#lied to get what she want

[born-anew-crushed-by-you]

Last 3 nights in a row. Thoughts of you & only you just live rent free in my head.

Today while at work, thought of you, rushed so fast to my phone to message you. Just to realize, that your gone.

Barely been getting sleep, craving just the simple sound of your voice.

To have one thought. One idea to a thought for you and I to be a fool for craving let alone wanting someone who can't even stand me let alone be near me.

Thanks I guess? Idk so much just killing me inside lately.. honestly wish I was heard but I barely a word any more. Guess you could say. I don't even have the energy any more.

Feels like broken glass and egg shells everywhere to everything I say. Crave to say and express, but honestly,I've lost that voice, not sure that its lost by any means... it was taken & tossed, from craving to say & express...

To Crave, to just keeping my self to staying & saying for my self to shut up.

Not a word not a peep, not from me. As i found out, shutting up is key to now just to be craving to be held in just silents, to feel touch, a grip, to be worth just a few words.

But know I'm not safe as I craved your safety but knowing g it's now a jinx..

I feel as if I'm no one...

"From your Pup. Love JDNJ to B..."

[demaparbat-hp]

Izumi of Jang Hui died young. She was sixteen and unwed. A kind child, protective and lonely—thus unfit for this world.

Izumi of Jang Hui was murdered. The Painted Lady was born out of hatred and grief. Her skin is painted red with the patterns of her scars. Her home is the river where the Dark Water Spirit dwells—he who found her, drowned and beautiful.

Build shrines by the river and pray for her good will. Harm her land or people and pray for mercy.

[bixels]

The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.

[utenixx]

What terrible monster made you this way?

[sallytwo]

Jennifer nearly jumped into the water / and she was tired like no one's ever been tired

[marimbles]

i miss carpisuns sometimes </3

[rainybraindays]

Gonna be so honest....the entrapment comment from Colin is kinda valid.

Like he very much says it in hurt, and as hes lashing out to make her feel a fraction as bad as he does in the moment, and he regrets it, but also its not necessarily wrong. Penelope had a LOT of chances to tell him. She could have told him after they got engaged, after he told off Portia, she could have told him either before or after they got the queens announcement.

She makes the decision not too, she doesn't even think to tell him before she runs off to print again, an Colin finds out in literally the worst way. And not only that, he finds out Eloise knew and decided not to tell him because she didn't want to hurt him.

Think about all the things Whistledown has done? She bad mouthed Daphne, his little sister and the one closest to him. The Marina situation, while it may have saved him from a marriage built on lies, left him humiliated embarrassed and unsure of himself and his feelings towards people. Then another of his sisters is dragged through the mud, for reasons he doesn't know. Then when he's struggling with who he is, trying to fit in, he is also dragged through the mud for legitimately no reason. You can say "oh but what he said last season!" Or whatever argument you want, but really, its entirely because she was upset(rightfully so) about what happened at the ball, and Colin was an easy target.

You can spout about how much good Whistledown has done, but she has done just as much bad. Colin has been a victim multiple times, even if by way of collateral damage.

Colin GETS to be upset, hes allowed to lash out, and hes allowed to feel trapped by the woman who has lied to him for literal years. Hes not dramatic for not wanting to sleep with her on their wedding night, when he is someone who cares so much for intimacy, especially with Penelope.

He has been entirely honest with her their entire relationship, both as friends and as partners, and Penelope has been unable to offer him the same back. And, she faces such minimal consequences for it. The worst she gets is Colin being upset with her, for not even a month from the way its played out in the show.

In conclusion, Colin didn't do anything wrong, and I'm about to start biting people who think hes some horribly toxic villain for not liking that hes been lied to for 3 straight years.

[ssruis]

Love that toya is rehabilitating the two most mischievous jokesters in the game (Rui & Mizuki) simply by being really naive but also really really genuine and kind. He’s easy to trick but he’s so earnest and happy to talk to them that it would make them feel bad. They have to be nice and kind back. Toya Aoyagi and his aura that forces everyone to be friendly.

[spacedlexi]

so often i see people try to downplay violet and minervas relationship like it wasnt Real enough or was some Inferior Romance that her relationship with clementine could Never compare to, and i find it so annoying and boring

she LOVED minerva!! and its okay that she did!! she was her first love!! childhood best friends turned girlfriends!! seeing her being so heartbroken and miserable about what happened to minnie, how deeply and desperately she missed her, hugging that bed frame so pathetically. but clementine makes her CARE again. makes her LOVE again. slowly violet becomes comfortable with the idea of opening her heart up to people again, after trying so hard not to because the pain of losing people she cared about was too much to bear (especially when she blamed herself for them being gone)

then she learns minnie didnt die. shes falling in love with clem while grappling with the fact that minnie might still be out there??

then she meets minnie in the woods. but minnie has changed just like she has. theyre both different people now. and slowly violet is forced to come to terms with the fact that the person she loved so deeply isnt that person anymore??

