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It's not "evil" to have investments. It's not "evil" to have a 401K, and it's not "evil" to have investments outside of that. It's normal. It's perfectly fine and it's practical if you have the ability to do it.
Are people honestly saying you should NOT use the money you have efficiently? That you should NOT do whatever is in your capability to secure a safe and reliable retirement? That you should, as consequence, work forever until you drop and never take advantage of systems that are meant to provide for you?
This type of thing is entirely non-ethical. Financial investment is NOT tied to the concept of ethical judgement. It is neither morally "good" nor morally "bad." It is a tool you can use for yourself to provide for yourself. This is especially important because no one else is going to do it for you or hold your hand. Most jobs aren't offering retirement, and the ones that do aren't necessarily reliable. You need to look after yourself.
It's entirely your own personal choice if you want to make up the idea that investments are "evil," and therefore create a fake moral high ground to not take care of yourself and to manufacture fake guilt trips for people who are doing that. But the people with sense are going to ignore that, and they're going to have something at the end of the day and you are not.
You are not evil because you have investments or retirement accounts.
Telling poor people that signing up for a 401K makes them evil is not praxis you stupid, stupid motherfucker.
#the idea that 'there's no ethical consumption under capitalism' needs to go on top of the fridge#along with the entire concept of LIVING being 'evil'#for no reason people are tying themselves in knots because they're hell-bent on making up fake problematic issues and literally crying#about basic existence#you buying things you need or want is NOT an ethical problem to solve#you providing for yourself and working toward financial goals is not an ethical problem#people need to STOP MANUFACTURING FAKE MORALITY#'consumption' aka basic living is not a question of ethics. there isn't anything there that's 'evil' that you have to accept or put up with#just because capitalism exists#'oh no we live in capitalism so my basic act of shopping for myself hurts so many people and I just have to constantly acknowledge and#apologize and live with guilt forever and ever and ever' - STOP IT#that line of thinking is nonsense and is just fake performative sjw-ism#you guys are extrapolating things out to an unnecessary and unhelpful and unrealistic degree just to have something to cry about#live your life. buy things you want. be free. if you can invest then do it. do all these things with a clear conscience because there are#literally no issues with any of it
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i hope everyone in nintendo’s management department dies and goes to hell no matter what and i’m not kidding
#WERE LOSING YUZU AND CITRA. I DONT KNOW IF YOU ALL UNDERSTAND HOW INSANE THIS IS#game emulation enables piracy yes but it’s also an INCREDIBLY powerful archival tool.#there are plenty of games out there that only exist in their original formats due to emulation.#this lawsuit has HORRIBLE implications for video game history. it makes it incredibly easy for companies to scorched earth their products#if they’re not profitable enough. ART IS GOING TO BE LOST BECAUSE OF THIS. GAMES PEOPLE WORKED INCREDIBLY HARD ON#it won’t just happen to bad games. it won’t just happen to old games. they will use this to keep their remake/virtual console model going#forever and you will never be able to play your favorite games in their true original forms ever again.#i am fucking INSANELY mad rn. capitalism is the death of art fr#personal
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
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#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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the horrors truly do keep horroring but at least I have pumpkin whipped cream for my coffee now
little wins
#let's just say that disability and capitalism are doing the monster mash recently and it is NOT a graveyard smash :')#my body had a truly remarkably awful reaction to all the travel and that coincided with several work deadlines#leaving me almost no time to do things I actually want to do#because I am spending basically all my time either sleeping off painkillers or frantically trying to get work done#while the pain is bearable enough that I can avoid taking the painkillers#:')#but.... pumpkin whipped cream......... my beautiful love...............#a ray of sunlight in an otherwise dark existence.........................#we're gonna get through it..... together.......
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Surely someone must have written the Everlark Gilmore Girls AU right? Because like -
Fiercely independent single mother Katniss Everdeen raising her sweet, intelligent daughter Prim (who is so close in age they’re practically sisters), and friends with the bakery/café owner Peeta who keeps her fed in cheese buns and bread, and sees her everyday while quietly and patiently pining.
FT: Best friend Madge who Katniss later opens a business with. Grumpy town eccentric Haymitch. Flamboyant dance studio owner and gossip Effie. Prim's best friend Rue who Katniss also ends up mothering because that's who she is. Estranged mother Mrs Everdeen who Katniss felt abandoned by but adores Prim. Local fashion designer Cinna who took Katniss in when she first arrived. And then Prim’s father and Katniss’s teenage sweetheart Gale comes back around periodically wanting another chance but doesn’t realise they’ve changed too much to ever be together.
