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So... New pfp and some news, I have literally fallen in love with yet another fictional man, and this one happens to be the Grim Reaper.
Fans of A Date with Death, I welcome you with open arms and my requests for fics are open lmao
Also! I thought it would be about time that I opened requests again, so to give myself motivation, I'm deciding to do a request event. since Christmas is gonna be a thing in like 3 weeks or so, its time for Christmas fic requests! and also another reset, since my inbox is full of old requests I have no ideas or motivation for- but anyways, as always, if you are a previous requester, you may request your... request a second time if it is something you'd really like done. This time, I swear on my life your requests will be done at some point, if I don't do your request at all you can send a firing squad at me /j (Or remind me via asks)
This event is open for Genshin Impact, Twisted Wonderland, and A Date with Death. I would add Obey Me but I'm not really in the fandom anymore.
#twisted wonderland#disney twst#†rambles#updates#genshin impact#treytheslay#i've returned!#please people notice this my account has been flopping since my hiatus#christmas#all i want for christmas is you#merry christmas#merry christler#snow#tagging this as a bunch of random stuff lol to get it more out there#a date with death#genshin impact x reader#listening to christmas music while writing this#help
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â the warmth of a home | satoru gojo x reader jjk0 setting w/ coparent teen megumi
wc: 2.2k cw: petnames, established relationship, ur megs mother figure, reader is referred to as they but u wear perfume not proofread!!
this was just meant to be a weekday blurb like the last but oops it turned into a full fic mb
"i'm home!"
your voice rings out as you step through the threshold of your shared home, a gentle evening breeze ushering you in as you slip your shoes off sore feet and hang your well-worn jacket up, scented flowery perfume and sweet smelling cologne mingling on the thick fabric.
it's cold out; autumn is setting in, the crisp leaves that signal the arrival of fall collecting outside your doorstep as the late weeks of october wave goodbye and usher in the first days of november, followed by a drop in temperature and thin ice that begins to crust over any wet surface.
the small hallway leads into a wide, open living room, with a corner of couches and a worn tv that hasn't screened anything in ages. there's a fuzzy throw blanket hanging over one of the couch arms, knit with patterns of cute little dogs, stuck with tongues lolling happily from their mouths. a potted plant that's clinging on to a thin thread of life you can barely sustain on the days you remember to water it sits on the coffee table, bits of soil speckling the edge of the warm clay pot as the lights overhead cast a soft glow upon the ceramic. there's a pair of black socks strewn across the tabletop- you make a mental note to give their owner a good scolding and maybe a physical touch fast for the night once you find him.
you set your bag down by the door, stepping onto the wooden floor as your feet make soft thumping noises when you cross. two pairs of keen ears pick the sounds up almost instantly, coupled by two, equally loud voices that compete for your attention.
"ah, they're back! hope they brought takeouâ ow! megumi, don't yank so hard." satoru's voice comes from the bathroom, a little ways down the hall decorated with polaroids and doodles. it's promptly followed by a curt, "sorry." the words bring a smile to your face; that irritatingly singsong voice you love so much coupled by megumi's aloof and quiet.
you make your way to the door, a warm glow flooding out of the crack before you push it open wide enough to peek your head, catching a glimpse of the scene unfolding on the other side as you stifle a laugh.
satoru is propped on the edge of the bathtub, hunched to make his frame somewhat smaller and the top of his head accessible to megumi as he faces the wall, while the latter fastens a section of loosely-trimmed cream bandages over satoru's eyes, all too tight that it begins to cut into his smooth skin. there's a grimace twisting his soft lips (you know they are from constantly running a thumb over them) pink glistening from moisture under the soft daisy yellow light. megumi's hands are far too tight as they grip the strip of bandage, forcing satoru's tufts of white hair into a disheveled mess.
at the sound of the door creaking on its hinges, both of them whip their heads toward the door, megumi all but ditching the task before him as satoru hooks the bandages beneath his chin with one finger, expression softening into that lovesick grin that makes your heart pump faster against your ribcage.
"welcome back." megumi hums, straightening up to brush past you. a silent agreement passes between the two of youâ you'll finish tying the bandages for satoru, while he gets some homework done.
"thank you, megs." you laughed, giving him a quick ruffle of his smooth dark hair as he bumps shoulders with you, slipping past and walking into the hallway with a disgruntled mumble at the touch. "go easy on this old man next time. i don't want to deal. with a child for the whole night," you called, stifling a laugh when you see the exaggerated hurt expression that finds its way onto satoru's face almost instantly.
a distant sound of acknowledgement from megumi finds your ears as you turn around to face your very mature and handsome husband, who's still hunched over the edge of the bathtub with his arms folded over his chest and a faux crossed expression on his face. you take a few steps towards him before you sit down on the tub beside him, legs turned out to make use of the space as you turn your head to get a good look. there's a pout on his lips, not giving an ounce of thought towards being subtle in a way that's so very him. his sparkling blue irises peek out from beneath his long lashes, the color of the clouds in the sky that slowly begin to paint pale under the shine of the setting sun.
"hey, satoru. what's got you looking so down?" you chuckled, scooting closer on the cold rim of the tub to reach out. your fingers card through his hair and you almost swoon at the way he leans into your touch, like a cat chasing for chin scratches. you push the mess of hair from his eyes to press a lazy, slow kiss to his forehead, bumping into his side. as soon as your fingers touch the first square inch of hair on his head, his arms find their way around your waist, pulling you close like he's done so many times before.
"you're so mean to me, pretty. did you call me old?" he whines, the corner of his lips downturned as he buried his head in your shoulder for a moment before pulling away to stare down at you imposingly. you only sighed, stroking his hair as you watch his lips curve up in a poorly smothered grin, cocky and smug in a way that he knows makes you want to kiss away until only a little awestruck gape remains in its wake.
"of course not, 'toru. you know i love you too much to curse you with wrinkles." you hummed, taking in the sweet look on his face dusted rosy as he looks at you.
"i should hope so," he grins, and in one swift motion, you find yourself tucked flush to his chest on his lap, one of his hands snaking up your arm to pull you close as he catches your lips with his in a sweet motion he's been anticipating since the last clingy smooch this morning. he tastes like the candy you hid away in the cabinet in an attempt to stop his sweet tooth from plowing through the time before his next dentist appointment, and you add it to your mental list of things to reprimand him for.
for now, though, you let yourself indulge- let your hand trail up his chest and around his neck, feeling his pulse beneath your thumb as you lean into him with a sigh of contentment. he's warm, familiar, and stable in a way that you've only ever found comfort in, and he's fully aware of the effect he has on you when he pulls away, puckered lips pecking your cheeks with unrestrained affection as you laugh and bat him away.
he soaks in the moment for a bit until he speaks again, with a heave and a sigh that makes him seem far too worn out for a 27 year old. "help me out, love." he sighs, motioning toward the loose bandage around his neck that threatens to slip any moment. your hands are already moving when he speaks, taking up the bunch of fabric in your fingers to push his hair back and fasten it around his eyes. you mourn a little over the loss of the sight-- his pretty blue eyes tucked away behind a wall of necessity, hidden away from the world. your shoulders sink a little and you melt into him some as you finish tying the knot, making sure it's securely fasten before you move your hands away.
you're caught mid-motion, though- his hand shoots up to grab your wrist gently, thumb gently prodding at your pulse as he tilts his head into your other hand.
"'toru? what are you doing?" you asked softly, staring down at him from your vantage point in his lap.
"baby," he starts slowly, other hand snaking around your waist to press against the small of your back, warm and steady as he presses you close to him. "do you love me?"
you're surprised. most of the time, he never broaches the area of emotions out of the blueâit's an area of vulnerability he's still not quite ready for; not quite healed enough to approach. and you understand, so you never push him to talk.
"of course i do. that's why i'm here." you reminded him, gaze snagging on the way his teeth catch his lip and chew nervously. a fleeting thought enters your mind, and for a second you almost think he might put up infinity.
it's quiet for a moment, then, and you take the moment to size him up, appraising as the light from the window above filters in, framing his face in some sort of angelic light. he really looks ethereal, you think to yourself.
then, the silence is broken.
"enough to buy me takeout?" he offers sheepishly, all apprehension vanishing as that easy smile creeps over his lips again and he clasps your hands in his, lithe and calloused fingers enveloping yours to dot your wrist and knuckles with little kisses.
you blinked, before rolling your eyes, laughing that sweet laugh he only ever teased to hear from you as you wriggled free from his grasp, sliding off his lap and standing up again before he could trap you in a hug again.
"no, satoru. but i'll make dinner with megumi and save some for when you get back. does that sound good?" you offered, looking down at him expectantly.
he smiles at that, swinging his legs over the tub to stand as well. he's tall, almost comically soâ looking quite out of place under the fluorescent lights amidst pastel shampoo bottles. your eyes drift to the sink, where two bristly toothbrushes are tucked in the same cup, and you smile.
"anything made by you is great, sweetheart." he says with a cheeky grin, reveling in the soft flush that stains your face as he walks closer, cupping your face in one hand and leaning down to kiss the side of your head affectionately. he catches a whiff of your perfume, and his smirk only widens. before he can do further, though, someone clears their throat from the other side of the door, and you turn around to catch sight of a head of spiky black hair, an unamused look on his face as megumi eyes the two of you.
"why are you still here?" he sniffs, peering up at satoru with a frown. the latter just chuckles, reaching over to aggressively mess with his hair, leaving it even more disheveled and out of place as an angry protest leaves megumi. satoru skirts just out of reach of an irritated jab, throwing what you think is some sort of charming wink from beneath his white bandages at the two of you.
"seeya, love. hold the fort down while i'm gone." he calls, already halfway to the door. his steps echo in your ear as you just smile, opening the bathroom door and stepping into the hallway as megumi slides up to your side, a sour expression tugging at his lips. "don't let the rascal upset our haven." said rascal makes a face.
"be safe," you said softly, hoping he caught your unspoken wishes in those two words. judging by the way he paused at the door before hurrying back to your side to pepper you with four departing kissesâ one on either cheek, the tip of your flushed nose, and on your lips-- he took the caution to heart.
"you're so cute when you worry, love." he chuckled, his laugh like a spring of rejuvenating running water that filled you with life. he took a moment to take you in againâ hair slightly messy from the wind whistling outside, the tips of your ears a pleasant red and a look in your eyes he could only describe as adoration.
"don't worry. i'll always come back to you."
and with that, he was gone.
not for long, though. eventually, he'd return home to a lone kitchen light flicked on, spreading warmth onto the table below. he'd come home to the same heart-warming scene he had so many times beforeâ slipping his bandages down his face, taking his jacket off to spread it from one of your shoulders to megumi'sâ you'd fallen asleep together with the window open, a chilling evening breeze filtering in as the pages of megumi's homework fluttered in the wind, frustrated scribbles smudged against the crinkled paper underneath his elbows as he slept. you were by his side, tooâ cozy and exhausted, soft little breaths leaving your lips every now and then. times like this brought him a simple joy; the happiness of having a home to come back to, a family with handmade dinner gone cold on the table as it waited for him, a trio who could support one another and provide the love that each person had been missing.
there would never be anything he'd want more than this simplicity.
he ends up dumping megumi on the couch before carrying you bridal style towards your shared bedroom.
extra: u and megumi cook pasta tgt :3
my (riaki) stuff. donât repost and/or plagiarize!
#in other news furina banner drops today#gojo satoru x reader#satoru gojo x reader#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x you#gojo satoru x you#jjk fluff#I DID NOT WRITE THIS WHILE LISTENING TO CHRISTMAS MUSIC WDYM >:#i dont know how to write for winter stuff bc i live south#im officially tired of writing gojo cus i cant get him right. megs n geto next!!#gojo fluff#billet-doux#this probably wonât be the last of jjk0 gojo cus that bandage blindfold is growing on md#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader
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the writer in meâŠsheâs cookingâŠi think this is the longest thing ive written yet. i shall leave a sample below so iâm satisfied with sharing at least a little bit before i post the full thing (this to me takes place in the new batman adventures universe but feel free to imagine otherwise):
Dick is worried. Tim isnât the chattiest kid but he can certainly hold a conversation. Dickâs tried everything: school, movies, TV, even casework. All heâs gotten are some unenthused grunts and hums. Tim may not biologically be Bruceâs kid but he sure does take after the guy. He cleaned up a bit before leaving and thereâs a little bit of color back in his face but he still looks tired. Devastatingly so. Dick keeps stealing glances at his little brother in the passenger seat of the car. His arms are folded tightly against his abdomen, as if heâs protecting his stomach from something and a slight shiver courses through his body despite Tim bundling up with at least three layers, a scarf, a hat, and very thick gloves. The kidâs got to be cooking in his makeshift snowsuit, but then againâŠ
Theyâre stopped at a red light. Five minutes out from the mall, three minutes out from the nearest urgent care.
Dick steals another glance towards Tim and decides to reroute to the clinic, get him checked out. Dick tuts quietly, itâs a shame heâs starting to come down with something right before Christmas, right before his first Christmas with them. Dickâs been in his shoes before; falling in a pond ice skating with Barbara. She managed to be just fine whereas he spent Christmas on Bruceâs couch laid up with pneumonia. He hardly remembers that Christmas from being so damn delirious but he remembers the warmth that wasnât from fever. It was familial. The whole time he remembers being with someone. It was hard to deduce who was with him when but he was never alone. And if Tim was about to go through what he had been through, or something similar, heâd need them. But first, Dick just wanted to check for a fever in the first place. All signs pointed to one but Dick wasnât sure yet. Careful not to wake the sleeping boy, Dick reaches out for Timâs forehead.
HONK!
Dick quickly retracts his hand and places it back on the wheel, pressing the gas. To the mall. Tim doesnât jolt awake but the car horn is clearly loud enough to stir him. He blinks slowly with a grimace, like heâs in pain.
âAre we there yet?â Tim asks, pitifully quiet. Like talking louder than a whisper would kill him.
âAlmost, Tim, you can go back to sleep for a bit,â Dick says, taking a left towards the mall.
Tim makes a disapproving noise. âI wasnât sleeping.â
Hm. Denial is the path heâs choosing here.
âAre you sure? Your eyes were closed and you werenât talking. Telltale signs of sleeping to me,â Dick says lightly, trying not to come off like heâs interrogating Tim.
Tim laughs a little. âNope, just resting my eyes.â
âOkay, old man. Youâre too young to rest your eyes. Resting your eyes is for old people. Just look at Bruce.â
âHn.â
âOh my gosh, B, is that you?â This gets a more hearty laugh from Tim. Itâs the most awake heâs looked since this morning.
alrighty thats all im posting, im gonna show the utmost restraint until i actually finish this thing.
#tim drake#batman#bruce wayne#bat family#dick grayson#alfred pennyworth#tnba#why i decided to set this at christmas while its the middle of july#who knows#ive been listening to xmas music while i write this#also its probably so ooc#but i dont care#i see batman canon and smother it in its sleep#its my universe now bruce timm mwahaha#whatever whatever i do what i want!#sickfic#im very proud of this#i know all i write is sickfic but hey i know what im good at#if it aint broke dont fix it#also may have found the piece of media today that gave me my love of found father relationships#its the rifleman a cowboy show from the 50s & 60s#i watched it with my dad all the time on sunday mornings as a little kid#the relationship at the center of the show is a widowed father and his young son#theyre basically the batman and robin of the old west#i quite love it#okay im done#batman the animated series#the new batman adventures#my fics
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decided to rewatch oli's christmas song stream from last year and remind me again why the fuck oli/sausage is a rarepair again. he sings no less than five romantic songs about sausage (admittedly two of those are just different versions of santa, baby). one of them is him and sausage singing baby it's cold outside together. oli literally left heaven to find this man. what. what am i seeing that everyone else isn't hello.
#space rambles#sorry every once and a while i have to get ill about them again#remind me of this post when it's actually closer to christmas#and maybe ill write/draw something inspired by them singing it's cold outside actually#more likely draw but idk we'll see what i'm feeling#i do genuinely love this stream even though by GOD sausage cannot hold a tune#oli's great as always though#also in the two different versions of santa baby oli says âive been an awful good boyâ and âive been an awful good girlâ so like. gender wi#slight revision he technically sings FOUR songs about sausage#because he sings last christmas at two points and the first time around he goes:#âthis year to save me from tears ill give it to someone special (sausage)â#the second time around it's eddie because. of course it is.#and also tbh i think the second time around he is??? maybe singing last christmas about sausage?????#they broke up in the like 30 minutes in between the two versions#ANOTHER EDIT. IT WAS FIVE SONGS (can you tell im just listening to the music again)#the âunderneath the misletoeâ bit in âall i want for christmas is youâ is also followed by him going âsausageâ#he's normal
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GOT TO LEAVE WORK 30M EARLY HELL THE FUCK YEAAAAAAAAAAAA
#I'm gonna eat my fast food#wrap presents#video game#bother the cat#maybe write in my journal#today was pretty nice for me ngl. i got left in a corner and listened to music while tidying forever and telling every customer we had shit#all christmas stuff left and them being like yh figures dw
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Temptation | [A.H]
Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x fem!Reader CW: Sensual, reader is a little slutty, it's implied that Hotch is horny, lap dance, strip tease, physical touch, mentions of alcohol. WC: 0.7k
I'm not even gonna hide the fact that I was listening to Christmas music while writing this.
           Hotchâs arrival home was marked by the heavy clunk of his briefcase hitting the floor and the tired sigh that followed. The day had been brutal, the latest case tearing the team down psychologically. As he trudged into the living room, his shoulders slumped under the weight of his heavy thoughts.
           You noticed his weariness immediately, your heart aching at the sight of his tired form. Without a word, you moved swiftly, guiding him to his favorite armchair with a gentle but firm hand. âJust sit here,â you said softly, urging him to relax.
           Hotch sank into the chair gratefully, his eyes closing as he leaned back. You didnât need to ask him how his day was; it was written all over his face. You quickly moved to the kitchen, grabbing a glass of whiskey. As you carried the drink back to him, you could see him trying to shake off the day's stress.
           âHere,â you said, handing him the glass. âDrink this. Iâll be right back.â
           Without waiting for a response, you retreated to the bedroom. In the privacy of the room, you selected a set of matching lingerie - his favorite, in a deep, luscious black. But you didnât want it to be obvious just yet. You threw on a robe over the lingerie and took a moment to apply a light touch of makeup, making sure you looked effortlessly alluring. Your idea of the outfit was designed to tease, and you wanted to make sure it had exactly that effect on him.
           Once you were satisfied with your appearance, you moved to the living room where Hotch was still seated, sipping his drink. You approached him with a confidence you felt bubbling inside and set a soft and sensual playlist on the speaker. The gentle tunes of music began to fill the room, setting a perfect backdrop for what you had planned.
           Hotch looked up, his tired eyes lighting up with curiosity as he heard the music. You gave him a playful smile and began to slowly remove your robe, letting it fall gracefully to the floor. The matching black lingerie underneath shimmered slightly in the low light, accentuating the curves of your body.
           You moved with purpose, allowing the music to guide your steps. Each motion was deliberate, a blend of grace and sensuality. You started with a slow, teasing dance, your movements carefully calculated to attract and captivate. The rhythm of the music matched your heartbeat, and you let yourself get lost in the rhythm, your eyes locked onto Hotchâs.
           Hotchâs gaze was intense, a mix of admiration and desire that only deepened as you continued. He shifted in his chair, loosening the knot of his tie with one hand while the other held the glass of whiskey, his knuckles turning white with the sheer force. His eyes traced your every movement, appreciating the way you moved, the way you seemed to embody the melody.
           You could see the strain in his shoulders beginning to ease, replaced by a growing sense of arousal. As you inched closer, you let your movements become more intimate, brushing lightly against him, teasing him with the promise of more. The room was filled with the soft rustle of fabric and the deep, rhythmic beat of the music.
           When you felt the moment was right, you decided to move your dance even closer. You guided him to put his drink down on the side table next to his chair, ensuring he was fully focused on you. With a slow, seductive smile, you positioned yourself directly in front of him, allowing him to feel the heat of your body against his.
           The music took on a more intense rhythm as you began to perform, grinding down on him, your movements purposeful. You moved effortlessly, your hips swaying in time with the beat, brushing against his thighs. The closeness made your breath hitch, the tension between you becoming more noticeable.
           Hotchâs hands were soon tracing the curves of your hips, his touch both gentle and possessive. He guided you subtly, urging you to move in ways that accentuated your body in irresistible ways. His breath was hot against your skin, and you could feel the raw intensity of his desire as you danced for him.
           As you completed your dance, Hotchâs hands lingered on your hips, his gaze never leaving you. He pulled you closer, his voice a low growl as he spoke directly into your ear. âYou drive me crazy, woman, you know that?â His words were a promise of the desire that simmered beneath his surface.
#aaron hotchner#criminal minds#aaron hotchner x reader#hotch#hotch thoughts#criminal minds x reader#hotchner#x reader#hotch x you#smut#aaron hotchner smut#aaron hotchner fic#ssa aaron hotchner#aaron hotch#aaron#aaron hotchner one shot#thomas gibson#aaron hotch x you#hotch x reader#hotch x y/n#aaron hotch x reader#aaron hotchner x you#hotchner x reader#hotchner x you#aaron hotchner x fem!reader#fem!reader#criminal minds fic#criminal minds fanfic#criminalminds#cm
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a very nonsense christmas | charles leclerc social media au
pairing: charles leclerc x fem singer!reader
face claim: sabrina carpenter
based on this request: Hi, how are you can you please write something with Charles x singer reader like a part 2 of "nonsense... or is it?" based on Santa doesn't know you like I do music video something very wholesome idk you can ignore this if you want, hope you have a good day/night đ€ - @rana030
MASTERLIST | BUY ME A KO-FI? | PART ONE
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yourusername: do you hear those slay bells ringing? i love christmas so much that i'm giving you guys six new songs for this holiday season !!
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user1: mama is going straight on the nice list for this one
user2: christmas is saved
charles_leclerc: so proud of you cherie
yourusername: says the muse
charles_leclerc: you're my angel on the top of the tree
yourusername: as long as you're under the tree ready to be unwrapped
pierregasly: STOP
alexalbon: we MUST protect the sanctity of christmas
yourusername: oh alex, do not listen to the ep...
alexalbon: too late just pressed play
alexalbon: YOU NEED THE CHARLES DICKENS ???
yourusername: amazing word play, am i right?
alexalbon: no.
charles_leclerc: he doesn't meant that babe. lily has a commitment, he's just lonely
user3: y/n was like "if you weren't aware, i am getting DICKED DOWN for christmas"
user4: as much as i'd peel all of my skin off to be in either of their positions, good for her
maxverstappen1: i think nonsense christmas has single handedly killed my investigative journalism career. i am not analysing charles' massive sack
yourusername: damn right you won't be
charles_leclerc: maybe you should analyse it, you could learn something from it
maxverstappen1: hOW DARE YOU
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yourusername: thank you to all the lovely people who came to the fruitcake release party ! xx
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user7: CHARLES AND TRAVIS IN ONE PLACE ALERT
user8: so does this mean we can get a y/n and charles appearance on the new heights podcast?
charles_leclerc: do you think people could tell i was about to pass out while playing the piano?
yourusername: definitely not !
maxverstappen1: yes we could
charles_leclerc: WHAT I WAS JUST NERVOUS AND I DIDN'T WANT TO LET Y/N DOWN AND TAYLOR WAS THERE SO I DIDN'T WANT TO EMBARRASS MYSELF
maxverstappen1: okay i didn't need the pity party. you were good, unfortunately very good. i need to learn piano now. i have to beat you in everything
yourusername: maybe you should've forgone the santa suit... it was quite warm
charles_leclerc: but you wanna be mrs claus ? (i also have a big north pole lol)
alexalbon: ENOUGH
user9: wait so like, was the grid at the release party?
user10: based on most of their instagram stories, and y/n's stories i'm gonna say yes
taylorswift: i had so much fun !! i love fruitcake and tell charlie his piano was great
charles_leclerc: SUCK ON THAT @maxverstappen1
taylorswift: ?
charles_leclerc: we've got bad blood taylor's version featuring kendrick lamar?
taylorswift: i see
maxverstappen1: he's the reason we can't have nice things
user11: someone free taylor from lestappen
killatrav: okay. the girls throw the best parties. esteban and pierre i own your team now, you guys gotta get better at drinking
yourusername: careful travis they're french ...
killtrav: is your boyfriend not also french? he's like a puppy dog
yourusername: HE'S MONAGASQUE
charles_leclerc: i am NOT french
estebanocon: i only threw up because eggnog is not what you guys advertise it to be
pierregasly: i'm not gonna lie i don't remember even seeing you last night
user12: okay so get invited to one of these parties is definitely on the bucket list now
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charles_leclerc: charles and travis đ€ just happy we got a chance
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user13: if he's not like them i don't want it
user14: if santa doesn't pull through with a man like them under my tree this year ... imma be mad
killatrav: travis and charles đ€ having girlfriends that make us giggle and swing our feet
charles_leclerc: does the honeymoon phase ever finish?
killtrav: well it definitely hasn't for me
maxverstappen1: NOOOOOOOOOOOO
alexalbon: say it ain't so
yourusername: haters gonna hate đ
alexalbon: he is so happy it is bordering on insufferable
charles_leclerc: alex :(
alexalbon: i am very happy for you charlie and lily is definitely very happy for you, but if you talk to me for the TWELVE HOUR flight to brazil again i will terminate this friendship
killtrav: i am so confused
user15: poor travis and taylor are just being exposed to the grid chaos
yourusername: you posting this like i'm not the luckiest girl in the world
charles_leclerc: i just love you so much and i'm so glad you shortlisted me for your music video
yourusername: yeah spolier alert there was no shortlist. i wanted you and i didn't want to get out right rejected...
charles_leclerc: as if i would reject any offer from you i think i would've torn down maranello if they said i wasn't allowed to be in it
scuderiaferrari: ?
user16: i'm so obsessed with how much charles has embraced the wag life
user17: can't believe i get to live a life where i can bop along to music about how good in bed charles leclerc is
user18: they better not break up cause i may be tifosi but i shall be streaming
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yourusername: santa doesn't know you like i do baby
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user21: all i want for christmas is even more y/n and charles content
user22: mum and dad have kept us fed over the winter break
user23: i'm not ready for them to be separated when the season starts again :(
charles_leclerc: not to be that person but we're so hot
yourusername: no, you should say it louder
charles_leclerc: WE'RE HOT
maxverstappen1: can you people knock it off or we're not coming to your christmas party
yourusername: ERM ??? đ«€
alexalbon: you people have single handedly made me the grinch
yourusername: but but but ??? you all begged for an invite :(
charles_leclerc: FAKE and that's why you're all getting coal from us
user24: my god i am so lonely
user25: if i don't wake up to a charles shape gift under my tree i will not make it to next christmas
danielricciardo: just to be sure, this party is not going to be filmed and turned into a music video?
yourusername: it's just an old-fashioned shin dig girly don't worry
yourusername: or by the tone of this, should i be worried?
danielricciardo: no!
charles_leclerc: do NOT ruin my home please
danielricciardo: no promises xoxoxo
user26: y/n might want to film the party but I NEED THE FOOTAGE
user27: @tedkravitz boy do i have a gig for you
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yourusername: if you weren't a fake fan you would've listened to fruitcake and would know we spike the eggnog đ€·ââïž
danielricciardo: i am a fan !!!!!!!!!
yourusername: you asked me and yuki how we escaped the north pole last night
yukitsunoda0511: don't think i've forgotten about that, say goodbye to a tow in quali old man
danielricciardo: IT WAS A COMPLIMENT ELVES ARE CUTE?
charles_leclerc: don't call my girlfriend cute that's my job đ€š
danielricciardo: do you people ever let me live? i am battling a hangover like no other please stop shouting at me
charles_leclerc: maybe someone of your old age should manage his drink better
danielricciardo: THAT'S IT I'M GOING
yourusername: thanks we did actually want the kitchen floor back
user29: daniel calling y/n and yuki elves kills me
yourusername: we're not elf height we're cutie patootie height đ
yukitsunoda0511: amen
alexalbon: i will endure the torture because that was fucking insane
maxverstappen1: @yourusername you're in charge of all after parties now sorry
yourusername: let charlie win and you got a deal
maxverstappen1: i'd rather drink my gin and tonic in a ditch than let that happen
charles_leclerc: BOOO
alexalbon: cocktail recipe immediately @yourusername
yourusername: you've changed your tune ?
alexalbon: i had fun, sue me. plus i am actually happy for charlie but please no more singing about his dick
yourusername: i can't make any promises
charles_leclerc: and there's plenty of material to get the creative juices flowing
alexalbon: FUCK OFF
maxverstappen1: FUCK OFF
user30: the grid will never know peace, not even at christmas time
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charles_leclerc: nothing like the holidays with the love of your life
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user35: how down bad all men should be
yourusername: best holidays ever !!!! love you charlie xx
charles_leclerc: my christmas wish last year came true, and now you're stuck with me
yourusername: no one i would rather be stuck with
charles_leclerc: I LOVE YOU
yourusername: I LOVE YOU MORE
user36: good thing i got presents this year or the sheer sight of this couple would make me so jealous i would spontaneously combust
user37: real
landonorris: you will see to the crime of the stupid amount of mistletoe you had up at that damn party
charles_leclerc: have you seen y/n? (don't answer that) obviously i want any excuse to kiss her
landonorris: i DON'T CARE I HAD TO KISS DANIEL FIVE TIMES I WILL NEVER RECOVER
danielricciardo: i know you enjoyed baby
landonorris: @yourusername @charles_leclerc YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS
yourusername: idk it looked like you enjoyed it to me
landonorris: you WATCHED?
yourusername: i filmed it :) top blackmail material, don't crash into charlie OR ELSE
charles_leclerc: thanks babe
landonorris: @georgerussell63 get the gdpa to intervene nOW
georgerussell63: eh i'm quite entertained
user38: this really is the giving season huh
arthurleclerc: do i mean nothing to you?
charles_leclerc: you're nowhere near as cute as y/n đ€·ââïž
yourusername: awwwww charlie
arthurleclerc: EXCUSE ME? WHAT HAPPENED TO CHRISTMAS SPIRIT?
user39: charles is really ride or die lol
note: have a very merry christmas! i hope you guys all have a great holiday season and enjoy this quick one! i've been super busy but wanted to give you all a lil christmas treat - much love xx
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Hi! Would you write a smut fic about getting high with Mattheo?
R U High Mineâ„Mattheo Riddle
summary: you come back from the holiday's with some weed for you and the boys. When you and Mattheo smoke while showing him some songs, it get's a little heated between the two of you.
warnings: Filthy smut yasss, getting high, so drugs/weed, smoking, best friends to lovers, making out, vocal mattheo (ugh), dirty talk, fingering, unprotected p in v, aftercare, mattheo calling reader slut and whore
note: I saw this in the car and had an immediate idea how to write this, had much fun. Thank you for the request I hope you like it. đ
song: I recommend listening to the song "R U Mine" or "Why'd you only call me when you're high" by Arctic Monkeys, trust me babes. Or hear the playlist "Are you high mine" from my Spotify.
The boys and Pansy already waited for me in the common room as I arrived at Hogwarts again. It was like Christmas for them, knowing I would always bring them their favorite treat after the holiday's.
I smiled at them, knowing they were thinking the same as me as they smiled back at me. "Y/n!" Pansy was the first to stand up and hug me. From all the people I called my friends, I was closest to her. " Hey Pansy, how are you?" I asked, letting my bags fall to hug her back.
"I'm great! We're waiting for you girl. Everyone's here already." she giggled as she let go of me so I could great the rest.
I gave everyone a hug, at last Mattheo, who kissed my cheek. " How are you princess?" he asked, scanning my face. " I'm good Matt, thanks." I smile at him and sit beside him on the armrest. " What about you?" " Fine now that you're here." I rolled my eyes playfully at his answer.
"You know we're all happy to see you y/n, but do you have it?" Draco asked, shifting impatient in his seat. I think from all of us, he was the one with the most need for it. He was constantly on the edge, maybe even worse If it wasn't for Pansy who comforted him the best she could. He had all the pressure of his father on his shoulders and It was clear to see what it did to him. So a little smoke from now and then did good for him.
"Of course I have it, how could I forget when all of you reminded me the whole 2 weeks of it in each letter you wrote?" I say sarcastic, with a little smirk on the edge of my lips.
I grabbed my purse and pulled out a big black bag with already little packed baggy's, also black so you couldn't see what's in it, for each of them.
"Oh my god it's more than usually, right?" Enzo said, gawking at the little bags in my hand. I chuckled as I gave each one of them their own little bag so they could divide it up for the next few weeks.
