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Family hang out ✨💗
#aftg#aftg fanart#all for the game#aaron minyard#andrew minyard#aftg fandom#family vibe that we deserve#let them be happy for the moment okay?#nicky hemmick
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feeling very soft for them lately
#really and truly they just need a moment (or a few years) of peace#also in their future in a time of tolerance#and they could be together#and I cry for them often#their story is a tragedy#I want to cry again#LET THEM BE HAPPY AND IN LOVE#going thru the stages of grief rn#okay goodnight#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#greg house#hate crimes md#hatecrimes md#house#hugh laurie#house md fanart#my art :3#traditional art
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Okay but I'm going a bit insane about the growing disconnect of "maybe we're meant to harness it"/"maybe we're meant to fight it". They both thought they were on the same page when they said it, when actually they were on polar opposite ends of the same spectrum. Imogen meant "I never plan to give in to this power even if part of me wants to, I will continue fighting it, but it’s a comfort knowing there’s someone who understands the temptation and who I know won't judge and will still love me and understand if I ultimately fail and give in". Meanwhile to Laudna it meant "I've been in this struggle for longer than I can remember and I don’t know if I can do it much longer. I don’t know if I want to. I don’t know if I even should, or if giving in would be better for all of us because I'm a lost cause. You understand this about me and won't judge as I inevitably am doomed by the narrative, and you won't demand of me that I fight an inherent part of myself, even if it’s destroying me". And Imogen is finally catching on to this disconnect, is realizing that to Laudna their connection isn’t just understanding but an excuse, not too different from Lilliana. And, desperate of losing Laudna to power just like she did her mother, she says, 'if you let me go, I'm gone', meanwhile Laudna is going 'all I can do for you is die and let you go to lift you up' and both of them are going 'why are you so upset about this. i love you'.
#laudna#imogen temult#critical role#cr3#laudna truly is a FASCINATING character#she's happy and living every moment bc she's already accepted she's a lost cause#she's been neither fighting it nor embracing it for 30 years and now she has an excuse to embrace it#bc embracing it means protecting imogen. even if it also means giving in to temptation and letting imogen ultimately lose her#which is okay to laudna bc LOST CAUSE. She’s happy and living every moment with imogen now but can’t imagine a future for them together#she thinks imogen will go in to greatness after laudna has given up everything to help get her there#bc if laudna doesn’t give up everything and tries to fight imogen will help her#and imogen helping her will mean laudna holding imogen back#she doesnt see that in destroying herself shes destroying part of imogen bc she sees no value in her own life bc of living on borrowed time#I'm going insane about them!!#southern gothic#imodna#nella talks cr
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Ride 784: The first day's mountain

Pag 1
3: We're passing through the riverside road
4: I see it
6: Kaka
7: Ah!!
8: Teh!
9: It's the first day's

Pag 2
1: “mountain”!!

Pag 3
2: As we “promised”!!

Pag 4
3: It's the “first day's mountain stage”!!
4: A year ago
6: Manami-kun said it after the finish line, on the third and last day of the Inter High, when both of us were all worn out and barely still on our bikes

Pag 5
1: But having our race at the end on the final stage is too much pressure
2: Next year, if we both have the chance to run in the Inter High....
3: …. yeah
4: Let's race for the mountain stage on the first day
Yeah
5: Like Toudou-san and Makishima-san last year
Onoda!!
Manami-san!!

Pag 6
1: Manami!!
Manami-san!!
2: Onoda!!
3: He collapsed!!
Manami!! Take off his helmet
It's okay, I caught him
Onodaa!!
Onoda-san
Do we have a towel?
Danchiku, water!!
4: Next year... the mountain stage on the first day.... yeah
5: Got it....!!

Pag 7
3: When you run along a river....
4: the water only flows if there's a difference in elevation, either uphill or downhill!!
5: Here it's definitely uphill!!
Even if it looks like a flat at first glance, it's gradually climbing!!

Pag 8
1: Toward that mountain!!
Reading the map, it says that it's 5km until the base of the mountain!!
2: 5km!!
3: Don't lose sight of it like last year!!
Yes!! Sorry!!
4: Hold on tight!!
5: 'Cause I'll carry you all the way to the foot of the mountain!!

