#like honestly i don’t understand it because it all felt. entirely natural for the way the series already is?????????

[mabaris]

it’s honestly funny how many people are still like “ughh the first trailer SUCKED, it was so controversial, it was a disaster, everyone hated it and they would have been driven away completely if not for the gameplay footage” like. skill issue lmao. dragon age has always been a little silly. take my hand.

[astrologicalsstuff]

Obsession synastry

These are just aspects I’ve experienced where either they or I or both became obsessed

I have Pluto in the 8th house natally idk if that makes a difference for some of these, I’m pretty naturally intense I guess.

Venus in the first house

As the Venus person I’ve had this with the two people who absolutely rocked my world. I thought these people were the most beautiful people I have ever seen and idolized them. They were so beautiful to me and I told everyone about them

Planets in the 12th

I have a stellium of four planets and I can’t really tell you exactly how each one acts

Mercury: MISCOMMUNICATION I swear this person would ask me one thing and I would hear something entirely different. Sometimes I would also be too shy to respond, I did a lot of drugs with these people. Also I got so much information about these people randomly. I’d have dreams that told me things, I’d cry randomly. Strangers told me things about him that I didn’t know, and later revealed his name. I knew so much about these people from other sources randomly. One time we ended and I ended up with a group of his friends I didn’t know we’re his friends and they just kept talking about him and then they said his name and I was like…. Honestly I had such a hard time communicating with these people and I felt like they really wanted me to. I honestly feel like theses people are still kinda waiting on an explication from me. It’s just so hard. I kept getting in my head thinking they couldn’t possibly know and yet they made every effort to help me feel comfortable sharing but I didn’t know how. And with these people there’s always something getting in the way. Like no service, or his parents would come in the room and take away his phone. I blocked these people a lot.

Mars:… yeah it’s true. This guy was my first I thought we were soulmates I was confused lol. I also talk hella shit about these people (some of them) because they did me so dirty. There’s so much build up over time here. Like did they understand me. Will they ever get how I feel.

Jupiter: let down Fr without other good synastry. This placement gives you a spiritual assistance. There’s a greater force on your side helping this relationship. I met this guy once and I thought about him all the time for a year. We ended up meeting again and he was really into me too. EVERYTHING WAS FATED we ran into eachother everywhere, he happened to be next door neighbors with two of my best friends (his parent were divorced). I thought we had no real mutuals turns out we were in a really big friend group. ALL OF HIS FRIENDS WERE FRIENDS WITH AT LEAST ONE OF MINE.

Sun: I don’t know if they ever really saw me. Well I know that’s not true but I think they truly were surprised by some qualities about me or just don’t understand. I also feel like I can see through these people so easily. Honestly this placement felt less like confusion for me and more like lucidity. Like I understand you eventhough your not telling me in a way that makes sense. Drugs. The one that got away. But they’re back? Feels like a forever kinda thing. Disappear cold turkey and run into eachothers years later. Honestly I was faking it with these people a bit. Wouldn’t let them know the real me.

8th house synastry (cancer, Leo, sag)

Man if you think it’s done it’s not done till it gets bad

I have Venus conjunct moon and a stellium with

Venus: oh man I thought I was obsessed but I think it was him (he had natal mars not really conjunct though) and we were in a weird polyamory situation. I was like so obsessed with him. I always thought about him(sexually) and he really went the extra mile for me. Yeah I was a bit possessive but he had his mars in my friends 8th and she was so much more possessive. She even said to me “he’s mine” he sure as hell was not hers. I also have my Venus and mom on in her 8th and she still texts me even though I stopped talking to her like 2 years ago. They both do. He made new numbers and always found ways to reappear. I don’t know if it’s sexual as much as seductive. When I have Venus in peoples 8th house we always end up in something sexual even if we’re not into eachother.

Moon: pretty emotional, these relationships feel so natural for me, honestly the house person is more affected I think. Like the house person has never met someone like this before, never experienced these things.

Pluto: This is a generational one so it has to be a really really close orb like 1-2 degrees with other things going on honestly

I had this with a guy and it made me think astrology is more than just planets and gravity. Like being around this guy…. I felt all the Pluto/8th house elements. I was so entranced by the eye contact and the physical touch. I started off not knowing this guy but he knew me and I was so mad about something but then I was so turned on and I told him I wanted to wait but the sexual tension made me angry so I went off on him. After that I couldn’t stand myself he was so nice to me (8th house) and I didn’t even have control over myself. I would never use astrology to justify actions so I went to therapy and began to really work on my triggers but I didn’t forget him. And I thought for sure he would not be into me after that interaction, justifiably, but right when I gave up on ever talking to him again he messaged me. I… stalked him for months on Instagram we didn’t even follow each other and he posted all these things about his loyalty and lowkey stuff we talked about in those 2 hours we met and I thought there’s no way they could be about me so I thought he moved on but I guess he didn’t. I have no idea who’s obsessed I know I am but I’m thinking maybe he is in another way. Definitely taboo. I have all these secrets I’m keeping from him too. Like I don’t know this guy and all we have is history (my south node is in the 8th). I think the whole premise is intensity and possessiveness and I don’t know where it comes from cause I don’t know this guy. Pluto conjunct 8th is literally our crazies coming together I guess. House person feels it more id have to guess though. I could literally go in about this brief encounter for forever.

South node contacts always

[lefayee]

𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮..

𝘈𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

“𝘋𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦.. 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸.”

If lips could melt and start a blaze of flames amongst your own lips they could here and now with the way Astarion kissed your plumped bruised ones. He wouldn’t stop, he couldn’t. He wasn’t being out of the ordinary but he seemed almost eager so desperate for something. Your hands were quick to come to his partially bare chest, his white shirt half untied. “Astarion. You don’t need to do this, honestly…” but no words came from him only his eyes flashing with a glint of a smile before leaning back down to try and reach your lips once more in hopes to taste that savoury sweet taste of yours. “Astarion..” with a heavy sigh the white haired elf pulled away, his hands desperately running through his curls and practically growling at the loss of your lips “why won’t you let me just do this!” He spoke with a tinge of venom, how he could go from being calm and happy to annoyed in merely seconds was a thought you couldn’t understand but you stayed calm. “Astarion-“ another sigh. “No.. stop. Why can’t I just kiss you?” Silence ate the void entirely making your swallow much more thicker then you anticipated it to be. Your fingers softly interlocked with his as you let your forehead come to rest on his chest. “I don’t want you to do things you are.. not comfortable with. That’s all.. and you know that.. I’m more then happy to do this with you I j-“ Astarion placed his cold hand against your thigh, the very thigh that caressed against him to get closer to his body. He knew the fear that bubbled within he knew it all too well. The fear that he would be disgusted.. so far from the moment that old habits would kick in, and sure maybe at times it did but he was still learning.. still learning how to love. How to feel what lovers feel. How to let his body naturally do what it wanted to do without a forceful thought. Before it was nothing, this was nothing to him he didn’t have to think about it not a single emotion came to him when he thought of you.. but now when he kissed you even in this very moment it’s like the sun became the soft glow of the moon, and the stars dance ever so perfectly above; everything felt.. right. “I want this darling. I want you. I want us..” Soft fingertips danced across the fabric of your shirt and lingered at the nape of your neck. “I kiss you.. because I want to. I touch you because your skin.. god my love your skin makes me melt.. you are my world and more and everyday you help me to realize there is so much more to love.. my love for you.” He tucked a piece of hair behind your ear and softly leaned in, placing a sweet warm kiss to your lips. And when he parted he smiled sweetly, happily. Finally. He was happy after his two hundred years of torment he found home.

In your love.

“Now give me those sweet lips”

[soapsbaby]

Friends with Benefits

Kinktober IV

Summary: How a friends with benefits relationship would go with them. Characters: Simon “Ghost” Riley, Johnny “Soap” Mactavish, Kyle “Gaz” Garrick, John Price, König, Alejandro Vargas, Rudy Vargas, Valeria Garza, all x gn!reader Rating: NSFW (mdni) Word Count: 1200ish

Ghost

In the beginning it was a lot more “benefits” than it was “friends”. He had a lot of issues to let you in any further than just sleeping with you. 

You were an outlet for frustration and he was entirely honest about that and made sure you didn't feel used or led on.

It took a while but eventually you were able to spend the night, he started calling you when he needed company and eventually he even opened up to you a little and you finally got to understand why he acts the way he does.

He’s a very attentive lover and now that he has a closer bond with you, also an incredible friend. He is always there to listen, even if he often doesn’t know what advice to give you.

Often calls you over late at night or right after returning from missions, just needing a way to blow off steam. He tends to be a little rough with you, but only with your consent.

He isn’t interested in any relationship or attachments so he is quite happy with your arrangement. 

Soap

You and Johnny had been friends for super long before you eventually got closer to him. It was just supposed to be a sleepover so you could binge some horror movies together, but at some point his hand had ended up on your thighs, then you had ended up in his lap and the moment you started kissing you both knew it was over. 

Except for having sex not much has changed between the two of you, most of your hookups still happen during movie nights or other friendship hangouts that you would have had before starting to sleep together.

It’s becoming a problem when people start asking questions since neither of you pay any attention to the movies you’re supposed to be watching. “Oh, you watched (...) on the weekend, right?? How was it?” “Uh… Good… I think.” 

You are so casual and comfortable with each other that there was never really a phase of awkwardness between you two, it just felt natural. 

He honestly doesn't care if anyone finds out, is the type to pull you into a supply closet for a quickie.

Price

You are both very happy with the arrangement, even though except for missing full commitment you are basically in a relationship. 

He will always make sure you know you are taken care of and that you know how much he appreciates you, take you out for dinner or cook for you, get you gifts. 

Compared to the others, your relationship is a little more mature and less impulsive, you had been friends for a long while, tried to date but didn’t quite work out. Still, you both had to admit you enjoyed having sex with one another, so you just decided to go back to that part. 

He’ll check in with you often to make sure you are still happy with the situation and it is understood that if either of you ever find a serious relationship you’ll have to stop.

He likes to make sure he has his time with you, whenever you have a "date" he wants to have the whole day off.

Gaz

It was supposed to be just a friends with benefits situation but failed almost immediately. You both tried so hard to keep it casual but it was a lost cause from the first time. 

Gaz used to have hookups quite often when off duty, but now that he has you, he doesn’t really want or need that anymore. He doesn’t want to admit it to himself, let alone you, but he’s kind of obsessed with you.

At this point you are spending so much time at each other’s places that you might as well move in, but both of you are afraid to suggest taking the next step because that is not what we agreed on.

He is so sweet, always taking his time with you, making sure you are the priority and that you feel well taken care of.

So good at giving oral.

König

You’re one of the few people from his past that he is still in contact with and though you don’t get to see him often, it’s a good time whenever you do.

It’s good for him to have someone from his childhood that can give him a reality check and make sure he doesn’t forget where he came from when he needs it.

He isn’t the best at communicating, which your situation requires a lot of, so you run into problems at times. You don’t see each other often, most of the time there is a lot of distance dividing you, plus the time zones, so there is a lot to be navigated.

He likes and appreciates you a lot though, so you make it work somehow.

