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ââŠi want you, bless my soulâŠâ
Four months.
You met him on your first day in your first class, your professor the agitated type, the kind that gave you piles of homework with every lesson. He sat beside you, slipping into his chair right before the syllabus slid onto the table in front of you.
Dark hair cut short in the back lived a little more free in the front, on the top, growing into a messier, curlier mop as the weeks drew by, on and on. Tall, broad, and most definitely strong as hell, he was gorgeous. There simply wasnât any other word for it, he walked into class every week with his golden skin aglow no matter where the sun lived in the sky. Youâd be lying if you said your stomach didnât twist in knots watching his wide eyes scan the room, standing there near the doorway in a white t-shirt and dark blue denim jeans clasped to his waist with a leather belt.
What in the fucking Calvin Klein ad just walked in here?
Donât sit next to me, donât sit next to me, please donât-
He wore Dior Sauvage, just enough of it to charm your eyes in his direction, the two of your glances meeting for only a few seconds, yet long enough to know that this was going to be a long semester.
After that first week, that first class, he showed up on time, sometimes even earlier than you, and sure enough heâd be in that seat and heâd offer you the tiniest smile while he pushed in his chair to let you pass behind him.
Did he own any clothes that fit?
It felt like every week heâd have on a new shirt that clung to him like seran wrap, every little chiseled sculpted by Michaelangelo notch in his body, his chest, completely and utterly visible. As if he didnât know it, more than enough time in class heâd spend with his hands behind his head, his biceps tightening in his sleeves, bulging beneath the fabric that you waited to see rip.
Too often youâd have to tear your eyes away, too lost in wonder as to what kind of marvel sat beside you. Six foot something, perfectly built, not only did his appearance alone catch you off guard, but his ability to be so gentle. A smiley, sappy giant full of tooth rotting sweetness. Each raise of his hand, how he toyed with his pen between his firm fingers, the way heâd listen to other people speak â his eyebrows pulling up in the center, his eyes widening with wonder. Heâd keep to his space, never once invading yours. Respectful, he knew to say hello, goodbye, would ask you quiet questions, like what page number you were on, and heâd give you thanks into oblivion.
It wasnât until a month or so had passed that you realized it. One morning you stood in front of the mirror for too long, put a little too much effort into your makeup, into your hair. Spritzing a bottle of perfume to your wrist that you saved for special occasions, when the glass tapped back onto the shelf and you dabbed your wrists together, you gasped.
Damn.
Swapping the lacey sweater for something more casual, you know, for class, you pulled half of your hair up and back, letting some of it hang forward, praying to anyone whoâd help that it didnât look like you woke up before your alarm to get ready for a class you half cared about.
He noticed.
He sat down, walking in a few minutes after you, and his eyes lingered in your direction. Not that you could tell, nor were you paying attention, you were sitting backward in your chair with your nose in your phone. It wasnât his fault he wasnât good at being nonchalant like youâd been for nearly two months now.
Besides, it didnât work. He didnât say a word the entire class, only his hello and his goodbye.
It didnât upset you. Thatâs what you told yourself, the lies you fed your brain to pretend to feel better. It didnât upset you, he was a boy in a class you didnât see anywhere else on campus. He probably had a girlfriend. Look at him, listen to him, he definitely has a girlfriend.
By the next class you were back to the usual, the snoozed my alarm twice before getting up in a rush, a hoodie and baggy jeans. Hair thrown up, makeup minimal, you accepted your fate.
You werenât expecting him to be in the room first, youâve narrowed down his time frame of entry, typically within ten minutes of the lecture starting depending on when youâd arrive. He was five minutes too early. Giving him the tightest smile, you shimmied behind his chair and mimicked his greeting, shoving yourself into your seat, not prepared for fifteen minutes of silence with him beside you.
Nose in phone, nose in phone.
It was all you could do to keep from gawking, for some reason he was fresher than normal. Black t-shirt, denim jacket on the back of his chair, silver jewelry hanging off of him. He wore a different cologne, one you couldnât pick out, but god it was delicious you wanted to lick it straight off his neck. He definitely sprayed it to his wrists too, typical, you could lick it off of him there too, why not. Maybe even his chest. No- anything beneath that shirt that should be squeezing the air out of his lungs was lethal, how was every muscle visible? How could he walk around like that, he had to know that-
âDid you do the homework?â
Great.
You didnât dress yourself up to keep the giddy high school level crush on the DL, but the way you jumped at his words and your cheeks warmed definitely helped. And, yes, you were staring.
âI, uh, yeah, I did.â
If he noticed anything, he didnât show it.
âMind if I see it to make sure I got it right? Youâre better at this than I am.â
Juvenile, all of it, from the way he checked his answers to the way he slid your notebook back over to you with a shake of his head. Nothing else was shared, the class had begun and he focused on your irritating professor who assigned similar homework for the third week in a row.
Holding onto the way he spoke to you, the soft tone, the warmth in his eyes, the subtle graveliness he forced but then got rid of when he answered questions aloud, you truly felt seventeen years old all over again.
He asked you a question.
He talked to you.
Did he spend more time on how he looked for you?
No, itâs for his girlfriend. The one he definitely has.
The girlfriend that he-
âWhatever perfume you had on last week⊠I liked it.â
He didnât say goodbye. He didnât wait around for you to say anything. He scooped his books into his arms, and he walked out of the classroom, leaving you in absolute shambles. Nerves lived within you for a week, so many nights spent lying awake thinking about him, what he said to you, what you were going to do. If you wear the perfume again youâre setting yourself up for exposure, you may as well just tell him you have a crush on him to his face. But, then again, if you didnât wear it, youâd lose his interest. He wouldnât think you had an interest in him, and what if he told you that because he does have an interest in you?
Oh god.
What if he knows?
You wore the perfume. One spritz of it over your heart before you left your room, enough that heâd just be able to tell if he paid as much attention as he suddenly seemed to be.
Early again, beating you to a class you tried to get to even earlier today, you did not miss the small smile that pulled at his lips as you slipped behind his chair. It was the only thing shared all class, a smile somewhere in between lessons when he caught your eye. He had that same cologne on, the one from last week, the one that had you envisioning what itâd be like to have your tongue dragging all over his body, it was hard to not look at him.
Oh, he definitely knew.
And so it began.
For another month, perfume and cologne alike, worn every class, you started to share more than smiles. Heâd lean your way for questions and answers, would ask about the homework, the assignments, sometimes when he didnât even need it, asking for an answer he already had scribbled on his paper. Fighting the nerves, the way your belly filled with butterflies and did cartwheels within you, you started to share more than just classroom talk. While you worked you chatted, you learned where he was from, where he came from, where you came from and why you both were here.
He was funny.
Funny in the way he didnât know he was funny, oftentimes asking you what he did to make you laugh like that. Youâd cover your mouth and pray the giggles away, unable to tell him how adorable he really was.
He filled every shoe you profiled him with. Kind, sweet, funny, gentle giant.
Chiseled chest his cologne, the one you loved, radiated from.
But you didnât figure that out until the following month.
Month four.
Four months was all it took, and he was yours.
Class whispers turned into coffee dates. Coffee dates turned into homework dates, which turned into dinner dates.
By the end of the third you were wrapped in his sheets, wrapped in him, cologne on your tongue and lips pressed to his, whispering confessions of how long you liked each other but both felt too nervous to say anything. Reveling in pride, that you werenât as obvious as you thought yourself to be, his sparkling grin overtook his face and he whispered two words that cradled your heart.
âI knew.â
#kim mingyu#seventeen#mingyu#mingyu x reader#mingyu x you#mingyu x y/n#seventeen x reader#seventeen x you#college!seventeen#seventeen x y/n#college mingyu#campus crush#tswift song challengeee#mingyu scenarios#mingyu fluff#a lil somethin to fuel the juices
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I love seeing u post bc every time itâs like wow. Iâve never seen someone say smth about these guys thatâs more Correct.
HELP???HDSKFJSLDKJFS
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Sigh. Im hearing echoes of people's voices again đ
#Sometimes when a day's been long and busy i hear echoes of the people that spoke to me that day#I think my brain's just trying to process it all#Im also slowly falling asleep#But that doesn't make it any more comfortable#They're calling me by name I can't relax >:///#Most of the time they're just chatting to one another abt normal things. I don't really listen in i just know who is speaking at the moment#Sometimes i catch a word or two#But i don't really listen#They talk over eachother a lot there's a lot of them at once
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when the audhd is fun until you become "i really really really have to give my input/side/idea and i dont give a fuck who's talking or what everyone was initially talking about" and before this site's illiteracy kicks in i'm certain we're all guilty of this to some extent
#well i'm not fucking talking to you am i#this is not directed at every reader but i think even if you think ''i'm not that bad#chilllli yelps#not everything autism/adhd/audhd does is cool we do annoying shit sometimes and that's just a fact that yall dont wanna hear#it's also ok to make mistakes and it's ok for your brain to have flaws#but also when you interrupt people to say smth that either no one cared to hear. no one was even saying. or fuck maybe someone already said#it. it's a little fucking annoying and when you do it over and over and over and over sometimes people get sick of your shit#you have flaws you are imperfect and your ego will be your social death if you do not learn to allow others to speak#fuck#if people start screaming at me btw cause i said smth that's true i'm blocking and deleting that shit#work on yourself#i also know yall are gonna be like ''oh well *I* never interrupt people and when i do i apologize you should at least do a small self evalua#just a small ''well do i listen to my friends very well? do i listen to the conversation i am a part of?"#also to yall who go into discord calls and lurk but sometimes talk think ''when i speak is it actually relevant to some extent?#or if you REALLY wanna talk about it it's ok just try to find a way to segway into what you wanna talk about cause that's how conversations#work.#i dont really expect this post to go anywhere tbh i'm just kinda frustrated cause i know a lotta neurodivert people who do this and idk how#say that interrupting people is annoying and disrespectful cause i know the brain chemical gets excited when it has smth it wants to talk-#about#i love you and i want you to tell me things. i also want to say things and when you talk over me to tell me things it comes off as you not#giving a fuck what i or others even are saying cause you're taking over the conversation with your shit that's irrelevant and no one has-#mentioned#idk i think i'm tired of seeing people be disrespected all the time but not knowing a polite way to tell them that they need to wait their-#turn to speak and when it's appropriate to change the subject
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sa tw in the tags. just need to get it out idk
#sa tw#look i know people hate blondie now but god she speaks to me sometimes#i listen to wouldve couldve shouldve and get venomously angry at Him.#and yeah maybe it happened to him too. but what about me? why do i need to have sympathy for someone who hurt me like that?#give me back my girlhood it was mine first! i was an adult too young.#i maintain the peace for survival but god. i cant believe i just. havent lashed out at all#im gonna explode one day#something something promising grown man that makes me sick#thats probably why ive always wanted to be friends with people older than me.#my estimated age by most strangers is about 3 years older#because guess what? ive got a young face and an old ass soul! im like 30 in here! ive been 21 for 18 years!#i shouldnt have had to grow up so quick. i shouldn't have had to keep it to myself for a decade.#my brain is 6 and 21 and 35 and 50
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wait you got me so invested in the stammer & heddy tailor au....