"Yeah it is indeed more than usual. Got a good prize for it." " Wait let me pay what we didn't give you." Draco said, grabbing into his pockets but I shook my head. " No it's good. I'm friends with him since we were kids." He nodded and opened his bag to smell it, saying "You know I never thought I would say that but I wouldnât have thought I would ever be this happy to have a friend who is part of the muggle world."
I laughed at his comment, before giving the last bag to Mattheo. "I've got something else for you." I grinned at him, knowing he'll love it.
Obviously things like wifi don't exist here so I buyed him an MP3 player with lots and lots of battery's so he could listen to music. This time I brought an CD player and made a few Playlists for him.
His smile got bigger as he saw me pulling it out of my bag. "What's that?" Blaise asked, watching us. " It's an CD Player so you can hear Music a little louder than with headset."
"You wanna hear it?" I ask, Mattheo nodding. " Yeah princess, let's go." He grabbed my bags and gave me my purse. "See you later guy's." I waved at the rest of them.
It became a ritual for us to listen to music every time I came back from holiday's, so the group already knew what's going on.
We walked towards mine and Pansy's dorm we shared which was no issue to her as Mattheo and Draco shared a dorm so she would always go over to Draco's.
"You roll the weed and I'm gonna put on the music mkay? Grinder is in the top drawer." I say while walking towards my desk and putting the CD player on it, putting the battery in it and the first CD I wanted to show him. In the meantime he sat down on my bed and grinned the weed smaller before rolling it into a J.
"Ready." He smiled at me and tapped the place beside him on the bed. "Okay, so this is a band I want to show you, they're called "Arctic Monkeys" and I think you'll love them." Confident I sat down next to him after starting the Music. He lit the J and handed it over to me. "Here, you go first." "Thanks." I took the first drag and inhaled it deeply into my lungs before grinning and exhaling the smoke. " Oh it's good. Marc didn't disappoint." "Marc huh?" he asked as he took his first drag. " So you two are close or anything?"
I shrugged with my shoulders before laying down on my back. " Kind of, but not as close as I'm with you guys. I know him since I'm a kid, he's also the only one who knows about Hogwarts beside my parents."
He scanned my face as I was talking, slowly dragging his gaze from my eyes to my lips. I saw it but didn't think about it as I slowly but surely felt the weed have an effect.
"Damn, you were right. The music is great. It's a bit..edgy." " Yeah I know but it's great for smoking." I giggle and turn my head back towards the ceiling as the song "Why'd you only call me when you're high" started to play. " That's my second favorite." I tell him, feeling the weed calming me down but also making my senses and nerves more sensitive and reactive.
"What's your favorite?" "It comes after a few songs, just wait, I will tell you."
We layed down a little longer, smoking the J until it was ready and we were high as fuck. "Shit, it feels so good to be like this again." he groans, sending shivers down my spine. I turned my head towards him, seeing him looking at the ceiling.
I always had a crush on Mattheo. I loved when he was all flirty with me, while with nobody other. We both had partners before but I always felt some kind of pull towards him. My eyes scanned him, looking at his sharp jawline at first. I also loved looking at it, made me feel some type of way. Especially when it moved while he smoked.
Suddenly his eyes hit mine and maybe it's the weed but I had a feeling as If there was more in his gaze. Again, he looks at my eyes and then at my lips, licking his own.
Then my favorite song started playing. " That's my favorite." I said, watching him looking to the CD player. I wait a litte before he reacts to it. He breathed out heavily before looking at me. "You know where I would love to hear it?" "No tell me." "When we fuck." he says bluntly.
My eyes widened in shock, not knowing If I imagined things now. Before I could say anything he rolled over on top of me, grabbed my neck and kissed me with passion I've never felt before in my life. I opened my mouth as his tongue licked over my bottom lip. He groaned against my lips and pressed his body even more against mine, letting one hand beside my head to support himself and the other which was at my neck, now wandering over my stomach.
My breathing got faster and heavier due the haze and the arousal I suddenly felt. "Fuck, you don't even know how long I've been wanting to do this." He lowers his head down to my throat in a rush, leaving my lips trembling.
Goosebumps erupted over my skin as I felt his tongue licking my skin and his teeth carefully biting it. " Mattheo.." I moaned and let my hands go trough his hair, pulling on some strands. "What princess? What do you need hm?" he mumbles against my neck.
I arched my back and pressed my hips against his, feeling he's already hard. I gasped at the friction and bit my lip right after. " Need to feel you." "Where, tell me where. I wanna hear you say it." he groans, pressing against my hips.
"Everywhere. Fuck me." I would have never said that so bluntly without the weed, but I'm so grateful that we did smoke.
He growled against my skin, leaving wet kisses all over it before sitting up between my legs and letting both his hands roam over my skin under the hoodie I wore. It didn't take him long before pulling it over my head together with my shirt under it, seeing I was wearing no bra.
His lips parted and a smile formed on them. " You're so beautiful y/n, shit why didn't we do this sooner." His hand wandered up to my chest, massaging them and playing with my nipples teasing them. I mewled at the feeling and arched my back again. " Mattheo please. I need more."
"Don't have to ask me twice, princess." He opened the button of my jeans and pulled them down. He got rid of his clothes too until we were both only in our underwear.
I looked down and saw how big he was, just trough his boxershorts, making me gulp a little. "Don't worry, I'll go slow. Or do you want it rough?" I nodded quickly. " Rough. Fuck me like - " " Like what?" I gulped again before answering in a whisper. " Like a slut." " Oh you mean like my slut? Because after this you'll go nowhere but to me If you need to be fucked. Understood?" Ahh imagine him saying this ugh
I nodded. "Good girl." he said smiling, his voice and words making me even wetter. His fingers slowly stroked over my slip, making him biting his lip and almost moan. "Feel how wet you are you fucking slut? Wet for your best friend?"
I moaned and closed my eyes as he slipped a finger under the fabric and right inside of me. "Fuck, you're so tight. Nobody fucked you good the last few months huh?" I shook my head as I couldn't form any words. " Yeah that's gonna change from now on." He pumped his fingers a few more times inside of me, putting pressure to my clit with his thumb before pulling down his boxer shorts and my slip.
He pressed his tip against my entrance, looking at me. " Ready?" "Yeah.." I breathed out. He slowly pushed inside me, scanning my face, his eyes a little hooded.
My hands grabbed his hair again as he completely bottomed me out. "Oh yes.." I moaned, closing my eyes and parting my lips.
"You feel so good princess." he groaned and started to thrust inside me fast and rough, not thinking twice If someone outside in the common room could hear the bed hitting the wall. I wanted to say something but every word got stuck in my throat at his merciless fucking.
"What huh? Am I fucking you stupid you little whore? Fuck I love this, how fucked out you already look, not even able to speak." he growls into the air.
The only thing I felt was him inside me, thrusting faster and faster every minute that passed. I couldn't concentrate on anything else beside him. "M-mattheo I'm close.." " You wanna cum baby? Beg me like the little slut you wanted to be."
His thrusts became erratic and sloppy and I heard his breathing getting harder. "Fuck, please let me cum Mattheo. Please, I'm begging you." I moan loudly as my walls clench around his cock.
"Fuck fuck fuck.." he groaned, thrusting hard one last time before spilling inside me and circling his fingers on my sensitive clit. "Come around my cock baby." And I did. I did so hard that my vision went black for a moment and his name left my lips over and over again.
"Yeah, love how you almost look possessed. Possessed by my cock." he grins down at me, slowly pulling out of me.
I swallowed and looked at him, mind dizzy." "That was so good Mattheo." I said, trying to catch my breath.
"Oh believe me princess, that won't be the last time. You're mine now."
I hope you had fun reading, I had so much fun writing this. đ
Let me know what ya'll think about this hehe. đ
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how to make an agere journal! đȘ
đ supplies
anything will work, but here are some supply ideas to make your journal!
find a cute notebook to use! you can find journals for kids online or at most stores
gather pens, crayons and colored pencils! there are lots of sparkly gel pens you can find, including pens that are themed around kids shows
get stickers to decorate your journal with!
make a bookmark to help you keep track of where you left off
note: you don't have to buy anything if you want to make an agere journal! you can absolutely use a school notebook and whatever pencils, pens and crayons you have lying around.
đ about me! write about:
your favorite things to do while regressed
your favorite shows and books
what music you like listening to when small
what you liked to be called when little
your favorite little gear
what regression is like for you
what age you regress to
what you want to be when you grow up
do a âbig meâ vs âlittle meâ comparison
đ« about my caregiver! write about:
your favorite things about your cg
what you and your cg like to do together
how long theyâve been your cg
your favorite memory with your cg
things you associate with your cg
your cgâs favorite things - their favorite animal, show, color, etc
if you don't have a cg, write about what you'd like in a cg!
đ my dream little gear! you can:
draw your dream paci
design a onesie
draw stuffies you want
design teethers and blankets
come up with fun toys! you can find inspiration online, if you want
draw your dream playroom or nursery. you can also print or cut out pictures and glue them into your journal!
đ about my stuffies! you can:
make an âabout the stuffieâ section for each one! what's their name, where did you get them, how long have you had them, what kind of animal are they, etc!
draw a picture of your favorite stuffies
write about the adventures you like to go on with your stuffies
come up with cute outfit ideas for your stuffies
đȘ things to draw:
you and your caregiver together
any pets you have
your favorite animal(s)
characters from your favorite show or picture book
fun things you did that day
things for holidays, like pumpkins for halloween, a bunny for easter, reindeer and a tree for christmas, etc
you as a superhero
you as a pet or animal
you in space, as an astronaut!
make up an alien! draw what they might look like
đ other ideas:
design a cartoon or picture book! make a cast of characters and write about their adventures
write notes for your cg or sibbies
write about your day! what did you do, who did you see, etc
you can print out activity sheets and glue them into your journal, if you want!
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Hi! Finally able to request. I really enjoy your work!
Can you try a creator who use their power through music (like singing or playing instrument) in an Imposter-AU with the Archons? (The voice of the Creator is heard as the sound of nature like wind or water, though. No one knows their true voice)
Thank you so much.
đMerry Christmasđ
Welcome @peaceindreams ! I'll see what I can do with Your Request :D
Also VERY LATE Merry ChristmasâI'm writing this a few days after Christmas.
Archons Realize Reader is a MUSICIAN WOAHHH
To be honest, you were kinda just minding your business when the Archons found you and your ever-singing glory.
They SHOOKETH so good job! Let's nitpick at their reactions! >:)
(Warning: Might be OOC!)
Venti
Wisp boi HELLA SHOOKETH. But he also happi boi so good job!
Wants to hear your voice sing and not the wind just continues to gently smack his face. Don't get him wrong, he's probably the only one who can actually listen and understand and compute with what you're singing, but like he really wants to hear your actual voice. He thinks it'll be such a treat!
"Your Graceee...Is there a way to let these humble gods hear your voice? Pleaseee? This bard will make a ballad about it and the world shall start spewing about it right after!~ Hehe, it'll be a big hit, one as grand as your visage!"
He really wants to hear you sing now. Good luck explaining that you got no control over dis :)
Zhongli
GRANDPA ABSOLUTELY SHOOKETH. But he finds it pleasant to see that you're having fun and enjoying your time in Teyvat.
Unlike the airhead beside him, he cannot understand what you are singing, and he feels kinda disappointed that he can't enjoy it too. He would share the memoryâ
Ahem, anyways. Loves it, 100%. Bro's a huge supporter even though he legit has, like, zero comprehension of the situation. He's also giving Venti some bombasic side-eyes.
"Your Grace, please do not be pressured by this wind god. While it would be a stunning blessing, do NOT feel like you owe us anything." You know those memes where like, one person is forcing someone's head to bow while they bow to apologize to whoever got offended? Yeah, it's that one meme except it's Zhongli making Venti bow for his idiocy.
Grandpa wants to hear your voice fr this time, but bro's not gonna force it upon you. Grandpa will, nevertheless, share the memory over osmanthus wine, because "Osmanthus wine tastes the same as Iâ"
Ei
Raiden Ei, Raiden Ei...I honestly think she feels like she doesn't DESERVE to hear you sing. Like, she feels like she just intruded on your personal space and she crossed some sort of line.
But the wind's pleasant and all of the surrounding area is practically glowing as you sing. Your voice practically carries throughout the place, becoming the nature, the water, the wind, everything.
"Your Grace, you need not heed to the request at all. We are more blessed to be in your presence enough." As much as she's getting more and more used to the present times of Teyvat, she's still kinda stuck in her ways a little. She still thinks of you highly and does not let her beliefs falter.
She really doesn't think she deserves to hear your voice, but she is also very curious. Never wants to push though because she's old-school.
Puppet Shogun looking at this and going "This will be forever engraved in eternity" as Ei is shaking the Puppet Shogun by the shoulders like "NO, WE SHOULD NOT BE HEARING THIS WHAT KIND OF PROGRAM ARE YOU ON I DID NOT PROGRAM YOU LIKE THISâ"
All in all? Mental crisis! :D
Nahida
Cute god loves you! She loves how the flowers bloom, how the wind flows, how the water speaksânot even analogies can describe the amazingness of it all!
She's grinning so wide with such wholesome-wide eyes, like an actual child discovering music for the first time or smth ykwim? IT'S ADORABLE IS WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY.
"Your Grace...is it possible if we could see this more? You don't have to, of course, but this is really amazing!" She's practically GLOWING with excitement and nervousness. While Nahida wants to hear you sing and see you enjoying your time, she doesn't want to push boundaries!
Safe to say, she'll support whatever your answer will be!
Furina
Girl's flabbergasted. She thinks she might have been sent to both celestia and hell because it was hard to compute whether she was trespassing or if she was being blessed.
Furina is utterly speechless to how your voice alone commands presence and power without even needing to try so hard. Anyone, absolutely anyone, can tell you are truly the Almighty Creator.
Though she's retired from being the Hydro Archon, she still has the slight dramatic flare she has had for 500 years. And she's got to say, she absolutely loved your performance!
"Your Grace, if I could humbly suggest a request on the behest of the follow archons beside me." Furina dramatically bows a little. "May we be humbled by your presence, and continue to gaze upon our unfathomed eyes of what a real god can truly do in the likes of the world? I'm sure this will bring many beautiful pieces of artâbe it music, visual arts, dramatic arts, and so on!" Girlie doesn't realize she made a beautiful monologue about your singing on the spot, but one thing's for sureâshe loves you and you singing, even if her ears can't understand it. It was still a beautiful piece.
After all, she was the All-Powerful Hydro Archon before she retired. She knows power and art when she sees it, and you bypass all forms of mortal concepts. You're practically her favorite musician!
Please grace herâI mean themâwith your singing! It's too beautiful to miss!
Ghost Rebel Side Notes: I am SAD I couldn't finish this when it was still AROUND CHRISTMAS SOBBING, but I hope y'all like this post, though! Hopefully my next post won't take too longâbut I'm not gonna say anything because rn I'm EATING those words up like it's for breakfast lolâI'll see you all next time :)
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Playing "4 Big Guys" around the slashers
Shitpost idea has been made, so here XD
This will include: Michael Myers {OG & RZ}, Brahms Heelshire, Jason Voorhees, Billy Lenz, Freddy Krueger, Stu Macher, Billy Loomis, Thomas Hewitt, Bubba Sawyer, Harry Warden, Tiffany Valentine
Feel free to request any shitpost writing prompt ideas you can think of in my asks, I love silly non-serious ideas XD
Given the music is VERY adult related, this is 18+ ONLY
OG Michael Myers
Ain't gonna lie, the second you play that song he's probably staring at you instantly. Anger? Disappointment? Cursing your entire family and possible future children? Who knows! It's Michael-Fucking-Myers baby!!!
He's not used to anything sexual overall so hearing a song openly sing about gay sex, and in such a detailed way, would worry him. Not for the singer, no- more on your taste in music.
And don't even get me started on when he hears about shit being involved. The second he hears that being mentioned he's turning off the music entirely, patting your head, and dragging you away so you'll listen to something he likes instead to cleanse that weird mind of yours. Like... Kate Bush or something.
He'd like Kate Bush right? He looks like a Kate Bush enjoyer.
RZ Michael Myers
Judging you, hard. Though he ain't saying it. His aura is practically smellable he's judging you so hard.
Does he like it? No. It's loud, obnoxious, and profound filled. Ignoring the obvious "gay sex and other weirdness" part, the volume of the music reminds him of his childhood.
He's smashing the device the music is coming from. He doesn't care if it's your MP3 all the way to a damn TV or Alexa, he's smashing that shit to pieces if it means he doesn't need to hear it anymore.
What would he put on instead? Calming ambient noises that play for hours on end on YouTube. It's the exact opposite of whatever hellscape you just played. It's better.
Brahms Heelshire
Well first of all it ain't classical, so that's a point on the "I Hate This" list.
Second it's not a piano.
Third it's literally "4 Big Guys"-
Not only is this poor man confused about everything the singer is saying, I highly doubt his parents explained LGBTQ+ to him, he's also hating how loud it is.
"Who puts things up their ass?" - Brahms Heelshire 2024
You turn off the music yourself when he practically begs you to.
You're probably tryna hold in your laughter while he's sitting on the floor trying to figure out what the fuck he just heard.
Jason Voorhees
Is there a bigger word for "traumatized"? Because that man earns it.
You're lucky af, if his mom was live she'd hit you with a crowbar so fast- Not kill you tho, she wouldn't dare hurt her boy.
But yeah, he's not saying anything, nor moving. Bro's too traumatized. LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE-
You better give him his teddy he fucking deserves it TmT
Laughing his ass off until the shit is mentioned, even this horny gremlin has his limits.
Can you tell I hate shit kinks? XD
He'd want an apology for you blasting that song so far to that section. But no music! He hates Christmas songs, they're so repetitive and they all sound the same anyway.
Bake him a cake, the more unique the better. His favourite so far is red velvet with cream cheese frosting!
Then when he's finished eating you're getting railed by him not longer after, man's not changed. Not now, not ever.
Freddy Krueger
You can play this entire song with this man on REPEAT and he'd be fine with it.
I'd be surprised if he didn't given his track record and.... slicing open his skin to reveal green "blood" and maggots crawling out.
Would he laugh the first time? ABSOLUTELY!
Would he jokingly sing along, probably.
But he would TOTALLY play this song when going after his victims sometimes. Imagine dying and the last thing you hear is:
"4 BIG GUYS AND THEY GRAB ON MY THIGHS-"
Stu Macher & Billy Loomis
Billy is concerned for your wellbeing. Especially when you start singing it at full force with Stu joining in not long after.
Yeah Stu is enjoying this to the max!
Finds it hilarious, who the fuck wouldn't when you've got humour more broken than Brahms' doll-
But seeing you enjoying yourself to this.... absurdity, at least makes Billy calm down from worry. Now he's just concerned your taste in music may infiltrate your taste in movies.
I doubt the man's used to hearing music.... imagine this being his first time hearing it-
OMG he'd probably think this is normal for music.
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE??? XD
If it's not his first time hearing music though? No concern, laughter, nothing. He's neutral, given that this is something that makes you a little chaotic gremlin.
He's happy seeing you comfortable enough around to be a "gremlin" as you call it.
Bubba Sawyer
Don't traumatize him more than he's been already!!
Sure he doesn't realise it, or the fact he's used to it, but the poor guy's already traumatized-
Though he's probably more confused in the whole scheme of things. I mean, he knows what sex is. But just the surface of it.
So he's probably just learnt way too much in such a short period of time.
Oh lord what have you done-
Harry Warden
Okay first of all, why is there no GIF of this man? WTF????
Second; man's from the mines, man's old fashioned, you've probably just thrown way too much modern shit in his face way too quickly that he's just staring at you, the music video, and then the floor.
Poor miner is so confused, especially when the "cum starts spraying".
Oh god he'll probably think it's like dust from the mines spraying everywhere.
Fucking hell that's a vision-
Tiffany Valentine
Finds it amusing? Yes.
Judging? Not as much as you'd expect.
Girl's been through a wild ride, hearing you blast out "4 Big Guys" from your phone wouldn't be the most shocking thing in the world.
Hell. she'd probably encourage you to start singing along to it XD
Oh she's gonna use that song to torture someone with it. She doesn't know how yet, but she's got the idea in her head now
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Secret Smokes (Part 9)
Pairing: Teacher! Remus Lupin x Reader
Series Summary: When the reader bumps into the new DADA professor on the bridge in Hogwarts she begins to build a friendship with him all thanks to their shared feeling of not belonging and love for muggle cigarettes. Their friendship blooms while they both fight internal battles deciding what is wrong and what is right leading to a lot of fluff, angst, flirting and a rollercoaster of emotions.
Warnings: Swearing, smoking, drinking, teacher-student relationship, angst, jealousy, fluff, smut.
Word Count: 5776
A/N: At the end! No spoilers here, but it's a long one so get cosy.
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Christmas morning began like every year except for the owl. When you made it downstairs there was an owl under the tree from Remus, you picked up the letter and thanked the owl giving it a treat before sending it home. You hadn't heard from Remus since you got home, however you couldn't be upset as you didn't attempt to write to him either. Even though you missed him a lot and you couldn't stop thinking about him life had become quite busy with work, family and your hometown friends. This was the first time you came home and didn't want to flirt with any one or meet anyone as the only person who got your heart to race was Remus. Since you first opened his present you kept re-reading what he wrote, as if you were trying to decipher it. Maybe it was him calling you "dear" and ending it with "yours" that made your heart race, maybe it was simply just the only way to feel close to him. "What's that letter honey?" Your mum asked walking out the kitchen to see you standing holding Remus's most recent letter.
"It's from my friend, I think it's just to thank for the Christmas present I got him."
"Him?" Your mother asked. "I knew those were for a boy she liked!" Your dad chimed in from the sofa. "So who's he?" Your mum asked.
That's when the doubts hit you, you shouldn't get excited by Remus sending you a letter, he's the kind of man you can't tell your parents about. How would you explain to your parents that you got involved with your defence against the dark arts professor and that he's also a werewolf. "Just a friend who's helped me a lot this year. Anybody want coffee?" You asked tucking Remus's letter into your jeans pocket and changing the subject.
When you had a moment after the busy morning you went upstairs to finally open Remus's letter that had occupied your mind all morning. You slowly opened it while sipping on a cup of tea that wasn't as tasty as the ones made by Remus in his office.
"My dearest Y/N,
Merry Christmas. Would it be inappropriate to say smoking or listening to music alone isn't the same? Thank you so much for your present, I've been listening to the vinyl from you on repeat I can't wait to listen to it with you. I hope work is good and your family is well too. Hogwarts is beautiful in the snow I'm glad I stayed but I'll be heading home to York soon - today - so if you would like to reach me please write to:
The Luna Cottage Yorkshire YO22 5AN
No pressure to write however if you do I just don't want you to feel like I'm ignoring your letters.
Yours, as always, Remus"
You wished the letter was longer, that he would tell you more about what he's been doing why he didn't write. You wanted to have a conversation about his day, you decided it was only right to reply to him straight away.
"Moony, Merry Christmas!
I am starting to realise my record collection is boring compared to yours. I'm glad you enjoyed the present, thank you so much for passing on your fathers book, I'm happy to return it to you as soon as I read it as it sounds quite sentimental.
I adore the cigarette tin, I would be lying if I said it hasn't already been useful. The camel and bridge are beautiful however I miss the real bridge.
I'm glad to hear you're enjoying Christmas, don't run to your cottage too quickly enjoy your time in Hogwarts although I do realise how stupid it is to write that as I'm sending it to your cottage.
My family is well and so am I thank you for asking, I do miss the snow in Hogwarts I look forward to coming back after new years.
Speak soon, Y/n"
You sent the letter almost as soon as you wrote it eager to continue this conversation with Remus. You could wait to read his next letter. However it did not arrive for days. Maybe he stayed in Hogwarts you thought, maybe he hasn't had time to send you one, maybe he's too busy...
You waited each day for a letter to arrive but nothing came, New Year's Eve was around the corner and you thought wether to wish him happy new year like you wished him Merry Christmas however you decided against it. The Weasleys had invited you to a New Year's party and you considered not going however you decided maybe it would be good to spent an evening with your school friends as opposed to the home town friends that you saw all Christmas break. The party wasn't at their house but rather a house in London however they assured you pre-drinks will be spent together. You met at their house where you would be spending the night after the party, it was nice to see their parents who always made you feel at home. They asked you many questions about your Christmas break and Molly even gave you a new hand knitted scarf as a gift. You hadn't arrived at their house empty handed either as you had a whole tray of home made cookies from your mum which the Weasley boys devoured. "So what's this party we're going to?" You asked the twins.
"It's one of the order parties but it should be fun." Fred began.
"And if we hate it, it's in central London so we can jump ship." George added.
"And we'll still see the muggle fireworks from there." Fred finished their joint sentence.
"But isn't everyone in the order like 50 now, I want a new years kiss." You complained
"I'm here." George quickly interrupted.
"I'm the hotter twin and I'm here too." Fred took over.
"See you have two options!"George said with a laugh.
"Three we all know dear Percy would kill for a kiss from you." Fred almost whispered so no one else in the family would hear.
"I don't want to kiss him, or you, or you." You said laughing and pushing them away in a friendly way.
"No you want to kiss your teacher." They both said simultaneously making your face go red.
"Shut up. I prefer people my age."
"Don't lie to us the only person our age you want to snog is Sebastian and he's mostly a rebound for your profesor."
"What did you get him for Christmas?"
"It doesn't matter besides he hasn't spoken to me since Christmas."
"But he wrote to you."
"Just to thank me."
"He still thought of you."
"We've gone off topic so who's gonna be at this party or did I waste my new years by agreeing to this?" You bought the conversation back.
"We promise there will be people you'll want to kiss there, you'll have fun."
"We're sure of it."
"Only thing...."
"'Mum is coming."
"WHAT? This is going to be so lame, a party with your parents?"
"Don't worry, we'll still have fun." He said handing you a shot to drink and all three of you necked it down. You got changed and ready to go out, suddenly you were all looking a lot more like you were going to party, the boys wolf whistled you when you joined them in the living room. By this point nearly the whole family was downstairs including Hermione who was also invited as Harry and Ron were going. When you walked into the room Percy's face seemed to go red, you felt bad as you knew his feelings for you but you just simply didn't feel the same about him. You relaxed in the living room for a bit before all of you traveled to the house the party was taking place at.
It was 12 Grimmauld Place. The home of the Blacks. Sirius Black was the only one left living there however he used the house to throw very extravagant parties, that's what Percy told you anyway. When you arrived it was quite littered with people already, and there was a mix of people older and younger, you spent time with the twins at first as you were a bit shy to start talking to so many strangers. As soon as the alcohol started to get to your head you became a lot more social with everyone around, one of your most interesting conversations was with the host Sirius Black who you clicked with immediately, you ended up in quite a discussion about the London firework display and he promised you could go up to the roof for the fireworks at midnight. You were quite enjoying yourself when you noticed Sirius hugging a man who was apologising for arriving late, he was taking his jacket off when you caught a glimpse of him. Remus J Lupin. He was wearing corduroy trousers, a nice clean fresh Oxford shirt that was a pale blue with a dark vest over it and a long black trench coat. You felt the temperature of the room go up and you needed a distraction so you jumped into a conversation with the twins. "Our teacher is here." You stated to them.
"Your teacher more like." Fred stated with a grin on his face as him and George shared a look.
"You knew." You pointed a finger at them both.
"He's in the order." George explained.
"Close friends with Black. And our parents." Fred finished.
"We didn't know for sure if he would come." They both said in response to your upset face.
"He hasn't replied to my letter." You said quietly.
"Well now you can talk in person." Fred said. You could see Remus but he wasn't looking at you, he was happy, he looked a bit tired but not more than usual, he seemed in his element hugging people hello and chatting with them. After about twenty minutes you both noticed each other he gave you a slight wave from across the room and you waved back while speaking to Hermione. The next hour and a half you spent stealing glances at each other from across the room but not talking even when you stood right next to each other, it felt like an unspoken rule. It was hurting you to watch him talk to an attractive girl from the order and laugh with her, a whole body laugh. You felt jealous, and upset that he didn't even acknowledge you past a small wave.
It was only when you were outside having a smoke with Fred that you finally spoke to Lupin. He was the one who started the conversation, you heard him say "No, no, no. I can't believe that you haven't heard of The Stooges, hold on, Y/N have you heard of the Stooges" he interrupted your conversation but you didn't mind.
"Of course, arguably they were the first punk rock band." You said with a small smile, eyeing the girl he was taking to in a judgmental way.
"Thank you!" Remus said to everyone before turning around to face you. "Hello by the way." He has a gently smile.
"Hi professor, I saw you earlier but didn't want to interrupt." You said hugging him hello, he already smelt like he's drank quite a bit as did you.
"You should've." He said gently in a hush tone, eyes quickly flicking down to your lips then back to your eyes, his breath really smelt like fire whiskey.
"You look nice." You replied.
"I was going to say the same about you." The small smile growing on his lips as his eyes scanned your body.
"Who are you so dressed up for?" You pried hoping the answer doesn't hurt you.
"Sirius." He said in a stern tone and continued once he saw the puzzled look on your face. "He said he was going to hex me if I showed up in the same clothes I wear every day. I don't know if you've met him yet but I believe he genuinely would have."
"I have and I agree, I think you're a wise man." You said with a laugh.
"How was Christmas?" He asked changing the topic.
"You know same, same. Spent most of the time working. What about yours?" You said putting your hands in your pockets awkwardly. When you spoke to him it's like the whole world blurred, like no one else was around you even through your were standing outside the house on a street in central London.
"Christ Y/N, I'm sorry I didn't write back." He simply answered.
"It's okay, I'm sure you were busy." You said hiding your disappointment.
"No, no I wasn't." He said with his own frown on his face. "After Christmas there was a full moon and I was knackered, once I regained energy I had so much to do and I didn't dedicate time to writing back, when I could've, I should've and I'm so sorry." He was leaning on the wall for support as if his guilt was weighing him down.
"How's the cottage?"
"It's cosy, I've been fixing things in it, Hogwarts has meant it stands empty with no one looking after it, so things have broken in my absence." He explained.
"I wish you had time to write while you were there, I had so many questions." You said instead of saying you missed him.
"Have you seen Sebastian Sallow over half term?"
"What?" You shot back in confusion.
"Just wandering as you two are close."
"Not that close." You felt weird about his question, his facial expression was hard to read.
"Fair enough." He replied after a moment of awkward silence.
"Why do you ask?" You pushed.
"Because I thought you two were slowly growing into a relationship, you know I just want the best for you."Â He didn't make eye contact with you.
"What's the best for me?" You questioned.
"It's not me." He said with an intense stare into your eyes.
"So you don't want me to be with you?" You asked swallowing hard from the anxiety.
"Correct." He answered his body inching closer to you.
"But do you want to be with me?" He looked down at his empty glass after you asked him this.
"What was work like?" He asked changing the topic.
"Answer my question." You pushed.
"Answer mine."
"I asked first."
"Y/N... let's change the subject before one of us gets hurt, let's not ruin new years." He said sounding defeated as he finished the sentence you heard the front door open and saw Sirius there with two drinks in his hand.
"Remus! There you are, I made you a drink." He said in a jolly voice. "Y/N, do you want one too?" He said while handing a drink to Remus.
"It's fine I can go get it myself." You said finishing this the perfect opportunity to leave this conversation with Remus.
"Beautiful, let me show you the main reason why being a magic is the greatest thing ever." Sirius said clicking his fingers and your glass refilled itself. Remus just laughed as if this was an old trick.
"How?" You asked in shock.
"Dear old Sirius has enchanted all the glass to be self re-filling because he's too lazy to stand up and pour himself a drink."
"I didn't know this was possible." You expressed.
"It's a dangerous trick." Remus explained.
"As if you don't love it Moony." Sirius said and you have a puzzled look to the nickname but didn't ask more questions. "Now it looks like you two were having a meaningful chat I don't mean to interrupt."
"You're not, I was just about to head inside." You said.
"Sure you were." Sirius said with a wink. "Enjoy the drink moony, let me know how it tastes later!" Sirius said with a wink at Remus and head tilting to you before he left, luckily for Remus you didn't see this. A moment of silence fell upon both of you again before Remus cleared his throat. "You know all the glasses in my office have this enchantment." He said sitting down on the front door steps.
"Liar, why do you always stand up and make cups of tea if they can refill themselves?"
"I find there's something romantic about doing things the proper way, taking a moment to brew a tea and pour it. It feels like it's the right way to do it. When I'm alone I don't bother to do all the mundane but I like to do it with you." He took last sip of the cocktail he managed to already finish and you watched it magically refill itself.
"So I'm guessing you and Sirius are close?" You asked.
"How'd you guess?"
"He called you moony."
"He's my best friend from school, there's not many of us left after the war." Remus began.