Pag 9
1: Thank you!!
2: “Positioning”....!!
3: When going from a flat to a climb you need to “position” yourself
Each team accelerates from the flats in order to bring their climbers to a good position
4: It's the so called “mountain's launching pad”!!
5: There will be a difference of several hundred meters in the first stage between a climber who was launched near the front of the group and a climber who was made to run up from the back of the group

Pag 10
1: Bring Onoda to the best possible position, Naruko!!
Oh-
Sohoku is moving up!!

Pag 11
1: -ruaaaagh
Ugh!! Sohoku's Naruko is so fast!!
2: I get what you're tryin to say, Hotshot!!
I'll take him!! Definitely!!
3: That's why I left the first result to Kabu!!
4: On that winter day, with an apologetic face
5: Ah....
6: Ah- uhm, I have something to tell you, but
Onoda-kun, who told us like it was difficult to say....

Pag 12
1: Ah the stove? You can just turn it off, we're the last ones
Yeah, please. Woah, look outside, it's snowing
Seriously? It must be cold
2: That's not it!!
3: Th-th- this morning... I got a text
4: What was that, an acceptance letter?
The proficiency exam?
5: It's a reply to the text I sent....
6: Three months ago!!
7: Uhm... really, I was worried that back when we made that promise it was right after the race and we were tired, so I thought maybe he had forgotten
Three months?
It was a long wait
So I sent him a text to ask him if he remembers?

Pag 13
1: And I received it this morning
Must be the proficiency test
Shut up!!
What are you whispering idiot
“Back when”, when was it?
No idea
2:He said only one word, “of course”
4: So, uhm... this time
5: Is it okay if I run for the first day's mountain stage during this summer's Inter High?
7: Is that so? Kakaka
Onoda-kun's eyes, like he couldn't contain his excitement...

Pag 14
1: I haven't forgotten it!!
2: I can't forget it!!
3: Onoda!!
Onoda-kun!!

Pag 15
1: 2km left until the foot of the mountain!!
2: Do your beeest....!!
Aren't they climbing at an amazing speed!? Each team is getting in line!!
Yeah, you're right!!
3: Every team is trying to “position” themselves for their climbers!!
“Position”!?
4: Also, look closely
Right now, the cyclist in the second position in the ranks

Pag 16
1: is the one who will race in the mountain stage!!


Pag 18
1: Oi, are you kidding me? Hakogaku is sending Manami?
From the first day!?
Manami is in second place
2: He's the “final boss”....!!
3: My dream of getting the red bib has been destroyed even before reaching the foot of the mountain....!!
4: Oi, look over there, that's not all!!
For Sohoku....
5: Naruko is pulling the “King of the mountain”!!
Wa- we're done for!! Completely!! My mountain prize!!

Pag 19
3: Manami-kun!!
4: Sakamichi-kun!!

