#like sure maybe part of it is just. that im still not used to seeing her actually look white so she looks sickly but
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naive
hamzahthefantastic x reader (fic)
day 4/7
summary: part 4 of my short story naive! the four of you go to the club and while the couple are still fighting, you and hamzah act on your feelings a lil more. but it can only go so well for so long…
contains: SFW content, some kissing and touchy touchy ;)
w/c: 2.5k-ish
a/n: i couldn’t let you guys go into the new year without updating this story. im the worst but tysm for the support yall are so sweet i could cry xxxx enjoy!!!<3 read the a/n at the end if u care to know more
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The couple's bad mood was not simply slept off and it's ruining your vibe.
You and Mandy are getting ready in their en suite bathroom while Hamzah and Martin speak in hushed tones in the bedroom. The bathroom door is open, and every so often you look at the space over your shoulder in the mirror and make eye contact with Martin from the bed. He looks away immediately, not at all subtle. It's like a game at this point, seeing how many times you can catch him in the act.
"Is he gonna do this all night," you mumble, applying your mascara after yet another match of eye-tag.
"We could just close the door," Mandy offers. She pays no mind to the childish behavior behind you, straightening her hair without sparing him a single glance.
"You're so right," you say and get up to shut it yourself.
Once your makeup is pretty much done, you decide to start getting dressed. You turn the music on her speaker up and give yourself a once-over in the mirror, holding different outfits beside your body to see what you want to wear for the night.
"I don't know what to wear. Wanna match?" you ask, placing your chin on top of her head to stop her movements. She nearly clamps your neck with the straightener. "Hey!"
"Sure," she laughs. "Grab my suitcase, please."
You put your clothes back down and step out of the bathroom to bring her suitcase in. You shimmy it out of its place by the TV stand, not missing the way the boys go completely silent until you're gone.
"Top zipper, the satin blue dress," Mandy instructs.
You hand it to her and sit by your own bag of clothes to rummage through it. You find a top and skirt set in a similar baby blue color then hold it up for her to see.
"Yes, no, yes?"
"Yes, definitely."
You apply your lip combo and take a few silly photos in the mirror with Mandy, your made up faces clashing with your baggy tees. One of the better photos are posted on your Instagram story for fun. When you finally get changed—you guys had a dance break to some y2k club classics—you put your heels on and realize you need a little pregame.
When you walk into the bedroom this time, the boys are leaned against the headboard and on their phones, mindlessly scrolling. You go by Martin's side of the bed and poke him repeatedly until he looks up.
"Do you happen to have the penjamin on you?"
"That depends," he says, putting his hand in his pocket. "What's the magic word?"
You roll your eyes. "Please?"
He pulls the little device out of his pocket and presents it to you in his palm. When you go to grab it, he makes a fist and holds it above his head.
"Please who?"
"I'm not calling you Daddy," you scoff, prying his fingers open and snatching the pen from his grasp. He barely puts up a fight. "That's Hamzah's job."
At the mention of his name, Hamzah looks up and seems like he's about to say something to retaliate but freezes. His gaze drags down your figure and you blush.
"Maybe it's not his job," Martin says smugly, "since you made him speechless."
Hamzah snaps out of it and elbows his friend in the side.
“It would be your girlfriend's job if you weren't being petty right now."
You wince at the sullen expression that washes over Martin's face.
"Right."
All you can do is watch as he clambers off the bed and walks out of the room. You lean against the wall and slide the balcony door open with a sigh.
"He can't seriously be that mad," Hamzah says. "I was kidding."
"He can dish it, but he can't take it," you say, too used to his behavior. "And he's extra sensitive right now, so."
"Well, they better not ruin our night with that stuff." Hamzah crosses his arms.
"I won't let them."
"Yeah?" Hamzah snorts. "What're you gonna do about it?"
"Um." You take a hit and blow the smoke outside. "I'll think of something if I need to step in."
Hamzah laughs at your empty threat and you smile. You take another hit before offering the dab pen to him.
"I have a feeling I should be sober for tonight."
"Boring," you sing out. "It'll be fine. C'mon, feel my peer pressure."
You wiggle your fingers at him and he shakes his head, laughing lightly. When he silently puts his hand out a few seconds later, you cheer. The room fills with the loud music from Mandy's speaker as he takes his first hit.
"So," you begin, already feeling slightly heady. "What were you guys whispering about earlier?"
"I shouldn't say."
"Really?"
He nods. "It was partly about their fight. Partly the trip. And you."
"Me?" You point at yourself with raised eyebrows.
"Yeah." He shrugs. "I can't divulge the details."
"That's bullshit."
"I never ask what you guys say about me."
"Hey—I don't—what?" you stutter, unable to come up with a defense.
"C'mon," he says, tilting his head. "I'm not that oblivious."
Your eyes narrow. You've never once considered that this cupid thing Martin was pulling on you could have gone both ways. You don't know if you're relieved for him stepping in to push his friend closer to you, or annoyed that he's even meddling in this whole thing. It makes you wonder if Martin knows what happened by the time he and Mandy returned to the beach last night.
"Speaking of details." You clear your throat. "Do you even know what club we're going to?"
Your attempt at changing the topic is weak, but as per usual, Hamzah rolls with it to save you any embarrassment.
"No clue. Martin keeps his trip itinerary locked in his notes."
The conversation devolves into a bunch of what if's about the night and jokes that are only funny because you guys are high. When Mandy finally comes to join and sees the state of you two, you offer her a hit.
"What? No drinks?" She frowns.
"Hotel alcohol is like twenty bucks a pop! This is the next best thing."
"Ugh, fine. Give it."
With the three of you thoroughly blitzed, you collect Martin from the living room couch and make your way out of the hotel. He doesn't speak for a majority of the walk, and you think that's the longest you've ever heard him be quiet in a group setting.
Despite it being nearly 10 P.M., the air is pretty humid and forgiving on your exposed skin. The other thing about it being so late already, is that the club is absolutely chock-full of people when you enter. The dance floor of strangers are nearly toe to toe in proximity, and you wrap your arm with Mandy's to avoid getting separated in the crowd. The boys immediately beeline to the bar for drinks, but you don't let that stop your journey. You maneuver your way to the front of the stage and only let go of each other once you've found a bit of space to dance in.
The DJ nods at the two of you and you turn to raise your eyebrows suggestively at Mandy, who pushes your shoulder and continues dancing. You get lost in the beat, swaying and bouncing with the vibrations traveling through your limbs. The strobe lights illuminate your sweaty skin and you swear the energy in the room has you feeling higher. You begin grinding on each other and throw your heads back to laugh, trying to catch your breaths in between a multitude of bodies.
"Hey!" Mandy places her arms around your shoulders to catch your attention and you take it as a sign to grind on her. "I'm going to grab drinks.”
"No!" You turn and put your hands over hers. "Don't go!"
"I'll be right back!" She grins and squeezes you before letting go to disappear into the crowd.
Alone, you turn back to the stage and throw your hands in the air. You close your eyes for a moment, the pounding beats making a home in your brain. You're sure your ears will be ringing when you leave.
You wonder if Martin's drunk himself into a coma yet and knowing him, you know how easy that could be. You only hope this outing tonight doesn't make him do anything he regrets. Then you remember he’s a twenty-five year old man and you’re worrying about him while you’re supposed to be having fun. So, you shut your brain off and let the beat carry you.