#the hunger games#everlark AU#gilmore girls AU#everlark#peeta x katniss#bout to go exploring on fanfic.net and a03 because surely this much exist#i'm not sure what Katniss does in this universe#i can't see her as an inn keeper#and figuring out the mrs everdeen relationship - she's so different from Emily the relationship is almost the opposite#but although the personalities are so different in terms of roles in the story and their relationship with Lorelai/Katniss#Peeta = Luke#Gale = Christopher#is PERFECT#Haymitch I feel isn't anyone specific in Stars Hollow#but just screams townie energy#and fulfils some Babette/Kirk/Taylor combo#Effie = Miss Patty is easy#Cinna as Mia because he keeps Katniss the care and nurturing she needs#is Snow the Chilton headmaster?#the Chilton is the capital#would Finnick & Annie be the adorable neighbours?
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Yes, capitalism is bad. Yes, we should dismantle capitalism. No, capitalism is not the Sole Thing Responsible for every single bad thing that has ever historically happened to anyone.
#'rEaD sOmE tHeOrY' YOU pay a mote of attention to actual historical reality!!#you should care about misogyny because hating women is bad.#not because misogyny is a Tool of Capitalism#(like I don't actually think this person was trying to say 'the only reason misogyny exists is to serve capitalism' but. I mean a) I HAVE#actually seen that '''''take''''' before and b) something is not inherently morally good because you have deemed it 'anticapitalist'.#like if you ever came to the conclusion that misogyny was somehow 'anticapitalist' then. uh. it would still be wrong to be misogynistic!)#(sorry! I care about women and their rights because women are people and should have rights! not because feminism happens to#align nicely with my Class Conscious Political Theory™™™™™!)#(you could have just made this post about how awful misogyny is but noooooo you just HAD to shoehorn in at the end about#how It Upholds Capitalism!!!!1 because talking about how much you hate capitalism is the ONLY FUCKING THING anyone cares about#on this godforsaken site. heaven forbid we just say 'hating women is bad'!!!!!!!!!!!)#(ugh watch me get called a neoliberal capitalism shill for this because people have less than zero reading comprehension)#I warned y'all. I'm not gonna be patient. I'm not gonna be nice. you care about women because they're people or you make peace with the#fact that I'm never going to give you the benefit of the doubt about anything#those are your options!! you wanted more options you should have fought for us!!!!! you should have not elected a professional misogynist#as the head of the country I live in and/or tried to persuade people to allow the continued political rise of said professional misogynist!#I see even ONE (1) defense of misogyny or willful lack of understanding about how it functions/why it's dangerous I am going FUCKING SPARE#I AM EXTENDING *ZERO* GRACE. ***NONE***
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Ok so I'm out of the habit of rolling with these punches. But I'm quickly remembering that trump's number one game is playing insane mode "good cop, bad cop" with every other political power in the US but especially the democratic party.
He will completely change course in a moment as soon as looks like it might benefit him to do so. He will get everyone to go along on something he swears up and down he will do, and then at the last minute flip to playing his own devil's advocate. He will do all of this at the exact same level of uncompromising forward momentum.
It makes it really hard to tell which things he yells about will actually happen. Which is frustrating and stressful and makes it hard to organize and keep up resistance. This is part of the point, presumably.
It also makes it so sometimes he seems to pull off bizarre tactical maneuvers, or apparently outwit his political opponents. In retrospect once you get past the immediate confusion, it usually looks less like a grand plan, and more like turning on a dime to catch any short-term advantage.
It does mean he doesn't make much forward progress on any coherent political goals, as measured or understood by anyone else. Including, and this is the small silver lining, any of his hangers-on and coattail-riders, many of whom have much more coherent and terrifying political platforms.
Trump himself seems to be motivated by power, attention, and outrage. He is good at doing damage, which counts as power. Many people try to take advantage of this damage blast to their more specific nasty ends, which he is generally on board with. The silver lining, again, is that he turns on most of them at some point, when he sees any benefit in doing so. This isn't much of a comfort to anyone caught up in the damage that does get caused.
