#just look at the facts and data and be fr.

[chaoticlandworlder]

It's on sight @ those who say Max only won because of the safety car (yet didn't say shit about Miami).

[thearchercore]

imagine in karting you are faster than everyone else because of your insane talent which gives you a unique driving style and then you meet someone else who has the exact same style even if he doesnt win against you head to head too often (aacording to known data atleast) they really saw each other on track and went he's just like me fr...

and cuz of that it makes sense that they saw each other as the benchmark and thought they would end up at f1 together or not at all... although what really gets me is in vegas 2023 when max said all that, charles didn't look even slightly surprised, in fact he just said same and elaborated on it.... theyve totally talked about it before. it's not even a light topic. the implications...

oh for sure! i think charles was also his main opponent in the same age category. sure, max lost to drivers like esteban ocon in karting at some point, but he was still a year older than him.

i think also about the implications of max calling him and charles the next rivalry when charles was only driving for fp in haas. he truly was locked in on them making it together, pathetic

[kayharrisons]

Really fucked it up this time, didn't I my dear? [Bjorn x fem!reader] [3 of ?] [18+ ONLY]

You're avoiding him, more than you already have been lately.

A/N: fr wasn't kidding when I said this fic was giving me brainrot. Also been ill lately, so hoppefully this is ok!!!

Series warnings: unplanned pregnancy, discussions of abortion, eventual childbirth, commitmentphobe Bjorn, possessive Bjorn, talks of morning sickness and other pregnancy symptoms, friends to fwb to something Worse, cheating mentions, some degrading speak, nsfw content such as sex and eventual Alien type scenarios

Previous

You don't see the gang for another week. You're too caught up in your shifts and still reeling with the knowledge of your pregnancy.

You don't know what to do, in all honesty.

You want nothing more than to talk to Bjorn about it, to get his input, for him to just hold you and tell you it's gonna be okay no matter what.

But you're not spoken properly in weeks, not since the damn falling out you'd had. You're terrified of bringing it up to him, of making things even worse, of him wanting nothing to do with you ever again.

You exhale, breathing the muggy air in deep to your lungs before heading back inside your trailer. It's small, only built for one person. Would you raise the baby here? With Bjorn? Apply for a two person trailer?

You'd considered terminating it. It wouldn't be the worst choice, you imagine. Just take a pill, hunker down in the bathroom and wait for it all to be over, never think of it again.

You feel ill, at the thought. You'd tried not to get attached but...

You wanted it. You wanted to keep the baby. It felt selfish and weird but oh so right. You pictured yourself with your baby, their tiny face, a replica of Bjorn's blue eyes blinking innocently back at you. You'd never craved to have something so badly in your life.

You move into your bathroom, pursing your lips at your reflection in the old mirror. You don't look much different; maybe a couple shades lighter than usual thanks to the constant nausea but... otherwise, you look the same.

You turn to the side, smoothing a hand over your stomach, pulling your t-shirt taut against your skin.

Not showing yet, of course. You try and picture yourself with one of those cute little bumps that pregnant ladies get, but it's such a faraway idea that you can't even begin to.

Exhaling, you scrub a hand down your face, exiting your bathroom and retreating to your bedroom, collapsing onto the bed and curling up in the sheets. God, you were so tired lately, so fucking exhausted.

"Give your mom a break, huh, kid?" you murmur, brushing your fingers along the bare skin of your stomach. "Your dad sure fucking isn't. You've gotta be on my side, 'kay? He can't fight the two of us."

If he even wanted to be involved, of course.

\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/

"Cancelled again?" Navarro asks, arching a brow as Tyler reads through the message you had sent him on his data-watch.

"Hm?" he looks up, finding three expectant faces staring back at him. "Oh, um, yeah. Stomach ache."

Bjorn scoffs, slouching further into his seat and necking the rest of his beer. "She's shite at lyin'. And what's she messagin' you for anyway? She's my best mate-"

"Is she?" Kay asks, arching a brow at him. "Because you've been biting her head off every time you see her, lately. Doesn't seem very... best of you."

Bjorn rolls his eyes, cracking open another beer. "We've had a fall out. Whateva. Still don't change the fact that she's my best mate, get your own," he asides to Tyler, sneering.

Tyler shakes his head at his cousin, swatting the back of his head on his way past to the kitchen. "She didn't look well, when I saw her last." he frowns, grabbing a box of cereal and popping a handful in his mouth. "Had to do a security check for work at the mines, she looked half asleep on her drill."

Kay shifts uncomfortably in her seat, playing with one of her curls. Bjorn's eyes snap to her, narrowing in thought.

It was one of her nervous tics. His cousin was hiding something.

He soon focuses his attention back on Tyler, though, seeing as the topic is on you.

"Probably trying to work as many hours as she can, same as the rest of us." Navarro reasons, attempting to placate her brother. "You know what she's like though, over achiever."

"Hey, we love her for it." Kay defends, smiling softly. Bjorn exhales, chugging half of his beer at that.

Ain't that the fucking truth?

He considers his can of beer as that traitor thought crosses his mind, and with that, he's downing the other half.

"Wanna take it easy there, cuz?" Tyler asks, brows raised, concern shining in his eyes.

Bjorn scowls. "Fuck off, dad."

He grabs a third can.

\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/

There is a loud, persistent knocking at your door.

You startle awake, sitting bolt upright in your bed and bleerily blinking at your dark surroundings. Your head is pounding in time with the door.

"Who the fuck-?" you groan, staggering out of bed.

Your rent is paid, you're off work for the next two days, your friends typically don't knock like assholes.

So just who in the fuck has the audacity?

You pull your shirt back down over your stomach, yawning as you open the door of your trailer.

"What?" you damn near bark, too tired for whoever is interrupting you and your much needed rest.

Oh.

Bjorn's glassy blue eyes blink back at you, raking over your dishevelled state in a way that would previously make your stomach curl with desire. Now it's full of dread.

He wets his lips, swaying a little, before smoothly leaning against the railing of the steps that lead to your trailer.

"Thissa bad time, love?" he drawls, voice thick, deep, the words slurred.

For fucks sake.

With a sigh, you step out of the way and let him inside.

[seirooo0]

I fucking lost it

Type: Drabble (??????????)

Synopsis: You, a robot. Rui, your creator

Content warnings: GN!Reader as usual : 3, probably angst if I can write angst good enough; Uhhhhhhh you got abandoned yaur hahhahahahaha

C. Note: I've lost it, have this content before I disappear for the next few months again <3 love you guys fr fr — Thing under cut!!

For as long as you remember, you were created for the purpose of accompanying someone..

That someone was your creator.

You were created to be with him, to cater his needs—particularly the need for a friend. Despite the fact you don't quite show the enthusiasm when he rambles about his little inventions or when he has a new show idea, you still show that you're listening to him regardless of your inability to feel emotions or express yourself. "So this one brings you anything you need or want, just say its name and the thing you want it to bring to you!" Exclaimed Rui, showing off a robot in his hands. You nodded, your face painting a rather blank look as you clapped with your metallic hands "That sounds amazing." Spoken with a monotone voice. Rui's expression slowly falters as he smiles rather sadly. The concept of emotions was an alien to you, that you, subconsciously, tilted your head in mere confusion. Confused, as to why he looked sad, confused as to how you made him sad. Question after question popped in your head but before you could even ask, the purple haired man shook his head. "No, it's nothing. Sorry, I just remembered something." He immediately answered, even though you haven't asked the question yet.