When Mandy's back, she has two drinks in hand and Hamzah in tow. She hands you a cocktail and you graciously sip from your first alcoholic drink of the night.
"Where's Martin?" you ask.
"Bar!" she shouts over the music.
You shake your head. "Make up and make out already!"
She jabs your side and you giggle, swatting her hand away. Hamzah's doing something reminiscent of a frat flick, looking slightly out of it. You assume he's already done some shots and is way more intoxicated. So, being an empath, you finish your drink to get closer to his level. When you're done, you hand the empty cup to Mandy and wink at her. Your hand envelops Hamzah's and you pull him deeper in the crowd so you can dance together.
"I don't—I can't dance," he complains, nearly tripping over his own feet.
"C'mon, it's easy!"
You begin by swaying your hips, raising his hand in yours to guide him into a rhythm. He tries to follow along, shuffling around like a newborn deer. It's a funny sight, but you don't want him to stop if you tease him, so you bite back your amused smile. He slowly gets less self-conscious and continues on in his own way with the flow of the music, even twirling you around once or twice, laughing all the way as you narrowly avoid knocking into people. His eyes never leave you, like he's constantly thinking of his next move to impress you.
After letting him freestyle some more, you pull him close and wrap your arms around his shoulders. He falters at the change in pace and his hands fall at your hips. Your hands rest at the nape of his neck and he shivers at the way your fingertips grace his skin. The rapid strobe lights nearly blind you, but you hold eye contact.
"Was that so bad?" you ask, tilting your head to the side.
"Yes," he says sarcastically. "I hate dancing."
"But I like your dancing."
You sway with him, careful not to step on his toes in your heels. Close up, you can nearly feel his breath on your face. You take a moment to admire his eyelashes and the way his eyes are slightly bloodshot, willing him to break the eye contact. He leans in closer.
"I like your dancing more."
You can't help but grin. His expression mimics yours.
"Yeah, well," you start, bringing your thumb up to trace the side of his jaw, "I like you."
He ducks down and captures your lips in a kiss. It takes you by surprise. You hadn't spoken a word about your kiss since last night, and you were beginning to think you made a mistake by acting on your impulses. Evidently, he doesn't seem to mind it as much as you'd worried.
The tip of his nose presses against your cheek as he shifts his head to deepen the kiss. Though the room is warm, this makes you hotter than any amount of dancing could've done. His palms squeeze your hips and your fingers rise to play with his curls. They're soft to the touch, just as you suspected. You tug lightly as the kiss gets more insatiable.
"Ouch," he mumbles against your lips, barely loud enough to hear. You snicker and tug it again, making him pull away. "I said ouch."
"I know," you laugh out. "Sorry."
"That funny?" he questions. You nod, grinning at his playful irritation. "See how you like it."
His hand trails up your back until his fingers are at your scalp and he gently pulls on your roots. Your head moves back with his action and your lips part, exhaling a shaky breath. His eyes widen. He does it again. You reach up to kiss him again.
It's hotter this time, in both senses of the word. Your skin goes alight with a blaze even the coldest shower couldn't reduce. You drape your wrists over his shoulders, your beaded bracelet pressing into him the same way his is imprinting into the sliver of bare skin below your top.
Realizing you’re standing in place in the midst of a lively dance floor, you break from the kiss and turn so your back is against his front. You pull his arms around your shoulders and sway, deliberately pressing yourself against him. You enjoy hearing the way his breath hitches next to your ear, always needing to find a new way to tease him. You know if you could have it your way without seeming too desperate too soon, you’d be doing more than just dancing.
“I like you, too,” he says, clutching you closer to him. “I forgot to say.”
You turn your head and nearly kiss his cheek because of how cute he is. “Thanks for clearing that up.”
“And I really like your dancing.”
His suggestive words spur you into grinding on him more, anything to get a reaction out of him, and it works every time. The two of you keep going this way until your thighs are burning and you’re out of breath. If it weren’t for the visual reminder, you would’ve forgotten that you came here with other people.
A couple feet away, you spot two familiar heads weeding through the crowd and slowly drawing nearer. You step away from Hamzah, who looks at you with an unreadable expression on his face. Before you can explain yourself, you come face-to-face with Mandy. Martin stops a bit away.
“Can we leave?” she rushes out.
Her mascara is running and her nose is red. Martin looks disgruntled, his eyes never staying in one place as he scans through the crowd. You grab her hand and nod. The four of you spot the nearest exit and leave promptly.
“What happened?” you ask once you’re out in the open. “Are you okay?”
“Can I stay in your room tonight?” Her eyes stay on the ground.
Your heart drops. “Of course.”
The walk back to the hotel is uneasy and fast-paced. The boys walk behind the two of you and you can hear Martin’s one word answers to everything Hamzah says to him. Your heels click and clack, barely providing a distraction from the hundreds of questions swarming your mind.
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a/n: ooo we’re getting angsty. im so sorry this took so long and if u feel that it wasn’t worth the wait, the truth is ive been so sick recently like never before in my life and i haven’t felt a lick of motivation to write. ive had to rewrite these chapters so many times that its actually affecting me mentally because i wanna make u guys happy while actually enjoying writing. i promise u won’t have to wait this long ever again, but doing this story is making me realize i prefer writing short form stuff way more than stories like this because it’s simply less stress and fits my writing style more. thanks again for all the support and kind words, u guys have really warmed my heart and i hope u know that even tho this is fanfiction and it may seem silly, it’s really a labor of love and im so grateful that u actually like what i put out there. im so so so touched and i rlly love u guys, even if i don’t know u. parasocial virtual hugs to u all xoxoxo tysm. <3
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The Christmas Arrangement (Part 4)
steve harrington x fem!reader words: 3,754 warnings: SMUT SMUT SMUT SMUT (i couldn't help it... they just ended up alone and it happened) 18+ minors dni :P summary: Steve Harrington thought asking his stubborn intern to play his girlfriend for the holidays would be simple. But "pretend" starts to get a little complicated when moments feel a little too real. a/n: IM SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY !!! i wanted this done before christmas but due to my health that didn't happen. im not sure when part 5 will come out but it will be before or on new year's eve!!!! i have a dr appt monday to see when i'll be having surgery. thank you for your patience ! enjoy this little short filler before the final part :) Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 (coming soon)
Steve’s hands gripped your waist, his mouth on the nape of your neck, stomach pressing into your backside, hand around your throat. Your hand was on the wall, holding yourself up. You were melting as he roamed your body, whispering dirty things about your dress.
He was still wearing the suit, well just the pants, jacket, and hat. He had ripped the beard off as soon as the door closed. His mouth was on yours immediately. But you weren’t going to complain.
You moved your hips, allowing your ass to rub his crotch, making him dig his fingers tighter. You bit your lip, pleased as you felt him growing.
You wondered if this would be your new normal. Him pulling you into his office, pretending to speak to you about important business stuff. In reality, the contents on the desk would be on the floor, your legs wrapped around his hips. Okay, maybe you have secretly imagined it before.
You moaned as he pressed into you, forcing your cheek on the freezing cold wall. His hand let go of your waist, fisting the flesh of your thigh. You hissed when he slipped his finger under your dress to drag it against your sensitive area.
