#was in my drafts for over a yr bc i havent gotten around to doing changkyuns

[skylinesnsunshines]

monsta x reading: jooheon ideal type + as boyfriend

hi friends! today i’m doing a reading for jooheon <3 i know it’s been a while, a lot of stuff has happened and im slowly starting to get back into tarot. im gonna create a guidelines list before requesting because i realised i was getting so drained when i was doing readings bc i wasnt invested in the ppl i was doing the readings for. so far im happy doing gen 3 bg’s, gen 4 not so much (had a delulu in my mentions which gave me the ick) but happy w doing gen 3+4 gg’s! i’m not as invested in kpop as i used to be but i do still wanna practice my tarot and intuitive abilities so im super excited to do this, you all know the drill so let’s go! 

DISCLAIMER: this is all speculative and for entertainment purposes only, so take it with a grain of salt :)

decks used: ethereal visions tarot, archetype cards by caroline myss, heavenly bodies astrology, the wild unknown animal by kim krans

(italicised is the card on the bottom of the tarot deck which is meant to represent the subconscious/blind spot of the situation + rx means reversed)

JOOHEON🐝

IDEAL TYPE

the moon rx, 10 of wands rx, 9 of wands, 4 of swords | scribe, gossip, firefly, libra: consideration, fairness and harmony

when it comes to jooheon’s ideal type i feel he doesn’t have an exact definition of an ideal type because he notices and likes the little characteristics when it comes to falling for a person. the moon rx tells me jooheon wants someone with a lot of layers, by that i mean he wants someone who might seem very “shallow” or unassuming yet has a lot of willpower and depth. when i was doing jooheon’s reading i kept hearing the words “underdog”, which makes me think that the word is connected with the moon rx by reiterating that he wants someone who’s not as they seem, in a way that they might look very intimidating but is incredibly nurturing once you get to know them. the 10 of wands rx basically is more of an affirmation for the first card, this card gives me the feeling that he likes someone who’s a bit of a puzzle and can take time for him to know, i see him being someone who actually likes it if his person isn’t interested in him initially. this card also gives me the vibe that he likes someone who’s gone through a lot yet still comes out on top. these two cards gives me an image of someone who has a lot of responsibility yet always perseveres, i also envision someone who’s the source of stability and hope for a lot of people, and is always there to lend a helping hand yet never asks for anything in return. 9 of wands reiterates my two points earlier, jooheon definitely finds people who are go-getters attractive. this card details someone who relies on themselves to make their dreams come true, could be a workaholic due to them very dedicated to their craft. his person definitely has a hidden level of sensitivity with the 4 of swords card being on the bottom. this card usually represents rest/relaxation/failure which makes me feel that again, his ideal type is someone who has had to go through a lot of obstacles that shaped them to be someone who’s very resilient, but to me, this card makes me feel that his person is very sensitive behind closed doors, which makes sense cause outwardly his person can come off very dominating. 

scribe tells me he would like if his person had a way with words, they don’t have to be a lyricist but i think someone who’s well spoken would catch his eye. i think intelligence is also a huge turn on for him, cause he definitely needs intellectual stimulation from his partner (he is a libra after all). gossip card makes me feel that his ideal person could be very talkative, cause as i said he craves intellectual stimulation. i can see that he’s the type to want to talk about everything and anything under the sun, so he would want someone who can keep up with different conversations. the firefly card shows me someone with infectious positivity, as they’re often the source of hope when it comes to the people around them. his person could be the type to overwork themselves (just like 9 of wands) cause this card describes someone who has a lot of energy but burns out quick, but they do it ultimately to bring hope to those who need it most. this card makes me think of the character ray from the princess and the frog, how he’s a bit of a hopeless romantic, very protective of those he loves, source of optimism and is incredibly selfless. of course the libra card for the libra man, jooheon’s ideal type is someone who is his equal. by that i mean he wants someone who mirrors him in a way that when he’s feeling upset his person is upset with him, or if he’s feeling fiery his person is feeling the same as well. if you notice, the tarot cards i pulled for him uncannily honestly describes him. to me, jooheon wants to be in a relationship with someone where no one is overpowering or submissive, he wants it to be fully equal.

AS A BOYFRIEND

the hermit, the magician rx, 7 of swords, 8 of cups | avenger, king, hummingbird, saturn: feel restricted, experience struggle, learn hard work and patience 

