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AHHH i cant wait for the next part! Do you have an idea when its coming out and getting on the masterpost? (i can never find them when they come out seperately)
Assuming you mean the 2 Arms Left main comic, aah! I am so sorry I have not updated that masterpost in uh... nearly 5 months!? 😭I have made a few more parts that are not on the post which you can find by going through the comics tag '2 arms left' on my blog though! But that tag also involves assorted drawings and asks related, so you would have to sift through all those to find the actual comics
Though I will say I am still on a mild comic break 👍 the next parts when they DO come are going to be super plot heavy and, frankly, I am scared to do them aha
Someone bonk me on the head if I still have not updated the masterpost by like, September... I think what has been scaring me off is how the masterpost needs a new 5th part thanks to the tumblr link limit.... which I dont feel like making....
#I know its usually seen as rude to ask when next parts are coming out#but nah not here#I am actually happy someone asked#like yay people still care!#asks#2 arms left#<- the tag to sift through btw#but yeah whoops I have distracted myself from the 2al plot by drawing nothing but fusions for the past month#oops#And!!! I have actually been drawing a lot!!! a fair bit actually in the past 2 weeks#BUT ITS ALL TUMBLR SPOILERS....#aka I cant post it yet!
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The Fan family has tried to harm Bai Zongyi many times. I gotta be on guard to protect myself.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#chen yi x ai di#ai di x chen yi#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userjjessi#userrain#userspring#userspicy#*cajedit#*gif#THE CONCERN ON CHEN YI'S FACE SHUT UP#no cuz he looks like both a kicked puppy and so worried about ai di#like. they are different people now than they were before#they just are#and its hard to face that theyve changed without the other being by their side#and chen yi is very firm when he says dont go. but his expression still echoes that concern that says#youre different than i remember and i want to know what happened because i grew up with you and care#and faced with that ai di has to admit what he went through in prison#hi did you know that i love them#like yay choking moment ai di is strong but also i would like to take a second to think about The Trauma#and also how necessary it is for them to re-get to know each other
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Hey are you planning to finish this Akane analysis you talked about?
This thing is such the running gag of this blog help me
Idk Anon sorry ://
I am in a rare tbhk mood since months but idk if I will have the energy to do it I will be honest the main reason is because of how Akane is seen by most of the fandom I honestly feel really out of touch with how he is viewed by most people which is the reason I always started and never finished x'))) ( 2/3 persons being the exceptions rip (from people who express themselves about tbhk, I know a lot of persons don't talk too))
So it's a maybe! but honestly I won't promise it ahah writing my thoughts (especially in english) , even when half of them are insane and not really linked directly to the manga, take a long time and I don't have much ^^
I still think he is a good character in the most recent chapters (which unfortunately can't be said for all characters :') He had bad appearances in chapters when he was in this kinda limbo before the clock keepers/grim reaper arc but after he just didn't, which once again clearly can't be said for everyone biggest rip(expect for chapter 109 but I just think this chapter sucks in general and even in this horror he was probably one of the best character help me)
I have big fears for him because of how inconsistent AidaIro is tbh With the need they have to make some characters the highlights and destroy the others just to make their favs look good. So I kinda expect Akane and the clock keepers mostly to be dunked on in terms of writing. (I wil always love them, like all mysteries ♥)
But I am happy to see this question, it made me laugh and I am surprised some people remember ^^
Thank you for the ask Anon! I would be sure to scream if I ever post one so you can see it ❤️
#this got so long this is a joke help#maybe I can do like focus on some chapters but even for this idk x)) I will seeeee#the only thing where I was???? with Akane in the recent chapters (the ones from this last 1 year and half)#was why tf he was so scared of Teru in chapter 103#but we got our answer so no prob#honestly I don't care if people don't see him as I do or as I think he is written (it's my opinion after all)#people can interpret what they want and all (even if some takes are insane but hey you do you)#this answer sounds negative towards the fandom but (for once rip) it really isn't#it's really just in terms of motivation for me :00#I just need motivation and I will be honest I am a really either 0 or 100 person#no in between at all ahah#so one day I can be super motivated#and the next I will delete everything x))#anyways! I ramble#thank you for the ask anon!! ^^#this is still really sweet to see that some people remembers this it makes me happy yay#aoi akane#the guy#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun
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MY COWORKER LIKES LEGO NINJAGO!!
