#kiru headcanons

[kiruliom]

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dbd char select screen style

Danny "jed olsen" Johnson from Dead By Daylight is bipan, aroallo, a cuntboy and has npd! he uses he/him pronouns

I have all the right headcanons tbh it may as well be canon ^^ /silly (the narcissist part is already canon, it was just meant as an insult but like- a win is a win!! also he has ADHD as well I just dont like any of the ADHD flags tbh.)

cuntboy is used as a reclaimed slur, not anything sexual! if u tag this as mature ur transphobic and Ill do bad things to u ^^

@gender-mailman @buntress LOOKIE LOOKIE >:D

hate will be deleted if possible and blocked btw <3

[vanrougelia]

hi, i think i should dump ideas here that i really want to write but i don't have the energy to do so-!

some of these are yandere themed, but feel free to write these!! inspo used are vocaloid songs<33 the songs are linked (i used covers on like 2 of these lmao) !!

1 ) jamil viper — the tailor shop on enbizaka

2 ) ace trappola — true love restraint

3 ) vil schoenheit — cantarella

4 ) riddle rosehearts — the girl locked below (yan!riddle + yan!reader)

5 ) scarabia duo — choose me

6 ) malleus draconia — cendrillon

7 ) overblot boys (?) — line up and give your regards [angst no comfort]

8 ) riddle rosehearts — bitter choco decoration

9 ) jamil viper — tokyo teddy bear (childhood friends au)

as i said earlier, feel free to write something w these ideas!! also tag me whenever you've done it so i could see lol i would love to read your work <33 crediting for ideas is not needed but it's appreciated!

[hcwritter]

[wewerebornsextuplets]

actually you know what. i have nothing going on today. im gonna expand on this :fire: i probably should actually Talk about her [+ keiko and ippei eventually] on here instead of just drawing them so :3 big ramble under the cut! apologies in advance if my wording here is clunky/hard to parse, im coming down from a bad headache but if i dont yap i will lose my mind

this is mostly gonna be talking about this tag 👇

since i was explaining it to my friends yesterday so its fresh on the mind. so here we go! first things first i should point out: kiru is actually half Ōbeikei! her dad moved to mainland japan from chichijima as a young adult for college. i should note that while the ogasawara/bonin islands ARE considered japanese territory the majority of people living on the islands, especially Ōbeikei people who arent of japanese descent (in kiru's case her family on that side is primarily descended from the polynesian settlers to chichijima with some overlap to the japanese community there), usually refer to themselves as Ōbeikei or bonin islanders and not japanese. so if asked kiru would say shes half Ōbeikei! because of the bonin islands' tumultuous history, particularly from the start of WWII up until the late 60's, forced assimilation and changing of hands from japan to america [and then back again] meant that a lot of the Ōbeikei people living on the islands had both a japanese name and a western name, and the same is the case for the nikuya family! their surname was originally "butcher", but when japan enacted more forced assimilation on the island via name change in the 40s, any families that weren't already using japanese names had to pick one. as such they chose "nikuya" as it was the direct translation of their current surname and they thought it would make things easier

since kiru's dad was born at the tail end of "navy time" [aka 1946-1968, when only the Ōbeikei people were allowed to live on the island under heavy military restrictions + the japanese people living there were forced to stay in mainland japan], and the reversion back to being part of japan happened when he was very young, he grew up using both "butcher" AND "nikuya" as a surname, and often times wouldn't even really pay attention to which was being used. however, when he moved to mainland japan he stopped using "butcher" as a surname so he would have an easier time adjusting. thus we have kirumi nikuya!

that being said the doylist perspective for her surname being "nikuya" was definitely a butch joke

having fan characters is so embarrassing sometimes. why am i thinking about kirus family history so intently when we dont even know if the bumtuplets have grandparents

[killuakiru]

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[tetsunabouquet]

Multifandom Headcanon: Which Blorbo would Rock the Emo Look

A/N: I just had to make this. Like, give me these men.

