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I'm gonna be asshole honest, I find the "OMG people just waited for this opportunity to be (insert -phobic/-ist) are coming out after the election!"
Oh... did we live in different realities over the past half a decade?
I know on a technical level what people mean, but holy shit does it feel like people have lived under a rock with HOW they frame it. The Anti-Asian racism from 2020? The extreme queerphobia from the Monkey pox bullshit? The increased hatred and open antisemitism over the past year? The misogyny going on way before the W/R thing? And this is just a tiny part.
It feels like people are taking NOW to point a spotlight at it because "Oh now we can also use it to bludgeon people with it and guilt trip."
I think the doubly ironic thing is that once again, people try to make this a "black N white" issue, and completely remove any kind of nuance. This isn't a "White cishet NT vs everyone else" thing, like it takes me less than 1 minute to check out the stats, and people are still here showing their completely lack of understanding why this shit happens.
I'm not even gonna comment too deeply on how much less people voted this year than 4 years ago. I'm also not gonna comment on how many people literally demanded you DON'T VOTE in some weirdly perverse sense of self-righteous self-flagellation only to then complain why the votes went the way they did.
So many people aren't doing anything until they can use it as a weapon to browbeat and pretend to care, instead of a chance to actually help people. You can pretend to care, but you can't care if your care is depend on the "right" wrong people doing the bad thing.
You're not getting anywhere when your entire mode of operations is sticking your head in the sand until you can be mad and angry and still do nothing.
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Hurry Home
Husband Joel Miller x pregnant f!reader
Summary: Your due date is fast approaching and the last thing you expect is to go into labour when Joel isn't home, meaning you have to call him out of work. Even more so, you don't expect that Joel will end up delivering your daughter in the truck on the way to the hospital. Content/warnings: TW-Childbirth. Joel being the cutest most supportive husband. Accidentally giving birth in Tommy's truck on the way to the hospital. So much fluff. No outbreak/ no use of y/n. Word count: 3.4K A/N: Another cute pregnancy fic because I am obsessed with making them! Hope you enjoy!
Main Masterlist I My other pregnancy fics
It’s 6am and you’re not usually awake but in the final stages, final days of pregnancy you’re finding yourself restless so you’re awake usually before Joel’s alarm is anywhere near ready to go off.
This morning is no different.
He’s only just got up himself when you walk into the kitchen. “Mornin’ baby” he utters sat at the table sipping at his coffee. He observes how sunken in on yourself you are, and you only give him a small smile in response. “S’wrong?” He sits straighter immediately noticing something’s amiss.
“Just real tired and achy” you moan as you move over to grab yourself some coffee “please don’t lecture me about coffee today I need it” you speak over your shoulder before turning back to pour.
“Baby m’not gonna lecture you.” He chuckles “you know I only do that as a joke about you sendin’ the baby crazy, you know I don’t mean it. S’goin on? I can tell somethin’s up.”
“Like I say I’m just really tired but no matter what I can’t sleep. And my backs absolutely killing” you utter back still to him as you add sugar. With your coffee made you turn to face him leaning on your elbows against the kitchen island.
He can see just how tired you are so doesn’t want to push anymore. Changing the subject seems the right port of call. “Shall I pick up some takeout for dinner on my way back?”
You could really go for eating your body weight in spring rolls right about now…
After taking a sip of your coffee which perks you up instantly you reply “yeah sounds like a plan. Chinese?”
“Whatever y’want baby.”
“I’ll let you know if baby changes her mind but right now it’s Chinese for the win.” You laugh taking another sip of your flawless coffee. Joel always makes it so perfect and it’s one of the very first things you bonded over when you met. Strong black coffee. You know after a few more sips you’ll have had enough and you know that your midwife advised against it, but being as exhausted as you are you rely on that morning coffee boost.
“Which job are you working on again today I keep forgetting?” You chuckle cursing your baby brain for making you forget literally every single thing of importance. The only things you remember now are which shops supply your favourite snacks, most of which you feel bad for eating but then say fuck it and eat them anyways because the baby wants them, and calories most definitely don’t count when you’re pregnant.
He takes a big swig of coffee, and you watch the way his throat moves as he swallows it. Fuck… it should be illegal how sexy he is. As he toys with the mug he replies “workin’ at the Stevenson’s again. We’re behind schedule ain’t we and I don’t think the weathers gonna hold out on us again today so that’s probably gonna fuck it all up.” Great which most likely means he’s gonna be late back tonight. You huff as he continues. “N’Tommy hurt his back yesterday so that’s gonna slow us down, plus I still haven’t heard back from the suppliers and without them I can’t fin- baby?” He stands and instantly runs over to your side.
Whilst he’d started droning on about his day which you are genuinely interested in no matter how boring a pain had begun washing over your body and from that point on you weren’t able to hear what he was saying. You just leant against the island as you held the underside of your bump groaning softly. The second he noticed he jumped into action.
“Baby what’s wrong?” He rubs at your back waiting on a response.
You take a deep breath as you stand up straight “I don’t know, that wasn’t nice.”
He keeps rubbing at your lower back as he stares at you. He knew something was wrong he could sense it the moment you entered the room.
“Do I need t’have the day off? You know I will baby just say the word.”
“No I’m sure I’ll be okay, just a bit crampy today. Maybe it’s them Braxton hicks the midwife was telling us about?”
Joel’s eyes keep flicking between your bump and your face, nerves evident. You chuckle softly as you stare at him “look I promise I’ll call you if I need you, but you’ve got a busy day you said it yourself you’re behind.”
“Yeah, but you’re more important than work you know that clients will understand if-”
You smile up at him jumping in placing a hand to his chest. “Joel, I promise I’ll be okay.”
He nods definitely reluctant to leave placing his hand over yours and stroking it “Fin, but I want you restin’ up today, okay?”
“Promise.”
“Good girl.” He kisses your forehead as he moves his hand to stroke over your bump.
—-
It’s a few hours later whilst he’s at work that his phone begins vibrating in his pocket. With the noise going on it’s impossible to hear anything so with the worrying morning you had he made sure vibrate was switched on. When he takes it out and sees your name lighting up on the screen, it’s like he knows instantly that something’s wrong. You’d never just call unless you know it’s his lunch break so it’s serious. And he’s sure he knows what’s going on before he’s even hit accept.
He quickly removes himself from the house to a quiet place and rips off his gloves.
“Baby you, okay?”
“She’s coming, this is for real.”
“Shit baby really?”
“Yeah, they’re getting worse. I thought I’d be able to get through it till you got back. I thought it was just Braxton hicks, but I just had a really bad one a few minutes ago, it’s happening I’m sure of it.” You pant heavily down the receiver.
“Okay baby, it’s okay you’re okay, you’re okay.” He repeats and isn’t in hundred percent on if the words are actually for you or for himself. And he’s pretty sure if you tell him your waters have gone that he’s going to have an aneurysm. “Have your waters broke?”
