#like... ppl can be themselves and they seem much more relaxed

[kaserolly]

Just returned to my hotel room after visiting Malmö and omg that's literally the kindest and most accepting place especially for LGBTQ+ folks 😭💕 seeing the rainbow flag and also other identity flags made me so 🥹 I couldn't help but smile and get giddy at the thought of a city being so nice, where you can live as yourself and get to express yourself without caring :( <3

[misctf]

i don't get it, why are the jocks nice to me? No one else notices me, the socially outcasted and alone BC I don't fit in anywhere , I'm. Not smart, athletic or real hot, all I do I quietly draw

But the jocks, along with the cheerleaders come up to me and chat, they seem like really good ppl, a lot of the times they all show up in their football kits and cheer uniforms,

Idk how I got into this situation, how am I ? The so not special guy, hanging out with the most popular ppl in the school.

There all so hot, athletic and nice to me, if only I could play football to any extent, so I could play with them 😅

“Dude, sick drawings. You an artist or somethin’?”

When Chet approached you in your college’s library, you were initially surprised. As someone not used to the attention, you were taken aback by the muscular hunk in front of you. His tank-top showing off his impressive arms. The shit-eating smirk plastered on his handsome face, conveying his confidence. You blush and meekly replied that you liked to draw. His dumb chuckle fills the room.

“Fuck bro, you’re talented.”

That was a few days ago. And ever since then, you couldn’t help but notice all the attention you were getting. A few of the other jocks on the football team approached you, all clamoring about your artwork. Even a few of the cheerleaders came up to you, gushing over your art and how cute you were. It didn’t make much sense to you, but you weren’t complaining. If anything, it made you want to get closer to them. Besides, it felt nice. And for the first time in a while, you felt special.

When Chet sent you a text asking if you wanted to hang out, you felt nervous. Even if they were nice to you, the idea of hanging out seemed like a huge next step. You initially declined, but he practically begged you to come by. Although somewhat anxious, you agreed. And before you knew it, you were standing outside his dorm room. When he opened the door, you were initially taken aback by the musky smell. And it became all too obvious that he hadn’t showered, or done laundry in weeks. But you were a bit more focused on his exposed torso. His meaty pecs and abs on full display. The outline of his cock shamelessly displayed in his grey sweatpants. That same smirk plastered on his face.

“Fuck yeah dude! So glad you could make it.”

You look around his relatively empty room. Besides the beer cans, dirty clothing, and gaming set-up, it was pretty plain. There were a few Chemistry textbooks messily scattered on his desk. Odd, you think, he didn’t really seem the type. But also on his desk were a few drawings. Or at least attempts. They weren’t nearly as good as yours, but it looked like he was trying.

“Yeah man, you inspired me.” He chuckles, “But I ain’t no artist.”

That much was evident. You reassure him that practice makes perfect and laugh awkwardly, but he just stares at you. His eyes glisten with a hint of mischief. And before you know it, he crushes his lips to yours. Your eyes widen as he passionately kisses you, and you can taste the beer and protein shakes on his breath. He breaks the kiss and smiles.

“Come on, let’s see what you’re packin’.” He says, helping you remove your shirt.

His hands roam your body. Compared to him, you lack muscle. And years of avoiding the gym and eating whatever you want has certainly given you some pudge. But he doesn’t seem to mind. He continues to feel your body, and you moan at his sensual touch. So caught up in the moment, you fail to realize the impact his touch is having on your unimpressive body. How your fat begins to dissolve away, leaving you thin and lean. But not for too long. You grunt as your muscles come alive. Contracting and relaxing rapidly. Building on themselves. You wince as your biceps pop into glorious existence. Your triceps follow quickly and you lean into him as he caresses your new arms.

“What’s happening...”

“Don’t worry.” He reassures.

He kisses you again, and this time you feel a heaviness in your chest. Your pecs expand rapidly, forming two bouncy muscle tits. He squeezes your hardened nipples, sending a wave of pleasure through your growing form, and you nearly pass out as he gives your pecs a firm squeeze. Abs pop into existence soon after. And you groan as your already hard cock expands further, adding at least an additional 5 inches.

“Almost there.” He continues.

And this time, when his lips collide with your new cock-suckers, you feel something is wrong. It’s as if he’s sucking something out of you. Draining you. But as your mind continues to dim, you don’t really seem to care. You lean into his kiss willingly. And when you do, your eyes glaze over and become half-lidded. Any intelligence you may have had is gone. But it’s so much more than that. Your skills as an artist are quickly stolen from you. Any potential you had, stolen by the handsome jock in front of you. And when he finally breaks the kiss, he can’t help but grin at the dumb, vacant look in your eyes.

“Fuck bro, that was great.” He says, wiping some drool from your lip, “Thanks for that. Who needs art lessons when you can just take it, right bro?”

You nod and chuckle, more drool falling from the side of your mouth. You look down and bounce your pecs, totally enamored by your hulking body.

“Huh, usually we’d let ya join the team.” Chet says. He snaps his fingers in front of you, without getting any reaction, “But, I doubt you have the brains to follow even the most basic instructions.” He smirks, “But I’m sure I can find another way for you to play.” He slaps your muscular ass, “What do ya say, waterboy?”

So maybe you don’t get to play football with the team how you wanted. But the team certainly enjoys playing with you. After every game, they’d find you in the locker room with your ass up. Ready to help them wind down after a tough game. Rest assured, they certainly still think you’re special. And they still give you plenty of attention. So have fun, bro.

[inchidentally]

What do you think was the turning point in Lando and Oscar's relationship?

I really want to know what other ppl think about this bc for me personally I don't think that moment has even come yet! I made this post about a landmark landoscar moment but I don't think that's been the big turning point into them going ahhh this is it, this is what our friendship is.

like I've said before in my way too many text posts, Lando has stayed thrown by the fact that Oscar doesn't even remotely fit into the Carlos and Daniel type of teammate he's used to. Lando's shown Oscar his quiet side, his fidgety side, his cocky side, his bratty side, his naughty/flirty side and all of them get the same quiet fond indulgent response from Oscar. guys like Carlos and Daniel have known exactly how to play Lando almost from day one and we get all this great content. but apart from a little bit of sass back sometimes, Oscar stays in that very passive role and the content we get from them is Oscar watching his very famous, very well-established and charismatic teammate that he's used to watching on a phone screen. occasionally we get glimpses of Prema or Alpine Oscar come out but it's very rare.

I feel like he's wanted to just get his head down this season and prove himself the way he's said he feels he needs to. he's clearly taking nothing for granted and I don't think we're going to see him start to fully relax until a good few races into 2024. Lando is F1/McLaren establishment by now and personally I think Oscar puts Lando into the same category of things that he's trying to prove himself to. that was terrible sentence structure but you get what I mean ??

