#jesse you sick son of a bitch

[abouttoplaymy-ace]

EXCUSE ME. WHERE ARE THE SUCCESSION GIRLIES TONIGHT. I NEED TO TALK TO YALL!!!

[im-out-of-it]

PSA: WHY I HATE THE WAY TATIANA IS WRITTEN AND A SEMI RANT ABOUT TMI AND THIS IS LONG SO IM WARNING YALL NOW SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

why is it when CC writes a villain, it’s always either the villain and their reasonings don’t make sense or she writes them in the worst possible way.

example: Sebastian/Jonathan is terrible and to show just how awful he is, he’s going to attempt to rape the main character (also we won’t really have her work through that.) just to show how evil he is. BITCH WE KNOW HOW EVIL HE IS AND THAT WAS UNNECESSARY. won’t go on and on about TMI because it’s a torture fest and my mind has already blacked out a shit ton so I don’t remember

another example: Tatiana as a villain makes zero fucking sense. no one actually did her wrong but she came up with all these excuses

but what vexes me the most about Tatiana (this isn’t about TMI, y’all couldn’t pay me to read that toxic series) is that no one really knows or talks about the aftermath of what she did.

I’ve made many posts about Kit (CHRISTOPHER DESERVED BETTER) but he’s barely grieved and the fact is that no one mentions how Tatiana was responsible for Barbara dying. Tatiana desired more than anything- revenge. even after the first installment, she makes a statement about wishing for more lightwoods to die- mainly her brothers children. raising Jesse isn’t her only concern but literally making sure her brothers suffer.

“Why should I believe that?” She demanded. “You let me sicken from that poison, and I could have died. You promised me that only my enemies would be harmed. And look”- she threw her arm out in the direction of the courtyard where Gideon and Gabriel waited for her. “They still live!” (Chain of gold, epilogue)

I don’t really care much about the James stuff (I’m sorry for his trauma but I’m honestly over James and that’s on the writing) and I guess she’s getting her revenge there but is it really revenge well spent if the people you’re trying to hurt don’t give a fuck?

“Those are lies,” Tatiana hissed. “I am not sick! They have tried to ruin me.”

“Not true,” said Jesse quietly. “I have come to know them now. There is a truth much harsher. One I think you know. They have not tried to ruin you over all these years. They have not plotted your downfall. They have barely even thought of you at all.”

(DAMN JESSE GO OFF KING)

Tatiana has always been kinda emotional before she lost Rupert. Will didn’t want her (I still hate him), Rupert luckily didn’t have to deal with her, but in a way Tatiana had been naive and entitled. Benedict never taught her to fight or allowed her to really have her own voice. so when Benedict turns in to some demonic worm and his brother kills their father, she doesn’t really know where to turn. (THESE ARE JUST MY STUPID OPINIONS AND HOW I LOOK AT IT)

her father is dead, she’s having a child, she thinks it’s her brothers fault that her father and husband died. Tatiana feels that Gideon and Gabriel didn’t mourn their family properly. instead they see Benedict for who she is but Tatiana doesn’t feel that way. she sees Gabriel and Gideon as betraying her for some weird reason. look, it’s not easy trying to make sense of a CC storyline but I’m trying here lmao so in a way, Tatiana feels she has no family except Jesse. doesn’t trust the shadowhunters and maybe, she was close to Benedict or saw him as some hero or icon in her life?

then when Tatiana stupidly trusts “evil warlocks” and signs her sons death off, she then again IT WAS MY BROTHERS FAULT!!!! like she uses that reason for any bad thing that happens in her life even though it’s her fucking fault????? like Gabriel and Gideon didn’t come and hire a warlock with a bad reputation to put on some safety marking on your child? Gabriel and Gideon many times tried mending fences or whatever and did what they could to invite you in their lives

if anything, Gabriel should’ve been a dick to you and cut you out completely. you didn’t deserve Lightwood manor. they should’ve took your marks off and put your bloody victimizing ass in prison. I think Gabriel and Gideon have too much goodness in their heart after all she did. like what makes me most mad about Tatiana being a villain is that NOBODY KNOWS SHE WAS BEHIND BARBARA’S DEATH!!!!! she had no issue going to belial and being like let’s have war on the shadowhunters but I want my brothers to suffer the most!!!!

I loathe that it’s never stated. I detest that Christopher isn’t grieved. I hate that Cordelia is the one to kill Tatiana. I hate Tatiana’s whole arc. it’s not convincing, doesn’t make any sense, and it’s basically just mad woman trope. after all their sister has done, why aren’t Gabriel and Gideon upset? Gideon has lost a daughter, Gabriel almost lost his little child, as well as another child, and there’s no anger???? there’s no heartbreak or?????

some have pointed out that they hate the Tessa and will sex scenes and I AGREE FULLY. why is that taking precedence over children dying?????? why is Kit’s death shown as something that didn’t matter? even Barbara’s death got more notice. why is Gabriel absent and why don’t we see their reactions after Kit? why not after Alexander? Alexander is being kidnapped and tortured and Gabriel doesn’t say shit? why is the focus all on the herondales? I get it’s CC’s obsession but it takes so much from the story

like if she didn’t focus 95% of the series on James Cordelia, we couldve had a much better story and wouldn’t be missing out on stuff.

I seriously can’t believe that no one ever tied Tatiana to what Gabriel and Gideon had to endure.

Thomas loses HIS BEST FRIEND and probably more of a parabatai than James and Matthew were. Anna loses almost two brothers within a year. Ari has to leave her second family behind because they don’t accept her- at least her mother finally does. Matthew forms an addiction and overcomes that. Alastair has to endure not having a childhood due to his shitty ass father and then has to grieve actually losing him and all that entails. James has his trauma from grace but that’s not ever handled well. Grace gets adopted and is abused from her adoptive mother. Jesse is a ghost for many years because of his mother and he has to grasp who she is and how that has affected him.

