#just. missing my dad really
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i always have a rough time as winter sets in but these last two have been extra rough
#just. missing my dad really#I don’t have any family close to me and no grandparents so it’s just me and my mum and my sibling in the house now#we’re 3 months from the second anniversary#and everyone’s talking about birthdays but i haven’t celebrated mine since he passed two days after#it just hurts#he’s supposed to be here for all the milestones yknow#and originally you’re fine till milestones come up and he’s not here#i don’t have. that much family all things considered#and normally im fine but sometimes the ache gets extra strong#I was looking through his book case and it just kinda hit me that there’s so much I want to talk to him about#but I can’t#so im just stuck#vent tw#dead parent#dead dad#death tw
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OlderDad!Bakugou who gets a haircut and his baby doesn't recognize him and he doesn't want his dad to pick him up 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Bakugou has a cry in the bathroom and you have to spend the rest of the night consoling him.
Also Hiiiiiii, miss u, hope youre gooooood
head in my hands bc of this, just thought abt bakugo growing out his hair a little bit right after baby's birth...takes him months to go and get a real haircut cuz he doesn't wanna burden you more than he already has and by the time he's okay with the thought (but only for "AN HOUR MAX," is what he says), he has a mullet thing going on and all this scruff on his chin🥺🥺🥺
so he gets home with his regular ol' haircut, maybe a little shorter just to account for ... not wanting to go again so soon, and baby's HOLLERING bloody murder as soon as they see him and refusing to be taken out of your arms, doing that thing where they're flipping their face back and forth to dodge a kiss...
it's so tragic bc not even a little cheek nuzzling helps to calm them bc bakugo's CLEAN SHAVEN and smells like aftershave instead of like dad when he tries!!!!!!
and after, you watch him kinda sulk into the bathroom, thinking like aw yeah thats a bummer but also pretty funny, too (esp bc the haircut does look good🫣🤓), AND HE DOESN'T COME OUT FOR LIKE an hour???
....until you finally have to ask him if he's okay in there and you're opening the door to him sitting on the toilet seat, arms crossed and red cheeks a little streaky with tears...
LJFKASDJFADSJK it's the cutest, most sad sight you ever did see!! ofc Bakugo tries to deny it, but the way he tears up again (after you're done assuring him he did nothing wrong) when his baby finally realizes it's him and smiles (and then how he refuses to give them up again until bedtime) has his ass. EXPOSED.
(i love and miss u more than air, earth, water, dirt + HOPE YOU'RE GOOD TOO BESTIE ILY)
#bakugo#HI PYGMY THIS WAS INSANE OF U TO SAY THANK U PYGMY MY BFFL#but sorry u said this and i had to rip the idea right out of your hands and put it straight into my mouth#i feel like i'm high on a drug i really do#bakugo doing that thing where he he refuses to leave baby or u for long periods and fights being told to go do something nice for himself#he's showing up to his first guys night in like 6 months and doesn't know what do with himself#needs a baby picture once and hour#and he gets home to baby asleep in the crib and YES he's upset he missed bedtime but also like. wow. alone time with y/n.#and he just wants to hold u🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and watch a movie and be together#and he;s finally at a point in his life when he's able to admit vulnerability and talks abt feeling like an inadequate dad.#and finally u just have to shut him up by fuc-[redacted for profanity]#oh my god gonna think abt this all night#ALL NIGHT I LOVE U PYGMY#caitie things#kids tw#gen#pygmy lurks
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hiii how are we feeling about the recent wemmbu uu episode?? because im losing my mind im definitely not normal about it
#unstable universe#unstableverse#wemmbu#princezam#eggchan#wato1876#mutiny duo#they're being normal for once??(kind of)#the GOAT goat#can he be his own character please i think he's great#still figuring out my egg design bear with me please that man is so hard to draw#but i will draw him because he's the greatest character on the unstableverse#i miss him where the hell is he?????#wato was so fun too he really gives the tired divorced dad vibes#and wemmbu was like a rowdy teenager causing problems#also wato is a liar hes definitely picking favorites (and its parrot and wifies)#hes just like me fr#anyway i have so many thoughts about mutiny duo#and just unstableverse in particular im going insane but im not gonna spam my tags with it#okay im done yapping here i think#☆ my art .