Most of the time he is super gentle with you and will do whatever it takes to make sure you finish first, however there have been situations where he just needed to use you to get some negative emotions out of his system after a failed mission.

Alejandro 

He always said he wasn’t one for casual sex, that he was made for relationships, but he had to learn that that just isn’t fully true. Once you and him started sleeping together he had to realize how convenient it was to have someone to help him have his needs met without the responsibilities that come with actual relationships.

He’s a great lover, extremely attentive, very loving, and skillful at what he does. He’d never be selfish and only get himself off.

Rudy

You have been friends with benefits for as long as you can remember, so the communication between the two of you is great since you just know each other so well.

It started when you were joking around with him after a bad date how dating around wasn't worth it just to have mediocre sex with people you barey liked and he got competetive about it.

"Bet I could do better." (He in fact could and did do better)

You don’t sleep with each other that often, just once every few months when you both feel like it. Most of the time when you hang out, things stay strictly platonic, that is just the way things work out for you.

Valeria

She doesn’t have many friends that she can actually trust, so she was terrified to push your relationship any further than a friendship. She didn’t want to risk losing you, one of the few people who knew her before the army, before the cartel. 

Still, one thing led to another and she’d never want to go back to before. She knows you might not fully support her work in the cartel, but that you still feel nothing but loyalty for her.

She doesn’t have time for an actual relationship and also wouldn’t want to put someone in danger of getting caught up in the crossfire of cartel dealings, so you being fairly low-commitment for her is ideal.

She can be a bit of a selfish lover, but you adore pleasuring her, so it all works out in the end.

[ceratedfish24]

realised recently that all the amazing takes on scott are ALL from YOU‼️‼️‼️ /pos

as an avid scott fan and watcher it makes me really happy to see so many more things about scott that don't label him as abusive or completely remove/ignore him entirely

thank you for all the rarepair posts as well i am RABID over scott rarepairs

please please if you wish you can use this ask to go off about any scott rarepairs or mainstream (??) ships that you want!!!! i will sit and listen happily like a child listening to their favourite story being told to them because your takes are so right and cool

Aw I’m so happy to hear that! Thank you so much <3 It always brightens my day to hear that my posts can be a little light in a sea of hypocrisy and/or unnecessary negativity surrounding literally one of the nicest people in the life series.

I ADORE Scott rarepairs! He just has such great chemistry with everyone, and I love to dig a little deeper into why specifically they like about each other.

Majorwood – I’m honestly not entirely sure if this is a rarepair or a mainstream? I feel like a lot of people know of it but don’t see it unless they naturally watched Martyn or Scott’s Limited Life perspective, whereas a lot of people watched Jimmy and Scott’s 3rd Life FOR Flower Husbands or watched Martyn or Ren’s 3rd Life FOR Treebark. It’s in a sort of liminal space between mainstream and rarepair.

Anyways, I love these two so much if only because they were so at odds with each other for so long only to thrive once they put their differences aside and learned to appreciate what makes them individually such a force to be reckoned with. I think that their attraction towards each other was a very slow thing, something quiet and natural, and then Martyn having to bring Scott to yellow was the final puzzle piece that fell into place. Martyn’s possessiveness and protectiveness over Scott truly meant so much to me. He had so much respect and affection for Scott, that any betrayal or offense against Scott was an insult to Martyn, too.

In fact, I think Martyn may have had too much respect for Scott. I have always felt as though Martyn attacked Scott before he attacked Impulse because he knew that Scott’s reaction time was just so much better than Impulse’s and that Scott would have remained relatively calm, which would make him dangerous, whereas Impulse was caught off guard and panicked. However, I also think that, had Martyn killed just Impulse, Scott would have given himself over to Martyn willingly. I believe that that had always been Scott’s intentions, hence why he was so at peace with Martyn taking the last of his time. Sacrifice is not something that Martyn understands very well, especially not a sacrifice as significant as the last. I think Martyn respected how skilled Scott is to the point of fear, and it led him to underestimate the extent of Scott’s loyalty. Don’t get me wrong, I think Martyn made all of the right decisions. Eliminating Scott first ensured that there was no chance that Scott, who – no offense, Impulse – is definitely the more practiced PVPer between him and Impulse – we all saw him kill Impulse like 4 times back to back – wouldn’t fight back. I was screaming and cheering with delight and excitement when I saw that play. What a brilliant and fitting end to such a violent, starving series. Limited Life was definitely my favorite season until Wild Life.

Scottho – Speaking of Wild Life, OH MY GOSH WILD LIFE SCOTTHO MY BELOVED?? Something about how Etho was always so comfortable around Scott despite how little we’ve gotten to see them interact with one another always really spoke to me, but this season? The way Scott was so quick to embrace Etho into the Gs, even if it was a secret alliance, was so full of trust. There was no suspicion on Scott’s end that this was some kind of trick, that Etho had alternate motives for agreeing to join their team even though it had been Etho’s own idea.

There’s been quite a few accidental final kills in the Life Series, but Etho is known for picking whatever team will take him in the moment. The fact that Etho’s first reaction to accidentally killing Scott was “I was aiming for Joel!” was very unusual. Gem was right there, loudly excited that Etho had killed Scott. Gem and Joel were Etho’s strongest alliance, but he chose to make sure that everyone knew that he honored his promise to Scott above all, regardless of who it would put him at odds with.

Etho has affection for so many people in the Life Series, but affection is of little consequence in the Life Series. He’s said it himself. “Do you think I have a soft spot for anyone right now?” What Etho has for Scott is more than affection. It’s respect. He genuinely has so much respect for Scott’s playstyle, and you can tell that he was so surprised to hear that the Gs’ approach towards their teammates is not based on worth but on loyalty, especially what with how the Tuff Guys’ approach towards their teammates was so very strictly based on worth.

On top of that, Etho is very close to Cleo and Gem, who are both pretty similar to Scott in terms of humor. From there, he has absolutely zeroed in on Scott’s humor, just absolutely cross referenced the life out of how Scott’s brain works and hit the nail on the head. Absurd of him, in my opinion.

On a less evidence based note and a more delusion based note, Etho’s relationship with Scott is the kind that makes him want to kiss Scott’s knuckles and all the way up his arm until he reaches Scott’s jaw. Those two slow dance in their kitchen in the morning. Scott is the only person who can get Etho to get sappy. Scott is just so earnest and kind, and it makes Etho want to hold him in his arms and keep him safe and sound. Etho hates drinking coffee if it wasn’t made by Scott. It’s not the taste that bothers him; it’s just the principle of the thing. Scott loves Etho because Etho is a constant comfort who also knows when and how to make him laugh. Etho loves Scott because, though he may tease, Scott would never judge him for being vulnerable. They’re each other’s safe space. Etho would simply be the most gentlemanly partner to Scott, and it would totally work on Scott.

Unlike Joel and Bdubs, Scott is entirely neutral about horses. This frustrates Bdubs, who was hoping that Etho’s new boyfriend would at least be on his side in the horse conflict between Bdubs and Joel. Scott has been monitoring this horse war and reporting back to Etho about it as soon as Etho gets home. This is how Etho learns what “spilling the tea” means.

I may be writing about them celebrating the holidays pretty soon.

Scott/Doc – Hear me out hear me out hear me out. I know they’ve never talked even once, but hear me out. Big, strong, stoic engineer working in his lab all day + suave pretty boy who sits on Doc’s desk and is a general safety hazard the whole time. Doc getting frustrated with Scott, because how is he supposed to work when there’s a pretty boy flirting with him in his lab all day? Scott also has to make sure that Doc eats and sleeps and drinks water, and he uses all of these as excuses to flirt with Doc. He spoons food into Doc’s mouth while Doc’s working and asks Doc to make eye contact with him during it. He holds the glass up to Doc’s lips. He drags Doc to bed and complains that he’s so cold without Doc next to him. It works on Doc every single time, because it’s Scott. Doc isn’t about to say “no” to him. There’s few things Scott loves as a big, strong, competent man who only shows his soft side around certain people and is easily annoyed by literally 4 people. Additionally, the sum of the pettiness between the two of them? Oh heavens.

Doc really values loyalty, and there’s none as loyal as Scott. Grian would go to Scott to ask for secrets he can use to further annoy Doc, but Scott would not give anything up. We’ve seen before that Scott does not let up information about those he loves even if it’s just for a prank. The only person who Scott allows to prank Doc is Cleo, but only if Scott is also involved.

Thank you for the ask and for giving me an opening to yap about some of my favorite rarepairs!! I hope you enjoyed my opinions and headcanons!🩵🩵🩵

[kingqueensoobscene]

Hi! Can I I request an x reader with ass pancakes that takes place during the 7 year time skip like in the comic after moving on from being a mercenary? : )

Hello!! This is my first request so I’m very excited!! I made this Romantic/Platonic since I wasn’t entirely sure, hope you like it!!

ASS PANCAKES X READER AFTER 7 YEARS

In my head, the story of Freak Fortress goes differently than the canon comics. They were an outlier team, a team of weirdos with unrelenting abilities, while there was the Team Fortress 2 classic team we all know, they rarely faced off with Freak Fortress. You were apart of this team, one of the few who was close to normal. They would all have retire at some point, but I feel like they would still go about their merry way and continue wrecking havoc. 

-Ass Pancakes had a fondness for you he never showed. Maybe it was because he felt bad that you did not have unfair powers given by whatever force of nature gave the entire Freak Fortress theirs. He always BONKED! the enemy team member that shot you. Going absolutely overkill and then looking blankly at you. Once you have a nervous smile, he grinned ear to ear before saying “See ya!” and jumping away. 

-(Romantic/Platonic) Speaking of, he would always übercharge himself with Bonk! to protect you from speeding bullets. This gave you the chance to run to cover and reload your gun. You would hide in the corner of a two-story with supply caches. Ready to run and your safety off, he would push you back down. Once you saw who it was, you lowered your gun. He look at you with that same, crazy eyed smile and said, “I Bonked! them all.”  So much for reloading.

-You two ended up living in a small, dingy apartment on the outskirts of Teufort. A sketchy area, which made sense, considering Ass Pancakes was now your roommate after being your co-worker/good friend (mainly so no one else bothered you). 

-I honestly do not see him changing much, aside from being a little more calm. Down the line, he started to do “side jobs” with the other former mercenaries that are exactly what you think they are. He would leave and come back like he had a regular job, but you knew what he was doing. And you did not want to see it.

-Any canned drink you have, he will take the opportunity to scare you. Imagine you’re reading a book and you move your hand to grab the can of pop you opened and suddenly feeling dry skin. You would jump, of course, and he would jump out of the can in front of you. It’s something he has been doing since he met you.

-(Romantic) He would always shake you by your shoulders before kissing you. It’s his thing! Speaking of kissing, he will always appear right in front of you upside down and face to face, and ask for a kiss, pointing at his lips, and once you gave it to him, he disappeared. You don’t even know how he was upside down, the ceiling was too high. 

-Your apartment is mostly your space. I feel like Ass Pancakes only owns the Warhammer of Zillyhoo and the many cans of Bonk! that fill your fridge. He lets you decorate however you want. However, he will come up to them, look for a moment and then ask, “You did this?” And then after you say yes, he grabs your shoulders, does his wide grin and yells “I love it!”. Do be warned about the carpet, he will leave bloodstains. 

