’s ok to him to make ugly faces just to make his friends laugh.

People, a narcissist person will NEVER do that. It will always be: I don’t care to you, I need to look good. Fvck fun, I need to look good. 

I will just leave these photos to you and you decide.

CONCLUSION:

Kim Seok-jin is not really that confident person. We all know that he started from zero. He really didn’t know how to sing or dance during his pre-debut days and he really work hard for this kind of success. Even his roommate, Yoongi, acknowledged his hard works. I’ll quote this part: “It seems like yesterday when you were concerned and not confident on stage. But when I see you on stage these days, I realize again how well you sing. It's the result of our hard effort for a long period of time.” 

I also remember, during a radio show, Yoongi told a story about Jin. Yoongi just got home because he was working for their new song, and then he heard Jin singing I Like It, and he got surprised why Jin was singing..after that, Jin suddenly said “Oh, sorry sorry.” then Yoongi realized that Jin was singing on his dream and being yelled out for mistakes. And Yoongi said “I realized that Jin hyung really practiced so hard even in his dreams.” This really teared me up because even in dreams, his insecurities of being not good enough is showing.

With all of these, let me ask you again if that Kim Seok-jin guy is a narcissist? I hope this note will enlighten you. Kim Seok-jin needs our support and comfort. He once said that he gains confidence to us, ARMY’s. So please, I’m asking you to give this guy a chance to prove himself more! Give him all the love that he deserves. Thank you for actually reading this!

[jishua-moved]

11 Questions

I was tagged by the lovely Miss Elli <3 @jieqs I hope you’ve been well, sweetie!

Thank you for the tag! ~~

So, you gotta answer the 11 questions, then make up your own 11 questions and tag other ppl.

I tag: @verngyu @baekbyun @suneokmin  @choco-seventeen @verngyu @mxxn-taeil @mimisgf @22wooji @wesaverockandroll  @ohhhappydae @swimmingfool @jeongahn @jeong-hanie @je0nghans @jeongguktm @wooziology @vitaminniedk @boovely @sparkleskwan @sapphire-scorpion @jamlessjisoo @@woozismonth @wonnmoo (asdfghj I tagged a lot of you cuz it’s been ages since I talked to most of you but I always see you on my dash and activity and just know that you guys are loved.)

Questions for you:

Have you met/plan to meet any of your online/tumblr friends?

Have you ever received or a sent a letter/photocard overseas?

What’s a great recipe you’d recommend? Or your favorite dish?

Scariest movie you've ever watched?

Best summer vacation you’ve been on?

Earliest childhood memory?

Plans for the last month of this year?

What do you want to be when you graduate and when do you graduate?

If you had all the money in the world, what would you do with it?

If you were offered a position of an actress in svt’s mv, what would your reaction be, how would you act, etc and would you even take it?

Some good advice for someone going through hardships, depression, anxiety, etc?

My answers to @jieqs ‘s questions are below the cut!

1. What are three favorite photos you have of your bias(es)?

I have them all under my fave tag!

2. If you were able to lucid dream (be in control of your dreams), what would you do?

I actually have had some lucid dreams and omg they were sooooo incredible but I don’t think I've ever been in control. If I could be I'd actually make sure to stay asleep until the dream is over because I always wake up at the most interesting part xD

3. Do you wear your shoes inside the house?

Nope, but I do wear slippers most of the time unless I'm wearing socks. Then I only wear slippers if I go into the bathroom or to the kitchen.

4. On days you don’t have to go out and can stay home, do you change into anything or something different than what you slept in?

Also nope. I sleep in my pajamas and I stay home in them. I’m just too lazy asdfgas and never felt the need to change into sleeping clothes/stay at home clothes. I feel like I will do it once I'm married tho lol.

5. Give me an opinion about socks.

Socks are great cuz I'm legit always cold so I have to wear socks to stay warm, esp during my period but I cannot sleep in them whatsoever.

6. Is there a certain routine you do that you think nobody else does? (Example: I usually warm up salsa (I don’t even eat salsa aksljgksjl))

ajhdsgahs I'm not that special. I had to sit here for a solid 15 mins to come up with something... I wake up every day before sunrise to pray *shrugs* that’s all i got, man.

7. What other fandoms are you in? Have you left any?

I’m into gaming and that’s probably the only solid fandom I've been in since forever.

As for the ones I left or am in and out of (sorta) : the hunger games, teen wolf, the maze runner, taylor swift, game of thrones, the vampire diaries, scream queens, reign, marvel, etc, etc

Recent fandoms I joined/am into currently: stranger things, buzzfeed unsolved

8. Gush about a favorite person or character!

Let’s go with person cuz she’s the one who popped into my head as soon as I saw this question.

She’s something special, literally. She’s super smart, wise, beautiful, has an interesting sense of humor and a voice of an angel. She has an impressive amount of skills and hobbies, can handle legit anything you throw at her. Is one of the most patient people I know. Always has some good advice/solution for you. Strong. Inside and out. Has a heart of gold and even though she can mess up sometimes and maybe not care as much as you want her to but she will try because she does care even if she’s bad at showing it sometimes... If that makes any sense at all.

She’s someone who drives me crazy half of the time but someone I always come back to because I love her with all of my heart... And every time I have a solid conversation with her I am reminded how much I really love her. My complete opposite who never fails to surprise me with her softness. My weakness. Someone I already miss a lot ;-;

9. If you could do anything right now, what would it be?

Go to the national library with my irl bff ;-; We really wanna see those damn books.