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#ninjago#lego ninjago#tbh im so used to people hating on the things i love i forget that there ARE still a lot of people who do love it#and if you just talk about it normally irl no one cares or will give you shit for it#like people on the internet in general are just super negative and so im in the mindset everyone is like that#and then theyre not. so. YAY!!!
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me and the lowkey yandere (symbiote) spiderman isagi fic i wanna write 😞
#people nerf spiderman too much in fic n dont acknowledge he’s yan 😞 even lowkey. most superheros tbh /lh#why are u watching over ur mj like that hmm when shes walking home… doesnt know ur there….#depends on which spiderman it is ofc ig but still i think spiderman in general isn’t as like. yay! fighting villains in the street! my gf!#No like there’s more to his brain being eaten by hero society burdens n stuff…. gets driven insane does he not (- not a comics reader LOL)#anyway…. if he likes u a lot (n the way isagi is…..) hes bananas abt making sure of ur safety . n lowkey a freak w his senses heightened#if isagi was spiderman he would Not be fully okay at all lmao. but he is crazy abt protecting u that’s fs - even if u don’t ask#thinking abt how he develops a habit of watching u walk home from the shadows (IM THINKING SYMBIOTE-SPIDERMAN ISAGI) to make sure u-#get home safe. some guys try harassing u on ur way and uhhh…. well >_> doesn’t end well for them#him n his crazy eyes <3_<3 n again the fact all his senses r heightened and he’d recognize ur smell and u . Woah#crazy soft and sweet like bf spidey w u tho otherwise. he rlly cares. it’s abt u matching his freak sorta and letting him watch over u???#idk i think he can be sweet super bf otherwise but when hes spiderman woahhh#someone else lowkey . ESP CUZ OF THE SYMBIOTE#sora.txt#yandere cw#idk im brewing it cuz i want it to be yandere but softer but also No hes still a freak as symbiotespidey IDK ALMDKDDK
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I really hate how my physical body looks so so so much. unfortunately there isn't much I can do about it.
#ive got fat genetics from both parents families going back generations and ive been trying to lose weight forever#my stupod body likes being fat i can excercise like crazy and eat barely anything and i wont lose anything#i was excercising 2+ hours a day before i got sick and it made me stronger but i.stayed fat. now that im sick im weak and still fat.#and im not the kind of fat anybody can find pretty. if i could somehow not be fat id be decent to look at my face isnt bad#my skin is bad though my skin sucks#in my eyes im disgusting#and its so messed up because i dont think other fat people are gross#but i hate how i look so much that i cant imagine anyone being okay with it#like no matter how kind and understanding and sweet i am to people its never gonna make up for the fact that my body is grossly ugly#and i cant blame anyone for not liking me i get it.#sorry#this is a problem i have#bacause i just usually pretend my body doesnt exist and i wear pretty loose fitting dresses that cover me completely so but#even though i am what i am#sometimes you happen to meet a nice person and they are polite and dont seem disgusted by your existance so then your traitorous brain t#thinks hey maybe this person would be willing to marry us someday if they got to know us. which is so silly becuz theres no way thatd ever#so it makes me sad when i should be happy that a nice person talked to me. yay good job successful friendlyness. but it has to remind me#that i had this expectation from when i was a kid that id marry somone and have at least 3 kids and love my kids and take care of them and#give them everything i needed when i was a kid. and of course that never happened. because i never dated anyone. because people dont just#magically get married out of nowhere. its stupid. so i keep trying to be okay with whatever. but i guess i never stopped wanting a family.#which we know im aroace now so. i need to stop. but my brain is always bothering me about this.#why can't i just accept that no one will ever love me. why cant i be happy that they dont?#ive got cats#someday i will have irl friends again#sorry i think everything would be so much easier if i was just#this isnt a problem with an easy solutiom#i guess im gonna try to do the useless excercises again because at least it will look like im trying even though nothing will change
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feeling so actively antisocial rn that i can’t even feel passively happy about pride. like great we get a month where people pretend to care about us before going back to either hating us or politely ignoring our existence. but it’s so fun that people get to go out and drink and dance and go to concerts and have fun with their friends!! not me though because i’m working forever and ever. but yay our shitty cishet manager got to see chappell roan. i’m sure that was so special for her