He stopped, moving your head to look at him, giving you a sly smirk. “Already soaking wet. Hope it’s not ‘cause of me.”
You rolled your eyes, facing the wall. “Shut up, Harrington.”
He used his knees to move your legs apart further. His finger pushed your underwear to the side, slipping his digit inside, and then another. “I was thinkin’ about something earlier.”
“You, thinking? That’s dangerous.” You closed your eyes, trying not to lose control as he slid another finger inside of you.
“The other day. I asked if you had been in a relationship before.” He said casually.
You furrowed your brows, back arching at his touch. He was good. He knew how to make you feel good but only just enough where you wouldn’t come undone. “Mhm.”
“Well,” he nipped at your earlobe.
“I’ve dated.” You guided his other hand to touch your chest, intertwining your fingers with his.
“Not the same,” he mumbled.
You sighed, a mix of pleasure and annoyance at the conversation. “Why do you care, Mr. Harrington?”
You could hear him roll his eyes at you. Regardless, he twisted you around, getting on his knees. Swiftly, he took off your underwear, looking up at you with his big stupid dark eyes. You brushed a strand of hair out from his face, wondering if he would grow his hair back out. His hat sat lopsided on his head, the white Pom Pom dangling. “You know I care.”
“Then show me.”
You gasped as soon as his mouth found your core. It was different than last night. He was drinking you, his tongue warm and skilled as it flicked back and forth. You thought your legs were losing their feeling. Your hand had knocked his hat off his head, your fingers clutching his hair. “Steve…” you whimpered, leaning forward like you were about to pass out, pushing him deeper.
You could hear him grunt, occasionally saying how good you taste, the words vibrating that sweet spot that made you feel like a rocket was in the pit of your stomach. “Holy sh…” you were unable to finish the rest of your sentence. The rocket had set off, exploding inside your entire body.
Steve broke away, panting, standing up. His lips wet, catching yours in a heated kiss. He tapped the back of your thighs, cuing you to jump and wrap them around him. He held you, his hands on your ass, carrying you to the cushioned chair. He sat down, you straddling his lap, mouths sloppily moving together.
“I already told Santa what I wanted for Christmas,” you teased.
He smirked. “Yeah, but now I need you to tell me what you want.”
You could feel the pit of your stomach swell again. “Tell me a secret.”
Steve paused, his grip loosened, and leaned all the way back in the chair to look at you clearly. His brows furrowed. “A secret?”
You scanned his face, wondering if now was the time to bring up what his mom had said. You pushed it to the back of your mind. “Something you’ve never told anyone before.”
His lips twitched. “I wear contacts.”
You leaned in closer, using your fingers to keep his eye open. You were in disbelief when you could see the light circled line around his irises. “I was hoping the secret would be a bit sexier.” You tried to recall the past few days if he made any signs that he wore contacts. But really, he had already been up before you could catch him putting them in.
“I’m afraid I’m a bit boring. I forgot what that word even is.” He looked you up and down. “I guess until I met you that is.”
You bucked your hips, your center rubbing against his bulge. He closed his eyes, exposing neck as he groaned from the pressure. Your mouth attacked his throat, carelessly sinking your teeth, leaving behind a mark.
“Are you going to tell me a secret, now?” He whispered, digging his fingers into your ass.
You thought for a moment, running your fingers over the red fibers of the suit. “Do you remember when I accidentally made the wrong copies a month ago and Sharon yelled at me for an hour until you intervened?”
“Somewhat,” the flicker in his eyes told you he did.
You gave him a chaste kiss. “When you caught her and yelled at her for yelling at me, I went into your office to thank you.”
“I recall.” His brow was raised, unsure where you were going with this.
You began to shimmy from his grip, sliding off his lap, onto the floor with your knees. You saw him swallow when you looked up at him, batting your eyes.
You smirked, tilting your head as you knelt before him. “I said something like… ‘Guess I owe you one. Let me know if you ever need me to get on my knees for you.’”
Steve’s jaw dropped, and a flush crept up his neck. “You said that?”
You nodded, biting your lip to suppress a grin. “Oh, yeah. I didn’t think you heard me, though. You didn’t even look up from your computer.”
Steve ran a hand over his face, groaning. “Are you kidding me? I heard you. Loud and clear. That comment haunted me for days.”
You laughed, leaning closer. “So why didn’t you say anything?”
“I thought it was like a new figure of speech to help with paperwork or something.” He gave you a half-hearted smile.
“Jesus, have you always been this hopeless, Steve?” You giggled when his face fell, rolling his eyes.
His lips formed into a thin line. “I’m smooth when I need to be.”
“Yes, because letting a comment like that slide, is smooth.” You rested your palms on his thighs.
“I didn’t let it slide,” he countered. His hands gripped your wrists as if to prove a point. “I just… what was I supposed to say? It was the first time you had ever been nice to me and I was to immediately assume you were flirting? Was I supposed to clarify and ask if you meant to be suggestive or offering to reorganize my filing cabinet?”
“Reorganize your filing cabinet?” Your head tilted back, laughing. “Don’t worry, I was only turned on because you stood up for me. I never really thought of it again.”
He narrowed his eyes. “I don’t believe you,” he said, his voice low and teasing.
You raised an eyebrow, smirking. “Don’t believe what? That I forgot about it?”
“Exactly.” He began to move your hands higher up on his thighs. “You can’t drop a line like that and pretend it didn’t stick with you.”
“Oh, it stuck with me alright,” you said, biting back a grin. “I distinctly remember walking out of your office, thinking, ‘Wow, he’s even more clueless than I thought.’”
Steve groaned, his head tilting back against the chair. “Clueless? You blindsided me! I was trying to decide if I should fire Sharon. I wasn’t prepared for you to say something like that.”
“Prepared?” you teased, your voice lilting. “Steve, it wasn’t that complicated. It was a compliment, sort of. Maybe a little suggestive. Okay, a lot suggestive.”
“A lot suggestive?” he repeated, mock horror flashing across his face.
Your fingers hooked the waistband of his pants, dragging them off to expose his black dress pants underneath. “Admit it, Mr. Harrington. You wouldn’t know what to do if you knew I was being serious.”
His breath hitched, but he recovered quickly, his lips curving into that cocky grin you knew all too well. “Maybe,” he admitted, his tone almost daring. “I’m assuming the offer is back on the table?”
Your hands flexed against his thighs, the playful tension between you crackling like a live wire. “I don’t know. Maybe I’ll make you beg to hear the rest of my secrets instead.”
Steve’s gaze darkened, his smirk fading into something hungrier, something heavier. “Careful,” he murmured, his voice dropping to a near growl. “You’re playing with fire.”
Unzipping his pants and pulling them down along with his underwear was easy. You took him with your mouth, using your hand to pump him as your head bobbed up and down. His words became mumbled and you could make out small curses under his breath.
You had never really heard a man moan before. But Steve with his wet, swollen, covered in red, lips, parted, allowing the filthy sounds escape. His hand was at the top of your head, grasping the locks of your hair. Tighter and tighter, only making you go faster.
He finally managed to get you to break away, panting deep breaths. “Come here.”
His eyes are dark and face smug.
“Why?” You challenged him.
“Because I said so.” He tugged at your wrist to stand up.
You stayed where you were, defiant. “I like it right here.”
