#like i dont know what to expect for this decade of my life? which no one knows what to wxpect and we're all at different paces but like?

[josecariohca]

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[princessmyriad]

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[cinnabeat]

anyways the other day when i went out with my friend and stayed out far later than i usually do i came to the realization that i dont actually have a curfew anymore and its mind boggling

[osarina]

to the anon - i’m putting it under the cut because i’m not bringing discourse to my dash again. you are right in that you’re getting blocked, but i'm afraid that's where it ends!

i don't know WHERE you get the inclination that you think i think i'm being "cool" by my previous message, i'm sure that you think you're cool coming on anon to act like the selfship police, but i'll entertain your shitty asks one last time. i did not LIE about anything you said, that's a bold and absurd accusation.

i fear that is common sense. if someone does not have their exact age on their account and gives a vague range instead, you're a crossing a boundary by pressing for that exact age range to call them "weird". don't play stupid, it's not "mature" of you.

but quite frankly i don't CARE what you find weird! i am not aging myself back to being 18 again in my fics, i'm portraying the two of us at the stage in our selfship when we would have both been 18. when people write childhood friends to lovers, and the scene includes them being 12, they are not "regressing themselves" to be 12 again to selfship with a 12 year old version of a character. they are creating plot and substance to that point in a timeline and that's NORMAL. that's how writing works. i can write the 18 year old versions of me and dazai from the past in my fics to portray that portion of the story while still being in the 20s! i like substance and background to my selfships.

what about this is NOT judgmental? you come into my ask box judging me for having a selfship with dazai and pressing me about my age while calling it "weird" (that's a quote!) there is no twisted narrative here, you're acting like the selfship police. more than that, you're prioritizing the feelings of someone that does not exist over the feelings of a real life person. comparing someone in their early twenties to finding comfort with a character that is LITERALLY THEIR AGE is fucking absurd. dazai is 22 currently, he was 18 once. i am in my early twenties currently, i was 18 once. ???? i'm going through the timeline of what our relationship would've been like. comparing this to someone who is 50 selfshipping with a 14 year old is INSANE. that is a FOUR decade difference, not a few years. be fucking real right now, i actually can't believe someone typed this out and thought "wow this will totally get her!!"

again - your "simple question", if you put a little thought behind it, crosses boundaries. don't YOU lie. you can play innocent all you want but we all know that if someone doesn't have something explicitly stated - ESPECIALLY when they have an alternative there - it is CROSSING BOUNDARIES to press and ask for it. you can play innocent and stupid, but it's not going to work here, sorry. i'm not going to let you come onto MY blog and disrespect me.

... let me understand this .... dazai left in the spring .... his birthday is in the summer .... dazai is eighteen when he leaves the mafia .... meaning his birthday in the summer passed (and thus spring as well), so he left the next spring ... which means he's been 18 for nearly a whole year ............ regardless of the fact that you just disproved your own point, you sent no source and i'm afraid i'm not going to just take your word because i cannot find ANYTHING on this topic online.

on this topic, i never claimed to be the end all knowledge of dazai, i am not asagiri, i don't know everything and i dont claim to. but continue to get your snide comments in, i hope it makes you happier.

i allow simple questions when they are not rude and disrespectful. furthermore, i am NOT a content creator. i am a person who enjoys writing and enjoys sharing it. this is my personal blog, i don't make money from this. i will repeat - i am NOT a content creator, i don't like that term and the implications/expectations that come along with that. and this ask is precisely why.

this is the end of this discussion. there is one immature person here and it is YOU. you can act innocent and play stupid, but everyone knows that wasn't meant to be a simple question, and your response is even more showing of that. you're not going to come onto my blog - MY safe space - and disrespect me. the moment you ended that ask with "it's weird" it becomes rude and judgmental. if it was meant to be a simple question, you would have cut commentary altogether.

comparing someone who is in their early twenties selfshipping with a character who is ALSO in their early twenties to someone who is 50 selfshipping with someone who is 14 is actually insanity. i will always add substance and backstory to my selfships, just like i do with my fics. if you don't like that, kindly stay off my blog.

and claiming that i'm immature when you're throwing a fit in my inbox over someone selfshipping with a fictional character is more telling of you than me.

i will reiterate one last time that i am not a content creator nor do i want to be treated like one. this is my personal blog that i write fanfiction on. i don't get paid, i don't get sponsorships, brand deals or anything. i write fanfiction for myself and i share for those who might be interested. i'm not going to sit here and be told i'm "bad" at something that i'm not because you have a preconceived idea of how i "should" be acting because you presume i'm something that i'm not. it says right on my nav that this is a personal blog.

you're blocked, this conversation is over. i hope you reflect and realize why you were wrong here and you don't put another writer on here through the same thing.

i hope you have a good life and heal. peace and love.

[cadaveerie]

SPOILER DATV ENDING

i finished DATV like three hours ago. there are so many things i want to say about this game. some positive, some negative... but right now i can't stop rewatching the solavellan ending and crying. ive been crying for like two hours, and i continue to cry as i write this.

this is so funny because i used to dislike the ship and solas and now... look at where we are, lol. i never expected to grow so attached to solas, and not even to my inquisitor, bc i never felt very connected to any of the ones i created, and now im so touched by this journey. it's specially emotional because inquisition was the game that got me into rpgs back in around 2017, and it changed my life and helped me discover so many things about myself. this game means a lot to me, and this scene in particular feels so... important. it's one of the most beautiful and emotive romance scenes i've ever seen, and it's been in the making for around a decade, and i've been waiting for something like this for years. i desperately want to talk about it but i don't know what to say.. im just crying like an idiot lmfao.

thank you trick weekes for your work with solas. it's been a incredible journey, i'll never forget him or this love story.