Pag 20
1: It's time for our promise!!
We're almost at the foot of the mountain!!
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 784#im sorry i meant to post yesterday but i completely forgot ;A;#ahhhhhh ive been looking forward to thiiiis#please gimme a low stakes battle between Onoda and Manami!!! They deserve it!! They promised each other!!#I dont care who would win (even tho i hope manami tbh) i just want them to have fun while racing eo ;A;#is that so much to ask watanabe!!! please let them have this#i hope nothing happens and they really can do this :')#i mean it seems like midosuji also plans on participating but its okay#and if kiji wants to have a go too that fine to#the important thing is that both manami and onoda are there#also lemme have my imanaru moment bc#why are they literally so boyfriends coded wtf agsfdsgdcaskdf#like literally whispering to each other when onoda says he needs to tell them something???#naruko literally reading imaizumi's mind??? please theyre boyfirends okay#this chapter is pushing me to write yet another imanaru#and also a sansaka why not im not gonna lie#i love this so muuuuuuch#i need more im so happy#1st day's mountain stage my beloved
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Day 4738281984747477281020494922994728 of missing rosegarden
#i’m losing my mind#or I’ve already lost it#just like how Oscar has effectively lost ruby along with his sense of self#can you imagine oscar’s reaction…#when he sees her after however long they’ve been missing?#I bet everyone will be crying#and by everyone I mean EVERYONE including and especially me#if we don’t get that rg hug I’m going to riot#i just need them to see each other#and hug#and talk about their parallel and opposite experiences of having the weight of the world on their shoulders#and just be#like bro just let them have this one moment of uninterrupted joy so they can just hug and be happy and feel relief#i’m begging you crwby#don’t ask me if I’m okay because the answer is no and I haven’t been for a very long time#rwby rg#rosegarden#Rosegarden brain rot#rg brain rot#rwby rosegarden#ruby rose#oscar pine#greenlight volume 10#greenlight rwby volume 10#greenlightvolume10#rwby#rwby rosepine#crwby
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just here to say that I loveee the way you have doodled jin ling. squeaky toy golden boy. the most nephew to ever nephew. thank you for delightful comics, that's all, mwah
I simply think the Jin DNA is full of lil guy potential; like sugar ants on a peony B*)
#better drawn mdzs#ask#MDZS#Jin Ling#jin guangyao#jin zixuan#mo xuanyu#They are taking a little nap after snacking on nectar....#I was working on some life study florals when I got this ask and thought 'I can combine these.'#Mwahs u back on the forehead; thank you for giving me an excuse to draw these guys#I really like doodling jin ling so I'm happy to know other people like him too#depending on how I rearrange these in my queue this is either the first time Jin Zixuan appears on this blog#or its right after he's been torn to shreds#Such is life! Jin Zixuan should have never disrespected the queen!#okay lets talk ants and peonys for a moment here#I use to think that peonys needed ants to help them fully blossom but that's not the case at all!#They want ants around to eat the pests that do more harm to them#peony's in China are associated with wealth and prosperity; but I've grown up with them meaning 'generosity and mutualship'#Yellow peonies are for fresh starts and new beginnings! Much to think about.
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[ice queen and tyrant king AU]
thena using Gil and his tattoos as a coloring book after she finds some skin safe markers. I feel like in this au thena would secretly really enjoy physical touch and she would really like when Gil holds her. I also feel like this is the first step for her becoming more vulnerable to Gil as a whole, kind of letting her guard down more that before ❤️ so can I request that this be part one and her admitting that she likes it when Gil holds her be part two?
lots of love! Your writing is truly amazing!
The Tyrant King never used to consider himself a heavy sleeper. A sleeper, sure, maybe even the occasional nap after watching the races and having a few beer. But he was never the type to have a nap just because.
But now...well, Thena's office couch was becoming awfully familiar to him.
They'd had one of their 'meetings'. He had come over to her office, gotten dropped off, waited for her to finish with a real meeting. Then they were on each other. She was bossy, as always (hot). She grabbed him, kissed him, climbed on top of him like he was her property (yes ma'am).
They had worn each other out, heavily sated after the fact. But she had more work to do while he had cleared his schedule for the afternoon. He had done so specifically in hopes that he might squeeze in some more time with her afterward.
Which he wasn't supposed to do.
He was well aware Thena looked at their arrangement with the sterile, clinical eye of a business woman. She fit him into her day the way she would fit in an appointment for a massage. And he was supposed to view it the same way. A situationship at best, as the kids would say--a bootycall, as he considered it.
And maybe it would be easier to think of it that way if she weren't so perfect for him. His heart leapt at the thought of her calling or texting him. Even a business email thinly veiling an invitation to come over. He was excited for it; everyday held new potential for her to call upon him again. Maybe he should feel used, he thought at one time.
