#like just dont mess with the child

[angstandhappiness]

TERRIFYING Him ready to turn you into meat patties

@istopaskingmemate demon: why do I hear boss music?

POV: You hurt MK..

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

[holdmymetaphor]

okay heres some things about houses childhood i think about

theres clearly a few dynamics here

-he hates his father, resents the abuse, recognizes that bad things were done to him

-probably when he was very young, he didnt understand why bad things happened to him, was not intentionally A Bad Kid

-because he surmised his dad was not his dad at 12 i assume the abuse started from a young age.

-house mentions ice baths and sleeping outside, but he also mentions his father not speaking to him for months at a time, which is interesting to me. when house tries to qualify the severity of abuse to eve he says "not as bad as your [trauma] if how your acting about it shows how bad it is." which to me is pretty noncommittal. was he doing that bc he was still kind of lying, trying to get info out of her? if not, it seems like house is actually unsure of how to qualify his own abuse, which would lead me to believe it was largely emotional and verbal. although i suspect that his father did physically abuse him at times, to me this exchange implies that house thinks the ice baths and sleeping outside were the worse of it (interestingly both acting on his whole body and ability to regulate temperature)

-at some point he acts out intentionally, instead of unintentionally, bc his father is Wrong and shouldnt be abusing house in these ways(the fact that the thing he wanted to hear from his father was "you were right, you did the right thing" 😭😭)

-this leads to worse and more cruel punishments, which house both detests and wants to avoid repeating. furthering his resentment, but reinforcing his fathers authority

- despite his knowledge that his father is wrong, his dad claims to do these acts out of love, to teach dicipline, to toughen him up. (in this way his struggle with god is really an allegory of his father: is it better he hates me (i deserve pain) or loves me (i dont deserve pain) when he does awful things to me? or is it better for him to not exist at all (things just happen, there is no deserving)?

-in my perspective, especially as house got older, into his teens, he was actually probably really "well behaved" finally smart enough to fake social cues and swallow his pride so that his father wouldnt hit him or what have you (which is why he regresses to a child often as an adult, because he was not allowed those things)

its interesting to me, to see how all of houses character is shaped around the shadow of his father. the parts where he is similar: rigid, principled, yell-y, and where he is intentionally different: encourages independent thinking, respects challenges to his authority (only when he has authority lmao that all falls apart when people take his power(read:agency) away, his biggest trigger)

and none of this even gets into his mother, blythe (a word which means both happiness and bland disintrest) which is a whole nother can of worms. the fact that at the funeral she said that "the war was over" (which implied that no matter how much house actually listened to his father, there was still a part of him that couldnt help but to point out the logical issues, and therefore continued abuse)

lastlly, she had said that john loved him. which i think house believes to be true. especially when he tries to talk to his dead father in season 6, he says "i think i focus on the wrong things," implying that he did want to find some peace with that relationship, and that he wanted his fathers love, despite it being illogical, painful and confusing.

that he was willing to look past the abuse was shocking to me, because house is right his father shouldnt of abused him. but it was coming from a place of love, however ill concieved.

this is as close as we get to house praying to god. to admit that the suffering of life cannot be defied or denied, and grasp for the love nestled in between all the pain, however flawed, wrong, or illogical.

in a lot of ways, his story is so much about houses struggle with the body, its agency, its disability, its doom. he literally becomes a doctor to grasp with this ideologically (at times paradoxically) instead of physics because his question isnt really about existance in general

its about why he exists in the broken, painful way he does. and at the end of it, he sets down his need for an answer, righteousness, and admits that despite it all, his body cant help but love. and that love is the death of him. the end of his suffering.

[tenderjock]

btw its very important to me that buffy is just as insane as drusilla. that spike's type is insane, beautiful women that could and would take him in a fight.

(and that when i say "buffy's insane" i dont mean it in a cute, funny, relatable way where she has gad or whatever.)

[itslilacmoon]

coolest kid on the block

[andr0nap-02]

god i feel bad for not enjoying this quest but it was just... LIKE IT HAD POTENTIAL??? I THINK??

A PREGNANT WARFRAME WAS THE LEAST OF ITS PROBLEMS

i just. god. im just so confused

[try-set-me-on-fire]

Me: this one will be a slow burn I think

Eddie Diaz: no actually i need to tell him i love him immediately

[nanathebunny]

against all expectations i am enjoying memnoch quite a lot LMAO

[shagchateau]

.