(rest under a cut bc yeah I overdo it and also just my opinion so pls nobody take it seriously)

the general standard for F1 rookies is either to latch onto the personality of their teammate or show up with a persona already in place. in both cases it's because young men have crazy amounts of insecurity but are also desperate to ingratiate themselves into a group as fast as possible. Lando was kind of an exception bc he entered F1 basically as a zygote. he went from being Carlos' baby to Daniel's baby right up until the late 2022 season. but since then we've seen Lando learn how to do the flirty humor and cocky joking that pretty much all drivers use to navigate each other. Lando's not naturally as much of a cabrón as the rest of them but he's found a way to fit in that feels natural and that also tracks with his streamer/youtuber identity.

but literally NONE of that F1 rookie standard behavior fits Oscar. I was talking about this with @landofication and how Oscar's confidence and unbotheredness comes from a such genuinely harmless place - he simply doesn't perform for anyone and he doesn't fib to people even casually. he's incredibly well-raised and respectful and polite but he won't ever say things he doesn't mean. he won't talk for the sake of filling a lull in conversation AND he also won't say something controversial/opinionated if it seems unnecessary or cocky. for example !! Alpine made an absolutely wild assumption about his future without even speaking to him first and he very calmly stood up for himself and later on made a good humored joke about the drama when he signed the extension with McLaren. he's been more mature and calm than men twice and three times his age.

that kind of honesty is why it feels completely authentic when Oscar forgets the cameras are on him and he just tracks Lando's every move and laughs at all of Lando's jokes and forgets he's supposed to play a role. same with how genuinely supportive he always is of Lando even when he himself has had a bad performance. he also doesn't want to make himself being a Lando fanboy into ~hilarious media fodder~ he's just being open about respecting and really liking Lando. kind of like how he can giggle and get bashful about gay innuendo or a guy play-flirting with him (or Lando getting raunchy to make him blush) but I've genuinely never seen him bro-zone someone or play at acting gay for laughs. he can see why the flirting and raunch is funny but he doesn't get why acting gay would be funny.

and I'm not having a go at guys who do that kind of humor or saying that they're doing it offensively! I've said before that a lot of what Americans view as "gay" in non-American male friendships is extremely standard straight dude behavior everywhere else. flirting and being physical with your bros is different from flirting with women to them precisely because they won't date or have sex w their bros. there's no need for nohomo because it was never homo lol the lines are very clear. also a lot of that humor in F1 is a common survival tactic in male pro sports. like a way to have fun and bond while also knowing that cameras are aiming at you every second you're not in your driver's room or hotel room. it's way better to diffuse the tension of being constantly watched by being silly and flirty with your bros rather than trying to hold a real conversation.

but it's just not Oscar personally to initiate that stuff for laughs or to know how to pick up those jokes and play ball. just like how he's not starry-eyed about Lando as a joke! he's just genuinely got this fanboy crush he's dealing with as best he can during a high pressure rookie season. he's not bothering to try and complicate things further or push himself into Lando's existing social life.

BUT poor Lando is definitely still in the process trying to figure Oscar out. the little fixations Lando already has of his own like Oscar's name and Oscar being such a good boy who blushes at sex jokes and Oscar being so mature and patient even when Lando is fed up with filming and having a blood sugar drop are so cute to me because Lando's been slowly picking up on what Oscar genuinely likes about him and where his boundaries are. the photo of Oscar on lando.jpg with the heart caption right underneath it was unbearably vulnerable. such a tiny way to say I really like my new teammate even if I don't understand him yet.

I do however think it's driving Lando iNsAnE that Oscar has no concept of casual PDA. I'm hoping he's seen by now that Oscar isn't even like that with Lily and that it isn't at all personal. but oh my god he's so ready to be able to hug and cuddle Oscar and do everything he does with Carlos and Daniel and his pre-F1 big brothers like Max F, George and Alex. I'm all for respecting people's physical boundaries but hopefully Oscar thinks back to Lando's reaction here and let's Lando latch onto him more often.

aaaaaand that's all to say that I think we're going to have to be patient to see where Lando and Oscar land in terms of what sort of deeper friendship they have. their teammates relationship has already been tested thoroughly in just one season and it seems so solid which has obviously been first priority. but between Lando having such a full social life already and Oscar having gotten used to being by himself or socializing very privately I'm not expecting a carlando or dando type thing where they share friends or hobbies until they've gotten to know each other better individually. which in a way for me is really sweet because the amount that they already sync up and are comfortable together and share their team duties despite not having that immediate jokey rapport is just !!! I really love that. sort of how silly bubbly Lando is my beloved but quieter and more thoughtful Lando is maybe even a little bit more my beloved?

anyway thankfully we've got three more years locked down to keep seeing them feel each other out (huhuahauhsfhh)

[231025]

Each Bts Members thoughts on kth fs???

"BTS Members reaction on tae's fs??" - @furiouswinnerwolf "what each bts members will think about v fs?? " @furiouswinnerwolf

ksj: they seem like they can take on any challenge, when they enter a room the whole atmosphere changes, warm and assuring presence, uplifting and self assured person, someone who speaks wise words, a beacon of positivity and willpower -> he's positively impressed, enjoys their presence and is happy for taehyung

myg: mysterious - perhaps suspicious?, he assumes that they can be quite cunning or manipulative, a strategic person, compelling yet complicated, an elusive and emotional detached person - emotions don't seem to cloud their judgment, very guarded and therefore difficult to pinpoint -> he doesn't really know them, they won't interact much

jhs: someone who naturally exudes authority and strategic prowess, intellegent and eloquent, they deal with others in a manner that is assessing yet understanding, someone with high standards, emotionally balanced but can be demanding, a person with a strong conviction who can be reliable even in stressful times -> he has a lot of respect for them as a person but might not be that close to them, he knows they're trustworthy but they have their boundaries set

knj: someone who is open to new experiences and who has lots of potential, a carefree and energetic person, someone who brings a sense of wonder and excitement wherever they go, they have an interesting fashion sense, they are good at uplifting ppl and at expressing themselves freely, an invigorating presence -> he finds their approach to life and their attitude inspiring and might enjoy talking to them every now and then

pjm: an hamonizing force, good at balancing opposing energies and at dealing with taehyungs hotheadedness (lol), soothing and encouraging to others, gentle heart and captivating eyes, had a deep connectuon with nature and enjoys taking care of plants (he finds it cute), emotional strength and wisdom -> he feels like he can relax around them and feels very understood by them

jjk: they carries an air of vulnerability that makes other want to open up to them, they're a bit of a romantic idealist, captivating presence, a bit exotic, good music taste, someone often lost in thoughts/daydreams, their gestures are always purposeful but gentle, even though they wear their emotions on their sleeve they are still elusive/mysterious - they keep their thoughts hidden -> he finds it easy to connect with them on an emotional level

a/n: i think pjm!, knj and jjk will have a bit more contact with them in the future than the other three members

[nicki0kaye]

Hey there. Do you have story behind chubby Cole Cassidy from Overwatch?

His first model seems to have a lot of padding and I think it's good to have as much body diversity as possible across a cast. It just gives more for the eyes to appreciate and lets ppl of all sizes see themselves in a hero or desired partner. It also created contrast between Cole and Hanzo that I really liked; the idea that Cole lives a little more honestly, carries a few extra pounds naturally or maybe has a few vices that has his weight fuxuating more than most, and prefers to relax in the moments he can catch for himself, meaning he gets his exercise running from the law or fighting Talon, whereas Hanzo strikes me as someone who trains to excess as a means of control, who maybe compulsively shaves off any extra pound and has a very unhealthy relationship with his own self-image and perceived beauty that mirrors his complicated relationship with his birthright--something he is proud of but also deeply resents bc of how it cuts him off from having any meaningful relationships

I don't think there needs to be any reason someone draws a character chubbier than canon, bc we severely lack chubby rep and chubby bodies are wonderful and worth celebrating, but it is fun to answer the question why someone might be on a chunky side in a narrative sense, see how it can tie into themes relating to that character (how Cole and vice interact, how his laid back nature and hectic lifestyle means he steals any moment of peace and comfort for himself and refuses to apologize), but also like. Bodies are just like that. There's plenty of active ppl who carry more weight than we've been told is healthy, and its perfectly healthy for them. I find navigating all that very interesting and gives more depth to a character interpretation, as well as being a cathartic thing to just. Find a fat trans guy hot bc fat trans men are fucking hot

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi there, ive been following you for a little bit now and all of your thoughts and wisdoms mean a lot to me, as well as your art and creative things like your photography. ive been wanting to do little confessions about lots of different things over time but im very afraid that the people hurting me will see them and know its me and hurt me more. im very lost & scared & trapped rn and everyone closest to me punishes me for it. idk i just wanted to get it out somewhere.. but it really means a lot to me to see you happy and well. you inspire me and i want there to always be good waiting for you

hi ^^ im sorry u have those feelings i used to struggle immensely w this .. i always kinda posted /this way/ but for most my 20s i only used private accounts cus i was so afraid of ppl irl reading my posts, as well as stalkers, there were incidents of both these things that made me go into hiding for foreverrrr !!!