Of course, he knew what you were thinking—or at least assumed and got the correct answer—he made you after all. Programmed the way you think, behave, move, speak, everything. That's why it's not a wonder how he knows almost everything you're about to say even though you haven't opened your mouth yet.

Truly, truly, you knew you cannot replace a real human, someone to accompany Rui; your creator. You cannot replace the warm feeling of talking to a human being. You cannot replicate the emotions and the enthusiasm one would have when talking with someone. You cannot emphasize, you cannot replace whatever every human has. You are made of metal after all—pure metal—and some computer programming shenanigans. Even though you are unaware of some things, this one you are fully aware of. And because of that awareness, rather than feeling a tiny bit of relief that you are able to at least alleviate the pain of loneliness, you felt pity. Not only towards him, but also towards yourself. The you whose only sole purpose was to accompany Rui and make his days less dreadful and yet you brought nothing more but a sole reminder of the boy's loneliness.

You wished for the best for him, you encouraged him to talk to others thanks to your advancing AI knowledge. After all, he programmed you to be an AI who learns based on experience. So from all the research and data gathering you did—even though you barely understood emotional needs, you couldn't really make your heads or tails on the topic—you brought out the best in you to help your creator. That overtime, to Rui, you felt like a real human; a real friend to him. He considered and saw you as an actual human being, not a robot he created to cope with his loneliness. Rui considered you one of his closests friends aside from Nene and Mizuki.

Time flew by rather quickly for you, or perhaps it's because you don't really have a sense of time. But now you watch as the once young middle schooler slowly grows in his second year of highschool. You couldn't always be there for him, since they never allowed a (almost) human-like robot to be a student nor a visitor there (they banned Rui from bringing you to school for a reasonable purpose). So seeing him make more friends and even reconnected with his childhood friend and a friend from middle school made your heart—albeit non-existent—feel warm. Oftentimes, he'd tell you about his troupe; how he blew this friend of his, Tsukasa, out of a canon again and up in the skies; how Emu gave him another amazing show idea— or the way Nene would profusely groan everytime Tsukasa would proclaim yet another 'poetic' speech from how Rui described it— it was rather heartwarming. Really. You couldn't be any more happier for him if you could even feel.

One day, he introduced you to his troupe, the one he always mentions day by day after school. And the first comment one of them made—Tsukasa was the name, was it?— It was quite amusing to say the least.

"You're friends with a robot, Rui?! Did you make this?"

And you watch as Rui answers with enthusiasm, answering questions while you watch Tsukasa who has a dumbfounded expression on his face. You very rarely speak, so hearing a voice out of your metallic body further shooked the duo (excluding Nene, Rui had introduced her to you first before the other two anyway). Tsukasa kept making comments about how it was possible that Rui made this, you being a robot. Something a 5-year-old child would fawn over. Similar situation with Emu, however she complimented you more than anything, and that made you smile—or at least, you think you smiled. You couldn't really tell.

"Is it right to call it a 'friend' rather than your creation, though? I mean, aren't robots incapable of feeling anything?"

Tsukasa absentmindedly commented, which brought you back to painful reality.

You were never human. Right.

Watching as Rui talked more with his friends, even saying along the lines of "How cruel Tsukasa-kun! My friend here may be a robot but they accompanied me throughout my earlier years!" although maybe more dramatically. Tsukasa apologized to you, but you don't really understand why there was a need for it. Nevertheless, you never dared to ask.

Throughout the conversation, you felt rather… for a lack of better words; alienated. Sure, you're aware that you're not human. But having it pointed out made it… how would you call it.. awkward on your side, perhaps.

But of course, like any other time. You didn't mind. You're not programmed to think about complicated things after all.

However, watching him slowly drift away from you was something you expected from the beginning. But nevertheless, you were happy for him.

At least, you think you do.

But now that you've thought about it, you constantly refer to this weird thing as 'feel', 'feeling', any other synonym it has. From all the research you've done after your dilemma over this issue, you came to a conclusion that indeed; you are feeling emotions. And perhaps, one of the biggest flaws as a continuously learning AI robot is slowly learning what they are. You felt happy for Rui, but you knew that his slow yet painful detachment to you was overpowering your happiness. However as a creation whom Rui believed to be flawless, you refuse to speak about this out loud. You knew that as much as Rui made you this advanced, he never intended to give you any emotions. He never intended, because he doesn't know how to. And also maybe to avoid making you feel sadness. After all, happiness will never be without sadness, the same as dark cannot exist if there's no light.

So here you are, finding that you are more and more in a 'shutdown' state. Usually, it was automatic as a way of resting and recharging your battery. However, Rui reprogrammed you to be powered off manually now, and you never dared to ask why.

Now, you're here. Finding yourself sitting down on the floor absentmindedly as Rui looked at you with a rather melancholic look before approaching you leisurely. Muttering a silent gratitude, you watch as he reaches for your power button. You couldn't quite see his face clearly, but you assumed he wore a sad smile; the same smile you remembered he always wore back in middle school. Watching with a blurry vision, Rui puts you inside the closet, keeping you locked away until the next time he uses you. You wished that you could be used again— to see his face again and tell you about his new invention, or his new show idea. But now, it feels like a faraway dream as you slowly slip out of consciousness.

The last image you had seen was his face, slowly disappearing as he closed the closet door.

It was enough to make you cry, but you couldn't.

Silently, you wished you could.

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Footnote: We eating good tonight

[lover-of-mine]

Anna! Hi! Hello!

I literally just joined tumblr today to be able to anon ask you. I think I should be the anxiety anon (aa is for sure in honor of Capt. Dad Bobby Nash and not in bad taste) because even typing this makes me feel way too seen. Does this count as human interaction? Guys, is it gay social anxiety if you only have inside thoughts because the idea of having outside thoughts makes you unwell? I'm not shaking--no, check--I am totally shaking rn, which is making it hard to type. But, I feel like I have reached critical mass on my Buddie thoughts and I will explode if I can't share them.

It is probably very rude to bust through the wall of your house like the Kool-Aid Man, so I want to say that I love your voice--your characterization and dialogue, particularly how you use humor in your fics is just *chef's kiss* for me. I have read them all but can't anon comment. I love your color theory and costume meta, too. Your takes are so measured and thoughtful and honestly just logical in a time where 9-1-1blr feels kinda sorta unmoored in reality. Fuck Twitter, your spy network tag is now my news feed because fandom reading comprehension and critical thinking scores have plummeted recently. Lou Who knows why?

Some things that are making me laugh/cry/cry-laugh rn:

The cockfighting ring call in Bobby Begins Again (2x16). Let's talk about closet space, bro: he-who-must-not-be-named canonically full-body flinched at literal cock coming at him. Somehow this is his gayest canon moment to me even though he has 2 canon full-on face assault man-on-man kisses.

The bridge call finale in Season 6, which I haven't watched in a minute, so I welcome fact-checking. I can't recall if it happens at the end of Love Is in the Air (6x17) as a cliff-hanger or if it is in Pay It Forward (6x18) proper, but right before the truck hits the bridge and triggers the collapse, Bobby is on the medical call on the bridge and he verbally instructs "K*nnard" to do something. The extra, presumably 1 of the old man retired firefighters they use to fill-out the 118 ranks, is wearing the "K*nnard" turnouts that nobody needed since 2x16's very accurate "Fairwell T*mmy. The 217's Loss is Our Gain" cake. So, how's that for invisible string debunker costume meta. As of 6x18: K*nnard was literally just an unused turnout coat on a hook in the costume dept. "Who cares?!?" is the 118 and 9-1-1's motto, fr. Like, nobody remembers gaf that he's a pilot, too, in an episode where Lucy flies off in the air ambulance, never to be seen again. Is "becoming a pilot" 9-1-1's way of telling your kid the dog "went to the farm" when you really had it put down while they were at school?