But every time they were together, he knew she felt it too. She didn't want to, that was for damn sure. His Ice Queen approached her own feelings the same way she approached an overly friendly business arrangement; ignore it, and hope it just leaves of its own accord.
But when they kissed, he knew she reciprocated genuinely. His hands on her felt just as good to her--just as natural. He could just...tell. And when they made love, he knew she felt everything he was feeling. It was too good, too mind blowing, too addictive to not be true.
If only he could get her to see it that way.
His Ice Queen was a guarded woman. He couldn't begrudge her that. She had her reasons for keeping herself closely protected. He knew she kept a tight circle of friends in the Poison Princess and the Lightning Thief, she might have even been on friendly terms with Ajak. But she wasn't a social creature. Letting him into her world was a risk.
The squeak of a highlighter burrowed into his ear and he whined in complaint. He could hear her light, purring laughter (the vixen). He attempted to turn onto his side and bury his face in her dress, but she kept him on his back, his head in her lap.
If she didn't want him to fall in love with her, she could have just sent him away. But instead she let him sleep on her office couch after wearing himself out. Sometimes she would even pick up his head and let it rest in her lap while she was working. Like now.
He cracked an eye open, still feigning some sleep as he stole a peek. She was looking at some documents, highlighting on occasion, and then the highlighter would drift away as she continued reading.
There was a tickle on his skin, and he realised the highlighter was dotting and dragging against his arm. He could have thought it was something she was doing absentmindedly, her hand doing one thing while her mind focused on another.
But she was working on specific areas. She would highlight a line and then her right hand would drag the highlighter down the lines of one of the dragons slithering up his arm. She would highlight another number and then she would dot its eyes in with neon green.
Maybe he would tell her not to if it wasn't kinda cute.
He didn't always get to see his Ice Queen unguarded. It was a good sign that she was relaxed enough to let him lounge with her like this at all. And to see her working, going over her numbers, in her element--he wouldn't change it for anything in the world.
Thena examined another line on the page. She squinted at it a little. Maybe it was because of what it said. Or maybe she would need glasses. The thought of an older Thena, glasses and more-silver-than-blonde hair entered his mind and only made him more smitten. Not that she wouldn't fucking kill him for thinking such things.
Another line of colour got added to his dragon tattoo. And he really couldn't bring himself to mind it. She could scribble all over him if it meant he got to stay, got to gaze up at her adoringly, maybe even got to convince her to have dinner with him?
"I know you're awake, Gilgamesh."
He sighed, giving up on his charade but not moving from his spot. "I thought I was doing a pretty good job."
She glanced away from her work sparingly. But she had a faintly amused smile on those amazing lips. "It was truly awful, I'm afraid. Your breathing changes so steeply when you're awake."
He pouted faintly, but so long as he was poised the way he was, he was able to look up at Thena. The lights flush with her office ceiling were set low, shining down on them with mercy. They caught in the diamonds on her ear cuff and her other earrings, and in the comb securing some of her hair out of her face.
She sparkled, his Ice Queen.
Thena set aside the papers and really smiled at him. "Sleep well?"
He grinned up at her. Her hand was resisting the urge to trail over him affectionately, hovering over him but not making contact. "Damn well. You sure you don't wanna join me, Princess?"
She puffed out a laugh. "Some of us have businesses to run."
"Hey, I do great business," he protested, just to see her lips upturned in amusement. "And my very capable underlings are running it as we speak."
"Hm," she sufficed to say, looking at her figures again.
Gil shimmied on top of her thigh. She frowned down at him for jostling her but he dragged his other arm out from the crack of the couch to lie over his front. His shirt was still deeply unbuttoned from their earlier activities, and he had rolled his sleeves up before dozing off. "You should get this one, too."
Thena actually looked a little sheepish, her earlier idle activity being caught and reflected upon. But seeing his eagerness, she sighed. She obliged him, positioning his other arm for herself. "I would have thought colour of this degree didn't suit you, Tyrant."
He didn't care if she wanted to use a pink highlighter and colour in every tattoo on his body. Okay, maybe he was getting carried away. But that was just the effect this woman had on him.
Thena started with dotting in the eyes of his other dragon to match, then adding some scales to it. "You could always return to your own office."
Some might have taken that as an open invitation to leave. But he knew his Ice Queen better than that. She was asking if he wanted to go home rather than let her scribble on him. Her day demanded more of her, and maybe the prize of the end of the day with her wasn't enough for him to stick around for two more hours.
But he was happy as a clam. In truth, she could have called him over in the morning and ignored him for the rest of the day. He could chill in her office, play around on his phone, whatever. It would still be preferable to moping around in his own office daydreaming about her.