Steve’s grip on your wrist tightened just enough to send a shiver up your spine, his thumb brushing slow circles over your skin. His smirk deepened, tilting his head as he let his eyes drift down to where you knelt between his legs.
“Yeah?” His voice was low, gravelly—like he already knew exactly what game you were playing. “You like it down there, huh?”
Your chin lifted stubbornly, even as heat spread across your cheeks. “I think I’ve got the better view.”
Steve huffed a quiet laugh, his eyes flickering with something darker. “Trust me, sweetheart. You definitely do not have the better view. Come here.”
You dragged your nails lightly along his thighs, feeling the way his muscles tensed. Still refusing to listen. Steve was clearly restraining himself from reacting. His jaw ticked and his grip got tighter. His eyes snapped back to yours, and for a second, the teasing flicker vanished—replaced by something hungrier, more intense. His hand slid down, catching your chin between his fingers, guiding your gaze up to his. You leaned into his touch, lips barely grazing his thumb. “Up. Now. Please.”
“I’m enjoying you squirm,” you attempted to sound confident. However, the way he said please made the heat at the bottom of your stomach boil. You tightened your legs together, whining, trying to alleviate the pressure. You hated to admit you needed him now or you might combust.
He must have noticed because he was no longer playing the game. He tugged you up swiftly, your body pressing flush against his as he pulled you down onto his lap, your legs straddling his. His hands found your hips, holding you there firmly as his gaze locked with yours.
“I don’t squirm,” he muttered.
“Oh, you definitely do,” you countered, grinning up at him.
“You sure about that?” His lips were so close that his breath tickled your skin, eyes burning with challenge.
You swallowed, your pulse racing in your throat, but you weren’t about to let him win that easily. “Absolutely.”
His mouth was on yours before you could say anything else, capturing whatever smart remark you’d been about to make. His hands roamed slowly up your back, pulling you tighter against him. “Need you,” he groaned.
His fingers dug into the back of your thighs right below your ass. You lifted yourself and he grabbed himself, one hand holding you steady, allowing you to slowly slide on him. A mix of pleasure came out of you, like a dirty song. You exchanged a small smile, reveling in the feeling of him inside you. He grinned wider, kissing you tenderly.
He was literally inside of you and he still managed to make your cheeks heat up. “You’re pretty, you know? M’sorry I made you believe I didn't like you.”
You kissed the freckle on his face. You didn’t reply, shifting forward, slowly riding him. The pleasure spread to your core, and the more you felt him inside you, making you full, the rest of your body felt electric.
You continued your sweet, decadent pace, nuzzling your face into his neck. His arm was wrapped around you tightly, palm in your hair. You rolled your hips, biting your lip as the angle brushed your clit. You began to pick up the pace, stealing sloppy kisses in between the moans.
You leaned back, the change in angle bringing out involuntary swear words. Then it was Steve who began to lift his hips to match your pace. He was hitting just the right spot. You gasped, a high pitch whine poured from your lips, Steve’s chin was on yours, drinking the sound into his mouth. He smirked, open mouthed.
His thumb found your clit, grazing it gently. “Oh, fuck, Steve. “ you called out. You hadn’t meant to be so loud.
Steve seemed surprised at your outburst. But you were caught off guard at the sudden intensity. He didn’t hesitate to continue rubbing circles. You leaned back further so he had more access.
“Sweetheart…” he begged.
You put a hand on his chest. “Please wait for me. I’m almost there.”
He nodded, leaning his head back, adam’s apple bobbing as he swallowed like if he breathed another breath he would come undone. He took your hips, taking liberty to lead, lifting you up and down in a quick steady rhythm. He shut his eyes tightly, trying to fight himself and it was enough for your walls to tighten around him. You gripped him harder with every rock of your hips. You kissed him hard, melting into a pool as your insides cracked.
“Oh… god,” Steve groaned on your tongue. He gave a final thrust and you felt the warmth of his climax as your limbs shook and the currents in you hit like a storm.
Holy fucking shit.
You collapsed on him, chests flush together.
Holy fucking shit.
It felt surreal. You could feel his staggered breath. You placed lazy kisses on the freckles on his neck. You felt him smile in your hair, kissing the top of your head, rubbing your back. “You think my mom and friends noticed we’ve been gone?”
You chuckled lifting off of him. “We can just say we had a Santa suit malfunction.”
He hummed. “I think they’ll know we’re lying. Your dress is torn on the back.” He played with fabric touching the back of your neck.
“What!” You sat up, jumping off of him, reaching for the same spot. Sure enough. “How is that even possible?
Steve laughed. He pulled his trousers back on, picking up the red Santa pants off the ground and folding them. He stood up, taking off the rest of the costume. You started to look around the room, frowning. “Have you seen my panties?”
Steve immediately looked guilty, not looking you in the eye. “No.” He said too quickly.
You crossed your arms across your chest. “I don’t believe you.”
He stood up, face still deadpan. He shrugged. “I don’t remember you wearing any.”
You narrowed your eyes, your lips betraying you as you grinned. You strode over to him, hands attacking his pockets.
“Woah! Careful there, you might start something I don’t think we have time to finish.” His eyes lit up mischievously.
“Give them back, Steve,” you giggled as he started to use his arm as a shield. He rummaged in his coat pocket, bringing out the pair of underwear, letting it hang off his finger. “Hm, dunno how it got in there.”
You took a step back, shoving him slightly. “You’re such a dork!”
He handed them back apprehensively. You wanted to put them back on until you saw the puppy dog look in his eyes. You rolled Your own and slid them in one of his back pockets, patting it gently. You shot him a glare that told him not to say anything or you’d take them back.
Steve’s smirk deepened, and he glanced down at his back pocket, shaking his head with a soft chuckle. “Guess I’ll hold onto these for now. A little keepsake,” he teased, pulling his belt through the loops of his trousers.
You arched a brow, stepping closer, your fingers toying with the edge of his unbuttoned shirt. “Keepsake? I didn’t realize we were doing souvenirs now.”
He looped his arms around your waist, tugging you flush against him. “I like collecting things that remind me of you.” His lips brushed lightly over yours, slow and teasing, and it was ridiculous how easily that line made your knees weak.
“Oh,” you murmured against his mouth, pretending to consider. “Should I start stealing things from your desk then?”
Steve grinned, nipping at your bottom lip. “You already steal all my pens.”
“They’re better than mine,” you shot back, tugging lightly on his collar.
“I swear you do it just to watch me get frustrated during meetings.” His breath was warm against your cheek, his voice dropping to that husky tone that always made you shiver.
Before you could respond, there was a soft knock on the door, followed by Robin’s unmistakable voice.
“Hey, your mom has been looking for you two. So before she files a missing persons report I’d wrap up.. Whatever it is,” she called, the smirk in her voice painfully obvious.
You pulled back quickly, smoothing down your dress as if you could somehow fix the tear Steve had pointed out earlier. Steve’s hand lingered on your lower back as he opened the door just a crack, peeking out. “Sorry, we lost track of time talking.”
Robin’s eyes immediately narrowed. “You two are way too sweaty for only talking.”
Steve didn’t miss a beat. “The heating in here’s brutal,” he deadpanned.
Robin snorted, crossing her arms. “Sure. Well, get your ass downstairs, your mom wants to take pictures.” Her gaze flickered to you with a knowing grin.
