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Been dealing with some really bad self esteem shit lately...
#had big cries today#still kinda teary#basically imposter syndrome to the max#except like you know how imposter syndrome suggests you actually DO belong somewhere?#idk I just feel really stupid and like a fake#and im scared im doing bad shit#I'm afraid im in the wrong field#like I don't belong here#things with my supervisor have been meh#he has hinted at it a bit but maybe i read too much into it idk#the suggestion that I might be in the wrong field#and I feel it bc I feel so fucking stupid all the time#like I never know what I'm doing#and I don't even have anything to validate myself#just feeling like shit#like I don't belong#it's hard bc people always say everyone is like that - everyone is faking it#except I am SEEING people NOT faking it#im SEEING people do the right thing that i don't know how to do#and I feel so stupid#im just scared#idk#personal vent
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"Friends don't look at friends that way" I think some of you just need to be nicer to your friends.
#I'm gonna tag this as aromantic but just know I don't mean it as strictly aromantic#Like I know most the time we are all just having fun and what not#But..have yall never smiled at your friends? Do you not look fondly at your friends?? Like hello!?#I am confusion#Aromantic#aromanticis
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the easy grip on the knife. the leg over the seat. the hand over the other seat. the sassy "come get it" move. you know the bitch is smiling behind that mask even as he said the line.
#i can't believe i'm saying this#DEADPOOL CAN GET IT#Logan I'm sobbing I understand why you lunged at him#I would too bestie#it's the sass for me folks#paint that car white as much as they painted it red my god#a deadpool thirst post? from me? more likely than you'd think#this is a branch in realities i know it#i've never had Feelings for this motherfucker until this movie#all i'm left with is anger now because WHAT DOES HE WANT FROM ME#camera crew could have just made it landscape but noooooo they had to do a medium shot of this son of a bitch#i'm sending an especially affectionate fuck you in ryan reynolds' direction#i love how you love deadpool#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#wade wilson#logan howlett#poolverine#deadclaws#don't get me wrong i've always adored deadpool's personality. nobody's that hilarious and not have humongous balls i mean trauma.#but i've never went 'why he kinda' until this specific shot right here#@ camera crew why the fuck did you zoom in? WHY?#for me? well it's infuriating#do it again#gif is credit to the owner#30 tags aren't enough for me to dismantle how this shot made me feel. tumblr you gotta update#damn tumblr i'm tryna feed a village here#guys just find my other post
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A h-heartfelt reunion..?
Bonus
#Sir Crocodile#Monkey D Dragon#Emporio Ivankov#Dragodile#Crocodad#My art#One Piece#We're not gonna talk about the work I should be doing rn I have Severe Procrastinitis and I'm doing my best okay#Alternative version where it was both Crocodile and Garp beating Dragon's ass before Iva-chan joined in but that was too much effort lmao#I'm a believer in Dragon being a Wind Logia so don't worry guys he is 100% taking this beating intentionally#He knows what he did and he's dealing with the concequences of his actions. With grace.#You know I realize Iva-chan should be two whole meters taller than Crocodile but we're just gonna ignore that#Look Iva-chan taking Crocodile's side and being like ''Crocoboy is right you fucked up bad Dragon'' brings me joy#And for real I've been wanting to draw this for months. But never did because I had other shit to do. Which I still do#But. You know. Sometimes you need to draw a shitpost. It's ✨ self-care ✨#And appearently One Piece shitpost comics have become the thing I draw for myself on occassion
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once again, don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
(eventually I will get back to being less scribbly, whoops)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#oh cater. cater cater cater.#i'm so sorry but riddle is the absolute funniest person to look at and be like#'actually yeah i think this is good. let's stick with this one.'#no it's great it's amazing cater is amazing actually#guy who has never had a long-term friendship in his life 🤝 other guy who has never had a long-term friendship in his life#those two guys 🤝 third guy who sees the hollow voids inside them and immediately goes 'i need to fill that with food'#in this house we heart the heart senpais#fucking love how freaked out cater was by punk riddle#who is this. this is not his jousama. :(#(i do think one of the things cater likes about riddle is that he looks like he should act really cute but he is in fact A Bastard)#(a riddle who enthusiastically calls him caykun and is just kinda adorable is wrong on an intrinsic level)#cater once they hit the second level of dreaming: okay he's actively trying to kill us but at least i know how to deal with this#god. the hug. i'm not okay#that said i can't wait until after episode 7 when it finally occurs to riddle to ask what their dreams were#cater: oh uh...you know. :) stuff :)#trey: oh mine was actually -- cater what are you doing. put the teapot down.#(the rest of this scene has been redacted for everyone's benefit)
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Last night I dreamed I baked banana bread.