this is my standard disclaimer that i have never posted a fic on ao3* and for however much i say âauâ i truly mean that itâs a universe that lives in my head & i am absolutely delighted to tell you all about, all the time <3 if it helps i ALSO got me so invested in the heddy & stammer tailor au
ok now that the authorâs note is out of the way hereâs some notes about the not!fic heddy & stammer tailor au:
stammer as the tailor from gentâs playbook, very reserved, quiet, with an excellent eye for details (honestly the evidence i have for his style sense is just that heâs best friends with pk subban so it has to be there somewhere if only by proxy irl) is hired by victor hedman, star of the tampa bay lightning who is every other tailorâs nightmare to dress (huge, opinionated, fashionable)
heddy is decently well-known throughout the league for being very well-dressed & becomes quietly well known for also being one of his new tailorâs favorite loyal customers [heddy has the nicest fabrics. he has his suits the first day a new collection drops & e v e r y o n e is jealous]
stammerâs business booms after heddy takes a chance on him as his first big client & promotes him, heddy sees him grow in popularity & get more clients
heddy also moonlights as a model for stammerâs suits on instagram, initially to help him grow his business because then he wonât have to pay for a model and then because heâs over there all the time anyway because theyâre dating (thatâs why the modelâs face is never in the pictures)
thereâs not really a plot to this besides the vague idea of a plot where stammer makes heddy his lucky suit that he wins the cup in & ïżŒsews a special little tag into the lining of his jacket that says i love you
because love sometimes is picking out the perfect right color pocket square to match your husbandâs beautiful suit that you fitted like a kiss to the curves of his huge body
& also sometimes love is making your beautiful husband who makes you beautiful clothing enjoy nice things for himself once in a while, like the fancy watch you ïżŒïżŒbought him or the nice suit you custom-ordered for him (from him) just so you could take it off of him
#*i did very much post a zine on ao3 that was part of a really fun exchange that i loved doing (thank you leah for organizing!!!)#& had a fantastic time with however i have not strictly speaking posted a fic. one day i will. eventually. hopefully. pray for me :)#also one time my horoscope told me i was a âneutral projectorâ & iâve never felt more called out (âloves making up thingsâ/âwill not#actually write or plot but will explain every intricate detail of their world & character relationshipsâ/âhype up every member of the#writing chat & give good advice but never follow itâ) like HI CAN U NOT DO THIS TO ME HOROSCOPE THANKS i was read to FILTH#liv in the replies#i do LOOOOOVE me a good one of them plays hockey the other one does not au sometimes theyâre so fun to explore dynamics outside/inside sport#at the time i came up with this stammer was out on IR & heddy kept showing up to the playoffs in ridiculously nice suits what was i to do??#the gentâs playbook tailor will sometimes model his own suits w/o showing his own face which made it look like he had a secret model come in#heddy canonically says his suits make him feel better when he plays esp during playoffs & if he wins in a suit heâll keep wearing it#oh also the truth of the love is in the pocket square bit? angela price i will never forget. anyway that blue suit i posted in the last ask#with the perfect pink pocket square? that pocket square is a pair of stammerâs boxers heddy took To Me. in my brain#me about the beautiful clothing: this is like daisy crying in gatsbyâs silk shirts except itâs baby alpaca fur & also itâs not sad#itâs simply decadent & the inherent intimacy of a fitting mapping the body yada yada yada knowing the ways to flatter someone is a form#of loving them etc etc. love is art love is food love is given love is stored in the custom three-piece suit and tie#is this an enemies to lovers? workplace drama? is the secret plot i only just now invented & added that heddy is âdifficult to work withâ#but itâs just because he wants to look good & in the words of his own (real) tailor the hardest guy to fit because heâs so big? OHHH HOLD IT#I GOT THE PLOT IN THE TAGS YâALL AND ITâS STAMMER TEACHING HEDDY TO LOVE HIS BODY heddy whoâs been told what to/not wear & you know.#the commodification of the body in hockey (but weâre not getting that deep) but stammer with a mouth full of pins tightening heddyâs pant#leg down even further as he listens to what heddy wants for once & lets him pick fabrics (this is the daisy shirt moment but itâs heddy#looking at fabric swatches dozens of books of them stammer helps him pick out matching linings &outsides &squares) & stammer compliments him#& theyâre in love & idk NEARLY enough abt fashion but there r like codes? messages? to wearing suits i think w/the etiquette so that too#should this have also gone under a readmore? yeah probably. whoops#victor hedman#steven stamkos#tampa bay lightning
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ahhh i actually should play ender lilies
#me rambling about bulbel reminded me... i have it on my switch but forgot to play it bc engage happened and i decided#to glue my eyeballs on that game instead LOL#leighs tempting me to show what i wrote about the song and the AHEM character#but i whipped out the playlist description i have and i went >_> UHHHHH i was really deep in my brain LOL#i do not trust half of what i wrote sometimes bc its just 'am i overthinking or is this like. accurate...' who knows lolol#anyways ! the ost for ender lilies is so good and lovely i listen to a lot of it while daydreaming or writing :3 <3#snow speaks#ANYWAYS back to studying
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"shrike" and "like real people do" reminds me of lucisan i think
#⯠ê°á starry thoughts à»ê± *·Ë#''work song'' or ''sedated'' for belial and faa ... i think#hozier's songs don't just speak of love they speak of devotion. and. different kinds of love! both the good and the bad#especially love ''someone new'' with that. read it however you like but i personally see it as how we fall a little for the strangers we#come across daily only on an outer surface with no fear of commitment? a beautiful thing#but also how sometimes it is. just that. just about what is on the outside? and. yeah#''work song'' also reminds me of lucisan hmm. and ''take me to church'' reminds me of faa and belial#BUT YEAH the lyric 'electing strange perfections in any stranger i choose' is so good aaaaa and. idk the song is just really good#i love listening to music so much! not just the lyrics or melody or voice but also the instruments and basically everything#the way the different instruments fit together... so good..... god i'm such a nerd (happy)#these songs btw mostly just remind me of them in a. not very deep way. but also yeah!#'no grave can hold my body down i'd crawl home to her' is just. big devotion man ?? i think so at least#anyway brain goodbye!!
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NEEDY â JEON WONWOO àż
summary. wonwoo canât keep his hands to himself because he needs your full, undivided attention.
wc. 1.08k
warnings. jealous sub!wonu, dom!reader, multiple orgasms (m.), handjob, heavy praise, light degradation (wonwoo gets called a slut), pet names, tears <3 â MINORS DNI 18+
note. 2 months ago i asked what sub!idol u wanted me to write and wonwooâs name appeared, so here it is >< better late than neverâ thank u to @gyuswhore for offering to beta-read this and easing my nerves mwahhh <3
âbaby, pleaseâŠi-i canât take anymore!â wonwoo begs for mercy as you pump his cum covered cock teasingly.
âaww, but you kept asking me for this, didnât you, baby?â you coo condescendingly with a faux pout etched into your lips. âjust kept bugging me while we were out with our friends, isnât that right?â
he stumbles over his words, stuttering out, âi-i-i was just⊠i justââ
âyou were just what? being a needy slut? just wanted my attention?â you grit out, squeezing him harder in your hand. ânow âm giving you all these orgasms and youâre being so mean to me⊠canât even say thank you?â
wonwoo was being a needy slut. needier than youâd ever seen him. normally, he was reserved, keeping pda to a minimum, but today⊠today he kept trying to feel you up every chance he could, kept trying to kiss any and all exposed parts of you, kept trying to steal your attention away from whoever you were talking to.Â
you tried to ask what was wrong, but heâd just shrug indifferently and it irked you. when you went back to your conversation with seokmin and mingyu, heâd just do the same thing over. and over⊠and over.Â
you eventually grew sick of his begging, parting with your friends and going back to your apartment where you were now. youâd sat him on the edge of the bed and immediately got to work on him, pulling orgasm after orgasm till he had tears in his eyes begging you to stop.
ân-no! thank you! thank you, baby,â he gasps. âiâm sorryââ
you laugh at his desperation, hand continuing to languidly stroke his flushed, hard length, âwhat are you sorry for, pretty boy, hm? which part of tonight are you apologizing for?â
he whimpers, hips raising a bit, but your free hand quickly slaps his thigh causing his hips to fall and a soft âah!â to leave his mouth.Â
you pout, âwonu⊠youâre being so bad todayâŠmaybe i should stopââÂ
he lets out a frenzied cry, sensitive cock twitching uncontrollably the second your hand stops working him. âdonât! please, âm sorryâ sorry for getting jealous, sorry for being needy, sorry for everything. please, please donât stop.â
heâs well aware of how overstimulated he is and you are too. itâs not hard to miss with the tears running down his flushed face and how heâs jerking at the slightest touch. the thing is, wonwoo has something to prove. he needs to cum for you again and he needs to give you everything heâs got.Â
you murmur, âaw, baby⊠jealous? of seokmin and mingyu? thatâs what had you trying to fuck me while we were out?â
he nods again, âjust wanted your attentionâŠâ he mumbles through pursed lips.
his words have your heart clenching, hand coming back to stroke his messy cock. at the return, he gasps, bottom lip finding sanctum between his teeth to stop the embarrassing noises from drooling past them.
you lean in to press your lips against his sharp jaw, âyouâre so cute, baby, why didnât you just tell me?â you mutter in between your kisses.Â
his eyes flutter close and he whispers, ââm sorry.â
you whisper back, hand resuming its previous speed. âdonât beâŠâÂ
he whines out your name, his eyes rolling to the back of his head. with his jaw going slack, all of his pretty noises fill the room again and you canât help but giggle. you quickly maneuver yourself to straddle his lap, fisting him hastily.