Steve shrugged off his suit coat, and you felt the warmth between your legs again. There were many times you had “accidentally” turned up the air in the office to see him take off his jackets. The way his dress shirts hugged his biceps just right.
He draped the coat over your shoulders, smirking as you continued to stare at his arms.
Steve leaned in, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. “You know,” he murmured, his hand slipping just beneath the hem of his coat on your back, “if you really want to get back at me for the pens… maybe we keep the coat on all night. No dress underneath.”
Your breath hitched at the suggestion, heat blooming low in your stomach. The way his voice dipped, low and deliberate, sent shivers up your spine, and for a moment, you forgot Robin was even standing there, arms crossed and watching the two of you like a hawk.
Steve’s fingertips skimmed over the bare skin of your back, just under the edge of the coat, and your eyes flickered down to his forearms again. The sleeves of his shirt were rolled to the elbows, exposing the smooth line of his veins and the faint freckles scattered across his tanned skin. His muscles flexed subtly with every movement, and the crisp white fabric of his dress shirt strained just enough to remind you why office meetings were sometimes unbearable.
You swallowed, the room suddenly feeling too warm. “I think your mom might notice if I’m standing there half-naked in front of the Christmas tree,” you whispered back, though the teasing lilt in your voice betrayed how tempting the idea was.
Steve grinned, his thumb grazing slow, lazy circles into your lower back. “She’ll just think you’re cold,” he said, his breath hot against your ear. “I’ll play innocent.”
Robin cleared her throat loudly, and you both jumped, Steve pulling back just enough to look sheepishly at her. “Oh, don’t stop on my account,” she said, waving a hand dismissively.
Your face burned as Steve chuckled, slipping his hand into yours as he guided you toward the door. “Alright, alright. We’re coming,” he said, shooting Robin a half-hearted glare.
She grinned, pleased with herself, her eyes glanced at Steve's coat draped over you. “Nice touch. Really subtle.”
You tugged the coat tighter around yourself, shooting her a glare. “It’s cold.”
“Sure,” Robin said with a wink before disappearing down the hall.
Steve leaned against the doorframe, watching her retreat with an amused glint in his eyes. “I think she likes you more than me,” he mused, slipping his hands into his pockets.
You rolled your eyes, adjusting the coat as you stepped into the hall beside him. “That’s not a high bar.”
He laughed, his shoulder bumping against yours as you walked. “You wound me.”
“You’ll survive,” you teased, though you let yourself lean into him a little as you descended the stairs. He laughed at your words and you felt butterflies in your stomach.
You wondered if he’d be this carefree back at work. Your face dropped, immediately remembering what his mom had told you. As Steve guided you toward the refreshment table, his hand warm against the small of your back, the weight of his mom’s words settled heavily in your chest. He's thinking about walking away. The easy way he laughed with guests, the way his eyes crinkled at the corners, it was hard to reconcile that with the idea of him leaving the company. Leaving you.
#blaize writes#steve x you#steve x reader#steve harrington#steve fic#steve harrington smut#steve harrington fluff#steve harrington x reader smut#steve harrington imagine#steve harrington x you smut#steve harrington x reader fluff#steve harrington x you#steve harrington x reader#stranger things x reader#stranger things fanfiction#stranger things imagine#stranger things smut#stranger things x you smut#stranger things x reader smut#stranger things x you
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can i share a secret with you guys the one and only reason why i don't want to see wicked is because i hate how ariana looks in the movie so much that it makes me angry every time i see her in character
#like normally id at least want to check it out and give it a fair shake. but i simply Can't w this.#i have been biting my tongue out of fear that my issue is like . appearance shaming this woman somehow#but to be honest with you i think its more an issue of styling#like sure maybe part of it is just. that im still not used to seeing her actually look white so she looks sickly but#her skin tone + the blonde hair + the specific (ugly) shade of pink they have her in + the much maligned color grade of the trailers#it all makes her look so washed out and lifeless. she literally looks sick!#could nobody add some depth to her hair color or choose a better shade of pink for her?? something with ANY undertone??#i HATE looking at her in this role i hate the posters i hate the dolls i hate the trailer i hate the wicked 'dont use your phone' amc psa.#avpost#ive only talked to one person about this it was my coworker and she said theres speculation of some serious issues w her#which i dont feel comfortable spreading around bc its just celeb gossip but in the moment i was like.#you know what i wont count that out at least its *an* explanation for why she suddenly looks like an animated corpse???
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#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place#where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was#when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll#and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and#evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys#between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's#water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk#and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road#but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood#and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in#the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings#but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree#as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert#and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a#little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha#but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da#one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here#but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature#bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes#so it goes i suppose#unrelated#listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol
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not the prayer type but currently praying to anything that can hear that those images in the pre-order preview are just placeholders ❤️
#and i know people r like don't be naive it'll definitely be in the album singles always are#but unlike time-out and wolfgang and whichever else. this one alr got a physical release?#granted it flopped by skz standards but surely that should be indication enough that u shouldn't try again???#im gonna have hope until the tracklist releases like maybe they're just the newest individual concept pics they have and they#had to use them to show it's member covers for that version and it means nothing more :D#anw. if u support that song and r somehow still here pls see urself out i thought the tumblr part of the fandom kind of had it together#but i saw someone tag my gifs with lyrics from it so u can never be sure#tbd
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Casually flirting with the idea of fucking around and getting a master's degree. The time will pass anyway, right?