10. If your room has windows, do you prefer the shades/blinds/curtains covering the windows or not at all?

I have curtains in my room currently but I don’t really stay up there. I’d definitely prefer curtains in my house or like automatic blinds with a remote.

11. You’re suddenly your bias(es)’ guardian angel for the day! What are you protecting them from or guiding them to do?

who is even my bias? *shrugs* let’s go with Josh then. I’d protect him from simple accidents, harm, etc. The usual since he’s not clumsy or anything and I'd protect him from feeling inner loneliness, making him realize of his self-worth and whatnot. I would guide him to speak up more, interact more, bring him out of his shell and stuff like that. Because Joshua is usually very quiet and doesn’t receive as much attention as some of the other members (imo idk) . And he’s got so much talent and potential and I really hope he can show more of it someday.

[nyruratchet]

Notes 5 - It’s Been A While

This is not the life I though I’d have. I had so many plans. But life has been stolen. I’m sitting here my bed, in a tiny NYC room that I pay way too much for, with a roommate next door who takes me for granted, and bills staring me in the face every which way I turn.

I did everything I was supposed to. Every damned thing that was asked of me and I ended up HERE. I wanted to be a performer, but my parents didn’t support me going to California or Rutgers right out of High School to pursue my passion. This was very selfish on their part and I think I will carry resentment for that until the day I die. Because I will never ever know what could have been. But I own my part in that decision. I could have defied them, sure; been “cut-off” (from what I’m still trying to figure out...we still have no money). But instead, I did what they wanted and ended up nowhere and with nothing to show for my obedience...but I digress.

Sorry, it has been a minute since I last wrote. I had started dating someone and...actually thought again if I put all my effort into it, that finally there would be fruits of my labor. Again, life gave me a big fuck you. Why didn’t it work? I chased him far longer than I should have. I accepted far too little from him in return for what I was willing to give. Distance was an issue, but it could have been bearable had he been able to meet me halfway. He’s a good person. Just has lots of growing up to do. He will get there though; but without me. So, it didn’t fit and I cried SO much until I realized I didn't love him and I wasn’t ever going to. Aint that some shit; finally a guy “wants’” to date me and I’m the one who has to end it. I guess the first try is always destined to be a failure?

I posted recently about my role in friendships. YES, I know I have been MIA. But if you don’t understand why I’ve been physically non-present...I don’t know what to tell you. I try my damndest to respond to all texts; but sometimes my mind doesn’t allow it to happen.  This year has hit me SO much harder than I thought possible. Therefore, all my energy has been put into staying alive. Now, don’t be afraid of me saying that. I’m not looking to end my life. But when life keeps dragging you beneath the current and you keep rising enough to barely catch a tiny breath before being plunged into the fathoms below once more, you begin to wonder if you should just go with that flow and let it carry you away. Talk to someone? Been there, done that. Doesn’t help me. My problems are tangible. Money, Career, Love. Period. Scheduled venting sessions offer me no resolution. I entered myself into therapy in college. Went on for 4 years until it was no longer covered. Then when I got on employment a few years later in NYC, I resumed for another year hoping maybe someone else could help me figure out why I’m so miserable. 4 therapists/counselors later...nothing. So, I stopped paying the mere $30 copay there was (which was still a struggle because I was on food stamps as it is; still pursuing my dream to be on Broadway and become a recording artist) and went on with trying to at least solve one of my problems...money. So, I got a job instead of being a starving artist. 

Inflight crewmember with JB. FML. Why did I do this to myself? I did. I was in a bad place and things got a bit better but now I’m worse off. Mo money, mo problems?? HARDLY. Money would solve most of my problems right now. 

Rent. Utilities. Food (I make too much to be on food stamps no...so says the gov’t). Mental Health. Music...

Oh my music...So, I told you all I would explain more on why good artists struggle to get GOOD music out. Here goes my attempt:

1. Write music: doing this on your “off-time” from working for someone else’s business is exhausting. But if you love it and are driven, you can do it. I have many songs that I have written tired as shit after my redeyes. I’m actually a beast at catchy melodies, lyrics, and vocal harmonies.

2. Purchase equipment/software: Home studios or some type of set-up is pretty much a necessity. I need to have song fully imagined so the producer and technicians know the progression when recording and building the song. (Mic-$80, Logic X pro-$200, Studio Headphones: ~$100, Pop filter: ~$20, New computer: (varies, but given that I’ve had computers crash etc. I’ll tell the most recent price) $2500,  

3. Find a producer: So...unless you have magical fingers and can play instruments, the next step is finding a talented producer to do your backing track/orchestration. And good producers need to be PAID by the hour for a custom production. (~$25-50/hr) OR you can purchase exclusive rights to a already produced beat for a for ~$150...but even those can get pricey.

4. Book a studio: So, if you’re doing an original song you will definitely need multiple studio sessions. For one song I worked on, I spent about $700 dollars for 3 sessions only 3-4hrs long each. 

5. Proper mixing/mastering: there are online services that can do quick mastering. LANDR cost me $15/month. But when I’m doing original music, that needs professional mastering/mixing. What does that mean? More time for you or an audio engineer you trust to be in a studio. So, depending on who/where that is...lets say ~$25-75/hr (good mixing will take a few hours at least on the first sit down.