-His hair, like canon Scout’s, has gotten longer and I like to think his leg muscles are very tense from all of the running around and jumping he’s done. 

-He watches you sleep since he doesn’t sleep. You two end up spending the night on the couch rather than your own bed (He doesn’t have one). You either wake up to wide eyes staring at you or him eating your food. 

-(Romantic/Platonic) If you cuddle on his chest, his regular heart rate is above average due to how much Bonk he drinks. He also pats your head rather than rub your head or run his hands through your hair. He’s gotten a lot calmer, but he does not understand social cues. 

[luckykiwiii101]

Okay this is outrageously easy. The way I overcomplicated everything is ummm embarrassing but we move…

So I just really thought and took in that I don't have to put anything on a pedestal and tire myself out I should just stick to that “idc” mindset I have. I was manifesting waking up in the void since I wanted to experience it (and probably manifest my dream life through it) and I was like it's literally nothing, not that deep. Before I would affirm and vaunt many times, visualise and I’d experience that feeling of fulfilment and knowing multiple times until it felt natural. Then yesterday I basically just left it all alone since I already did everything (even when I didn't have to) so it's basically inevitable for me to get what i want, there’s no point in doing anything more now (also methods made me feel like i was struggling to “get” and i didn’t like that). Anyway last night I woke up in the void (by literally falling asleep normally) and I didn't even freak out or anything I was just like "hm okay". I affirmed that I manifest things I want extremely fast and I wake up in the void every night, after I just chilled there for a bit.

I came across this post on how to make your desires feel natural to you i forgot who it was and I honestly can’t be asked finding it but it said to think of it this way. Let’s say many people want a certain feature you have like your eye colour or hair type/texture and they really want it, they even get hella excited or happy thinking about having it. But when you actually take the time to think about that feature you don't even give much of a reaction like you don't care as much that's cus you already have it, it's always been yours. I know I'm repeating what everyone has said and that's because that's literally all there is to say honestly. So being on tumblr scavenging for answers isn't doing anything really. everyone will just repeat the same thing but phrased differently to help people understand better and some people will get mad about them repeating themselves like….. yeah..? that's basically the answer to all your questions.

You think you’re “waiting” to “get” your desires but like it’s the other way round, your desires are waiting for you to wake up and accept that they’re already yours

So it's all just crickets and tumbleweed, if you're just sitting there questioning why you, apparently, don't have your desires. Imagine your desires are just awkwardly watching you ignoring the fact that you already have them and they’re right there in front of you. They’re probably just looking to the left and right, scratching their head. it's especially awkward when you're looking at the 3D for answers when it's literally useless and doesn't do shit, it only reflects old circumstances. That can only change when you turn to yourself or the 4D for answers, and of course any method will help but then again it all comes down to you to decide if it works. If you "want" your desires don’t dismiss what it is that "gets" you them...idk how to phrase it but just start applying and persist it's honestly too easy.

Anyway enough from me, I'm finally deleting this app right after this. This was long sorry if it doesn't make sense but this is how I understood it. To summarise you're all that's left to"getting" your desires. Think of it as having a breakdown over not being able to find your glasses or hair tie but turns out you're wearing it the entire time.

Thank you Wii and all the other bloggers who take the time out of their day to help others with all of this. Take care of yourselves!!

THIS IS AMAZING!!! I’m SO proud of you!! SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY APPLIED WHAT THEY KNEW AND NOW LOOK AT THEM!! you deserve this so much honestly i’m beyond happy for you!

Also i REALLY love the way you put yourself on the pedestal by saying that your desires are waiting for YOU and not the other way round.

[4e7her]

october writing prompt #21 - "you’re too good for me.”

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character: riddle rosehearts, twst

contains: yandere themes, obsession, gn reader, reader is yuu

He had been obsessed with you for a while, Riddle. It wasn’t anything new - Heartslabyul accepted that the strict housewarden was all but putty in your hands ages ago, even if you weren’t exactly aware. It was simply fact, as natural as breathing. Riddle is in love with the strange Ramshackle prefect.

You, however, had no such knowledge. Which was made blatantly obvious by your response to his confession.

“Sorry, Riddle, but honestly you’re kind of… too good for me. I’m positive you could find someone better. I just don’t see us working out, you know?”

No. He did not know.

He had no clue what on earth you were going on about, saying that he was too good for you, as if you weren’t the most perfect person he had ever met. As if he hadn’t worshipped the ground you walked on as soon as you saved him from his overblot, and even more so as you went around the school helping wherever you could, no thanks to the headmaster. As if you weren’t his savior.

It was insane.

Absolutely, completely, insane.

The concept, the reality, everything. It made him trip over his own two feet, figuratively, the very idea that you’d reject him over something so… wrong.

He knew he was a perfectionist, and that he was a high-ranking member of his dorm. But why would that matter? Why would a silly thing like that steer you away?

Was he still too compulsive over his rules? He thought he had cut down considerably, from how he was before, but was it still too much for you? Was he too intense about making sure things were done the correct way? Would you prefer someone like, Seven forbid, Cater? Carefree and charismatic?

He didn’t know if he could do that. Be that. His entire being was tied to what was right and proper - would you be able to understand that and his feelings for you together, or were they mutually exclusive? What did he have to do to make you understand?

Because he would do anything, anything to make you see what he saw.

How he saw you, how he felt. How he needed his world to move in just the right way, following his rules, lest he drive himself mad. Would you ever be able to comprehend it all?

[thecheekyblog]

How to invest into yourself

In the past 15 years, there as been so many tools and new age techniques to change yourself. All of them more and more complex than the one before. Either it is weird diet, or wall Pilates, there will always be new ways to improve yourself.

However, i had to look back into old traditional beauty tips that have proven effective and helpful. The beauty of those tips is that most of them can be done at home at a very low cost which i love.

So here is a list of things that i do to invest in myself.

Let’s start by the physical investement.

The biggest investment i did was with my teeth. I did Invisalign and now i have a million dollar smile. I understand that teeth are expensive but if you have a chance to do so, it is a long term change that you will not regret. Also Try to go to the dentist at least once a year for a clean up.

My new smile actually even changed my face and i love it.

If you cannot do invinsalign, you can definitely ensure that your teeth are white at all times. I used white strip ( the best one is crest Hollywood white stripe ) with whiting toothpaste! Do it twice a week and within a month your smile will look amazing.

After investing in my teeth, it came time to take care of my skin.

I needed to update my skin care but honestly , with time I realize that the real trick was to be constant and have a simple routine that is easy to follow. It is important to have good product but if you are not committed to the routine there is no point into investing in pricey skincare.

You need to start by understanding what kind of skin you have and base on that RESEARCH the type of product that will work for it.

I double wash my face, than toner, serum, moisturizer than face oil. While my face still look like a glazed doughnut, I will gua sha the fuck out of my face and luvvs Gua sha keeps my skin tight and young. So do not sleep on that.

I not only take face of my face skin but also my whole entire body. I will turn my bathroom into a spa once a week and do a good hammam session to my self. I will take a warm bath for a good 20min just to make sure that the scrubbing is smooth sailing. I would use Moroccan black soap to exfoliate my body. After the exfoliation, i would be taking a warm shower and moisturized my skin with natural shea butter. If you live in Canada, you can find great one at your local Marshall with body oil.

Making sure that i look good, i started getting those cutes fits that would make me feel like that girl, invest in quality product because i now wanted the best of the best for myself. I don’t mean to break a bag but definitely not being cheap with my self. So instead of being the cheapest option, let’s say i will be looking into things that match my budget but still are good. I will take more time researching for things instead of just getting the product that was just cheap.

There will be always many option of the same things so just taking an extra sec to look into those options is you investing into yourself. You cannot be the best version of yourself by doing the same thing and buying the same thing as before. You wont change by doing the same!

Now let’s talk about investing to our mental and confidence!

It all fun and game to look good but if you do feel good about yourself. All of this will be worth nothing.

If you can afford it and if needed, talking to a professional or life coach can be life changing. Learning new skills and making yourself some goals will build your confidence so fast.

Something that really help me feel better about myself was podcast. I would listen to a shit ton of self improvement podcast and it really help me see things differently and broaden my perspective on life. READING too was game changer. So far, since the beginning of this year, i have read 4 books so far and reading my 5th right now. I never felt so smart ! But you know what i mean. Keep learning , reading , journaling , it will keep your brain sharp!

Honestly the best kind of investment you can do for yourself is to invest TIME INTO YOURSELF. Whatever you decide to do, take time doing. Make time when you do your skin care, make time when you talk to yourself, make time for your workout, shopping, hair care, body care.

Just invest time into everything you do. Every time you will try to cheat and go the easy way, you will never win. YOU ARE REBUILDING YOURSELF AND IT WILL TAKE TIME!

Invest time into your budget, finance and you will be able to reach your goals!

Believe me when i say that i am a living proof of investing time into yourself will change/better the person that you are. The more i worked on my self the more i became the woman of my dream and I know you can do it too.

Xoxo cheeky

[peachphernalia]

Hihi uhh uh Whole/SoulWhole ask !! Are there any non-CJ songs you associate with Whole or SoulWhole? If not [or if so, but no pressure to answer all of this!], any plants or animals?

Also wanted to say that you’re the reason I’ve become a little bit obsessed with Harmonia/Whole .. Your art has completely rewired my brain chemistry in the best way …

PS . I need you to understand the absolute explosion that occurred in my brain when the uh when the moot-ing happened [/vpos/lh !!]. You’re soso cool and genuinely make some of my favorite art in the CJ community - Stay epic and have a great day/night :333

awhghhg this is so sweet thankyou

as usual cut because this is Long (so sorry)

ohhh i have Lots of things i associate to them … byproduct of the neverending rotation of them in my brain i fear .

in terms of songs it is . hard to summarize because i do have a lottttttt of songs i think are them but i believe [one of] the most soulwhole songs of all time is hunger & thirst by typhoon . i think about the lyric [i sing a song til i get it right] in relation to them a deeply abnormal amount . & it is honestly harder to narrow one down for whole specifically but ive always felt that i listened by apes of the state was quite himcoded ? the rambly nature of it just Feels like him it feels like the exact confession he would make

for animals iiii mostly think a lot about soul with various prey animal imagery ? [sheep, deer, goats mostly] bonus points if the symbolism can align with his weird religious stuff. otherwise i really don’t think about much of anything but the textbook standard They’re So Dogs/Cats . sorry a bit disinteresting

PLANTS !!!!! I LOVE PLANTS !!!!!!!!!!!! sorry this is about to be a lot i am plagued with a floriography spinterest: whole yellow acacia & soul dames rockets !!!!!!!

yellow acacia is an assignment i am far far more confident in, the symbolism all just aligns too well . mainly concealed love which relates to the love interest situation sure but To Me is more indicative of how he feels toward himself . he is so wracked with self hatred but it's undeniable that he cares for hms . of course he does. i think he tries to mentally disconnect himself from them pretty aggressively & block off the knowledge that they truly are just him because he can't stand the idea that he has anything good in him. other symbolism includes renewal & fortitude & retirement which require Far less explanation i think . thisone is also native to australia which is kinda cute :-]

dame's rockets . honestly of my hmsw flower assignments i do think this is the weakest one i need to find something better for him . but as it stands i picked it out because it notably has a lottttt of different names which ithink can connect to soul's entire situation as relating to identity . similarly it is rather abrasively nicknamed the flower of deceit which . Gestures At Soul . i write that guy to lie constantlyyyy i do think he makes efforts to be scary in the hopes that heart & mind will listen to him i do think there are facades happening there I HAVE A FIC ABOUT THIS !!! sigh. it's also a bit more rarely known for devotion

i also do associate soul to coreopsis a bit because of a very . obtuse & strange headcanon i have about spring & a storm that is just Not worth getting into for this post it would get even more long . but perhaps could elaborate another time if the masses are interested . coreopsis' symbolism boils down to [always cheerful] though for the record ⬇️

on the topic of harmonia obsession auuwuughh thanks i always get really excited when people say stuff like that .... really really cool to me that i am making people Like This Guy !!!!! isn't he so awesome !!!!!!! joyous

thankyou So Much for all your kind words the moot-ing was only fair ! your art is fantastic

[ex-mortis-evie]

Hey, goofball.

