#like it would solve all my problems methinks

[aloekat]

honestly i think making a barry syx cosplay could fix me i really do

[chamomiletealeaf]

Need John Price to sit me on his lap and hold my legs back by my thighs while he uses a vibrator on me. Burying his face in my neck telling me how good I’m doing while he looks down and watches.

Need him in full tactical gear too and me in only his shirt, panties pulled off to the side, and cute fuzzy socks while he makes me cum and squirt like 4 times.

That would solve all my problems, methinks.

[alexitheslayer02]

I just realized...

The monkeys would be the most dangerous Yanderes (don't ask why this came to mind, it's one of my groggy morning brain thoughts). Like... Wukong D.O. (Destined One) Macaque (lmk only cause I have not seen him in any other adaptation.) AND MK TOO NGL

Just... Humor me for a moment.

It probably should be obvious. But it's not just danger levels from powers, but also their personality. Like, I can picture Mackie being on "Phantom of the Opera" type shit with his theater boi ass (what in the sweet heavens did I just type?)

Whereas, Wukong would be VERY clear on everything. He will not play around. Meanwhile the obsessive/possessiveness would probably just sneak up on MK. Like, he might not even realize it until he sees you around someone else and is like "Hold up- no. No, no, no. That's not right now, get back here."

D.O. on the other hand surprises you.

-------------- My thoughts/Headcanons

-------------- //Macaque\\

You can not convince me that this dramatic, petty, theater boy little shit (/aff) would not act like dude in "Phantom of the Opera". He probably would not make anyone sing, but dammit, he is manipulative and tricksy when he wants to be. And his shadow skills would make it easy to spy on you like bro in "Phantom of the Opera" does through the mirror. I don't know if he would set a theater on fire though- At most though, he'd be the stalker that tries to keep you safe. He does get possessive, but he would only kill if he had to. He's far more patient.

//Wukong\\

The yanderest of the yanderes in this list methinks, regardless of the version. Cause yeah no, bro is legit, book canonly, unhinged as is. He is already trigger happy to kill from the start. Yes, he does try, though not very hard, to talk things out. But there are certain things he won't even bother talking out. I feel, if yandere, this would be one of the things where peace was never an option. Like, I feel he would say, "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn" if you try to chastise him for killing someone who looked at you wrong hhh

//MK\\

^ See this? Totally not the face of a crazy person, right?

He is a little angel! There's the danger. He has absolutely no clue how crazy he himself can get, so... like Wukong, he is a loose cannon, but in a different way. There would be no warning signs until it's too late and he is covered in....

ketchup ^^ Yeah, that's what it is, don't worry, that person is just sleeping. Sleeping very, very, VERY still. In all seriousness, murder would not be his go to problem solving method. He is smarter than that, believe it or not. Murder is illegal, and would be highly counterproductive. He'd be aggressively affectionate. Lots and lots of gifts, hugs that are perhaps a tad clingy, things like that. (I do headcanon him as a hopeless romantic. So the tropey/cheesy romance things would be his natural go to)

His insecurities though, could build up and lead to an exploding steam pot if not careful. Basically... Give the boy your attention and he should be fine for the most part. Heavens forbid he catches you cheating though... No one will survive, not even him.

//D.O.\\

Speaks one or two words a year, legitimately one of the most calm individuals in any universe. I don't think anyone has ever seen him lose his shit. While Wukong is clearly unhinged, MK hyperactive, and Macaron is dramatic, this guy seriously comes out of nowhere if you don't know what to look for. He is open, his silence however hides that. The possessive/obsessive behavior would mostly show in his body language, expressions, and how he might hold you. If you don't pay attention, it will surprise you. That is, if he ever leaves any evidence for you to be concerned over :) After all, he knows you would not like it if you found out he killed someone who got too close. So why would he let his sweetheart find out...?

---------------------------- That's all! Have a nice day :D

[duckiemimi]

an in depth explanation as to how an on-screen gego sex scene would actually solve all of the problems in jjk:

1. while the series mainly focuses on the manifestations of “negative” emotions (i say negative with quotation marks because no emotion is inherently negative or harmful; it’s what comes after that counts), i’d argue that “positive” emotions would also manifest the same way—perhaps not as cursed spirits, but within the context of sorcerers, it could manifest as a source of strength. in volume 0, gojo likens love to a curse, but colloquially speaking, love is considered a “positive” emotion. (it can be more than an emotion, but for simplicity’s sake, we’ll refer to it as that.) within this context, love can be strength.

now let’s briefly explore the intersection between love, an abstract concept, and sex, a tangible physicality. what do both these things have in common? serotonin and much more, or in short, “positive” emotions. i’d imagine the output of “positive” emotions between people in love who have sex must be astronomical—limitless, even (at least momentarily).

now let’s imagine the relationship between geto and gojo is one full of love, notwithstanding the trauma. let’s put them in a situation of sex. considering how they were both two of the strongest sorcerers of their time, i’d imagine that their combined cursed energy output concentrated through a lens of “positive” emotions would be incredibly powerful. so powerful that it would even theoretically eradicate the repercussions of humanity’s “negative” emotions, or what we canonically call “cursed spirits.” mass exorcism. this would include our muppet-brain character and the character with repeating limbs. it would be an act of letting love into the vast and empty space of infinity, so to speak, filling every corner and every curve full.

of course, one might ask, how would this happen if both instrumental characters are dead and gone? where would this take place? why, the afterlife, of course! in the series, the afterlife is the wonder that keeps on giving, a mysterious realm where almost anything is possible (except life). it would be a cross-realm mission of sorts. let’s say something like cursed energy exists in the afterlife. if this “making love out of nothing at all” scenario were to happen, then the combined output of cursed energy through a lens of “positive” emotions would leak into the tangible realm, not unlike how cursed energy leaks from non-sorcerers. this, in my humble opinion, would be the metaphysical peak of the battle and this is how gojo can still win. this is the conceptual reverse cursed technique as a large-scale solution. the one who will teach us about love is gego.

2. would make up for the shit way gojo died off-scren methinks

[justanotherpersonsuniverse]

SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 70 PN BELOW Lets fucking go cap! ok it’s the weekend, I have my own writing block and I finally finished my fucking assignments and handed them in, I’m practically free forever!! (exams loom in the distance, i willfully ignore their shadow)

I’ve started by reading from chapter 67 just to bring myself back into the mindset (and because they are hype as all hell chapters), this is faster than starting my like 7th re-read.

I even made myself a cuppa to really settle in, the vibes are immaculate, I played Bizet Carmen while reading this time

The dichotomy of Juleka:

I don't want to hurt anyone!

Extreme violence is efficient. 

The fact that we didn’t get ladybug trying to kiss rena when she was shot by dark cupid is tragic

This time i listened to shoot to thrill by ACDC, and Burn it down by awolnation for the badass parts

Anyway finally onto Fei, that only took me two hours (i briefly wrote shit so yknow, a good time!)

Fei’s tragic backstory be upsetting frfr, Like damn brother you watched your dad die in front of you? Do you need a blanket and a hug?

The tone change from “My life ended when my dad died.” to ��summer was awesome!!” made me snort horrible it’s not funny- but it kind of is-

Oh my god Juleka got a break for weeks AND WE DIDN’T GET TO SEE IT??? Tragedy. (i’m kidding, so happy that she got a break <33)

Rose thirsting over Panthera in a crop top is too funny- you just know if it was anyone else Juleka would be pouting like “damn what do they have that I don’t?” 

Oop her hands still kinda fucked, curiouser and curiouser. I wonder if she has tried to practice her secondary power. Which rq, it was SUCH bullshit that LB gets two and the cat miraculous gets one in canon, so happy you retconned it

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD OK CAP I AM SO HYPE HYPE SHE GOT A MODELING INTERNSHIP?????? Like sure cause nepotism but i’ve been wanting to see Juleka try out modeling in a real environment for ages cause like thats something she is interested in yknow and i just- 

Augh, hype as hell. And an excellent reason for her to be going to Shanghai, I applaud your problem solving to fit Juleka into the show's narrative! I applaud it always, but this one was more difficult than usual methinks

I have pizza now it is 8pm

Anyways; NOO GABEY BABY DON’T BE EVIL VIBES TO JULEKA SHE’S JUST A LITTLE THING

Oh my poor awkward Juleka… Gabriel wasn’t helping but this is so funny, dude you vowed to kill this girl like a month ago open your eyes

I NEED juleka’s modeling arc to be a thing. Idk how into detail you went but i’m hoping for some i’m rabid i’ve been waiting for this for like 3 years

Oh airports SUCK i feel her anxiety so much, poor thing… i forced my friend to share her location with me one time so we could stalk each other, we never turned it off its kinda funny

… why is Anarka banned from airports?? Being “a living weapon” is so vague.

Killing myself rose and juleka are so cute- and obsessed with each other- every hour is insane

I love Juleka instantly becoming a disaster on baby’s first flight

Juleka instantly being on high alert around gabriel is so real.

“Right,” Mr Agreste’s face didn’t twitch nor soften much in response, just nodded in understanding and turned back to stare forward. “The opening of this store is essential to the future of the Agreste Brand, you two. Opening it much sooner is very good news. There will be other fun times with your friends.”

Hardass, fuck off!!

Poker with literal chips made me laugh- adrien would be terrible at poker

Spiderman far from home? Nah, Panthera Noir far from home. 

“Oh that building looked fun to climb.” please Juleka unhinged parkour arc when?? Like people turn away from her and then look back and she’s up a tree. 