#honestly anything too upbeat is obnoxious to me rn. but also i have never felt included in pride celebrations#i’m still bitter about everyone going to pride without me in high school :/#how many times i came out to people just for them to conveniently ‘forget’ that i was gay#how much i see straight people post about pride. congrats you got your photo op + look like an ally on social media!!#you got to go to a party!! you got to make something that’s not about you about you again!! yay#why should i care. fuck you. it’s just an excuse for straight people to go to gay bars#and then it’s all the ‘kink at pride’ discourse WHO CARES do what you want and let other people do what they want who cares#but then i think about how pissed homophobic people must be perpetually this month and that’s a nice thought <3#anyway i’m sorryyyyyy but you will not be getting any pride posting over here but don’t get confused i’m still a dyke don’t worry
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addie and cherry moment like. me and you and you and me just us and your friend (strange guy who is like thrice your age and works at the same place you work and you seem to be kinda uncomfortable honestly) steve (renowned surgeon dr shana solomon)
#addie thinks shana is a bit of a character but most people see him that way. though addie is def a bit more neutral#than most people’s generally more positive view.#mainly because she#she does notice cherry’s discomfort but she adamantly and angrily denies that there’s anything going and addie#has a Thing about getting involved in other’s life choices like that. even if the best thing for a person you somewhat care about is ge#is getting involved she won’t.#so if cherry says that everything’s fine she’ll let her be.#addie also sorta feels like she owes cherry that because of her commitment issues#like they’ll go months without speaking and while cherry says that’s cool with her and that is the truth addie still feels bad.#and it’s not like addie doesn’t have things in her life more important than another mentally unstable woman#like university or. her child. but that’s sort of why their relationship works. addie’s there whenever she feels like it#with no regard to what cherry would need from a friend#and in exchange cherry gets to feel like a normal person doing normal things for a bit.#whenever she is around.#weird friendship between weird mentally unstable women. yay!#oc: adelaide#oc: cherry
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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂
#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch#it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who#have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that#when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in#a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs#and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and#they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times#like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying#I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so#I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of#them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in#their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door#this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl#this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything#AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great#emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too#is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of#knowing how to coexist politely in public#anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who#found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness#I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think#hater hour over love u guys bye
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#black haze#miss ren#rubymonter#yutiarien#liltopaz#eperia#lin#iel#benedict#tessiana#duke nuadly#duchess nuadly#dayner#meme#my post#I had taken most of these from the character post so more partial arrows on images yay#somehow their expressions match the meme tho lol#Miss Ren is a person of principles and would not say it but given what she has to deal with I imagine she would've slipped at some point#much to Kiel's amusement#I feel like Nuadly would have used the word a lot in her younger days#but stopped after she succeeded her father and needed to set a better example for people#but she still slips into her old habit often#Lord Nuadly: Oh f***!#Duchess Nuadly: DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT F***ING WORD IN FRONT OF OUR F***ING SON!#will also ground her son for saying that word even though she's where he learnt it from 100%#Ruby had no parental guidance as usual#Eperia would have heard the word from her time outside#but has no idea what it means and Lanoste did not care to inform her#I imagine Lil would have heard the word at least once from her brother#such as that time she took the dagger-
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Hey!! I just wanted to say thanks for all your hard work <3<3
I had been a little down when it came to creating more content or being involved in Zukka side of the fandom but seeing your update reminded me to just have fun. And okay this is going to sound bad but I swear I mean this as a compliment; I thought I was wasting my time working for months and years on the stuff I made, but then I realized your fic series brings me so much joy and I'd never, ever judge you for the amount of effort you put into your writing. Seeing it's actually inspiring, to see that someone holds that much passion and creativity and you are sharing it all for FREE. That a person could take all this time to intricately weave together a story, create memorable OCs, breathe new life and make the ATLA world so much bigger than it ever was in canon.
