#just me venting ok

[buggachat]

legitimate question ....... why do people like to tell me all the reasons they don't like miraculous ladybug? i know i complain about the fact a lot, and i find myself on the defensive a lot, and i keep telling myself i'll stop and let it go, but it really is hard when people are always coming onto my posts, in my replies, in my comments, on my art and my fics and my text posts and anything i make, and telling me blatantly all the ways that they don't like the thing that i so blatantly find enjoyment in. "the show is bad". okay? good for you? why are you on my post about it? why don't you make your own? why are you telling me, specifically, this, on the art/fic/analysis i made that i assume you found by searching through the tag?

it's kind of a behavior that i legitimately don't understand. I'm a human being and I hate a lot of things, too. there are things i've loved at first and been disappointed by and have strong opinions about. there are things i like to complain about. so i'll complain about them to my friends or my family or my cat. but i have never, once, not even for a single moment, thought, "oh let me go into the tags of this media, find a positive post about it written by someone who's having fun with it, and make it that random stranger's problem". never once.

i just don't get it. i really don't get it. i sometimes worry that i come across like i'm heavily critical of people who just personally don't like the show, when really i'm just trying to defend my interests to the droves of strangers who are always coming specifically to me to tell me all the ways they hate the thing that makes me happy.

just.......... why? where does the urge come from? what do you get out of this?

[lazylittledragon]

so uhhhhhhhh. not to be cryptic and bitchy on main but congratulations to everyone in my messages for like 5 months on being right i guess

[post-punk-revival]

“It’s obviously valid to be bugkin but you also can’t just expect people to get over it when they have a genuine fear!”

I’m afraid of dogs.

Dogs put me extremely on edge. I avoid them while outside and if one’s in a room with me I’ll try to leave or else start to panic. Especially medium-sized and larger breeds. Mere images of dogs may not give me a panic attack, I will admit that, it's not a phobia. But if you want to talk hypocrisy, if you're opening up that discussion:

Hey dog therians, dog otherhearted folks and clinical cynanthropes, what if everywhere you went, the unspoken attitude of the alterhuman community was—

Don’t post dog photos or talk about being a dog in the main alterhuman tags. Don’t talk about your shifts, your instincts, or your kind in the main tags. If you’re a CZ, don’t talk so openly about your biological reality. It’s extremely triggering for people with cynophobia. The idea of physically being or becoming a dog grosses them out to briefly think about, so try not to discuss your literal existence. If you must, at least trigger tag yourself with #tw dogs or #tw dog mention so people can stay safe by censoring things that will hurt their mental health. It’s okay if you’re dogkin but in my DNI I'm going to write something like, don’t follow me if your blog hosts too many graphic close-up images of dogs doing dog things, even if you censor them. Don’t add dog photos to open posts in the alterhuman tags, you have no idea who might be sent into a panic attack by images of yourself so you should play it safe and only put them on your own posts. And stop being so offended by people who comment on posts about pet dogs or dog facts saying they want to bleach their eyes or kill it with fire, they can’t help having a phobia.

Not great, is it? Fortunately, and I do genuinely mean that, this is a sentiment you will only see once, on this post, completely satirically. Except it’s just a real sentiment for bug therians/hearted and other invertebrate alterhumans. Of course what I said was satire. But if it pissed you off when you thought it might not be, please, contemplate on that reaction, really spend some time on it.

Also, if you're wondering what I mean by "other invertebrate alterhumans", (and I'm sorry for how heated I got when I was writing this part last night even after editing it down)

You know I’m a bug zoanthrope too, not just a bird? And see above if you're wondering why I never said shit about it, just said I was a centipede therian and even then said I was just questioning and didn't really talk much about it. Am I allowed to talk about it without tagging it #tw body horror, even though I obviously don’t fucking find my own body to be horror? Can I talk about it without tagging it #tw bugs like just the very thing that I am needs to be censored for people's well-being? I'm sorry if I come across judgmental. Offline I constantly interact with people saying they’re a nature lover but centipedes are the only thing on Earth that they still hate. And I have to come online knowing that any of those people could be bloggers in the alterhuman tags and it’s my responsibility to tiptoe around them. “Because centipedes are scary and disgusting.” Because I’m scary and disgusting. My brain is not capable of hearing a difference and I can’t change that. It is so much my reality that it's the same emotional mix of anger and anxiety and hurt that would be (has been, lol) triggered by someone ranting about how much they hate Jews or trans people to me.

[yhowdy]

I don’t wanna tell people how to define their aromantic experience but I also feel invisible when a post describing not liking sex or not feeling sexual attraction is posted in an aromantic specific community. Not saying I don’t want to hear from aroace people’s experience with being aroace… it just seems iffy to me that you would post something unrelated (the post did not mention anything about romance) in a community about aromanticism specifically because not all aros are ace and not all aroaces feel like their aroness and aceness are indistinguishable or even connected.

[raconteur-wanpi]

this is the second time I've had bad symptoms and turned to art of the Patron Saint to feel better. Usopp save me. Save me Usopp. It's been a rough week.