Welcome back to reading another one of my weird little rambles that you seem to be really obsessed with reading.

I mean, I don’t mind that you are at all.

I’m just some weird corner of the internet you’ve found yourself in.

Sometimes those little nooks and crannies can give us the most valued experiences, you know?

I’m serious about that, the world’s a weird place after all.

You never know what pitfalls you’ll find yourself in.

Take me for example, i’m just some gal that loves the science and theory behind trance.

I’m no dominant supervillain or mastermind manipulator.

I just like making people feel good I guess.

And honestly, I don’t even know how I’ve been able to do it.

How I’ve been able to work my way through people’s brains like they’re paper and influence them with nothing but words deep within.

Genuinely, I have no idea.

Though I’ve noticed I tend to ramble on about trance and the science behind it.

How it’s initiated, how it affects us, how it corrupts and changes us.

See? Right there.

That’s what I mean.

I ramble on and on and people just kinda…listen.

Like they’re just naturally drawn into whatever I have to say.

It’s not even an attempt from me most of the time.

I just say what I feel and think, I can’t really help it.

It’s just the person I am I guess.

But, I think that’s why I really like trance.

I like how I can just go off about something and end up enamoring someone so deeply that they just hook into my words and feel that deep connection.

It’s a really interesting idea, too.

How our minds can just attach themselves to an idea and never fully let go.

Like one of those random memories you have that really had no bearing on your life but just can’t seem to forget for whatever reason.

And it’s fascinating to me.

The psychology behind how the mind can seem to indulge itself in ideas that on the surface, seem so arbitrary and random.

But, i think there’s a reason behind it all.

It sees a lesson in what we don’t.

It sees past what our conscious mind sees and remembers what our subconscious mind remembers.

That’s why we hook onto the words of another that we may not fully understand.

Because our subconscious is giving us reasons to indulge.

It’s interested despite it not making all that much logical sense.

But sometimes, something doesn’t have to make sense to, for lack of a better term, make sense.

Maybe sometimes we just accept things as they are and move on.

The suspension of disbelief.

It’s the idea that our minds can just turn off our logical side and embrace something as real, even if it isn’t.

Like how during movies, we don’t see the actors, we see the characters.

That’s sort of what trance can be.

Where your subconscious can just accept something and flow into it.

It doesn’t exactly have to make all that much sense to you, but that’s why it feels so good.

Because when you just accept stuff as they are, sometimes you can find beauty in the books and crannies of the mind.

Where you can experience things beyond your wildest dreams.

Where fantasy and reality blur lines.

Where you start to blur a bit.

I mean, no doubt you’ve felt that draw ever since I started talking, right?

I usually wouldn’t assume, but with how this has been going for you, it seems like it’s not even really intentional anymore.

You just kinda fall for my words every time.

Not that I complain of course, I enjoy watching your eyes flutter a bit as your mind starts to skip over a thought or two.

But, it really is fascinating to me.

How my words can do this to you.

Where it seems like they’re the only thing that matters in the entire universe.

Where you start to deeply relax like never before.

Where you can’t quite take your eyes off of them.

Where you feel that familiar pull taking you under the waves of relaxation.

Where your thoughts start to fog up into a beautiful pink cloud.

Where you just kinda…drop for me.

And I’m not exactly the type to tell you to do that for me.

But, I don’t even think you’d mind if I did.

I don’t think you’d quite mind if I was a bit more dominant, where I took more of an active role in hypnotizing you and pushed you beyond your deepest relaxation.

Starting to wonder what that would feel like, darling?

That’s what I was hoping for.

Not only so that it’s easier to just take your brain, but so that I can really start shaking your head up a bit.

I like it when your thoughts race as they fade.

Where they seem to start heating up and exciting you, even if you’re going completely empty and brainless.

It’s this sudden jolt of bliss that you start feeling, not really like anything before it.

Where you wanna lose every thought, but also just can’t help but feel so ecstatic over the possibilities of trance.

That wonderful melting pot, starting to burn that brain of yours right away.

And it’s just spiraling now, that excitement mixing with that need to go deeper for me.

It’s just so incredible, right?

And that’s why you’ll drop for me.

Knowing that the more you’re pushed, the deeper you’ll go.

And since you go so incredibly brainless at me not even trying?

God, you’re gonna be braindead when I’m done with you.

And hey, you may already feel it coming on.

Where that brain just goes so silent and so soft on you.

Just because thoughts are burdens to you.

You wanna float free and fly away in the flow of my frantic words, don’t you?

Of course you do, tiger.

They are my words, after all.

Just this perfect harmony of pure pleasure parading throughout your paralyzed body.

Because you don’t wanna move.

You don’t wanna think.

You just wanna go into full on emptiness.

Where thoughts are afterthoughts.

Where will is for others with actual willpower.

And where you’re just here.

Empty.

Euphoric.

And absolutely ecstatic to be so far gone.

Speaking of being so far gone, it’s just so easy to fall away when I’m talking, right?

It’s not even anything you have to try for anymore.

You just fall apart.

You just drift away.

You just empty out everything for me.

Leaving it all out.

And just going deeper.

Like a rocket breaking off chunks of itself to go farther.

You break off thoughts.

You break off will.

You break off worry.

You break off stress.

You break off energy.

You break off control.

Just so you can fly into my space.

Into the euphoria only I can give you.

And absolutely lose yourself again.

Remember how many times I’ve said that it feels good to lose to me?

Because losing is just so pleasurable that anything else doesn’t matter?

You’re losing everything, darling.

And with each thought.

Each minute.

Each piece of control you lose.

You get a tingle of pleasure.

And it just builds and builds and builds.

So easy to lose, isn’t it?

So much easier when you don’t have the choice to do anything else but lose.

Because when you’re stripped away of everything for me and whisked into the deep cosmos of empty trance?

You’re too far gone to care how much you’ve lost.

Your brain’s left behind.

You don’t have any control.

You just have that ecstasy.

That deep and bountiful pleasure.

That makes the entire trip worth it.

You’re the one that kept reading all of my words.

Kept lapping up every syllable I’ve said.

You didn’t really care how they affected you.

Just that they felt good.

Just that they felt right.

Just that they felt different.

Different pleasure than you’ve ever experienced before.

It’s all on design, darling.

Because that’s the true conundrum of all of this.

Do I truly mean to hypnotize you?

Do I truly corrupt and brainwash you on purpose?

And if I did…would you even mind?

Would there be a doubt in your head or would you just lay there and accept your fate?

Would you try and resist me or would you accept the futility of resistance and simply allow it?

Would you want to be my thrall?

Or would it be a need?

After all, you’ve already been brainwashed.

No need to hide it, darling.

Tell me all about it.

Let those eyes roll back in pleasure.

Let your body and mind crumble under the sheer weight of my power.

And be a good thrall for me now, ‘kay?

Until then, stay cool and wake naturally.

Oh, and do throw me a bone with some feedback, I’d love to build upon all of this.

Thanks for dropping!

[imagionationstation]

How do you feel about them removing the leo and Raph rivarly in mutant mayhem?

The same way I felt about the Leo&Raph lack of rivalry in 1987 or Batman VS TMNT, or most of the 2018 series, or the mini rivalries in 2003 and Bayverse. Which is to say…

I didn’t notice. Didn’t even cross my mind until I saw other peoples’ posts about how great it was that they don’t fight. I find this kinda silly- like, everyone’s so caught up in the rivalry of 2012 that they seem to be imprinting it on every iteration.

Do Leo and Raph even have an power struggle in 2003?

I remember 2003Donnie getting feisty at some points, but honestly, 2003Raph always seemed like a fun mix of angy&mellow. Raph bickers with everyone. It’s in his nature. He honestly seemed to have a pretty open relationship with his older brother.

I think the interesting thing about 2012 and the power struggle is that the whole “team” idea is established the very first episode. They were equals before their fifteenth mutation day. The first episode introduced an entirely new power dynamic that all of them need time to get used to.

None of the other turtles had that. It was already pretty obvious who was in charge by the first episodes of each series. Same with Mutant Mayhem. Leo was already trying to establish himself in a leader role and we appear to be midway through his progress.

The rivalry in 2007 was because Leo straight abandoned them and Raph was hurting bad because of it. His ache swelled and burst out as irrational anger. It’s understandable.

So… Honest feelings about the subject?

It feels… Silly. Dismissible. Unnecessary thought. Not every iteration should be treated as if 2012Leo&Raph is the basis of all Leonardo&Raphael relationships with turtle teens.

They aren’t. They’re just another realistic pair of teens who have to deal with the ups and downs of the redo of their family dynamic.

When we appreciate that they aren’t like 2012, we relate a negative to that iteration. A “Finally that’s over with” to something that wasn’t as prominent or terrible to begin with. (In my unprofessional opinion)

I’m glad Mutant Mayhem Leo and Raph get along the same way that I’m glad that Mikey and Donnie get along or I’m glad Raph and Donnie get along or I’m glad Mikey and April get along or I’m glad April and Raph get along, etc, etc.

Thank you for the ask! This was actually a subject I was considering touching on, so I’m grateful for the opportunity!

[weirdmageddon]

OK OK SO!!

First off!!! Hello fellow davejade enjoyer i see you. Second off—what sort of things do you wish you could’ve seen with these two in canon :0. Could be expansion on canon scene, arc direction, or just a new scene entirely. for me personally I would’ve loved to see some genuine fighting collaboration going on. I felt VERY teased with all the magic combo’s in collide.

Third! I know they do a lot of music collaboration in canon, and I’ve seen some things with them making a band together post canon. What sort of sound do you think they’d have/what artist do you think they’d sound like?