I’m just saying that there are so many concepts and ideas that CC could have focused on but instead she just does the same thing she’s been doing since TMI. using the same tropes, the same toxic storylines, never allowing the story to go through, and putting the complex and fascinating characters behind.

in conclusion, (I’m sorry for venting y’all) I hate how Tatiana is handled and that she never once really has a full conversation with her brothers over what she’s done. no one says she’s behind it. she may not have had her hand on the blade but she was behind it. MY LIGHTWOODS DESERVED BETTER. so tired of CC ruining them or pushing them to the back just so her bloody golden eyed tiger toxic bland white shadowhunters who she deems the best can shine

Gabriel and Gideon went through hell and it’s never shown or talked about. Sophie loses a daughter, Cecily a son but let’s act like they don’t matter. AND ALL THIS HAPPENS IN A SPAN OF A YEAR. so undeveloped but I’ll endure for thomastair and my favs

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 110

The Devil You Know

“The Devil You Know”

Plot Description: The demon Crowley offers to help Sam and Dean find the remaining Horsemen by leading them to the Handler for Pestilence and Death

This is gonna be a no whammy’s watch because I wanna leave my house around one and I’m already not even starting it til almost 12:30, so not off to a good start

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: gonna go with absolutely not

Really thought they were saying “prophet driven crap” not “profit driven crap”…which wouldn’t be the craziest thing in spn

Haaaate watching THIS one in 2023 already.

Calling Pestilence a sick son of a bitch is a funny little touch by the writers

Hahahahahahhahahhahahahhaaaa. The relationship between the Winchesters and Crowley is truly a highlight. Crowley’s complaints about what’s happened to him since Lucifer found out Crowley wants him dead not moving the boys emotionally is chef’s kiss

Oh, is your demon ass about to reap what you sowed to your employees???

Everybody hates Sam lmao

Oh holy shit, Sam. I know…I knew this was how it happens, but it hurts to hear Sam come to that solution

Remember when Sam was the levelheaded pacifist of the two? The one who didn’t have HELLA anger issues?

Dean’s not used to working with someone unafraid to hurt and kill humans to get what they want

Why is Dean SUCH a bad liar??

I’m not HAPPY for this demon who’s beating the shit out of Dean, but this must be ACTUALLY cathartic for him. The pressure from…I was gonna say up top but I guess I mean down below.

And it’s Crowley with the crowbar!!!

Oh. Oh. Oh shit…this was one of Sam’s college friends? HE INTRODUCED SAM TO JESS?? Well fuck

Aww the first time Crowley calls Sam a moose

I’m sorry. You’re going to what now? Crowley? What’s kicking open a hive of demons gonna do

FUCKING HELL, SAM. Stop this shit. Stop making just bad decision after bad decision

I love that there are no lengths Crowley WON’T go to. He will constantly betray and go back on betraying and it somehow goes toward the greater good so far

I know part of the terror of the hellhounds is you can’t see them but it’s also just so convenient for this show

Can people stop ruining Crowley’s suit?? HIS TAILOR has been EATEN by DEMONS

What a dilemma to be in. Do you trust Crowley to give you your soul back when he asks to borrow it? If it’s for the fate of the whole world?? If you and everyone around you has been on a suicide mission this whole season???

“Been On My Mind…”: I think this is gonna get phased out after this season but mostly because it’s the literally end of the world

[crystallineirises]

Succession 4.3: Connor’s Wedding Liveblog

I’ve never done one of these before AYE

I turned my phone OFF for this. Not silent, OFF

HERE WE GO

“dramatic music playing” no shit you know what show this is

KERRY LOOKS FLY

yeah he likes you *eyebrow raise*

Those letters are pretty cool 

NO THE GERRI SLANDER OH SHIT

SO WILL YOU GIVE HER THE HEADS UP

NICER 

“you were close” WELP is that what the kids are calling it

GIVE. HER THE WORD. TODAY.

*lively music*

Shiv in black is a mood

Tom is Joan Rivers this season i’m living

GREGGING

GREGLETS

GREGGIES

Willaaaaaaa a princess hoe is life ugh love her

I can’t believe the Togan girlies are winning i’m so thrilled for them

OH SHIT CYD TOO

Karolina watch your ass 

DAMN Karolina said fuck my work wife

THEME SONG

my comment about Gerri blowing these fools away with hat!pistol really would be justified 

DAMN I’m glad I switched to the Ted Lasso side as far as romantic ships for this season cause we ain’t winning over here

GOLF CART RICH BITCH

Omg is that Laurie

babygurl is STRESSED

TOM LOOKIN SINISTER

MARTYN

GERRI KNOWS

SHE CANT GO TO EUROPE RUDE

WHY

DICPICGATE

SHE IS FUMING

I’M GOOD

The I’M GOOD heard around the WORLD

OH NO THE TEARS 

OOOOOOH this was bruuuutaaaallll

This poor wedding planner lol that’s gonna be me in two weeks

BEING CUNTY

ARE YOU BEING A CUNT

Kendall looking sharp AF go bitch go

Sup Julie you’re an icon too 

Every assistant level person on this show is an icon

Gerri’s like let me get wasted it’s about go down go DOWN 

Roman why’s your hair so fucked lol i know we’ve talked about it but like wow

What if that was Gerri texting him pictures of her pussy lol

This bitch ain’t sick stop lol

Wait

Wut

OH 

OH FUCK

guess it’s not 9/11 part 2 guess it’s just an old man being an old man lol

Oh it’s Grey’s Anatomy all of a sudden

ON THE GROUND

ON THE FLOOR

TONIGHT WE GON GET IT ON THE FLOOR

his poor sad voice BABYGIRL

YOU DID A GOOD JOB

my heart feels all PANICKED

wow no one thought to start looking for Shiv Jess would never let this happen

SHIVY HONEY

this camera work is beautiful 

I CAN’T HAVE THAT

Sarah Snook’s shaking hands just won her an Emmy

Not to be rude but does this mean Gerri is saved

lovely good plane people

JESS my other baby girl

KEN GO INSIDE WE DON’T LIKE KEN BY WATER

OH wow pilots saying no 

“he’s flying the plane, son” LOL

we were really thinking we’d have to wait around all season for this NO BITCH THIS iS LIVE

Damn

*pours one out*

I just literally poured seltzer water on my carpet

Damn Kerry I sure hope you got that baby though 

GASP

CONNOR

the framing of this shot is gorgeous 

HENEVEREVENLIKEDMEEEEEEEEEEEE

i never got the CHANCE to make him proud of ME

Weddings are just really not good for these people

i wonder how fuckin rich they just got dude lol

oh Roman is the babiest babygirl bad day for Roman all around

And Gerri can’t even comfort him or NOTHIN 

SQUAD

Karolina is that bitch and i’m so about it put her high up in the Kerry/Jess administration

okay $100 bucks says Kerry murdered him

KAROLINA SAID GET OUT LEAVE RIGHT NOW 

Gerri > POTUS as it should be 

DELETE THE LOGISTICS

oh TOM I LOST MY PROTECTOR Togan was real AF for these three episodes

GASP Gerri 

Oh Karolina tryna make up now I don’t know about that 

“are you just with me for money” you...but...like...