6. Song is done. What’s next? Promotion...see where this is going? Social media. You need photos/artwork which its own separate expense if you don’t do your own. And then if you aren't yourself a IG/Twitter/Snap influencer with 20K followers, you need to pay them to post your song so people give a shit to even listen let alone PURCHASE your art on iTunes/Amazon/Tidal/Soundcloud.  And influencers/promotion services charge HUNDREDS. So, when I beg and plead my friends to SHARE, LIKE and post I’m doing so because I need your help. I can’t ever afford good promotion. 

7. Release Music: You have to pay to release your music on streaming/music services ~$40. They then take a percentage of sales from each platform.

Now, your ONE song is out. Lets say a couple thousand people streamed the song for free on Spotify or Pandora. How much you think an artist gets?  Well, lets put it this way. I’ve done a few songs and have seen no money. I’m literally hemorrhaging money just to do something I love. But that forces me to do more of what I hate is being a flight attendant. Why don't I do something else? Oh honey, trust me...I’ve been working since I was 15. Dont you think I’m looking? I’ve been looking and brainstorming. Nothing is looking good. So, yes I know I’m the only one who can get myself out of a situation I don’t like. But it is beyond me right now. But I DO wake up each day hoping I find SOME way to make a change. But I do fear I will reach the point of hopelessness fairly soon; and the point is different than the braking point aforementioned.

So, I was doing all of this music creation on top of a depressing dating experience and roommate issues AND job related stress. I’m honestly not sure how I’m alive. I’m not suicidal but at one point I contemplated calling a hotline to see exactly what they are trained to do should I reach the braking point. I didn’t do it. I cried myself to sleep again; rolled out of bed the next day to go to work as so many adults do. I KNOW I’m not the only one struggling. But when your lot in life feels like a mistake and loneliness is staring you in the face every day you are “blessed” to open your eyes, you keep asking yourself (well, I keep asking Myself...) Why the FUCK am I here? No one (on the grand scheme of things) is paying attention my music and guys literally seemed repulsed when I express interest. I’m know I’m supposed to matter but, this world keeps telling me otherwise. So, yeah...sorry, it has been a while. But without music, I guarantee I’d be gone by now. Guess we’ll see how long this will last.

[lovecrimers]

In honor of the100th episode of Supernatural Misha has worked on (He’s worked on 100, only acted in 99 though) - I decided to share with you guys, 100 reasons that I love @mishacollins as a sort of tribute/celebration to him. He’s done so much to change my life and I just wanted to put my love for him out into the universe. I also made this into a twitter thread which can be found HERE.