My change.org petition is for Buck and Eddie to have OS and RG's tattoos. I know makeup has been covering them up for years, but it has been bothering me so much since the ABC switch. It's like they're using the same tone of cover-up for RG and OS and it reads so yellow-orange that I consider it color theory outlier. Like, real talk, what do yellow-orange arms mean for the data, Anna? Tattoo-having people are known to get more tattoos. This is normal. RG and OS have so many more tattoos now than in Season 2 that Season 7 and 8 Buck and Eddie look like they have skin conditions that stop at their watch-straps and somehow in Season 8 RG is getting forehead-only orange foundation? Listen, I consider myself fandom-standard unhinged, not completely deranged, but like the full body Ken-doll spray tan on OS in Masks (8x05) has pushed me over the edge.

My Ted Talk is titled "Hey, ABC: Buddie = Fiscal Responsibility" because, wtf, just stop paying superfluous guest actors to be love interests and let the 2 mains shack up like God T*m M*near intended. (I lowkey think that smart cookie JLH is a girlboss genius who tied herself to KC, yeah yeah because of chemistry, Madney forever, of course, but also as job security when she said that Chimney was what she wanted for Maddie.) Seriously, let's reallocate the bullshit love interest slush fund money and bring the kid home. I hardcore head canon that Ravi saw Gerrard from the buffet line at the medal ceremony and just noped the fuck out of there indefinitely.

I'm just gonna leave this all here and back away because I've maxed out on all the human/social interaction accepted fandom love language of hyperbolic ranting that I can partake in before I turn into a full-blown thunderstorm chihuahua.

Can someone please Uber me a clown car home?

My love, hi. This was so fucking great to read ksoskaoakoakaoaa I'm literally on the floor laughing. Thank you for the compliments on the fics and metas. When someone says they like my characterization, I ascend to a better plane of existence. Honestly, the cock fight calls is really something else kspskapakoaa and they just didn't bother checking if they had written someone off before using the turnout because they needed more people there I guess.

The tattoos one had me howling tho, the cover-up of Ryan's hand tattoo this season has been AWFUL and the fact that they just wax Oliver all over to cover him in orange foundation drives me nuts, like please, just let them have the tattoos. (I was actually informed that they would need to license the tattoo from the artist for every use of it depending on the tattoos they decide to keep and that's probably why don't let them keep them, but if we are not letting them keep them, please color match better).

Honestly, they just need to get together already, please end this madness, it's been long enough, let Ryan be paid to make out with Oliver like he's been wanting all along kspskspakaokapa

Anyway, I'm obsessed with you, thank you for this one 🫶🫶

[transgenderpolls]

yo can u tell your followers to avoid @/womenanonpolls bcs they're transphobic asf fr

i looked through the blog and man it's so bizarre. i'm inclined to give the benefit of the doubt about the op being a child, especially since it looks like she doesn't even know what afab MEANS, and that she had to go "look up [phalloplasty] to see if it was real" after someone told her an afab person can get it - but also, who knows, maybe it's purposeful trolling. but if it IS trolling it's also pretty weak.

odder that the polls themselves aren't transphobic at all, just the blog's mandate of excluding trans women from them despite the fact that most of them have nothing to do with specifically being a cis woman, and that ALL of them have a 'not applicable/see results' option anyway.

anyway tbh the premise of the blog is so obviously weird i don't think anyone would really need to be warned away. and like if one of their polls pops up on your dash, i mean... if the intention of the blog is transphobia that the owner is just trying to hide, then answering the polls as a trans woman would only be "ruining" the data that they want to get or whatever.

[luciluck2046-md]

Murder Drones: Glowing Future AU

5. MF get some therapy wtf

TW: Mentions of Suicide. Reader Discretion is advised

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"And here's m-my bedroom. J and V still have to take their things, but th-the ceiling is all fr-free now-" I mumble, annoyed by the fact that I have to show HER the house.

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"The fuck you mean ceiling?" Tessa asks me.

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"I haven't sl-slept well so DO-DON'T ASK ME SHIT." I groan. This is only kinda true, I mean I did have the shittiest sleep of my life but I also don't want her in my house. Also N is still helping the girls with moving in at Lizzy's, so right now I'm alone. "Anyway if you nee-ed to sle-sleep, I'll give you a sleeping bag or someth-ething." I add, yawning.

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"OHHHH DID YOU DESIGN THE DRESSER??" She asks me, admiring my closet.

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"No..? Dad built ha-half of the things in this house and most of th-them suck. Except thi-things with fucking doors..." I mumble, sitting on my chair to finally move in the important data back to my pc from before the reboot I made two days ago.

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"And interesting choice of... Liking." She says confused. "OHHH whatcha doing???" She asks me, looking at me loading different data.

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"Unfucking the shit I fuc-fucked up." I roll over my eyes, while inserting the next USB stik.

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"Думаю, стоит сказать, что я очень горжусь своей работой здесь. / 𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚑 𝚜𝚊𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙸'𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎." Doll tells me. I groan.

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"Tessa, do NOT op-open my closet." I say tired after I hear her slightly touch the doors. I didn't even turn to see her. I hear the door squeak as it opens slowly. "TESSA I FU-FUCKING WARNED YOU!" I yell, throwing a pen at her as I spin in my chair. She catches it right before it hits her screen-

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"Come on, can't I explore a little?" I shake my head. I would literally kill her if N wasn't so attached to her. But if she does anything suspicious she's dead.

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"I kno-know exactly where you are in my room de-despite not seeing you, so BEHAVE fo-for fuck's sake..." I mumble, turning back at my laptop. I know every single squeak my floor makes, so it's easy to detect her.

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"Hiiiiii Uuuziii, hiiiiii Teeeeess!" N knocks on my door, opening it with a wide smile. I chuckle. He's so cute when he smiles...

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"N, can you do anything about the fact that Uzi doesn't let me rummage through her closet?" Tessa asks just like a sibling would do.

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"Even I can't go trough it, so I am sure I can't." He says confused. "What do you like at her closet so much?" He asks. I think about it.

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"Yeah... Why ar-are you so interested in my dresse-ser?" I ask her.

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"That thing seems filled with drawings and I NEED to know how they look." She responds amused. I'm pretty sure that's not the reason she wants to see my closet, but N is satisfied with her answer.

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"Well Uzi puts my drawings in there... Actually can I show her my drawings!?" N asks me excited.

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"Oh, yeah, just let me get them." I respond, smiling. I get up from my chair and open the closet to get N's drawings.

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"Hey what are those about?" He asks me, pointing to some drawings on the top shelf.

... OH ROBO-GOD, OH SHIT, OH FUCKING SHIT. HE DOES NOT NEED TO SEE THOSE.

"UHHHHH SO-SOME OF MY RAMBLINGS!?!?" I try to find an excuse, picking the sheets and starting to crumple them up.

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"Ohh, let me see!" Tessa says, pulling a drawing from my hands.

I try to get it back but there's no use. I cover my face embarrassed and get prepared to hear her shit.

"... GOD WTF, HOW OLD ARE YOU!?!?" She yells at me.

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"Huh, what are those-" N asks, trying to see what Tessa's holding, but she hides it from him.

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"NO!" We both yell, I embarrassed and Tess frightened. "Can you go outside for a second? I need to DISCUSS with this girl for a bit." She asks, making sweet eyes but with a very sarcastic voice. He goes out the door after saying "Alright" and I get prepared for the questions.

