#leaving her past behind
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Me, a lowkey Dark Disciple hater, learning about V in TBB: 😍
Them saying they aren't retconning DD:
Me: ehhh idc this is my canon now uwu
#i just needed to vent ok#ksks#if you love the book im happy for you!!#i just always hated how sw kills characters for redemption#when v's tcw final arc was so good#and inspiring#leaving her past behind#to forge a better future#just to get that future taken away#asajj ventress#txt#thoughts#ramblings
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What is it with fantasy high and girls dying before their lives ever began. How we can never really know who they are, or who they could’ve been. Brennan Lee Mulligan I will find you
#ramblings#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#fantasy high junior year#lucy frostblade#yea yea this is obviously about Lucy. but also..#um#penelope everpetal#(collective booing from the crowd)#(I am dragged off the stage)#jokes aside tho#they both have that quality of haunting a narrative (Penelope specifically in the seven and Lucy in fhjy)#they’re gone. their stories are over. and yet#they have a hold over the ones they left behind#we will never truly know Lucy past anecdotes and old stories#penelope was an array of false faces and honestly? we’ll never know her either. all we’ve got is that old picture of her and Sam#and obviously Lucy was kinder. she definitely didn’t deserve what happened to her#while you could argue Penelope got what was coming for her#but the fact remains#Lucy Frostblade and Penelope Everpetal we’re both teenage girls who we can only catch glimpses of. forever#in some ways#they’re the same. dead girls who never fully leave. their ghosts still visible in the corner of your eyes#anyway rant over I’m just obsessed with d20 girls and I can draw parallels from anywhere#I might make a more… comprehensive post about this one day who knows
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you know when you experienced something so traumatizing or grieved too hard your brain sort of temporarily locked that memory to protect you from the pain? i think that's what's been happening to me after deadpool 2 bc tell me why every time i rewatch that movie, i always forget how painful these scenes are?
they always leave me sobbing and totally wrecked but with each rewatch i'd just... forget they would eventually happen and i'd eventually get hurt??
#i love poolverine but wade x vanessa will always have a special place in my heart#they're it for me#but then again as much as i'd love them to get back together i also think they shouldn't#and this is my personal opinion#bc just like logan whose past shaped him into the man who saved the multiverse#i think vanessa played that role in wade's current life#and i can see why wade said he did it all for her. but if marvel makes her dump dermot to go back to wade that's just 🤕#well i wouldn't like that and i think that'd be a disrespect to her character n story n choice she made#and honestly i won't even bother going to the “well she could've still loved and wanted him back” discussion bc#i do think she was well aware of her decision to leave wade in the end and it must've hurt her terribly too#I MEAN LOOK AT THEM. you can't convince me vanessa wouldn't want to take all of wade's pain if she could#she loved wade just as much. if not more#dp 2 might be my fav dp movie#i love how it focused on wade's struggle to cope and his journey to 'get his heart in the right place'#and no matter how goofy they tried to portray his struggles you can just see the depth and pain behind his actions#but idk maybe that’s just me#deadpool#deadpool 2#wade wilson#vanessa carlysle
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Smthg about season 1 Jinx being like "tell me who to be: Jinx or Powder" and she picked Jinx herself, choosing to leave the past behind. But then season 2 introduces Isha who reminds Jinx of Powder. Like she wants to be rid of her old self and the reminder, but she can't. It sticks with her, one way or another
And the difference is season 1 had Jinx mad about this, but in season 2 it's healing. She accepts it. Isha reminds her of herself and that's a good thing. It's like Isha almost reframes (or could reframe later on) what Jinx thinks about Powder, in a way
#just some thoughts#thinking about how jinx wants to leave the past behind but then it comes back#and in season 2 while the past comes to her in some way (isha as 'powder') jinx is then the one to seek it out#to seek out her past#aka vi#she could have tried to deal with the vander thing on her own but she went to vi instead#again i think that shows that isha reminding jinx of her child self in a good way had a positive effect#on how she dealt with past relationships#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane spoilers#act 2 spoilers#isha#isha arcane#jinx#jinx arcane#mettys posts#metty posts
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limutuals another poll
part of a new series of limbus polls i think reblogs with your answers and such would be appreciated :>