Last time, I had to learn not to follow his moves too closely, because that just led to getting caught up in the whirlwind and being stressed and confused. Pick some issues that are your battles and focus on what needs to be done there. When the damage blast is aimed at you, push back on it. When he turns on a dime in some bizarre and flashy way, don't overthink it. Just keep your eyes on what you're trying to get done.
Again, many of his hangers-on have agendas that are terrifying and bear watching closely. But don't get caught up in the shitshow hurricane.
#this is as much as anything a reminder to myself.#I have to shift my mentality of how I engage with political news again.#Trying to keep track of trumps moves as if there was a coherent pre-existing plan quickly gets conspiracy-level weird.#that is just not the game he plays.#Some of his cohort does and so you do have to keep an eye out. Agendas may be pushing forward.#But you just can't read too much into anything trump does or says. It's all bombast and opportunism.#He is consistently able to make the democratic party look extremely bad. This is usually because they are doing a very bad job#And he can clown on it hard. Which he does because it serves him.#He can get the democrats to do a lot of mundane dirty work on a) making the government run and b) protecting the interests of capitalism#and the wealthy.#And then make any type of shitshow to rile up his base against anything too progressive that moves forward#Or put on blast the general baseline shitshow to allienate progressives#And he does this generally on loop.#And you just have to keep your eyes on what other people with power are actually Doing With It and not get caught up in the shitshow.#us politics#tentatively reblogable but I might kill it. We'll see.
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when i was created the universe did not give me the patience necessary to become an artist simply because it knew that the world wasn't ready for my magnificent ideas. such as "tma except it's ultrakill" or "tmagp except it's cruelty squad"
#ok picture this. the fire is gone. you are in hell. everyone is in hell. it's all over.#and yet you keep killing. you keep destroying. not because it helps anyone or anything#simply because it's all you can do.#and eventually you find your way to the reason you exist#the reason you were created#the reason you are the way you are#and you destroy it without hesitation.#because it's your purpose. because you're the only one that can.#it was always going to end like this. you were created for each other. there's no point to it#other than fulfilling your purpose.#what i have just described is the plot of ultrakill. it is also the plot of tma s5.#tmagp as cruelty squad is more just based on themes and vibes#late-stage capitalism and the extinction and all that#and also just cuz its fun#imagining ink5oul casually posting a selfie captioned “you can't reverse the process <3”#alice dyer proudly holding up a copy of gorbino's quest#gwen just going on about the ceo mindset#lena as that one dialogue box thats like “pro tips: -tell a guy to kill people. -he actually starts doing it”#tma#the magnus archives#tmagp#the magnus protocol#ultrakill#cruelty squad
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I have to rant about Mr Beasts Amazon show because I just watched a video on it an holy shit, I am so angry.
He's exploiting innocent people. Not just innocent, desperate and vulnerable. He is so disconnected from everything that he can walk around hoards of crying, screaming people lashing out at one another in genuine fury because they are so desperate for money they are willing to do almost anything. Almost every single one of those people needs the money to escape poverty, to retire their parents, to pay for medical bills. And Mr. Beast, who has heralded himself as a beacon of generosity and kindness, is shoving a camera in their faces and broadcasting their most desperate moments to the entire world.
The only silver lining in this mushroom cloud is that there is no possible way a person who isn't braindead could look at this and think that he is anything other than a monster. He isn't a misguided young guy, he's plain evil.