HELP “bye bye bag” is so real-

She’s so scary, but I wanna ask what her hair dye is. Do it. Please. I think you would factory reset Nathalie and she would answer on autopilot

Awkwardly playing chess is so real, also; yippee!! Adrien and Juleka bonding even more after the acting debacle!!

“Knights were cute. Little pony’s. Rose always wanted to move her knights cause they reminded her of unicorns.” please this is literally my strategy in chess, i just move them around and sometimes i win because i confuse people so badly

LB overthinking chess is hilarious. 

Adrien POV???

YOU CAN LEARN MANY THINGS FROM JULEKA SUCH; HOW TO BE A CAT. sorry i just had the mad idea that Adrien might find out this chapter… i would go insane if that turned out to be right

“Knowing info about me is pretty easy when your Wikipedia is super detailed” that’s fucking depressing. Adrien baby that’s a terrible way to get to know someone and not the same experience at all- 

Gaelic is a real language!! And a bitch to learn- I briefly tried with my dad and we both gave up, we’ll just stick with scots english

“Where do you disappear during akumas?” hard hitting question Adrien, ten points!

And is also making me high key suspicious about him finding out, the vibes are there

Nah, nah evil. Gabriel spend time with your son goddamnit 

GET HIS ASS JULEKA YES GIRL I LOVE YOU

The fact that she thinks she isn’t brave sometimes infuriates me, like babe i get your insecure but your brave as hell. 

QUEEN SHIT JUST WENT DOWN THERE

Juleka ripped him to shreds hell fucking yeah.

Wait. why did she give him the king? Hawkmoth called himself a king… cue the x-files music

Who the fuck is this asshole? Fei. Kick his ass, i command thee. 

Oh curious, she has burn scars from the fire, i like this detail. 

I feel like Fei and Juleka will get along, based on the ever present rage against one guy

She is being used augh

“Your father deserves to be avanged.”

“He does.” UMM GIRL YOUR DAD WOULD HATE THAT WEREN’T YOU THERE FOR THE FLASHBACK??

I want Cash to gtbnrvice this asshole is just using her desperation for information- 

I want Juleka to scare him into telling them, as Panthera, i think she would be quite good at that. 

Juleka is a feral beast who needs her outside time (i like how she wants to run on rooftops a lot its cute)

LORE LORE LORE LORE 

Excited. The prodigious?? Tell me more silly cheese guy

Ummm. i need the prodigious to show up, i can’t remember if thats what Fei has or if this is future future foreshadowing, this is exciting

New arc unlocked: freeing the Kwami from their jewelery or the curse. 

Also; yes sadistic plagg in the face of the guardians temple being destroyed, you go girl

Guardian temple? Swallowed whole? Sounds frightening. What a feast.  HA

Model Juleka yippee!

Help- adrien your advice is trash-

Ok existential conversation, yes girl let me spiral-

No sick girl Nathalie let adrien speak i want to know what he thinks of the best girlies-

Plagg wanting to take him under his wing- Juleka saying he wants to replace her with Adrien- ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER. 

Nah if you actually do have a reveal to Adrien i am going to go buckwild- cause either the vibes of the chapter got me but i think I guessed before any of the concrete foreshadowing

Ok sick girl nathalie actually has some sound advice and is being lovely to Juleka 

Yes Juleka use your strength

FEI STEALING CAMERAS??

Get her ass Juleka, or- politely bite her arm juleka?!?

Juleka is just brawling in an alleyway- like damn sister- watch out for bruises you might not be allowed to model-

Oh god what if she took plagg during some of their scrapping- actually, that would be fine. Juleka would just go insane and fight her

Juleka; desperately grasping for something familiar and bantering with Fei

Fei: what the fuck is wrong with her?

Nicest mugger I’ve ever met real and true

Wait

NOO JULEKA THEY WON’T LET YOU MODEL LIKE THIS

YEAH KICK. HER. ASS. 

Plagg stays with Juleka yippeee!!

Help their dynamic is so funny- exactly what i was wanting. 

Juleka would want to learn how to disappear even better than she already does wouldn’t she

Nah not Fei thinking “well that was fucking weird” while juleka is like “Oh that was cool” Juleka is so weirdgirl core i love her

Oh shit she stole marinettes stuff Tiki is there- 

Kick the asshole in the balls Fei, i command thee.

I am so happy Nathalie and Juleka have some sort of alliance, in my as to be written huge tragedy based on Nathalie Gabriel and Emily (which is extensively planned), I think Nathalie is more similar to Juleka as a teenager. 

Adrien and Nathalie interaction- “yes we- we did it” agyuhtvrinjfeok love her. 

Marinette blinked vacantly, standing in the back alley streets of Shanghai with a paling expression on her face and her entire inventory ghosted from her person.

WHERE THE HELL AM I!?

HELP SHE’S SO FUNNY- i love disaster marinette please-

and thats a wrap for Fei! i started this before five and it is now ten pm- i did other things though.

this was awesome cap, I look forward to the next chapters and I shall review them tomorrow!!!!!!

I hope you enjoyed <3

GLAD YOU ENJOYED!!!!!!

[donttalkaboutmemes]

Treasure Planet (2002) Sentence Meme Pt 2

Under the cut you will find 90+ sentences from Treasure Planet (2002) to use for your enjoyment!     

"They weren't exactly singing my praises when I left home, but I'm gonna change that."

"I got some plans. Gonna make people see me a little different."

"Sometimes plans go astray."

"You give up a few things, chasing a dream."

"Was it worth it?"

"Make up your blooming minds!"

"I must congratulate you. It seems your cabin boy did a bang-up job with those lifelines."

"Resume your posts. We carry on."

"It weren't your fault, you know."

"Don't you get it? I screwed up! I mean, for two seconds I thought that maybe I could do something right but...I just..."

"You got the makings of greatness in ya, but you gotta take the helm and chart your own course."

"Stick to it no matter the squalls and when the time comes you get the chance to really test the cut of your sails and show what you're made of, well, I hope I'm there catching some of the light coming off you that day."

"I best be getting about my watch and you best be getting some shut-eye."

"Getting in too deep here. Next thing ya know, they'll be saying I've gone soft."

"What we're saying is we're sick of all this waiting."

"We don't move 'til we got the treasure in hand."

"I say we kill 'em all now."

"Disobey my orders again like that stunt you pulled and so help me, you'll be joining hin."

"It's that boy. Methinks you have a soft spot for him."

"Mark me, the lot of ya. I care about one thing and one thing only. You think I'd risk it all for the sake of some nose-wiping little whelp?"

"Shut your yap! I cozied up to that kid to keep him off our scent! But I ain't gone soft!"

"I was never much good at games. Always hated to lose."

"Change in plan, lads! We move now!"

"Strike our colors."

"Pirates on my ship? I'll see they all hang."

"Defend this with your life."

"Did you actually aim for that?"

"Oh my goodness! That was more fun than I ever want to have again!"

"Slight-bruising, that's all. Cup of tea and I'll be right as rain."

"I just want to hug you and squeeze you and hold you close to me!"

"I've been marooned for so long. I mean, solitudes fine. Don't get me wrong. For heaven's sake, after a hundred years you go a little nuts!"

"Look, I'm kind of in a hurry, okay? I got to find a place to hide and there's pirates chasing me."

"Oh, pirates! Don't get me started on pirates! I don't like them!"

"I think he suffered from mood swings, personally. I'm not a therapist."

"Wait, wait, wait! What about the treasure?"

"I'm sorry. My memory isn't what it used to be."

"I've lost my mind. Ha ha! I've lost my mind! You haven't found it, have you?"

"I really need to find a place to hide, okay? So, I'm just gonna be, you know, moving on."

"I guess, uh, this is goodbye, huh? I'm sorry that I'm so dysfunctional."

"Look, if you're gonna come along, you're gonna have to stop talking."

"Touching and talking. That's my two big no-no's."

"Before we go out on our big search, would you mind if we made a quick pit stop at my place? Kind of urgent."

"I think you just solved my problem."

"Pardon the mess, people. You'd think in a hundred years I would've dusted a little more often."

"Isn't that sweet? I find old-fashioned romance so touching, don't you?"

"Stop anyone who tries to approach."

"Stop giving orders for a few milliseconds and lie still."

"Very forceful. Go on, say something else."

"If it's all right with the captain, I'd like a short word with ya. No tricks, just a little palaver."

"Whatever you heard back there, at least the part concerning you, I didn't mean a word of it."

"If that bloodthirsty lot had thought I'd gone soft, they'd have gutted us both."

"Listen to me. If we play our cards right, we can both walk away from this rich as kings."

"You get me that map and an even portion of the treasure is yours."

"All that talk of greatness, light coming off my sails. What a joke."

"At least you taught me one thing. Stick to it, right?"

"That's just what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna make sure that you never see one drabloon of my treasure."

"That treasure is owed me, by thunder!"

"You still don't know how to pick your fights, do you, boy?"

"You have wonderful eyes."

"I am a doctor, but I'm not that kind of doctor. I have a doctorate. It's not the same thing. You can't help people with a doctorate. You just sit there and you're useless."

"Without the map, we're dead. If we try to leave, we're dead."

"That's a good plan. I like that plan."

"Don't panic. Breathing it, breathing out."

"Thanks for showing us the way, boy."

"You're just like me. Ya hates to lose."

"Oh, the powers that be. Would you look?"