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sick(?)
#messyr#doodle#vent art#?? well not really! just skl#coping through drawing bc its what keeps me from rotting in bed#my body cant keep up fjdshzhl and i just feel worse every time i try to 'function' even as basic tasks it makes me want to throw up AAAAH#this artist does not KNOW how to take care of themselves help help help help fsdjxhf#how am i supposed to fkin tell my dad nor my relatives im just so- PHYSICALLY- and MENTALLY TIRED without it perceived as lazy or an excuse#same goes to my professors bc ive been missing out ALOT in school lately and my classmates are also probably wondering where the hell I am#( group activities etc etc i want to km s - I've failed TWO MAJOR SUBJECTS BC OF HOW IVE BEEN DOING-AAAAAAAAAH)#if not physically then its my noisy ass brain that spirals me into depressive episodes where I literally cant do jackshit about
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ninja turtles are here for projecting and processing grief, apparently.
i've seen lots of 'the death of future donnie' comics, most recently ofc being from @somerandomdudelmao (i went back and forth abt tagging but then decided i would, because this is directly their fault, /pos) and then, of course, all the fan content that was made in response to said comic... and i love seeing so many people make so much awesome work! but it's also really fucking sad.
so often in the real world, there are no goodbyes, no dying in the arms of a loved one, no heroic sacrifices, there's just... death. people just die and it sucks. especially because in real life there's also no cool storyboarder assuring you that there's gonna be a happy ending and you'll see them again. and so it's like... then what?
i dunno. i was just sad about it for a while, and i wasn't really sure what to do with that, but i guess this is my answer. sometimes you don't get to say goodbye or hold them when they leave you, and you dunno if you'll get to see them again. but you can still have the mark they left on the world and hang onto that. because no matter what, once upon a time, they were there, and you remember. other people probably do, too.
#this isnt really fan content so im probably not justified but whatever#directly inspired direct answer#i dunno why this is getting me so bad but for a while now I've just been like#damn death SUCKS bro i miss my dad and my twin#and im absolutely surrounded by content of ppl being like “NO LEO HIS TWIN HOW CAN HE BE W/O HIS TWIN”#and im like#YEAH WHAT A NIGHTMARE HAVING UR TWIN DIE--#lmao#anyway this is really messy and loose but i just wanted to make it#and get it out of my head#and be done with it#idk#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt bad future#rottmnt bad timeline#rottmnt donnie#disaster twins#rottmnt movie#f!leo#f!donnie#grief#death#the death of donnie#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#fidgetwing#rottmnt apocalypse#rottmnt april#sibling death
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"Wait is that lore?" moments in Antoine's return stream
These ones are likely jokes, but (you can use it in your headcanons):
With Tubbo, explaining his absence by saying "I was dead, I think, but not anymore, I was tired of being dead"
"I couldn't explain to you, it's out of my understanding how I'm dressed. The human mind cannot comprehend how I'm dressed and so the human brain shows it that way, but it isn't exactly like that. It's not powerful, it's just weird"
"You know me well!" "Heh, I know you as if I made you!" *silence* (closest to maybe serious)
These ones are more serious:
He isn't romantically interested by Cucurucho, he just likes his ass (that totally a human is aro that's what I mean)
He really missed Pomme, he stopped coming because without her it wasn't interesting anymore (this one is just cute)
Very invested in knowing what happened to the eggs while they were away
Accidentally gave Pomme one of the books Ourson (I think it's this one?) gave him, immediately panicking when he realized. When Pomme asks what it was, he first tries to pretend not to understand, and is pretty serious when he tells her that it's nothing; he'll tell her about it one day, and it's his little secret garden, everyone should be allowed to have secrets, don't she think? she isn't against secrets, right?
