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To be honest I am a huge Nalu shipper. But the thing is I want to know the difference between the way Natsu cares about his guildmates and Lucy. Like what is the obvious difference since that boy sees every as Nakama so how can we say that the wag he cares about Lucy is different?
Like even when Erza passed away? (All the way back in first season there was a segment where the guild was gathered at her grave and all) Natsu was still very reactive. Plus he was also said to be depressed even when Lisanna passed.
What's the difference between all of them and Lucy?
the fact that he stayed. the fact that before he met Lucy, Natsu wasn't one to stay in a group or even want to work with anyone besides Happy at the start of the story. hell, he was ready to just file Lucy down as "New Guildmate" once they reached Fairy Tail
but then, Lucy doesn't leave. she follows him on his mission to save Macao despite her not needing to or even really understanding everything about it. she stays and then fights with him and saves him. it's no secret that Natsu is strong and can take care of himself really well. he's been going on solo missions for years now, and no one has really stopped him, but that means he's been in a lot of sticky situations where he and Happy are on their own and have no backup. and yet, without asking, Lucy offers it

and i think this is the moment when Natsu considers that maybe it's okay to have someone there to have his back (sans Happy)


"but Natsu only needed Lucy for the next quest because of the requirements," well, Natsu also wouldn't have taken or even considered that quest if it weren't for Lucy, yeah? he was not a team player (in the picking job's sense) or really wanted other people to help him on his quests sans Happy. and then he goes and picks a job that caters to their team whilst ensuring that Lucy can't say no

or maybe i'm reading too much into it 🤷🏻♀️
or maybe Natsu's got horrible abandonment issues that he will latch onto people so fast (Igneel & Lisanna) but also cause him to distance himself so far when left behind (his 1st time at the guild, Lisanna's death). Erza and Gray are Natsu's closest friends after Lisanna and yet they cannot reach him when he closes himself off. and then we have Lucy, who stuck by and had his back, so who is to say Natsu didn't make some contingencies to ensure whether or not she'd join him?
but maybe it's the rose, colored ship glasses i have on
because yeah, Natsu cares for all of his guildmates. the power of friendship is his biggest motivator. when we meet Natsu, our first introductions of him is defending his guild's reputation from Bora (who was using it as a guise for human trafficking) and saving Macao. and our 1st big arc (Galuna Island), where Natsu adamantly refuses to allow Gray to use Ice Shell and sacrifice himself despite how antagonistic they've been to each other. we get Natsu 100% at Erza's defense throughout the Tower of Heaven and he is even ready to defend Wendy though they only met hours ago
Natsu is a character with a bleeding heart and cannot help but wear it on his sleeve, but we don't really see him allow others to fight his battles or have his back until Lucy comes in. to be honest, i don't even think he had his heart on his sleeve until Lucy. he still has a bleeding heart (i don't think anything could stop that), but he was not ready to be open in receiving company because he was so used to it being ripped away from him
that being said: of all the characters he interacts with, he finds Lucy to be someone compatible enough for him to start going on team missions and inviting her on them (for example, his 1st S-class mission, which he stole, he went to her house to show it to her. the fact that part of the reward was a celestial key might be a coincidence, but i wouldn't doubt it as Natsu and Happy's trump card in case she refused)
but yeah, the difference is that he stayed and didn't push her away at the beginning, but instead continued to invite her along with him to the point that doing a mission without Lucy wasn't his regular anymore. compared to the rest of the guild, of whom he spent most of his childhood with, even if he spoke to no one, they would still be around and talk to him anyway. he might not invite them on job and only challenge them to fights, but the guild is his home and a constant in his life, a constant he needs (bc heavy abandonment issues).