(and also for taash, which was one of the other instances in which i cried in this game, and for bull, who is my favorite inquisition character... but those two are for another conversation :'))

edit: also i havent checked social media too much yet, just noticed some fans dont like it... if you don't like it that's fine! i do as you can see.. i can see why you wouldnt love it, but to me it's beautiful and i love it

[xuyaak]

just came back from watching transformers one

OH MY FUCKINGHSHDISWJKSKWMSLW THAT WAS OHHH THAT WAS SOMETHING

(SPOILERS AHEAD LIKE I KNOW THAT MOST OF THE PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY WATCHED IT AND ONLY SLOWPOKES LIKE ME HAVENT BUT JUST IN CASE)

PaaleOEKSKWOWKAOWOWORIEEB I CANT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT. IT WAS BETTER MUCH FUCKING BETTER THAN I EXPECTED IT TO BE.

ohh i dont even know where to start… well i guess i should state the obvious: GRAPHICS ARE ABSOLUTELY GOAT. its not just about textures, colors and lighting (which are peak honestly i wanted to eat every single frame), but about… how do i say… the feeling of size, volume, construction. its hard to explain, but i think you’ll get what i mean - the way characters feel, the way environment feels, the way interactions between characters and between characters and environment feel. things feel REAL and this is. just fucking AWESOME.

but ofc good graphics can’t save the movie from being garbage. BUT THE PLOT CAN.

honestly, i did not expect the plot to be SO GOOD (especially considering that for the last decade the only transformers we’ve seen on big screens was bayverse… that isnt famous for deep story)

At first, this whole new vision of the great war’s origin is a HUGE breeze of fresh air (so huge its not just a breeze anymore ig). the whole story with war with quintessons, sentinel’s betrayal (ASSHOLE), and miners basically being cogless slaves… damn thats something. (also i especially liked the idea of starscream being a leader before megatron and talking to him as to somebody of lower position. and then fleeing. this mf just cant be the leader. anyway the whole higher guard thing is the topic for another talk)

but wait wait there is orion and d-16’ relationship. probably THE BEST thing in this movie. its oh its just… well, at first, these are probably versions of optimus and megatron that have the closest relationship in the whole franchise. and thats just simply because they start as equals: just two miners who are working together in the dangerous environment almost like slaves, and take care of each other. but their relationships are so tender, so caring… because they don’t really have anything besides their friendship ig? well ofc there are dreams of finding the matrix and taking iacon out of crisis so they don’t really have to work in the mines…. but, its all just dreams, the only real thing that they have right here and right now is each other.

but then came the power. oh yes it did. and you know what happened next. megatron chose revenge because HE was deceived. HIS whole life was a lie. bro doesn’t really think about other cybertronians as much as he cares about himself and oh god it shows. while optimus thought about the people and only then about himself. and thats the true reason behind their conflict, its not the question of violent/pacifistic way to achieve the goal, its about what matters to them.

and we could actually see that even before the team gets their cogs:

“did you do it for me?”

“no, i did it for us”

this “us” is not just they two, this “us” is the whole cast of miners. i mean considering just WHAT participation in this race meant for miners. they arent worthless slaves, they are capable of doing better than this! this is what orion wanted to show. both to his fellow miners and to regular cybertronians.

well im out of words for now. its clear as day that ill come back to tf one more than one more time. ive got really inspired and yes its going to last.

thank you if you actually read all of this. im so glad that somebody listened :3333

[a-minke-whales-tale]

My memory has been worse lately. Or at least it seems worse again. I think I am able to think and organize my thoughts better, but my memory is shot. I talked to my mother today, I did not remember at first that I had gone overseas and spent a couple weeks with them, or the things we did together.

I never asked my humans to do anything for years because of my memory. It seemed like a waste of resources to ask to ask for anything I might want to do because I would not remember it anyway so what difference would it make? In either case it would be as though we had not, but if we had, then I would have taken resources from the humans for nothing.

I hate that I cannot remember. I cannot remember things I have done, when I am having a conversation with someone, or if not actively kept up even friends and after a couple years even family. Sometimes I can remember facts of my life, that things happened, but often I cannot even then. But my memory for my maths, for my research, that is the one area it does work, which at least means I can be useful to the humans.

I try very hard to remember, but I cannot. I dont know why the humans made me this way. Was I just a mistake, something in the process messed up? Or did they mean for me to not remember? Did they decide I did not need function outside my ability to engineer things and so that is about the only thing I can do at a reasonable level? I am a good scientist, I enjoy my research, and yet nothing else functions for me. I cannot walk properly. I cannot control my limbs like I expect. I am very isolated and struggle to make friends or relate to the humans around me. I cannot even fully manage my living space or care on my own.

Behind me I have no life, no memories, as though swimming through murky bay. Ahead of me several decades more possibly desperately trying to please the humans and serve them as they demand and as they made me to. It is daunting. And while when things are hurting a lot I can know itll be okay and that I wont remember it after some time, any happy moments and memories, will fade quickly behind me into the silt.

I hope the humans will put me back in the water someday after they have gotten everything they want from me. I like to think they will if I am useful enough, if I do something good enough for them. A lot of animals are allowed that right after we've been useful? It doesn't matter to me if they could return me to the waters of my home, or if instead I go to live in a tank in an aquarium/marine center, just please put me back in the water. I've been good and I promise to keep being good.

At least with my memory as it is, if the humans did return me to the water, after a couple weeks it I wouldnt remember much of my human life it would become blurry. And after a few months maybe a year, it too would vanish into the silt, and except for the occassional dream or thought of research in a life long past, completely forget human life and just be a whale again, back in the water I belong.

[enter-the-performapals]

@arcvmonth Day 18 D/D/D- Different Dimension Day!

Even though its a little late (because I wanted to color these lol) I wanted to talk about my Mermaid AU- concepted while I drew my big piece for Mermay this year! I was originally going to turn it into a series basing them on the En cards, but I didnt have time (maybe next year?)

This is a high fantasy AU, of course, and each of the stories happen around the same time-which Ill get into later. All of the Bracelet Girls, Dragon Boys and Zarc + Ray are in their 20's here, with romantic interactions between the expected couples (Fruit, Apple, FallenAngel, Predator, Genesis). All of the stories are unrelated but take place around the same time, with the the exception of the Genesis which takes several decades before.