-The Kiryu twins (Vampire Knight). I mean, come on! Zero is practically half-emo already and considering Ichiru was shown wearing a shirt with skulls in a bonus chapter and has a haircut suspiciously emo length, these boys would definitely look great embracing their emo. -Adrien Agreste (Miraculous Ladybug) see the Paris special. He looks cute and I prefer his emo design over Marinette's (though Shadybug is the superior look. High buns are cuter then Marinette's usual lower buns if you ask me. It's a shame she didn't keep them!) -Akashi Seijuro from Kuroko's Basketball.I need this boy with eyeliner! -Speaking of KNB, Himuro Tatsuya. Similar to the Kiru twins he's already half-emo. He should just embrace the emo! -Subaru Sakamaki from Diabolik Lovers. Again, falls into the pattern of already being half-emo. I will never forget that one parody on YouTube with Subaru and the, 'I'm an emo kid' song. -Senri Shiki from Vampire Knight. Give him eyeliner and have Rima pick out his clothes, and tell me the boy wouldn't look cute in a half-dead kind of way. -Ren Tao from Shaman King would look pretty good in an emo-punk kind of look. His tongari already feels like a punkish hairstyle, the tattoo and his scars also really fit that rebel look. Add eyeliner and a goth aesthetic. It would be perfect. -Haruka Nanase from Free!, yet another example of a boy that would look cute in that half-dead kind of way. In the FREE! abridged universe, I can only imagine Haruka being one step away from becoming a creepypasta. -Will Herondale from The Infernal Devices back when he still believed he was cursed. He has all the angst in the world necessary and would definitely rock a more Victorian goth aesthetic. -Speaking of someone with a similar coloring and angst from the same universe, Alec Lightwood would look cool but he'd be more of the I don't care how terrible I look or if I am dying in this shirt, kind of emo rather then Will and his dramatic flair. -Azusa Mukami from Diabolik Lovers would also definitely suit the aesthetic, considering him and his tencencies overall. -Luka Couffaine from Miraculous Ladybug is also half-emo already. He should just go for it (TBH I wonder how he looks in the Shadybug& Claw Noir universe). -Murtagh from the Inheritance Cycle. He definitely would look good dressed as a gothic warlord. -Damon Salvatore from the Vampire Diaries gone emo would have been the hotter version of that Green Day singer. -Speaking of The Vampire Diaries, Jeremy Gilbert's depresser stoner days had some serious emo hottie potential. -Sebastian Morgenstern from The Mortal Instruments definitely would have looked great with the emo aesthetic. The tragic villain with white blonde hair seems such an emo thing to me. -So the same goes for his son, Ash. A literal fallen angel? Cue the goth glamor!

[sumiban]

I got the idea of Sonia and Fuyuhiko being potential friends from this one fanfic, and I'm kind of hooked onto the idea; a foreign exchange student getting along with the heir of the biggest yakuza syndicate.

Some headcanons I have for their friendship:

Sonia was the one who approached Fuyuhiko first after watching a true crime episode involving the yakuza. Once he started correcting her about the misconceptions and exaggerations of the yakuza from the media, she made it a mission to bridge her gap of knowledge and get to know her tiny classmate

They started to talk about the different weapons of their respective countries, and eventually go target practice together with their guns

Fuyuhiko teaches Sonia a few of the lingo used exclusively in the yakuza and in turn learns some Novoselic language and culture

Sonia definitely tried the jingi wo kiru to greet Fuyuhiko one day

They occasionally have tea time with some high quality Japanese tea and Novoselic's finest chocolates. Sometimes Peko and Gundham join them

They eventually get comfortable enough to share their thoughts and pressure put onto them regarding the high positions they will take over after graduation

[kirutani]

How are you today? Ugh that was so formal ew annyywayy I would like bungou stray dogs head cannons for Atsushi, Dazai, Chuuya with a s/o that is gen-z in general like for example if dazai asked to do double sewer slide this then they will ok uld just say "no❤" Or they'd just throw meme references at them for no reason you see what I mean? Like just random chaos, hope this isn't to long ^^'

Ahh, sorry I didn’t see this until now! I’ve been g o n e :^( I’ve been good though!

I don’t really know that many gen z references, but I will attempt LOL. I apologize for how short this is!

Atsushi

I can already see the furry jokes with this one

Cue Atsushi using his ability while they’re fighting someone

“oh god the furry is out”

“[Y/N] I NEED HELP HERE”

“Y E E T”

Atsushi seems like the type to be up to date on the memes, mainly because you’re always referencing them

He just would rather feign ignorance with them though LOL

He doesn’t mind them though since he does care about you and it’s just part of your personality at this point

Dazai

This mans knows every meme you reference I swear

Wants to be hip and cool with the youngins these days, ya know? even though he’s also pretty young

Out of everyone in this group, I think he’d be the type to meme with you tbh

He’ll probably be really bad at it though

ah yes, something very inconvenient or cringy happens?