1.) He gives me strength to get up and get through my day whether he knows it or not. 2.) He cares about his fans & constantly strives to show just how much. 3.) He cares about minorities that the struggles we face daily. 4.) He cares about the LGBTQ+ community & has gone to far length to prove just how much. 5.) He cares about mental health & the issues that affect those of us who suffer because of our MH issues. 6.) He cares about disadvantaged youths and wants to give them an equal playing field (Free high school, etc) 7.) He cares about disadvantaged groups in general & proves it daily through his work with Random Acts. 8.) He cares about lonely Senior citizens & tried to brighten an otherwise lonely day for them (Valentines Day). 9.) He funded Random Acts - a registered 501(c)(3) charity on his own because he's the change he wants to see. 10.) He constantly runs charity events throughout RA & gets his fans excited to donate & put good out into the world. 11.) He runs GISHWHES - the biggest scavenger hunt in the world and most of proceeds from that go to charity too. 12.) His scavenger hunt often encourages others to commit random acts of charity towards strangers. 13.) He cares about the state of our country and how the political turmoil affects the everyday citizen. 14.) He is extremely invested in politics and is not afraid to speak his voice on things that offend him. 15.) He fights for the people. Not just his people, or my people - but all people. 16.) When he makes mistakes, he owns up to them and apologizes even when he doesn't have to. 17.) He is active on social media and gives us (his fans) peeks into his daily life, which he knows we always want more of. 18.) He is a general friendly person who goes out of his way to be an angel to everyone he meets. 19.) The money from his Castiel photo ops at conventions goes to charity. 20.) Growing up, he experienced the struggle of poverty & goes out of his way to level the playing field for others in that situation. 21.) He's EXTREMELY humble about his accomplishments and doesn't brag about his good deeds. 22.) To date, he's still shocked and made to blush when fans express how he has changed their lives. 23.) He wears safety pins when he can, to let people know he is an ally and will protect people who need protection. 24.) He's a published poet and has a way with words that speaks to millions. 25.) He is EXTREMELY intelligent and uses his ideas and intelligence for nothing but GOOD. 26.) He is an amazingly talented actor & with that talent has become one of the most loved characters on Supernatural. 27.) He plays himself on Supernatural (an angel) 28.) He engages his fans, even going as far as answering questions other actors refuse to. 29.) He's selflessly shared extremely personal stories of his struggle at conventions in front of large crowds. 30.) He supports intersectional feminism. 31.) He supports nasty women and acknowledges the world needs us and has talked publicly about it 32.) Even though shippers are historically snubbed in the SPN fandom, he gives us a voice. 33.) He's gone as far as to physically "Ship" Destiel and that warms the cockles of my heart. 34.) He married his high school sweetheart. 35.) His relationship with his wife is absolutely beautiful and a goal for anyone with a significant other. 36.) The love he has for his wife is visible whenever he talks about her, he softens up and smiles. 37.) He supports his wife's business endeavors no matter what they may be & defends her accomplishments. 38.) He & Vicki renewed their vows dressed in drag at an Albertsons and that in itself is amazing. 39.) He takes the time to maintain his beautiful marriage & goes on spiritual retreats with his wife. 40.) His family in itself is pure and goals for anyone with a family. 41.) He's a busy man but still takes time to be a great father to his kids and it shows. 42.) He gives us access to his time with his kids sometimes and it never fails to put a smile on my face. 43.) He brings his kids to conventions sometimes and it's adorable - there's NOBODY who doesn't love it when he does that. 44.) There are tons of instances where he has been seen comforting distressed fans on his own free will. 45.) He encourages fans to say hi to him if we see him out and about. 46.) He takes fans out to do fun things during his meet n greets, something which no other actor does. 47.) He has publicly stated he appreciates fanworks whether it be art, fanfic, crafts etc. 48.) He built his own house, proving he loves to see the fruits of his effort. 49.) He built most of the furniture in his house further proving he's a hard worker. 50.) He interned at the White House during the Clinton administration 51.) He made the engagement ring he proposed to Vicki with. 52.) He invited fans to join him during his bike ride for E4K this year. 53.) He teaches his kids about healthy eating while teaching them HOW to cook. 54.) He ran over 50 miles for charity & anyone who's ever even ran 1 mile knows how brutal that must have been. 55.) In 2011, he was named TV’s “Best Non-Human” by TV Guide which proves he's actually an angel. 56.) His smile is singlehandedly the most beautifully infectious smile I have ever laid eyes upon. 57.) He looks good in literally anything. 58.) When I'm feeling crappy about life, I just look at pictures of him and I instantly feel better. 59.) His charity is in partnership with a crisis support group that has helped thousands of people like me during hard times. 60.) He's not afraid to be emotional publicly and has even publicly cried before over issues that matter to him. 61.) His hard work and dedication inspire me to want to reach MY own goals. 62.) Seeing everything he's accomplished makes me not want to give up. 63.) His sense of humor is brilliant and truly funny. 64.) He's not afraid to make himself the butt of a joke and that kind of humor is extremely attractive. 65.) His humility (that I touched on earlier) transcends into everything he does whether it be his job, family or charity. 66.) He directly helps his fans - ex of which can be helping w/homework, sending them autograph replacements etc. 67.) He has posted his phone number publicly with the sole purpose to have conversations with fans. 68.) He truly regrets working on a movie about sexual assault & openly discourages people from watching it so we don't get triggered. 69.) He steps out of his comfort zone sometimes to face issues in the fandom that no other actor wants to. 70.) He takes the time away from his family to come to conventions for his fans even when he's extremely tired. 71.) His smile lights up any room. 72.) He very clearly says "fuck you" to gender norms & constantly does things like paint his nails. 73.) He encourages people to vote, even if it's not for his candidate. 74.) He acknowledges the importance of white people being allies to minorities. 75.) He is extremely humble about his incredible good looks. 76.) He takes the winning gishwhes team on a vacation with him every year. 77.) He has been known to talk about very personal issues that resonate with fans during his meet n greets. 78.) He is nice to literally everyone (I'm serious, even to the people he dislikes: note, trump) 79.) This is kind of unrelated toa lot of the other reasons but he's THICC HAVE YOU SEEN HIS THIGHS? wow. 80.) He's an anchor for a lot of people who constantly struggle with depression (such as myself) and he guides us back to a good state of mind. 81.) He's interested in the environment and he proved that during E4K this yr by bringing a geologist to talk to us about the terrain. 82.) His interactive gishwhes competitions inspire people to think outside the box. 83.) He's simply beautiful like have you SEEN a picture of him? 84.) Everything he does is to better this world and community. 85.) He is the purest person I have ever come across in my life and I've come across quite a few people. 86.) His smiles are always genuine, you can tell by the way his eyes crinkle. 87.) He has struggled so much in his life and even then, came out successful. He is GOALS for all of us. 88.) He understands the reality behind a lot of these online "challenges" such as the ALS challenge & truly cares about the causes. 89.) He is extremely work oriented and has been known to stay on set way beyond what he was supposed to to film & perfect his scenes. 90.) His voice is pretty much the single most incredibly beautiful thing I have ever been graced with the opportunity to hear. 91.) He cares about orphans, refugees & homelessness. 92.) I truly believe that he loves each and every single one of his fans. 93.) He's an imaginative goofball & that shows through with the items he has for gishwhes every year. 94.) He was the best thing to ever happen to me. 95.) This man is the epitome is what one should strive to be when it comes to their attitude, life & personality 96.) Whenever there's a tragedy in a foreign country, he tries to tweet his support in their native language. 97.) He continually shows he cares about the fans that go through struggles and need support. 98.) When I first found out about his past, I promised myself I'd stop self injuring & make something out of my life. I am now clean of self injury and have been for a while. 99.) He unknowingly helped save me from one of the worst depressive periods of my 26 yr old life where everything seemed bleak & hopeless. 100.) His love for life saved MY life when I was hellbent on ending it last year and I will be eternally grateful to him for that.

So yeah, if you ever want to even begin to question my love for Misha Collins- don’t. I will love him fiercely until my dying breath.

Congrats on the milestone, Misha. We love you.

