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epickiya722 · 2 months

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Yuta in 263: *Windows sound effect*

#like... that's all i heard in my head #GET YO ASS BACK UP I'M ROOTING FOR YOU #actually no take a break but please do get back up #just kiya's thoughts #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 263 #yuta okkotsu #okkotsu yuta

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giantkillerjack · 1 year

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Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need.#the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist.#the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28!#a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents.#they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong.#and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives.#you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead?#or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of.#no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow.#i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong.#just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

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benevolenterrancy · 11 days

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May your hardened heart be woken By the soft and distant song Of all you left here unspoken All the shards we keep stepping on - Take this body home Take this body home Call the wind, and let her know Take this life outgrown Take this broken soul Call the stars, call them all And take it high, take it far, take it home

#svsss #luo binghe #shen qingqiu #bingqiu #sqq #lbh #scum villain #heard the song Take This Body Home by Rose Betts and it nearly took me out at the knees #it really really suits sqq's self-detonation in hua yue city right? i'm not the only one feeling this?#considered adding some literal shards for them to be stepping on - since sqq's sword explodes - but i couldn't quite make it work #anyway this has been playing like a music video in my head for the past couple days highly recommend listening to the song #if you haven't heard it before #can't get over the absolute dissonance between how sqq views this scene and how everyone else must feel about it #like to him he's just completing his plan - hopefully keeping lbh from destroying a city with energy imbalance and escaping The Plot #nbd! he and sqh have planned it all out it's FINE :) off he goes!#meanwhile everyone who loves him - including lbh who worked years to get back to him and is trying to work through a lot of grief #and resentment and doubt and longing and... - watches him DIE in FRONT OF THEM #just collapse while coughing up blood sword disintegrating energy completely consumed #like holy hell sqq could you traumatize the people around you any more???#no wonder lbh went a little bit crazy after that like my man was already not in a great place but what the fuck #lbh watches his shizun presumably sacrifice himself for him ONCE AGAIN like after he's finally Gotten Strong his shizun is STILL #coming to harm in an effort to make up for his shortcomings #my art #most of the time out here drawing what amounts to muppets and then sometimes i get the urge for this and just need to cover everyone in blo

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thefirstpaleontologist · 8 months

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Anatomy of Alastors demonic forms

#Alastor #hazbin hotel #we know he got shot in the head by a hunter and that’s how he died #and that that’s prob tied to why he’s a deer demon #and radio dial eyes is obv because of his ties to being a radio host in life and now in death #but do we know anything about the stitches and broken neck #in a lot of scenes we see him twist his neck violently #and in his demons forms it’s always crooked #did his neck get snapped during or after he was shot?#I guarantee you that if we ever get a scene where Alston’s neck is bare it will have a fucked up scar or something #I’ve heard theories that the stitches on his mouth could be tied to his constant smile #either that his smile is such an important feature that it became permanent in death #or that whoever he made a deal with made it so he’s not able to actually talk about it #could be both even because in some scenes there’s only stitches in the corner of his mouth and in the deal scene they’re all the way across #personally the stitches in combo with the deer form and the fact he was killed by a hunter makes my mind go to taxidermy #it kind of looks like he was stuffed and stitched up #I’ve also seen people compare his stiches to those voodoo dolls #but I dont know enough about them to make any kind of comparison

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dagrapesody · 29 days

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They‘re in love

(Guys can we have more Marx and traitor/crowned magolor together plssss i need it)

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arttsuka · 26 days

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I made something....

