#like the show with that autistic kid and the babygirl

[highly-nonexistent]

arre you stupid

Listen here, BUCKO, I didn't go to fucking creature school just to get called stupid. You could say I BASICALLY invented creature school with how much I be stupidin about. So before you send me dumbass asks check out my bio to see that you're talking to Mx. Smart.jpg

look they put me on the puter because i so so smart

[xblackmariahx]

quotes from me while watching hannibal to convince you to watch it

"are they fucking or fighting?" "who is this DIVA. no but seriously who the fuck is this diva." "aww yes sesbian lex" "is he sailing to europe? good luck babe" "i feel like i'm tripping" "this is so curly mouthwashing coded" "this has got to be a fetish of some sort" "D D DIVA" "hello my autistic baddie!" "put a shirt on slut" "the bitch is back and life is great again" "i am wheezing just call him a slur at this point" "*to the tune of hot to go* A-U-T-I-S-M, you have fucking autism" "pardon me while i bust" "he legitimately has more dogs than friends doesn't he" "oh hey that is literally my worst nightmare" "please step on me" "turning the brightness all the way up" "nevermind that's a dead body" "sir you are on drugs and i don't just mean aspirin" "ooh girl please don't have a traumatic breakdown in the middle of your lecture" "this show is a fucking comedy" "just give some kids weed not hands jesus fuck" "OH MY GOD?" "oh hey i got stabbed too. slash joke you guys." "i can excuse some recreational cannibalism" "HOLY SHIT! is that a motherfucking RADIOHEAD reference?" "oh hey look it's 1/2 of bananagrams" "ehehehe she's so hot. ehehehe he's so hot. ehehehe everyone is so hot." "she's a ten but the narrative will not give her a fucking break" @grilmo-bartlett: "special agent. special. me: "actually he's the agent of autism" grlm: "I'm special agent autism here to solve a murder" me: "that's me!" "NO MY HONEY SUGAR BOO ICON" "sweetie pie! sweetie pie sweetie pie sweetie pie angel" "why is this episode just called egg in french. i'm cackling." "THIS IS HOMOPHOBIA LET HER GO" "that's a lesbianism" "why are you speaking FRENCH in ITALY" "my poor baby. she killed a man." "hannibal, you gaslighting bitch (affectionate)" "'wlw hannibal' this 'butchfemme hannigram' that. motherfucker just watch killing eve." "OH WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT" "babygirl can't die but babygirl can get framed for murder" "that's horrible and a little kinky" "i do love when women have guns" "doing a bunch of murders because i'm thirsting over a blond man" "NOOOOOOOOOO MY THIRD FAVORITE DILF" "you were just as horny as the rest of us" "yes baddie! commit that murder!" "my babygronk is back! you should not have survived that!" "brunette bisexuals who fucked the same dude" "HELLO my beautiful lesbian babies! you will fall in love, all in due time!" "i am no better than a man" "hey so i'm actually sobbing" "i am violently crashing out. i hate this show (lying)" "they hate to see lesbians winning" "my fictional girlfriend just died, is this my sign to start flirting with real girls?" "baby's first time kissing a lesbian! it will not be his last!" "i think that's enough hannibal for today"

[slamsuckingslut]

r6 spetsnaz head canons (SLIGHT NSFW)

my 4 favorite beefy Russian men... Just little head canons i have about how they look (for tachanka and kapkan mainly, but glaz and fuze included anyway)

CREDIT TO ALL ARTISTS WHOS ART I HAVE USED IN THIS !!

TACHANKA / ALEXSANDR SENAVIEV

He most likely has graying hair, being in his 50s I believe?? Late 40s to early 50s, this man is graying, he's been through a divorce and has like 3 kids i think. His hair is a dark brown/black with gray streaks and roots, his eyebrows having already grayed with bits of black in them still. Very salt and peppered. He definitely isn't all muscle anymore in his older age, having a bit of pudge around his stomach, hips, chest and arms. Pretty much a super fucking muscular dad bod but better cause its our lord. He might have a few stretch marks hidden in the scars from battle on his body, but isn't ashamed if you point them out. I don't see him as the type to have a beard, maybe a mustache if you think about it too hard, but I'd guess clean cut just very stubbly. but LAWD he is most definitely hairy as hell everywhere else if we ignore the animation for his elite skin and how oiled up he looks... hnnggg.... BUT he most def has very hairy legs, some chest hair but not much, gotta show off the tats, and a happy trial. He is most def packing a monster and keeps his pubes slightly trimmed, just enough to be bearable, he's getting older, he cant be bothered to be as smooth shaven as when he was young.

10/10 would chew on him like a teething toy.

KAPKAN / MAXIM BUSADA

love of my life, apple of my eye, can do no wrong, babygirl... Okay so, he's in his late 30s, not so much graying yet but def getting there. He's got dark roots and light brown ends, most likely no beard just very long stubble. 5 o'clock shadow king. He's still quite fit, not as much squish as tachanka but most def still a bit squishable. he might have slight stretch marks around his arms or thighs. HE ALSO IS SO HAIRY. Literal Russian bear, okay?? This man is a hunter, he def stays hairy because quote, "A true hunter can be an animal himself." or some mystical quote about being a true hunter like that. But he's got hairy arms and legs, chest hair and a thick happy trail leading down to barely even trimmed pubes and again an absolute monster schlong. he seems like the type to go all natural with his shaving habits, only trimming it a bit if you ask. He most definitely has lots of scars around his body, and isn't afraid to tell you about them whenever you ask.

11/10, would put him in a jar and shake it around like he was a little bug.

GLAZ / TIMUR GLAZKOV

He's 30, and DAYUM does he look good.. his hair is black, you can tell that be looking at the obvious beard thing he's got. He doesn't seem like he'd be very hairy, being i think the youngest of the 4, he stays pretty clean shaven besides the beard. Not much body hair besides legs, arms, and a thin happy trail leading down to a medium monster and very well trimmed pubes. they aren't completely shaven, but are very short. He seems like he is mostly made of lean muscle, so he isn't the squishiest but is still very soft. I don't think he's really started to get stretch marks yet, but definitely has loads of scars, considers his body a canvas and the scars the art on it that tell the story, and of those stories he will only share a few with you if you ask cause most of them he doesn't really remember how he got either. Considering he's an artist, I like to think that he'll just have mystery stains on him. Like dude, why are your fingers lime green today?? He doesn't know either, he was just simply painting.

10/10, would tape a picture of him to my pillow and hump it. (only jk guys i swear...)

FUZE / SHUHRAT KESSIKBAYEV

My favorite partially mute, weirdly closed off, awkward and most likely autistic bbg. Based off the skin where you can see his face, he is clean shaven but is another 5 o'clock shadow KING. I think he'd either have very light brown hair, or black hair, no in between. He's in his early 30s but is most def getting squishy like tachanka already. he is a big boy guys. He doesn't have the dad bod type squish like tachanka does, maybe more like a bit of a tummy and THICCCKKKKK thighs and bulky arms. He has a few stretch marks, hates them, and also hates most of the scars he has. To him, they are only a reminder that his job involves a lot of pain, some of it permanant.. *cough cough* accidentally cluster charging that hostage *cough cough*.. but he wouldn't mind telling you about a few if you were close enough with him and asked nicely (bribed him while he was drunk). Considering his face is pretty clean shaven, he probably doesn't have much body hair but definitely enough. Hairy legs, arms, a little bit of chest hair and a somewhat thick hair but thin shaped happy trail leading down to a medium but THICK LIKE THE REST OF HIM monster and an absolute mess of pubes. He seems like a lonely man, he's got no real reason to shave em, so why should he?

12/10, is autistic like me, we would go nonverbal together and do some wicked shit like have a staring contest.

[ego-meliorem-esse]

dude but the whole face family is a mess of mental disorders and shit. At least if you want to nitpick. Australia and Murica are both ADHD, Canada a depressive lil shit, England is autistic and france bipolar as fuck. I'm still figuring out new Zealand so I can make bingo!

What happened to hi hello how are you 🥲

Im fucking kidding lets go

I have many thoughts on this topic. I just wanna say first that i dont really want to talk about specifically what mental disorder or whatnot each of these characters have. I have my personal hc that i keep private just cus ive strayed so far from canon or even the classic hetalia 2014 country stereotyping. They are my blorbos in the purset sense of the word. So, i feel like if i told you “yeahh murica is adhd on legs” i think it would come across as insensitive.