Reagan’s with tweaks lol

How do they know already wow did Greg fuck that up 

THAT THE DANCE YOU LIKE SHIV STAY SWINGING

ooook oooooh they’re alone in a room 

Just kidding Roman’s outside now 

CONTROLLL TO GET WHAT I WANT 

GANG IS BACK 

OH HE WANTED HER TO HOLD HIM SO BADLY DAMN us Roman/Gerri babies is suffering 

These strings are going crazy hell yeah scoring

lol everyone with their handshakes

PRESS PRESS PRESS PRESS PRESS LOGANS DONT NEED MORE PRESS

WE INTEND TO BE THERE BAM

Roman said yeaaaah i know it’s stupid, i just gotta SEEEE it for MYSELFFF

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I am sick of DC killing off their heroes

I'm also sick of them keeping the same heroes and having them in like stasis age. It's annoying, especially as new characters are created.

You know what I want instead?

Let them retire.

Let Bruce hang up his cowl and hand the mantle to Cassandra, and maybe Terry later. His boys are already taking after him in other ways; Dick's become a wealthy philanthropist, Jason's probably gonna be the one to adopt 50 kids just by who he is as a person (Tyler, Bao, my personal headcanon for Shoes/Lian), and Tim is the world's greatest detective. Damian is...Damian. But he's finding his way. Let Bruce's children take an aspect of his and surpass him in it. Let him grow old with Selina!!! Also GIVE THEM HELENA!!!!

Speaking of Selina, let one of the Strays or eventually Helena take up her mantle. Maybe Lian can take her mantle, considering Emiko is Red Arrow and Roy is active...sorta. Just more cool cat ladies who aren't freakin Jade Nguyen please (no offense to any fans I just don't like her).

Let Clark be a guide and a guardian for Kon and Jon but sit back and be a person with a family unless there's a crisis. Let him just be a dorky reporter/farmboy with a loving wife looking after his aging parent(s? Is his dad alive? Continuity is weird) and being with his son and actually treating his other son like a son. Because Kon deserves it.

Let Diana stay in Themyscira or make a home on Earth. Or both! Let Donna take up the Wonder Woman mantle! Heck, let there be more than one! Nubia is a cool WW. And imagine Artemis! Maybe Cassie one day!

Fucking retire Hal Jordan. There are like 10 other earthbound Green Lanterns. John Stewart and Guy Gardner and even Kyle Rayner have had a shine in the limelight (heh limelight). Let people like Jessica Cruz and Jo Mullein and Keli Quintela get a little spotlight!

Let Arthur be a fucking king-dad. Let him just live a happy, mostly peaceful life with Mera. Let him have weird father-son bonding with Garth and Jackson. Let him raise Andy! Let him have Jr.!

Ollie will be a stubborn bitch until he fuckin dies, but put him on grandpa duty once this whole "Shoes has amnesia" thing is sorted out! He loved that when Lian was little and it was so fuckin cute. Imagine him teaching her how to shoot and she continually one-ups him because she's definitely Jade and Roy's kid, well-trained by Selina, and constantly reminds Ollie he's getting old. Once Connor's shit gets sorted, let him take up the mantle of Green Arrow again! Heck, he could do it just to prove he's better than Ollie and it'd be great.

Let. Dinah. Have. A. CHILD. She is such a good mom to Roy and to Connor even when she and Ollie are at odds, let her have her own child, even just by weird science! Give her a kiddo that can scream just like her, BAM new Canary. Bonus points if it's a boy or otherwise generally masculine kid and they still wear the fishnets as an adult. Power move.

Can Barry Allen have a break? Please? Heck, give Wally a break too, just for a bit! They've been through so much, let them chill with their wives (and maybe a boyfriend in Wally's case, I see those Nightwing crossovers) and kids and have normal-ish lives. There's so many cool speedsters! Don and Dawn Allen! Bart Allen! Wallace West! Jai and Irey West! Our enby Jesse Chambers! And that's not even all of them, there are so many fuckin speedsters.

I admittedly know next to nothing about J'onn J'onzz, but like, he's been through some shit too. M'gann can take over she seems pretty badass.

Like, just let the old heroes grow old. They don't even have to die, they can be weird wizened mentors with a running gag of 'how the fuck are you still alive?' and they just yknow, stick around. Like Alfred. (Fuck you he'll be back)

The new blood can shine without obliterating what came before.

[starlightshadowsworld]

Seto adopts Jaden where Aster has to be physically restrained by Adrian and Zane so he doesn't rip Sartorius a new one while Jaden's recovering in the infirmary.

Granted both of them aren't trying tooo hard but they need the guy alive with Seto gets here. Hence why there holding Aster back, Echo is there but she's not holding him back at all.

Bastion is with Jaden with Chazz while Alexis is calling Seto. Atticus had vanished sometime ago and Jaden himself was passed out cold, exhausted.

They are all mad but there's nothing in Aster's eyes but murder.

For you see they are all protective over Jaden but Aster is most definitely the mum friend... With the protective rage to boot.

He lost his family and forged a new one, this is the only one he has left and he'll be damned if anyone tries to hurt any of them.

And Jaden's the baby.

"You BLEW UP THE BUILDING WITH HIM INSIDE?! I'm gonna kill you, you sick son a bitch!"

And Aster rarely ever curses, he likes to have a hold on his emotions. A calmness to him, and chooses to use mind games and sarcasm as his weapons.

Years of being the pro dueling circuit and a Batman obsession does that to you.

But it doesn't change the fact Aster has a short temper, he's just better at hiding it in public.

And Sartorius standing there making excuses of why its okay to kill Jaden... Pisses him off.

Despite his size the boy is strong, glaring at his boyfriend for even trying to calm him. Zane sighs but he can't and doesn't blame him.

Aster refused to calm down, he wants blood... And it will be spilt.

Luckily Jaden chose that moment to open his eyes and look around. Still exhausted but the wounds he got are minor considering everything. "Guys?" And Aster, how he heard from down the hall is anyone's guess is out of Adrian and Zane'a grasps and is at Jaden's side immediately.

Jaden rests his head on Aster's shoulder, the other embracing him. His rage melted away into concern and a softness to his eyes as he rubbed Jaden's back.