#kay posting#limbus company#pollblr#poll#tumblr polls#I think i would be gloom#not bc oh boohoo i am so sad but bc i think it fits#other gloom base egops are ishmael and rodya and honglu#all very mecore#based off their storys from what we've seen it also fits me as a person#ill admit that at first i was one of the canto 2 didnt matter losers before tkt but now that we(i) know more#she is quite me fr#(i didnt plan all of this before making the poll but thinking about it all it fits in quite nicely)#like like#with all that we saw in tkt it starts to fit in more that her ego is gloom despite how cheery she gives off ykyk?#with sonya and being left behind and all that#and now ishmael#based off of how she was for most of canto 5 youd think shed be wrath but#i think that it being gloom is an important distinction esp with the end of her canto#cause like it isnt just wrath and anger towards ahab as it seems but more gloom towards the whole situation and at the end of the canto#we see her be the bigger person and see past the wrath and revenge leaving the gloom ykyk?#maybe i am just pulling all of this way out of my ass#and yeah i gave this like no thought but ne ways#and honglu is me fr bc he is silly and whimsical#anyways anyways i would be gloom#kay goes blah blah blah
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“i will be better than my mother” not as a declaration of spite but as an act of tribute. you know?
not simply “i will be better than my mother because she messed me up and i refuse to be like her”
but instead “i will be better than my mother because she taught me to be, because she instilled these values into me even though she sometimes failed to live up to them”
“i will be better than my mother because she laid the foundation for me, because she shed the wrongs of the past as best as she could even if she could not lose all of them”
“i will be better than my mother because she would want me to be”
#sorry i’m gunnhildr-posting again#i just think a lot about jean taking on the gunnhildr legacy and needing to figure out how to pay tribute without getting stuck in the past#like it’s so interesting how jean’s relationships with the younger women in her life mirror her relationship with frederica#like the way she holds klee to an impossible standard without truly figuring out why she acts the way she does#“continuous self improvement is one’s duty” etc etc#but also the way she shelters noelle#maybe in an attempt to be the protection she herself never had#like how do you leave that behind without losing everything you are?#anyway. messy family dynamics >>>#genshin#jean gunnhildr#frederica gunnhildr#leifythoughts
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Unfortunately now that I’ve finally seen it, I 100% cannot stand the Solavellan ending and like I knowww that’s in large part because I’ve been functioning on a different level with the ship the entire time but it’s just sooo forgiving of Solas and sooo tragic for Lavellan and does not include the most fascinating element of their dynamic to me which is ‘Solas starts to see the value of the current world because of how much Lavellan loves it and is so deeply part of it’ and in fact fully discards it because Lavellan just fucks off to fade prison for “true love”
#datv spoilers#datv critical#it is not the worst thing about the datv ending (that’s the secret ending doing character assassination) but listen#I have spent so many years loving Lavellan in a ‘framed photo on my desk for over five years’ sort of way#and the entire game just feels so cruel to her (and those who loved the past games because wtf do you mean everyone is Ferelden is dying)#and then to have her end reward to All The Shit The World Has Done To Her For Over A Decade#is fade prison??? leaving it all behind for fade prison because she’ll get her kisses in???#anyways I think the solavellan ending should be that solas binds his godhood to the veil to sustain it and goes to live a mortal life with#lavellan and her dalish tribe and just shutting up about how things should be and how the dalish don’t understand#and just accepting how their culture is good and beautiful just as it is#and lavellan gets to share what she loves and build a beautiful normal life#they can sit under the tree planted for the death of my lavellan’s mother and watch her nephews play and enjoy both how even if the world#is radically different and was broken it has grown into something worth loving and#that all the effort lavellan expended to save everything was worth it#anyways I can and will talk about datv for hours but alas it is not in the same ways I can about dragon age in general#I am biting biting biting biting biting forever#brain thoughts
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Narmada and her sister Sharika are the daughters of prominent Tamil feminist and human rights activist Rajini Thiranagama, who was murdered when they were children. Every time they speak of her I move away from grief that her life was so brutally cut short, to joy that she spent those years living a life more full of light and love than many can fit into a hundred. Nothing can compare to the legacy of being remembered this way by your children.