But on the other hand, in the past 2 years that ive been in group therapy on and off, i have come to be comfortable with talking about mental disorders and dont find it as triggering or offensive as i know some people do. Which is also very valid. People deal with things the best they can and when youre in the trenches of ocd, having a weirdo (me ✊😎) say a fictional character is going through it, it might not sit right. So i wanna keep this as non triggering as possible.

As almost everything i hc, this is something I’ve looked over. And i do agree to a point. Alfred is definitely someone who exhibits traits like excessive talking, impulsiveness, interrupting conversations, difficulty focusing at something that he finds little interest in etc etc. He is easily distracted and tends to find certain people boring. But he also does not have time management skills and he does not forget tasks and plans. Could this be adhd? Sure. Does it have to be? Of course not. So i tend to leave it up in the air. Some people might find comfort in interpreting it as adhd and some would rather stay clear. Both viewpoints equally valid.

I truly dont know about Jack or Arthur. Eleanor too. Honestly i dont really try to make up disorders for them. One thing i dislike is the labeling. If someone, even a silly character, does show traits of some disorder, id rather not have it outright mentioned. It can be cristal clear that Matt has a full on depressive episode, but let me figure that one out myself, chief. I am all in favour of making these fuckers complex and give them shit to shovel, but the moment we start throwing mental disorder labels around, i think the focus strays. But again, only my preference. To someone else, its a comfort.

However, as he is my knight of the highest order, my highest ranking babygirl, my worst punching bag: Matt is depressed as shit. He functions but, God, at what cost?

Does he have depression? Probably. Will i ever make a serious post about his depression specifically? Probably not.

Francois though. He has no disorders, no hardships or difficulties. Makes it easier for me to actively and effectively hate. We are currently negotiating a stalemate, as ive, just today, heard Sous le ciel de Paris after forgetting that song existed. Good fucking song tho. Willing to negotiate the terms of Francois’ surrender.

[autisticgirliesbracket]

What makes Twyla Boogeyman from Monster High G3 the autistic girlie ever of all time? Here's what the people have to say:

Twyla-related asks/reblogs: x This post will be updated after each round!

Image ID in alt text and under the readmore.

[Image ID. White slide with a screenshot of Twyla in the centre, she has a book in front of her. She is surrounded by text boxes which read,

"she’s canonically autistic! She’s sensitive to loud sounds and wears noise canceling headphones in the form of cobwebs stuffed in her ears, it’s my favorite detail on her doll <3"

"I know a lot of people don't like Gen 3 of Monster High and thats totally fair but one thing I think it does really well is representation. One such bit of canon representation is that Twyla is autistic! There's no beating around the bush here - she fully says the word autistic and displays clear autistic traits. I think she's awesome representation for autistic kids who might be watching Monster High and wanting to see themselves so that's why she's got my vote."

"SHE CANONICALLY SAYS IIIIT SHE SAYS THE WORD AUTISTIC IN CANON IN THE SHOW!!!!!! Shes a sleepygirl and is in the process of reading every book in the library in alphabetical order. She has a bead bracelet that she uses to stim and has cobwebs in her ears as noise defenders!!! I LOVE HER"

"from op: I'm a new Monster High fan. never watched the show or owned a doll before G3, but I was taken in by the bright cg style of the latest cartoon adaptation. imagine my SHOCK and JOY when Twyla appears onscreen and outright says "i am autistic" and talks about noise sensitivity and the characters around her listen and adapt their sleepover shenanigans to make her more comfortable. and she gets to be the hero of the episode! joy!!! joy!!!!! I really hope she gets lots of attention in the show and from fans."

"She is sensitive to sounds, she stims, and has trouble socializing. Canon autistic voiced by an autistic actress. She literally says "I have autism" in the show!"

"SHE!!! SAYS IT!!! Says she dislikes loud noise bc she is autistic! Has a special interest in monster history! Stims with her bracelet! Doesn’t make full eye contact! My BABYGIRL! She makes me feel so seen"

"She was recently confirmed autistic in the new show! She stims with her bracelet, can't stand loud noises and her special interest is history. She's shy but very sweet and perceptive"

"It’s actually canon lmao" End ID.]

[starcanwrecked-confessions]

jon matteson is the fandom's babygirl so i feel uncomfortable bringing up any problems i have with his characters publicly so we're doing it here

the way he plays richie feels super icky to me....the way he talks and moves feels like an imitation of an autistic person but not in like. a respectful way. but in the way kids in middle school would do to mock you for your autistic traits. the way that shows like the good doctor stereotype autism. and that seems to be The Joke with his whole character in general after the anime stuff. on one hand he seems super supportive of the autistic community with his support of autistic paul headcanons on the other hand theres THAT.

respect if other autistic/nd ppl find comfort in richie but it just makes me feel really gross

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[finalfilms]

final destination characters and what movie/tv shows i think they would like

alex - the walking dead. has seen every single episode even though it’s been running for over a decade. says he could probably survive a zombie apocalypse. is the biggest glenn defender ever.

tod - community. 100%. when the movie got announced he went apeshit on twitter. he loves troy, has seen every episode at least twice, and actually liked the fourth season for some reason.

george - he doesn’t watch tv unless it’s like a sport. look at him. if he had to pick, brooklyn 99.

clear - shameless. she sat through all eleven seasons, would have watch parties with her friends, and liked to take notes on the psyche of the characters. she HATED frank with a passion and loved fiona. actually cried at both finales.

billy - my babysitters a vampire. claims it was his “childhood” and is still upset they ended it on a cliffhanger. rory def rubbed off on him growing up. he prefers the first season to the second but has seen each episode like a million times. will sing the theme song totally unprompted

carter - breaking bad. actually tried making meth cause he thought walter had the “right idea” with the money. is the kind of guy to retweet sigma male edits of the characters

terry - locke and key. watched it cause she thought the main villain was hot, and when he was a girl too she went crazy on twitter. live tweeted the second season, and will defend kinsey locke to no extent.

kimberly - first kill. clear or shania told her to watch it saying it was like a better version of twilight. (she loves twilight). she was on the front lines trying to keep the show from getting canceled. she has probably made an edit of caliette. she’s crazy like that.

rory - he also likes breaking bad, but he’s more into better call saul. saul goodman is HIM. literally so relatable and babygirl. he saw better call saul first, so when he showed up in s2 of brba he went APESHIT

eugene - abbott elementary because there is “finally” a REAL show about what it’s like to be a teacher. he also never gets into sitcoms so it was a shock for him that he liked it so much

nora - bones. she LOVES crime dramas on daytime television, and bones is no exception. she finds herself trying to figure out the twist every single episode. she also gets way too into the characters. (tim was explaining to her that bones was autistic coded and she went :o)

tim - kid LOOKS like henry danger, but i’m gonna say malcom in the middle. secretly wished for a big family growing up. alex told him that the father makes meth and since tim didn’t know about brba he was actively seeking out that plot line.

evan - literally anything with wrestling.

kat - the office. not in like, a “basic” way or anything but because she is a businesswoman and needs to feel included. she likes pam a lot. wanted dwight to die once. she got through about eight seasons before calling it quits.

wendy - i feel like she’s a house md fan??? idk why or how but it just makes sense to me i suppose. probably an rsl fan or something

kevin - okay unpopular opinion but i feel like he’s a huge fan of the will forte era on snl. he’s a will forte fan in general so he’s probably seen clone high, last man on earth and macgruber

ian - def a santa clarita diet fan. trust me when i say this man was having meltdowns on twitter when it got canceled. you have never seen him more passionate in his life!

erin - okay this is very unpopular and very out of character but she has a guilty pleasure show and that is dawsons creek. joey is her fave and she is Completely Normal about pacey + joey. her regular show is yellowjackets, however. god bless cannibalistic high schoolers

[punkeropercyjackson]

Girly Hazel hcs? For me i think she’s really good at applying eyeshadow, has a stuffed animal and also knife collection, and would really enjoy gothic yet also vintage/1950s styles. I also think she’d be good friends with Silena as well as Drew post-redemption. And is really good at braiding/styling hair.

Hazel's full name is Hazel Esther Levesque,she's a trans femme autistic lesbian and she has skin so dark it can be mistaken for black the color,actual pitch black hair and big brown eyes like an angel

Light feminine despite her gothness or rather,she's pastel afrogothpunk instead of white girl goth.She's also pretty into Rainbow Academia

Hates Hot Topic for selling Harley Quinn x The Joker merch and other gross misogynistic shit like HP merch too so she actually teared the nearest one down without blowing her cover in a besties night out with Nico,Percy and Lex

Domo girlie,Blythe Dolls collector and Num Noms expert

Star-shaped afropuffs in Son,cornrows in Moa,twists in Hoh,sisterlocks in Boo,butterfly locs onward and straight hair pre-series(Marie was a good mom here so she tried to give her as little damage as possible and only straightend it out of being forced to by the white people at the time)

Stacked lobes,double cheeks and a pink nose ring for piercings(all diy'd by her beloved parents Percy and Lex🩷)

Regularly does korean heart fingers(🫰🏿 < Hey Hazel,this you?)