"I don't know about you, but I'm starting to see my life pass in front of my eyes. At least, I think it's my life."

"We're gettin' close, lads! I smell treasure a-waitin'!"

"We should've never followed this boy!"

"Let's rip his gizzard out right now!"

"What if the whole planet is the mechanism and the treasure is buried in the center of this planet?"

"How in the blue blazes are we supposed to get there?"

"This is all seeming very familiar. I can't remember why."

"A lifetime of searching and at long last, I can touch it."

"Oh, a mind is a terrible thing to lose."

"Run! Run for your life!"

"I am not leaving my buddy. Unless he looks at me like that..."

"All my life I dreamed of an adventure like this. I'm just sorry I couldn't have been more helpful to you."

"Don't be daft. You've been very helpful. Truly."

"I have a question. Is it that your body is too massive for your teeny-tiny head or is it that your head is too teeny-tiny for your big, fat body?"

"Before you do, I have one more question. Is this yours?"

"Aren't you the seventh wonder of the universe?"

"I like you, but I've come too far to let you stand between me and my treasure."

"You gave up?"

"Just a lifelong obsession. I'll get over it."

"Didn't I say the lad had greatness in him?"

"Just wait until your mother hears about this! Of course, we may downplay the life-threatening parts."

"I know you don't like touching, but get ready for a hug, big guy!"

"You never quit, do you?"

"I taught you too well."

"If you don't mind, we'd just as soon avoid prison."

"He's a free spirit. Being in a cage, it'd break his heart."

"What say you ship out with us? You and me, full of ourselves and no ties to anyone."

"What do you see, off that bow of yours?"

"Look at ya, glowing like a solar fire. You're something special. You're gonna rattle the stars, you are."

"I got a job for ya. I need you to keep an eye on this here pup. Will ya do me that little favor?"

"One more thing. This is for your dear mother."

"Stay out of trouble, ya old scalawag."

"Why, when have I ever done anything else?"

[oliverpdaniel]

Advent of Code 2022: Days 6-10

The calm before the storm. These puzzles were still one-seaters, but I don't imagine that'll be lasting much longer. My brain is abuzz with compsci stuff like it hasn't been in a good long while, which makes me happy. I also briefly attended a social with some of my old classmates and professors, which made me long juuuuust a little bit for the olden days. (If one of you happens to be reading this, maybe you can prod me enough into finishing my B.Sc someday.)

Let's get into it!

Day 6

Not much to say. Python slices and sets make this easy peasy. I probably spent more time copying test data than solving.

Day 7

Now THAT'S more like it. I just so happen to have been up at midnight (ahem, definitely trying to solve my Kryptonite, Day 19 with my roommate), so I decided to give this a crack at the stroke of midnight. Again, don't talk to me if you're not top 1000 in this problem!

The real tough part about the day's puzzle was parsing the input, and understanding what needed to be done; from there it wasn't actually too bad. At first, the directory-structure idea had me worried that some kind of recursive parsing would be necessary. Instead I was able to just manage the stack externally (i.e., a list representing how many folders deep we were), using a clever little match-case structure (thank you 3.10!) to pop off the top value whenever cd .. was called. One early mistake I made was only summing up the weights (i.e., file sizes) of only the current directory whenever ls was called, instead of remembering to also add those weights to all parent directories as well. From there it was fairly smooth sailing.

I appreciated that Part 2 called for input from Part 1. I always like days that do that, whether you're feeding in a numerical value or maybe reading some ASCII art from a visualized version of Part 1. (Well... the way I refactored my Part 1 after reading Part 2, the directory sizes were actually calculated at the top-level of the script, but...) Again, the real difficulty here wasn't recognizing that some form of arithmetic needed to be done: it was just parsing the instructions to understand what arithmetic went where.

My brain is officially alight, and that's not just from the 3-hour midterm I had today. I've got a fever only AoC can fix, and I've got a prescription for 3.5 more weeks of nonstop Christmas-saving action. (I'll stop now. Goodnight.)

Day 8

Oh yeah it's grid time babey. A good solve, and it's definitely making all the de-rusting I did on previous problems feel at least a little worth it. Python's slicing notation remains unbeaten. Although I did another morning solve (i.e., no rush for the leaderboards), I got in my own way by trying to be too cutesy with things like itertools.takewhile() to calculate the length of sitelines. That's one place where a good old for-if structure will be juuuuust fine, methinks. However, if Eric Wastl continues his typical obsession with 2D grids, having it.product(range(H), range(W)) in my back pocket will be helpful if for no other reason than to help keep my code clean. Speaking of, I'm quite glad that I've started to 'prematurely' refactor my code by creating explicit helper functions that handle a given part's primary logic, rather than shoving everything into Part 1 and needing to awkwardly pull it out later. For some reason, when I copy and paste Python in VSCode, the indentation always seems to have something funny with it, so this is always a time loss (or potentially a logic error, if I somehow manage to make an atomic typo with my indentation rather than causing a compile error). Anywho, I'm planning on delivering an impromptu lecture about Day 7 today, so wish me luck.

Day 9

Man, this one felt good. After relatively minimal print-debugging, I managed to finish both parts in a single morning sitting, with my logic for Part 1 slotting real nicely into Part 2. This puzzle used a bunch of idioms I've developed over my competitive-programming 'career': getting a number's unit-sign by floor-dividing numbers by their abs (or 1, in the case of 0); doing pairwise computations down a chain by zipping offset lists together; and my current-favourite thing, Python dataclasses. I used the classic example of a Point(x, y) to keep track of each knot's location on the chain, and added a few convenience methods to extract e.g., hashable versions of each location for storage in my visited set. I'm quite proud of my solution here.

Day 10

I "accidentally" solved this one at midnight, though I had no delusions about making the leaderboard. The toughest thing to grok about the problem was the meaning of 'cycles' in the instructions. At first, I'd thought the 'program counter' of the script incremented every cycle, e.g., the addx operations were a sort of synchronous effect. So, I tried to use a queue to handle what "effects" would occur at the beginning of each cycle. In any event, my love affair with generators continues, even if I did finish with something short but janky.

I do love a visualizer. Understanding exactly what was being asked of me at ~1:00 AM was growing difficult, which would lead you, dear reader, to assume I went to bed to deal with it in the morning, right? Wrong! The head-scratcher here was remembering to handle the modular conversion between cycle counts and CRT column, but still using the prior value as the basis of comparison with the value of the X register. We're getting into the goods now! And I finally tackled the last of 2015 later on in the day!!! Christmas was saved, just under 7 years late.

[h-didanart]

Ohhhhhh okay I get it now.

Yeah, many things coming together to mess up his mental health, he is very much not fine nor thinking well, fully agree on him not having a long-term plan to kill someone. And I agree with the notion of him not having a psychotic disorder as well (even if I have to reread stuff because I forgot which disorders fall under the category and the symptoms, again), tho a friend of mine did mention Moon going through a psychotic break as a possibility and if the show keeps running with the parallels to last year, well, that might just be something that happens.

Though the people immediately jumping to ‘he’s psychotic’ are kinda not really knowing what they’re talking about (and being annoying). And you are absolutely right on that, both the fears and analyses. It already is a irl problem that society believes people with mental disorders are violent and terrible and bad, it’s a really big issue that I don’t even understand fully, a mental disorder does not make one more prone to hurt others, could it come into play if the person already had bad intentions? I guess, things are complicated, life is complicated. We should not make it harder for those who are already struggling to keep up. Hence why almost every time these topics are brought up in the show it feels wrong, they fall into the trap of demonization.

Ok, less talk about real life, more about the show, uhm

Yeah, I guess that’s a way of seeing it, and I too am glad to have heard that from one of the characters, or would be, if I actually believed them. I’m kinda suspicious about what they say about this now, I’m not exactly sure why, guess it might be from the show making us double guess important plot points, or maybe I’m just suspicious of everything because I’m too friggin’ trusting of what they say and don’t want to fall for a trap again.

And I understand your frustrations. We fans do tend to jump to conclusions sometimes, and it sucks that these ones are being fed by the show itself with its brilliant choice of titles (that’s sarcasm, I don’t like their choice of titles). And your conclusions are solid, you presented evidence before the paragraph I’m referring to and it all looked well thought out. I believe I already read your explanations for your interpretation of Sun before too, that along with the fact you seem to be more familiar with these topics, and again, the fact you’ve shared your interpretation with me before, I know I can trust your analyses and thoughts.

Ohh, I see, no wonder I kinda reached that conclusion 😅 Guess it is even more plausible now with yesterday’s episodes (which I haven’t watched btw)

Oh, I fully get that, continuity is a nice thing to have, and recalling stuff and events from past arcs feels rewarding, it reminds us that things happened and had an impact on the story. Well, that’s how I see it at least.

And yeah, thank you for remembering Sun is there, I’m gonna be honest I do like the goofy episodes with Sun, I like seeing the characters not deal with all the shitty stuff that happens to them, but it does sometimes feel like the show sidelines him. He’s just as capable as Moon is, he’s smart, he’s compassionate, he’s vital to the story, he’s more than the show’s comedic side character or punching bag, he’s, exactly as you said, Moon’s twin and closest family member. He has potential, even if not many people see it. (Tho thinking about it now, wouldn’t it be funny if he managed to solve everything when he’s reincorporated into serious lore? Like, he one shots Dusk or something? Methinks it’d be funny if implausible)

Hey, no problem! It was a blast putting my thoughts down, even if it was the middle of the night and I wasn’t very coherent (and I am so sorry I didn’t answer sooner, irl stuff happened) Thank you! Love talking with you as well!