"I'm 18 so sh-shut up..." I mumble, answering her previous question.

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"I am pretty sure those things were on that shelf for over 4 years, WHY WOULD YOU DRAW THAT!?!?" She yells at me.

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"RO-ROBO-GOD, CAN'T A KID HAVE CRU-CRUSHES FOR FUCK'S SAKE?" I yell back at her. She slaps her face.

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"... You drew some unorthodox shit. Some would even say catholic. WHO'S THAT GIRL!?" Tess yells again.

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"I have the ri-right to remain sile-lent." I mumble embarrassed. I know who that girl is. And I'm trapped with her as a virus right now.

"ХАХАХАХАХА Я ТЕБЕ ДЕЙСТВИТЕЛЬНО ПОНРАВИЛСЯ? Я УЧИЛ, ЧТО ЭТО ШУТКА, ЭТО ТАК ХОРОШО!!! / 𝙷𝙰𝙷𝙰𝙷𝙰𝙷𝙰𝙷𝙰 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰𝙲𝚃𝚄𝙰𝙻𝙻𝚈 𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴𝙳 𝙼𝙴? 𝙸 𝚃𝙰𝚄𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙰 𝙹𝙾𝙺𝙴, 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃'𝚂 𝚂𝙾 𝙻𝙰𝙼𝙴!!!" Doll laughs in my head.

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"Doll Please, Laugh Quieter." Cyn says from my tail. I groan LOUDLY.

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"... Lesbian." Is all that Tessa tells me. I'm about to give her a godly ass beating if she doesn't shut her mouth.

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"I'M BISE-SEXUAL, BITE ME!" I respond annoyed.

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"Is everything alright in there?" N asks, slightly opening the door.

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"Yeah, she's j-just being annoying..." I mumble, shutting the door to my closet so hard, that I'm sure that the drones in the other end of the bunker's hallway heard it. I also completely dematerialize the drawings that I crumpled in my hands some minutes ago.

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"Girl, who hurt you?" Tessa asks annoyed.

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"Shut. U-up." I say as I sit back to my laptop. "Say anything else a-and you're fucking dead-ad." I add. She is not a friend of mine so she CANNOT say or do anything that annoys me WITHOUT regretting.

𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂

My screen turns on in the dead of night. N is hanging from the feeling like usual, and Tessa is sleeping on the couch from the living room.

I groan. I used to get full 8 hours of sleep before I decided to build my railgun. Now I have to survive off oil and sleep, but at least now I don't need to charge anymore. I used to always get tangled in the wire. We're so lucky we can't choke...

As I am lost in my thoughts, I hear N whimper quietly, and I sit up on the edge of my bed to look at him. His screen turned on, and he's... Crying... Did a bad memory get to him..?

"N..? Come he-here, do you want to ta-talk?" I ask him worried. He nods his head, getting off the bar and sitting next to me.

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"Please don't do anything dangerous..." He whimpers.

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"Oh... N, I pro-promise you that I'll always be safe... As lo-long as it's okay for me to be safe!..." I try to reassure him, while not lying.

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"No Uzi! I want you to stop sacrificing yourself for almost no reason... Please understand that!.." He whines.

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"But if you die- Actu-tually I don't think you'd understand... Okay, I'll ke-keep myself safe, I promise." I try to explain to him, but I give up, hugging him. Lies sometimes are better. It's for his own good.

We sit in silence, hugging each other for a while. After about twelve minutes, N finally breaks the silence.

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"Uzi... Do you trust Tess?" He asks me, still sad, but at least he's not crying.

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"I would kill her if sh-she does anything to hurt you." I respond angered. I don't trust her. Too shady, too curious, too... Human like. I don't hate her, I despise her.

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"... I don't think I trust her either..." He tells me.

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"It's alright... I'll prot-rotect you. I promise." I respond, making another promise.

I will keep only one of those promises.

And it sure isn't the first one.

We sit on the edge of my bed, still hugging, for about half an hour. N yawns tired.

"Uzi..? Can I sleep with you this time?" He asks me, slightly embarrassed. I chuckle, nodding my head.

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"Sure, the bed is big, you can sleep next to me!" I smile.

𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂~𖥂

"OH MY ROBO-GOD, UZI FUCKING DOORMAN, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?!?" I wake up to mom yelling at me. I rise up on my bed, waiting for my vision to calibrate.

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"... Wh-what happened?" I ask sleepy. Then I realize. N is still sleeping next to me. Actually wait, wasn't I hugging him while sleeping-

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"DID YOU SLEEP WITH HIM??" she keeps scolding me. N finally wakes up, I wonder how did it take him that long.

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"Y-yes I MEAN NO, ONLY NEXT TO HI-HIM NOT WITH HIM-" I try to explain.

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"Good morning Uzi! Good morning ma'am!" N says, unaware of what's going on right now.

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"DID YOU SLEEP WITH MY DAUGHTER!?" Mom asks him, threatening him with a shoe.

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"Huh? I just had a bad memory and Uzi comforted me, I wouldn't call that sleeping with her." He tells mom, actually explaining something.

Mom is speechless. I guess she wanted a reason for me to break up with him but now she sees that he doesn't deserve to break up with me.

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"Weeell weeeeeeell, what do we got here?" Tessa comes in the room, acting all knowing and annoying. "Who has a crush on who?" She asks like we aren't just dating.

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"... We've been officially dating for ab-about a week." I mumble tired. "Just when I finally get some sleep y'all wake me up..." I say, after a big yawn.

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"YOU WHAT??? N YOU SMART MOTHERFUCKER!!!" She yells, hugging N in a proud sister like way.

I just realize that I want an older sister. Or sibling. I used to think about this all the time. Huh. Weird. She won't be my sister figure though.

"И вам доброе утро, почему вы все решили поорать в этот утренний час? / 𝙶𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚘𝚘, 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛?" Doll asks me annoyed.

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"I don't know, I finally had over 6 hours of sleep and they decide to wake me up." I mumble in response. Mom is looking weird at me.

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"Anyway, can I go ba-back to sleep?" I ask annoyed.

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"You have to go to sch-" She tries to say but I will NOT let that slide.

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"Uhem, this vir-virus is so bad it's actually fucking my circuits up. And I literally downloaded viruses th-that burn your processor to get rid of school. And they did almost no-nothing. I am NOT going to sch-school." I explain to her. Only I know how much I tried to download bad viruses only to see that I got the best antivirus. Ever. It's good most of the time but when I actually need it, it doesn't work.

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"Alright, you can stay home. I'm going at Yeva's house again today, so be careful to not destroy the house." She tells me, leaving the room.

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"... Can I go to school?" N asks me after she left.

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"If yo-you want? You aren't tied to-to me." I respond amused. He eeks excited and he hugs me goodbye. "Have f-fun!" I tell him, and he leaves too.

Dad is gone at work, so right now only Tessa's here. I lie in my bed, face down in my pillow, and groan loudly.

"Alrighty, so care to explain how you two got together? I'm surprised he chose you out of all people." Tessa asks me, spinning on my chair.

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"Same." I mumble. "Can you leave me alo-alone for FIVE FUCKING MI-MINUTES!?!?" I yell at her tired.

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"Alright!" She answers, keeping her mouth shut.

...

Only for the next five minutes. That bitch.

"SOOOOOOOOOOOOO What do you think he likes about you?" She asks amused. I am sure she counted every single second.

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"... I don't know-ow, don't ask me." I respond embarrassed. "I honestly don't see-see what he sees- WAIT ARE YOU TRYING TO GE-GET ME TO VENT!?" I yell at her, even more embarrassed.