Pegasister and Lex introduced her to MLP!!Her favorite pony and kinnie is Pinkie Pie obviously and she's sooooo into the franchise and Percy lets her borrow her cartridge of the G3 Pinkie Pie game and she does cosplays too!!Says 'everypony/anypony' unironically from ages 13-16 and Nico makes fun of her when they grow up to her embarrasment😭Flutterdash stan too,babygirl of culture

Lowkey a misandrist.Lowkey only because she dosen't show it explicitly that often but trust me she can't stand dudes lmaoooooo

Pink and purple-coded

The regulars at Familia Jackson Beach Shack adore her and coo and gush over her,especially the abuelas!!Same for Lex due to how young they look and their similar aesthetics and they confused Hazel for theirs and Percy's actual kid💀Once they saw Sally though the assumption switched since they look even MORE similar thanks to both being darkskin while Lex is lightskin and mixed(half mainland chinese)

Her lesbian awakening was Peni Parker,either by being a hardcore Spiderverse fangirl with a gay fixation on her or in my crossover fusions you already know of

Mixed media is her favorite art form both digitally and irl!!She employs glitter,fuzzy textures,parts of teen girl magazines,etc into it but also Final Girl references/images and squishy textures🩷

Loves dresses,skirts,tank tops/crop tops,etc of all kinds and her Camp Jupiter top post-Hoo is actually a pink version of the regular one she demanded be made for her upon seeing Nico's black Camp Half-Blood one

Runs a supernatural bussiness website she coded herself that earned her secret street stred amongst the punk/alt Manhattan scene and even extends to the rest of New York and as far to Greece itself as it grows.The other Outcast Godlings help run it ofc but only when she asks as she likes feeling it's her own thing

At the Special Ed School her and Nico attend,she's the IT Girl who's universally beloved for her self-love and encouragement of and direct help to her fellow students to do the same.She created the art club there too and Percy,Lex,Nico and Sally attend all her showcases,no exceptions!

A side effect of her ressurection was gaining catlike aspects,including but not limited to a purring vocal stim,her nose twitching to emote,her pupils sliting when she's extra powered up(and not catlike but she's got gold tears when that happens too)and a love for kids sea food

She's latina by adoption so her fam threw her a Quinceañera

Gaymer Gworl🫶🏼✨️Cat ear with lil princess crowns headphones thrifted for her by Lex and everything and yes,she eats fritos and energy drinks when gayming(She's so Margo Kess and Gwen Stacy-coded).She's got a couple of online friends thanks to multiplayers!!

Lex taught her to make her own makeup like they did Percy but when offered to do the same for makeup styles,Hazel said no so she could test her artistic ability by coming up with her own

Special interests in gems,ghosts,horses,art,pastel things,anarchy,cats and humor

Lex and Hazel=Thee Ultimate Earthy black girl/Goth black girl solidarity.Hazel made a b-line for Lex the second she saw them in Moa when the Argo || landed out of recognizing them from her older brother's yaps of his girlfriend Percy's talk of them throught Son and they chatted as she led them to a cat cafe at New Rome and became best friends.Lex takes on the role of Hazel's mom/older sister figure as much as Percy does and that includes teaching her black fem things and helping her grow into herself with an older black woman by her side to help as everything young black girl deserves to have.Lex makes goth-y candles/products for Hazel,cooks louisiana food for her and gives her advice on sapphicisms(Lex is bi and as it turns out Percy's egg cracker)and Hazel thinks Lex is the coolest girl of all time,introduces them to goth things at the same time Lex introduces her to solarpunk/black earthy things and learned how to cook chinese food all on her own to surprise them and they drink boba and have wash day together with Nico and Percy.Their duo name is 'Earthsouls'!!

REALLY into Penny Parker,as a transfem role model and her videos/jokes are such comforts on bad days

X-Ray Spex,Meet Me @ The Altar and Mitski fan and she listens to authentic Lo-Fi beats exclusively(read:by black artists),breakcore and nu metal songs on her pink skull headphones given to her by Sally and she writes the direct lyrics to ALL her repeat songs in her Justice diary

Oh before i forget,i'm a fat Hazel truther!!No real reason,we just deserve more fat black girls that aren't turned into jokes and are allowed to be beautiful princesses'🥰

Persephone considers her an equal in power and Aphrodite thinks she's the closest you can get to a daughter of hers without actually being one and not just in looks!!

Purple hair extensions at first but gets pink highlights in Hazel-Blood courtesy

Her favorite Disney Princess is Tiana and her favorite Pokegirl is Nessa(she reminds her of Percy!🩵💙)and her favorite Batman girl is Stephanie(she reminds her of Lex💚🩷)(also obligatory to leave my lil guy out:Her favorite Atla boy is Aang as she reminds him of Nico🖤🩶)

Picked up Rachel's habit of doodling on her clothes and she pretty much always has stickers on her

Stimmy lil gyal......Can't keep still even for a microsecond.She's like a pink shark 2 me

Donuts are a safe food but specifically the super sweet ones that're double stuffed

All of Percy and Lex's female friends adopt her too!!

[cup01d]

he's super duper babygirl and I love him a lot. he's sort of mean but in like a genuinely joking way and would never overstep boundaries. he's got hair that's messy asf (I put his hair into pigtails once and he was like "i'm not going out in this" and I was like "WHY NOT : ((.")he has intense eyes when he gets excited about something, like mad scientist energy. anyway my cat tried to bite him once. he almost cried. literally obsessed with yu gi oh and card games. like he's so autistic about it. type of guy to dress goth but have kawaii/hyperpop music blasting in his ear. cannot read for shit (dyslexic and only learned to read in his native language). loves halloween purely because he can scare kids shitless. we're super supportive of each other. has this tiny little Maltese he named ghost, short for Lord punk ghost rock goth death. he named him when he was like 13. Will go for walks at night. denies he likes cats but I caught his ass napping with mine. one time we told him he had the "gay accent" and he almost cried (he doesn't). he likes to watch me draw. also he's literally a prince all he has to do is give his dad big puppy dog eyes and anything he wants is his. same with me his parents love me sm.he also believes in nothing but the best for people he loves so he'll often turn his nose up at like fast food or cheap stuff and buys us fancy food and clothes. he can play violin but he fucking hates it. super duper polite and well-mannered. we like to cook and dance tgt because its fun. he goes to every one of my ballet shows. his name is Oliver btw I made him up in my brain. low-key dramatic

I need someone to yap about their s/o

[starbuck]

babygirl, your toxic mindset and wildly delusional worldview compel me so

[theworstcreature]

Watched bad batch and I am SOBBING SHAKING ABOUT TO COMMIT VIOLENCE THEY KILLED MY AUTISTIC BABYGIRL AND I WILL NEVER RECOVER AND THEY KIDNAPPED OMEGA AND WE SAW CROSSHAIR FOF LIKE 12 SECONDS AND MY ENTIRE FAMILY SAW ME ON THE VERGE OF TEARS OVER A KIDS SHOW AND- *starts sobbing onto my rainbow gay blanket*

[gaysonlyocean]

📌 how did you find your hyperfixation?

✨ what draws you towards your hyperfixation? what is interesting about it?

🎶 if your hyperfixation has songs/an ost, what is your favorite song from it?

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

💔 tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them.

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

🍀 do you have any kins or comfort characters from your hyperfixation?

💎 are there any fun facts or trivia that you would like to share?