"What do you mean us?"
"My friends from school and I used to call ourselves the Marauders."
"That's so lame." You laughed and he had a nostalgic smile on his face.
"I know. But we were proud of it, we were unstoppable, a force to be reckoned with. We used to preform some pranks that created new rules in Hogwarts."
"Not that pillar of morality I thought you were Professor." You winked at him and he laughed.
"Maybe not." His eyes were glued to your lips.
"So what happened?" You asked and his eyes went down to the floor, he cleared his throat and took a sip of his drink.
"We all grew up but not all of us got to grow old. You see straight after school James and Lilly got married, it was a beautiful day. Not long after Harry was born, we felt like we were on top of the world when we were leaving Hogwarts. But the wizarding war kept getting worse, I struggled for work with my condition so I focused mainly on the order, James and Sirius helped me a lot especially with money, I wouldn't have a home without them. We spent most of our days as part of the Order of the Phoenix, and we were proud, we felt like our little group was part of something special. Then the day when Peter betrayed James and Lilly came, and well you know how the story of that day goes." He said his voice breaking a bit a small tear forming in his eye. "After that day the world rejoiced, war was over, he was gone, but he took James and Lilly with them. Peter, the snitch, sold them out. It was just Sirius and I left." You placed you hand on his knee to comfort him.
"I'm sorry-"
"It's okay. I was hurt that day and I was stupid, I distanced myself from Sirius, and from everyone. I saw the world as cruel, I really treated myself like a victim, felt sorry for myself. Sirius, he saved me. Every full moon he would come to the cottage and make sure I was okay, it was only after a year that I found out when he fell asleep and when I was back to my human form he was still around. He explained he'd come in secret every month just to check in on me. He made me realise the world wasn't so cruel after all." Remus glanced back at the house behind him.
You got a glimpse at a new part of Remus, the Remus who lost friends, the Remus who used to be a boy surrounded by everyone he loved, and you understood why now being in Hogwarts he was so much more lonely than ever before. "It's funny when I met you it felt like meeting the marauders for the first time. If only you were around when I was your age, I think I would've- doesn't matter. I'm sorry for dropping my sob story on you like that." Remus said with a heavy breath.
"Moony I love to hear about your past, Sirius sounds very special... I'm glad you have him."
"I love that boy." He said honestly. "He's my brother for life." He said looking back at the house once again. A calm quiet fell upon you both before you took your cigarette tin out of your pocket, you offered one to Remus and he took it "nice tin." He said with a wink. "Where'd you get it?" He asked while you tried to light your cigarette with your lighter, he lit his with magic obviously.
"This guy got me it, I really thought he liked me because it's so special but I realise now he's just kindhearted and cares about people. It's still one of my favourite gifts though."
"What says those are mutually exclusive?" He questioned while you struggled to light your cigarette as your lighter didn't want to work.
"Can you light it for me?" You asked him gently turning around to him.
"Sure, come here." He motioned for you to get closer to him. And you shifted towards him. "Closer." He instructed. You were confused but listened, you were now inches away from him, his cigarette was in his mouth and yours was in your hand. "Put it in your mouth." He said through the cigarette. "Now come here I'll light it for you." He said quietly. So you leaned in and he lit the cigarette with the one in his mouth, your body felt like it was burning, you could smell the alcohol, you could smell him. Chocolate, cigarettes and an undertone of firewood. He placed a hand on your face to stabilise you and you felt that your cigarette was lit. You pulled away from each other and you took a drag with a shaky breath after the moment you just shared.
You felt his hand grab your chin again and turn your face back to his, his cigarette wasn't in his mouth this time, he began to lean in. "Tell me if you want me to stop." He whispered and your heart raced as you leaned into him and your lips crashed. The kiss was full of lust and longing. He had completely dropped his cigarette as both his hands were now on your face, you dropped yours and raised your hands to touch him. You felt him swoop your whole body to the side and you were suddenly straddling him on the stairs of the house. You felt him, you felt how much he wanted you, you began to slowly grind on him to tease him. His hands began to go up and down your back as you continued to make out, your hands went through his hair, something you wanted to do for a very long time. And then you heard it, the fireworks.
Remus pulled away first, shaken back into reality, you both looked into each others eyes for a few seconds. Silence. The look of complete fear and lust in both your eyes as reality crashed back in. "Happy new year dear." He said quietly.
"Happy new year Moony." Your replied and he gently kissed you on the lips with love rather than lust this time. He slowly moved you off him and stood up, reaching out a hand towards you to help you stand up. "Let's head up to the roof, the view of the fireworks is beautiful up there." He said and you gave him a sad look.
"I'm happy to miss it." You almost whispered.
"We can't. Come on." He said reaching his hand out for you to hold and you followed him holding his hand while walking up the stairs and questioning which part he was referring to with "we can't". You headed back inside and as you passed the mirrors on the stairs Remus fixed his hair, he let go of your hand and you walked side by side upstairs entering the roof quietly. Once upstairs he squeezed your shoulder and walked away from you, he started making the rounds while telling people happy new year starting from some members of the order, moving onto the Weasleys and so on. You just stood there watching him. "Happy new year Y/N. We were looking for you." Fred said. "Are you okay?" He said looking at your confused expression.
"I just kissed our teacher." You said quietly. And Fred laughed and George groaned. "Pay up." Fred said to George and they exchanged money.
"You guys bet on this? You bought me here and you bet on it?" You asked slightly annoyed but also amused.
"Only when I left you outside with him." Fred said defensively. "How do you feel?" George asked. "Relived?" Fred added.
"Horny and confused."
"Poor Percy was looking for you, wanted you to be his new years kiss, he won't be happy to find out." George added.
"No one can know." You said sternly.
"Y/N, your secret is safe with us." George said.
"However we will make fun of you for this." Fred stated.
"Constantly." George added.
"Looks Y/N is not paying attention to us." Fred pointed out as you were starring at Remus and Sirius whispering to each other and Sirius glancing over at you.
"We've lost her, next thing you know she'll be married, she won't speak to us. No time for us." Fred joked. As you continued to watch Remus, who now glanced at you, said bye to Sirius and began to walk over in your direction.
"He's coming over what should I do?" You asked in panic.
"You were the one snogging him, not us." They both said.
"Shut up." You replied and Remus was now close enough to hear. The boys turned around and smiled at him with big grins. "Happy new year professor." The both said.
"Happy new year." He replied gently. "Happy new year Y/N." He said to you pretending as if nothing happened.
"Wait so you didn't even say happy new year to each other?" Fred asked and both you and George slapped him to shut him up.
"I should've known. Sirius also knows." He said he's gesturing behind him to a smiling Sirius who waved at you as soon as you looked over at him.
"Obviously." You said with a gentle smile.
"Do you boys mind if I have a word with Y/N?" Remus asked politely.
"Just don't-" Fred began.
"Fred." You and George said in unison. "Alright nice to see you prof!" Fred said laughing and walking away.
Remus lead you off the roof and down the stairs towards one of the rooms. You didn't ask any questions. He pulled you into a room and you straight away began to make out. You explored each others lips before between kissed Remus began to speak "Let's get one thing straight, this can't happen." He then kissed you again and you tried to push out a "yes" between the kisses. "And no one can find out about this." You nodded and he leaned back in to continue. "And if anyone knew you could get expelled and I could lose my job."
"Yes professor."
"Don't. I go crazy when you call me that." He said biting your lip as he kissed you this time and moving his hands around your whole body. "Now tell me if you want me to leave this room and pretend nothing happened, tell me now and I'll leave and we'll go back to just being professional." He said looking deep into your eyes and you shook your head and leaned in to kiss him. "Good." He whispered before kissing you back, after a moment you moved your hands to his belt and began to unbuckle it. "Not so quickly my dear." He whispered in your ear. "What we're going to do is leave this room, you're going to be a good girl and mingle with your friends, while I make the rounds talking to mine. Then when it's late and everyone is saying goodbye you meet me. That way we don't raise any suspicion about both being gone all night." He explained and you nodded. "Good." He said and he kissed your lips gently before leaving the room. You stood in the dark room alone trying to process everything. After a moment you left the room and continued upstairs, on the stairs you a ran into Percy. "Y/N!" He said cheerfully. "Where have you been all evening?" He asked.
"Oh I've been floating around." You replied trying to keep it vague.
"I was searching for you." He stated.
"It's a big house." You simply replied.
"Why did you leave with professor Lupin after new years?"
"Why are you watching my every move?" You felt like your privacy was invaded.
"We're friends Y/N, I feel like this year you've been running around befriending Slytherins and doing tutoring every day we've barely seen each other." He complained.
"You're exaggerating, besides you're the one who always pushed for me to study more, now I am and you're complaining." You were getting annoyed.
"Are you and the Slytherin boy dating? Is that why you've been avoiding me?" He asked a bit too aggressively.
"Percy. Your jealousy is showing, please go home, go the bed, we'll talk tomorrow." You walked past him towards the roof, he tried to continue the conversation but you didn't turn around to reply.
Upstairs you saw Remus chatting to small group of people, he looked so handsome. You started getting involved in your own conversations however you couldn't resist to look over at Remus constantly, and he kept looking over at you. Each time he would smile, sometimes he'd lightly wink. When Molly and Arthur Weasley were leaving you and the twins said you'll come home later in the evening and they trusted you and left you behind. Finally there was very few people left behind and Remus approached you and the twins as you relaxed in the living room. "Sorry to interrupt." He began not taking his eyes off you as he scanned your body, licking his lips.
"Please do." Fred said with a grin.
"Excuse us profesor." George said pulling Fred away.
"Has anyone given you a tour of the house dear?" Remus asked you with his hands on his pockets while looking down towards you. You shook your head and he simply reached a hand out to you to help you up. He began giving you a tour from the bottom of the house towards upstairs, there were still people in the house but very few as it was nearing 4am and most people had traveled home by now. He led you all the way up before he stopped at a room. "And here is my room." He said.
"Your room?" You questioned.
"Well technically the guest room but since it's just Sirius who lives here this room has become my room, I stay here whenever I'm in London." It was mostly a simply decorated room but the small pile of books on the side table made it obvious that Remus stayed here often.
"What have you been reading?" You said picking up the top book as Remus came up behind you putting his arms around you and kissing your neck.
"Does it matter right now?" He whispered in your ear pulling you against him.
"I don't think so." You said as he turned you around to look at him.
"You drive me crazy girl." He leaned in to kiss you. "Do you want to know how crazy?" He asked and you nodded. That's when he grabbed your hand and put it against his crotch, you could feel how huge his cock was in that very moment. "Holy shit." You whispered as a genuine reaction not thinking about what's leaving your lips. Remus smiled and chuckled slightly. "Don't worry, I'll go slow." He whispered and you almost melted into his kiss. After a moment of kissing he gently pushed you against the wall where he pulled your top off and your trousers. He began kissing you from your neck down your body getting on his knees in front of you as he kissed your legs and bit your thong. "I have thought about this moment from the first time I met you. You're more beautiful than I imagined." He said before standing up and kissing you on the lips again and you ran your hands through his hair. He picked you up and lay you down on his bed as he climbed up above you leaning down and kissing you. You reached up to unbutton his shirt and he stopped your hands for a moment.
"I just want to warn you, I have scares." He said, his voice had a twang of anxiety behind it.
"I don't care." You breathed out.
"You don't understand they're bad, I can keep my shirt on."
"Remus don't be ridiculous." You said unbuttoning his shirt to reveal his chest, his scars were deep, layering on top of each other some older than others. You began to trace them with your finger as Remus watched your expression, you then leaned in to kiss his scars. He put a hand under your chin and went back to kiss you as he unbuckled his trousers slipping them off while keeping his lips on yours. He once again moved down to your underwear taking them off with his mouth as he kissed you all the way back up to your lips. "I'm going to go slow but if anything hurts tell me okay?" He confirmed and you nodded. "Dear I need you to use your words for me."
"Yes Professor." You said and it felt like his eyes darkened a little as he slowly slid into you. You could feel how large he was as began to slowly move in and out. As soon as he saw you feel comfortable he began to up the pass, kissing your neck and starting to suck and lick it as you moaned under him. "You're so beautiful." He whispered in your ear as he kissed you.
"Remus you feel amazing." You said as he picked up the pace and moaned in your ear. He held your hands above your head with one hand and kept himself up above you with the other. The kissing turned into bites with kisses as your hearts raced. "Remus I'm close." You moaned out as he was bitting your nipples and still holding your hands above your head. "I want to feel you cum for me." He said as he kissed your lips again and you moaned out in bliss. You felt him fill you right after. As soon as he pulled out he leaned in to kiss you and you kissed him back. "Happy new year." He whispered as he lay down next to you pulling you in your hug him, you skin touching his skin. "Happy new year Remus." You whispered back tracing his scars with your finger and closing your eyes as he lightly kissed the top of your head.
A/N: AHHHHHH finally! Now I can tell you this chapter was the idea that sparked everything, it was the idea of them sitting on those bloody steps and him lighting her cigarette with his own that made me want to write all this. Don't worry it's not over yet, we're only just beginning the story I hope you carry on reading a lot as there's loads more to come as they navigate this situation. Hope you like it!
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love calculator - pjh (m)
this work contains smut - minors please do not interact
pairing. best friend!jihoon x fem!reader
synopsis. You were sure that Jihoon only took care of you so well because your brother had tasked him with looking after you when you started university, so you tried not to read too much into his actions until you couldn't deny your increasing sensitivity around your best friend anymore. What you didn't know was Jihoon was going crazy, finding ways to make his feelings for you more obvious than they already were.
genre. f2l, brother's friend, slight childhood friends action, college au, slow burn?, fluff, smut (mutual first time, they do it raw, dirty talking, very soft dom!jihoon)
warnings. jihoon is a menace, jihoon has a hot bod, junkyu is mean to everyone, mc is a bit slow, side romance but i dont actually ship idols i have a life, omegle, ok theres no actual stuff to be warned about its all good in there
word count. 28.2k dont ask me why or how idk either
a/n. there she is... i spent SO much time on her pls love it lots or i'll cry.. it was sm fun writing for jihoon omg i hope u love hoonyn as much as i do !!! @zreamy my dear sweet little zo ty for betareading this and freaking out over jihoon u rock
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Oddly enough, it was Jihoonâs biceps that first made you think something was wrong with you.
It was the fourth week of the spring semester, that odd in-between when you knew midterms were creeping up but were still far away enough to be ignored. This meant that you could party guilt-free.
The plan for tonight was to pregame at one of those huge uni dorms where ten students shared a kitchen then head to an overpriced club downtown that always had the best music on Friday nights. You didnât have any classes on Fridays, so youâd headed to Jihoonâs place around four p.m. to get ready together. Usually, that was something youâd do with Minjeong, your roommate, but that weekend, she was away for an excursion with her Geography course.Â
He was in the shower when you rang the doorbell, so his flatmate let you in, and you made yourself comfortable on his bed while waiting for him. You were so engrossed in the romance Webtoon youâd started that morning that at first, when he came in, you didnât even look up from your phone.Â
âHey, Y/N,â he said casually, unfazed by your sudden appearance in his room. The soft smell of his body wash filled the room, and you noted with smugness that it was the one you had jokingly given him for Christmas after youâd gotten fed up with his strong, ever-present Axe scent.Â
âHey, Hoonie. You smell nice. For once.â
He chuckled. âItâs all thanks to you.â
âWhat would you do without me?â you said with a sigh, then looked up. You shouldnât have. âOh.â
The sight you were met with was unlike anything youâd ever seen in real life - Jihoon in all his post-shower half-naked glory, a simple white towel hanging low on his hips. Small beads of water fell from his hair and dripped down his chiseled chest and onto the plush carpet lining his bedroom.
You were pretty sure youâd seen at least five scenes like this in your romance comics.
âOh?â he parroted.
You squinted your eyes at your friend before turning your attention back to your phone. âYouâre naked.â
From the corner of your eye, you saw his grin widen. âIâm wearing a towel.â
âA towel isnât clothes.â He turned around to rummage through his closet, and you took that opportunity to observe him more closely. This was the first time you saw your friend without a shirt, and you were trying your very hardest to not freak out, but it was a bit hard not to. Who would have known that under his baggy shirts and sweaters, Jihoon was hiding firm abs, broad shoulders, defined back muscles and protruding biceps?
His arms were what really got you, because you felt like you should have noticed them before. Youâd already caught yourself staring a little bit too hard at the veins on his hands and forearms during a lecture before, so you couldâve conjectured that the upper part of his arms was well-defined as well. As mesmerizing as the shifting of his shoulder muscles was, what you really couldnât look away from was the bump that formed his bicep.Â
âJihoon, have you always had⊠arms?â
You had barely even realized youâd said this out loud until Jihoon turned around, a confused look on his face. His lips drew into a smirk when he saw how fixed your gaze on his biceps was.
âNo, they just grew recently. Thank you for noticing.â
âNo, I mean⊠arms. Muscles.â
âOh, these?â he said, flexing his arms and pecking his biceps in such a cheesy way that it snapped you out of your reverie and made you burst into laughter. âI started working on them last year so, yeah, theyâve been around a while.â
âHuh,â you said, then picked your phone up again and resumed your reading. âWell, you should work harder, âcause itâs the first time I noticed them.â
Jihoon scoffed. âDonât act like you werenât just drooling over my dream bod just seconds ago.â
You looked up, outraged. âI wasnât drooling, I was observing. And donât call it a dream bod, thatâs gross.â
âMy bod is a dream bod.â
âStop it.â
âCan you look away from my dream bod for a sec? I need to put some pants on.â
âIâm already actively not looking. This dude is way hotter than you, by the way,â you said, waving your phone.
âLet me see him,â Jihoon said, heading towards you after successfully putting a shirt and sweatpants on. Gray sweatpants, you realized with a frown. He took your phone and looked back and forth between the character on the screen and you, an expression of disbelief on his face. âY/N, this is a two-dimensional fictional character that exists in a fairyland. It hurts my feelings when you call him hotter than me.â
A lip grew on your lips. âYes, but he has pointy ears and doesnât refer to his body as a dream bod, so heâs a ten in my books.â
As you spoke, Jihoon lay down on his bed, stretching his arms behind his head and resting it on his palms, looking up at you with a grin. You didnât know what to make of the sudden flip of your stomach.
âWill I be a ten in your books if I stop calling it a dream bod?â
You laughed. âDream bod doesnât even sound real anymore.â
âI donât think it ever was, to be honest,â Jihoon replied, laughing along. âOr maybe they invented it for me.â
--
After that riveting discussion, you watched the show youâd been watching together (which, you had been surprised to find, Jihoon had the discipline to not watch ahead for), then finished getting ready. That night out hadnât been particularly extraordinary. Pre-gaming had been fun and chaotic, but the line at the club had been so long that youâd all sobered up by the time you were inside and none of you felt compelled to pay for six dollar shots. At least the good music and nice DJ that took all of your requests made up for it.
The interesting bit happened on the bus ride back home.
By some miracle, Jihoon had run into some of his friendly course seniors that apparently liked him so much, they decided to pay for all of his drinks. Only an hour after getting into the club, he was nothing short of wasted. In your five months of being at university with him, youâd not once seen him in such a state - disheveled hair (from dancing too hard or from getting his hair ruffled like a cute dog by all of his seniors, you werenât sure), deep red blush staining his cheeks, forehead, ears and neck, unfocused eyes and constant lopsided grin. When he almost tripped over his own feet during Gimme More by Britney Spears, you knew it was time to go home.
Jihoon was usually the one that had to deal with a drunk you, so you didnât mind taking care of him this time. It was actually kind of fun, seeing this new side of the person who had become your closest friend in the past months.Â
Luckily for you, a night bus ran directly from the downtown area you were in to the street you and Jihoon lived on, and you managed to lug him to the bus stop. Getting him onto the bus and into a seat was an arduous task, but you made it, and were enjoying a calm, uneventful ride home until you felt Jihoonâs head drop onto your shoulder. You thought heâd just fallen asleep, but then the unmistakable sound of his voice made itself known to your ears.
âY/N, Y/NâŠâ Jihoon murmured with a muffled voice, burying his face in the crook of your neck. You tried to ignore the prickly feeling down your spine when his lips moved against your skin.
âYes, Hoonie?â you asked, a tilt of amusement to your voice. You really had never seen your friend so intoxicated.
He sighed, lifting his head from your shoulder and resting it against the window with a bang. He didnât even wince at the impact of his head against the glass - the alcohol had apparently rid him of the sensation of pain.
âDonât call me that,â he mumbled, voice so quiet you had to ask him to repeat himself. âI said donât call me that!âÂ
You were taken aback by his sudden burst of irritation, but he sounded more like an upset child than anything.
âCall you what? Hoonie?â
âYes.â
âWhy? Iâve always called you that.â You tilted your head at him, but he kept his eyes fixed on the road outside.
âExactly. Youâre the only one who calls me that. Everyone else says Jihoon,â he said, annoyance clear in his voice. It sounded like this had been bothering him for a while, but it was complete news to you. âCanât you even be bothered to say my full name, or something?â
You chuckled and brushed some hair out of his face. Like an angry cartoon character, he puffed air out of his nose and crossed his arms over his chest. His frown deepened and a blush spread over his face that was already red from the alcohol. âShould I call you Jihoon from now on?â you asked softly.
His reaction was immediate. He whipped around, almost knocking your head with his, a look of total alarm on his face. His eyes were almost teary. âNo!â he exclaimed loudly, garnering glares from some of the other passengers in the bus who probably wanted some quiet this late at night. âNo,â he repeated, this time more quietly, and turned back to the window.
In slight disbelief, you chuckled again. âWhat am I supposed to call you, then?â
âJust-â he started, but cut himself off with a sigh. âJust call me whatever.â
A small smile tugged at your lips. âIâll stick to Hoonie, then.âÂ
He groaned as he lifted his head from the window and let it fall back against your shoulder. The angle mustâve made it highly uncomfortable for his neck, but he didnât seem to mind. He only stayed still for a few seconds before shifting slightly and burying his face in the dip between your shoulder and your neck once more, then let out a low hum of satisfaction.Â
âYou smell nice,â he mumbled. Your breath caught in your throat. He was too close, his lips were too soft and his breath was too warm against your skin. Your whole body felt hot, like the bus driver had suddenly cranked the heat up and turned the bus into a sauna. âLike almonds,â he added, pressing his nose deeper into the base of your neck and inhaling there.
You tried to laugh, hoping it would dissipate the tension in your body, but it only came out as a choked sound. âItâs my body lotion,â you explained, voice weaker than youâd intended.
âHm.â
You didnât know what it was about Jihoonâs proximity that made your head spin so - no one had ever made you feel this way, and the fact that your body was reacting so intensely to someone you had considered your best friend for the past months made it all the more confusing.
âAre you asleep?â you asked him in a small voice after heâd been silent for some minutes.
âJust sleepy,â he murmured, shifting in his seat again. You tried not to shiver at the tickling sensation of his hair against your neck.
A pause. âJihoon?â
âDonât call me that.â You smiled, but there was a slight whine to his voice that, for some reason, made your heart ache.Â
You corrected yourself. âHoon?â
âMmh?â
âWhy did it bother you that I call you Hoonie, all of a sudden?â
He took so long to answer that you almost thought he hadnât heard you. âBecause⊠every time you call me that, it makes me love you more,â he answered, voice getting gradually lower until it became a whisper.
Everything seemed to disappear around you. The other passengers, the seat underneath you, the blinking lights and the night sky outside the window. It was just you and Jihoon, his body warm next to yours and the only thing keeping you tethered to Earth.
âMakes you⊠love⊠me?â you echoed tentatively.Â
But no answer came. When you bent your head down to look at Jihoon, it seemed like he had fallen completely asleep, mouth slightly agape and the blush of alcohol still red on his face. You didnât know what to make of his words, but there was no point asking him about them now. So you let him sleep on your shoulder, only waking him once you were nearing his stop.Â
--
Jihoon woke up the next morning with a pounding head and a bruised ego.
He had always prided himself in his ability to drink copious amounts of alcohol and yet only end up tipsy. Sure, it wasnât exactly good for his body, but it meant that he never had to turn down a drink or watch on the sidelines as his friends did shots, and he could still get home just fine and not wake up with a head-splitting hangover the next day. Unlike you, who started giggling for no reason after one pint of beer and who tore it up on the dancefloor or talked to strangers like youâd been besties for years after two shots of tequila.
It only made his state of the previous night that much more embarrassing. He wished he had your amazing memory-erasing superpowers - but sadly, he didnât, and what happened in the bus was glued to his brain.Â
Before he could even lift his head or get a cup of water, his phone rang, the sound invading his ears and splitting his head in two. He slid a thumb across his phone to accept the video call and was greeted by a close-up of Junkyuâs smiling face.
âRise and shine! I heard someone got their party on last night.â
Jihoon groaned loudly, chucking his phone somewhere on his bed so he didnât have to see his friendâs face anymore. His was definitely not the face he wanted to see first thing in the morning. Unfortunately for Jihoon, Junkyu had been blessed with an extraordinarily loud voice that still rang clear even when the speakers of Jihoonâs phone were stifled by his blankets.
âY/N sent me a video of you. You looked ridiculous, man.â
âI hate you. I hate your face, I hate the way you talk, I hate how mean you are to me-â
âI canât hear you. What was that?â
With another groan and a lot of difficulty, Jihoon raised his upper body and retrieved his phone. âYou suck.â
Junkyuâs smile widened. âWell, thatâs all from me. Have a glass of water!â he said cheerily before hanging up. Jihoon had never wanted to kill someone so badly.
His murderous feelings softened when he turned his head to find a plastic bottle of water and a headache pill along with a handwritten note on his bedside table. Have this and text me when you wake up! with five hearts at the bottom. It wasnât signed, but he knew it was from you.
When the two of you met up for brunch sometime later, he kept searching your face and reading into your actions for any sign that what heâd said last night had made you uncomfortable. Heâd expected you to be awkward around him, but your attitude almost made him think heâd imagined the whole thing. You joked around with him as usual, as if he hadnât practically confessed to you last night, and he was desperate to know what might be going through your mind.
Had you forgotten? Had you chalked it up to him being drunk and talking nonsense? Had he had just thought it very hard, and not actually said it out loud? Or, worst of all, had you heard it all and understood him and decided to just ignore it for the sake of your friendship?
Jihoon was going crazy. He could barely taste his chicken and waffles.
The truth was, you just had no idea what to make of his words, and you were scared bringing it up might make things awkward. Jihoon could have forgotten all about it, or he could have meant something entirely different from where your wild, romance-comic-filled imagination went. Save for his tired eyes and groggy voice, he was no different at breakfast than he usually was, so you dropped it.
--
âOkay, Y/N, I think itâs time for you to go home now.âÂ
Different Friday night, different party. A week had passed and neither of you had mentioned what Jihoon had said on the bus - it wasnât quite out of your minds just yet, but youâd both separately decided to pretend nothing had happened.
This time, Jihoon had found you in the hallway playing beer pong and downing the cup of beer your opponent had thrown the ball into. Everybody cheered you on as you gulped the cheap liquid down before lifting the empty cup over your head, eyes screwed shut at the unpleasant bitterness in your mouth. Jihoon wasnât sure why you were playing - you hated beer, and you had one of the worst throws heâd ever seen. But even he, who was supposed to look after you, couldnât suppress a smile at your attempt and inevitable total fail at scoring a point for your team. Even with all the concentration in the world, the sheer amount of alcohol in your system wouldâve made it impossible for you to make it.
Back against the wall and arms crossed over his chest, he watched amusedly as you squinted your eyes at the cups across the table from you, even sticking out your tongue as if that would make your aim any better. After a few tense seconds, you threw the ping-pong ball and hit Lee Jeno right in the chest. Youâd giggled at your own failure, letting people pat you on the back for trying and reassure you that itâs okay (even though you really didnât care) before stumbling right into Jihoon.Â
As soon as youâd recognized your friendâs face, youâd thrown your arms around his neck and pulled him down into a hug as you yelled his name happily; his hands had come up to your hips and gently pushed your body away from his. Then, heâd said the words you always hated to hear at a party.
âBut we just got here!â you cried, the same answer you always gave him when he wanted to leave. You started walking away from him and back into the kitchen for more alcohol. He sighed but was quick to follow you.
âWe got here three hours ago. Plus we did pres at Yoshiâs place. Youâve had way more than enough to drink,â he said, snatching a cup youâd just filled with punch from your hands.
âI was gonna drink that!â you complained, leaning against the counter for support.Â
Jihoon took in your swaying body and your dazed eyes and knew he had to get you home. Any more alcohol and youâd pass out in this strangerâs apartment. Usually, heâd let you drink to your heartâs content and just make sure you got home safe afterwards, but midterms were coming up, and youâd planned on studying the next day - he was just trying to minimize the severity of your hangover.Â
You mustered your most pitiful expression - to drunk you, there was no way Jihoon could resist your pouty lips and sad eyes. âDo we really have to go?â you asked, and Jihoon had to read your lips because of the loud music.Â
He smirked, seeing right through your little act. He bent his upper body so that his lips were right next to your ear. âYouâll thank me tomorrow,â he replied, making you drop your fake sad expression.
âI should go say bye to Minjeong and the others first.â
âIâve already told them we were leaving.â
You rolled his eyes at him and his stupid smile and lifted yourself from the counter, immediately losing your balance. Maybe you had drunk too much. At least Jihoon was there to catch you and prevent you from falling. He tried to put his arm around your shoulder to support you but you stepped away from him and fixed him a pointed look.
âI can still walk, you know.â
Jihoon smiled but said nothing, gesturing at you to go on and walk. You turned around and started making your way out of the place, ignoring Jihoonâs snickers as you bumped into various party-goers and pieces of furniture. Â
When you reached the front door, you decided that actually, no, you couldnât walk. Sliding against the wall, you let yourself drop into a crouching position. Your head suddenly felt like it was twice its normal weight and you regretted those last few shots of whatever it was you had drunk.
Jihoon sighed as he lowered himself and grabbed you under your armpits to lift you up. He had never been more thankful for an elevator and a bus stop only a minuteâs walk away from where you were. Standing under bright lights in a desert and quiet street, it appeared like an oasis to Jihoon. Whoeverâs party this had been, they lived in a really calm part of town. At this time on a Friday night, Jihoonâs street would be teeming with drunk students deciding which bar or club they should head to next.
You had never been more thankful for a bus stop with seats. You plopped yourself down on one of them, resting your head on the glass behind you and tightening your jacket around your shoulders. You closed your eyes, deciding this was the perfect time for a nap.Â
âAre you cold?â Jihoon asked, his voice keeping you from nodding off. You let out a non-committal hum in response which he wasnât sure how to interpret. He chuckled and you heard a rustling sound before feeling an added weight on top of your body. âIâll take that as a yes,â he murmured, then sat by your side.
Next thing you knew, Jihoon was making you stand again, and your feet moved of their own accord as he led you inside the bus. As soon as you were seated, you drifted back off to sleep. You jolted awake when your head drooped over, making you feel like you were falling. You sat up straight and looked around the empty bus, frantically asking Jihoon where you were.
âIâm taking you home,â he answered, laughter clear in his voice.
âOh, okay,â you mumbled, and closed your eyes once more, falling back asleep in a matter of seconds.Â
Jihoon watched with a tender smile as your mouth opened slightly and let soft snores escape it. Scooting closer to you, he placed his palm on your cheek and pulled your head towards his shoulder so it could rest there.
âWhy do you drink so much if you canât handle it?â he asked quietly, even though he knew you were already in dreamland.
--
When you opened your eyes the next morning, you felt like a kid who had fallen asleep in the car on the way home from a distant relative's wedding and mysteriously woken up in their bed. You stretched out your limbs, enjoying the softness and warmth of your sheets covering your body until a headache and pasty mouth hit you like a ton of bricks. It felt like the alcohol had made your brain shrivel inside of your skull - your whole body was screaming for water.Â
Some kind of miracle had made a large glass of water appear on your bedside table, and you gulped it down in mere seconds. The hour on your phone read 10:24 a.m. - so much for getting up early and going to study at the library.Â
Youâd have rather stayed curled up under your blankets and slept the rest of your hangover off, but some rustling noises from the kitchen (and an intense need to pee) forced you out of the comfort of your bed. You stumbled into the kitchen to find Jihoon placing a pancake atop an already dangerously high stack.Â
âHey, Sleeping Beauty,â he greeted you, glancing at you with a smirk on his face as you made your way towards him. You stood behind him and rested your forehead at the base of his neck, as if catching a few last seconds of sleep.Â
The feeling of your hair against his skin sent shivers down his spine and he hoped his shaky intake of breath had gone unnoticed by you. His pancake was ready and he had to put it on the plate behind him, but as if a cat had fallen asleep in his lap, he couldnât get himself to move. This was a moment he wanted to cherish - although you never particularly kept your distance from him, he was still always greedy for more of your touch.