#lynx thinks#oh nooooooooooooooooo#nooooo i can feel the urge to be crazy and act on my hubris#ive just been talking to the grad students in the theater program and theyre taking like 9 credits a semester#and its all stuff that seems interesting or fun or at the very least useful unlike my undergrad degree#and im like... i can already sew as well as if not better than these grad students. i can for sure draw better for any designs i come up w#heck i can draw better than the current head costume designer faculty member for the university#so the little overcommitting gremlin in my brain is like ''yoi could totally do it. do it.''#and the other part of me is like ''im already so tired just from working again after needing to recover from burnout. how would i even?#so I'm sitting here Thinking about it...#a masters degree in theater might be better for finding work at a pre-existing institution than just a bachelors in art#and it might be better than a masters in art too#I'd have to stop taking commissions completely probably if i did it for the sake if time#but if i somehow got an assistantship position? then maybe?? i could do it?#oooooooh i hrm so hard y'all#its only been a week since moving and ao much is still in boxes. im only working part time but I'm tired now so much#idk if its just because my stamina levels have atrophied or what but im so. tired. these days#and by these days i mean in the last week.#maybe a week isn't long enough of a sample to work from.#im hoping my energy levels will even out a bit but with the time zone change and the fact that I'm almost 30 I'm not sure if it will?#so thats worrying#i actually kind of see why people seem to drink coffee every day now#I've definitely been eating a lot more normally since i started. both in timing and quantity#i still have projects of my own to work on i cant afford to be so eepy orz
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ok time to try to blame someone else instead of me
#being dramatic but idk im also trying to think abt why i am this way#in part to the fact that i inherently view myself as a burden and always have since a child since i could like. comprehend the things my mom#was going through for my life & moving the america etc etc#but like yeah i was basically as independent as couldve been in the PH bc i had multiple ppl who could take me places and take care of me#but in the US it was just my parents and our family and our X amnt of cars#idk i just keep thinking about how much i miss doing anything in my life and how i used to be a dancer a martial artist a potter like#there was so much to me and now because i refuse to learn to drive and get a car i just. am locked out of everything#bc my aspirations cant work out on 1 vehicle in sparse & spread ohio#like idk maybe its the fact that i always was just like im not allowed to have friends im not allowed to go out in the summer#im not allowed to visit friends or extra places or events#never really been independent until i basically ran away and even now im just#only partially independent bc sure i have money and i have my own space but. im dependent on a driver and other ppls schedules and it just#idk i cant not see myself as a burden all i can think of is that im not a good enough woman let alone wife and thats something no one wants#like i barely know how to cook i barely eat i dont clean i barely wash i barely provide like. yeah idk also ever since i had a breakdown#i feel fundamentally just. changed especially about food. and idk i have been asking for others to cook for me more but i still am waiting 4#the next time someone says you can make it yourself and i starve for the next 24 hours#idk dude i literally cannot see myself as not a work of labor. its all mama ever ranted at me about. very verbally very constantly up until#i stopped being difficult with her being the head of the family of like 12#whatever. whatever#im done blaming someone else im gonna eat my words with regret and shame :/
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Ray's After Ending is so funny because for a good chunk of it, most of the RFA members are knocked out by V's sleeping gas (Saeran is immune, Saeyoung isn't present bc he was kidnapped by his agency under his father's orders and MC wakes up in like an hour) but the game has a call feature where you can call the characters and it would be a waste if you couldn't use it bc the characters were unavailable so instead they have other people pick up the call (Jumin's driver picks up Jumin's phone, Jumin's father picks up Zen's phone, Yoosung's friends and mom pick up Yoosung's phone and Jaehee's coworkers pick up Jaehee's phone) and we do get to learn about the characters from outsider's point of view but it's so funny to me that these people are visiting their loved ones and suddenly the phone rings and they decide to just. answer it. and start talking to this stranger they've never met
#prince's talk tag#maybe its not actually weird people just pick up their loved one's phone call for them but i personally wouldn't#i cant stop thinking about how its Jumin's father that uses Zen's phone like Chief Han what were you doing in Zen's room??#i know they needed to assign somw character to Zen and he's not on speaking terms with his family#but I would of thought Chief Han would go to Jumin and the driver could go to Zen#does this mean something? am i thinking too hard about this?#also rip yoosung his friends and mom lowkey kinda dragging him in their call with you#and with the friends since one of them is a girl one of the options is like 'A girl?!?! are you dating??' and shes like 'no lolol'#'he's nice but i dont see him like that'#the main thing that made me make this post was thinking about Yoosung's mom saying how Jumin calls her sometimes and sends her holiday gift#like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idk man that just plays on a loop in my head#i know thats like a very professional thing to do. Jumin was raised to please people in a business capacity#and the he cares about the RFA so yea it makes sense. im sure he has gifts sent out to companies his works with#and I'm sure if the other members had a good relationship with their parents hed do the same with them#but in the RFA Yoosung and I guess V are the only ones with parents they talk to#idk if he sends a gift to V's father tho bc we never talk to him#but man. while i know hed do it with the other members if he could just the fact he does it with Yoosung is sweet#and it makes the part in Seven's route where he calls Yoosung's mom about her son's dilemma make sense to me bc they do talk once in a whil#so its not too out of the blue when he does it i guess#but man can we talk about how awesome Jaehee is? bc her coworker that picks up her phone spends every call gushing about her#like we knew she's great at her job but man hearing her coworker talk about her fills me with such love and admiration#and she's apparently really loved by the other assistants too like they all gush about her#jaehee is the best character in the game im not joking around#they wanna get close to her but bc she's their boss it's hard T_T#and the one that picks up the phone wishes Jaehee knows she was the one that stood with her overnight when she wakes#Yuni (the assistant you're talking to) says she would of quit the job had it not been for her#LIKE!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA!!!!#it was a nice way to use the call feature during the first two days of the characters not being awake to answer#and even though this is supposed to be the last thing you play before completing the whole game#you still learn something new about the characters you've known since day 1
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And speaking of kevin bacon, i read a recent interview of his where he said he wanted to experience living "like normal people do" so he asked a special effects artist to change his appearance to go to a crowded venue and said he absolutely hated the experience because no one recognised him, people pushed him and were rude, no one asked for a photo or gave him a shout out, he had to wait in line to get a simple coffee AND he didn't get any sort of benefit/discount at the venue and legit said he just wanted to go back home to get rid of the disguise and be famous again and like........ the layers of this whole thing 😵💫
#it's like... an interesting experiment#i mean for starters... 'living like normal people do' is such an odd thing to say#like idk man. im sure he's used to another kind of life but don't they get tired of being recognised everywhere they go?#imagine going to do a simple errand only to have people staring at you llike if you were a piece of meat or sth#or maybe he likes attention but still!#also him saying it made him sad that coffeeshop employees didn't make him skip the line#or that no one shouted him 'i love you' from afar#it's so ?????????¿¿¿¿¿¿¿#that's a world i definitely do not know#what i find most interesting yet very sad is when he said that ppl were very rude and kept pushing him rather than giving him space to walk#because in a way its true: people will push you and most won't even apologise if they do!#and that sucks!#the fact that he. a celeb. is used to have people giving him space to do stuff is ???¿¿¿#bc basically people are like 'yeah we'll push each other and be rude except to the almighty celebrities who walk among us'#like... what is this dnjxjdj#you're supposed to be civilized with everyone. not just with celebs#idk man i know if the karfashians had said and done what he did it would've been controversial#but i do see an interesting side part of the whole thing#rambless
