#just thinking about things I guess. wondering how much of this was out of my hands

[kanmom51]

Chapter 3 in the making

Traveling together to "film a show" was big (yes, this was to film a show, but we all know it was mainly to spend much needed time together, and if we didn't, let's be honest that we did, but if we didn't, then JK literally confirmed this for us in episode 1 of AYS). But back in 2023 when a public Jikook was a scarcity, left us with more question marks than anything else as to how this will actually be coming to fruition.

Enlisting together was HUGE. Like H U G E. Them being the only ones to do so not only within BTS but the first and only idols to do so. A choice made by the two of them. To do this together. With each other. Not with anyone else.

Are You Sure?! Do we need any words here? Like really? Because AYS was as loud as F$@&. No, seriously, idk what you want to call it, a soft launch, a smack in the noggin, whatever you do, it was quite clear to those who have eyes and a brain. With or without knowing who JM and JK are, their history, their culture. Louder to those who do know them.

Since their enlistment and even through Muse and AYS we got practically nothing from the two. Oh, we did have a couple of interesting pics from their basic training and graduation, a few pics from the unit, a shit ton of signatures, some more interesting than others (joint messages, pretty decorations...) and a few nice messages, but mostly silence from the two. This stood out even more so in comparison to the almost barrage we've been getting from NJ and Tae, both enlisted only a day before Jikook.

And then came December. With less than 6 months to go.

JK going live from his new place. Dare I say their new place? It's not like we haven't talked about this over the past 18 months. Speculating, wondering. But man (figure of speech y'all), these last couple of months, they are sure making me feel like what we saw as leaning to the delusional side or more so wishful thinking, ain't no delusion or wish, but more so a very possible reality to come.

But let's get back on track.

So, December gave us:

"We spend our free time together", "we sing together", "we sing while we shower daily together", not to mention JK's btw remark about seeking privacy away from others "to sing".

Then came JM in January with their "conversations before going bed" about "what kind of image we want to show" and "what kind of lives we will live moving forward".

And February rolls in and we think that we will be back to their silent treatment, but JK comes to us with a heartfelt message (they really feel the end and want out). But nothing prepared us for Hobi's birthday live and once again those two with their "we share a room" and "we have stories to tell, but not sure how much we actually can..." that won't scare us off, lol.

Funny how every single hysterical claim made by those who were hit so very hard by their joint enlistment has been shut down by the two of them by now!!

Anyway, do we see a pattern here? Can we call this a pattern? Is there more to come? Well, obviously there is post military service, but seeing as to how they have been in the past couple of months, I'm thinking that we will be getting more even before that.

I'm guessing that conclusion isn't a far fetched one, seeing what we got last night.

And OMG, that was another HUGE loud af Jikook statement.

Ribbon on right: "I love you 🖤"

Ribbon on left: "BTS Park Jimin and Jeon Jungkook".

Yes, a statement.

I stand by that.

Because even if you don't think it's anymore than a cute thing, just another thing that Jikook do together, then you are not seeing the cultural context here.

So, several content producers/directors that were Hybe employees (directors of I am still, AYS and JM's production diary amongst others) have left the company to open their own company (Idk too much about the company they opened, but my guess is that they will continue working with Hybe as contractors rather than employees, but also allowing them to work with other companies and create their own content, including producing a new boy band). And they posted the congratulation they have received.

From Hobi.

Hoshi and Woonhoo of Seventeen.

Each sending a separate wreath.

Zico

And there are wreaths they received from more than one sender. Joint wreaths. But this was from companies (joint ceos), or business partners. Not two separate idols or people.

Now, if you don't see what's huge here, let me show you the K side of this to maybe get some perspective (although, let's be honest, you don't need to be on the K side to see this is a couple thing).

Yes, I wonder the same thing!!!

There is more.

So much more.

The K side of things is literally going mad. Good mad.

And there is a reason they are.

This is most definitley not something friends, as close as they might be, would do. Not friends, not multimillionaire friends. They most definitley can afford two wreaths. And that's one of the points here.

Once again.

This was a choice.

Not to send separate congratulative wreaths. They sure can afford to do so. Even if they aren't on vacation at the moment and are in the base. Seriously, two young men closing in on their 30s, independently financially sufficient and so much more.