âHey, Hoonie,â you replied in a groggy voice. âThank you for breakfast,â you said, moving to rest your lower back against the counter next to the stove. He missed you immediately. âAnd sorry for being a nuisance last night.â
Jihoon smiled at you as he turned to place the pancake on the stack. Then he leaned in slightly and you made sure not to breathe through your mouth so he wouldnât smell your morning breath.Â
âYou always apologize, and yet whoâs dragging you home every single weekend?â he asked with an amused grin that let you know he wasnât actually bothered by it.
He turned back to his pan and ladled more batter into it, forming a perfectly circular pancake. âSorry,â you repeated guiltily.
He shook his head. âIâd rather be there and make sure you get home safe. And itâs not like I donât have fun at those parties.âÂ
A small smile on your lips, you nodded and let his words assuage your guilt. âIâll make coffee as a token of my gratitude.â
âHow kind of you,â Jihoon teased, beaming.Â
No matter how many times Jihoon reassured you, you still felt bad that he thought it his obligation to do those things for you.
Although youâd only grown closer at the beginning of your first year of university, now six months ago, you and Jihoon had known each other since you were thirteen, and he fourteen. You still remembered his braces, wide boba eyes and round cheeks from your teenage years - when you saw him again five years later, you couldnât deny your surprise at his much⊠manlier appearance. Sharper jaw, broader shoulders, taller figure, deeper voice - it was hard to recognize the Jihoon youâd known and the Jihoon in front of you as the same person.
His parentsâ job made their family move around a lot - your town had been their fifth home since Jihoonâs birth already. The year and a half they stayed went by far too quickly, and before you knew it, you already had to say goodbye. Jihoon and Junkyu had grown really close in that year, and since you were always in your older brotherâs business at that time, youâd developed a liking for your brotherâs best friend, too. You liked the way heâd ruffle your hair whenever he came over to your house, the way he remembered strawberry milk was your favorite, and the way heâd wave at you in the school hallways, effectively making you cooler than all of your friends for knowing someone who was in the year above. At the time, you hadnât known if what you felt for him could be described as a crush - all you knew was that for the rest of high school, you missed him.Â
When you found out that he had not only come back to South Korea to study, but that he was attending the university of your dreams, you couldn't have been more excited. But you chalked it up to the relief of knowing someone in an otherwise unfamiliar place.
Jihoon had been even more welcoming than youâd expected. He had come to get you at the airport with a big, colorful Welcome Y/N banner, helped you move into your dorm and treated you to a meal the night you arrived in town. Over the following weeks, heâd introduced you to his friends, showed you around campus, and kept inviting you out âso you would know where the good spots were.â
Thanks to him, settling in had been a much less stressful and emotionally exhausting process than youâd expected. But no matter how grateful you were, you couldnât help but wonder why he was going to these lengths to welcome you.Â
Somewhere in the town center, there was a square that was extremely popular among skaters for a reason beyond your understanding. But at almost any time of the day and night, you could find people practicing their skating there. Youâd just left a bar nearby with Minjeong, Jihoon and his friends, and to an intoxicated you, skating, something you had never attempted before, seemed like the thing to try out right then and there. You ran up to the first skater you found and asked him if he could show you how to ride.
Minjeong had run after you, finding a skater of her own while Jihoonâs friends either watched or talked about something else amongst themselves. Of course, the inevitable happened, and as soon as the skater let you try skating on your own, youâd fallen on your hands and knees. In a flash, Jihoon had been by your side, frantically asking if you were okay and making you show him your palms. They were only grazed, and one of your knees was bleeding very faintly, but Jihoon acted like youâd just broken something. He got you to get on his back so he could carry you to the nearest pharmacy, leaving his friends and Minjeong to wonder what the hell was going on. You tried telling him you were okay and could walk on your own just fine, but he wouldnât listen.Â
Heâd sat you on the curb in front of the all-night pharmacy and asked you to wait as he got disinfectant and bandages. You watched his face closely as he rubbed medical alcohol on your wounds. A crease had plagued his eyebrows ever since you fell, and he would not stop mumbling something about you needing to be more careful and youâre lucky you didnât get hurt badly.
You hadnât realized you were crying until one of your tears fell on Jihoonâs hand, hot against his skin, and he looked up at you with worry, any of his previous frustration with you wiped from his expression.
âY/N? Why are you crying?â heâd asked, voice soft, as if trying not to scare you.
You sniffled. âWhy are you so nice to me?â
His eyes softened and a small smile grew on his lips. âWhy wouldnât I be?â
You couldnât bring yourself to mirror his smile, and the more you cried, the sadder you felt. Inexplicably, your tears just fell and fell and fell. Under the bright white lights of the pharmacy, in the cold of a particularly chilly September night, Jihoon wrapped an arm around you and let you cry on his shoulder. He didnât ask any further questions, just waited for you to calm down as he rubbed a hand up and down your back and whispered in your ear that it was okay.
When you thought back on it now, you knew that it had just been the alcohol making you unreasonably emotional - you werenât actually sad about Jihoon looking after you, if anything, it made you happy. But once youâd started crying, you couldnât stop.
âIâm just looking out for you,â heâd said once your sniffling had somewhat lessened. Youâd leaned back to look at him.Â
âBut why?â youâd whined.
Your frown had deepened as his smile had widened. âBecause weâre friends.â
âIs that it?âÂ
âWell, Junkyu also asked me to look after you,â he admitted sheepishly.Â
You gasped in affront. âHe what?!â
âY/N-â
âSo heâs been forcing you to do all of this?â you asked, voice breaking at the end. Your anger had lasted two seconds - youâd gone back to being sad at the thought of Jihoon only being nice to you because your stupid big brother had asked him to.
âNo, no, itâs not like that, listen to me-â
âI canât believe the two of you! Iâm not a child-â
âNobody said you were-â
âSo you donât actually even care-â
âI do!â Jihoon had exclaimed, louder than youâd expected, and it shut you up. âI do,â he repeated, voice softer. His hands were still on your upper arms, and he leaned in closer. âYouâre his little sister. Of course he was worried about you leaving home. He just asked me to make sure you donât get into too much trouble,â he explained, lightly tapping the tip of your nose with his finger.Â
He sighed, smiling as he watched you try to keep an upset expression on your face. He took the bandages out of the pack heâd just bought and stuck them with caution on your wounds. âBut I wouldnât be doing all of this if I didnât care, Y/N.â When your eyes met again, you hadnât known what to make of the look in his. âI missed you, you know.â
Just like that, the ducts behind your eyes filled up again, and large, hot tears streamed down your face as you rested your forehead against Jihoonâs shoulders again. He chuckled at your dramatics but placed a reassuring hand against your hair. âI missed you, too,â you replied between broken sobs.
Heâd texted his friends to take Minjeong with them and go on without the two of you, then carried you back to his apartment, which was thankfully only a five-minute walk away.Â
Ever since that night, you and Jihoon had been inseparable. He continued checking on you consistently, bringing you food and coffee without you even asking and, of course, getting you home safe from nights out.Â
You were thankful to have a friend like him.
âPancakes?!â your flatmate exclaimed as soon as she walked through the door, snapping you out of your thoughts.
âHey, Minjeong,â you and Jihoon greeted in unison.Â
She was wearing her clothes from last night and her hair was a mess, but she had a bright expression on her face (despite the faint mascara stains underneath her eyes). You narrowed your eyes at her but she made a beeline for the food, completely ignoring you.
âHot,â she mumbled as she held a pancake between her fingers, but threw a piece in her mouth anyway. âYouâre so lucky to have a boyfriend like him, Y/N,â she said around her food.
âIsnât she?â Jihoon replied before you could say anything.
You rolled your eyes at the pair in front of you and poured a cup of coffee for Minjeong. She referred to Jihoon as your boyfriend so often that you didnât bother to correct her anymore. âNot my boyfriend. And even so, heâs more like a bodyguard than anything.â
âBeing a bodyguard is just one of the many duties of being a boyfriend,â Minjeong declared, easily ignoring you. âDonât you agree, Jihoon?â
He nodded, a serious look on his face. âAbsolutely. I take what I do very seriously.â When his eyes found yours, he shot you a wink. Your frown deepened.Â
âAnyway, care to share why youâre coming home so late?â
A blush creeped on Minjeongâs cheeks. âWell, Yoshiâs place is quite a ways from hereâŠâ she murmured, looking down at her half-eaten pancake.Â
âCalled it!â you yelled, just as Jihoon let out a loud ânoâ of shock and defeat.
âNext takeaway is on you,â you told Jihoon with a proud smile. In a mature response, he stuck his tongue out at you.
Minjeong frowned at both of you. âYou guys bet on this?â she asked, vexed. Jihoon exchanged a look, glanced back at her, and shrugged. âNot cool. I didnât even know something would happen with him. How did you guess?â
You smiled. âYou always go for the cute ones.â
She hummed in agreement, her expression almost a pained one. âHeâs just the cutest little thing ever, I couldnât help myself.â She took a sip of her coffee, cringing at the bitter taste before getting up to fetch sugar and milk.
You sighed at your friend. âYouâre gonna break that poor boyâs heart.â You knew Minjeong wasnât to blame for the boys that got attached to her when she made it clear she wasnât looking for a relationship - but if it happened to Yoshi, youâd feel guilty. Youâd met him in a tutorial for one of your Digital Media courses and he seemed like he wouldnât hurt a fly. Heâd invited you to do pres at his place, and youâd dragged Minjeong and Jihoon along, so theyâd met through you. In a way, if Yoshi fell for Minjeong and got hurt, itâd be your fault.
âI told him I didnât want anything serious,â she said, pouring as much milk as there was coffee in her mug.
âHe doesnât seem like the type to do casual stuff,â Jihoon chimed in as he placed the last pancake on top of the stack. But it was one pancake too many, and the whole stack fell over. Jihoon wasnât rattled - he placed a few on his plate then rebuilt the stack.
Minjeong ate her last bite of pancake and got up from the stool. âWell, weâll cross that bridge when we get to it.â
âWe? This is your problem, babe,â you said.
Minjeong smiled at you, eyes crinkling as she pressed a wet kiss to your cheek. You were sure there was some pancake left on her lips. âYouâre such a good friend, Y/N,â she said, making you laugh. Of course youâd help Minjeong if she needed - but you were starting to feel bad for all the hearts she kept breaking. âIâm going back to bed,â she announced. Then, she put her hand next to her mouth as if telling you a secret, but spoke loud enough for Jihoon to hear anyway: âI didnât get a lot of sleep last night, is all Iâll say.â
Jihoon choked on his food and you let out a groan of disgust, but you both burst into laughter anyway. âI want details later!â you called out.
âYou wonât be disappointed,â she said between giggles as she closed her bedroom door behind her.Â
Just then, your phone buzzed with an incoming video call, Junkyuâs face taking up your screen. âHey, ugly face,â you greeted, propping your phone up against the milk bottle.
âHey, stink.â
âHey, Kyu!â Jihoon called out and took a seat close next to you - you knew he was just trying to squeeze into frame, but the sudden proximity still made your breath catch in your throat for a second.
Your brotherâs eyes narrowed. âWhat are the two of you doing together on a Sunday morning?â
You looked at Jihoon, then back at your screen. âIs there something wrong with Sunday mornings?â
âNot inherently, noâŠâ your brother conceded. âBut still.â
You rolled your eyes at him and his meaningless suspiciousness. âWe just went to a party together last night and he crashed here afterwards.â
âShe was so wasted I had to bring her home. And I made pancakes this morning.â
âY/N, if you donât marry this guy, I will,â Junkyu said with all the seriousness in the world, and Jihoon made a kissy face at him.
âWhatâs up with everyone today?â you sighed. âIâm going to shower. You two have fun.â You knew your brother probably didnât have much to tell you anyway - he liked calling you for no other reason than to bother you.Â
âOh, we will,â Jihoon said with a suggestive tone, and you made a vomiting noise before disappearing into the bathroom.Â
âWhen I told you to look after her, I just meant to make sure she doesnât drink too much or get involved with weirdos. I didnât mean to make her pancakes on Sunday mornings,â Junkyu teased, a knowing smile on his face.Â
Jihoon looked down at his place, a small smile growing on his lips as well. âI know, but I like doing those things for her.â
Junkyu let out an odd noise, half out of disgust and half out of annoyance. âI canât believe you. Just ask her out, already.â
âSo you donât like me at her place on a Sunday morning, but you want me to ask her out?â
Junkyu rolled his eyes (Jihoon thought this was a family trait, at this point). âIâm trying to help you out here, buddy. I know sheâs my little sister, but youâre also my best friend,â he started, ignoring Jihoonâs aww, âand I donât know how much longer I can stand you being in love with her but not making a move.â He paused to sigh. âI know youâre a good guy, so you have my approval, or whatever.â
Jihoon smiled somewhat sadly, picking at his food with his fork. âI appreciate it, Kyu, but I really donât think she feels the same way.â
âHow do you know that? Have you asked her?â Junkyu asked, not even trying to hide his impatience.
âNo, but-â
âDo I need to do it for you? Do you want to hide behind my back while I tell my little sister, hey, my friend here has something he wants to tell you? Hey, my friend thinks youâre pretty, do you want to talk to him? Are you a big baby who canât do anything, Park Jihoon?â
âNo, I just-â
âYou know, if this were a k-drama and you were the main lead, everybody would get Second Lead Syndrome. Me included. You suck.â
âSupportive as ever, Kyu,â Jihoon said, sighing.
âIf you donât ask her, youâre a bitch. Iâm hanging up now,â Junkyu said before Jihoon could get another word in. He just shook his head, chuckling as he dug into his pancakes again.
The two of them had had this conversation about a thousand times, and they always came to the same conclusion: Junkyu thought Jihoon should confess his feelings to you, and Jihoon dismissed the idea, knowing heâd never have the guts to do it. To him, making jokes about being your boyfriend and relentlessly flirting with you was sign enough of his affection for you - you just needed to figure out that he wasnât actually kidding at all. He was already doing half of the work for you, really.Â
An hour later, the two of you were sitting on the fifth floor of the library, where nobody ever dared to venture because of its dark corners and maze-like rows of bookshelves. It creeped Jihoon out, but it was your favorite place to study, so on days he couldnât convince you to go to a nicer spot, he sucked it up and followed you to the table you liked by a window that overlooked the park next to the campus. The window let some light in, but to get there, you had to go through dim hallways that looked like they hadnât seen a human soul in years. Jihoon didnât know how youâd found out about it in the first place. It felt like something a fourth-year would keep as a secret, not something a first-year would have discovered in her first months of attending uni.
As he observed your sleeping figure, Jihoon couldnât help but feel slightly annoyed. Youâd gotten about twenty minutes of work done before resting your head atop your crossed arms, claiming you would just take a âpower nap.â He couldnât believe youâd emotionally manipulated him (pouted up at him and gave him puppy eyes - with that look on your face, Jihoon would agree to murdering someone for you) into going to this creepy part of the library only to sleep almost immediately after getting there.Â
He bent down onto his arms, mirroring your position, and let himself have this moment. Even though he saw you all the time, it wasnât often that he could shamelessly stare at you and get away with it.
He watched as your shoulders rose and fell to the consistent rhythm of your breathing, as the sunlight pouring in from the window made your eyelashes cast shadows against your cheeks. You looked so peaceful that any trace of his irritation towards you vanished. It wasnât like he could ever really be mad at you.
Jihoon loved how little you had changed in the years youâd been apart. Of course, youâd grown into your features and didnât quite look like the thirteen-year-old version of you heâd known, but still, you had the same face and same habits heâd fallen in love with in the first place.Â
He still remembered the way his heart had swelled when heâd found your face amongst the crowd at the airport, how his whole body had buzzed with excitement at the idea of finally seeing you again after all these years. When youâd received your admission email from your university, the first thing Junkyu had told Jihoon was that heâd better look after you. It wasnât like he didnât think you couldnât handle yourself, but it reassured him, knowing someone he trusted so much would be there to help you adjust to university life, since he couldnât do it himself.Â
Jihoon had taken this seriously. Junkyu hadnât given him any sort of instructions - the picking you up at the airport, introducing you to his friends, making sure you were well-fed and well-caffeinated, that was all him. At first, he tried convincing himself that he was doing this in an old friend, big brother fashion - he knew how close you and Junkyu were, so he fancied himself a sort of Junkyu 2.0 for you to rely on.Â
It had been when he saw your red, puffy eyes, trembling lips and tear-stained cheeks that he realized his old feelings had resurfaced. After all, donât they say you never really forget your first love?
Truth be told, that whole night had been a dead giveaway. From the moment you met up at the bar to his little nurse moment in front of the pharmacy, his heart had not stopped racing. He kept checking on you, making sure you were having fun and handling your alcohol, and stuck by your side the whole time, like a bee to a flower.Â
He remembered standing arms crossed over his chest and observing you with narrowed eyes as you tried out skating. He was telling himself he was just watching in case you got hurt, but he couldnât ignore the way his stomach twisted with a hot, unpleasant emotion as the skater guided you, hands on your waist. He didnât like that you held that stranger by his shoulders, relying on him and not Jihoon for support, or that you laughed together like youâd been friends for years. Jihoon was your long-time friend, not this random long-haired, baggy-shirted, vans-wearing loser skater that probably had a name like Mark or something.
When youâd fallen from that skateboard, his heart had dropped in his stomach. Heâd been sick with worry that youâd gotten badly hurt, and even upon seeing your barely-grazed palms and knees, he hadnât been reassured.Â
Seeing you cry had made him panic like crazy. He tried his best to comfort you, but had no idea whether he was doing a good job. For days after that night, heâd replayed the conversation the two of you had under the lights of the pharmacy.Â
âWhy are you so nice to me?â
âWhy wouldnât I be? Iâm just looking out for you.â
âBut why?â
âBecause weâre friends.â
âIs that it?âÂ
Jihoon hadnât known whether you meant, is that the only reason, or, are we only friends? But heâd thought the second question was wishful thinking on his part. So he told you about the promise heâd made to Junkyu, and that had somehow made you even more upset. Even though he hadnât said it outright, heâd thought he had made it clear that he wasnât only doing this because Junkyu had told him to - he also wanted to be there for you. He did care, more than he wanted to admit.Â
Over time, his feelings for you had grown far bigger than simple teenage nostalgia - he loved your present self impossibly more than fourteen-year-old Jihoon had loved thirteen-year-old you. He thought he made it obvious - he always made sure to compliment you, remembered your coffee order and favorite dishes from your favorite restaurants, rushed to your side whenever you needed him, and did everything he could think of to support you. Sure, he relentlessly teased you as well, but that was just Jihoon.
If you noticed him, you didnât show it. He wasnât sure whether you genuinely didnât know he wanted you as more than a friend or were playing dumb, but he knew you saw him as something like a second older brother. But Jihoon had come to terms with that - heâd rather be in your life as a friend than not at all.
This was why he was grateful for moments like these, when he could just look at you without you knowing.Â
After five minutes, Jihoon quietly got up and bravely made his way through the dark hallways and back outside to get you a drink - in case you woke up grumpy from your nap, he knew a matcha latte would appease you. He almost got lost on his way back, but when he found your table again, you were still sleeping. He couldnât help himself - before rousing you, he snapped a quick picture of your sleeping face, making sure to get the drool pooling at the corner of your lips in frame. The photo went into his Y/N folder, full of pictures and videos heâd both secretly and not-so-secretly taken of you, which, no, wasnât creepy at all, thank you very much.
When he pressed one drink to your cheek and the other to your forehead, you woke up with a gasp, then immediately winced at the pain in the side of your neck from the uncomfortable sleeping position.
âI wasnât sure whether youâd want a hot one or an iced one, so I just got both.â
âOoh, iced, please,â you said. âThanks, Hoonie.â But before you could grab the drink, he snatched it away.
âNo drinking until you get at least one thing done,â he said, a satisfied smirk on his lips.
You frowned. âBut the ice will melt and itâll taste all watery.â
Jihoon didnât want to give in so easily.Â
âHm?â you hummed, tilting your head at him.
Jihoon gave in, handing you your drink with a tut. Seeing your excited grin and hearing your sigh of contentment after taking a sip made it worth it.Â
About two (surprisingly productive) hours later, your stomach started demanding nourishment, and who were you to deny it? Your hangover was strong that day, and even the pancakes and coffee hadnât completely rid your mouth of its sour taste. You needed something salty and greasy, so you pitched going to the fried chicken place a few blocks down to Jihoon, who agreed immediately.
On the way there, you tried to recollect some moments from the party yesterday, but quickly realized that not much was coming to mind. Pre-drinks at Yoshiâs were clear in your head, and so was walking to the other party - but the better part of your memories after that were fuzzy or non-existent.Â
âHoonie?â you suddenly asked.
âHm?â
âDid I do anything embarrassing last night?â
Jihoon chuckled. âNot more than usual.â
You groaned and pushed his shoulder, making him laugh even more. âI mean, you just kinda danced like crazy and talked to absolutely anyone. At some point you were gone for like twenty-five minutes, and I found you in the bathroom taking selfies with girls Iâd never seen before in my life.â
You pulled out your phone and checked your gallery - indeed, there were about fifty pictures of you and some random girls. âWho are they?â you asked, more to yourself than to Jihoon, in disbelief at how comfortable last-night-you looked with these strangers. âThey seem nice enough, I guess.â You laughed with Jihoon before sighing. âWell, thatâs not too bad. Iâve done worse things.â
Jihoon made a face as if to say, Yeah, I know, and you rolled your eyes at him. You returned your gaze to the path in front of you, but if youâd kept on looking at Jihoon, youâd have noticed the smirk growing on his lips as a joke formed in his head. After some time, with a shit-eating grin on his face, he broke the silence. âOh, well, there was also that moment when you confessed your undying love for me, tears streaming down your face, begging on your knees, all the works. That was pretty embarrassing. But I get it.â
It was so ridiculous that you couldnât help yourself from laughing as you slapped his shoulder. âYou wish,â you said between giggles.
I do wish, he immediately thought, but kept it to himself. He laughed instead and could only hope his real thoughts werenât so obvious.Â
--
Two things happened in the fried chicken shop restaurant.
Well, three, if you counted their promotion on their chicken rice cake coleslaw menu, which was your favorite and which Jihoon always chided you for ordering (âAnyone who likes coleslaw is not humanâ), but in the grand scheme of things, that wasnât so important.
First, your mom called. Now, this wasnât anything huge in itself, but it was Jihoonâs behavior that got to you.
You had gotten maybe five words before he snatched the phone from you and lifted it to his ear. âHi, Mrs Kim!â
You heard a faint but enthusiastic âHi, Jihoon!â on the other side of the line. They made small talk for a bit, and you couldnât believe your mom could have forgotten about her only daughter so quickly. Youâd dived back into your fried chicken, pretending you didnât care about whatever it was they were talking so energetically about, until you heard your name on the other end.
Your and Jihoonâs eyes met. A mischievous smile spread across his lips and your gaze hardened. âYes, well, you know her, sheâs a bit of a nuisance, but Iâm keeping her out of trouble and all that. I saved her from joining a cult the other day,â he said, and you rolled your eyes at him.
âOh dear!â you heard your mother exclaim.
âYou didnât save me from anything, I knew what that woman was up to.â
Youâd been waiting for Jihoon outside of the movie theater when an older woman approached you. She seemed friendly enough, and you thought she was just a lonely grandma in need of a nice discussion - which it was at first, until it veered towards religion. Next thing you knew, she was telling you stories about the upcoming end of the world and how we had to beg for salvation. You didnât believe any of it, but you found it captivating, so you stood there listening to her and egging her on until Jihoon showed up and forced you out of there. You thought itâd have been funny if heâd listened along, but knowing Jihoon, a small part of him might have actually believed her and started freaking out.
âI didnât know you and my mom were so chummy,â you said when the phone call was over. She hadnât even asked to talk to you again.
âYour momâs awesome. I canât believe such a lovely woman gave birth to two gremlins like you and Junkyu. Are you sure youâre not adopted?â
It had seemed like nothing at the time, but when you played the scene over again in your mind that night as you lay in bed, the fact that Jihoon got along with your family filled your heart with an unexpected warmth. It was almost like he was part of the family himself - not in a third child way, but more in a if you brought him home to your family, heâd fit right in, a thought that had made you panic as soon as itâd appeared in your mind. Because why were you thinking of bringing Jihoon home? Why did it make you so happy, knowing heâd be welcomed with open arms?
You shook your head against your pillow, hoping itâd make those thoughts vanish. You reassured yourself by telling yourself that youâd be just as happy bringing a friend like Minjeong home, and that you were sure sheâd get along just fine with your brothers and parents.Â
The other sign had been much more straightforward. You werenât afraid to eat messily in front of Jihoon, so some honey barbecue sauce had spread over the corner of your lips as you wolfed down one of the wings. As soon as Jihoon started to lean in across the table, you knew you were in trouble.
Not only did he wipe the sauce off your lips with his thumb, but he licked it off of his finger, never breaking eye contact throughout the whole ordeal. Your whole body tensed and you swear you stopped breathing for a second.Â
It only really lasted maybe five seconds, but felt like hours to you. You glared at him for a bit before diving back into your chicken, hoping you didnât look as flustered as you felt. But Jihoon and his stupid, proud smirk probably knew what heâd done to you. As if that wasnât enough already, he even had the audacity to whisper cute under his breath. Your eyes snapped back up to his face, but he just smiled and nodded towards your food, telling you to keep eating.Â
Over the next week, the word cute refused to leave your mind. You kept replaying that scene over and over - the feeling of Jihoonâs thumb on your lips, the sight of his own lips around his thumb, his gaze through it all. It wasnât the first time such thoughts of Jihoon plagued you - once, heâd guided you through a crowded club with a hand on your lower back and the way the warmth of his hand against you had made you feel prompted you to ignore him for the rest of the night. Another time, heâd kissed you on the forehead after dropping you off at your apartment and you hadnât been able to look him in the eyes for the following week.Â
You took the small but meaningful events of that day as your second sign of your new odd feelings directed towards your best friend, feelings that you didnât know how to name just yet.
--
Crazy rich Yoon Jaehyuk was having a pool party at his house, and basically everyone was invited. If you knew about the party, you could go - all Jaehyuk had to do was to tell maybe ten people and let them spread the word. As his partner for an English Linguistics class you had together that semester, you were one of those privileged people whoâd known firsthand about the event and had made sure to tell everyone you knew to come. You shouldnât have been so surprised to find what mustâve already been a hundred people on the front lawn, inside the house and around the pool when you showed up with Jihoon and the rest of your friends there.
Coincidentally, this was when the third sign occurred. Third timeâs a charm, as they say, and the events of that night and those following cemented your growing hunch that something really was up.
Pre-drinks at yours and Minjeongâs place had already taken quite a toll on you. Jaehyuk lived at the edge of town, quite a ways from your flat, but the vodka cranberry youâd snuck in on the bus prevented you from sobering up during the long ride. When your group arrived at the party, both you and Minjeong were ready to dance. But before you could rush to wherever the dancefloor was, Jihoon caught you by the wrist, effectively stopping you in your tracks. Your eyes went from his fingers around your wrist to his smiling face, a surprised look on your own.Â
âWeâre gonna head directly to the pool. Donât drink too much, okay?â
Your lips blossomed with a smile. Typical Jihoon. âOkay.â
The alcohol probably had something to do with it, but a surge of affection for your friend hit you and you stood on your tiptoes to press a kiss to his cheek before taking Minjeongâs hand in yours and making a beeline in the direction of the music.
I Gotta Feeling by the Black Eyed Peas was calling your name and you didnât think to turn around to look at Jihoon, so you missed the way he watched your figure retreating into the mass of drunk students as he tried to commit the warmth of your lips against his cheek to memory.
You and Minjeong made your way to the center of the crowd, shrieking with drunken excitement when you found a group of girls from one of your shared classes there and exchanging very brief pleasantries before falling into the rhythm of one of your all-time favorite party songs. In your humble opinion, no one understood partying like The Black Eyed Peas did.
You only leave the dancefloor on one occasion, which is to take a round of vodka shots with your new best friends for the night - Jihoon had said not to drink too much, not not at all. One of the girls (Yunjin, you thought, but she showed up to class so seldom you werenât sure) had a trick of pouring a lick of strawberry syrup before the alcohol, so that you wouldnât be hit with the nail polish remover aftertaste of vodka. You were delighted to find it worked (almost) like magic.
Itâs about an hour later when you and Minjeong reach the pool, not quite sober but more so than when youâd arrived at the party. For a pool party, there were definitely less people there than inside the house, maybe due to the fact that it was the end of February and most people didnât want to risk getting hypothermia from the temperature difference between the heated pool and the cold outside.Â
The relatively small number of people makes it easy to spot Jihoon, in nothing but his swimming trunks and a towel around his shoulders, sitting on a longchair a dozen or so meters away from you. Something about half-naked Jihoon, youâre not sure what, makes you want to walk over to him and do⊠youâre not sure what, but Minjeong frantically slapping your arm and whispering your name stops you from doing whatever it was you wanted to do.Â
âY/N! Y/N! Yoshi is right there,â she whisper-yelled. Indeed, Yoshi was in the pool, not far from where you stood, playing with his friends you recognized from pre-drinks at his place the other day. Minjeongâs face was redder than youâd ever seen it, and you recalled a conversation youâd had earlier that day.
âWill Yoshi be there?â Minjeong had asked, trying to sound innocent.
Youâd looked at your flatmate with an incredulous look on your face. âYes, heâll be there, you slut. I thought you never went for a second time?â
Sheâd shrugged, an unusually shy smile playing on her lips as she looked down at her feet. âI donât know, weâll see.â
This was very unlike Minjeong - in your six months of knowing each other, it was the first time you ever saw her even consider getting with someone a second time. You didnât know what sort of spell this Yoshi guy had cast on your friend, but it mustâve been very effective.Â
âGo talk to him,â you simply said.
âWhat?! No way, I canât- Oh my God, heâs looking at us,â she said, words rushing out of her mouth, âheâs looking right at us, isnât he?â
You just laughed at your friend and waved at Yoshi who was already waddling towards your edge of the pool. âHey, Yoshi!â you called excitedly. At the sound of your voice, Jihoonâs head snapped towards you. He wasted no time in yelling your name, motioning for you to come over, so you gestured back that youâd be there in a minute.Â
âHey, Y/N!â Yoshi called back with the same tone. âHey, Minjeong,â he added, tone somewhat quiet, but the blush that grew on his cheeks told you you werenât the one he was most happy to see.Â
âHey, Yoshi,â she said so quietly, you werenât sure the boy could even hear her.
âNice to see you guys here,â he said, talking to you but glancing nervously at Minjeong.Â
âYou too!â you replied, and before he could add anything, you placed a hand on your friendâs shoulder. âWell, Iâm sure the two of you have a lot to talk about. See you later!â
You grinned innocently at Minjeong as she called your name, eyes wide in panic. She was a big girl, and Yoshi was clearly into her - she could handle herself. Jihoon eyed you amusedly as you made your way towards him.
âAre you setting them up?â he asked when you were within earshot of him.
âIâd be a bad friend if I didnât at least try. Iâve never seen Minjeong blush over a guy, so this must be serious.â
A few of Jihoonâs friends were hanging out next to him, people that you knew from the many parties you attended together but that you rarely saw outside of drinking contexts. You waved at them before sitting on the deckchair next to Jihoonâs. He pivoted in his seat to face you, seemingly not minding that heâd just turned his back to his friends, then scooched his chair closer to yours so that your knees touched. You rested your palms next to your thighs and kept your gaze down. Something about Jihoon kept you from meeting his eyes, tonight. Maybe it was the half-nakedness.
Jihoon eyed you for a little bit, wondering what was making you so unusually quiet, before looking behind his shoulder to check whether Minjeong had been able to make progress on her own.
âLooks like itâs going well,â he assessed.