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"Maybe." She smirks. "What do you see in N?" She asks something else.

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"A cute-te inocent boy with puppy personality. If any-anyone would hurt him, I would kill everyone in the room then my-myself." I mumble the last part.

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"What would happen if you lost control over your body because of Cyn or... Whatever that virus is, it seems important." She asks me. I should have seen this coming, but this question really hit me in my weak spot.

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"BITE ME" I yell at her.

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"... I already tr-tryed to kill myself once because of this, and N is alr-already marked by this fact. Don't re-remind me about this event." I respond after a period of silence.

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"I wonder, you don't seem that special." She chuckles. "He should have taken V, she's better." She adds.

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"HE CHOSE ME-ME OVER HER SO SHUT-UT UP." I yell at her. She sounds just like my intrusive thoughts. I hide myself in the corner of my bed. "Just sh-shut up." I mumble, trying not to cry.

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"But isn't it annoying to know that you could lose control at any moment? Isn't it painful to know that you could be alone again?" She keeps saying, with an evil smirk. I think she knows what she's doing, since I'm on the verge of tears.

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"... Sh-shut up... Please..." I whimper.

It should be a nightmare, am I right? But wait... We can't dream. If this is a nightmare, this means that it's going to happen anyway.

"Bruh I don't want N to date someone with this little self respect. LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF FOR FUCK'S SAKE." She yells at me, dropping the act. "I didn't want to get you crying, but come on. He ain't leaving you even if that means the death for him." She adds annoyed.

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"... Wh-what was that..?" I ask trying to calm down.

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"A TEST. You have so little self respect, and I am not letting N date someone this... This unaccepting of themselves. He clearly saw something in you so TRY to see it. At least thank me for telling you one of your problems." She explains bored. "Also go get some therapy, I haven't seen anyone else ever need it more than you do." She mumbles.

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"... BITE-TE ME, I DON'T NEED THERAPY!" I yell at her. She raises an eyebrow.

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"На самом деле, говоря, а не просто слушая, вам ДЕЙСТВИТЕЛЬНО НУЖНА терапия. / 𝙰𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝙳𝙾 𝙽𝙴𝙴𝙳 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚢." Doll gets in the discussion. I roll over my eyes.

I am still staying in the corner of my bed, leaning onto the corner of my room.

"Come on, go get your oil or whatever, I know y'all overheat very fast. I don't understand what was Cyn thinking." Tess tells me.

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"One Word. Efficiency." Cyn responds annoyed. I don't see in any way how this is more efficient.

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"Yesterday ev-evening I drank the last can, I have to go to re-refill at Doll's place." I mumble. Doll killed so many drones that her house is a very big oil supply.

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"По крайней мере, поблагодарите меня, что я сохранил тела. / 𝙰𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸 𝚔𝚎𝚙𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚜." Doll tells me annoyed. I roll over my eyes and I whisper a "thank you" while heading out the door.

"Do you want to co-come? Mom is still trying to find where Yeva's backup is. Since Doll's works, that me-means her should should work too." I ask her.

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"Sure! Yeva was one of the best hacker's I've seen." She approves.

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"Can you explain how the fu-fuck do you know every bit of mo-mom and Yeva's personal life?" I question her, kinda laughing.

We may actually get along one day... Though there are more chances for me to leave N than for us to be friends.

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Wait are those two actually getting along? NO FUCKING WAY!1!!!1!! It's so fucking insane!!! Anyway, nothing very bad happened this chapter, isn't it surprising?

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Knowing my writing quirks, the next chapter will have a BIG depressing moment. Or maybe not ;)

[spongebob-connoisseur]

Check this out! (It’s on TV Tropes)

Aww! I love the line "You saterize me, don't you?". It's referencing Lorre's quote from Casablanca "You despise me, don't you?". I love this! Thank you for sharing this with meeee! Also I totally didn't wait to answer this on Peter Lorre's birthday. What are you talking about?

Anyways, this reminds me of when saw Slappy before on tv tropes but he was under The Renfield (here's his little mention)

But I didn't know they had a whole category dedicated to Peter Lorre parodies! I mean it's tv tropes and I'm kinda dumb but nvm that. Look! There's Lorre-tweety! I still haven't watched Carrotblanca but I do dream of vandalizing a Tweety Bird plush and making it into Lorre Tweety because he's SO CUTE. I'd let him end my entire bloodline <3

Tbh this is a pretty comprehensive guide to peter parodies if you're not ready to dish out $30 for The Animated Peter Lorre book (I mean you SHOULD but this gives a good summary). It explains who Peter Lorre is and what his parodies consist of and various other things. I like how it mentions that at this point the caricatures have very little do with Lorre himself at this point.

There's also mentions of parodies I didn't know existed. There seems to be more Looney Tunes peter parodies than I thought.

It also points out the Renfield/Igor trope being used in peter caricatures (despite lorre never playing either roles) which is IMPORTANT TO MENTION. I'm a certified h8r of the Lorre/Igor parody. Slappy gets a pass though.

It also has facts I didn't know like the ambiguously gay trait that some parodies have is from the Sydney Greenstreet/Peter Lorre movies.

Tbh fair because they kept marketing Peter as the twink.

How many TIMES I have seen this specific frame of Peter Lorre from The Maltese Falcon whenever watching a youtube essay about gay cinema. It's like 3 times so fat which isn't a lot but still. I feel like I'm the only one who didn't catch Joel Cairo was supposed to be gay. I thought he was just stylish. Zero brain cell activities.

Imo the fruitiest of the Greenstreet/Lorre movies is The Mask of Dimitrios because I thought they were going to kiss fr. I thought I was crazy so I showed it to my friend (without mentioning why because I don't want my data to be biased) and she also said she thought they were going to kiss (to put her own words lightly)

Also there is a mention of Slippy Lotte from Spongebob! (Slappy's feminine counterpart)

I like how they had to specify out all of the peter parodies known to exist (and according to The Animated Peter Lorre book 700+) Slippy is the only female one. Let's go gurl boss. Slippy is more gurl fail in my heart tho <3

[novelcain]

OKAY! So when I was about 10/13 years old my mom took me to get a check up.. perfectly normal right? What could possibly go wrong.. oh yeah I was also there to get my shots.. I hate getting shots, always have always will.. it’s the syringe needles!! the fact that I know they have to be hollow enough for stuff to go in and out of the inside of those things is just wrong to me.. 😟 Anyway me and my Mom get there and everything SEEMS to be alright.. until the doctor comes back and says I have to get EVERY! SINGLE! SHOT! SINCE BIRTH!! OVER AGAIN!!!

Ya wanna know why??? BECAUSE THEY LOST ALL MY MEDICAL RECORDS!! ALL OF THEM!! 😡

Like okay yeah, shit happens I guess..

But.. my colorful, sugary sour Overlord.. They didn’t lose literally ALL my medical records once.. NOT twice!! NO no no no… BUT THREE FUCKING TIMES!!! In.. a.. row.. 😑 And all in the same Year.. I shit you not. 😤

Sssoooo yeah, I’m a bit traumatized and HATE going to the Doctor.. 😰

SO! 2020!! Covid shows up and I have to get a vaccine shot.. my Mom bless her heart comes with me, and I have to fill out the form… I spent an embarrassingly long time trying to write down my date of birth..