"I'm happy here," he told her with the utmost honesty. Thena valued honesty; some might say that was why she was always so direct herself.
Her smile softened and he caught that shy twinkle in her eye; the part of her that always seemed a little embarrassed at being caught feeling happiness. What a sin for his poor Ice Queen.
"Are you?" he dared to ask, even knowing it could get him in trouble. She finished the layer of cloud she was working on before looking at him again. She raised a brow. "Happy?"
Her mask was flawless, but he could see a little Thena behind it, battling it out with the Ice Queen's shield. "Do not ask me such things, Tyrant."
Says the woman with his head in her lap, he couldn't help but think. But the longer he waited, the less Thena could resist. She coloured in another twist of fog before setting her papers aside. His eyes slid closed as she leaned down, craning her neck to kiss him.
This was what he was talking about; when they kissed, he knew she was the woman for him. Like they were made for each other. If he died on the job the very next day he'd come back for her. Maybe as a ghost, maybe he'd get reincarnated into some other shmuck's body. Maybe he'd come back as a cat, or a stray dog she would take pity on.
And he would love her just as much - probably even more - in that life, and in any he had with her.
Okay, he was definitely letting himself get carried away.
He rose slightly, trying to follow her lips with his. But she pushed him back to lie down. He pouted at her. "Come on, Ice. Do you have more meetings?"
She shook her head at him, but her fingers slipped into the opening of his shirt, tapping over his heart. "No."
So...they could go another round...?
"Let me finish this, at least," she chided him. This was why she was the diamond Queen, Gil lamented.
He resigned himself to it, lying back down and closing his eyes again. "Fine, but think of what you want for dinner, since I'm gonna be here."
"Hm."
Yes!--mission succeeded, she would let him stay for dinner. His Ice Queen thought herself so frosty and hard to reach. But he could feel how warm her touch was, lingering on his skin. Her hand was always dancing that line, sometimes allowing her the luxury of touching him, sometimes resisting that closeness. But the desire she had to be close to him assured him that this wasn't so one-sided a love.
"I'll have it delivered, I suppose, since your driver went back to Koreatown."
He tried not to seem like he was grinning. "Guess so."
She poked him in the cheek; he was definitely smiling too much. "So, I will have to drive you home too, is what you're saying."
He didn't mind being transparent for her. He liked offering her that as a gesture of good will. The more easily she could read him, the more she would allow him the same (maybe).
She gifted him with another kiss as a reward, even if she didn't see it that way. "Insufferable man."
And yet she was still here, suffering him all the time. Everyday, at this point. And the only thing he was suffering was love (too much?).
#Ice Queen/Tyrant King AU#pt 1#thank you so much for the ask sweetheart!#I'm so happy people still love these two so much#I love getting to come back and explore more of them#their early days of love#Gil is so down bad so immediately#some might say he was down bad from the moment he laid eyes on her#the man is fantasizing about coming back to life and falling in love with her all over again#while Thena is here like he really doesn't want to leave isn't he bored???#but Gil has always been bored by the 'business' part of the job#he doesn't like being stuck in the office and signing things and having meetings#at least throwing his weight around and making good on threats and keeping other mobs in check#he can get some exercise some excitement#so yeah he'd rather lie around on Thena's office couch#also he comes over#they're all over each other like rabbits#and Thena's like I have a conference call#he's like okay just conks right out on her office couch#and she lets him because she secretly loves him too#she turns down the lights and tells Kingo that if he needs anything just use email#and if it's something they can't leave a paper trail for he may come in and ask her#QUIETLY#Kingo is truly like you guys are so transparent but whatever#and Thena sneaks over and puts Gil's head in her lap because she likes being close to him#she wants to be able to cuddle she does#but she's the Ice Queen so she can't
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Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake
#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update#she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back#i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat#im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it#bc what the fuck#i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages#and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things.#i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit#and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc#it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday#why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up#I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever#i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for#and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about#that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell#why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family#and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call#which gives them space to harass me about work and shit
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⚠️ spoilers for some year 3 + 4 dialogue with gustafa's child below! ⚠️