#mr beast#capitalism#anti capitalist#amazon#I especially hate him because my little brothers used to look up to him#thankfully they understand this is wrong#but I hate that charity nowadays is basically non existant#since so many people are either too greedy#or just flat out need money so badly they will do anything
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an interesting experience as a person who’s life is consumed with art is trying to explain to my friend who doesn’t enjoy listening to music (yes. music. period.) that I write fanfiction out of the love of my heart. She asked me “do you get paid for it?” And I was like “…no?” And she genuinely couldn’t comprehend that I would spend time pouring attention and love into something with no monetary/tangible reward. She laughed in shock and went “I’d never do that.” I think both of us were in disbelief by the end of the conversation
#like what do you MEAN#I write fanfiction because I love writing and I love the source material I’m writing about#what more is there to it#my life would be a boring miserable existence if I wasn’t consumed by the things I love#arts and hobbies and interests are so essential I just can never get how some people seem to have none of them#wild#lyn rambles#Lyn rants#art#fanfiction#fuck capitalism#fanfic#ao3
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//ooc posting: I NEED to find more fun/silly things to do with my two they are Not meant to be all agony all the time I swear- I just have a penchant for the dramatic and they're a little in the torment nexus o(-< but on god they will Have Fun too
#//ooc#even in the torment nexus there's spots of brightness!! I need to start playing with them too I'm not a grimdark writer I swear!!#I have ideas for softer bits and pieces. sibling stuff. cute things. I will get to it somehow hell or high water o7#T-E purrs!! they can do that!! it's part of their genetic alterations and I want to play with that too as well as the horrors!!#now don't get me wrong either The Horrors are one of my fav things to write but it's chiaroscuro y'know you need the contrast#it can't be a fight for personal autonomy all the time sometimes it needs to be T-E's huge kitty eyes or Helios being a dork#all this might be unnecessary I just get a little self conscious sometimes about how full-grit my writing can be wehh#holding my creatures in my hands. they are capable of such a beautiful joy. it's actually vital that they are#since I'm rambling anyways: huge part of what I want to do with T-E's pre campaign rp is start pulling them out of their shell#they start the planned game still stuck on their rules but it's talking to people that's gonna put them in a place where like#they know there's something else out there. they want it. they feel so much guilt for wanting it but it's the WANTING that's important!!#helios can't do that on his own because he doesn't know either. neither of them know jack about what exists beyond their narrow purview#making a HA clone to me is in part an examination of how miitary as industry will always result in steadily increasing dehumanisation#it's the commodification of a human body to ever increasing heights. soldiers to products to nothing but parts to be scrapped#military as an endless churn less for the sake of any kind of protection and more for the sake of resources. capital. money#it's part of what makes HA so fascinating to me y'know? the way it takes that concept to a far flung conclusion. how bad can it get#the other part is playing someone realising for the first time it's possible to break from what's expected of them#the wonder. the guilt. the disbelief. all of it carefully hidden. it's a huge part of what's so compelling about writing them to me#three huge cornerstones of T-E are: masking - military - the horror of having to exist in a body.#that last one is my taking the weird sensory relationship I have to Flesh/mind and doing horror with it dw too much about that njbkhjv#okay okay I think I'm done this got a little out of hand I'm just like#there's so MUCH about thirteen/T-E that makes me insane. alas I'm tired and it takes me like 4 hours to write a simple post sobs#anywaysss that's my ramble. I like them#helios too I like him. guy absolutely dead set on finding reasons to smile amidst the Horror
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can we just stop this whole capitalism thing? it's clearly not working and to be honest it is quite annoying
#capitalism#capitalism sucks#capitalist hell#late stage capitalism#eat the rich#this all sucks#we could literally all just stop#this system only exists because we put up with it#i just want to live my life#but i can't because capitalism
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I find it kind of silly that so many of those "time based life rule" sayings are like ~deep serious guidelines~ of some sort, but then there's that one other Well Known Rule that's just like "hrmm can I eat something off of the ground or not"
#the duality of human condition.. two biggest concerns in the modern era are attempts at self fulfilling productivity#and also 'if i drop my sandwich can i still eat it :('#Also while capitalism is often linked with/the source of hyper productivity culture - note that I do not mean the images in that context#'meaningful to you' does not have to mean 'productive within a capitalist system'. The point is not 'every waking hour of every day#must be spent in the most societally productive grinding mindset hyper efficency mode possible' but more like#if you've always wanted to learn french ever since you were a kid and you think it would be fulfilling to you (just because you like it#absent of any larger purpose like using it for a job/monetizing it somehow/etc.). and you've just spent like 5 hours straight on tiktok#or something mindlessly scrolling the internet. maybe someimtes it'd help for your own personal fulfillment in the long#run to try to - the next time you have 5 spare hours - work on learning french or something that is actually significant to you#as a person and that you'll be glad you worked towards. instead of weeks and weeks passing by and feeling you have nothing to show for it#or etc. AAANYWAY. The images/rules themselves are also NOT the main point of this post. More just the juxtaposition of them together#and the fact that 3 of them are serious seeming while one is so mundane it seems silly in comparison.