#let’s be real tho it’s because the traveler is a self insert

[babyaiker]

Mutuals come get y’all juice! I’m finally posting about the big man Xavier!

Anyway ya! Red dead insert oc. I’ve lived 10 years of my life convincing myself self-inserts and fandom ocs were cringe, I’m healing I’m thriving let me be

I plan to post more about him in the future so I at least gotta give a general overview (under the cut teehee)

(Bonus appearance from @meeks-just-wants-to-scroll ‘s oc Malt in the first image)

Info!

Full name is Xavier Holden

Son of the real background character Judge Meredith Holden

Has multiple pen names/nicknames such as “Gorrister” and “Lorenzo”

Born in Rhodes, Lemoyne 1867, Currently 32 (1899)

Around 6ft ish, mmmmmm big boy

Outlaw traveling with the Van Der Linde gang since 1895

Prefers to paint and hunt rather than kill and rob though

Primarily uses a Springfield Rifle, with only a Cattleman for protection

Better at fighting hand-to-hand in a self-defense situation

Owns a gelding horse named Saffron

Dark Bay Shire, Gentle giant, likes eating random herbs

Symbolic animals are an octopus (high honor) or squid (low honor)

Xavier’s weirdly calm and diplomatic for an outlaw. He’s pretty closed off, but is more than happy to listen to whatever you have to say. He’s much more skilled with providing stability and comfort for others rather than fighting. Others either regard him as a trusted confidant, or a nosy gossiper who has dirt on just about everyone (both are true).

Trivia!

Is absolutely sweet on Kieran, canon can eat my entire ass those two are getting a happy ending because I said so

You may not see me post too much about them as an item on here. It’s not because I’m embarrassed, but because it’s just personal to me, that’s all. I’ll still joke/reference it though and post some of the art I do!

Lip-scar is maybe canon? It’s more so a reference to my bestie’s possible rdr2 oc, tho it’s not official (she stabbed him in the face a lil but it’s okie)

Absolutely abides by rdr2’s rule of “overweight equals high health and low stamina”. Throw this guy off a cliff and he’d probably be fine.

The fact he’s an artist is very important for like his entire character/backstory don’t forget that bit

Half original character half self insert. I project a lot of my flaws, beliefs, and gender identity onto him, but our personalities are fairly different. Plus we share just enough physical characteristics that I could cosplay him with the help of a wig and fake beard.

[aibouart]

i NEEEED to know more about the poylcule

SO THERE'S 4 GUYS AND I MADE A POLYCULE BEFORE I KNEW WHAT POLY WAS AND ONE OF THEM IS INTERSEX AND IDENTIFIES AS TRANS BEFORE I KNEW WHAT TRANS WAS AND NONE OF THEM ARE HUMAN !!

also this is SO unorganised cuz there's 10 YEARS OF SHIT and i can't organise the thoughts so here u go (and also bonus old art in this)

LOOK AT THIS OLD ART!!

LETS GO GAYS!!

since this is a good way to start, i can say from above image it's:

Malamute, Lyo (pronounced Leo), Youkai, and Red

Malamute and Lyo are both shape shifters with a single animal they can shift to. Malamute is... a dog yes. and Lyo is a bird! Youkai is my insane mary sue with a huge list of super powers and an old insert in my daydreams, and i STILL dream as him constantly. Red and Youkai are a primary pairing in the polycule when I used to draw them. i wouldn't say he's a self insert, but i usually replace myself in my memories with him and daydream abt what he'd do instead w his CRAZY INSANO POWERS.

Red is 6'9" and youkai is 5'1" 0) (Red gains another inch anytime someone calls him short)

In their primary universe they are part of a school called the VRS (virtual reality school) where each student is created in the real world in a lab recreating people (sometimes given super powers as a human creation experiment thing but they're usually in a verse where powers are normal). Their physical body is in a lab, but their consciousness is part of the VRS for 4 years before they are awoken irl. this is done by them graduating from the VRS and then being woken up. they can return to the VRS, too, but usually don't do so for long.

because of this, and the weird way their hubverse works, they have memories across maaaany different AUs. any AU that gets repeated for RP or daydreaming with different twists, branches, etc, will usually become part of these memories as the more prevalent an AU is, the stronger the memories become. They will slowly start regaining memories while in the VRS.

despite this, it's very uncommon anyone actually snaps to reality and realises this. most people are vaguely aware that they have memories of multiple different lives but don't put it together.

Lyo always does.

And he's always the first to remember anything, realise they're memories of other universes/lives, and has to just... live with it. But because of it, he's sort of the mom of the group. he's emotionally there for all of them, and does his best to help everyone in the group to connect to each other each time, and cope with whatever memories resurface, or whatever new things they're going through.

as such as he gets on with all of them with little bickering, and is a huge glue to the group even before they end up developing the polycule (again). Youkai and Malamute are the most distant with each other, they're friendly but their natures of being emotionally unavailable and not really talking much to anyone means they rarely get chances to connect. but none of them are like, pressed to force anyone in the group to love everyone equally/the same way, so they're fine w the status quo like this.

malamute is most connected with lyo, though, and still likes to hang out w everyone. he also collects marbles, and likes to build little shelters for cats or other small animals.

(he also has the least art..........)

youkai is heavily aware of the multiverse and can even travel to other verses, at the cost of being unlikely to ever return to where he came from. because of this, he has a very bleak outlook on life, he's just another one of him of the millions out there. he's also the only true immortal of them, when he dies he comes back to life after a few minutes at most (granted if whatever killed him is lodged inside him he will just die again). you can see his insane list of shit here though, it's a lot

youkai would easily kill anyone for his guys tho but none of them want him to, esp red.

red is the most complicated, though. i think he does love them but he struggles a lot with believing his connections are meaningful because he doesn't feel worthy. i also think his extremely warped relationship w relationships in general due to his trauma also makes it hard for him to develop healthy relationships. even tho they look healthy on the outside, internally he's usually doubting them all the time, and doubting himself. he still does his best with his boyfriends (he has... a lot from AUs.. he's a boyfriend magnet..) and tries so so hard to give them all the respect, space, and attention they deserve, but he's quick to be self sacrificial in the process (and in general).

lyo gives him a safe space at his place when he can for red to chill, but red often refuses help because he doesn't want to apply pressure on others, or burden them.

(youkai on right here, this was when i was tryna get used to a new tablet)

also lyo is a sex worker!! he loves his job! he used to be a prince in his original universe where he ran away but it's such an uncommon AU now that it's rarely referenced.

i love lyos' dynamic w red tho cuz lyo likes to tease him and red is very easily teased but everyone else doesn't really have the heart to do that to him

ofc, lyo always tries not to go too far and would quickly apologise if he does.

here's an au where lyo received his memories but they blurred his current verse memories where red's dad was actually killed a long time ago (hallelujah)

one time they got cursed w boobs by a rogue wizard

also here's a good drawing of red's general vibe, he is with Bandit from @conflitdecanard (U DONT HAVE TO REBLOG THIS SAAS I AM SO SORRY)

it was red's first time really meeting another vampire that didn't scare the absolute shit out of him. ( i would love to rp him w more vampires one day..... even if they scare the shit out of him....)

also red is a total open book, his body language is pretty obvious and he's horrible at lying.

but his default is "nervous and anxious".

babie

he's so fucking hard to draw just cuz he's this specific mix of androgynous that makes it too easy to make him too masc or too femme and he has this long face URUGGG he's been haunting my ass since day 1.

he used to be a lot more confident but then he had a backstory.

also i am insane abt him (granted youkai is missing a LOT of art cuz i used to draw him the most but lost a lot of the files).

[zensoko]

XiaoLumi

[sehnsuchts-trunken]

Take A Bath - Geralt of Rivia

i requested this myself, for myself, and also as an early christmas present for one of my best friends

pairing: Geralt x female!reader

wordcount: 2k words

triggerwarnings: some heavily implied nsfw content, blood, injury, not angst tho!!!!!! 

summary: theres none i was too lazy to write one

flo you’re literally wonderful and ik im a real strange friend and a writer so that makes it worse, but i do hope you appreciate this! i switched pronouns for ya cus i wasnt sure if you liked the self insert shit and tbh its refreshing to go back to the way i usually wrote- anyway i forgot what i wanted to tell you with this so lets just go!

whoops i keep looking at that gif instead of writing... can you blame me tho lol

Geralt was not used to being looked at like that. Not in the slightest, doubtlessly. There were strangers who looked at him with fear, women with desire in their gazes, men with just the same - people whose expression told they would draw their swords, people who saw him as a weapon to use. Never, not in decades, not even long before, had there been anyone, anyone at all, that looked at him remotely close to the way she was looking at him right now. There was an amused twinkle in her eyes as she approached, locked on him and only him as though he were the only one in the room. His expression was utterly calm, never a match to the storm raging inside of him, but somehow fit and at the same time not suited in the slightest in this heartbeat, in which she just looked at him with that love in her eyes, that curiosity, that playfulness he’d always pitied in other ones. 

She studied him carefully as she stopped, and he watched her every muscle tense and loosen in the one second she put a hand on the table next to him and leaned her hip against its edge. He was observant as ever, she knew, but this time his whole focus was on her, her steady breathing, her unbound hair, the rustle of her dress, no matter that the whole tavern was filled to the brim, noisy and cheap and full of drunken bastards. She had nothing to fear, not with him here anyway, not even in that dress that hugged her figure as loose as it may have been, easily slipped on in a matter of heartbeats. 

Her throat bobbed once as she beheld him in that black shirt he always wore, with that necklace he took off not once, and his hair fallen into his face. Her lips tugged upwards. She raised a hand, brushed the strand away with one finger without following it with her eyes as she did usually, too caught up in his this time. He watched the slight smile on her face, let her move his hair out of the way with the fingertips he knew were rough from work, that he’d caressed more than once, aware that his own were not better off. He allowed her hand to rest on his body, in that spot where the neck met shoulder, where she always found herself circling, drawing, writing on air and skin and muscle, where her hands always lay, even when she was deeply asleep and in dreams far away. 

“You’re thinking too hard again”, she eventually said, still intently watching him, an almost predatory gaze, that she had not lifted a single time since they had entered this hellhole of a place they’d stay in. They could have avoided the town altogether, they could have lit a fire in the forest and slept on the ground, the same way they usually did and preferred by far - but there’d been someone asking for him, a monster waiting to be killed, and so they had halted their travels if only for a night and taken their horses here, where the sun had stood high atop the sky and she had waited for him to return, his attire soaked in blood, his hair crusted with it, his face carelessly wiped with one hand. She did not fight with him because he did not want her to, and she understood even if she scoffed every time he went. She could handle monsters and they both knew - she could battle a dozen without him at her side, she could ride into war and would always be the one who walked out of it. There was barely a weapon that she could not wield, not a bow she could not string, not a sword she could not handle, not a knife she could not throw. If she wanted to, she could paint the world red in blood, yet he had not let her see the calmest of monsters he’d been asked to slay, and as long as it was a decision that could be made, it would not change. 

Her fingertips grazed his neck, just above the collar of his shirt, and so slowly they travelled up. It was such a simple, such an innocent gesture, one that could have meant everything and nothing at all. Had it not been for the look in her eyes and the smirk she tried to hide halfheartedly, he would not have known which of them it was, if she played the mindless seducer or if she had indeed lost sense of reality as she did sometimes. He hummed, both agreement and disagreement the same, at her touch or her words, perhaps an answer to either. She chuckled lightly and let her fingers meet his jaw, where her thumb caressed his skin without her as much as gazing at it. His cheek was soft from the washing she’d given it, the scrubbing and the creme she’d applied, after she had stripped him from his bloodstained clothes and forced him to take a bath, running the hot water while she threw his attire into a basket she filled with the same. 

Now she leaned forward, his eyes following her face, and pressed a chaste kiss to his forehead, her lips barely a breath against his skin, leaving the memory of the touch once she drew back and settled her look on him again, mixed this time with an emotion he could have recognised from a mile away, one of utter waggishness and delight, that she only bore when she grasped a thought he would never have. She had dimples when she smiled like that, almost sickly sweet, a toying grin always aimed at him. 

“You should not be”, she said, her voice laced with the charming, mushy tone that she only spoke with on two rare occasions. He raised his eyebrows. It was just as rare that he did. He wasn’t a man of many words, not one of expression and certainly not of joy, but she was all of it, all that he was not and in whatever way all that he was at the same time, and she had not once retreated from him, and somehow he knew that she would not, even if there was a pit within him not wholly wanting to believe it, despite waking up next to her every morning, despite her smiles and her happiness, despite fighting at her side and being able to trust, for once, that she was always with him. 