"Your safe"

He repeated it several times, his heart breaking as Jaden slumped his arms and sobbed. Letting out all the fear and anxiety that he'd held back during the whole ordeal.

"Jesse?"

"Jesse's safe too, he's just gone to call Axel"

Meanwhile Sartorius looked way to relaxed and Adrian, hearing Jaden's cries grabbed him by the shoulders and slammed his back into the wall.

Knocking the wind out of him, his voice a dangerous whisper "dont think your off the hook" he said. Relishing in the fear in his eyes, he wouldn't hurt him there was worse to come but he never promised not to scare him.

Zane cracked his knuckles loudly for emphasis, intimidation... He could do that.

[arsonsamruby]

sam winchester pride

i have a new fic <3 hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

it’s s1 sam coming out to dean. was THIS close to making the ending sam ugly crying alone but even though dean Is like. microaggressions boy he’s not going to be a bitch about it all that’s out of character. i think he does try very hard to support sam. like he’s not an ally but probably because he doesn’t really know what an ally is. 

anyway wtf am i even saying.

___ Sam has a headache. Dean comes by, ruffles his hair, slouches into the couch. Sam licks his lips, looking away from the screen. It has loud, bright cartoons on it and in the prickling sense of dread he’s carrying with him, the stimulation is too much. 

Half of the headache is from a hard hit he took to the head, lingering pain. The other half is stress and dehydration. Unless beer counts as hydration, then in which- well, he’s covered. The screen of the television is cracked through; it’s playing Friends reruns. 

He stands abruptly. 

“Sammy, I swear to God, if you start pacing again-” Dean warns, throwing a pillow at him. Sam ducks it, somehow. His body takes up half the room. It’s hard to find space. 

He can’t help it. His feet get itchy, his legs pull tight, and it’s nice. Nice, to put in his earphones and walk around for a little while. “I’ll go out to the parking lot, promise. I won’t bother you.” 

He smiles slightly at Dean, but his brother isn’t much looking. 

The parking lot of the motel has the sticky feeling underfoot of summer heat on asphalt, and sweat. The crumbling pollen and flowers from the trees have made his half-present allergies flare up. As a kid, Sam would have allergy seasons that ran out of sync with everyone else’s. 

Go three years without a single cold, until one awful summer would come and he’d sneeze and sneeze and sneeze. He recalls: Oregon, in a rainy patch. It had been a relief to wash all the yellow pollen away with the weekly downpour. Another thing about Oregon, he’d had a best friend there. A girl. 

Huh. He tries to tuck his smile away, but it comes through like the sun through clouds. Sam looks dumb, doesn’t he? Some goofball pacing around a parking lot and smiling to himself. 

After about ten minutes, maybe more, his pace slows. The scenery is getting too humid. He wants to roll back into bed, into those cool sheets. 

“Sammy? Is that you?” 

Sam kicks his shoes off into the dirty corner. Dean’s left a bootprint on the floor there. If Sam was looking for a fight, he’d say something. “It’s me.” 

“You got a call. Someone left a voicemail. For you.” 

His voice is sharp, pounding hail on cement. “A call?” Sam replies dumbly.

Dean nods his head over to the answering machine. “I’ll put it on for you.” 

Sam’s heart begins to slow to a rolling stretch of highway. The cars moving across it are few and far between and his breath is short and dangerous. 

“Sammy?” The effusive warmth dies down after the nickname, realizing Dean’s heard it through. The voicemail, the nickname. “You gave me this number the other day. Outside the Jewel Osco?” 

He laughs. It crackles over the phone in a friendly way. Friendly the way he kissed tiny little butterflies onto Sam’s collarbones, the way his house was cool in the summer night. 

“I guess you’re a big-time developer and all so I’m not sure if you even care. But I have the jacket you left with me? The other night?” 

He clears his throat. “If you want it back, you can drop by.” The voicemail ends. 

“You leave your jacket at your friend’s house, Sammy? Come on, it’s just like you’re little again. You want me to pick it up for you?” 

Sam realizes two things: Dean hasn’t caught what the message means, and Sam wishes he would have. 

“Dean?” 

“Mmm?” 

Sam has never been able to cry with dry eyes. He can’t hide the shaky undercurrent to his voice. His eyelids feel like cement but he keeps staring at Dean. A flush of fear is blooming high on his cheeks. 

“Me and that guy, we’re not just friends. Or whatever.” 

Sam went calling for information, at his house. Said he was a real estate developer, even though the back of his neck went red with the obvious lie. The suit was cheap and he was young. He’d gotten the information and then this guy, his name is Jude, had kissed him. Sam left the suit jacket there. He’s glad he’s getting it back, all things considered. 

He still doesn’t know what possessed him to hand over his number after buying peanut butter and sandwich bread two days later. A crack in his self control, maybe. 

“What do you mean…” Dean isn’t making jokes, at least. Sam squints hard at the floor. His head feels like a matchbox. Being struck over and over again. His headache is back, erupting with a vengeance. 

“Sam, is it something- Dad did? Is it something I did? To make you, uh.” 

Sam shakes his head, sighing deeply. He wants to be a bitch about it and spit out something sarcastic. “What do you think you could have done?” 

Dean shakes his head. Murmurs, “I don’t know,” almost that Sam can’t hear him. “I guess you’re the type, though, Sammy.” Sam knows what he means by that. “As long as you don’t go around falling in love with some starry eyed dude. We still have to find Dad.” 

“About that. Don’t tell him.” Sam pointedly raises his eyebrows. Dean doesn’t have a great record of choosing- choosing him, his secrets that he keeps tight in his fists. He doesn’t have a record of letting any opportunity to be a good son slip by. 

“Sure, sure.” Dean frowns. “Hey, what about Jess? Did you lead some poor chick on up until-” 

“Shut the fuck up.” Sam’s hands are suddenly shaking. Dean leans back. He’s not the shrinking type, his shoulders stay up and guarded. “I’m not gay, I’m- I’m something else. Both, you know?” The inside of his cheek is bitten raw, he can taste the fleshier bits coming alive. 

“I don’t think that’s how it works, Sammy.” 

The telling was easy; now it’s muddier. Sam wades in anyway. “Who here is the expert, you or me?” The sick dread has risen in his stomach and is now lapping at his sodden brain, pulling him under. It’s hot as hell out but he pulls the blankets over his legs. 

“Sorry. Bad take.” 

“I loved her-” Dean doesn’t like hearing about Jess and Sam cuts himself off. 