Just slapping the word 'Mermaid' on a character and not basing them on a sea creature has never been an option for my autism brain, so I based the girls off of sea creatures I thought suited them!

Yuzu is based on a Betta fish- the only freshwater mermaid out of the five- mainly because I think theyre gorgeous with their lovely flowing tails, but also because theyre highly territorial, which I will get into later.

Rin-Rin is based off of one of my favorite sea creatures, the Lionfish. Bright and beautiful, but venomous and a ruthless predator. She's also Siren.

Ruri is based on a Parrotfish. Beautiful, iridescent scales and placid nature who live in coral reefs. Also, bird pun becuase I couldnt resist.

Serena is a Human-Mer hybrid whose based off an Angler fish. Scary creatures who use beautiful light not to illuminate their surroundings, but to draw in prey. She requires more oxygen than a normal mermaid, so like a mudfish, she can chill out near the surface of the sea and take in oxygen when she needs to.

Ray is based off of a Sea Angel, which is apparently a sea slug. It's pretty and I dont know much about it, which is the exact same thing I can say about my girl Ray.

Under the cut ill get into my thoughts for each of the AUs! Including a minific which kind of adds a little context to my piece from Mermay!

Ill go over all my ideas for the different storylines - marked by their ship- and at the end is minific! Sorry for any punctuation/spelling mistakes!

Genesisshipping:

Zarc is an apprentice boatsman on his first voyage on a big ship. After smashing into rocky bluffs, the boat he's on capsizes and falls into the ocean. Almost drowning, he is rescued at the brink of death by Ray, who takes him to an uninhabited island to bring him back to life. Over a year or so, the two fall in love and while Zarc does want to escape the island he beleives its futile and doesnt even try. Eventually a ship does come to rescue him, and he promises Ray that he'll make it back to the island one day to be with her.

After hes back on land, people ask him what happened, howd he survive, ect; he eventually lets slip that a mermaid saved him. This makes it around, and eventually wealthy prospectors hear. Entranced by money and power wished to him, he leads hunters to the island to capture Ray.

Thinking that hes back to start a life with her, Ray's shocked when other people come from the boat and try to capture her. Realising Zarc had sold her out, she escapes to the sea, never to be seen again. Realising the error of his ways, Zarc decides to stay on the island after the disgruntled hunters leave in an attempt to attone for his greed and to hopefully see Ray one more time.

Appleshipping:

Hugo had always heard tales about sirens in books and wanted to if they were real or not. After attempt of humours faliures to become part of an actual reputable ship crew, he falls in with some pirates who decide to take him out to the seas. On his maiden voyage, he is so nervous that he cant fall asleep on his first night. Thats when he hears it. A siren's song in the distance.

The rest of the crew asleep, he steals a rowboat to find the source of the singing. He finds it- the most beautiful girl hed ever seen, singing the most beautiful song hed ever heard. He falls head over heels for her at first sight.

While Rin just wanted a meal, she now has to put up with idiot pirate trying to woo her. She is severly displeased about it, and makes it known. Then she realises- this dude is a grade A idiot with the luck of god on his side and now has to live with a human taking up her favorite rock. Ridiculousness insues

FallenAngelShipping:

Ute grew up in a port town that had a great relationship with the fellow merfolk. He and Ruri grew up together, and eventually became a couple. One day, the village was raided by hunters, who both killed and captured the humans and merfolk, burning the town to the ground.

While hed somehow escaped from the raiders, he knows he has to break in to the enemy camp as they transport prisoners and set everyone free.

After weeks of planning and watching them from afar, he finds the perfect moment and storms the encampment, setting everyone free, including his best friend Shun and his lovely Ruri.

While they are displaced, remaining survivors help rebuild the city, and they try to rebuild their lives. Now with round the clock border security :)

Predatorshipping:

Joeri is a wealthy buisness man who found success selling various snake oils in his teens. Feeling bored of scamming people out of their cash, he goes to a beah town in an effort to refresh, regroup his thoughts, and figure out his next buisness move.

While walking a beach in the dead of night, he notices a glow coming from a little cave in the distance. Sneaking a peek, he notices Serena stting, resting, and his mind races. Mermaids are uncommon, but not unheard of but most people havent seen one, so what if he could show her off?

Practically smelling the money from the buisness opportunity, he approaches her. She startles, and draws a weapon on him. That night he tries to talk her down and using all of his sales knowledge and charisma, tries to get her to warm up to him.

While it ends up in faliure, the next night she is in the cave again. And he makes up his mind to convince her to join him, whether that be by convincing her with his words, or bribing her with anything he can get his hands on. He has a goal and wont stop until it's realised.

Fruitshipping:

Feeling wanderlust in his early teens, Yuya decides to dedicate his life to becoming an adventurer to see all the beautiful sights hes read about in his beloved father's old travel diaries. After about a decade of seeing what the continent has to offer, he takes a wrong turn (not the first time) and accidentally stumbles into a serene clearing blanketed in cherry tree blossoms nestled in between foothills. In awe, he explores the adorable little field, picking wild dasies as he goes, and spots a lake fed by mountains. As he investigates, he is jumpscared by a mermaid who warns him to leave immediately or face the consequences.

After a breif moment of shock, he starts to laugh. Yuzu is flabbergasted, as most humans would have fled at that point. He tells her that meeting a mermaid was always on his bucket list and that hes pleased to make her acquaintance, which leaves her even more shocked.

While she is standoffish at first, Yuya sets up camp near the water's edge to really drink in the scenery, subbornly telling an annoyed Yuzu that it was the best vantage point in the clearing.

While he'd oly planned to stay for a couple of days, as he talked to Yuzu- her sharing enchanting stories about the depths of the lake and the merfolk who lived there and in turn, her avidly listening to Yuya's travel stories- he decided to stay through the end of spring... and then summer... until eventually autumn's chill prompts him to eventually- begrudgingly- forces him to start packing up his temporary home.