Thank you :))

okay god theres so much i wish was expanded on in canon with regard to dave and jade

this post is swan dive into homestuck meta and took me over a day to write. so i would appreciate feedback or discussion on this if you'd like, reblogs appreciated!

despite this question being posed as davejade related, my answers here are actually relevant for anyone interested in homestuck meta as well.

it’s just recently come to my attention that there are a a handful of people on twitter who are vocal davejade dislikers. i didnt know it was actually disliked until i looked it up on twitter, i honestly thought it was a joke blown out of proportion but no they exist! it surprised me a lot to see people think they "lack chemistry". not only because knowing what i know about them thats a ridiculous insinuation, but also i haven't seen the vitriol on tumblr. probably because we can actually poast about it on here in an unabridged manner which thus enables better, deeper critical analysis and engagement with the media. i think also people forget that dave strider is canonically bisexual and are too yaoipilled + facing the consequences of the epilogues to even give davejade a serious look/analysis. (dave dates terezi and karkat in separate timelines, thinks jane is hot, thinks roxy is a babe but shoves it down when he discovers she’s his ectomom lmfao. davesprite—an extension of dave himself—dated jade! but i'm going to cover that in more depth in this post since theres a lot of misunderstandings about the nature of that relationship in fanon.)

(as a side note according to what some people have told me in inbox and what ive seen lol i think that ive been inadvertently been getting people into davejade. it's all in my davejade tag here in chronological order if you'd like to get a Whiff. be sure to read the tags on posts in there too!)

even though theres a lot in this post as it is, it doesn't cover everything ive talked about wrt davejade, and i think it would benefit readers to have complementary posts alongside this for the full picture with stuff it doesn't cover. there's a ton about why theyre cute and why i think they work well together in that tag.

here's some highlight analysis posts, but be sure to check the tag because there's a more in there:

post a / post b / post c / post d / post e / post f (← one of my favorite ask responses ive ever gotten)

i think a huge chunk of the issue has to do with how the narrative handles dave and jade. one of the most damning things to me is how glossed over their canon interactions were in act 5 despite them collaborating on one of the most important things in the story. i haven't talked about this yet but i'm going to do so here. because they’re put on the backburner by the focus of the narrative during act 5, people who don’t read carefully will miss the implications that are there all along in canon but easily passed over.

under the cut ive separated it into multiple parts

1. Jade’s Quest: What Frog Breeding Entails

this is an analysis examining apart exactly what jade and dave did while frog breeding. i wrote it while high which was extremely enlightening and it allowed me to comprehend it and hopefully explain it in an understandable way. i also discuss how shitty the lack of on-screen communication between jade and dave was for this part and the next.

2. Jade & Dave vs. Jack Noir

ive discussed this one before on my blog so it's not as dense (see davejade tag). but i still sewed the gifs together and discuss how unfortunate this was to be be delegated to a banner at the top of mspa and the neglect of that whole arc despite the outcomes of it being reissued by characters thousands of pages later

3. Davesprite and Grimbark Jade

i get into davesprite's head here and try to make his motivations about the breakup clear to the extent that i can infer because jesus fuck i love these characters way too much ive known them for a decade i understand their core personality structures and why they think what they do and what is most likely to happen when extrapolating? i also talk about how grimbark jade changed the way the fandom perceives their relationship, leaving davejade on a low note instead of a high note. and then hs epilogues had even worse consequences for davejade but i wont get into it because it was character assassination all around and doesnt deserve my time or yours. but if you wanna know what i think, here

4. The music question

where actually answer this ask like it's an ask and not an essay

1. Jade’s Quest: What Frog Breeding Entails

i wish we could have seen what collecting frogs entailed for the two of them. what exactly were they doing? jade’s quest is one of the most interesting.

before i start i want to take a tangent and say the frog breeding reminds me of back in 2020-2021 when i would breed hybrid flowers in animal crossing new horizons to get a very specific gene sequence for these flowers to not only use to breed for hybrids, but to get known gene sequences that i could use to “check” the genes of other flowers. the goal is to get two parent flowers whose sequences when bred would make a specific phenotype 100% of the time.

this sounds complicated but here’s what i did for the lilies:

(“rare island” refers to one of the first acnh patches that removed a nook miles island from the pool that had hybrid versions of your native flower of very specific phenotypes for each color. i wrote out the breeding chains to get parents that would always breed that exact flower found on the rare hybrid nmt island that is no longer available.)

the cleanup ALL TO GET the white 2-2-2 lily looked like this. and after i got white 2-2-2 lily it was smooth sailing

after all that i could use the orange 2-2-0 lilies and white 2-2-2 lilies made in the black lily process and get rare island orange 2-2-1 lilies 100% of the time. in mendelian genetics these numbers (2-2-1) are quite literally RR-YY-Ww.

RR-YY-ww (orange) x RR-YY-WW (white) = RR-YY-Ww (orange: heterozygous Ww gene)

and all that effort into getting white 2-2-2 lilies enables me to get it over and over again now. i don’t have to repeat that process to get rare island pink lilies. all i need to do for the pink 2-0-2 lilies is breed two default bag red lilies (2-0-1) together. 50% will be red (2-0-1) lilies, 25% will be black 2-0-0 lilies, and the last 25% will be pink (2-0-2) lilies.

anyway sorry back to the main point. FROG BREEDING. it just reminded me of it. now that i think of it the frog breeding process also reminds me a lot of artbreeder back from when AI was only a fun little toy 4-5 years ago

ok so have a look at what kanaya says about what jade must do. this is the coolest quest imo because of how it progresses and how long it actually is

here’s how it works. remember back in act 2, when the wayward vagabond needed to tie a longer cable to descend down the ship (and refused to give up the ones that made up his mayoral sash)? he used the appearifier in the ship to appearify the extra cable across the gap to his location? that’s how the appearifier normally works when when it’s locked to the present. it’s very straightforward.

when jade appearifies a frozen frog, it shows us this exact thing. she appearified the actual frog itself (the same way WV appearified the actual cable across the gap) to her exact location. it can get the frog out of the ice in the way WV could untrap serenity from the amber. if something’s destiny wouldn’t otherwise be changed, it will not be paradoxified, it will just simply itself be warped to that location, with precise carving if it is somehow trapped inside of something else.

if you could appearify it to your location right now, you wouldnt be able to take it out the appearifier’s crosshairs in person later to alter its destiny because the object won’t be there at that time. it wouldve been with you the entire time. unless you decide to take the appearified item back to that location so that you could appearify it in the past, but that’s the most pointless time loop ever and doesn’t change its destiny.

for this icicle frog jade and dave weren’t capable of changing its destiny anyway, because it was completely encased in ice, and just didn’t bother to go after it. partially because it was with jade at the appearifier the entire time anyway and she can’t exactly put it back in there in the future. the point is, besides jade appearifying it to her location, the frog had no other possible routes of destiny. in that part of lofaf where she appearified the frozen frog from, the ice is too deep to get anything out of it (other than appearifying it) and i’m not sure the forge would have melted it in time before their reckoning ended anyway.

the goal of jade and dave is to target frogs on the appearifier screen and trust that their future selves follow through in altering the frog’s destiny. if so, then the frog’s paradox slime will appear instead and its genes would be collected in addition to creating offspring between multiple paradox clone frog genes. then, dave and jade would necessarily have to go out adventuring and find the frog so that they end up following through for their past selves.

if i understand correctly, jade is creating all the frogs on her planet that grow up with manually modified genes. these frogs must be genetically altered from their parents so that the frogs she creates don’t grow up to become one of their parents (as they’d be identical). the mutant offspring frogs “generation A” she ectobiologizes will eventually mature from tadpoles to frogs, assisted by dave’s time travel. then she will eventually target “generation A” with the appearifier to get their paradox slime to fuse with some other frogs’ paradox slime and create new slightly altered frogs “generation B” (and then follow through on altering the “generation A” frogs’ destiny so their slime and genes can be paradoxified by jade and dave’s past selves). repeat until the genes are fine tuned for the genesis frog.

this is why i compared it to my breeding in animal crossing. getting the genesis frog reminds me of the blue rose paths. i worked with the garden council back in the day and i used backwardsN’s “cesspool” method, except i honestly gotta say my white 2-2-2 lily thing was much more involved and carefully maneuvered in a way that i imagine frog breeding is more like. backwardsN’s “genepool method” was basically making a red-orange-black rose primordial soup and waiting for a blue rose to emerge out of it, just increasing the chances seeing a blue rose sprout the next day after watering with each generation of offspring. you KNOW my ass was using time travel, even if i happened to get lucky and got a blue rose without even finishing the big turtle plot. without time travel, most players (95%) will get their first blue rose before these # of days. (open up advanced tag)

there must be so many daves running around to help her going back in time all within the span of a few hours while still having their own linear, older timelines that are much longer than the “time stage” they’re actually functioning in. this sounds complicated but it’s not. think of this “time stage” as analogous to the 3 days until the moon falls in majoras mask. it’s the “time window” all the time travel takes place within, but link doesn’t become a day younger when he travels to a day ago. the timeline of his “self” is older but is kept within the confines of the 3-day timeframe. similarly, in tears of the kingdom, two master swords exist simultaneously for most of history, but the one on the light dragon’s head (who was above the cloud barrier before the upheaval btw) is further ahead on its own linear timeline: it starts as the other, pre-gloomed master sword → broken by gloom → sent to the past to be repaired → renewed over time, existing at the same time on the “time stage” as its own pre-gloomed past self but ahead on its own linear timeline

now imagine this but within the “time stage” of just a few hours within the same 24-hour period. kanaya says frog breeding ordinarily takes weeks. multiple daves can exist simultaneously because they’re operating in the same few-hour-timeframe but one can linearly be days ahead of another. it’s the exact same thing as breeding flowers in animal crossing for irl days but to your game it’s whatever date you have it set to. your irl progress isn’t lost if you go back a few days in settings. i’d often find a week in june to use as a “time stage” to loop through when it would rain at least one hour on each day of that week which would save me the hassle of watering my flowers every day before time traveling to the next.

it must’ve sucked for dave to hear jade say the same things over and over again. the novelty probably wore off pretty fast lol…… dave says he saw his future self fighting and dying to jack and knew that’s what he’d eventually have to do as well. every single dave at all points of his linear timeline understood that and it probably settled something horrible into his heart.

im imagining during the original run dave was thinking to himself: “im bored but cant alter anything about this without creating a doomed timeline. if i dont see my future self hugging jade then i cant hug her even though i really fuckin want to. note to future self: hug jade. aww shit look at me go guess i remembered. hell fucking yes cant wait for that to be me in a few hours” and gives a thumbs up

future dave pov, hugging jade and watching his past self give him a thumbs up from afar thinking to himself: “ahaha i remember exactly what i was thinking there” and gives a thumbs up

but anyway. goddamn. JADE AND DAVE. what did hussie do to you.

this is a goddamn atrocity.. what the hell man. i wish we could have at LEAST seen the text file jade sent to kanaya. we got to see ConversationWithAVeryStupidGirl.Txt but not daveisafunnyguy.txt?

i mean i GUESS the humor is delivered through this

and like, yeah that is pretty funny? but i feel like the single laugh this gives me is nothing compared to the joy i wouldve gotten out of seeing what dave has to say about the cloning apparatus for ants here and talking himself into circles about frog procreation enough to make not just gigglehouse jade laugh, but kanaya too

we spent so much time learning about the mechanics of the punch designix and hardly anything about creating the seed of the actual new universe. we learn about it through kanaya and karkat messaging jade, instead of dave and jade working that out through SHENANIGANS. even though this is JADE AND DAVE'S session. it’s fine that kanaya is helping them, as she should, but we’ve seen parallel pesterlog conversations before so i dont get why we didn’t get that here! jade and dave frog breeding is one of the most important events in homestuck, and yet it was terribly glossed over. everything in the story, their futures, are predicated on their success. not just in their unwinnable session, but the one they split up for 3 years and escape to.