violet at the beginning mourning minerva and blaming herself, to shooting her to save clems life. she LOVED minerva once, but she doesnt like the person she is now. and shes not gonna let her hurt anyone else she cares about. shes done mourning her by the time they get to the bridge, only crying out for tenn

like idk i just find their relationship evolution to be so interesting and sad as shit. the fact that they once loved each other so much and it has now come to this?? but violet makes her choice and she Chooses clementine, because she admires and loves clementine, probably similar to the way she used to admire and love minerva if the way she talked about her is any indication

i just think "i never thought i would ever feel this way again" is way more interesting than "wow minnie Never made me feel like This"

[wickmitz]

you know rereading the comic got me thinking and i feel ur the best person for this. im very intrigued by mitzi and asa's dynamic pre, during, AND post atlas. i really wish we saw more of what happened before atlas' passing bc mitzi herself said asa used to be so nice to her and i'm just like YO WHAT HAPPENED anyways hi hello love ur blog

hi! i’m flattered you love my blog! and even more so by the fact you think i’m the best person to go to for this question! i’ve briefly talked about mitzi and asa before when analyzing the lunch scene in my long analysis for mitzi’s and wick’s relationship, where i said this on the matter :

to touch upon asa’s treatment of mitzi, even from as early as the phone call we see that mitzi is forced to have a conversation with asa on his terms rather than her own terms. mitzi sets out with a clear goal in mind -- learning why asa sweet would attack the lackadaisy in the way that he did -- and she's repeatedly talked over and threatened, with her questions remaining unanswered. it’s very clear very quickly that asa doesn’t respect mitzi nor view her as someone worthy of his time like atlas was, and almost appears to approach her in a misogynistic manner. he demeans something as simple as her ukulele as a ‘teeny little guitar’ and acts as though mitzi’s tears would be bothersome to him, some sort of burden he’d be forced to deal with rather than a valid emotional response to threats, degradation, and the likes. while asa is by no means wrong with some of his observations, he’s certainly rude and uncaring with how he goes about it. when he tells mitzi that he’s here to suggest that she step down, because he so generously has her interests in mind, she doesn’t buy it ; once again bringing up last nights events, where asa willingly armed the pig farmers with the lackadaisy’s arsenal and sent them over her way without so much as a warning. asa dismisses this coldly, once again dodging any fault and claiming it was ‘happenstance’ and entirely mitzi’s own doing. even now, when he’s actively threatening her and making it clear they won’t stay friendly if she keeps trying to make it in this business, he still won’t fully admit to any sort of responsibility for the disastrous night he helped put her through. while this seems rather typical of asa given his disrespectful streak ( something even mordecai, as valued and as useful as he is, suffers because of ) it’s worth noting that this side of him is new to mitzi and not one she was at all expecting. she even says as much here, in heartstrings.

we also know that mitzi only met atlas due to her performing at the marigold speakeasy first, and it’s likely asa was rather present in her life due to his bond with her now husband. asa even admits that mitzi may be confused because they’ve ’managed a friendly coexistence for so long,’ once again hammering home this idea that up until this point, asa was indeed kind to mitzi, or at the very least cordial. but with atlas out of the picture and mitzi trying to take his position, suddenly asa is more than okay with getting her killed or taking all she has left -- even his plan is nothing short of apathetic and cold, an afterthought, expecting her to give up something important to her and only offering a one time offer to play at the marigold room ‘sometime’ with that ‘old band of hers.’ what’s important here is that mitzi is ruthlessly betrayed by a man who used to like her and is treated as a lesser thing due to his view that she’s too incompetent to run a rumrunning business. he also brings up atlas to, in mitzi’s eyes, ‘intimidate ( her ) into agreeing with him,’ and towards the end of the lunch, she looks particularly kicked and undoubtedly hurt. she leaves this meeting that could’ve stayed a phone call with a potential enemy made and with the world on her shoulders, now more determined than ever to be someone people like asa would be forced to respect. instead of being dissuaded, she’s been encouraged, and it’s not hard to realize why.

so, i suppose those are my very brief thoughts about them post atlas! but as for pre and during, i don’t think there was ever anything really there outside of peaceful coexistence. as atlas’s wife, mitzi garnered respect she probably never had before as a traveling musician! asa wouldn’t dare insult her or belittle her once she became atlas’s wife and probably felt no need to do so in the first place. especially since, after all, asa’s the reason atlas found mitzi at all, back when she played for the marigold room where i assume she was treated well enough given asa’s rather friendly mask. he’s a jokester! he’s well meaning and goofy, always smiling and his eyes permanently upturned looking due to the patterns on his face … mitzi wouldn’t ever really see the asa that many other people deal with, and even when comparing asa to her rather quiet and eeire husband, well, he’d still seem leagues impressionable by default. asa purposely acts like he’s approachable and harmless, and while mitzi definitely knew he wasn’t some angel, i do think she fell for that mask more than she’d like to admit.