I was shaking so bad and ended up handing the paper & pen over to my Mom… Because I couldn’t remember which way the number 3 faced.. I was having a freaking mini panic attack.. at 21 🥲

I also had a panic attack & nearly fainted when I had to get my molars removed and the nurse showed up with the iv bag.. and I finally realized I was getting the syringe not the gas.. hadn’t panicked the whole time till that poor lady strolled in.. I think I scared her a lil when I started hyperventilating and asking my mom, wh-what what? What??? But it turned out okay!! That incident happened when I was about 18 I think..

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BRUH i know what you mean with the hating needles thing! I have had nothing but bad experiences with them. Like when I was younger I'd have to get allergy shots every week so I already HATED shots bc of that but then one day this super old bitch gave me my shot and literally stuck me so hard that the needle scraped my fucking bone! My bicep hurt for a whole month I couldn't do anything!

And then this one time I was in middle school and I had to get my blood drawn for testing, and some info about me I have always had very thick skin, and the nurse tried to use a butterfly needle but when she tried putting it in the damn thing broke against my skin! Anyways, everyone panicked for a hot sec and now it's in my file somewhere that they have to use big needles on me now! LIKE THE FUCK!?!?🤬🤬🤬

Ugh! If I sat here and told you all my needle stories we'd be here all day.

But my gods, how they gonna lose your damn records THREE FUCKIN TIMES!!!??? It's called a fuckin computer system you numb skulls! If it's really that hard to input the data yourselves then ffs just scan a pic of the records and save that!

Me: On behalf of my fruity heh subject, Skittle's gonna sue! *sprinkes dark matter on them bitches*

But fr tho same with the covid thing. In order to get my second vaccine I had to be drugged before going, and I STILL had a panic attack the whole time, not cause of my fear of needles tho. I mean it was a little bit because of the needles but mainly because of the agoraphobia. I think that was really the first instance of me being unable to function alone in public. I had to have Ritz and her mom there to talk for me and fill out the paper work cause I couldn't. I was shaking, I couldn't communicate outside of nodding to Ritz, and I couldn't even look at anyone other than Ritz. There were a few times I almost passed out inside of the clinic waiting room. I'm pretty sure now that I think about it that that was the last time I was out in public at all and that was almost 2 years ago. Definitely was NOT a good motivator to make me do it again lol. Sorry this is low key embarrassing for me to talk about and I honestly spent 30 minutes just deleting this and rewriting it over and over again before deciding to keep it

[the-talking-void-shitposts]

"I’m not defending anyone. I’m simply stating that it’s none of your business what GROWN women do."

- True! People, women in particular, can do whatever they want. Nobody is negating that. You're forgetting about the inherent contemptuous relationship between women and the people (men) who ultimately make up the rules of society (MEN. ITS MEN. OLDER MEN SPECIFICALLY.), which results in women's decisions being made under sociopolitical coercion, even in their personal lives.

"By law, anyone over 18 is an adult and a 26yr old is a grown ass woman who can most definitely date another adult."

- By law, child marriages are legal in a fair few US states. Your appeal to tradition/authority is a logical fallacy.

"Idc if this is against your morals or ethics but those are subjective (only for you) not objective (which is what the law is)."

- Morals are a personal set of beliefs one lives their life by; ethics are a broadly accepted list of values that apply across a population (see: ethical code). Also, laws are inherently NOT objective; they're written by people with agendas who are coerced with money or power from donors/bribes. Be so fr right now.

"Dude many 30-40+ year old men marry 18+ year old girls around the world."

1. That doesn't make it an ethical practice.

2. Why? What are these much older men getting out of these relationships with brand new adults with little to no life experience compared to them? How does this serve these older men in these relationships?

"Also news flash, not every girl wants a guy their age, some want a guy much older than them."

- Again, why. Why does this occur? Why are you declaring this as a fact of life and not an effect of social conditioning in the greater scheme?

"If it’s not your thing then that’s cool but don’t pretend like like a 40yr old and a 26yr old is weird."

- Equating a personal preference to something that reflects a much larger societal issue is... well, stupid. Because it really is fucking weird, considering that women who date/marry men either younger OR OLDER than her by 7+ years, her life expectancy decreases by 20%.

"It’s not, you’re just living a sheltered life or you’re simply uncultured (some of these are cultural things, something you wouldn’t understand because you’re narrow minded)."

- This may come as a shock to you, but some cultural practices and traditions are inherently harmful to the women in those cultures, and they're aware of the danger because THEY'RE THE ONES EXPRESSING THESE CONCERNS. Seeing a young woman and empathizing with her life stage as she's going into a marriage with a man nearly twice her age is not "narrow minded", it's intuition based on reality.

FBI crime statistics reflect how men are the overwhelming perpetrators of violence against women. Demographic data suggests that women face a higher likelihood of interpersonal violence if their male partner is much older than them. Feminist scholars have been talking about the socioeconomic power imbalances between men and women for decades, and how those systemic issues affect women down to a personal level.

This is not just about this one couple. It's about the ones before them, and the ones you see in your everyday life, and the ones that end up as crime statistics. Be realistic and look at the world around you without the rose colored glasses for once.

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[landonor]

that's not even controversial it's just facts

you look at the MCL34 and compare it to the MCL60 as it has been since realistically Austria and there is comparison that is in any way fair when it comes to their rookie seasons

Oscar is having a Lewis-esque rookie season in that he's incredibly talented and is also in a good car, but he's also had the massive benefit of having Lando as a teammate, who cares so much about the team's performance as well as his own, who from pre-season testing has shared every scrap of data with Oscar (confirmed by Lando, Oscar, Webber, Andrea, etc etc.)

fr Oscar has been in a way, very lucky to come in at the right time with a good car

[rogalion]

I absolutely love your weather rants from a fellow trans guy who's now got a special interest in meteorology. Apparently. Ahhh!!!

(THE FACT THAT IF YOU CAN SEE THE TOP OF AN ANVIL CLOUD FLATTENING MEANS YOU CAN SEE THE FUCKING TROPOPAUSE MAKES IS SO FUCKING COOL AND JUST ALFJDIDJSIDJD).

(also the lack of standardizations on soundings is kIlling me too as a self taught meteorology nerd. I would like to know For Sure if I'm looking at the saturated or dry adiabat!!!!! Ahhh!!!

Also. Plotting hodographs. *what the fuck. Why is the compass the way it is. It's UPSIDE FUCKING DOWN???* I assume there is a reason for the meteorology compass and the hodograph compass to be different but *why????*

I love the nws I do truly I would love to work for them/the NOAA and they provide basically how to read their soundings too but there's like. 2 things I'm Not 100% sure on and it's driving me mad.)

Also I'd love to see how you get from raw to tabular data to the sounding if you want, I'm honestly curious.

Also. Do you also want to launch or find a radiosonde or is that just me. I really want to launch one.

IM

this has made my fucking week istg omg omg

So another fun fact about anvil clouds and that they flatten out when they hit the tropopause because that's the no weather allowed zone is that there's something called an overshooting top where basically you get a bubble of a cloud that goes above the anvil and into the tropopause and you get that when the updraft is strong enough that it forces the clouds over the tropopause! You can see this on a skew-T because the dew point line will stay close to the temperature line through the tropopause.

I don't know a lot about hodographs just yet it's not something I've been taught much about just yet (for example I didn't know the directions are upside down from a conventional compass) but I'm sure I'll post a rant about it when I learn more LMAO.

So working for the NWS requires a few things and that's a career path I'm looking into but I've also just finished my first year in my meteorology program so we'll see what happens.

As for launching radiosondes-- I've launched several, actually!

I'm the guy with the shades (they're my normal glasses it's just sunny and I have transition lenses) and here I'm holding the balloon before we launch it.

