#listening to mitski

[primordialhomo]

rip sejanus plinth you would have loved music that can only be described by the feeling of soul-crushing yearning

[bamboozledghoul]

I think Mitski said it’s okay to kill yourself

I went to her concert last night at the Fox in ATL, and in her intro she addressed the audience in the terraces, “not too high is it? Do you hear the call of the void? Don’t answer! Or at least don’t do it during my show, you can do that on your own time”

[chocohedgie]

Don't worry, Mitski. I, too, get mean when I'm nervous, like a bad dog.

[kalcium-yippee]

On vacation with one bar of service all I have is glitchy downloaded Mitski playlists and Edgar Allan Poe to keep me company

[f1nalboys]

trying to brainstorm stuff for band!randy bc i wanna write a fic bc he’s In My Brain but idk <3 ill make an intro post to the au eventually fr

[myheartisonthetrain]

i must enjoy torturing myself because i know Mj's leaving after half term and i've been spending as much time as she lets me with her knowing that'll just make me more attached and in love with every aspect of her 🤕

i can't explain anything i feel for her it's just too vague and confusing and intense but also very distant like admiration and i think that part could be mutual and she's just a lot better at putting personal stuff aside but oh god i just want to know everything about her people already ask me about where she is, how she's doing, why can't she just take me with her

[ghost-of-a-bee]

Y'all ever just admire your scars like

"Damn that shit hurt when I got it but it looks badass now"

Or is it just me

[arinmoss]

painted Chappell again :3

[elisastro]

I haven't talked to anyone in so long holy fucking shit

[hollowaluminumvessel]

thinkin bout "in another life I would have gone with you(ask me to come with you)" "in another life I would have stayed(ask me to stay)"

[slimbunnx]

Entry 1

Today is February 1, 2024.

I feel like nothing. The past few days I've been sick and I've been prescribed pills. Coughing pills. I don't think the pills are doing anything to help me though. Today I felt okay when going to school until the end of the day. Where I utterly humiliated myself in front of my class and the teacher. I don't wanna show my face anymore. I also now what to switch class. Doesn't help that I have a C+ in that class. I can't stand seeing any letter below A. I have multiple tests to do today, it's actually not great. I think I'm gonna slam and do horrible on the test. Not like I did good in them last semester. I scraped by even though I studied. 56% on a fcking test I studied hard on. I wanna pull my hair out and cut it. Lately I feel like hurting myself. I feel like changing myself. Saying lately doesn't feel right. I've been feeling this way for a while. I remember seeing a way, but ion if I got the guts. The closest I've been to it has been with burning hot water in the shower and using a thing that is sharp but not sharp enough to do any damage. I don't wanna wake up from the sleep I'm gonna have to take for tomorrow. I don't wanna go to school anymore. Kinda just wanna get drunk and forget about everything. Pretend that I'm a child again... wasn't rlly that great as a child tbh but whatever it's better than me now.

[satansloveclub]

Sigh god willing I know I will be okay I stand on my own two feet and pick myself up everytime but it just sucks lol

[cosmichero69]

Just got out of a toxic relationship and I feel…. Relieved?

[exalt1ora]

just one of those nights where i feel like repeatedly being stabbed in the gut with a bowie knife

[hyperfixationsporfavor]

No thoughts, just Gojo

[atomikats]

that love is like a star 🌟

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