[ some of the text in the second image is cut off, the full dialogue is likely meant to be "hold on a second. has gustafa been riding your coattails this whole time?" ]
no, because why is bea so brutal towards gustafa oh my god?? like you're really just gonna ask that question when he's within earshot??? 😭😭😭
#rock 🤝 gustafa <- designated sugarbaby in their relationship#does she talk like this about matt or gordy too or???#funny ha ha's aside i do think teen bea continuing to talk about gustafa like that would probably lead to them having a fight w/ tris#tris loves gustafa a lot and really respects his passion for music so they're more than happy to provide for him and let him focus on that#so bea's phrasing would probably agitate them in the moment and the situation would steamroll from there#(ya'll know how spats between parents and teenagers can go. 😓)#i can imagine gustafa coming home to see bea slamming the front door behind her and storming off#and then finding tris (who he's rarely seem actually angry before) fuming in their bedroom and starts putting the peices together#tris definitely apologizes to bea for getting angry with her after calming down and talking it out a bit with gustafa#they eventually talk it out together after bea has some time to herself and starts to understand her parents' relationship dynamic more#(it's hardly a one-sided transaction since gustafa keeps tris grounded and makes sure they're not running themself ragged w/ their work.)#maybe it also leads to bea being more curious about what gustafa exactly does as a musician so she starts asking him about it more 🤔#okay i'm gonna stop rambling in the tags i'm sorry i keep doing this ha ha#i just have a lot of thoughts about these guys and i have to get it out aaaa#story of seasons#bokujou monogatari#a wonderful life#sos gustafa#gustafa (awl)#oc : tris beckenbauer#chara : bea lantos-beckenbauer#🕹 : gamer time#mj.txt#awl spoilers
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it may come as a surprise to you all but im thinking about kingdom rn
#what is on my mind. well im specifically thinking about jahan just did the new bss song dance and it's reminding me#how jahan and arthur did the maestro dance with dino and afterwards jahan talked about how mortifying it was to ask dino to do it#then like two weeks later the maestro mushow behind was released and the behind of tkds challenge was featured in it. and#some of the svt members were talking about how happy it made them. outside of tkds range#and when someone pointed out to jahan how they made it into the behind he lost his shit#and i am also thinking about my dann jahan unit pola. and sometimes i don't realize how much detail is in a polaroid#and how lucky i am to have a signed pola of my bias line in one of my top fave stage fits. like how did the universe align like#that for me. that's crazy#and well im thinking about how much i like them. i think when i first got into kpop i didn't understand how people decided who was an ult#or a semi ult. or whatever. and the time just moved so fast and my feelings fluctuate so much how do you know but now i just knowwwwww#when i look at them and when their songs come on shuffle and when i gif them and when i look at my album shelf and i see the hok albums#line up and my photocards and how they're the biggest portion of my binder and how i felt seeing them in concert both times#and im also thinking of the concert im thinking about the shitty ada route for the venue. how the ramp was a solid 45° angle and i managed#to go up but i was so nervous to go down cuz i certainly couldn't walk my rollator down and i didn't wanna fall#and i had to be nearly carried down cuz i was so unstable and it was so embarassing and then i heard dann singing and it was just a really#grounding moment. his voice is so comforting to listen to on my phone and it was so invigorating to hear on stage but to hear it#softly up close. because he always sings back stage and the ada route was backstage and they were behind me to go back to#the green room and I didn't know and. it was such a surprise but it was so nice. so nice#so calming. and how i was so embarassed my rollator was taking up space when i was talking to ivan and when i readjusted it it got#stuck on a crack in the floor because of the angle and i apologized but he immediately told me it was okay and helped me get it unstuck cuz#i was shaky on nerves and adrenaline. and they're just sooooo. wow#ughhhhhh and hwons smile when i did polas with him first tour. and how he held everyone's hands despite the staff saying not#to touch the artist he always grabbed your hands first if you let him and i did cuz i didn't know what to do and he was just so excited#to be there and getting to talk to him while we waited for the pola to print. dude he's so tall like i knew he was tall going in but nothing#prepares you for How damn tall he is till you're right there next to him and god#they r the best. genuinely. :•( i love them so bad#speaking.txt
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as much as I hate seeing him in pain, i will admit that hungover s.ugiura is both pretty cute and pretty amusing