he chokes on a sob, his face falling into your clothed chest in attempts to muffle his moans. his hands grasp at the bed sheets, pawing at that white, ruffled fabric.Â
âdonât hide, pretty baby,â you tell him sultrily. âtell me how good iâm making you feel? whoâs making my good boy feel good?â
he peers up at you with his glassy, brown eyes while you continue your assault on his dick in between your two bodies. ây-you are⊠youâre makinâ me feel⊠makinâ me feel so good, Y/N.âÂ
âyeah?â you pant, pussy soaking through the denim of your jeans at this point. âiâm making you feel good? gonna cum again?âÂ
âyes! god, please let meâŠ
you smile, voice just barely above a whisper, âdo it, baby. cum for me, hm?âÂ
and as if he were hanging on to the end of every one of your words, his body jerks, dick twitching in your tight grip. his cum weakly spurts from his cock and joins the other loads on your hand and his thighs while he lets out a broken cry.Â
âthank you, thank you, thank youâ fuck! thank you!â he sobs, eyes rolling again and mouth hanging open to let his various babbles out.Â
and he looks so perfect. so messy and brainless, yet so fucking pretty that itâs causing yet another wave of arousal to soak through your panties and jeans.Â
you moan out more praise, leaning in to pepper kisses all over his face while he comes down from what feels like his 10th orgasm, though itâs only his third.Â
âsâgood for me, won. did so well, you know that?â you whisper, finally pulling your hand away from his ruined cock. â do you feel okay? are you tired?â
he shudders, ââm-m okay,â he nods, but his slurred words are proof that he is, in fact, tired.Â
you laugh softly, free hand coming up to mess with the bangs that are matting against his forehead. âyou are tired, baby. câmon⊠letâs go shower and we can go to beââÂ
ân-no⊠wannaâ⊠what about you?â
âwhat about me, baby?â you coo, though you know exactly what heâs talking about. itâs the dull ache in your cunt that so desperately needs to be touched⊠or eaten⊠or fucked.
his eyes pleading, like heâs begging you with the mere look on his face. âwant you to feel good, too.âÂ
âyou already came, though, pretty boy,â you remind him. âitâs okayâ hey!âÂ
he uses his last strength to flip you over onto the bed, pulling a surprised yelp from your mouth. âno.â he says sternly. âi-iâm gonna make you feel good.â he says, before getting on his knees between your legs, nimble fingers popping the button of your jeans.Â
youâre a bit breathless at the sudden change in his behavior and the fact that your heart is just about to lurch out of your chest. âbutââ
âno, buts. iâm returning the favor.â
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#....sar what in the hell#listen#i tend have a pretty specific view of wonwoo and i think it sometimes makes it challenging for me to get into how he's written when it comes#to smut#and i don't think about sub! wonwoo much#but my fucking fuck jesus christ good lord oh my god#the way you wrote him being all whiney and just wanting to please reader and pay penance for being a possesive brat i am not okayyyyyyyyyyy#the thought of overstimulating him is now going to rot my brain now thanks so much#dacryphilia kink going brrrrrr as we speak#and him wanting to return the favour [lies down]#much to think about thanks#sar <3#jeon wonwoo smut#wonwoo smut#seventeen smut#q: painting with hyunjin
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Quick someone kiss me itâs urgent đŁïžđšâŒïž
#someone kisses my forehead and immediately I fall asleep#could u imagine that would be heavenly takes me so long to sleep#I should really put my phone down speaking of but I donât want to just live in my body bc im in pain and I hurt#and I donât like it#and it sucks and I hate it but itâs fine itâs fine itâs fine sometimes Iâm like do I have real chronic pain or am I just bad at having body#and then I sit weird for three hours and I spend the next day holding back tears and stretching in every way only to still be in pain and#miserable like how I have fun one day I have one good day and my body punishes me#okay two good days. I did push it. I went to the show and watched movies two days ago and yesterday I organized my desk for three hours that#was a lot of moving around and now I know Iâm probably gonna spend all of today (later today) in bed swapping ice packs and heat packs and#trying to distract my brain#ugh I hate chronic pain I want to listen to my chronic pain playlist and feel deeply while laying as flat on my back as possible in my#broken mattress with the big dip in the middle#how did I get here from the original post. I love you weed. wish youâd work as a better pain reliever without me immediately going back to#doing big dabs#not like I really stopped dabs but still god cant my body just stop hurting#angry at at all !!!! but itâs fine !!!! we donât get to choose our bodies I just have to make do !!!
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How does that feel?
my masterlist
+18!!!
pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!reader summary: You've been having a hard time finishing in bed and you finally tell Spencer what's going on. words: 4,4k warnings: smut - oral (fem! receiving), breast/nipple play, unprotected sex (don't do that) a/n: this was a request! also, i've stared at this thing for so long i don't know anymore what's going on, but i hope yall like it <3
You sat at a cozy corner table in the dimly lit bar, surrounded by your closest friends - Penelope, Emily, and JJ. The four of you had met up for a much-needed girls' night out to finally have a chance to unwind and catch up.Â
"Can you believe the latest case we worked on?" JJ said, shaking her head. "Sometimes it feels like we're living in a crime novel."
"Tell me about it," Emily agreed. "But PLEASE! Letâs not talk about work. I need to decompress."
Penelope raised her glass. "To decompressing! And to⊠friends!"
You all clinked glasses, smiling at each other. Very quickly the conversation shifted towards more personal topics.
"So, how are things with Will?" Emily asked, turning to JJ.
JJ smiled. "Things are great, actually. We're planning a little getaway next month, just the two of us. What about you, Em? Any romance on the horizon?"
Emily shrugged. "I'm enjoying the single life right now. Besides, itâs not easy to find love having this job. When am I supposed to do that?"
Penelope grinned. "Donât you worry about it, pumpkin! Youâre gonna find someone soon. I can feel it in my bones!."
The conversation continued in this vein for a while, each of you sharing updates about your romantic lives. You listened and laughed along, but Penelope's observant eyes caught the slightly distant look on your face.
"Alright, spill it," Penelope prompted, her eyes twinkling with curiosity. "What's been going on with you lately? You've seemed a bit off."
You sighed, feeling a mixture of relief and embarrassment. These were your friends, after all, and you knew you could trust them. "It's just... I've been having a hard time finishing in bed lately. It's been⊠really frustrating."
Emily raised an eyebrow, her expression sympathetic. "Have you talked to Spencer about it?"
You shook your head. "Not yet. I mean, I want to, but I don't want to make him feel bad or think it's his fault. He's always so attentive, and I don't want him to think he's doing something wrong. And heâs not doing anything wrong. Heâs perfect. Obviously."
JJ leaned in, her voice gentle. "Hey, communication is key. Spencer loves you, and I'm sure heâd want to know what's going on so he can help. Iâm sure his big brain knows exactly what to do."
Penelope nodded enthusiastically. "Absolutely! Plus, it could be an opportunity to explore new things together⊠Sometimes all it takes is a little experimentation."
You smiled, feeling a bit more encouraged. "Yeah, maybe you're right. I'll talk to him."
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Later that evening, you found yourself back at home, sitting on the couch next to Spencer. He was engrossed in a book, the dim light casting soft shadows across his focused face. He set the book aside when he noticed your pensive expression, concern immediately clouding his eyes.
"Hey, is everything okay?" he asked, his voice gentle but laced with worry.
You took a deep breath, feeling your heart pound in your chest. "Spence, there's something I need to talk to you about."
He turned to face you fully, his full attention on you, his brow furrowing slightly. "Of course. What is it?"
You hesitated, your fingers twisting in your lap as you searched for the right words. Finally, you decided to dive in. "Lately, I've been having a hard time finishing in bed. It's been really frustrating for me, and I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want you to feel bad."
Spencer's expression softened, his eyes filled with understanding and concern. His mouth opened slightly as if to speak, but he hesitated, clearly processing what you had just revealed. "OhâŠâ
You immediately regretted saying anything. It wasn't the end of the world, after all. You still enjoyed sex but just couldn't reach the high. Maybe you were just too stressed.Â
It had nothing to do with Spencer.Â
Tears welled up in your eyes as Spencer seemed lost in thought, his brow furrowed as he tried to find the right words. Why would he know what to say? You felt like you were just making things difficult.
âForget it. Itâs fine,â you said quickly, trying to dismiss the conversation and spare him the discomfort.
âNo, no, no, wait,â he said, reaching out and grabbing your hands as you started to stand up. His grip was firm but gentle, grounding you. âItâs okay. Iâm glad you told me. I just⊠how did I not notice? I⊠Iâm just trying to remember, well, I remember everything and I just⊠I canât believe I⊠couldnât tell.â
âItâs fine, Spencer. I didnât want you to know. Itâs embarrassing.â Your voice wavered, and you looked away, feeling tears start to spill down your cheeks.
âNo, itâs not. Itâs not embarrassing. I want you to feel good.â
âIt does feel good. Always. I just⊠I donât know. I just canât cum. Itâs like I get almost there and it feels good, but it never happens.â At this point, you were crying openly, the frustration and embarrassment overwhelming you.
Spencer pulled you into a tight hug, his arms wrapping around you securely. You buried your face in his chest, feeling the warmth and steady beat of his heart. He rubbed your back soothingly, his voice a soft murmur in your ear. "Hey, hey, itâs okay. Weâll figure this out together. I want to help."
You clung to him, feeling the weight of your frustration starting to lift just a little. "Iâm sorry. I just didnât want you to think it was your fault."
Spencer pulled back slightly to look into your eyes, his gaze intense and filled with love. âItâs not your fault, and itâs not my fault. Sometimes these things happen. Whatâs important is that weâre in this together. We can try new things, we can talk and see what works for you.â
You nodded, sniffling a little. âOkay. Iâd like that.â
âGood,â he said, smiling gently, his thumb brushing away a tear from your cheek. âWeâll take it slow and explore together. Your pleasure is important to me, and Iâm willing to do whatever it takes to make sure youâre satisfied.â
As you snuggled into his arms, the tension slowly easing from your body, you wondered why you had been so scared to tell him in the first place. Spencer always knew what to say, always knew how to make you feel safe and loved.Â
This was Spencer - your Spencer - and you realized you had nothing to fear.
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Spencer was clearly waiting for you to initiate anything, respecting your pace and comfort. In the meantime, he very carefully tried to understand you.
Despite his constant reassurances that there was nothing to be ashamed of and that he was more than happy to figure this out together, you couldn't shake the lingering embarrassment about your problem. He was understanding and supportive, trying to create a safe space for you to open up about your frustrations.
You spent several nights just talking, diving deep into the details of your intimate experiences. Spencer approached it with a mix of curiosity and determination, asking thoughtful and sometimes probing questions.Â
You discussed every position you'd tried before, analyzing what felt best and why. You talked about your feelings toward toys and whether they might help.Â
Spencer inquired about foreplay - whether it felt too short, too long, too intense, or not intense enough. He wanted to understand what was most pleasurable for you in terms of finishing. Was it when he was eating you out, fingering you, or through penetration? Or did you find that a combination of these was most satisfying?Â
He also asked if you enjoyed it when he talked to you during the act. What were your favorite things for him to say?Â
He wanted to understand everything about your experiences. What went through your mind when you masturbated? What kind of porn did you watch? Each question, while sometimes making your face flush with embarrassment, was asked with genuine care and focus.Â
Spencer treated it like a meticulous scientific research project, aiming to solve the problem with the utmost care and attentiveness. His dedication and focus made you feel deeply cared for, as he was on a mission to be the one to help you find the satisfaction you deserved.