💢 what do you NOT like about your hyperfixation? is there something you would want to change about it?

be autistic

cant believe youve done this

📌 how did you find your hyperfixation?

through YOU fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /lh

you showed up in meatica one day in 2021 going "hey im getting back into tmnt" and i wanted to support you and then im in the sewers >:(

✨ what draws you towards your hyperfixation? what is interesting about it?

its genuinely so fun and entertaining and like when its well written its Well Written

also just like.. im like this with spiderman too but like is kinda healing to enjoy "kids" media when at the ages i should have been enjoying these things i was being traumatised by watching really fucked up and disgusting gore online and hyperfocusing on that instead so its just like win for inner child yknow

🎶 if your hyperfixation has songs/an ost, what is your favorite song from it?

on god the leatherhead theme in 2003 it Fucks tell your husband hes cool

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

IM NOT SYAING WHO YOU FUCKING THINK IM SAYING BITING YOU FOREVER

instead talking about bishop aka hannahs babygirl

fucked up immortal area 51 man who says some not so kids show things and hes such a fun and great villain

am disappointed in 2012 so much for what they did to him bring back the time he straight up tortured leatherhead and then was moments away from murdering mikey

💔 tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them.

that one scientist bitch in episode 5

YOU GODDAMN LEAVE NANO ALONE THATS A CHILD

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

everyones autistic as hell <3

also i know ive said it before but angels black shes just whitepassing in the show

🍀 do you have any kins or comfort characters from your hyperfixation?

i kin 2003 raphael so bad sobs

also hes sadly only in 2012 but newtralizer my emotional support salamander who is also my husband Beloved i wish you were in a better adaptation baby

💎 are there any fun facts or trivia that you would like to share?

fun fact: i physically cannot watch episode 5 cause i get too upset at the treatment of nano

i cant think of anything else

💢 what do you NOT like about your hyperfixation? is there something you would want to change about it?

the fact that 2003 is so unknown and how bad 2012 is wallowing

also the amount of people being gross about the turtles

and finally theres certain parts of 2003 that are not so good [looks at the garbageman]

[ty-bayonet-betteridge]

@sammy-the-haze worm is a web novel about a girl who wants to be a superhero in a world where superpowers are traumagenic. she then finds out that morality is fake and everybody sucks, accidentally befriends a team of supervillains, and stumbles into becoming one of the most important people in her city and eventually in the world. its 1.7 million words long (so by November standards its actually 34 novels but whos counting) and has the plot structure of a goddamn dnd campaign in that the protagonists go from fighting street gangs to nationally wanted criminals to giant monsters to god. other reasons to read it include:

autism, so much autism, all of the characters are autistic to me

intense homoerotic subtext that the author REFUSES to acknowledge

character so divisive that the author once said he "didnt want to inflict her" on the audience again

watching characters who named themselves things like Clockblocker, Glory Girl, Tattletale, Bitch, and Kid Win grapple with the horrors of war and devastation

one of the best brick jokes about USAmericans ive ever seen

Riley Grace Davis. if youve seen basically any of my posts for the last week you may have heard of her

protagonist who manages to prove once and for all that it IS in fact possible to be a poor little meow meow, my beloved scrunkly babygirl, a girlboss beyond compare, and the weirdest little freak in the world

chekovs pepper spray

SERIOUSLY THE SUPERPOWERS IN THIS UNIVERSE ARE TRAUMAGENIC AND IT MAKES ALL THE CHARACTERS SO PERFECT OUGOUUOOGH

the phrase "shes wanted for serial murder. its very inconvenient" is uttered in earnest within the first quarter of the book.

legitimately good social and learning disability representation

multiple characters who say "damnation" like that is a totally normal thing to do

the characterization of the main group of protagonists in the first half of the story was once famously described as "what if the cast of Its Always Sunny accidentally befriended the protagonist of an ancient greek tragedy" and this is not inaccurate

only major caveat on it is that it sometimes shows that it was written in 2011 by a guy who is... hes not TERRIBLE terrible but i would probably hate trying to spend any real amount of time with him. in particular: im sorry about the nazis

seeing a woe.begone url posting about worm is like ah i see you're a fan of creators with a terrifying output rate

my love of wbg actually did lead directly to my discovering of worm in the most roundabout way possible so like

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1, 5, 8, 9!

hey!!! i apologize for answering this so late!! but thanks for the ask friend!!!

Top 3 Doctors?

oh goodness!!! as i grow up these change a lot, so im gonna give this a long answer couse i can (also i physically cannot not over explain things hehe)

when i was younger andjust got into the show: 10, 11 and 9!

now that i finally expirianced more of doccy who: hmmm wow this became so much harder to answer actually, even doctors i don't think about often i like some parts on but if i had to choose... for now... 8 is defenetly up there! and its francly a battle between 9 and 1, but also 10 my beloved, but also 11 was so importent to me growing up that its hard to even put him on the list couse i cannot be possably objective on him at all, breaking my trans and autistic egg, so, even as through the years i find myself loving other doctors more, and he is not part of the list much these days, he is still automaticly part of it so its pointless to actually put him there? hope that made sense! i love 1 so much, did not expect to adore him as much as i do, but what can i say eventually he he he and ho hoed himself into my heart. also after rewatching some of 10 i finally rememberd how much and why i loved him as a kid and i do not think it was nostalgia that keeps him high for now. also also 6 is such a suprise but he is pretty close to being on the list, which is fucking impressive concidering i only expirianced one audio of his (of which you know lol). also 5!!! baby fun 5 is also fun!! but not on this list yet. to recap: for now its 8 (wow i did not expect for 8 to still stay up there so high but he is so fasinating and relatable and babygirl and gender and actual canon mewo mewo and weee), 9, and 10 or 1! but 11 is still automaticly in there, hope that makes sense!!

5. If you could pick any companion to travel with any Doctor, who would it be 

omg ok ok ok ok, so, after thinking about this quastion i think i had the random idea of Donna and 1... omg the amount of shananigens they can get into holy shit, they would probably apear to not get along in the beginning but i think that after a while i think they would get along really well???? i see them as having a similer relationship to 1 and Viki, in a way of two idiots scheming their way to political infuance and having to get out of situations by the skin of their teeth, but Donna is probably is wayyy more intent on calling the doctor out in much more direct ways so it can have the potencial of some great argumants and character development. ok now im in love with this idea

8. OTP? 

omg omg omg omg okkkkk so, within doctor who i will say its not usual for me to actually have a ship with the doctor, as i see them being more of an aro ace not realy feeling that way towards anyone kind of person. (not that that stops me from enjoying the occesinal doctor x compaion, its just not something i activly will ship) so its mostly companions, so within companions, Ian and Barbara all the way!! no matter romantically or not, Ian abd Barbara are so tied to me, they are defenetly at least life partners all the way, they can't imagine life without each other!!! they just live together with love and joy and the understanding that no one knows how they changed and grew apart from each other, the true trauma bond couple who lives their lives together for some peace and fucking quiet lol

but if we are going the least canon complient possible: 5th doctor and 8th doctor all the way!!! gosh darn it i adore them to absolote bits, the two most inoffencive doctors finding comfort in each other, healing from trauma together... damm are they cute

9. NOTP? 

fuck lol, hmmmmm, Donna x 10th doctor all the way, i don't have any hate in my heart to those who ship them, i see it! but to me they are very important as platonic friends, and their closeness and emotinal moments are my go to to discribe my wish for a life parnter myself!! they were the original couple that gave me hope as an aro ace person to have close relationships liek that in my life, and to this day they are one of my if not the absolote fave platolic relationships in media, my qpps forever

thanks for the ask!! i apologize for the longness of the answer lol, thank you for asking!!! have a great day friend!!

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Do all the questions for kal please he's my babygirl my skrunkly

oh god ok. this will get long.

💖 Has your OC ever been in love, be it romantic or platonic or otherwise? Who with and did they ever express their feelings or keep it private? How long did these feelings persist / do they still feel this way?

if we're counting platonic then absolutely he's in love with jarmo and has been as long as he's known him. i think he was probably in love with syvne and wasn't too great at showing it. he took his time getting over it but they stayed friends during that time and it sort of faded naturally. and obviously he's in love with orion and is also pretty bad at expressing that but ori gets the message i think.

❌ What kind of things would end any relationship for them? Is there a history behind why these things bother them? Could they ever take someone back despite this? If so or if not, why?

tbh the only examples of this having to be relevant in his life are his family and syvne. he and syv parted on good terms simply because she wanted kids and he didn't. he was so against it mostly because of his family and not wanting to mess his own kids up like his parents did to him. i don't think he would take syv back as long as they still fundamentally disagreed on that, but he did become a stepdad a few years later so idk. in another life i guess. as for his family, that's a matter of abuse (and apologetics thereof) so. yeah. bit of a dealbreaker. he would be willing to forgive eevi if she ever actually changed but she isn't going to.

💋 How affectionate are they with their friends? Their family? Their romantic partner(s) (if they have any)? Are they more physical or emotional when it comes to displaying their affection? Why?

he doesn't come off as affectionate unless you know what you're looking for. with his friends, affection comes in the form of hanging out and making dumbass jokes; with his family, he is Not Affectionate At All; with ori it's more in the form of like. little touches i think? he's not one to initiate Kissy Cuddly Mwah Mwah but it's more. his hand on his back, his head on his shoulder, that kind of thing. and the hanging out and the dumbass jokes.