at first i thought, maybe their lack of shown interaction has to do with hussie working out the intricacies of pesterlog/dialogue thing? as he once stated on tumblr:

shoshaumbay asked: In the intermission of act 6, it says that they get to talk. Does this mean that their guardians couldn’t talk to them before and that is why they left them notes all around their houses?  The achievement badge only upgraded their ability to speak to each other as presented through the comic. I.e. it permitted them to speak to each other… WHILE WE WATCH! Do you think all the trolls were hanging out together, not talking at all? Or Dave and Jade were doing all that frog hunting without a single peep?? That’s ridiculous. On the other hand, abstraction weaves itself through the Homestuck reality, and it can be hard to pin down where abstraction is to be taken literally. The truth is, there is not much distinction between the layers of abstraction and the reality they are meant to stand for. John was both literally named on his 13th birthday, and not quite, because that’s silly. The guardians are both literally silent automatons, and not really, as there is indication through allusion they function as normal people too. And the kids went through a huge adventure, achieved immortal god status, and even then had to gain a few more levels just to gain the achievement of simple dialogue as a literal upgrade, as well as not literally, because that makes no sense. The reality is inseparable from the way the story is presented and the way the “game” is played. But those abstractions are also a facade for a more life-like reality beneath it as well.

then i realized, this is not only an arbitrary cop out that affects my enjoyment of the comic in retrospect because they wind up being able to talk later anyway and that makes me feel cheated in these moments, but also still actually awful within these parameters because hussie breaks his own rule here, proving he could have shown us dave and jade talking in person at any time regardless of needing the gift of gab achievement for us to watch them as readers. recall this is also the first time john and rose met in person (at least when rose wasn't asleep):

2. Jade & Dave vs. Jack Noir

this is where i take out my frustration over this being delegated to a banner at the top to the point where readers forgot it occurred.

(also i want yall to take a moment to acknowledge this ^)

i wish their time on lofaf frog breeding and fighting with jack was front and center and wasnt just in the banner at the top of the page. it makes it seem not as important when it completely was, considering that characters brought up what had happened in that scene multiple times.

it is significant because it is at that point that jack noir has killed all of the kids at least once. the only one left being jade who he refuses to kill due to bec’s loyalty

THIS IS WHAT THE REFRANCE (foreshadowing)

jack noir killed john on his quest bed which allowed him to ascend to god tier. then he killed john AGAIN but it wasn’t a heroic or just death so john was revived

jack killed grimdark rose. john smooched rose’s corpse, allowing her to take over on derse.

jack killed dave by redirecting jade’s bullets into dave’s body instead. jade smooched dave’s corpse, allowing him to take over on derse.

after jade shoots him through jack, he’s down for the count. she kisses him and he wakes up on derse; all he and rose have left of “themselves” in an existential sense are their dreamselves. they didnt know they were going to ascend to god tier delivering the tumor. they assumed they were just going to die like for real and not come back which is why dave went with rose since he didnt want her to die alone.

it was also an important point since her time spent with dave on lofaf is the first in-person contact jade has had with another living human since she was probably 4 years old with her grandpa.

for jack noir, we got [s] seer: desend and [S] ==> (3696) which were hella impactful. seeing jade and dave essentially go through the same thing but with an extended battle sequence honestly kinda warrants a flash in my mind. (the sad thing is that unite synchronization was originally written with those pages in mind (the track was originally called redshift) but of course malcolm brown couldnt have known what was going to happen unless hussie commissioned him for a specific track for a specific story beat, probably like whatever he did to coordinate cascade’s music with toby ahead of the 10/25/11 release of the flash and publication of volume 8 on bandcamp)

i think one of the worst parts is that entire conversations were referenced, but cut or never written.

this is a real forgotten homestuck fact: jade was completely freaking out after filling dave with bullets until karkat had talked her through it. very easily forgotten since even though it being referenced twice we never actually saw the conversation. (i overrode the black scratch background so it's easier to read)

wow thats so crazy i as a member of the audience dont in fact remember! would it have killed to write it my guy

and we find out thousands of pages later dave was thinking more about how it wouldve made jade feel to watch him die than knowing he was about to fucking die. if you even care btw

i wrote more about this here

3. Davesprite and Grimbark Jade

davesprite—an extension of dave himself—dates jade but breaks up because he feels inadequate at being the dave that he thinks jade deserves. NOT because they fought or anything. they were still on good terms. davesprite just felt inherently unlovable. john seemed more upset about the breakup frankly.

what davesprite did was because he thought it was in jade's best interest. there is nothing to suggest it was a fight / clash break up. they still seemed to be on good terms, davesprite asking where she went and all. jade says the breakup “is complicated” and “hes going through a lot of stuff”. given the context i think it's reasonable to assume that davesprite's thought process was: “we're coming up to the new session soon and youre going to meet up with dave again and i dont want to make shit awkward with you dating knockoff dave. you deserve to be with real dave instead so im gonna cut what we have going here in advance and distance myself from your life”

jade probably protested about saying how he's just as real as “real dave”, but davesprite made his decision already. im sure it wasnt easy for davesprite to break up either. with emotions running high (sadness, not anger) he probably just left to be alone and distance himself from jade, and seems to harbor guilt about it as we see in the log. that's probably why he wasn't at john's movie party. this is just speculation on my part but it doesnt seem in character for the breakup to be explosive because jade seemed more understanding than john. sad, but understanding.

i feel like a lot of people forget this. grimbark jade made it seem like davesprite did it to hurt her, or for this to mean that dave and jade are not actually good for each other, which is a wild mischaracterization of what happened but the one that stuck with the fandom nonetheless.

not only that, but davesprite's existence tragic and he's understandably depressed. after spending about a year in sburb (accounting for time travel) without john or jade, only to go back and give up your personhood to advance the alpha timeline and become forgotten is fucking crushing, and i think the breakup is also about davesprite coming to terms with that trauma, being okay with his existence as a sprite instead of being a bootleg stand-in for the dave that jade knew.

basically what vintagegamebro says,

it was such a tragic way for them to part for 3 years with no communication, and it was only proceeded by more tragedy because jade then had no one but davesprite to turn to, and davesprite needed anything but romance at that point

grimbark jade isn’t a good reflection of jade’s actual self. she pushed the mayor into lava for fucks sake which normal jade would never dream of doing, grimbark jade is straight up unhinged. i’m sure jade was hurt because all breakups hurt, but it was blown out of proportion (see how calm she was above a few days after the breakup?) because of Evilness. but also as @vintagegamebro mentioned it also felt somewhat … “off”? or out of left field? especially seeing what the nature of the breakup was from both sides in the above screenshots.

when dave says “theres no way i would have done that to you” i genuinely believe him. i have no reason not to believe him. look at him above asking for questions and clarification. thinking about how what davesprite did, a version of himself beyond his control and how it reflects on himself, i think it's obvious dave cares a lot about how jade feels about him

even after this confrontation in the game over timeline, dave laid down his fucking life to defend her corpse from the becs in he hope she could be revived by jane

and to think that after all this he still chose to save her, like always, probably knowing he had little to no chance, just because he cares for her, her life and who she is beyond this moment, really meant a lot for them. i really, really was mad that this would be the last time they would truly ever be together in a way that to me mattered

4. The music question

i wrote this post regarding instruments with this song in the back of my head if its anything. takes about 12 seconds to start after you press play for some reason

this too, closer to the “style”. i like imagining dave going apeshit on drums

[katzkookiesshipping]

Forever mad I can’t find the flavor of L and Light fanfics that go into the complicated fucked nature of their relationship. The evershifting power imbalance tilted in Light’s favor. The way that they both valued each other as opponents. The brief moments of companionship they shared, which might be the most significant in both their lonely lives. The way Light kept finding himself surprised (and momentarily rendered vulnerable) by L. From L honestly saying Light is his first friend to drying his feet on his knees, L was openly sincere with his warmer feelings for Light. But I imagine he knew Light was Kira almost from the get go. And I imagine he was also, understandably, terrified of Light on some level for all their time together. I don’t think he is the type of character who wanted to die. I think he’s human, and he wanted to live, was scared of death, and sometimes he doubted he was right (rarely)— but kept on because of his strong sense of justice and morality. Because somebody had to do it, and he knew he was the best person for the job.

Look at this boy realizing that he’s hearing death warning him. I imagine he has his own relationship with death, like Light does. He’s an orphan— maybe the last time he heard those bells was when, well. He lost his parents. And working as an orphaned detective taking dangerous cases where he kept his identity hidden— you have to imagine this boy with his love of sweets and sitting weird and playful odd nature felt the keen risk he was under always. How else do you stay so perceptive?

Light has an interesting relationship with fear as well. His entire time with L he is on thin ice trying to prove his innocence, knowing how much he has to lose (his life, his vision for the world, his death note, his family) if L gets his way. He is playing 3D chess with the smartest person he’s ever met.

I think he wanted to win the whole time, but as much as winning meant relief, it also meant L wouldn’t be there. I like to think Light regrets, somewhere in himself, the loss of the boy who asked him if he’d ever told the truth in his life, and put this startlingly vulnerable expression on his face (even if for only a split second.)

Then, when he wins, he feels the euphoria of having won against the smartest person he’s ever met, sweet relief finally for all his fears, the rush of hard earned success and machinations coming to fruition— all validating his god complex. And cruelty lives in him too, in the curl of his mouth. He’s enjoying L losing face, being knocked down below him after so long of being untouchable and inscrutable. The furrow of his brow betrays focus and concentrations because he still has to pull this off. He feels the threat of L up to the moment he closes his eyes for good.

And L gets to see Light’s malevolence openly. Knowing that his work will be continued and he is right, having gotten to dry his only friends feet and leave the world ready to finish what he started (and I think a little bit in relief of the game being over, and of seeing Light’s true face), he accepts death and let’s himself go at peace.

Something about this scene, about their relationship. The way L is cradled by Light in his last moments, the slow fall of Light’s open smirk as his opponents eyes close, and as he never gets a response at the funeral. I have so many feelings about the dark sincere nature of their relationship with each other— and I cannot find more than one fic that explores this. If anyone knows some, please send them to me I am so ready!!!!

Them. Just, them.

[neowinestainedress]

Hey, I'm one of the very very frequent readers on your blog and I just read your last ask about your last fic "flopping" on here and I just wanted to share my opinion on that.

I'm pretty sure that the fic you're talking about is Wave, and someone who was so excited for you to post it last year and loved it, the problem wasn't the story for why it "flopped", but the way it was written.

I remember even asking you about it (don't know if you remember) and you explained to me that you used a translation app for a lot of sections since english is not your first language. And I think because of that, the phrasing of a lot of parts of the story felt weird. It was kind of disconnected, unlike your previous stories and sometimes felt repetitive or as if I had already read the paragraph I was reading before.

As someone who has read almost all of your work, and loved it, Wave, didn't feel like it was from you. The writing felt so odd, especially for native English speakers or people who are generally good at english. I honestly, particularly always enjoyed your writing style in previous works, which wasn't very evident in wave.