The drawings:

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callmelittlesanshine · 1 year

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“Just let me die”

same Copia.. same

(Ritual in Ulm 20.06.2023)

#ever since I heard him say that it’s been stuck in my head so why not post it #I miss all of you ghesties but I’m still not sure when I’ll be back.. I’m lurking tho #just like the clergy I’m always watching #the band ghost #shitghosting #ghost the band #ghost #ghost bc #ghost band #ghumblr #band ghost #ghost memes #copia #popia #cardi c #papa emeritus iv #papa iv #re imperatour #littlesanshine

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 11 months

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MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 2 - Psyche Skills

Part 1 - Part 3

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #disco elysium #MDZS disco elysium au #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #yu ziyuan #While it's more in vogue to draw a character's skill roster tailored to them -#One of the more subtle details I love in DE is how some of the skill portraits parallel character portraits of people hbd associates with.#Theres somethine rather poetic to be said about how other people shape out thoughts and sometimes act as a 'voice' in our head.#How we are in part a collection of impressions other people left behind on us.#I am a huge Skillhead (Those are my friends! My party members! They love me! They have their own agendas and alliances!)#so of course a healthy portion of this AU is dedicated to them <3 #the Int skills go basically unchanged from DE. Psy as well (with changes to a few quirks in voice).#Fys skills though...well...wwx is in a different body! Those voices belong to Someone Else.#Esp electrochem (MXY in this AU also partied to near death. WWX is withdrawing and craving substances he's never even heard of before)#While I personally don't fully subscribe to Volition Jean I *do* see Volition Jiang Cheng. The voice of your Not Brother keeping you afloat #All three of these parallels make me unbelievably sad. They are also both purple. Art is like that sometimes.#Empathy Jiang Yanli...oh man do I have a lot of thoughts about her. Disco fans Who Know....you can probably see what I'm cooking.#Authority is a really interesting skill in DE because *yes* its about power and intimidation - but it's also about finesse and respect #Titus Hardie and YZY both abuse *and* finesse how they establish their authority - in a way that leaves quite an impression.#2 more mdzs disco posts that I *need* to create and then I'm off to working on raffles <3

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shaadowmilkcookie · 16 days

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Let’s take another stab at it. I think I’m getting somewhere!

#‘remind me not to post late’ i said last time. before promptly posting late again today #WELL IM NOT LIKE. NONSENSICAL FROM EXHAUSTION THIS TIME.#IMPROVEMENTS PEOPLE!!!! IMPROVEMENTS!!!!!!!#someone was like ‘i could barely tell’ when i said offhandedly my last post was supposed to be fem sm and i just put my head in my hands #NO SHADE TO THEM i deserved that IM RLLY struggLING. FNSKFFJF. but i think i gourt it…..#the baggy previous shirt made it a bit harder to tell and thus i was forced to.. actually look at his sprite instead of going off memory #what a shame right! i hate looking qt hASHFKKGNB I JUST HEARD A MYSTERY SOUND #CHAT ITS ONE AM IM ALL ALONE IN MOSTLY DARKNESS #?????? im froking out #thas the ghost telling me to shut up #okay girlboss i’ll listen!#BYEEEEE #shadow milk cookie #cookie run kingdom #mystuff #cookie run #crk #‘at least im not nonsensical’ continues to hear sourceless noises. like okay #U GUYS DONT GET IT. IT WAS A SIGH. A VERY HUMAN SIGH. BUT THERES NO ONE ELSE HERE?#OKAY BYE

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gingermintpepper · 2 months

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Obsessed with the way Evadne's relationship with Apollo is described. Obsessed with the way Apollo was especially gentle with her because she was sheltered, hidden away and hadn't had any sort of experience with love prior to Apollo (and due to it being described as her 'first learning Aphrodite's joy' through Apollo', it was probably her first time even being attracted to someone). Obsessed with the way when she runs away, she stops in a violet patch to give birth. Y'know, violets, very famously the flower so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used in love potions? Those violets. Obsessed with the way that when Apollo realised his lover was going to have to deliver their child alone, he sent BOTH the goddess of childbirth and ALL THREE OF THE FATES to help and support her. Obsessed with the way that Apollo sends snakes to feed his baby honey straight from their fangs because Evadne abandons their son out of straight primal fear when her stepfather finds her and how the description of that honey is 'sweet venom' [ἰός] of the bees and is DEFINITELY a poetic pair/pun with [ἴον] aka violets and that every single thing about this relationship, conception and birth is a complete and utter fairytale down to Evadne's insanely overprotective stepfather having an immediate change of heart when he learned Evadne's child was an actual, legitimate Son of Apollo and the babe, after being cared for by his dad's honey-fanged snake buddies, was found perfectly healthy five days later swaddled in a blanket of violets (y'know the flowers so strongly associated with Aphrodite that they were used for lo-) and they called him Iamus aka Boy of the Violets which is AAAAAARRRR I AM GNAWING AT MY ENCLOSURE