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there are things that you don't do for a year or more and pick up just right where you left off and these days i fear loving you might be one of them
#double meaning on that but. yeah.#it's like. i haven't touched the imaging software i use for an entire year. soldering iron in decades. pick it right back up. to my surpris#muscle memory is crazy#i don't draw for months and pick up right where i was with a few sketches bc the work you put in stays even when you don't actively practic#when it's something you've practiced weekly and daily it sticks with you and ig that's good#but then it's like. the horrors. that haunt you. yk? what if a part of me will always save a soft spot for my ex. what then.#what if I'm fine now and I'm doing okay and i don't miss it and I think i'm okay moving forward and i see her and suddenly I'm on the floor#what if some part of me that was in love never really went away what if i haven't managed to kill all of it yet#bc i genuinely would not know what to do. i. i don't want to admit it but one of my worst fears is liking someone who doesn't like you back#and what's even more horrifying is if it's obvious. if everyone can tell. and usually I'm good at hiding it! (not really) but it's just. id#it's shame in liking someone who you tell yourself you don't want to like and you know you shouldn't. and not having control over it.#hoping praying that either she does something that turns the little switch in my head that sends her into the unforgivable category#or that i become straight. or that i become straight. mhm. yep. or ig the other option is i get a crush on someone new but like. mm.#i kinda have gotten w every person I've had a crush on since hs and i kinda don't think im ready for another rs so soon.#the baggage i just got is. hm. idk i kinda don't wanna unpack it. it's something that can easily be done if i had the missing pieces but.#i don't think I'm ever gonna get them. so. instead I'm gonna take. maybe another 3 months or 5 months or a year or a few. to just. slowly.#idek. it's just triggering old things. bringing me back to when i was 14. i never really got closure from that either. it took me 3 years.#I'm sure this time it'll go away faster but idk experiencing it a second time has a different feel to it. idk. it's weird.#it's like. idk. it's like you're watching it happen and you're not even there anymore. idk. i really don't know.#oh. I've been dissociating.#idk maybe it's for the best i really don't know i really don't know and everyone says i have to do what's best for myself but idk what is#my life is on track things are moving forward I'm doing better and healing but i can't escape the feeling of dread#something is going to catch up with me sooner or later and idk what it is idk at what intensity and idk if i will be ready for it#but anyway. when you love someone intentionally every day for a while. when does it go away? will it go away?#or will i have to live haunted by ppl who are alive but changed. so practically dead w/o the opportunity to mourn. for the rest of my life?#like i don't think i get it. loving this person was like. cooking and eating. intentional. ingrained into everyday life. effortful.#what if my mind does forget but my body still remembers. what then. what if it's like searching for sth you don't remember having anymore#ig I'm just trying to figure out how much to forget these days. how much won't hurt if it all comes back to haunt me#delete later
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Was just having a conversation with my friends the other day about how difficult it is to be a fan of things nowadays and actually avoid spoilers and so in preparation I blocked/muted literally every jjk tag I could think of across sites and somehow I still immediately open tiktok to spoilers (which is not too surprising as tiktok has literally the WORST filtering system I've seen, like even tumblr has their shit together better than that). But anyway it just kinda makes me sad that it's almost impossible to be online now and actually enjoy things at your own pace? It makes me think of when Netflix drops whole seasons and suddenly it's a race to binge everything so you don't get spoiled and I do think it's actively killing our enjoyment of things. Obviously this case is a lil different, the leaks still come out on a weekly basis but I think there's really something to be said about reading a finished product rather than seeing 25 blurry images of the same panel with iffy translations
#and sure i could just not go online ever#but also when ive taken literally every precaution possible and you know#do my best to cultivate the online experience i want#i should not still be walking through a mine zone#and like im lucky obviously in the fact that i am a manga reader so its not like i only watch the anime and am hugely spoiled#but its still fucking annoying#and also just such a huge shift from how leaks used to be treated?#like im not dumb leaks have been around for sooo long and thats fine whatever#but even just like#two years ago i could expect all the leaks and spoilers to be tagged and passed around in such a way that i could avoid them#but now#god i think the assumption is just that everyone wants to see the leaks#and because no one knows how to shut up#as soon as the leaks come out EVERYONE talks about them and theres the inherent fear that youre missing something now#that your not part of the moment#but omg#maybe the way i want to discover information is when i read it when and how the author intended#which of course#bold words from a chronic pirater i am aware of the irony there#but even in those instances im not reading leaked information its all so#fkfjshfhdosos#anyway#the consensus is learn how to use the tagging system and also maybe learn how to be quiet
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Ew, essays :[
I miss the old days of kindergarten when we attempted to color butterflies and ate erasers and glue
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I hated kindergarten
Essays may suck but at least now I'm not the weird kid in the corner wishing I had friends
However yes I absolutely despise essays with all my being... in fact!
Achievement unlocked: you somehow found a topic moshie hates enough and on a bad day to start them ranting in the tags...
Warning there are curse words, poor spelling, and caps locks
Sorry in advance
#asks#off topic#seriously tho i hate essays so much#one of them is already 5 pages and thats just the rough draft#i better get a fucking high pass on that shit or i will scream#shes actually making us focus on out writing process and OH HO.HO BOY IS MINE A MESS#I SWEAR ITS LIKE TRYING TO MAKE A SKETCH BUT YOU KEEP PAINTING CERTAIN PARTS BECAUSE IT HAS TO LOOK NICE#ONLY TO RELIZE OH WAIT MAYBE THAT DOESN'T GO THERE AND I SHOULD ACTUALLY SHIFT IT AROUND#OR MAYBE I COULD SWAP THIS TOO BE THAT LOOKS AWFUL AND IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE TILL ITS A RIVER OF BLOOD AND PAINT#AND SHE WANTS TO SEE MY ROUGH DRAFT??? HONNEY YOU WOULD HAVE A BETTER CHANCE AT READING THE MARIO SUNSHINE SPEEDRUN CATEGORY BACKWARDS THEN#UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE FUCK IM TRYING TO WRITE ITS WHY I HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL IN ONE GO OTHERWISE I HAVE TO LOOK BACK AND UNDERSTAND WHAT#WAS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD WHILE LOOKING THROUGH THIS MESS!!! OOOHH WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO ORGANIZE THIS WELL SHIT THATS GOING TO TAKE EVEN#LONGER YOU ALREADY GOT ME WRITING WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME STOP MUCH LESS MAKE ME SWITCH SUBJECTS TO ANOTHER ESSAY HALF WAY THROUGH OH BU#AND GUESS WHAT!???? ONE PAGE! DOUBLE SPACE! AND IM NOT GOING TO GIVEN GIVE YOU A DIRECTION TO WRITE IN JUST ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED#IN THESE LAST TWO WEEKS! TWO WEEKS FUCKING HELL DO YOU KNOW HOW INDECISIVE AND FORGETFUL I AM??? MUCH LESS THE FACT KTS ABOUT ETHNICS#I DIDNT EVEN EANT TO TAKE AN ETHNICS CLASS I WANTED ETHICS I FUCKING HATE EVERY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW#LIKE YEA SURE I KNOW THEY'RE IMPORTANT BUT I STILL HATE ESSAYS and j know my teachers are trying their best...#but jeese ethnics is such a difficult topic because on one had yea i relate to what these people are going through im part of the LGBT#are statistics are very similar but im also bery much a white person and not openly trans/non binary i dont want to look like some stuck up#white person going oooo look at the poor minorities i can TotAlLy relate and now im going to talk about me#because im genuinely scared of coming out idk whos accepting and whos not at least online im safe and can block people...#jeese im sorry for the rant i shouldn't have gone on that much less my art blog#this is supposed to be a positive blog but i just need to put this somewhere or i feel im going to cry out of frustration im sorry#rant post#system#oops moshie got emotional
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my spidey ‼️‼️‼️
can’t BELIEVE I haven’t posted this yet I’m still proud of it
she lives in a vaporwave inspired universe and she’s somewhat in the style of the archie comics I hope you like her
character sheet under the cut!! I posted it before but it’s buried
the art’s a bit old so she’s not in her actual style here