On Saturday night, you and Spencer lay in bed with your books, enjoying the quiet comfort of each other's company. He was engrossed in a thick classic novel in a foreign language, while you were absorbed in your favorite authorâs new romance. The plot had just reached the point where the two protagonists had sex for the first time. The scene stirred something deep within you, making your skin feel hot and your heart race. You bit your lip, trying to concentrate, but your thoughts kept drifting.
As the scene ended, you finally allowed yourself to look over at Spencer. He was completely lost in the pages, his brows furrowed in concentration.
âHaving problems, genius?â you teased, your voice carrying a playful edge.
âWhat? No!â he replied, not even looking up from the words on the page. âHowâs your romance? Is it good?â
âOh... itâs very good,â you said, scooting closer to him, propping your head on your hand. Finally, he looked at you, curiosity mingling with his usual attentiveness.
âWhat is it?â he asked, sensing your change in mood.
âNothing,â you replied with feigned innocence, placing your hand on his chest.Â
His eyes stayed on you, studying your expression. Your breathing grew heavier as you stared at his neck, unable to hold back any longer. You lowered your face to the side of his neck, your lips brushing against his skin.
Spencer's breath hitched slightly, and he set his book aside, his attention fully on you now. "Are you sure it's nothing?" he murmured, his voice low and inviting.
You smiled against his neck, feeling the warmth of his skin. "Well, maybe it's something," you admitted, your voice a whisper. Your fingers traced gentle patterns on his chest, feeling a now quicker beat of his heart beneath your touch.
Spencerâs hand came up to cradle your face, his thumb gently stroking your cheek. âTell me,â he urged softly, his eyes filled with desire.
The room felt charged with electricity.Â
âWell⊠I was just reading this scene⊠where, you know⊠the girl and the boy finally fucked. On the floor. It made me think of us.â you confessed, your voice trembling slightly.
âYou want to have sex on the floor?â Spencer asked with a serious tone.
You laughed, the sound easing some of the tension. âNo, too many germs,â you said with a playful grin.
Spencer chuckled, his eyes softening with affection. âAlright, not on the floor then,â he said, his voice low and inviting as his hand gently caressed your cheek. âBut I get the idea.â
You leaned into his touch, your heart pounding with anticipation. âI just want to be close to you,â you murmured, your fingers tracing the outline of his collarbone.
Spencer's eyes darkened with understanding, and he leaned in to kiss you, his lips soft yet insistent. âThen letâs explore that together,â he whispered against your lips, his hand sliding down to rest on your hip, pulling you closer.
His kiss was deep, his lips moving against yours with a gentle urgency that sent shivers down your spine.Â
His hand, now resting on your hip, guided you closer, pressing your bodies together.Â
You instinctively rubbed your thighs together, seeking some friction, and Spencer, ever observant, immediately noticed. It seemed impossible for him to be more attentive, yet somehow he was.Â
With a gentle but deliberate motion, he turned you so that you were lying on your back beneath him. As he shifted, you felt the press of his already hard cock against your core, making you lift your hips slightly, yearning for more contact.
âWeâre gonna take things slow, okay?â he murmured, his voice soft but firm. âI want you to feel good.â
You wanted him, you wanted him now, but you understood his approach.Â
After all the endless conversations, you and Spencer had reached a few conclusions about what worked best for you both.Â
For one, you often found yourselves too excited, mostly you, to slow things down. Foreplay, though it was present, had usually been quite brief due to the intense need to get naked and feel him inside you. So, longer foreplay became a new priority.
Two, you discovered that you felt most connected when he was close to you, every part of his body touching yours.
Three, you both agreed on the importance of more kissing. Spencer had given you what felt like a comprehensive college level lesson on erogenous zones, emphasizing the need to focus on and cherish these areas.Â
His lips, his touch, his breath - every aspect of physical intimacy was to be savored and explored in greater depth.
With these insights in mind, Spencer leaned down, his lips brushing against yours in a tender kiss. His hands roamed your body with a slow, deliberate grace, each touch designed to explore and stimulate.Â
His kisses traveled from your lips to your neck, then lower, each movement a careful balance of passion and tenderness.
He paused to look into your eyes, his gaze filled with both love and a hint of playful mischief. âReady for us to take our time?â he asked, his voice a soothing murmur.
You nodded, your heart racing with anticipation. âYes,â you whispered, your voice filled with a mix of excitement and relief. âLetâs take our time.â
Your nipples were already hard against your tank top, the fabric offering little barrier to the stimulation. Spencer grazed the side of your breasts with his hands, his touch both teasing and tender.Â
As his lips kissed and nuzzled your collarbones, his thumb began to circle your nipple through the thin material of your shirt. The sensation made you shiver with pleasure, and you melted further into his touch.
His leg, now firmly pressed between your thighs, rubbed gently against your inner thighs and core. The pressure of his length pressed into your hip, amplifying the heat building in you.
âPlease, take it off,â you whispered, your voice quivering with need.
âTake off what?â Spencer murmured, his face still buried in your chest, his hair brushing against your face with every movement.
âMy shirt. Please,â you pleaded, a hint of desperation in your voice.
He chuckled softly, but he didnât argue. Instead, he slid his hands lower, pushing up your top to reveal your stomach. He showered your exposed skin with soft kisses, his lips warm and affectionate against your belly.Â
As you reached for the hem of your shirt, you quickly pulled it off, tossing it aside.
âWhat happened to taking things slow?â Spencer asked, looking up at you with a teasing grin, his chin resting against your stomach.
âSorry,â you said, your cheeks flushed with embarrassment.
âDonât be,â he replied with a smile. âI just want to make sure you feel really good.â
âI do,â you whispered, your voice filled with need. âKeep going.â
âWhatever you say, angel,â he murmured with a soft chuckle.
With that, Spencer moved between your legs, lifting them and resting them on his shoulders. He positioned himself comfortably, and you felt the anticipation rise as his face moved closer to your core.Â
He inhaled deeply, his breath warm against your sensitive folds, making you whimper in response.
âPlease,â you begged softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
âOkay,â he said, his voice muffled as he pressed his face into you, pulling down your underwear with careful, deliberate motions. He started with a gentle kiss on your nub, his lips exploring with a tenderness that made you gasp.Â
He then trailed his kisses down to your thighs, peppering them with soft, teasing pecks. The sensation was delightful, and you giggled, placing your hand on his cheek.
He turned his mouth to your hand, kissing the inside of your palm before taking it in his hand and guiding it back to rest gently beside you. His fingers lingered, his touch warm and reassuring as he held your hand.Â
He then looked at your cunt.
âYouâre already so wet. For me?â he asked, his voice filled with both awe and desire.
âFor you? Always,â you replied, your breath hitching.
He chuckled against you, the sound and the vibration making you shiver. âDonât do that,â you said with a laugh, trying to steady your breathing.
âSorry,â he murmured with a playful tone.Â
Before you could say anything more, he gave you a long, slow lick from your entrance to the top, his tongue moving with a deliberate slowness. He stopped at your sensitive nub and began to suck gently, his mouth working with a rhythm that made you arch your back and moan in pleasure.
Spencerâs mouth was a world of sensation against you.Â
He kept going with long, languid licks, his tongue gliding from your entrance to the top of your sensitive nub. Each stroke was deliberate, exploring every inch with a careful, loving precision.Â
The warmth of his tongue, combined with the perfect pressure, sent waves of pleasure coursing through you, making you gasp and moan.
You felt your breath quicken as his movements became more focused.Â
He moved his tongue in quicker, teasing circles around your clit, his mouth creating a constant, delightful friction.Â
You squirmed under the intensity, your hips instinctively bucking in response.
When you no longer felt him on your clit, a desperate cry for him almost escaped your lips. But then, he gently slipped his tongue inside you, and a wave of relief and pleasure washed over you.Â
He moved with precision, his tongue exploring deeper while maintaining the steady, teasing motions that drove you wild. Each movement was deliberate, calculated to elicit the maximum pleasure from you.
His nose brushed against your folds and clit with each movement, adding an extra layer of sensation. The combination of his tongue inside you and the gentle pressure of his nose against your most sensitive spot made you tremble.Â
Your hand clutched at the sheets, your body arching toward him, seeking more.
You could feel the build-up of tension and ecstasy swelling inside you.
Through all of this, Spencer held your hand firmly in his, his fingers intertwined with yours.Â
As you felt your orgasm approaching, you squeezed his hand tightly, your fingers gripping his with a mix of desperation and pleasure.Â
Spencer responded by tracing gentle circles on the back of your hand with his thumb, his touch soothing and intimate amidst all the intense sensations he was creating.
With a final, expert flick of his tongue, he sent you spiraling into a powerful climax.Â
Your body tensed and then released in a wave of pleasure, your moans filling the room. Spencer continued his slow, consistent movements, savoring every moment of your release.
As the waves of pleasure began to subside, he slowly eased his mouth away, leaving soft, lingering kisses along your inner thighs.Â
His hand remained clasped with yours, and he looked into your eyes from between your thighs, his expression a mix of content and desire. âWanna keep going? We can stop if you need to.â
You shook your head, a determined glint in your eyes as you pulled yourself up and crushed into him, pressing your lips against his with an almost desperate intensity.Â
The kiss was fervent, your tongues dancing together, both urgent and consuming as you tasted yourself on his lips and on his tongue. He was covered in you.
Spencerâs hands found their way to your back, his touch warm and gentle, but firm at the same time.
Tonight felt different. It was more intense, more electric.Â
As your kiss grew deeper, you moaned into him, the sound mingling with his own soft groans of pleasure. With a deft maneuver, he turned you so that you were straddling him, his hands firmly on your hips.
âIs this okay?â he managed to ask, his voice a low rumble as he pulled away just enough to look into your eyes. The effort it took to break the kiss was evident, his breaths heavy and laden with desire.
âYes,â you responded quickly, your need palpable as you crashed your lips back onto his, kissing him even harder.Â
âBaby, slow down,â Spencer said softly, though his voice was tinged with longing. âWe were meant to go slow.â
You moved your lips to his cheek and jaw, leaving a trail of kisses that were tender but laced with urgency. âI need you. I need you so bad,â you whispered against his skin, the words laced with an aching desire.
Spencer gently cupped your face, his fingers tracing soothing patterns along your jawline. He guided your gaze to meet his.
âLook at me,â he said softly, his voice a gentle promise and his eyes filled with affection âIâm right here. Iâm not going anywhere. We have all night and even more.â
He leaned in and kissed you with a tenderness that contrasted the intensity of moments before.Â
âHow do you do it?â you asked breathlessly, your curiosity blending with the haze of desire. You wondered, as you looked into his eyes, how he managed to maintain such control over himself amidst all the passion.