Yeeeee, it’s my favorite, it got me hooked with the story alongside Jigsaw and the second takeover, I’ve rewatched stuff from that arc enough to be able to quote some lines! It was just so well written and I love it :D

Things will go very downhill, very fast, and I don’t even have to know what happened in the latest episodes to know that.

No problem! It’s a pleasure to talk with you!

We all know that Moon isn't losing his mind - he's aware of what he's doing and that what he's doing is bad hence why he hides it form his family - though like I said he partially told Sun what's on his mind so that's that.

What if Moon is trying so hard to focus on bringing Solar back because he doesn't want to think about what Old Moon told him and to not think about his dream?

I mean what if he doesn't want to think about a possibilty that Sun may throw away his life or that Sun is self-destructive?

Moon chose to focus on something that was already occupying his mind. After all bringing Solar back is something in a realm of possibilty and it's a task that will keep him busy.

I was thinking that him spiraling so hard because he couldn't bring Solar back would be okay if it wasn't for a fact that he decided to kill someone and he's prolonging it in time. He didn't do it immediately after he captured Ruin which shows us that Moon isn't losing his mind - in some sense he is but not in the way many fans seem to think.

I found it odd (and I found fans losing their minds over Moon "losing his mind" slightly annoying to say the least).

And then it clicked. I only a few moments ago realized that maybe Moon is acting like that because he's worried about Sun. And Earth dismissing his concerns only made things worse.

After all, I was saying many times that Moon was paranoid about Sun's safety due to what Dark Sun told him and due to V2 Eclipse's foreseeing.

And only now it clicked. Moon is trying to push away these thoughts - that Sun is self-destructive and will throw away his life to protect his family.

And there's more to that. This is what only Old Moon and New Moon are more aware of because they know Sun better than others - Eclipse could be more aware as well but I think that Eclipse doesn't understand Sun that much but unlike Lunar and Earth, Eclipse still knows Sun more - both Old Moon and New Moon witnessed Sun trying to do something which could result with him being harmed.

Old Moon - when Sun went after Eclipse - after his own death OM realized that Sun could be harmed easily during this "mission" and Sun was doing it all because he wanted to protect Moon.

New Moon - when Sun learned star's power - like NM said Sun was slowly killing himself from using it. Sun could easily die when he blasted Eclipse into a portal which Moon is aware of and he also knows that Sun was doing it all to protect him.

Hence why I think that Moon didn't want to drag Sun into a mess of dealing with Eclipse and Ruin - also because he saw how much hard it was for Sun to deal with new BM.

And when he later tried to be a better brother after Earth pointed out to him that he needs to control his anger and try to keep Sun informed, he realized that there's something off with Sun - he started drinking alcohol and was mostly spending time at home alone - he wasn't socializing as much as he used to.

And talk with Old Moon let him realized that Sun is self-destructive. And later he had a mental breakdown because he realized that he's unable to bring Solar back without sacrificing someone. But was it the only cause of Moon's distress or was there more to it?

He talked with Earth hoping for some good advice or maybe he hoped that Earth will provide him some comfort but she didn't. She in a passive aggressive way dismissed his concerns.

Which I think resulted in that dream - ofc Moon had that dream also from sleep deprivation and stress - where Sun died because he tried to protect Lunar.

Moon's reaction after such a vivid dream wasn't surprising. But what was later is what I found a bit odd. Moon started focusing only on bringing Solar back. He stopped worrying about Sun. Or did he really?

What if Moon is so fixated on bringing Solar back not only because he wants Solar back but because he doesn't want to lose anyone else like that? What if he's scared that if Sun will die, he won't be able to bring him back?

And maybe if he'll successfully bring Solar back, he'll be able to gather some useful data. If bringing Solar back will turn out to be possible and successfull at that, he'll be able to bring back someone if they died.

We can tell from Moon's paranoia induced dream that he is very scared that Sun will throw away his life to protect his family. In his own mind Moon can't see himself functioning normally without Sun - according to dream Solar Moon was lying on the floor the whole time after Sun died. Moon was unable to do anything.

And let's not forget about what Old Moon told him that he needs to not let others throw away their life especially Sun.

And I think that it stuck with Moon. Even after Earth's "reassurance" he can't stop thinking about it. And after Solar's death - death without easy way of coming back - it drives him crazy.

After all in Moon's dream Sun died disintegrated by creator. Isn't it oddly familiar? Didn't Solar die in similar way - completely disintegrated by Ruin's device?

And considering that it was Moon's dream - something made up by Moon's mind it's pretty obvious that he's afraid that Sun will die just like Solar - without a possibilty of coming back.

And that's what scares Moon the most. That if he won't be able to bring Solar back, he won't be able to bring Sun back from the dead as well. And then Sun would disappear from Moon's life forever.

And that's why I think that Moon is so angry and he's ready to kill in order to protect his family - in order to bring his family from the dead. To bring Sun back from the dead.

And knowing that Sun is self-destructive and ready to throw away his life, Moon can't risk it. He needs to find a way to be able to successfully bring Solar back. In Moon's paranoid mind Sun's life depends on it.

Someone could ask why Moon wouldn't try to stop Sun? But was he able to do that two previous times? Was Old Moon able to stop Sun from going after Eclipse? Was New Moon able to stop Sun from using star's power? The answer is no. And that's why Moon is so scared. Because he knows that Sun will do anything to protect his family completely not caring about his own safety, about his own life.

[hella1975]

had a horrible time tonight 😭😭😭 it was "mandatory family dinner" night where I'm forced to go out to a restaurant w my family, I'm autistic (wow guess why "mandatory" became a part of the name) so during those times I can barely talk (best case scenario. Sometimes I'm completely mute) and I have to wear headphones while I keep my head down. My family are ASSHOLES to servers like their motto is "well its their job to get it down exactly how we like" so they're always asking for specifics or stuff like that. I don't like fruit or pulp in my drinks, I got that without knowing but if it's already done then you're just going to make it more of a problem than it is if you try to fix it for me, so I dealt w it, but my family just woULD NOT let it GO. They asked the server for a fruitless drink, a drink meant for fruit in it 😭😭😭 now I can't lie so when my family asked if that was good it was just THE MOST painful and awkward scene of me bluntly saying "I don't know. I don't care." I know I came off so rude and hostile towards the girl like I hadn't meant to so I just put my fidget cube on the table to try to clear things up NFJSJSMSKW people just automatically put it in their heads not to be bothered if I'm strange as soon as I show the fidget cube and honestly it's how I solve all my problems. anyways I'm sharing this because I only made it through that night because I was mentally thinking about how I was gonna tell you this

oh that's so shit that you had a stressful night love and im glad i could help in some way, i actually find myself doing that a lot when i have shit experiences i immediately start going 'okay but how am i gonna tell the cult about this' and it surprisingly really helps lmao. something about actually making you parse through it and communicate it methinks

can i just say that as a waitress and as someone who has worked in the catering industry since i was a mardy sixteen year old, the staff aren't evil. sure you'll get some waitresses that are bitchy and don't want to be there, but most of the time, they're actually very nice. floor work (so what this girl was doing in serving you guys and working a section) is the work every waitress wants to be doing. i know i myself actually - believe it or not - really enjoy working a section. other options are shit like running food or polishing cutlery or clearing tables etc etc, it's much less fun than generally interacting with other people. and if you had a waitress who knew anything about anything, i can guarantee you she wasn't bothered. you get rude customers. it happens. for me, i always have more sympathy for younger people clearly out with their family, MORE SO if their family are the rude kind. you can always always tell when they dont want to be there and are embarrassed by their family's behaviour, and i promise you that girl wouldn't have been cross.

but on the other end, if you did have a shitty waitress or she was just having a bad day and this tipped the scale, one thing about working in the catering industry is you genuinely stop seeing people as people. it sounds awful but a customer is not a person to me; they're their own thing. i will literally spend 5 minutes talking to one guy and turn around without even knowing what colour his hair was. it's actually uncanny how little i remember people's faces and if they came back again another time i would be none the wiser. so at least remember that. it probably wasn't as bad as it felt, and if it was, that waitress has already forgotten what any of you look like anyway lmao

[cocogukkie]

Anneyong chingu❤

Could you recommend some interesting kdramas that

Have a good plot

Keep you on your toes

Do not let you down

Do not bore you to death

Basically make you think and wonder what will happen next.

I hope you are doing well. Fighting 😘💜

hi! of course, tis but one of my favorite things to do. i’m not sure which genre you’re looking for exactly but i would love to give you a few of my favorites! 

if you're looking for something crime/mystery/thriller-ery, i would recommend: 

Flower of Evil 

flower of evil falls somewhere halfway between a thriller/mystery and a melodrama and it. is. wonderful. the plot is excellent and keeps you on your toes, the character development is so so good and i personally really liked the ending. the angst is very real with this one and it brings me so much life. its a show that will definitely get the gears in your brain running trying to figure certain stuff out. this one is a great choice! 