[mail-me-a-snail]

2024 / 2025 i think things are gonna be okay.

[7roaches]

sorry for tormenting you nightmare its csuse i love u

he can be chilling out.. as a treat

[sleepwalk-station]

and ill cherish you until the day i die

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hi this is a very personal headcanon of mine, so theres a few details that will be very close to me, and a bit sensitive to others. but my deimos has a chronic illness. and him being a clone, he doesnt live very long. i hc that clones only live 50 years maximum... maybe even less because they arent really expected to survive. so to deimos, theres that sense of impending doom whenever a day passes. one day, maybe he wont wake up at all.

deimos fears that he's going to be the first one to die out of all of them. normally, hes cocky about his own mortality, but dying in a slow, silent or sudden death with no one around him is devastating. hank and sanf doesnt know, and 2b is the only one whos aware. dei doesnt know if he'll be missed, or even thought of at all. and everyday, his body is progressively getting worse. he stumbles all over, 2b knows that he cant really fix him and can only watch dei crumble under his own body.

i relate to that a lot. living with such a debilitating illness (especially one related to heart disease) makes you spiral. it makes you scared. it makes you feel like you did something wrong, or you made someone mad, and being born this way was a punishment. your body is frail and weaker than an average person, and you cant do anything but suffer.

i dont know how long i will live myself. my mom fears i wont even make it to my 30s. its such a crushing pressure to just.. breathe.

dei copes a lot of that stress with cigarettes. he cant help himself. this is the only way to relief it. its the only solution he knows.

2b comforts him. i know this isnt the solution to all of your problems, but i want to be here for you. when you need me. he will remember dei, no matter what. a promise.

dei clings onto him. i know that its true. because i trust you. despite it all, you just want to live for someone you care. no matter what life throws at you. will you still try to live a fulfilling life? of course. because they care. they want to see you happy. they want you to enjoy what you have, even if its very limited. even if your life is so short and its all so scary.

2b's hands are so gentle on him. its never like this with hank or sanf. normally he would just shout orders at them and they leave. hes so. soft. with dei. it makes him feel like the most special boy in the world. in his worst moments, dei becomes so weak and fragile due to his illness that he cant move like he used to, something like this would be immediately disregarded or thrown out if he was still in the agency. and he doesnt understand why 2b doesnt mind, but he appreciates it. so much.

i must cease my yapping. this is getting embarrassing.

[sunlit-mess]

really, really

starting to get tired of feeling tired all the time with seemingly no amount of rest can fix.

[sappi-papi]

my structure's compromised, but you still batter at all my fault lines

[aulerean]

[0vergrowngraveyard]

the want to stay informed vs the desire to hole myself off from the rest of the world whenever i see a current events post/new article

[spring-dust-sillythoughts]

After watching dogman and learning more about petey, his past and his criminal / villan life but still got a very good redemption and a chance to do good and be loved and happy again.

And all i could think was how that option and opportunity was took away from the league of villans in mha. And i got so sad, like i been constantly thinking "it wouldn't be nice if shigaraki redemption treated like this?" "It would've been so cool if toga had this chance to be this loved"

I KNOW it sounds like an ass-pull comparison (and it probably is) but fuck with me ok? I miss them and im searching them in everyone.

I can make comparison between pretty much every member with petey, they all have abusive family members, they got into crime, they're rejected by society but only petey character is managed with compassion and care to let him live and not just letting him killing himself or "save" with death...

And ik dogman is a childrens book and mha is for teenagers but they're both supposed to have positive and hopeful messages and both are about humanize its main villans that are unperfect victims of abuse and their circumstances, however one treats this with care in a touching and smart way and the other don't, and acts obtuse to it's own ideas giving us a bad resolution for it's villans and the heroes.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

the thing about grief is everyone’s like “it’ll never get smaller but you’ll grow around it” and yeah that’s true. i definitely have grown around my grief and it’s not constantly all-consuming anymore. but it hasn’t gotten smaller, and i don’t think people realise what that means. i think people figure it’ll feel smaller because they did grow around it, but it just means that it’s on the back of your mind now instead of at the forefront. you can do things and live your life without constantly only thinking of your grief. but sometimes it will also make itself known, and the sheer enormity of your grief will overwhelm you because ultimately it’s the same size as the day it arrived

[punisherdefender]

I was on pinterest looking poster of the Punisher bc i wanted to print some, but i found a poster with Punisher's skull on it but it was from another movie called "american sniper", i google it the logo of that movie and its the same as the punisher but smaller like wtf maybe im a little dramatic and autistic about it, but i HATE when people use the Punisher logo on US things or related with military/police. I FUCKING HATE IT. Please stop, Punisher logo is for PUNISHER, i dont care what kind of meaning they give to the logo is the logo of the FUCKING PUNISHER.

i have the logo of the punisher everywhere bc i fucking love him so much and i cant stop thinking about him. But i hate that people probably see it and think otherwise bc of the stupid people who changes the meaning aghhhhh

[azurityarts]

so my bike got stolen