The only reason i post publicly now is cus when i first came back to tumblr in 2021, it was like a blank slate, all my old oomfies had moved to ig or twitter. So i cld relax more and eventualy over time new ppl came who made sense to be here. And i didnt feel like i had to hide anymore ! it was extremely slow process. like literally took all of my 20s to feel fine doing this

And Ofc im sure tons of ppl who want to harm me read my blog and make fun of me, i know i seem insane to many, but i just....Dont care like.....You need to realize....Anyone who does that to you is SO weak, you are not lost at all compared to them. They're upset because they want to express themselves earnestly too but they feel blocked. Many ppl lash out for this reason..

if ur really afraid u could start by maybe doing a private blog .. i would also recommend doing protection prayers for yourself, i like listening to psalm 91, i have my archangel michael candle lit rn actually, i take a lot of measures to keep my shield up, i really believe in these energies, i ask the angels to send any unwanted energy back to sender, simple as. it has helped me become much more comfortable showing myself, online and irl.

Just dont give up, even if it takes a long time to open up, practice each day to strengthen ur soul, work on the things yu want to work on with the intentions of love in your heart, when u Know ur doing it for the right reasons it becomes really hard to let anyone stop u. But take it slow. no matter how scared u feel rn, know it can be a total 180, even if u dont see the path clearly yet ^^ Thanks for your kind message..i'm here to help!! Stay protected & cherished Anon...PMD9 <3 <3 <3

[illmetkismet]

Seeing you talk about Leon and Ashley, i couldn't agree more.

I always felt like there was more to their new formed bond than just your typical cliche romance that would be so predictable.

I think the game did a great job in emphasising their connection and how they grew to trust one another and having Leon open up to her as you progress the game rather than just seashoring the romance into it. I feel like it would defeat the entire purpose of what the game was trying to say for all these characters. It's very realistic and quite relatable to see Ashley develop a cute hero crush on Leon, and have Leon play it off as something cute but innocent at the same time. He was evasive but also remained kind and understanding towards her, especially at the end. It's such a shame though because Ashley was probably one of the few that wanted him in their life and yet Leon being Leon sabotages himself and doesn't allow himself. Your take on his touch-starved nature and his tendecny to be touchy feely is also very on point with his character. I sometimes wonder if he's even aware of it.

To be honest, I don't really think making Ashley and Leon's relationship romantic would have taken anything away from it, and I don't think ppl who ship them are missing out on the deeper core of their connection or anything. There are other relationships in this game that aren't explicitly romantic, but that I think lend themselves very well to a romantic reading, and lose nothing in that interpretation (serennedy, for example, and to a certain extent aeon). So I don't wanna seem like I'm against leshley or Eagle One or whatever the enthusiasts are calling it!

I think conceptually it can be a very sweet and sexy ship, and I think the game can certainly lend itself to a romantic read of their relationship. My non-romantic take is just a matter of preference (doesn't do it for me) and what I, personally, took away from watching them interact in canon. I don't think that had their relationship turned romantic it would have defeated the purpose of what the game was trying to say about them, or the way their bond develops...

One of my favourite things about fandom is the variety of takes you can get on the same characters and relationships from different people - the things they find meaningful and compelling about them, the ways they see them fitting together, the possibilities they imagine for them! So I'm just really not in the business of arbitrating how well a ship fits into canon. My views are mostly based on whether or not I subjectively enjoy it.

All of which is just to say: I personally don't ship Leon and Ashley, but I don't think that doing so is fundamentally incompatible with what the game was trying to do with their characters.

As for Leon being touch starved, I do wonder right along with you just how aware he is of it! I think he's probably convinced himself that he's ok on his own and that he doesn't deserve/need affection or companionship from anyone. Maybe part of his conviction that he's changed so much since Raccoon City has to do with touch too; sometimes people who go through a difficult time and withdraw from others as a kind of maladaptive attempt at self-protection will convince themselves that they just don't like being around others anymore, and that will include being touched.

I wouldn't blame Leon for thinking of himself in this way, not after all the violence that's been done to him and the extent to which he's lost autonomy over himself and his body, but in his case I simply don't think it's true. He needs a hug!! He would love a hug!! Even if it's awkward or difficult for him at first, I think relaxing back into a more easy relationship with physical touch would do him a world of good.

Thanks for the ask! Sorry that my thoughts about this one were kind of all over the place!

[shithead-123]

Kotlc collecting habits Pt.2

Basically what I think various kotlc characters (mostly the kids) would collect. other than prattles pins bc we all know everyone collects those so.

this is inspired by my own habits of picking random shit up and stuffing it in my closet.

Tam: Again like Linh, not much of a collector. I think he's the least collect-y of the group. But of the very few things he does collect, he collects things that are useful, a lot like dex. he's hyper vigilant almost. He was Linh and his own sole caretaker (Linh took care of him too but Tams internalized this wayyy more than Linh did), and anything that can protect him and Linh is something he would collect. small knives, emergency med kits, fire proof clothing even. things like that. he's ready for the apocalypse. But maybe, far down the line, when he's starting to relax, he has a small book collection. I will die on my hill of Tam being a bookworm. he, Tiergan and Wylie can bond on their shared love of Pride 7 Prejudice. Or other equivalent elven books. Linh and Prentice are illiterate and proud (not that they're not smart, prentice is literally a keeper, they just hate reading). He also has a collection of Weird shirts Linh has made him. He doesn't throw them away. He'd rather die than wear them, but he'll look into his closet sometimes and quietly organize the shirts she made him and give a small smile.

Maruca: She seems like a bead girlie to me. Like her bead box, is gigantonourmous. She has made soooooooo many bracelets and necklaces and jewelry and honestly even beaded embroidery for her friends and herself and Wylie (Wylie is not her friend, he family, so it's diff). She still has vasttttt amount of beads left over. Literally once a month she goes on a bead hunt, bonus points if it's with someone else like Biana of Marella or something. On her reoccurring bead hunt, she will say she's only buying beads to make one(1) bracelet, and then proceeds to buy the entire store out. It's so funny. No one wants to go on her bead hunts anymore bc she makes them carry shit while she hunts for more beads. Honestly queen behavior. Literally all her clothing and jewelry and everything has beads on it. side point: she seems like she would be into making lace, and anyone who's ever watched ppl make lace, or make lace themselves, know that it's incredibly tedious. so hats off to her.