Yeah, this most definitley was a statement.

And the frenzy K Jikookers are in at this very moment is well enough proof to that.

Btw, haven't been to the dark side, don't know just how crazy and rabid the cult and antiis are going, but my guess would be...

Anyways, sitting here smile plastered on my face, I'm kind of starting to think, that this is maybe, just maybe, going to become our new normal. Jikook doing couplie things, openly, proudly, unapologetically.

And if this is them even before they are discharged...

What a great time this is going to be.

[bluemantics]

When he looks in the mirror, sometimes Keith searches for Shiro. He tilts his head, eyes tracing his nose, his hair, wondering if blinking hard enough will change things. It never does. 

Keith knows it’s stupid— Shiro isn’t actually his brother. It’s just difficult for him to watch that empty seat in the dining room, hard for him to hear the deafening gaps in conversation Shiro would fill. 

So he looks, and he tries. When Allura approaches him to strategize, his mind races to Shiro’s normal responses. If Pidge seems to work harder than normal, he lectures her, ignoring her muttered “isn’t that rich, from you.” Hunk cooks and Keith remarks on how delicious it tastes, thanks him for feeding the team. All of this leads to stares. 

Nothing is seamless anymore, not even waking up. He has to walk by Shiro’s room every day. One time, he stepped foot inside, and left immediately after. Shiro’s walls closed in and suffocated him, pressured him. It still feels wrong to be occupying any space where his echoes ring out. 

Black is no different. She reminds him that she knows, she knows he is not Shiro, tries to comfort him with soothing pulses. Yet all he can see when he looks through her eyes is someone who is smaller, angrier, and vulnerable. He can’t get comfortable in his seat. Keith never envisioned himself at the helm of anything, much less the team designed to save the whole universe. When he’s alone, and thinks of it too much, a gap between his ribs aches. 

This team might be destined to save the universe, but Keith Kogane was never destined to lead it. 

The worst times are when he forgets. He lets himself feel eased, laughs with the team like it’s natural, issues orders without deliberation or second guessing. In those instances, guilt weighs on him like a thundercloud. How could he have felt so familiar in someone else’s role? Keith quickly retreats, reminds himself of his place. Not the helm; he’s the stand-in. 

All this self-loathing would be so much easier if it weren’t for Lance, badgering him constantly. Day in and day out, his new “right hand” constantly pushes him. 

“Join us for dinner or I won’t participate in tomorrow’s training exercises.”

“Team movie night! Your turn to choose.”

“Are you sure that’s the right plan? I’ve been thinking—“

It’s fucking annoying when he’s thinking, but it’s all Lance seems to do. He offers up opinions constantly without being asked, shows up to meetings between Keith and Allura, knocks on his door after difficult missions. Keith can’t remember doing any of this when he was supposedly Shiro’s right hand. 

“Why are you always on my tail, Lance?” Keith demands after a particular comment. 

“Because you need it.”

Lance has a new confidence when he speaks, a bravado that doesn’t need flowery words. His voice is sure. 

Keith knows he’s right. Part of him secretly relishes Lance’s feedback, uses his presence as a crutch. Another part of him is ashamed to rely on anyone at all. Shiro stood tall as a lone watchdog over them and barely needed help from anyone, much less the mess that was Keith. It makes him doubt his older brother’s judgement in choosing him for Black. 

He’s exhausted from questioning himself, his brother, his teammates. At night, he tosses and turns, and every time he tries to train, Lance stops him—or worse—joins him. Keith has a looser grip on his sword and his words at night. Control slipping, he worries he will say the wrong thing as Lance takes him down with newfound skill that only time and practice bring. 

“Since when did you get good at this?” Keith heaves from the ground, chest rising and falling quickly. Lance stands over him, smiling widely with pride. 

“Since you needed a new sparring partner.”

Keith notices Lance doing this a lot lately, anticipating everyone’s needs. Suddenly, Lance wraps Pidge in blankets, tells Hunk not to worry about a broken gadget, and comforts the Alteans by listening to their stories. 

With a pang, Keith realizes something: Lance is a better leader. The whole team probably knows it by now. Effortlessly, Lance fills new shoes without so much as a complaint, while Keith flounders trying to shove his square-shaped self into a circular opening. 