So thanks for accidentally giving me a kick in the butt to stop being judgy about my own work and making me realize you and every fan creator is AWESOME.
I hope you have a wonderful day, your writing is a blessing.
awwww I wanted to say thank you for sending me this ask! I know it’s not easy to put yourself out there, even on anon, so I think it’s cool you felt confident enough to come here and tell me about how you’re feeling.
I don;t think what you’re saying is bad at all haha, because honestly, I feel the same way. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve wondered why the fuck am I still doing this? What’s the point? Do people even still care? What if it’s not good enough? What if people discover I have no fucking idea what I’m doing? Why am i spending so much of my time and effort doing this?? I mean… the self doubt is super real, and shiiiiiit let me discover one person that feeds into my self doubt and I’m full on spiraling haha. (Be nice to creators damn it! we are doing our damn best lol)
I’m really glad you think my fic is awesome, and if it weren’t people like you reminding me, I probably would have given up a long time ago haha. I do give my fic a lot of effort, and I hope you continue to give your creations the same amount of love and effort! I’m sure you’re amazing, and seriously don’t give up! I care about your creations and if I don’t get to stop neither do you! WOHOOO!!
Thanks for the ask anon sorry it took me so long to answer
#I am the kind of person who is like AWWWW NO ASKS…#then I get an ask and I’m like YAY ASK!!!#& then I;m like OH NO HOW DO I ANSWER THIS ASK!?!?!?#but then if I don’t get an ask in a while I assume everyone hates me and then the cycle starts over again when I get another ask#but seriously anon DON’T STOP CREATING!!!!!#I wish the voices in our head weren’t constantly trying to discredit us#I also think the pressure we put on ourselves to be good enough is fucking dumb#like who cares if people like reblog comment kudo all that stuff#but ugh we all care so much#I love that you see all my passion and creativity in LIAB because I do put a lot of effort into that stupid fic#and yeah it stresses me out but when I see that it brings people joy and its worth it#& its not even that it’s stressful to write#I fucking love writing it#but yeah don’t think you’re alone with the ‘what’s the point’ thoughts#I’m sure we’ve all been there#at least I know I have been there#and kind of still am in there hahaha#thanks for this ask anon I hope I didn’t ramble too much#I hope you show me when you create something new! I’d love to see it#LIAB#ask
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Sasuke is Out! Sasuke is Doing things! What will Sasuke do?! I have no idea!!! I've never gotten this far in the story before, so I have no idea how things are going from here!!!! But Sasuke is Loose!!!!!!
