#keeping my hopes up but also trying not to be unrealistic so focusing on these other ones too

[pandora15]

i'm trying to keep a cool head and focus on prepping for technical interviews this week. I did one asynchronous one on friday and I have a live one (where you like. code in front of the interviewer) tomorrow, and then I'm planning to do another asynchronous one on wednesday and I'm just like "damn i'm just a girl why do i have to code under such anxious situations"

[glowettee]

✧˖° the identity shift: start thinking like an A+ student

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💭 before you even touch your notes, before you highlight a single word, before you drown in exam stress. change how you think about yourself.

most people study with the mindset of “i hope i do well” instead of “i am the kind of person who excels.” and that’s the difference. if you want to start acing your exams, your first step isn’t flashcards or practice tests. it’s shifting your identity. because an A+ student doesn’t just work hard, they think, act, and exist differently.

this is the second post to the final exam survival series. the last post, was focused on how to actually enjoy learning and using that to motivate yourself for school. this post will focus on shifting your identify, which can also work great for manifesting and law of attraction/assumption. i will try to give you the best possible tips to help you shift your mindset to already have the A+ mentality. love you guys <3 - mindy

disclaimer: please don't think i expect you to be perfect, i use 'A+ student' as a way to help you when using loa or manifesting. YOU ARE A HUMAN; DO NOT THINK YOU NEED TO MEET STANDARDS TO BE PERFECT! i love you all and wanted to make sure you know i am NOT setting an unrealistic standard. this post is to help you with manifesting good grades and to inspire you. not for toxic motivation or unrealistic standard setting. - mindy

✧˖° ➼ 01. stop identifying as “bad at studying”

you will never outperform the identity you attach to yourself. if you keep telling yourself: ➝ “i suck at this subject.”➝ “i’ve never been good at exams.”➝ “i’m just not a naturally smart person.”

then you’ll stay stuck. why? because your brain is wired to prove yourself right. but when you shift to: ➝ “i am fully capable of mastering this material.”➝ “i am becoming an A+ student.”➝ “i study in a way that works for me.”

your actions start aligning with that belief. the way you approach studying changes. and suddenly? you’re not “bad at it” anymore.

✧ homework: rewrite every negative academic belief you’ve held about yourself into a new, empowering one. read them before every study session.

✧˖° ➼ 02. start acting like an A+ student right now

not when you feel “ready.” not when you’re already good at the subject. right now.

✨ an A+ student doesn’t: • cram the night before and hope for the best • avoid studying because it feels overwhelming • rely on last-minute motivation to get things done

✨ an A+ student does: • plan their study sessions like an actual strategy • break down material into small, digestible pieces • work consistently, even when they don’t “feel like it”

✧ homework: take one small action today that your A+ student self would take. even if it’s just organizing your study space or making a realistic revision schedule.

✧˖° ➼ 03. use strategic learning, not just memorization

most students study to remember. A+ students study to understand. if you keep forcing yourself to memorize facts with no deeper connection, you’re setting yourself up for forgetting everything under pressure.

🖇 better study strategies:• teach the material → pretend you're tutoring someone who knows nothing about it. if you can explain it simply, you truly understand it. • apply what you learn → don’t just read about a formula, actually use it in practice questions. don’t just memorize historical dates, understand their impact. • switch up your methods → your brain loves novelty. use diagrams, study cards, summarization, and active recall instead of just rereading notes.

✧ homework: find one concept you’ve been struggling with and try teaching it to yourself out loud as if you were giving a TED talk.

✧˖° ➼ 04. start believing you deserve high grades

subconsciously, a lot of people don’t actually believe they’re the kind of person who gets top marks. they might think: ❝ i’ve never been a straight-A student, so why start now? ❞ ❝ my past grades weren’t amazing, i probably won’t do much better. ❞

but what if you let yourself believe otherwise? what if you fully accepted that you deserve to succeed just as much as anyone else? because you do. and the moment you believe that, you start acting in ways that make it true.

✧ homework: visualize yourself receiving your dream grade. feel the confidence of knowing you earned it. then ask yourself: what would my future self tell me to start doing right now?

✧˖° ➼ 05. control your environment like a top student

your surroundings play a huge role in your academic identity. A+ students set themselves up for success by designing an environment that makes focus effortless.

🖇 small shifts that make a huge difference: • keep your study space clean & minimal (no distractions) • use a dedicated study playlist to trigger focus mode • have a go-to beverage (tea, coffee, water) to make studying feel like a ritual • wear comfortable but put-together clothes to signal to your brain that it’s time to work • remove your phone from your workspace entirely (or use app blockers)

✧ homework: make one intentional change to your study environment today. observe how it affects your focus.

✧˖° ➼ 06. stop waiting for motivation

A+ students know that motivation is fleeting. they don’t rely on feeling “in the mood” to study. instead, they: ➝ create systems (set study times, routines) ➝ make studying automatic (habit, not a debate) ➝ use momentum (just start. five minutes can turn into an hour)

✧ homework: set a 10-minute timer and study right now. no overthinking, no debating. just start.

✧˖° mindy’s personal tips

💌 your identity is everything. if you don’t believe you’re an A+ student yet, start acting like it anyway. your mindset will catch up. 💌 make studying feel aesthetic. wear cute study outfits, light a candle, make it a whole vibe. enjoyable studying = effective studying. 💌 romanticize the glow-up. your academic transformation is a story. imagine looking back and realizing this was the moment everything changed. 💌 you are not behind. you can reinvent yourself as a top student at any time. even now. even today.

xoxo mindy

[tchai-castor]

So about my upcoming webcomic Athena's Champions

As some of you might know I'm working on a webcomic about Odyssues and Diomedes. It will mainly focus on the Trojan war, I'm going to try to reconstruct the Trojan War cycle with the bits and pieces that are available, the parts in between I'll just make up myself and hope it still feels somewhat accurate.

It's not going very fast so for the people that are interested, please be patient. The reason why it's not going very fast is because I keep changing the chapters, because I want it to be something I'll be proud of. Especially the first chapter has been rewritten at least 15 times. On top of that I'm not a big fan of the webcomic format, especially the white spaces really annoy me, so I wanted to make some special pannels with decoration around it, and I also want it to be decently colored. So there's a lot of work that goes into making this, so it will take some time. The problem I had with rewriting (and redrawing) the first chapter over and over again have been passed down to the next chapters. I had rough sketches for the next two chapters completely drawn out with text, but I decided that I don't like them anymore and I'm working on new ones.

With this post I wanted to tell you what you could expect from this webcomic. Once I have finished the 6 first chapters, I'll put them online (don't know where yet, if anyone has recommendations feel free to share) and then it will probably take a while to make the other chapters. The first 6 chapters will be:

Chapter 1: Embassy to Troy

Chapter 2: Gathering allies: Crete

Chapter 3: Gathering allies: Skyros (might be split into two chapters)

Chapter 4: Egypt

Chapter 5: Council in Argos

Chapter 6: Home (might also besplit into 2 chapters, or even more, this is supposed to show the home context of the heroes and their families, I want to pay extra attention to this, since the webcomic focuses mainly on the war endeavors of the men, their families will get less attention, so I think this is important)

The scripts of these chapters have somewhat been written down (I don't like to work with tight scripts, they stress me out). After this there will be the first council at Aulis, the failed mission to Mysia and then again a home depiction. After that the real war starts.

It's my intention to also make a sequel encluding what happens in the Odyssey, the travels of Diomedes and the Aeneid, but judging from the current pace I have in making these, I assume this will be as fast as Odysseus trying to reach home. I hope not, but I've been working on this for 3 years now and I kept changing everything, so it's actually not that unrealistic. Let's hope it's faster though.