“i wanna die, my dudes lmaooooo”

“ok [Y/N], wanna commit double suicide with me on that bridge then? <3″

“lol no<3″

OH OH oh you would definitely call Dazai a simp whenever you can

Literally just imagine Dazai doing his usual flirting with you and you just

“DAZAI CAN YOU STOP BEING A SIMP FOR ONE SECOND?”

“I forever only simp for you <3″

Chuuya

This man, hands down, is not the memey type

I feel like he’d find some of them funny, but would also drop kick you if you were to reference something really stupid

“Hey [Y/N], can you help me with this email?”

“ok boomer”

“[Y/N] I’m literally only a few years older than you shut up”

“iM oNLY a FeW yEaRs OldEr thAn YoU ShuT uP”

Cue Chuuya making the computer go kaboom

Like with Dazai, I also feel like you’d call him a simp at some point

Imagine Chuuya just doing some hella romantic gestures for you and you just accidentally call him a simp because you’ve been on Twitter too much LOL not calling myself out here

If you were to call him that, chances are he’s going to be like ??? excuse me what tf did you just call me

Then you refuse to explain to him what it is and he ends up having to look it up himself

Spoiler alert he hates that word now

[iridescentscarecrow]

perhaps

...an alternate future.

lubbock x reader

~ [fandom: akame ga kill]

[tags; possessive reader, alternate timeline, established relationship, mild cursing]

[about; yeah, im posting this... excuse my non proficiency in writing x reader type of stuff... one of the things i wrote for the lovely @serowotonin for her bday, and now im throwing it out here. enjoy!] [words: 584]

Laughter swirls up into the sky as you sit shoulder to shoulder with the green haired boy next to you. It’s a beautiful evening, the grounds of the mansion twinkling with bird calls. The capital stands as strong as it ever was, the full force of the empire behind it.

You turn to gaze at him, a smile on your lips.

Lubbock’s eyes are distant, fixed on the horizon. His bangs fall into his eyes and his expression is unusually thoughtful.

“Hey,” you nudge him. “What’re you thinking about?”

He turns and his eyes cloud over as they focus on you. He laughs again, but this time it sounds a bit broken. “Just... a different future.”

“A different one? Why would you ever want that?” you lean into him, giggling.

“No, it’s just that...” he shakes his head, his throat hitching. “Don’t you feel this world’s a bit messed up sometimes?”

You stare at him. “Are you kidding? What more could you want? You’re here, you’re happy...” You lower your voice conspiratorially. “You have me.”

“It’s not that,” he murmurs, so low that it’s hard to catch. As if sensing your disapproval, he looks down, words coming out in a stuttering flow now. “All this time... do you know what happens to the poor in this city?”

“Feeling benevolent, are we?” you grin quizzically.

“ No, they’re used...farmed like cattle, like cogs in a giant machine. It’s-” he shuts his eyes, breathes. “Evil, just plain evil. That’s what this government turns a blind eye to- and they, they just kill anyone who says any different. Slaughter them all. It’s just wrong,” he says. “Wrong,” he repeats vehemently, whipping around his head to look at you. “You think so, don’t you?”

You stare incredulously at him. You’ve rarely seen him be so spirited about anything like this, and you suddenly feel a surge of envy. “Who fucking put these thoughts in your head, Lubbo?” you scowl.

He smiles again, but this time it’s more painful to look at. “Have you heard of Najenda?”

You cock your head. “Najenda? Wasn’t she the leader of the terrorist outfit they dismantled a while back?”

“Dismantle? (y/n), I-” he bites his lip. “General Esdeath and her team of mercenaries massacred Night Raid. They beheaded Najenda, lopped all their heads off... propped them up on spikes in the middle of the city. How is that not just cruel?” Lubbock shakes his head, his face twisted in pained mirth. The expression doesn’t suit him, you think. You prefer the carefree Lubbock, not- not whatever this is.

“Yeah well,” you shrug. “Night Raid probably deserved it.”

Lubbock’s smile is sad as he says, “Would you have said the same thing if I’d joined it?”

You pause. “What? Joined it? Lubbo, what are you saying?”