“No” you pant “not yet.”
He can’t help the slight sigh of relief that leaves him. “Okay baby m’comin’ just gonna tell Tommy n’I’ll be on my way, okay?”
“Oh god I’m having another one!” You begin moaning down the phone, it’s agonising and it’s even harder having to do it alone.
“Just breathe. Just breathe that’s it, I’m on my way baby I won’t be long.” He reassures as he runs through the house to find where Tommy is.
“It really hurts Joel!”
“I know baby I know, m’comin’ I promise, sorry m’not there but m’comin’.”
Having found Tommy outside on a what he’s calling a ‘cigarette recharge break’ he runs over to him.
“You best not be comin’ here t’scold me again I told you they help with stress.”
“Tommy I couldn’t give a flyin’ fuck about you smokin’ right now. I gotta go babies comin’” he utters quickly moving the phone to press against his shoulder as he speaks to him.
“Really?” His shocked expression making Joel chuckle as he freezes cigarette millimetres from his mouth.
“Yeah, m’serious I gotta go.”
“Shit.” He takes a quick puff before throwing it to the floor putting it out with his boot. Puffing out the smoke. “I’ll drive you. I’ll tell Bob t’hold the fort, I’ll leave and come back.”
“Sure?”
“Definitely.”
He nods moving the phone back to his ear. “Baby y’still there?”
“Yeah m’here, shit they’re getting close Joel. I can’t talk through them anymore that’s when the midwife said it’s getting serious!”
“S’okay, Tommy’s gonna drop me to yah okay, is the bag still ready?” He’s out of breath as he questions running to Tommy’s truck.
“Yeah, it’s by the door and the- ugh- the car seat. I’m so glad we planned ahead.” You’re breathing heavily still recovering from the pain.
“Okay, good that’s good.” You can hear the truck door slamming in the background “we’re in the truck we’re comin’, okay? Did y’call the midwife?”
“Yeah, I called earlier. When I called, she said they were still too far apart to go yet either wait till they’re closer together and lasting longer or if my waters break and they’re getting closer so I don’t think it’s gonna be long till we can go.”
“Okay, okay baby m’comin, I’ll be there soon baby I love you. You get yourself ready and call me again if y’need me.”
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When Joel makes it home, you’re trying to put your shoes on but are instead struggling through a pain. He rushes to you rubbing at your back as you pant through it. “You’re okay baby I’m here I’m here.”
“We need to go! They’re so close now they’re basically on top of one another, I called triage again the midwife said to go now.”
“Okay baby. Tommy offered t’take us save me drivin.’ You get ya shoes on I’ll get all this in the truck.”
You nod watching as his flustered figure leaves with the bag and car seat. When you’re able to move again you slip on your slippers and he’s back to help you walk towards the truck.
You’re leaning on him as you walk and when he gets to the truck, he releases you to open the door. That’s when you feel something major change below and you gasp as you hold onto the underside of your bump.
“What? What is it?” He looks back at you.
You look down at the floor the puddle now growing surrounding your feet. “My waters Joel!”
“Okay it’s okay it’s fine means it’s definitely happenin’, but we are gonna go now, okay?”
“Oh fuck Joel!” Your body keels over as another pain rips through you. “Fuck holy fuck…” Joel’s quick to be rubbing at your back, hoping to help if only a tiny bit.
He’s so beautiful when it comes to helping you through the pain, he’s exactly what you need. “You’ve got this baby.” He whispers as he holds you close whilst still pushing on your back. It’s agonising, but slightly more bearable now he’s at your side.
Once you straighten, he looks into your eyes with a smile brushing shine hair out of your face. “Okay?”
You nod, and with the all clear he helps you climb into the truck. You can’t help the way you groan uncomfortably at the movement.
“Hey sugar.” Tommy looks back to you.
“Hi” you groan as Joel shuts the door when you’re in. “I’m sorry you had to come out of work.”
“I’m glad of the break don’t worry yourself sugar, you’re more important than work. This niece o’mine is so much more important.”
Joel climbs in the other side groaning as he pulls the door to.
“I’m not strapping myself in I’m too uncomfortable” you groan as you move to sit leaning against the door, kick off your sodden slippers and put your legs over Joel’s lap. He rubs your shins gently with his hand as he studies you. “That’s fine baby.”
The journey is agony every pothole and bump in the road moving you in ways they shouldn’t. Causing extra spasms in your back.
After ten minutes of driving your pains still getting worse with hardly any space between them anymore you can’t help but work yourself up. “Fuck it wasn’t supposed to be like this.” You groan as you squeeze onto the hand Joel’s given you.
“Baby, you know that this baby don’t ever do anythin’ by the book how long did it take f’us to find out she was a girl cus of the way she was dancin’! And how many times has she scared the shit outa us by goin’ quiet. She likes to do her own thing that’s all.”
You just huff struggling as another pain begins to take over. “But I need everything to be okay, what if it’s not okay!”
“Hey, no no do not start doin’ that, calm down and just breathe take it easy, she’s comin’ in her own time and she’s gonna be just fine.”
It’s when you’ve been going another fifteen minutes or so and the hospitals another ten minutes away that you suddenly feel like you need to push. When you think on how fast that seems to be you don’t believe it, but the pressure tells you it’s time.
You reach the hand that isn’t squeezing Joel’s into your leggings and that’s when you realise what’s going on “oh god.”
“What baby?” He turns to look at you worried as your eyes bug. He notices where you’ve put your hand, and it sends his heart racing.
“I can feel her head. I need to push!”
His body jolts. “Shit really? We ain’t too far from the hospital now.”
You nod eyes wide. “Joel she’s coming!” You scream as another agonising pain takes over.
He unbuckles his seatbelt as he turns to face you fully. “Hey shhhh, It’s okay baby don’t panic we’re here to help. If y’need t’push an’ get her out just do it okay? Tommy’s gonna keep drivin’ we ain’t too far away now, but if y’gotta get her out just push darlin’.”
“But I don’t want you to look at me down there like this you’ll think I’m gross. You’ll hate me!” You groan tears welling everything feeling way too much right now.
Fuck… You’re about to have your baby in Tommy’s fucking truck…
He chuckles softly “I’d never think that ever when it comes to you darlin’, you’re brinin’ my baby into this world I could never think that’s gross.”
You’re not a hundred percent on if you trust him, but you don’t have time to dwell on it as that wave begins taking over again. Rendering you unable to focus on anything but that feeling, it consumes you as it rips through you. Like absolute fucking torture. “Oh god there’s another one coming I need to push!”
“S’okay baby just do it, lemme get your leggin’s off you just push if you feel like y’need to okay?”
