#like i’m SO grateful for it i truly an

[rumoredtoexist]

being medicated for adhd is amazing until you start mourning the loss of all you could’ve been doing all that time when you were begging your parents to get you therapy and to get you checked for adhd

atp idek if i have depression i think it was just horrendously bad executive dysfunction?? or at the very least depression that isn’t as bad as i had originally thought. it’s just frustrating and kind of awful to think about sometimes because i had so much h potential and everyone saw it too they just thought i wasn’t applying myself ir was being lazy in purpose

[secondstar-acorn]

can’t think of anything to say other than it was everything I could have ever expected and wanted and hoped for. seeing them perform truly is an electric experience and I am so, so grateful I got to be there. I’ve never felt such overflowing joy and love in one room before and that truly is down to what a one-of-a-kind group Starkid is. I’m so happy and a little emotional that it’s over but like it’s sung in days of summer, “don’t wanna see you go but it’s not forever, not forever” ⭐️💜

[clowningcrows]

sometimes i feel little sad it took me nearly 23 years to fully realize that i’m a trans guy for so many reasons but also. i’m just so so happy to have realized it at all, yknow? like. idk. i just spent so much of my life hating myself and being uncomfortable with some aspect of basically every facet of myself and my identity and for the first time in my life… i actually don’t really feel like that anymore. i mean, yes, the self esteem issues haven’t gone away and yes im still very uncomfortable with myself and my body sometimes (shoutout dysphoria) but like. the sudden increase in comfortability in my body? the way i dont just want to strive to take up as little space as possible anymore? the way i get excited to put on clothes that affirm how i feel rather than hide my entire self? the nervous excitement i feel at the prospect of hopefully starting t soon? like holy fuck… i feel like im actually living my life a little instead of just surviving for the first time ever and it’s just… very very cool

[idontmindifuforgetme]

my gma told me that my mom used to wake up, eat breakfast, then study for 12 hours straight. every fuckin day. and my gpa would bring her food and tell her to take breaks bc of how immersed she was. she’s literally my role model forever

[sylvies-chen]

the carl mention in this ep is still weighing on me so much because it was just so beautiful the way his memory lives on but also it got me thinking: you ever think that lori would be so relieved right now that rick and michonne have found each other because michonne is for rick what lori couldn’t be for him and also because there is at least someone other than rick who is still alive to mourn her son when so many others either can’t or aren’t…

[agentc0rn]

Gift for my mutual because it is her birthday…:) @kuruna

Bonus:

[bilestat]

[tsuchinokoroyale]

It’s so good to see you.

Lies of P (2023)

[veenxys]

hey guys!! so i don’t really know how to start this but i’ll be brief; as many of you know, i was accepted to psychology school and that was a huge achievement for me. however, the expenses are high and i don’t know how i will be able to pay everything because i lost my job last month and i don’t know when i will get a new one due to the problems that are happening in my country because of politics and the new government. so i earnestly ask for your help; i know this is not the best place for this, but i have nowhere to run. any amount or even sharing this post helps me a lot and i will be forever grateful from the bottom of my heart for each and every one of you. and, if you want to make me a commission, the link is this! i would love to write something for you. anyway, if you want more details about my situation or things like that, dm me and i’ll respond to anything. thank you so much for reading this far and hope you have a great day. please take care & stay safe <3

my kofi // commissions

[kingofanemptyworld]

I must resist the urge to look up fanart of akihiko I must resist the urge to look up fanart of akihiko I must resist the urge to look up fanart of akihiko I must—

[mita-vittua-olivia]

watching the grand final performance and eating oddlygood dreamy piña colada is actually the best way to celebrate the anniversary of my obsession

[maruyaaya]

time to close tumblr and ao3 and ignore all my anxiety abt posting and play minecraft for like 5 hours 😁😁😁

[stardustdiiving]

I would read your zhongxiao codependent yuri Like, I do generally picture them as a vaguely father/son dynamic BUT THAT IS NOT CANON. It's just as much fun to view them through a romantic interpretation! Idk why people can't view the same characters in different kinds of relationships without being weird about it.