“Crazy, I know.” he throws his head back, staring at the sky. “But perhaps I could’ve actually achieved something.”

“Th- that’s stupid,” you force out. “You would have died!”

“Maybe, yeah.” he exhales slowly. “Sometimes I think I could’ve made a difference... but yeah, you’re right. It’s stupid to think about.”

He hoists himself up to his feet. “I’m going to bed, yeah?”

You hear his footsteps walk away as you open your mouth again, your gaze fixated on the setting sun. “Lubbo?”

“Yeah?”

“Why didn’t you end up going? With Night Raid, I mean.”

You can’t see his face, but you hear the smile in his voice as he says, “Isn’t it obvious? Because of you.” ~*~

{thank you for reading!}

[someoctober]

my librafem kirumi hc AND genderfae Mahiru hc are in fact both me projecting onto my kins thank you for noticing how could you tell

[orangecreamsoda]

Chaotic Headcanons 2

Back again with more headcanons!

Each leader of the tribe has a title tribute to them.

Some examples include:

Chaor the fierce: 

He was given this tile due to his known quickly turned to anger as well as his ferocity as a warrior and ruler.

Illexia: Spiritualist of the Hive: 

At a young age, Illexia’s mother believed her daughter’s imagination was imaginative and yet concerning. When Illexia tells her about her “imaginary friends” fables about their adventures in and out of the hive. She worried that Illexia was somehow eavesdropping on the guards and hearing their conversations. However, this was disproof when Illexia tell her something that she only told one other soul in her life; her late consort who died before Illexia’s hatching. At that moment, Illexia’s “imaginary friends” was more than imaginary.

Kiru king of worlds:

After defeating Vaal, the leader of the underworlders , Kiru became leader of both overworlers and the underworldors, which lead him combine both into one tribe: Worlders tribe. Maybe Middlewolders, who knows?

Vlar: Vlar has two different titles to him:

The Cunning: in the overworld, he is known as the cunning. Vlar was known to be crafty and as well as a quick thinker to get out about any situation he found himself in.

The Thief: in the underworld, he’s known as the thief. not only he was given  this title for his beginnings, but also due to a belief that Vlar steal the title of leader of the wolders from Kiru by cheating in a dual for control over the tribe.

Pheren'tal the Oligarch of all Perim: After mind controlling ‘all’ the surface dwellers during the first M’arrillian invasion, Pheren'tal formed the M’arrillian Empire for the M’arrillians. It’s unknown how long the empire lasted. Some say for months, solans or even within a decade. But, however it lasted, it ended when Pheren'tal was defeated by Khilai : High Muge of the Desert.

[vanrougelia]

Thorns (arknights) jealousy headcannons? If reqs are closed, pls ignore and my sincerest apologies.

don't worry anon, my requests are open!! <3 i made the reader operator once again, if you don't mind.

note: thorns being petty, mild possessiveness. you are besties with elysium and thorns, but hcs are written generally.

thorns x gn!operator!reader.

of course, THORNS should have known that you are very close with his friend, elysium. however, he doesn't like that you spend a lot of time with the liberi.

yes, you three may be the best of friends everyone sees, but there are times that THORNS just wants to have his friend leave for a while, so that you two would have more time alone with each other.

maybe he could invite you to do some experiments with him, just remember that not all experiments go all right, and there's a chance that it'll fail. and that leaves you to having to fix his appearance, which of course, the ægir didn't mind. he finally has your attention, after all.

what makes him more annoyed is that you are very approachable to the other operators in the headquarters, and it is something that he cannot change. you are so nice to them, but try to spend more time with THORNS, he internally begs.

you know that he wants your company when he is more talkative than usual, or when he keeps coming close to you. he may be straightforward because of how he usually talks, but it is something that you don't mind.

when you are out in an operation he is a lot grumpier than usual. he doesn't usually show emotions, but it can be seen from his actions. whenever others ask him about it, he would just scoff at them and say "it is none of your business".

maybe give him reassurance at least? hug him and give endearing words to him, he would love to hear them from you.

[hcwritter]

[wewerebornsextuplets]

recently i realized i havent given... any context, really, on kiru's family outside of her being yana's cousin, which is honestly a little shocking because i think about it a LOT and it provides a lot of context for why she presents herself the way she does, both in terms of physical appearance and in terms of actions/character as a whole. i also need to explain the nature of her relationship with yana, so this will be the tell-all on kiru's upbringing, as well as some elaboration on her general disposition! you know the drill! this one ended up being much longer than some of my other long winded posts, which is a little scary. but under the cut we go!