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Quoting this post to myself as I see Sasuke walking around and doing things. I haven't seen this guy do anything in like a hundred episodes. It's so exciting
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#it's so sweet seeing Suigetsu and Jugo trying to find Sasuke again#meanwhile Karin is under lock and key. yet shes playing with their expectations to her advantage#her pretending to be just the stupid sasuke obsessed girl to make them not pay attention to her#to let her keep the picture that actually contains some fucking lockpicks. crafty af#and her GLASSES??? the arm of her glasses is hiding a little secret knife?!?!! thats so cool karin wtf#i love when shes shown to be capable like this. like her sasuke fangirling was real. before.#but idk about now after he tried to kill her. he does Not deserve to keep her affections after that for Sure.#but shes still using the act. making people underestimate her. so crafty. like fuck yeah you go you funky little outlaw#i do love that shes genuinely a bitch. i hated her when i was younger bc i hated sasuke#and the fangirling still does annoy me. but shes also more than the fangirling.#shes so COOL when shes not obsessing over sasuke. i wanna see more of her!!!!!#unfortunately now i have to go back to this shit ass kage fight. really boring to me. now that sasuke's out i dont caaaaaare#it's just a bunch of OP ninja throwing rocks and shit at each other. madara literally dropped Two giant fucking meteors on the battlefield#like it was just one and it was a huge deal but tsuchikage and gaara stopped it. yay!!#but then it was such a Gradeschooler One Upping You moment where madara was like. Heh. well actually. theres Two.#and the 2nd one falls on the first and kills a bunch of people etc etc like come onnnn this isnt even fun anymore#we're just committing massive ecological damage all around#also killer bee literally PURPOSEFULLY clearing a massive section of forest for the sake of visibility#NONE of these ninja care about the environment!!!!! those poor trees and creatures!!!!!!#anytime theres some kind of poison something and they show it off by having birds or whatever die like#STOP!!!! youre killing the environment!!!!! stop it!!!!!!!!!#anyways what a show. the more ridiculously massive the fight gets the less fun it is to watch.#why should i care about guys throwing boulders at each other. Boringggg show me some people punching the shit outta each other.#THE TAIJUTSU!!!! WHERES THE TAIJUTSU!!!!! STOP WITH UR OP NINJA MAGIC SHOW ME TAIJUTSU!!!!!!!!#i also really want to see itachi. where is he. sasuke's loose now i know he teams up with itachi Where Is He....#LETS GET SOME UCHIHA UP IN THIS BITCH!!!! madara get ur pasty ass out of here and tobi stick your head in a toilet#only the uchiha BROTHERS here get those old guys OUTTA HEREEEEEEE#anywyas i actually folded some laundry while watching. wild. having fun rn
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i miss my ex but i don’t miss the effect he had on me something terrible happens to me when im in a relationship and it just ruins everything
#i just don’t want anyone to have that much power over me again#i feel like i need to do a loooooooot of personal development before i can feel confident that it won’t happen again#it’s just in my nature to do whatever other people want especially if i care about them and want them to be happy#i have to learn how to tone that down though or i’m going to keep ruining my own life over and over on accident#also he was really mean to me and made me feel bad a lot but idk if i’m sensitive or if he was rly mean or maybe both?#i can’t even be friends w him bc i know he will be able to talk me into getting back w him#and it’ll work on me bc i’m really easy to manipulate#so i have to just never see him again. and he was like the only person i spent any time with for years#and at first i was like yay finally i can see other people!!!!!!#and i am still happy about that i don’t want to give that up but i do wish i could have a nice time with him#we have some really nice memories together#i wish he was someone that was still safe for me but he’s not i do not trust him#he also shows me constantly that he doesn’t care about what i want he just wants to be with me and come live w me again#like i really don’t think he gives a fuck about what i want or my wellbeing if it clashes w what he wants then he doesn’t care#he’s been saying a loooooot of stuff to me that makes me very confident that our relationship cannot be repaired
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wow sure love to come in on a monday morning to find a bunch of my shit having been moved around by some rando who was apparently using my room this weekend without my fucking knowledge.
like first of all: my monitor setup is complicated. i don't need people fucking it up.
second of all: it is very possible (likely, in fact) that i left sensitive information up on my screen or lying around since i wasn't expecting anyone to be in here!
third of all: it is very frustrating to come in on a fucking monday and have to put my room back together because whoever the fuck was in here didn't have enough respect for me or my space to put it back themselves.
now i'm just in a horrible mood which is not the vibe for a monday! this could all be avoided if you'd tell me someone's gonna be using my room (or better yet - ASK) because i could have at least straightened up my desk and/or put stuff away instead of leaving my usual controlled chaos that other people seem to find off-putting. (to which i reply - it's not your space, fuck off.)
ugh.