"okay, but he still pushed her away after he watched Igneel die right in front of him. and he left the guild for a whole year, too. so what's the difference there?" you may ask.
so 1) Natsu never thought the guild would disband. he returns to Fiore after a year and is the last to know that they disbanded. he assumed, like all the other times before and while he and others were sealed for 7 years, that Fairy Tail would still be there when he returned. he assumed that his disappearance would not impact so hard because the guild would still be around and Lucy would have the others with her
which, did not happen :)
and like, so many guild members go off on jobs, quests, or even just leave for an indiscriminate amount of time (which i, personally, believe was his rationality for leaving), so him being gone for a year was nothing! right? no harm, eh? his plan was never to be gone forever :))))
2) he just watched his father die and lost any chance of having some semblance of a long term reunion with Igneel. he literally lost one of his main driving motivations for getting stronger and taking jobs. before Fairy Tail, before anyone, it was Igneel. and to learn that a) Igneel was always with him to begin with and b) he only got to see him for less than a day after 14 years of nothing......i would feel lost too ngl
man's needed space from everybody. and he also needed comfort, but Natsu has been shown not to really be the character who asks to receive comfort (and when he does receive it, it's usually when he's already emotionally compromised). he is in the habit of shutting people out after being abandoned or losing someone close to him, with his next rationale being to "get stronger" in order to prevent what happened in the past to ever happen in the future.
anyway
what makes this different? well for one, he sent the letter only to Lucy (or it's implied since no one else is shown getting one) because of how the two spend most of their time together. even the line that goes with the panel makes it sound like Natsu is unsure on how the note will be received (maybe even hesitant? but that could be my own hopes)

and one of the 1st people he reunites with after a year is Lucy and we get such a similar parallel to the first chapter of Fairy Tail between the two as if the narrative itself is slotting them together to say "ah yes, now everything is back to normal and new journeys can begin"
but yeah, this is just a long way of saying, that Natsu does love his friends and guildmates but even when he is close to them, he kept to himself (and Happy) and sort of stayed in their orbit but always with some emotional distance because of his fear of abandonment. and then you have Lucy where he will stay for and allow her to orbit around him and he will invite to new adventures no questions asked
that's the difference
#this is 100% unrelated but reading the older chapters had me realize how Cana's hair is a lot curlier than in the anime#my girlie's waves got straightened T^T and they were so gorgeous too#also love the translator's notes at the end of each volume <3#fill me with so much joy and why they chose to go in what direction for each translation#this post is longer than i thought oops#like i was gonna leave it at 'bc Natsu stayed for her' and then be done#but no i can't just leave it there and not back it up#also me saying Natsu stayed for Lucy is not me trying to undermine his other relationships in the guild#Natsu's bonds with Fairy Tail are the very core of this story so to say that he loved any of his guildmates less would not be right#his love for Lucy is different#it started the same but shifted as the arcs progressed#his priorities with her are different than they are with his friends and guildmates despite being on a fairly even level#fun fact! i started writing this 6 hours ago. had class. got distracted w/ old ft plot while searching for manga panels. and now we're here#btw: this is not excusing Natsu's act of leaving without so much of a warning. this is just explaining his personal rationale and emotions.#ofc Lucy was right to feel upset and betrayed for being left behind by Natsu and then to be alone bc the guild disbanded. i would too!#but we aren't talking about that. we're talking about what makes Natsu's feelings for Lucy different from the rest of the guild#also sorry i got a little lazy with the manga panels after the first couple T^T and mayhaps distracted (rereading Igneel's death is sO fun!#fairy tail#natsu dragneel#nalu#fairy tail nalu#ft meta#also like how natsu loves is very open and through action#no matter whether its familial or platonic or romantic#how he shows it is the same fierce protectiveness and attentiveness#personally i see natsu's love being in equal fervor for all. none really trump over the other. they're just different