the hermit card tells me jooheon’s very private when it comes to relationships, he’ll definitely be the type to express his love in private which is unsurprising due to his scorpio stellium. this card can also describe someone who plays a mentor figure so it doesn’t surprise me if jooheon is very dominant relationships, i do feel in the relationship too he’ll definitely be more observant and introspective so don’t be surprised if he frequently needs time alone. the magician in reversed tells me that there’s two extremes to jooheon, one very playful and affectionate like a kid and one that’s very dominant and deep, this can be due to his libra sun (possibly moon too) and his leo mars wanting a playful and lighthearted relationship but his scorpio placements crave a relationship with a lot of depth. it’s as if jooheon has two sides to him and can switch from one to another depending on his mood, i do get the feeling that it takes a lot for him to fall for someone so if he hasn’t fallen for them it’s easy for him to detach, but if he does it will take a lot for him to leave, he really craves a bond that goes beyond physical and is more towards emotional/spiritual which is why these cards popped up. the 7 of swords basically reiterates my point of jooheon’s priority being his privacy but, this card also tells me that in relationships he definitely shows a side of himself that not a lot of people see and will be open to being more vulnerable once he’s committed, i also get the feeling that jooheon’s love language is very unique and he's definitely more action-oriented. the 8 of cups tells me jooheon hates to be controlled and will walk away from a relationship if he doesn’t feel it’s serving his highest good, i do get the sense of possessiveness from jooheon but it’s more cause he fears betrayal and wants to be the only person his s.o is affectionate towards. with this card i also envisioned jooheon willing to go through a lot of things for his s.o, once he’s committed he’s willing to do ANYTHING to make it work especially if he already feels safe with his partner. 

the avenger card tells me jooheon is very territorial when it comes to his partner (scorpio stellium AND leo mars are we surprised lol). if someone were to cross his partner regardless of significance, he would not be scared to confront them because he HATES injustice (such a libra). the king tells me that from an outsider’s perspective jooheon could seem to be the more dominant one, but this is due to him wanting to ease the burden of his s.o regardless of significance. he’s someone who is a natural leader, but not in a boastful manner but rather because he’d rather deal with the burden not others. the hummingbird tells me jooheon’s very bubbly as a boyfriend, loves talking to his s.o about a lot of different topics. i feel he also wants to learn a lot in relationships, so he’s gonna be very curious and a tad restless as a boyfriend. with the saturn card, once he’s in a relationship he’s gonna be there long-term, it’s gonna be very hard for him to move on cause after all he is fixed dominant. jooheon would only get in relationships if he feels it could last in the long run, and i feel that he doesn’t want a relationship that is too “easy” cause he’s definitely the type to want to work for the relationship.

that is all! if you have any feedback, comments, queries or requests please don’t hesitate to reach out to me my ask box is always open. sending you all love, light, positivity and abundance <3 much love

[nachobra]

hey i did nothing productive today loool i needed a day to recharge after bein around a lotta ppl for 2 days. my plan was to finally finish a dk64 speedrun because its like at least a 6 hour time commitment & i never finish bc adhd :shrug: i got about halfway but lost momentum so RIP, some other day....

i really need to like, devote my free time to things that arent playing the same games over & over trying to beat them in one sitting, i need to like, be productive. i wanna draft the next few bitgirl pages. ive been wanting to experiment with watercolors bc i really love them & have just never taken the time to really learn how to use them well. i wanna record music, like start writing songs. im reluctant to start bc idk ive never been able to write lyrics that dont embarass me. but thats just how it goes, yr first attempts at a new art form are gonna suck but if you take the time to develop the skill & keep workin it eventually it sucks less. theres prob a whole tangent i could get on abt feeling self conscious about my voice but w/eeeeee

& yknow i have like new games that ive bought & just havent played yet. like i have the new metroid & a hat in time & i got mario odyssey for crimbus but i dont know why i forgoe (sp?) playing interesting new games in favor of playing something ive played a million times. i guess i just enjoy that moment of just kinda zoning out watching youtube, running through a game, sippin coffee, on a ritalin high & everythings interesting & cool. idk idk idk

2018 i really need to actually think about my future career wise. i cant afford to go back to school (i know loans exist but im not touching that shit) & i only see myself willingly moving back home if i was in dire straits. i need to figure out A) am i dead set on having a job doing artsy stuff or would i be willing to learn how to code & do some of that, B) do either of these fields absolutely 100% require a degree for any job, or can i get a foot in the door by honing my skills & making a good portfolio and C) if its the latter, will i have the dedication to do those things or will i be lazy & play video games & act like things will just fall into place. if its the former, do i take back what i said & move back home or take out loans & go back to school even though i know i wont enjoy a second of it, or do i just work retail indefinitely & hope one day i get lucky & become Internet Famous & can somehow make money & connections that way???

im a little scared for the future, but a lot of things happened this year i never wouldve expected going into it, & all these things happened from me pushing myself out of my comfort zone, and each time its gotten easier. im assuming this post is p incoherent since its like all stream of consciousness but thems the breaks. i guess its just easier to sort through my thoughts when its all in text & im not suddenly jumping from like job decisions to hey isnt the internal numbering of simpsons episodes goofy? i guess im just writing this bc when i try to journal i write so sloppily trying to keep up with my brain that it all becomes illegible. anyway, hey emily in the morning; maybe set some goals for the next year! just a suggestion!

postscript: wouldnt it be fucked up if i just turned this acct into like a normal blog (aka web log) & just wrote about my life. like whomst does that lmaooo