Marella: Marella does not think things through, if she likes, she takes. yes. I feel like she would have a collection specifically for like fire related things. Like fire earrings, fire decorated bandanas etc. OMFG wait. COWGIRL MARELLA. PLS SOMEONE DO THIS I WOULD DIE. anyways, after like the initial shame and fear she gets from manifesting as a pyrokinectic, I think she would feel angry. I mean I know. this is canon pretty sure. She's not ashamed anymore, and wants to prove this fact with buying fire related stuff. I also think she might be into collecting ribbon. Like for her hair. She ties little bits of ribbon in it and it makes her feel pretty. She starts doing it regularly bc her mom used to put ribbons in her hair before her accident. Nw she does by herself bc no one will do it for her. :)

(stellarlune spoilers): ik most ppl have read it by now but still

Rayni: She's again, a lot like Linh and Tam. She doesn't have a the capacity to collect things because of her living situation in the never seen. All she has is her cat statue. of course, she had a life before her parents tribunal and subsequent banishing, and from that time period, I feel like she would pull a Linh and collect stickers. Actually that could be bonding, like Her and Linh find each others sticker stashes, and start trading them like Pokemon cards. It's their bonding time. Linh can yell at Rayni and Rayni can yell at Linh art various sticker deals they're making, and at the end, they have cool new stickers and they're happy. Btw Rayni does have a very large cat sticker collection. She currently on the hunt to look for a cat sticker that looks like her cat statue. She'll find it someday. again side note: Rayni never actually uses the stickers. They're in a super secret bin underneath her bed or something.

Jensi: U guys thought I forgot him huh. Plant dad. Plant boy. Exotic plants. Native plants. Invasive plants. He has a nice little garden which is periodically harvests from. He's the gnomes favorite bc he loves plants. If anyone wants a little cottage core scene they go to his house. He has poisonous plants, and like maybe sometime in the war against the never seen sophies like looking for this super rare plant that has insane toxins in it and Jensi's like. Oh yeah I have like six of those in my backyard lol. and I also bred them to be even more potent. want some? Sophie is flabbergasted. She has new respect for the Venus fly-trap he gifted her. Fintans a plant dad? wrong. He's nothing compared to Jensi. Nothing.

Wylie: I'm going full angst with this one and saying he collects hairpins/clips. Like the ones his mother used to make. He obviously doesn't use them. maybe he gives some to Maruca and other friends/family with longer hair. (wait Wylie with long hair. hmmmmm. I like it). But mostly he just hides them away. And when he's trying to remember what his mothers smile looked like, (Bc he doesn't have photographic memory, and he was very young when she died, he's bound to forget) he opens up the hair pin box and cries. he gives one of the remaining pins he has to Tiergan bc he has long hair. And they cry together. Could also be sad times with him and Prentice too. They mourn together while looking at the hair pins.

[tarotdeana]

do u think its better to not always put urself out there so to speak cause u know the saying about loud mouths its the loudest ones are the emptiest? and with so many people always sharing so much about themselves online is it not a bit of a giveaway that they may be lolkkng for validation in others not to sound hollier than thou or anything but some people really do overdo it and im like if i ever did want to meet someone romantically its prolly harder to do for me than for someone who is always posting online cause they at least have an audience to go too. cause ppl be like ur so quiet and talk softly but if i talked loudly id be told off for that too and so i can never seem to find balance and usually just give up trying to blend in if others dont want my attention, they can sod off elsewhere then.

i think people generally find quiet people to be a bit unnerving lmao and yet i find loud people really hard to connect with especially in social settings because they like to overpower others all the time so u cant really find a normal interaction these days when so many ppl are about themselves.

is it best to have limited dating experience or to have had several failed ones? ive had neither so is it genuinely seen as weird if you have never really actively sought out a relationship? is single people still a thing? lol. thanks for any advices in advance! really love ur blog btw! or if other anons have any advices as well thatd be helpful.

Hello, thank you for waiting. You're speaking with a very quiet person who enjoys being single, so I can relate to how you're feeling. Let's see if the Tarot has any advice for you:

The Empress card came up, and it shows that you are more popular among people than you think. You have qualities that others notice and appreciate or admire in you. They often perceive you as distant, which may be why they don't dare to tell you or approach you. However, there are people who see you in a positive light. The Empress also advises you to stay true to yourself; don’t be afraid to share things with those who inspire trust, they won’t hurt you because you are very strong (in fact, people see you as someone strong and hard to manipulate).

Regarding people who "talk too much about themselves," as you mentioned, the card shows that these types of people want to feel powerful through validation.

The card shows you as an intelligent person who sometimes makes others nervous (many feel they’re not as smart as you, which makes them distance themselves). The Empress advises sharing a bit of yourself through artistic or creative activities and connecting with others through that medium. Also, those types of activities can be a great way to relax and connect with your inner self. The Empress also says: don’t change anything about yourself, never give in to pressure, because just as you are, you are wonderful.

Thank you for your comments, and I hope the Tarot has provided the answer you're looking for.

[sincelastsession]

As much as I try the litany of coping mechanisms... They aren't really helping right now and it's really frustrating because I need to go to the grocery store and do normal things.

But I'm in a freeze state.

The more noise the worse it gets.

The ear plugs are a sensory nightmare.

I'm mad because it's been every day my neighbors are being so loud. The office and courtesy officer who is a sheriff is a fuckin asshole to me.

They think it's about race.

They don't seem to care about the OBVIOUS daycare being run. They won't investigate because they don't see it. I can't take a video to prove it. The kids sit on the stairs at night hollering and playing loud rap music and it's not even good rap music it's shitty SoundCloud rappers and it's not even intelligent. Like even if it was better music I'd still be pissed because I'm just trying to relax.

I do not understand why it's so hard for people to be courteous.

I'm literally going to put a pentacle wreath up and start doing witchcraft outside on purpose. Technically I'm exercising my rights?

Idk.

Parents are telling me July at soonest for moving.

I'm terrified I'm going to lose my cool and absolutely blast the neighbors, office, a corporate. I hate that they're under the impression I'm racist. I hate that they have experienced this themselves. It's more noise than you'd put up with yourself.

My parents seem to think they will find a place that's safe and quiet for under 1k. The places I have found they're not happy with and say are dangerous.

I don't know what to do. Earplugs and headphones are generally a sensory nightmare or they hurt my ears.

I wish they'd just move and put calmer professionals in that unit.

Even the drug dealer that was there before was quiet despite ppl going in and out of the apartment.

Like I know also there was prostitution going on as well a year or so ago in various areas in the complex.

I'd love if my parents with get in touch with my bestie Blake Knight of capital city concierge but my mom already led him on to believe she was getting a house for me last time.

It was embarrassing.

Piper's fiancé's mom found places but they are all in dangerous areas where I'd definitely have safety problems.

I really just would ideally like to get moved to a quiet safe spot. Work on my mental health. Get better. Figure out how to financially get around things without the sense if guilt from breaking rules and fear of getting in trouble and learn things I was never taught that I can't figure out with banking because I'm math dyslexic and literally no one takes me seriously on that. I mean my hope us to get better and much more functional like you know and can see.

I do wish they had the same sorta respite for people like me. In the UK they have them where ppl like me that are overly stressed can go stay and they just sorta treat it more like a resting place and have therapists and a doctor available if need be...

I don't understand why they don't have a place that's strictly for people who are just under too much stress due to anxiety, ptsd, and just life.

They have places for military to recuperate but it's kinda like "fuck you you fet to go to grippy sock jail because you weren't in war" But I have seen war. The entire time my friend Mike was volunteer fighting in the Ukraine he showed me all the things. The dead bodies, the trenches, a person's head on a spike with the skin peeled off and a scythe next to it that Russians left of a poor pow. They found one of our people hands cut off and decapitated. I mean the news censors everything so much. I've seen so much from a gopro from an actual team of ppl. I didn't fight but I've seen really fucked shit. War is hell.