She tilted her head towards his ear, dropping her voice into a whisper, her grin becoming apparent, and his hand clutched his very own thigh. Mischief, that was what she had in mind, what all of her was. He had met her making trouble, he had carried her giddiness around with him, he had explored every part of her and found nothing that was not devilry in some way. When she battled, she would throw daggers out of her sleeves and just have them brush their opponent when she could have very well put them right through their heart, the underestimating that followed used to her advantage with ease. When she walked, her hips swayed, and she threw her hair over her shoulder and smiled so effortlessly that he had to physically restrain himself from murdering everyone who looked at her the way she only let him look at her. She was diabolical, now that she bent down, letting her fingertips trail down his throat and rest almost at his collarbone. He concealed a growl at her low chuckle. “After our bath, you really should feel less tense.” 

Her lips were curled into an unbridled smirk when she leaned back, about to pull her hand with her as he grabbed her wrist and held it right where it was hovering in the air between them. The grin on her face changed at once into a victorious one, smug and unbearable to look at and so her that he could not have turned away even if he had wanted to. 

He knew that they were being watched. A witcher amongst farmers and blacksmiths was unusual enough, but a witcher in the company of a young woman so inclined on bothering him, so familiar to him, so unbelievably dangerous herself, that was more than just unusual - it was a once in a lifetime, and those with enough sense still in their heads that had not been drowned in cheap ale and bad wine were eyeing them closely, such a strange pair that they could not place. She had been the cause of far more than a single brawl, but that knowledge he kept to himself, and all that she let slip was the vicious attitude she’d strolled in with and the sword obviously sheathed at her hip, though both of them knew that she certainly did not need to make use of it to walk out of a simple bar fight. He hoped that she had no intentions of starting one here, otherwise the room they had paid for in coin would be a sure waste of resources. Not that those were particularly rare, not anymore, not with her glorious hunting skills and the small fortune he earned every time he left her behind to fight. 

“I see”, she laughed, making him loosen his grip, his expression still not revealing a single thought of what was happening in his head, though she could read him very well. She had always been strangely good at it. 

Taking a step towards him, she stroked her other hand from his knee up to his thigh, lingering in her touch all without breaking eye contact with him. When eventually she found his hip, she slid her fingers to his sword, her smile widening ever so slowly as his own grip tightened on her other wrist, the only reaction, the only tense of muscles that he could not conceal, despite his never much revealing expression and his relaxed stature. He could not fool her after all - she picked up even the smallest of things. 

“Then perhaps”, she said quietly, pausing, yanking her arm against his blade and finally taking her eyes off his to behold the cut she’d made just where her radius met the rest of the bones in her wrist. He frowned, but she silently marvelled at the blood that dropped from the wound. He hated when she was injured, and now that she’d done it herself, cut herself with his sword- He released her other arm, wanting to reach for this one to take a better look at the gash, but she’d angled it away before his fingertips could so much as brush her unharmed skin. With one thumb, she wiped over the cut, stared for one second at the red colour that now stained it, and had wiped it all over his temple in a heartbeat. His frown deepened. She chuckled lightly at it, but did the same for the other, close to war paint if one looked at it the wrong way. “-now that you’re dirty all over again, you need to take a second one.”

Her lips curled into another smirk. Then she had grabbed his hand with her injured one and taken a few steps backwards, the light that hit her there making it seem like she glowed, and the way her dimples pierced her skin, he could very well imagine the heat inside of her that led one to think about just why she looked like a living goddess. She pulled him by their intertwined fingers, certainly not able to have moved him had he not followed her anyway. She could not have cared less who was watching them as she strolled out of the horribly stuffed room, up the wooden stairs that brought them to theirs, the promise of a bath forgotten the second the door was closed and her back pinned to it.

i hope you all enjoyed it! you, flo, the most of course~ if anyone has any geralt oneshots that you find readable, please recommend them to me btw! im starved for content that doesnt make me want to drink bleach or drown in holy water

also someone tell me how i managed to use his actual name exactly once in the whole text. immediately at the start and then never again somehow.

[mrstsung]

⚡💙Raiden sfw abc hcs💙⚡

Cw: none really,it's pretty tame. uwu

These are just my personal interpretations. So plz don't shoot the messenger ok? It took me a couple of days to write this up. Because I've been doing other writing and kontent creating. Oof.

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A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?): Raiden is more physically affectionate in private than in public or in front of others. However he isn't above holding hands,an arm around yours or your waist. Gentle but respectful praises and soft and knowing glances are what you'll get the most of. It's not that he isn't affectionate or is embarrassed to say i love you. Far from it. He just wants to keep his composure. Especially since i hc he is a hella empath and gets overwhelmed by his emotions sometimes. As a god of thunder and lightning this is especially important. Especially being a protector of earthrealm too. But his most trusted friends and allies. They know. They know the real raiden. Him a softie. He just has to put a front to deal with the bullshit and burdens. Tho he will let you be physically affectionate if that truly is your love language.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?): oh raiden is the bestest friend you could ask for. He is a big bro type. Honestly any relationship may or may not be started by training under him in general or being protected by him specifically. (Which is how my au self insert starts out. She is a warrior mortal chosen by the elder gods to help give raiden aid and grounding.)

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?): raiden is hella cuddly. He loves to hold you from behind with his arms around you. He feels more protective of you this way. His other fave way,is to have you lay on his chest with one arm around you. Either way he's holding onto you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?): of course raiden does. But only if you are absolutely certain you are comfortable with knowing the fact that he,will indeed,outlive you. (I assume you are mortal. So yeah) but i assumed you already know the drill beforehand anyways. Raiden is fair with chores. But he doesn't usually need to do so as most of it's taken care of before you even think about it. Being a god has benefits. But he still prefers to do it himself.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?): oh honey why? Why would you ever wanna do that?! But if he had to it would be hella formal but you can hear a crack under his voice. Truly only way i can see this truly happening is by death because like hell I'd let it get that bad. But knowing raiden he would probably wanna do it to protect me. But again raiden has his brother and allies to help too. So this wouldn't likely happen. So again only death would separate you. But oooooh boy would it hurt like hell for raiden either way. Also why do you want this to happen again?

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?): ok look raiden WANTS to as soon as love strikes hard at the god of thunder. But he may take a while to get the guts to even get to that point. Because of his fears,his walls,and honestly i feeeeeel raiden deeply on that shit. Being an empath sucks sometimes but it's a gift too. But once he gets over himself. Oh he's in for life. Or as long as yours is that is. Marriage to a god is quite an event. This means you have a choice to either be a muse(a lesser power but more or less a partial of raidens power would be also connected to you. You has long life as well but you are still mortal. Muses can be connected to anyone mortal or gods they kind just follow them around as a retainer. They can travel to any realm and not lose powers but they are stronger in their main realm however) a kami (higher up than a muse. You will be immortal like a god but have heavier responsibilities and a tad less freedom than a muse. But you only have 3 domains at max. And one realm only) or a full God. Or remain mortal. Either way you have a ride or die man ok?

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?): he is somft (tm). Not to say he can't get rough. But he is very gentle with life. Especially yours. He would never try to harm you on purpose. He'd never forgive himself if he did.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?): ok raiden hugs are a blessing. They are comforting af. And also you always feel safe in his arms. He can be a bit reserved at times but overall. He'd let you hug him if that's how you show affection. He won't complain. He actually loves hugs and needs them more often. But he reserves his best hugs for you.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?): it may take a bit. But once you hear it. He means it. Genuinely. From the bottom of his heart. I'd say at most....give him at least a year or two to figure it out. But honestly this depends on y'all. He'll show it before he says it tho. But again hearing raiden say "i love you" or even "aishiteru" . Be still my heart if he ever said that. Like holy shit. He'd have all my uwus.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?): eh he ain't the jealous type. At least lasting jealousy. Like its extremely fleeting. And if anything,its more of beating himself up over it. "Why do they get to see her everyday,meanwhile I'm stick here in the temple?" Type thing. But it's fleeting like i said more just passing thoughts.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?): electric. Lol. Jk,kinda. His kisses are passionate,gentle,full of love and that kind of kiss that is reassuringly sweet. But sometimes....you may get a saucy raiden. This raiden...oh boy lemme tell you. That is something absolutely heavenly. No pause. His fave place to kiss you besides your lips. Is your hand,a chaste kiss on the cheek or a reassuring kiss of respect and love on your forehead. Bonus points if you short. Its so cute. But then again raiden tol af canonlly. Sooooo. Everyone is shorter than the god of thunder n lightning. (My fave place to kiss him is under his chin or a cute quick kiss on the cheek, may blow a kiss too. If it's on the lips,well there may be a steamy storm coming thru. But anywhere is fine by me tbh)

L = Little ones (How are they around children?): raiden loves children. He's a good dad figure tbh. Canon and fanon. Like him dilf material. He is very protective. And also a lot more playful and even childlike himself around young ones. This brings out the raiden that many don't see. It's not that he doesn't show it. He does. It's just he's been through hell and back so much. But to see him like this,it warms your heart. Because this is the true raiden.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?): Raiden usually just has short rests,he don't really sleep like we do. Unless he is in mortal form. Then he is more likely to sleep. But even then,he has a hard time sleeping. However with you by his side,he sleeps or rests a bit more comfortably. But mornings with the thunder god is just sweet. A morning kiss. He makes tea quietly as to not wake you. In fact he often just likes watching you peacefully slumber. Knowing you are safe with him and in a gentle state like this is enough to melt his heart. Overall,a calm morning.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?): As i mentioned he rests more than sleeps,but he loves to have you sit in his lap while he reads old scrolls or tells you storys or tales about liu kangs and kung laos early days or the days where he and fujin were young gods,playing among the clouds. He'll read or talk to you till you fall asleep.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?): well it may take a bit as raiden while he deeply wants to share everything with you. He is cautious about letting people in. He has many enemies and is very protective of those he loves and the realm he protects. But once that ice is broken,and trust is gained. He is absolutely 100% honest with you. No secrets,nothing to hide. (There are exceptions and certain scenarios where he might hide something from you but he'd never ever lie to you. But this has to be something that is important. Or it's to protect you. He actually hates doing this tbh)

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?): Ok let this be a warning. NEVER EVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES EVER PISS OFF THE GOD OF THUNDER! EVER!!!! Do you have a death wish?! He rarely gets that pissed. He has excellent composure. He has the patience of a well...god. However,when he is pissed? Run. RUN FOR YOU LIFE BOIIII! Don't mess with the Thunder God's Wife/Spouse

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?): He remembers pretty well. However sometimes he gets caught up in things. So plz be easy with him. He doesn't mean to tho. But he's pretty observant.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?): Tbh when he first brought you to the sky temple. He loved the look on your face. To him it's not as huge of a deal. But to you. It was everything. And he just wanted to see you smile tbh. Raiden's such a sweetie.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?): very. Not overbearingly so. But in a "don't touch my Wife/Spouse or you are gonna eat lighting bolts for days". He would wrap a hand around your waist and hold you closer. Or hold your hand,especially if you need reassurance. But it only takes a glance from raiden,a tiny flash across his eyes to the other person as a warning. "Don't even think about it" . He would definitely defend your name. I know you'd do the same,we all would. I mean we'll call it like we see it. But honestly,i don't think many people would dare go against the god of thunder like that. Cept maybe shang but he's like that with everyone.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?): he tries to do as best as he can. But more just the simple things matter most to him. And tbh this depends on the individual. But if you are more like me and just want a simple alone time with some nice food and a hot bath type thing. Then he's all for that. But if you need a bit more,raiden will accommodate. Either way he does little things to make you smile. ♡ again sweetest thunder god ever.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?): beats himself up. Raiden plz,it's not your fault. Shit happens. You may have to reassure him a lot. He may be wise,composed,chill,etc. But even he has moments. Gods aren't perfect. And you have to sometimes help him with that in reminding him to breathe and forgive himself. Poor rai.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?): he takes good care of himself. But he isn't vain. A reasonable amount. But if he just is not feelin himself. Then oh boy scruffy,hair tousled and unkempt,this raiden you don't wanna cross. The clouds are exxtra heavy today. Oof. But for the most part,he's chill.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?): well yes but also no? Life would go on. But oh boy would he be depressed af.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.): raiden keeps the small trinkets left to him by children at his shrines. A whole box of them sits in his temple.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?): well besides the obvious things you shouldn't want in a partner. I dunno really. He's a pretty accepting guy. I guess as long as you are patient with him. And take care of yourself for the most part. And all that junk. He's pretty chill. Honestly he doesn't have a "type" he just wants genuine love as any other person.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?): he loves to have a breeze on him when resting. Windows and or doors would be open when sleeping. If you get cold however,he will get more blankets or cuddle closer. He will only shut them during the winter months. As to not bring snow into the temple. Lol.

[interact-if]

Umm hi 👉👈 I realized that most of the asks you guys get are about games and rec lists. You guys deserve so much recognition for the work you put in this blog, so I wanted to ask if I can do a little get-to-know-the-mods thing? If that's okay!