[nyoomerr]

Nyoomer I’m thinking of starting my own Fic, what tips do you have for me? 💪🫶🫶

do whatever you want forever 🫵 💥 ‼

and i mean it!! i say this every time y'all ask me for fic writing tips, but you're doing this for fun! the number one most important thing is that you make whatever you personally want; if any of my writing tips - or the tips you see from others online - don't vibe with you, then just ignore them, even if it means writing in a way that other people call "wrong" or whatever. it isn't wrong if it makes you happy!

that being said, here's some tips that work for me personally, put under the cut since it's a bit of a text heavy post -

if you want to put a character in a Situation but feel like it might be unrealistic or OOC for that character to act in that way, you don't necessarily have to give up on the situation or think about how to change the situation to match the character's personality. instead, think about what might have to happen to the character in order for them to change to match the situation. example: normally Character A would not risk their life for Character B. but what if Character A owed Character B their life? what if Character A had just suffered a massive loss that made them take on some self destructive tendencies? what kind of mental state would Character A have to be in to risk their life when they normally wouldn't?

if something isn't fun for you to write, don't bother writing it, because chances are it won't be fun to read either. think about how you can communicate the same information without writing out the full scene, or if you even need to communicate the information at all. example: if you're slogging through a scene describing how a character gets from Point A to Point B, step back and consider if it's important that the readers know exactly how it happened, or only that it did happen. if you're trying to communicate that the journey was difficult, would it be effective to skip to Point B and then focus on how worn out or emotionally distraught your character is now that they're there?

when you plan out a scene, keep in mind what the characters should be getting out of it, whether that's information, a problem to solve, or a change in the character's world view/relationships. this will help keep the scene focused and character driven, which - personally - i find most enjoyable. example: if this is a scene that is meant to simply deliver information to the characters, then you can figure out the specifics of your scene by asking: who would this character trust to deliver the information? if it's not information that would normally incite an emotional response, can you change that based on context?

i hope those help a bit!! i also wrote some more general writing tips here in the past, and some tips on getting the motivation to finish/post fics here. i'm also happy to give tips on specific things if you ask!

i'm always excited to see another cook in the kitchen, so GOOD LUCK AND KICK BUTT !! 💥💥

[andromeda-nova-writing]

4. Are you expecting to find love?

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Ayato’s quick thinking could be considered a blessing or a curse. Saving a childhood friend from being forced into an arranged marriage was one such incident. At least there was plenty of help in deceiving a country that this was a marriage of love instead of convenience. A reputation must be upheld after all.

Dear Mama,

I must thank you for sending the script for my favorite show. I’ve been reading it before bed. Okay, it is more of making a translation so I may share it with Ayato. He had made fun of me when explaining the show to him before saying that the story was unrealistic. I told him it was something that I wished my love life could have been like. One would have hoped that by the time I would be getting married, I wouldn’t wish for another man to be in my life one day.

Even though I do wish for a romance one day, this isn’t all too bad. I've been given an apology of padisarahs for even taking away my chance at love for the time being. The public isn’t to know this isn’t real, so much of the jewelry I have worn of late has belonged to his mother. Sometimes I fear we have already done too well at tricking the public. I��ve been suggested to try out things only a lover would do by well-meaning but nosey individuals. End me.

I know you said for me to try talking to my father alone to help figure out what is going on, but I haven’t seen him or my grandpa since that day. It’s hard to face him knowing that he gave up a chance for me to find love long before I was born, and any time he has had to get to know me still hasn't convinced him to fight for me. If anything, my mouth may get me more in trouble. My hands had already led me to almost being blackmailed to marry a stranger. If I act out my thoughts, there may be no saving my reputation.

Any time I’ve talked with Ayato as of late has been focused on our trickery. I can’t wait for this to blow over so things may return to normal. It doesn’t help that Ayaka has also joined in on making sure our lie feels real, but the way she has gone about it feels different. I can’t put a pin on why that is as of yet. Thoma is still a comfort as I deal with my grandpa’s dislike of my Sumerian side. He hasn’t said anything outright, but it's been easy to tell after he demanded I be wed. Thoma hasn’t heard the exact same things I have, but it’s been good to have someone who personally gets it. 

Honestly, even though it isn’t real, I think having to lie to the public is getting to me a bit. Not so much in a moral sense, given the circumstances, it would be quite understandable. It’s just tiring having to put on an act in front of others. Maybe all those shows you took me to after all my tests have taught me something about acting. Maybe in another life, I would be an actress.

I miss our outings. I miss you dearly. There are some days when I wish I had never left you, but I do enjoy my new life here. Have you seen any of my friends running around the desert? Yes, I know they live in the city, but I must ask. 

How’s Candace doing? Her family? I’ve written to her as well but she gets back slowly. I assume she is busy as usual. I at least know she’s running around the desert keeping home safe. 

Y/N tapped the back of her pen against her desk before looking at the rain out of the window. She was to meet with Ayaka soon to discuss what she wished for this wedding, so planning could begin. It wasn’t exactly something she was excited to do, but Ayaka wasn’t letting either of them put this off any longer.

 It was a bit annoying that even though Ayato had found her a way out of an arranged marriage, she just needed to talk about something other than this marriage with him. Their talks were just tiring to have at the moment. In public, any speaking would be done with a layer of acting. While in private, it would be about making sure that things they had said about their “relationship” were on the same page. She just needed something normal, away from the public, and to just focus on anything else.

The knock at her door brought Y/N out of her thoughts and away from writing. Peaking out the window, she could see Ayaka hiding underneath an umbrella held by Thoma, trying to keep the two of them dry. Y/N moved quickly, opening the door to let the two in to get them out of the rain. 

“I thought you were supposed to be here later. It’s a whole hour earlier.” She questioned. 

“We were already in town. I hope it's okay that I’m early.” Ayaka apologized. “I fear it may begin to thunder soon. It was better to be here early than not at all.”

“Of course. Shall I get a pot of tea ready? My mother sent my favorite over. It’s quite lonely drinking it by myself.”

“Let me. You both have much to discuss.” Thoma offered as he closed the umbrella before placing it in the drying rack that was underneath the roof.

“No, you two just got in from the rain. Go dry off while I get it started. You two are guests here.” At least doing the simple task of preparing tea would make things feel a bit normal for her.

He closed the door before asking, “Are you sure?”

“Yes. You both remember where the linen closet and bathroom are?”

Ayaka nodded a yes. “If it’s not an issue, are there any snacks to be had as well?”

“Oh, of course. I could go cut up some fruit. Just meet me in the living room once you’re both done drying off.” Y/N sent the two of them off as she made her way to prepare the fruit and tea.

“Didn’t you just eat?” Thoma asked in a hushed tone.

“I just want to take a small peek at her desk. She writes often. Maybe she’s written about how she feels.” Ayaka reasoned, matching Thoma’s volume before walking down the small hallway.

“Who’s to say you can read it?” Disappointment was fully on display as he whispered. 

She frowned. “I have to do something. They aren’t exactly the easiest to get to open up about their feelings towards this situation.”

“My lady, she has gone on nonstop about how she’s not happy with this. I think she is wearing her heart on her sleeve here. Next, you'll tell me you've gone through your brother's desk as well?”

Ayaka gave an innocent smile at him before grabbing a towel out of the linen closet.

“Ayaka!” Thoma chastised. 

“It’s not like I found anything, and I wouldn’t have gotten in trouble.”

“That’s not the point. You are invading their privacy and betraying their trust to find something that isn’t there.” The voice of reason spoke as he took a towel to dry off his hair. “I wouldn’t have agreed to help on this if I knew this is what you were going to do.”

“I won’t look at her desk then.” She promised. “How do you suggest we push them forward since sending them to a festival was a failure?”

Thoma looked around at the photos hanging around the hallway before his eyes landed on one of Y/N and Ayato when they were kids at the beach, smiling at the kamera as they built a sand castle. “Isn’t this at the beach house?” He asked, trying to change the topic.

“It’s been a while since we went together.” She looked further at the background of the photo. “Look, I’m here too.” In the corner of the image, she could see herself being held by her mother.

It was still a bit odd that, despite not knowing Y/N until her adult years, Ayaka had already met her when she was just a baby. It had always been her and her brother. It wasn’t till she was seven that she would meet Thoma, who felt like another sibling at times. She had only known Y/N through what Ayato had spoken about from letters sent and the past two years. Even though Y/N had already known her, it felt like their first meeting was two years ago.

Ayaka peeked out the window of Komore Tea House. It was cracked slightly open so she could listen to the people outside. An older man with hair turning gray was standing outside with a woman who looked to be of Sumerian descent. 

“Are you sure this is fancy enough for a meeting with Lord Kamisato?” The man asked. “I still think it would have been better for you to be in a Kimono.”

“I don’t have one yet, Grandpa. Even then, I think I would need more than a day to figure out how to wear it again. All I remember is which way to wear it to not be dressed as the dead. This is plenty fancy enough.” She proudly gestured to the clothes she wore. “I’m just meeting an old friend.”