When Shiro comes back, Keith doesn’t even register the differences between This Shiro and His Shiro. He grew up with nothing, so he isn’t one to look a gift horse in the mouth.

Instead, he did what he’d been itching to do since he first stepped in Black. 

Keith ran away.

When he’s alone in his quarters at the Blade, he looks in mirrors. He searches for traces of Lance and sees none. Hands cold and stiff, he covers the looking glass with a sheet, unwilling to stare back at an unworthy face.

[drdemonprince]

A little positivity for your inbox :). I'm a queer, autistic generally gender-fucked individual and I wanted to share how much your posts ab building community and putting yourself out there have helped me. I moved to Chicago 9 months ago and felt like the most miserable version of myself. I had like 1 friend and felt too socially inept to pursue any other connections. My anxiety had me locked in a state of inaction. Seeing you post about the merit of just GOING to things, just putting yourself in spaces helped me feel like that was something I could do too? And so I did. I would go events (with my 1 friend) I never really knew what to do with myself I would just kind of...be there. And for a while it was really uncomfortable and I would freak out afterwards. Like every time. But it felt good to be doing SOMETHING to improve that part of my life. It was one of those things that sucked until it didn't I guess. Cut to present day and I'm a version of myself that I didn't know I could be? I go to parties where I know almost no one and I talk to people even when I'm a little scared to approach them. I have so much confidence?? I have to acknowledge that this was more attainable for me than some because I'm an autist who's able to mask. Even still, I was able to find people like me who I can unmask around by venturing out a little. It is possible. My friendship circle has grown into this beautiful collection of neurodivergent weirdo freaks who I never would have known had I kept to myself day in and day out like I wanted to. I'm also not someone whose body meets most standards of desirability, it made it harder but not impossible. Anyways, thanks for being loud and obstinate and also hopeful! You make people's lives better by doing these things. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and enjoy the little bit of sunshine being thrown our way ♥️♥️♥️

Yay thank you. I most want to share this ask so that other people can see it and think about whether your experience could be relevant to their own lives. A WHOLE lot can happen just from showing up to things a bunch of times, getting a little *less* uncomfortable being there (even if you always feel kinda uncomfortable forever, i still do!), participating in what you can, becoming a familiar face, talking to people, and seeing who you vibe with. that's the work. that's everything. and you can do it being shy/anxious/awkward/having highly particular needs/being visibly othered/etc. It's HARD and not everyone is gonna be your people but it is possible. It's a lot of work but it's worth it.

[greenerteacups]

I cannot tell you just how obsessed I am with Lionheart - I have literally ranted about it with everyone who has even a remote interest in Harry Potter. It is the best thing I have read, it has made me fall in love with the series all over again, I feel like I'm reading and experiencing it all for the first time! I'm even trying to dabble in bookbinding just to actually have a hardcopy of your fics (hard emphasis on trying)

I love sweet cranky Draco and how you have so beautifully written him into the golden trio - I love how he balances Hermione out and matches her brilliance, I have always hated how she was always the odd one out whenever Ron decided to stop talking to her. I keep telling everyone I truly think you have a better understanding of the characters than JKR did - how you've written Harry as this very perceptive and gentle peacemaker who is craving so deeply for family (that scene end of book 4 where Arthur comes crashing in to save him? ugh, ab.so.lute.ly. heartwrenching!!) , how you've made Ron a wonderful character and brilliant in his own way (it's so easy for fanfic writers to bash him and make him this big dumb boy who doesn't get hermione- I love that even Draco recognizes that he has his strengths). I love how you've paralleled Snape as Draco's godfather to Sirius and Harry. I love the subtle ways you have changed the story to keep us on our toes. I love how slow and realistically they have grown page by page and I am so very excited to see where you take them next. Ugh I can go on and on. Everything is so well written and I love how you've expanded my vocabulary. You are such an exceptional writer!!

I do find it interesting (and I haven't been able to find any previous posts on this) that Book 2 is the chambers of secrets book and there is zero appearance of the basilisk, which seems a pretty glaring omission. Obviously this is what Theo is trying to find where we are in Book 5, but I was wondering why the delay and doesn't this mess with lining up events with the main series? I guess we wont' know until the grand reveal. But then that made me wonder if it's just "Book 1" and "Book 2" - are there no subtitles "Draco Malfoy and the Chamber of Secrets", etc?