#i can't believe she was younger than me when she was killed#her daughters are several years older than me#it must be strange to live past the age your parent did#to realize the person in those wise and hallowed memories is now a peer and now much junior#i have so much awe and pride for the people who stood up to the blood drenched terrorism of the govt and of the militias that opposed them#i always wish i could ask them how they didn't drown the fear and despair#rajini knew they'd kill her and made her peace with it. even though she knew she'd be leaving her children behind#she and her husband seems to have been absolute relationship goals. an equal partnership?? in the 70s and 80s?? in this country??#talk about modelling self-worth for your daughters#parenting#wholesome#child rights#feminism#activism#advocacy#rajini thiranagama#sri lanka#mental health#tw death mention#mothers and daughters#knee of huss
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#baby's first webweave#Cole Cash#Image's Grifter#Guy Gardner#Stephanie Brown#John constantine#abusive parents and the legacies they leave behind#characters who are beaten down by the world around them long past their shitty childhoods but they all handle it differently#very different characters across the board but the parallels guys#the parallels#I feel like this is incoherent because I had way too much stuff on hand for this but there's a picture limit#so I kept editing it#and now I don’t want to look at it anymore#there's a version of this with Slade Wilson and his kids in my brain#but that's honestly a whole separate post#its crazy that guy's dad is the only one who sees his kid not being a piece of shit and goes :) good for you#everyone else is like damn I was hoping you'd be worse#I might delete this actually#ahhhh#the guy and Cole stuff has actually been in my brain for years because I read their 90s series' basically back to back#and their family stuff really is interesting to compare#they even have quote unquote perfect brothers#Cass also could have gone here but her dynamic with her parents is a little different
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Just finished listening to the ancient rome sidequest again and I'm still feeling so emotional about Sasha. Like she never expected to live long but now she gets so much time and she's in a safe place with people she cares about. She doesn't have to violently die in a fight like she likely thought she would but instead she gets to have a new chance at a life. She actually gets to be happy.
#The end of her story makes me so happy#that as she walks away from rome at the end she gets to leave the pain and destruction of her old life behind#and just like the ruins of rome her past will still be there and real but she can live a good live despite it#it just means so much to me#that no matter how many hardships you had to endure you still have a chance at happiness#I'm not even sure how coherent I am right now I've been busy crying the last few minutes#sasha rackett#rqg#rqg spoilers#rusty quill gaming
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Still thinking about that one time in Hammer of Thor when magnus remembers annabeth telling him that they can't give up on randolph, literally saying "He's family, Magnus,... We can't give up on family." do yall think she was thinking of luke when she said that? because even though he did kinda get magnus killed, his intentions and heart were in the right place just like luke😭 luke wanted revenge for the awful shit the gods had done to him so he walked the wrong road and killed and sacrificed anyone who got in his way just so he could make the world "better". and randolph sided with loki (somewhat) and got magnus killed so he could get his family back. uhh anyways
tl;dr the magnus, randolph situation in HoT probably reminded annabeth of her and luke and that is the reason I cry at night