“Who I must remind you is now the leader of the Kamisato Clan, the Yashiro Commissioner, and in charge of the Shuumatsuban.” He spoke quietly of the open secret of those of a higher class in the nation. “That man is not the same boy from those calligraphy classes you were placed in.” Her Grandpa placed a hand on her shoulder protectively. “Are you sure you don’t want me to go with you? It could be dangerous if you were to accidentally offend him. I would prefer you didn’t meet with him alone.”

“He is bringing his sister as well, so we won’t be alone. It’s just going to be catching up about life over dinner. I promise everything will be okay. You have helped me plenty by walking me over here. I’ll be late if I stand out here talking to you any more over this.” She stepped away from his touch to move closer to the door. “If it makes you feel better, I'll stop by your house around 9. If I'm not there within 30 minutes, then you can worry about me.”

Ayaka gently closed the window before moving away from it and walking back towards where her brother had been pacing as he read through some papers. “I think your friend is outside.”

“Is she now? Were you spying through the window again?”

“I accidentally made a habit of it during the vision hunt decree. The country has only just begun to open up once more. Can you blame my curiosity?”

Ayato stopped his pacing with a laugh at her innocence of the world. He hoped it would never change. The ring of the bells on the door had caused them to look over. 

Y/N looked over at the two of them, confusion hitting her face as she looked over them. “Hello. By any chance, do you know what room the Kamisato clan is in? I have a dinner planned.”

Normally, Ayato would play a small prank on anyone who asked a question such as that. He stepped closer, holding out his hand to reintroduce himself. “Kamisato Ayato. It’s been a while, hasn’t it?”

Never had she seen her brother return a hug so fast. “I thought I was the tall one. Shrink back down.” The woman joked as she leaned further into the tight hug. “I've missed you.”

“I as well. I remember your hair being covered in curls.”

She pulled out of the hug. “I took a hot comb to my hair. It's not permanent, but it's nice to do on occasion.” She leaned her head over, looking at Ayaka. “The last time I saw you, you were just a baby. I really did miss a lot.”

“Kamisato Ayaka. I'm delighted to make your acquaintance.” She spoke politely as ever.

Y/N laughed. “I guess we are all saying our full government names today despite knowing each other.” She spoke before giving her own. Once in Inazuman and another in Sumerian. “I've gotten quite used to the name my mother has given me. I may be a bit slower responding to my Inazuman name. It still feels a bit weird having been so long.”

“You've always signed your letters with both. Which do you prefer I use?” Ayato asked.

“Sumerian. It's what's on most of my paperwork, and it's the one that brings me the most joy to hear.”

Ayaka thanked Y/N for the tea and fruit. “I can see why this tea is your favorite.” 

“Some of my friends and I in the Akademiya would spend our weeks working on projects. The best way to have a little fun with the work was to figure out what drinks were the best in the city. Every day we would find a new juice, coffee, or tea. And this is what ended up being my favorite. They joked it was a Y/N special whenever I brought it out alongside some charcoal-baked Ajilenakh cakes. The flavors would balance out perfectly.” She explained as she got comfortable on the chair across from where the two of them sat on the couch.

“I would love to try it someday.”

“If you know the recipe, I could look for the ingredients so we could try making it one day.” Thoma offered.

“I’ll have to get my uncle to send me his recipe. He always made the best food. I hope I even remember how to do the steps he showed me, it’s been so long. It doesn’t help that I’ve done less cooking overall since moving here.” She explained before taking a sip of her tea.

“You should have him send more than just that one recipe,” Ayaka suggested. “I would still like to try more food that you grew up with.”

“As long as we all agree to lock Ayato out of the kitchen.” It was a joke, but everyone in the room knew how serious a request that was.

“We’ll use his schedule against him,” Thoma suggested, trying to save himself. There were too many times he had Savory Mizu Manjuu due to Ayato confusing the salt and the sugar. It was to the point of questioning if he was confusing the ingredients.

“I have no idea how you keep falling for his tricks. I just feel bad for you over the things you’ve tried.” 

“It’s not that bad. It keeps me on my toes at least.” Thoma laughed.

“You know he tried ordering me a milk tea that had every flavor combined the other day.”

Ayaka laughed. “Why would he do that?”

“I spoke in a different tongue. All I said was a number, but that was enough for my little prank to backfire on me. I wasn’t even able to keep the bit going before I had to save myself.” Y/N shook her before placing her cup down. “I pity whoever falls for him. He’s quite the workaholic with such a strange taste in how food is to be prepared.”

Ayaka knew what she was saying was supposed to be a joke about the future after Y/N was free from the marriage, but still, it didn’t sit right. “We should start discussing the wedding.”

The life drained from Y/N’s face, her smile dropping to a frown. “Are you sure you can’t plan this without me?”

“I’m sorry. It’s just better to plan this out to help keep you out of jail. Have you heard from your grandpa or father as of late?”

“No. I saw my father in passing, but he couldn’t even look me in the eye. What a joke! You know, if I knew they were gonna act like this, I would have called his bluff. Perhaps this was unnecessary.”

“Not any contact with you at all?” It confused Thoma.

“Yes. I don't get it. If he wanted nothing to do with me, he should have started there.”

“What about the papers? Is there anything said about you in there?” Ayaka asked.

“No. It's just regular news. It’s almost too quiet, like something is bound to happen soon. But maybe that’s just me being paranoid. Am I being paranoid? Should I be paranoid?” Y/N asked.

“Just don’t overthink it.” Thoma offered advice. 

“That would probably be for the best.” It was simple, but something that didn’t hurt to be heard as a reminder.

Ayaka was happy to leave soon. Trying to plan with Y/N was more like pulling teeth. She was a master of subject changing. It would be a miracle if anything else were to get planned. Maybe Yoimiya was just wrong, and they really were just using this as a means to an end.

The notes in her hand were so bare in comparison to the other times she had helped in planning weddings.

Flowers- Parisarahs 

Colors- match the flower

Season- whenever we are forced to 

This was just sad to even glance at. Never had she seen someone care so little for a wedding. It was still more than what she had written down earlier when talking with Ayato.

Figure out where Mom and Dad had their wedding at. 

It didn’t help that his reasoning for that was to continue tricking the public that they were a loving couple. It would be easier if they were just a loving couple. All of this just so she wouldn’t have to marry a stranger. At least an arranged marriage made sense in the lack of willingness to plan.

“I don’t know if this is rude to ask, but was there anyone in Sumeru that you loved?” Ayaka asked. Thoma wouldn’t be able to stop her question with him in the kitchen, cleaning up the dishes they used.

“At one point, but we just figured we worked better as friends. I think if I told him what was going on, he would laugh at me.” She spoke with a laugh. “I doubt he would even step up to do what your brother has done. Perhaps my own emotions on the situation remain in the way. But I sincerely appreciate him helping me. Maybe this could be something we can all laugh about one day. Till then, it's just a weight on my shoulders. I pray you never have to go through anything like this ever. Please let whoever you marry be out of love.”

“You sound like my brother.” 

“Don't say that. I'm being serious. All because I stay focused on work and learning doesn't mean I don't dream of falling in love.”

“You don’t talk about it much.” Ayaka reminded, hoping that Y/N would take it as a chance to say what she wanted in a relationship.

“There were other more important things to talk about. Even then, I find it more fun to focus on catching up. Don't you understand how weird it is that the last time I saw you that you were just a baby? I held you!”

“It's still a bit weird for me as well. It's rare to see my brother so comfortable around someone outside of the clan.” Even more so outside of herself and Thoma.

“I'm just glad to be a shoulder to lean on. Having those you trust is just comforting. It's at least what got me through my schooling. I know it's not the same, but I wish to be some sense of comfort.”

“I’m just glad there’s another person who will remind him to take a break.”

“I only see what he lets me. Is he really that bad at taking a break?” She had known he was work-focused, but with her the same, she had no clue of how focused on his work Ayato could be.

“Yes.” Thoma had finished up cleaning, finally returning to the living room. He had heard the question on the walk into the room. It brought a laugh out of Ayaka.

“Maybe some sort of break or vacation is in order. When was the last time that happened?” Y/N asked slightly worried for her friend, despite very much being in the same boat.

Ayaka thought back. “Our trip to Fontaine was more of a work vacation.” Now, what Y/N had suggested was a great idea. After looking around at the photos she had up on her walls earlier, Ayaka already had a place in mind. “If I do get a plan together, would you want to come?”