#BUT even though they're not the main point . I still didn't want it to come across as if I was like promoting or buying into capitalist#productivity culture propaganda or etc. I don't find productivity tips like this inherently bad as long as they're kind of divorced from#those ideas. I think it's still important in life to have goals even if those goals exist outside of the typical expected framework.#I mean that's actually part of why a culture of chronically exhausted overworked deprived people is damaging because if you#'re forced to spend 85% of your waking time working at some job that is perosnally meaningless to you that brings you nothing that#youre only doing under threat of starvation and houselesness and etc. then of course you don't have much time for hobbies or things you car#about and of course you'll feel more aimless and personally unsatisfied and like life is not fulfilling or interesting.#Productivity and efficiency is GOOD actually. as long as it's able to be directed in ways that are actually meaingful to the community or#individual and bring some sort of feeling of fulfillment or progress or accomplishment and working towards a person's personal ideas#of happiness whatever those are. rather than just working away aimlessly so some guy you don't know can buy a 20th house or etc. etc.#ANYWAY.. lol.. Me overthinking things perhaps.. probably not as likely#that people see the silly little cat images and go 'WOW EVIL you must be a capitalist grind culture lover' like its pretty clear#thats not the point... but... just in case... lol.. I loooove to over clarify things that don't actually need clarification
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I see there's a new post on AO3 on AI and data scraping, the contents of which I would describe as a real mixed bag, and the sheer number of comments on it is activating my self-preservation instincts too much for me to subject myself to reading through them. Instead I'm thinking about how much daylight there is between does or doesn't constitute a TOS violation and what does or doesn't violate community norms, and how AO3 finally rolled out that blocking and muting feature recently, and how I think it would be good, actually, if most people's immediate reaction to seeing a work that announces itself as being the product of generative AI was to mute the user who posted it.
That's my reaction, anyway!
#ao3#christ i'm annoyed by so many people lately#i feel the same way about people posting “fic” they generated from a chat-gpt prompt as i would if they posted their google search results#is crafting a good prompt or query a skill? yeah#is it creative work? no#is there a difference between a human being creating based on existing art and a fancy predictive engine spitting out rearrangements?#absolutely#and that's not even getting into the problems with the ml datasets behind the fancy predictive engines#and the way this tech is already being used to decimate creative industries because capitalism privileges the shitty and cheap#or the way companies already generate shitty machine translations and try to pay translators next to nothing to “improve” them#which is typically much more work than starting from scratch#or just run with the shitty machine translation as is because they don't give a fuck if it's useless and confusing to users#anyway i'm real fucking grumpy#please stop trying to automate art and start automating the shit that gets in the way of humans having the time and resources to make art
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I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
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rant but im a bit scared im going to get attacked
#so im hiding in the tags and book tok is the subject today#psa: skip past the fourth wing rant to see what im actually talking about#so. the abomination that is FOURTH WING#(my review on it was the longest i have ever written lmfao)#dont get me wrong there are good parts to the book!#most of them are plagiarised from like at least 10 other books tho#the one good thing is the dragon worldbuilding (if u could call it that) but honestly. that's probably plagiarised from smt idk#the pacing is horrible#and yes it was weirdly gripping but in the way you are gripped by a nightmare when u cant get yourself to wake up#anyways i havent even got onto the characters yet. fmc has no personality and mmc is tall and dark and brooding#supposedly enemies to lovers and it should have been given unsolved family business but nope they just want to shag UGH#anyways this was triggered by me talking to my friend's friend who is currently reading it and i was honestly gobsmacked#do book tok readers have no critical thinking (not generalisation im just mad)#like she said six of crows was worse than fourth wing#and it just pissed me off because people just read bad literature from book tok just for the smut when there is GOOD SMUT FOR FREE#FANFIC EXISTS BUT THE STIGMA IS TOO MUCH#and so there are authors who are writing terrible plagiarised shit and profiting off it#and then there are the valiant fanfic writers#like pls im so mad rn especially bc there are so many problems w book tok books (gender roles + pick me stuff etc etc)#one thing that really bothers me is the willingness to just ignore how toxic mmcs are just because they're hot or whatever#it's so problematic (also ppl excusing irl people just bc they're funny)#im so angry because book tok (aside from specific few books) is just a den of plagiarism and capitalism#and im also mad because when did the actual appreciation of good writing (not even literature) just GOOD writing die#and it died because of all things people want to read smut like you can have both and free from fanfic#note that this is not a personal attack this is more of a frustration rant and i do not mean to point fingers at all book tok readers#i just want to highlight the problems w it (mainly plagiarism and excusing weird things and normalising other stuff)#space boo screams into the void#book tok#literature#fanfiction
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