You nod before taking a deep breath and begin pushing before your leggings are even down. Making the most of pushing with the pain whilst it’s there. Joel quickly takes off your leggings and panties. He then spreads your legs so he can watch what goes on.
Whilst the thought of it has you more embarrassed than you’ve ever been. You don’t even bat an eyelid on him looking down there now. You’re in too much pain to care, are too determined to bring your child into this world to focus entirely on the fact that your husband is watching you basically split into two.
You push for what seems like eternity trying your best to put as much energy into it as possible before taking a deep breath.
“I can see her head” he looks from between your legs to your red sweaty face. “She’s really comin’ baby; you were right she’s right there!” He explains in praise as you pant. You don’t miss the way his eyes go misty; he’s really trying to hold himself back from getting emotional.
“I don’t wana wreck Tommy’s truck!” You utter through pants, your chest heaving like never before as you cry softly.
Joel’s lips part and he places his hands to your knees as he’s obviously about to scold you for even thinking that, but Tommy beats him to it.
“No problem sugar I wana meet this niece o’mine I don’t care. My truck should not be a concern o’yours right now honey.” He utters through a chuckle eyes still focused on the road.
Joel nods, “let’s just get her out okay, no one’s gonna be mad if y’ruin the seats in his truck, they can be cleaned, heck replaced if necessary. Just go with what your body is tellin’ yah and push if y’need to.”
You nod. Okay it’s time to do this.
You continue pushing with the next few pains that hit you which at this point with them practically on top of one another it’s a case of push, breath, pant repeat.
“Okay her heads gonna be out on this next one baby, I got a feelin’, keep goin’!” He exclaims and that’s all you need to hear to push again screaming the truck down as you do, you grab your thighs pulling them towards you as you put all your energy into pushing down, and with that her head pops out. You gasp releasing your thighs throwing your head back as you swallow and pant.
“God baby she’s so beautiful, almost there now come on let’s get her out.” He chokes.
“Wait, I just, I wana…” you struggle to get the words out so instead just move your hand so you can feel her. You chuckle wetly as your hand makes contact with her head. You look down between your legs mesmerised by what you’re seeing. You can’t see her face, but her tiny head is covered in brown hair identical to that of her fathers. “Oh my god she’s got you hair.” You cry looking to Joel who is very clearly still fighting back tears of his own.
“Yeah, she does baby. Now come on push and get her out, okay?”
You nod psyching yourself up ready to push with the next pain. It isn’t long till you’re pushing with all you might, grasping your thighs to help you push, having full understanding getting the shoulders out is even harder. You feel her slowly making an appearance and after a final push she’s here!
You cry out as she leaves your body crying instantly and when Joel picks her up to hand her over to you, you sit up slightly and take her against your chest. Crying uncontrollably in cries that match your newborn tiny daughters.
“She’s here, she’s finally here!” You weep as Joel moves closer to you brushing a hand over her tiny head.
“You did it baby m’so proud of you.” He chuckles through cries as he leans over to kiss your forehead. The second she was here he couldn’t keep the tears in any longer. So here the three of you are in Tommy’s truck crying your eyes out.
“Oh my god I did it!”
The shock is so real. It’s all official now…
Parents for life.
“Shit did I ruin the truck?” You quiz trying to look down at the seats.
“Fuck the truck sugar you just had my niece I couldn’t care less.” You can hear the wetness in Tommy’s voice as both you and Joel look in his direction. You meet his eyes in the centre mirror, and you can see they’re red.
“Tommy miller, are you crying?” You chuckle wetly.
“You know I am sugar. How could I not be she’s here!”
“She’s here!” You exclaim again looking down at her kissing the top of her head as you wrap your jacket around her to keep her warm till you make it to the hospital.
“She’s so beautiful baby m’so proud of you.” Joel sobs with a smile.
“Look how tiny she is” you chuckle moving one of your fingers to brush over her forehead to her nose and then over one of her tiny ears. “She’s absolutely beautiful.”
When she stops wailing and is content wrapped in your jacket you pull her away from your body holding her cradled in your arms so you can study her.
“Babe, she looks just like you.” You chuckle as he moves nearer to admire the other most important woman in his life.
It hurts how much you love her already.
When she scrunches her face obviously not happy and wanting food you can’t help laughing. The way her eyebrows furrow, her face goes red, it’s miniature Joel. “Look it’s angry Joel! She’s your twin!”
He sniggers wetly watching the way she wails softly and hating seeing her that way he brings a hand to brush over her head as you bring her back to your chest. The way he shushes her is beautiful to listen to, how attentive he is with her already is something to be admired. As you both try to soothe her Tommy pulls into the hospital.
Thank god you finally made it.
#the last of us#no outbreak!joel miller#joel miller#tommy miller#pregnancy#fluff#family#so much family fluff#domestic fluff#pregnancy fic#pregnant#tw childbirth#childbirth
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Do you have any good Stevepop headcanons?
oh my god of course. a list:
not entirely a headcanon but primarily I NEED to talk about how soda's relationship with mickey mouse the horse is a basis how I interpret stevepop as a couple. like. "got me an ornery pony." that's soda literally pointing at steve.
steve is way messier than soda. soda's used to sharing a room with pony (who is canonically a mess) and will occasionally clean up but steve will literally leave something somewhere and just never touch it ever again. this is horrible for soda's chronic habit of losing everything he's ever owned ever.
soda may be more physically affectionate but. steve's the clingy one and literally never wants to go anywhere without soda. duh.
they get drunk and fight each other as a proclamation of their love. this may be weird but like they will wrestle each other on the ground and try to injure each other and then just stop and be like wow I fucking love you.
not to further my stoner soda agenda but yeah they smoked together one (1) time and steve immediately had a panic attack.
obsessed with the idea of soda working on a ranch of some sort later in life and yeah steve visits him everyday to drop off lunch even if he's like kinda scared of horses and calls soda his cowboy.
celebrate really really stupid anniversary occasions especially because there are so many anniversaries of death in their lives (curtis parents, johnny, dally). like. they (soda) celebrate the single time soda beat steve in an arm wrestle (steve let him win). or when the dallas cowboys won that one time against the steelers. shit like that.
steve's autistic. soda has adhd. yeah.
eeek yeah so many thoughts and feelings about them
#the outsiders#stevepop#jo.answers#sodapop curtis#steve randle#the outsiders movie#stevepop headcanons
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About the latest polemic about Zayne and Sylus over twitter...
I left twitter for good. I'm honestly so tired of the drama that arises there everyday. I literally decided to log in today just to see some Arcane spoilers and the first thing I was hit with was with the most recent drama about CN players and specially Zayne and Sylus players having a heavy argument about plagiarism and how some lines of Zayne seem to have been copied onto Sylus' lines...