by the way she does wear glasses she just can’t wear them under her mask but the lenses of her mask have prescription degrees so she can see just not without it
no idea what she’s looking at here probably a bug on a floor to the side
also disregard the 3 points below “bitten by a cat that ate the radioactive spider” those are irrelevant now but I will make an updated character sheet when I’m free!! hopefully a better one too
#oc#spiderverse oc#spidersona#bennet parker#hopefully you guys can see the screen tones#by the way! to replace the irrelevant points in the character sheet#actually only 2 of them I’m still workshopping the canon event because I want her to be happy IM SO SORRY BEN IT HAS TO BE DONE#she doesn’t know hobie! maybe I can try to make them meet but the society is HUGE so I’m not sure how but then again he’s quite well known?#she doesn’t DISLIKE Miguel per say just really irritated at him for scolding her so much#she’s always getting in trouble#she only starts disliking him after the whole miles thing since she’s around the same age as miles and is like “dude wtf. he’s a kid too—#—you can’t just do that”#anyways she’s also part cat from the cat that bit her#she uses web shooters she doesn’t have actual web#she’s pretty much only got spider senses and the traits of a ginger cat#her pupils can dilate and contract and stuff#not to that big of an extent but still a considerable amount#it’s a cool party trick
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alright we're okay. it's all going to work out and happen. ive got my short film idea. i just have to make it absolutely perfect and then we're good to go
#my short film idea is a kinda sorta prequel kinda. to my Big Main Film Idea#essentially its just a little bit of silly backstory to a character that gets no backstory in the feature film#and this character is making a short film. and im playing the character. so im making a short film abt someone making a short film.#when i was first writing my Main Film Idea i was like ok yeah this character that im thinking of playing is obviously based on and like me#but as time went on i was like ah fuck. theres parts of me in every damn character#the good news is that this short film idea should be relatively cheap to make. im thinking of having only one filming location#and i could get a deal filming there bc i used to work there (my old cafe) so renting out the space might be cheaper#im not sure yet abt cameras. im thinking abt emailing my old film teacher and being like. hey. would you wanna help me make my film#i think he has some film cameras himself or if not he knows a lot of film people#but since this is essentially a one man (its me im the man) show i dont really need other actors. but im working on that#another problem of potentially many is that if and when this gets done. now what#ive got zero clue abt where to like. send my short film to be shown or whatever but maybe my film teacher could help w that!#before i do any of this i am going to finally finish that filmmaking course i bought. and then see where we go from there#but this still needs a lot of writing bc i havent done any screenplay work for this yet#and thus obviously havent storyboarded anything#i gotta get Organized <- least organized person on this earth#wish me luck that this will lead me on the path to my dream movie. we can all hope
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i have a headache but also i dont want to go to sleep just yet dkjnfjds i want me-time
(warning: as i was writing the tags of this post this turned into another kinda-heavy rant about the situation my group of friends and i are. so keep that in mind)
#things were weird today when She(tm) was there but when she left things were normal again#but these hours were kinda stressful rip or more like... there was an inherent discomfort and tension in the air#with some ugly commentaries and actions on her part. like its your (supposed) best friend's birthday at least try to hide your disgust 👍#birthday you ~apparently~ forgot until it the day before. also you didnt had a single penny to spend on the gift for him#but you sure as hell had it to go eat with your college friends to expensive places! girl at least dont post about it on insta#and just in case; this wasnt a '*goes to expensive places before* -oh i dont have money sowwy :(('#this was a '-oh i dont have money sowwy :(( *goes to expensive places after it*'#what we were asking for collaboration was way less than what she spent on those places. it was AT THE VERY LEAST 3000 ars per food#and you know what she wanted to give for the gift? 500 ars!!! you cant buy shit with it; let alone if we only collaborated with 500 each#like she wanted. we're 4; genuine question what kinda shit can you buy for $2000. maybe a good quality cup but we already gave him that#but even then the point is not the money; the thing is the attitude. you cant spend more than $500 on us#but you can spend at least $6000 on your other friends; given you went to eat with them two days in a row. priorities i guess?#OH! and talking about it!! can you fucking believe she INVESTIGATED the phone of our ~new~ friend (the one shes jealous of)#and DEADASS said 'oh i see. my mom has an A51'. our friend has an A20 if im not wrong; which might not be an A51 but its. still expensive??#also your mom has an A51 but you have an iPhone 5 since you were on high school. but hey; apple i am right?? inherently better than an A20#sorry i have less than that; i have an A10s (that i got on the start of 2020). can i still breathe the same air as you and your mom /s#once again the problem is not the money or the phone or WHATEVER. its the fucking attitude shes having. you want to pretend you have money#and act like youre superior to people who 'dont'; when in reality YOU ARE MIDDLE CLASS. YOU ARENT UPPER CLASS; NOT EVEN UPPER-MIDDLE CLASS#YOURE MIDDLE CLASS. MIDDLE CLASS LIKE THE REST OF US; NOT LIKE YOUR COLLEGE FRIENDS YOU LOVE SO MUCH AND WANT TO IMPRESS#YOU SPEND MONEY YOU DEFINITELY DONT HAVE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO APPEAR UPPER-MIDDLE AT THE VERY LEAST. but thats a lie#a lie that if these beloved friends bothered to ACTUALLY know even the slightest about you; like we do; would fall apart. but they wouldnt!#because they dont care about you as much as we care(d). do you think they will tolerate this fucking attitude youre having towards us?#no they wouldnt. trust me; they WOULDNT. they will tell you to fuck off and leave you completely alone. go cry a river.#god fucking dammit why are you like this. WHY you turned like this. or rather; why we were SO GODDAMN blind we didnt noticed this before#negative
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so once me and my wife were watching a documentary where a snake ate like a million eggs. that snake just went to fucking town on eggs. and the snake made the eggs look so good that i kept thinking about it, and thinking about it, and thinking about it, and eventually it was 11pm and i ran out of willpower and decided to eat one (1) singular raw egg just to prove to myself that the snake was surely a liar.
the snake was not a liar. texture is like, super important to me and raw eggs are very Texture so i had another one, and then another one, and then another one, and eventually i ran out of eggs.
i had like, fifteen raw eggs.
i didnt really know how to explain this momentary madness to my wife, so my Plan was to put all the eggshells into a grocey bag, and then throw that grocery bag in the dumpster, and if she never noticed that would be Excellent and if she noticed immediately i could lie and say that the eggs went bad.
except i cant lie very good, and of course with murphys law being such, i got salmonella.
so i threw up a lot and my wife asked me what poisoned me so and i tried very hard to dodge the question but i was oozing shame like oil from a room temperature cheese and eventaully i gave in and told her everything and to her enormous credit she was more flabbergasted than actually upset. she did make me promise to not eat any more raw eggs, which i have stuck to, and she gives me weird looks during nature documentaries now as if desire was the only thing keeping me from eating thousands of pounds of krill anyway i made a joke earlier about being able to eat my age in eggs and my sister in law in law made a drawing to comemorate the moment and also because it was my birthday. she's excellent. thank you 10000000% @cintailed. you should all visit her page and admire her work.
#this wholw tjing made me laugh so fucking hard#i’m allergic to eggs and was talking w my fiance abt this post#and thus learned there is a secret third part to the egg#wjich is the white#which is not rhe same thing as the yolk i’ve learned#but no im still so confused bc op if u see this pLS EXPLAIN#first question#did u just like expertly crack the egg above ur open jaw and let the yolk slide down your sinful throat#bc like u didnt plan to do this again surely u woulsnt dirty a bowl#but i aknowledbe that i am weirder than some and maybe some of u WOULD dirty a bowl for one egg#thwt would be fine#its not my bowl#but second questipn#are u autistic and if so i’ve literally never met an autistic person who likes slimey and so i was caucht off guard#cause the reason i thought u were eating them shells and all was#yknow. tism.#bc u said twxture and my stupid tism#brain was like Oh Yeah Autistics Like Me Love Us Some Texture#anyway pls get back in a timely manner /silly
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