Why aren't there places that are less clinical and more for rest and nervous system regulation?

I don't know if I would want to move states but there's gotta be something.

I just need peace. I have seen and heard enough. I only have respite time when I'm in my dynamic at this point and I've discussed this with my partner about how it helps in an odd but therapeutic way. There's books on how it helps. I think it does. I just don't want to have my entire dynamic be him calming me down. I'd like to have more fun. He understands and I'm not asking I hope for too much currently. I have asked him to lmk. He likes how we are so open and he likes my appreciation and points out how I'm different than most people.

I am thoughtful because I went through hell. I party had my tubes tied and an ablation so at least I'd never get pregnant from any possible SA which has always scared me, because I wouldn't birth a healthy child or even an alive one, and because I feel it would be cruel to pass on the genetics I have. To watch anyone or my own child experience what I did would break me.

So in the same sense...I don't want people to suffer. It hurts to see. It hurts to hear about. It hurts when I can't do anything and it hurts I have to accept that.

I'd love to bitch political and such with everyone else but that doesn't fix the issues. We as a people unless we raise hell and riot like the French aren't realistically going to change this country or stop politics from taking away our rights.

Political leaning to me doesn't matter at this point. I truly believe my vote means nothing and the presidential elections are a big fat bunch of bullshit to give people a sense that they're making a difference when rich mfers who do not care about anyone but thier own lives are really in control.

I hope it rains and the lights don't go out and I can just order doordash and people stay quiet.

That's what I need this weekend.

Just some peace and good sleep.

Because I'd like to accomplish things and it's impossible being interrupted by loud people CONSTANTLY.

[dirtmunch]

when i get involved w peopel i always very quickly get the sense that the other person likes me a lot more than i like them which makes me feel so uneasy and uncomfortable and guilty, like im puttin on an act and trying not to get caught. but also like mad that theyre over interpreting how i interract w them and assuming its the same head over heelsness as theyre feeling, like theyr eputting words in my mouth :/ its not as if i dislike them at all, but i can tell they are way more invested in me than i am them :( i feel like im deficient in that sense and can never rlly feel true love or attraction like that wholesale like other ppl seem to be able to and ill never find true love bc of it ughhhhh.

but the one time i DO feel genine yearning and love and affection to someone its w a girl itll never happen w cuz she moved ;O; she was a grad student in print n me and a couple otehr print gworls got super close, but i graduated before them and i felt like they didnt give a shit about me after even tho i tried so hard to keep up the connection. she graduated in may n recently moved outta state fir work next i see shes made an insta post talking abt another girl in the group as her best friend n how grateful she was to have met her and im just like :’‘‘‘‘‘‘( so jealous and sad and mad at happenstance that i happened to graduate when i had to and they still didnt and because fo this someone else became the closest one to her.... like the one time i feel like im feeling actual love this is what happensssssssss but what can i do abt it!!!!! im also so mad ive been made to feel liek such an outsider and scrapped by ppl just bc i moved like... slightly farther away. liek they never responded to texts never tried to reciprocate when i tried making plans never tried to reach out first to make plans w me themselves

makes me feel awful bc im dating a rlly nice girl rn, we ARE explicitly open and casual bc we r both moving in 2 weeks n knew we’d have to split at the end of the summer but i just find myself thinking abt how much fun and geuine joy and how relaxed id be having if i was with the other girl and how i could actually b myself instead of putting on the act in front of my gf bc she expects the same amout of love she feels towards me *from* me. but i also feel like my gf and i are dating more out of proximity and convenience cuz we’re both 20 somns living at home w parents in the burbs, but i dont think she rlly gets me in the way i know the other girl does and has. like we like each other but at a fundamental level dont mesh. somethign somethign divergent evolution of a twitter user vs a lifelong tumblr girlie.

when i think of the other girl i want to cook for her bc i love how happy she looks when she eats the food i make, i wanna talk about dumb shit without putting on the front i have to w my gf so she doesnt feel totally confused, i wanna crochet for her i wanna decorate for her but its never happening!!!!!!!!!

[rainy-astrology]

Mars Signs

My views on Mars in each sign. Mars is how you gain energy, motivation and drive, your aggression and anger expression. May change/add to this later.

Aspects to Mars, house placements, and degrees may affect your Mars expression.

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Aries

Mars is domicile in Aries. Mars Aries people are motivated and focused, they'll always get things done. They seek independence and freedom. They're blunt and honest, even when you didn't ask for it. They can get physical when angry or just be really sour. Their anger will always show though.

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Taurus

Mars is detriment in Taurus. The Taurus Mars people I've seen are quite slow. Kind of have old people energy lol. They don't like to be rushed. Value stability and structure, they'll work hard for this. However, it may take them awhile to actually start working on something. They may be slow to anger as well.

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Gemini

Gemini mars people can be scatterbrained. A very mentally active sign seems to displace its energy in a planet concerned mainly with physical energy. They're always wondering what to do next and may forget to finish a task before starting a new one. Talking also seems like their way of expelling their energy. I also think it's pointless to fight with a Gemini Mars bc they will just talk in circles or just make it a confusing argument in general...I don't think they keep track of their own thoughts and actions well.

One of my siblings has this...She is a mess, even worsened with her Aries stellium. Both Aries and Gemini can be on the go. She likes to start several projects and not finish them.

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Cancer

Mars is in fall in Cancer. From what I've seen, Cancer Mars people tend to repress their anger. They don't want to cause fights but Cancer is an emotional sign, so when under a reactive planet, they can only repress so much before exploding. This can be through tears or pure harsh anger (although some ppl do cry when angry...). Very limited patience.

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Leo

Leo Mars people can be confident and charming people. We want to be successful in both our eyes and others' eyes. Often motivated and driven. A bit image oriented. However, if not self aware/underdeveloped, Leo mars people can be egotistic and prideful. Their insecurity will make them mean and hurtful towards others. Dramatic anger expression.

As a Leo mars, I've been called bossy and arrogant several times before lol... I have a family member with this as well and I will admit, we both kind of have dramatic anger. I think I am more controlled with it now though, especially with the help of journaling. I was definitely a lot more dramatic about it when I was younger.

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Virgo

Virgo Mars like to keep busy. I've never seen a relaxed Virgo Mars. They're perfectionists who want to improve themselves everyday. They may be in constant competition with themselves. Can be critical on themselves and others. Detail oriented. They're a bit controlled with their anger.

The first person I think of ATEEZ's Hongjoong... He's a workaholic and a huge perfectionist for sure (legit recorded a song over a 1,000 times). When he gets mad at the members, he calls them into his room to lecture them. That's a pretty Virgo Mars thing to do imo lol.

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Libra

Mars is also in detriment in Libra. Libra dislikes conflict and so may worry that being angry will disrupt harmony. They may try hard to control their negative feelings, which can result in awkwardness or passive aggression.

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Scorpio

Mars is in domicile in Scorpio. A passionate and ambitious placement. Scorpio is driven to achieve what they want. They like to have control and power - it may make them feel secure. They can be kind of intense when angry. Maybe a resentful, seething type of anger.

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Sagittarius

Sagittarius Mars are opportunity seekers. Like to be on the move, learn, and experience new things. Their anger seems short lived. They do get annoyed easily and will argue, but overall it is not that harsh imo especially since Sags want to be positive. They may just end up being mad for a little bit before giving up and joking about it/acting like nothing happened. They brush a lot of things off to focus on things they want to do.