He is Psychometric

my brain was running a mile a minute with this drama, i was trying to figure things out pretty much the whole first half. its also got some adorable romance in it, and the mystery aspect was done quite well and was sufficiently fucked up, (if you’re sensitive to triggers, this one might be a little iffy, especially towards the end so send me an ask if you’d like a list). i wholly enjoyed this and you might too

if you’re looking for something plot driven with a dash of romance, i recommend:

 Itaewon Class 

a classic methinks, the plot is wonderful, the characters have a lot of heart and flaws which only endears me to them even more and for a while you genuinely can’t really guess what choices they’re gonna end up making. the romance can be a bit iffy if you really hate *younger person under 19 likes an older person* thing but nothing romantic happens until both are fully grown adults. in fact the older person pushes the younger one away until they’re older. but its very engaging and i adored the couple, the overall story, and the ending! 

Pinocchio 

a whole throwback! i love this drama,,, like a lot. this is one of my absolute favorite lee jongsuk dramas. it follows these two characters who met each other as kids and grew up in the same family, continuing to live together until after college and everything. they want to become journalists to report the truth, both have their own specific reasons why reporting is so important to them. as the story unfolds, we see them solve and report stories while also finding solutions to personal problems that have plagued them for years! its so so so good, the character growth is great and the romance is beyond adorable. fair warning tho, this is an older kdrama so it can be a bit cliched and for the first couple eps, lee jongsuk will look absolutely goddamn ridiculous. i need you to do me a favor and look past it cause he will get a makeover and look much much better lmao.

if you’re looking for something with romance and character-driven with a great plot, i recommend: 

One Spring Night

ahhhh one of my comfort favorites. i’m a notorious re-watcher of my favorite shows and i’ve seen one spring night 4 times now. this is a character-driven show with one of the most precious, adorable couples who have chemistry overflowing in every minute they’re together. it follows a single father and woman trapped in a relationship as they meet and go through life together, overcoming prejudices, going through some hard times, and finding safety, love, and comfort in each other. this is a show with the softest bbys i adore with all my heart and i think you might love it too.

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay

ohhh how could i not mention another favorite show of all time for me. I mention this all the time and absolutely no one can stop me. its the goddamn best, every episode is so interesting and is driven by these incredible characters, both main and side. there's therapy and psychology woven in with some excellent melodrama and an amazing romance. the main leads are no your regular cookie cutter characters, they both have tons of issues and don’t expect to fix each other but look to help one another. they challenge each other out of their comfort zones and find a found family within each other. its also a slow burn! the bread to my butter. if you have happened to not have seen this, please do!! 

some honorable mentions (aka k-movies)

Midnight Runners 

this movie was so much fun! its a buddy cop movie, following these two cadets going through the police academy together and become best friends. they witness a kidnapping and do their absolute best to be heroes. this movie is incredibly funny, park seo joon and kang ha neul have excellent chemistry in this and play the balance of serious crime stuff, action scenes and stomachache inducing laughter really well. if you have a couple of hours to spare, this is a great movie to watch! 

The Witch: Part 1. The Subversion 

I had a grand ole time watching this movie, its thrilling, action-packed and has dope as fuck main leads. it follows this genius girl who escaped from a gov’t facility but lost her memories when she was little. she gets adopted by a sweet couple who live on farm and follows her life as some unexpected events and people suddenly crash into her life after she auditions for a music competition. i loooooveeed the action, its so so cool. the plot isn’t the most blow-your-mind-crazy but its very engaging and you will not be bored watching this. you will get sucked in and time will fly as your jaw drops at the cool fight scenes.

I hope this helps! let me know which ones you liked or didn't, i’d love to hear about it 

(if you wanted something similar to Vincenzo, check out Lawless Lawyer!) 

[wangshu]

YOU KNOW I HAVE TO DO IT MAN. you know what i want... i um um methinks . all of them if you woulf be so kind 😁

CRIES AND GOES INSANE!!! i should not have expected anything else cyno beloved. IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG.

Height  -  five five or five six!

Virgin?  -  no i am the bang master

Shoe size  -  i have no idea

Do you smoke?  -  no and i honestly think people who do are cringe

Do you drink?  -  have drank but im not a fan of it, so no and i don't plan to. not a grand experience.

Do you take drugs?  -  aside from prescription medication, no.

Age you get mistaken for  -  early 20's

Have tattoos?  -  no!

Want any tattoos?  -  yes i definitely plan to get some. i want a genshin themed tat as cringe as it is.

Got any piercings?  -  no!

Want any piercings?  -  yes! i almost got my ears pieced but i chickened out. one day maybe.

Best friend?  -  tumblr user onemillionvolts aka CYNO!!

Relationship status  -  taken by my lovely lovely girlfriend starlynx!

Biggest turn ons  -  oh god uh. definitely. my girlfriend. my girlfriend. and my girlfriend.

Biggest turn offs  -  ducklips iykyk but also over confidence. people who believe they are higher beings (queen, angel, god, etc) when they are just some guy make me and everyone they know uncomfortable. especially religious terms or pronouns on yourself is something i find extremely disrespectful. i could write an essay on that topic.

Favorite movie  -  zombieland

I’ll love you if  -  you're funny and look exactly like a certain general mahamatra and and and

Someone you miss  -  my girlfriend

Most traumatic experience  -  almost had cancer. almost drowned to death. lost my best friend because he chose weed over me. got my trust betrayed by someone i thought had changed and now they're impersonating someone close to me and someone important to my best friend.

A fact about your personality  -  i have multiple. but uh, im very emotional and also deadpan there is no in-between it is horrible.

What I hate most about myself - oh god, im a suck up and a people pleaser.

What I love most about myself ‐ i can write okay and im good at listening to problems and giving advice if they want or need it. i'm also pretty okay at problem solving.

What I want to be when I get older ‐ a musician honestly, but my fingers lock up and it's hard to play what im passionate about.

My relationship with my sibling(s) ‐ neutral, i don't talk to them.

My relationship with my parent(s) - i like my mom but she's a little overbearing, my dad is.. something else. /neg

My idea of a perfect date - anything at night and not too high energy, unless it's like roller skating then im so down. i love calm environments and just getting to talk and get to know each other, im a sucker for psychological conversations too.

My biggest pet peeves - liars and cheaters and people who say they'll change and never do. waste of everyone's time.

A description of the girl/boy I like - my girlfriend

A description of the person I dislike the most - tumblr user s *gets shot* no but actually, probably my ex, man looks like shane dawson now and he's got the personality to match.

A reason I’ve lied to a friend - ive lied to someone so they stopped asking me out. they still won't stop. don't know what i gotta do to make them stop but oh well.

What I hate the most about work/school - bad education system + im autistic and i can't handle those environments. school was very, very neglectful.

What your last text message says - not copypasting but i asked my girlfriend if she wanted to play mario kart when she got home. ps im great at mario kart.

What words upset me the most - i don't really like being called fam. is that something? oh well.

What words make me feel the best about myself - any positive words of affirmation.

What I find attractive in women - being my girlfriend

What I find attractive in men - being my girlfriend

Where I would like to live ‐ somewhere cold and away from people, i love the country.

One of my insecurities - i have a lazy eye but im getting surgery for it very soon, so i guess.. my chest? and my permanent baby face.

My childhood career choice - taxidermist

My favorite ice cream flavor - black raspberry!!! tastes the absolute best.

Who wish I could be - something better.

Where I want to be right now - somewhere cold and comfy, or at my girlfriends

The last thing I ate - burger king original chicken sandwich yum

Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately ‐ my girlfriend

A random fact about anything - boreal forests have six seasons instead of four.

[appledotcodotuk]

why the hive fckin suck at its job: a rant

spoilers for tgwdlm ahead!

first of all, it's important to consider what exactly the hive's job is. my answer is... who the fuck knows. literally. what is the hive's aim. what do you want Paul? more like, what do you want hive? let's find out!

it kinda evolves, as the play progresses. the intial aim of the hive, and one that does actually remain consistent is the constant burning need to grow and devour and gain more and more (insert capitalism metaphor here).

however, this is distorted by the people it possess who influence that aim, as we'll see later.

also the fact it crashes into a theatre displaying Mamma Mia gives the hive the motive it need to fit the world around it to the structure of the musical. having no originality of its own, the hive instead just picks up what is given to it. kinda like an evil baby.

it wants uniformity, that is indeed its ultimate goal and desire, no duh. it thinks it can achieve that through musical theatre, shame that the hive is dead wrong. cause the hive fucking sucks at its own job / aim / ultimate purpose / one concrete goal that motivates all its actions.

can't maintain control over its subjects

okay, so, the hive wants uniformity. it wants everyone to be dancing to the beat of its own tune. right? yeah. shame it literally can't keep its own possessed subjects in line at all. at the risk of sounding like the 10th doctor waxing lyrical abt humanity for the 50th time, humans are really difficult to control cause we're not really motivated by an altruistic allegiance to one primary good. we've got icky emotions that often move us to do stupid unpredictable stuff way more. it makes me wonder if the reason the hive wanted to use musical theatre to try and persuade ppl was cause it seems to think that is how theyll get emotive humans; through emotive songs. anyways. let's look at some examples shall weeeee?

Mr Davidson:

so, Mr Davidson. funnily enough, he's the guy whose in part acting as the hive trying to figure out what it wants through his interactions w/ Paul. every person it possess gives it just a bit more humanity and curiosity abt the world it is currently taking over. at least I think so. hence why as the musical develops u get character's like possessed!Alice wondering 'why does it hurt to love?' - the change in music and mood to something much more introspective really suggests to me that the hive is beginning to question the thoughts and emotions of its human hosts.