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you know britpicking? like where an american writes a fanfic set in england, or with an english character, and they get an english friend to look through it and check through it to see if the terms and phrases are accurate? (eg. flat instead of apartment)
well i propose there be such a concept for star trek
because people in star trek talk differently than modern humans. they use different words, different slang, phrasings. yes, they can speak casually but mostly it isn't like us. watch any of 90s trek and you'll see These People Do Not Speak Like Us
and, no disrespect, a lot of fic does not reflect this. and it irks me. they just speak like modern day people instead of... star trek characters. i personally think part of the fun of writing trek characters is writing it out to how they speak and how they would think
hell, this isnt even a fanfic problem. modern trek has this issue too. i think outta laziness. they have their people talking (and when in casual wear, dressing) like 2020s people and it pisses me off
its part of why strange new worlds feels like a high budget SNL skit
annnnyways. i propose this idea be called fact trekking
#i came up with that pun literally just now and im so proud#im fucking pedantic okay#i understand that fanfic is transformative works but#it makes my eye twitch when they dont talk like star trek characters#i'd be lenient and allow swearing! even though use of the word ''fuck'' makes me flinch in moment trek. use it in fics. fine#an interesting little example is that trek characters rarely if at all refer to their job as ''work''#you ever notice that? they tend to say ''i'm on duty'' or ''i have a shift'' or something like that. never ''i have work''#uhm. chronometer instead of clock. they use 24 hour time instead of am/pm#and they say it way more than regular 24 time users#like. i use 24 hour and i still say things like 3 pm#but a star trek character would call that ''fifteen hundred hours''. even casually. this is ALWAYS the case#another one thats been BUGGING me: guys. i promise you. trek characters use minced oaths#they say ''oh god'' or ''oh dear god'' or ''oh my god'' and variations upon. they dont have cultural christianity but its still a thing#they just never use ''jesus christ'' as a minced oath. never ever. but i promise you a trek character can say ''oh my god''#they do it lots of times in canon. so its baffling and annoying#how often in fic i see trek characters saying ''oh stars'' and ''oh my stars'' ????? what the fuck guys. thats not a thing!#yeah most characters in trek are agnostic or athiest but that doesnt mean they cant use god as an exclamation#that doesnt apply in real life does it. and the ''stars'' thing is just. not a thing at all in canon. shut up#you wanna avoid religious reference so much it makes you look stupid. comes across as immature and petulant#its the ''religion doesnt exist in the future'' crowd i just know it is. but i digress#ohhh and not even just phrasings. theres also when theres just shit that doesnt conform to how federation society people would think#trek itself has this problem too because modern thinking sneaks in but OH MY GOSH THEY WOULDNT HAVE COMPHET#WHY WOULD THEY HAVE COMPHET AND SEXISM AND HOMOPHOBIA. it doesnt! go with! federation culture!#julian bashir has not felt internalized queerphobia a second in his life. why would he. what would cause that#sorry. that shit is a trek fandom peeve of mine. can y'all remind yourselves these people are from the 24th century#and their culture and way of thinking would be different. im saying these to actual trek writers too. sigh. have some imagination#julian has other serious issues. but having issues with being bi would not be one of them. you're making stuff up with no sensible basis#reading some fic or watching some trek like: ...okay does this writer even wanna write for trek#notice im not talking about treknobabble cuz that shit is over my head. i mean day to day manner of speech and certain ways of thinking
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i don't think i'll ever get over the comedic timing of being prepared to intubate an obtunded patient going into worse and worse shock on three pressors code cart in room pads on having like six people all staring at the vitals anxiously as this person might code at ANY MOMENT, me standing at the head of the bed ready to tube the second we have a safe BP and the nurse from two doors down comes into the room and says, 'hey doc, room x is in asystole' and just. walks away.
i'm just. standing there. peri-coding this patient. and i'm calling after him 'uh.... are they supposed to be?!'
absolutely insane delivery. no context no info just 'hey, btw this person's heart stopped. :) bye ' HELLO!?!