“Never mind. I’m going to go get more beer.” Dean leaves. 

Sam looks between the ugly green blankets, the TV still on, the white, unearthly light seeping in through every crack. When he told Jess, she lit up with it, went on to ask him questions, run her fingers through his shower-damp hair and let him talk. 

Dean bursts through the door. “Sammy, I really do want to say- thank you for telling me. You wanna talk about it more, we can go get your girly coffee drink and we can talk about whatever.” 

The aimless tears in Sam’s eyes finally come to the surface. “Oh, come on,” Sam groans. “You don’t have to act like I’m that-” 

Dean interrupts him. “Here, Sammy. Here. The way I see it, you’re like Chandler Bing now.” 

Sam blinks at him. “Dean, he’s not-” 

“Well, maybe not in the show, but everyone knows he’s gay anyway. You’re like Chandler Bing. If you want to go with me and get a coffee, uh, tell me about the guy action you got at Stanford, I’ll be your Joey.” 

Sam swipes the back of his hand across his eyes. If tears were blood he would look like a murder victim. Dean approaches him nervously. “Seriously.” He wrestles Sam into a tight hug, holding him for a long few minutes. 

“Do we still have painkillers around? I have a headache.” The walls (brown wood and decades out of date) are no longer closing in on him under oppressive heat and thoughts of Jess. Dean isn’t mad. Just- just Dean. 

Life returns to normal.

[incorrectcontrol]

Incorrect Control quotes 138

Underhill: Do you want to know how I actually hurt my wrist? Jesse: Yes. Underhill: I was hula hooping. Darling and I attend a class for fitness and for fun. Jesse: Oh, my god. Underhill: I've mastered all the moves. *Shows photos on phone* The pizza toss, the tornado, the scorpion, the oopsie-doodle. Jesse: Why are you telling me this? Underhill: Because no one will ever believe you. *Deletes photos from phone* Jesse: You sick son of a bitch.

[shmaptainwrites]

hotch is at your bedside, holding your hand, 'talking' to you while you're unconscious, apologizing for giving you the command and sending you into that building, believing it was his fault when nobody could've known it was rigged to blow. not only that, but for being upset with you beforehand for something he couldn't even remember anymore and having been sour with you since then. and because of it, here you were, knocked out cold, stitches and scars littered your body, the doctors didn't even know when you were going to wake up, if ever. but you did, miraculously, you did. but aaron didn't know if he liked you when you were still out, because at least then he would still be the love of your life. and not just some memory that you couldn't quite grasp as belonging to you. "what do you remember?" morgan asked you, groggy and confused and numb on painkillers, because when the doctor gave them the diagnosis, aaron had to excuse himself because he felt sick. rossi was in the hallway with him, holding a cold water bottle to him. that was weeks ago, he would come visit you every now and again, to which you apologize because you wished you could remember loving him. not that you don't anymore, but it didn't feel real, it felt like the love belonged to someone else. the team helped a lot, bringing back memories in the forms of pictures and videos, snacks and sweaters you loved. over time, accepting that the love you held for aaron hotchner wouldn't ever fully return, you let yourself mourn it before letting your heart fall for someone else. aaron knew this too of course, but it hurt. it hurt like a bitch. especially when he knew he had to come up with something to tell jack. jack. he felt sick once more (it was common feeling now) at the thought of having to tell his little sunshine boy that he had lost yet another mother figure and that he would still be able to see you, but not the you he once knew. not the you that made pancakes with him in the morning and made smiley faces with chocolate chips, not the you that held him close on the nights the heat was broken so he wouldn't get cold, you who read him his favorite books in silly voices and tickled his sides when he was a little bit upset just to hear him giggle again, you who groggily pulled him between yourself and aaron during the nights he would get nightmares. aaron looked over to his son, who was sleeping soundly where you once slept because "it smells like her" and the boy missed and desperately wanted to see you, but aaron couldn't let him. not yet anyway. the next day aaron arrives at the hospital, not sure what the mission of today is, but he arrives anyway. and he hears your laughter before he even reaches your room, smiling at the sound. his smile fades slowly however when he sees you and spencer reid, sitting very close, too close for his liking anyway. not that it mattered what he liked anymore, he wasnt yours and you werent his, not in the way you had been a few months ago. he leaves before either one of you notice he was ever there, gathering the ring that he had saved for you and leaving it in spencer's mailbox, hoping he'd find better use for it.

i hope this angst is adequate :3

holy SHIT jess that’s not fair no no notttttt fair

i know i asked for angst but oh my god that one really did a number on me 😫

the fact that after all that jack would lose another mom, aaron would lose another love of his life and things would never be the same, it was one of those wounds that would never heal because he still saw you every day, the pain of knowing that things changed, not that they ended in death or a mutual agreement, but they changed you fell out of love with him, you didn’t remember his love for you it just all hurts so so badly

but either way thank you i needed to have my heart broken again so that’s very much appreciated

Send me your Hotch thoughts!

[taylorkellyreporting]

i hope no one minds if i inconsistently liveblog this bitch: ncis: hawai’i edition from 1x04

one thing about paramount+ the quality for eps are gonna suck in the beginning

oh my gosh???

i don’t think i’ve said it yet but seeing vanessa as a lead in her own show has been so satisfying

hmm i’m not buying this man’s story… like there’s deffo more going on than what he’s saying

aaand he’s lying

he’s not gonna be at the hospital is he?

but whyyyy would he be lying? someone tried to kill him multiple times so you’d think he’s be eager to get help from jane and co

“why’d you run?” “you reminded me of my ex wife.” JESSE’S FACE WAS PRICELESS 😭

WOAHHH METH?!

plsss ernie looked at kai like “if you don’t get your hand off of me…”

WAIT maybe the kid is selling drugs and the dad found out, tried to help and got shot bc of it?

i love when lucy gets to kick ass

he was gonna call lucy his friend 🥺

“…ew.” 😭

jesse: i’m cool! *proceeds to be uncool*

“he always takes too long on the wind up.” “don’t remember hearing a lot of complaints.” DKFJGJFJS

jane and the other guy getting off their horses in sync then boom there’s jesse still sitting down 😭

ohhh shit the rest are on the mountain aren’t they?

awww jane’s little cowboy hat

not a total eclipse of the heart oh wow 😭

wait what if the inspector killed the boyfriend in order to frame the roommate?