and y.agami buttering k.aito up is so fun, I love this squad so much
#ash rambles 💚#mask off 🎭#tw alcohol#poor s.ugiura- he really got roped into drinking with them all day AND night huh?#ash got roped into it too- she's here too#i think it would be funny if she's laying on the floor-#fucking k.aito long legs took up the couch anyway-#I'm glad this game gives us these silly moments#like k.aito dragging s.ugiura bar hopping while y.agami does detective shit akdjajsj the tone of the first game was quite serious#they actually feel like friends now#this game gives me so much bf food...#gah#i love him so much#sometimes i struggle to imagine him being all cutesy and lovey dovey but he really does love ash so much#they've been together for three whole years by this game and I know it sounds stupid to say#but it makes me so happy that he's still so in love with her#these two have such a cute love story akdjajs they fell in love back when they were still wearing masks and they were Jester and Rose#and then they saw each other's faces and just fell harder-#it feels really reassuring that he fell for ash before even knowing what she looked like#makes me feel happy and less insecure#anyways. he's hungover as hell. I'm getting him some water and painkillers 👍🏽 ... actually ash isn't much better-#I'm having so much fun with this game#okay#let's play more#ALSO I WATCHED THE PIRATE Y.AKUZA DIRECT THIS MORNING. I SAW S.UGIURA IN THE BACKGROUND. THIS GAME IS PEAK.#MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️
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honestly i can't stop staring at the incision sites
#i get so giddy every tim i look at them#like that bitch really is gone!!!!!!#(i am making light of this but ive known i wanted a hysterectomy from the moment i had my first period)#(partly bc of trans and partly bc of the brutalness of them from the start)#(and its literally been OVER A DECADE ive said ive wanted this done. actually 12 years bc i first decided around 14 i wanted this no matter#what my gender actually was. and i am so elated and over the moon. i feel so at home in my body and it's literally been so long since ive#felt consistently at home in here. also i can easily see the spots and take pics with my front camera so i REALLY keep just opening the cam#every few hours to admire my wounds c: )#ik i focused on the physical pain a lot before this as the Reason Why but truly........ this was the best decision ive ever made and i am so#so so so happy and i am also never letting anyone fucking gaslight me ab not being trans enough ever again#lit. said to my wife while showering “dont get me wrong im in pain - but its the kind of pain thats telling me im okay. its over. im home.”#idk if this is Too weird but if u wanna see the incision sites or bruising or anything i actually dont mind showing this stuff hajdkfjwkd#i personally have always had a morbid curiosity w/ things like this so i wont be weirded out
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crown of midnight (because I am always weak for a masquerade)
crown of midnight. sender dances with the receiver at a masquerade.
There were pros and cons to an event like a masquerade. The dress code calling for elaborate, eye catching attire was, to Alaric, a pro. The downside came in the intentional obscuring of identity, a hindrance for one who liked direct credit for his looks.
The dancing though, that made up for everything else. Ala stopped only long enough for a new partner, rarely for drink. If he wanted for the intrigue or debauchery, both established features of an event based in anonymity, well, he'd found both still achievable on the floor to those with experience.
That didn't leave him completely without wants, however. He'd tried all evening to catch the eye of a certain dancer, but poor timing and the man's clear talent had made the match impossible. Ala had nearly given up, settled for watching with discreet envy when close enough. Ala didn't lack for partners himself, but quantity was not quality.
When finally, and by chance, Alaric found the chance to cut in, he was grateful for the mask that hid his expression; excitement, and for a mere offer to dance, was embarrassing- especially for a stranger.
"I was beginning to believe there was some form of registration I'd missed, for the honor of your time." His tone was light, as was his touch, when they moved together.
#beautiful-mischief#I also love this & rarely get to do it#sorry for the delay i kept writing and rewriting#let me know if it needs tweaking!#could be our current verse for them or outside of that im happy with either#i do love a 'rivals who hit it off when disguised & have a rude awakening when the mask comes off' moment#but really anything is fun#okay no more rambling im sorry#long post
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Episode 8 I am so scared....