You followed his gaze to find Minjeong sitting at the edge of the pool and kicking her legs in the water while Yoshi stood next to her, water up to his belly button. You smiled as they giggled and splashed each other - it was going well, indeed.Â
âHave you been in the pool yet?â you asked, shifting your gaze to the party-goers playing in the water. The echoes of people talking and water splashing were quite loud, but Jihoon was so close that you didnât need to raise your voice too much.Â
âNo, I just took my shirt off for the hell of it.âÂ
You had meant to bring your eyes up to his face, you really had - but somewhere on the way, they stopped on his abs, and got stuck there. It was probably a full five seconds before you could look away from the well-defined muscles on his stomach and finally meet his eyes. He didnât need to say anything - the smirk playing on his lips and the slight surprise in the raise of his brows were enough to tell you he had not missed your stare.Â
You looked back to the pool, eyebrows slightly creased in shame at having been so obvious. Thankfully, you had brought a drink with you and took a swig of it there. âI wouldnât put it past you.â
You were trying to ignore the way Jihoonâs eyes burned into the side of your face, the way they followed your every move, but with each passing second, you felt more conscious of them. Not unlike one would try to escape a wasp, you thought that going into the pool might tear Jihoonâs eyes away from you at least for a little bit. Itâs not that his gaze made you uncomfortable, like that of a random old man in the street would, but it definitely made you feel⊠things. Things that you didnât necessarily want to dive into.Â
The problem was that, to go into the pool, youâd need to get into your swimsuit. Youâd thought ahead and had come already clad into your bikini underneath your clothes, a black, strapless tube dress that was easy to take off so you could jump into the pool at any time. But getting rid of that dress right in front of Jihoon and his watchful eyes was more nerve-wracking than youâd imagined.Â
You downed the rest of your cup for some liquid courage and shot up from your seat, releasing a deep breath as you did so. You thought it was better to just get it over with than make it last any longer than it needed to. Jihoonâs eyes glinted with amusement as they followed your every move.
âLetâs go back in.âÂ
Your plan had been to lift your dress off of your body and head straight to the pool, but Jihoonâs gaze made you freeze in place after stripping. You couldnât quite describe it as lustful, or as hungry, because there was a hint of surprise there that softened it. It was like he couldnât believe what he was seeing and loving it at the same time, if the slowly growing smirk on his lips was anything to go by. Your whole body felt like it was on fire, a fire that made your knees turn to jelly and that rendered you close to breathless.
You let his curious eyes travel your body for a few seconds before clearing your throat. âDo you want a picture or something?â you asked ironically, hoping your voice didnât sound as shaky as you felt.
His smirk only widened. âNo need. The real thing is so much better.â
You tried not to cower under his shameless gaze, instead stood up straighter and stared right back at him. âMy eyes are up here, you know.â
âI know,â he replied, but his eyes stayed trained on your body. You watched as they slowly made their way up your legs, took in your stomach and waist, then paused on your chest, which was quickly falling and rising with your shallow breathing. It was only when you scoffed and crossed your arms that he looked at your face.
Still that lopsided smirk on his lips, he stood up and languidly made his way towards you. He came so close that you had to slightly crane your neck to meet his gaze.
Your heart raced as he let a few seconds of silence stretch between the two of you, keeping his eyes locked in yours. âNice eyes,â he murmured after a pause, the sudden depth of his voice sending a shiver down your spine.
After six months of seeing him almost every day, one would think Jihoonâs flirty personality would not have such an effect on you anymore. And most of the time, it didnât - even back in the day, he was already fond of teasing you, so usually, him telling you how pretty you looked, patting your head or him tucking stray strands of hairs behind your ear went somewhat unnoticed by you. Or at least, it was easier not to freak out over âsmallâ things like these.
But this was one of the times when you thought he was really pushing it, and you lost the ability to even eye-roll, which was your usual defense against his flirting attacks. You hated to admit, but you just couldnât pretend it didnât have an effect on you. You hated it because you knew he was just flirting as a joke, not because he was actually interested or anything of the sort, and you felt stupid that it still did something to you - although you sometimes doubted whether he really was doing it just for fun. You wanted to think he was acting the way he was on purpose, to get a reaction out of you. Itâd make you feel less of a fool.
Before youâd even had time to understand the meaning behind his words, heâd already walked away from you and to the pool. When your senses had come back and you spun around, he was already inside the water. He looked like a cute wet puppy with his hair sticking out all around his head, especially when he shook it and let droplets of water fall off his hair and splash around him, and you couldnât believe this was the same man that had essentially called your tits nice just moments prior.
The raging butterflies in your stomach were your third sign.
You mustâve stared long, because after a while, your eyes met again, and a smile reappeared on his face. An actual smile, this time, not a smirk or anything of the sort. As if nothing had just happened - as if it was absolutely natural for your best friend to practically devour you with his eyes like that.Â
He waved you over and you noticed Minjeong and Yoshi were with him, seemingly waiting for you as well. When you reached the edge of the pool, someone entered the room with a platter of shots of God knows what, and you immediately reached out for one and downed it. Sambuca, you realized with relief as the sweet liquid burned its way down your throat. That way, if your body kept buzzing the way it had been around Jihoon, you could blame it on the alcohol and nothing else.
Minjeong and Yoshi were already back in their new little world, but Jihoon watched with an amused grin as you measured the temperature of the water with a foot, then, deeming it warm enough, made your way towards your friends. There, the water reached up to your shoulders, and the fact that it got up to just a little bit under Jihoonâs chest only marked your height difference further, which shouldnât have made you as flustered as it did.
âDidnât I tell you not to drink too much before going into the water?â Jihoon asked, laughter clear in his voice.
âHow about you let me drink as much as I want, and make sure I donât drown?â you bit back, even though you knew it wasnât much of a comeback. You had spoken in an irritated tone that, going by the way his smile softened, Jihoon found cute.
âOkay, I will,â he said, and the sweetness in his tone only served to further unnerve you.
If he noticed your annoyance, he didnât say anything.Â
You let yourself be convinced to play a game of chicken fight against Minjeong and Yoshi, which (along with that shot of Sambuca) made your competitive streak kick in and allowed you to, at least momentarily, forget about your irritation towards your friend. The reason behind that irritation was something you didnât even want to think about.
Somehow, you endured the prickling on your skin as Jihoon kept your thighs tightly pressed around his shoulders with two big hands. Even when he squeezed the flesh there or craned his neck to look up at you with those big, round eyes of his, you managed to not let the way your stomach flipped get to your head.Â
You werenât sure how you won all three rounds of chicken fight, if it was thanks to Jihoonâs devotion to the gym, or yours to the free weekly Sunday morning pilates class your uni gym offers. It mightâve been down to the level of complicity you and Jihoon had built over the months that Yoshi and Minjeong hadnât reached yet (if that can even be a factor in chicken fight success) - all you know, is that you do, and that even underwater, Jihoonâs hands burn as they snake their way around your waist, and press your body flush to his in a celebratory hug.
Some time later, you sit at the edge of the pool by yourself, having been deserted by the two lovebirds who not-so-sneakily snuck away under the pretext of getting some drinks, as well as by Jihoon who was called by some friends to join him back in the pool. You were at the level of tipsiness that made you want to self-introspectively sit on your own and people-watch for a little bit.
Until someone broke your peace.
âHey, Y/N,â you heard a vaguely familiar voice say. Before you could respond, Kim Sunwoo was sitting next to you, a bit too close in your opinion for your level of acquaintance, clad in black swimming trunks that let the band of his Calvin Klein underwear peek through.Â
He wasnât half bad-looking, you decided in that instant.
âOh, hi, Sunwoo,â you replied, smiling as you unquestioningly accepted the drink he offered you and thanked him for it. You peered at the orange liquid and decided it was the right color for alcohol before taking a sip. It being orange vodka didnât come as much of a surprise. âI didnât know you knew my name,â you admitted.
You recognized Sunwooâs face from the Introduction to Literary Theory lecture youâd had last semester, and had learned his name when the lecture had to be online due to the professor falling ill, and he was one of the few brave students who had turned his camera on. With a face like his, you understood where the confidence came from.
Then, one night out on the town with Minjeong and other friends, youâd run into him at the counter of a bar, and had exchanged a few (flirty, if you recalled correctly) words, but not your names, hence the slight confusion.
He chuckled and you watched as two deep dimples appeared on his cheeks. âI did my research before coming here. Sadly, no one knew what kind of drink you liked, so I went for something basic and prayed.â
âThis is perfect,â you said, laughing.
âTo be perfectly honest,â he starts after a slight pause, âIâve seen you around campus, and we even saw each other at a bar once, didnât we?â he asks, and grins when you nod. âI felt stupid for never asking for your name, or your number. So when I saw you sitting here, I thought it must be fate that brought me to this party.â
You had barely registered his words, let alone formed any sort of response in your mind when Jihoon suddenly appeared in front of the two of you, placing a hand right next to your thigh on the pool edge. You hadnât noticed him swimming your way.
âHey, Sunwoo. I see youâve met my girlfriend,â Jihoon blatantly lies as if it was the most natural thing in the world. The shock is apparent on Sunwooâs face, and if it wasnât for the sweet, convincing smile Jihoon was looking at you with, you mightâve let your surprise show more.
Sunwoo didnât know Jihoon like you did, so you didnât know whether he noticed the tightness in his grin, the challenge in his slightly raised eyebrows, or the general way he was holding himself that screamed Leave. But he mustâve noticed something, because it only took him a few seconds to start nodding slowly and rise from his seat.
For some reason, you stayed quiet, letting the word girlfriend and the way it had rolled off Jihoonâs tongue so easily repeat over and over again in your head. Maybe it was the alcohol, but he had said it so convincingly that you almost questioned whether you actually were Jihoonâs girlfriend. Before you could think any more about it, however, Sunwoo broke the increasingly tense silence.
âMy bad, man, I didnât know she was taken. Iâll leave you two to it, then,â he said with a smile, and that was that.Â
You watched his retreating figure for a bit, eyebrows creased in confusion, before snapping your head towards Jihoon. Head tilted, he was fixing you with a questioning look, as if to ask, What are you up to?, when he was the one that had just acted strangely.
âWhat was that all about?â you asked.
Jihoon shrugged. âI chased him away for you. Iâve only heard bad stuff about that guy, like he sleeps with a new girl every weekend and doesnât treat them right.â
You thought for a second, bottom lip slightly jutting out in concentration. âWell, couldnât you have told me about his reputation then let me make the decision for myself?â
âI-â Jihoon started but stopped himself. He seemed to mull over your words for a bit, then sighed. âYouâre right, I guess I could have, but youâve been drinking, who knows if you wouldâve made the right decision?â
This made you furrow your brows. âSo what if I did? Getting drunk and going home with a rando is not unheard of, I wouldâve been fine. Just maybe ashamed tomorrow morning.â
A flash of annoyance swept across Jihoonâs features, and your curiosity couldnât help but be piqued. The two of you had had your fair share of aimless arguments over the months, but heâd never actually gotten cross with you. For some reason, you were suddenly itching to know what angry Jihoon was like.
âI wouldnât be fine with it, though. Iâd hate knowing that I let you go home with a prick like that.â
This wasnât the first time Jihoon had fended off guys for you during a night out, but to his credit, they werenât ever guys you wanted to talk to. And, well, admittedly, after learning what he was like, maybe you didnât want to talk to Sunwoo either, but Jihoonâs protectiveness tonight was bothering you more than it ever had.Â
You let a silence stretch between the two of you before speaking again. âYou- you canât just do that, you know,â you declared, not meeting his eyes.
âDo what?â
âAct like you just did. Pretending to be my boyfriend just to get a guy away from me.â Jihoon was just staring at you silently, so you felt compelled to add, âYouâre not actually my boyfriend, you know.â
Apparently, that was the wrong thing to say, because his jaw locked and a coldness you had never seen before appeared in his eyes.
âArenât I basically?â
That caught you off guard. Where was this coming from? Jihoon had never entertained the idea of being your boyfriend, ever, so why was he suddenly acting like he was? Like he had always been?
And yet, you found yourself toying with the idea of dating Jihoon once more. The one question that pervaded your thoughts was, would things be so different? Youâd never had a boyfriend, so you werenât sure what they did, but you thought it wouldnât be too far off from how Jihoon treated you now. Keep you safe, bring you food, buy you random keychains or pencils that reminded him of you, text you throughout the day, compliment you. The only difference would beâŠ
Your eyes drifted down to his lips, and you swore you heard a shaky intake of breath coming from the man right in front of you.
The thought had barely crossed your mind that panic rose in your chest. You could not be thinking about kissing Jihoon. You couldnât think about him being your boyfriend, either. You werenât sure why, but your sudden heart palpitations at the mere idea told you that you just couldnât.
âNo, youâre not.â You had wanted to speak firmly, but you feared your voice had come out shakier than intended.
To your surprise, Jihoon scoffed. âSo if I went off and started dating someone else, it wouldnât bother you?â he asked in a disbelieving, almost mocking tone.
âNo, it wouldnât,â you answered, and as soon as the words were out, you knew they were a lie. You scrambled to your feet, suddenly wanting to be away from this conversation and the way it made you feel. âIâll, um, Iâll head back inside.â
You ignored his call of your name and picked up your dress, hastily sliding it back on as you made your way back towards the living room where most of the action was. You quickly found that it was too loud, too hot, too packed in there. You headed back outside through another door that led to a part of the backyard far from the pool, where people sat in small groups around a big fire, either nursing a drink or passing round a joint, the smell of weed heavy in the air. At least it was quiet here.
You walked around some before spotting Jaehyuk, the man of the house himself, sitting on his lonesome on a swing bench in a dark corner of the garden, looking down despondently into a red solo cup. A couple hours into the party, this was the first time you saw him, you realized. It made you wonder how long heâd been sitting out here on his own.
âHey, Jaehyuk,â you greeted, catching him by surprise. You took a seat next to him, sliding your hands underneath your thighs to keep them warm.
âOh, hey, Y/N. Nice that you came.â He mustered a smile for you before taking a swig from his cup and cringing at the taste of what mustâve been alcohol.
âWhat are you doing out here by yourself?â you asked softly. You were used to cheery, smiley Jaehyuk, and even though you werenât very close, you couldnât help but be saddened by seeing your friend in such a state.
Jaehyuk sighed deeply. âThe girl I planned this party for isnât here.â
âThe girl you⊠planned⊠this party for?â you echoed, and he nodded. âYou mean this,â you said, gesturing to the house and backyard full to the brim with people, âis all for one girl?â
He sighed and nodded again, taking another sip from his cup. He tutted at the drink, or maybe at himself for drinking it when he knew how awful it tasted. âI wanted an excuse to see her outside of class.â He chuckled. âI realize now that I might have gone slightly overboard.â
âJust a bit,â you laughed along, watching as a group of stoners cheered at their friend who had found marshmallows and sticks God-knows-where. âItâs not even midnight yet, she might still be coming.â
Jaehyuk shrugged. âIâve stopped hoping. I think I just need to get into the party and forget about it for tonight.â
You smiled. âSounds like a plan.â
âWhat about you, what made you escape out here? The music not to your liking?â
âAre you kidding? This is the Danish alternative pop playlist of my dreams,â you said, earning a chuckle from him. âNo, I justâŠâ You realized you didnât even know how to talk about this. What was making you so upset?
âI got into a bit of a⊠squabble with my friend, if you will. He-â
âOh, so itâs a he?â Jaehyuk cut in, a knowing smile on his face.
âNo- I mean, yes, he is, but itâs not like that, itâs- itâsâŠâ
âItâs?â he egged on.
âUgh, fine, it might be like that,â you finally admitted, as much to Jaehyuk as to yourself. Your irritation made him laugh.
âItâs okay, it happens.â
âI didnât think it would happen to me, though.â
âWhy not?â
You sighed. âJust âcause⊠him and I, weâve known each other for such a long time, it feels weird that things would start changing now.â
âHow long have you known each other?â
âWe met when we were thirteen and fourteen. Then he moved away and we only met again in September last semester.â
âDid you keep in touch?â
âNot so much. I just heard from him through my brother, theyâre much closer.â
âSo⊠what Iâm hearing is, youâve known each other a long time, but youâve only really become friends since September, right?â
âRight,â you echoed dubitatively, wondering where Jaehyuk was going.
âY/N, thatâs just a bit over six months.â
â...So?â
âSo, thatâs not nearly as long as you make it out to be. Itâs not like youâve been best friends for years and things are suddenly changing. Six months⊠arenât that short, Iâll give you that, but I think itâs a reasonable time for people to get closer as friends and then start developing feelings.â
âFeelings?â you immediately echoed, panic evident in your voice.
Jaehyuk let out something like a chuckle, looking at you like he was figuring out whether you were joking or not. âIs that not what this whole thing is about?â
You dropped your gaze down to your thighs, frowning. âFeelings just sound so seriousâŠâ
âThey can be, but they donât have to.â After a few seconds of silence, he noticed your upset expression and nudged your shoulder good-naturedly. âWhatâs worrying you so much?â
âItâs just confusing. I⊠Itâs not like Iâve been totally indifferent towards him up âtil now, but thereâs something about him lately, especially tonight. It makes me actually wonder about⊠you know. Whether I want him as a friend or not.â You sighed. âAnd even if I am feeling⊠feelings, I donât know how he sees me. I could still be a sort of little sister in his eyes, for all I know.â
âWhat makes you think that?â
A small smile grew on your lips as you blew air from your nose. âJunkyu - my older brother - tasked him with looking after me when he learned I was going to attend this university with him. So, while I go crazy trying to figure out why he acts the way he acts and why I feel the way I feel, he might just be keeping a promise to my brother.â
âBut have you ever seen him as an older brother?â
âNo,â you replied immediately. Your surety almost took you aback. âJihoon is⊠Jihoon. Heâs definitely not Junkyu.â
Jaehyuk smiled. âThen I donât think he would see you as a little sister, either. The way you act with a sibling and with a friend, potentially someone you like, is very different. I donât think thereâd be room for question if he treated you as a younger sister, youâd just know. Most guys I know are very obvious when they like someone, me included, so if youâre thinking about this so much just because of the way he acts with you⊠well, youâre probably onto something.â
âYou think?âÂ
âI do.âÂ
You and Jaehyuk stayed outside chatting for a few more minutes until you decided to go back inside for some warmth and a refill of your empty cups. In the kitchen, you ran into some of your classmates, so you joined in their animated discussion on which version of The Sims is better (Asahi offended everyone by saying the mobile app was the best) instead of going looking for Minjeong and Jihoon like you had intended to.
A few minutes later, as your phone buzzed with six consecutive texts from your roommate, you found out where both of them were.Â
minjeong girl do u know how many bedrooms there are in this goddamn house??!!!! yoshi and i are spending the night here xxx ask jaehyuk if he has a room for u or get home w jihoon whos that girl heâs talkin to in the kitchen btw??? love yaa xxxxxoooo text me if u need anything!! iâll be busy but iâll keep my phone on ;)
Usually, youâd have rolled your eyes at the exorbitant amount of xâs and the cheesy winky face, but something else had got your attention. Suddenly stepping away mentally from the conversation (which had turned into an interrogation on Asahiâs suspected addiction to mobile games), you looked around the crowded kitchen until your eyes settled on your culprit.
From where you were, you only had a view of his side profile, just as Minjeong had said, Jihoon was talking to a girl, red solo cup in his hand and stupidly attractive smile on his lips. She was leaning against the wall while he stood in front of her, both looking as relaxed as if they had known each other for years. What was up with all that eye contact? What was making them smile so hard?
You hadnât realized how hard you were staring until Jaehyukâs voice broke through your thoughts, asking if you were okay.Â
âYou look like you want to kill someone,â Sumin joked, not knowing she was closer to the truth than she thought.
You tried to laugh it off, saying you were just deeply disturbed by Asahiâs predicament, but you couldnât keep yourself from glancing back at Jihoon and the girl every thirty seconds. Another girl arrived, and Jihoon shifted to make room for her so that he was now directly facing you. Over the chatter of the kitchen and music booming from the speakers in the living room, you couldnât hear anything they were saying, but it seemed like Girl #1 was introducing Jihoon to Girl #2, placing a palm on his bicep as she did so. You counted - that hand stayed there for four whole seconds, and when she finally took it off of him, your eyes drifted back to Jihoonâs face.
Jihoon, who was staring right at you. Jihoon, who raised his eyebrows at you as if to say, What about it? while yours were creased in - confusion, anger, you werenât sure what, but an ugly feeling you werenât accustomed to. Jihoon, who, you decided, had to know what he was doing, had to know how this was making you feel.
The only thing on your mind was getting out of here and taking Jihoon with you. Without thinking much, you fished your phone out of your sweater pocket, texted Jihoon Letâs go and said bye to your friends, lying that your friend had suddenly asked you to leave.
After a few minutes of waiting by yourself outside in the cold, crouching to maximize body warmth, you started to wonder if Jihoon had decided to not follow you. But when you felt a weight drop on your shoulders, you snapped your head up to find him smiling down at you.Â
âWhere did you get this?â you asked, meaning the blanket he had given you.
âI stole it from the living room.â
âJihoon,â you scolded.
âYou know the guy right? Just give it back to him this week,â he said, lowering himself down to your level. Similarly to your eye contact in the kitchen, you were still frowning while he kept on smiling. âNot like you to want to leave before one a.m.. Is something the matter?â he asked, and you debated whether he was faking his innocence or not.
For about ten seconds, you tried to stay quiet, not wanting to betray your feelings to him. You glared ahead of you, watching your breath form wisps in the late February night air.Â
But then he called your name so softly, it undid all of your resolve. The sound of it made you sigh.
âWho was that you were talking to?â you finally asked, voice barely above a whisper.
âHm? That was just Shuhua, sheâs a Tawainese exchange student from one of my classes. Then she introduced me to her friend Yuqi.â
You nodded slowly, still not meeting Jihoonâs gaze. âI didnât know there was a Taiwainese exchange student in one of your classes.â
âY/N?â The unexpected seriousness with which he had called your name forced you to look at him.
âHm.â
âI have something to tell you.â He mustâve noticed your sudden inability to speak, so he continued, lowering his head to be at eye-level with you. âThereâs a Taiwainese exchange student in one of my classes.â
A smile broke through his serious facade and you had to look away to hide your own growing grin. âYouâre stupid,â you said, but it only made Jihoon laugh.
âSo is that what this is all about? A little bout of jealousy from my Y/N?â
You didnât know what to focus on - the fact that he had finally put a name to what you were feeling or the face that he had called you his. It made you frown. âI wasnât jealous,â you said, aware of how unbelievable you sounded.
âNo? Then what made you want to leave so suddenly?â
âI- You-â you started, glaring at Jihoon when he snickered. âHow come I canât talk to guys but itâs okay for you to talk to girls?âÂ
âSo you are jealous.â
âNo, I just think youâre being unfair. Iâm calling you out on your hypocrisy, Hoon. Double standards and all that.âÂ
Jihoon grinned. Had he known that heâd get such a reaction from you after talking to a friend that happened to be a girl, heâd have done it much earlier. And yet you had never had a problem with any of the girls in his usual friend group - if anything, the bunch of you often ganged up against him - so he wondered what was wrong with Shuhua in particular. Was it because you didnât know her, and misunderstanding could arise?
His smile and eyes softened. No matter how adorable you looked to him right now, he wasnât one to play games with feelings, his or yours. It was hard enough to make you realize how much he liked you (although he hoped that scene at the pool had made things more apparent), so he wasnât going to make it even more confusing by letting you think he might like someone else.
Earlier, when heâd asked you if him dating someone else would bother you, and youâd answered no, he hadnât formed any plan whatsoever to go off and talk to another girl right in front of you. Things just happened in his favor. Heâd been talking with a whole group of people in the kitchen, but save for Jennifer, theyâd all left for a game of spin the bottle (at their grown college age). Shuhua had a boyfriend back home and he had you, so they both had no interest for it. So it was just the two of them bonding over their love for Taylor Swiftâs music when you appeared in the kitchen with Jaehyuk.Â
Did he also feel a pang of jealousy seeing you with another guy, even though it was just Jaehyuk and he already knew of your friendship? Perhaps, but this wasnât anything new with Jihoon. He didnât think heâd be able to get rid of it until he had the surety that you were his, which had felt like a faraway goal until recently. Maybe it was due to his growing boldness or maybe you had managed to piece everything together yourself, but he was sure heâd felt a shift in your attitude towards him lately. There were times you would get shyer than usual, refusing to look him in the eyes; other times, like tonight, youâd defy him, as if trying to prove to both him and yourself you didnât feel any sort of way towards him. But he hadnât missed the way your eyes had drifted down to his lips and stayed there for a few seconds, hadnât missed your panic when things seemed to get too real.
Just like you, although he didnât know about that, he also found that there was something different about tonight, some tension between the two of you that was bound to explode. The fact that you were both in swimsuits had probably not helped. As soon as heâd seen you in your black tube dress, his imagination had started running wild. The way you casually had a gray zip sweatshirt of his in your room and donned it before leaving your place had made it harder to not just keep you in your apartment while the others went off to the party, and seeing you in your bikini was like the final boss he hadnât been able to defeat. Keeping his eyes off of you was simply impossible. He wasnât sure how he had resisted kissing you right then and there, showing everyone who the prettiest girl in the room - hell, at this party - belonged to.
(Jihoon had a bit of a possessive streak.)
Even now that you had somewhat made up, he still felt the changed air around you, like there was no going back from here. No pretending there were no unsaid feelings anymore - at least, thatâs how he felt. If you needed the extra push to realize either his feelings, your own, or both, he didnât mind initiating it. If anything, he had been waiting for it.
So he made sure to clear things up. âI didnât want you to talk to Sunwoo because I knew he had bad intentions. Or at least selfish ones. Shuhua has a boyfriend, nothing was gonna happen there.â
âOh, but if she didnât, something wouldâve?â
âNo, Y/N. No,â Jihoon said firmly.Â
âWhy not? Sheâs pretty.â You knew you were being unreasonable at this point, arguing for the sake of arguing, but you couldnât help yourself.
Jihoon sighed before placing a hand at the top of your head, brushing your hair gently. âI know someone whoâs prettier.â
You turned your head slowly to look at him and were met with a sight you forever wanted to keep in your heart. Jihoon was looking down at you, eyes soft and filled with an emotion you wanted to describe as adoration, corners of his lips upturned into a sweet smile. You wanted to reach out and touch his cheek, feel the warmth of his skin under your palm and make sure he was real, but you were too stuck in his gaze to move.
âI actually know the prettiest girl in the world. Iâm very lucky.â
You continued staring at each other for a few seconds or maybe a few hours, until he booped your nose and stood up. âOur Uberâs here, pretty girl.âÂ
You took his extended hand in yours and let him help you up, still in a daze as he opened the car door for you and rushed to the other side. You didnât expect the relief you felt when he took your hand in his again as the Uber started driving. As the driver and him made minimal small talk, you watched out the window, but you couldnât hear or see anything - you could only focus on Jihoonâs fingers intertwined with yours. Had hand-holding always felt so natural?
Even once you reached your apartment and you had to let go of it to get out of the car, the only thing you wanted was to have it again.Â
You didnât notice right away, as you punched in the code for the entrance to your apartment building, that Jihoon had stayed behind on the pavement. A light rain had started and his hair, all curled up from the pool, shone with small beads of water that the streetlights reflected on.Â
âArenât you coming up?â you asked, turning around to face him and leaning against the door so it wouldnât close.
âNot tonight,â he simply said, and you hesitated to ask him why. Whatever it was, he must have his reason, and you would see him again soon anyway, so you dropped it.
âOkay.â You nodded and hoped you didnât sound as disappointed as you felt.Â
You thought that would be it, but then he took a step closer to you, then another, until he was standing right in front of you. The doorstep made you taller so that your eyes were on a parallel with his lips, on which they naturally fell. No matter how confusing tonight might have been, if what you thought was about to happen actually did happen, you knew there was not a cell in your body that would resist it.
Jihoon leaned in closer and closer, until he was right there, and your lips would touch any second - but he leaned to the right, pressing a kiss to the corner of your lips instead. You stood with bated breath as he leaned back, wearing a proud smirk. âGood to know you wouldnât push me away if I tried to kiss you,â he said, but on this rare occasion, you were speechless.Â
His smirk softened to a smile as he ruffled your hair. âGood night, Y/N.â
It wasnât until he had reached the corner, turning around and waving at you to go into your building before disappearing that you snapped out of it and made your way to your apartment. As soon as youâd shut your front door behind you, you realized just how disappointed you felt that Jihoon hadnât come up like he usually did, how much you missed the reassurance of having him there, even if the two of you were a room apart.Â
You also realized you didnât want any walls to separate you anymore.
And there you had it - the signs were too obvious to ignore anymore. The heart flutterings, the thoughts of him invading your mind day and night, the jealousy. The constant longing to be with him.
You were in love with Park Jihoon.
--
You fell into a deep sleep for about four hours, before waking up with a start.
You were in love with Park Jihoon.
What had seemed like a comforting thought at the time now freaked you out to no end. Park Jihoon was your best friend, your brotherâs best friend, someone youâd met so long ago heâd known you during your embarrassing bangs phase of 2015 (BangGate, as your friends from home inappropriately liked to call it).
You were great as friends, sure, but how would you fare if things went further than that? There was no way for you to know other than by trying it firsthand. Did you want to take that leap, and risk falling face first - or chance falling right into his arms?
For some reassurance, you got your laptop out and went to Google. At first, you intended to search some YouTube videos or blog posts about successful best-friends-turned-lovers stories, but something deep inside your brain compelled you to type Omegle in the search bar. Even if it was five a.m. for you, itâd be a reasonable time of the day for people with good relationship advice somewhere, right?
In your interests, you typed love, relationship and advice, hoping this would lead you to your savior. After skipping a few naked men who apparently were into love too, two young girls appeared on your screen who, going off of their accent, were British. They looked about eleven and were doing their nails, not paying attention to their screen. NewJeans was playing in the background.
They were perfect.
âHey, girls!â you said, cringing at the sound of your own voice.
They raised their heads in unison, looking at you for a second before coming closer to the screen, all wide smiles. One of them had braces with pink elastics. âHey, girl!â
You decided you had no time to lose, so you directly told them you needed advice with a boy you liked. They nodded vigorously. So you told them everything - from how you and Jihoon had met, to reconnecting in September, to the events of the past few months (including a detailed rundown of what happened at the pool, which they loved). They even insisted on seeing a picture and squealed when you showed them. Your Jihoon really was handsome.
âSo? What do you think I should do?â you asked when you were done recounting everything.
âI have this thing I do whenever I fancy someone,â the girl on the right started, while the other one munched on some sour candy. You nodded for her to continue. âIt really helps me know if I should keep fancying them or if theyâre not worth it. Itâs called a compibi- compa- combali- Rosie, what was it again?â
âA compatibility test,â Rosie said, tongue blue from her candy.
âRight, that. It works like magic. Just the other week I thought for sure Leo was the cutest boy in school but then I did the test thing and got forty percent with him and a few days later he was dating Sarah anyway.â
âSarah is terrible,â Rosie chipped in.
âOh no!â you exclaimed.
âYeah, really bad,â the other girl said, nodding. âBut then, I did it with Martin and got eighty-six percent and weâve been dating for ten days now, we have,â she finished proudly.
âThatâs amazing.â You didnât know if it was the lack of sleep or the conviction with which the girl spoke, but you were hooked. âHow do I do it?â you asked, although youâd probably done it when you were their age too.
âOh, itâs easy. You just type the comp- Rosie?â
âCompatibility.â
âThat, test on Google and click any one of them and type in your name then his. Any of them will do, Iâm sure,â she shrugged, reaching for a candy.Â
âOkay, let me do it right now. Gimme a sec.â After a few clicks, youâd reached an early 2010s-style website called lovecalculator.com, all pink and cupids shooting their arrows into the sky. You typed in your name, then Jihoonâs, then pressed a shaky finger to the Enter bar.
âOh my gosh!â you squealed. âWe got ninety-nine percent!â
âOh my gosh!â the girls yelped back, clapping and hugging each other in celebration.
âGirl, you need to go tell him right now,â non-Rosie said firmly.
âRight now,â Rosie echoed.
You pouted. âI canât, itâs five a.m. right now.â
âYou better go later then! You two are meant to be! Youâll last at least like, a month or two.âÂ
âAt least.â
After thanking and saying good-bye to your new best friends, you spent a good three minutes staring at the big 99% in bright pink on your screen. This randomly generated number made you so happy that you took a screenshot and printed it out on Minjeongâs printer in the living room, then put it on your fridge for you to admire. You used a magnet Jihoon had gifted you for Christmas - it was a four-cut photobooth picture of you two youâd taken at the Christmas market. You thought youâd only taken the paper version, but heâd made you go get food for the both of you while he bought the magnet version as well.
Your mind at ease, you started heading back to your room, but you ran into someone right as you walked out of the kitchen.
You looked him up and down. Yoshinori was standing in your living room half-naked, looking like a deer caught in headlights.Â
âH-hey, Y/N,â he said, breaking the silence first. âIâm sorry, I thought you were sleepingâŠâ
âI woke up early,â you replied, unable to keep yourself from smiling at his awkwardness. âWhat are you doing?â
âJust, um, just getting some water.â
âAnd you have to come to my apartment to do that?â
âNo, I, um- Someone called the cops, so Jaehyuk kicked all of us out.â
âI thought you were in a room somewhere?â
âYeah, but we went outside to see what was happening, and he saw us, so we had to leave.â
âRight⊠Well, glad you made it back home safe.â The strangeness of the situation suddenly hit you, and you realized you should probably let the half-naked man get his glass of water and leave. âIâll go back to my room, then.â
âOh, right, see you, Y/N. And sorry.â
âNo worries!â you said, waving his apology off and scurried off to your bedroom. You plopped into your bed with a satisfied sigh, hugging a plushie Jihoon had won for you at an arcade close to your chest. He really was everywhere.