#please tell me I'm not alone in this#like randolph got magnus KILLED#that's not something you just forgive someone over????#honestly if it was me i would've left him he was too far gone#but annabeth never gave up on her family until its death so she advised magnus to do the same#AND HE DID😭#he NEVER gave up on randolph#every chance he got he tried to convince him to leave loki and try and leave the past behind him#so yea</3#magnus chase#magnus chase and the gods of asgard#mcga#mcatgoa#annabeth chase#pjo#percy jackson#percy jackon and the olympians#heroes of olympus#the hammer of thor
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#something to be said not just about how Ibrahim aims to replace his past family with his present bond with Süleiman (and Musti and Mahi#branch off of that bond) but also how Hatice fits in all of this - the one Ibrahim leans on everytime he's likely to lose SS is *her*#she isn't just the future he wants to secure in the castle but also the past he yearns for outside of it especially in that initial period#of their relationship; and not just any past but a very particular fragment of it - the next most valuable person of his past other than#his brother: his *mother*. it's no wonder him playing *his mother's* melodies with the violin marks the beginning of their story and stays#an important motif throughout. just like Ibrahim's mother Hatice is so familiar yet so out of reach (and this unreachability accumulates in#E13 - Ibrahim leaves for Parga thus returning to his past but leaving Hatice behind but *then* finding out his mother is gone too.#*both* people he wants to be close to soo much are *gone* in that moment. there's a link between them because of this. also Hatice tieing#lbrahim's mother to “heaven” as well and her “looking at their happiness from above” Ibro responds with in E14.) Hatice will distance#more and more from that role later on until lbrahim starts to outright abandon this whole 'return to the past' idea with Hatice and#search for it through Nigar instead. but yeah anyway I feel these two scenes are the perfect encapsulation of how complicated#the past is for lbrahim; he avoids remembering it because it *hurts* to remember both because why would he remember it when he already has#an established future and because deep down he resents what he's become and established as that isn't ever permanent and he's lost all else#*himself* most of all as who is a person without his roots? he wants to forget them but can't ever do it so what's left is replacing them#*all of them*; when he finds Hatice too he wants to have *both* her and Süleiman and SS marrying Hatice off directly challanges that want#up to that point he believed in the possibility of their love more than Hatice did; now? he seems as lost as she is not knowing what to do#the only way not to lose either of them is accepting Süleiman's order convincing himself that this is how it should be no matter how much#that hurts and would bury him even deeper; he can't bear it so he searches for a solution - and when he sees Rhodes sea? it hits him#it hits him how low he's actually sunk through the losses and if he can't “fully* replace the past he'll *fully* return to the past letting#*everything else* once hidden out as well. not to mention how right before he left to Parga he was brought to fear for his literal death#and then he is given more power that also brings some uncertainty with it and that likely scared him cementing his departure for Parga#directly following Piri Pasha's advice to let power go as it won't let *you* go#(btw a big contrast between S01 and S03 Ibrahim can be drawn in his relationship with Piri Pasha and his relationship with Ebusuud)#magnificent century#muhteşem yüzyıl#muhtesem yuzyil#ibrahim pasha#(sorry for the disorganized tags but if I kept it like it was I would've exceeded the limit before I even finished 😅)#(just Ibrahim and Hatice in general are people who latch onto each other to get over their losses and ache for peace amidst their turbulent#lives and positions and that's what keeps them close and will later too)
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and if i say smth....