Anyway I love your vision and would love to hear more about it lakdjs

THANK U SO MUCH Im not sure if I’m gonna write zx in the future since I’ve tended to be shy about posting my stuff relating to them for over a yr now, but I did post this fic with them last year while trying to get a hold on how to write them (mind the tags it’s pure angst omg). I was too shy to tag it as ship since it didn’t feel shippy enough, which is kind of funny to me in hindsight bc I reread it and am like. Man I think only a zx shipper would write this NUFNVJVJV

Post got kind of lot Im gonna go on a tangent about them under the cut

Honestly my theory for why ppl r very set on the father/son interpretation is everyone’s immediate thought on to how to make the power imbalance between them seem less uncomfortable is to apply a parental interpretation to it. Which is fine ofc, I get it, but the way ppl push it as canon a lot kind of grates on me a little bc they’re usually incredibly passive aggressive and pushy even if u clearly designate ur post as ship OTL

Also not really a fan of the characterizations either since ppl tend to treat Xiao like a moody teenager Zhongli has to reel in (this is hilariously reminiscent of the post I made about how ppl handle scaramouche and nahida a bit ago haha). And idk I just feel kind of polarized about the headcanon overall bc I associate it with people being really uncomfortable and frustrating about zx

I just like how there’s sort of an imbalance to them, some zxs like them being more fluffy and functional but I sort of like it where it’s not like, entirely dysfunctional but I’m prioritizing a specific kind of character study over romance. This tends to be how a lot of my ships go ngl I just sometimes enjoy the intensity/intimacy of romantic feelings thrown into the mix if it makes it interesting but I’m not often interested in a lot of my ships following more standard romance plots(?) I guess? Unless it’s specific ones. Which sounds clinical when I put it like that but this is just bc I am very aromantic NHFBVJVJ

When I say codependency in zhongxiao honestly it’s sort of a theoretical(?) codependency—not sure how to word it? I think Xiao would be really fucked up if he didn’t have Zhongli in his life suddenly but I don’t think his relationship with getting attached to people invokes what people would majorly think of when they think of codependency in a ship I suppose. It’s moreso I just feel Xiao could be at his worst with dehumanizing himself in comparison to other people with Zhongli, because said mental state is driven by how he feels about debt, service, and duty which are very closely tied with devotion and how he would feel about someone he considers his god and leader, as well as someone who saved him

It’s fun this is paired with Zhongli who generally knows how to work with Xiao kind of understands the self destructive depth Xiao’s loyalty/devotion comes with. Also fun they have been around each other for a very long time and Xiao as one of the adepti is familiar with the past I think Zhongli appreciates having around. They work but it’s also a case where Zhongli is in such a position of power over Xiao its kind of very delicate situation that’s hard for both of them to navigate. Which is fun to explore. I esp love contrasting it with other Xiao pairings (actually i think i still have that xiaoven fic up on my ao3 where I tried to convey a specific interpretation of them in a similar exploration vein too)

I totally get why people wouldn’t like it (I feel a lot of my opinions on xiao ships just clash with a lot of fandom consensus so bad all the time And it’s just bc I’m like this I’m not even trying to be contrarian or anything. HELDINCJD) but I just tend to handle shipping in a specific way. It’s not I don’t enjoy fluffy or lighthearted zl and xiao stuff I actually enjoy it a lot I just like there being layers. This makes it feel more impactful when I think about how Zhongli looks out for Xiao in canon or how Xiao gets like textually flustered talking to him (lantern rite 2023 was so tailored to my tastes it’s not even funny)

[mutalune]

me when people hate on aos trek:

[gaysie]

hii i read all ur iwtv fics today and i wanted to say ur brain is soooo huge and expansive ty for ur service

assuming these were both the same person so putting together but omg tysm 😭 cannot claim any huge brain energy in fact im kind of terrified by the idea of someone sitting down and reading all of them at once because then you have a direct spotlight on the way my special interest has been nothing but daniel molloy’s hypothetical big naturals for several months. cumulative evidence kind of damning

[kedsandtubesocks]

seeing so many incredible and actual legendary fandom writers/legends here and feeling so humbled and grateful but too shy to talk to anyone

me five seconds later realizing y’all are going to discover the truth that I’m Not Cool but instead a worm behind a desktop who writes way too many weird AU’s, writes & loves anime too and watches way too many sports