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Capricorn

Mars is exalted in Capricorn. These people are very hardworking, always busy with something. They like to be productive, will rarely catch them relaxing. They want to excell at whatever they do (could be a particular passion or multiple things). They want to be their best selves. They're blunt and straightforward, they may not realize their words can be offensive. I've noticed immature Cap mars energy can be overwhelming and insulting towards others. Arrogant.

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Aquarius

Aquarius Mars people are independent and usually calm people. They seem to only get angry if someone is being very rude to them or people they care about. Because other than that, they may not want to waste their time fighting with someone. Some may dislike/fear confrontations. They may gain energy being around others or by working on a new creative project/idea.

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Pisces

The Pisces Mars I've observed are quite calm, only get mad if you really push them that far. But even when they're angry, their anger passes easily. They would rather not indulge in it. They may also be slow moving people in general. I don't think they like to use a lot of physical energy lol.

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If you like kpop and typology, I do typology profiles for idols and notes on my main blog @rainymbti

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[skylinesnsunshines]

monsta x reading: jooheon ideal type + as boyfriend

hi friends! today i’m doing a reading for jooheon <3 i know it’s been a while, a lot of stuff has happened and im slowly starting to get back into tarot. im gonna create a guidelines list before requesting because i realised i was getting so drained when i was doing readings bc i wasnt invested in the ppl i was doing the readings for. so far im happy doing gen 3 bg’s, gen 4 not so much (had a delulu in my mentions which gave me the ick) but happy w doing gen 3+4 gg’s! i’m not as invested in kpop as i used to be but i do still wanna practice my tarot and intuitive abilities so im super excited to do this, you all know the drill so let’s go! 

DISCLAIMER: this is all speculative and for entertainment purposes only, so take it with a grain of salt :)

decks used: ethereal visions tarot, archetype cards by caroline myss, heavenly bodies astrology, the wild unknown animal by kim krans

(italicised is the card on the bottom of the tarot deck which is meant to represent the subconscious/blind spot of the situation + rx means reversed)

JOOHEON🐝

IDEAL TYPE

the moon rx, 10 of wands rx, 9 of wands, 4 of swords | scribe, gossip, firefly, libra: consideration, fairness and harmony

when it comes to jooheon’s ideal type i feel he doesn’t have an exact definition of an ideal type because he notices and likes the little characteristics when it comes to falling for a person. the moon rx tells me jooheon wants someone with a lot of layers, by that i mean he wants someone who might seem very “shallow” or unassuming yet has a lot of willpower and depth. when i was doing jooheon’s reading i kept hearing the words “underdog”, which makes me think that the word is connected with the moon rx by reiterating that he wants someone who’s not as they seem, in a way that they might look very intimidating but is incredibly nurturing once you get to know them. the 10 of wands rx basically is more of an affirmation for the first card, this card gives me the feeling that he likes someone who’s a bit of a puzzle and can take time for him to know, i see him being someone who actually likes it if his person isn’t interested in him initially. this card also gives me the vibe that he likes someone who’s gone through a lot yet still comes out on top. these two cards gives me an image of someone who has a lot of responsibility yet always perseveres, i also envision someone who’s the source of stability and hope for a lot of people, and is always there to lend a helping hand yet never asks for anything in return. 9 of wands reiterates my two points earlier, jooheon definitely finds people who are go-getters attractive. this card details someone who relies on themselves to make their dreams come true, could be a workaholic due to them very dedicated to their craft. his person definitely has a hidden level of sensitivity with the 4 of swords card being on the bottom. this card usually represents rest/relaxation/failure which makes me feel that again, his ideal type is someone who has had to go through a lot of obstacles that shaped them to be someone who’s very resilient, but to me, this card makes me feel that his person is very sensitive behind closed doors, which makes sense cause outwardly his person can come off very dominating. 

scribe tells me he would like if his person had a way with words, they don’t have to be a lyricist but i think someone who’s well spoken would catch his eye. i think intelligence is also a huge turn on for him, cause he definitely needs intellectual stimulation from his partner (he is a libra after all). gossip card makes me feel that his ideal person could be very talkative, cause as i said he craves intellectual stimulation. i can see that he’s the type to want to talk about everything and anything under the sun, so he would want someone who can keep up with different conversations. the firefly card shows me someone with infectious positivity, as they’re often the source of hope when it comes to the people around them. his person could be the type to overwork themselves (just like 9 of wands) cause this card describes someone who has a lot of energy but burns out quick, but they do it ultimately to bring hope to those who need it most. this card makes me think of the character ray from the princess and the frog, how he’s a bit of a hopeless romantic, very protective of those he loves, source of optimism and is incredibly selfless. of course the libra card for the libra man, jooheon’s ideal type is someone who is his equal. by that i mean he wants someone who mirrors him in a way that when he’s feeling upset his person is upset with him, or if he’s feeling fiery his person is feeling the same as well. if you notice, the tarot cards i pulled for him uncannily honestly describes him. to me, jooheon wants to be in a relationship with someone where no one is overpowering or submissive, he wants it to be fully equal.

AS A BOYFRIEND

the hermit, the magician rx, 7 of swords, 8 of cups | avenger, king, hummingbird, saturn: feel restricted, experience struggle, learn hard work and patience 

the hermit card tells me jooheon’s very private when it comes to relationships, he’ll definitely be the type to express his love in private which is unsurprising due to his scorpio stellium. this card can also describe someone who plays a mentor figure so it doesn’t surprise me if jooheon is very dominant relationships, i do feel in the relationship too he’ll definitely be more observant and introspective so don’t be surprised if he frequently needs time alone. the magician in reversed tells me that there’s two extremes to jooheon, one very playful and affectionate like a kid and one that’s very dominant and deep, this can be due to his libra sun (possibly moon too) and his leo mars wanting a playful and lighthearted relationship but his scorpio placements crave a relationship with a lot of depth. it’s as if jooheon has two sides to him and can switch from one to another depending on his mood, i do get the feeling that it takes a lot for him to fall for someone so if he hasn’t fallen for them it’s easy for him to detach, but if he does it will take a lot for him to leave, he really craves a bond that goes beyond physical and is more towards emotional/spiritual which is why these cards popped up. the 7 of swords basically reiterates my point of jooheon’s priority being his privacy but, this card also tells me that in relationships he definitely shows a side of himself that not a lot of people see and will be open to being more vulnerable once he’s committed, i also get the feeling that jooheon’s love language is very unique and he's definitely more action-oriented. the 8 of cups tells me jooheon hates to be controlled and will walk away from a relationship if he doesn’t feel it’s serving his highest good, i do get the sense of possessiveness from jooheon but it’s more cause he fears betrayal and wants to be the only person his s.o is affectionate towards. with this card i also envisioned jooheon willing to go through a lot of things for his s.o, once he’s committed he’s willing to do ANYTHING to make it work especially if he already feels safe with his partner. 

the avenger card tells me jooheon is very territorial when it comes to his partner (scorpio stellium AND leo mars are we surprised lol). if someone were to cross his partner regardless of significance, he would not be scared to confront them because he HATES injustice (such a libra). the king tells me that from an outsider’s perspective jooheon could seem to be the more dominant one, but this is due to him wanting to ease the burden of his s.o regardless of significance. he’s someone who is a natural leader, but not in a boastful manner but rather because he’d rather deal with the burden not others. the hummingbird tells me jooheon’s very bubbly as a boyfriend, loves talking to his s.o about a lot of different topics. i feel he also wants to learn a lot in relationships, so he’s gonna be very curious and a tad restless as a boyfriend. with the saturn card, once he’s in a relationship he’s gonna be there long-term, it’s gonna be very hard for him to move on cause after all he is fixed dominant. jooheon would only get in relationships if he feels it could last in the long run, and i feel that he doesn’t want a relationship that is too “easy” cause he’s definitely the type to want to work for the relationship.