Mr Davidson is a family man through and through, he loves his wife Carol. she's his muse, his source of light. his feelings for her are not concrete or easy to explain and solve - hence why his sudden ahem demand of her is so hilarious and also jarring. it completely clashes with the 'I want song' which is simple, and often pushes forward a wider cause. not so with Mr Davidson, he just really loves his wife man. enough to break a frickin alien possession.

tbh I think its hilarious that (at least to me) the hive has to force him to forget and continue with the song, like, he straight up is just talking to his wife in that phone call, talking, not singing. so, no possession until he reverts back into song. ergo, the hive cannot maintain the uniformity it wants. even from the get go when theoretically its control should be stronger cause it has less ppl to co-ordinate. bad. at. its. job.

Paul:

this one hurts folks. yes, I know it's generally agreed, though somewhat debated that the state of Paul by the end of the tgwdlm is not purely possessed. I agree. once again, the hive is unable to truly enforce uniformity.

at this point, the motives of Paul and the hive are kinda just mixed, neither fully human nor fully alien. hence the constant shifts between pleeing for her to get away, to hide, to stay safe: 'what if the only choice is you have to sing to survive' and just full on old style hive nastiness 'let me puke in your mouth and just open your food bin girl' (so romantic 🥰 /j).

the hive has gone away from its original aim, and become something... different. no longer stuck to just one type of genre or style of song, it's really clever to show the developing complexity of the hive by showing how it is now juggling lots of different motifs with references to all the old songs from before recontextualised in a new way - its learning. evil baby... no longer uniform.

general miscommunication:

there are several instances of the hive not fully having uniform control over its subjects. for instance, right after not your seed with the three teens having to like... calibrate. they aren't just completely connected then?? also, this is a very small thing, but uhhhh at the end of inevitable when Paul is about to say the apotheosis is upon... the chorus interrupts him with USSSSSSS. interruptions??? not very in sync of u hive.

I think this inability to exert uniformity is also shown in the contrast between genre of musical theatre. my alien abomination cannot decide whether it wants to be the more modern edgy rock musical (join us (and die), not your seed ) or super happy go lucky old style musical theatre (lah dee dah dah day, and inevitable). it tries to do both, even while trying to encourage union, and sticking to one thing. hypocrite!!!!!

2. aims are guided by the people it possess

so, I mentioned this a bit already, but the hive isn't only mutating the humans, the humans are mutating the hive right back. this is more an interesting observation than any actual analysis but let's goooo.

greenpeace girl:

I think it's very likely that greenpeace girl is one of the first to be possessed. This is probably easily debunkable but whatever this analysis is flying by the seat or its pants anywayyyyy. why? cause where else would it pick up that whole 'this planet needs fixing' thing? it's interesting too, cause it morphs from expressing the desire to join hands and sing together, unity and peace with no actual action behind it. this then goes right to the other end, with the hive going 'fine I'll do it myself' and trying to save things by enforcing a dictatorship on the world. it develops and changes, and strays from its original means of accomplishing its aims! speaking oooooof...

3. inconsistent in means of accomplishing aims

okay, ur an evil hive mind. u think musicals are the way to win over these silly humans cause they're all weak and emotive and seem to respond to them. but, wait! schwoopsie! you haven't realised that for emotional depth and growth to mean anything, you need there to be established development and well... growth. otherwise the sentiments are as vague as the ones expressed in What Do You Want, Paul?

this show has genuine emotional moments, just not really during the musical numbers WITH EXCEPTIONS. any strife is smoothed over quickly, and so the development and change that would have to go into such growth is just gone. (see, You Tied Up My Heart) all so it can achieve its own desire to grow and grow and grow, maybe a metaphor for art being killed under late stage capitalism??

what actually matters is the impact the songs have afterwards, in causing a death - because we have a bond and care abt these characters. those short scenes between Paul and Emma are actually way more resonant than any song. except... inevitable, and also not your seed a bit. at this point the hive has learnt a thing or two, and can actually twist human emotion a little. but for it to do that, it has to reject the uniformity it prizes, and be adaptable. point towards being more human than it first thought? methinks so. and yet it's just not enough...

it's also why let it out, to me, feels really ingenuine. Paul has expressed himself in much better ways already. what they're doing is clearly paining him, and hurting the guy. he's terrified bless.

you can't force someone into being emotional vulnerable, man.

it's why all the deaths for the characters who are forced to express themselves are really violent, involving them being ripped open - literally forcing them to expose themselves from the 'inside out' as Alice reflects in Not Your Seed. you can't force genuine emotional connection, it has to be fostered, shown in the much more affecting relationship of Paul and Emma. the only reason the hive actually has power over our characters is because of these genuine emotional connections, which it tries and often fails to take advantage of, resulting in just resorting to brute violence. messy hive, very messy.

at the core, the musical's a kinda attack on that toxic positivity mindst: trying to force people to reach the sort of easy solutions by sharing feelings in a way that feels pretty invasive and deciding you are instantly fixed. the problems these characters face are jarringly not really what you'd expect a character in a musical to face, cheating, a lot of it, mid-life crisis. problems that are bland, or wayyyy too real. this is purposefully done, to reveal just how silly the hive's aim to use musical theatre to solve everyone's problem is. life is more complex than that smh.

4. a human can write a much more expressive, and genuine song than they ever could lol

u know which song I'm talking abt. what more is there to say. so much for making persuasive songs to tempt people over.

5. make me sad cause they took some perfectly nice ppl and funked them up 😭

this was a stupid point lol. basically I'm just bitter that this hive took a bunch of perfectly okay ppl and gave them hive brain. screw u hive. I swear I'm gonna watch Black Friday soon, cause I'm sure it's gonna completely destroy every thought I've had so far, but whateve,,, just take this as a look at tgwdlm like it's a stand-alone piece.

these guys are supposed to all be 'individuals' on one level, but also 'appendages of a much larger organism'. there's a little too much individualism and fracturing to be cohesive enough to do that I feel. the hive to me is not an infallible, unstoppable force, in fact, every human it takes over only brings it closer to understanding us. so that's maybe a slight positive note??? idk ?! I just have lots of thoughts and feelings abt this musical even if this doesn't make sense I'm proud i wrote it down hehe.

[rickriordanfandam]

opinions on riordanverse ; my edition

a lot of people have been doing this so i decided why not right. probably gna lose some followers or smth but anyways. pls respect my opinions! if u disagree, thats fine, but please be polite. unless any of my opinions strikes u as morally wrong then pls point it out to me respectfully. thanks!

- i actually liked drew. im so sorry to everyone who hates her but full offence, why. think about it this way ok, first of all drew became hc because silena died. silena was the traitor, the one who betrayed chb, yet after she died campers celebrated her as a hero? and then drew suddenly has to replace her and live up to idk that legacy she left behind,, when all of a sudden this girl named piper swoops in and takes her place. idk abt u but i wld be salty abt that too. not only that, but as an asian, the chances of drew having faced racism/bullying as a child is pretty high (she studies at brooklyn academy). which means that when she finds out shes a demigod, and arrives at chb where most of the campers are white (this is an assumption btw), she’d obviously be scared of being bullied for her skin color right?? so the first thing she wld do before the campers get to bully her is to bully them before they can do so. (sentence structure here is wack i apologize) ofc this might not even have happened, drew could have had a perfect childhood && was a b1tch for no reason, BUT EVEN THEN HER ROLE AS A BULLY WAS PRETTY VITAL BECAUSE THAT FURTHER SHOWED THE CONTRAST BETWEEN HER AND PIPER,, HIGHLIGHTING PIPER AS A HERO//GOOD CHARACTER,, AND THEREFORE MAKING READERS LIKE PIPER MORE. anyway stop hating on drew please. ALSO WHY IS THIS SO LONGA SDFJHG

- jason isnt bland, the fandom just kinda erased his backstory (thanks to @pjohoo-memes for the phrasing lol)

- reynabeth wouldnt have lasted/would have broken up several times. idk i just see them as two extremely powerful characters who have firm opinions and will definitely clash at some point. in a platonic relationship,, i can see them as really good friends but as lovers? idk i just think theyll break up

- PIPABETH

- i dont really like jercy,, i see them as better friends than lovers. also idt jason and percy were that close..?

- the dam and not my type jokes are srsly cringey and were never funny. ik that seems hypocritical since my username literally makes use of the dam joke but honestly i dont actually like the joke. its not funny to me and has never been funny

- the seven were not best friends. they definitely argued,, and honestly probably werent as close as the fandom makes them seem. like ure dumped with 6 other people, out of which u only know a few. my introverted ass would have jumped off the argo 2 quicker than leo valdez could bomb camp jupiter up. also leo was a dick to frank. so what if frank is bigger sized?? thats not a valid reason to tease him

- the fandom needs to stop hating on octavian while worshipping luke. if u hate luke and u say u hate octavian too, then okay. but if u tell me ure a luke stan but u despise octavian?? imma disagree w u. luke was worse than octavian im sorry. first of all, octavian being a dick was kinda justified. hes been after the praetor position for so long, and everyone keeps saying to “wait for jason” when suddenly this dude, whos a son of NEPTUNE (neptune wasnt liked much by romans), and the camp decides to make him praetor?? dude i would be pissed off big time. and then afterwards, he finds out that greek demigods are real and the dude they made praetor is greek. AND THEN GREEK DEMIGODS COME TO CJ AND ONE OF THEM BOMB IT UP?? octavian has been told all his life that greeks are scum and this dude called leo valdez attacks cj. sure it was an accident, but did octavian know that? no. so it was honestly justified that he was such a salty prick im just saying. also some of yall be hating on octavian for cutting a teddy bear open and thats the funniest shit ive ever heard i swear 

- luke didnt go to elysium

- travis and connor stoll r way too underrated. the two have been head counselors of the hermes cabin since luke was revealed as a traitor, can u imagine the stress? luke, the person they probably looked up to as a brother, betrayed them. and they didnt even have time to process this when they were  thrown the roles of being hcs. that would have been so stressful and i would probably have broken down if i were them. the stoll brothers taking turns to wake up at ungodly hours because a new camper is crying and homesick and terrified, the stoll brothers having to comfort and take care of new campers, having to deal with the amount of people in that cramped space because not enough campers are being claimed fast enough. having to resolve issues between campers in the hermes cabin all the time. the stolls arent just comedic relief, and we need to stop treating them as such

- tratie shldve been canon idc idc

- demigods of the demeter cabin arent talked about enough and i love the fact that meg was demeters kid. like she isnt the child of one of the big three yet shes so powerful.