[couldntaketheheat]

hey guys! i know it’s been a hot sec, feel free to skip through this if you don’t feel like reading an essay. if any of you remember, i had two really important ap exams i had to study for so i took a break from social media. luckily, i’m now done with both of them. i also turned 16! my birthday was on tuesday may 6. i decided that i needed a little more time away from this account, and over that period of time i realized a few things. 1) it is hard as fuck to keep up in this fandom especially during this era transition. if i’m not on my phone every five seconds (which isn’t healthy!) i miss something. like taylors entertainment photo shoot! or taylor being on ellen this wednesday! lots of exciting stuff, but i’m not ready to give my mental health up for the expense of being a constantly active member of the swiftie community. social media is definitely NOT good for my mental health! 2) constantly seeking a notice from taylor isn’t healthy either. so many people are getting notices from taylor and i’m genuinely so happy for them. i became obsessed with trying to get one too, i was obsessively posting on instagram, tumblr, and twitter. but i learned to accept that a lot of time, getting noticed is pure luck. if it happens, that’s amazing. if it doesn’t, i’m not going to let it bother me. the point of being in this fandom isn’t to get a notice from taylor, but to be her backbone, to provide constant love and support for her online. i think a lot of us swifties lose sight of that when we see our friends and mutuals getting noticed. believe me, i want it as bad as you do! my time will come, at least i hope. so in the meantime, i’m just going to sit back and do what i do best, which is UNCONDITIONALLY LOVE THE ONE AND ONLY TAYLOR SWIFT! 3) okay for the fun stuff now...there are literally THREE HOURS until may 13! and these new wings mural just appeared.....sounds sus. okay, that’s all i have to say for now! don’t forget to watch taylor on ellen this wednesday and as always STREAM ME! ON ALL PLATFORMS!!!!!! xoxo, samantha ❤️❤️ @taylorswift @taylornation

[musingsofahistorymajor]

My Museum Tales part 1

(Part 2)

People get angry when you don’t know everything about everything in the museum. “What year did this random event that has nothing to do with the exhibit happen? Why don’t you know? You should know!”

Guest: “What mileage does this car get?” Points at a car made in 1902.  Me: “I have no idea but probably not a lot?” How the fuck should I know?

Guest: “What are the odds of you letting me sit in that DeLorean?” Me: “0 to -100.” Guest: “Why not?”  Me: “Cause you could damage it. Only the curators and specialists are allowed to touch the artifacts. That car is an artifact.” Guest: *Surprised* “Oh.”

Guest asks me what sort of food the dining room sells. I am confused. We have no dining room in the museum. Guest points at the the map. He’s pointing at the dining room of the 1900s Mansion (the museum I work at has two mansions on the property). I have to tell him that that room isn’t a place to eat. It was the dining room for the family that used to live in the Mansion. He is still confused. Nothing I say helps.

Coming back from break to hear my relief hang up the help phone (which is connected to the parking) lot say, “The system isn’t broken, your brain is broken” in such a defeated voice.

Executive staff: “Can you put our events on other organization’s online calendars when you have a free moment?”  No? Cause that’s not how the internet works. Its not possible unless they have a public calendar.

The most common question we get: “Where are the dinosaurs?” Across the street at the NATURAL HISTORY MUSEUM! It’s the building with all the dinosaur topiaries, the stegosaurus statue out front, and the dinosaurs painted all over the parking garage.

Came across a woman changing her babies diaper on the floor of the kids play room. A) GROSS! B)There’s a restroom with a changing table around the corner.

Me: “I’m sorry sir you can park there. It’s a fire lane.” Guest: “I’m not parked.” Me: *looks at the guest who is no longer in their car and already in the building.The car has been there for at least 15 mins.*  Me: Are you going straight back to your car then? Guest: No I’m here to visit the museum Me: *looks at the camera like I’m on the office* At what point does a car become “parked”

The time a catered event tried to have Cherries Jubilee, a dessert which requires it to be SET ON FIRE. The cooks didn’t understand why they couldn’t make it after we explained that it’s dangerous for the artifacts and it would set the fire alarms off. They light it up anyway. Fire alarm went off. Building had to be evacuated.

Radio Conversation: Me: Are we selling tickets at the door for tonight’s event and what methods of payment are accepted?  Employee 2: Yes and cash. Credit card. Check. Employee 3: Wampum Employee 2: Barter and trade 

That time my boss called and said she was looking for someone creative to help her come up with an idea for centerpieces for big annual fundraising event that night because it completely slipped her mind. The event was that night! She asked if I could come up with something cheap and quick to make but also looks nice. Using random art supplies and things we have lying around  the storage rooms, I came up with some flower vase with photos around it type of thing (looked better than this sounds). Took all day but I made seven centerpieces out of nothing .

Guest: “Why are you only open on Wednesday?” Me: “We’re not?”

Guest: “Aren’t you always free on Saturdays?” Me: “No?”

Guest: “How far of a drive is it to the Mansion” They were standing in the Mansion….

Guest: “What’s the Hay House?” Me: “……It’s a house? Belonging to the Hay family? That you can tour?”

Guest comes in and reads the sign with our admission prices listed. Guest: “So these are the suggested prices?” Me: “No ma’am. The are THE prices. They’re not suggestions” Guest: “No these are the suggested prices.” Me: “….No. These are the prices. If you’d like to see the museum you have to pay the appropriate admission price.” Guest: “So these are the suggested prices then.” Me: “NO. You HAVE to pay the admission we have listed here or you can’t come in. They are not suggestions.” She left.