that is all! if you have any feedback, comments, queries or requests please don’t hesitate to reach out to me my ask box is always open. sending you all love, light, positivity and abundance <3 much love

[movementsofmylife]

bad buddy ep 1 (rewatch)

some thoughts and vibes. i've watched this ep an uncountable number of times, and i still love it so much.

first, to start my counter of, how many times does pran pull out his entire (extremely intense) set of markers and not use them:

ep 1: //

the kornwai vibes were so strong. they were clearly a parallel to the patpran world keeping them apart, they were keeping themselves apart. but w.e there's fanfiction fix its for that relationship.

ppl have pointed it out but we were truly robbed pran's dad's daddy vibes lol, by which i mean the tattoo on his shoulder.

the shirts, as noted by many, are exquisite. my fave of the episode is the above 'turn up the saturation' shirt of pat's. it's an obvious connection to the "I was so depressingly lonely without you" line. one of the most common descriptions of depression is life losing it's color, hence, pran comes back and so does the color. it's also in pran's red:)

this wai convincing pran to do the freshy music fest. i feel like wai got a pran who was slightly more reserved. obviously not quiet or weak, but one who was a bit slower to go out and take risks. case in point his, i don't want to be a part of that mess comment from post fight. and i think part of why they're friends is that wai can get him to come along and take part in the world again.

so some of what seems like manipulative shit that wai gets pran to do things, i think is just, that's how one gets pran to do things. and we all know how manipulative pran is, so it's not like he's unaware that wai is manipulating him. but sometimes friendship is letting your friends emotionally guilt you into not being isolated.

relatively certain that someone has posted about this before. but this scene is definitely not a competition. the soundtrack song they play on top makes it cacophonous enough that it could be read that way. but without it and with the knowledge of their past, they're clearly just jamming. their faces are not even teasing, just like figuring out how to play music together again, how to be together again.

art.

also a cute, extremely obvious shirt.

this is the first time in the entire episode that pat looks relaxed and happy. the "icy pat" of the 3 year separation starts to thaw, there's color (mint green:) in his life again.

god this show is so fucking good. excited for the entire rewatch.

[slasherhaven]

Hello! Could you please write something were like Reader is Bo‘s S/O but is really protective over Vincent? Like they have to get stuff outsude of Ambrose or smth and when ppl look weirdly at Vincent Reader squeezes his hand or distracts him with something nice so he doesn‘t notice but all in a completely platonic way? Like they’re lovey dovey with Bo but treat Vincent and Lester like family

Bo Sinclair with a S/O who is very protective over Vincent Sinclair:

You love Bo and you love Vincent and Lester, just in very different ways. Bo was your partner, Vincent and Lester were your best friends. They are your family.

You care deeply for both of Bo’s brothers but you found yourself becoming more protective of Vincent. You were closer to him than Lester because he was around more and you spent more time with him but you became more protective over him because he was the quietest of the brothers, seeming to be rather timid at times.

You enjoyed brining him out of his shell and seeing other sides of one of your closest friends. It was purely innocent.

Bo didn’t like it at first. You had always been friendly with his brothers but he thought you would be a little less affectionate after you started dating, but that didn’t happen. Bo would never admit to being jealous but he was.

Slowly Bo stops being so irritated about your friendship with his brothers when he starts to realise that it is all completely platonic. You just saw them as family and he wanted that, for you to be at home with the three of them in Ambrose.

Plus, it wasn’t like you weren’t ten times more affectionate with him. You’re always giving him hugs and kisses or holding his hand, you were just an affectionate person and it even caught Bo off guard at times.

As time passed, Bo came to accept your relationships and how you showed your affection. 

Still, of course there were times when Bo thought you were paying too much attention to one of his brothers and not enough to him. That’s when he’ll pull you down onto his lap or wrap his arms around your waist, whispering in your ear.

He’s never going to have no jealously.

Why Vincent had to come to town with you and Bo, you weren’t completely sure. You were sure that the two of you could have managed getting the extra supplies, but Bo insisted the job would get done quicker if Vincent came along.

And so, Bo had left the two of you outside while he went to sort out some supplies the had ordered.

Vincent was still wearing his mask and let his hair fall unruly over his face in an attempt to hide even that from passer-bys. It had been a while since he had left Ambrose and been in such a public space, you could tell he was nervous and on edge.

The two of you were just talking outside of the store when you noticed a group of people talking lowly between themselves and repeatedly glancing over at the two of you, more notably Vincent. 

He hadn’t seemed to notice yet and you wanted it to stay that way. Before heading into town, you had encouraged him to come, promising him everything would be fine, that you would be there for him and nothing bad would happen. You understood that people reacted to things that were out of the norm, like a man with a prosthetic mask, but you would never understand how people could be so rude to complete strangers.

Noticing some sort of gift shop across the street, your face lit up.

“Oh my god, Vinny” you smiled bright, taking his hand in yours and pulling him across the street. Vincent was confused but let you guide him without argument, amused when you stopped in front of the gift shop window, pointing at a teddy bear display. “They’re so cute” you gushed, giving his hand a small squeeze.

Vincent smiled behind his mask, knowing what you were doing. You were trying to take his mind off of things and make him more comfortable, and it was working. And the teddy bears were indeed cute.

You glanced back at the group of people to see them walking past, going back to minding their own business, putting a smile on your face.

It wasn’t long after that when the two of you heard a sharp whistle coming from behind you. When you turned, you saw Bo standing by the truck, arms folding over his chest and his eyebrow raised questioningly.

“Having fun window shopping?” he asked sarcastically. He had been sorting out the supplies while the two of you gossiped in front of teddy bears.

You grinned at the sight of your boyfriend, pulling Vincent back to the other side of the street by the grip on his hand. As you reached the truck, you released Vincent’s hand and wrapped your arms around Bo’s neck.

“Everything sorted?” you asked as Bo slipped an arm around your waist, pulling you against his chest.

“Just need to load it up onto the truck” Bo nodded, just getting the words out before you lent up to press a kiss to his lips that he instantly returned. 

The three of you loaded the supplies onto the back of the truck before shutting it up before rounding the truck again. 

Just as Bo opened the truck door, you placed a hand on his arm and stopped him, making him turn back to you with a questioning look. “Can we get some food for the road?” you asked.

“I could eat. What were you thinking?” Bo asked. 

“I saw a cute sandwich shop on the corner...” you knew that the sandwiches were a little over priced, but they just looked so good! 

Bo pondered your words for a moment before nodding. “Sounds good. What do you think, Vincent?” he asked, looking to his brother. Vincent nodded, definitely agreeing with getting some food. “Well, come on then” Bo shut the truck door and locked it before the three of you started to head down the street.

Picking up on Vincent’s growing nerves once again, you slipped your arm through his, making him look down at you as you smiled up at him reassuringly. Vincent seemed to relax a little then.

Bo looked over at the two of you and even he couldn’t help but smile just a little bit, you made Vincent feel more confident in public than he ever could. He knew he could be hard on his brothers, and even on you, but they were family and he does love them, and he does love you.

Bo threw an arm around your shoulders, making you giggle as he pulled you into his side. You loved days like this, when Bo was in a good mood, when Vincent was feeling confident, when you could just enjoy the day with the Sinclairs.