BEFORE I START i do want to disclaim: for the sake of canon compliance, assume anything i say about kiru's parents [particularly her mother] and grandparents' attitudes doesn't apply to yanagida's upbringing or family. as much as i love headcanons and speculating about background characters [theres a reason s1e9 is my favorite episode], i also want kiru's lore to be taken somewhat independently from those headcanons/interpretations if so desired :-)

In order to make things a little less confusing [mostly for myself, because im very scatterbrained], i have a little family tree graphic. thing. mostly to keep track of names + relations and all that! ill be referring to kiru's parents by name for that same reason. but uhhh tada 🎉

OKAY BUT FOR REAL. the actual timeline is like this: kiru's childhood was pretty normal to start. her mother [mayumi] was a bit strict, but it wasn't anything too crazy, though she did prefer spending time with her dad [kentaro] during this time. this was all upended around the time she was eight, though, when her family had to move into her grandparents' home after her dad fell ill. kentaro, a lifelong smoker, had developed lung cancer, and the costly nature of treatments for his condition meant that they could no longer afford to life in their old house. in addition, kentaro's condition meant that mayumi had to essentially take over as his caretaker at home during this time, leaving kiru's grandparents as the ones to raise her.

i imagine this side of her family had a decent amount of social power within the community [this may just be a thing in my town, but you know those families where it feels like theyre kind of everywhere, like the school staff, the local politicians, etc.? theyre like that], which led to her grandparents being quite strict, if not authoritarian to a degree, with a particular emphasis on what behaviors were considered "acceptable". as such, while kiru was greatly encouraged in her academic endeavors, there was near equal pressure on how she presented herself outside of her studies. while the physical aspect of "dress neatly and maintain good hygiene" was part of this presentation, it also included a HEAVY emphasis on her emotional regulation. It reached a point where she began to suppress nearly any strong emotions she had, because she felt that there was never a Right time to feel or express them.

^ it was kind of like this. not really any forceful or outright Mean enforcement of this ideal, but definitely a conditioning that was strong enough to impact kiru, especially at such a young age. past this i think they would be fairly normal as far as grandparents go, just not quite as nurturing.

even in the present day, kiru's calm demeanor is only really maintained because of her belief that sharing her feelings would disgust or embarrass the people around her. growing up, strong expression of any emotion was childish and unsightly, and she still conducts herself with this in mind; its not something she feels about others, but she doesnt extend the grace she gives others in this regard to herself.

BUT back to the timeline. after moving in with her grandparents, kiru got a bit closer to yanagida, who would often visit their home, since yknow. same city and all. during this time kiru was pretty lonely, since kentaro's illness meant she had to spend less time with him, and as a result her and yana spent much of that time together instead. yana particularly enjoyed kiru's knowledge of english, since kentaro primarily spoke bonin standard english in the home + taught kiru the language. in turn, kiru appreciated that yana didnt see her through the same lens of "respectable young girl" that everyone else in the family seemed to have picked up since moving, and they were able to meet each other on more of an equal level of just being friends.

this pattern continued up until kiru was 10, when kentaro passed away. aside from the obvious, this was a particularly stressful time for kiru and mayumi, since kentaro wanted to be buried in Chichijima + have his funeral procession held there. as a result, kiru spent about a month of that summer away from home, on the island with her father's side of the family. away from the eagle eye of her mother, she tried to make the most of the time, but found herself too distraught to enjoy any of it to the fullest. she was too ill-equipped to tell her relatives there how she was really feeling, so they mostly carried on with the impression that a young kiru was being "strong" in the face of kentaro's death and was taking it well, even though it was quite far from the truth. upon her return to mainland japan to start her new school year, most of her family carried on with the impression that all had returned to normal. that is, except for yanagida.

obviously, only being about thirteen at the time of kentaro's death and not really having a strong understanding of the expectations kiru was under at home [not to mention having the emotional intelligence typical of a boy his age-- that is to say, not much], he didn't really understand Why her behavior had changed so much since moving in with her grandparents, or why her demeanor had taken a near 180 in that time. but he didn't really need to understand the why to know that Something was wrong, even before kentaro had passed.