🔥 Give us a list of general likes and dislikes, such as colours, textures, music, weather and other stuff!

liked colours: blue, grey, brown, cream disliked colours: like neons i guess liked textures: paper, smooth metal, mechanical keyboard disliked textures: many. Autistic King Under Constant Fucking Attack. liked music: just about anything disliked music: he has a bit of a complex about not liking top 40 stuff but even that's negotiable liked weather: storms, snow as long as he can still get around ok, like sunny and breezy at once so it's not too hot or too cold disliked weather: very hot sun, snow too thick for his wheelchair to handle liked animals: birds in general but especially corvids, pigeons, swallows, and just about any bird he gets to see day to day. also cats. disliked animals: bugs

🍊 What is your OC’s favourite meal? Snack? Dessert? Drink? Any reasons behind this besides liking how it tastes?

meal: just a bunch of bread and cheese and cold cuts and maybe some smoked fish to pick at and combine as he pleases. snack: apples, specifically Fucking Raw Granny Smiths. reminds him of his friends <3. also bread. dessert: pastries, pies, sweet breads, that kind of thing. especially with apples or berries. drink (non alcoholic): coffee drink (alcoholic): he's an insufferable wine guy. vodka neat if he's sad.

What is your OC’s most hated food? Stuff they can’t stand to eat or drink?

avocado (<- he is projecting because he can't think of anything)

🧡 Who is your OC’s favourite person? Why is this person the top of their list and have they actually met them (an idol or rolemodel or celeb can be someone’s favourite after all!).

jarmo. self explanatory.

Who does your OC absolutely hate, the one person who they’d sell to Satan for one corn chip? Why do they loathe this person so?

he claims eevi but tbh she's just an easier target than their parents and he's actually pretty willing to forgive her if she ever made the effort.

📙 What kind of subjects (of conversation, of discussion, in school or whatever) does your OC find interesting or engaging or that they can talk for hours about? What kind of stuff do they just find fun?

horror films (including real life horrors that happen to have been caught on film), birds, linguistics, computer science

What things bore your OC to tears and they couldn’t care less about? Why?

maybe doesn't bore him as such - he likes to see him having fun - but jarmo has tried to explain pro wrestling to him many times and he is completely incapable of getting it. and when ori talks about sports for that matter.

😊 What can make your OC smile even when they’re feeling down? What cheers them up and makes everything feel better for them? Is your OC generally a happy person and do they enjoy making others smile? What about your OC makes others happy?

jarmo can usually make him laugh pretty easily. if that fails, there's always stress baking. he's not an especially happy person but he's pretty funny when he wants to be. he's a very good person to complain with. speaking of which:

🍋 Does your OC act petty and jealous easily? What sort of things make them feel like this and do they experience guilt for getting so worked up? How do they deal with these emotions when they get them? If your OC doesn’t feel like this often, why not?

god yes. he's a cunt. he's a little jealous in his romantic relationships, which is mostly a matter of insecurity, but it comes out in a pretty bitchy way. it's fairly harmless and orion mostly finds it funny. he's also just incapable of being polite if he finds someone unpleasant/annoying/obnoxious. he's just openly mean in a way he hopes you will think is a joke. he mostly doesn't feel that bad about it, unless he goes too far and it blows up in his face. empathy isn't his strong point.

📀 How easy is it to shock your OC? To confuse them? To lie to them, to manipulate them? How are they with feelings of trust? Can your OC be trusted?

he's pretty hard to shock after decades of brain-melting horror films. he doesn't get confused by complicated jargon or weird surreal art - he, in fact, loves that shit - but if you're deliberately making 0 sense to confuse him on purpose it will work. he's pretty easy to lie to, and if you pay him the right amount of compliments you can manipulate him pretty good. he's pretty trusting as long as you don't give him a reason not to be. he's a pretty honest person himself, maybe to a fault.

💛 In general, how in control of their emotions is your OC? Do they have a good hold on them or do their emotions control them, not the other way around? What do you think is the reason behind this and is your OC ever concerned about their lack of or good control?

he likes to think he's in control of his emotions but actually what he's doing is called "repression" and is the result of "a childhood spent being punished for having a human reaction to the things being done to him"

🌳 Compare your OC to themself from 10 years ago. How has their mental state changed since then, how have they aged and grown up? Would they say they’re in a better place than they were back then or do they need help? What advice would they give their younger self? What advice would their younger self give to them now?

ok i'm going for 20 years ago because i don't really have as good as a grasp on kal's 30s as i do his late teens-early 20s. kal in his early 20s was peak horror freak - he was already into it via VCRs swapped between the same gaggle of edgelords at boarding school, but after he moved out and got his own computer he could finally watch Even Worse Shit with the power of online. he was only a few years fresh from his accident and his coping strategy of choice was Rotten Dot Com - plus a few things he'd picked up at school (namely drinking too much, not eating enough, and isolating himself). now at 43 he's been in and out of therapy for a very long time, he's started appreciating horror for the Art vs disturbing himself for the sake of disturbing himself, he talks to his friends and has a healthier relationship with food. he's doing way better than he was, and though he's still a mess of a man he's coping alright. he's replaced most of the self-destructive shit with stress baking, though he never quite stopped drinking. his advice to his younger self would be something along the lines of "stop doing the things you are doing". his younger self is in no place to give advice to anyone.

🍏 Does your OC have any triggers? What is the history behind these triggers and are they related to any disorders or mental illnesses? In what ways does your OC react to being triggered?

being in cars (after the accident - this is pretty easy to avoid since he doesn't really go anywhere), being talked down to (he doesn't really call it a trigger and more thinks of it as something he's just sensitive about, but it is absolutely a leftover from his upbringing), diet culture shit (he had a bit of an eating disorder in his teens - he's mostly over it by this point but it can flare up if it's given a reason to)

🥝 What does a bad mental health day look like for your OC? Walk us through it with them. What kind of things can help them out of this slump and what kinds of things comfort them when they start to feel like this?

he'll usually just stay in bed the whole time. he works freelance and from home so he can get away with it quite easy. jarmo's usually the one to give him a shake - he'll put him in the shower or send him to walk hedvig or just talk to him for a while. it doesn't always work but it helps.

🍐 What is your OC’s mentality? Are they overall positive? Negative? A bit of both? Describe their thought patterns and reasoning behind their choice making!

he's overall pretty negative and prone to catastrophising. a small problem will become a big problem in his head very very quickly, but he's also a programmer first and foremost and when he needs to take a step back and Solve The Problem he will. after like an hour of going insane. his process is like little problem -> oh no -> big problem -> become the joker -> have a little drinky of water and talk to jarmo -> oh ok i just needed to do xyz -> repeat.

💚 Talk about some of the traumatic events in your OC’s life. These events can be ones that have happened to them or a loved one. These events can be minor or major.

as a kid, his parents were emotionally and verbally abusive. they constantly compared him to his sister, who was Socially Awkward Child Prodigy autistic where he was more Having Meltdowns And Not Talking autistic. his hometown was extremely white and extremely conservative, so even when he could get away from his parents he had that shit to deal with. when he was 11 his parents sent him and his sister to boarding school in france. after several years of having to deal not only with french people but with rich french people, his mental health declined, culminating in him getting very drunk, stealing a teacher's car, and crashing it, paralysing himself from the waist down in the process. he was expelled and stuck in his parents house for several months, where they were their usual delightful selves about their son's new disability. he also spent his late teens and early twenties absolutely fucking himself in the brain with the most disturbing movies he could find.

💧 What is the earliest memory your OC can recall? Do they know what their first words were or remember where they took their first steps? Do they have any mementos of their childhood they’ve kept such as a stuffed toy or tiny baby clothes?

it's hazy, but his earliest memory is being 5 years old in the school playground and having a chubby kid covered in scrapes a little older than him start talking his ear off. nobody really remembers his first steps but he and that same kid remember what his first words were because he was about 7 at the time. "jarmo, shush. eurasian tree sparrow." jarmo proceeded to lose his absolute shit, scaring away said eurasian tree sparrow.

🌠 Who was your OC’s first friend? Do they remember them or are they still friends now? Talk about some of the people your OC has lost contact with over the years. Do they have any regrets about losing these people and would they revist them if they could?

jarmo is his bestie forever age 5 to the GRAVE bitch. also a few years ago his family started noticing how he was avoiding them, leading to a huge fight where eevi inevitably took their side. he and eevi lost touch after that. he would reconnect if she changed but she isn't going to.