You loved the Sinclair brothers with your whole heart, they were your family and you were glad that Bo could now see that your relationships with his brothers were just platonic and he was becoming more comfortable with that. The Sinclairs were your boys and you loved them.

[eatnoodle114]

Maka, Soul and about them

i’ve read some theories about the relationship between Maka and Soul, also theories proving that they’re actually have a crush on each other. well i’m a latecomer so i can’t say much but even though i myself a SoulMaka shipper, still disagree to some theories. 

you’re about to read my opinions and theories about Maka, Soul and their relationship. maybe it’s nothing new but i’m a latecomer so i still wanna write them down somehow- and sorry bc of my broken english.

1. Their ideal type one of the theories i’ve read to prove that Maka and Soul have a crush on each other is from those chapters when they go into chapter 1 - “Lust”. you know, when they go into chapter “Lust”, because of the impact, everyone will transform into the form that they most expect, desire in the opposite sex, it’s “the ideal type”. 

so the theory i’ve read said that Maka and Soul have a crush on each other because their ideal form that they’ve turned into just look exactly like them. i can only half agree with this theory. it might be true that Soul’s ideal form seems a bit similar like Maka and gives off the Maka vibe. 

the reason i don’t really agree with the theory because i think Maka doesn’t have her ideal type. the top evidence is Maka’s ideal form has nothing change significantly, only her gender changed. and we already know that Maka doesn’t have deep faith or desire in male gender (because of her father). and because Maka doesn’t have that much impression of men so it’s easy to understand that she actually doesn’t have her ideal type. 

2. “Busy” kids

there’re many ppl wondering why Maka and Soul didn’t end up together and giving theories about it. on top of most theories, the explanation that they’re busy with many stuff and they’re still young are popular than other theories. but Ox and Kim are the same ages with Maka and Soul but they already a lovey dovey couple, they even aren’t companies. that’s why i myself prefer the explanation that they’re busy.

as we can see from the beginning of Soul Eater, Maka and Soul's original goal is to turn Soul into a Death Scythe, they’re keep focusing on this goal after nearly achieving their goal (wrongly taking Blair's soul). During the progress of archieving the highest goal, Maka and Soul (and other characters) are caught up in countless challenges and events. and since they’re one-star students (then two-star), still immature, so they focus on increasing their strength, training themselves to become stronger (like what happens in a typical shounen set). after turning Soul into a Death Scythe, Maka and Soul (as well as the Spartoi) still haven't been able to relax: Kishin is still out there, Kid is being captured, Shibusen's mysteries, etc. still have problems, can't fully relax yet to be able to focus on other things like romance. 

not only were they busy with events following the storyline, but the two of them were also busy in their hearts.

Maka understandably won't think of romantic things because Maka has no deeply expectations and beliefs in men (and Soul is the male Maka trusts the most). throughout the story, it can be seen that Maka admires her mother very much and always tries to become an amazing person like her. so in her mind, Maka always has a goal towards her mother's image. then in free time, she’s just reading a book.

Soul is running away from his family, running from the shadow of his brother, the biggest fear and at the same time, he takes those concerns away from home, he seems like never stop being obsessed about the past. Soul also doesn’t open up to anyone, not even Maka - his close partner. with a heavy mind and aching heart from past wounds, Soul's new goal to stop thinking about those things is to become a Death Scythe, so there is no room for love. (i will analyze Soul more later)

3. The chosen one

i kept wondering about the reason why Soul chose Maka as his company, because Soul is a closed person, doesn't tell anyone about himself, only shows his personality. Maka's reason is clearly simple. 

talking more about Soul, as i’ve mentioned previously, Soul ran away from his family. he afraids of fear of being judged, compared, and because of the guilt in his heart (when he is not as talented as his brother), Soul changes his surname to "Eater", hiding his "Evans", which means hiding his identity and the fact that he originally comes from a musician family. it's really a runaway. Soul also aims to become the Death Scythe to assert himself, to feel valued. 

and because Maka - a simple thinker when choosing Soul to become partner, just because Soul is a scythe, it is this in Maka that creates a pleasant atmosphere and good impression for Soul, setting the stage for their long-term trust.

even though Maka doesn't know anything about music, not interested in music, but she loves listening to Soul's piano. Maka doesn’t judge, doesn’t think that Soul's music or playing skills are this or that, she doesn’t understand but still listening. Maka now acts as a listener for Soul. there is no reason to refuse such a great partner. 

from there, the two of them form a close bond with each other.

4. The knot

a little bit about them personally.

Maka clearly doesn't understand music at all, maybe Maka likes to listen to Soul playing piano just because the music sounds fun or cool (?). Maka could hear the melody of the song Soul played when they first met as "strange and dark". Soul did not introduce himself, but played the piano instead, Maka didn’t feel like forcing him to say anything but happily accepted and enjoyed.

Maka knew that Soul had concerns about a dream, but he didn’t share it with anyone but the school nurse (Medusa), even close partner like Maka are still not trustworthy enough. since then, Maka has become self-deprecating, feels guilty of feeling useless, weak, always relying on Soul. Maka is even more self-conscious when she let Soul take a hit from Crona, leaving a long scar on Soul’s body.

despite her low self-esteem, Maka still tries to become more trustworthy, to get closer to Soul, to understand her partner better. Maka has read books about music, but unfortunately, she can’t get music so it is difficult for Maka. not being able to absorb music means it's harder to get close to Soul, and seeing Liz and Soul easily get along through music - something that Maka can't understand, making her guilt increase and generating jealousy. Maka is jealous of music in a way that is both reprehensible and pitiful.

Soul, on the other hand, has an artist's soul and loves music. even though he knows that Maka can't feel music and the conversation will only be dry when it comes to music, Soul still tries to reach out, tries to convey his passion, expresses his interests, tries to open up more to Maka about himself with music.

their souls are still in the process of gradually resonance with each other and perhaps things like those above have accidentally become a high wall separating the two of them get closer to each other.

5. Now only the feelings left

when everything is finally over, life return to its original trajectory, Maka and Soul also achieved their goal: to turn Soul into a Death Scythe, and above all, kill the Kishin. Maka feels that when there is nothing left to do, when there is no other goal for both of them to look towards, there’s no reason to stick together.

knot in their relationship are untangled. the two of them finally reaching closer to each other, finally understanding each other, as evidenced by the music they both created.

theory Maka has a crush on Soul thanks to this blushing scene, i want to believe it too but i still think that Maka feels nervous and a bit awkward because finally she can really touch Soul and they even made a song together – which used to be a big obstacle for Maka. 

6. About them

lemme just ramble a lil more coz they’re bootiful together.

- they’re not canon, i think it's reasonable. my theory, the same with other shippers, is that in the future the two of them will be able to end up together. their current age is around 13-15, plus, the mess that happened and they were busy so only when those things be solved then they may have time to look at each other.

- this is just my subjective point of view, but it's fun, so i still write it down: Soul is the guy who likes to show off as a cool kid. at that age, most boys will start to notice girls and the body of the opposite sex. Soul mocked Maka as "Miss Tiny Tits" clearly ungainly, then said that she had to be as glamorous as Blair. in the end, it’s clearly that Soul just plays around in front of Maka, because the ideal form that Soul transforms into in the “Lust” chapter doesn't have a huge breasts and stuff like he always said. 

- Maka doesn't seem interested in sexual stuff. i’ve seen some headcanons of Soul Eater’s characters and i saw about 3 posts headcanon Maka as an asexual. Maka often reacts with anger and annoyance at Blair's ecchi scenes with Soul but it's not like Maka is jealous or anything, it feels like Maka just simply dislike it.