Local police called us to say that people are walking through some dog poop and were spreading it all over the sidewalk by our museum. She wanted us to go powerwash the sidewalk. The sidewalk is city property not the museums. Its’ technically not our job to do that. She got furious when we said we couldn’t do it and they actually came over and yelled. Our boss had to tell her no. Eventually the head of security went out to look and said there was no poop anywhere so he didn’t know what their problem was anyway.

People ask to see objects or exhibits we haven’t had in 40 years or that we have never had period and get angry when I tell them they’re either aren’t here or are no longer on display. The most common ones are: “Where’s the Fabergé egg?” (never had one in the museum ever) “Where’s the mummy?”  (we are not a natural history museum nor do we have anything to do with egypt) “Where are the dollhouses?”   (the dollhouses were on exhibit 35 years ago) “Where are the dinosaurs?”   (again. not a natural history museum)

Guy complained because when he went to our living history site (an old farm) and his newly washed car got dirty, the walk was “dangerous” because it was not paved, there were a lot of people and no exhibits. ……..It’s a farm. Of course it’s dirty and you walked on grass. And there were tons of people because you attended one of the biggest events of the year there. And the exhibits are the buildings and trades you see. What did you expect?

Guest: “The carousel isn’t moving, is it open?” Me: “Yes it’s open.” It’s not moving because no one is there to ride it right now. It’s not always moving. Be kind of hard for new riders to get on.

The employees had a training session for customer service and one of the sections was on service animals. Once the speaker told us a miniature pony could be a service animal we all latched onto it and could stop talking about how much we’d love to have a pony in the building. This went on for days after the training session ended.

Guest comes up to me and tells me that a couple of the women’s stalls are “quite nasty”. I go and tell my boss and the head of maintenance. HofM comes out of the restroom and says, “Why did you make me do that?! Who does that to a toilet!” Turns out someone ahem…missed. I refused to “investigate” for myself. Later he walked by my desk again, said “apparently someone doesn’t know how to use the bathroom correctly”, shuddered and left. 

Guest once spent 10 minutes telling me about his toothache

The joke every elderly man tells when they buy admission: “I’d like one child ticket please!”  [insert fake laugh here]

Guest: “I’d like to renew my membership.”  Me: “Awesome! Just fill out this form and what level are you renewing?”  Guest: “Idk can you look it up?”  Me: “Well it depends on how long ago you had your membership”  Guest: “Let me look on my old card”  The membership cards tell you what the level is. 

The many children who run under the barriers, climb into the antique cars, and move the steering wheel like it’s a toy as the parents watch and take photos. 

The grown adults who reach over the barriers and touch the tires or honk the horns. HONK THE HORNS! The whole museum can literally hear you doing that. It’s a car horn!!!

One of the brides who rented the Mansion garden for her wedding wanted to bring a live horse into the museum so she could ride it out after the ceremony. 

Questions asked by drunk people on the carousel: “Which horse is fastest?”, “Can you make it go backwards?”, *reaches out into my booth* “Let me use the microphone”, “Can you make it go faster?”

I once had to kick a guest out of the carousel pavillion during a party because she was so drunk she couldn’t walk a straight line, lost her shoes, and was spitting on the floor. Guess who had to clean up her saliva…

Each admission has a brick hidden somewhere under it. We call it a “Security Brick”

Birds get inside the museum all the time. We now have a club for anyone who manages to catch one. I’ve caught one myself. It’s always fun watching newbies freak out when another one comes in. I want to get shirts made.

One client who rented the museum was so offended by the “naked” cherubs on the carousel that we had to figure out a way to cover up their “boobs”. We draped rainbow scarves over them.

Here’s to all the wonderful guests who have given me some interesting conversations, hugs, thank you’s, patience, and the opportunities to leave my admission desk and give them short tours full of enthusiasm. I treasure those moments

[marshmallow-the-vampire-slayer]

MTVS Epic Rewatch #162

VM 3x06 Hi, Infidelity

Stray thoughts

1) Even though there had been some things so far that had bothered me, this right here is probably the hardest pill to swallow for me:

DEAN O'DELL: Yes. We have photos, we have witnesses, we have the boyfriend who helped. There's no question Claire lied about the rape and the Hearst Charter is quite clear about this. You want to challenge the charter, that's fine. We have lawyers too, and they're a lot scarier than you, Mr. Davis. Miss Nordhouse. You're expelled from Hearst College as of this moment, and so is your lawyer. That's all.

In theory, I get what the writers were trying to do. Neptune is corrupted, no one is 100% good or evil, the moral lines are blurred and good people do bad things even if they have good reasons/mean well (Veronica is the prime example of this, btw.) This is, after all, one of the things I love the most about this show, and it’s something I always looked forward to. I would’ve been all for it if it had been any social issue but rape. This is one of the most sensitive social issues, and when you have the feminist group who is demanding action against the serial rapes on campus faking a rape, you’re sending the wrong kind of message. I know that there are “bad seeds” in almost any organization, mostly because there are bad people everywhere. But when you’re working with media, you need to be careful with the kind of message you’re sending. Someone who is not acquainted with the purpose of feminist organizations like Take Back the Night may draw the wrong kind of conclusion about feminism/feminist organizations by watching the show. This episode and the way the Take Back the Night organization was portrayed in season 3 perpetuates the idea that women often, if not always, lie about being raped. It’s a slippery slope from “this one girl lied about being raped” to “every girl lies about being raped, they’re lying/overreacting/playing victim”. It’s especially jarring when you consider this is literally what happened to Veronica on the very first episode of the show. But the real issue here is that writers chose to take a very problematic stance: “rape is bad, but feminist groups protesting against rape are not good either”. NO. Rape is bad. Period. There can’t be a middle ground when it comes to rape, not even in fiction. There is no “but.”