But not just any banana bread.
I dreamed that I made the banana bread like normal. But then!
Then I thinned some peanut butter with milk (????) and melted some chocolate and thinned that with milk, too, and then put them into separate baggies, and put those baggies into a third baggie so their corners were all aligned. I cut the overlapping corner to make a squeezy bag like for frosting where they would both come out together but not mixed, and then I dipped the tip of it into the banana bread batter and swirled peanut butter and chocolate into it.
THEN I baked it.
I explained my dream to my neighbor and she gave me bananas and told me to make my dreams come true. So. I'm gonna try it tomorrow.
#baking#banana bread#recipes#why milk#i will never know#but I'm going to do it exactly like my dream if i can#and see what happens
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We didn't even get an answer, and we never will (at least it's not determination)
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
#deltarune#undertale#utdr#crossover comic#undertale fanart#deltarune fanart#art#twin runes#twin runes comic#kris dreemurr#frisk#chara#ralsei#aaaaah chara is slowly figuring out what they are#are you onto it too?#but I'm with susie let's get on with the story already!#for those who haven't picked up on it#this comic and the last one are poking fun at the whole “what does the red soul represent” debate in the fandom#especially under the last comic i've seen people viciously arguing with one another on other platforms#or people from both camps yelling at me#fact is we know that every human soul has determination due to the log entries in the true lab and the amalgamates#some humans just can have more and others less of it#that is what chara is pointing out about kris specifically#they have a red soul but less determination than most humans#the comic ends on a non-answer because unless we get toby's word on it we will never know what it is#and that is kinda a toby fox move#we will never get his answer#all we can do is theorize#personally I like to think it's love#especially in the context of this comic series
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the duality of man [🍎]
#caleb#love and deepspace#caleb lads#love and deepspace caleb#lnds#lads#lads fanart#mydrawings#i need to practice his face some more#i just feel like he's so handsome and i'm never doing him justice#whoever designed him deserves a raise and a kiss goodnight#caleb is honestly the most handsome 3d man i've ever seen#i love love his hooded eyes#i'd let him squeak my pip any day#i know that didn't make sense but you get what i mean
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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5 PhDs + 1
@lalalaurieart happy birthday! I offer you one of my silly headcanons
None of Robotnik's degrees are in medicine. Why should he care about that? His interest in the human body ends with his own. That is, until one time when Stone got really hurt, and the Doctor could do nothing. He coped by... teaching himself everything there is to know about medicine! He's very normal like that. Never bothered getting a degree for that one though.
#lalastobotnik#stobotnik#doctor ivo robotnik#agent stone#sonic movie universe#robotnik really pushed himself here. he didn't sleep for days#he's currently in worse shape than stone who got shot in the chest#this comic was a bit of a struggle for me. i kept wondering if the jokes ruined it?#like should i be serious for once?#but joking is my thing. i love joking#so i went well then i can avoid the serious part#but that didn't feel right either#i tried to find a balance. i don't know if i managed#cw blood#also sleeveless turtleneck because... because.#stone would never give the doctor his recipe unless he genuinely thought he was dying#because those lattes are one of the only things he feels he can do for the doctor#you know. something that makes him irreplaceable#robotnik kinda understands it but he doesn't think about it too much#yeah i'm a bit nervous about this one can you guys tell?#let me know what you think maybe
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Nautica gets the Favourite Child™ privileges
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#I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME ANIMATE#I don't know what I'm doing actually#does that stop me? no#Nautica can do whatever she wants no consequences#she tickled Megs like cmon man...#I feel like Megatron would like her and Lotty a lot and be indulgent and easy-going with them#I mean they're the only ones who never directly experienced any harm that came with the war#Nautica and Lotty only heard of Megatron's crimes from stories#like- to them he's the grumpy captain first#kinda scary and serious but he knows what he's doing#the “warlord that killed and conquered for 4 million years” part comes second#SHE FUCKIN TICKLED HIM I WILL NEVER GET OVER THIS#ah and there's Rodimus in the background#idk why I put him there but bro is flabbergasted#let him be#God I love Nautica so much#my beloved girl#maccadam#transformers#transformers fanart#megatron#idw megatron#nautica#idw nautica#mtmte#tf mtmte#my artt#animated gif
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i'm ready to try
#This drawing is kind of personal to me#I recently graduated (CUM LAUDE WOOOO!!!!) and its like. not to get depressing#but when i was younger i was never sure whether i would make it to this point#When i was going through what i consider to still be like. the worst time of my entire life#This fictional character was there for me and she was something for me to latch onto and cope with#eGem helped me a lot with being able to process my emotions at the time but also helped me to reflect on myself#which i think is a big reason as to why I'm really happy with where i am with myself right now#I'm going off to uni next school year to study astronomy!!! which!!!#Im also doing because of eGem!!! She ignited this kind of childlike wonder for space for me#I love doing math and physics and whilst Im still a bit scared because. honestly i don't know whether this is what i want to do with my lif#I think i'll be okay either way#either way i wanted to draw egem again even if i haven't done so in a while because its like#i think i wouldnt be who i am without her. i think i'd be a lot worse off#so like. thank you empires smp thank you geminitay thank you egem This drawing is me expressing my gratitude#AND THANK YOU AUTISM!#empires smp#empires smp s1#empiresblr#esmp#geminitay#art#fanart#alice.art#mcyt#mcytblr#song is andromeda by weyes blood... obv.. you guys know me by now :oP
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I feel like steddies are always going for bi steve/gay eddie but consider: comphet gay steve/bi eddie. I'm so sure someone's said this before but...consider with me, ok?