“she was my friend.” ☹️

“it’s just dinner.” oh we all know it isn’t

oh lucy’s terrible 😭

AVOID THEM LIKE THE CLAP KFJGJGJFJD

“i don’t know who you are…” “that’s not-“ PLEASE

“i take no pleasure-“ “oh you take all the pleasure.” ���well i take very little pleasure.” lmaooo

“hope the metaphor wasn’t triggering.” he’s so 😭

“a date! as friends! i really don’t care at this point.” pls

“sounds like water.” “on an island? go figure.” the look lucy gave kate 😭

i love EVERYTHING about the kacy scene like from the convo to the kiss it was all just so soft 🥺

wonder if the person kate was talking to was cara…

the writers are sick for having kate being ready to go public just to break them up in the very next episode

this kacy scene 🥺

“that doesn’t spell-“ “i like the name chad.” 😭

this poker guy is an asshole but he’s hilarious

oh gosh lucy is at kate’s apartment…😟

“yes!” my jaw DROPPED whyyyy would the writers put that in? did they think it was funny? it’s just ooc

the pizza guys face sends me every time 😭

so lucy deffo took so long in the bathroom because she was crying

jesse and lucy 🥺

lmaooo jane’s face!!! she knows kate loves lucy

NOBODY PUTS BABY IN THE CORNER 😭😭😭

whew that “you!” will haunt me for a while

kate’s little hopeful smile turning into devastation once lucy finishes her sentence is killing me ☹️

aww that jane and lucy scene 🥺

i really hope maggie isn’t evil cause i rlly like her

kate has lucy so fucked up she’s yelling at little old ladies like it’s her job 😭

“lucy, he was jogging.” pls

a body????

oh shit maggie

“maybe he left a thoughtful letter on your desk.” 😭

so disappointed in maggie ☹️

total fangirl moment for the shows first “previously…”

THE WIGS ARE SENDING ME

everyone’s eyes immediately snapping to lucy once kate walks in 😭 she deffo got the kids in the divorce

i love sola sm i need him to stay forever

MY GOD

maggie seems so unbothered

is he maggie’s son?

“i understand…more than you know.” BEWM

“you broke my heart, maggie.” “i know.” GOD

LMAO of course sola is on the ship

“you’re the type of woman she should grow up to be.” I HATE IT HERE

JANE CRYING IN ALEX’S ARMS I CANT DO THIS

@ maggie

i’m so excited for the rest of the season but ugh i can’t believe we have to wait til march 😩

[hartenstraat]

MEET MATTHEW DAVIDSON (Sam Claflin) MATT IS 35 AND HAILS FROM BIRMINGHAM, ALABAMA, USA. UNFORTUNATELY FOR YOU, THIS ROLE IS TAKEN BY JESS.

PRONOUNS: he/him

AGE & BIRTHDAY: 35, December 20

THREE POSITIVE TRAITS: Charming, Hardworking, Charismatic

THREE NEGATIVE TRAITS: Stubborn, Narrow Minded, Harsh

OCCUPATION:  On Personal Leave

BIO/HEADCANONS:

(TW: Death, Fire, Cheating, Alcoholism, Promiscuity)

For as long as Matt can remember he’s always wanted to be a firefighter. His mom would tell him stories of how he’d spaz at the sight of a fire engine or how he’d beg and beg and beg to go to the firehouse. The neighborhood station soon learned of him and even chipped in to buy a mini fire truck for him. That even throughout the years after he veered towards sports, eventually opting for theater after sustaining injuries during a football game; Matt pulled himself together with the help of physical therapy and jumped straight to the fire academy after high school graduation. By the time his nineteenth birthday rolled by he’s at work at the very station he toured and loved as a kid. At the very station that’s a couple blocks away from his childhood home in a suburb located fifteen minutes away from downtown Birmingham, Alabama.

With his dream career covered Matt viewed life a bit different. That with such a job appreciation for the little things amplified. That any given moment is a treasure, one you never know will be taken from you due to unforeseen circumstances.

Things he’s witnessed first hand from calls or stories told from his fellow team flung him into that grim reality. Seeing such things did bring forth a need to drink on occasion to try to push past the pain and horror he’s witnessed. Plus the occasional random hook up help. A lot.

He cares so damn much for people and wants to be there for them but sometimes it’s just not possible. During a late-night call Matt hopped on an ambulance to help a fellow EMT buddy, training he’s gone through himself. When they arrived at the hospital he waited around to hear of any news of the man they frantically tried to save. While in the waiting room he struck up a conversation with a woman who turned out to be a doctor. A pediatrician to be exact.

That’s how Matt met Betsy.

Now, when it comes to Matt he can find himself attracted to people quite easily. There’s just too many things people do that pull him in. Can be how attractive they are, or the way they laugh. Even sometimes it’s just their outlook on life. Which happened to be all three that night with Betsy. The pair of them fell into a whirlwind romance and within a couple months she practically lived at his apartment. His parents voiced concern about how quickly things were going for them, especially when a near twenty year old Matt bought an engagement ring. What’s the point in waiting and waiting when you feel you’ve found that very person who completes you?

Matt planned a romantic getaway for them however he was called into work into a shift that forever changed the course of his life.

It’s a call which continues to haunt his dreams. A call which took many, many years of therapy to manage to not feel he was an utter failure. That he didn’t try hard enough. The harsh reality was it was far too late by the time he reached that kitchen; the flames demolishing everything in its path. Including the two kids stuck in the cabinet terrified of what’s happening in their home. It was too late. Too late for them.

That fire consumed him. Those images. Those screams. Those pleas for help. For their mom. He couldn’t stop thinking about it. He couldn’t stop thinking about their father. The sick son of a bitch who intentionally set fire to their family home. Such anger ate at him and Matt wanted to hurt that prick with his bare hands but he knew he couldn’t. That his surviving wife and daughter were already going through enough loss as is and Matt thought of his own family. Of Betsy. Even with thinking about them he didn’t go to therapy. That such a tragic event warrants him to speak to someone about it but he kept saying he’s fine. That 's the nature of the job. Yet, it kept him from sleeping. From eating. His drinking increased and he eventually withdrew from Betsy. Months went by and it was when his captain pulled him aside, Matt reeked of alcohol from the night before, that he told him he needs to get his shit together since this destructive behavior is placing his crew in danger.

Soon after that talk Matt dragged himself to therapy yet it was too late for his relationship as Betsy had enough and moved all her things out of his apartment and took a job at another hospital in Huntsville.