#last night was just. something out of a med drama/comedy#keep in mind that i'm. at the moment. spending no more than 2-3 shifts a MONTH in the ICU. on NIGHT SHIFT.#it has been a month. i walk in. 3 admits in past hour#one that hasn't been seen#need to eval her real quick. ok.#start my PM rounds. look at one of the 'admits' through the door#completely obtunded not moving not responding to sternal rub....like ok. not good.#ok. 'hey can i get an ABG and the bipap?' to RT. vitals ok for now but i just KNOW he's hypercapnic#keep rounding. come to panicked nurse#patient in horrible septic shock super young maxed on 4 pressors would like an art line and triple lumen.#ok. 'can you get the line cart? i'll stop by after we finish rounding if it can wait 10 more mins'#ok. we're downstairs. charge nurse gets called.#'um that patient thats obtunded their pH is 6.8'#'welp. thats not compatible with life. time to intubate.' i tell her the meds to pull and she runs ahead#SOMEONE ASKS ME TO TRANSITION INSULIN DRIP TO SQ IN THAT MOMENT?! its just like. bro. that can wait (i still do it)#now we're in the room. pushing meds. he's becoming shockier. .crash cart please. pads on just in case.#nurse comes in. just saying 'hey room x is in asystole' super casually. i'm like what#apparently they were on comfort care and it was expected#which is HOW HE SHOULD HAVE LEAD THAT SENTENCE?!? LMAO#listen. i did not sit down or start documenting for the first 7 HOURS of my shift#and the craziest thing is that like. 5 people died during my shift. FIVE.#(all not unexpected and not needing to be coded but still. that is. not normal.)#and i come in to hand off. and the doc i hand off to is like#'yeah the most i've ever had die on one of my shifts is 8'#like bro are you trying to ONE UP ME?! on THIS?#medical tw#i was really lucky. the charge and the two floats were STELLAR. i sincerely dont know what i would have done without them#there were many other difficult things on that shift that don't feel appropriate to share#anyway watch the pitt. its exceedingly medically accurate. all my ER friends love it
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a tired knight being spoiled by her prince for a day. maybe he adds too much sugar to her tea, maybe he undercooks her eggs and burns her sausage. but the fact that someone did it for her makes it a feast worthy of the gods
#the bugs are back#regency kink#i am. so tired.#like both mentally (look at the state of the world)#and physically (i got like 3 hours of sleep(i have 6 1/2 hours left of my shift (i unload trucks)))#oh AND i have schoolwork#like#a whole paper I've been procrastinating on#if someone could spoil me for a day i would kill and die for you#please#please let me kill for you
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WAIT i never complained abt my scheduling lol. still have not seen my actual boss more than that one five seconds and me and main coworker are supposed to work coverage out amongst ourselves bc thats more relevant fine and okay. but i ask her about what i should switch to going more part time and off of being Fulltime In Training and she says oh ill talk to [boss] about it. and then does and tells me oh [boss] wants to talk to u about that today or tomorrow.
she never does and shes never in her office so i dont hear anything by friday when i work w my second coworker. who i dont really think either of us vibes w the other lol weve been nice but im happy not to work w her. and the feeling is mutual bc she told me oh is this ur last friday i didnt think u were working [boss] told me u were going to be switching to mon-thru-thursday. OKAY? thats really funnily pointed but WHY DID SHE TELL U AND NOT MEEEEEEE. why cant i just know what im working more than two days in advance lolllllll. i am not made for this pwease.
#ITS ALSO ONE DAY MORE THAN I WAS PREPARED TO WORK. its fine but#another thing i havent been told: how long my shifts are supposed to be??? i just stay till the end of my main coworkers shifts bc#eventually ill have days by myself so i want to be used to what the last hour is like#but second coworker kicked me out early first time i worked w her (again: lol) bc i 'already worked my eight hours' WAS I SUPPOSED TO#KNOW IM ONLY SUPPOSED TO WORK EIGHT HOURS. no ones been stopping me but if i stay the last hour mon-thru-thursday#thatll put me over the 20-30 hours. like. halftime employment classification im in. am i getting anyone in trouble for that am i#wasting labor hours or something lol. I DONT KNOW. NO ONE TELLS ME ANYTHING#BWAHH!!!!!!!!!#i really wanted to be all set to like. approach my assertive communication properly from the start here lol i want to start#acting like im thirty but ive been thrown for such a loop since the first surprise shift and then had zero time to catch my breath and#a million other stressors that take up any energy or fucks i would have for chasing down answers kjsfg WHATEVER!!!!!#give me overtime and extra pay then <3 until anyone tells me otherwise
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finally got a job offer but its through a federal program and the interviewer told me shit might be delayed bc of the administrstion 🙃 works not supposed to start till march anyways so hopefully things get sorted out by then
#i still have an application out with a state department and idk if theyre even interviewing before march so possible plan B#if plan B goes im getting a fucking dog#i want one so bad and its so hard to resist while i have all my unemployed free time#plan A is not good 4 doggie bc the drive to work is 45 min every day#which would leave me with like. 3 hours to give the dog IF its a normal 8hr shift
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its gonna take me longer than i was hoping but actually i think i got this.