what he wasnt expecting, though, was her breaking down sobbing the second he asked her how she was doing after she got back from chichijima. since yana was Also a kid, and had never put on the same pressure that the rest of the family put on on her, kiru felt a bit safer talking to him with the confidence that he wouldnt berate her for feeling that way or be disappointed in her. he consoled her about as well as he could [or as well as any 13 year old boy could] and assured her she could come to him if she was ever feeling down, but instead she assured him she would be fine.

after this event, yana started worrying about her quite a bit, but he wasnt really sure how to go about Expressing this concern [either to her or anyone else], so he just kind of let it sit there. as time went on, and kiru started to return to a more cheery persona, he let go of that worry for the most part and they returned to their old routine fun for the time being.

yanagida wasnt the only person whose relationship with kiru changed after kentaro's death, though. mayumi, who was wholly unequipped to handle the intense grief that kentaro's passing brought her, was wracked with a mixture of guilt, anger, and resentment; she regretted having ever met and married him, now knowing the pain it would come to cause her, and she even began to regret kiru's birth. its a feeling she was deeply ashamed of. she loved her daughter, but every time she looked at kiru, every time she heard her name, mayumi was acutely aware of the fact that kentaro was no longer there to share these memories, that he wasn't going to be there to see her grow any further. ashamed as she was of this feeling, it never fully went away, even if she made efforts to ignore it. the gap left between them was never fully mended, and though kiru couldn't place it at the time she definitely got the sense that mayumi didn't really want her around. as a result, kiru began to spend a bit more time around her grandparents, whom she had grown closer to since they were the ones raising her for the past couple of years.

as junior high rolled around for kiru, and as yanagida was going into high school, the distance between them grew as well; yanagida was beginning to exercise more independence from his family and spend more time with friends, and kiru was doing the same. they still made time for one another, though, walking home together once in a while when yanagida wasn't in the mood for hanging out with his friends. most of the time, though, they just stuck to their new groups. it was a small period of respite and was actually pretty chill for kiru, all things considered

once it came time for kiru to start testing into different high schools, mayumi became a bit more involved with her daughter's life. more specifically, she became more involved in how kiru presents herself; if youre a daughter [or former daughter] youre probably familiar with the specific underhanded flavor of body shaming she experienced. kiru and yanagida also lost contact during this time, as yanagida was preparing to enter college and they were both too busy to keep up with one another too well. he was definitely a little concerned with all these changes regarding her appearance, though

now, to this point, i want to say that mayumi was NOT being intentionally malicious or even aware of her harm during this time. during her youth, mayumi was ridiculed and ostracized for a more unkempt appearance that came as a result of an intense focus on her academic endeavors and matters other than her looks. not wanting to see her daughter endure the same thing, she tried to encourage kiru to put more care into her appearance. even so, her tactless expression of this concern ended up hurting kiru more than anything else.

high school came and went, with kiru attending St. Hanagaoka's, a prestigious all-girls school in the city. nothing particularly bad happened during this time, but kiru regards this time in her life rather poorly, because she spent most of it trying to Appear a certain way, rather than living how she actually wanted to live. its during this time that kiru became more acutely aware of much of her desires and identity; as femininity began to feel more like a prison, she found herself looking at the boys her age a bit differently. she had a boyfriend or two during her time at school, sure, but she never really felt that it was any different from having a friend. slowly, she realized the feelings she thought were admiration, or crushes on boys, were really just a sense of longing; she longed to dress like them, to be able to cut her hair short like them, even to pursue love with girls the way that they did. though she was still quite confident that she was a woman, she knew she wasn't the kind of woman her family wanted her to be.

as such, when she finally got into college, kirumi cut contact with her mother and grandparents almost completely. her first year of college was a year of rebellion and experimentation; primarily with her appearance. at first she'd wondered if her discomfort for feminine clothing was the result of the KIND of femininity she was portraying, but quickly realized this wasnt the case. so the kirumi futch era was only about a semester long. after this, she started to present as more masculine, and this is around the time when she starts getting more concerned with fitness in terms of strength; she didn't manage to get built like yuko miyamoto just by standing around, after all! its during this time that kiru also began to make actual friends, though her problems with connecting to others emotionally made this a rather difficult endeavor when it came to maintaining those relationships.