“That would depend on the details. I would still have to take off from work.”

“Of course. Shall we try again later, hopefully with both of you to try and plan this out?” Ayaka asked.

Y/N looked at Thoma for help. All he did was shake his head while giving an apologetic frown. A sigh left her mouth before she spoke. “If it is necessary.”

“It is.” She stood before looking over at Thoma. “We should leave before the rain returns.”

With enough distance away after saying their goodbyes to Y/N, Thoma looked over, seeing the wheels turning in Ayaka’s head. “What are you thinking?”

“Do you think that a vacation would be enough to at least make one of them acknowledge anything under the surface?”

“A vacation, where exactly?”

“Wouldn’t it be nice to enjoy time at the beach before it gets too cold?”

“It has been storming a lot more lately. What’s to say they just don’t end up stuck in the beach house the entire time?”

“The goal is to get them to spend more time together without work in the way. Do you think the weather would ruin them spending time together?”

“It shouldn’t as long as it’s something they both want to do.”

“It looks like you have an idea as well.”

Thoma shrugged. “Just a few.” Though Ayaka had been determined to figure out if they had any hidden feelings, he was beginning to question how far this would go. What point in meddling in their friendship would be too far?

-

“Ayaka, what’s this that you added to my schedule?” Ayato asked after looking around the estate for her. He had found her in the courtyard, happily plucking the strings on her koto with the three picks in her right hand. Had he heard the instrument, he would have started his search in this part of the estate instead.

She paused the melody that she was playing, losing track of the song. “When was the last time you took a break, brother?”

He paused in recollection, almost speaking several times, but his memory caught up before he could claim something as a break.

“Don't you think a trip to the beach is in order? At least before the season passes us by?”

“Is this your way of asking now?” He hoped it wasn’t something she had picked up from Yoimiya. Ayaka had always asked in advance for things like this. Her just throwing it on his schedule like this had taken him by surprise. 

“It’s been a bit of a struggle just to speak as of late. I think most of our conversations have been through notes. I wasn’t even sure if you would get the chance to read them. It hasn’t helped that you’ve been taking most of your meals in your office when you get home. When else could I have asked you?” If anything, that just proved her point more on why this was needed. “Will you at least consider keeping it scheduled?”

“If you want a trip to the beach, I won’t stop you. Take Thoma with you, and invite a friend. Just go have fun.” He rejected. Her being with friends on the family’s beach home on the shores of Watasumi would bring him comfort, knowing she wouldn’t be alone as she had her fun. His work was in the way of having fun as a family but him not being able to join was no reason for her to not go.

Ayaka’s face fell into a frown. “You’ll burn yourself out. Even Y/N said you could use a break.”

He sighed. “Is everyone against me on this? I don’t look that exhausted.”

“How much sleep did you get last night?” 

“... point taken.”

“So you will join us all for a few days at the beach?” She asked again with a bit of hope.

“Who is ‘all of us’?”

“Well, Thoma is going to make sure all our stuff gets sent off at the docks before meeting Yoimiya and me at her family’s shop in the morning to help with a big order that she has to finish preparing. She isn’t sure how long it will take, but the three of us will be leaving for Watasumi the moment she’s free.” It was risky to mention that Yoimiya would be joining them. She hoped that with it already being later in the day, he would be just tired enough not to pick up on the few holes in her plan.

“Just have a guard inform me when you’re ready, and I’ll make my way over for the boat ride.”

“Then you’ll leave Y/N there at the beach by herself till we get there. I think she was looking forward to not having to think about the engagement and putting on an act for the public. Even if it’s just for a few days. It would be nice to enjoy some normalcy again. She said she would be able to get a ride over early. With her being close to the docks, I wouldn’t be surprised if she makes it there before our luggage.” Ayaka had explained, doing her best to push Ayato into wanting to leave earlier.

If Ayato was aware of his sister’s plans, there was no acknowledgment of what was going on. He had taken her at face value. It’s not like there was ever a reason to question her intentions. That was his sweet, innocent little sister who could never do wrong in his eyes.

Her eyes lit up. “You’re considering it, aren’t you?”

“I guess a break wouldn’t hurt.”

To Ayato, her joy of his agreement looked like any other time she successfully convinced him to take a break. At least part of her plan had begun to work. Hopefully, after watching her brother all these years, she had learned enough to pull this off. Perhaps a bit dramatic in her thinking, but it was needed if her brother was going to keep treating this as an excuse to only focus on work. He deserved love and to be in love.

-

Thoma and Ayaka stood inside with Yoimiya after her dad had gone outside to enjoy the sun. It was the day of the vacation. In reality, there was nothing that Yoimiya had to get done. Ayaka had flat-out lied to her brother's face. 

“You confirmed that Y/N is showing up?” Ayaka asked.

Thoma nodded yes. He had confirmed with the Shuumatsuban that Y/N had left for the docks early that morning. “She even let some of the guards help with her bags. Your brother?”

“He was finishing up the last of some paperwork and said he would be on the way,” Ayaka told him of her morning. “And the beach house?”

“I know you want them to get together, but are you sure it's okay that I had the other servants set up for them to share a room?” Thoma asked. It was a part of her that he was unsure about, despite constant reassurance that it would be fine.

“Ayaka said that they are tricking the public. I am the public. The only reason I know is because Ayaka told me.” Yoimiya reminded them. “I could always question why they don't want to share a room if they try to fight it.”

“Perfect!” Thoma shook his head as Ayaka continued. “I do think that with you around, they'll be comfortable still, but know they have to keep some sort of act.” She explained the reasoning for inviting Yoimiya. The bonus of this is that they would also get a chance to hang out.

“That I agree with, but you are springing this on them. You did tell him that Yoimiya is coming. What if he just tells her what’s going on?” Thoma worried.

Yoimiya held up a bag that she picked from a table. “It’s why I’m bringing desserts and sparklers to celebrate. He still has a sweet tooth, right?” Thoma’s question had been glossed over. Any concerns were being ignored. 

“They both do. Anytime she’s over, they both always find something sweet to snack on together.” Ayaka explained.

“They share snacks? That’s actually kind of cute.”

Thoma and Ayaka looked over at each other before laughing and shaking their heads. The number of times they have seen the two turn a plate of fruit into a contest of who could catch the most in their mouths. Given the chance, they would just revert to acting like kids for a minute before laughing at their behavior.

“Do I want to know?” Yoimiya questioned.

“You’ll probably see at some point during the trip. It is nice to see them so relaxed.” Thoma spoke before changing the subject. “So, how long till we leave to join them? I do know it’s supposed to rain later.”

Ayaka went quiet. Her part of the plan was finally being revealed to her fellow matchmakers.

His eyes widen. “My lady, how long?”

“I just figured we would let ourselves get caught in the rain and have to postpone the trip for when the skies clear. They’ll be fine. I’m sure they would expect us there first thing in the morning anyway.”

That would be all day, all night, and some of the next day, knowing how the rain has been going. Thoma put his head in his hands questioning what have they done before anything had even begun to happen.

Next 5. Anybody That You Would Lie For?

Taglist: @woofwoofwolf @randomnatics @milkstore @potato87123 @useless-potatho

Note: I'm back from a one-week break that was definitely needed. Shopping for clothes just to be a guest at a wedding is tiring. It was a busy week in general, from a family member having a birthday, shopping, getting a haircut, and well attending a wedding. I think I spent way too much time out of the house last week. I just want to lay on the floor. Hope yall didn't mind the break too much. I'm just placing this down here to keep the top clean for consistency's sake lol

[klauw22]

Do you have any more ideas for D16 and Elita? I'm so curious about them together thanks to you ^^

strap in cus while im still waiting to get my hands on their figs ive been thinking abt them........... too much

tfone yuri au deelita headcanons

i imagine them to have a complicated boss-worker relationship. while d16 works in the mines as usual she cant help but sneak appreciative glances at elita. she is a strong leader, responsible and determined but also very cute in ds eyes. all the qualities d admires in a bot. orion knowing d too well teases her for having such an unrealistic crush, even joking to reveal ds feelings to elita.

because of this d16 tries very hard to reach the top ranks in the mines, not only to impress her boss but also becuase in ds mind that would bring them closer, in a sense. at least in ranks.

while d pines heavily from a distance, never having the guts to actually say something, elita is completely unaware of all this. she simply assumes d16 is a hard worker by nature, admiring her drive. elita also views d as a close friend at most, but nothing more.

elita is also cogged in this au bcs very tall femmes are my favourite flavour (something something sentinel rewarded her with a cog for her great work idk this isnt the point either way d is a shorter butch who both literally and figuratively looks up to elita)

d16s feelings eventually get so deep and so bad for the pink femme that she finally forces herself to try flirting with her. wanting to be more than just coworkers or friends. but elita being too busy and too focused on making sure nothing goes wrong in the mines reads ds attempts as playful or friendly banter, sometimes even waving her off completely having other more important things to attend to. leaving ds spark crushed each time but not fully defeated.

orion hates seeing her best friend keep being overlooked like this but also knows theres nothing she can really do to help. even if she tried setting the two up elita is quite literally out of their league. no point in even trying.

d is so desperate for any kind of attention from elita that even a passing "good job" that isnt meant to mean much else or a pat on the shoulder will make d16s whole week. in the moment d16 will try and hide the effect elitas praise has on her, holding back from grinning like an idiot but later that same day will yap orions ear off about it, gushing all star struck at elitas small gestures which give d hope at something more potentially - or hopefully - sprouting in the future.