1. Besides writing, what are your hobbies?

2. Do you have a niche interest right now?

3. Any fave songs/artists/bands?

4. Any fave movies/tv shows?

5. On a scale of 1-10, how likely would you survive in your wip's world?

You can totally ignore this if you guys want, no pressure. Anyway, much love to all the interact-if mods! You guys are incredible! ❤

We saw this ask and we went 👀 👀 👀 so we’re happy to answer! Thank you so much for the fun ask!

 We also rated our survivability in all of our collective games, since Mars isn't an author! Fun stuff! Spoilers, though: it’s really not looking so great for me (Dani) but that’s fine!!!  😌

1. I’m a photographer as well as a graphic artist (but not like. A painter/drawer kind of artist!) and, on a general level, a maker and a tinkerer!

2. Fountain pens! I only write with ink, and only with fountain pens, and I use bottled inks/converters!

3. I’m pretty eclectic with music, but my top genres are alt rock, indie, indie pop, etc, as well as top 40s and some rap.

4. I feel like this is the hardest one for me to answer? Favorite movies/shows? Avatar: the Last Airbender has been a favorite show of mine since I was a little kid, but I have a harder time thinking of shows I would call a favorite in recent years. There are shows I’ve liked, and a lot of shows I’ve watched. But I’m picky! And demanding! It takes a lot to earn a place in Dani’s Trophy Case of Favorites. 😌 I would say I quite liked A Quite Place (movie), and I liked Us (movie). When it comes to TV shows, I have a hard time being pleased with them if they don’t end well. As a result, I have a penchant for a good limited series/miniseries (because they’re stories that have an end in mind and the plot reflects that, dagnabbit).

5. Heh. Okay.

In The Goodfellows? I think I stand I chance. I can exercise my sparkling wit and lovable personality to the best effect. I’m gonna give myself an 8/10 survivability rating. Even if I don’t have the right skills, I can go crying to the person who does and they’ll save me. Maybe.

In Creatures’ Cradle? I’m super $**!%d. 😌 1/10 survivability rating. And that 1 is me being nice to myself. The day the apocalypse breaks out I would probably be patient 0. I am self-aware. I would not do well in an apocalypse. Zombies care not for aforementioned sparkling wit and lovable personality, and I have all the muscle of a boiled spaghetti noodle. So it’s a no go.

Greater Than Gods (Cruz): Well. I’m going to be optimistic. And say that I have the wisdom not to do things I shouldn’t do and not to rock boats I shouldn’t rock. I’m going to give myself a 7/10 based on insider information, but also based on reckless optimism!

Vardir (Cruz): Cruz says this is a lighthearted game, so 10/10 LOL.

When it Hungers (Roast): I’m giving myself a nice, mediocre 5/10. I think I could put my mind to work here; I joke that I’m the village idiot, but I’m actually pretty smart! Unfortunately, I’m also curious, and maybe a little bad with authorities who won’t answer my questions. So I knocked off a lot of points due to the fact that I’d probably poke the metaphorical bear. So it’s a real coin flip as to whether I’d really make it or not.

Orthall Bay (Nines): Considering the genre is “horror” and the game intro includes the words “monster” and “maim,” I’m giving myself a whooping, enthusiastic 3/10. Yes, folks, I am that confident in myself! Once again, I can’t charm the socks off a monster (or can I?), so one of my greatest weapons is snatched from beneath my feet. Alas!

1. Beloved I’m a college student in the middle of a pandemic... i can hardly even write LOL i do draw at times which u can see in my personal blog (nothing too good really) and i used to do karate before things went to shit <3

2. Nothing niche I believe? All I do is leave Netflix as bg noise every day n play popular videgames (genshin)

3. Porter Robinson <3 I love Bea Miller a lot as well but lately I’ve been feeling Porter a lot

4. The Good Place <3

5. My WIPs:

Greater than Gods: Highly situational, the world GtG is set in is as broad as the real world LOL so I don’t have an universal answer. But keeping it vague, and knowing my own personality, I feel like 5/10. depends on my luck.

Vardir: 10/10 no one dies in Vikgade, unless you’re a hunter but I wouldn’t be a hunter <3

Others’ WIPs

I'm gonna give myself a solid 5/10 in all other WIPs because y'all aren't writing lighthearted stories either. I feel like as long as I avoid the role of the MC I will be mostly fine. I hope. But as Dani said I'm also prone to fight the wrong person and dig my own grave so 😌

1. Well, writing is a very, very, very, distant hobby since Words Hard, but I like to crochet and sculpt a little! Anything to do with fiddling with my hands and I’m good to go. And like, debatable but graphic design is my passion [insert clown emoji here since Tumblr said No]

2. Oh yeah a bunch! DnD yelling at people, thinking of arson, crocheting, rock climbing and simply vibing. I got into podcasts a few years ago and I’m always looking for more recs, so if you have some, hmu 😤

3. Pls,,,,my music taste is,,,so weird do not let me expose myself with lack of consistency but uhh. Current songs that are stuck in my head include; Cult of Dionysus , Achilles Come Down and The Last Shanty  

4. If you’ve ever spoken to me before, I probably yelled about Pacific Rim to you or at you. Plus I love all The Mummy films and really enjoyed Castlevania (s3 excluded, we do not perceive that) as well! 

5. Ah, mod survival simulator pt. 3

Alright, let’s go!  I don’t have a WIP because again, words hard, but like, considering how feral I am when not tryna seem professional hm... 

The Goodfellows: I wanna say a solid 7/10 because I’d hardcore vibe with the Traveler and probably instigate so much nonsense. I can also bribe with blueberry cake so maybe. 

Creature’s Cradle: maybe a 4/10 and only because of pure spite keeping me alive long enough to smack someone. I’ve prepared for hypothetical  zombie apolcapyses and I won’t hesitate to bap, but will be bapped back because I’m weak as hell. 

Greater Than Gods: a toss up between 2/10 and 7/10! I can vibe and be chill but I also have terrible impulse control so... 

Vardir: hm....I think pretty good survival rates all around? If you ask me to fight then like, okay sure, your knees are mine. So maybe a 8/10? 

When it Hungers: .......8/10 just because I’d refuse to die if I can be a cool creature. Living for the aesthetic can and will drag me outta hell. But I’m also clumsy as hell so I’d probably crash as a porcelain or hold a rooster and perish (aka, real rating is a good 3/10) 

Orthall Bay: 2/10, nope. Nope I’d be taken out in a heartbeat. Monsters can go pspsps and I’d head straight into the dark creepy forest like a fool if someone comes @ me. Half the time I’ll just assume it’s sfx makeup and vibe until it’s too late. 

god, never put me in a universe where I cannot squawk like a bird and throw pebbles from a window. Oof

Anon, you're so sweet! I give you a forehead smoomch <333 As for your questions...

1. If I'm not writing, I'm usually watching video essays on Youtube. My go-to channels as of right now is Disrupt and Aperture! I just really like their videos. Aside from that, I recently got into podcasts. Currently going through Hello From The Hallowoods and Shelter and Warning, which are made by queer creators!

2. Oh oof, there's quite a bit so I'm just gonna put down one thing. For some reason, I really got into collecting tiny astronaut things? I recently bought this astronaut desk light, and I've got a package coming in for the miniatures I ordered. No purpose for them other than I think they're neat <3

3. I'm a bit private with my music taste (even tho I have Spotify connected on Discord lmao), but there's 5 songs that I'm currently obsessed with. I keep replaying them over and over again. Just squeezing all the serotonin I could get outta them.

4. I can't really say I have a fave TV show or movie because I can't really just pick one, but my current fave is 9-1-1 and Resident Alien. 9-1-1 because I just really love the found-family dynamics and how the show tackles sensitive topics, and Resident Alien because it's lighthearted comedy. My all-time fave movie is Flipped! I have the book too and I like rereading from time to time <3

5. You're in for a doozy, anon, because we're rating each other's games <333

The Goodfellows: 7/10

Listen. Shenanigans with the Traveler. I would get up to so many of them and that is what'll get me possibly bodied, not the actual environment itself <3

Greater than Gods: 7/10

I like to think I have enough common sense to uhhh not recklessly flip stones that should not be flipped <3 I'm a cautious and skeptic person irl so I think I'll hold up well? Then again, it's a vast environment change and while I can adapt pretty quick, I wouldn't like the lack of control in the unknown.

Vardir: 10/10

Going off what Cruz said, Vardir is lighthearted and focused on personal growth so I think I'll be okay! Self-growth here I come, babey!

Creatures' Cradle: 8/10

Maybe I'm overestimating myself, but I think I'll be able to survive in a supernatural post-apocalyptic world! Ah, but it depends on the motivation though. I like the idea of rebuilding communities and eventually societies, but the survival turmoil would be a constant battle I'd have to overcome. If we're talking survival itself though, I think I'll do well.

When it Hungers: 8/10

That's probably my wishful thinking but I think I'll be fine. Maybe. Possibly. Don't like the idea of being regulated by an organization so if I was a non-human creature that could pose a problem but I can roll with it <3

Orthall Bay: 6/10

Assuming I'm not playing as MC, my chances of survival uhhh changes quite drastically. Not enough to guarantee an untimely demise, but certainly enough that it would constantly keep me on my toes. I think that's the safest answer I can get without spoiling anything lmao

Thank you so much for asking! It's super sweet of you <3

1. Too many :'D I knit, I sew, I do carpentry (well, learning), I bake, I'm hammering away at HTML and CSS, my job kind of encourages learning new things and I take that to picking up new hobbies!

2. My time is kind of consumed with school work and work work and WIP work so not a lot of time to pursue niche interests right now. I've been watching a lot of horror game playthroughs, true crime youtubers, and an adorable show on Netflix called the Repair Shop <3

3. My taste in music is "what am I vibing with atm?" I've been listening to a lot of 80's music atm (don't @ me), but also Lo Fang and Kaleo, and whatever spotify recommends me on my discover weekly which is usually complete chaos.

4. I love the Mummy even though it hasn't aged 100% well (I'm a librarian, of course it's one of my gotos LOL), Legally Blonde, Leverage, Jumanji (the original), I'm....very bad at having recent tastes... and very bad at remembering my favorites when asked.

5.

The Goodfellows: I'm a creature of comfort, 5/10 if I can just luxuriate in town and not actually interact with the story sfjkdbsdkf

Creature’s Cradle: I'd like to think I have a 50/50 shot XD 5/10, I want to think I'd be decent at a zombie apocalypse but ultimately would suffer an early fate.

Greater Than Gods: 10/10 if I'm just vibing, less so if I'm involved in the actual story XD

Vardir: I'd still suffer without technology but I can also knit for a living in this world so I'm down 8/10

When it Hungers: I feel like I could vibe here, there's tech if dated, hot showers, telephones are around by now... might still get bored. 7/10 though it'd be cool to be another creature....I should make a 'what creature of snv are you' quiz!

Orthall Bay: 7/10 idk I feel like after the first monster of the week I'd just skip town XDDDD I'm the worst protagonist, I see danger I just leave.

[victavare]

As promised to @elettralightwood, let me show the world my TSC self-insert (tho sketched pretty briefly) - Her name is Victoria Avare (neither the name nor the surname are her real). She chose it partly due to a wordplay - V Avare sounds similar to be aware/beware, and her edgy teen side thinks that it's cool - She is nothing to do with the original cast as she is Russian, temporarily settled in Saint-Petersburg and messing with the local Institute - She looks young because she really is - not even twenty! (expected to stop at 28 or so) - ...that's why she is under protection of a senior warlock Vel (short for Velimira) who is also her tutor - V is also a part-time university student, learning foreign languages as she wants to travel and take part in international warlock community - Her mundane family does know nothing about the Shadow world and thinks that their daughter is perfectly fine tho V feels guilty as _she_ knows everything - that's why she practically ran away to another city - Actually she is very excited about her magical powers and is eager to learn how to use them - All her jewelry is meant to collect magic and be used in that way (she tries to get keen in it and partly succeeds) - Also V shows a little talent in illusions and tries to master time-stopping ("Nothing is impossible for our magic, is it? If there were none, I will be the first") - It may seem that V's eyes are cat ones but it's obvious that her warlock marks include snake features - but she makes herself a catlike appearance on purpose as it is at least more neutral - She is a huge fan of Malec, both of their relationship and the things they do for the Shadow world - ...so she is really tolerant, always eager to work with other races - (actually she lives with another supernatural being and they get along quite well) Hope you'll like her!