I go to a school with a strong meteorology program in New Hampshire called Plymouth State University, and we get a LOT of chances to talk to people from the NWS and the private sector as well as learn and use very practical skills such as launching radiosondes, graphing skew-Ts by hand, and so on.

I think I've launched at least five radiosondes at this point and I'll quickly lose count in the future. But if Meteorology is a career you're interested in going for, it will in all likelihood involve seeking out a bachelor's degree at minimum which all this boils down to, hey, join us :) there are at least three trans people in my program!

for soundings also, the raw data is collected through graw's program and graphed automatically on the computer. We just have to set up the radiosonde and antenna beforehand-- it's a whole process and I'd love to explain it more in another post I think but it's pretty bland tbh haha

also for saturated vs dry adiabats: the saturated ones are weird and curvy and the dry ones are nearly straight so they're actually pretty easy to tell apart once you know, but knowing is the hard part with skew-ts for sure.

Thank you so much for this ask I'm SO HAPPY to hear you enjoy them fr fr

[wholelotofweird]

Okay, gamers, the first quarter of the year is over and I want to share with you the books I've consumed thus far.

I've recently been using StoryGraph and damn, it's really fun if you like data and also logging the stuff you read. Would recommend. I say that, because a number of these books were consumed thanks to one of the challenges they've set for the year, to read a number of books in different categories. Let me say, this is the most diverse spread I've read in YEARS. So. Anyway.

Lycanthropy and Other Chronic Illnesses, by Kristen O'Neal

I would 100% recommend reading this book, if you are able, in print format instead of audio. There are a number of sections where the main characters are talking over text chat and I'm not sure how well that would translate over audio.

This book had me saying, "They're just like me fr" non ironically multiple times. It's such a lovely look at friendship and building our own communities and struggling with chronic illness. There is at no point any gatekeeping of what a chronic illness should look like or what a person with a chronic illness needs to look like.

The one thing that I didn't love was the fact that a white author picked first person POV of a POC. It isn't the best choice. I feel better about it after looking through O'Neal's website where she has readily admitted that it was a choice she would not make again. I appreciate the thoughtfulness of not making the "monstrous" character a POC.

Overall! I really enjoyed this book. It's a pretty fast read, but it is heartwarming and hopeful and full of genuine joy.

A Magic Steeped In Poison, by Judy I. Lin

This book was SO fun! Magic, romance, court politics, betrayal. What more could you want? Other than the magic system being tea based. That's right babies, TEA BASED! Monch monch monch, what a beautiful system I am in love.

This is another fast read. I've always been a sucker for magical tournaments and historical fantasy. If any of that is your vibe I would absolutely recommend picking this up. I know there is a second book, but I haven't had the opportunity to read that one yet.

Found, by Margaret Peterson Haddox

Now... Like I said... I was picking books for a reading challenge I'm doing. This one was from "read a middle grade book you never read", so I am FULLY aware that I am not the audience for this book.

That being said, oh my god, this was a rough one. I think my biggest gripe is that the cast are all 13-15 year olds but you would never know it. They're out here acting like 20 year olds. Maybe when I was 13 I would have been able to buy it, but at 30-whatever I am not. This is the first of multiple books and I can't say I regret not reading more.

Vincent and Theo: The Van Gogh Brothers, by Deborah Heiligman

So, I'll be honest, the reason I was drawn to this was because I got to see this amazing Van Gogh art instillation last year. Part of that instillation was a display of excerpts of the letters between Vincent and Theo, and let me tell you, that is what made me cry.

This book is certainly nothing ground-breaking. It's a biography of these two men. It tells their stories at the same time, side by side. I also cried reading this.

Am I emotional? Is it because I have younger siblings I'm very close to? Is it because I, too, am mentally ill and an artist?

Who knows, gamers.

Quackery - A Brief History of the Worst Ways to Cure Everything, By Nate Pedersen & Lydia Kang, MD

Again, nothing groundbreaking. This book is a funny and informative look at medical process through history. I'm a sucker for medical history. I did listen to the audiobook for this and I think it really helped the humor shine. If you're also a fan of bizarre medical history (or the podcast Sawbones), this is the book for you.

The Devil in the White City, by Erik Larson

I enjoyed this book! For a person who is bad at remembering names, though, it was difficult to follow at times. There were so many players in the conception and realization of the Chicago World's Fair that I would lose track of just who I was hearing about.

That said, it was a very cool look into the trials and tribulations that went into making the spectacle a reality. This book managed to touch on SO much, not even to it's detriment. Despite getting confused by names the main through-line was easy to follow. I was invested start to finish.

In the Vanishers' Palace, by Aliette de Bodard

Do you like beauty and the beast retellings, but instead the beast is a very cool dragon, and also it's hella gay??? Then do I have the book for you! It does one of my favorite sci-fi things where there is a world, there are facts of that world, but you aren't supposed to learn them. Those aren't what matter, they are simply table setting. It's a beautiful story. I do wish there was a bit more depth into the romance, but that's just me.

Beautiful, atmospheric, and emotional. Lovely book.

A Marvelous Light, by Freya Marske

Damn, the pining in this book??? Truly a wonder.

This book is such a lovely blend of interesting plot, intriguing magic system, and just lovely gay romance. I've been trying to consciously read more queer books this year and so far I am having a wonderful time. I'm going to be 32 this year and for the first time since I was a pre-teen I'm seeing myself really reflected in books. It's such a fuckin' cool experience. I'm an emotionally compromised teenaged girl.

[tismcosmology]

My grades are all officially in finally!! and so, an end of term review of my classes, how I did, what I did well, and what I need to improve on for next term.

MATH - Calculus 1

Final Grade: 67

worst class overall by quite a bit, but honestly? im really happy with how I did. I went into this course extremely unprepared bc i never took high school calc, just a college level course that did not cover everything I needed, and spent the whole term playing catchup.

Need to get more in the habit of doing practice questions daily, and not just a few days before the quizzes. Also. making a note to not trust a thing the TAs say and just read the syllabus (looking at the TA that told me there were no more online weekly assignments and i didnt find out he was wrong until the last month)

CS - Intro to Python

Final Grade: 86 !!

I forgot how much I enjoyed coding. Almost sad I dont have another CS class until next year (almost). Im very happy with how I did, and I think the main thing that brought down my grade were the assignments I missed, which shouldnt be as much of an issue now that I have accommodations. I think I had a good time management schedule and started the assignments early (mainly bc they were more fun to do than math or phys)

PHYS - Mechanics

Final Grade: 81

After the mess that was the second midterm im just glad I did well on the final. Not much to say about this other than im glad its over holy hell. I enjoyed it but oh my god.

Need to make sure I continue starting the practice questions basically as soon as theyre out/covered in class, and i want to start reading the textbook before lectures (which i can actually do now that i dont have morning classes every day!). Making a note to go to office hours more this term (as long as theyre not directly over another one of my classes again) and finding more study buddies to drag into our ever growing group

PHYS - Mechanics Lab

Final Grade: 79

Overall? Meh. The lab itself was fun, I enjoyed the act of doing experiments and recording them, my groupmates were fantastic, but the goddamn time crunch was horrendus. I was so stressed the entire time about finishing lab notes on time that I barely absorbed anything. I was firmly placed in charge of data collection and so I havent the slightest clue how to plot data in excel or use the statistical formulas we were taught, but goddamn can i operate a motion sensor.