Firs of all, I don't know how the CN fanbase is, so I can't really say anything about that matter. From what I read, it seems things are quite complex there and arguments & harassment among LI's fanbases seem to be quite intense from what ppl is saying but, again, I can't really say too much on that matter cause I don't know how the fanbase is there, I'm not part of it neither I go to CN websites to look up for lads content. Most cases my experience visiting CN websites has been because of kind ppl that has respectfully asked me permission to repost my art and give me credits there, from that perspective my opinion about the CN fanbase has always been good and it still stands, I'm pretty sure that great part of the fanbase it's nice and it's only the small little toxic portion that is overshadowing the nice and chill part of the fandom.
My point here it's: Don't let yourself to have a tunnel vision about this situation.
You can probably see 10, 100 or even 500 ppl arguing and harassing others and even so it's not even a quarter of the whole total of players that belong to the fandom only in China, let alone global. To generalize from your point of view is not the objective take you think it is, talking from your experience doesn't talk for others experience, no one's experience here is universal. I read a lot of ppl trying to find someone to blame all the time "Zayne players started everything" "Sylus writers copied Zayne" etc and you know? Rolling this ball to one another is not going to lead us anywhere because as always, it's not acknowledging the true issue here: that is, us as players, keep enabling this kind of toxic behaviour if that means to stand up for or to 'defend' our main LI.
To try to portray one LI's fanbase as the guilty one is just creating more trouble than solving it and it's also not having a general understanding of the situation at hand and instead, encouraing biased opinions that only create more division and discrimination within the fandom.
And let's be honest, it's not the first time (and probably won't be the last, sadly) that drama arises within the fandom where we attack others LIs and their fanbase. This game is targeted towards adult women, we are not supposed to behave like adolescents making tantrums and messing up with our peers, yet here we are, enabling arguments, harassment, bullying or overall having an ugly and mean attitude in order to defend something that honestly, all the LIs would feel ashamed for if they were real. Like, literally all of them hate to be on the spotlight for the stuff they're good at, it would be even worse if the spotlight it's caused by them for all the wrong reasons.
I know lads guys are fictional, and I'm not going to invalidate people's feelings by saying that you shouldn't take it too seriously just bc they're not real -most of us find a lot of comfort in fiction, after all- but that doesn't give you the right to harass real people neither hurt their feelings [the same ways you feel when they attack your fav LI]. You are able to feel whatever you want to feel, however, you're still responsible for your words and actions. If this game is turning you into an awful person, then I'm afraid to say that you probably must step back and reconsider if your passion for it is healthy for you.
I know it's easy to get upset and sometimes we have the need to express it. However, to decide to be a part of a fandom is to accept that you are not going to always like what ppl say, let alone agree with them. Not everyone's opinions might aling with yours but it's enterily up to you the way how you take and respond to them. As I said before, I left twitter for good bc I found myself often wanting to be mean to others upon reading the negative stuff some ppl said about Zayne, especially in order to compare him with other LIs just to make him look bad. I would often felt so ugly thinking like that. Staying away from that drama has been super helpful and that's the best advice I can give for now: try and enjoy the game and your LI by yourself if the fandom is getting too much to handle.
Be careful about the discourse you support and always ask yourself if your words and actions will truly lead you somewhere good and healthy or it will only cause more chaos for you and others. Flammable opinions only light up and burn if we feed the fire, if there's no one to keep it alive, the flame will drown out very quickly.
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ive been getting hit bad by the "nothing matters" apathy depression lately to the point im having a resurgence of the consistent-14-hour-sleeps and dog it sucks bad dog. its been so hard to do anything. historically i can contain this to just affect my personal life but its been going on for so long and getting so bad even my professional life is suffering/stuff i objectively must do for basic health and wellness.
lately all i can think about is how "i dont want to wake up i dont want to shower i dont want to eat i dont want to go anywhere i dont want to get up" and theres literally nothing i can do. the best i can manage is to dejectedly say "you gotta" in a funny voice to drag myself to work but thats all i got chief. black hole depression historically has always been very hard for me to fight. i cant talk about it to anyone, nothing fixes it, things i used to enjoy have no meaning and engaging with them runs a high risk of it backfiring and making it feel more hopeless, and if i try to fake it, it comes off as disingenuous and people disengage, and if im honest about it its too much and people also disengage so im just sitting here, with my various skin rashes ive been developing just thinking like. you know how it is with spaghetti
#its perhaps occuring to me that my almost supernatural levels of isolation and not having anyone to turn to or talk to is in fact. bad#this is month 8 of some arctic expedition levels of live-alone-work-alone-spend-all-my-personal-time-alone#i feel like i cant really talk about it bc i feel like people are expecting mild memeable depression#and i come rip roaring through with my current State where its so bad its inducing migraines its affecting my metabolism and i got. fungus#and the best they can squeak out is awkwardly telling me to access services that ive already tried multiple times#not to go on a miniature tangent but i really hate how when you talk about this stuff people just tell you to go to a therapist#like babygirl think about your experiences with how inept physicians can be. why would mental health services be different.#signing on to a zoom meeting or walking into a strip mall office once wont magically cure this half the time they dont know what do to eith#in my experience even phd psychologists cant help with this especially if youre medication intolerant
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Light It Up, Fox!
I think reunion square has to be one of the saddest members from the Warriors concept album and it gets set of every time I listen to it.
I think a big reason for that is that this song really does cement that Fox truly is the youngest of the group (I'm going to as soon as Fox is anywhere between 15 to 18 years old)
In the beginning of the song after she and the others escape the Bizzes she says " God, half of us are gone" and she later lashes out at Victor after he cat calls the Warriors.
What I find really interesting about her rant is that it shows that Fox (presumably out of every Warrior besides Cleon) has truly taken Cyrus's word to heart as she assertively points out that Victor and his ilk are the reason they've had to suffer not only here but throughout life.
She asks why can't they go back home and has eternalized herself as the "Quiet Girl" that isn't gonna make it.
What's cool though is that she flipped this on her head and ends ups truly realizing what the Hurricanes were actually was trying to say.
When you're stuck in the darkness you have to do your own life sometimes not just for you but for the others in your life that may not be able to burn as bright.
This realization causes Fox to LEAP into action realizing that if Victor calls his boys they'll be able to stop stop the train and potentially arrest/kill the Warriors.
Something of note here is that this song takes cues from The World was Wide Enough where we see Fox's life flash through her eyes.
Queens- You can do 99 things right,but meet the wrong Cop at night and it's braapt on site ya dig?
Manhattan- survival all depends upon the corner you run to.
Ajax- I'm sick of running
Warriors- Only the strong survive
Ajax and Rembrandt- Anybody tussle with these hands they'll see static
The battle between Fox and Vic is brutal and he beats her so badly that she breaks something and starts bleeding.
Another thing that I noticed after some repeated listening is that it seems that out of all of the Warriors, Fox seems to look up to Swan and Ajax the most (Rembrandt too apparently).