âWhat?â Spencerâs voice was a mixture of confusion and intrigue.
âStop yourself,â you clarified, your voice barely above a whisper. âHow do you manage to hold back?â
Spencerâs eyes softened, and he gave you a reassuring smile. âItâs not about holding back,â he said, his voice calm and sincere. âItâs about making sure you feel good. I want this to be perfect for you, for us, every time. Thatâs what matters.â
His words stirred something deep within you, and you were hit by a wave of warmth and appreciation. As he leaned in to kiss you again, the tender, loving nature of his touch gave you goosebumps.
âCan we fuck now?â you asked, your voice husky with need.
Spencer looked at you with a warm, eager smile. âYes. Yes, we can,â
You gave his cock a few teasing strokes, feeling the way he reacted, his breath hitching as he moaned softly into your shoulder. You slowly guided him to your entrance.Â
The sensation of him pressing against you was both thrilling and comforting, a familiar solace you will never get tired of and always makes your world shudder.
With a gentle, deliberate motion, you positioned him at your core, and you slowly lowered yourself onto him.Â
The gradual stretch and the way he filled you completely was exquisite, causing you both to moan into each otherâs mouths softly.Â
You took your time, savoring each inch, feeling every subtle shift and movement.
Spencerâs hands were steady on your hips, guiding and supporting you as you adjusted to his size. His breaths were heavy, matching the rhythm of your movements.Â
The room was filled with only the sound of your shared pleasure, a mix of gasps and moans.
As you slowly rode him, the rhythm of your movements became more synchronized, each motion building both of you up to the peak.Â
Spencerâs hands were not idle - he moved with purpose, his touch exploring every inch of your body with a deep, loving attentiveness.
One hand continued to support you around your lower back, while the other trailed up to your breasts. His fingers began to play with your nipples, gently pinching and rolling them as you moved.Â
That was one thing you had confessed to him during one of your intimate conversations, and Spencer had clearly taken it to heart. You had shared with him how much you loved when he played with your breasts, revealing, a bit embarrassed, the deep pleasure it brought you.
âHow does that feel?â he asked in between the kisses he left on your neck, his voice a husky whisper against your skin.
âFuck,â was all you managed to say, a breathless gasp that made him chuckle, his eyes gleaming with amusement and desire.
He massaged your breasts tenderly, his fingers moving with a practiced ease, adjusting his touch to match the rhythm of your thrusts. His lips covered every inch of your neck and shoulders, leaving a trail of warmth in their wake.
The combination of his hands on your breasts, the feeling of him inside you, and his lips on your skin was overwhelming. Your body responded instinctively, arching into his touch, your breath coming in short, sharp bursts.
Spencerâs breath came in ragged gasps, his groans of pleasure mingling with yours. His hands worked skillfully, keeping your nipples sensitive and aroused as your movements became more frantic and desperate. Then his eyes locked onto yours, a mixture of concentration and passion evident in his gaze.
While you stared into his brown eyes, he finally teased your nipple with a light lick of his tongue.Â
You almost screamed.Â
He started kissing it while his other hand worked on your other breast, his mouth hot and insistent. His tongue traced circles around your hard peak, sending shivers down your spine, while his slim fingers squeezed the other one.
At that point, you screamed into his ear, unable to contain the intensity of your pleasure.
âSorry,â you whispered, your voice a trembling apology.
âItâs okay. Youâre so beautiful,â he replied, his eyes softening with affection as he looked at you, his hands never ceasing their tender ministrations. His words and touch combined, making you feel cherished and desired in every way and that made your heart swell.
His lips returned to your other nipple, sucking and teasing it with more insistence now.
Finally, the pressure inside you reached its peak.Â
With a gasp and a shudder, you came, the wave of ecstasy crashing over you while his lips stayed on your breasts peppering them with kisses.
Your body tensed and then relaxed as you rode out the climax, your moans filling the room. Spencer continued to stroke your breasts gently, his touch both soothing and stimulating as he guided you through the final throes of your orgasm.
As you slowly came down from the high, you leaned your head against his, your fingers gently threading through his hair, the other arm wrapped around his neck. He held you close, his hands now lingering on your back with a soft, affectionate touch.Â
He squeezed you tightly, turning his face to kiss your neck, which elicited one more moan from your lips.Â
You could feel him smiling against your skin as he squeezed you tightly one more time.
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gonna go to watch ponniyin selvan 2 in theatres this weekend so . i am struggling my way through the first novel. why am i so bad at reading tamil it hurts my pride.
#IM BETTER AT READING AND COMPREHENDING HINDI THAN TAMIL WHICH IS SO FUCKING PAINFUL NGL...#i love tamil to death but i wish reading one paragraph of a temple description would not murder my brain#i got so excited when kalki started talking abt the food being sold there like yas. my jam. tell me all about the aval#im good at reading tamil ! i just need to be better at keeping up the flow. which can only come the more i read#on another note i am yet to finish the sujatha novels my dad got me. pain and suffering i have to remedy that Immediately#hyping myself up by listening to a r rahman's discography helps the reading doe#chaos speaks sometimes rarely never
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the best bad decision. (iwaizumi hajime x reader)
summary: âwrote a confession for character A, accidentally gave it to character B insteadâ - for my valentineâs day event - theme: confessions
word count: 2.3k
warnings: fem!reader, swearing, oikawa is insensitive sometimes, fluff
tags: @nishayuro @kitas-tapioca @kakashineedstotouchgrass @amisuh @avis-writeshq @samanthaa-leanne @akaashi-todorki @keiva1000 @kindnessspreads @msbyomimi
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You liked to think you werenât one to fall into stereotypes. But every once in a while you did something that reminded you that you werenât different from everyone around you. Like right now, standing hidden behind the corner of this building, clutching an obvious red envelope in your hands, waiting for the volleyball team to shuffle out of their club room so you could sneak in and slip the envelope into a certain boyâs locker.
So you had a tiny little crush on everyoneâs favorite boy, Oikawa Tooru. Sue you.
Your ears were on high alert, staying as still as possible so you could focus on the voices drifting out of the room. You were a bit farther away, since you wanted to be hidden, but if you strained yourself enough, you could make out the sounds. You tried not to make yourself tense, afraid you would wrinkle the envelope. You had been so careful with it. Making sure you didnât smudge any words as you wrote, perfuming the paper afterward. You even used that expensive wax and seal that you bought only for journaling purposes. You wanted it to be known that you made an effort.
All for him.
It was hard not to fall for someone as charming as Oikawa. He was tall and handsome, he was always so nice, always welcoming to anyone who wanted to speak to him. He was beyond talented. You could watch him play for hours. You did watch him play for hours. At the end of the day, you were just like all the other giggling, blushing girls who admired him.
The only difference is that you had never gone farther than admiration until now. You had never spoken to him, never greeted him in the hallways, never made him anything to eat like girls often did. You had watched from afar and basked in the warm, bubbly feeling that comes with having crushes.
But now here you were, slipping him a letter with all your feelings written on it. You were going into this not expecting him to accept the confession. You hadnât even put your name on it. It was anonymous. God knows how many of these he got on a daily basis. And with Valentineâs Day approaching, you were sure his locker was overflowing. What was one more, right? You were doing this for yourself more than anything else. You needed to get these feelings out because they were overflowing in your head.
You were shaken from your thoughts when you realized the locker room was completely silent by now. You listened closely, giving it another few minutes. No shuffling, no humming, not even a peep. The coast was clear.
You could feel your entire body shake as you turned the corner and stealthily hurried to the club room door. You couldnât let anyone see you going inside, so you quickly opened the door, slipping in and sliding the door shut behind you. You let out a sigh of relief.
Then you turned around, and your eyes met wide chestnut ones.
Oikawa was standing next to an open locker, a half folded shirt in his hand. He had probably been mid fold when you had barged in, staring at you with those big browns, mouth slightly open. Thick silence stretched over you both as you stood frozen, not even blinking.
Oikawaâs eyes drifted down to your hand, the very obvious, deep red envelope. His lips twitched before a smile took over them.
âHello there.â His voice was lively. âIs that for me?â
You tensed at the sound of his voice, your panic finally catching up to your brain as you gulped around the knot in your throat. âNo!â
He raised an eyebrow at that, tilting his head a bit. A lock of his hair fell over his forehead. âNo?â
âNo.â
Another silence, awkward as anything. You couldnât move at all. You felt like you were frozen in place. Every muscle in your body was pulled tight. You had never anticipated that of all the people who could catch you in the locker room, it would be Oikawa himself.
âSo whoâs it for?â He then asked, eyes darting between your face and the envelope. You felt your face burn, heating up so much it made you dizzy.
âItâs-â Your mouth was so dry. You had no saliva. None. Not a drop. It felt like you were incomprehensible. Could you even speak? Or was it all gibberish? Were you spiraling now?
Oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god-
âItâs for Iwaizumi-san.â
Oikawa blinked at that, and you realized you had caught him off guard. Well, he wasnât the only one. You had caught yourself off guard too. It seemed that, in the midst of your panic and staring at Oikawa, the only other person you could name was Iwaizumi.
Iwaizumi Hajime. Oikawaâs best friend. Seijohâs ace. Someone you saw just as much as Oikawa considering they were attached at the hip. No wonder when you had to think of someone, you thought of him.
âWell now Iâm truly shocked!â Oikawa sounded jovial, placing a hand on his hip, his half folded shirt crumpled in his other hand. âA confession for Iwa-chan? I never thought this day would come!â
Your mind raced and you tried to scramble your thoughts together into somewhat understandable sentences. But you had just dug this fresh hole for yourself and you didnât know what to do to get out of it. In fact, at this moment, there was no getting out of it. You had to go along.
âY-yes.â You managed to blurt out, not knowing what else to say, looking anywhere but at him, who was steadily growing more and more amused by the second.
âYou have to give it to him!â
Your head snapped up, and thatâs when you realised what true panic was. What you had felt so far was nothing compared to the shitstorm your brain was experiencing after what he had just said.
âCome on.â Oikawa threw the shirt carelessly into his locker, slamming it shut and fast walking to you. With one grip on your forearm, he tugged open the club room door and proceeded to speed out of it, dragging you with him.
âW-wait!â Your voice trembled, and you doubt he even heard you. You felt like your whole mouth was stuffed with cotton. You tried to lock your legs into place and break Oikawaâs momentum. It was not happening. He was way stronger than you. You tried to pry his hand off your arm, but his grip was vice-like.
âOikawa-san!â You basically shrieked like a hyena, finally breaking through right outside the Seijoh gym. You snatched your hand away.
âI canât!â
Oikawa stared down at you, blinking owlishly. You bit your lip.