Matt’s early twenties weren’t easy. After his breakup he wanted to say fuck it to everything and just live at the bottom of a bottle, or fifty, but he didn’t. But it also meant he relied heavily on his therapist and after years he feels he’s able to function. That he’s able to return to his old goofy self. That he can be the guy who talks about some shitty 80s comedy or quote random scenes from movies and TV shows. Or that he can return to working on a classic car during his free time or even take part in a random mud run for the hell of it.

When he made the decision to move from Birmingham a few years after his break up his family took it hard. His parents and three sisters didn’t want to see him go but Matt needs to see what else is out there. He bounced from New York, Vegas, San Francisco; taking jobs at different stations and meeting all kinds of people. Yet, none of these places truly felt like home to him.

Matt decided to return to Birmingham. Maybe he’d feel that sense of home once he’s returned. However after he settled back at his old firehouse he ran into Betsy, someone he’s not spoken to in years. Old memories resurfaced, along with unresolved anger and resentment. With time they eventually worked through the pain they’ve inflicted upon each other and Matt soon found himself dating her once again. Things felt like old times and no matter how much his family disapproved of this relationship, after everything she put him through, Matt pushed on with it. Maybe they could make it work this time. He’s in therapy now and able to handle things better than before. They’ve both grown throughout the years and could actually make this last.

That is until Matt discovered Betsy’s been two-timing him with a doctor at her hospital.

This shattered Matt. More than when she left him all those years ago.

The last two years with her was a complete lie and he couldn’t handle being in the same city with her again. Or with his family he was greatly disappointed with his poor decision to get with his ex again. His initial reaction was to move back to New York or San Francisco. To return to one of those stations again and start over. But that didn’t feel like a big enough change for him. Not when his mind and heart aren’t in a good place after being hurt. Again. How can he take care of people when he feels so damn low about himself?

Matt decided to make a drastic move this time. To go someplace he’s thought of visiting but hadn’t been able to due to time. Thankful for his frugal lifestyle he’d managed to save enough money to enjoy an extended vacation. One away from friends and family from back home. He knows they care. That they want to help but he needs to focus on himself and figure out what the hell he wants in life. So, Matt booked a flight to Amsterdam and secured himself a little place above a flower shop. It’s a giant change from what he’s used to but who knows. It might be exactly what he needs.

[bechloeislegit]

25 Days of BeChloe Christmases - 2020

Day 13 - Rescue Me

Author's Prompt: Firefighter!Chloe AU. A follow-up to Day 4 (Not A) Fire and Rescue. Beca and Chloe have been together for 2 years.

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Beca and Chloe had been living together in Beca's apartment for almost a year.

Chloe reached over Beca to grab her phone to silence her alarm. She slowly stretched and fell back to the bed.

"You awake?" Beca mumbled.

"Yeah," Chloe mumbled back.

Chloe continued to lay there and Beca slid over and straddled Chloe's hips. She leaned down and started kissing down Choe's neck.

"I'll give you twenty minutes to stop that," Chloe mumbled, stretching her head back to give Beca more access.

"And, if I don't?" Beca asked.

"Mmmmm," Chloe moaned and said, "I can't think of a good punishment, so keep going."

"You're going to be late," Beca said as she moved to kiss across Chloe's chest.

"So?"

"It will be the third time this a week," Beca said. "And, you know Jesse and Chicago will tease you mercilessly, all day."

"When you wake me up like this," Chloe mumbled, grabbing Beca and flipping her over onto her back. "I don't care."

Beca giggled and pulled Chloe down by the back of her head into a heated kiss.

~~ Day 13 of the 25 Days of BeChloe's Christmases - 2020 ~~

"You're late, Beale," Jesse said with a smile as Chloe walked into the engine bay. "Let me guess, car trouble?"

"Nope," Chloe said, smirking as she pushed past Jesse to enter the station.

"I bet Beca helped her get her motor running this morning," Chicago said, laughing as he and Jesse followed Chloe.

"Jealousy is not a good color on you, Walp," Chloe said as she headed toward the kitchen. "I'm getting coffee. You guys want one?"

"No, thanks," Chicago as he turned to go to his locker.

"I'll go with you," Jesse said. "I just need a refill."

Jesse followed Chloe to the kitchen. Chloe grabbed the coffee pot and poured herself a cup of coffee first before pouring Jesse's.

"Hey, Beale?" Jesse said, looking at the redhead and smirking.

"Yeah?" Chloe said, hesitantly as she replaced the coffee pot on the coffee maker.

Jesse pointed at Chloe's neck and said, "You got a little something there."

Chloe threw her hand up to her neck.

"Shit," Chloe said, setting her cup on the counter. "I'll be right back."

Jesse stood laughing as Chloe hurried away. He laughed harder when she flipped him off over her shoulder.

Chloe grabbed her makeup bag from her locker and stood in front of the mirror, assessing the mark on her neck. She couldn't help but smile as she remembered how she was marked in the first place. She wasn't ashamed or embarrassed by it, but she knew the guys, especially Jesse, wouldn't leave her alone about it.

Chloe had just finished covering the love bite when the alarm went off.

"Engine 27, Engine 15, Rescue 27, Rescue 54. Code 10-50 in the 1500 block of Green Street."

Chloe threw her makeup bag in her locker and rushed to the truck.

~~ Day 13 of the 25 Days of BeChloe's Christmases - 2020 ~~

It was a little over two hours later when Beca went running into the Emergency Room. She looked around and spotted Jesse and ran over to him.

"Where is she? How is she? What happened?"

"She's being examined by the doctors," Jesse said. "We don't know how she is; they had already taken her back when we got here. She was unconscious when they put her in the ambulance. We're waiting for confirmation, but they think she has a concussion."

"Oh, God," Beca cried, reaching out for Jesse as her knees went weak.

Jesse caught Beca and sat her in the chair next to him.

"So, what the Hell happened?"

"A car careened around our truck," Jesse said, in a monotone voice. "It was heading toward some kids who were watching us work. Chloe was by the truck, returning some equipment, and must have seen the car. She stepped out away from the truck, waving her arms to get the driver to stop. But, for whatever reason, he turned into her. She tried to jump out of the way, but the car caught her leg and flipped her into the air. She landed hard on her back. That must have been when she hit her head."

There was a sudden commotion in one of the examination rooms. Everyone's head turned toward the noise. Beca could see a guy struggling to get off the gurney. Two cops stepped in to help subdue the guy. They got him under control and handcuffed both wrists to the gurney.

"That's the guy who hit Chloe," Jesse said, his voice hard. "He's drunk."