When you woke up next, sunlight was pouring from the window into your room. You checked your phone - nine a.m.. Not early enough to go to late sleeper Jihoonâs place, but definitely early enough to call your probably still sleeping brother. You had to tell someone about your newfound revelation, and Minjeong next door was either asleep or busy.
Your phone rang with an outgoing call for so long that you thought Junkyu might simply not pick up. âIâm in love with Jihoon,â you blurted out as soon as your brotherâs face appeared on screen.Â
He paused for a second, taking your words in, then yawned and rubbed the sleep out of his eyes. âGood morning to you too, Y/N.â
âIâm in love with Jihoon,â you repeated, more insistently.
âI heard you the first time.â
âWell, what do you think?!â you asked, impatience rising. You couldnât believe your brother could be sarcastic in an emergency like this.
Junkyu frowned. âUh, congratulations?â
You tutted. âKyu, Iâm serious about this!â
âI know, I can tell,â he said, chuckling. âAre you going to tell him?â
âI think I have to. I think⊠I think he feels the same way about me, actually.â
Junkyu rolled his eyes. âNo shit, Sherlock.â
You paused. âHuh?â
âEveryone and their mom knows heâs in love with you, we were just all waiting for you to see it.â
âHuh?!â Junkyu shrugged. âWhy didnât anyone tell me?â
Your brother sighed. âSome things in life, you have to figure out on your own, sis. Like taxes.â You just frowned at him. âWell, how did you figure it out?â
âNow that you say it, I guess I shouldâve noticed it earlier. But really what happened is I saw him talking to a girl.â
âPut the man in jail!â
âShut up. And then we talked for a bit, and he didnât outright say it, but he heavily implied that he⊠liked me.â
Junkyu scoffed. âThatâs an understatement.â
You ignored your brother. âBut I donât know if I should wait for a bit or go tell him now-â
âY/N. Please, put that man out of his misery and go tell him now.â
âDonât you think heâd get upset if I confessed first? You know Jihoon, he gets proud about random things like that.â
âBelieve me, he wonât care. Heâll just be happy you like him back after all this time.â
You thought for a second, a small smile blooming on your lips. âDoes he really like me that much?â
Junkyu sighed. âHeâs been harping on about you since we were fourteen. He probably keeps a diary or a boyblog where he just writes about you. Just go get him, girl.â
Your smile grew wider and your heart started beating faster, excitement growing in your stomach at the thought of seeing Jihoon again. âOkay, I will.â You and your brother stared at each other for a second, eyes wide in anticipation, until something struck you.
âWait⊠You donât mind, do you? Your sister and best friend dating?â
âI l-word both of you, so no, I donât mind. I trust you both enough to not hurt each other. But Iâm still your brother, so if that prick does anything to hurt you, Iâll kick his ass, okay?â
âKyu, he bench-presses your weight as a joke.â
He squinted his eyes at you. âIâll metaphorically kick his ass, then.â
âAnd what if I hurt him?â
Junkyu thought for a second. âIâll⊠give you the silent treatment for a few days.â
âHow scary,â you laughed.
âAnyways, congratulations in advance and all that, but for my mental health please pretend youâre not a couple in front of me and remember that premarital sex is a sin.â
âWill do! Bye, Kyu!â
--
Right after hanging up with your brother, you texted Jihoon, asking if you could come over. You quickly got ready, doing affirmations in the mirror to calm yourself down, and as soon as your phone pinged with Jihoonâs answer (miss me already?), you were out the door. It was usually a thirteen-minute walk between your and Jihoonâs place, but with the power of love, it only took you eight.
You felt like your body had gone on autopilot - instead of practicing over and over what you would say to him in your head, imagining all the terrible ways it could go or pacing back and forth in front of his apartment building, you just walked, the loud thumping of your heart in your ears drowning everything else out. Youâd just get there and get it over with.Â
Even when you had to wait for seven seconds (you counted) for Jihoon to open the door after youâd rung the doorbell, you didnât start panicking.Â
âHey, Y/N, I just ordered some-â
âI love you.â
âBreakfast⊠You what?â
âI love you, Hoonie,â you beamed. The relief of letting those words free made tears pool in the corner of your eyes.
Jihoon just stared at you, mouth agape and expression like he couldnât believe what was hearing. Reaching for your hand, he brought you closer to him and shut the door behind you, eyes never once leaving yours. Then, he pulled you into a hug, one so tight youâd be worried about your blood circulation being cut off if it wasnât Jihoonâs arms you were in.Â
âCan you say it again, please?â he asked, nose buried in your hair and voice weak like youâd never heard it before.
You tightened your hold around his waist. âI love you,â you whispered.
âAgain?â
âI love you,â you repeated, giggling.
He laughed too, more out of relief than anything. âI love you, too.â
He leaned back and raised his hands to gently cup your face in his palms. The both of you were smiling like idiots from ear to ear, gazing into each otherâs eyes. Tears streamed down your cheek and he wiped them away with a thumb before pressing a soft kiss to your forehead.
âTook you long enough,â he said, making you laugh again.
âI know, Iâm sorry.â
Jihoon shook his head. âDonât be. You have no idea how happy I am right now.â
âIâm happy for you guys and all, but could you like, not do this here?â a voice interrupted you. You looked behind Jihoonâs shoulder to find Hyunsuk, one of his roommates, on the living room sofa, watching Brooklyn 99. You hadnât even noticed him. In his defense, you were declaring your love for each other right next to him in the entrance hallway.Â
âOh, right, sorry, Suk. Letâs go into my room,â he said, tugging at your hand.Â
The both of you burst into giggles as soon as the door shut behind you. Jihoon wasted no time in pulling you into another hug, and it felt like your whole body sighed as you let his warmth engulf you. You cursed yourself for not letting yourself have this earlier. You gently rocked from side to side together, as if slow dancing to a melody only the two of you could hear.
âI guess a little jealousy goes a long way, huh?â Jihoon said after a minute of silence.
âI wasnât jealous,â you huffed, leaning back so he could see your frown.
âWhat made you realize your undying love for me, then?â
âI just⊠I thought weâd be good together. I realized how compatible we are, if you will.â
âOur compatibility? Did you only notice it last night?â
You grinned. âGuess I did,â you answered, just to tease him. Jihoon did not need to know about your love calculator epiphany.
He looked at you like you had hung the stars in the sky. You felt shy under his gaze, but you couldnât get yourself to look away. âSo does that mean weâre⊠boyfriend and girlfriend now?â he asked, making you burst into laughter. âDonât make fun of me! Itâs important to make things clear,â he complained between giggles.
âYes, letâs be boyfriend and girlfriend.â
âAwesome,â he replied, then pursed his lips as if debating to say what he wanted to say next. âSo, now that weâre boyfriend and girlfriendâŠâ
âYes, Hoon?â
âDoes that mean I can kiss you?â he asked, a small smile playing on his lips that you mirrored.
âPlease,â you whispered.
So he did.
When his lips touched yours, it was like a flower that had been waiting for the right moment finally bloomed inside your chest. It felt soft, and comforting, and just right. Like your lips had always meant to meet.Â
At least, it started out that way. The fabric of Jihoonâs t-shirt bunched up in your hands while his cupped your face tenderly, your lips moving in a slow cadence against each otherâs as if you had all the time in the world - and you did. You were both so filled to the brim with excitement that when you pulled away for a breather, you laughed together, foreheads resting against each other.
But then, you raised your hands and threaded your fingers through his hair, tugging on it gently as you deepened the kiss. You probably hadnât done it on purpose, simply wanting to feel more of Jihoon out of some basic instinct - but it undid something in him.Â
He slid his hands down the sides of your neck and your shoulders until they reached your arms, pulling on them to have your body closer to his. His hands then continued their journey down to your waist, where they sneaked themselves under your t-shirt. They ran up and up until almost your entire back was exposed to the fresh air in his room, the contrast between that and the fire-hot warmth of Jihoonâs hands against your bare skin making you shiver.
He walked you backwards until the back of your legs hit his mattress, unto which he helped you down gently, somehow not breaking the kiss as he did. One of his hands came to brush hair away from your face, while the other remained on your waist, after some time venturing onto your stomach, a sensitive spot for you that made you sigh into his mouth. He took that opportunity to slide his tongue against yours, yet another new sensation that made your head spin.
This was exceeding any expectations you had ever had for a first kiss. In fact, you had always thought first kisses were messy, awkward things, but this was nothing of the sort - your whole body was on edge, responding to every little movement on Jihoonâs part. Your fingers buzzed with a fizzy electricity that put your brain in a daze. You could do this forever, you thought.Â
But forever was cut short by the sudden buzz of Jihoonâs phone. Jihoon started, practically leaping off of you and dramatically holding onto his chest when he realized it was just his phone that had interrupted you. The delivery person was calling him to announce their arrival.Â
Jihoon pressed a kiss to your forehead, took a few steps, then came back to press another kiss, this time to your lips. Your stomach growled loudly while you waited for him, and you realized you still hadnât eaten today. Add making out to that, you were ready to devour whatever it was Jihoon had ordered.Â
The smell coming from the paper bag Jihoon held as he entered the room again made you close your eyes in bliss and take a deep whiff. âJohnnyâs,â you whispered. âYou know me so well.â
Johnnyâs was your absolute favorite breakfast place in all of town. It had been opened a few years ago by a graduate of your university who had mastered the art of hangover food. From soups, to hash brown patties, to iced coffee, he knew exactly what it was that students needed after a night out. You could tell he had a lot of experience with that himself. He was kind of like a God amongst the student body of your university.
âOf course I do. I know your order from all of your favorite restaurants, and somehow you only realized yesterday that I was pathetically in love with you.â
You smiled sheepishly, taking a bite of your sausage and egg wrap. âHow long are you going to hold this over my head?â
Jihoon grinned brightly. âUntil I forget about it.â
âSo never?â
âPrecisely.â
He put on the next episode of your show, and for the next couple hours, the two of you stayed holed up in his room, cuddling once you were done with your food. Even though you had spent endless time watching shows or movies side by side, neither of you had ever dared initiate physical touch, no matter how much youâd wanted to. Heâd been scared youâd pull away from him, and youâd been scared itâd be awkward. You hadnât realized how much youâd longed for his proximity and warmth until you had it.
Save for his laptop screen, itâd been quiet for a while, and you thought you might fall asleep when Jihoon spoke. âIâm so glad I donât need to pretend anymore,â he said as one episode finished and the next one started.
âPretend what?â
âThat Iâm not desperately in love with you and that every single little thing you do doesnât drive me insane.â
You giggled. âDoes it?â
âYes,â he whispered, his voice a heavy sigh, almost a groan. There was a slight edge to it, a deeper meaning behind that short yes that had your stomach suddenly feeling very tight.
âOh,â was all you could answer. You suddenly wondered what you might have done without thinking that had had an effect on Jihoon, just as heâd done to you many times before. You also wondered what sort of effect you may have had on him, what sort of thoughts he may have had about you that he had to keep to himself all this time.
Tentatively, you cocked your head up, only to find he was already looking down at you. The glint in his eyes made your body burn. Just as he started to lean in to reunite your lips, your phone buzzed with many texts in a row. Jihoon closed his eyes in frustration and sighed. âI want to throw both of our phones away,â he said, making you laugh.
minjeong hey pooks idk if ur out somewhere or still sleeping but im going to yoshis placeee he needs some stuff there so weâre going together and iâll prob spend the night over⊠weâre like inseparable rn or wtv. anyways dont set the place on fire while iâm gone x
you ok thx for letting me know xx im w my boyfriend rn
Minjeongâs response didnât even take three seconds to come through.
minjeong HUHHHH??? GIRL ???
you hehe
minjeong park jihoon is one lucky man
you how do u know its him?
minjeong literally who else would it be wait does that mean weâll go on double datesâŠ
you yeah ur right and pls no
minjeong DOUBLE DATES !! girls night tomorrow night i want all the deeeets have fun having the place all to urselves and rmb to use protection xx
you why is that where ur mind goes first ?? down for girls night tho can we watch teen beach movie
minjeong duhhh
âTeen Beach Movie?â Jihoon said, startling you. You hadnât realized heâd been reading over your shoulders.
âItâs a good movie,â you mumbled, frowning.
âRight.â He said nothing for a few seconds, but he just couldnât contain himself. The question was burning his tongue. âArenât you on the pill?â
Your head snapped towards him at the sudden question. âUh, yeah, I am. Why?â
His eyes scanned your face as a smirk grew on his lips. âThen we donât need to use protection, do we?â
You gulped. Your whole face felt hot - after having just shared your first kiss, you hadnât expected him to mention sex so easily. Not that you werenât interested in that, far from it, you were just⊠nervous.
You turned away from him, unable to sustain his gaze any longer. âI guess not,â you murmured. You had started taking the pill at the beginning of university, mainly to regulate your period and lessen your hormonal acne. The contraceptive part was just a bonus, one you had never imagined would come into handy like this.Â
Jihoonâs eyes suddenly widened. âOh, I need to tell Yoshi about this! Heâs gonna freak. I hope he wonât be mad he learned it from Minjeong and not me first.â
âYoshi?â you asked as you watched him reach for his phone on his nightstand.
âYeah, weâve been updating each other on our love lives. Heâs really into Minjeong, by the way.â
âThatâs⊠strangely wholesome, actually.âÂ
While he typed away, you tilted your head and took the time to appreciate your boyfriendâs features. The round eyes, heart-shaped lips, sharp nose and even sharper jawline. He was so pretty, and now, he was all yours.
Without thinking, you traced a finger along his jaw, liking the feel of it against your skin. When his eyes found yours, you dropped your hand and straightened your head, expression like youâd just been caught red-handed.
âShould we go back to your place? We can pick up food on the way.â
You smiled. âWe just ate.â
âAnd Iâm hungry again,â he said, mirroring your smile and pressing a chaste kiss to your lips. Or at least, he had intended it as a chaste kiss, but he found that he couldnât quite get himself to pull away. âLetâs go,â he said, lips moving against yours as he spoke, but made no move to actually go.
âLetâs go,â you repeated, staying perfectly still. Youâre not sure who was the one to cross the millimeters between your lips, but before you knew it, you and Jihoonâs lips were stuck to each other once more. This kiss had none of the gradual intensity of the previous one - right off the bat, the feeling of Jihoonâs lips against yours flooded all of your senses.
Your hands found purchase in his hair while his found their way to your waist once more. With surprising ease, he pulled you to him so that you were straddling his lap. For a second there, you were conscious about how heavy you might be on top of him, but it was all forgotten when he pressed his lips to yours again in a passionate kiss. In this new position, you could press your body close to his, so close you could almost feel his heart beat against yours. He also had easier access to your back than before, and he quickly took advantage of that.Â
Just like before, he sneaked his hands underneath your t-shirt, making you arch your back against him. He slid a finger underneath your bra strap and pulled away for a second to ask if this was okay. You looked at him - his eyes were darker than youâd ever seen before and his face had lust written all over it. You were sure you looked similar.
âYeah, itâs okay,â you whispered before diving back into the kiss. One second apart felt like hours to you.
Your breath got shakier as he unclasped your bra. He didnât do anything right away, settling on brushing his palm up and down your back while your heart raced with anticipation. You were so on edge that you couldnât even kiss him anymore - you buried your face in his neck, gripping his hair so tightly you were probably hurting him. You didnât care if he could feel how desperate you were. Then, finally, painfully slowly, one of his hands made its way to your front, and he gently grabbed your breast underneath your bra that was hanging from your shoulders. That was already a foreign sensation in itself, but when he took your nipple between two fingers and pulled on it ever-so-gently, the pleasure that overtook your body was so intense that it made you let out a loud gasp and you pulled away from Jihoon, startled as if you had been shocked by lightning.Â
âAre you okay?â he asked, breathing heavily, a mix of worry and desire in his eyes.Â
You nodded, holding onto his shoulders as you tried to make your breathing return to normal. âIâm fine, just⊠itâs all very new, is all. Iâve never done any of this before.â
Never had a boyfriend, never held hands romantically, never kissed - that was you. Not that you minded, though, since youâd never been interested in anyone and you were happy to do this with Jihoon, whom you trusted more than anyone else.
He smiled softly. âThatâs okay. Does it at least feel good?â he asked, low voice making the hairs on your arms stand.
You whined, hiding your face in the dip of his shoulder again. âIt doesâŠâ you admitted, voice muffled against his skin.
âYou know, itâs my first time too,â he said after a while.Â
You lifted your head to look at him. âReally?â
âMh-hm. Youâre my first girlfriend.â His eyes were full of affection as he gazed at you, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. You giggled. âWhatâs funny?â he asked softly, pressing a kiss to your jaw.
âWeâre each otherâs firsts,â you explained. âI think thatâs nice.â
Jihoon made his way to your lips, giving them a small peck. âThat is nice. And I promise Iâll make you feel so good,â another peck, âyouâll want me to be your last as well.â
You looked at him for a bit, taking in his features that looked even more beautiful to you now that youâd realized your feelings for him, and thought of a life with him. It might have been slightly premature, but you already knew you liked the idea of that.
âOkay,â you said, as if what he had said had been an offer. It made him smile.
âOkay.â He kissed you, softly like you could break underneath his touch. âYouâre so cute, you know that?â he asked against your lips, but didnât leave you time to answer before kissing you again. âOkay, I think we should take a break,â he said after a few minutes. âWe can go to your place. And then weâll have more⊠privacy.â
You agreed that spending some time not pressed up against Jihoon might help you think straight again. The walk to your apartment was nice and quiet, your interlocked hands swinging back and forth between your two bodies. When you walked past the grocery store, you stopped in your tracks, looking at Jihoon with a smile which he mirrored immediately, even without knowing the reason behind it.
âShould we bake a cake to celebrate our first day together?â
âThatâs very cheesy.â His grin widened as he took a step closer to you. âI love it.â He pressed a kiss to your forehead and led you into the store.
The rest of that afternoon was spent baking and decorating the cake. It was a simple vanilla batter, but it took way longer than it should have, because Jihoon first insisted on having a flour fight (which took ages to clean), then on having two cakes and having a competition for whose would be prettier (yours, of course), but you loved every last second of it. It was like a scene out of a movie, and you could not have been more content. To really bring home the cheesiness of it all, you even recorded yourselves blowing out the number one candles of your respective cakes.
The evening came around, and, full of cake and Chinese takeout, you were holed up in bed together, watching the first movie that had popped up on your Netflix recommended. It was too easy, falling asleep in his arms. The combination of his comforting scent and the soft back rubs he was giving you lulled you to sleep like nothing else.Â
When you woke up next, it was because of a sudden lack of warmth next to you. You lifted your head to find Jihoon opening your bedroom door and heading into the living room. He had just been going to get water, but you didnât know that.
âHoon?â you called out, raising yourself to a sitting position on your bed. He immediately turned around, walking back towards you and crouching next to your bed.
âHm?â
âArenât you staying?â you asked, reaching for the hem of his t-shirt sleeve. He looked at your hand before his gaze slowly made its way back up towards your face, a smirk growing on his pretty lips.Â
âDo you want me to?â he asked back, gazing deep into your eyes. His voice had dropped to a low volume that made it hard to breathe. Initially, youâd just wanted him back by your side, but now all sorts of thoughts were running through your mind.
âOf course. I mean, weâre dating, right?âÂ
In an attempt to lighten the atmosphere, you tried to chuckle, but all laughter died in your throat when your eyes locked with Jihoonâs. You werenât scared of his intensity - you were scared of the pace at which your desire for him was growing. One inch closer, and you knew youâd be wrapped around his finger.
He leaned closer.
âWhat are you trying to say?â he asked, tilting his head innocently to the side. Mindlessly, you rubbed your thighs together, searching for some relief for your core that had started to throb of its own accord, but Jihoon was following your every movement and had noticed it. âAre you saying you want to consummate our relationship?â he asked again, a hint of amusement in his voice as he placed his hands on your knee that wasnât covered by the blanket.
You scoffed and looked away, hoping you didnât look as flustered as you felt. âNot if you say it like that,â you mumbled.
Jihoonâs eyebrows perked up. âHow should I say it, then?â he whispered. His hand slowly brushed along your sides until it reached your waist. Even over your layer of clothing, his touch burned. âYou want me to make love to you?â
You kept your gaze fixed on something behind his shoulder, focusing on your breathing that was getting shakier and shakier. He drew the blanket away, leaving your thighs exposed to the chilly air for a second before he splayed his large palms on them, bringing you some warmth but intensifying the throbbing in your core. His hands inched closer and closer to where you most needed them, rubbing over your inner thighs but swerving right before he actually reached your core, setting them on your hip bones instead.
âOr do you want me to fuck you, Y/N?â
He took your chin between two fingers, forcing you to meet his gaze. Your eyes locked for a second before they dropped to his lips, watching the smirk that grew on them. âGuess itâs the latter.âÂ
As soon as your lips touched, you were overwhelmed by the immensity of your desire for him. Your whole body burned in want, in need. You had no idea what to do except hold on tightly to him and hope for the best, hope that heâd know how to guide you through this even if it was new for him as well.Â
If you thought the kisses youâd shared earlier in the day had been intense, this one was on a whole other level. Your hands grabbed everywhere they could find and his gripped your waist firmly as your tongues danced with each other, resulting in a messy kiss that had your head spinning from lack of air in seconds. And yet, you couldnât get enough. You kept pulling Jihoon impossibly closer by the hem of his t-shirt until he got frustrated from the layer of clothing between you two and simply took it off, discarding somewhere in your room. He gave you no time to admire his defined chest or abs, because he trapped your lips right away.Â
He pushed you slowly onto the bed until he was hovering over you, alternating between kissing your lips and your neck, that you were sure would have a couple of purple marks for you to find the next day. Your skin burned wherever he touched it, and it was like a trail of fire had appeared as his hand made its way to your breasts once more, grabbing harshly at the soft flesh there.Â
The whole time, he had been in some sort of a trance, drunk on your body, on your scent, on the way you were touching him - on the feeling that you finally wanted him as much as heâd wanted you all this time. But when he helped you out of the articles of clothing covering your upper body, and he had you half-naked underneath him, he had to take a double take and remember to take his time instead of just devouring you whole. For both his sake and yours. Â
So he stopped for a bit, letting himself admire you. He noticed you shifting uncomfortably, so he leaned down again, pressing soft kisses along your cheeks and your jaw. âYou really are the prettiest girl Iâve ever seen,â he whispered before kissing you. He then continued his journey down your neck and collarbones until he reached your breast. âReally so beautiful.â
When he took one of your nipples in his mouth, your back arched against him and you let out a loud moan. He couldnât keep himself from chuckling slightly - he found it adorable how sensitive you were everywhere he touched you. Your moans were like music to his ears.
Nothing had ever felt like this before. As he circled his tongue around your nipple - God knows where he had learned how to do this - it took everything you had to not just scream in pleasure. Even if Minjeong was out, you still had neighbors. Now that you couldnât grab his t-shirt, youâd switched to his hair, and you were tugging at it so hard you wouldnât have been surprised if you ripped a clump of it from his head.
Your panties were sticking to your core, all slick with your arousal, and you didnât know how long you could go on anymore without attention down there.
As if heâd heard your thoughts, Jihoon started making his way down your body once more, trailing kisses all across your ribcage and stomach.
âIâm torn between taking this real slow and making it last as long as possible.â His lips found a sensitive spot on your lower stomach, right next to your hip bone, and he gently bit the skin there, licking it afterwards to offer you some relief. âOr just devouring you now that I finally have you.â
âJihoon,â you sighed, desperation evident in your voice. âPlease, just do something.â
âLike what?â he asked, clearly enjoying your lust-filled state of mind.
âAnything.â
He chuckled, and by the sound of it, you knew he didnât have anything good in mind. He lowered himself some more until his mouth was positioned right in front of your pussy, and, with no warning, licked a long strip from your hole to your clit over your panties, humming at the taste of your arousal.
âSomething like this?â he asked afterwards, but was only met with a whine. He kissed the soft flesh of your inner thighs while you squirmed in his hold.
âDonât tease me, pleaseâŠâ you begged, and your voice was so weak and genuine that he could only give in.Â
âWhatever you want, baby,â he obliged, the nickname rolling off of his tongue casually. He had no idea what it did to you.Â
He helped you out of your underwear, finally getting you fully naked just for him. Jihoon was a man of his words, so not a second was lost before he dived right back into you, licking up the arousal spilling out of you before flicking his tongue at your clit. He held your hips tightly in both of his hands so you couldnât squirm away from him and ate you out like a man starved. You were so sweet and warm against his tongue, and your taste was worlds more intoxicating than any alcohol heâd ever had. Heâd do this forever if you let him.
He noticed quickly that attention to your clit was what got you moaning the loudest, so he alternated between circling his tongue around it and gently sucking at it, sometimes releasing it with a pop just for the hell of it. He slipped a finger easily inside of you, your wetness accommodating him immediately. He couldnât wait to be inside you - his hard cock was throbbing in the confines of his underwear, but his only concern right now was to make you come undone for him.Â
When he found that deep spot inside of you, the one that had you gasping in pleasure and moaning his name, he slid a second finger in, and just like that, you were done for. You came apart on his fingers and tongue, a complete moaning mess underneath him, and he lapped up the arousal leaking out of you like it was water.Â
Youâd already thought you were at the peak of pleasure when your orgasm came ripping through you like an avalanche, blindsiding you and making you see bright white stars behind your tightly closed eyelids. Your throat felt dry from all the moaning and heaving youâd been doing. You had to take Jihoonâs face between your hands and gently pull him up yourself, otherwise it seemed like he was happy to keep going, but it was starting to overwhelm you.
Jihoon held you in his arms as you came down from your high. You let out the laughter bubbling in your throat as your breathing returned to normal - not because something was funny, but because you had just felt so ridiculously amazing that you couldnât help but laugh.Â
âHow was it?â Jihoon asked, a lot shyer than youâd expected.
You lifted your head to look at him, a bright smile on your face even though you felt close to exhausted. âI have a hard time believing that was your first time giving head, Hoon.â
He chuckled. âVery first time, I promise you. I must just have some God-given skills.â
âIâm not even gonna fight you on that, because that was amazing,â you conceded, nuzzling yourself closer to him.
âIâm glad I could do that for you,â he said softly, burying his nose at the top of your head and inhaling there. The scent of your hair was oddly comforting for him.
Before you let yourself drift off to sleep, you started raking your fingernails across his chest and abs, smiling proudly to yourself when you heard him breathe shakily or felt his muscles clench under your touch. He wasnât saying anything, but you could tell he was holding himself back. âI think,â you started, pressing a kiss to the corner of his jaw, âThat you deserve something in return.â
âYou donât-â
You knew Jihoon. He didnât like it when you insisted on paying for coffee because heâd done it the last time, or when you baked him something because heâd stayed up all night with you studying for a test. He liked taking care of you, but you always had to almost force him to let you take care of him. You wanted your relationship to be fifty-fifty - you wanted to give him as much as he gave you. Even if he would let you, it wasnât fair to just take and take.
So you insisted. Whatever he was about to say, it died on his tongue as soon as you placed your palm on his erection. It felt hot and hard under your hand, and saying you werenât slightly intimidated would be a lie, but you wanted to do this. If you were able to give Jihoon half the pleasure heâd given you moments prior, youâd be satisfied.Â
You rubbed your hand slowly up and down over his clothes. âReally, baby,â he managed to say between shaky breaths, âI didnât do that to get something in return- Fuck,â he whispered as you hooked your fingers underneath the waistband of his sweatpants, pulling it down his legs so he was only left in his underwear. Under the black fabric, his bulge looked huge, and you gulped at the idea of having it inside you.
âThis feels good, right, Hoon?â you asked, steadily getting bolder and pressing slightly harder against his bulge as you continued rubbing it.
âIt- it does, but-â
You shut him up by pressing your lips to his. He reciprocated it immediately, almost unconsciously, before moaning into the kiss. âSo let me do this for you,â you whispered before ridding him of his underwear.
âOkay,â he said, sighing as you rubbed your hands from his knees along his thighs.
The groan he let out as you took him in your hand sent shivers straight down your spine. You could finally put to use all the knowledge Minjeong had passed on to you over the past few months. You let go of Jihoonâs cock to spit in your hand, the moisture helping you glide your loosely closed fist along his shaft with more ease. Your movements themselves were probably very clumsy, but Jihoon didnât seem to mind - he moaned shamelessly, head fallen back against the pillows and exposed Adamâs apple bobbing up and down.
Seeing him like this and knowing it was all because of you drove you crazy, and soon, you became greedy for any sign of pleasure from him. You wanted to hear all of his moans, sighs, groans, watch his abs clench tightly and feel him grab your hair, which he did as soon as you flicked your tongue across his tip, already leaking with pre-cum. The endless string of curses and moans that flew from his mouth as you circled your tongue and shallowly bobbed your mouth around him filled you with satisfaction.
âFuck, just like that, Y/N. Youâre doing so fucking well, baby. Making me feel so good.â Those words had been the cherry on top.
Jihoon was of a more-than-decent size, and fitting all of him inside of your mouth was probably a task that would take a few tries to achieve - you still did your best to take as much of him as you could. You massaged his balls with one of your hands, using the other to hold the base of his shaft while you bobbed your head up and down. You did this with increasing speed then let him take control over your pace as his fingers threaded themselves in your hair, guiding your head around him. You didnât even know if he was doing it on purpose or out of reflex, but you definitely did not mind handing him the reins.
âYouâre gonna make me- Fuck, Y/N, Iâm gonna cum, sweetheart.â You hummed around his shaft, and that seemed to do him in - with a loud groan, he released his load, hot and sticky inside your mouth. Taken aback by the bitter taste, you lifted your head and only swallowed what you had caught. You took him in your hand again, jerking him off to help him ride out the rest of his high.
You watched him, transfixed by his heaving chest, eyes screwed shut, the beads of sweat pearling across his torso, and the red blush that had spread from his face down to his neck. Youâd done this. Youâd gotten Jihoon in such a state. You let him rest for a bit as you wiped your hands and his body with a tissue and had a sip of water.
You then pressed a kiss to his cheek, taking the time to admire his smiling face. When he opened his eyes and found yours, you suddenly felt so shy that you returned to your usual cuddling position, head resting against his shoulder. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders and pulled you close to him. You were both smelly and sticky, but you couldnât care less.
âYou did so good, baby. You did such a good job,â he whispered, the praise going right to your heart.
âYeah?â
âYeah. That was amazing.â He sighed contentedly, then lowered his head to look at you. âYou feeling sleepy?â
You shook your head no, a shy smile on your lips.
Jihoon smirked slightly. âYou wanna keep going?â
You nodded.
He shifted himself so that his back rested against the headboard. âCome here,â he whispers, pulling you to his lap. You both winced in sensitivity at the feeling of your core right against his softening dick, but you didnât want to pull apart either. If anything, the small stimulation created a pit in your lower stomach for the second time of the night.
You wrapped your arms lazily around his neck while he rested one of his hands on your hips and used the other one to rub your back. âHow are you feeling?â he asked, eyes soft and full of affection.
You pressed a long, gentle kiss to his lips. âGood. Really good,â you said, making him chuckle.
âGood. Me too.â
You made out lazily, lips moving languidly against each other, neither of you in a rush to get anywhere. But after some time, you started to feel Jihoon hardening under you, and when you rocked your hips against him, coating his growing erection with arousal, he groaned. His hands traveled down to your ass, grabbing hard at the skin there as he helped you rock back and forth against him. You started out slowly at first, moaning every time your clit brushed against his tip, but it wasnât long before you sped things up and lost yourself in pleasure once again. Your arms tightened their hold around his neck and, burying your face in his neck, you pressed your chest flush to his and muffled your moans against his skin, in both pleasure and frustration at having him right against you but not inside.
You suddenly lifted your head, and the look on your face made Jihoon instantly stop. âIs everything okay, baby?â
You nodded, but your worry was still evident in the crease of your brows. âYeah, I justâŠâ You pouted. âIâm scared itâll hurt, Hoon.â
Jihoon caressed the side of your cheek with his palm, brushing some hair away from your face. âWe donât have to do this today-â
âNo!â you exclaimed, taking the both of you aback. âI want to.â
âOkay.â
âIâm just a little bit nervous.â
âOkay. Thatâs okay, baby.â One of his hands rubbed reassuring circles into your lower back. âWe can go as slow as you want, okay? And we can stop whenever you want. Just let me know. Does that sound good?â
You nodded, taking a deep breath. âYeah, it does.â
Jihoon smiled and pressed his lips to yours. âAre you ready?â
âYeah,â you whispered.