She laments that Swan could have taken Victor out but she's not her and not too long after that the cop puts his foot on her throat and kicks her into the incoming train.
I think what's beautiful about this tragic moment is that Fox ends up embodying the other sentiment of Quiet Girls and ends up becoming an arc of light both literally and metaphor.
It's actually quite a clever nod to me that Fox herself it's played by an Asian actress ( Pippa Soo) because been Chinese, Japanese, and Korean mythology there is a creature known as the Kitsune.
Kitsune are basically Divine foxes that more often than not typically take the form of females to live amongst humans.
They act as a guide to the afterlife and use something called foxfires to communicate with others throughout the night.
Fox being the one to truly embrace what the Hurricanes tried to tell the Warriors and becoming the light that guided her friends home through her demise is quite a common trope with kitsune, especially if they bonded with a human.
I just think it's a really cool way to not only lift a sort of nothing character from the original on the bed but also make them stand on their own.
#warriors musical#eisa davis#warriors concept album#kitsune#Yayy for thematic elements and Japanese mythology
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It's actually all pretty poetic.
Vanitas spent his whole life being a menace and a bully, always showing up wherever he could to blindside Ventus and anyone around him. So he gets jumped by an actual monster and tossed through a series of random portals that sent him literally anywhere.
Luxord plays up his role as the Organization's charming rogue, all swagger and letting the cards guide him. Yet he's incapable of even breathing the same air as Jack Sparrow, a notorious pirate trickster who openly admits that not even he knows what his goals are besides having a good time.
Young Xehanort preaches about how childish Sora is, mostly by vaguely hinting at his older self and some big manipulation in the works, but he's really just playing pretend. Kid-Nort is literally the only person in the story doomed to live out an unthinking narrative like a doll, since everyone else is in the now, but he's latching on to the machinations of adults that literally don't care what happens to him. And here's Woody, in a case of 'Game-piece recognizing Game-piece', brushing off Kid-Nort's antagonism as a mixed up menagerie of Sid's neglected-child freakshow, Stinky Pete's ill-thought-out glory seeking, and Lotso's disposability-based nihilistic selfishness.
But what of Xaldin and Belle? How is that poetic? Well, Xaldin as Dilan used to be a guard for Radiant Garden, but lost his noble attributes when he became a Nobody. Much the same as the Beast's entire domain did as it fell under the malaise of his brutish paw. In the same regard, Xaldin views Belle as someone he can just jerk around in order to control Beast and Sora. He views her as a mere object, much the same as Gaston viewed her as a prize. In that way, Xaldin is the worst of Gaston and the Beast combined, a pompous self-assured jag-off who thinks Belle is too weak to keep him from getting what he wants. And yet, Belle has been dealing with both Gaston and the Beast all her life. Why wouldn't she know how to throw off some grabby thug several times her size? Hell, she's probably done that exact maneuver To Gaston when he pulls a book out of her hands.
I know I'm not the first to point these out, but it's like a cover song. It just sounded so good I wanted to do my own recording.
The Trinity
Yeetus Vanitas
Luxord Overboard
Xehanort Never Loved Retort
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do i have any single male mutuals (lol) preferably from another country (ireland, scotland, england) that want to get married so i can move to said country and get my masters so i can save the world and give you babies
serious inquires only 🤍
this will become urgent if trump wins the next election ✨
#PLEASE LMFAO#i wanna move to ireland SO BAD#give me the GREEN#the FOLKLORE#and the accents#yeah i am romanticizing it#but i’m also a bitch#i’ll fit right in i promise#me#ireland#scotland#england#literally anywhere but the us at this point#but you have to be okay w pet snakes#so#canada is cool#i just can’t move to australia or new zealand#cause he’s illegal :(
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Screw Spotify, here's the full OST and the extended versions of all the OP/EDs on Youtube
「Mayonaka Punch」 Original Soundtrack
(OP/EDs under the cut because good lord do embeds take space)
OP/Ep 12 ED | "Gimme Gimme"
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main ED | "Edit Point"
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Ep 4 ED | "To You" by Fu
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Ep 8 ED | "Night Diver"
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I didn't realize the EDs have extended version as well, not just the OP I stumbled across in the YT recommendations of the Crunchyroll upload earlier today.
#They're all on Apple Music & Amazon as well (gotta search 真夜中ぱんチ to actually find the OST tho) but you can't actually BUY THEM anywhere#I've got my ways of acquiring these things to keep stored locally tho...#just havn't been able to find a spot to acquire the OP/EDs still. Well using YT premium to download them locally is the best I got for now#Mayonaka Punch#MayoPan#ギミギミ#Gimmi Gimmi#編集点#Edit Point#君へ#To You#ナイトダイバー#Night Diver#music#Frin Speaks#I spent way too long checking for the proper translation of the main ED and ED 4 titles for this post even tho literally everything agreed#I really want to learn Japaneses proper eventually
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So I FINALLY finished the book and now I can say with absolute fucking certainty that gringos did not understand fuck all about the book. That gringos did this book SO FUCKING DIRTY. I remember some review somewhere saying about how by the end "the protagonist falls in love with the woman and then kills her", but DUDE, if you read that this man was ever in love with this woman despite blatantly treating her like an animal literally the entire time and only wanting her because of female validation for this ego, I don't know what to tell you. The ending made perfect sense to me because this man literally never thinks of her like an actual person. Multiple scenes basically compared her to the two dogs that he had to put down. When he does think about her, he thinks more about the kid they are going to have (that he is going to be a boy OF COURSE) than about her. He never tries to give her the tools to be her own person. To communicate, to find her own interests. She is viewed and treated like an animal so, of course, like an animal she is going to be treated by the end. And Marcos being a hypocrite, who berates his sister for keeping another human to cut and devour in pieces, while he himself just uses another "head" to replace his dead child, IS THE FUCKING POINT. HE IS A HYPOCRITE FROM THE VERY FUCKING START, because that is required of him to keep working, that is what capitalism and colonization and all those systems of power require of him to keep going, because it was never about compassion or empathy. It's only using the bodies for whatever we want, be it food, be it incubation, be it entertainment, be it hunting, because there is no fucking space for actual real humanity anywhere. It doesn't matter that he is "nicer" because it's all the fucking same: it's all about the devouring of each other. Like, this book is unironically and blatantly about critiquing so much more than the fucking food industry, about critiquing anyone for just eating meat, and you all fucking missed the point so much that is for real embarassing.
