#kinda positive vent?

[flower-blooming-in-hell]

quick update for anyone who ends up reading these! i no longer use tumblr unless im looking for art, and i no longer reblog anything. i dont spend any time on here anymore, moved to a diff platform :) trying to limit my time on social media more anyways, i want to be more fully present in life!

ive been feeling a lot better recently !! my hives are kicking my ass but im processing a lot of things better as of recently lol

i really REALLY love my new bf <3<3<3 its ... weird. feeling stable and secure. i feel like i really deserve him too! which is new lol. i love how we're on the same page on everything, and communicate so well, and are so compatible, and just kjsdfhkjfh i love him !!!!!!

i recently realized that ... i think an issue in my past relationships was people forcing what they wanted me to be onto me, even if not on purpose. i'm very suggestible, which i need to figure out coping mechanisms for. but i feel seen here, fully. and it makes me happy to have clear boundaries! it's a very interesting feeling, finally unfurling a little and allowing myself to take up space (and being encouraged to him). i like it. i like him.

also thinking abt getting some adhd medication lol! i got diagnosed with it recently and well. im mad i didnt get diagnosed sooner, it explains so much about me!!

i'm still kinda paranoid about coming across my abuser somehow, but i feel so much more secure even just this far out from having contacted them. no contact is truly addicting skjdfhsjkfh. hypervigilance is a massive bitch though

ive decided i just want to move on and be happy :) which i decided a long time ago but have been officially putting into practice recently

[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[stars-and-bards]

Venting through Sulemio.. it's difficult being strong, but knowing that you're doing so for the people you love, perhaps its enough to keep going.

[yoshipupz]

why is bro sad….

Why. Why is he crodeing. Why is he cried.. why is he cryding on the Charlie plush.

cough . I made this drawing cuz I was down in the dumps so I wanted to draw something sad and this is what I came up with. I guess art really is therapy since halfway through drawing this I changed my sad playlist to my happy playlist awww yeah

also I have no specific interpretation or story behind this drawing, I just drew whatever I felt like drawing in the moment, so if anyone has any interpretations of what this piece could be about then lmk in the comments - or tags if u decide to reblog this - cuz I’d like to hear them c:

[joifee]

Why making friends is hard

at least for me

[0xeyedaisy]

Was gonna make a vent post talking abt how everything sucks but then something good happened so I'm okay now, I'm cured

[dimonds456-art]

Maladaptive daydreaming.

[venacoeurva]

I keep getting these poorly cropped ads and I think they’re better this way especially the one that makes it sound like Trump is gonna go back in time and kill everybody

[deepdean-detectives]

[dappercritter]

So... As you've probably noticed, I've been reblogging a lot of posts about encouragement, help, and optimistic perspectives in the wake of the election results. But I haven't said much on it myself have I?

Well that's mainly because I got sick this week and that was after I was up to my eyeballs in stuff anyways. But to be honest...

I am disappointed, I'm terrified, and I'm exhausted. I know some of my friends are in blue states or counties, but there's still a whole lot of red on the electoral map this year. But I'm not giving up hope. And that's because even if I've never known what it's like to be American, I know how this feels.

I'm Canadian but I'm also Albertan. I basically live in Texas-Lite. We had a left leaning government with the NDP that got kicked for the Conservative government two years in a row. We've gone straight back to a government that peddles oil & gas while decrying climate change policies, mobilizing for privatized healthcare, transphobic legislation that just came out, and our own ongoing economic crisis.

And now we might just see a libertarian Tory make it into the PM position next year. Hell we're even looking at our own government-endorsed internet censorship laws!

BUT. I'M. NOT. QUITTING.

I'm going to escape my toxic family. I'm going to see my friends. I'm going to keep writing and someday I WILL publish my own stories.

I've been asking myself if I want to stay here for a long time but this year I've made up my mind. I'm not going anywhere. And I don't want any of you to either.

So in short:

[pigeonstab]

Hey Pigeon, not to be weird or anything, but... you do sleep, right? Right? Because every time I open tumblr, I am not kidding, you are always online and posting stuff.

I mean, please don't stop, I love seeing your stuff on my dashboard. It might be simply timezone weirdness. I just hope you rest properly and take care of yourself. <3

HAHAHAHHA OMGGG the thing is- My sleep schedule is like 5am to noon rn. I need to fix it obviously but seeing as I have no schedule and I'm left to my own devices that's pretty hard. I think it's also the fact that since I dropped out my main thing that I do is be on tumblr. Which again isn't super healthy. I basically have nothing but free time. (Which is really nice but it also leaves me in my own head a lot.)