[us3rnam3-r3dact3d]

SWEETHEARTTTTTT THEYRE HEREEEEEE!!! ooohhhh I'm so excited they're one of my favorite listeners I can't wait to see them in action. I'm glad they're starting to see slivers of who darlin really is, or at least what they've been through,, more people are being made aware of quinn in a way that feels a lot more compassionate than the canon 😭😭 their circle is slowly but surely expanding!! I eat up the found family trope every. single. time.

and yess !!!! even if I don't like colm he's more than just a drunk deadbeat!!! give me what made him a detective!!! give me the fire, passion and dedication to his job that made him a gambling alcoholic and (perhaps) inadvertently made him abandon his young son!! LMFAO

I knew you were gonna make quinn crazy but holy shittttt seeing all of his offenses (that they know of iaauhshsvs) just laid out like that is so fucking wild, and it's not even that outlandish bc ppl like this really do exist.

I was imagining SH and colms convo in like a film noir setting,,,,augh,,, give me two rugged detectives who put their differences aside to track down a maniac and you've got a fan for life

"hey kiddo" SO DO I LOOOOOOK LIIIIIIKEEEE HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMM

the victims looking like tank,,,,, ooohhgg the victims looking like tank,,, I'm still unwell

iam So Scared and So Excited

guys,,,,, we're really getting into it now buckle up bitches

-🦀

ME TOOOOOOOO I love Sweetheart so much. Truly one of my fave listeners. They mean so much to me frfr. They’re gonna get some cool action in this story, don’t you worry Crab Anon. Sweetheart is an observant, people-centric person. That is why they couldn't be a cop in the long term. That is why they took care of the kid who robbed Geordi's instead of turning him in. That is why they are perfect for this situation. They're more concerned with the person being affected by Quinn than any other factor. I wanted to make sure that more of the info that's shared about Quinn is in Darlin's control than it was in canon. I established early in the story that the 10-19 has a secretive, protective air about them when it comes to Darlin'. David hadn't even told Angel their name for fuck's sake. I wanted to honor that established dynamic as the story moved on. Darlin's privacy, especially when it comes to the situations in which they have been victimized, is paramount.

I also don't love Colm! When I was first conceptualizing him, I was very much "fuck this guy forever." It was actually the wonderful @romirola who helped me establish a bit further his complex relationships with addiction, his sense of duty, and Milo. I've always endeavored in this story to complexity and deepen my interpretation of the characters that have been set out in front of us. Colm is a perfect example of that. I am personally very very anti-cop and American justice system, and Sweetheart and Colm are planned to be parallels that discuss the issues in the legal system both for those that participate in it and those that are affected and policed by it. This story is, of course, a 911-style procedural focused on first responders. That commentary is meant for a more Law and Order crime procedural (one that is preferably not blatant cop worship) which might come later on. We will get a bit more of that in this story, at the very least, so I hope that adds a nice layer for ya'll!

I try very hard to keep Quinn's crazy somewhere between the distant, unrealistic but theme-appropriate cruelty of his Redacted canon self with what we see in actual humans. There Are people like him out there in the world and it is scary as fuck. I am so glad that his actions aren't reading as corny or unrealistic for the world I'm building.

SO glad that the noir vibes came through!! That is THEIR genre, after all!

The way that that song has been on my Milo playlist since the moment it dropped dude.

The victims look like Tank. And Quinn is carving their tattoos into all of their faces. Killing them over and over again.

We're just having fun being goofy over here its all light and chill

[evangelineshifts]

Failed Shifting Attempt

Dude, I tried shifting literally all day. I took out time off so I had the whole day off and instead of doing it my way(doing random stuff till it feels like it’s working) I tried subliminals.

Worse mistake of my life.

I cracked, I got self conscious and worried that the reason I wasn’t shifting was because ‘I wasn’t doing it right’ since I didn’t have a method.

So I tried Reya’s subliminal(I only got to 27 minutes) and I wasn’t feeling anything that made me assume I was getting closer to my dr so I just stopped, I tried a different subliminal that was just sounds and I felt like i was getting a little close(I was trying to turn over in my dr and I could feel myself(?) getting pulled over but my physical body was ‘keeping me here’ like a coffin or smth so it felt like I was just getting ripped apart inside my body head first. I tried briefly doing my own thing but I stopped after like 2 minutes cause I was impatient.

So overall this entire day has been a fail attempt(never thought I’d say that) and now I’m kind of disappointed? After all my shifting attempts so far I’ve been relaxed, any ‘failed attempts have brushed off me like water. But today was so bad, it’s almost devastating. I feel burnt out or something, I feel like I’m out of energy. I’m never trying another shifting attempt like this again-🦭

I’m gonna try to get all the points in here but they’re not gonna necessarily be in order.

Okay abt you giving up bc you didn’t feel anything, I totally get that honestly I used to do that too but shifting can vary from attempt to attempt if I’m being honest. It can feel like a whirlwind and it can also feel like nothing at all so I’d just advise that when you feel nothing during an attempt try to ignore it cause you’re unintentionally focusing on your body/the process instead of being in your dr. Like a couple times I shifted I didn’t even realize I did until I was back in my cr, other times it felt like I was being sucked into a vortex and it would be unrealistic to try and ignore the feeling. I shifted all the same. Just this morning I shifted and I didn’t even realize. (I’ll make a separate post if anyone wants).

Subliminals work on the assumption that you think they’ll work. That’s why some subliminals work for some people and don’t for others. If they were some end all be all thing than one of those *WARNING SUPER POWERFUL SUBLIMINAL YOU WILL SHIFT IMMEDIATELY* subs would work for everyone but alas 🤷🏽‍♀️ they do not. Don’t beat yourself up too much over it. I honestly don’t even choose subliminals on how much they “work” for me anymore I just choose them on if the background will allow me to focus and relax and if the affs in the background help me out, great. They’re a tool not the machine, treat it as such.

There’s no right and wrong in shifting and honestly failure isn’t real as I’ve learned. No matter what came of your shift you gained SOMETHING from it. Whether it be more knowledge on how to go abt it next time or movement that you’ve just yet to see. Every attempt gets you closer and that’s a success in an of itself. Persist through it if it helps.

You did shift! Good job!

Morph that disappointment into something that happened during your shift maybe?

Chiron told you, you can’t go swim with your friends until your set chores were done. Gods that must be frustrating, you must really want to hangout with your friends. I get that.

You had an argument with someone and they just wouldn’t see your point and got angry with you? Shit what was it abt? Honestly I’d cry, I’m so sensitive when it comes to fights.

Don’t brush it off just maybe turn your focus towards something more progressive while still feeling those feelings. Tell yourself that you’ll deal with the upsetting issue the next time you go to your dr. Motivation and Affirmation that you’ve already shifted all in one. Yippee 🥳

But all in all, I hope you feel better Mimi ☹️ and I swear on my life I will remember to get to your asks in my inbox. I’ve been consistently sick for the longest time 😭😭 I’ve been around little kids and those bitches will cough straight into your mouth without remorse.