Anyways, I'm all caught up now and just wanted to say - I'm so in love with your work and can't wait to see where you take us next!

Hi, thank you so much for this message! You are so kind to write it!

I would point out that Book 2 isn't really the "chamber of secrets" book — as you point out: he got no gotdamn Chamber in there. The plot of Chamber of Secrets doesn't really work without Lucius, so it's one of the places where the fic diverges the most. Books 6 and 7 will also diverge a lot more from the source material, just so you know! I view Lionheart as a reimagining of the Harry Potter story, not a beat-for-beat retelling. Obviously, some things will remain the same (contrary to what they may believe, neither Lucius nor Draco are so important that the plot totally collapses without them) but for the most part, I'd say I'm trying to re-tell the story in my own way, which means parking the basilisk for a few years while I sort out other things in the story. I promise I'll try to make all payoffs worthwhile, though. :)

[mantizimus]

Can I have the vice dorm leaders version of Shinji Kido! Reader, please, but can you replace Othro with Floyd, please? I know Ortho is 16 years old, but his body looks like a 10 year old, so he's just a baby.

Here you go, Sakura. Also I'm really sorry for keeping it in my drafts for so fucking long.

Shinji Kido!S/O

Trey Clover

Acts as your babysitter.

At the same time, he wouldn't be lying if he said he appreciates your optimism.

Enjoys playing pranks on you, taking advantage of your naivety.

The two of you often cook together.

Trey is sometimes amazed by your enthusiasm when it comes to battling, but he doesn't complain.

He's not entirely sure, but he swears he's seen something that looks like your Kamen Rider form in one of the books.

Often cooks extra dishes for Dragreder.

Ruggie Bucchi

Often gets you into mischief.

Finds your optimism amusing, and wonders if there's anything that will make it disappear.

Loves your cooking so much that he sometimes has a hard time holding back a squeal of joy when he sees the food you've made.

Was a bit taken aback by how enthusiastic you were about fighting the Overblots.

Ruggie respects your out-of-the-box thinking.

He's extremely interested in your Kamen Rider form.

Often privatizes Dragreder for his pranks.

Jade Leech

Doesn't quite understand how you're still alive after all the stupid things you've done.

Makes sure you don't do anything that could cost you your life.

Definitely offers you a job as a chef at Monstro.

Jade is rather indifferent to your fighting enthusiasm, just putting it aside for later.

Appreciates your ability to come up with unconventional strategies, and has asked you for advice if the situation calls for it.

He's interested in the potential use of your Kamen Rider form's abilities, but won't force you into anything.

At least once suggests using Dragreder to gather information.

Floyd Leech

Regularly takes advantage of your naivety to pull pranks on you.

You often have to control his mood swings so he doesn't hurt anyone.

Calls you "Leviathan".

Your cooking is often the only way to calm him down.

One of the things that interested him about you was your ability to come up with unusual strategies.

Floyd sometimes wonders if he can use your Kamen Rider form for various pranks.

Occasionally compares Dragreder to sea snakes.

Jamil Viper

Often has to restrain you so you don't do anything stupid.

Your optimism constantly makes him roll his eyes.

Jamil often asks for your help when it comes to preparing for parties.

Will definitely ask you for a recipe or two.

When you first showed your fighting spirit, he was puzzled, but decided not to pay attention to it.

He really appreciates your ability to think outside the box.

Sometimes asks you about your Kamen Rider guise.

He occasionally talks to Dragreder about various topics. More precisely, he talks, and Dragreder listens and occasionally growls.

Rook Hunt

Be prepared for him to call you "Monsieur Dragon" or something like that.

At first, he assumed that your behavior was nothing more than a mask, but after observing you for a long time, he realized that he was wrong.

He often offers to cook you French dishes. Don't ask how he knows about them.

For a while, he suspected that you had a fighting spirit, but he rejected this guess. So when it turned out that he was right, he had mixed feelings.

Rook admires your rather original approach to various situations.

Expect hundreds of questions about your Kamen Rider form.

Sometimes asks Dragreder to help him get information about other students.

Lilia Vanrouge

Another one who likes to use your naivety to make fun of you.