Certain that the eggs went to some kind of other dimensions/got doubles?? I mean there was a theory inspired by Stranger Things but despite what Pomme is saying he's not letting go of the idea
After asking Pomme if she met dark Cucurucho and she talks about the Watcher: "Je crois pas qu'on parle de la même chose. Là tu me parles de l'oeil, et moi je pense que je te parle de quelque chose d'autre. Je pense que tu me parles du Watcher... là où moi je te parle d'autre chose." ("I think we're not talking about the same thing. Here you're talking about the eye, and me I think I'm talking about something else. I think you're talking about the Watcher... when me I talk about something else" again how does he know the name "Watcher".)
Knows that Maximus is dead, when all the other players seem to have decided to play the "don't know if he's alive or dead" card (bonus: Antoine and Pomme talking about telling Aypierre, and Pomme thinking she won't be able to find the right words "I don't think there are right words..." ok im sad now thanks). Since we're at it, when reading Pomme diary where she worries about Baghera and Antoine being dead, saying they can't be dead, he doesn't share that worry in the slightest, as if he knows Baghera's not dead (this one's dubious and I am very willing to put it as cc!Antoine not thinking rp)
He and Pomme are talking about what she remembers of the Watcher and honestly the whole conversation deserves to be clipped and transcribed. To go with him name dropping the Watcher, he is now only calling it the creature with one eye because that's how Pomme calls it
Pomme explains that the Watcher was observing her and Richas and there was a threatening aura to it, so they immediately fled. Antoine in a very serious voice "You were right to, you were right to, you were right to. Because I think it's this person who was at the origin of your disappearance."
#theres not really lore in his talk with Sunny but they're fun together#completely missed the whole 'you wanna be a star? you're gonna lose your privacy if you do that are you sure?' convo#also the way he's just 'btw have you met my CHILD Pomme? Yeah she's great' you fucking dad#i think antoine will be a sunny defender#him reuniting with Pomme <3#also its fun to rewatch. he's pressing buttons on a snowman decoration. i remember how he loved press the button.#it was foreshadowing.#pomme saying it took her one hour to draw something for Dapper and Antoine jumping to her defense#by saying Leonard de Vinci could take days to make something#qsmp#qsmp antoine#pomme admin must have been so happy for Antoine to be here her lore with her memory loss and what happened to the egg is finally played with#anyway with how antoine was also insistent to learn more about the watcher by questioning pomme#I am betting even more on Antoine knowing things about the Watcher
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So it turns out there's a big craft guild organization thing only a few hours from where I live (I saw an ad for their craft fair), and I got like half my holiday shopping done on their website, and the box arrived today! The thing I was most excited to see in person is fragile, though, and it's really well wrapped in bubble wrap and I don't want it to break when I mail it to the friend it's for, so I am not unwrapping it, but oh man the temptation is there lol I also got myself a little metal bug made of a bottle cap and some wire. It lives on my little corkboard where I put postcards and thank you cards now
#the person behind the yarn#I have gotten a little sewing done today during my lunch break#but not much! not much#these unprecedented times sure are not good for my stress levels lol#but the indoor wasp is outdoor wasp again#and I managed to successfully request prescription refills from two of my doctors this week#(for different medications) so that was good! I'm allergic to an inactive ingredient used by most pharmacies in one med#so I have to get just that one medication from a different pharmacy chain and it throws doctors for a loop every time#other good things: I had the answers ready for a question my boss unexpectedly asked during a meeting today#when my dad last went shopping he got more kleenex and the boxes have flamingoes on them so that's cool!#uhhh my dad is volunteering more which means I get to help out more with some prep things for volunteering#which is great I miss volunteering but I can't do what I used to anymore#for the record I did make this post almost entirely to convince myself not to unwrap the super cool thing for my friend#the other small percentage is because I really like the metal bug#I want to make some metal bugs#I don't think I have any of whatever the artist used for filling the bottle cap but I have hot glue that'll probably work#...I think I'm going to make some metal bugs