2) Oh, Wallace...

WINKLER: This is hardly the first time we've caught an athlete cheating. With Mr. Fennel, I'll take some of the blame. We usually don't take athletes in the programme, it's just too demanding, especially with standardised test scores as low as his.

He’s pissed that the professor is calling him out on his low grades and making assumptions about his academic potential because he is an athlete, but like, your actions kind of proved him right, Wallace. So, yeah, you lost your rights to complain about his prejudices. 

3) This really doesn’t sound like Veronica?

LANDRY: The whole of human knowledge, right there online, and these papers are thin. Am I crazy to expect better? And if you're confused as to what better is, let me direct you to the front, where I've posted our only example of A-calibre work. Nice job, Miss Mars. VERONICA VOICEOVER: Well, this should make me popular.

A) When has Veronica cared about making friends? B) When has Veronica cared more about being popular than getting good grades? I’m sorry, but did the writers forget how she decided to introduce herself to the whole class on the first episode? By purposefully showing off her smarts and alienating herself from her classmates while pissing off the T.A. at the same time? If anything, Veronica would be 100% proud she aced the essay AND that her classmates hate her for it. She kind of gets off on being hated.

4) Not plot related, but I couldn’t help but notice this continuity error...

next shot:

5) So, when Harmony invites Keith to go out on a date with her, before saying yes, Keith glances over towards Veronica’s room and swallows. He knows exactly what he’s agreeing to and he knows that not only will Veronica not approve, but also she will be extremely disappointed in him.

6) 

VERONICA: There's no way. Someone is trying to screw with me. TIMOTHY: You think it's me? You think I'm trying to get you out of Landry's class because I don't like you? VERONICA: Wait. You don't like me?

She sounds genuinely surprised, she’s not being sarcastic, but why would she be surprised? She hadn’t been trying to be likable or agreeable from day one, so... The real surprise would be if someone actually liked her, am I right?

7) Let’s take a closer look at this exchange, shall we?

PIZ: Hey, Veronica. Can you believe this? Some lady threw her husband out of the house, right, and now she's having a garage sale of all of his stuff. London Calling, vinyl, unscratched, ninety-nine cents. Awesome, right? VERONICA: My would-be mentor/professor just gave me three days to prove I didn't plagiarise a major paper. The universe is currently aligned against me, so nothing's awesome. PIZ: You know what you should do? You should come bowling.

From the get-go, Veronica’s not in a chatty mood, but Piz is too wrapped up in his own stuff to either notice or care. When it’s her turn to talk, Veronica lets him know she’s not having the best day so no, she couldn’t care less about his record or how awesome it is. Instead of showing some sympathy or understanding, he invites her on a date... 

Same, Veronica. SAME. Just remember that you will actually date this prick. 

8) Unpopular opinion: I like Jeff Ratner. I get Jeff Ratner. I would probably be Jeff Ratner if I lived in Neptune.

JEFF: I did it. Jeff Ratner. VERONICA: Ratner. Um, have we met before? JEFF: We have, but you probably don't remember, so...whatever. VERONICA: So, you reported me. Why did you- JEFF: Why? Maybe 'cause I'm a common man kind of guy, and I like it when some teacher's pet who's destroying the curve for everyone, gets exposed as a cheat. Yeah, you cheated. I caught you. Deal with it.

Listen to me, okay? To begin with, he’s one of the few people who doesn’t shake in his boots when confronted by Veronica. He’s not afraid to call her out on her bullshit, and I respect that. Veronica is feared by her enemies, deified by her allies, and respected by both. Jeff Ratner has no time for her bullshit, and I get it. I like the idea that he is not the typical antagonist for Veronica. Instead, he’s just a regular dude - one of hundreds who have come across Veronica while she was doing her thing, and who she didn’t care enough to learn the names of or even to acknowledge their existence and how her actions might affect them. Veronica has met Jeff, as we will learn later on. She has probably seen him tens of times. And yet, she doesn’t even remember seeing his face, let alone his name. In Jeff Ratner’s eyes, Veronica is just another privileged white girl who’s dating the son of a millionaire and who’s a snob that doesn’t care enough to learn the names of the people who serve her. He probably thinks she looks down on people like him, and he has probably seen her getting away with things people like him couldn’t. And that is exactly who Veronica is in his eyes. He’s not seeing her wrong, he’s seeing the parts of her that he’s gotten to see through their interactions. That’s the Veronica that he got to know. 

9) Classic Logan...

PROCTOR: I'm sorry. LOGAN: What about? PROCTOR: I called time and you kept writing. I can't accept your test. LOGAN: Yeah, I was just finishing my- PROCTOR: Time was called. I'm sorry. LOGAN: So you keep saying, dude, but, come on. PROCTOR: Mm-um. LOGAN: Do you have any idea who I am? PROCTOR: I don't and I don't care. Rules are rules for everyone.