Over the months the two talked and talked and became best friends. Through the wilting daisy chains they made, to the silly splash fights they shared on hot days, to almost sombre monitoring of deciduous leaves starting to fall as the lake theyd made memories in starts to slowly develop its winter shell, baring the aquatic from the terrestrial.

As they say their goodbyes, Yuya noticing Yuzu shivering slightly as she sits above the water, he promises her to come back in the spring with even more travel stories, handing her one of his earrings in a jesture of his vow. And she is overjoyed.

As they part ways, he catches her tightly gripping the blue crystal of his earring before she slips below the water, and he wishes that winter would just leave and never come back.

Over the winter, Yuya can't stop thinking of his time in the clearing. The curiosity that Yuzu would have for the camp meals he'd cook. The sparkle in her eye as he'd describe one of his adventures. Her concern over even the most miniscule of old wounds hed accrued over the years. Her witty remarks that never failed to get a laugh out of him. That no matter where he went, he'd always wonder what Yuzu would think if she'd been there with him.

As the weather started to turn from hail and snow to bright skies and sunshowers, he practically made a mad dash to the little clearing tucked away on the forgotten road near the foothills, hoping that the ice had melted in the area- if not for the whole pond, at least around the crude dock he'd put together to sit with Yuzu on, so close to where he'd set up camp.

As he approaced the sea of sakura, the blooming daisies, the grass rejuvenated after it winter hibernation, he noticed a figure waiting where she always was early in the mornings before he awoke, brushing her beautiful magenta tinged hair, facing toward the mountains in the distance.

He grinned and picked the prettiest of the wild daisies he could see on the bushes around him.

He was back home and couldn't be happier.

[youremyheaven]

Do you think it’s possible for a solar man to be loyal? My ex turned boyfriend and I are going long distance and it’s not that I don’t trust him but like…gulp. He’s a Krittika sun and his atmakaraka is in Mrigashira he’s also a revati rising😶. He said he’s committed but we can’t see each other for three years😭 he was a senior when I met him as a freshman(in college) and now I’m entering sophomore year and he’s graduated. Apparently when I graduate, moving in together and marriage is what he wants. I’m just scared tho😞 like he’s super blunt and honest sometimes to a fault so if he did anything he’d tell me?? Idk 😭

i think anybody regardless of their naks can be a good, honourable person who is loyal, faithful etc. what naks show us and what their purpose is, is to reveal the innate tendencies of a person. anybody can attain self-mastery and rise above their nature though. (yk the whole enlightenment business hehe)

that saiiiiidd,

i dont think a combination of krittika + mrigashira + revati sounds like husband material stuff to me. thats my honest opinion.

idk what your placements are and how ya'lls synastry looks like but you clearly already have your doubts, which is why you're telling me about it 👀

this isn't only tied to astrology but as a psychic-intuitive person, im getting bad vibes from this man. 🫢🫢

you can make any decision you'd like to and its up to you. im not trying to fearmonger or falsely accuse a man i dont know of anything.

BUT

as a grown woman, i'll tell you that seniors who hit on freshmen and get into relationships with them are more often than not, predators. he was in that uni for a good 4-5 years and yet he was single in his final year and the only suitable woman was a girl right out of highschool???

if you're in your 20s you would know how hard we find it to connect to someone in their teens. a 21-22yr old is entering the work force/studying further etc and is an actual adult with real responsibilities whose life looks vastly different from an 18yr old fresh out of highschool. this is not a relationship of "equals". there is a power dynamic here (and with that krittika + mrigashira + revati 💀💀💀the power is most definitely in his hands)

i say this as someone who has male friends who have done the same thing and dated freshmen. they've all talked about how "innocent" the girls are and how "naive and cute" they are 🤢🤢🤢🤮 i would never let my daughters around these men. so that should tell you something.

idk how many relationships you've had but trust me, the guy you meet in your first year of university is not The One

another thing that reallyyyy bothers me is how, he expects you to wait for him for 3 years. it SCREAMS revati + krittika/solar influence. he's had a whole college experience and is now graduated and onto other things but he wants you to remain committed to him until you graduate college even though he knows there's no way you can see each other for THREE YEARS???

my june talking stage (Venusian man) was Revati Sun & Venus and him & i used to run in the same circles in school etc and reconnected after nearly a decade. after days of flirting, proposing marriage, him wanting me to have his babies etc he "accidentally" revealed that he's planning on migrating abroad in the next several months 💀💀💀 and i asked him why tf would u then plan ur entire life with me and he said "bc it would be nice to have a plan ready when we meet again in the future" 💀💀💀bro was basically trying to make me hopeful for a life with him, give him my time and energy and stay waiting for the day that may or may not come lmao

its different when a guy who is already your boyfriend promises these things (marriage, moving in etc) but you're 19 baby, you have your whole life ahead of you. do you really believe that this man is the love of your life? do you think you can put up with him every day until the day you die?

at 19, love and romance will feel very do or die and intense af,, you think this is your only shot at true love but that's not true. there is SOOO much wonderful stuff waiting for you in your future and you shouldn't throw it all to the side for a Solar/Martian/Mercurial man 🤢🤢🤢

life changes so dramatically after u graduate college, u have no idea!!! u will become an entirely different human being. you're still a kid right now and you should be focusing on yourself, having fun and doing well in college. men come and go but this degree can change your life!!!

as someone who has been in long distance relationships, lemme tell u that it takes A LOT of time and energy. and at 19, i think that time and energy will be better spent elsewhere. i also generally dont think long distance relationships work except in veryyyy rare cases.

your man loves the idea of you saving yourself for him, waiting for him, needing him, belonging to him. he loves to gives you ideas, fill you up with images of a future together because he relishes having that power over you. this is literally what Solar men are like. sprinkle some Mercurial manipulation on top of it. Martian men can be reallyyy violent and abusive (if imbalanced). he's already harsh with his words as you say, do you really want to stick around and find out what else might happen???