Treats your optimistic and friendly nature as a breath of fresh air.

If you need advice, he will give it without hesitation.

He first learned about your culinary skills from Malleus. And when he tasted the dishes you prepared, he was not disappointed.

Need help in battle? He is always ready to support or give a hint.

He often compares Kamen Rider's appearance to knight's armor.

Lilia communicates with Dragreder from time to time and even pats his head.

[aspenlovesmedia]

Protocol thoughts I have before s2 starts because I have a lot of them and I want to see what gets answered/what I’m right and wrong about. These are all based on my notes from my relisten and on the alchemy research I did today. This post is long lol, sorry in advance.

Has a Bouchard worked for the OIAR before/did Gwen get her job because of it? This is entirely based on a line from ep1 where Gwen says “Oh, nepotism is it?” And Alice says “I learned from the best”. This could just be in reference to the Bouchard’s being rich and stuff, but this line has stuck with me.

What happened to the Response Department? I think it’s suspicious as hell that Response was closed down and not the OIAR. This also links into how do missfiles happen and who is rating the accuracy of the staff?

What’s the deal with Starkwall? I hope Gertrude is involved with them somehow. I just think it would be funny if she was involved in burning down the Institute.

A huge theme is balance. It shows up in a lot of episodes, which makes sense because alchemy. Not to go on a massive alchemy tangent since I did some research on it today, however the philosopher’s stone wasn’t just about immortality, it was about purifying the human body and soul. This is also referred to as the “Great work”, which is directly mentioned by who I’m going to assume in Jonah Magnus in ep 27. There are also a lot of body doubles and stuff like that, which I’m guessing is that concept of making a perfect human gone wrong. I mean, there is literally an episode where that woman is trying to make the idealised version of herself.

How did Celia find out about the OIAR?

Jon and Martin are clearly reaching out as much as they can. Jon gets name dropped as sending the email to Sam. The true question is why they’re encouraging the investigation into the Magnus Institute considering everything that happened lol. Also, who sent Gwen the documents? I’m thinking it’s Augustus? I have no evidence though, it’s just a hunch.

Will we see Klaus (the IT guy Lena failed to kill)?

What’s the deal with Gerry and Gertrude? Gertrude is suspicious as hell and clearly knows more than she’s telling. Also, she calls Gerry her grandson, which brings up the question what happened to Mary and Eric?

The Merchant guy from ep 4 might be relevant? The reason I say this is because in ep 4, he has some dice, and ep 9 is all about supernatural dice and considering how the violin acted I’m assuming they’re the same dice that he had.

Will the key come up again? I know Sam dropped it, but I do wonder if it will come up again.

I just need y’all to know every Bonzo episode I have variations of “oh fuck” written down because I hate Mr Bonzo so much.

The OIAR are there to help with “balancing” stuff out and I don’t know exactly what that means it’s definitely relevant.

The quote “the world is filled with opposing forces, some benevolent, some not” was really interesting to me.

Lady Mowbray seemed to know Celia wasn’t from their world which was fascinating to me.

I can’t 100% confirm this but is Alice the only one to get jmj errors? If so, idk what that means but it’s weird.

How much does Lena know? Also, why is she so determined for things not to change where possible?

So, I made a post previously on this, but I’m pretty sure the Archivist is an amalgamation of all the TMA fear entities. Celia saying “It’s not acting how I would have expected” is a line that I think supports it.

The biggest question to me is how Jon, Martin and “Augustus” ended up in Freddy.

I am absolutely convinced either Luke or Teddy will die. I don’t know which, but one of them is going to at somepoint. Idk, but I’m sure of it.

Anyway, that’s like 90% of my thoughts on everything from s1. There are a few others but they’re very vague and I can’t phrase in a way that make sense lol.

[firstelevens]

Sambucky reading a book or palm kiss for the intimacy prompts!

1. a palm kiss

a little musketeers au on this fine thursday

Sam is busy enjoying the early morning peace of the garrison courtyard when the storm cloud descends. Not literally, of course—the day is still bright and clear, although cold enough to demand a fur-lined cloak. It’s only that Bucky’s scowl seems to hold with it all the gloom that the sun has held at bay, and Sam can’t help but smile.