Iamus was made of love. Everything about him was surrounded by deep and profound love and like, let's not even talk about his whole Thing of when he came of age and was like "I need to find out what my purpose is" and he literally had a Disney Protagonist moment where he ran out into the wilds and was like "Father!! Grandfather!! Tell me what I'm supposed to doooo!!" and then APOLLO FUCKING ANSWERED AND LED HIM TO ONE HIS TEMPLES ENTIRELY BY TALKING WITH IAMUS AND LETTING HIM FOLLOW HIS VOICE FOR THE WHOLE JOURNEY LIKE -

What do y'all know about the kind of SSS tier romantic escapades Apollo had fr?

#ginger rambles #NO BECAUSE WHAT DO Y'ALL KNOW ABOUT APOLLO AND EVADNE FR #They're a MAD underrated couple and their story is what everyone wishes Hades/Persephone was #Evadne actually WAS sheltered and overprotected because she was a daughter of Poseidon explicitly given to Aepytus to watch over #And Aepytus to his credit wasn't actually a bad man or anything he just took his job very very seriously #Super pious guy - even though he was positively incandescent when he found out Evadne was pregnant he didn't hit her or anything #He just was like “Get me my HORSE I am going to consult the GODS about my DAUGHTER'S HARLOTRY”#Evadne was fucking terrified of him though she hid that pregnancy like her life depended on it #And the minute she heard horse hooves even though she had just finished giving birth she dropped Iamus like he was molten and fucking ran #I could only imagine Aepytus having set up a baby shower or something cause he was overjoyed by the oracle and Evadne gets home thinking #she's going to get Dungeon'd only for Aepytus to hug her and be like “You should've told me you were seeing Apollo sob emoji sob emoji”#God I'm sure Evadne had a bunch of trauma to work through with her stepfather changing his whole entire attitude on a complete #Apollo doesn't directly interfere with their lives after Iamus is born up until Iamus comes looking for him but he was definitely keeping #a very close eye on them all through their lives #Ugh I'm sick I'm so sick in the head thinking about them #apollo #evadne #iamus #greek mythology #ginger chats about greek myths

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babsaros · 2 months

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they talk about testosterone gel like it’s the fentanyl of hrt

#after u apply ur dime sized dose of quickly-evaporating gel #make sure you put on at least three layers seal yourself inside a plastic bubble and don’t let anyone else into the room #for at LEAST 6 hours #to really make sure you don’t spread any of this miracle poison to any innocents #<<all sarcasm #if it really worked as well as people warn about #dont u think transmascs and cismen alike would be slathering themselves head to toe?#aside from the possibility that someone might have an allergic reaction (i have no idea how common that sort of allergy might be tho)#i have never heard a valid reason for all the fearmongering #like. my coworker should not be scared of *standing too close* to our other *also tmasc* coworker on days he’s applied gel #you guys could sit in each others laps and nothing would happen its fine #its all a bit silly i think

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those-rainbow-ninjas · 26 days

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oh my.. oh my.… GOODNESS!!

#i was just gonna say “oh my” but then i heard all might in my head #the middle school brainworms #i like them a normal amount #mha #bnha #softboiled art #oh shit i gotta tag names #sigh #ochako uraraka #shouto todoroki #bakugou katsuki #izuku midoriya

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amaranthdahlia · 3 months

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youtube

short kudoichi pmv we up

#im not lying when i said the demons literally took over my head when i heard the first two lyrics of the song #it was like some winter soldier code word being spoken or smth idfk #kdch hfx does nawt fuck around #kudoichi #shigaraki yoichi #yoichi shigaraki #mha kudou #second one for all user #second ofa user #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #Youtube #anyways FINALLY an actual kdch pmv #dahlia.art