during her second year of college, her grandparents both passed, roughly six months from one another, due to old age. while she had mixed feelings on the matter due to her strained relationship with them, she still attended both funerals. at the latter of the two, her and mayumi got into a bit of a fight because of a comment mayumi made about kiru "destroying" herself. this ended up pushing kiru, out of pure spite, to shave her head the second she got back on campus.

it ended up being a mistake.

not one without a silver lining, though! this drastic change in appearance ended up catching the eye of one of her acquaintances, who was a close friend of her roommate. you might know her as keiko :-)

during this time, keiko was just starting her transition, and was still getting a feel for the big city. the two initially bonded over a shared love of terrible movies [as one of kiru's biggest hobbies is watching shitty movies to laugh at them], and kiru gave keiko many of her old clothes + some tips for hair and makeup now that she no longer needed them. but over time, they became quite close. in particular, they bonded over the fact that they experienced pretty strong discomfort towards gender roles and expectations in their upbringing; while keiko's family was much more loving and supportive than kiru's, she still felt an intense obligation to be seen as ""man enough"", mainly to her peers, having been bullied quite intensely during her high school years for her transness.

i could probably write a whole separate post about kiru and keiko's relationship [not any time soon though. jesus.], but the long and short of it is that they became a couple during their third year together at college :-) this is also the year that kiru secured her job at the butcher's shop in akatsuka, having been a bit of a floater before then.

after graduating with her bachelor's, kiru began to attend a veterinary school in pursuit of a doctorate in the field. they lived separately, but visited one another's apartments about as frequently as could be managed.

one summer, when school was out and she was less busy, kiru began volunteering at a local animal shelter, wherein she met and fell in love with a little cat named kabosu. after adopting her that autumn, on one particularly busy night, kabosu broke out of the apartment, and... hey, i've told this part of the story before!

past that, uh... not really a lot to say! i have a whole storyline thought out about kiru and yanagida getting back into contact + how that intertwines with some other family drama on kiru's side of things, but thats an idea that i want to dedicate a different post to since i have. a LOOOOOT of thoughts on that whole arc. ill do that eventually but again, definitely not anytime soon. if i make another post like this too soon i think my brain will explode

BUT YEAH! if you managed to read this far, thank you!! i put a LOT of thought and consideration into kiru's background; i didnt want it to be like. senselessly edgy. since this IS a gag anime in the end. even still i am a sucker for complicated family dynamics so i tried my best to strike a good balance there

[tatsulubbock]

lubbock is still trans

[scenario-station]

Bulat flower asks

(Rose= describe your crush)

Cute, childish, and soft. (Preferably tatsumi-)

(Cherry blossom= do you believe in love at first sight?)

He totally does he’s a sap

(Daisy= what’s your best childhood memory?)

None. Hard past, honestly how depressing.

(Daffodil= which color suits you best?)

Blue.

(Peony= do you put more value in honor or truth?)

Truth.

(Iris= favorite 90s song?)

“Hit me baby one more time” by Britney Spears. Don’t even tell me he doesn’t listen to Britney Spears.

(Sunflower= sun or moon?)

Sun!!

(Narcissus= best physical feature?)

Hair. Definitely Hair. For sure. Without a doubt. 10/10 hair.

(Freesia= are you still friends with the person you considered your best friend two years ago?)

Yes.

(Orchid= favorite fruit?)

Plums, this took forever to choose.

(Violet= have you had your first kiss?)

My gay son has definitely had his first kiss.

(Gypsophila= do you prefer many distant friends, or a few close friends?)

A few close friends.

(Gerbera= neon or pastel?)

Neon!!

(Carnation= does true love exist?)

He definitely believes in true love.

(Alstroemeria= dream vacation?)

Some cool adventure trip with lots of exercise, like touring a country.

(anemone= were you ever interested in greek mythology?)

No, I don’t think he’s the type.

(Cymbidium= sexuality?)

Gay gay gay

(Rhododendron= what’s your biggest fear?)

See anime.

(Tulip= lucky number?)

5.

(gladiolus - who do you look up to most?)

Najenda.

(Snapdragon= favorite mythical creature?)

Griffin.

(Hydrangea= proudest moment?)

Showing off to tatsumi.

(Heathers= favorite musical?)

The Book of Mormon.

(Delphinium= what’s your star sign?)

Cancer.

(Ginger= least favorite food?)

Celery. He fucking hates celery.

I hope y’all like it!~admin Dad