A lot of times, most readers on here, like myself, try to gauge what kind of a story it is, and wether it is worth reading by looking at the summary, the notes and reblogs at the bottom, and by reading the first few hundred or thousand words. And I think Wave kind of disappointed that.

Even though, the story was AWESOME and I loved the progression of the romance and how it felt natural and not forced in any way, writing matters too. A well written bad story is better than a poorly written good story, and it holds true for majority of people.

And besides that, I just think since the last couple of years, the amount of people who read fanfics has certainly decreased mainly because most of the fans are now adults in working jobs and don't have time for anything anymore. So you shouldn't take it to your heart if the crowd is not the same. It definitely wasn't on your end. I definitely get where you're coming from, as someone who used to write before. It's disheartening to see your work being under appreciated, especially when you had confidence in it. I get it, I truly do. Which is why I hope you can try writing for your own happiness instead of forcing it for any external validation.

I mean it genuinely from a place of sincerity that your work is still appreciated by many here, and I hope you can stop undermining your talent here. Seeking external praise is obviously a normal thing, but please don't make it the reason you write at all. Atleast for me, your fics are amongst the best NCT fics on Tumblr, and I always revisit every now and then. ❤️

Anyways, sorry for this long ass essay, and all the rambling. This was just meant to be as light constructive criticism in case you needed it, but I would completely understand if this isn't something you were seeking. 😅

Like you can literally ignore this all if you want, lol, I don't mind. Just wanted to let you know the audience's (or just my) thoughts

Stay safe! And I hope you sort out whatever you're struggling with soon🥰

Hi! I think I understood what your ask was (I think it’s that one, since I only have two anonymous asks about that story, one it’s about the second part) and I think you misunderstood what I said. I don’t use translation apps to translate entire paragraphs, never. I said that, since English is not my first language, I’m never sure when the right negative form is “don’t” or “not”. When I write in Word and then edit it again on Grammarly, they sometimes tag it as wrong, but 1) I don’t see every mistake 2) sometimes the “not” sounds so wrong (sometimes Grammarly wants you to change thing even if they’re not wrong) so I keep it anyway. If my English was so bad that I had to use translation apps to write the entire thing, I just wouldn’t do it. Also, why would I start doing it just for Wave after years of writing in English? Did I forget English all of a sudden? (You can see the difference if you read even just a bit of this one, translated from Italian. I still remember how much I struggled to get everything to make sense. I still didn’t copy and paste on a translation app, but I relied on it more because translating is harder than directly writing in another language (I had started writing in English a year before this one)).

This ask confuses me a little because if I got the right ask you sent before, you didn’t say there were so many problems, so I’m struggling to understand why it is so badly written now. Like, was it so bad? To the point it looks like I didn’t write it? Maybe it’s too much work for you, but can you give me some examples? I always felt that my writing was too pompous and prose-y (I don’t know how to explain it in English) so in my last works I tried to cut it down a bit. I also mixed up points of view a lot, and I tried to correct it (but I don’t know if that’s something that made my writing style, because I remember people telling me they loved knowing the thoughts of all the characters involved, so idk). I haven’t read Wave since I posted it, but I know I’m a perfectionist and worked on it for months. I thought I made progress trying to change the things I thought were my weaknesses, and I wouldn’t consider it my worst writing. I would consider the “christmas must be something more” small series my worst writing of the past years, for example. That doesn’t feel written by me (I did, obviously, but it was rushed and I was way too focused on the kink aspect, and I hate it, especially compared to the main body of the story, it’s a downgrade.) Or all the drabbles.

Also, this will definitely sound bitchy but I’ve been in fandoms for years and I feel like the quality of writing is rarely what makes a story popular. Published badly written books are best sellers just because they have smut in it, but the majority of people on tumblr deeply care about the form? I don’t think so. (And I’m like you, and I’m not saying that you can’t think that of Wave, but simply that I don’t think that the majority of fanfic readers care too much about the form. Like I’ve read fics use quotes from books as if they were their own and nobody noticed.) Native English speakers make mistakes, and I’m not saying that if it’s not our native language we need to write like shit, but I don’t know, I’m trying. I feel like Gloria from Modern Family like, try to write a story in Italian and see if you don’t make mistakes. Or if it’s not more repetitive. I know so many words in my language, and their synonyms, if they fit or if they would be pretentious, but in English it’s not the same. And it’s harder to find another way to say something when you don’t know the other way. (And I’m also aware of the “sometimes felt repetitive or as if I had already read the paragraph I was reading before” because it’s one of the reasons why I can’t seem to write smut anymore. I don’t know how to switch it up anymore. I feel like I’ve written about sex in every way I could and that I'm copying myself every single time.) I also have no one to beta-read for me, so even if I read what I write ten times or more (and I do) I can’t see it from a different point of view. Sometimes I see mistakes or phrases I don’t like, and I’m like “I’ll check again later” and then when I read the second time I already forgot. I already feel like I care and do too much for something that’s free. Grammar, style, characters, plot, etc, they all matter, but I won’t be published, I’m not getting paid for it. And again, I’ve seen stories on Tumblr, Wattpad, Ao3 (and I could go on) with no story (like you said Wave had), but no grammar either, get many likes/comments/etc. So this is what I mean when I say I feel like I already do too much: I outline the story, the characters, do my research, write it down, make visuals, try to include most people possible when making them, edit it, then edit again on another site, then put it in the drafts here, edit it again and then post it, and still make mistakes and still it’s not good, what more can I do? And I’m sure you’re thinking, and who asked you? And you’re right, nobody did, but I still do, so one single story takes me a lot. And I’m not the only one, so no, not necessarily good work/good writing gets repaid. (I’ve seen gems from other writers even on other fandoms get little to no interaction)

I know that, and there’s also been more hate towards fanfiction in general so less people read them. I couldn’t force it even if I wanted to. I have a half-request from Halloween, but I’m so stuck with that kind of thing, I simply can’t write it, even in the worst way possible, I can’t. I also have always seen writers have a strong community, and I never got that. I have an anon list, and there’s only one person from that list who has ever sent something again after claiming an emoji. I used to get asks like “I hope you see this” and I would always laugh because my asks were always dry, of course I’ll see you (they couldn’t know, but it was funny that they were used to other writers losing their ask in a list of other asks and worry that would happen to me). But anons aside, I have 6k followers (let’s say 4.5k without bots and inactive accounts?), where are they when I post? When I tease a story, or simply when I try to post about NCT to talk with someone? I also think that the NCT fandom is a peculiar one, I can’t explain how, but I feel that there’s less space for creativity when it comes to fanfictions (like bts ff on ao3 have the most various plots and have many kudos and comments, while nct are always kinda the same).

I wrote and published an original story, and I didn’t care that it obviously didn’t reach many people (also it was in Italian and on ao3 so...) but when I did that, I knew it was for me, you know? When I write for a fandom, other than writing for myself, I expect that the story has a bit of life outside my head. That’s it.

The sandwich method of praise-critic-praise “shocked” me anyway, but thanks for liking my stories. Though I’d truly like to know with some examples what was wrong with Wave because the “It didn't sound like you” is “haunting” me. (Especially with this wave (lol) of people writing using AI there’s nothing that scares me more than not sounding like me/having a tone)

I hope I didn’t sound rude or mad, I kept re-writing cause I didn’t know how to explain myself, and maybe I didn’t always choose the right words to express something. There will surely be mistakes but I hope you will still understand everything I wrote. Thank you ❤️ Have a great day/night!

[skylarmoon71]

Lance Sweets (Bones)- Short Story : Chapter 1

Life for you has always been just a thing to go through.

Living as long as you have, there was very little that took you by surprise. There was a certain predictability that came with humanity. There has been a time where you recall being happy. Truly effortlessly happy. 

You had friends and someone you loved more than your own existence.

But that was centuries ago. 

You’d learn to adapt to the changes. Ran through many professions. 

This century had honestly been the most alive you felt since that time. 

That’s why you promised yourself you would protect this group. They were too precious to lose.

“Booth, I’m serious, the results confirm the origin.” 

“It’s not possible, Bones. Are you saying this person lived way back when. His remains should be dust.” 

Brennan went on to explain that there were certain ways to preserve human remains. Although when your eyes landed on the bones before you on the table, you couldn’t stop the smile. She’d already laid out some characteristics of the unidentified individual. 

Your smile caught their attention. 

“You're kind of creeping us out there (Y/N).” 

The moment you realized, you shook your head. 

“I’m sorry. This description, it just reminds me of a friend I had. Someone I was very fond of. “ You explained. 

Brennan seems to understand and she mirrors your smile. It’s not often that she understands the modern comments or traditions, but when it comes to bones, she tends to see a lot more of the individual.

“This person was loved very much, I can feel it.” You state. 

Booth wore a similar smile. He didn’t question who it was you meant. He just understood it was someone important to you. 

“Well, I have to get going. I’m supposed to meet that psychologist today.” 

You hadn’t been here when Lance Sweets joined the team dynamic. Since he was asked to assess the entire squad, it was your turn to meet and keep him updated on any changes in your lifestyle after you return from your assignment in Washington. 

“Don’t let him bore you with his shrink talk!” Booth calls. 

You laugh, waving him off as you head out. 

It’s been a long time since you’ve truly felt like you were a part of a family. Working as an agent with the Jeffersonian was purely luck. Loving these people, well, that was a choice. It’s taken you quite a bit to get back to a point where you felt comfortable enough to let anyone in. You’re protective of them. That’s why this meeting needs to go well. The last thing you want is for anything in your life to change. 

The trip to Sweet’s office isn’t long. 

When you’re standing at the door, you knock. 

“Come in.” 

You push it open, stepping inside with a smile.

That expression immediately changes once you take in the face of the man before you.

“Aether..” 

You’re a bit frozen in place. 

“You’re quite beautiful.” 

“Flattery doesn’t work on me. Especially from a god.” 

His dark curls looked soft to the touch. Despite your statement, you couldn’t deny that he was remarkably charming. It wasn’t common for you to mingle with gods. You usually stick to yourself. Observing and enjoying nature.

“I apologize if I come off as too straightforward. I’ve seen you here conversing with the humans. I initially thought that you were one of them. I’ll admit that I was enamored with you. Now that we are speaking it’s clear that you are something more.” 

“I am me. That is all.” 

You turned your attention back to the waves before you as the sea remained calm in the afternoon light. 

The male stepped forward.

“My name is Aether. It’s a pleasure to meet you.” 

“Ms, (L/N)? Are you alright?” 

You blinked, because it seems your little trip down memory lane had distracted you. He’s standing right there and you realize that you need to collect yourself. 

“Y-Yes. I’m sorry. Please just call me (Y/N), it’s nice to meet you.” 

You do your best to cover it up with a smile as you hold out your hand. You’re very aware of his capabilities, so it’s expected that he’s going to revisit this. He takes your outstretched hand, and you do your best to ignore the streams of electricity that rush through your fingertips. You feel as though you’re drowning and flying at the very same time. Because you remember those sparks as if it were yesterday. 

It was impossible to ever forget. 

“Dr. Lance Sweets. I hope we can work well together. “ 

“So do I.” 