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lafragolina · 10 months

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just kill me

#this whole article is bad but this was the WORST #not even for the reason you think (819 reasons)#Eliza you've already heard this rant but #if I can be way too sincere and long-winded for a moment #'always if I ask him something he helps'#how many quotes do we have from teammates over the years saying that exact thing #michael latta saying 'it doesn't matter if you're a top pair dman or a 4th line peasant; he'll do anything to help you'#christian djoos saying 'he's always there for you no matter what time or place. if something's up he's always there'#HHA saying recently nicke gave him his number and told him 'if you need anything just call me and I can help you'#carly in that interview when this was announced saying how nicke has been the support for everyone in that locker room from himself and osh #to guys who haven't been there long like strome and even pacioretty #I know holts and batya and andre and rasmus and jojo and tj and tom and karl alzner have all said stuff like this too #and that's just who I can think of off the top of my head #like. that's it. that's nicke.#if you ask him something. he helps.#for such an amazing athlete. for such a crucial part of making hockey A Thing in DC.#what his teammates want to talk about is his kindness #and that speaks so highly of him and is so genuinely admirable to me and worth aspiring to #I don't want to put anyone on a pedestal because we don't know these guys #but like. in terms of impact. nicke really genuinely made me try to be a better more thoughtful more actively outreaching friend #because I saw the way his teammates talked about him and that's how I want to be thought of.#I want people to know I'll be there for them. & not that I haven't been willing to do that but I've been more active about offering it #and part of that genuinely is because of his example #there's a million other things about his kindness I could mention before I even get to his hockey but this has already gone on far too long #so anyway #he is so dear to me #I hope he is happy and healthy #and that he knows how loved he is #nicklas backstrom #hockey

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louroth · 4 months

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"It takes guts to grow up like you did-- thousands of years simmering beneath every kind of oppression man could think of."

"With the sky kissing the crown of my head, knighting me with space to roam and the bravery to explore it [...] Big, open fields of barley and rivers like slivers of silver, marbling my veins."

"And yet you prefer...?" "After all that life?" a breath, a laugh, caught between teeth. "Something cultivated by your own will-- the work, the dread, the sought resolution-- it is far grander than the possibility, the dream of it."

art by @fooltofancy (just. fantastic. look at them. !!!!)

#OUROBOROS #ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #yor/yana #go commission vin if you want to like literally sob. The lines! THE LIIIINES!!!!#I'm so happy I could snag these bdfhksjdbf AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #never in my life did I think anyone could do Y justice in how I see them in my head. and here's vin absolutely slam dunking every line #I was very. emotional. when I got the art-- I've just been served with some dental problems and whatever the fuck else. been in a fugue sta #e when working on ouro (so much is getting done but endless tasks to do!) and this just. perked me up. (sobs) i love them so much. so.somuc #You haven't seen much of Y in the public demo but they have so many things !!! going on!! and I can't wait to share it and hear from you #often I wonder what peoples theories are on Y. I've heard the rumors #the pondering on a particular theory. and it gets me all giddy-- not bc it is wrong #but because it isn't always entirely right. sdlkfjhslkdjfhsd I love being cryptic LMAO bye. love u

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the-chosen-half-of-one · 2 years

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You’ve heard of “rotating blorbos around in your mind,” now get ready for “rotating just the most random phrases you’ve ever heard or seen.” Now with the added bonus of: the broken record function, which lets you experience the magic of repeating the phrase internally on loop forever with no clue as to why and no way of stopping it no matter the relevancy to current circumstance or situation!

#I can’t get would that this hoodie were a time hoodie out of my head all of a sudden #I don’t know why why would that phrase stick?? of all possible phrases #I keep repeating it to myself and like ???#is this an adhd thing?#it reminds me of what Brick does in the Middle repeating things he’s heard kind of involuntarily just getting stuck on them #like the you’re gonna love our pizza ep #one of the other phrases currently on endless loop mode of rotation in my head is just that post that says mental eelness with an eel photo #so make of that what you will #Idk what to tag this as #rotating in my head #neurodivergence #probably #I remember as a kid the end of the emperors new school theme would just go kuzco kuzco go go constantly on the bus

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