âOh.â He breathed, and you saw realization wash over his face. You froze. Had he figured it out?
âI get it.â Did he?
Then he promptly turned around and cupped his mouth with his hands, leaning in through the open gym doors.
âIwa-chan!â He shouted.
You gaped at him, struggling to even comprehend what was going on in his head. But that was the least of your worries, because trudging footsteps sounded and then the boy in question was standing in the gym entrance, scowling down at his friend.
Oh no. Oh, this is bad. This is so bad, Iâm so screwed-
âLook!â Oikawa pointed at you, or more accurately, he pointed at the envelope in your hand. Iwaizumi followed his gaze, and you saw his scowl drop as shock colored his features.
âItâs for you! Can you believe it?â Oikawa let out a cackle, leaning an arm against the gym door. You wanted nothing more than for the ground to open up and swallow you whole.
Iwaizumi looked genuinely incredulous, like this was something he hadnât dreamt of in his wildest dreams. Later when you looked back on what happened, you would be surprised that despite being friends with the most popular guy on campus, Iwaizumi did not get much attention. He lived in Oikawaâs shadow, and he liked it that way.
Right now, his feelings were the least of your concerns though.
Finally free from Oikawaâs grasp, you lunged forward, slamming the envelope against his chest before turning on your heel and absolutely booking it. There was no other option. You couldnât give that shit to Iwaizumi. You also couldnât give it to Oikawa and say you had lied. It couldnât get any more humiliating than it already was, so you might as well run away.
Very active fight or flight response, one might say.
Oikawa watched your back as you ran full speed, one hand holding the envelope he was so unceremoniously handed. He turned his attention down to it when the flowery scent hit his nose, and he couldnât help but smile.
âAw, she perfumed it too! How romantic.â
He grinned up at Iwaizumi, whose ears had turned red. Iwaizumiâs scowl deepened as he stared at the shiteating grin on Oikawaâs face. But he didnât stop himself from taking the envelope Oikawa handed to him, his heart doing jumping jacks in his chest.
âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ..
When you tried to convince your mom that you didnât really need high school when homeschooling was a perfectly viable option, she told you to suck it up and there was no way you were dropping out. You didnât know how to tell her that your life in high school was pretty much over. How could you show your face in any place where you might run into Oikawa or Iwaizumi?
But alas, you could only take one sick day before throwing yourself back to the wolves.
You were jumpy the whole day, paranoid that somehow everyone knew what had happened two days ago. But your day went by as normal, unaffected by the storm in your head. You shouldâve known your peace wouldnât last. At lunchtime, the one person you had been dreading the most was standing before your desk, looking down at you expectantly.
âI was hoping we could talk.â
Well. This was it. The one thing you were hoping and praying you could somehow avoid.
Iwaizumi led you outside for some privacy, finding an empty bench overlooking the schoolâs running track. You sat stiffly by his side, waiting for him to speak.
âI read the letter.â
You closed your eyes and nodded, coaxing him to continue. You knew the contents of the letter. You had mulled them over in your head ten thousand times yesterday. You had not written Oikawaâs name. You had talked only about how you felt about him and the thoughts plaguing your head. You knew how easily Iwaizumi could have thought it was about him and not Oikawa.
âIâm sorry.â You blurted out.
âFor the confession?â
You hesitated. âFor how it all played out.â
That was vague enough.
Iwaizumi let out a breathy chuckle, and you looked up at him. âI think I should apologize instead. Oikawa can be a bit of an insensitive jerk.â
You felt your lips twitch into a smile, shrugging. âHe kinda steamrolled all over me.â
Iwaizumi groaned, running a hand through his spiky hair. You followed the movement with your eyes, gaze pausing on how his bicep flexed. Something in your heart stuttered.
Up close, he was extremely attractive. His skin was smooth and clean, and his hair looked soft despite being so short. His jaw was defined and his eyes were striking. When he looked at you for longer than a beat, it made your insides squirm.
âIâm sorry about him. He told me he found you in the club room. Iâm sure you wanted to do it anonymously. He shouldnât have dragged you here. That wasnât cool.â
You smiled at how considerate he was being. âIt- Itâs okay.â
âAnd Iâll make him apologize to you too. Promise.â
His lip ticked up in a crooked smile. You couldnât help but stare. You watched him grow a bit nervous, rubbing the back of his neck. A little habit?
âI was wondering if you would like to have dinner with me sometime?â
The question caught you off guard. You knew how Iwaizumi perceived you after the contents of that confession. You had just not anticipated that he would want anything to do with you. In your slurry of thoughts, you realized you had still not told him that the confession wasnât for him. You stared at him, wide-eyed.
The sun beat down on your heads, casting harsh shadows on his face. High cheekbones. Strong jaw. And those same captivating eyes. You couldnât remember ever appreciating him the way you were right now. Oikawaâs light was so bright it made Iwaizumi almost invisible. But here and now, it was just him. No distractions, no takeaways. Just Iwaizumi in all his glory. And it was making your heart skip.
âOkay.â You breathed.
Iwaizumi positively lit up at your words, straightening his back. His features smoothed, his eyes widened and a smile took over his face.
âCool!â He blurted out, before clearing his throat. âThatâs uh, I mean. Great. Thatâs great.â
You giggled as he stumbled over his words, endeared by his reaction. Your heart and mind both told you this was the right decision. With Oikawa, it was a puppy crush. With Iwaizumi, something told you it could be so much more.
Years later, when you told Iwaizumi about the exact intentions of that letter, and how you were beyond grateful you hadnât given it to Oikawa, all he did was cackle while the Argentinian setter whined about how he had missed his chance.
He was joking, of course. He was the proudest best man ever at your wedding. He wouldnât have it any other way.
#iwaizumi hajime#iwaizumi x reader#iwaizumi hajime x reader#iwaizumi hajime fluff#hq x reader#hq fluff#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu x reader#iwaizumi hajime x you#iwaizumi hajime x y/n#oikawa tooru#iwaizumi x you#iwaizumi x y/n#iwaizumi fanfiction
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Because Iâm terrible and the plots wonât leave me alone, Iâve now got an idea based on this post about a demon who feasts on pain and suffering being a medical practitioner for the chronically and terminally ill and the patients fully loving it. And then my brain rot had to say âmake it Steddieâ because Iâve lost all control of my life.
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cw: terminal illness, minor and major character death (with a happy ending tho)
But imagine it. Eddie is a demon, a low ranking one at that originally. He gets a job at a medical facility for the chronically/terminally ill. Over time at the happy and consensual feasting he really does become one of the strongest demons because heâs constantly fed to the brim and he even has human worshippers, not that theyâre traditional worshippers.
No, his followers are little old senior citizens who slip him butterscotch candies and other sweets theyâre not supposed to have, which technically count as offerings. They thank him for his work, because he does actually take care of their bodies as well and even listens to their life stories, which count as praise and worship. They love and are devoted to him and they bring in their friends and family who are suffering too and Eddieâs accidental cult grows.
One day, things change. A young man, an anomaly in his youth, is brought in by parents who no longer wish to be burdened by their disabled son. Steve just shrugs it off and moves in with a smile, seemingly fine with being abandoned by his parents because he dared to be anything other than perfectly healthy.
He puts around the facility in his terry cloth robe and slippers on some days, others he dresses up in polos and slacks or even jeans when heâs feeling more casual, and always with a smile on his face. He makes those around him smile and laugh too, and his cheeks get pinched and heâs slipped candies too and he listens to othersâ stories and he seems happy and content.
But Eddie feeds on his pain and suffering all the same, knows that behind that smile is a young boy who was told he probably wouldnât live to see 30, who listens to the older folks knowing he would never get to live a life like that. Eddie knows that sometimes Steve cries himself to sleep at night.
Over time, Eddie and Steve grow closer. Steve hadnât believed that Eddie was a demon at first, had thought it all just a joke, until one night Mr. Wozniak was laying in his bed, and Steve hadnât meant to overhear, but he was passing by and the door was cracked open.
âWill I go to Hell now?â Mr. Wozniak was asking, but he seems peaceful all the same, like the thought wasnât the terrifying ordeal so many people thought it was.
âNo, sweetheart,â Eddie was saying, but his voice sounds a little off, huskier, likeâŠlike brimstone sat in his throat. âIâve never claimed your soul. Itâs still your own. Go find Irena. Sheâs been waiting for you for too long.â
Irena, Steve knew from speaking with Mr. Wozniak, was his young wife who had died decades earlier.
âWill I get to see you again?â
Eddieâs long fingers reach out, his nails long and sharp, dark in a way that was not nail polish. He lightly and gently strokes the papery skin of Mr. Wozniakâs cheek. âYou will be at peace. You will find the afterlife is so much more than this Good-vs-Evil rhetoric so popular in this plane of existence. Go in peace, my child, and should you wish it, perhaps one day we might meet again.â
Mr. Wozniak smiles at that, and he closes his eyes with a softly whispered, âIrena, Iâm comingâŠâ
A moment later, he was gone.
Steve watches as Eddie seems to grow smaller, appear more normal, and though he knows he should be terrified, he isnât. Instead he continues on his way, letting the knowledge of more percolate in his brain, though by the next morning when news of Mr. Wozniakâs passing spreads and Eddie assures everyone that he passed away peacefully and in no pain, Steve knows Eddie speaks the truth and he realizes that nothing has changed. Eddie is still Eddie.
They continue to grow closer. He spends more time with Eddie, lets Eddie in fully on how much he hurts, and tells the demon that he wished things had been different and that they could have met under better circumstances.
Eddie tells him that he never enjoyed the taste of regret. It was far too bitter.
They fall in love, encouraged by their friends in the facility new and old, who donât seem to care that he is a mortal with a short life expectancy and Eddie is an immortal demon lord. What is all that in the face of true love?
And then it happens, and Steve is the one lying in bed, knowing his time has come. He smiles up at Eddie and decides not to regret any of it, not wanting their final moments to be flavored with bitterness.
âStevie,â Eddie whispers mournfully, and heâs beautiful. Itâs not his full true form, but his eyes are a dark blood red, his teeth elongated into sharp fangs, and his pale skin veined with reds and blacks. Horns curl out from his curly hair.
âYou said once that I get to be with my loved ones after this,â Steve says, still smiling, and he reaches up to cup Eddieâs jaw with a weakened hand. Eddie nods against him, and Steve wonders if all demons can cry, or if itâs just his. âThen take my soul, darling. It already belongs to you.â
Eddie flinches back, like Steve knew he would, because souls are not little things. Eddie had explained before, after everything, that he didnât even actually deal in souls, that that wasnât the sort of demon he was. Steve had asked if he could, on a technicality, and Eddie had paused because saying yes, any demon could, but souls were priceless. When you gave one up to a demon, you gave up everything. You would be theirs until the end of days. Eddie had said he wasnât that sort of demon.