#mel magical girl transformation.... her mother's weapon... christ... mel will save them all vi step aside!!#this is so funny... mel with her bodysuit and golden bodypaint walking thru the valley with her new pet crow.... slay#SINGED WILL CONTROL VIKTOR???? AND VANDER??? AMBESSA ENOUGH! VIKTORS VOICE OMG!!#LORIS REMINDING VI OF VANDER NOOOOO I KNEW THIS WAS COMING!!! CAILTYN TAKING MADDIES HAND AWAY FROM HER AKDJSK#arrested jinx???? OH MY GOOOD JINX!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HER PUPILS ARE SO WIDE SHES SO OUT OF IT#YES CAITLYN END THE CYCLE!!!!! they repaired the council table with golden stuff.... YES JAYCE FINALLY REALIZED!!!! OOF NOT THE BEST MOMENT!#UPSIDE DOWN KISS COME ON!!! Viktor realizing too that it has been all jayces fault.... this is so sad.... what a breakup#silco talking to jinx about breaking the cycle... he became a hallucination too.... not so bad like the others thats inch resting#THE HUG NOOOOOOO YOU DESERVE TO BE WITH HER????? SHES GONNA DIEEEEEEE NOOOOOOO VI AGAIN IN PRISON UNABLE TO SAVE HER SISTER!!!!!#theres no good version of me after we just fucking saw it im gonna be sick.... SEVIKA AND THE FIRELIGHT GUY IN THE COUNCIL ROOM??#what tf are you wearing jayce.... an outsider force putting an end to a civil war who woulda thot.... OMG THE PARALEL TO THEIR FIRST MEETING#WHAT THE HELL!!! NOT IN THE PRISON CELL!!!! AFTER VI JUST TOLD HER THAT??? AKDJAKSJ CAITLYN HOLD YOURSELF!!! my god i need a pause#vi does look so good from the back.... but my god why are they doing this now akdjsksjk maddie is upstairs akdhaksn WHYYYYYYY NOW????#no WAYYYYY WE GOT HER BACK TATTOO REVEAL NOW!!!!!! WHAT THE HEEEEEEEELLL OH MY GOOOOOD VIIIII GOING DOWN AND LOOKING UP THANK YOU GOD!!!!AAA#cait laughing... girl i would too... that was all so detailed too like damn... vi was amazed by the Kirammountains....#so thats it... can i be honest.... a little too unemotional.... like their kiss was something else entirely....#but this is vi just going DAMN!!! RIGHT NOW!!! and pouncing... which i understand but their bed scene... come on.. i needed to cry with this#so no talk about reconciliation..... *throws phone on the floor and jumps in skateboard and breaks it in half*#vander dying with viktors humanity..... and sky.... viktor getting his mask.... my god.... and vander losing his memories.... should we all#talking tag#watching arcane season 2#watching arcane#you know i understand caitlyn admited she was manipulated and what vi said about second chances but.... apologies please.....#oh now i get it she sent the guards to the gates so jinx could escape..... alright alright... i thought she did that only so they could fuck#well vi did follow her sisters advice and got with her i guess akdhaksjak which okay is nice bc she said she didn't need to feel guilty#about being happy.... alright i understand now *viktors voice*#alright i was slow my bad... vi pounced on her bc she is just so grateful that she let jinx go and cailtyn did let go of her anger.... aight
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#feel free to reblog the meme if u like lmao#just leave the tags out#vent.txt#<- sorry just need to have a moment lmao#inflicted w the yearnings for romantic relationship yet again 😞 but so keenly aware of how much I’d have to unpack in myself to truly be a#part of it#like. I don’t trust people. I don’t confide in people. I tell them nothing about myself for years and years and I used to resent a little#that that was enough for them. that they didn’t NEED to know. that me loving and caring for them was enough. but it’s so silly because like#how can you resent people for not knowing what you won’t tell them. so thankfully THAT has passed#but it’s just like. there are so many issues. like I just CANNOT conceptualise myself as romantically attracted#attractive*#not even in a self deprecating sense it just feels like an immutable fact. I can’t imagine someone looking at me w romantic desire.#and it’s like. I honestly don’t know if I could let my walls down enough to actively love someone back like that#it’s so easy to love from afar. and hell haha maybe THATS because it’ll always be easier to love someone when they can’t know all of you to#love in return#but I just don’t know how I can do it. I don’t know how to view the risk as being worth it#and at the end of the day I’ll be okay if romantic love isn’t in the cards for me. you can live a happy life without#but ah fuck. sometimes the but I am so lonely.jpg hits
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Just started watching Umi no Hajimari, and I haven't gone through the tag yet because I'm only on ep 3 and I don't want to chance spoiling anything, but I wanna see if anyone else is on the same boat as me.
Does anybody else not particularly like the girlfriend, Yayoi? Like I don't hate her, but the way she's going about things are weird to me.
She literally just found out her boyfriend has a 7 year old daughter he didn't know about, and in less than 48 hours, she's offering to become her "new mom?"
I get she had an abortion a few years prior and regrets it, and I feel for her, but the girl's mom died like a week ago! Chill out!
#I didnt even mention when Natsu was having a moment with her and she kept interrupting#now THAT pissed me off#he was literally telling her that its okay to be sad about her mom dying!#AND THE WOMAN TRIES TO TELL HER SHES “JUST HAPPY CAUSE PEOPLE ARE NICE TO HER”#WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?#LET THEM HAVE THEIR MOMENT LADY#I GET SHE PROBABLY JUST DIDNT WANT THE LITTLE GIRL TO CRY BUT STILL#LET HER FEEL HER FEELINGS#*clears throat*#...anyway#umi no hajimari#jdrama#the beginning of the sea
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