#i wanted to turn in one final either today or tomorrow and i think i'm gonna have to keep going until the due date#and my other final i thought would have me up all night for three days straight before the due date#but so long as I make a good chunk of progress daily ..#i think i wont be at risk of failing#THANK GODD LIKE#whewelkwdjfalksdjf#but also. i just have to chug thru lol#gotsa go back to my ROOTS of staying up all night functioning on no hours of sleep#i worked 6am whole foods shifts on 2 hrs of sleep DAYS IN A ROW I CAN DO THIS#jason todd please save me jason todd#but also. he'd want me to get my english teaching degree .. so like. </3. can't fail him. english major *ss.#or not tbh idk#im gonna graduate and then im gonna get my fucking graduation dinner and then im gonna smoke SO MUCH WEED#caitie blabs
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i NEED to get a little treat or ill go insane
#this close to opening the first shopping site that passes me and buying smt i dont need#currently 13 hours into this work shift only got like 2 more hopefully... 3 hours from now i could b sleepin....#and then tomorrow i start early again!#ive been refreshing my artfight all day like art? art for rama? please? that would count as perfect little treat#it would fix me.#its like 2:30 AM so im probably just tired. i wanna go hooome i wanna sleeep but i have to WORK.#god i better get good money for this#in other news i look so good. sure ive been wearing platforms all day. at work. but it is worth it for fashion <3#soapte
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i hate that if i complain abt the culture of the company i work for (staffing one or two people for incredibly busy events that they had months to plan ahead for and then expecting/pressuring employees not to take their legally mandated break during those shifts) the only person who would get in trouble is the low level manager who was running the shift that night. they stick us in impossible situations so they can scapegoat us when anything goes wrong
#worked a rly hellish shift last night#didnt stop scooping for 3 hours while customers harassed us and shouted at us. like 5 and a half hours total of not sitting down at all#my arm is bruised today#they initially staffed one person for this event and i got asked the morning of to come help out#tickets for the event were sold MONTHS ago and the company knew that there would be thousands of people there#last month they staffed one person for a sold out [famous old punk band] concert#we're one of two food stands inside this concert space.
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At this point in time, I have friends that are getting paid well as phlebotomists and pharmacy techs, and it's making me wish I went to Job Corps. But hey, I actually don't want a career in those fields, and back in 2021 I tried to do cosmetology school at a junior college that used to be one of the best and the classes weren't even fucking open. I ended up dropping out because the classes I had to take sucked ass. I started a 250 hr yoga certification program in 2022 and I still haven't finished it (i only have to do 2 fucking things including the final test) because that shit doesn't guarantee stable income.