âBaby, no,â Eddie breathes now, shaking his head gently enough not to dislodge Steveâs hand. âYou would beââ
âYours,â Steve interrupts. âBut I already am. You already own my heart. I now willingly give you my soul. All you have to do is accept it.â
And Eddie protests, at first, because Steve is giving him complete control over him for eternity. Steve gives it freely with open arms, and in the end, Eddie can do nothing but accept it. He tells Steve that he doesnât know if demons have souls or not, but his belongs to Steve just as assuredly as his own heart does.
Steveâs final mortal breath is gifted into Eddieâs crimson mouth, full of peace and love and the understanding that this thing between them will always beat eternal.
It turns out that, whether it was still unknown if all demons had souls, Eddie was the sort that does.
And it also turns out that, when youâre gifted a demon lordâs soul, you become a demon too.
Eddieâs cult ends soon after, disbanded into non-existence. In its place, however, rises a new one that worships not just one demon caretaker, but two as Eddie is soon joined by another with floppy brown hair and sparkling brown eyes that for once smiles without hidden pain. They take care of their charges, gently coax them into eternal rest when itâs their time, and together prove that true love is forever.
#source: thesnadger et al.#this became more than I meant it too but I couldnât stop#I for one would worship these demon overlords too#demon!eddie munson#terminally-ill!steve harrington#based on a text post#I kept steveâs condition purposely vague because I donât know shit about medical conditions#eddie munson#steve harrington#steddie#steddie au#plot thots
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That predator x prey fix changed my brain chemistry. MORE PLEASE. Maybe in the woods? Somewhere in the middle of nowhere? Iâm begging you, the way you write sylus is exactly how I imagine him đ«
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Tags: sylus x fem!reader, predator x prey, cnc, hitting, choking, biting, slight injuries, pet names like kitten and sweetie, ends in fluff :3
AN: Back again with another spicy fic for my fellow deviants. I love writing this stuff so much. I hope yall enjoy! Tysm for 5,000 likes btw! I never would have thought people would like my stories this much!
You feel like youâre on the verge of collapsing.
Pushing off from the tall tree you decided to rest on, you start brushing off the dust and grease from the trail mix you were snacking on. Sweat pooled on your face and down your neck, and much to your dismay there wasnât much breeze today.
âSylusâŠare you about ready to go?â You asked, looking ahead at the man that was already 10 steps ahead of you. His long legs were certainly an advantage. You hear him chuckle and turn to meet your gaze.
âTired already? I thought for a hunter youâd have much more stamina than this sweetieâ he teases, making his way back towards you. âYes, we can go if youâre doneâ
You had nonchalantly mentioned a few days prior how you felt cooped up in the bright city of Linkon, and had seen pictures of people doing hikes near this camping area. Didnât really think anything of it until Sylus of course, had bags packed and items prepared for you within a weekend and insisted he was taking you somewhere âquietâ.
This certainly came as a shock. Though you didnât complain much until now. You were surprisingly good at this hiking stuff, good enough that you felt confident on the more difficult trails that were so remote it was almost impossible to find the trail sometimes.
You scoff at him, rummaging through your bag to find a half empty metal water flask at the bottom. Taking a quick swig, you peer past the bottle to scan the surrounding trees and scenery.
âSayâŠwe didnât really see anyone on this trail. Kinda strange right?â you ask, sighing with relief as you finished chugging the rest of the cold water. Sylus raises an eyebrow at you, seemingly in thought.
âWe are pretty far out. These are the more difficult trails after allâ he said nonchalantly, watching curiously as a small smile arose on your face.
âIs that so?â you ask, taking a few steps forward to gaze up at Sylus. Although confused, he takes an arm and wraps it around your waist, listening intently.
âYes. Why do you ask?â.
âSoâŠno one else uses them?â.
âHardly everâ.
Oh.
Sylus was certainly no dummy but was unsure what you were getting at. Knowing you well enough though, he could definitely see you were up to something. You lean in closer to him, the smell of his sweat and his bourbon cologne enveloping your senses. Your hands messed with the hem of his t-shirt. A slight blush rose to your cheeks.
âYou have something in mind kitten?â he asked coyly, his patience beginning to dwindle a bit. Any longer and heâd definitely get it out of you one way or another.
You hesitated, looking down at his feet. He was more than indulgent into giving you what you asked for in terms of sex, but this might be a little too much. You debated just dropping it.
âNo. Say it sweetieâ Sylus teased, as if he had just read your mind. He grabbed your chin and forced you to look at him, rendering you a bit helpless. âOr should I see for myself?â
His eye lit up a bit as he said this. You gulped, shaking your head before opening your mouth to speak.
âI was thinking..." Heat rose up your neck, "Maybe we could come back here at night. And maybe you couldâŠhunt me down a little?"
Sylus chuckled, not the least bit surprised you suggested something like this. You begin to pout at his laughter and try to turn away from him, unsuccessfully of course. He immediately ended your small outburst with a quick but deep kiss.
âYou never say anything that surprises me kittenâ he said, shaking his head in amusement. You yelp a bit as he picks you and your bags up, beginning to carry you bridal style back to the cabin.
âWell, go on then. How does one get you out here, all alone, to hunt you down?â
The night was almost unbearably muggy. The August heat laid down on you with it's full weight, crushing the air from your lungs. The sheets were kicked down to the bottom of the bed, barely hanging on. You wore nothing but bikini-style underwear and a thin, silk camisole, your body was still slick with sweat. The window was open and the fan was on but nothing challenged the summer heat wave.
You were unable sleep. Not fully. You were passing in and out of consciousness in a hot, confusing haze, not ever sure when you were awake, when you were dreaming, and when you were in that weird space between.
When you felt hands on your legs, you were pretty sure you were dreaming. They caressed up your calves to the sensitive backside of your thighs. Another hand tucking the hair out of your face, gently following the curve of your neck, then under and around your shoulders.
You were lifted out of bed by strong arms and a familiar, bourbon like smell. Your eyes started to flutter open.
"Shh, shh. Donât wake up nowâŠnot yet" You nodded in agreement, plunging back down into sleep. A lukewarm breeze on your back stirred you. The sound of a car door opening, then the familiar smell of a pine car freshener. You were being placed in the back seat.
"Sy?" You asked, barely able to muster your voice. You tried to force your eyes open.
Sylusâs tall form leaned over you in the dark. A devilish look darkened his features. Then he was gone from you, and you were asleep once more.
You snapped awake when the car bounced across some deep pot hole. Where were you? How did you get here? The car rolled to a stop as you sat up, your heavy, restless sleep weighing down your limbs.
"Oh, good. I was worried you'd miss the best part."
"The bestâŠpart?" You asked, trying to take in your surroundings. Still waking up from slumber, you try your best to rub the blurriness from your vision.
Thick forest surrounded the car on either side. A familiar, faded trail sign loomed over the driver's side. You were confused, and the deep timber of Sylusâs voice was scaring you a little. He was getting out of the car and coming round to the other side when you finally put it together.
He opened the back door, and then his rough hands hauled you out of the seat like you weighed nothing. Your bare feet met rough gravel with sharp discomfort.
"The best part," Sylus said. Then he let you go. You stumbled into the gravel, your legs not quite ready to take your weight. You hit the gravel hard, small rocks biting into the fat of your thighs and your palms.
âOw-!â you cry, rubbing your hands together to ease the sting. You look back up at him, feeling tears beginning to form in your eyes as you tried to meet his gaze.
He didn't even look at you. He wore a black t-shirt that even in the dark accentuated his muscles. The sleeves were tight around his biceps. It was tucked into black pants, accompanied by those favorite shoes of his. He pulled out a watch from one of his pockets.
"Three minutes," he told you, his voice without a hint of levity. It was almost bored, even.
You didn't move, suddenly shivering in the summer heat. You watched him roll his eyes. His hand found the back of your head and you screamed when he pulled you up to him by the hair. Your hands on his forearms helped. You could feel his muscles there and suddenly felt like he could throw you into a concrete wall if he felt like it.
You remember that Sylus is dangerous. You had no chance against him if he wanted to hurt you. He could do it with ease, even now all it would take is a quick twist of your neck and youâd be gone. You both stare at each other, his expression cold and void of any emotion.
âI suggest you start runningâ he growled. âMy favorite part isnât any fun if my prey doesnât fight back a little.â
Your stomach dropped, a jolt of excitement rippling through you as you caught his meaning. He tilted his head, waiting for your response. You nodded, biting the corners of your cheeks to keep from begging him to touch you already.
Then heâs throwing you forward again.
It felt obscenely cruel, like he didn't care if you ate gravel again. You stumbled, but you didn't fall this time, using the momentum to propel yourself into the woods. All your focus turned into trying to âsurviveâ. Your hunter reflexes and skills were certainly helping, as you felt yourself whipping past the trees and growing the distance between you and Sylus.
It wouldnât last long though.
You could hear the crunch of gravel and sticks beneath his shoes from behind you, clearly in no hurry though. As if he was just taking a nightly stroll.
Your bare feet met the soft dirt at the start of the trail. It was pitch in the woods and you could hardly see anything in front of you, relying entirely on muscle memory. Broken branches scraped against your ankles.
You splashed through the creek you had jumped over earlier, the ice cold water shocking you a bit.
âShouldnât you know the trail a little better than that, kitten?," Sylus mocked almost lazily from somewhere behind you.
Fuck.
You wasted no time to think though. You were on solid ground once more, soft dirt and moss bouncing beneath your feet. You kept running until your lungs hurt. Trees scratched up your arms and legs, dirt and mud splattered across your limbs. You lost track of time, not sure how long you'd been running for.
Your lungs began to burn and you had no choice but to finally stop. You attempt to catch your breath and take in your surrounds but you can hardly see anything.
Were you even going the right way? Is this the same trail even?
Trying not to panic, you start jogging forward. Maybe you could find a tall tree or a big rock to hide behind?
Something rustled in the bushes. Your heart pounded, your blood rushed in your ears. You tried to quiet your breathing but your lungs fought for air. The forest was quiet again.
Shit, you were so fucking lost.
You wanted so badly to sit and rest, but you forced yourself forward. The path got more difficult here. You had to use the trees and rocks around you to navigate rough terrain.
The bushes rustled again, this time ahead of you.
You froze to your spot. An animal? Your pursuer? You suddenly were even more terrified, wondering if you were gonna meet an untimely demise by a bear or something.
Then he appeared out of the darkness ahead of you like a tiger emerging from water. It was a smooth transition, his movements liquid and purposeful. It was like he belonged to these woods more than the world outside. How did he get ahead of you?
Twigs snapped beneath his shoes as he made a steady pace towards you. He rolled his shoulders, stretching his neck as he strolled confidently forward.