[loveablehands]

alcina write-up:

lady dimetrescu has a strange sense of intimacy. she doesn’t tend to view anyone as an equal, she’s much too powerful and beautiful for that, or at least, so she says---but if you profess a proper partnership with urself as someone beneath her----you can get relatively close to her very quickly. she adores reverence, she dotes on those who are pliant & submissive without shaking fear and allow themself to be fussed over and cooed over. she would love all the fan inserts who want to be stepped on, but she would absolutely never step on them!!! tho she would be big on physical affection if u catch my drift.

she’ll regale you with stories about her past, the jazz scene in paris in the 30s a favorite among her many stories, of which she still remembers the name of many artists and musicians from all people of all walks of life---another heavy reason that she hates heisenberg so vehemently, not just that miranda seems to prefer him---but that he is so clearly does not deserve his place here considering his place in the war. 

she’s a cannibal, and she’s evil---but even she has her standards, she’ll never be on heisenberg’s level of evil. 

even her daughters, she was simply tasked with observing, and she is not interested in any of the rest of their experiments---her idea of her own supremacy is out of a deep sense of ego & aesthetic sensibilities and shallow, rich girl landowner entitlement & vanity turned vicious and hungry----but she retains her humanity in that she is not outwardly prejudiced or bent on systemically abusing anyone against or on anyone besides the poor and the tasteless. just hungry, bored, and the worst boss you’ll ever have. these are things she uses to justify her own evil, of course. it’s terrible to torture people, and she does so with no regret after so many years. she is self-concerned and almost self-pitying as she does so, thinking about how horrible it is that she should have to kill women to survive, but not about how horrible it feels for the other person---only that her needs are annoying and MAKE her do this to the women of the village, which only makes her more spiteful.

lady dimetrescu has had a handful of real relationships with maids over the years, mostly foreigners sacrificed to her by the village in the place of their own daughters---and she’s even let some of them go, because she finds them too interesting or talented to waste. and it is a waste, eating people who have stories to tell, who can converse with her without fear while still satisfying her ego. 

she achieves no sexual pleasure from physical torture or scaring her maids, just like you achieve no sexual pleasure from drinking a beer or eating a burger or having a fruit gusher, however. she is, in fact, less of a sadomasochist and more of a ‘melting the stone’ kind of lesbian femme dom, who wants to care for more butch or more modern women---until they can be intimate with each other in ways that woman has not thought previously possible.

lady d is NOT attracted to fear, and she is not attracted to defiance. she wants a girl-friend, a girl who is her friend, who she can gab with, who is chivalrous and holds doors open, who WANTS to serve her. it helps if that person is already rich or has a sense of fashion themselves. she loves confidence & experience, but she’s also more than willing to teach & guide the inexperienced.

lady d is a very lonely, bored, person. she’s easily excitable, with an almost schoolgirl kind of enthusiasm any time anyone has anything interesting at all to say---she’s gossipy, high maintenance, chatty, and catty----but parts of her mind have gone with disuse, she’s slow, and living in a forgotten dollhouse of a world, without access to the outside world, has made her numb, and monsterous in nature in that she is unable to empathize with those she deems useless & boring.

but she loves meeting new people who aren’t afraid of her, especially women, and is constantly trying to flirt with her maids and MAKE them interesting---but most maids rebuff her advances out of fear bc they know what has happened to their sisters, their husbands, their mothers, their fathers, their grandmothers, etc. it makes sense, but she still begrudges them for it, and they die a lot quicker if they have nothing interesting to say it.

she wants to know about the outside world, but she knows it is not a place for her anymore. she once was a traveler---a goth jazz doll that toured the world---and she thinks it sad her career never went anywhere by the time she was forced to ‘settle down.’

she and her girls still do performances sometimes, and she’ll do one for you if she really wants to impress you, but afterwards she’s prone to moods and melancholy. her daughters are truly the only thing that keeps her going sometimes when she feels all alone & trapped in the world in a place of inferiority bc of miranda and her monsterism which she frankly tries to hide but which fails her anyway. dysphoria gets to her, sometimes, the person in the mirror in the cracked white make-up and the breast veins is not the young beauty she wants to see, there is no color to her cheeks, and she’s always been goth, but there’s a certain lethargy and depression and malaise that comes to every moment she is not literally drinking blood---

but she continues, onwards, to each new day, moving forward, eating & growing, eating & markedly unliving in wealth & depravity.

[fvlminare]

✗✗✗   you see [ camille rivas ] around lately? yeah i heard that the [ cis female ] is up to no good. [ she / her ] has been here for [ three years ] now but they’re still pretty [ calculating ] which is fine because they’re also [ ardent ] so it balances out. the [ twenty-six ] year old [ dancer at mayhem ] actually looks like a lot like [ sofia carson ], don’t you think? it’s best to watch out, though, because it’s been said that they’re really into [ the rush of cocaine in her veins & a vice grip on her throat ]. 

henlo it me again! i hope u guys aren’t sick of me yet bc here’s my other bb! say hello to my boss-ass bish gal camile! she’s sassy, classy and a lil badassy. she’s a rather feisty, fiery, ball of rage and anger who cba with ur bullshit tbh n she’ll tell u this too if u piss her off enough! she’s lowkey cutthroat and always out for number one, aka: herself. but, i mean, she does have some redeeming qualities and her hair is bomb af so that makes up for it all really, doesn’t it? basically that meme: ‘ she’s beauty, she’s grace, she’ll punch you in the face. ’ anywho, you know the drill, slap a lil luv on this n i’ll come pester u for all the good stuff : - ) 

fundamentals.

CAMILLE ALARA RIVAS     —     twenty-six, dancer at mayhem,   +   an honest-to-god vixen   /   hellcat   /   lil demoness ! 

aesthetics   ➤   dresses of black lace and red velvet, the scent of chanel perfume lingering in the air as she floats past, blood-red fingertips coiled around the pistol grip of a gun, red-bottomed heels clicking against marble floors, rose gold highlighter shimmering along the height of prominent cheekbones, satin dresses draped over a svelte frame that is shrouded in an air of mystery and intrigue, baby pink roses in a vase on the window sill, deft fingers stained with charcoal and oil paint, the melodic chime of piano keys, delicate digits adorned with moonstone gem rings, a coy smile spread across full crimson lips, long raven locks blowing in the cool breeze of a summer’s evening, battered books with dog-eared pages, a sense of freedom and carelessness when dancing for fun, & a sense of allurement and captivation when dancing for work.

nicknames. cam, cami, mil, millie, spawn of satan >:~)

date of birth. april tenth.

gender. cis female.

pronouns. she + her.

birthplace. manhattan, new york.

orientation. pansexual + demiromantic.

education. bachelor of dance degree obtained from nyu tisch school of the arts.

spoken languages. can speak fluent english, spanish, & latin.

negative traits. capricious, ornery, impulsive, guileful, caustic, brusque, obstinate, destructive, deceptive, & promiscuous.

positive traits. ardent, whimsical, intrepid, graceful, poised, elegant, headstrong, observant, independent, & confident.

strengths. optimistic, energetic, creative, practical, spontaneous, rational, knows how to prioritise, great in a crisis, & relaxed.

weaknesses. stubborn, insensitive, private, reserved, easily bored, dislikes commitment, & has a rather risky behaviour.

talents. ballet, knife throwing, hand-to-hand combat, horse riding, figure skating, piano, violin, painting, singing, & dancing.

physiology. hazel eyes. dark brown hair. five feet, four inches tall. of a petite, slender stature with subtle curves and long hair. has a long silvery scar on her back. her skin is clean of any tattoos. has both earlobes pierced. requires glasses but wears contacts most days. is right-handed.

psychology. aries zodiac. fire element. ravenclaw house. istp-a. true neutral. type seven enneagram. choleric temperament. intra-personal intelligence type. addicted to alcohol, tobacco, and cannabis. suffers from addiction and abandonment issues. her vices are lust, greed and wrath. her virtues are ... ( again ) honestly, probably just diligence tbh.

background.

possible triggers   :   child abandonment, abandonment issues, foster homes, alcohol, drugs, violence, gore, blood, murder, & death.

a synopsis.   ok so for this gal, let’s all give a big, warm welcome to sadness ( no, i was in no way at all inspired by salem from sabrina for that line ) bc boy oh boy, her life has been constant grief and pain, tbh. strap in for the bumpy ride, i’ll give u cookies for compensation. OK SO, camille was abandoned as a baby, never did—and still doesn't—know her biological parents and she doesn’t want to either, tbh. she bounced around from foster home to foster home, never sticking in one place for too long. given her turbulent upbringing, she was somewhat of a difficult child. too boisterous, too unruly, too stubborn, too inquisitive. too much of everything but never enough of anything. never enough for anybody to want her. it didn’t take the girl too long to figure out that it was just her alone, against the big bad world. from the age that she was old enough to realise it, camille knew that she had to fend for herself—that she could never truly rely on a single soul but herself. the hollowness inside her chest never quite satiated, leaving her empty and only too well aware of the lack of her real parental figures. as a young adolescent, this started to crawl under her skin and mess with her mind. it rendered her void of affection and unable to form genuine bonds with others—filling her with deep-rooted resentment that festered beneath the surface of the indifferent demeanour she plastered over herself every day. she always felt starved of love: as if some integral part of her heart was missing, leaving a gaping void that nobody could ever fill. anywho, she fell in with the wrong crowd which did little to aid her foster families hostility toward her. truthfully, most of her experiences in various homes were ... not pleasant. she’d encountered abusive ‘parents,’ horrible ‘siblings,’ and even worse schooling days. pressing the self-destruct button is this gal’s speciality thus she found herself gravitating towards her vices: things and people she knew were no good for her. drink, drugs, people, you name it. quickly, she realised that these things were no longer any good at keeping her dark side at bay: she needed something more, something deeper. thus, she began going down the road of petty crimes—stealing cars, smashing windows, theft, setting fires both metaphorically and literally. due to this lifestyle, she wound up entangled with some real shady folk who did … even shadier things. most specifically, she started dating a real jackass who was violent and truthfully, a horrible person, really. stupidly, she decided to run off into the metaphorical sunset with him * insert eye roll emoji here. * so, fast forward a year or so and things took a swift nosedive when her lowlife boyfriend’s hands were round her throat and not in the kinky way. while she’d clawed at him and tried to fight him off, she struggled against his weight and strength until, eventually, she lifted the first makeshift weapon she felt: a rusted pair of scissors. [ TRIGGER FOR VIOLENCE, GORE, BLOOD, MURDER, DEATH ] and, in a blind state of panic, she jammed them right into his jugular vein, his blood squirting out and decorating her face in crimson splatters. he’d stumbled backwards, clutched onto his neck, blood spurting from the webs between his fingers. naturally, camille was shook about this but somehow managed to flee the scene with less guilt rattling her soul than she’d imagined. [ TRIGGER OVER ] in her mind, it was an act of self defence. it wasn’t too long after the incident that she found herself in a rather perilous situation that resulted in her sudden realisation that she needed to get her damn life on track. therefore, she done the responsible adult thing and got herself a decent education. somehow, she managed to get into university where her life started to shape into a positive one—the kind she’d always dreamed of. once she graduated, camille decided that she wanted to see the world. following a couple of years travelling, she wound up in santa ysabel where she quickly fell into the employment of mayhem. admittedly, this was a far cry from the future she’d envisioned when she was just a sweet, innocent lil child. still, all in all, she kind of digs who she is and what she is: after everything she’s been through, she loves herself. it’s been a long and winding road but camille finally believes that she’s settled in her life now. tho she still refuses to let people in, her abandonment issues terrifying her to the degree that she feels that anybody she’d ever let into her life would eventually leave her in the end. * insert sad face emoji here. *

random extras.

her tell? playing with her hair: when she’s lying, nervous, flirting—you name it!

can drink any man under the table. 

she loves art in every form: paintings, sculptures, music, dance, people, etc. she loves the freedom that expressing herself through these mediums gives her.

she’s ... experimental. she’s experimented with just about everything: hairstyles, clothing, drink, drugs, people ...

can be hella calculating and vindictive so do not cross her.

quite power-hungry tbh.

she does have a shot at redemption but she doesn’t want it lmao. she’s already been to hell so why bother trying to right her wrongs?

and boy, are her wrongs a century-long list shkjsh.

high key is not above killing people who don’t do things her way.

doesn’t believe she’s capable of loving anyone.

she’s lowkey a perfectionist to the point of being ruthless, also cutthroat and egotistical.

if ya ain’t of use to her, then what the heck is ur purpose???

she’s v ambitious, v morally ambiguous, v self-serving and v self-involved.

she can be ... aggressive sometimes and most definitely has anger issues.

dry sense of humour one million per cent.

her signature look is her blood-red lips.

extremely skilled with knives and blades. and always carries one on her person at all times.

her most prized possession is her brushed chrome zippo lighter. it has her initials engraved into it and where she got it from, or who is something she’ll never tell.

always says she needs to quit smoking but never does and probably never will either.

did someone say ... resting bitch face???

tho when she smiles it’s like sunshine uwu

high key will sleep with anyone.

first place is the ONLY acceptable place, ok??? 

one of those people who just excels at everything she tries her hand at.

absolutely adores animals. much prefers them to humans.

she’s quite adventurous and loves to feel the adrenaline in her blood.

doesn’t take herself or her life too seriously.

always up for a good time and is usually the life of the party.

outspoken and quick-witted with a sharp tongue.

much too sassy and sarcastic for her own good.

really, she does what she wants to, when she wants to, without seeking the approval of others.

truthfully? she’s a bit of a spitfire if you really irk her. so, watch out.

you can find a pinterest board for her by clicking anywhere here.