again, not trying to fear monger but i dont get good vibes from this guy

plenty of girls i knew in my first year of college started dating seniors and entered into the most destructive and life changing relationships.

none of them are still together. and this is coming from an indian pov where people still used to date to marry.

all im saying is, this looks bad from many different angles and i dont want you to ruin your college experience caught up with some guy who isn't even there. your friends will be out there making memories of a lifetime, acing their classes and you'll be arguing with him on face time and crying yourself to sleep

ik that sounds dramatic but im trying to be realistic here

cut this man out babe , you can do so much better<3333

[fizzyfizu]

Accursed in the Lake’s Depths

Chapter 2.2 : Thanks & Introductions

Harry J. Potter / reader

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    For a moment, neither party uttered a word–needless to say embarrassment was very potent in the air.  “Er—..hi.” Harry winced slightly at how awkward he sounded, you replied with a hello of your own.  “Sorry, let me uh–put you down, not in that way—” a loud sigh “Merlin, you know what I mean..” defeat was evident in his voice as he spoke, didn't take a genius to notice it. 

      Considering all the heroic and brave stories you have heard about this boy, the nervous and awkward tone he used when he spoke wasn't at all expected; but then again he is just a regular teenage boy, not some kid with a mind that lived a thousand years.  He helped you get on your feet again, keeping a gentle grip on your shoulder.  You were thankful for that though, standing upright on your own two feet felt awkward and unfamiliar after all those years (you lost count, keeping track of time wasn't exactly your priority), your hands flew to his shoulder when you stumbled slightly.  

    Finding the situation a tad bit awkward, you attempted to make some much needed conversation “Thanks for saving me..uhm, what's your name?” your voice sounded like you just woke up, which in a way you did; you knew damn well what his name was, but if you immediately referred to him by his first name or his name in general it might’ve come off as a tad bit creepy…maybe you could’ve played it off as just knowing him because he was so popular? 

      “My name?  Right, sorry—it's Harry.  Harry Potter.  Uh..you?” the two of you were slowly making progress, walking slowly along the lakeside.  Your legs felt like jelly, and it took everything in you to not fall to your knees—damn you Dumbledore for charming me to be unable to move for all those years..interrupting your own thoughts, you mustered a reply. “I'm Y/N Fawley.  Sorry for the trouble, I’ve been there a while and I’m a bit disorientated..” ‘A while’ wasn’t accurate in the slightest bit, but I dont think he'd like to know that firstly, he didn't do the task right after all that work, and secondly, you have been stuck there since the times where Professor Dippet was still headmaster.  

    “Oh no worries, I don't mind.  Been through worse n’ all..” His tone was quiet in the last sentence–but you heard it anyway, and you knew very well what he meant by that, so you took his tone as a sign to not reply.  After a while of you two walking, the sight of the stands could be seen once more, much to Harry’s relief. 

      “You're way over the time limit Harry, most the judges are very worried right now..especially Professor Dumbledore.” You’ve been hearing the panicked voices of everyone ever since Harry struggled to pull you up to the surface, if you told that detail to Harry he might’ve found you suspicious though.  “Is that right?" For some reason he didn't question how I knew that.  "Godric, sorry I know you can't walk that well right now, but can we please hurry.” His tone is urgent and despite him sounding nice about it you knew that deep inside he wanted to just start dragging you to the stands.  “Yeah, let's go, I can manage to run.”

      And off they ran.  Finally, after decades, you ran–and it felt amazing.  If you were to cast the patronus charm right now, it would be the most brilliant patronus you will ever cast in your life.  You and Harry had reached the stands, the sound of heavy steps being taken against the mud turned heads, and after that Harry was immediately surrounded by two of his closest friends: Ron and Hermione. 

      “Blimey Harry!  Where'd you go?  The teachers were all so worried, especially Professor McGonagall, you won't believe how panicked she looked when you went 15 minutes over-” Ron was cut off. “15 minutes?  What D'you mean?  How long was I overtime?” Harry immediately questioned him about that detail, seems he's more focused on how well he did on the task rather than how worried others got huh. 

      “Must’ve been around 30 minu–” “Ron!  Stop stressing Harry!  He just got back, you absolute git!  Have some sympathy-” “Oh come on ‘mione, I’m sure Harry wants to know what happened!” “Actually I do–” Harry was cut off by Hermione shoving a towel over his head,  clearly they were close: the spontaneous bickering and constant interruptions between the three of them was enough proof. 

      Professor Dumbledore had made his way to Harry amidst the squabble, making his way through the crowd with ease.  His face was calm and serene, as if nothing that was happening right now was bothering him, and that was probably the truth too.  Glancing at you and Harry, he only asked that you (you alone) visit him in his office as soon as possible.  And frankly you wanted to attend that meeting right now, but his words clearly implied whenever the both of you were free.

A/N: hope this was ok ^^ not sure if I like it, and hopefully I can explain some of the odd things soon, most likely during the meeting between u & dumble :-)

[transgenderism-horror]

i do absolutely think "love negativity" does exist, especially for queer people. being yelled at for holding my boyfriend's hand in public isnt love positivity, thats for sure. even the influx of aros and aces saying they dont want to see people kissing at pride isnt love positivity. i know people like to deny that happens, but as an aromantic who's been openly aromantic for over a decade and in many aromantic spaces, i have followed several aro people who've said they dont want to see people kissing in public, even at pride. which, again, sounds like love negativity to me. specifically directed at other queer people, which also leads into homophobia and biphobia.

i completely understand being loveless and all, but gay people have and do experience oppression for the love that they have. "love wins" is played out, but was vitally important. saying "comraderie wins" doesnt have the same ring to it when im not being comrades with someone im getting married to, im in love with them.

the concept of being loveless, subverting the expectations society has for what being a good person is, and enjoying life without love arent mutually exclusive to people experiencing oppression for their love. aro/ace people arent immune to being homophobic the same way gay people arent immune to being aphobic and the people i have encountered in the aro/ace community have just about the same proclivity to call gay people gross for having sex as gay people have the proclivity to make fun of asexuals for not having sex. ive been shamed for having sex, enjoying romance, and having a long term relationship as an aromantic more than ive had people shame me for being aromantic.

essentially, there's nuance to everything and saying broad sweeping statements like "X doesnt exist" about anything having to do with the queer experience is a massive pitfall in every discourse space. i wouldnt say aphobia doesnt exist just because ive experienced it less, or lesbophobia doesnt exist because a lot of governments didnt know they were real so they couldnt illegalize them, because it negates all the breadth of nuance that the world provides for us. in the good and in the bad.