For future terms, i Need to get better at understanding the pre and post labs and actually understanding what we're doing before going in, and not in the last 15 minutes

ENGL - Communications

Final Grade: 82

I enjoyed this class a lot, my prof was fantastic and my groupmates for the final project were also amazing. Has only made me reconsider my profession slightly. But the interest in sociology of science and fixing the academic system is real

Time management kinda sucked here ngl, I think because it was lower on my priority list and so got done last. There was a 5% assignment due last day of class I completely just forgot to do, and a few weekly worksheets I didnt finish. Thankfully I dont have any more communication classes but I need to keep that in mind for future non-stem electives I take that writing things is in fact time consuming

FR - Intermediate French

Final Grade: 81

Honestly? Suprised I did this well. I was bombing the in person tests but acing the assignments and I think thats mostly because of spelling. My oral and listening assignments I did well on. Idk if im going to continue in another year, I really just want my DELF status. As long as I can pass a B2 exam i could care less

Overall Average: 79 !

Im. super happy with how I did tbh. calc defiently brought my average down but I passed !!!!!!🎉🎉🎉 looking foward to next term starting monday :)))

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pixelated love (!simmer x mv1) - chapter 7

synopsis: in which the famous three time world champion max verstappen wants to learn how to play the sims 4. except, he doesn't really know how to. so what does he do, search up a youtube tutorial. low-and-behold, y/n's video is the first he watches.

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yourusername posted on her story

yourusername: GUESS WHO'S SEEING HER SUGAR DADDY 😈🌹❤️😏✈️

story replies:

maxverstappen1: Not funny. 😡

yourusername: your sugar baby awaits u 🤤🤤

yourusername: get ready to have a clean apartment 🤑

maxverstappen1: I could use the extra cooking and cleaning help... as well as help with the cats...

yourusername: gotcha babyboy 💦💦💸😇

maxverstappen1: Currently booking you a flight back HOME ticket...

landonorris: Ayeeee get that bag sis 🤑💸🍑😉

yourusername: LMFAO LANDO GTFO

landonorris: Make sure you get that bag and ur kitty purrs too 😈

yourusername: BYE WHO TF STOLE UR PHONE 😭😭

landonorris: If he can make you laugh and giggle, he can make that ass shake and jigg-

yourusername: lando i'm going to BLAWK u 😭

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yourusername

liked by maxverstappen1, landonorris and 239,761 others

yourusername: i hope pookie wookie bear has been enjoying time with me as i flex on the haters in my super duper uber-cool outfits (pls like it up, i think i spent like hours on pinterest and in my wardrobe coordinating possible outfits 😭😭💸)

view comments:

user1: ZOOWEEMAMA

user2: ALRIGHTTTT an aesthetic kween 🌟🌟

maxverstappen1: I think that your outfits look very super cool! 👍🏻👍🏻

maxverstappen1: I really like your outfits...

maxverstappen1: You look very pretty, schatze ❤️

yourusername: 🥰❤️

user2: GOODNIGHT LMFAO the boyfriend style commenting has me in tears 😭😭😭

user2: alright walk him like a dog sis walk him like a dog 🐶🐶🐶

user3: y'all forget that y/n actually has a bachelors and masters in data science and video game design... she is actually a woman in STEM who is RICHHHH but acts broke when she plays her silly little video games

user4: WAIT FRRR??? mother has BANK?

user5: yeah wait, literally people need to know more but she basically streams on the SIDE.... like she actually works for EA and SIMS 4 FOR REAL

user5: playing the game, testing shit, that is literally part of her job description

user5: y'all have been subject to this SCHEME i've known ab for years, actually!!

user6: BYE HOW LONG HAS SHE FOOLED US LIKE THIS???

user5: welp she's like 25 now... and she graduated with her masters at like age 21... so it's been six years since her job with ea LMFAO

user5: get PUNKED 🫵🏻

user7: bye so she wasn't lying when she said that she has a collection of dior bags... miss ma'am doesn't even NEED max's bag... she has her OWN

yourusername: LOUD. INCORRECT. BUZZER.

yourusername: i actually still do need max's bag as part of my MASTER PLAN for WORLD DOMINATION HAHAHAHA 😈😈😈

maxverstappen1: So I'm basically just a stepping stool.

yourusername: glad that you see your true worth babe 😘😘😘

georgerussell63: Get wrecked 🤣🤣🤣

maxverstappen1: STFU

user8: speaking as someone who literally SAW them roaming the streets of monaco irl... i'm telling you they actually might be a couple fr fr

user8: like he was always holding her bags, her clothes, just basically all of her shit 🤡🤡🤡

user8: and like i literally saw them at a hella expensive private club i know for a FACT that it's hella hard to get into last minute... especially on a week's notice oml 💸😇🌟

user8: bro and yesterday i literally saw them at DIOR and this man wanted to buy her BAGS ON BAGSSSS fr. ofc our rich mother refused but i SWEAR this man secretly bought her one or smth cuz he was eyeing them with sm intent 🤑🤑

user8: AND I DIDN'T INTENTIONALLY STALK THEM, MONACO IS JUST HELLA SMALL APARENTLY CUZ I KEPT SEEING THEM EVERYWHERE 😭😭😭

user9: are we nawt gonna talk ab how last slide miss ma'am is literally parading around with the ACTUAL FUCKING RING ON HER FINGER 💍💍💍

user9: zoom in y'all, i beg pls i swear i'm not hallucinating man

user10: WOAH WHAT THE FUCK???

user9: RIGHT???

user11: wait she is fr wearing that bigass ring around everywhere damn...

user9: ON HER RING FINGER NONTHELESS????

user12: i literally have no fucking idea what is satire and what's real life

user12: this is quite literally the LONGEST someone has still managed to keep me in the dark yet very much still providing me with sm information

user12: i feel bloody PUNKED 🤡😡

user13: wait ur so real LMFAO 😖😖

user13: maybe like the whole wedding bit is fake... but those emerging feels coming from BOTH of them seem VERY MUCH REAL

user14: ^^ such a good point 😉

user15: guys i don't mean to hyperfixiate (that is the last time i'll say that LMAO) but isn't the last slide a bit too close for "just friends" who happened to meet online first and irl just a few days ago?

user15: BYE ik we can't see it but we KNOW SHE IS DEFFO ON TOP OF HIMMMM 🤣🤣

yourusername: i have that top-dominant-alpha energy no matter where i am 😈👹👺🐺🐺🐺

user16: oh!-

maxverstappen1: Spending time with you felt very Spring Breakers Core!!!

user17: BROOOO Y/N HOW HAVE YOU GIRLIPOP-IFIED THIS MAN SO FAR???? 😭😭😭

yourusername: ughhh so true max...

yourusername: just wish we paraded around monaco in a big big pink truck

maxverstappen1: Well... there's always a next time for everything 🤭🤭🤭

user18: WHAT DO Y'ALL KNOW THAT I DON'T

user18: i hate hate HATE being left in the dark y'all 😭

user18: what in the fomo am i experiencing....

user18: this feels like gatekeeping 🧍🏽‍♀️

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author's note: ty guys for reading this fic! 😍🫶🏾

god the last twts made me chuckle a bit... n e ways, lemme know what form of media y'all want to see more of (i.e. twts, insta posts, insta stories, txt messages... i just want to gauge the audience opinion, yk?!)

also since we r getting into the nitty gritty detail of the romance aspect, i was wondering if y'all would want to see some prose/writing... rather than just a smau, b/c it's really hard to illustrate romance without all the creepy-ass paparazzi shots 😭😭

i'm also finally back from vaca! i'm still deciding if i want next chap or chap 9 to be the final chapter, stay tuned!

i'm also still a little behind on the taglist (like a few chapters), so if you didn't get tagged, PLEASE please please write your @ below, i'm so sorry y'all😭

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