[gammija]

The Hollow review/summary/rant/explanation of why i hate the ending I wasn’t sure whether I should post this, but I did enjoy reading others experiences watching this show, so here’s mine under the cut. Edited from a convo with a friend.

(Obviously, spoilers!)

Me: Okay so to properly express my disappointment i gotta take you through the major beats

The show starts with three teens waking up in an almost empty room, finding out they all have amnesia. They quickly solve a puzzle to escape the room, and just as quickly Adam and Mira realize they have superpowers (superstrength/agility and some weird 'speak to animals/know all languages' hybrid, respectively. also she can breathe underwater and swim really fast. its kind of vague)

Kai is already clearly a comic relief, discount Ron (from HP, the movies, no idea about the books) so me and sister correctly predict he'll get jealous of adam and miras relationship (even if there is none), gets pissy and jealous that he has no powers, but then finds out he has powers anyway he does, hes a fire bender. cant say im not bitter about that cause id put my money on invulnerability but eh its alright he has red hair after all hes still fun

Friend: Of course he is

I just feel bad is all aldjs

Me: adam gets a throwaway line of 'maybe were dead' and kai never lets it go

this food might be poisoned but im starving and hey were dead anyway! right, adam

Friend: I love him??

Me: i loved him as soon as he spoke his first dumb words also he puns but basically hes the only interesting char; adam and mira are just cookie cutter 'male lead 1' and 'female lead 1' i mean, he’s cookie cutter ‘jealous 3rd wheel’ but that has more going on than the first two still servicable though

anyway so the jokes are sometimes fun, and superpowers are always my jam. but the REAL reason to keep watching is just, whats going on? ARE they dead? or in some kind of weird gvnmt experiment? some weird magical vampire guide (dont ask) hints they wanted this themselves ooh, intrigue. and the world is very very quirky they start in a gravity falls-y woods and then get teleported to a desert with minotaurs and witches, then get invited for tea by the Grim Reaper and the rest of the 4 horsemen of the apocalypse

tbh Grim is the best part of the show but thats neither here nor there

anyway they have a magic map that updates once theyve been somewhere, and it shows them that the hot dry desert and the swampy wood bunker are like right next to each other

so you start thinking, how are they gonna explain that? this is too weird to be handwaved away. theyve gotta be going somewhere

they visit some other exotic locals, like what appears to be the set of Alien (complete with alien) and an abandoned old fair and a floating island with japanese inspired evildoers on it

the weird magic guide keeps showing up and being vague, dropping hints that there are other kids there etc

at some point Mira says "This is no time for games!" Weirdy: "Thats where youd be wrong~" me and sister: Aha! videogame! that connects all the dots, and also makes the tropes clear: small world with all kinds of different areas, quests, fights, superpowers, an updating map, fast travel Adam, a few eps later: guis i think we might be in a videogame me and sister: [high five]

Anyway in the meantime also the second predictable Kai (discount Ron) plot happens: they meet three other kids (boy boy girl) and they act shady but the girl takes an immediate and obvious interest in Kai so obviously theyre gonna manipulate him and have him betray his friends but in the end he'll see through their facade and kick their ass that more or less happens. The other teens also confirm that this is a game, and theyre trying to win. winning is done by bringing the MacGuffin to a tree fights over macguffin ensue situations are dire but our characters persevere

(also Mira kisses Adam and he acts very weird about it, almost as if hes gay and the only reason they didnt make it canon is censors) (no lingering gaze, just him going 'hehe yeah no thanks, its not you, its me', but in a very... he doesnt seem to be saying it with shall we say burning desire in his soul. hes literally just like 'eh youre a good friend.' Cool move, cartoon that made the two main boys have arguments over nothing cause of course the two main guys have constant dick measuring matches)

this all is not the offensive part btw it was all fun and games, its just a flash cartoon i wasnt expecting Shakespeare

anyway so theyre in a videogame, and apparently thats the answer to all the weirdness. A bit of a cop-out, cause thats a very easy answer, but eh, it works. it wasnt immediately obvious.

also something i hadnt mentioned yet: thisd be ideal for making (self-insert) OCs. Unique powers for each person, there are clearly more characters than shown, the world is your playground

and maybe the video game thing could be interesting on its own in the last few eps the game seems to be glitching out a lot they say its breaking apart so they really gotta hurry now maybe they were beta testers for a vr game gone wrong maybe this is part of it but its like a huge experience that you tell all your friends about anyway there are ways it could be cool, could be expanded to a season 2 despite having solved the mystery

but. last episode. our heroes get the MacGuffin, go to a final stage, and fight the Boss Battle (its a dragon). they enter the Castle....

...and the screen zooms out, into a sudden live action stage, where we see the cartoon (literally what you were just watching) on screen. there are 6 chairs, 3 with our heroes, 3 with the other teens, presumably. theres a host and hes dressed exactly like the weird guy (and that was already kind of a clashy outfit in the cartoon). it was all just a game show. but. the worst part is the live action

you. dont. go. from. animated. to. live. action.

other way around? fine, can work. But now? WHY itd still be dumb and dissapointing but if itd been animated too itd at least have been.... nice to look at but the acting.. oh god they didnt even say anything and it was all wrong clearly theyd just picked the first random teens that vaguely looked like the chars and put them in there cause they had no lines so who needs acting?!

the enemy teams girl had, in the cartoon, pink hair. Purple with pink highlights instead of stylizing that into something more realistic or painting the actual hair, they gave some 30-year old woman a wig and called it a day

keep in mind i binged this show in one go

purposely stayed up late to watch the last ep with my sis even tho we shouldve gone to bed and were disobeying our dad cause we Had to Know

and theres more i said they had no lines but i was lying. Kai did have a line. well, his voice actor did they dubbed him also the line was about him having to pee which is already not the most hilarious in animated version but a live action kid whose supposed to be this character you spent 3 hours with but looks nothing like him saying that in a voice that doesnt belong to his throat, as he stands bashfully in front of a live audience, the only words spoken by your main characters in the last moments...

*its actual hell*

oh oh one more thing at the end the six kids stand in a line and kai is next to other girl they glance at each other and as the eyes of this teen and 30 year old in wig cross, her eye glitches for a moment

dun dun duuun

bUT i dont care anymore, The Hollow. You overestimated your own premise. this wont be forgiven. your most interesting part was the mystery, and the answer  to that was "just a normal game show" (which also doesnt make sense on another level smh) soo if you think that im interested in what these two-dimensional (ha) characters will do now about the glitch in the eye of a bitch then i have news for u

i dont

...if they get a second season ill probably check it out though as long as its animated

Friend: Gammi I'm getting the real sinking suspicious feeling that what you saw isn't the real end but bad on purpose because there's more to it

Me: the show didnt seem good enough to be bad on purpose

and yet im still not done, if youll still hear me out

i mean, im an animation fan so ill still watch but if theyd wanted to be bad on purpose they really shouldve done a better job fleshing out the characters thats what people come back for that was a bit of a sidetrack BUT so i said why the live action itself was just terrible in overal quality

but the resolution that 'oh it was all in a game show' doesnt work on multiple levels

first of all, they show a short flashback of "About 5 hours earlier". The kids stand on the stage and are instructed to take their seats in the vr-chairs, and pick their superpower

2 things i dislike about that

1) there goes all the self-insert/oc potential. they werent teens in over their heads, they werent gvnmt experiments, or just some kids who wanted to play a game -they were in it to win it, from the start. thats very specific and not the most appealing to all kinds of characters (goodbye, all the 'im just an average girl whod never step into the spotlight like that' characters).

Also, all the expansion on lore is gone. maybe there were other games simultaneously? eh, maybe, but theyd be all gameshows. Maybe someone ended uo trapped there for way longer? nah its just a gameshow theyre not gonna let anything actually bad happen. Maybe there are other worlds, other areas, other weird creatures? unlikely, they finished the map and familiarity seemed to be a thing for the audience. Now every new idea has to be put not through a 'whats interesting for a player' but a 'whats interesting for a viewer' lens, and whats a selfinsert if not a player in another universe

2) HOW IS THIS A SUCCESSFUL GAME SHOW

who the hell watches a game show for 5 consecutive hours, some of which mustve been just them walking. also, we zoom out of the screen were watching, so implication is that everything up until then has been what the audience has seen. but... we only followed the one team. there were two? why didnt the audience want to see what they were up to? ~reality tv usually thrives on showinf the worst assholes so realistically they wouldve been the focus~

There are also way too many times *both* teams couldve failed, from early on till late in the game. Not a single game i can think of thats played for an audience is set up like that, and especially not a televised one (okay tbf idk if this was televised, i dont remember if i saw cameras, but. it mustve. monetary reasons.)

What r u gonna do if they all 'died' from the monsters in the first ep? Call it a day? boring for the audience. let them restart from scratch? boring for the audience. the existence of an audience messes with everything

AND THEN ANOTHER THING what do you mean, "5 hours ago?" you never get a time stamp to show how long theyve been in there but there are some cuts, when they travel and such. The actual show is a lil over 3 hours runtime. You mean to tell me you sat through 2 hours of the characters just walking?

okay last thing. so. they were clearly second season teasing with the glitching eye thing. i already said this but. theres nowhere to go from here that isnt worse that the first season. your mystery is dead. you clearly know your live action teens cant act so youd have to go back into the game - but why would they do that? how would that be in any way interesting? you explored all there was to explore.

The other, more out there option, is that as you said the 'real world' was a fake-out and theyre still in a game. but. how would- how would you even make that remotely convincing? if youd just left the 'real world' gameshow as animated too this wouldnt have been a problem. but there is absolutely no conceivable reason to justify, in universe, why another meta-level up is 2D animation again unless they were in a game, in a game, in a game. and thats just dumb. yall aint inception

Friend: HONESTLY if they just kept the whole deal animated it'd probably be okay. Not good, but better,

Me: ye me and my sister came to the same conclusion

i couldve lived with that. at least, i couldve just acknowledged the finales existence but chose to ignore it. now however im full phantom planet levels of denial. in fact i dont even know how the show ended anymore, suddenly

Friend: what finale? what show?

Me: also at least now we know why its called The Hollow

it leaves you feeling empty inside

[boofmont]

- ̗̀ * ( liana liberato + cisfemale + she/her ) have you seen ( saige beaumont ) walking around campus ? they are a ( 20 ) year old, studying ( linguistics + criminal psychology ). we hear they are in ( theta sigma eta ), and can be ( passionate & irrational ), maybe it’s because they are a ( cancer ). they sort of remind us of ( drunk stick n' pokes at 2am, avoiding cracks in the sidewalk, the familiar riff of an old song ), maybe we can find out more ! ( jamesy the fool + 20 + EST + she/they ) * ̖́- + newspaper photographer, campus tour, swim

lmao hi here’s my final baby she is the love of my life i’ve known her for 8 years i think and she’s come a long way sdfkgh please love her as much as i love her. if i was fictionkin i’d identify solely with her (and she’s not even a self insert ! wow !) **IM STILL ON HAITUS UNTIL MONDAY BUT I HAD THIS READY TO GO LMAO**

TW: ALCOHOLISM, DRUG ABUSE? MENTIONS.

gen. info

full name: saige alouette beaumont

nickname(s): she...doesn’t have any in this timeline but PLEASE, she LOVES nicknames. she’s a nickname slut.

b.o.d. - july 7th, 20 whole yrs old.

label(s): the hedonist, the icarcian, the reveler, etc. etc.

height: 5′7″ thank u very much !!

hometown: thibodaux, louisiana

sexuality: firstly when aren’t my babies bi as FUCK (minus aster). but she also prefers masc-presenting folks

biography

the only child of a world renown fashion designer named manon lévêsque (surname kept b/c Branding) and US lieutenant general robert beaumont

manon’s brand is like...on the level of chanel, and dior, and shit, y’know??

manon’s...obv french, very french. born n raised in france. 

robert beaumont comes from a very southern family, all located in louisana. also french, just more...american.

they’re fucking loaded

saige’s childhood wasn’t the...Usual, childhood. they moved around a lot as due to both of her parents’ jobs. (’cos robert wasn’t ALWAYS a 4-star army man smh)

the longest they’ve rly stayed in one place (minus saige’s ucla yrs) is like...two yrs, tops ??