Yeah. I uh. I need to fix my sleep schedule. Soon. I'll do it soon. Thank you for the worry but I'm taking care of myself, I just have a harder time keeping myself in check when I don't have a set schedule.

[fever-project]

Hyrule Warriors & LU

Okay, so this whole thing is fueled by my desire to see HW stuff not only in relation to LU, but also in general.

I mostly see just Warriors, young Time, and Wind in these stories, with very brief mentions to other characters, mainly just Ravio, Midna, Marin, HW Zelda, and Impa. Don’t get me wrong, I love these characters, but there is a whole roster of other guys you can include as well and make them be more important-because they are???

Time and Wind aren’t the only ones from their time. Darunia and Ruto may be from the Adult timeline, but they are there, they are playable characters, and no one seems to mention them, like at all. Tetra, Medli, and King Daphnes are also playable characters and are there. Aryll is also there, she speaks for Toon Link.

Time and Wind are not alone, they can still see Warriors as a big brother figure, but that doesn’t mean you can just pretend that everyone around them just doesn’t exist. I’m hoping that in general, the people in the HW fandom don’t do this, but oh my goodness I’ve never seen Medli even mentioned even once in the HW with LU stories. Maybe that’s just me, and I just need to look harder, but I still feel like these characters are underrepresented, and that not nearly enough people are simply looking at the character list for HW. I know that LU focuses on Links, but having them not interact with others that aren’t Link in a place where they clearly would just boggles the mind. Im not trying to hate on anyone, I’ve loved all the HWLU fics I’ve read, I just want to see more character interactions. And more HWLU in general.

So let me just give you all some ideas I have for HWLU/just HW fanworks. Someone might’ve already made a fic with them, and if so, please link me as I would love to read them.

Captain Link, Mask, Toon(there are so many different nicknames for this guy, but I’m just going w/ Toon rn), and Aryll are at camp. You can dive into Aryll and Toon’s relationship, as well as Link and Mask’s relationships with their own families, and at the end you can have Aryll consider Link and Mask to her brothers too. You can even add Linkle there if you want her and Link to be siblings. Aryll and Linkle can even bond! It would be sweet.

The Spirit Tracks Zelda is a playable character, in her phantom form, so I’ll call her Phantom. She knows that Tetra is her ancestor and whatever relationship she and Toon had, your choice. She and Tetra can be friends, she and Toon can be friends, she can be friends with anyone! Phantom could let Toon know about his successor, and there are a bunch of things you can do with that. She can talk about Spirit to Toon, and the adventure she had with him. This could be included in a Chain meets Spirit fic where at least Wind would know about Spirit beforehand, or the other way around with Phantom telling him all about HW! The possibilities are endless!

You can have Mask and Ruto learn about the fate of the Zoras from Medli, and wouldn’t that just be heartbreaking. I know you people love your angst, and here it is, already shining upon a silver plater.

I feel like Marin and Ravio would be friends. Have Ravio mention Marin offhandedly to Legend, maybe accidentally. Marin can be real. Ravio can have pictures of her. I know you people love Ravio.

Fi is a playable character. Like she actually is there, not just as a sword, and she does turn into a sword to beat up enemies. Have her be a character and maybe let Mask’s resentment of the Master Sword go down a bit because of her. Or have Warriors talk to Sky about her, giving him hope that one day he’ll be able to see her again.

Skull Kid is also a playable character. So is Agitha and Tingle. Do something, I don’t know I honestly don’t have any idea rn, but I do know Agitha plays a semi-important part in the plot, with Midna.

Those are all the ideas I got for now. I love HW and love how people are writing for it with LU. There is just so much more people can do, and so many characters to work with. I’m just a bit sad that people tend to forget them in favor of just having the Links, which is understandable because this is about Linked Universe. But I just feel like some people are missing out on some wonderful writing opportunities here. Or maybe that just me, and I’m being a butt, who knows.

[clowningcrows]

it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.

[sugarsweetvirgo]

Eve: Bottling up negative emotions is bad for your health, so you shouldn't do it.

Seto: I know, that's why I bottle up all my emotions, both positive and negative, so it cancels out.

Eve: Th-that's not how that works-

Actually, the two are pretty open with each other.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

people that tell me “i don’t understand what is so difficult about your life, you have limbs and you can do whatever you want to physically.. why do you make life so miserable?” i hope you never have to truly feel what i feel everyday or maybe you’d understand.. neurotypical people and people who use toxic positivity to try to make me “feel better” just know all you do is invalidate my feelings and make me feel like shit

[shippyo]

It's ok.