💙 What did your OC want to be when they grew up and why? Did they have any lifelong dreams or ambitions they never got to work on or are they currently working to achieve this dream? Has their life taken a very unexpected turn and put all these plans on hold for a while or have they given up on any dreams?

as a little kid he probably wanted to do something with birds, and then as a teenager he wanted to make horror films. then the modern day started coming to his time capsule of a home town, he realised big directors don't come out of rural finland and he was pretty good with computers, and he ended up going into computer science. he's given up on being a director at this point, but he's also been growing disillusioned with the tech industry. some day he'll quit being a freelance software dev and start making cool indie horror games by himself, but that's a long way away right now.

🌀 Where is your OC from? Where were they born? Do they still live there, if not why did they move? If they still live in the area how has it changed since their childhood? How many places has your OC lived in and where has been their favourite?

he was born and raised in a small rural town in finland with huge class divides (that, all things considered, worked out pretty nicely for his family) and a fascism problem (that did not). jarmo and iisakki left around the same time as his accident, and when they got back in touch he jumped at the chance to leave his shit parents behind and live with his besties in helsinki. he has lived in this small town, a fancy boarding school in france, and helsinki. the only one he likes is helsinki.

💤 What was your OC like as a baby, a child and as a teen? (if your OC is a teen or a child, what will they be like as an adult?). How have they changed since then? What lessons have they learned and what things about their youth do they miss the most? Do they have any general regrets?

baby: quiet, chill baby, except if there's noises. child: shy. bookish. doesn't start talking until he's like 7. easily overwhelmed, prone to meltdowns when he is. fights with eevi a lot. inseparable from jarmo. obsessed with birds. teen: fucking edgelord. into true crime and is weird about it. the most bulliable boy in school. has a ridiculous growth spurt that leaves him able to buy alcohol and rent fucked up movies very easily at like 14. barely on speaking terms with eevi most of the time. makes himself some pocket money selling on those fucked up movies. could've had it absolutely made if he'd branched out into selling porn but he was in it for the love of the art.

he's gotten a little more normal. he deeply regrets most of his teen edgelord phase but he stands by the horror movie black market because it was funny. he's still obsessed with birds.

🍇 Day or Night? Sun or Rain? Summer or Winter?

night, rain, winter

🛍️ Function or Aesthetic? Skirts or Pants? Heels or Flats?

function, both, flats

🔮 Star gazing or cloud watching? Hand-holding or snuggles? Early mornings or late nights?

stars, snuggles, late nights

💜 Music or Silence? Swords or Spells? Cities or Nature?

music, spells, cities

🍆 Tea or Coffee or Hot Chocolate? Sweet or Spicy? Fruits or Vegetables?

coffee, sweet, vegetables

🌸 What does your OC’s voice sound like? Their laugh? Are they good at singing? Do they have an accent?

he has a very deep, soft voice. he laughs very quietly, from his nose or throat. he's a great singer though he doesn't think he is. when he's speaking english he tries to enunciate very clearly and hide his finnish accent, but it gets thicker if he's tired or emotional.

🎀 Do they wear a specific accessory with a special meaning behind it? What is their usual fashion sense like? What do they wear when they want to be comfortable and what do they wear when they’re going to a fancy party? Or do they just not care?

his usual fashion sense is practical and professional, that kind of tech-bro stylish-in-a-boring-way. all muted colours and turtlenecks. he's been trying out more feminine clothes of late - he's always had a certain gnc quois, he wears subtle makeup fairly regularly, but fully dressing the part is a different matter. he has blouses and skirts tucked away but he doesn't really have the confidence to wear them out or around people other than maybe jarmo.

💗 What would your OC say is their best feature? Why? What do their friends / family / lover(s) / people they know think is their best feature and why?

kal's come to really like his wrinkles. after being so scared of ageing his whole adult life, doing his gay little patrick bateman skincare routine, he's gotten to middle age and found he actually looks quite distinguished. jarmo likes his nose. orion likes his concave little ass.

🌺 Does your OC have any tattoos or other body art? Does their body art have any specific meaning behind it? Do they have any scars? How did they get those scars? Any birthmarks?

on his upper left arm he has a tattoo of a granny smith on its branch. it's the same one jarmo and iisakki both have. they got them tattooed when they were all around 20. struggling with the adjustment from his hometown to helsinki, kalevi attempted suicide (so, yes, he has a good few scars too). after taking him to hospital jarmo and iisakki were at a loss as to what to do, so they got in the car and drove for 6 hours to the orchard they all used to steal from as children. they stole a huge crate of apples for kalevi and brought them back to him, after which kalevi made the decision to get better and booked his first therapy appointment

🌷 In what ways would your OC alter their body if they could? How would they do it using mundane means (hair dye, surgery, make-up?). What is their ideal look for themself?

he has periods of time where he considers getting his ears pierced and then he doesn't. honestly, he prefers not to stand out too much.

[serendipityjxmn]

I Hate You, Park Jimin!

Chapter 8

Words Count: 4.4k

TW: Smut

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I wasn’t able to sleep properly that night so I went to school looking like a zombie. I head straight to the vending machine, in desperate need of caffeine. As I made my way towards my locker, I saw Park Jimin and his group of friends coming from the opposite way. His eyes flickered towards me.

I looked down almost immediately. God- I had no idea why it suddenly felt so embarrassing. I continued straight towards my locker and chunked my books inside. I turned around and regretted instantly. I was met with a sight of two girls scurrying towards Jimin. I was a few meters apart but I could easily read the situation. They wanted his attention and he easily gave it to them! He was flirting back.

I felt my heart sank slowly. Why? You thought after all the time that you spent with him - he’d somehow look at you? A voice inside my head said. I could clearly picture her scoffing at me. I shook my head as I smiled pitifully at myself.

I was going to wait for Jimin at the locker because I had something to say to him but since he seemed occupied with a scene that does not really bring joy to me, I walked away. I still texted him to meet up out front at the bus stand.

It took him about 20 minutes to show up. I pulled one side of my earphone.

“You could’ve waited for 5 minutes just now.”

I ignored his remark. “There’s a fundraising event next week so I won’t be able to see you on Wednesday.” I said matter-of-factly.

He raised his brows. “You’re joining?”

“Yes, I’m in the committee.” I answered impatiently. “So-“

“What will you be doing?”

I threw a look of are-you-serious-right-now. “Carwash.” I replied in exasperation. My bus had arrived. He frowned but didn’t press further so I continued. “So, again, I won’t be seeing you next week.”

He snorted. “Pfft. It’s summer anyways. Who the fuck studies during holidays.”

“I mean-“

“Fine.” He cut me off. “Then I guess you owe me.”

I simply nodded because technically I do owe him. He glanced around but frowned towards the people queuing to hop on the bus.

“Are you heading home?” He asked and I nodded. “Okay. I’ll send you home.”

“Nevermind.” I said and hopped on the bus without glancing back at him.

I woke up with a surge of excitement that day. It was finally the day of fundraising event where any profit that we gain would be sourced to all sorts of organization in need such as autistic kids. The whole committee had spent months planning this. I was sleep deprived up until last night but since today’s the day, I can’t keep the buzzing excitement away. Also, I can’t wait to get this over and sleep all day long after that.

The committees all wore white shirt customized for the event so I paired it with a long pair of blue jeans. I made an attempt to look presentable by curling my hair slightly although I knew that at the end of the day I’d look like a mess after running here and there.

I arrived at college at 8 and was literally out of breath 20 minutes later. I ran around to make sure everything was smoothly set up. My carwash duty won’t start until 10 later so I stopped by Ah Young’s booth to help her get started. She paired with Mina, another girl of the same year to sell cupcakes, macaroons and a lot other delicacies.

“It’s gonna be just fine.” Ah Young assured me when she saw my eyes scanning around every corner just to identify if anyone’s in need of help.

I smiled kindly at her. “It better be. I had so much sleepless nights for this.”

“True, true.”

“Anyway, thanks a lot for helping me out too. You’re always there to save me.” I hugged her shoulders.

“Anytime, babygirl.” She winked at me.

I glanced at my watch. It was almost 10AM so I excused myself from her booth and made my way towards the other side of the school’s parking lot, towards where the carwash would take place.

Some other students had been in charge to distribute flyers informing our carwash service so we had plenty of customers. There was only a few the first hour but a number of cars approached after that.