“A face like that, it’s a wonder you’re not married yet,” he laughs. “So effusive.”

There’s only a grunt of response as Bucky sits down, followed by a quiet hiss when his shoulder bumps Sam’s. By now, Sam knows better than to ask about the pain in Bucky’s arm. Instead, he slides over the cup he’d been drinking from: spiced coffee from the Ottoman delegation, a gift of gratitude for rescuing a diplomat falsely accused of espionage.

Immediately, Bucky perks up at the smell, gripping the cup in his hands and taking a sip. His low hum of satisfaction settles somewhere in Sam’s core. “I must look awful if you’re letting me have your precious coffee,” he says, his voice hoarse. “How much worse does it need to be before you’ll relieve me of palace duty today?”

“Depends on how good your imitation of a corpse is,” says Sam, flat. “Have some bread and some more coffee; you’ll be fine.”

“Is this what your captaincy is going to be like?” asks Bucky. “Just plying us with food to do your bidding?”

“And other things, when the occasion calls for it,” Sam leans in and murmurs, his mouth close to Bucky’s ear, grinning when it makes Bucky shiver. He laughs and nudges over the jar of honey. “Hasn’t failed yet.”

Bucky puts a downright inadvisable amount of honey on his bread, leveling Sam with an unimpressed look. “If you wanted me biddable, you shouldn’t have snuck out before dawn. It was cold.”

“I did stoke the fire before I went,” says Sam. “And gave you an extra blanket.”

“Not the same,” Bucky says, through a mouthful of bread and honey. “I want a promise of restitution or I’m faking a grievous injury.”

“Is it a very smart plan to tell your captain that the injury will be fake before you claim to have it?”

“I don’t need your sympathy; I just need enough ladies in the court to admire me for gallantly braving my condition and insist that you send me home.”

“I shouldn’t have given you the coffee,” says Sam. “We could’ve known peace a little longer.”

“We could’ve known sleep a little longer, too, but someone likes to be up with the sun for some godforsaken reason.”

“There’s supposed to be a fete at the palace today; I had to go over the maps,” says Sam. “What kind of captain sends out his men without knowing the lay of the land?”

“The kind who only accidentally found out about the fete last night, and that too because he was busy investigating a rash of disappearances in the merchants’ quarters, which we still haven’t solved.”

Sam sighs. “We go where the Crown wants us, Buck.”

“Can’t one of us at least go ask questions? See if anyone will give anything up? You can’t possibly need that many of us monitoring a hedge maze.”

“It’s not just a hedge maze,” says Sam. “There’s also acrobats, fire eaters, and a palm reader.”

Bucky snorts. “A palm reader? So a fraud?” “What, you don’t believe in the mystical arts?”

“I believe in the art of a good thief,” says Bucky. “All those years of me and Becca and Steve growing up in the slums, you think we never saw someone read a palm with one hand and cut a purse with the other?”

“We had a palm reader come to Delacroix once who told me I’d take a great journey and become a celebrated soldier. I’m supposed to believe she didn’t have the sight?” teases Sam.

“Anyone could have looked at you and guessed that,” says Bucky, and it sends a warm flush of pleasure through Sam’s body. He sets down the mug and reaches for Sam’s hand, setting it face-up on the table and drawing it closer. “Let me tell you what she saw, and then you can decide if I have the sight, too.”

“Bucky…”

But Bucky just shushes him. “I’m working.”

Across the courtyard, Becca ducks out of her quarters, quartermaster’s ledgers in one hand and a steaming cup of tea in the other. When she catches sight of her brother and Sam at the table, she raises her eyebrows in amusement. It would be more of a concern if Becca didn’t step out of the doorway a moment later to reveal Joaquín, whose eyes go wide at the sight of Sam and Bucky out in the courtyard so early.

Sam gives Becca a look and then pointedly looks away, pretending not to see Joaquín’s less than clandestine dash for his quarters on the other side of the garrison.

“Does he still think that’s a secret?” asks Bucky, who hasn’t lifted his eyes from Sam’s hand.

“Apparently,” says Sam. “But that’s nothing new. Tell me what you’re reading in my palm, oh great mystical one.”

Bucky glances up at him with one of those crinkly-eyed grins that Sam loves so much, in part because he’s one of the few who ever receives them. He traces a finger over two calluses on Sam’s hand, one by the base of his thumb, the other just below his middle finger.