- 🍓

[dragonmasterhiccup]

(AHAHDG LADIES AND GENTLEMEN WE HAVE DONE ITTTTT!!!"!" YAAAAAA)

Her eyes practically begged to release the tears that threatened to spill, her vision blurred while she couldn't look up at him. "I never meant to hear any of this...if you just..." There she was again, trying to shift the blame onto someone else, pushing away the acceptance of what she sincerely felt out of pure fear and doubt. "You wasted your time falling for someone like me."

Unrealistic, that's what it all seemed to be; a breath of a hope that she would desperately cling to. Yet, she couldn't bring herself to admit it, all because of her guilt and the assumption that he deserved better. Better than her. Therefore, she responded coldly: "Yeah, well, not everything is achievable, Hiccup."

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'It hurts seeing me upset..?' Freya wanted to outrightly tell him that none of this was his fault, that he did nothing wrong, but her words were choked back down her throat once again. She couldn't speak. Why couldn't she speak? Why didn't he hate her? He plainly had every right to, so why didn't he? "You'd be better off hating me, you should consider it sometime.." She muttered dryly, avoiding his gaze.

Her whole world felt as though it were balancing off a thread, staggering to catch her breath as she trembled at the realization that she had actually shared what was on her heart. All without planning it. Freya instinctively retracted her hands away from Hiccup's when he grabbed them, her body in a fight or flight mode as she stumbled back against the wall. 'I need to leave, I need to--'

Once he asked her to stay, she froze in place, the ringing in her ears slowly decreasing as she focused on getting the proper amount of air in her lungs. 'With me..? But I hurt you..!' She kept her sight on the stony ground, speaking in an unconfident manner: "How can you...want to go down that path with someone who's constantly given you nothing but more pain..? Look what I've caused, Hiccup..! I-I, I'm selfish, really, for saying such terrible things to you..even when we first came to this island.."

That's when her eyes snapped up to meet his. "No, stop that. Don't go there again. Please. We both know very well it isn't your fault in the slightest." She absentmindedly went to poke his shoulder as she spoke her final word, quickly recoiling when she registered that she probably wasn't allowed to do that anymore.

There was no possible way of escaping this now. Freya had finally revealed what she felt, leaving no room to turn away and take back what was said. Everything her mouth uttered was true. And it also terrified her. It terrified her to know that she genuinely did love another person in such a way, especially with the least expected one according to her terms: Hiccup.

Hiccup Horrendous Haddock the third. Her old self would've shamed her entire existence for it...but she didn't care. She had to make things right, push through her regret and shame so he wouldn't have to carry the extra grief she threw on him. Hesitating to talk for a moment, she found the walls of the cave more easier to look at. "..I..I did disgustingly rude things to you, ever since we both came to this island..and I am so sorry. I know my apology can't fix it all, and it's probably as valuable as the wind at this point, but I can't go on allowing myself to love you after how I've treated you for.. basically my whole life...I shouldn't.."

Rambling once more, Freya now stared towards the ground, apprehension keeping her from making any form of eye contact. "You've been so considerate of how I feel while I just...left you in the dust..I did that to you even when we were younger, when I was angry with you for being the one to unite Berk with the dragons, a-and I'm pretty sure I shattered everything we've built up and I don't understand how or when I fell in love with you and--" Geez, she said it again.

"S-sorry I.." She lowered her head, not having the strength to lift it as she continued: "...You deserve much better than me." Slowly and tentatively, her eyes met his green ones, her heart twisting in a silent longing as she was brought into a faint daze. His eyes always seemed to do that to her.

Despite the guilt that plagued her mind, Freya acknowledged the small spark of determination reignited in her that proclaimed they could have this resolved. They could get through this – which led her to taking a step forward, gaze now unwavering from the future Chief's. "Do you still mean everything you said, Hiccup..?" She paused, the ongoing sound of the rain becoming less loud. Her heart pounded, but she finished with a slight tilt of her head, "...Then show it."

...

With that, the distance which was always ever present between them, finally closed. Freya Leif allowed her lips to meet his, her eyes fluttering shut as she brought herself closer to him - if that was even possible. She barely came to terms that she was crying, tears softly cascading down her cheeks as she earnestly hoped the kiss would speak on her behalf the words she couldn't physically say. It felt as if she was able to breath once again, the pit of despair lingering inside of her steadily beginning to disappear and get replaced by a blissful, ethereal, cloud that lifted her up above the previous emotions of dejection.

Also, she wasn't cold anymore. That, she definitely knew.

His own eyes brimming, he answered, "Because if we don't, we'd be lying to ourselves." He knew how she felt now, and if they just decided to give this up, they'd both be heartbroken. "I...I love you too much to let you put yourself through any more of this, this pain..."

"We barely knew each other, the first time we came here! You're not the only one at fault here either, I know I said some hurtful things to you...and for that, I am so sorry. But you?" He went to brush the stray hairs out of her face, drawing back before touching her as if she might crumble, "You've already apologized for the past, a few times. And I've told you, I hold none of that against you."

He tilted his head in confusion. It was his fault, wasn't it? He was the one who spoke of how he felt about her. Granted, he didn't know she could hear him, but still..."

Her words surprised him, but when she uttered the words 'allow myself to love you', his eyes widened, the corners of his mouth tugging upwards in a smile. The confession she spoke earlier hadn't fully hit him until now.

Freya loved him.

Freya Leif, was in love with him like how he was in love with her.

It happened so gradually to both of them.

Deserve someone better? Shaking his head vigorously, he quickly said in a breathless whisper, "No, no, Fey...there's no one else for me but you. Just...give me that chance, let's try this for real?"

He could see something changed in her eyes as he stared back into them. Was she going to do it? He hoped so, he really did. He loved her, he loved her with everything he had, and he couldn't keep it in any longer. Not after everything that unfolded today.

"Yes. Every word, Freya, I swear."

Show it?

His gaze became more determined as he reached up to cup her cheek. Closing the distance between them, he closed his eyes, kissing her.

His other arm wrapped around her waist, pulling her closer, and he held her with no intention of letting go.

He poured himself into that kiss, all the love for her that he'd kept pent up all this time, finally free to express it.

The hand he had cupping her cheek moved to her waist, and he lifted her off the ground a couple inches, setting her back down gently.

Toothless's jaw dropped open in surprise. He knew Hiccup had feelings for Freya, but he didn't expect the future chief to act upon it so strongly.

The heartbreak that wrenched through him earlier felt as if it was mending itself as he pulled away, reaching back up to cup her cheeks once more and wipe her tears away with his thumbs.

A little breathless, he asked softly, "Did that show it enough for you?" His green eyes searched hers as he still held her close.

"Can...can we try that whole... confession of our feelings again? Because, I love you, Freya Leif. With everything that I am, I love you."

[kimmiessimmies]

Simblr's New Year Resolutions of 2024

I was tagged by lovely Lana, @eljeebee. Thank you, my dear. ❤️

Now, I already did a post on plans yesterday, but that was only for the coming few months or so, plus way too long for anyone to properly read, so let's give this one a go (which will probably also be long, because let's face it, I'm simply not a woman of few words).

What's your resolution for your simblr?

I'm not actually sure? Sometimes, I envy the people who are able to keep their Simblr clean and organised by just posting actual relevant things. I often write rambles (I don't always think anyone truly reads), so the story might get a bit lost. But do I really want to change that? I don't know. Maybe my resolution for my Simblr could be to make things easier to find? But then again, if you want easy reading of my story and everything involved, one click takes you to my WordPress, which actually is a lot more organised.

I do have resolutions for the story itself and my writing, though! In 2024, I hope to expand my writing skills. Even though I write easily in English, the fact that it's not my native language still feels limiting at times. I often feel I could make a narrative or a dialogue richer if this was my mothertongue. I've been contemplating focussing solely on dialogue and image (like I did with the AU), but I find I sometimes want and need the narrative. I really do feel the need to sometimes give words to what a character is feeling or experiencing without them actually voicing it to another character. And precisely in that type of narrative, I see room for improvement.

As for ATOH, I hope to be able to do some other characters justice, too, aside from the ones I've been so focused on recently. Although, maybe it'll only get confusing if I bring too many characters in. So, balance will be the challenge, I guess. And, I hope to be able to bring everything together properly and in a way that makes sense. Especially now that I've changed my timeline for a third time...

What do you want from the Sims franchise?

I just hope TS3 remains playable at this point. My worst fear is my gaming laptop breaking down (I do everything on that thing, as there's no place in my house for an actual pc) and any new one being unsuitable to run TS3 with its very specific demands...