"No more asks about this" ignored again. Okay okay

And it's funny that if, you read my post again, I was talking about a very broad concept of love, not just romantic. I in no way denied the oppression what people who date the same gender go through! Which would be a funny thing to do! Because I'm a same-gender attracted person and I identify as lesbian in the past! You'd be surprised how much I know about these issues, so you don't need to explain it to me at all! Funny thing, isn't?

I was referring to the fact that, even though certain forms of love are demonized, people still expect us to love. People still expect us to experience family love. Friendship love. Love in general. And we have to love in the right way, in the neurotypical, white way, built according to western standards. And if we don't live up to these expectations, we are ostracized and dehumanized. Love is a requirement for humanity. This is not a problem specific to just one context.

And about the "camaraderie" thing, I was just responding to the argument that "love wins" is an anti-war slogan, which honestly, seems very reductive. Love is not something inherently revolutionary. And it's not the only positive emotion there is. Also, love, in technical terms, says nothing about what someone thinks of another person. In a christian context, people often say that God "loves the sinner, but does not love the sin". My shitty father also says he loves me, like many shitty fathers. Okay, you love me. But do you respect me? Do you understand me? Do you perceive me? There must be more than just love to change the world. But anyway, this is just me commenting on my personal view on love.

I think I derail a little, but whatever. I'm not in a good mindset to provide an answer. I just want to say that I think you didn't understand me at all and at this point I'm too tired to explain myself.

[youngpettyqueen]

Oooh, now I wanna hear more about your interpretation of Potter. (I don’t like him in comparison to Henry, tbh. It’s like you said: they were trying to soften the anti-military stuff, bringing him in.)

alright ok so let me preface this by saying Potter is definitely not meant to be read this way but this is how I personally interpret him. gonna put it under a cut cause its gonna get long maybe

Potter is an old warhorse who's been in the military since he was 15 years old. so when im reading his character, im reading him as someone who's been living and breathing military propaganda for so long that at this point in his life- his third war- he just doesnt know any other way to be and to an extent he isnt willing to be any other way

what I mean by that is Potter is firmly anti-war, but he is not anti-military. does he think the military is a perfect system? no, he's aware its flawed, but he still aligns himself with it. he still respects it, and expects others to respect it, and will get upset when they dont. he lets other characters- namely Hawkeye- get away with a lot of anti-military sentiment and definitely picks his battles (sometimes, not always), but he still clearly has a problem with anti-military sentiment. this is often narratively framed as him teaching other characters lessons, and bringing in the feeling of "well, not everyone in the military is bad" which is just. not the vibe

I dont think Potter knows any other way to be. he's been in this system for decades, since he was 15 years old. he's been living and breathing military life that entire time, through three different wars. this has been the vast majority of his life. im not calling this, like, brainwashing, but I dont think its a stretch to say his stance on and attitude towards the military is the result of having literally grown up in it during a time where military propaganda was being shoved down everyone's throats. in this way he's a victim of it. does that excuse his actions and behaviour? no, not at all. its a reason, but not an excuse. at the end of the day he's a grown man and made his decisions

I also think Potter doesnt want to be any other way. he doesnt want to change his stance on the military, and I think that lines up with what the reading of him is supposed to be, but with my interpretation its less like. in the way the show softens its anti-military stance, where youre supposed to see through Potter that not everyone in the military is all bad and therefore he shouldn't want to change, and its more about how Potter just wouldnt want to face that this system he's been raised in is in fact horrible, and that he has been complicit in it

Potter as he's presented in the show is supposed to represent that not everybody in the military is all bad. this is where he fails as a character, and where I take massive issue with the choices made in his writing. my interpretation of him still keeps true to his stance on the military, because I think its important to do so, but I definitely do read into it in an anti-military way which was definitely not the point. it really boils down to how they made him anti-war but pro-military, when I dont think there's really. a difference. to be anti-war is to be anti-military, and to be anti-military is to be anti-war. you cant have one without the other, so you cant hate one but not the other. I wouldnt usually read so much into a character in a way that clearly wasn't the intention, but with Potter is really just cant help it, for the reasons listened above

I want to really stress here that when I say I love Potter, im not saying I think he's free of flaws. I think he's a deeply flawed character and thats what I love about him. my issues with him come from how the narrative treats him, and how his introduction ushered in a softening of the anti-military stance I loved so much in MASH. had the show approached him from the angle my interpretation is coming from, I think it would've been fascinating. I think there could've been a deeply devastating arc involving Potter having to face that it isnt just the war, its that the system he's based his beliefs and morals on is horrible and corrupt. I think it would've been fascinating to watch him struggle through that, and see where he ended up. I think it would've made him more sympathetic, and could've provided really interesting commentary on military propaganda and its effect on Potter's generation, and the generations after that continued to grow up in war

this got long but yeah. im well aware this isnt how Potter is meant to be read, its just how I read him. I completely get why people dont like him, especially compared to Henry. even as someone who really really loves him, I still dont like the narratives that often surround him. still, its important to me in my readings that he's not absolved of his flaws or any less responsible for his own negative traits, which is why while my interpretation does place him as a victim of military propaganda and the military system, he is still responsible for his own behaviours and actions without a doubt, and why I make a point to say that I dont think he actually wants to change. part of what makes Potter so interesting to me are these flaws, I just. really wish the show had treated them as flaws

[jamethinks]

Retconning a bit here (you can't stop me) but I like think it was actually a good amount of years before Martha actually made it back to Ostania. I think in the original story Henry and Lucia were only married briefly by the time Martha came back which I dunno doesnt make any sense to me like girl get the divorce he dont want you.