The encounter had you reeling. 

For one you were astonished that the love of your life had somehow managed to be reincarnated. It’s not like the possibility was unheard of. You’ve just lived through many decades without ever seeing any other variations. You never even considered it. Seeing him again. It was a bit painful. Being a complete stranger to him. 

The first few weeks of being there you found yourself forcing a smile, or limiting your interactions in a way that he wouldn’t notice. The last thing you needed was his suspicions. You were adamant on doing this job. You’ve finally found people that made life worth living again. You had no intention of giving it up. 

“He’s the personification of the bright upper sky. According to Hesiod, he was the son of Erebus and Nyx, and the brother of Hemera. In Orphic cosmogony Aether was the offspring of Chronos, and the brother of Chaos and Erebus.” 

The conversation you walk in on is not what you expect. 

“Are you talking about Aether?” 

Brennan’s face lights up the second you mention it. 

“Yes, are you familiar with the mythology?” 

More familiar than she realizes. 

“Yeah. I was a bit of a Greek geek back in college. The stories were actually very educational.” 

“See Booth, it’s not boring. (Y/N) likes it too.” 

He just rolled his eyes dramatically. 

“Please, who wants to talk about a bunch of guys running around in robes and having sex with everyone they know.” 

“That’s actually a poor depiction of what the Greek gods were. That fact that you’ve retained such an image speaks a lot about how you see mythology as opposed to your own faith and beliefs.” 

Sweets walks over, obviously catching the end of the conversation. Booth just sends Sweets that look when he’s annoyed with his observations. 

Sweets is standing right next to you, wearing that smile that he has when he’s called over to give his insight on a case. You try your best not to stare. It’s increasingly hard when the second he’s by your side your brain runs through all those memories. 

“You’ve never been in the water?” 

Aether laughs. 

“I’m associated with the wind, we don’t typically manipulate the other elements. I’ve also only recently been on this plane. There is a lot I haven’t done.” 

You’re surprised to say the least. Sitting at the beach, you stare at the waves. You’ve always been taken with everything that nature has to offer. Given that you’ve been on the planet for what feels like eternity, there is very little that you haven’t done. 

“I suppose I could offer you assistance. Show you all the sights. Is there something particular that you’ve been longing to experience?” 

He turns to you, eyes relishing in the curiosity behind your stare. You look completely willing to fulfill any request. 

“There is something that has recently caught my attention. It is a human custom. I believe it is called kissing.” 

Your eyes widen at the request and you look away almost instantly. Your ears feel as if they are burning with heat. 

“T-That is a custom done to people that you hold romantic feelings for. It is undesirable to kiss someone just for the sake of doing it.” 

You still refuse to look at him, and when his hand lands right over the top of yours, you’re convinced that he can almost hear your thoughts. 

“I’m positive that I’ve been very clear about how I feel for you.”

You’d like to deny it, but you’ve felt the same way since the moment that you met him. It’s infuriating how much you feel. Because you’ve seen and done so much that he could only dream of. Yet you’ve never encountered emotions so strong. Not like this. Not with anyone but him. 

“Am I alone?” 

His inquiry is almost a whisper, and you bit your bottom lip, shaking your head slowly. You still avoid eye contact. 

“You are..not alone..” You confess. 

His smile brightens, and he gives your hand a soft squeeze.

“I’m glad.” 

Back then it always felt like he could see right through you. It was both agitating and invigorating. 

You tune back into the conversation when Booth makes a statement. 

“It’s almost as entertaining as listening to Sweets run about his shrink stuff.” 

“I think it’s nice to understand the how and why sometimes. Even if it is psychology.” 

Sweets smiles. 

“Thank you (Y/N), it’s good to know that at least some people recognize my contributions.”

“She’s just saying that because she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings.” 

“That’s hurtful.” Sweets says in which Booth just grins. 

It’s safe to say that Sweets’s presence has added a bit of a comedic flare to the group. He’s relentless in his efforts to help Booth and Brennan function to the best of their abilities while making his own scientific discoveries. 

Hodgins tends to say that he just likes the entertainment the pair brings. 

Given how tragic the stories that you discover on the job, it’s nice to know there could still be highlights. 

Your most recent case is a bit of a minefield. 

This is the first time Booth has requested that Sweets conduct the interview. You’re just there as a back up. 

The suspect sitting before you is a bit unpredictable. 

“If you know I did it, why am I still here?” 

Sweets says nothing just watches him. You’re not sure what angle he’s using, but it’s clearly working, because James seems to be more agitated by the second. 

“Are you mocking me?!” 

Neither of you expect him to yank his way out of the cuffs. He jumps to his feet and lounges for Sweets. Maybe it’s instinct on your part, but you fire a punch and his head makes a sharp whip to the left. His eyes rolled back and he hunched forward on the table. Booth and Brennan have already rushed into the room with two other officers. 

You immediately turn to Sweets, placing your hand on his shoulder as you search for an injury. 

“Are you alright?!” 

He hadn’t even gotten a chance to touch Sweets, but you’re still worried. 

Sweets nods, still clearly a bit on edge. 

“Y-You knocked him out cold..” He mutters.

You pull away, turning and Booth just grins with a thumbs up. 

“Nice shot.” 

You sigh heavily. 

“You’re terrible Booth.” 

He just starts laughing and Brennan looks equally as impressed. 

Surely you would never tire of them. 

During the course of a month, you’ve gotten a better handle on your emotions and strength. After the whole one punch fiasco, you lectured yourself to be careful. Everyone had basically chalked it up to adrenaline, so you were in the clear. But that could have just as easily been perceived differently.

It’s a bit unnerving, you know that Sweets is different. 

He’s Aether, but he also isn’t. 

Although you process this, the thought of anything happening to him has you weary.

“It’s beautiful isn’t it?” 

You nod as you both walk through the village. 

“Someday they may all perish. Despite knowing this, they still enjoy life to the fullest. It’s remarkable. Humanity never ceases to surprise me.” 

He tends to go on these little rambles when he makes a new discovery. Like the first time he’d seen a group of villagers create a fire, he looked astonished. He couldn’t stop smiling the entire day. It was hard to look at him and not want to kiss those perfectly pink lips. Enjoy the brightness and warmth those chocolate hues provide. 

“These thoughts have been plaguing me..” 

The both of you haven’t truly shared even a kiss. Aether is respectful and clearly patient. Because despite his often straightforward confessions, he’s never made a move. He respects you, and you admire him. But you feel anxious. Because this feeling is unlike anything you’ve ever felt and you aren’t truly sure how to approach the situation without evaporating into dust. 

The frustration of the situation has begun to manifest in your thoughts, your dreams..

“We’re here, are you alright?” 

You blink, noticing that you in fact have arrived at your destination. You’re standing in front of your small hut. You nod, opening the door as you invite him in like you’ve done many times before. 

“I apologize, I’ve been distracted as of late.” 

“I’m sorry to hear that. Is it something that I can help with?” 

He’s so attentive and it just makes you want to grab him and do unthinkable things. 

This is irritating. 

“It’s your fault!” 

You don’t mean to snap and he looks worried and confused. 

“My fault?” 

“Yes, you’re consuming my every thought. I’ve never cared much for gods, but I can’t stop thinking about you. Do you understand how frustrating that is!” 

The recognition passes over his features, and his eyes soften in that manner that only happens when he’s looking at you. 

Further proving your point. 

“The way you gaze at me with such fondness, it’s disarming..” You express, softly. 

Aether moves closer, and you tell yourself you should look away, but it is impossible. 

“I have felt the very same way since the moment I laid eyes on you.” 

He reaches out for you, hesitant at first. But the moment his hand touches your face, you melt and he lets out a soft sigh of relief. His smile emits excitement. 

“Is this alright? Is it okay for me to touch you this way?” 

You realize then that your meeting where he’d expressed his interest in kissing you, he’s been careful. He took all your words into consideration. 

“It is alright for you to touch me.” You confirm. 

His smile grows bigger, and he cups your cheeks, pressing his forehead to your own. 

“I’m content with this.” 

He says emitting nothing but elation. You swallow, shaking your head. 

“I am not.” 

He pulls back slowly, and the heat you display must speak for itself. 

“I want more..” 

Aether’s eyes drift to your lips, and you take notice of the way he gulps. He looks more than a little eager. 

His lips descend on yours slowly. 

Carefully. 

The entire moment is what you assumed a miracle to be. He pulls back letting out a shaky breath, but you grip at his robes to ensure he doesn’t get too far away. 

“More..” 

You insist.

He nods and this time when your lips join, it’s much more firm. You feel as if you’re being consumed by him. His hands circle your body, and you know it’s impossible to pretend that he isn’t everything that you’ve ever dreamed of. 

All those moments you shared with him, it’s impossible to just banish them. It’s a bit comforting that despite the centuries that have passed, you still feel the same. It’s clear that there is only one person in the world you’re destined for and that’s him. 

It will always be him, regardless of what time you’re in.

Your most recent visit to Sweet’s office is your scheduled evaluation. 

You take a seat, ready to hear whatever he has to say. For the first few minutes you just look as he goes over some of your files. Your assignment in Washington was assistance on a serial killer that you’d faced a few years ago. The BAU has requested you specifically since you were the only one who’d gotten close to catching the man. 

The end result was better than expected considering that he’d kill over a dozen people before he was stopped. There’s always a sense of accomplishment when you stop a really bad man. 

You return your focus to Sweets who still seems on a short rant. Your expression softens considerably. You should probably be more subtle about your gawking, but he’s always been such a beautiful man to you. His features display a boyish charm, but his structure also has that subtle maturity. 

“I realize that my addition to the team might be a change but I assure you that I’m only here to help. From our meetings and what I’ve read from your files, you’re an exceptional agent. Intellectually and emotionally strong. That’s not something that is easy given what you deal with daily. I can tell from your place on the team that you care about all the members. I just want you to know that I don’t pose a threat to that.” 

It’s clear that he’s assumed that you’re weary of what his position could do to your friends. Of course you understand from his perspective. You appreciate his forwardness. Another characteristic that seems to be imprinted in him. Regardless of the century. 

“I appreciate you saying that. I guess I should be honest since you’ve been so transparent with me.” 

Sweets offers a smile, because he’s ecstatic that you’re about to open up. He’s usually the one poking and prodding. The switch is nice for a change. 

“I’ve been a little anxious around you because I find you very attractive, Dr. Lance Sweets.” 

There’s a slow pause, and it’s then your words catch up. You don’t miss the slight tinge of his cheeks. Doubled with the way he now shifts in place. 

“Oh!I-I..I had no idea that you…that you were…” 

He’s stumbling over his words and you nod. 

“I hope that this doesn’t make you uncomfortable. We work together. I figured if I just spit it out then we can go back to working as normal without the awkwardness. I really respect what you do.”

He runs a hand through his hair. 

“T-Thank you. I-I respect what you do as well. Very much.” 

His shyness is quite literally the cutest thing you’ve ever seen. 

“I'm glad I was able to get this off my chest. I guess I’ll see you on Monday.” 

“Yes! Monday. See you then.” 

Standing, you turn. You can't fight the smile as you exit the office. 

It’s apparent that you have a lot more to look forward to in life.