I love that at first, it seems he’s trying to use his name to put pressure on the proctor, but in reality, he was just trying to gauge if he could get away with shuffling his test amongst the others. This is the kind of asshole Logan I love.

10) So, Weevil’s the new Wallace?

The upside of landing Weevil the maintenance job? I get to baby-sit his keys while he's away at his cousin's wedding.

11) Good Wallace, proud of you.

WINKLER: Mr. Fennel. I was under the impression you dropped the class. WALLACE: I said I'd think about it. WINKLER: You sure this is a smart choice? WALLACE: Probably not. But you've seen my standardised test scores. I'm not a particularly smart guy, right? I'm taking the zero. There are four more tests. If I average Cs or above on all of them, I'll pass. Even I can do that, man.

12) I’m always here for Jealous Veronica.

13) Come on, Piz, are you really surprised and disappointed that the girl who has a boyfriend shows up with said boyfriend to your fake “group hang”?

Also, Logan 100% knows what’s what.

14) Gosh, Parker, you got it right the first time around, what made you like him after the double date? He was acting like a pissy eunuch. 

PARKER: I can't believe you invite me out for the first time since I was...raped on some cheesy, double date set-up with that Piz guy.

15) See? This is why I like, nay, LOVE Jeff Ratner. 

VERONICA: This is the guy who's trying to get me tossed out of Landry's class. JEFF: You should be. You cheated. VERONICA: Now it turns out you work at the Neptune Grand which happens to be where the fake paper was posted from. Strange, huh, Rory Finch. JEFF: What are you talking about? I don't happen to work here. I've worked here two years. You've seen me a hundred times but you don't notice the little people, 'cause you're too busy lounging with Captain Moneybags, here. LOGAN: That's Admiral Moneybags.

I honestly started laughing my ass off when he calls Logan “Captain Moneybags” and legit had to pause the episode. (and I’ve watched this a ton of times!)

16) THIS,

A) I love how proud of her Logan is. He truly loves her for who she is, and that’s beautiful. B) Oh, Veronica, Veronica. You will never learn, will you? She only has circumstantial evidence against Jeff, and let’s face it, if he had gone to such lengths as to post the fake paper online and then turn her in, why would he own up to accusing her in front of everyone and without any hesitation? Of course, that doesn’t register for Veronica. She thinks he’s guilty, ergo he must be. She just needs to prove it. But before, she needs to get her revenge on. (more on that later...)

17) This moment is so fucking awful and disgusting in hindsight, though... seriously, it creeps me out so much, I hate it.

VERONICA: Parker, are you okay? PARKER: Oh, that guy, Mercer. I, just...his cologne. I smelled it before. VERONICA: Yeah? PARKER: It's like burned into my brain...from the night I was raped. I mean, I-I can't be sure but...oh, I just-I just got the worst- VERONICA: Vibe? Yeah.

She knows, she can feel it, and can you imagine how triggering that moment must have been? This is the first evidence in the episode that points towards Mercer being the rapist. We’ll get ALL the evidence in this episode, which was a really bold move on the part of the writers. They were literally disclosing the identity of the rapist three episodes before the arc was to be solved. But more on this later (probably on my recap for the next episode, I hope I don’t forget!)

And EXHIBIT B:

18) 

VERONICA: I'm here about the rapes at Hearst. LAMB: Already aware of them. Thanks for coming by. I'm real busy. VERONICA: This is sketchy, but- LAMB: If it's Bigfoot, we checked. He's got an alibi. VERONICA: Oh, rape humour. It never gets old.

Well, Veronica, isn’t the pot calling the kettle black? I mean, you sure did find it funny when you were mocking Chip for getting an egg shoved up his ass. 

19) EXHIBIT C:

LAMB: We finally found the stolen cashbox and...along with all the money, we found something interesting. Two vials of GHB, the same date rape drug the rapist used on two of his victims.

(this clearly explains why he was so reluctant to give up the cashbox to the robbers in President Evil, so much so that he even considered letting them kill another kid if that meant they wouldn’t take the cashbox.)

20) Hi, Infidelity #1

21) Hi, Infidelity #2

22) Yes, seeing Keith’s car being hit sure scared the hell out of me. But, like, he literally stopped his car in the middle of the crossroads? So it’s almost like he was looking to get hit and have a near-death experience to give himself an excuse so that going over to Harmony’s would feel okay and right. 

Seriously?! Do you see where he stopped his car?????

And I’m sorry, but almost dying doesn’t make this okay? Like, if you died tomorrow, you still would’ve had an affair with a married woman. The fact that you almost died doesn’t magically excuse your actions. (and this is very very similar to what Veronica did with Duncan in Driver Ed.)

24) Can you really blame Ratner for hating Veronica, though? 

She had set this up BEFORE actually finding out if he was really guilty of framing her or not. Then, she figured out who actually did it, and she COMPLETELY FORGOT SHE HAD DONE THIS TO GET HIM FIRED. Self-involved much? Also, this poor kid clearly needed the job, I don’t care if he’s an asshole who ratted you out, this is so fucking mean.

25) Hi, Infidelity #3

LOGAN: It's Mercer. Lamb just arrested him for the rapes on campus. He didn't do it, okay? You have to help. VERONICA: How do you know he didn't do it? LOGAN: 'Cause I was with him the night of the rape this summer. VERONICA: Where? Doing what? LOGAN: I can't tell you, okay, but you have to trust me. He's innocent.