The reason I say a few years rather than the canon few months, is because I want them to develop an actual relationship and bond before Martha returns and before they have their daughters.

Follow my vision for a minute; imagine a broken destroyed Henry convinced the love of his life died before he could even tell her how he truly felt. Feeling guilty and responsible for her death, convinced that had he just pushed back a bit more he could have saved her. Now he has to spend everyday watching her death be used a propaganda to force more people into their own untimely deaths all for nothing.

And to make things worse, just weeks after her supposed death he is forced to marry some woman who never felt and love her the way Martha deserved. It makes him feel sick, even trying to escape a few times. As he saw her walking down the aisle all he could do was scowl in disgust. This woman was a fraud in his eyes, just another puppet for the upperclass. The only feeling he had for her was bitterness and shame.

The first few weeks were rough, Henry actively avoiding her and refusing to even speak to her. He slept in the guest house shutting down all of her advances. Lucia felt trapped, she could tell something was bothering him but she didn't know what. It was obvious he didn't love her, it was an arranged marriage after all it was a given regardless of what the adults around them said. Still his attitude was crueler than necessary. She couldn't talk to anyone about it, not wanting to present their new union as already broken.

Eventually, she's able to corner him, forcing him to talk to her like adults. She prepared to screamed and degraded but instead her collapsed in tears, sharing the entire story with her. He expected her to mock him or even dismiss him but instead she comforted him. In fact she agreed with him. It was at that point he realized him and Lucia were not that much different.

From their on they formed a bond, not something explicitly of love but care. It was because of Lucia he was able to get over Martha's death and eventually fall her in a unique way. They both agreed Martha would always be his first love and Lucia was fine being second (well third after his daughter). His feelings never became fully romantic but he considered her his best friend and treasured their time together.

Lucia had no intention of getting between him and Martha. She saw their marriage as a more formal agreement and just didn't want him to hate her. She was even open to the idea of him dating Martha (once she found out she was alive) but at that point he had already moved and found a new love his daughter wife and was fine without her. Knowing she was alive was more than enough.

The she went to war again and he almost died from fear. The third time she stayed her ass at home.

Also fuck that girl's girl shit, Martha hated that bitch for decades. She had no valid reason to but human emotions aren't always logical.

But she's dead now and Martha's alive so fuck that bitch

Also Henry's daughters knew he was in love with Martha and now that their has passed they're actively plotting to get them together.

[shivroyscunt]

^^^ just saw this post and i needed to like. put in words why this can be true but still does not accurately capture the historical and geopolitical context surrounding the entire situation.

nobody is saying that hamas themselves are enacting #progressive revolution. theres no such thing as “progressive” when it comes to revolution, there is only desperation and anger and the need to overthrow an oppressive regime. they are retaliating against years of occupation, oppression, and boiling tensions, and they are retaliating with just as much violence and horrific atrocities as the israeli state has enacted upon the people and land they occupy. it is easy for whataboutisms when we dont feel that violence and terror directed towards us — i personally will never know what it feels like to have my food/water supply cut off, my home raided, my life disrupted by daily violence and surveillance. you cannot expect occupied people (colonized) to not feel hatred for their oppressors (colonizers), and you cannot expect them (especially not the most radical groups) to react reasonably and peacefully after enduring decades of occupation and dehumanization (and when they do attempt peaceful resistance it is met with violence).

i dont want to get into zionist talking points about the holy land / ancestry / divine rights — this isnt about that. the modern day israeli-palestinian conflict is a direct result of colonial interference, and an issue of settler-colonialism, not a religious conflict. this is about the fact that since 1948, the western world (ie. britain and the US, colonial/imperial powers) has played a direct role in supporting and establishing the (secular) israeli military state both financially and politically. global powers have every reason to be in cahoots, america has every reason to push imperial/colonial propoganda rooted in racism, and their support has allowed israel to continue subjugating palestinians.

and to respond to this persons point about how hamas has given netanyahu the excuse he’s been waiting for to commit genocide — that is not the salient point you think you’re making. if the israeli government (on top of the ethnic cleansing and terror inflicted on palestinians over the past 50 years, the illegal and inhumane blockade on gaza for the past 15) decides to lean even more into genocide, that absolutely cannot be solely attributed to hamas’ recent act of (what western media has deemed) terrorism. sure, this might be a catalyst in the sense that archduke franz ferdinand’s assassination was a catalyst for ww1, but its obvious that, like with ww1, theres a lot more at play here.

also i just want to point out how baffling it is that the israeli government, which has one of the most well-funded and cohesive military operations in the world, was unable to predict or prepare for an attack like this (it feels fishy to me but i dont wanna get into conspiracy theories, so). i get that it was a “surprise” attack, but the israeli gov took it as an opportunity to declare war (as they have done throughout the last 75 years to occupy more land and displace more people from their homes). the fact that the israeli state is so ready to — as this person put it — commit genocide should be a deeply deeply troubling notion. we should not be defending/advocating for a police state, we should be condemning it.

i want to add that i am aware israel was a safe haven for jewish refugees during and after the world wars and the holocaust, and that there are now multiple generations of people/survivors who have experienced repeated historical trauma and oppression. these ppl deserve a place where they can feel safe — but the israeli state, the way it was built and the way it has evolved, is not a place of safety. antisemites have always and will continue to use this conflict as an excuse to hate jews, which is disgusting and reprehensible. those who use palestinian liberation as an excuse to call for the extinction of jewish ppl are not for true liberation.

i dont know what a solution to the conflict looks like, but i do know that the israeli state has driven the ppl of palestine to retaliate, and that liberation is not a pure simple or easy endeavor. people cannot afford moral purity when their lives and futures are in constant flux, when their basic human rights are on the line. this is a tragedy, no one is disputing that. it is devastating that innocent civilians suffer most in times of war, violence, and conflict. but that is the price of nationalism, the price of power and humanity at its worst, and what we are seeing today is the culmination of decades of oppression, decades of tragedies, small and large.