OKAY, so I haven't actually finished the book yet so maybe my opinion on this will change, but I honestly feel like the gringo booktubers I watch all have no idea of what to do with Tender Is The Flesh and are fundamentally wrong about it? Like, saw someone trying to say "this book tries to criticize the food we eat rather than the industry", which sounds like absolute fucking bullshit to me because a BIG portion of the fucking book is all about how the industry is treating "the meat" like fucking dogshit and how the characters themselves, the ones who work inside of the industry, are disgusted whenever anyone even attempts to say there is something good about it. There is this constant cognitive dissonance where the characters know what they are doing is inhumane and awful, that they are treating "the meat" horrible, but it's their job, what are they going to do, and at the same time they feel it crosses a line whenever someone call "the meat" human or are even beyond inhumane when someone says the meat "have a good life" because they get treated as studs. Also, like in general, I feel all of them miss the part about this author being argentine and thus how that colors their vision of how the industry works. The biggest industry in all of the argentina, the one that gave us any kind of possibility to survive in this world, was the meat industry, we actually fucking need it because we have nothing else to offer, and yet, all the powerful people who are involved with the meat industry in this work are all foreigners: a japanese man who collects skin of people and threatens his employees with skinning them alive, a gringo, that is literally called gringo, and a german man who is to utterly dettached that has no issue calling "the meat" human and also make inhumane comments about them. At that point is very obvious to me that this isn't about just criticizing an industry, but criticizing a system to whome the industries are merely a reflection of. It's not about the world, it's about a country being so set on their old ways and traditions that are literally willing to eat each other if it means having a foot in the outside world. Because otherwise we have fucking nothing. And this ALREADY fuck us over in the real world. The protagonist is literally the representation of that! He literally asks himself why he keeps working on this shit if it makes him miserable? Because he is the best at it, because he gets paid and he needs the money. CAPITALISM ALL THE WAY DOWN, BABY. Like, the meat food industry is bad, but also think about why they are bad and why the powerful people want it to be bad in the first place. Like, the books says that indigenous, immigrants and other POCs are the first humans to being eaten. The poor and elderly. Why do you all think that is?? Like, I just generally do not understand how you can read that and come out thinking "this person just wants me to be vegan and I don't like that"/"this person doesn't criticize the food industry", like I am a very fucking firm believer that vegans who spend every breath trying to make you vegan are shit and just eat whatever, but even I got that it was meant as something else than that. And how people keep saying that the ending "comes out of nowhere" when it's literally foreshadowed at the beggining at the book while doing the world building? Were you even paying attention at all at that point? Like, I literally saw someone being "I think this book overstimates how much it would take for the world to be okay with cannibalism", like THAT IS NOT THE POINT. The point is not to write "how it's a world where human meat is mandatory", but rather explore the idea in which the way we ALREADY eat each other gets taken to it's extreme. LITERALLY WHAT ALL DISTOPIA FICTION DOES?? Anyway, again, I might change my mind when I finish the work myself, but even by reading the start myself and knowing a bit about the background of this author, I just do not get any of these reviews at all.
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headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again
#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something#asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao#so then he hates hospitals with a passion#my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so#headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao#im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao#it just made draco that little bit more protective#lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands#this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child#he has sick child energy lmfao#he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently#just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally#breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days#let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast#but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system#got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling#scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha#timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE#(he absolutely was not fine)#scorpius malfoy#albus potter#draco malfoy#hpcc#scorbus#this is so many tags im so sorry
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I do have on thing to say about the fact that "one of the passengers is a 19 year old" for the Titan.
A 19 year old is still a "teenager" but that is a whole ass adult. That is an adult who has been an adult for a year and acting like he has no self agency to not make the choices he did is just ridiculous and I'm seeing *way* to many people on this site pretty much just infantalize him. 18 is *also* an adult. A new adult, but still an *adult*. If you are seriously in the mindset of "but that's a child still!" You need to step away from Tumblr and just think about how you view the various human stages of development.
19 year olds aren't kids. That man made that choice to go down there.
(also as a trans man who's rights are under attack and that people are using the argument of "kids can't consent" to get their foot in the door and then further take them away from literal adults, some under the argument of "well a lot of y'all are autistic and Don't Really Understand what's happening even though you're adults!!" This shit infuriates me. Stop infantilizing people!!! This may not be about my rights as a trans person but the issue of infantilizing literal adults is still the same!!!)
#titan#oceangate#the titanic#like it sucks people probably died but honestly i don't hold a ton of sympathy for these people. who are all ADULTS.#like they made the choices#they all signed the literal waivers knew to some extent the risk#and eithsr all adults have agency or none of us do.#just bc we make the choice not to read the full text of like phone legalese doesnt mean we arent able to if we take fhe extra time to do it#there is argument to be made that stuff Iikw that is needlessly overcomplicated and should be more thoroughly regulated but for corps#not on the “oh well pwople cant agree to phone contracts now bc they're too hard to understand :(”#like. do you see how ridiculous that sounds#and the titan waivers *woudlnt have been anywhere as complicated*. ive read risk of death is mentioned 3x on the first page alone.#can't quote ehere so it moght not be true but still. point being its a literal trip to rhe bottom of fhe ocean.#that alone carries inherent risks *i dont want to take even in the safest submarine*.
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Facebook has some of the most ableist, uneducated fucks known to man on it. I feel gross after reading the comment section on a video reel about characters people with Bipolar Disorder relate too. (And it’s always the Dudebro types.)
#literally one guy was all#‘’Just grow out of being bipolar and stop wasting peoples time with tantrums’’#Wow! we’re cured!#who knew you could grow out of a mental illness?#and the rest of the comments were insulting and saying they don’t want to be anywhere near us#good#we don’t want to be near you either#I only use FB to contact long distance family at this point#the rest sucks#shut up nic
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if barton tried hard enough, he thought, imagining himself being literally anywhere else but the warehouse right then was easy. this place was never meant to be lived in for an extended period of time after all; despite the fact that it had appliances that you might see in an every day home like a fridge.
it put him on edge instead of at ease, and it certainly didn't better barton's mood when he stayed in it either, after all. but so long as he was allowed to dream within it to some degree... it was tolerable. plus, he had company here, courtesy of nico, jack, and barton also supposed jervis counted. nico had complicated feelings towards the doctor, though, and spending time around jack whilst in it thus far gave barton an unfortunate impression; which was that his own son was made nervous by him.
and the irony of it all was, barton only gathered that because he could feel cognitive empathy towards him. something that didn't include feeling but reasoning. therefore, the hopes of him somehow patching that up with jack someday were drastically decreased. barton vaguely listened to jervis respond to what he'd said about him being in the warehouse solely because of them; all of the words but one not quite having any actual impact on him, this being 'nightmares.'
the smell of the yuja tea that jack prepared for jervis, as fragrant in the air that it was, seemed to be the one thing keeping him from being sucked down a unpleasant train of thought. for someone who didn't feel human half the time, barton sure as hell experienced his own fair share of seeing 'ghosts' from the past and mourning the way some things had gone in his life. and regret, as well as sorrow, were practically intertwined in every single 'normal' person's life that he'd known.
speaking of regret, once he'd closed the curtains, something from the small cabinet hanging on the wall next to them fell to the floor. barton picked it up and was immediately reminded of why he kept this photo here instead of at his home. hiding it away helped alleviate the pain of not only loving someone and losing them, but also knowing that at the time it was taken, everything seemed fine.