#so i work at restaurant#it's far away from home and sometimes the hours are shit#but its a weekly check and its hard to get fired 🧿#also#i would like to become a nanny#you need certifications and experience for that though#i have a friend who has early childhood education credits and has worked at schools before#(through a local job program)#she also mainly works at a restaurant#i know its a good thing but it takes FOREVER to get verified to work for my local school district#i wanted to become a campus aide or a after school program person but those are only 3 hr shifts
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If you annoy people for fun, don't be surprised when people don't like you
Work rant in tags. Didn't know there was a 30 tag limit lol
#one of the people in my department is sick so we pulled a out of department coworker to do her shift today#she is !! so annoying !!#doesnt do anything right doesnt take anything seriously thinks she knows what to do better than the people whove been there daily (ME.#im not going to make sandwiches 10 minutes before the lunch rush are you kidding me)#anyway. shes got 4 grown kids and has this job to fill her time (left 40 minutes early) and specifically told the evening shift that she#makes it a challenge to annoy people. for fun.#'teehee i put the spoons away head up cause [vic] doesnt like it and [they] put it back immediately' its not a prank when it violates-#food safety. and also it is literally making more work for me. i worked 2 hours with her and im exhausted today. i only have 4 hour shifts#literally like. puts nothing in the right space does nothing correctly or finishes something in one go leaves the Strangest messes#put me on my autistic back foot (the hotcase is supposed to be the same everyday. for us AND the customers. no one knows where anything is!!#regulars come in and glance at it to see if we have their things in there and theyre just walking away cause its in the wrong spot!!)#anyway. she made me do the donut pull and didnt dump her trash and also put the oven waxpaper on the trays in the sink.#and told me to Not clean the meat slicer cause ill need to use it for sandwiches (the cooler that we put our sandwich stuff in broke 2 weeks#ago so we are low on space everywhere and are trying to keep everything to a minimum. there were 3 tubs of meat sliced AND ALSO IT WAS 10.#MINUTES. TO RUSH. IM NOT MAKING SANDWICHES CARRIE. THERES LIKE 5 ALREADY OUT THERE I MADE YESTERDAY.)#srry she like implied-asked me to make some like 3 times while i was literally cleaning her mess.#i cant work in that kitchen if every surface is cluttered i will clean it before making a Bigger Mess.#anyway. she only works over here if someone is sick enough to call out w no cover which is like maybe once every 4 months so#she doesnt know how to do things. which would be fine if she recognized that. she does the hot case so wrong yall.#its usually [burritos; stick items; boat items] [corndogs; strips; (boat items or fries)] [fried chicken; (space or fries] [bakes chicken;#special of day and fries after its gone; space/special part 2 or fries] [sweet corn; mashed potato; mac n cheese; two kinds of gravy]#its mever that when she works even tho its NEVER DIFFERENT.#today it was [baked chicken; strips x2] [baked chicken 2; special;boats?] [fried chicken; fries] [corn dogs;burritos; CORN.] [STICKS.; mac#;mashed potato; gravys]#WHY DOES SHE MOVE THE CORN. ITS ALWAYS THE CORN. EVERYTHING ELSE MOVES AROIND BUT WHY IS THE CORN BOT IN THE ROW WITJ THE OTHER SIDES.#it bothers me so much but i cant Move things cause its a mess and its hot and i have mire important things to do like CLEAN HER MESS.#ugh. anyway she talked rrally hushed to the evening shift and i thinj he reassured her that im just like this (quiet/bad at talking) and do#like her and like. lmao. i dont but she doesnt need to know that. i was too overwhelmed by figuring out wtf she was doing to figure out to#talk to her#anyway (thats the third anyway i need to stop) she called me mellow so at least my stress wasnt showing too much
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it's literally not a good idea in any way shape or form but I want to get a second job in fast food
#it's not a good idea bc the wages are GARBAGE compared to retail#Macca's base rate for my age is less than half my sunday rate#and they don't get much beyond the base rate#whereas retail we have an incredible base rate AND more weekdays past 6pm and weekends (sat is the same as mon-fri 6pm#and sunday is significantly more)#and like yeah im not getting many shifts but if i were to ask for more I still wouldn't be able to work more than 4 hour shifts til july#bc my retail corporation is surprisingly ethical and extends the age limits by a lot#whereas my friend has a 7.5 half hour shift tomorrow AFTER school. on a week night 😁#which is actually horrifying and should nawwt be legal. thats school 9-3 (+20 min) then work 4-11:30 btw#like i should just wait til my birthday in july n ask for more shifts in retail but i want to try fast food#even though the pay is incredibly ridiculously bad (<10 AUD) (yes our adult minimum wage is a good ~23 but under 21 is a percentage of that#like the pay is so bad so i would earn the same or more doing wayy less hours than retail#but i kinda want to get the fast food experience bc it'll be more difficult to get hired as i age#bc i want to save up 20k for top surgery but at the rate im going it'll be difficult to have even thay#let alone savings after top surgery or money to get a car before#and as school gets more difficult it'll be harder to work more#so maybe i should just grind for a few months or til the end of the year then go back to retail exclusively?