due 2 that she didn’t rly make...a lotta friends?

but when she DID , it was always the most interesting ppl she could find

but her parents were always SUPER strict

it was like they came together purely to mold the perfect child

like, they controlled where she went! what she wore! who she interacted with! what she watched or read or listened to!

she’d have bodyguards on her when her parents were busy, not nannies

she was taught all the proper things ladies were to learn, like cooking and sewing and ballroom dancing, and more

she was also taught how to drop a man to his knees in less than 10 seconds and how to shoot a gun, but that was it in terms of self defense skdfgh

eventually saige got bored with a life of being carefully watched and attending military balls and fashion runways

how do u surround a girl w/ so much culture and expect her to not want to experience life for what it is?

she learned how to dodge guards in order to go canoeing in the full moon with strangers she’d met five hrs prior, and how to blend in at festivals filled with throat-melting sweet drinks

she almost landed in a tabloid at the age of 15 for sneaking out w/ a boy three years older and her parents paid a lot of money to hide it.

no matter how much they tried to keep her rooted, saige always found a way to bend the rules and escape her lil golden cage

like they even had her homeschooled w/ the best tutors one could pay for n she still yeeted tf out whenever she could

born for the party life t b h

they decided that the best course of action to deal w/ her was to finally keep her in one place so they p much made her go to ucla lmao

homegirl did NOT want to go at first, just ‘cos she HATES being rooted to one place, is used to traveling the world and seeing shit and learning other cultures n shit, y’know ??

but then she joined theta sigma eta lmao n the parties ??

fucking amazing

it didn’t take a lot for her to be convinced to stay, esp ‘cos her parents didn’t quite realize...how big the party scene is

(not like they could’ve sent her to like...harvard or smth...homegirl’s smart but not THAT smart lmaooo)

unfortunately, saige has piss poor self control; and this was too much freedom for her. she was being Too Wild

anyWays the summer before her current year (i ... think she’s a sophomore ?) she went to a particularly wild party and somehow ended up at one of her mother’s collection launch parties w/ a pal of hers !!

and she totally embarrassed her mom !! in front of everybody !! being lil’ ol drunk n freshly 20 yr old !

after that saige was NOT welcomed at home (wherever home was, at the moment, that is). she wasn’t DISOWNED ‘cos that’d be HORRIBLE for the press n god, imagine the media ?? it would worsen it all

but she wasn’t allowed at home. wasn’t allowed with them. wasn’t allowed to see them unless at events they specifically ordered her to come to for press reasons

doesn’t really...know where she’s going to go in the summer ‘cos the summer she Fucked Up she lived out of hotel suites and friend’s couches. n like yeah she can just Buy a place or smth but ?? commitment ?? adult decisions ?? christ !

nobody knows her parents have essentially kicked her tf out and aren’t even talkin’ to her, ‘cos homegirl’s ashamed

it isn’t rly hard to hide it tho ‘cos her parents still give her a shit ton of money LMAO rich privilege

but it can’t fix how absolutely hurt she is

the alcohol , however, COULD

started partying more, and more intensely, and didn’t stop when the parties did

alcohol became part of her diet.

irish cream in her mornin’ coffee, coke n rum at lunch, vodka and like...23 packets of crystal lite in her hydro flask during lectures

without alcohol, she suffers terrible withdraws and those turn her into a completely different person

noBoDy KnoWs

or if they do, they don’t realize the extent of it! just how bad it is! ‘cos she’s a big ol’ faker

she’s fine it’s FINE

personality

i actually have...traits i’ve written for her

positive traits:

kindhearted, optimistic, energetic, dreamy, charismatic, intelligent (to...a degree, lmao), active, charismatic, sympathetic, amiable

negative traits:

naive, dumb (to...a degree, double lmao), self-destructive, spiteful, stubborn, defensive, inattentive, unstable, loud, reckless

but ANYWAYS

if she wants to do smth, she’ll do it

there’s no way to talk her outta whatever she has set in her mind, even if it’s fucking STUPID

‘cos she’s stupid and we love her for it

uuuUuUuUuUUUUhh

she’s a vegetarian, loves animals too much 2 do it

has adhd but she’s not medicated ‘cos her parents suck n young girls r always severely under diagnosed ‘cos doctors also suck

she’s allergic to cats, pumpkins, and penicillin

loves cats

she does her own stick n’ pokes, n will do ur stick n’ pokes if u ask. Loves doin ‘em, but she can’t draw for shit LMAO

however ! she does play three instruments:

piano, violin, n bass guitar

hates piano w/ a burning passion ‘cos she was p much forced to learn. thinks violin is lit as fuck. bass guitar? her fav thing ever. did it as an act of rebellion.

also, even tho she’s just....a whole ass dumbass, she knows like...four languages

yes including english

anyways she knows uUUuUH french, spanish, n latin (for funsies)

is also learning mandarin, german, n irish gaelic (for funsies)

is a big language slut, essentially

and a uh...slut in general

like she just rly loves everybody

she’s SUPER friendly, super confident, like...the best gal to know, ‘cos she’s got sm energy n if u don’t talk a lot ? that’s fine ! she’ll talk for u ! even if u don’t ask her to !

but yes she’s not like EASY but she’s easy

she’s had a few short-term relationships and even fewer long-term relationships

and she doesn’t ! have commitment issues !

doesn’t like getting hurt but also ! she will fall in love w/ anybody !

(i’m kidding every time i’ve ever played her in all my years she’s always, always attracted to like...grumpy tough ppl. that’s her type. do u sell drugs? she loves u. do u get into pointless fights and have constantly bruised knuckles? she loves u. did u sell ur soul to the devil? oh, she rly does love u.)

actually thinks rly low of herself but would NEVER let ANYBODY know that ‘cos god forbid

just keep smilin’ :)

probably uses finger guns

skateboards into EVERYTHING she’s fucking CLUMSY and stupid

will wear gucci on top of her thrift finds (stop going to goodwill if ur nearly a billionaire u dumbass)

that being said she’s not always........aware? she’s not shallow but she’s kind of just...she’ll throw her money at u if u can’t afford smth, and like...doesn’t know how taxes work? and also...doesn’t know how poor ppl go on living?

like she’s highly dependent on her money

she has three fucking cars ‘cos she just thought they were PRETTY

one’s a pick up truck w/ LED lights, one’s the literal car from the princess diaries, and the other’s just a real fast sports car

totally does illegal street racing but ? only sometimes ? mostly for funsies rly doesn’t care abt money at all LMAO

she’s...not very independent

she’s got an addictive personality, y’see?

does MANY drugs, like mdma (ecstasy? molly?), coke, shrooms, acid, the marijuanas. i think that’s it.

a lil bit of a cokehead but only at parties okay uwu

idk how but she always manages to be laidback and yet also super energized at the same time. she just truly, does not give a single shit

also i said she was dumb earlier and like...TRUE

excels at english, history, etc. etc.

but as soon as math or science is involved? fart noise

bad shit

hate it

she can’t focus on shit she doesn’t like so like...that doesn’t help

in other news, she can be best described as a DRUNK TINKERBELL

as she was originally a pixie. it’s suiting

she’s ... almost ethereal

will tease u. will act like she’s known u for years. this is normal for saige.

she’s just rly BUBBLY and FUN okay ! pls love her

like pretty please

she’s my best muse by far and i’ve been rping since 2010

OH okay so like fun fact: her mother still sends her pieces that she hasn’t released yet so saige’s closet is filled w/ clothes she will nvr wear ‘cos she refuses to in order to Spite her Mother

also will GIVE these EXCLUSIVE UNreleased articles of clothing to her FRIENDS as GIFTS as a big FUCK U to the MAN (mom)

she’s just a dumbass

wanted connections

ok so gimme a blackmailer who knows abt saige’s like...issues, n instead of tryn to help her they use it to their advantage to get whatever they want from her :^)

also a TUTOR ‘cos she’s stupid in math n science

party pals like do i even have to explain

childhood friend(s) or like...acquaintances ?? she’s traveled for so long

da PLUG gimme her DEALER

ex boyfriend(s) - she loves ppl, sometimes too much. were they in love? maybe not. did she get bored? did he? who knows?

i mean same applies to girlfriends

just ?? a dude who has completely caught her attention. saige finds him SO INTERESTING for some fucking reason. reminds her of travelling, reminds her of her years of exploring. reminds her of a lotta things, rly. he might b a good person. or ! he might not !

random hookups - past ? present ? fwbs ? one night stands ? i’ll take them all !

best friend - y’know. her ride or die. celeste. i mean there can b another, but celeste. try n compete w/ celeste.

other close friends!

fake friends!

frenemies!

(also am a big slut for the on-and-off relationships where theyre both horrible for each other n it’s not.. Good , but they can’t stop ! they won’t stop ! it’s not abusive but it’s toxic just ‘cos they’re both fucking enablers smh breaking up n getting back together all the time)

bad influence ? good influence ?

roommates ??

[neirawrites]

WIP Questions Tag Game

ok, full disclosure i’m taking a bit of a tumblr break, but I wanted to do this one for a while now, so a big thanks to @katekyo-bitch-reborn for giving me the chance. 

WIP: A Better World. 

1. Describe the plot in one sentence?

Parallel universe humans visit Earth and hijinks ensue. 

2. Pick one sight, smell, sound, feel and taste to describe the aesthetic for your novel.

Sight: the night sky and sibrian tundra 

Smell: books, disinfectants, paint and blood

Sound: friendly laughter, gunshot and a desperate scream. 

Feel: scales, books and cold metal of a gun. 

Taste: burgers, hot chocolate and your own blood in your mouth. 

3. Which 3+ songs would make up a playlist for the novel?

I’m not that much of a music person, so the only real songs referenced in ABW are “Starman” by David Bowie and “Sing” by Ed Sheeran, not named by name, but both are jokes.

Instead, let me to this for Phantom Limb, my prodigal child of a novel, so you may learn some nice ex yu music (and some trash)

Hungarian Rapsody, no 2. by Listz (not bosnian, as you can tell)

A što ćemo ljubav kriti? (Why should be hide love?):This is the unofficial LGBT anthem around here, and Danica sings it to Alma and it’s romantic and fluffy and so self indulgent it hurts. 

Par Godina za nas (Few years for us), by Ekatarina Velika, the best ex yu band and I will fight you on this

Računajte na nas, (Count on us) by Đorđe Bašašević, the only millennial anthem released in the 70′s

Ibro Dirka, by Zabranjeo Pušenje, a song about an accordion player refusing to sell his ideals. That whole album (while you wait for the dawn with the devil) is referenced too.

Ti lutaš bebo (you’re wandering baby), by maya berović. this is the lowest tier of ex yu music, but since this novel takes place in 2018 and it deals with sarajevo gayz, it would be impossible not to reference it because that is all they played for months.

Burek by Dino Merlin (look, i hate this song and I hate this guy, but this is so quintessentially Bosnian it had to be in here). also, the singer is a huge part of the novel. 

Vedran Smailović, the Cellist of Sarajevo, has a cameo, because I’m apparently a 57 year old american journalist who spent 2 weeks in Sarajevo in like 2005 and has to reference the war in their novel that takes place 20 years later.

Just put me down for a few anime soundtracks. and make it Yuri. 

4. What’s the time period and location in which the novel takes place?

Back to ABW: it takes place in the mid to late 2020, in Siberia. The sequel takes place a year later, on Jord, in what is basically Cape Town, South Africa. I have never been at either of these places. 

5. Are there any former titles you’ve considered but discarded?

The original title for this, years and years ago, was A Fallen Angel. I don’t understand it either, it was a sci fi story even back then. 

6. What’s the first line of your novel?

Being the first line of communication with an alien race wasn’t an easy job, but Dafne Everson was more than happy to do it. TBH, I’m not that happy with my first chapter. it’s a bit... info dump-y.

7. What’s a line of dialogue you’re particularly proud of? 

“-I don’t think that much has changed. You can’t change your past. That’s kind of the problem.- -But you can change the way it shapes your present-”

-Get up, fuckface, I want you off my planet.- 

-Choke on your Gucci cufflinks you twat.- 

 “In the immortal words of Martina Fernandez “Go fuck yourself”“ by Martina Fernandez. (the last 3 are all by martina) 

8. Which line from the novel most represents it as a whole?

“-I don’t want to change the world.- Onisha admitted –I just want to understand it.- -You can’t understand it completely and not change it in the process.- she said. The passion was back in her eyes. That glow of manic comprehension of the world and its components reminded Onisha why she came here in the first place. Science was more than a bunch of people in lab coats doing boring equations or repeating the same experiments hundreds of times. If the initial spark didn’t exist, no one would bother. In that moment Nova was that passion personified; the drive that made Chien-Shiung Wu cancel her vacation plans to experiment with cobalt and wreck the conservation of parity; Vera Rubin’s love for stars that buried her under a mountain of data to measure galactic rotation curves and confirm the existence of Dark Matter. She was Emmy Noether, and Marrie Currie and Lise Meitner and a million other brilliant people and their passion for knowledge. She could change the world. And Onisha would help her do it. " Look, i just love my science lesbians and their passion to make a better world. 