#rant#i almost typed up an email but i'm way to salty about this still and i know i'm not going to come across kindly#even though i feel like they SHOULD know i'm upset about this#like do you want people just rummaging around in your home and moving shit without your prior permission?#NO! YOU DON'T!#and while i know that the room doesn't technically belong to me#it's still full of my stuff and i took a lot of time to make it look and feel the way i want#and i'm sorry but i'm paranoid because people don't take care of shit that isn't theirs#and i don't trust anyone#asldfjas;lgdjas;lijawg#what a fucking way to start my week#also i have a training tomorrow so i need to write sub plans but here i am so discombobulated and frustrated that i can't even focus on tha#yay hyperfixating on the WRONG FUCKING THING
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been in a lisa mood lately and decided to play the fangame lisa the undone
god
i just love it
the updated graphics and sprites, the extra animations, the characters writing... it's incredible. for a free fangame!
still hasn't really gotten around the new mechanics (especially the sort of back and forth between masked/unmasked and armed/unarmed) but it's so original, i'm impressed they managed to make that in rpg maker
definitely would recommend to any lisa fans
if you didn't like joyful you should like it. or, if you're like me and you really like joyful, you should enjoy it too, because it`s so interesting to see how the fangame kinda expends on the story
#i'm in the minority of people who was actually satisfied with joyful so i didn't go in to see a 'fixed' version#but as an alternative version it is really well-done. also yay extra content!#also i really missed Buddy and Rando :') i'm just so glad to spend time with them again :')#i'm playing a more peaceful buddy rn to see what it would be like#but i'm definitely doing a 2nd playthrough with a ruthless and closer-to-canon buddy#lisa the undone#lisa the game#lisa rpg#personal#lisa is one of my favorite games of all time#played the first back when it was new and 'just' a yume nikki inspired game#followed the painful since its kickstarter#and i'm just so so glad there is still lisa content in 2024#this game means so much to me#it fills me with joy to see that new fangames with this level of care are still being made
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You know I thought for awhile that I was just a rare type of person who sure, liked people well enough but was okay being alone didn't necessarily need anyone and NO. NO. NO. OH MY GOD . YOU GIANT DUMBASS. NO HAHAHA NOOO NOPE
#tide of consciousness#See what was confusing me is usually when people talk about life partner they mean romantically sexually#And also I have yet to meet someone who gets me in the way I want someone to get me <- I think <- good chance I have and squandered it#<- that may be the evil brain talking though#But anyway so I was misconstruing the fact that the people I know and like currently are not people I want to spend my life with#With the idea that there is no one and no chance I will ever want that#And also heteronormative allo society despite my best efforts Is in my brain#And I'm only just realizing how badly I would really like to find a person or maybe people who do make me feel like. I could want that#The idea that there could be someone out there that I would want to spend my time and space with forever is mind blowing#Because honestly and this is of course the mental illness but I have kind of been under the assumption that maybe I am just like. Weeell#Evil and broken and cruel and selfish and HAHA. you know. The usual#Because you know only recently I got my first taste of 'a person is actively choosing you and wants you over all things'#And then I fucked that up because that was my first time believing anyone could care about me and you know you always fuck that one up#And that sucked and is still in the process of sucking but it has also made me realize#That there is actually a way that I would want that. Maybe#Like in a way that worked. I'd really like to have a person like that maybe#And honestly that's a nightmare to have to realize#Because before it was like hey! I guess I just don't have to worry about that!#And now I'm like FUCK. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS#because special secret I've never actively tried to connect to people in my life ever#I don't know how you do that! I don't know how to actively form relationships!#I just wait for someone to grab me and pull me along! It's terrifying to think about trying to discover that#AT 20!#I know it's not unusual especially in this day and age in fact it's kind of an epidemic#But you're supposed to learn how to socialize when you're a little tiny baby!!! I don't want to figure this out now I can't even get a job!#Fucking shit that's a lot of words um#Every 6 months I remember that I'm deeply deeply deeply lonely and it's the worst and then I wilfully ignore it until I rediscover it again#Every day I discover a new layer to how utterly wretchedly self loathing my brain is and its the worst#Peeling back a layer of paint and surprise! You've subconsciously thought you were fine being alone because secretly you believe#That it is impossible for you to be anything but alone! Yay!
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