I looked up when I heard people whistling. Apparently there was a BMW i8 entering the parking lot making its way for a carwash. I shook my head. Boys and their shining toys.

The driver went out and I noticed it was our senior Min Yoongi, one of Jimin’s close friends. Wow, rich kids be hanging out around rich kids huh? For a moment, I thought his eyes flickered towards me but I could be wrong.

Speaking of Jimin.. where is he anyway? I don’t think he does this kind of shit, the other voice in my mind said. I nodded in agreement.

Someone tapped my shoulder. I turned to see Jeon Jungkook grinning widely with his bunny teeth at me.

“Hey!” It had always been great to see Jungkook. He’s normal and not intoxicating like someone... although Jungkook is good looking, yes but his bright personality made it all seem easy. “What are you doing here?”

“It’s my break turn and I already had my lunch. I thought you could use some help? Maybe go and grab a lunch? I can cover for you.”

I glanced at my watch. I didn’t realize it was already noon. “Nah, it’s okay. I’m not that hungry yet. But we could always make use of some extra hand.”

He grinned even widely I almost thought his lips were gonna rip apart.

We had fun working our ass off cleaning the cars, whistling our way when expensive cars came through, shouting over the noise with stupid conversations. The amount of cars coming through slowed down in numbers. We had plenty of time to work on the same car together. It was all good until Jungkook decided to be an ass and started teasing me by sprinkling water with soap.

“Stop it.” I glared at him. Of course; knowing the playful personality of his, he didn’t. Instead he was now threatening me with a bucket of soap water. “Oh no you wouldn’t dare!”

“Come and test me.” A devilish smile crept on his face.

I quickly backed myself from him. It all happened so fast then- I tripped over someone’s bucket of water, fell flat on my butt and got sprayed by water.

“Ya Kim Hana!” Jae, a boy same year as mine rushed over to say sorry.

“It’s fine.” I said but I was slightly creeped out by the way he was staring at me.

“Are you okay?” Jungkook extended his hand to help me out.

I nodded as soon as I got on my feet. I noticed Jae was still staring at me while Jungkook’s eyes were looking anywhere except me. I frowned. I wanted to question him but someone approached us to ask if his car was done so I quickly went and retrieved his keys.

JIMIN’S POV

I made my way to the bathroom. As I relieved myself, I heard some other boys entering as well. I was far at the corner and they were deep in conversation so I took it that they didn’t notice my presence.

“Yah- Glad we listened to Woong. Just now was the highlight of my day.”

“I know! I didn’t know it was that easy to make the girls wet.” He made a groaning sound.

“Yah to be honest doing carwash was difficult but seeing all those wet bodies underneath their shirts.. hmmph-“

Carwash? Wet bodies? Didn’t Hana mention she’ll be doing a car wash for this fundraising event?

“I know, man. Yah did you see Hana? Kim Hana? Damn, I thought she was a total nerd, dude. Can’t believe she was hiding a body like that all these time.”

What the fuck? I quickly zipped my pants and charged towards the two guys. They were in my year, I wasn’t entirely sure of their names but I can recognize their faces. I held one of them at their collar shirt. The other one panicked seeing me.

“What the fuck did you just say?” My tone was low and menacing.

“W-what do you mean?” The other guy asked because the person I was currently holding was choking.

“What the fuck were you guys saying about Kim Hana?” I roared.

And then the other guy explained that Woong who was also in the same year as us told them to sign up for carwash. That way they’ll have a chance to see girls with wet bodies by pulling a prank and spraying them with water. I wasted no time punching them in their face after that. I couldn’t contain my disgust.

I immediately went out and began to search for Hana. I headed towards the campus compound where the festival was located at. Within seconds I spotted Kim Hana a few yards away from me. Something burned inside me when I saw her talking animatedly with Jeon Jungkook, the new boy. I went straight towards the car wash area. When I arrived, she seemed oblivious to my presence. I went up to her and snatched the hose away from her.

She seemed shocked to see me. “What the-“

I grew even madder at her sight. She was wearing jeans with her white shirt tucked inside. And they were wet- I could completely see her black bra underneath. “Are you stupid?” I bellowed at her. My tone came out harsher than I intended to and I saw her flinching at my sudden outburst.

“What are you talking about?” She eyed around her, obviously afraid that I’m making a scene and that’d attract people’s attention. Then she looked at me, her eyes scrutinizing me. “Did you fight again?”

I shut my eyes in exasperation. It took me so much not to yell at how stupid she is. Why is she so dumb letting people take advantage of her so easily? I let out a huge breath, trying to remain calm. “I’ll do it.”

Her expression confused.

“I said I’ll do it.” I toned down my voice slightly. I tried hard not to let my eyes roam lower than her face but it was taking all of the effort in me. Fuck, of all days, why did I choose today not to wear a jacket? I could’ve given it to her and helped her cover herself. “If I’m here to replace you then you don’t have to do it right? Just- go home.”

She seemed puzzled by my actions and I softened a bit. “Go. I’ll cover for you.” I said softly. “Just- cover yourself well.” I muttered.

She immediately look down on her shirts and her eyes widened. I tried to stifle a smile at ther reaction. Her hands automatically went across her chest. Yeah, now you know.

“T-thanks.” She muttered and then walked away.

I looked up to see Jungkook staring at me. His expression unreadable. Was he part of the whole prank too?

*KIM HANA*

My brows creased as I made my way towards Ah Young’s booth. Jimin asked me to go home but obviously I wouldn’t. I think I needed some explanation from him. Why was he acting like that anyway? He is so mercurial and unpredictable I was constantly left confused by his actions.

“Hey! You’re done with your work?” Ah Young asked as soon as she saw me.

“Actually, no.” I said, frowning. “Jimin said he’ll cover for me.”

“Huh. I wonder why.” She raised her brows at me.

I shook my head. “It doesn’t mean anything.”

I was quite sure that she was about to say something but was interrupted by a customer stopping by. Ah Young’s booth was not that far from the carwash. I could see Jimin’s back as he sprayed water at the cars. I was surprised that he actually does his job. I made a mental note on how many times he gave a different turn of events than what I expected him to do. Then again, what do I know about him? Outside yes, he is all the bad things. Obnoxious, rude, playboy and a lot other negative adjectives. But that’s what he chose to lay out for people to see. Why do I constantly get the feeling that he’s not just all that?

“Is someone in love?” I hear Ah Young’s voice.

I jumped a little. I turned to see her leaning against the table, hands on her waist. I stifled an awkward laugh. “What are you talking about?”

She smiled kindly at me. “It’s not something wrong to fall in love you know. Just want you to be careful. He’s a nice piece of ass but you can’t deny he’s dangerous.”

I swallowed my saliva. “I guess that’s true.” I smiled sadly. “Ah Young ah, I’ll just head to the washroom real quick, okay?”

She nodded. “Yeah, go go.”

As I made my way towards the washroom, I overheard something that made me stop on my tracks. Some boys were talking at some empty corner.

“Aish- we got into a fight with Park Jimin just now.” One of them said. Was it Jae?

“Seriously?”

“Yeah, and it was all because I said Kim Hana’s wet body looked so good.” I clasped my hands on my mouth.

The other guy laughed. “To be honest, you deserve that.”

“What- I was just following Woong’s suggestion.” He groaned.

I couldn’t listen on the conversation anymore so I walked away immediately. My head was spinning. Was Jimin trying to protect me? Was that why he was so angry at me? But why? Why would he? He doesn’t have any feelings towards me.. does he?

I ran back out. My intention to pee suddenly evaporated. My heart was racing as I tried to wrap my head around the situation. As soon a I reached Ah Young’s booth, I slung my bag onto my shoulder.

“Ah Young ah, I’m going to head back first.” I said in a rush.

“Oh sure, we’re gonna wrap it up in a few minutes anyway. Are you okay?” She frowned at me. Shit, this isn’t the time to be held back by Ah Young’s Inquisition.

I nodded, trying to force a smile.

“Well,” she went in for a hug. “Will I see you during summer?”

I smiled down at her. “Of course you will.

“Bye!”

I waved at her and then went straight towards the carwash area. I scanned the area to see Jimin still working on wiping a car. Briefly, I marveled at his deliciously toned back. I walked towards him.

“Hana-ya!” Jungkook called as soon as he saw me. But I don’t want to talk to him right now.

Jimin turned around and his eyes met mine. Staring fixatedly at him, I went straight at him and took his fingers in mine as I pulled him out of the place. He blinked as he tried to process what was happening.

I didn’t care at the heads turning twice at the sight of me pulling Park Jimin by his hands. I didn’t stop as I dragged him out of the campus.