[spinogreen0iq]

challenge: treat your/a human child like a person

Difficulty: Impossible

[icouldhavebeenfree]

realizing that the situation i am in is not solely the result of a moral failing or deficiency of character on my part but is instead largely just the way things happened to have played out, and that i don't need to punish myself about it... but it is very difficult to view things pragmatically when you haven't spoken with anyone who shares the experience. it makes me feel like i am uniquely awful because like, why else would it be only me? but 1. it's not only me, i just haven't happened to meet the people who i do share the experience with... just because i can't see it doesn't mean it's not real etc... and 2. there really is no explanation because the universe doesn't have motives or a moral compass. i keep waiting for a moment to be told why this has happened and only then will i receive the key to how i can finally move on... but that's not going to happen so i just have to move on. but again it's difficult because i have no guidance from anyone who actually knows what to do in this situation. very alone in my aloneness...

[truckstoptigers]

i hold so much more anger than anyone around me realizes

[indirectcomedian]

very unfinished drabble of the proposed Wrestle House 3: Rosemary Edition

sharing amenities with anyone, she supposed, would be a pain. sharing amenities with 6 other demons who have their own specific need to use the bathroom mirror, is another pain entirely.

what pride hadn’t been expecting to find when she opened the half cracked bathroom door was her sister shard splayed on the floor, awkwardly hunched over a compact mirror. around her lay dozens of beauty products, bottles of foundation and mascara and eyelashes and more. they were courtney’s, evident by the skin tone color of the foundation and the sticky note along the abandoned products, “DEMON DO NOT TOUCH”.

“honestly,” pride scoffed at both the mess and her sister, “what are we supposed to do with you?”

wrath looked up from her place on the floor, a liquid eye liner pen ham-fisted in her grasp. from the looks of her multi-colored stained hands, there had been some attempt at applying product with her fingers. looking at wrath’s face revealed these attempts to be unsuccessful, leaving red streaks around her eyes and mouth. she looked about halfway through drawing an “R” on her right eye, the lines jagged despite her attempts at concentrating. pride raised an eyebrow.

“courtney’s not going to be happy with you, you know. and we’re going to be the one dealing with her after…”

pride took another second to assess the damage. none of the palettes appeared cracked, at least. still, the bathroom looked more like a warzone than a proper facility.

“…all of this.”

“courtney’s not here right now…” wrath growled, pointing the eyeliner pen at pride.

“obviously,” pride quipped. “she may be a floundering pile of mortal limbs, but at least she has some motor skills”.

pride sighed again. a part of her, a large part of her, wanted to simply hoist wrath up and out of the room, leave her to hunch over her little compact elsewhere. but she knew that she couldnt possibly get her own battle paint applied in such a chaotic area.

“getting ready, getting ready…”, wrath sing-songed to herself, moving to start drawing again. pride caught her fist, cringing at the feeling of some product transferring over to her palm.

“we’re helping.” wrath cocked her head, trying to pull her hand away. “don’t think we’re doing this for you. we just don’t want to deal with any more mess you make.”

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Ngl CBBC's Extreme School was really a better take on helping troubled kids then Worlds Strictest Parents.

[hauntingblue]

WE STILL GOT ARCANEEEEE

[fiovske]

I did not know what point nemo was so i looked it up and it is realy cool. And i love that the colosest people to that point are astrounauts on the iss and how fiting it is that the iss will chash in point nemo in 2031. From the darkness of space to darkness of ocean. I know it will probably not be filmed but it would be soo cool to se the iss chash in the ocean.

yeah! point nemo is pretty cool... i get really sad every time i remember they're decommissioning the ISS in 2031... they really don't need to, i dont think they have to,,, i love it very much bc its the one space astronauts regardless of geographical borders spend time communally watching over our beautiful planet, this marvelous blue rock, like-- that's home. it's the only one we got. and at the ISS, petty squabbles of governments and tyrants look so fucking small, astronauts have said that it is incredibly humbling and life-changing, to see the planet so.. vulnerable. it makes you want to protect it. to marvel at the beauty and terrifying endlessness of space, and know that the earth is a responsibility and one you cannot take lightly.

i feel like decommissioning a space like that is so counterproductive towards our collective growth as a species. it feels like the end of something genuinely noble, the one thing we did right and now we're stopping that too. like it's only the first steps towards capitalism in space, locking away space research that used to be done for the sake of knowledge and learning because it doesn't make money per se. its only seeing space as a means of commerce, a means of monetary gain and exploitation, putting up borders where there isn't supposed to be any, and using that as a whole jumping point for the "mars tourism for the rich!" "space walk for the rich!" nonsense and i just hate that. so so fucking much.