AND IF I SAY SOMETHING— *gets shot*
#may this journey lead us starward#march absorbing the camera represents her memories coming back/realising her past bc cameras store memories and boom#5* march form. she is the final chrysos heir. her 5* form is like elysias herrscher form.#MARCH AND CYRENE CONNECTED !!!! PLS IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE (to me) THAT THEYRE BOTH ONE IN THE SAME LIKE#CYRENE IS A PART MARCH LEFT BEHIND TO OVERSEE AMPHOREUS BEFORE SHE WAS SEALED AND LOST HER MEMORIES#AND ALSO MAYBE MEM (our memosprite) IS CONNECTED TO THEM OR AT LEAST CYRENE BC SHE APPEARED AFTER WE REWROTE THE FATE#and ofc.... phainon in the middle of the other 12 chrysos heir sigils.... like how elysia is in the middle of the other 12 flame-chasers...#also phainon being deliverance when kevin is also the deliverence sigil lmao haha hoho hehe#im gonna be sick shaoji i am shaking my fist at u and very much not prepared for the emotional damage amphoreus is going to leave me with
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me at my bookstore job to the 27th young adult straight edgy fantasy romance to come in this month
#full disclosure in case this blows up somehow because of booktok or something - IT'S NOT JUST BOOKTOK CRITICISM OR HET ROMANCE CRITICISM#this is me getting annoyed about the fact that the genre itself is oversaturated with too many of the same cookie cutter plot#girl in magic land meets guy and they hate each other but they don't really!!! but their love grows over the tides of the kingdom's war.....#<- THIS PLOT RIGHT HERE. I'VE SEEN FIVE SEPARATE AUTHORS DO THIS#and again - to clarify - it is NOT just booktok with this oversaturation issue#regular fiction is oversaturated with WW2/victorian era romance dramas - where the plot is good! but then A GUY SHOWS UP#AND THE WOMAN MUST MAKE A CHOICE..... TO SUPPORT HER CHILD OR LEAVE BEHIND HER OLD LIFE etc etc WE GET IT. FUCK.#and it's not just fiction too!!! the charts are oversaturated with crime novels in general right now#granted - most of them are good and try to be original - however there's just too many in the main chart#i won't list all of them to prevent drama - but in two past 'six new chart topper' deals - four were crime#and they haven't sold well. even bringing in popular authors didn't help them sell well#there needs to be a shake up. i don't want to be elitish or snobbish - PEOPLE CAN 100% WRITE WHAT THEY WANT#everyone's art is unique and beautiful because they did it#and they have the freedom to do so#but writers nowadays are falling too much into keeping with trends that it's actively tiring out consistent readers#write your fantasy novel - but lean into the worldbuilding. write your world war novel - but elaborate outside the characters.#write your fiction or crime - but try to vary up the beats of the plot to surprise readers more#stop trying to cater to what you l they want and what works - try and surprise them with something new and unexpected.#anyways rant over. i can talk about this for ages but i won't. but i could#spark talks about nothing of relevance#clip from the shadow the hedgehog rtfd 👍 thank you devil. from bible.
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nothing like rereading old fics to boost the self esteem. like wait. some of this slapped
#have been rereading and you caused it#niki having a quilt from the syndicate in her cabin? and leaving it behind when she ran off to hide in her city?#wil standing in her abandoned trashed cabin and finding that and finding his oldddd pogtopia cloak? barely remembering her wearing it#on doomsday? hell. dream trashing nikis city as a power play to 1. demonstrate to tommy that nowhere is safe and 2. cut off an ally?#tommy calling phil and techno when dream trashes nikis city because even tho he does Not Want To he knows those two#are the best to help niki at that moment? wilbur not receiving any of those comms? mwah. it was rock solid#past me had a Vision
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imagine that im shaking your shoulders while i say this. i want you to imagine that i look all disheveled and like i havent slept and my teeth are chattering. listen to me. i want chise to face the consequences of having trafficked herself. im talking beyond awkwardly changing the subject around her friends. thats not enough. i want there to be legal ramifications. i want a paper trail that doesnt add up. i want someone to recognize her as a missing person. i want her to fully appreciate what a dumb and dangerous thing to do that was. i want her to realize that things could have gone very differently for her. i want japanese law enforcement involved. i want her documentation to come under scrutiny. i want her to meditate on the fact that she can never regain the life she quite literally threw away. i need this. for my health
#original#chise#is this a safe space to describe a scenario that could be a one shot fic if i cared enough#i want her dad to come back and be like. i literally told you id return for you. why did you make it harder for me by doing that#like SHES somehow the asshole in this situation#god damn it to hell#'her whole theme is being free and leaving the past behind' LISTEN I CANT SUSPEND MY DISBELIEF
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