consider a young child steve whose father still works in hawkins but is never with the family, leaving steve with his mother and his mother's girl-friends. they talk all about their husbands and their families and one day steve, all innocent, asks his mom, "when will I get a husband?"
his mother clutches her chest and says, "oh no, stephen, that isn't how that works."
steve who confusedly nods along and goes with it.
steve who chastises himself every time he catches himself staring in the locker room, or in gym, or at swim meets.
steve who finds himself, years later, confused as to why he can't find himself feeling for the girls he dates the way they do for him.
steve who convinces himself that he'll find the right girl one day.
consider steve sitting on the floor of the starcourt bathrooms with robin, covered head to toe in vomit and blood. and this is it, right? this is the part where he gets the girl. and something in him cringes at the thought. something in him says, no, you don't want her.
he brushes it off as king steve telling him who he should and shouldn't date.
and then robin starts panicking and talking about tammy thompson (oh.) and suddenly they're singing muppets and steve has this paradigm shift because he doesn't have to get the girl.
it takes him a couple months and one "don't ya, big boy?" to make him realize that he doesn't have to get the girl.
and it's funny - honestly, it is - because robin comes out and so does will and eddie is...himself, but steve thinks to himself, well, that's good for them, but it could never be me.
and he keeps saying that it could never be him until the split second before he realizes it is him.
it could never be him, he thinks, but rocky horror picture show is playing in the background and eddie leans into his space and talks all about how sexy rocky's body is and somehow that leads to jocks and somehow that leads to, "so what do you like, steve?"
and somehow that leads to a strained and breathless, "I think I like you, eddie."
and then they're kissing, and steve is desperately pawing at eddie's collar, unsure where to put his hands. it's a blur, and all steve really registers is that they're kissing, and then-
and then steve starts crying. silently, at first, and in the heat of the moment, unnoticeable, except then steve is pushing eddie away and eddie looks hurt.
"I read that wrong, didn't I?" says eddie.
steve gulps in air, face red, and barely manages out a "no".
"...no?"
"I don't think I like girls, eddie. but I like you."
"you know you can like both, right? I mean, I do."
steve nods, then shakes his head. "I think I just like boys, eddie."
"oh, okay."
eddie leans in for another kiss.
#i don't know whether i like this best with a teary conversation about identity and steve feeling like he's somehow failed at life#or with steve just going with it and never mentioning girls ever again#robin's like “oh that girl is cute!”#and steve's side-eyeing her like “for you maybe”#steve fully ditches the straight guy persona and is kissing eddie's cheeks in front of all their friends and bitching at nancy about her#poor fashion choices#nancy is an ally and fully supportive of steve's sexuality#but this does not stop her homophobia increasing 1% every time steve looks at her skirts like “that's a choice.”#the party is absolutely terrified of this new development#not will though#...must i explain myself#corroded coffin is confused but very supportive#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#oh also i'm totally projecting here 💀💀 i've hardly come to terms with the idea that i'm aspec#idk what to do about the fact that i find women kinda hot#send prayers (and edits of natalia dyer. good god.)