He helped you lay on your back against the mattress and hovered over you, propping himself up on one forearm. As he kissed you, he caressed one of your thighs, hand inching closer and closer to your core and making your blood rush with anticipation. Then he finally pressed two fingers to your folds, gathering up some of your arousalÂ
before sliding his digits inside of you. As you gasped out in pleasure, his lips trailed away from your lips and found a new home in your neck.
He scissored his fingers inside of you, stretching you out and getting you ready for him as he murmured words of âyouâre doing so wellâ and âIâll make you feel good,â as if he wasnât already. When you seemed relaxed enough, he slid his fingers out of you, smiling at you mischievously while he sucked your arousal off of them. Then, taking his dick by the base, he rubbed his tip along your folds, making your body twitch and loud moans escape your mouth. He pressed a final kiss to your cheek and buried his face in your neck, trying to ground himself too as he slowly started pushing himself inside of you.
His dick was so much bigger than his fingers, and you gripped his hair tightly as you got used to the new sensation. Tears prickled in your eyes, the unexpected stretch making you frown in discomfort. It was a completely different pain to what you were used to, but the overwhelming pleasure mixed with it made it almost welcome.Â
Jihoon was using all of his self-control to not pound you into tomorrow - your tight pussy was sucking him right in, and it was like his whole body sighed of relief when he bottomed out. He couldnât believe he was inside you, feeling your walls clench around him and hearing your soft grunts as you got used to him. It was a scene right out of his wet dreams.Â
âYou okay?â he asked, voice muffled against your skin. His voice sounded strained and heavy.Â
âIâm okay, Hoonie. I just need a minute.â
For that minute, as you breathed shallowly and relaxed around him, Jihoon pressed wet kisses wherever his lips could reach and twirled one of your nipples between two fingers to take your mind off of your pain.Â
âTake your time. I know Iâm big, baby,â he said. You could hear the smirk in his voice.
âNo, youâre just right, Hoon. It feels nice now.âÂ
Objectively, Jihoon knew that this was a good thing, and that you had meant in a good way - better for him to fit right inside rather than cause you pain, but a part of his ego had still been hurt by your refutal of his claim. But then you told him he could move, and he forgot all about it.
It took him another superhuman kind of effort to go slow, slowly rolling his hips against yours with a self-control he didnât know he had. He scanned your face for any signs of discomfort, kissing your small frown in the hope it might go away. He watched as your jaw relaxed and the soft hums escaping your throat turned into moans, as the crease in your eyebrows softened and turned into one of pleasure rather than pain. He allowed his movements to speed up, noting with satisfaction the increasing volume of the noises you were making and the way your fingernails dug into the skin of his shoulders.
He lifted himself on his palms and hooked one of your legs around his hips, the new, deeper angle having you seeing stars. He asked if you were okay again, and when you not only nodded yes, but asked him to go faster, Jihoon had to admit he got a little bit carried away, both in his actions and his words.Â
Jihoon had a big mouth - you knew it, everyone knew it. What you didnât know was that he would keep that big mouth even balls-deep inside you.
Maintaining a fast pace, he lowered himself so that his lips tickled your ear as he spoke. âYouâre doing so well, baby. Taking my cock like the good girl you are. Isnât that right? Youâre my good girl,â he grunted, punctuating his words with harsh rolls of his hips into yours. You couldnât even get yourself to answer, thatâs how far gone you were, his words going into your one ear and coming out the other. All you could think about was how good it all felt, from his tip repeatedly hitting that delicious spot inside of you to the feeling of his warm, sticky skin against yours. The room smelled of sweat and arousal and was filled with all sorts of noises - your heavy breathing, your moans, your grunts, the wet sound of Jihoonâs dick inside of you.
âCanât even say anything, can you? Am I making you feel that good, baby?â
You moaned, thinking that should be enough of a yes for him, but you shouldâve known better.Â
âI think you should answer me when I ask you a question, Y/N,â he commanded, slowing his pace down to get you to listen to him.
âY-yes, it feels so good, Hoon,â you replied, out-of-breath.
âAttagirl,â he whispered, smiling as he bit the lobe of your ear.Â
You hadnât even realized you were crying until Jihoon halted in his motions, feeling one of your hot, wet tears on his palm. He was quick to wipe it away, searching for any pain in your features, but you only whined, asking him why heâd stopped.Â
âWhy are you crying, baby? Did I hurt you? Are you okay?â he asked frantically. The worry in his voice only amplified your already overflowing love for him.
âNo, you didnât do anything wrong, I just⊠God, this is so embarrassing,â you all but sobbed against his skin, realizing that the pleasure had been so overwhelming, tears had started flowing from your eyes.Â
âNo, itâs not.â
You screwed your eyes shut for a second before meeting his gaze again. âI just- it feels so good, Hoon.â
A pause passed as he took a deep breath. âIs that it?â
âIt is, I promise. Please, just⊠letâs keep going, Hoonie. I was so close,â you whined, and Jihoon couldnât help but chuckle at your desperation. How was it that he still found you so adorable even in such a situation?
âOkay, baby. Iâm relieved.â He wiped more of your tears that had fallen, but as soon as he moved inside of you again, taking a minute to return to his previous harsh pace, your tears resumed streaking down your cheeks. Jihoon kissed them, savoring their salty taste on his tongue.
It didnât take long for the knot in your stomach to become tight again, and with every deep thrust, you felt yourself getting closer and closer to the edge.Â
âYou look so pretty like this, sweetheart. All fucked out for me.â
âMm. Iâm so close, Hoon, gonna- fuck, gonna-â
âYouâre gonna cum for me, baby? Gonna cum and make a mess all over my cock?â
âYes, Hoon, fuck-â
You gasped out loud as his hand found your clit again, using his thumb to rub quick circles into the sensitive bundle of nerves. âCum for me, sweetheart, show me how good it feels.â
That did it for you. Your second orgasm of the night washed over you, making you release your loudest moan yet. You held on to Jihoon like you might fall apart if you didnât.Â
The quick clenching and unclenching of your walls around Jihoonâs dick as he fucked you throughout your high drove him crazy and, soon enough, he came undone himself, hot, white ropes of his cum filling you up. The squelch as he fucked his cum into you, the both of you moaning in overstimulation, was nothing short of pornographic.Â
Jihoon all but collapsed on top of you, humming as you traced your fingernails up and down his back. You took a few minutes to collect yourselves, and you thought he might have fallen asleep, soft dick still inside you, when he lifted himself up with a sigh and slid out of you. You winced at the loss of his warmth. He pressed a kiss to your forehead and said heâd be back in a sec.Â
When he entered your room again, he was carrying a towel, a tall glass of water, and leftovers from your takeout earlier. He cleaned you off and asked you how you felt, then you chatted as you ate your food. You could pass out at any moment, but it was nice, talking a little bit after the moment you shared instead of falling asleep straight away.Â
He almost choked on his water when you asked him where heâd learned to talk so dirty - now that he was out of the moment, his cheeks reddened at the thought of everything heâd told you. âIt just comes naturally,â heâd said shyly.
âDo you want anything?â he asked when you were done eating.Â
You kissed him, smiling against his lips. âIâm all good, Hoon. You?â
He mirrored your smile. âAll good, too.â
âI just wanna cuddle and sleep now. Iâm spent.â
âSounds perfect to me,â he whispered. He laid down on his back and you followed, letting him wrap an arm around your shoulder while you rested your head on his chest. He drew you close to him and pulled the blankets over your intertwined bodies. âIs it creepy if I just stare at you for a little bit?â
âKinda, yeah.â
âBut youâre so pretty,â Jihoon pouted.
âIâll just sleep and pretend I donât know anything about it.â
âOkay, just donât panic if you feel a strange but very attractive presence looming over you.â
You snorted. âNoted. Night, Hoon.â You pressed a kiss to his neck and he hummed.
âNight, pretty. Sleep tight.â
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When you woke up a few hours later, your room was bathing in the bright yellow glow of the early morning. You and Jihoon had shifted positions in the night and youâd ended up curled up on your side, back to him while he slept on his back, arms sprayed out next to him. It was the feeling of him shifting closer to you and wrapping an arm around your waist that had awoken you, a sudden warmth engulfing your body that made you feel like you might still be dreaming.
But no, it was all very real. From the man behind you, to the events of the previous night, to the dull but not unpleasant ache you felt between your legs. You sighed contentedly, taking his hand in yours and wrapping it tighter around yourself.Â
Curious to see if he was awake, you turned around after a few minutes and faced him. He seemed pretty passed out until you pressed a soft kiss to his nose, then another to his cheek. His eyebrows creased for a second and his foot moved against yours. He didnât open his eyes, but he pursed his lips for a kiss. He wasnât content with just a peck, however, and you found yourself making out with him first thing in the morning, lips full of sleep and cotton-soft like your pillows.Â
âYou have no idea how much Iâve dreamed of this,â he says after a while, keeping his eyes closed, morning voice sending chills down your spine. âWaking up next to you.â
âYou have?â
âI have. I donât know if I should freak out over this and have a party or just be chill about it,â he said, smiling.
âWe can have a party.â
âReally?â Jihoon asked, opening his eyes wide, excited like a kid who was just told they were going to Disneyland.
âSure,â you giggled. âWe can invite all of our friends and celebrate our one-week anniversary or something. Minjeong will probably want to plan it.â
He sighed happily. âIâm holding you to that. Weâre celebrating.â
After lazing around in bed for a couple hours, going back and forth between chatting while cuddling and making out, your growling stomachs forced you out of your room and into the kitchen.
You and Jihoon noticed it at the same time. It was hard to miss, after all - a bright pink sheet of A4 paper with hearts and little Cupids everywhere right in the middle of the surface of your fridge, but more importantly, your name and Jihoonâs in big bubble letters with 99% in the middle. You wanted to rip it from the surface of your fridge, but the damage had been done - index pointed at the paper, Jihoon turned to you with an incredulous look on his face. You scratched the back of your neck and looked around the kitchen for a way to escape.
âY/N, whatâs this?â Jihoon asked, amusement laced in his voice.
You tried to find some sort of excuse, but to no avail. âThis is just, um- you know, just a, uh, just-â The sound of Jihoonâs cackles interrupted you. You looked at him, unimpressed. âDonât laugh at me. I was stressing out, okay? I needed something to reassure me.â
Jihoon was grinning wide as he pulled you into a hug, one arm around your waist and one hand on the back of your head. âYouâre so adorable,â he mused, pressing a kiss to your hair. You wrapped your arms around his middle and nuzzled your nose against his neck, the comforting scent of his skin making you forget about your embarrassment.Â
He leaned away slightly and took the paper off of the fridge, smiling down at it. âAs cute as this is, you donât need it. Iâll show you everyday that Iâm the perfect man for you, okay?â
You mirrored his smile. âOkay.â Even when your lips found each other, you couldnât stop smiling, giggles escaping from your lips into his. You only laughed harder when he started pressing small kisses all over your face, making sure to not miss a single spot. He pressed a final one to your forehead before resting his against it, both of you closing your eyes and relishing in each otherâs presence.Â
âI love you.â
âI love you, too.â
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Most Wonderful Time Of The Year ~ LMH
WORD COUNT: 1.4K
PAIRING: Minho x GN!Reader
GENRE: angst with a softer ending, the boys not including you on something, feeling a little down about the season, comforting boyfriend,
â€Copyright: © DreamEscapesWriting - September 2023
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A/N: Did I have christmas songs on while writing it? Yes..Yes I did hehe
Christmas had always been your favourite time of year, Maybe it was the fact that everyone seemed to be happier or had an extra spring in their step but you adored everything about the Christmas season. The darker mornings, the darker nights? What wasn't to love about curling up in front of the fireplace with your loved ones and spending time cuddling up together?Â
Or waking up earlier than everyone else in the house was asleep and just listening to the quietness of the mornings, reading a book or just sitting there for a long time enjoying your time alone. Everywhere you went Christmas music was playing and usually everyone appeared to be in a cheery mood, speaking to you or just giving you a small wave hello. Everything about the season brought you nothing but joy.
Until now that was.
For weeks the boys had been talking non-stop about the Christmas party that they were going to be throwing, talking about what they were going to do and who was cooking for all of them. Something that they did every year by the sounds of it but you hadn't been invited to it and being the person that you were, you didn't ask about it.
You decided that if they really wanted you there then you would have been asked in the first place, no one wanted someone crashing their plans. Minho was rushing around at the last possible second, he'd been running late after waking up way too late and now he was panicking about not having everything with him.
"Your Secret Santa gift is on the kitchen table," You told Minho as you mindlessly watched the film that you'd decided to put on that morning while Minho got ready. The present had been left unwrapped for days and so you'd wrapped that while watching your first Christmas movie of the morning.
"Thanks, you didn't have to wrap it. I would have gotten around to it," He laughed nervously before coming to a halt in the doorway and frowning when he noticed you weren't dressed yet. The two of you needed to leave within the next two minutes if you were going to stand any chance of the boys not teasing you for it.
"Why aren't you dressed?" He quizzed, running into the kitchen and grabbing the wrapped box before coming back to the living room to find you staring at him dumbfounded by what you meant. You knew you were dressed, it was far too cold for you to be walking around the house naked - even with the heating on.
"Is this a dream where I think I'm dressed but I'm secretly naked?" You laughed looking down at your sweats and top that you were wearing,
"I am dressed." You mumbled wondering what he was talking about and he frowned shaking his head at you, he didn't have time to play any kind of games with you. If the two of you showed up late to a party again the boys wouldn't drop it, they always teased you because you were late to every group activity you did together.
"For the party. Why aren't you dressed for the party?" He moved so that he could stand in front of you, blocking your view of the television and making you sigh a little. This wasn't exactly how you'd planned on spending your day, you'd wanted to sit and watch cheesy made-for-TV Christmas movies and complain about how bad the acting was.Â
"Because I didn't get an invite." You mumbled reaching for the remote and pausing your film as he stared at you, his eyebrows knitting together as he thought about it. Minho slowly lowered himself to sit on the coffee table in front of you as he thought about it some more Of course you were invited. Why wouldn't they invite you along? You and Minho had been dating for almost five years, it was a given that you were going to be spending Christmas together.
"What? Of course, you did." He laughed softly trying to think back on whether or not the boys had asked you or if he was supposed to have asked you.
"Baby, I didn't get invited." You looked at him as he frowned, shaking his head in disbelief. There was no way they wouldn't invite you out of spite, there had to be some kind of reason they hadn't done it.
"That's stupid, I'm sure they just forgot to invite you." He shrugged, playing it off as nothing and standing up from the table and holding out his hands for you to take.
"Or they don't want me there." Insecurity drenched your every word but you couldn't help it. The more you thought about it the more you worried the boys really didn't want you there. Maybe they didn't like you as much as you thought that they did and just put up with you because they had to for Minho's sake.
"Why would you think that?" His eyes and voice softened as he watched you closely,
"I-I don't know," Your voice shook and before you could even process what was happening tears began to roll down your cheeks, your chest beginning to ache as your cries left your throat. Within seconds Minho was sitting beside you on the sofa, wrapping his arms around you and dragging you into the tightest hug that he could possibly manage.
"They love you, you know that right? Felix always loves spending time with you and so does Seumgmin." He reminded you, rubbing his hands up and down your arms as you cried against his chest. Maybe it seemed silly to him that you were crying over not being invited somewhere but this was something you'd spent your whole life dealing with.
Even with friends of your own, you were always left out of group activities and made to feel like the bad guy if you ever asked why they didn't invite you.Â
"They love spending time with you. I'm positive that there's going to be an explanation behind it all," Minho whispered to you softly, his hands slowly coming to a stop before he kissed the side of your head lovingly. The last thing he wanted was for you to be upset on one of your favourite days of the year.
"But-" You tried to speak but there was no way he was going to let you talk your way out of this one.
"Nope. You're coming with me, even if I have to drag you kicking and screaming," He smirked at you, tapping your arm a little but you still didn't move from his arms and he chuckled a little.
"You want to put up a little fight today, brat?" He teased softly, tickling your armpits before you wriggled away from him, his arm tightening around you so that you didn't fall on the floor and hurt yourself.
"Come on," He whispered when he heard your sniffling coming to a slow stop and helping you up onto your feet.
"Your outfit is laid out on the bed, yours will match my festive shirt," He smiled, proudly showing off the outfit he was wearing and smirking at you.
"Hurry! Hurry! Hurry! If we're late they'll tease us!" He yells as you take off in a sprint toward the staircase and toward your shared room.
It turned out that everything had been a miscommunication on the boy's part. They assumed that you would be spending Christmas with some family members this year and they'd spaced on just asking you about it. Chan had just placed down a card in Uno that you were all playing and you smirked a little. Everyone had finished eating and now you were spending time playing the new Uno game that Changbin had gotten for Felix,
"I'm still on Uno," Felix announced proudly before nervously looking at you and trying to take a sneaky look at your deck,
"Remember, I'm your favourite." He pleaded, begging for you not to do anything bad to him, but he'd won all of the games so far and it was about time someone taught him a lesson.
"I think you'll find I'm their favourite," Minho smirked, kissing your cheek softly before watching you smugly place down a plus 5 and laughing evilly as Felix proceeded to pick up more cards.
"Uno flip is stupid." He grumbled, looking down at his deck before the game continued, all of you laughing and joking about with one another.
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Do you have any relationship headcanons for Skully or Rollo? Love your writing btw đ
Aw thank you~
Skully: -Skully is like Floyd in the reigns of "Personal space is a myth", but while Floyd has to be shoved away or pushed away, all you have to do is remind Skully of personal space and he backs up immediately.
-Skully's a morning person, he's up bright and early. He'll make you breakfast and do any little chores before getting ready for the day.
-Be aware that as soon as October starts, nothing but Halloween themed music is going to be blasting through the house.
-The most unhinged gentleman imaginable. He'll treat you like the best thing in the world, but the moment someone even insults you or wolf-whistles, or flirts with you, you will have to hold him back....he's surprisingly strong.
-If you want Christmas decorations in the house, prepare for them to be Halloween colored. This is the only thing Skully will accept.
-He will praise you, 100%, even if its for mundane things like getting out of bed. He's just so proud of you.
Rollo: -Listen, this man judges everything around him BUT you. You can come to him to vent for anything, he'll offer you advice...but also will judge the person who isn't you.
-He is not a morning person. If you guys don't have anything to do that day, you will be staying in until 9. If you do sleep in, he'll make breakfast for you.
-He is not the most emotionally available, so prepare for that...but he'll try, only for you tho.
-He knows the best cafes and he'll take you there for a date.
-If you just want to to relax at home, he got you. He bought you whatever you wanted if you want to chill in the bathtub and he's at your beck and call.
-Want an evening in? He's all for it, he'll cook dinner and you'll both watch a movie or read books.
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The holiday pretense- Chapter 1
Summary: Namjoon has never been a fan of the holidays. In fact, he could list more things that sucked about âThe most wonderful time of the yearâ, than things that brought him joy. Yet, beneath his cynicism, a flicker of hope appeared this year, as the faint scent of homesickness hung in the air.
Unfortunately, thereâs one tiny little thing that keeps him from calling home- his lack of a girlfriend.
But fear not; this holiday season, Namjoonâs smart mouth gets him in a situation where he has no choice but to approach you- his longtime friend and roommate- with an unexpected request.
Pairing: Namjoon x f.reader Genre: fake-dating, friends to lovers/roommates to lovers au; crack, smut, fluff. Rating: explicit. Minors do not interact. Warnings: every single trope in the book; but with a twist. Dialogue heavy. OC is really bad at lying, anddd⊠I didnât write in literal years so yeah, this is gonna be fun. And I know I am literally that meme rn, the: summer is over-skips straight to Christmas. But do you have any idea just how slow I write? Yes. It is a warning. Smut warnings: to be added~ Word count: Chapter 1-9k Credits: this was literally one of those âif no one is going to write this, I willâ because there are not enough friends-to-lovers Namjoon fics out there. And none (that I know of) where the main character feels bad for lying to his family when pretending to date him. This work would not have been possible without the very kind and patient @callmenoona25, who not only helped me beta-read but also served as a guiding light during those moments when I wanted to rage-delete everything. Thank you for all your help! (and please keep helping me coz idk what Iâd do without your constant encouragement) Author's note: again, I didn't write in 8-ish years, so this is very very scary. Add in a dash of 'English is not my first language' and you get whatever this is. enjoy. Merry Christmas.
Ah winter, the most wonderful time of the year.
The season when the air is crisp, and the city gets blanketed in thick, white snowfall. When the satisfying sound of crunching snow accompanies every step and every word transforms into nothing more than a puff of steam dancing through the chilly air.
When Mariah Careyâs voice echoes in literally every store for an obnoxious 24/7, as if she has some kind of personal vendetta against silenceâŠ
When the heating bill increases by 37%, and it takes an extra 15 minutes for the heater to kick in and for the hot water to grace the showerhead. Ergo, Namjoon now has to wake up half an hour early if he wants to take a shower and not freeze half to death during the day, because the landlord was adamant that there was nothing to be done about the situation.
But it wasnât all bad.
Sure, Namjoon was never one to possess the so-called Christmas spirit. In fact, he was known to be a bit of a grinch among his friends.
Jin, in particular, enjoyed telling anyone who would listen about their first Christmas at college, when Namjoon adamantly refused to help him decorate the tree after begrudgingly lugging it to their shared apartment.
And most years Namjoonâs lack of enthusiasm for the season was palpable. While his friends reveled in the cheerful atmosphere, he somehow managed to remain detached and aloof, his grinch-like demeanor becoming a defining characteristic, much to the amusement of his companions.
However, there were still aspects of the holiday that Namjoon couldnât help but secretly enjoy. The food, for instance, was undeniably good. Although the movies were mediocre and the music overplayed, he still found himself humming along to Winter Wonderland whenever it played. And the energetic buzz that seized his friends was no doubt contagious;
This year, before he could even process it, he was dubbed designated fairy-light fixer, the judge of the ugly sweater contest (solely because he had the audacity to show up wearing a black hoodie) and somehow promised Jungkook to help him pick up gifts for his mom, his cousin, and girlfriend.
And now, with the holidays looming just around the corner, and the entire city buzzing with chatter about family feasts, romantic rendezvous, and the art of gift-giving, Namjoon couldn't help but feel a little pang of longing. It had been a solid two years since he last set foot in his hometown, and the melancholic urge to return home seemed like the only logical response to it all.
Or maybe he just needed a vacationâŠ
But there was just one thing that kept Namjoon, a logical being, from making that phone call home.
He knew that part of the reason behind his motherâs question was for organizational purposes, yet he couldnât help but notice the mischievous twinkle in her voice each time she sweetly asked:
âAnd are you coming alone?â
Few things managed to irk him as much that specific question in that specific context. And even with countless nights analyzing the emotions it stirred within him, Namjoon found himself very stupidly replying with:
âUhm, no actually-â despite being painfully single, and fully aware of it.
Following that, the hope of regaining any sensible thought was gone as a chorus of ecstatic comments erupted form his motherâs end of the phone. With a hurried, âCanât wait to see you, yeah, love you too,â he was left in the suffocating silence of his bedroom, with a new predicament he needed to solve.
Now, letâs not forget, Namjoon is no ordinary man. He possesses a brain that could rival Einsteinâs, and he knows all too well that he could simply call back and clarify that his plus one is as real as Santa Claus.
But Namjoon doesnât half-ass anything. He full-asses it.
That and showing up alone would undoubtedly result in his momâs attempts to play matchmaker. And if he were to show up alone, after lying about it, well, he might as well prepare for an arranged marriage.
Namjoon sighed as he looked at his phone. He couldnât understand why his mother had this new found obsession with his relationship status. Especially after she witnessed just how bad his last one ended. Now sure, he may have taken the whole âhealing-eraâ to a bit of an extreme, seeing as he had no relationship, no situationship and no inclination to entertain any romantic thoughts whatsoever. But this was getting ridiculous. Lying to his own mother?
Perhaps he could ask his assistant to pretend to be his girlfriend for the week? No, that wouldnât work. She mentioned she was hosting the Christmas dinner this year. And it would involve more explanations to HR than itâs worthâŠ
And he couldnât overlook the fact that her fiancĂ© would most certainly not be amused by that idea.
Just as he was about give up and plunge into another rabbit hole of despair, the solution to his problem came accompanied by the familiar sound of glass smashing in the kitchen.
You.
You would be perfect.
Most people already assumed you two were dating, seeing how seamlessly you fit yourself into his life after moving in.
And last he checked you couldnât make it home because of some pesky law-jargon issues that required your presence at the office. And changing your flight to a few days later cost you an arm and a leg, while changing it to January was completely free.
And last he checked; you were just as chronically single as he was. (He knew because your last date was so disastrous that he had to abandon his gaming night and rescue you from the restaurant). Â
Another crash in the kitchen summoned him back into action. Swiftly snatching his hoodie from the designated clothes chair and making his way to you, detouring only to retrieve the medical kit from the bathroom.
He was quick to spot you, still clad in your work attire, crouched besides the counter, diligently sweeping the stray glass shards of what used to be an ugly mug. His eyes involuntarily wondering towards your ass, once again marveling at how flawlessly you wore that office skirt before snapping himself out of it.
âAnd I believe that evens out the score, seeing as I only broke a plate, and you killed two mugs this seasonâ he declares, ensuring you werenât bleeding before abandoning the first aid kit on the counter to fetch the trusty vacuum cleaner.
It was standard procedure by now.
âYou also managed to break the microwave, so the title remains yours,â you grumble as you rose to your feet, a smile unconsciously tugging at your lips when you caught sight of his charming dimpled face. âHey there.â
âHello,â he replied, giving you a swift once-over in case he missed any hidden hemorrhages âwhat happened?â
âIt just jumped out of the cupboard when I opened it,â you gestured towards the dust pan, as if to prove the cup suddenly acquired acrobatic skills before its untimely demise, causing him to break into a grin âIâll get you a new one.â
âNo worries, it was a gift form an ex, and it was hideous anyway.â
As he vacuumed the area, you disposed of the glass, making sure it wouldnât slice through the trash bag like last time.
Once the kitchen was safe again, you returned to your previous task, grabbing a new cup and casually turning your back to him.
" Do you want to try an unreasonably expensive hot chocolate with me?" you playfully suggested, catching his eye as he noticed the purple tin on the counter, adorned with a big red bow, alongside a very generic Christmas card.
"Secret Santa?" he inquired back, picking up the card, already aware of the answer to your question.
Unconsciously, he began mentally listing reasons why you would make a good fake girlfriend. Topping the list was your uncanny ability to understand him without lengthy explanations. And it was all quite digestible, wasn't it? Two long-time friends and roommates, thrown together by chance, suddenly discovering hidden feelings for each other?
All his friends seemed to have unanimously agreed that the two of you would make a splendid pair, back when you met, when his roommate, Jin, started dating your roommate, Myeong.
 On their inaugural date, Myeong, in a fit of paranoia, asked you to tag along, in case her potential lover turned out to be a serial killer. And Jin, ever the considerate soul, felt compelled to invite Namjoon, not only to spare you the agony of being the third wheel, but also in the hope of pulling Namjoon out of his dating slump. Not that you would ever notice, as you were knee-deep in exam session, sleep deprived and buried in a mountain of law books.
Poor Namjoon somehow ended up carrying the weight of being third and fourth wheel simultaneously.
But you eventually made up for it, once your exams were over and had a proper 18 hours of sleep.
In no time you wiggled your way into his heart, transforming those awkward double dates into enjoyable hangouts. Youâd spend countless hours discussing everything from books to the latest plot twists in popular dramas, to sharing dreams, fears and hopes.
As Myeong and Jinâs relationship blossomed, they gradually faded into the background of your outings, until they were eventually excluded all together. And neither of you seemed to mind, as you found it easier to focus on your conversations without their constant chatter.
That and they couldnât be quiet in movie theatres like decent human beings.
It was during one of these outings that Namjoon realized just how alluring he found you. The way your eyes lit up when you laughed at one of his jokes made his heart race. Your sharp mind and wit were a match made in heaven for him. And your ability to render him speechless was both infuriating and exhilarating.
But Namjoon also knew that you were deeply committed to your studies, and he didn't want to do anything to distract you from your goals. So, he held back, admiring you from a distance and hoping that someday things might be different.
And as time passed, and he graduated, he came to terms with the fact that you two would never be more than casual friends.
Little did he know that the universe had its own wicked sense of humor. When fate decided to play its sly hand and leave you virtually homeless, because your respective roommates decided to take the next step in their relationship and move in together.
It was only logical, then, for the two of you to shack up as well. After all, you were friends, both neat freaks, and most of all, desperately in need of a roommate.
âThe roommate switchâ, as Jimin so eloquently put it.
And thus began the most wonderful living arrangement Namjoon ever experienced. Not that he would never tell Jin that.
Suddenly, his bathroom cabinet resembled a Bath and Body works store, and your pink pots and pans had taken over his kitchen. But he wouldnât mind, seeing that the cooking interdiction was extended, once Jin started recounting all the times Namjoon almost turned their previous apartment into a bonfire during your housewarming bash.
However, you never scolded him for his butterfingers because, truth be told, you had your own healthy dose of clumsiness, (the cup chilling in the trash an indisputable witness to it).
It was quite refreshing to find someone who shared his knack for dropping things.
And he made up for all the free meals by taking care of the dishes. He even went above and beyond by meticulously following the odd care instructions for your fancy pots.
And the rest of your household chores fell into perfect harmony.
 He willingly handled all the ironing, including your own, simply because you couldnât be bothered. In return, you would dutifully clean the lint tray in the dryer, even when it was his turn to do the laundry, because he found it absolutely disgusting, and you couldnât resist the opportunity to gross him out.
It suddenly dawned on him why all his friends were convinced that you two were together. He was smitten with you, after all.
But again, time has worked its magic! His infatuation had been long departed, so he could proceed with his plan and not let it affect your friendship in any way, shape or form!
âYou know, I never quite understood the purpose of Secret Santa,â you confessed, pulling him out of his thoughts. âI mean, sure, it makes sense in a small group where you can actually get to know the person and buy them something nice. But in a corporate setting, where youâre thrown together with people from different departments, it makes absolutely no sense!â you spoke with passion, even stirring the milk a little harder, causing an impish smile to dance across his face.
âBecause you end up with situations like this, where creepy Greg from the watercooler suddenly feels the need to win my graces and splurge on stupidly expensive hot chocolate.â
Namjoon was familiar with your HR endeavors involving Greg, especially after he hit on one of your colleagues.
âDo you want to know how much this monstrosity costs?â you asked, trying to contain your amusement at the sheer absurdity of it all. Pouring the cocoa into the milk and placing the mugs in front of him, you couldnât help but grin.
âSurprise me,â Namjoon took a sip, which he regretted because he choked once you answered,
âSixty dollars!â
âThatâs absolutely ridiculousâ he coughed, once he regained control of his lungs.
The hot chocolate was nice, but nowhere close to justifying the hefty price tag. For all he knew, it could have been dollar store cocoa. But your contagious laugh made it all worthwhile, and he couldnât help but think that maybe Greg deserved to lose his Christmas bonus on overpriced cocoa that you both would mock.
âTastes like cardboardâ you concluded after a mouthful, âmaybe it was meant for that hideous mug your ex gave you,â you teased, earning a puzzled look. âThis has horrible taste,â you tack on, noticing his raised eyebrow âjust like your exes.â
âIâm not sure if I should be offended by that,â he replied, feigning offense.
âWell, they did break up with you, so clearly their taste is questionable,â You ruffled his hair as you walked past him, your cocoa abandoned on the table.
This wasnât uncommon in your friendship. Afterall, you were his biggest supporter, as he was yours. But now, with the odd favor he was about to ask you; he couldnât help but ponder your words for longer than usual. Until he heard the door to your room close and he realized he was left alone in the kitchen.
âAny updates on that flight of yours?â he asked, shooting a glance towards your door. Perhaps the universe would take pity on him and spare him the embarrassment he was dreading.
âStill in January!â you hollered back, your voice muffled by the commotion in your room.
âAh, cool, coolâŠâ he muttered under his breath, more to psych himself up and gather the courage needed to go over and make a complete fool of himself. Â
âAre you still planning on heading home?â your voice was barely audible amidst the movement, so he walked over and propped himself against your door to keep the conversation going.
âYeah, thatâs the plan.â He replied absentmindedly massaging the back of his neck.
Not unless he can find a girlfriend for the week. âHey,â he continued, his voice devoid of any moisture, âcan I ask you a favor?â
The door swung open, almost causing him to stumble, to reveal you, wearing pajama bottoms and a black tank top, clutching one of his sweaters.