You turned to run, sprinting into the woods on shaking, tired legs. A scream escaped you as the adrenaline pooled again in your body. Your higher brain, the part that knew this was a game, was having fun. But that deeper core of your being? The part responsible for fight or flight? An integral part of the human core? That part was terrified.
Feeling generous, Sylus let you get a few paces ahead before sprinting after you. In almost no time he caught up to you, his evol wrapping around your ankle, causing you to fall and hit the mossy earth. Sylus wasted no time getting on top of your thrashing body. He wasnât even panting or out of breath, unlike you, who was struggling to breathe underneath him.
His arms were around your hips, pinning you against his body. His breath was hot in your ear. You squirmed and thrashed as hard as you could, trying to break free of his grasp. The cold and familiar feel of his evol began to snake around you, threatening to hold you in place and trap you under his looming figure.
âStop!â you screamed, animalistic terror overtaking your body. Your defiant attitude raged forward, refusing to accept your predicament.
âHush now kittenâ Sylus cooed, brushing some hair out of your face. âYou did a good job making it as far as you didâŠbut youâre mine nowâ
Screw you!," you hissed, kicking at his legs, adrenaline moving you harder than you meant to. Your heel found a soft part of his inner thigh. He released you with a hiss.
Oh, shit," you turned to face him, already about to apologize, but froze at the expression on his face. He chuckled, but it was a joyless sound. Then a hand was coming down across your cheek, hard enough to stagger you.
Your ear rang, a heavy stinging sensation burned that side of your face. Heat pooled between your legs. The pain thrilled you. You let out a few choked gasps, the stinging sensation turning into just a slight burn.
Then his hands were on either side of your face. He was gentle, tilting your jaw towards him to examine the damage.
âBehave. I donât want to bruise your pretty faceâ he said, his tone a mix of anger yet overwhelmingly concerned. You nod reassuringly, a need of a sudden defiance overcoming you.
âYknow, for the leader of Onychinus, you hit like a bitchâ you spat, a smug expression growing on your face.
He struck you again, hard enough to draw a sound from you somewhere between a wince and a whimper. You swore you saw stars.
"Always fucking testing me" he growled. âLetâs fix thatâ.
One hand was grabbing you by the hair again, another wrapping around to grab your throat. He squeezed. That sweet, floating feeling. Then release, the blood rushing back.
He did it again, longer, until you felt weightless, until your vision started to blur. Then release, and you crashed down into your body.
He wrestled you down onto the ground. Your fingers dug into his forearms leaving hot, red scratches. You kicked at him, but he was expecting it this time. You really, really tried to fight him off. You put everything you had into it, animalistic protests falling on deaf ears as he was simply much stronger than you. He shoved your face into the damp earth.
âFuck you," you groaned, your breath stirring the dirt in front of your lips.
âYouâre about to sweetieâ
You heard his belt, then his zipper. He shifted his body against you and you could hear the shift in fabric as he pulled his pants down. You struggled against him the entire time, and he barely even acknowledged you. Fuck, it turned you on to see how easily he could overpower you. One handed, even.
He pulled your hips up to his, spreading your legs apart with his knee. He leaned over you.
"Do you have any fucking idea," he muttered, his voice fanning a building flame between your legs, "How much restraint it takes to not fucking hurt you?"
His words alone drew a whimper from you. Instinctually, you backed your hips against him, inviting him. You pressed your ass against his cock, feeling it hard and warm. His breath shuddered.
"Can't believe you like this," he muttered, lining himself up with your cunt. "You want to take my cock face down in the dirt. How would the Hunters Association feel if they know they had such a dirty girl protecting Linkon hm?â
You weren't even sure when he got your underwear off, but he found your cunt dripping wet. Of course he did.
He dips a finger in between your folds, and you whimper and shake beneath him. Practically panting, you attempt to push back against the friction.
âSyâŠtake me, pleaseâ you whined, the aching hot feeling in your core beginning to be too much to bare.
âLouderâ he said, pushing the head of his cock inside your hole just barely. Even though heâs barely inside of you, the sensation is incredible. You can barely think of a few words much less say them, bliss and pleasure flooding your entire body.
You try and push yourself up against him but he hovered just out of reach.
âNot what I asked forâ he said plainly.
âPlease Sylusâ you begged. âPlease fuck me in th-â
You didn't get to finish your sentence. His cock pushed into you in one motion, a loud, gasping moan escaping you. A low growl escaped him, sending a thrill down your spine.
Sylus pulled back, then pushed into you again. Hard. His hands squeezed onto your hips beyond bruising. Fuck, you were sure he could break the bone if he wanted to.
He fucked you hard, both of you a sweating, panting mess. The sounds of his cock slamming into your soaked pussy rang out into the forest, your moans unbridled by fear of bothering any nearby wildlife.
âAh! HgnâŠSylus, that's too much," you managed through your moans, pain blooming across your body. You squirm a bit but it only makes him grip your body tighter.
"You can handle it," he growled, not even slowing.
His teeth sunk into your shoulder, electricity running through your body. He bit into you like a rabid dog, his breath quick and heavy on your skin. You cry out, unable to do much besides take the brutal pounding Sylus was giving you.
Your legs were shaking against him. The sounds you made were wild, a flurry of unbridled moans and curses. Sylus didn't speak so much as he growled; rough, guttural. A feral animal lost in how good fucking you felt.
"Fuck, fuck, I'm-Sylus, fuck, I'm so..."
He released his bite on you, growling encouragement in your ear. You teetered on the edge for what felt like eternity, your high just building, and building, and building.
His hand buried into your hair again, pulling your face from the dirt. He used your hair to pull you against him, sharp pain rocketing down your back.
It was enough to tip you over the edge. You came hard, shaking and nearly crying with how fucking good it felt.
Three hard thrusts and Sylus was cumming with you, unable to hold back. The familiar warm feeling of his seed shooting inside your walls was exhilarating. The two of you gasped for air, panting and heaving, sweat pouring down the both of you. You lay there on the ground shaking and whimpering like a hurt animal, all your sensations overwhelmed by the animalistic sex that just occurred.
Sylus immediately pulled out of you, leaning back on his ankles. He gathered you up against him, clutching you in his embrace tightly. Neither of you said anything, just panting and holding each other. Eventually you managed to breathe normally, and didnât feel so adrenaline pumped. You steadily relax in his arms much to his relief.
âBe honest with meâ Sylus starts, brushing some tangled hair off of your sweat and dirt covered face. You hum questionably, wondering if something was wrong.
âWas it too much? Are you hurt?â
You let out a snort, much to his surprise. âI mean I am soreâŠbut Iâve fought wanderers who hurt me far worse than thatâ
This earned you a slight chuckle from Sylus, who began rubbing his fingers on his temple in amusement. âIs that so? Are you saying I need to hurt you better than a wanderer? I can certainly make that happen sweetieâ
You immediately shake your head, and Sylus lets out an even louder bit of laughter.
âI-I was kidding!! Donât you dare-â
âI know sweetie, I would never hurt you that bad. Not even if you asked me toâ he said softly, standing up with you in his arms much to your surprise. He helps you straighten out your clothes, offering a steady shoulder while you put your underwear back on, eventually tending to his own. The sun was steadily rising at this point, the peak of the sunset cascading a warm glow over the forest.
You attempt to start walking in the direction of the car but your legs are terribly achy and shake with every step. Sylus leans down in front of you, motioning for you to get on his back. You oblige, happily leaning your head against the back of his neck as he carries you.
âI brought you extra clothes in the carâ he says, making careful steps to avoid turbulence for you. You beamed from behind him, feeling giddy all of a sudden.
âYouâre so sweet Sylus, itâs cuteâ
You hear an audible hmph come from him, but it only makes you giggle more.
When the two of you finally made it back to the car, the sun had risen even more, much to Sylusâs displeasure. He helped you take off your dirty and torn clothes, helping put a thin but simple nightdress over your head. After having your face wiped down with baby wipes you relax in the passenger seat, exhaustion finally overwhelming you.
âWhen we get back, weâll have a nice shower and dinner before we go to sleep sweetie. How does that sound?â Sylus asked, gazing at you with the softest look you had ever seen from him.
âBest words youâve ever said to me Syâ
He grinned and started the engine.
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Astrology Observations đŽ
air venus/air mars are usually the type of people to fall for the friends or find nothing wrong with having a fwb (friend with benefits)
venus touching the ascendant (no matter the aspect) can manifest a beautiful appearance (same with mars but with mars, i would say this gives more of a sex appeal vibe)
scorpio moon/mars definitely wins the title for holding grudges the longest/being the most unforgivable if you cross them
i realized that a lot of aries mercury people donât really think before they speakđ
taurus mercury people are those type of people to repeat what they already said just to make sure everyone understood
my gemini mercury people.. i know how hard it is for you to stay focused. youâre doing great reading this sweetie
cancer mercury people have craaazy intuition
if youâre looking for someone to tell a good story, find you a leo mercury!! these people are such good story tellers đ
virgo mercury people can be brutally honest people when giving advice, which can hurt people in the process but thatâs not their intention most of the time!
if you need a mediator during an argument, find u a libra mercury. theyâre always looking at both sides of an argument
scorpio mercury people can become very rude/disrespectful if they feel annoyed or bothered. especially if they have sag/cap placements.. scary
sagittarius mercury people almost always come off as too blunt
capricorn mercury people, how often are you put in leadership positions? đ€
aquarius mercury people and their way of coming up with ideas no one else could think of >>
pisces mercury people.. you and that imagination of yours. always in your head. i know you enjoy living in your imagination dont you (my neptune 3rd house can relate so youâre not alone lol)
taurus moon + scorpio venus lovers >>
the best omg this guy that im talking to right now has this combo and heâs always spoiling me with gifts, mind you weâre not even dating đ and theyâre SO observant. like i play my music around him sometimes and yesterday he literally surprised me with a playlist of my favorite songs & his favorite songs (heâs moving away so he made it for me to listen while heâs gone when i miss him đ) but wow. if you want real love, these people are it
pluto 4th house people.. howâs your family/home life?
pluto 1st house people.. how many times has it felt like you killed your old self just to make a new one? coming back stronger and stronger each time of course
im soo tired of this gemini venus slander and saying WE CHEAT! we dont cheat we just lose interest fast if youâre boring or fail to keep our brains stimulated. just dont be monotone/boring, make us laugh & weâll be willing to work on the connection đ its also just that we dont really deal well with a bunch of intense emotions being thrown at us. give us time
capricorn moon people.. are you ok? and dont lie to me
scorpio suns.. how is your relationship with your father?
i saw someone say how saturn in 1st house people hate the inverted filter & they were nott wrong. my sister has this placement and she despises it. always picking at every single flaw she has whole time she looks fine lol
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