“Where are you taking me?” He finally asked once we’re out of the entrance gate, my fingers still gripping his.

I didn’t answer but I continued to drag him with me although my steps had visibly slowed and now we looked like we’re walking hand in hand, side by side. He didn’t question further as he knew the direction we’re heading to.

We reached my small apartment and I punched in the passcodes quickly. I led him inside and towards the sofa. He took a seat and I finally let go of his hand as I went straight to my room to retrieve a first aid kit.

I sat beside him and placed his hands on my lap. He watched me in silence as I nursed his bloodied knuckles. I carefully cleaned his cut and put bandage over it. Then I looked at his face without meeting him in the eye. I spotted a tiny cut above his right brow. I proceeded to wipe it with cotton buds.

I had no idea what washed over me that I wasn’t at all frantic over this close proximity with Jimin, the subtle skin contact with him as well as his piercing stare as I nursed him. Maybe because I was too absorbed in my job or I was far too concerned about his cuts and wounds. As soon as I was done, the awkward atmosphere filled the air. I tensed.

“Am I allowed to talk now?”

I tried to stifle a smile. I noticed that his shirt was also wet. Wet enough to tell me that there’s some very toned muscles underneath it. “Yes.”

“Thank you for nursing me. Although it was merely small cuts.” He said as he placed one arm over the sofa’s back.

I stared at him, my expression serious. “I know what you did.”

“What did I do?”

“Don’t act like you don’t know. I overheard Jae’s conversation.”

He regarded me for a moment. “Well then maybe that should make my feelings clear I guess.”

What? I searched his eyes for a hint of joke but there was none. I scoffed. “Let’s not play around. We’re strictly business, you know that.”

I could almost swear that his face fell for a second but it was too brief for me to make sure. He then tried to pull his shirt over his head.

“What are you doing?!” I screamed as I shut my eyes closed. As if it wasn’t enough, my hands flung against my eyes too.

I could hear him chuckling. “My shirt is wet. I need to dry it.”

I opened my eyes slightly but shut it again because he was now completely shirtless. “It-it’s just right beside my kitchen-“ I stammered. I felt him raise and then went straight towards the dryer.

I groaned. How was I supposed to open my eyes if he’s going to be shirtless for the next half an hour? I then realized that my shirt was wet too just now. I stood up, trying to find my way towards my room but someone stopped me.

“Where are you trying to go?” Jimin asked, his voice and his hot breath near my face told me that he was standing very near to me.

“My-my room.” I stuttered.

“If you don’t want to end up having bruises, I suggest you open your eyes.”

“No.” I replied almost immediately. But I felt his hands gripping mine, tearing them away from my eyes, slowly placing it on each side of my body. My eyes were still shut tight though.

“Just open your eyes. There’s nothing.” He persuaded.

I gave in. I slowly opened my eyes. I knew he was still shirtless but I locked my eyes with his. He was staring at me so deeply it sent electrical surge throughout my body. His gaze was intense and hot. I tried to look away but he was quicker to cup my chin with his fingers, forcing me to look at him. He inched closer and I gulped, my imagination running wild on the possibility of his next action.

He inched closer and closer, and then I felt his soft lips against mine. I closed my eyes, savouring his taste. It felt so right against mine, as if it was meant to be mine. After what felt like so long, he released my lips.

“Now- tell me,” he whispered. His voice so low and seductive. “Is this a kiss? Or is this still our lips merely brushing?” My breath hitched. I sensed him smiling as his lips still ghosting against mine. “I know you want me.”

“I-I don’t-“ I stammered as I felt heat gathered at my face.

“Are you sure? Even when we’re.. this close?” His fingers circling my cheek softly.

Shiver went down my spine at his words. I thought that was just it but he proved me wrong. He crashed his lips against mine again, this time pushing it deeper. He kept persuading me to give in and reply to his kiss. I refused at first, or at least tried to but he was so skillful and his tongue was so persistent demanding entrance that I finally gave in. I could almost sense his smile as he gained access. His one hand was at the small of my back, giving me support which I was thankful for because with the amount of air being sucked from my lung and how my legs are turning jelly, I would’ve collapsed right then and there if it wasn’t for his support. His other hand moved from my chin towards the back of my neck, pulling me closer towards him.

He tasted sweet and it was almost addictive to continue kissing him. I had never been kissed this way in my whole life. It was careful, passionate yet there was a bit of an urgency in it too.

“I’ve been missing the taste of your lips ever since I kissed you for the first time.” He whispered in between kisses.

He does? My heart skipped a beat. Does that mean he had been thinking about me? He pushed my shoulders gently until I was seated on the sofa without breaking the kiss and he followed suit beside me.

He kissed me so passionately I felt like I was in euphoria. He held my waist and I didn’t know where the courage came from but my hands roamed around his stomach. Shit I forgot he was shirtless. I tried to move my hands away but he was quick to lead them back on his stomach. He guided me towards his toned six packs. He wants me to touch him..

I hesitantly let my hands roam around his stomach and his chest. Damn it, I should stop. I know I should but my body won’t cooperate. I moaned under his touch.

Jimin’s hand went from my waist towards my nape. Then he moved lower.. towards my chest. He brushed his hands against my breast and it was enough to make me whimper from the sensation. The small touches were killing me. Then I felt it. His hands groping my breast, giving me a surge of pleasure. I moaned louder.

“Fuck- you’re making me hard.” He said.

And then I realized that I, Kim Hana was currently making out with Park Jimin. “We need to stop.” I said, breathless. He had now moved his kisses towards my chin and my neck. Shit, I moaned again. My neck was my most sensitive part and he mercilessly planted wet kisses on them.

“Why?” He asked in between kisses. “Do you not like it? Hmm?”

“Ahhhhhggg-“ I moaned as he licked my nape and groped my breast hard.

“Stop me if you don’t like this.” His hand crept under my shirt and reached my breast in no time. He pulled my bra down and he could see my breast under my wet transparent shirt now. He groped and fumbled with my mountains and I moaned again under his touch. “Stop me if you don’t want me now.”

I wanted to stop him because this shouldn’t be happening - because Park Jimin’s bad news and I shouldn’t cross the border line I’ve created ever since I had to partner with him. But he was irresistible. He was too skillful at his touch.

“Ahhh- hmmph,” I was falling apart from the hot and passionate kisses he’s giving me and his fingers that skillfully massaged my breast. “This is wrong..” I whimpered.

“Is it though? Your body says otherwise.” He said as he bites into my neck, a loud moan inevitably escaping my mouth.

“Jimin- stop.. we can’t do this.” I said, trying to find my voice.

“I know you want it too,” he said, all too seductively.

“Jimin, stop.” I said, this time more firmly.

He stilled at my words this time. The air was silent except for our heavy breathings. He then retracted his hand from underneath my shirt and removed his lips from my neck. I missed his touch as soon as it left mine. I hated myself.

I could hear his uneven breath. I didn’t dare to look up to his eyes. “I’m sorry.” I said softly.

He was silent for a few seconds, trying to process things. I assumed he was just as carried away as I did. He then leaned away, making a few centimetres more distance between us. His eyes searched for mine.

“I’m sorry.” I repeated softly. “This is a mistake. We can’t do this. This is wrong.”

“I-“ he paused. “I’m sorry too.”

He looked so distraught I almost wanted to kiss the frown away from his forehead. Shit- Hana. You’re the one asking him to stop. I readjusted my bra and my shirt and then I raised to my feet, walking towards the dryer.

His shirt was done so I quickly took it and went back towards Jimin. I smiled at him. He smiled back at me but it almost seemed painful. Why am I feeling guilty at making him disappointed? I wet my lips as I carefully help him wear his shirt.

“You know what? You’re the first girl that ever rejected me.” One of his eyebrows was raised.

I had no idea what to reply to that but I was relieved he was not angry. “Someone had to do the honor.”

He chuckled and I was again struck by his beautiful smile. “I’m sorry. I just can’t help it.”

Can’t help- what?

Suddenly he leaned into me, closing the proximity between us. His facial expression serious. “I know you have a crush on me.”

My heart skipped a beat and I gulped. How the heck does he know that? If it isn’t too obvious, a voice in my mind retorted. “No- I don’t.” I tried to say as firmly as I can.

He backed away and leaned against the sofa. “You do. You just won’t admit it.”

“No I don’t.”

“It’s okay. I’ll make sure you admit to it one day.” He smirked at me the very same smirk that had haunted me years ago. It continued to haunt me for the rest of the summer.

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