Other than that, I think it would be highly unrealistic to expect EA to develop or do anything specifically for TS3 at this point, and I have absolutely zero interest in straining my laptop even more by putting TS4 on it, which I know I won't play.

Any other new year's resolutions?

Oof... Umm... Well, I already wrote about how I'm struggling a lot at the moment (I'm at a very, very low point right now...) and as much as what I want for 2024 is to find my happy again, that seems like a huge ask at the moment. So I shall stick to the quote the Pinterest game brought up: "Never give up on the things that make you smile" and try to focus on the few things they do bring me joy. Which takes me back to the story, and now we've come full circle.

Tagging a few people who maybe haven't done this yet and might like to, @simsaralove , @sircesimblr, @sushiikinsss. Feel free to pass.

[shiningmystic]

Feedback: Hello. Thank u for the reading❤ so is it like him wanting a friendship with me first but also see the potential of seeing a future with me? The heirophant in reverse tells me that he isn't ready for commitment so I am confused about the 9 of cups energy haha. Btw, if u don't mind me asking, may I know which cards represent him and which cards represent me? I am still learning tarot so it would be helpful if I know which cards match which energy. I hope that makes sense and thank you❤

My readings are Free form and intuitive meaning I don’t use a spread, I just read the cards and see the story which can make it harder but that’s how I’ve always done it 😅 (I love making my life harder lmao). I mainly focused on his thoughts towards you with these cards so all them represent are his feelings towards you and your relationship.

The hierophant gave me a more unconventional vibe like if they go for you they know they may have to change the way they think and that may be exciting to them but also nerve wracking because there is risk in being rejected if they offend you or something. With free form readings you take the surrounding cards of the card you are trying to understand and see the overall feel of them together as a story. (as an example the hierophant reversed is surrounded by the two of swords reversed but beside the 9 of cups) The reason I believe the 9 of cups is talking about a fantasy is because of the moon card below it, while being surrounded by the hierophant reversed (the uncomfortable and exciting truth of having to change for you in some way like there beliefs) and the king of swords (the overthinking and wanting to approach you in the “right way” but not having the emotional capacity to follow through) is the energy I feel when trying to combine there meanings in a comprehensive story.

The cards I pulled are just a view of their thoughts from an energetic viewpoint which is why I said I can’t pinpoint their thoughts but I can get a general overview of them. I do recommend using tarot spreads at the beginning of learning but don’t rely on them because you want to eventually trust your intuition (which I still struggle with at times but free forming has helped me be more confident especially when people confirm it with feedback).

Free forming can be a bit overwhelming but fun to have to “crack the puzzle” and find combinations that make sense to you intuitively. (good luck by the way! That’s awesome that your learning to read tarot❤️) the only reason I don’t see them approaching you is there own “rigidity” with the king of swords; it is not the best card to get when you are talking about love because it’s all logic and know emotional understanding. When it is beside a water card like the 9 of cups it’s like being critical of those "dreams" and being to logical to fully open up to them (judging them most likely not hating them but finding them a bit unrealistic) or believing they don't matter unless there is logical evidence that their feelings won’t disappear and that there is a possibility for the relationship to happen.

My intuition tells me they fantasize being the emperor, someone who has the guts and confidence to approach you and handle whatever may come but I see there overthinking leads them to being to “airy” and ungrounded so a lot of there ideas stay in there head. Doesn’t mean they won’t approach you about this eventually but there is a probability as well that if they don't keep having this "feelings"/crush on you for long they will drop it and just stay friends. There taking things slow which is responsible of them and expected of the king of swords so eventually if these feelings continue they will approach you. The 2 of sword reversed though shows they debate on it so I really can't say what they will choose. I always say energy can change especially future energy so just enjoy your time with them and maybe drop hints of your interest so maybe that will spark them to do something.

Sorry it’s a lot to unpack but there's your sneak peak into my mind and how I connect to the cards. I see them as a story to connect like a puzzle needing some sorting. Hope this helps you on your tarot reading journey!

[arandomdai]

AMERICA HAS A PROBLEM:

The Red, White, and Blue Pill Analysis

Enjoy!!!

⬛Introduction⬛

The 3 acts are a reflection of America and the different types of people that live in it. Each act shows 3 sides of the nation: the truth, the illusions, and the optimistic. The Matrix did this with the red pill blue pill when Morpheus gives Neo a choice between red ( rejection of illusions) or blue (rejection of truth). Beyoncé wants to know which one will you choose or are we made up of all three pills. The third pill, or white pill, is when you choose to be hopeful for society. Like I said, she wants to know which pill will you take or is all 3 pills within you? Let's discuss further.

🔵The Blue Pill=RENAISSANCE🔵

🔵Think about it, She releases this album at a time where you listened to the News, the endless police brutality, and losing family members. People were tired of it and just wanted it to be over. She released this album first because she wanted us to dance and feel liberated. And to also add to this, she wanted us to escape and be free from what happened during the lockdown. She wanted us to escape reality for a bit. Now she wants us to grasp it, which leads me to my next point...

⚪The White Pill=COWBOY CARTER⚪

⚪When you have songs like AMERIICAN REQUIEM", "16 CARRIAGES", "AMEN", or ALLIGATOR TEARS, it tells you about the state of the world. We build a solid foundation here (as far as music and in history), and when you have people being history revisionists and try to claim what's ours, theirs, it becomes an ongoing occurrence that needs to be stopped. Then, you have songs like "JUST FOR FUN" and "YA YA", wanting change for the better and being hopeful for the future. Knowing that yes, we are going through challenges as a society, but we are keeping the faith that it is possible for a remodel of this nation. For it to be changed, we need to have difficult conversations about the issues at hand. When she said "we are the visuals", she wasn't wrong. Look at where we are now, it is up to us to come together (hence why she hides the stars on the album cover) and build anew (the reason why the flag is under construction).

🔴The Red Pill=BETTY BLACK🔴

🔴BETTY BLACK being a rock album that has red pill themes doesn't sound far fetched. Since Rock music is rebellious (due to not sounding like what seems "normal"), it gives you this raw and uncut feeling that you can't ignore (just like you can't ignore reality). Going back to my theory that BETTY BLACK might have romantic themes, I keep thinking about how I listed the idealized woman as one of the alleged inspirations for the album. I think it's possible that Beyoncé might touch on the unrealistic expectations of women, finding solace in a harsh society, and focusing on being the romantic hero (or being a rebel with a cause). BETTY BLACK could be so raw, uncut, harsh, and dark that the world will become shocked.

🟥 Thank you for reading my theroy. Can't wait to type more. You can ask me anything 🟥 - ☺️❤️

[irritablepoe]

i am tired and a bit sick and my head is cotton and the mental illness is hitting so i wish i could phrase this better or be more specific but

what are your favourite things about mu qing? or headcanons? i didn't appreciate him before but the tumblr artists are changing my mind at breakneck speed and now i need to talk about him

hi there :3 dw, i myself am brainfoggy af today so i hope i'm coherent lmao, thank you for asking though! :D

so mu qing is such an interesting character because, yes, ofc he's kind of an asshole but there's a lot to it imo. idk how far you are in the book, i actually know more about him than i could where i am right now (light novel 4) because i spoilered myself but i'll try to keep it spoiler free? (~book 2) i don't really have headcanons except that he was the one that probably wrote the ju yang poems about feng xin's dick. reason is that he can recite it from memory, which is so fucking funny fsdjhfksd

but his fav thing about him is probably that he's sooo fucking desperate to be liked and respected. like he grew up poor surrounded by the richest people ever ofc he'd have some kind of feeling of inferiority. that's always why he has to put up such defenses, it's because he was bullied and constantly put down. when xie lian is friendly to him he so wishes to be his friend but because of the severe class difference (that xie lian doesn't realise they have or he doesn't deem as so important) stands between them, especially from mu qing's perspective. he's imo incredibly jealous of feng xin who he thinks holds xie lian's respect more so than he does. all that together then makes him so blind to the fact that they are friends, or at least could be if he didn't push them away so much (which, again, is a defense he puts up).

he also is incredibly practical, which stands in contrast to xie lian's idealism, which makes them fight or disagree with each other a lot too, which mu qing takes to heart more (he's more sensitive to criticism because of him always having to be perfect in order not to be kicked out of the palace ig, and also because he's just more sensitive in his personality in general). all of this is probably the reason why he thinks he's not as important to xie lian. i've not read their actual parting yet but ig mu qing is very fond of xie lian and cannot stand seeing him destroy himself anymore. ig he also doesn't see the point of staying, like i said he's more practical and is more focused on not getting hurt himself than saving everyone, simply because he thinks it's unrealistic. though he appreciates that trait in xie lian i think, he's just too much of a coward to think that way (not an insult, i think he states it himself later on in the series). but as i said, i don't really know that yet.

there's so much to his character and he's just so complex, i'm really looking forward to read the whole series so i can just talk about him more and in more detail. he ofc does things that are really fucking shitty but there are clear reasons he does them yk. he and feng xin are such dorks too i love them. and mu qing is just a very grumpy black cat that can't help but snap at everything lmao

thank you again for the ask hehe, yess the art of him is so good, he'd be so pleased😌(he's such a pretty boi) what do you think of him? :D

[daisywords]

Hi Daisy! Your blog and the way you write give me such nice and peaceful feeling :)

How did you get into editing? I've been currently thinking about it and you said in your pinned intro that "you did go to school for this", so I'm curious to learn a bit more from your process.