'my 19th birthday party - spent right, with my handsome fiancé!' was written on the back in marcy's handwriting. barton felt like screaming and smashing something simultaneously. the photo was instead placed in his pant pocket, whilst he dragged his hands down his face and thanked his lucky stars that jervis wasn't exactly expecting any big conversations from him. barton's hand flexed by his side before he was changing his shirt, wondering just what the hell he was supposed to do after seeing that again.
grief was a thing he'd never been able to pend down how to deal with 'appropriately,' unfortunately. from marcy, to the momentary blink of an eye that felt like his bittersweet friendship with yves, to his son julien's death - barton thought he'd be destroyed by all of those losses for the longest time. but he supposed he was still here, god willing, or laughing at him more like if such a being did exist. barton noticed the fabric that was splitting on the blanket and how jervis very much appeared to be in his own world.
it was at that moment that he reached for something in that same cabinet he'd opened to change his shirt, finding that sewing thread and needle he'd stored in there long ago. barton kept it there because the shirt he was wearing had actually torn at some point and he'd fixed it. though, he had no use for it now, so he decided to put it on the edge of edge of the cabinet if jervis wanted it. but he didn't really know what he wanted. that night seemed to be a series of gut punches now as the other touched upon how jack was a good person and barton should be proud of him.
he blinked several times as he felt this sensation like something ugly was swirling within him. jack had always kind of gotten the short-end of the stick, and for what? ❝ ahh. well, sometimes i've found myself practicing behaviors towards him that my father used to use on me... but i try to stop myself when that happens. jack has come a long way, as the first time i met him, he was a scared two year old who was on his own with his brother. but now jack's a young man and very brave, despite maybe still being scared sometimes. ❞ barton cleared his throat then, ❝ that's normal though. so yeah, i am proud of him. ❞
barton turned his attention back to jervis and tilted his head at the other's sluggishness. being vulnerable like that surprisingly didn't feel too nerve-wracking, as he added just a bit more to the equation. barton gave the iv bag jervis was hooked up to a good squeeze, ❝ hmm. are you still in pain, jervis? or are you just tired? ❞ he observed the other silently and looked down at the cards before the both of them. that is, before barton heard jervis approve of him reading his fortune.
he drifted a hand along the cards then. choosing one that felt 'right' came without much difficulty to barton, and when he did, the reversed 'wheel of fortune' card for jervis's past. the next card he chose was the reversed 'six of swords' for jervis's present. barton flipped the last one for his future and was greeted by 'the sun,' which made him let out a soft 'huh' and smile a bit. ❝ well... i hate to start off with the past when you got this card, but i guess we have to. ❞ he was about to start interpreting jervis's fortune when jack came back into the room with the breakfast he promised the other. well, talk about convenient timing.
Jervis merely rolled his eyes at Barton’s remark, fingers biting into the fabric of the blanket as he pulled it around his shoulders like an old shawl. The plush material was a little threadbare at the corner; a tear disrupting the otherwise seamless fabric.
Sea-green and white plaid. Utilitarian, impersonal.
It sufficed perfectly; his thin frame was almost terminally intolerant to the cold. 27 years in Gotham had failed to inoculate him against the frigid rains and bone-chilling air sweeping off the harbor.
“Trust me, I’m well aware where I would be, if it weren’t for you both. I see enough of the place in my nightmares… so I don’t require any reminders.” He flexed his fingers around the teacup, feeling the warmth seep into his hands as he cautiously tipped the liquid into his mouth. It had a strange, but not unpleasant consistency, like warm, thin honey that slid smoothly over his tongue in a tangy blend of sweet and sour. Tiny bits of softened citrus peel floated in the syrupy mixture.
Barton’s IV pole scraped slightly along the concrete floor, a sharp metallic sound that mingled with the sudden rasp of the curtains being jerked shut. The room was clean and sparse, a sterile space designed to be free of clutter, yet a faint, telltale mustiness clung to the air—a lingering scent of damp fabric and stale dust that disinfectant alone couldn’t quite mask. Beyond the makeshift partition, the rest of the warehouse stretched out in vast, dark emptiness. The floor was cold, unpolished concrete, marred with cracks that split like spider webs. Dim, flickering fluorescent lights cast a harsh, uneven glow, barely cutting through the haze of dust that swirled in the air.
But, of course, beggars couldn’t be choosers when it came to hideaways—especially when you’ve learned to take shelter wherever you can find it. Or when you were part of the criminal element.
How far he’d come and how little had truly changed.
Jervis glanced across the room at where his coat, shirt, and gloves rested neatly on the desk, carefully folded with almost surgical precision. He flexed his hands again around the teacup, feeling the phantom prickle of sensation where the wool-lined leather should be—an exposed vulnerability that gnawed at him, made his skin itch with invisible grime.
He sank his teeth into a particularly broad piece of yuja peel, the bitter tang releasing as he bit down; meanwhile, Barton’s voice drifted in one ear, out the other like the static hum on a faulty wireless. He chewed slowly, savoring the rind as he turned his attention back to the small tear in the blanket. Nodded intermittently.
Jervis’ callused, scarred fingers found the frayed edge; the fabric was worn thin and splitting, and he traced it absentmindedly, feeling the uneven fibers beneath his touch. For a moment, his thoughts shifted to the sewing kit buried somewhere in his bag, imagining the small spool of thread and the thin, glinting needles; each one ready to pierce the fabric and pull it back together.
As if stitching this small wound would make any real difference, he thought bitterly; like it could somehow soothe the cold reality pressing in on them from all sides… It was a small, pointless task, a flicker of control in a situation that felt like it was slipping away, unraveling faster than he could sew it back together. He knew it wouldn’t ameliorate anything—wouldn’t solve the problems looming larger than this tiny, frayed corner. And yet, his fingers lingered there, desperate for something tangible to fix; something he could make whole again, if only for a moment.
Jervis gave no reply as Barton moved to change his shirt; blinking hard as he gazed down at the floor, but the darkness behind his eyelids refused to stay empty. Flecks of indigo light bloomed in the black, shifting like dust motes that twisted with each beat of his heart. The room swam as he opened his eyes again, the ceiling blurred and murky like the styrofoam cup Alice stored her wet paintbrushes in. He scratched absently at the IV in his arm, feeling the tug of the thin plastic embedded in his skin but barely registering the discomfort. The bright pinpricks danced at the edges of his vision, trailing like little comets whenever he turned his head.