- we need to hype clarisse up more her character arc was phucking amazing 

- rachel is overhated. sis found out greek gods exist and regularly come down to earth to fuck around and went “ok cool”. queen shit behavior methinks

- the floor 19 crew of mcga is srsly underrated. like do u even remember halfborn gunderson, mallory keen, tj, etc??? bc i feel like we only remember samirah, magnus, alex, and sometimes blitz and hearthstone

- sadie (tkc) was kinda annoying at first. i like her more now tho but i rmb not liking her for a phat while

- tkc and mcga need more love

- carter kane and jason grace arent boring. theyre just really sweet boys who are too good for this world and yes yes yes 

- hazel and frank (especially frank) need to be hyped up more. i hardly ever see anything about them. also yall seem to forget that frank was literally made praetor and that even hecate admired hazel and was willing to fight beside her because of how powerful she was

- frazels age gap is kinda sketch but i still think theyre really cute

- nico definitely had trauma from going to tartarus on his own

- GROVER IS PERCYS BEST FRIEND

- annabeth isnt smarter than leo but neither is leo smarter than annabeth. ive seen a lot of discussions about who is smarter and heres my hot take on it: neither. theyre equally smart, just in different ways. leos a genius mathematically speaking. he has no issues solving math problems meant for people much, much older than him. annabeth on the otherhand, is great at strategies etc. she can make an army of 1000 more powerful than the enemy, even if theyre outnumbered. so in my opinion, both are equally as smart//u cant compare their intelligence, because their talents lie in two different areas.

- while i do agree rick riordan isnt a god and that hes bound to make mistakes,, AND that hes given us a lot of representation,, if the representation offends the people its sposed to represent, then theres a problem. im talking about piper as a poc and wearing feathers in her hair. im not a poc, so i cant speak for them on whether or not its wrong, because i dont know either. HOWEVER, i have seen multiple posts BY pocs talking about how they didnt really like rick’s representation of piper, and thats an issue. pocs have been and are still oppressed and discriminated against by many. as a white cis man, we cant really blame him for not knowing (tho he could have done a research,, asked some pocs,, idk), but by representing pocs in that manner, hes influencing impressionable kids/teens into thinking “oh pocs wear feathers in their hair all the time” etc, which isnt true. the pjo/hoo series is extremely successful, and kids who read the books will probably start forming inaccurate opinions on pocs. the amount of fan art that depicts piper with feathers in her hair dont help either. “but rick said so in the books, so its canon” yeah well rick isnt a god and he can get some things wrong at times. im not saying we should cancel him, im saying we should start educating ourselves and not spread false info like pocs wearing feathers in their hair all the time. also that snake song shit where she sang Summertime was just- yeah. bc heres the thing you can be racist, and still include minorities, but portray them in a racist way. And even then, ignorance isn't a thing to admire. Getting those facts wrong still has a major impact. It continues to perpetuate racist stereotypes.

“ With the feather thing, I looked it up myself; it takes less than five minutes to figure out that Cherokees don't braid feathers into their hair. I didn't grow up in the country where my parents are from. I have many other first/second generation American friends who have also been through that, with a bit of a disconnect from their culture. But something that most of us have in common is that when we didn't know something, and when our parents weren't that big of a help, we looked it up. We sought out resources online and through other people from our culture to be able to connect more with where we came from. Some of that took a Google search. So I find it hard to believe that Piper, a girl who Rick's trying to portray as someone who is attempting to connect with her culture and is totally against racist stereotypes, wouldn't know that eagle feathers aren't supposed to be braided into your hair casually. She may be disconnected from her culture, but she's also shown to want to connect back to it. Piper wouldn't be casually braiding feathers into her hair while also telling off people for being racist. It makes no sense.” - reddit thread (down below) 

for those of yall who wanna know more please please read this, it has a lot of things i wanna add in here : https://www.reddit.com/r/camphalfblood/comments/gy3gl2/piper_mcleans_portrayal_is_innacurate/ 

as well as https://finding-my-culture.tumblr.com/post/189422373260/maxie-ratties-and-cattie-finding-my-culture 

i will be posting screenshots of these in future posts so if ure viewing this on ig and u dont have tumblr,, dont worry 

- the fact that most of the strong female characters in the series refuse to be “girly”, and ngl i dont really like that. just because ure girly doesnt mean u cant be strong. 

- piper would have been a great way for him to start making the strong characters act girlier, but instead he went with the “I’m not like other girls” trope which is quite obnoxious to hear constantly, and I don’t think it’s necessarily great for younger girls to read that idea growing up.  the closest we've ever had to a strong female character who was also into "girly" things was Silena. when I was younger I admired Piper's "I'm not like other girls" thing, but then I got older and realized that the whole mentality of "not like other girls" is super obnoxious, and a little bit toxic

i have a heck load more that i cant rmb rn but yeah feel free to add more 

[sunflowersseemhappy]

Hey if you dont mind could your wright the main 6 with a MC that has a lot of anxiety. And has anxiety attacks in a very crowded or loud places. IDK these are some of the things that trigger my anxiety. You dont have to though.

Here we are anon, took a bit but I’m not entirely sure of how I did on these ones! But I’ll let you be the judge of that, anything wrong or just not great let me know and I’ll change it. As always I hope you enjoy!

Also over 150 followers wow thank you all! 😊

REQUESTS OPEN (because I’m a crowd pleaser!) and here is my Masterlist 

Next up is How the Main SIx would ask MC to move in. (There will be some hilarity to this one methinks!)

Asra

Asra is very relaxing to be around, so relaxing he often makes visits to stressful places feel less stressful.

He’s always been aware of how uncomfortable you get sometimes, so he’s always tried to take it easy especially after you came back because he was afraid your anxiety might set you back after all the progress made.

Taught you to breath through your anxiety and to question your thought’s, getting caught up in your current feelings and worries is not a great thing. And he’s been through similar circumstance, he knows you need to learn to halt those feelings so you can take back control.

Over the years the shop has circulated soothing aromatic scents thanks to Asra. Lavender, chamomile, and sandalwood. Now it’s all Asra smells like.

Introduces you to everyone he knows at a slow pace, just so you know that these people are friends and you’re safe in their presence.

When you’re having an attack Asra always knows, he’s very keyed in to your aura so he knows when you need him.

He’ll get you to go to the market on quiet days and times that way it doesn’t seem so stressful.

But if ever you feel yourself spiralling Asra will take you to a safe area, sit you down and create a sphere around the two of you that makes everything silent.

And its like the two of you are the only people in the world, Asra is sat by you breathing with you and smelling like sandalwood.

Telling you he’s there for you and it’s okay, he won’t let anything bad happen.

Nadia

She has an unfortunate habit of commanding the attention of a room.

So there’s been more than a few times where even though eyes aren’t necessarily on you they’re on Nadia, when you’re next to her...

Her evening parties aren’t really your thing in that case and she’s really accepting of the fact you miss out on the parties.

Most of the time she leaves them early anyway, nobles are ever so boring and you’re a lot more fun to be around anyway.

Yoga has become an activity you both enjoy together, it helps to focus on how Nadia can do such complex moves with her body and it keeps you out of your mind too.

She also suggested writing down your thoughts on a piece of paper and then just throwing it away.

It was a confusing prospect at first but when Nadia explained that once you throw the paper away just believing that you threw your worries away with that paper sometimes helps.

She won’t admit she’s done it too many times to count.

She’s good at reading your cues, seeing you doing something you generally do when you’re anxious or about to have an attack Nadia whisks you off away from whatever is stressing you out.

Depending on how you’re feeling she’ll either take you for a relaxing bath, sit you down for some green tea or chat through what’s wrong and what she can do to make you feel better.

Julian

Probably has his own unresolved issues with anxiety (see Portia’s route book XV for reference, thinking on it he has other symptoms through the other routes which may suggest he has some form of anxiety).

But he’s a doctor, and though he can be worrisome and awkward, when it comes to helping others (especially you) Julian is all in.

Of course his antics are equal parts relaxing and stressful...

Visits to the Rowdy Raven have become less frequent since you came along, but to be honest its been better for Julian’s health and he can’t possibly turn down a cuddle from his favourite person.

But with you around Julian has been making all kinds of healthy life choices, so he really is better off (I promise).

Now the cupboards in the shop are filled with supplements he’s read about that help reduce anxiety; green tea, lemon balm, Valerian root, dark chocolate (non-arguably Julian’s favourite), etc...

Julian is such a worrier when it comes to your anxiety attacks (sometimes he even thinks they’re his fault), but you can’t fault his method of taking you back to the shop as he talks softly about something to take your mind off your anxiety.