âDepends.â You answered flatly. âMind if I borrow this?â you gestured towards the sweater, awaiting his nod of approval before slipping it on and sauntering past him to claim your usual spot on the couch. With your feet cozily tucked under the cushion, you scrolled through your phone, probably looking up another horrible movie youâd force him to watch. Oblivious to the fact that you ticked off another item on his mental checklist: looking damn good in his clothes.
âOkayâ he took a deep breath and settled down beside you, his posture impeccable and his gaze fixed on the blank tv screen. You glanced over intrigued by his sudden shift in behavior.
âThis is going to be weird, and you can tell me to fuck off any moment this makes you uncomfortable. And I promise Iâll never bring it up again, and we can pretend this never happened,â he stumbled over his words, a stark contrast to his usually calmed and composed demeanor.
Your mind raced, conjuring up the worst-case scenarios as you slowly set aside your phone, captivated by every word leaving his mouth. Â Â
Was he about to kick you out?
That only seemed to aggravate whatever Namjoon was on, as he continued to mumble, insisting that you didnât have to agree to it if you didnât want to. Which didnât make any sense, because if he was going to kick you out, he should at least have the balls to tell you straight forward.
You gently collected his hands, causing him to halt abruptly. His wide eyes finally locked with yours as you softly uttered âJust tell me.â You peered up at him, bracing yourself for the worst, and completely unprepared for what was to follow.
âWill you please do me a solid and pretend to be my girlfriend for a week?â he stammered, unable to maintain eye contact, his voice fading into a whisper towards the end.
âWhat?â
âI might have told my mom Iâm in a relationship, and now I desperately need a stand-in girlfriend for the next few daysâ he confessed sheepishly, quickly adding, âBut seriously, if youâre uncomfortable with this, just say the word and we can erase this whole conversation from existence.â
âOh my goodness, Namjoon,â you breathed out in relief, a laugh escaping your lips as you rested your head on his lap, leaving him even more perplexed. âI thought you were kicking me out.â
âWhat?â he chuckled, watching you raise a few seconds later, rubbing your eyes before fixing your gaze on him, contemplating his request.
âHow can you be so brilliant and so dumb at the same time? Just call your mom backâŠâ
âNo, you donât get it. I canât do that. If I do, sheâll set me up with the neighborâs daughter againâ Namjoon explained, clearly not in the right mindset to entertain that idea again.
âYou want me to lie to your mother?â you asked incredulously.
âPlease donât phrase it like that.â he covered his face, deflating completely besides you.
âThis is essentially what you are asking me to do... I donât know how that makes me feel. Your mom, by the way, is an absolute sweetheartâŠâ you trailed off, observing him intently as he brushed away the hair in his eyes.
You didnât get to know her too well, but the last time she visited she made sure to stock up your whole fridge with homecooked meals. And to top it off, she even baked cookies especially for you once Namjoon mentioned he had a new roommate.
The discussion, however, took a bit of an unexpected turn when she realized the roommate was you. A girl and not another frat guy. But she quickly developed a fondness for you. Or at least, thatâs what you believed when she gave you the tightest hug goodbye.
âI know. Itâs a stupid idea.â He muttered, rubbing his face a bit harder than necessary. Then he locked eyes with you and continued. âI am well aware of how dumb this is. And that is exactly why I need you there with me.â His statement left you dumbfounded, completely unable to find any words. âI just want to go home and relish in the fact that I am there without constantly worrying about being single.â he took a shaky breath before continuing,
 âI canât comprehend why my mom is so fixated on this matter.â He paused for a moment, gathering his thoughts. âI just need someone to navigate this absurdity with me for the holidays, and then we never mention it again.âÂ
His little speech left you stunned, and before you knew it, you were actually considering his proposal.
 Your Christmas plan was already ruined, and agreeing would mean that you would not be confined to your couch, enduring cheesy Hallmark movies and crying alone on Christmas eve.
Moreover, you were convinced that you had moved on from the little crush you had on him back when you met. Refusing still to admit that youâve always had a soft spot for the gentle giant that slowly became a staple in your life, and that spending the holidays with him would be the best scenario that could ever happen.
But could you make it through this without getting your heart trampled and your friendship going up in smoke? As these thoughts started to swirl in your mind, your eyes began to wander aimlessly. From his eyes to his chiseled cheekbones and strong jawline, down to his neck and collarbone, and finally to his impressively muscular chest that seemed to only have grown since he started attending the gym religiously with Jungkook. And not to mention those arms that give the most incredible bear hugs. It was strange to allow yourself to notice his physicality in such detail, as if you had been willfully blind to his newfound buffness until now.
âForget it, Iâm sorry I asked,â he said, sensing your hesitation and preparing to end his suffering. But you stopped him in his tracks.
âIf we are going to do this, we need a plan.â His eyes light up, color returning to his cheeks, before he squeezed you in a tight embrace âand just so you know, you owe me,â you laughed once he released you.
âYes, yes, of course, whatever you want.â
âYou take out the trash for a month,â he was too quick to nod âand I want you to take me to that bakery you and Jin always rave about.â
âAjumeoniâs bakery?â he smiled at your request. That was the bakery Namjoon visited with his sister every Friday as a child, and every other day with Jin, on their way to school, because the milk bread was to die for. âOf course. Itâs already part of the commute, so consider it done.â
âGood. We have a deal then,â you extended your hand as if sealing a business agreement, instead of setting yourselves up for a disaster. He reciprocated with a firm shake, and you swiftly retrieved your notepad from the coffee table. âSo, whatâs the plan?â
âWell, letâs establish a few key details about us. We need to become well-acquainted with each otherâs personal preferences, so it doesnât come across like we are just⊠pretendingâ he looked over at you as you scribbled.
âI mean, itâs a digestible story already. Two oblivious roommates, suddenly realizing they have feelings for one another after living together for years.â You mused, only to be met with his response.
âAnd once this is all over, we can simply tell everyone that we figured out we were better off as friends than lovers,â he pondered aloud.
âRight,â you replied, looking up from your notebook âHow long have we been dating?â
âAnywhere from three to six monthsâ he promptly answered and you jot it down before firing off your next question.
âAnd why havenât we told any of our friends and family?â
âTo avoid the inevitable âI knew it!â and because we like the trill of keeping a secret.â
âFair enough,â you chuckled âSo, how did we get together?â
âYou finally realized how charming I am and just couldnât contain yourself?â he flashed a cheeky smile and you playfully deflect by giving his chest a gentle push.
âHow about your birthday party?â you offered âWe were both buzzed enough to share a kiss and then you confessed?â
âWhy do I confess?â he whined, peering over at your notebook page where you already wrote down your version of events.
âBecause Iâm shy about that kind of stuffâ you mumble, burying your face in the cozy confines of his sweater, avoiding any potential eye contact.
 âThatâs adorable,â
âShut up.â You chuckle âAlright, is there anything I should know about you?â
âIâm not a big fan of PDA, especially when weâre out and about, so donât expect me to be all over you.â He rubbed his chin thoughtfully. âBut since weâre going home and pretending to be a couple, what level of affection are you comfortable with?â
âWell, Iâm comfortable with you,â you cleared your throat, that bit of information being more truthful than intended âwe can hold hands, and do normal couple stuff.â
âHow do you feel about kissing?â
âWell, yeah, sure,â you responded nonchalantly, eyes fixating on the notepad in your hands.
A mischievous grin played on his lips as he teased, âGood, because I happen to be quite fond of leaving hickeys.â That broke you out of your little spiral, rolling your eyes at his poor attempt.
As if you werenât already aware of this tidbit from his past conquests during your college days, before you two became roommates.
âYou do know this is all pretend, right?â you retorted, refusing to take the bait.
âOh, but baby, weâve got to make it feel real,â he insisted, his tone dripping with charm. However, it did nothing to sway your logical approach to it.
âRight, âbabyââ -you said it as if it was a legal term, âany preferences for pet names?â
Your serious charade did little to detour him. âJust promise me that our interactions wonât be like Jin and Myeongâs.â He smiles, eyes twinkling with mischief. âAnd surprise me, Iâll be putty in your hands.â
âSo, you are not set on honorifics. I can call you Oppa if you want,â little did you know, your innocent suggestion struck a hidden chord within him. A new kink that needed further assessment later on, preferably after this week was over.
âThat wonât be necessary,â he said, clearing his throat and reclining against the couch. âAnything I should know about you?â
You pondered his question for a few seconds, allowing a sly smile to play your lips. âI donât like feet.â
âNo duh!â he laughed, shaking his head in disbelief, before regaining his composure. With a meticulous air, he went over all the details once more. âAh, you need a new background on your phone.â
 Swiftly, he snatched your phone form the coffee table, catching you off guard, and planted a quick kiss on your cheek before snapping a selfie. âPerfect,â he declared, a proud smile spreading across his face as he set the picture as your home screen and background, leaving you to gather your frenzied thoughts.
âBut wait, you also need a new photo,â You retorted, only to find him already one step ahead, pulling out his phone from his pajama bottoms and scrolling through his camera roll.
âDone.â He announced, turning his phone towards you to reveal the horrendous picture he had chosen as his own home screen.Â
 A candid shot he took during your last year at college, on one of those late-night noodles runs to the local shop next to the library. You were draped in an oversized hoodie, greedily slurping a mouthful of noodles. With eyes blissfully shut, you savored every bite, as it was your first meal of that day, completely oblivious to his hidden photography skills.
It wasnât until you accidentally stumbled upon your caller ID that you saw it and naturally, grabbed the nearest pillow and hurled it at him, demanding an immediate change. But he stood his ground, claiming it was his favorite photo of you.
Claim proven yet again as now it was Namjoonâs home screen.
âI hate that photo.â
âI know.â He gave a smile, before safely tucking his phone back in his pocket, and rose to his feet, stretching leisurely. âI think we are good to go, girlfriend,â he said it in such a way that sent a swarm of butterflies fluttering in your stomach. âIâll go book our train tickets, and you better start packing soon,â he playfully pointed at you, before gracefully disappearing into his room to retrieve his laptop.
âOh, wait, I need to get a present for your mom!â
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Before the train even arrived in the station, the sky was threatening to unleash upon you. The air filled with delicate snowflakes, determined to bury you, Namjoon, and your luggage. But it was yesterdayâs conversation that still lingered in the atmosphere, weighing heavy on both your minds.
The darkness of the night had given you both time to process what was about to unfold. Your only anchor on reality being Namjoonâs surprisingly warm hand clasping your freezing one, and tucking it away in his warm coat pocket.
And the fact that he looked like he just strolled out of the latest winter Vogue edition for men didnât help. While you attempted to make a lasting impression, donning a cream knitted dress, black stockings and boots, topped off with a cream coat, that was far too flimsy for the weather, Namjoon effortlessly sported a navy-blue hoodie, snug jeans and a stylish black trench coat, and even a matching beanie that made his hair look absolutely flawless.
But beyond his impeccable fashion sense, he also proved to be quite the gentleman. Not that you ever doubted it, but now he seemed determined to showcase his chivalry. He wouldnât even let you lock the door to your own apartment. It was a miracle he allowed you to carry the bottle of Chardonnay you insisted on getting his family, despite his protests that it wasn't necessary. You slightly regretted it now, seeing as your other hand was enduring the elements, instead of being intertwined with his.
âYou have snow in your hair,â you pointed out, stating the obvious with the brilliance of a water-is-wet revelation.
âAs do you.â he looked up from his phone, where he was engrossed in checking the trainâs schedule for any potential delays. âAnd your lips are blue.â with a swift motion, he untangled his scarf and gently draped it around your freezing form. Something he had done many a time before, anytime he saw you slightly cold, but never before had you considered this gesture to be more than your friend looking out for you.
But today, things were different. Today you were pretending to be his girlfriend.
The sudden surge of warmth that enveloped you left you wondering if it was due to all your blood rushing to your cheeks or his scarf possessing some sort of magical heating abilities.
âIt says here that the snow storm shouldnât intervene with the scheduling, so the train will be here in a few minutes.â He looked up again, a cheerful grin appearing across his features as he caught sight of your pink face. âAw youâre blushing again,â
âShut up.â you retorted with the quick-wittedness of a third-grader.
âIf I would have known it was this easy to make you flush, I would have made my fictional moves much sooner.â His voice did that thing again, where it went slightly deeper and, only the look in his eyes ticking you off to his teasing.
Your only response was to nervously nibble on your lip. Again, the realization that you are about to deceive not only his mother, but his entire family nestle in your chest, squeezing at your heart like a snake wrapped around it.
âNamjoon, Iâm not sure about this.â you confessed, pulling the scarf closer to your face. It was a bit late to be getting cold feet, but this was your last opportunity to speak your mind before embarking on this little ordeal. âI donât think I can pull this off.â
âCome on now, arenât you an intern at a law firm?â he raised a playful eyebrow, attempting to ease the tension, but you only glared at him.
âI canât lie.â You stated firmly âIâm the absolute worse at it. That is why I always find alternative ways of convey the truth. Thatâs what lawyers do. We donât resort to lies.â
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that," he quickly apologized, before falling silent for a few seconds to ponder a solution. "Okay, listen. You donât have to say anything."
"What do you mean?" you looked up at him, a hint of skepticism in your voice.
"I can take care of all the relationship talk, and I wonât say anything unless prompted.â he replied, trying to inject a touch of wit into his response. âAfterall, you are just my friend that just happens to be a girl.â He playfully wiggled his eyebrows at you âAnd I want you to spend Christmas with me and my family instead of being alone at home.â Namjoon gave you a sincere smile, and you couldnât help but smile back, feeling the grip on your heart slightly loosen.
âOkay,â you gave a small nod âThank you Joon.â
The nickname slipped by unnoticed, but you noticed the way Namjoon reacted, rekindling your burning cheeks.
âSo, no Oppa?â
When your train arrived, Namjoon swiftly took charge, effortlessly carrying all the bags to your seats, settling in comfortably for the four-hour journey ahead.
He had come prepared, armed with at least three books to keep himself entertained, while you had grand plans of getting a head start on your work, perhaps even sneaking in a personal lecture and a quick power nap. However, much to your surprise, the allure of a nap quickly surpassed all other ambitions, your head found a cozy resting place on Namjoonâs shoulder, and you drifted off into a blissful slumber for the remainder of the journey. A sleepless night imagining what it would be like pretending to date your roommate could do that to you.
Only stirring awake when you were less than a few minutes away, because Namjoon was constantly shifting in his seat, half of his body numb from your weight on him.
âOh hey,â he whispered, swiftly stretching his legs as soon as you moved off him. âI just spoke to Minhi, she said sheâd come pick us up from the train station,â
âOh, thatâs nice.â you yawned, rubbing away any remnants of sleep from your eyes âYou could have told me to move, you know.â
âYes, but you looked so peaceful. It felt almost wrong to disturb you.â He grinned, fully aware that he also indulged in a little nap, using your head as a pillow just half an hour ago.
âShut up,â you whispered, poking his thigh and retrieving your makeup bag to quickly fix your face before the train pulled up in the station.
The frigid air pierced through your very bones, sending an instant shiver cascading down your spine as you stepped into the snow filled air. You pull your coat tighter around yourself, trying to ward off the cold as you looked around for Minhi, seeing as Namjoon was on luggage duty again.
However, before you could spot her, Minhiâs voice sliced through the chilly air,
âKim Namjoon, you have got to be kidding me.â
Namjoonâs little sister, all bundled up in a thick winter coat had fixed you two with a piercing stare, her hands on her hips in a classic display of sibling disapproval.Â
Namjoonâs wonky smile did nothing to deter her piercing gaze, or calm any of your fraying nerves. âItâs good to see you too?â
You feel your heart drop as Minhi's gaze shifts from her brother to you, her expression a mix of confusion and suspicion. Your worst fears are confirmed - she's figured you out and you havenât even been off the train for 5 minutes. Now Namjoon will be married off to some rich middle-aged woman and you'll never be able to look him in the eye again.
 You can feel the heat rising to your cheeks, and you look away, silently praying that the snow beneath your boots doesnât melt into a puddle while she stares.
But then, unexpectedly, Minhi starts to laugh. At first, it's a quiet chuckle, but soon it grows into a full-blown laugh. She laughs so hard that she has to hold her stomach, and at the end she wiped an imaginary tear from the corner of her eye.
âYou two are perfect for each other,â she says still chuckling âFine, Iâll play along. How did you two end up together?â
âGot drunk one night.â Namjoon casually replied, rubbing the back of his neck before wrapping his arm around you, âTurns out all I had to do was say something, because she was all over me the next second.âÂ
Minhi raised her eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. âRight,â She hugged Namjoon tightly, and then turned to you, surprising you with a warm embrace. She muttered something about Namjoon never confessing his feelings in your coat, but you were too busy drowning in a whirlwind of confusion and relief to register it.
âWe'll talk more later about how inappropriate this is." She added cheerfully, beckoning you to follow her towards her little yellow jeep, bright against the snowy backdrop.
You look back at Namjoon just in time to catch him winking in your direction and giving you a thumbs-up that sent your heart whirling in your chest.
 The car ride was over faster than you would have wanted. Minhi navigated the snow-laden road while she and Namjoon chatted away about mundane topicsâwork, rent, the best coffee in town. You sank deeper into the backseat, overwhelmed and lost in your thoughts. Because What the hell was that and If this was how you were kicking things off you might as well turn around now. Was it just fear of ruining the friendship or was an old crush budding again? The way he âclaimedâ you in front of Minhi clearly ignited something in your chest that was not appropriate for friends or roommates or roommate-friends pretending to be dating.
As if sensing your turmoil from the front, Namjoon caught your eyes, giving you a gentle, reassuring smile before the car came to a halt. He gallantly opened the door for you, his hand grasping yours and squeezing it tightly. Â
 âI got you, baby,â he says, teasingly, but the poorly-timed joke earns him an immediate glare and an elbow to the ribs. Â
âOh, come on. They are lovely people.â Minhi interrupts before Namjoon can retaliate, âYou shouldâve seen the way mom was dancing around the kitchen once she heard Namjoon was bringing someone over.â
You just blink at her, your breath misting in the air as you unconsciously step closer to Namjoon, giving him a small nod of support. His presence radiates warmth, his fingers tightening around yours as you walked towards the small house that looms in front of you. Minhi ambles ahead, dropping her bag near the entrance, while you could practically feel Namjoon vibrating with excitement.
âSomeoneâs in troubleâ She whispers dramatically, letting you both into the warmth of the household, where laughter and the mouthwatering scent of home-cooked food intertwine. You follow her into the kitchen and you see the older couple husting about, half-focused on a pot bubbling over the stove and half on each other.
âMom! Dad! Look who Iâve brought!â she announces, and the couple turned, smiles blooming as they spotted you and Namjoon.
For a fleeting moment, you felt exposed. Like an exhibit at a museum, thrust into the spotlight. Your breath hitched as Namjoon gently nudged you forward, a gesture both comforting and terrifying, but steeling yourself, you bravely stepped ahead, bowing as a sign of respect.
âI knew it!â The affectionate glow sweeping across Mrs. Kim face relaxed your nerves considerably, âIâm so glad you could make it!â her eyes sparkled with genuine delight, and you suddenly realized that Namjoon inherited his dimples from her. But the thought was quickly squeezed out of you as she enveloped you in that bone-crushing hug.
Namjoonâs father, a tall elderly man with kind eyes, patted him on the back. His approval apparent, before he turned his attention to you, âWelcome to our home,â he said warmly.
âIâm honored to be here.â You managed to respond, your voice quacking slightly but laced with sincerity. You heard Minhi groaning in the background but did your best to ignore her exaggerations and focus only on Namjoonâs parents, as you exchanged the required pleasantries.
âDinner is almost ready,â Mrs. Kim said, bustling around the kitchen with effortless grace. The contrast between her elegant movements and Namjoonâs clumsy demeanour in the kitchen made you smile inwardly âI hope youâre hungry.â
âYes, we didnât get a chance to eat today,â Namjoon added quickly, casually leaning against the counter and stealing a taste from the simmering pot.
âIâll call you over once itâs done. Go show our guest to your room until then,â Mrs. Kim commanded, expertly shooing him away from the stove and passing plates to Minhi.
âMy room?â Namjoon echoed, his eyes widening as if the concept had floored him.
âYes, dear. I know we are old-fashioned, but we are not under any illusions that you two donât already share a room.â Mrs. Kim replied, stirring the bubbling pot without sparing him a glance.
Minhi shot you a look that was equal parts amusement and something you couldnât quite placeâsympathy, perhaps? Or pity?
âYes- No. I just thought that it would be more appropriate to let her have the guest room,â Namjoon articulated, his voice half-hearted in its conviction.
Mrs. Kim merely cooed, waved away his protests with a flick of the wrist. âMinhi and Jackson are staying in the guest room. You can have your room.â
âCome on, Namjoon. You always make everything so complicated,â Minhi chimed in, her voice laced with mischief. âJust accept it. You guys will have an entire night to sort things out, right?â
âRight.â he grumbled, shooting her a glare that softened as he turned his gaze back to you âLetâs get you settled in,â he gestured for you to follow him.
The moment you step into Namjoon's room, a charged silence enveloped you- like the kind that proceeds a brewing storm. The room was exactly as you imagined, a blend of cooler minimalist décor and hints of his personal touch, a few pieces of art and pictures hung up on the wall, all whispering tales of youth, friendship and moments you yearned to know more about.
But all those sweet memories fade into the background as the reality settled in: there was only one bed.
âSo, let me get this straight,â you began, the awkwardness hanging heavily in the air âYou thought about everything, including phone wallpapers, but forgot you only have one bed in your room?â
âNo, of course not.â He lied, that endearing grin spreading across his face. âI just thought it would be polite to let you have the bed⊠since youâre my guest.â He seemed genuinely proud of the excuse, but that pride melted when you teased,
âBefore or after you plan for the guest room fell through?â
âAfter.â He admitted at last, glancing away, as if the walls held all the explanations he could not muster.
âDonât tell me you planned on sleeping on the floor too,â for a brief moment the ridiculous image of him curled up on the hardwood floor, blankets draped haphazardly around him pops into your mind, and you couldnât help but giggle.
âNo.â He smiles, âI knew youâd take pity on my lower back,â his dimples deepened and you playfully rolled your eyes at him.
âVery strategic Mr. Kim,â you laugh, walking further into the room and taking a seat on the edge of the bed. The playful banter creating a familiar atmosphere, dissolving any lingering tension. A part of you almost couldn't believe you were in Namjoonâs personal space, taking your sweet time admiring the various little parts of him decorating the room, while another part was acutely aware of his gaze on you, observing you as if he were trying to read your thoughts.
He stepped closer, his expression sincere, drawing you in gently as he took your hands in his. âAre you sure?â The tentative nature of his voice hinted at a deeper questionâhe was about to add an âI was only jokingââbut you quickly shushed him.
âYes, of course.â
There were a few past occurrences where the two of you ended up falling asleep together on the couch, limbs tangled under the fuzzy throw blanket, with a movie playing in the background. Without fail, one of you would wake up in the morning to find the other wrapped around them, as the night was chilly and body heat was a rare luxury. Most of the time it was Namjoon that dozed off first, his head lolling in an awkward position until you gently nudged him into a more comfortable posture, knowing heâd whine about neck and/or shoulder pain come morning time if you didnât. But his lug of a body was always warm, so you didnât mind snuggling closer to him when it mattered.
This was more of the same. Just in a bed.
You swallow drily, eyes flickering away for a quick second, âI told you, Iâm comfortable with you.â
âCome on, lovebirds!â Minhiâs voice rang through the door, breaking the spell. âDinnerâs ready!â
You shared a hurried glance, perspectives shifting as the familiar nervousness rushed back to you.
âReady?â he asked, his smile spreading across his face, deepening the dimples in his cheeks as he tugged you up to your feet. You nodded, suddenly buoyed by a sense of belonging.
To your surprise, dinner goes by without a hitch. You may have gone a little overboard on the kimchi, but it wasnât anything you wouldnât recover from. However, the warmth of Namjoonâs hand resting softly on your thigh might etch itself into your memory for all time.
Halfway through the meal, Jackson showed up, and you got to observe with amusement as Minhi transformed in his presence, her demeanor shifting from the laid-back hostess to a giddy schoolgirl. The way she playfully nudged Jackson, her eyes sparkling each time she teased him, be it about his late arrival or some inside joke, was a refreshing sight. And you couldnât help but snicker each time Mrs. Kim would chastise them, before dotting lovingly on anything you and Namjoon did together.
As the lively conversation flowed around you, you leaned into Namjoonâs warmth. It felt easy, and so right to nestle beside him, to let your fingers brush against his with familiarity, each touch igniting tiny sparks. You stole a glance at him, watching as he engaged wholeheartedly in the conversation, his contagious laughter filling the room.
After dinner, you offered to help Mrs. Kim clear up the table, even if it was to get a second to clear your thoughts, but to your surprise, Mr. Kim placed a soft hand on your shoulder, smiling, as he gently guided you back to your seat.
âYouâve done enough, dear,â he said, his tone warm and reassuring âWe appreciate your help, but tonight is for you and Namjoon to enjoy.â He gave you a kind nod, and you felt your cheeks warm.
âYeah, there will be dishes tomorrow too,â Minhi interrupted, getting a heartfelt laughter from her father before he left the room, to join his wife in the kitchen.
You shared a sheepish glance with Namjoon, who watched the exchange with an amused smile. His eyes twinkling in the soft light of the dining room, and you felt your heart pick-up the pace in your chest again. You really needed to get away, perhaps splash some cold water on your face. But just as you felt the urge to excuse yourself, you overheard Jackson's whispered confusion.
âWait, so theyâre not actually dating?â His voice was muted, and laced with confusion as he looked between you and Namjoon, his eyes wide with bewilderment.
âKyung Min!â Namjoon called Minhi by her full name, which made her owlishly blink up at him.
âWhat? He asked how long you two have been dating for,â she defended.
âAnd you couldnât just say three months, like a normal person?â Namjoon shot back, half laughing, half exasperated and watched as her brows knitted.
âNo! He deserves to know.â She persisted, glaring at her brother, and you felt the heat crawl up your neck, trying desperately to remain inconspicuous under Jacksonâs incredulous stare.
âSo how exactly does this work?â Jackson asked, stopping the siblings from their bickering âIs it like friends with benefits or-?â just when you thought it couldnât get any more awkward, the sip of water you took ended up going down the wrong way, making you choke and sputter.
âNo! itâs nothing like that.â You stammered, trying to form a coherent thought, but all you could manage was a mangled mess of words.
âNo babe, they donât even kiss,â Minhi added, placing her hand over his as if she were breaking some bad news.
But Namjoon reacted with the prove-your-sibling-wrong part of the brain, making you stare at him in disbelief.
âNot that itâs any of your business, but we do.â Â
And your pulse picked up again when you saw him leaning in, the implication clear in your mind. You steeled yourself, closing your eyes. But to your astonishment, he didnât press his lips against yours as you had envisioned. Instead, they grazed the curve of your cheek, followed by a loud, exaggerated kiss.
âIâm confused.â Jackson mumbled, looking over at Minhi as she rolled her eyes.
âYouâre not the only one.â
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Why didnât he just kiss you?
The thought still lingered stubbornly at the edge of consciousness, even as the icy water from the shower jolted you into the present. You fumbled with the knobs, trying to figure out the right temperature, but your mind was elsewhere.
That scene kept on replaying on a constant loop in your head, each time leaving you just as stumped.
What stopped him?
You talked about this- he brought it up! And you agreed, so what was the hold-up? Was he really so uninterested that the mere thought of kissing you sent him into retreat mode?
Frustration bubbled up alongside the steam, and you invertedly cringed at the image of his nervous smile that still haunted you, his eyes darting away. Scrubbing harder at your skin, you wish the shame and embarrassment would simply wash away with the suds.
And the absurdity of getting worked over your friend not kissing you was not lost on you, but at least if he had gone for it, you might have been able to push that nagging question aside ~What would it be like to kiss Namjoon? Â
His lips looked so soft, like they were meant for more than just talkingâŠ
You violently shook that thought away, and with a resigned sigh, you turned the water back to cold in an attempt to wash away your sins. Friends donât kiss!
And he clearly wasnât interested, so the sooner you silence these thoughts, the sooner you could go back to being normal. Just four more days of pretending to be his girlfriend. You could manage that. And after, you promised yourself youâd lock yourself in your room and avoid human interaction for rest of your miserable life.
As the water continued its relentless pour, you felt your fingertips start to wrinkle, a reminder that perhaps it was time to step out of this session of self-pity. With one last shudder, you turned the water off, determined to face the world- if only for a little while longer.
When you stepped out of the bathroom, the soft glow of a lamp illuminated the room. Namjoon was already tucked into bed, gold-rimmed glasses perched on his nose as he quietly looked over the pages of a book. Only, in reality he hadnât been able to absorb a single word in the past fifteen minutes, his gaze lost in a world of his own.
Silently, you made your way to your side, wrapping yourself in the blanket and turning your back to him. A slight shiver coursed through you as you felt the warmth envelop you, the little tremor alerting Namjoon to your presence.
âWhy are you so cold?â he asked softly, shifting slightly closer to you.
Your heart thudded at the caring tone, and for a moment, all the questions crowd your mind again.
Instead of answering, you huffed in frustration and turned to face him.
âWhy didnât you kiss me?â the words blurted out before you could stop them, surprising you both with their boldness, but your face flushed when you met his gaze.
Namjoonâs eyes widened, and he froze, the book forgotten on his lap. âI-I donât know.â He stuttered, his hand running though his tousled hair, the soft strands falling back in place but not hiding the flush creeping up his neck. You watched the muscles in his jaw tense, eyes averted again in a way that tightened your stomach.
âIt wouldâve convinced Minhi sooner,â your added, your words hanging heavy in the air. Namjoon chuckled awkwardly, running that same hand down his face.
âYou want me to kiss you?â
You hesitated, the corners of your mind fanatically searching for a safe answer
âIâm just saying it wouldâve made things easier,â you deflected, avoiding his question much like he had done moments before.
He studied you for a moment, gears visibly turning in his mind before his lips curved into a small, daring smile. âBecause I can kiss you if you want.â
Your breath caught in your throat, surprised by the sudden shift in tension.
âNow?â you breathed.
âWhy not?â he shrugged âWeâre both clearly anxious about it, so why not just get it over with?â
Your mouth opened and closed like a fish out of water, lost for words, staring up at him. All the courage from before evaporating into thin air. You quickly searched his features, seeking the playful glint, the laughter behind his eyes, but instead, his eyes just flickered from yours to your lips.
âDo you want to kiss me?â you finally found the words, and his eyes snapped back to your own.
âI think it would make things easier going forward,â he replied, his voice low and earnest.
A heavy silence settled between you, stretching like an elastic ready to snap at any moment, as snowflakes continued to drift outside, dressing the world in white.
You took a deep breath, âFine.â Ultimately you mumbled, sitting up against the headboard and turning to face him.
âAre you sure?â, The way he phrased it made your stomach flop, as if he were validating a choice that seemed both reckless and somehow still challenged you.
âYes, now stop talking and just-â The words were lost as the space between you disappeared. But now you knew; his lips were soft, warm and tentative against yours. It felt wonderful, and sent tingles shooting through your veins while your heart tried erratically to catch up. He hesitated for a heartbeat- less than a fraction of a second- before he leaned further in, deepening the kiss, his hand coming up to cradle your cheek. And you soften against him, all the tension melting away. Your hands found their way to his shoulders, gripping lightly as if anchoring yourself amidst the storm of emotions that released once you tasted his mint toothpaste.
When he finally pulled back, both of you gasping for breath, the world resumed its muted noised- the quiet hum of the heater, the faint sound of voices downstairs, Namjoonâs breath against your lips. You could hardly meet his eyes, until you heard the first thing that left his lips.
âI just kissed you.â
Your eyebrow arched, blinking at him as if waiting for the punchline that never came.
âI know. I- was there too.â You replied, a little smile creeping on your face despite the rapid thump of your heart. Namjoon laughed softly; his cheeks still tinged with a shade of pink. âYouâre a good kisser.â You added after a few beats of silence, before chewing on your lip, and unintentionally drawing his attention back to them.
âYou too,â He gave a curt nod, remembering he has a book on his lap and fumbling to bookmark and put it away.
Another moment of silence followed once he settled back, and your eyes desperately scanned the walls for something, anything to say.
âThis isnât weird, is it?â you settled on the worst option, slightly cringing.
âNo!â he answered louder than he anticipated, slightly shocking you which in return startled him. âI mean-â he let out an exasperated breath, âFriends kiss all the time.â
He didnât believe it. And neither did you. But you still nodded in agreement.
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