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I rarely take pictures anymore. It’s like I just don’t want to remember any moment from this part of my life lol
#me#mine#girls with tattoos#myself#girls with glasses#girls with piercings#fairy aesthetic#fairycore#you know I come on here or I look through Snapchat memories#and even at my saddest I did not know or understand real pain#now that I do I feel so different#so old and so worn out#I feel like all the color has drained from my being#I’m not even a person anymore#I have horrid ptsd now#the only way I can really hangout with my dad is to play iPhone chess bc he’s sitting in a fucking hospital bed#oh god it all hurts so bad to think about#it makes me want to throw up#I miss who I was three years ago before all the pain#how does someone even come back from all of this#how do I see the things I’ve seen and lose what’s I’ve lost and move on to live a normal life#I had seemed to learn every life lesson the hard way and always fall in love with the wrong ppl#I had a very tough time loving myself which is still true#but that was all stuff like I could live with and grow from#this is just a deep set pain idk
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Being not only the eldest daughter but also the eldest cousin on my mom’s side is such a difficult role but someone has to take it
#On my dad’s side I’m a baby like im def one of the youngest ones#On my mom’s side I’m still considered a child to both of my uncles and they literally group me w my baby cousins which is INSANE????#On my dad’s side both of my female cousins are already married and most of my male cousins r older than me#I think the youngest one is like 20 and he’s tied w my sister#And I’m 22 which makes me second youngest#This is a really pointless post I just miss Baghdad and I’m reminiscing ab my dad’s side now
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obsessed with julian asking "what did they do to you? is it some kind of punishment device?" in the wire because my god if this man didn’t go from "this is garak my super cool spy pal who i go on secret missions with and sometimes fuck teehee but also yeah his planet’s kinda fucked up and he’s got some weird ideas but we’re working on it" to "this is garak he's my precious little angel babyman who has been horribly traumatized and brainwashed by his government but it's okay because i'm a doctor and i will fuck and suck the fascism out of him if it’s the last thing i do" in just two years. shit's wild
#i'm having a moment#again#my posts#garashir#julian that entire episode is really just ''the power of love compels you!!!!!!!'' i can't stand him#garak was blorbo from julian's shows for a hot minute there and julian was writing all kinds of woobified fanfiction about him#like i've cried a hundred times over the wire from garak's pov cuz i see it as the episode where he started to respect and love him fr fr#but for julian i think it was more of an eye-opener like. he wanted to exonerate garak of all his crimes to try to justify his crush on him#and i don't think the wire exactly proved him wrong... but i do think it revealed key details and context that he was missing before#like that garak wasn't just some underling spy he was almost the head of his organization#basically garak canonballed julian's beloved headcanons so he had to start from scratch#obsessed w garak recognizing that julian had romanticized him and being like ''ok but what if i'm just a bloodthirsty killer? what then?''#like they went thru All That just for julian to meet tain and come back like#''Your Boss Dad Is Evil The Plan To Heal You With My Dick Is Back On''#gold star for trying i guess but ur gonna be loved no matter what apparently
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I have TWO exams this week so I’m drawing portraits again sigh sigh little baby little baby Liam
#he definitely was that kid who wore the Zelda shirt and cargo shorts combo you know what I’m talking about#but he grew up in Maine so his dad probably forced him to layer so it was that and a ridiculous choice of layering#favorite part about him is that I periodically remember he canonically has a THICK new england accent#I think he was just really annoying as a child idk I feel this so deep in my bones#also he’s a very stubborn guy so I think when he started transitioning he didn’t want to cut his hair to conform#he cuts his hair only at stressful times in his life#so when his sister went missing when they were 16 he buzzed it then grew it out again#and he cut it again after his whole demigod ordeal#and then maybe after that he keeps it short idk#my art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#illustration#original art#my ocs#doodle#art#drawing#oc#original character#original character art#artwork#oc artist#oc artwork#digital doodle#digital artist#oc art#oc art tag