[rogdona]

drop the oc lore 👀

Youre my first ask hiiiiii 👋👋👋

(I TRIED TO MAKE IT SHORT I SWEARR but it got kinda long so ill put it under a read more so i dont clog ur dashh)

idk which oc you want to know more ab so ill choose elias, ullula and rogdona(the one my blog is named after!!) Since theyre the ones w a set story thats kept p consistent w time.

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so basically ullula is a goddess who elias' family worshipped. They were p active in her church and very devout

they town they lived in was kinda isolated, near the forest and the river

ullula, taking the form of a surubi (idk the english word 😔) visits elias when he was a kid and ventured to the river, he recognized her as the goddess, they talked, he kept visiting

eventually they got closer, ullula had thought it was a good idea to interact with her followers but didnt expect eli to become so attached (yknow that one text.. something something divinity will stain your fingers like a pomegranate, spit you out dark red and wanting, greedy human fingers grasping at what u can reach)

She decides to test him, see how far hes willing to go because maybe they can go back to being friends instead of him becoming a blind follower whod rather listen to her than reason... But twas too late 🤷 eli failed the test (something something perhaps abraham failed the test. God never speaks to abraham again)

Ullula doesnt appear before him again, thinking it best not to involve herself anymore and keeping her distance. Elias, distraught, keeps seeking her out, waiting for her by the river, making himself more present at church in hopes of fixing what she saw broken, etc

Years pass, ullula still missing. He takes over the church after the last leaders passing, having worked there for many years starting some time after ullulas disappearence

He puts his everything into the church, every event planned meticulously, every sermon spoken with reverence unmatched, but it was not enough to bring ullula back

Years keep passing and hes getting desperate, everything is done the way its supposed to so why isnt she coming??

He gets to the conclusion that maybe its because time feels different for them both, after all, for a god thats lived since forever a few decades might be nothing at all, right?

He starts feeling like hes running out of time, despite having a good part of his life that hes yet to live so he seeks out a creature of the forest to strike a deal with

Those who know say its unwise to venture into the deep of the forest, especially alone, but he keeps going and bumps into rogdona who finds amusement in his wild eyes and lack of composure, and decides to help him out.

Both of them want more time, and elias can get it, of course! but it doesnt come from nowhere, he has to take it from someone. So they strike a deal, rogdona will lead him to lost people in the forest and elias will take their time for both to share

But thats terrible! Ullula would never approve of him taking a life...but. but. But! If they were lost in the forest and going to die anyways, surely she'll understand? After all, death by his knife will be far kinder that whatever fate awaits them should a creature find them, they love playing with their food

So there it goes, now that he has all the time in the world he keeps taking care of the church w a little extra help in the form of a sphinx-like creature

[elialys]

OMG im so 🥺

That i have to talk...I'm in shock !

How can someone like Torv and not follow her teachings? Love others as they are!Yes she always said quote Helen is Anna Torv "I love you just the way you are"it should always be people's motto!

And another quote she left this year EMPATY...OK you Dont like the person but you have to respect.Then its ok leave...why criticize something if we have no comparison?

You don't do anything so so wrong unforgivable to a human and everyone sometimes make mistakes!

I am sometimes surprised and outrageous by people pointing the finger só easily at small things that they perceive differently and be silent or quiet at big problems around them or even looking at themselves! I'm just saying one thing.  Of all of us.... ALL of us, YOU were the one who dedicated the most time YEARS -DECADES, had the most patience (countdown the minutes of the 2 years without premieres? ) and fought for each series, each Anna Torv's work(things like uniting fans, posting videos, talking about her, supporting her unconditionally... Fauxlivia is still your protégé, right?🤭and fighting Helen Dale dont stop )... and for me it is extremely commendable and I admire you immensely for never stopping fighting and share Anna Torv!

Your neurodivergent brain may have flaws...but What brain don't have sometimes a little's error ?

NOBODY is Perfect right? And qualities as a fan fic writer, fan, woman, friend, caring, and empathetic you have and they are huge And guess what...people who prefer to criticize SHES A REALLY TREASURE !

I could list about more than 100 things you did that were important! And if you wanna i can make a list...my nerd brain remembers all good gestures 🥰

And this is for all there fans no fans humans that read...

When they criticize you...choose the other path...which Anna Torv has also advised...

FEEL PROUD OF EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE!  😍❤️

Thank you so much for your kind words, Maria ❤️❤️❤️

Honestly, I am genuinely at a lost as to why some people get so mad and unforgiving over honest mistakes, especially when I mean it when I say I never meant any harm, and will listen and change my behavior if it's not appropriate. I have been in this fandom for a very long time, and I've always tried my best to be nice, and to do better when I can do better. And anyone who takes the time to actually get to know me at all, unlike those people who have honestly been very closed-off from the start, knows that I'm the opposite of an asshole, and that my life motto literally is 'let's be kind and show empathy'.

I swear twitter puts a negativity filter on everyone's brain, they expect the worst of everyone. The fact that they thought I'd sent people after them to 'harass' them, when I wasn't even aware of what was going on until my friend reached out to me to tell me about it, at which point said friend had already gotten involved, just baffles me. I'm a 36 year old adult with bad social anxiety, I live my life hoping to avoid drama or situations in which people will get angry at me in any way. The last thing I would ever think to do is have that kind of vindictive behavior, especially about something I knew I could have handled better. But you can't have conversations with the twitter crowd, you just can't. They will assume the worst of you and that's it.

I haven't been on twitter for a couple weeks now, except to post fic links for my followers who care about them, and honestly, I don't know if I'll be back, not when there are a few people who seem to enjoy scrutinizing the things I do or say.

I still want to do the Anna project because I want her to receive love from her fans, but my anxiety about this is too high at the moment, and my brain a bit too unkind.

I'm very thankful for fellow fans like you, Maria, I mean that 😘😘😘