9. Who are your character(s) faceclaims?

I don’t have a many of these, just a few I came across randomly:

Domhnall Gleeson as the young ginger man. I would like to thank Forggy for this idea. I was blinded by my basic bitch love for Tom Hiddleston.

Dwayne The Rock Johnson as the emir (president) of Jord, Kalti Forgisto. this character shows up in one scene, and has like 3 lines and i will not compromise on this. 

Lee Pace and Darren Criss were my Etah Asimov and Elazar Leos, but I recently figured out neither of these characters are fully white, even tho they are pretty pale, soooo this casting has to change pretty soon. 

10. Sort your character(s) into Hogwarts houses.

Gryffindor: MARTINA (she probably walked into the great hall and the hat yelled “you there, with the naurto shirt under the robes, go sit with the lions”), Zeta, Dafne, Dalian.  

Slytherin: Nova (she would fight for ravenclaw tho), Steve, Errien, Liang

Ravenclaw: Onisha, Mila, Elazar, John, 

Hufflepuff: Etah, Ginger Man, Sasha, Nika, Rohan,

11. Which character’s name do you like the most?

I’m kinda self conscious about all of my names :S

12. Describe each character’s daily outfit.

Since I have like 579 ocs, let me help myself with an explanation: Jords in general dress like the entire planet pointed a gigantic middle finger to the concept of color coordination. So, 3 categories for everyone. 

Fashion disaster: Nova, Onisha, Errien, Nika, Rohan, Dalian(first date outfit: a simple polka dotted purple tunic and striped yellow pants, Cecil Palmer school of fashion bejbi)

Neutral: Etah, John, Zeta, 

Fashion deity: Martina, Mila, Sasha, Steve, Elazar

13. Do any characters have distinctive birthmarks/scars?

Nova has a small birthmark under her eye.

Etah has a lot of self harm scars, and a big one on his wrist. 

14. Which character most fits a character trope?

Probably Etah because of what happens to him and I haaaate myself for it. 

15. Which character is the best writer? Worst?

Dafne and the ginger man. She’s a journalists, he’s a part time writer and they are pretty successful. I also love the idea and the great Artist Steve writes like an edgy 12 year old writing their first grimdark fanfic. 

16. Which character is the best liar? Worst?

Best is probably a bit spoilery. The worst is Onisha (imagine Mob, from MP100, but female, black and instead of psychic powers, she has an imminence knowledge of physics) 

17. What character swears the most? Least?

Martina will cuss you in six different languages. 

Onisha is a walking G rated film (tho, one time she cusses was so satisfying to write)

18. Which character has the best handwriting? Worst?

Steve and Etah have the best. Zeta and Liang are doctors. 

19. Which character is most like you? Least like you?

They all have something of mine, something i want and something i don’t.The most like me is probably Onisha. The least probably Zeta or Sasha.  If you want my real self inserts, look at Phantom Limb, where Danica and Alma are just the last two of my brain cells personified. 

20. Which character would you most like to be?

Interesting question. Probably put me down for Dafne Everson. She has a loving dad and sister (and a shitty mom, but who doesn’t?), a career she loves. she travels all over the world, people read her writing and love it, she has a few close friends she really loves and the weight of all the world’s secrets on her shoulders. 

Anyone who wants to do this is more than welcome to. Please tag me, I would like to see more once I make my triumphant comeback (or come crawling back with my tail between my legs). 

[dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt]

Even numbers. Fuck you 💙

:’) 🖕💙

Under the cut… oh my god… lord give me strength… if any of y’all wanna get to know me… read this monster X’D

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I think a bit of both?? I’m the type of person who’d willingly get lost in a strange city but also suddenly develop a stutter when I try to communicate with my fellow humans. :)

4. Are you easy to get along with?

lmao no.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind ones. Who can tolerate me.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

An ex friend/abuser atm. :))))

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

What qualifies as deep?? I guess, my Dad?? Maybe??

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Dodie Clark - Monster

Easy Life - Pockets

Lorde - Buzzcut Season

Zack Hemsey - The Way

Fits and the Tantrums - Roll Up

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Yeah, I think so?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I kissed my Mum on the top of her head. So, yes. XD

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

That would be Jesse. So, yes. Hope he doesn’t find this blog yikes. X’D

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Yes on one side. No on the other side.

22. Where would you like to travel?

America firstly. Then all over the place to visit other friends. I promised my Mum I’d take her to San Francisco one day, so I gotta keep that promise.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

PETS :DDDDD

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Try my best not to murder anyone while I get my cup of tea liquid life ready. XD Say hi to doggos and beep babies. Check to see if any of my friends need me urgently. Then eat toast.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My pets. My parents. My friends.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

I really don’t mind getting married or living in sin. XD It would depend entirely on what my partner wanted, I’d do whatever would make them happy.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

No one. Guess you could say I’m demisexual.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Does horseback riding count?? I’ve dabbled in a bit of cricket. But my lungs don’t like intensive exercising, especially cardio stuff.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Story of my life, every single time. I’ve never told anyone I liked them. I’d rather die than make them feel bad or uncomfortable bc I know they don’t feel the same way.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

At the moment all I can think of is my crush lmao. :’)

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Absolutely nothing bc I’m a dropout. XD Be a completely self-taught author, hopefully.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Online, I’m probably just really tired and don’t have the energy to be upbeat and/or talk to people. In real life, it’s nothing abnormal; I hate my voice so I don’t talk much and I like quiet. If I’m not using a bunch of emojis (you know how I normally do) when I’m talking, you know I’m either being super serious, or I’m pissed off, or both.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

NEITHER YIKES I LIKE MY SOLID EARTH THANK U VERY MUCH

46. What are you paranoid about?

Being annoying.

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Nope. Not really planning on it, either. I’m kind of curious as to how I’d be, though. Like I have deep-rooted buried anger issues so I might be angry, but I’m also depressed so I might be a puddle of tears and sadness, BUT my personality is v energetic and happy so… who knows, dude. X’D

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Blue and grey. It has “yo” on the hood. :D

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

Biologically male. please.

54. Favourite store?

?? don’t have one. 

56. Favourite colour?

Navy or a kind of dark aqua-navy kind of colour, like a bit of a green tinge as well? I’m also really fond of yellow too.

58. Last thing you ate?

LEFTOVER HAMBURGER AND IT WAS DELICIOUS I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVED HAMBURGERS!!!!!!1!!

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Yeah, dog training competition with our German Shepherd when I was 11.

62. Been arrested? For what?

No yet lmao.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

I’ll be sure to tell you about it when it happens. XD

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t have any irl friends so… HELL YEAH!!

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr. Obviously.

70. Names of your bestfriends?

I could literally just list all my Tumblr friends here. I’ve learnt not to get specifically close to any one or two persons. So… all my beans!!! Love you!!

72. What colour are your towels?

Blue! :D I was forced to use the pink towels in the set when I was little and not out as trans so now I surround myself in all the gendered blue bullshit X’D

74. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

….. maaayyyybbbeee.

76. Favourite animal?

D O G

78:Chocolate or Vanilla?

Neither.

80. What colour shirt are you wearing?

It’s my very yellow button down!! :D

82. Favourite tv show?

S E N S E 8

84. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Never seen either oops.

86. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

88. First person you talked to today?

Enna aka Cinnamonpuff aka steverogershield

90. Name a person you hate?

My brother, Mackenzie. :)

92. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Anyone who mistreats animals.

94.How many sweatpants do you have?

I rarely wear anything but sweatpants, so I have 8. THEY’RE COMFY OKAY. And since it’s usually cold or hot here with no real warm in between, I’m either wearing shorts or sweatpants. It’s only in the rare in-between weather (like now) that I wear my jeans.

96. Last movie you watched?

Can’t remember. I watched the first season of Jessica Jones tho, so… show instead of movie. XD

98.Favourite actor?

TERRY CREWS

100. Have any pets?

YES!!! 3 dogs (one German Shepherd named Ria, a Whippet named Granger, and a mutt named Maude), 3 chickens (Haymitch the black one, Cinna the dark brown one, Effie the pale brown one) and 2 ducks (Peeta and Katniss.) THEY’RE MY BABIES AND I’D DIE FOR THEM!!! :’D

102. Do you type fast?

LMAO APPARENTLY I DO??? My Dad thinks I must type gibberish and makes me type out what he says because he doesn’t think I can type that fast. I only type with 2 fingers normally too. X’D

104. Can you spell well?

w e l l (idk. maybe.)

106. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yup.

108. Have you ever been on a horse? 

Many times. I LOVE them SO MUCH.

110. Is something irritating you right now?

Yeah.

112. Do you have trust issues?

No. *insert canned audience laughter here* Yes, I do. Big time. Just bc I’m friendly doesn’t mean I trust anyone.

114. What was your childhood nickname?

Matt, actually!! :D

116. Do you play the Wii?

Used to, now I don’t have one anymore and it wasn’t my favourite console.

118.Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Y E S. GIMME!!!!!! :D

120.Favourite book?

Bird by Crystal Chan.

122.Are you mean?

I think I definitely can be very cutting when I lose my temper. But I haven’t done that in years now and I try very hard to be a good person. Luckily my first reaction is normally hurt, so by the time the anger kicks in I normally try and get out of the situation before I can say something harsh.

124.Can you keep white shoes clean?

NOPE. I can never keep anything clean, probably why I like dark colours so much. I literally do not own any white clothes anymore because they always get stained within a few hours of me wearing them asdfghjkl. 😅

126.Do you believe in true love?

Kind of. I believe that no relationship is ever perfect, but if people gel well and COMMUNICATE OFTEN AND HONESTLY the relationship can be amazing. I guess it’s its own kind of perfect relationship. I definitely think there’s people you get along brilliantly with, better than anyone else. There’s somebody in the world for everyone! :D

128.What makes you happy?

Animals. My friends. My OCs. :’)

130.What your zodiac sign?

Pisces!! I definitely think I’ve grown into it over time. X’D

132. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

??? depends on whether I like them back or not, obviously. If I do, I’ll probably scream for a solid week and then decide if I want to drag them into my mountain of bullshit with a relationship, or leave it be. If I don’t, let them down as gently as I can. Also I’m a raging bi, so gender wouldn’t matter. :P

134.Favourite lyrics right now?

My all-time favourite lyrics are from The Judge by Twenty one Pilots:

“When the leader of the bad guys sangSomething soft and soaked in painI heard the echo from his secret hideawayHe must’ve forgot to close his doorAs he cranked out those dismal chordsAnd his four walls declared him insane”

136.Dumbest lie you ever told?

“Did you let Haymitch jump on your back again?”

“Uh… noooo.”

“Then why do you have massive scratches in the clear shape of chicken feet on your back?”

“UHHHHHH-”

i”M A HUFFLEPUFF OKAY I’M NOT GOOD AT LYING X’D

128.How tall are you?

I’m not.

140.Brunette or Blonde?

Like, people I’m attracted to, or for me? I honestly don’t care attraction wise. For me, I guess brunette bc I think I look really weird with pale hair lmao.

142.Night or Day?

NIGHT. Dear god, night.

144.Are you a vegetarian?

NOPE. Honestly think I’d go insane if I didn’t eat meat. XD I mean, I would if I had to, but I’d really prefer not to.

146.Tea or Coffee?

TEA. I hate coffee, I’ll leave that to other people. XD

148.Mars or Snickers?

SNICKERS. Mars are good but… Snickers!!!!

150. Do you believe in ghosts?

Hell fucking yes you bet I do pal!!!!!!

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Oh! And also how ghosts are great!

Like thats not just me being morbid about the suicidalness, i mean ive always thought that a ghost's particular superpowers would be like the biggest healing thing for all my anxieties!

Being able to turn invisible AND fly AND walk thru the wall to escape?? I could essentially be alone even when im in a crowd of people! And it was just relaxing to sit down and think "hey what would i do in this place if i had absolutely no fear of social embarassment?" Like how i'd actually be able to look at all the things on every single shelf in a shop, without being on a countdown fuse until i get overwhelmed. And i wouldnt be constantly looking over my shoulder so much i cant focus on what im taking in! I could look around all the scenery instead of eyes glued to my feet to avoid eye contact. And i could lay down on the nice looking grass at the park! I could climb trees! I could collect acorns! I could do old stress relief childhood things that randomly become not allowed when you hit a certain age, cos people are judgmental jerks! I could take my plush animals out with me and photograph them in different places! I could wear whatever wild style i want! I could however much i want to order, without worrying people would judge me for it! I could take off my socks when i have a blister on my foot and treat the blister on my foot and then reapply the sock to my foot! (Oh man my dreams are very mundane aint they.. This blister is real annoyin...) I could go to the beach again! The beach is like maximum crowd and maximum embarassment i havent been there for yeaaaars. And i could go out and explore all the places i havent been! And all the places i couldnt be, like interesting looking roofs or go visit the cute birds when all the stuff down there in the human world is too overwhelming. And i could fly all the way to all the countries all you guys live in, and give you a big bunni hug! I could help you out with chores with my amazing new powers and repay you for all your kindness!