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#ok this was lovely and all but now i'm just sad#did my first seder without family but with my friend and it was really fun#but i just miss my family now :( and i'm feeling the most homesick i#have been in a long time#i just want to come home and make matzo balls with my dad#and make tea for my mum and see my family that's not in a forced social situation#i'm just. augh#i really miss it:(#mumbles
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You can take one of my jelly beans if you want :)
#i'm having one of these after my cough syrup because it tastes DISGUSTING#the green has less because i hate it but my dad loves it#my favourites are yellow (lemon) and orange (orange). no surprises there - yall know i love citrus#my phone is about to die so i'm gonna put it away and be back later#what's going on with yall's lives???? tell me stufffffff i am tired of being sick#also yes they are organised by colour because that's just what i do. yes i do have ocd thanks for noticing! it's not fun!#okay bye love you all miss you you're really cool and sexy and amazing (yes this is for YOU 👁️👅👁️)
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The prompt was Halloween but honestly, I wanted to draw them in Dia De Los Muertos clothes, I hope I did it justice! Very fun :D
tap for better quality (and look at the details, there's some that I looove) 🎃💀🍬 & reblog aaahh this took me so long , ty byee
#THIS TOOK ME SOOO LONG. LIKE ... 7 hours#im exhausted#please give it love I'd love that#its 4 am 😭😭#ANYWAY#i took so long bc i wanted to get many details right#also bc i remodelled some things and used colors for lines instead of just black#i looked up references for the clothes and make up#theres so mnay fun designs and colors!!#i really love Tallulahs#i wnate some thing basic for chay bc i know hed loove just dressing up as a skeleton lol like his dad#<33#i gave Phil halloween colors and made miss So purple#my fav family<3#qsmp eggs#qsmp fanart#qsmp#qsmp tallulah#qsmp chayanne#qsmp philza#qsmp missa#mcyt fanart#mcyt#rare sketchbook#mcytblr's fanart fest
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Freddie correctly guessing the combination to Anthony's lock in the Seattle live show... Freddie correctly guessing the combination for Normal's locker... There's something here...
#I FINALLY LISTENED THAT WAS SO FUCKING FUNNY#😭 East coast tour when#dndads#Seer Glenn served no purpose but I like the idea of him. Rotating him around#Seer of Anthony's plans ig!#Oakson RIGHTS from this one omg#:0 There was no doubt in my mind that Mercedes is a monster fucker already canon to me#idk there was just a lot of great one-off bits that really got me#I miss the S1 dads all being goofy silly together aw#dndads live show#do or dice tour
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not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.
anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.
like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.
I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.
this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it
#skunk mail#Anonymous#ill be in a car with my dad fighting tears thinking about how ill miss it one day and there's no way for my brain to capture the moment and#make a simulation of it. and even then that wouldnt help. ykwim#sometimes i sit in my parents room while my parents and brother are there and i cant stop thinking about when ill see them for the last tim#and how i wish i could full really truly wring every last drop of ''appreciation'' from the moment.#i think about that time isnt linear thing. how everything that has happened or will happen exists on its own#and i think about the cheye experiencing the After tragedy. and i cant handle it. not now or then. i envy the past cheye#even the one of 5 seconds ago. because that was 5 seconds ive lost. 5 seconds closer to events that will#separate my life into Before and After. over and over again#(like you said anon. i think abt that all the time too)#i think this is also why im struggling with the thought of moving out#we all have so little time. dont even get me started on the fear and grief i feel for my own life#not only fearing dying but fearing the lead up where ive lost and cried over much. just me. alone.#ill never see them again. it will never be today again. we'll never be in my parents room like today again. i cant take it.#even if i spend every last second with everybody i still wont be able to take it. i cant believe it#human beings that were all somebody's baby once. tomorrow it will be like they were never here at all. all their memories#go with them. it hurts so bad. i cant take it#i cant even breathe rn ruminating abt it *peace sign emoji*
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