“You ought to be proud of him, I imagine. Your son… he seems like a good lad.” Jervis’ voice was a wisp of silk, smooth and thin, like it might unravel into nothing if he spoke too loudly. He tilted his head slightly, almost resembling a marionette on a slack string, the hint of a smile touching his lips but never quite reaching his eyes. He ran a finger along the rim of his teacup, the motion delicate and deliberate as he pondered Barton’s final query.
“Hmm… can you?” Gray eyes blinked slowly, the lids heavy and sluggish, further dragged down by fatigue. The question lingered in the air, softly innocuous. He glanced over at the tarot cards Jack left behind on the desk—arranged in a rough, careless spread, but somehow feeling deliberate, as though the cards had fallen exactly where they were meant to. The edges were worn, curling slightly; the images esoteric, half-familiar symbols. Stars, sun, moon, cups and swords, animals and human figures rendered in faded colors.
He paused, gaze narrowing, subtly curious despite the exhaustion that weighed down his expression. For a moment, his hand tightened around his teacup; twitched like he might reach out and touch them, as if by brushing the surface he could glean some hidden answer buried beneath the painted ink.
‘Why, they're only a pack of cards, after all.’
His grip on the blanket slipped momentarily, fumbling at the worn edge before he reached for his collar instead. He dug beneath the charcoal fabric of his T-shirt, searching with a practiced motion until his fingers found the tarnished silver chain again. He drew it out slowly, the weight of it comforting against his skin as he absently ran his thumb over his and Sylvie’s rings, threaded side by side on the links.
The metal was dull, no longer shining with the luster it once had, but it carried a certain softness now, smoothed by years of worry. His eyes dropped for a second before he let the chain slip back beneath his shirt. “By all means, if it tickles your fancy…” Jervis gave a short, rough half-shrug, the motion stunted as though his shoulder couldn’t quite decide whether to follow through.
#divingdownthehole#tw: grief.#tw: mentions of death.#tw: mentions of child death.#tw: negative thoughts.#OOH you used a quote from alice in wonderland in here? that is epic NGL though i don't think i know which one you used ahahhh#and AWW well gosh... you're going to make me blush now <33 but thank you so SO much for saying so + i just want you to know#that i enjoy writing with you a lot myself! but yeahhh i feel as if barton is a lot more quote unquote 'subdued' here than usual#but it kind of makes sense because this man hates being in the warehouse probably just as much as jervis honestly (': and with#everything that went on regarding the picture he found. all i can say to that is GAHHH but you're good!! don't even worry about it#i totally understand as i know i took a bit to reply to this one though that's just 'cause i want to give you the best quality reply#possible + sometimes i don't have much time to sit down and write but i did today tehe!!! but really? oh my gosh thank you VERY much-#for all of your kind words! it really means a lot to me that you not just like the little things i've put into his character but love them#;; like i don't even know what to say besides that makes me feel so happy!! but geezzz you're making me turn bright red like a tomato over#here now and simultaneously going to make me hashtag cry in the club. just the fact that he's fascinating to you is like... everything a#writer like me could dream of y'know? and i return the same feelings ten-fold because jervis is just SO interesting that i feel#like i can't get enough of roleplaying with your version of him (': but JSJSJ well alrighttt i'll try not to worry about the muse versus mu#thing then since you're being so sweet. and i thank you once more for that BUT 😭 THIS IS ME RN because you're also my bestie and-#being called a ray of sunshine is? possibly one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me?? so i'm giving you a big hug right now-#and letting you know i think you are an incredible human being. but yeahhh there's a UHHH whole terrible story behind that-#unfortunately but i'm just going to boil it down to: yves died and barton sought to essentially make him be a 'part' of him because#he actually has no idea how to healthily move on from... most relationships 🫠 so he decided to do something TOTALLY normal-#and replace one of his arms with yves's (sarcasm) but TBH i have to say i wouldn't even blame you if you weren't joking about that-#because this man is seriously WILDING for that. like barton is absolutely 100 percent not okay no matter what he tries to tell other#muses 💀
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do u ever think about how crazy it is that undertale came out with its insane amount of unambiguously queer characters in fucking 2015
#trousled rambles#undertale#MAYBE this is just the byproduct of my being 11 in 2015 but while i know things were still getting more normalized back then#i'm fairly certain queer stories weren't anywhere NEAR as accepted as they are now#steven universe was running but iirc it was only just starting to clearly show its gay shit.. its so wild to me idk#hell obergefell v. hodges was only passed 3 months before ut came out. 3 months!!!!!!#you could point at literally any NPC in this game and say that they use they/them pronouns and you'd be more likely to be right than wrong#listen its that time of year again where i start getting emotional about this game ok its just such a treasure man its so much to me!!!!!!!!#it was given a lot of credit for being groundbreaking when it came out for its story & battle system yeah and it def deserved it#but i haven't seen much recognition of this aspect which i think should also be appreciated!! so much!!!!!!
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*Gnawing on the bars of my cage because a totk roleswap au between Link and Zelda writes itself exhibit A*
Now that he needed her, could she be as fearless? No. She shook her head. Link wasn’t fearless. She knew better than anyone how much he feared letting others down. It was so severe that, way back before the Calamity, he would always eat the rock roast Daruk handed him. Though it had always given him horrid stomach aches and jaw pain, he couldn’t find it in his heart to decline Daruk’s offer, not wanting to hurt his feelings. Everyone else saw it as boldly stepping up to any challenge, but Zelda knew how much compassion and anxiety was twisted up behind Link’s motivation to swallow literal rocks. The point was, Link was not fearless. But his heart gave him the courage to overcome whatever challenge came his way.
#rose and rambles#prosie's writing adventures#totk roleswap au#DO YOU SEE#DO YOU SEE THAT FORESHADOWING IM SCREAMING#okay i literally just wrote this and its not anything majorly special but the point is DO YOU SEE MY VISION???!?!?!?!?!?!#DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!#LINK SACRIFICING EVERYTHING BECAUSE HE RISES TO ANY CHALLENGE#ZELDA GLUING OBJECTS TO WEAPONS TO MAKE THEM EASIER TO USE#USING HER WITS TO FACE ENEMIES#LINK FREAKING EATS ROCK ROAST CANONLY IN THE BOTW DLC OKAY#IN HYRULE WARRIORS URBOSA COMMENTS ON HOW HE RISES TO ANY CHALLENGE WHILE DARUK GIVES HIM MORE ROCKS#IM JUST SAYING#IM JUST FREAKING SAYING#anyway idk if i'll ever get anywhere with this because my writing is slow af lately but im itching to get to the dragon tear memories#i wanna write them so bad#im just so tired#and there's so much exposition#alas#please see my vision with me#take my hand#all of loz references to tears has accumulated to me writing this idea
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