“I see that you’re a great swordsman, and well practiced,” he says, taking on the grave tone of streetside fortune tellers. “I also see that you still sometimes need the best sniper in the regiment to get you out of trouble.”

“Are you seeing that he’s usually the one who gets me into trouble, or is that part not written on my palm?”

Bucky’s mouth ticks up just a little at the corner, but he schools his face into something more serious. He trails his finger over another crease in Sam’s palm, leaving Sam’s pulse skittering as he does. 

“I see a large, loving family, growing ever more vast,” he says, which is a cheat, because Bucky was beside Sam in bed last night when he read Sarah’s latest letter. His finger traces over a shorter line that curves left. “And here? Enemies stopped in their path at the hands of men who would ride into Hell at your command, each one loyal to the best commander they’ve ever known.”

There’s a tightening in Sam’s throat. “And what else?” he asks, hoarse.

“Great honor and acclaim,” says Bucky, before dragging a finger up from the base of his hand. “The esteem of your peers and your people.”

“And…?” prompts Sam. The courtyard feels even quieter than it did moments ago.

“And here,” says Bucky, tapping the center of Sam’s palm, “is one who would follow you into Hell not out of duty or honor. Terrible sort. Probably grumpy all the time. Brings down morale.”

“Oh? That bad?”

Bucky hums in confirmation. “Very much so,” he says. “But one that loves you very much, and will be here until you send him away.”

They’re both quiet for a long moment, gazes locked, before Sam finally says, “You didn’t steal anything.”

“Oh, but I did,” says Bucky, and lifts Sam’s hand to his lips, pressing a kiss to the spot where his fingers were just a moment ago. “And I have no intention of returning it.”

Sam smiles, small and delighted. “Good,” he says, turning his hand so he can hold Bucky’s for a moment. “I have no intention of asking for it back.”

[alongtidesoflight]

i swear my stepdad is so illogical AND stubborn it hurts

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

the doctor isnt neurodivergent or autistic or adhd or nonbinary or genderqueer or asexual. what the doctor is, is Not From Here

[valkyurii]

it’s funny how things have gone full circle with malenia. she was so hated when the game first came out, but then people grew to like her. then the dlc came out and now people hate her again lmao

[bonefall]

Tbh the whole 'bloodclan bans families and hates Cat God' thing really reminds me of the anti communist bullshit I was fed in highschool history class.

Every day I count my lucky stars that I got educated in a well-funded school in a blue state. My teachers were shockingly good in hindsight, I didn't get half of the same propaganda some of my friends in other states got.

[katierosefun]

my cancelled-able trait from the queer community would be that i really apparently love messy endings. i love u happy endings and i also love u such sad, messy, ambiguous endings . . . i love u endings where u have this weird pit in the bottom of your stomach because you know that there's love here but u have no idea what to do with it and u just have to deal with the fact that someone is profoundly affecting your life and you're not gonna get closure from it anytime soon . . . i love u queer love stories where it's really just "u don't always get to see the sunshine and rainbows at the end of it . . . sometimes all that's left is just one big question mark and the quiet hope that they get their shit together" . . .

[starflungwaddledee]

been working on answering a prompt i received in an ask the other day, and so i'm back thinking about... the Thing... 💖🎀 and thought maybe prompt doodles might help me work through this a little?

so uhhh.... if by any wild chance anyone has any ship suggestions for starstruck...??? feel free to send them through!

[deoidesign]

happy birthday! I just wanted to let you know that I came across this account after seeing this sick horror piece of old time churches, decinding to follow the page, and then realising that it was the same artist who'd written that sick comic on time travelling werewolves and vampires which I'd lost. and they're both t4t too ! effervescent

thank you!

Honestly it is an extremely unfamiliar reality that someone could know me from multiple different things... Not sure what to do with that but I'm glad to have impacted you in small ways and I hope to continue to do so! So thanks for being here, I'm glad that fate brought us back together haha

[hsslilly-blog]

i dislike drawing bags because i’m lazy but claire has this huge collection of bags i think. even though she’s always with That One. for uni and casual outings. i think bags are a big claire thing so whenever she Really goes out she always has a different purse matching her outfit