Weirdly, editing is so much fun for me, I have to stop myself when I'm drafting. So yeah, how has been your experience working with it so far?

Sorry, this might be a bit too long? Hopefully you can shine some light on those questions, thank you!

Hi!

(1) Thank you!

(2) I'll elaborate a little on my current situation + how I got here on the chance that something might be useful:

I'm still pretty early in my career journey, but currently I work full time on the editing team at a research organization. Eventually I'd like to move to freelance work and/or lean more into the book publishing side of things (I get to work with books sometimes, but not like. fun ones) but for now I'm getting experience/building up savings etc.

I don't think it's very common, but the university I attended had a linguistics-based program specifically for editing, mostly focused on copyediting (whereas a lot of editors come from an English/journalism background).

This program plus a couple internships I did* worked out for me in terms of coming out with some specific skills/experience already under my belt, which I used to get hired at my current job. (for example, a lot of copyediting roles using editing tests in the hiring process, and I had already done very similar editing tests at school).

If you're more interested in the world of fiction publishing and such, or freelancing/contract work (which is a big percentage of editing work), I'm not really a great person to ask, since I have a very loose grasp on how all of that works. (Hoping to figure more of that out in the next few years).

I have done various levels of editing for a few different books—jobs which I got through personal connections and circumstances. Frm my understanding, a lot of freelance work comes from more word-of-mouth networking, though there are some services that people use like Reedsy. Right now I'm tentatively planning on starting a few freelance projects here and there and trying to slowly build up my clientele until I can one day transition to doing that full time, but we'll see. Right now it's nice to have a stable income and health coverage and stuff, and be able to save a little, since I finished school with basically zero dollars.

*one at a small publishing house and another with my university's editing service for the faculty

(3) Editing is so fun! Sometimes it sucks, but it's also fun. I'm one of those nerds that finds grammar and usage really interesting, so even though a lot of what I do at work is delete commas in some places and add them in others, it's still interesting to me.

I also like the more developmental/structural side of editing, though I have less experience doing that. But I love starting with all the pieces already there, like clay, so to speak, and turning a piece of writing into the best version of itself.

There are some things about my current work that I don't love, of course. A lot of what I edit is more academic writing, which can get pretty dry, and often I'll find a project interesting enough the first time I read through it, but I absolutely hate it by the time I'm done. Sometimes people want things done on unrealistic timelines and I have to deal with that. etc etc.

When I'm drafting my own writing, I usually have my editing brain turned off. Sometimes I'll skim back through my own drafts and notice really obvious mistakes or things that I correct in other people's writing in my sleep. I don't tend to spend a lot of time reworking things as I go, maybe because I keep the editing process pretty compartmentalized in my head.

Anyway that's a lot of rambling from me. Hopefully at least some of that answered your questions.

Nice to "meet" you!

[leighlew3]

Hello.

How do you keep yourself motivated to write screenplay/ tv pilots when no one is making deals or selling anything due to the strike? When money is running low and the uncertainty of this insidious industry stresses you out. It's been a long hard road for me but I still desire to tell stories that can impact people, the ones who are marginalized like me and don't have a voice in mainstream Hollywood. I haven't broken in the business yet, how do you stay focused on your writing and not give up?

"I still desire to tell stories that can impact people, the ones who are marginalized like me and don't have a voice in mainstream Hollywood"

Same. This sorta sums it up perfectly, tbh.

I think that's what majorly drives me as well at this point. Doing this is my dream obviously and I've been busting ass to work towards all of this for YEEEARS (most my life) amidst so much struggle and hell, and now even the loss of my Mom/best friend/biggest champion right as things were finally getting good. Not only are we in the middle of an unprecedented and demoralizing strike because of the AMPTP's egos, but I am still doing all this despite knowing my mom won't even be here to see it. And that can be tough. Tough as fuck.

Wanting to take care of her for her rest of her life drove me to keep going, but now she's gone before she should have been. AND there's a strike that feels hopeless and endless at times, which began literally 5 days after I lost her. So it can get dark sometimes. And I've been super restless during this era of grief + waiting on Hollywood. Alas, now I just try to keep in mind: this is all to hopefully give a voice and entertainment and validity to others, as much as it is about achieving my dreams, making my mom proud, etc.

Also, I've just been through so much in my life that at times ALL I had was blind optimism and desperate hope to keep me going. I wouldn't be alive today if not for hope, however unrealistic or insanely naive it seemed at times. I think that's why I love the character of Supergirl so much. Because no matter what she's gone through, all the anger and loss and being underestimated, etc -- she never ever gives up on: HOPE.

So I just hold onto that sense of hope, and I listen to music that inspires me and watch films/tv shows that get me excited, and I -- just keep going. I really have no choice, honestly. I've hit some writer's blocks since mom died, since the strike, etc but eventually it broke, eventually I pushed through.

It's truly just a matter of unyielding hope and grit and determination not to let all of this drag me down and make me give up and then it's all for nothing. I have good days and bad days -- sometimes VERY bad. But the strike WILL end, so in the meantime, writing and creating amidst the insanity of it all in order to have fresh material that can go out when it's done has felt important.

So. Yeah. I pray you can hang onto that hope as well.

[plaexus]

Regarding the “hunger “ bp exhibits, to each their own but only jisoo and occasionally jennie refer to blinks these days and it’s not like they have done much to help the fandom stay alive during their focus on solo projects. Jennie herself admitted she is aware the relationship with fans is “in danger” and she hopes the cb might smooth things over.

I also don’t think it can be ignored how keeping the brand alive is highly beneficial for them as well, from a business standpoint. They would be very silly to let it go altogether at this point where it’s still very sought after. Not saying they only do it for the money bc im sure they are happy to be back together and tour and whatnot, but let’s see when they cb “how they cb”. If they really put effort to innovate with music, participate in the creation process, promote adequately (this didn’t happen in 2022), give extra content then to make up for the lack of content of the previous years… to me all of this will determine whether they are still “hungry” or they see the bp activities as a victory lap and a comfortable and easy way to make more money (even if they enjoy it).

I really hope aespa never stops pushing for bigger and better things, i dont need them to be on blackpink’s level of success. A joint live goofing off having fun means more to me than a billboard hot 100 entry ever will🤷🏼‍♀️

i guess that's one thing i'm a bit saddened by as a formerly active blink -- that they've claimed individual fandoms (see: number ones, rubies, etc.). all snsd members still use sone to refer to their fans even if they haven't been seriously promoting as a group in a long while. but i mean, all that is fair, it's a reality that a lot of people just like one member or are new fans specifically because the members debuted as soloists. it's just something we have to accept, that the bp members are very much focused on their individual endeavours. again it's valid, theirs is a lightning in a bottle type of fame, it would be regretful if they didn't venture into everything they want at this high point in their careers

and yeah, (occasionally) promoting as a group would always be financially viable for blackpink. there will always be a demand for them. but again, knowing that all four members are trying to establish themselves and explore their own artistry makes their conscious decision of coming back to group promotions just a year or so after their break have more weight. money will always be a consideration, but i like to take them at their word that they feel they still have more to do as a group. unfortunately, it's a bit unrealistic, perhaps even foolish, to still hope for better promotions at this point, for them to "make up" for the meager content since they debuted. my wish is another full album and anything more than that would be a bonus haha managing my expectations