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I loved your drawing(and I love your style in general) with Leia in your recent post! If/when you have time can we see more of her in your style? I get so happy whenever I actually see people mention/talk about her and she’s not just forgotten because we didn’t get to see much of her. 😭
thank you! 💙💙💙 Leia/Leah/Lea/whatever is fascinating to me. she is the ultimate unknown. what was she like? how involved (or even aware of any details of the invasion) was she? Silver's basically a physical carbon copy of his biodad, so what did he get from her? like, I understand why the two of them kind of have to stay as these super vague and mysterious figures -- the whole point of them is that their story ended 400+ years ago and they're not really relevant anymore (and. well. the more that gets explained about them, the less that can just kinda be handwaved as "oh the politics were Very Messy") (we can sit here and theorize all day but let us acknowledge that, ultimately, canon gave us almost nothing about them post-Meleanor and we'd just be making things up). I do still wonder about her though! RIP Lea, we never knew you and we probably never will.
actually you know what, as long as we're here, I think I WILL go ahead and just make some stuff up about what Silver might've inherited from her instead.
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#there may be answers somewhere that i just forgot about so uhhh if so#whoops ( ᐛ )#having one of those art days where chances are good i'm just gonna wake up and throw this post out the window so be warned#but yeah idk. i've talked before about the parallels between silver and dawnatello and how i see him as basically bad end silver#he chose the easy option that let him stay loyal and fulfill the obligation he felt to his adoptive family#he knew it wasn't right and that he was being manipulated but he went along with it anyway until it was too late#i think he ultimately had a good heart but my man folded under the slightest bit of social pressure like a wet mcmuffin#so while i'm continuing to make things up out of whole cloth i wanna say that by contrast#lea never had a chance to do shit but if she had i like to think she would've had a spine like galvanized steel#like just personally i don't think she knew much about what the silver owls were actually doing#seriously does henrik seem like the kind of person who would tell her shit about anything#i think he basically took advantage of their dad's failing health to go off and be a warmonger#and if he thought about lea at all it was to be like :) you stay here and do boring domestic princess stuff#while i tell your husband to Do It For Her#i mean this is 100% me writing baseless fanfic here#i just think it'd be fun if the part of silver that was IMMEDIATELY like 'actually no. we aren't doing this.' might've come from her#she just never got a chance to show it#(it didn't seem to come from the knight is all i'm saying)#lilia might've given silver a billion complexes but at least he raised him to do the right thing#man someone left a reply or reblog on an older post and i cannot find it so i apologize for the lack of credit BUT they pointed out#that one of the big differences between silver and the knight is that the knight's family did not really seem to like him very much and lik#yeah i think so. lea might've been the exception there for him.#rip ma'am we'll never know if you deserved better or not
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doodled your little guys!!! I have so many thoughts about them. As someone who lives in Italy it has been absolutely wonderful seeing your characters express the country's culture and history!!! It's not often that I see characters be based off Italian history in such an artistic manner.. But that might be me living under a rock, LOL. Anyhow, keep doing what you do, YOU ROCK!!!!
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#aaa you're too sweet! ;_;#and the art!!#I don't know what you did but I love the way they look in your style#they seem so expressive and alive and your linework has such wonderful almost animated fluidity to it#that swooping line from the tip of Machete's ear to his cheek fluff? such a shape#their faces are priceless#Vasco's little blep and Machete's blush and squiggly mouth#thank you so much! you've warmed my heart#gift art#limelemonchi#Vasco#Machete#own characters#it genuinely means a lot to me when someone from Italy says they like my dogs#I'm Finnish so I'm never going to have the insider experience and the full picture of someone who lives there#and sometimes it really worries me like what if I get things wrong and I'm not only embarrassing myself#but also disappointing people who thought I do my research well#but I'm doing my best and I always welcome feedback and tips to make the setting more believable if you want to give them#whether it's the original canon or the modern au#I mean it when I say the history and culture of Italy are extraordinarily rich and interesting#I've been reading about them long before these two came to be#it's a meeting spot for many of my special interests some of which I've had since I was a preschooler
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Chez le Père Lathuille by Édouard Manet, but make it Good Omens! Muriel is very confused but she's investigating them because she is a human police officer
#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#fanart#my art#Truly my magnum opus but I'm never doing this again#I don't think I had ever and will ever draw a better Crowley#And I don't know what spirit possesed me but thank you spirit#This took longer than I'd like to admit but it was worth it... I think it helped me understand colour theory a bit better#I would colour pick the tree leaves from the original painting (that were clearly green) and the colourwheel would be just brown... like how#Tbf half (if not everything) of the background was just varying shades of brown and yellow#And it worked#Goddamned sorcery#But Manet's one of my favorite “old artists” so staring at his work trying to decipher the logic behind his sorcery was fun
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