Setting you down on bed and just lying with or partly on you, encouraging you to take some deep calming breaths.

He always offers to go swimming if you want to after an attack, the water has always calmed him down and he hopes one day you’ll get the same peace from the water as he does.

Muriel

Muriel’s hut has become the ultimate safe haven.

Although he was initially quite imposing Muriel definitely understood your need to get away from people.

It’s not so much he has anxiety being around lots of people too, he just doesn’t like people but there are other things that make him feel nervy.

A lot of the time just watching him do things is enough to calm you, he just gives off a vibe that whenever he’s around you don’t need to be anxious.

When Asra made Muriel aware for your anxiety, Muriel was probably like “what anxiety?” while you were making a fool of yourself behind Asra with Muriel watching.

After then Muriel started growing lavender outside just in case you need some for some aromatherapy when you’re feeling anxious.

Better yet the forest is the perfect place to practice some breathing exercises, sitting back to back with Muriel by the stream as he’s whittling and the water is rushing by is very relaxing.

There aren’t many trips to the city but when you absolutely HAD to go there Muriel followed along for your sake and its a good thing he did too.

The seemingly inevitable anxiety and the nausea that followed in such big crowds, but Muriel had a plan.

Taking your hand in his and tugging you away, hugging you underneath his cloak so that it felt like everyone had disappeared and it was just him breathing steadily and encouraging you to do the same.

It’s like a tent under there, and it’s quite funny when Muriel sticks his head under there but it, like him feels safe.

Portia

Like Muriel’s place, Portia’s cottage is super chill and out of the way so there’s not a whole lot of stressful happenings.

Portia is however a people person like her brother, so its a bit of trail and error to find out what you’re comfortable with when accompanying her.

She’s just a bundle of positive vibes, it’s hard to feel anxious when her positiveness is practically infectious.

Needless to say your found it very relaxing to garden with Portia, just being able to focus on what you’re doing and how stubborn those weeds are instead of your anxiety has you feeling better.

That and petting Pepi.

And she got the pointers from Julian about diets and stuff... in the end she just thinks whatever your comfort food is works well enough and her comfort foods are the best.

Although some of Mazelinka’s soup works well too.

When you’re having an attack, Portia places her hands to the sides of your face and asks you very calmly to look into her eyes. Calming you down and getting you to a safe place, usually toward the cottage.

Once you are there Portia will get you to lie down in the tall grass and try to make you relax a bit more before trying to cheekily get a laugh from you (she’s always believed laughter is the best medicine).

And if you want she’ll talk to you about it, so long as you’re okay the day is a win in her book.

Lucio

Clueless, but like always he tries and that counts for something right?

May have inadvertently been the cause of an anxiety attack, but the two of you don’t talk about the harvest festival...

But after that day he begged Julian and Asra for some advice to help you out because you suffering felt like he was suffering (honestly he was so dramatic).

You don’t know what he bargained away to Jules and Asra but you’re pretty sure the deal involved leeches, burning his favourite portrait, and kissing Asra’s boots.

In the end Lucio was better off for it, now he has a stockpile of supplements that are meant to ease anxiety, about 50 candles that burn lavender and chamomile scents, and has a booklet of little breathing exercises and ‘happy thoughts for the day.’

The whole experience itself was enough to lift your spirits but the fact that he did it for you is really sweet in a comical way.

Lucio’s favourite thing to do (despite how corny it may seem) is pick out a ‘happy thought for the day’ and just live by it. It spices things up that’s for sure!

Now whenever an anxiety attack hits Lucio is just all invested in you, he’ll excuse himself before whisking you away and just holding you gently. Asking you what’s wrong and trying to solve the problem.

Once that’s done he wants to know what YOU want to do, go back? Take a walk? Go and raid the kitchens for cookies?

He’ll be right by you making you feel like the luckiest person alive.

[starrysamu]

RE: UX and Design

The script writing is a project I'm doing for my volunteer work, haha.

In my day job, I'm a designer at a digital agency. The work really ranges for me, but most of my project right now are either building apps or websites. I can't be too specific on what I worked on but let's just say last year I worked on the mobile app and digital self-ordering kiosk for a well-known fast food chain HAHA. 👀

Sooooooometimes I get graphic design-focused projects where I just get to go wild on the visuals. Those are always fun. But sometimes not fun because you have to follow the client's brand rather than completely making it up as you go.

Hmmmm favourite project... I'd say it's this one client I had where I didn't actually get to do traditional design work, hahah!! I essentially had to 'design' a process for what an effective product team looked and functioned like. So that involved a lot of talking to the team members and observing how they work, what tools they were using, and how they interacted with each other.

While I wasn't doing traditional design in the form of creating mock ups of pages or user flows of how a user goes through an app/website, the skills I learned from being a designer (the problem solving skills), still applied.

Yooooo. @mimi-cee-hq !! I see you. HAHAH. That's a really good way to apply design principles in other seemingly unrelated fields. ❤️

Man IA is still such a blackbox to me. I can do the bare minimum but my coworker who specializes in looks like they're always busy with diagrams, excel sheets, and data hahah.

There's lots of resources out there to get your fundamentals down! There's a YT channel called The Futur (I love them, they are my heroes). They have a playlist called "Getting Started in Design". It's a pretty good one, covers a lot of broad topics but can give you a quick view on the fundamentals.

Here's the YT playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLzKJi2GjpkEHB0CuR7JP-rARjkqnzRM2x

I talked too long HAHAHAHAHHA. But I do enjoy sharing what I know about design and the industry so yah, I'm a chatterbox about it haha.

— 🦈 Anon

hi dear i'm sorry it took so long to respond!!! most of the time during the week when i would get on i'd be like i need more brainpower to respond like .. coherently

that sounds so cool OMG i hope you're enjoying the experience!! also this is all so foreign to me honestly but it sounds like really interesting stuff like ...... like ugh i just wish i had more time in the day to learn about stuff like this in fields that aren't my own

IA SOUNDS INTENSE ........ COULD NOT BE FOR ME METHINKS

but also thank u for telling me about this yt channel!! i'm gonna have to check it out during my free time!!

i hope ur projects are going well :')

[orsuliya]

Meanwhile, in Daddy Wang’s evil lair - the rather drab one - Daddy Wang keeps doing his thing. Yup, you guessed it, he’s chilling out and being absolutely hilarious.

This time he’s also in a mood for some hide-and-seek! I am deadly serious, either he’s playing hide-and-seek or he discovered some serious magical powers and I’m not sure which option I would prefer. What am I even talking about? Well, Song Huaien comes in and looks around; no sign of Daddy Wang anywhere in vicinity.

And then like a jack-in-the-box...!

Now riddle me this - where was Daddy Wang hiding? Behind that golden thing...? Yeah, let’s talk about this golden thing. Song Huaien certainly wants to! He asks Daddy Wang who this obviously imperial robe belongs to; even Song Huaien is not naive enough to believe it’s meant for Miracle Baby. Uh-oh!

Daddy Wang is only too happy to admit the truth. He’s going for the throne himself, no Ma figureheads needed nor wanted. Okay. What I would like to know is when exactly did he commission the bling-blingiest robe that ever robed; the emboidery itself would have taken ages...! I suspect it was before his first coup, but that begs a question: were Wang Ninjas standing guard over this thing all this time? At least it’s a task appropriate for their average level of skill, I guess.

What does Count Sui think about it, he asks while threading a hook through a particularly juicy piece of bait. Before Song Huaien has the time to actually formulate a more or less coherent answer, he’s already hooked and reeled in. What was that juicy, juicy bait? Well, an old favourite, really - that thrice-accursed promise of adoption. Go forth and prepare for the coup, Song Huaien, Daddy Wang trusts you to do your best!

Only no, he doesn’t. Either that or he doesn’t trust Song Huaien period, because later he orders his minions to gather all available Wang warriors. Methinks somebody doesn’t trust an openly mercenary brown-noser... And in this case Daddy Wang’s instincts are absolutely right. I mean, would you trust Song Huaien...?

That part of Daddy Wang’s instructions I’m completely fine with. It’s the other part that broke my heart. See, there can be only one wearer of that bling-blingy robe! And since it’s not in Miracle Baby’s size, that means Miracle Baby has to go.

Go as in go away permanently to a better world. No place for any Ma-blooded pretendents in Daddy Wang’s new order. What is he planning to do with all those distant Ma cousins - their name is Legion - kill them? With what army? I guess that’s a problem for later.

To Daddy Wang’s credit, he is mildly regretful about getting rid of his Minion-in-Chief. He really liked Miracle Baby, you see, but personal affection pales before the reason of state. And the reason of state demands some recreational baby-killing. Not that Daddy Wang says as much to Wang An; it’s all solve this problem this and I trust you will know what to do that. His orders are so oblique that I really do wonder if he was somehow counting on Wang An disobeying and letting Miracle Baby live.

Tough luck, it’s baby-burying time! Or is it...?

Enter Turnip armed with a... pipe? A stick? Whatever it is, it’s not overly effective in knocking Wang An out. Still, effective enough for Turnip to make a successful escape with Miracle Baby in tow. Turnip, my dude, my veg, have you broken your connection to Daddy Wang for good? I guess you are back on my good side. For now. I’m still watching you!

And guess what, Daddy Wang is not as pissed as I would have expected him to be about Miracle Baby going poof! I knew he really loved his Golden Ticket!