how i’ve always viewed their relationship is that the very nature of it was dictated by atlas may simply existing and owning her. his mere interest in mitzi was something phenomenal, and by default, something people had to respect. asa sweet was kind to her because she likely didn’t linger in the marigold room for too long before atlas snatched her up. he’s then very cordial to her, probably armed with compliments and generous gestures of interest because she’s atlas’s wife and asa can respect that role wholeheartedly. it’s only when atlas is removed and mitzi begins putting her paws where they ‘don’t belong’ that asa seems to drop the ruse, because there’s no need to keep it up anymore. even though mitzi isn’t harming anyone and hasn’t tried to step on asa’s toes once, he still steals from her and puts her in danger without care -- not once burdened by any real guilt as he continues to threaten her when she doesn’t back down immediately. with how clinical the removal of affection is here ( because even mordecai hasn’t managed to remove viktor, mitzi, or ivy in such a careful or ruthless way despite his awful actions and words ) i find it hard to believe he ever truly cared for mitzi as an individual person outside of atlas. the way he so casually oozes disrespect and belittles her without blinking an eye is … interesting!

all of this is to say that i don’t think asa and mitzi were ever personally close. they probably never knew each other deeply nor made any real steps to try. they’d see each other because asa had a habit of appearing in the lackadaisy just as much as atlas had the habit of being at the marigold room, and so they’d greet each other and asa would be excessively kind in that bumbling fool way he keenly presents himself and mitzi would be pleased by his presence. very simple ‘this is my friend’s wife’ vibes and nothing more. i doubt asa would even be interested in cozying up to mitzi due to atlas’s implied possessive behavior lol … but it was kindness and it was caring to an extent. it just wasn’t as deep or loyal as mitzi might’ve hoped it would be.

[agalychnisspranneusroseus]

My hot take is that marcanne has as much potential for toxic yuri as any other calamity trio ship and it's not nearly as soft and fluffy as one may think

[whatsjulietslastname]

if i see any more Chloe hate i’m going to fucking explode. i’m not even kidding this makes me physically ill i’m going to create a fucking uQuiz about Chloe Price’s character and if you get a bad score you officially do not understand her character and has no right to talk about her whatsoever because you cannot just……say shit like « yeah duh of course i chose Arcadia Bay over her she was so dramatic and annoying and so mean omg 🙄🙄🙄 » i’m coming for you. like you can chose Arcadia Bay it’s a choice based game but if you did it because ‘Chloe was such a meanie 😓’ OH MY GOD. i’m. aidiaoisoz. can someone plz stop me i’m going to jump off a roof /j

[thymejot]

I genuinely believe Agatha still has the tiniest lil spec of the Wandas power.

Chaos can not be contained once it is unleashed. Wanda throwing power at Agatha to distract her from her rune writing gave her that spark.

You cannot put the chaos toothpaste back into the tube once you have squeezed most of it out.

Also, there is no way Agatha has walked the road before. She obfuscates every time it is brought up, walks off, lies,or changes the subject.

The only coven she ever had was the one she consumed.

Unless she walked it with Rio, which seems unlikely, though possible, with that "coven two" line mixup.

[softstuffs]

Au where Moonpaw is in fact Bayshine and Thriftear's kit but the entire clan is convinced its a Squirrelflight and Crowfeather situation where Bayshine and Thriftear adopted Moonpaw from Nightheart and Sunbeam and is a nightsun kit because of her pelt and name, and everyone's jumping to conclusions about it. Moonpaw is a sweet but cunning and devious little devil child who is all too happy to cozy up to her "parents" for extra attention as well as get them in trouble and just generally be a little shit.

aka au where moonpaw takes advantage of the nightsun assumptions to cause problems on purpose

[haemosexuality]

i just heard someone on youtube (T B Skyen) say that silco loved jinx but didnt quite know how to love powder, while vi loves powder but doesnt know how to love jinx. and oooof oof ouch yeah

also it got me thinking and obviously jinx and powder arent two different people shes just going by a different name now but its also not baseless to analyze them as different "characters", or what traits of jinx are part of powder, etc. like the animators literally have a trick where they change her facial structure how they animate jinx to show when shes behaving more like powder. shes completely changed who she is, its jinx now powder fell down a well, sat on the jinx chair embraces who she is etc etc

[electrozeistyking]

So what happens if beanie catches N just looking in to think air and or just talking to literally nothing?? Does she freak out and think he’s crazy ?

( we all know of course he’s taking to ghost uzi but she of course doesn’t)

She'd just assume he's really lonely and needs more friends (and who knows if it's Ghost Uzi? N can talk to a lot of ghost drones around the Outpost! :D).

Bea has a habit of blurting random things out/telling people things about N that he really wished she hadn't. She's four, so she doesn't know any better, but STILL. His tiny daughter is going around, telling everyone he talks to walls... whoops, guess he's sucking at hiding his ghost sight there.