Awaaaaaaaa GHOST POWERRS

And yo i could also chill out in relaxing old houses or cool haunted forests and nobody would give me shit for it. Take a nap in a bog! Go explore a sunken pirate ship!

Woooooooooo!!!

And oh man lol my first childhood self insert oc was kinda like.. A contrived way to have these powers while not being a ghost, so nobody would realize i was suicidal? I had actual wings to fly with, and the power of 'shadow portals' to go through walls. And i was a demon because i still identified greatly with the idea of being a misunderstood monster, yeah.

The shadow portals also had an even bigger wish fullfillment tho? Like, i always found darkness comforting as something that concealed me. And whenever i was being beaten by my parents i would sorta disassociate by imagining falling through the floor into my shadow. The idea for the portals was that it was like a pocket dimension inside that you could hide in. And absoluteky nobody could ever break down the door! But also it kinda had simular appeal to walking thru walls cos when i opened the door again i could manifest out of any other shadow, not just the one i came in through. So i could make it past any obstacles and travel to new and exciting parts of the world in an instant! And funnily enough even though this was a wish fullfillment and the rules i set out for this power were so badly written that it was mary sue powerful, i never actually wanted to be the main character. I was just the goofy comic relief sidekick to my friends and i always wrote about myself still failing at everything in the fictional world.the difference was just that people found it funny like in cartoons, and they always forgave me and still wanted to be friends. Like that was one of Dan's powers, just 'everyone either wants to be my friend or ay least doesnt hate me if they dont'. Mary sue ocs are pretty much always just a manifestation of people who are abused or bullied in real life wishing for a world where people would like them. And yeah often it leads to bad writing but honestly those kids and teens are writing it for themselves rather than you, yknow? Its what they need right now.

So umm anyway that was my one of those bad ocs and im not ashamed of any of it, cos i still think ghost shadow powers are fuckin awesome and it would be rad to meet a bunch of superhero friends. And if you dont agree then youre probably lying! We call these kids's stuff "cringe" cos its just so unapologetically what everyone wants to be, and theyre not old enough to learn the shame that kept the rest of us from making stuff like that. And that sucks cos honestly when a passionately over the top wonderful thing is actually written with fully developed writing skills and all, its the best of the best! So many of my friends's passion projects are just BEYOND AMAZING and i hate seeing how they have so little confidence simply because the thing is something important and cathartic to their real life worries or wishes and tehyve just been taught that putting any emotion at ALL into fiction is somehow cringe. And man im exactly the same way, ive quit so many projects cos im totally crushed by my anxiety about them! So yeah lets all just hope for good project luck in the future and all support each other's awesome ideas okay?

ALSO GHOST SHADOW POWERS ARE AWESOME

And yo seriously i really need to revive that idea and give it to a new oc or something.

[creaturebloom]

this is a 65 question ask meme and im the bitch that’s filling it all out at once to waste time

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? oh yeah definitely, but it’s usually the other way around where everyone else is real and i am not

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? idk like a 2.5 i guess

3. The person you would never want to meet? i mean. i don’t know ??? how can i know who i don’t want to meet until i have met them and decided they’re the worst

4. What is your favorite word? akimbo

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? i would WANT to be a weeping willow, but in all honesty i’d probably be a birch or some type of maple

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? i honestly cannot recall

7. What shirt are you wearing? a grey pajama shirt

8. What do you label yourself as? the skeleton god

9. Bright room or dark room? i mean if we’re talking the absolute brightest room vs the absolute darkest, i suppose i would pick brightest.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night? for once i was actually asleep

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? god probably like 8 years old was good

12. Who told you they loved you last? my dad

13. Your worst enemy? it me

14. What is your current desktop picture? it’s a landscape in the style of like miyazaki movie backgrounds

15. Do you like someone? romantically ? no

16. The last song you listened to? poison vine - noah gundersen

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? just like physically destroy one person ???? idk man. like the consequences of this would probably be too far reaching for me to even fathom. do i get caught ?? does it spark paranoia worldwide ? a string of copy-cat murders ? could i live with myself knowing i killed a human being ?

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? nazis

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? idk like. the idea of a slave that has to do stuff for me for a day is kind of wild. if i can like, make a billionaire my slave and then force them to redistribute their wealth then i’d do that

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) my bones !! i can’t show them to you though, not yet

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? i guess the opposite of nonbinary is SUPER binary so i’d be like half man half woman and i’d look exactly like a halloween costume

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? no, all of my talents are pretty out in the open

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? one unique thing ??? i don’t think anyone really has unique fears. if you dig deep enough they all sort of boil down to the same few things in the end. i guess the most strange fear i have is that spiders will be in my slippers, and so i do not own or wear slippers.

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. oh shit ok. idk all the ingredients but one time i ate a vegetarian bahn mi in chicago and it was like the most heavenly sandwich i’ve ever had. i want that again. endlessly.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? honestly at this very moment in time i would buy groceries, and also maybe a pad of watercolor paper

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? oof, leave immediately ??? that limits my choices bc i don’t have a passport. i guess i’d go to like. god idk oregon ? colorado ??? the pacific northwest somewhere.

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? wait what am i supposed to figure out if i don’t drink booze ??? like if my plan was to sell it, i’d have to get a liquor license, and that’s a can of worms i don’t care to open. i think i would ask the angel if instead i can get a lifetime supply of, like, that good bahn mi sandwich i was talking about a few questions up.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? no nerds allowed

29. What is your favorite expletive? i’m pretty partial to fuck, but honesly yikes is what i say most often even though that’s not a swear word. petition to make yikes a swear word.

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? hey so one time there was actually the threat of a fire in my house and despite all these questions no one does anything like that. i put on my shoes, grabbed my phone, sunglasses and water bottle because they were all immediately available as i was exiting the house. so as much as i’d love to grab my box of treasures and keepsakes, i absolutely would not and i know this about myself now.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? yikes. i can see the appeal of this for a lot of people, but for myself it’s just uhhh not feasible. i’d always wonder what i erased, and at some point i would uncover the truth. i wouldn’t like to live with that kind of mystery going on.

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! oh thank god. i’m moving to a colder climate with universal healthcare.

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? okay i would strike a deal here and let’s say i can bring back two pets instead of one person and in this case i would bring back rusty (family golden retriever), and also kohji (brother’s shepherd mix). i’d like to say i’d bring back my cat, but i have two cats now and i know my brother would really like his dog back.

34. What was your last dream about? i don’t really remember, tbh. i’ve been having a lot of weird dreams tho

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? yes i am a VERY good [something]

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? yes ! it was terrifying and i’d never like to do it again thanks

37. Have you ever built a snowman? no, somehow this was never presented to me as an option any time i’ve been around snow

38. What is the color of your socks? buddy i’ve not worn socks in months. but also generally they are striped with various colors.

39. What type of music do you like? gay stuff

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? sunrises

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? chocolate

42. What football team do you support? oh i sure don’t

43. Do you have any scars? yes, many

44. What do you want to be when you graduate? considering that i am no longer in school, the answer is that i want to do whatever i feel like doing at any given moment

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? i suppose i’d cure my mental illness (which i’m working on, so, this will happen)

46. Are you reliable? oh, no. no thanks. i absolutely am but i hate feeling obligated so i always choose to not put myself in situations where someone needs to rely on me for anything

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? i guess i’d ask if they’re happy

48. Do you hold grudges? i mean. i don’t forget things ........ but i am capable of forgiving people

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? nope ! i’ve seen movies, i know what horror that can cause

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? one time my sister and i were talking to our aunt, and we could not for the life of us figure out if she was trying to GIVE or SELL us some rabbit fur coats she had ......... it’s been over a decade and we still do not know which it was

51. Are you a good liar? yes

52. How long could you go without talking? several million years

53. What has been you worst haircut/style? sorry my hair is indestructible and because of the natural texture it looks great no matter what. i’m blessed and i know it.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake? what kind of person doesn’t bake their own cake ????? rich people i guess

55. Can you do any accents other than your own? yes ! but not very well

56. What do you like on your toast? butter, and occasionally cinnamon sugar

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? some cool clouds

58. What would be you dream car? a honda prelude with the pop-up lights

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. i do sing in the shower sometimes, but not loudly

60. Do you believe in aliens? absolutely

61. Do you often read your horoscope? almost every day, but i do my full birth-chart horoscope so that it’s accurate, and not like horoscopes from the newspaper

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? n

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? i mean are they not the same thing. tell me a dinosaur and a dragon are not basically the same things.

64. What do you think about babies? yeah they’re alright. i never want to be in charge of one but i’m alright with them

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of. i guess the most interesting thing i can think to ask myself is which tarot decks i have, and i will tell you. i have the prisma visions tarot (which is amazing), and also the shadowscapes deck (beautiful!), and also a deck of runes that i made myself with a sharpie on a pack of pepsi branded playing cards

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For headcanon meme (I'm not sure if it's supposed to be about OCs or canon characters so have both): Ari (you knew it was coming :P) and/or Almalexia.

I think it’s supposed to be for canon characters, bc, I mean, I’m canon for my own OC, so why would I reject it? :D But I’ll do both anyway

AlmalexiaHeadcanon A realistic: Vivec sent her a copy of “36 lessons”, but she never read it. She said she loved it tho, bc she’s known as lady of mercy not for nothing.B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious - Almalexia after Nerevar’s death, the vibes are all real, it’s only unrealistic bc of the fashion styleC: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends - I don’t wanna imagine more sad things for Almalexia, she’s got enough shit in canonD: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own. - actually very realistic: she didn’t go insane, she’s fine, she’s just got tired of dealing with all the problems alone, bc Vivec is out there constantly high, writing self-insert fanfics and practicing kamasutra poses while levitating, and Sotha Sil is playing with his toys in the basement. And then Voryn shows up with his Dagoth Ur shit, and so Almalexia was like “nah, I’m not dealing with that, my… uh power is waning and I’m getting crazy, lol bye.” So she became a reclusive wine aunt and she’s perfectly fine and alive.

Ari Farlong

Headcanon A:  realistic - after Motb ended, Gann and Ari went to Neverwinter so Gann could meet her dad and friends, and while there, Ari repaired and upgraded Crossroad Keep. After that they went traveling the planes, but Ari loves being an administrator and doing restorations\re-designs of places like she did with Crossroad Keep. So they sometimes drop by, she chooses some quant ruin, like cursed temples or flying city, and makes it a new project, because resource and power-wise, they are basically demi-gods at this point and can afford any bs. Kana is always executive manager and Ari promoted her to “General” and pays her exuberant salary. She also carries enchanted mirrors for urgent calls for when she’s out adventuring, so she can bully some poor merchant into dropping marble prices while blood war rages in background.

B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious - Grobnar made a machine that is half-boombox, half-DJ station and all he did in fights is play epic music on it so Ari could perform her spells with special effects and imagery like it’s a music video. Construct carried this.

C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends - so while she lived in West Harbor, Ari dated Amie. Out of two of them, it’s Amie who actually wanted to be an adventurer, specifically, she dreamed of becoming Arcane Scholar of Candlekeep and traveling the world (it’s actually in the in-game dialogue). They often joked about how Amie will be going through dungeons for dusty books while Ari would lounge in luxury sofa with wine, being pampered by pretty boys with plumed fans. Then Amie died, of course, and many months later, Ari already in Crossroad Keep would be researching magic theory with Aldanon and Sand to understand how King of Shadows functions better. She was pretty good at it, but complained about how useless all of this nerdy wizard shit was practically speaking for a hedonistic sorcerer. Sand was like “Actually, have you heard about Arcane Scholars of Candlekeep? They specialize in metamagic, which lets you make use of the theory and adds versatility to the limited amount of sorcerer spells.” Ari was like “haha, great, thanks!”, locked herself in a cellar, got drunk on mixed wine and vodka and used Ammon’s summoning circle to fuck some succubi. No one got actually worried tho, because one of the perks of being chaotic disaster is that people can’t tell your breakdowns apart from your normal dysfunctionality.  She did become Arcane Scholar in the end, btw.

D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own. - Ari had a life-long dream of becoming a pastel overlord, so post-motb Gann and Ari did Inception-style shit to Nasher to make him leave Neverwinter for few months and make Ari a regent for this time.