#and enjoy higher pay and some longer shifts?#but idkkk it's just such a dilemma bc i want more shifts than I'll get at retail but fast food pays so little#but i also really want the experience and to just try it out#im gonna. idk im gonna sit on it for a bit bc i want to get my legal name change sorted before i apply to any second jobs and that will#take a while#so i shall consider. draw up a timetable. write a pros and cons list#yes that sounds like a solid plan#whoop typo but im on mobile i meant 'wayy less hours IN retail'#oscar.exe
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my job wants me gone so bad , like 1 month in and they have already brought out their no effort in communication and gaslighting full force, and telling me much of the work I am doing is wrong and accusing me of not doing the basic things like stocking, that I try so hard and am sure to keep up with being the only person working at a time? like if they are going to do this at least do it while i am on the clock..
#this morning i kept apologizing for doing what i was told and trained to do and the lady sent so many messages of 'well I don't remember#telling you' over n over like ??? so then i had to apologize for her not remembering which like no one does that#to that extent unless they are trying to affect you negatively and or try to get you to say something they can use against you#like ive been abused enough i know how it goes 🙃 ??#and then they are like 'why would you be stupid and put in so much effort when you work the busiest shifts of the week?'#when like literally ive got a good eye for design and decent with sales so like i will touch a merchandise make it more presentable#and suddenly the next people coming in will be drawn to the item to buy like im their little magical willy wonka like they said they wanted#on their original job listing#and ofc there is no mention of how the floor is no longer just perpetual dirt mud to slather around bc i actually cleaned the floor#instead of doing there method of just mopping by putting a mop back in dirty mop water.. like you can visibly see the floor crusted when it#is like that and i wont even start on the dust#nor any mention to how the backroom hasnt remained cluttered from extra my extra tidying or severely cluttered by all the work i did#the last two days#just how i have consistently done a bad job not even keeping up with the basics apparently this entire time 😐#anyways 3 hours of my day Wasted and unpaid from how much they made me cry like there is so much more bot mentioned i hate itf
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Why do modes of transport designed for extended periods of sitting, have the most uncomfortable seats? You want me to sleep on these? Babe, I can't even sit without pain
#travel tag#ace is a sleepy bean#i had like 2 hours of sleep before my shift on sunday#and now all ive managed since then is 3 hours of fitful dozing and pins and needles#me taking the hands of coach train and plane seat designers and hitting them with their damn seat cushions#it would kill them dead those fckers are so solid#and theres no DAMN LEG ROOM!!#im by no means tall and yet i aint got nowhere to put me limbs
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that night of the consumers game is genuinely how I feel at work
#dip speaks#i mean im night shift and unload the trucks#but sometimes we dont have one so im on the floor instead#and like. yeah it's basically a horror game#dont talk to me <3#luckily even if im on the floor i only have to deal with it for 3 hours before the store closes#i think if i had to deal with customers my entire shift i would die
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I need to go to bed but Magnus keeps taking up space in my brain :( he makes me so happy but alas my brain can not shut off like that
#I NEED to draw him....... but I have 3 12 hour shifts upcoming :((((((#and also that would mean getting out of bed to draw :(#but I NEED to draw him like it's such a hard needd like pleaseeeeeee#I can't wait for lectures to start up again so I can go back to my usual groove of not absolutely being worked like a horse ploughing earth#I need to quit my job but unfortunately I need to find one beforehand#one that will somehow take in a student part-time that ISN'T an understaffed grocery store desparate for workers#bigeloo.txt
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