Beca jumped up. "Son of a bitch!"

Jesse grabbed Beca around the waist to keep her from going after the guy. Beca struggled to get out of Jesse's hold.

"Beca, calm down," Jesse said. "He's not worth it. We have to stay focused on Chloe, okay?"

"Beca," Captain Smith said, getting her attention, and calming her down a bit. "He'll get what's coming to him, I promise you that."

Beca relaxed and fell back into her chair. She ran a hand through her hair and looked up at Jesse and Captain Smith.

"Has anyone called her parents?" Beca asked, looking down at her hands. "Are they on their way?"

"I called them," Captain Smith said. "Mr. Beale is sick and Mrs. Beale can't leave him alone. She's going to see if she can get someone to stay with him so she can come here if needed. She'll make her final decision once we know more. I promised I'd call once we heard from the doctor."

"Thank you, Captain," Beca said.

The Captain squeezed her arm and went back to his men.

"Jesse?" Beca said, looking over at him. "Did, um, did any of the kids get hurt?"

"All the kids are fine," Jesse said.

"Thank God," Beca said.

~~ Day 13 of the 25 Days of BeChloe's Christmases - 2020 ~~

Beca jumped up when she heard someone calling her name.

"I'm Beca Mitchell," Beca told the doctor who called for her.

"Ms. Mitchell, I'm Dr. Cooke," the doctor said. "You're listed at Ms. Beale's emergency contact. If you'll come with me I can give you an update on her condition."

"These guys are her family," Beca said. "You can speak freely in front of them. Chloe would insist on it."

"Okay, then," Dr. Cooke said, looking down at some papers. "Ms. Beale suffered a broken left leg and she has a mild concussion. Because of the concussion, we'd like to keep her overnight for observation. She also received six stitches in the back of her head. If all goes well tonight, she should be able to go home tomorrow. Oh, and she'll require crutches for a few weeks while her leg heals and should be put on medical leave until then. Do you have any questions?"

"May I see her?" Beca asked.

"Certainly, she's been asking for you," Dr. Cooke said. "I'll have a nurse show you to her room."

"Thank you, Dr. Cooke," Beca said.

"We need to get back to the station," Captain Smith said. "Tell Chloe we'll come by tomorrow to check on her."

"Thanks, guy," Beca said. "Don't worry Captain. I'll call Mrs. Beale and let her know what the doctor said. And I'll let you know when I can take her home."

"Take care, Beca," Captain Smith said. "Okay, guys, let's go back to work."

"Anything Chloe needs," Jesse said. "Anything you need, just call. And I mean anything."

"Thanks, Jesse," Beca said as a nurse walked toward them.

"Miss Mitchell?" the nurse asked, looking at Beca. At Beca's nod, she said, "If you'll follow me I'll take you to Miss Beale's room."

"I'll talk to you later, Jesse," Beca said as she followed after the nurse.

The nurse knocked on the door and entered when Chloe called out "come in." She stepped aside to let Beca enter the room. She then gently closed the door, leaving Beca alone with Chloe.

Beca stood by the door, taking everything in. Chloe's casted leg was propped up with pillows; she had a bandage around her head. Beca could see some bruises from where she was standing.

"Hey," Beca said as she walked to the side of Chloe's bed.

Beca took Chloe's hand and kissed the knuckles. Chloe smiled at her.

"God, Chloe," Beca said, sitting on the edge of the bed. "When I answered my phone and heard Jesse say you were hurt, I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest. I've never been so scared in my entire life."

"I'm okay," Chloe said, pulling Beca to her in a hug. "See? I'm still here."

Beca pulled back and leaned in to kiss Chloe. The kiss ended and Beca and Chloe stared into each other's eyes.

"God, I love you," Beca said.

"I love you, too," Chloe said.

Beca pulled away from Chloe and started slapping her arm.

"Don't you ever fucking scare me like that again."

"Ow, ow, ow," Chloe cried out, grabbing Beca's hands and pulling her to her for another kiss.

"I promise I won't," Chloe said, chuckling between kisses.

"I almost forgot," Beca said, pulling away from Chloe. "I promised to call your mom to let her know how you were."

"Do you have your phone?" Chloe asked. "I left mine at the station when the alarm went off."

~~ Day 13 of the 25 Days of BeChloe's Christmases - 2020 ~~

The next day, Jesse, Chicago, and Benji were visiting Chloe before their shifts at the station.

"I can't do it, guys," Chloe said. "We have to come up with a Plan B."

We only have three days until Christmas, Chloe," Chicago said.

"I know," Chloe said and fell back onto her bed. "There's got to be a way to still do this."

Chloe sits up suddenly. "Benji, can I be on the ladder as it's raised?"

"We'd have to secure you even more than normal," Benji said. "And east it up slowly. Slower than normal. But, I think we can do it."

"There's our Plan B," Chloe said, smiling. "You guys can get me up to the ladder. Benji can hook me up, and then easy peasy send me and the ladder up."

"I don't think the Chief is going to like that idea," Jesse said.

"So, let's not ask him," Chloe said. "Let's just do it. I'll take the heat if anyone comes for us."

"You must really love her," Chicago said.

"I do," Chloe said. "I really do."

"I'm still in," Jesse said.

"Me, too," Chicago said. "Benji?"

"I'm in, too."

"You guys are the best," Chloe said, smiling. "Let me call nurse, so she can call Beca to let her know she can pick me up anytime after eleven."

"I'll call her," Jesse said, pulling out his phone.

He placed the call and waited for Beca to answer. "Hey, Beca, it's Jesse."

"Hey, Jesse, what's up?"

"I'm here with Chloe and the doctor said she could go home anytime after eleven today."

"Tell Chloe I'll be there at eleven oh five," Beca said.

"I'll tell her," Jesse said. "We'll see you later."

"Thanks, Jesse," Beca said.

"So, looks like it's a definite go for Plan B," Chicago said. "I'll plan on picking you up at nine o'clock on Christmas Day. Tell Beca that I'm planning on picking you up at nine so she can stay home to wait for whoever is coming to your place."

~~ Day 13 of the 25 Days of BeChloe's Christmases - 2020 ~~

Beca and Chloe were sitting in the living room on Christmas morning, sipping their coffee when there was a knock on the door.

"That's probably Chicago," Chloe said. "I shouldn't be gone long. Just a couple of hours."

"I don't know why I can't drive you to the Station," Beca said as she got up to answer the door.

"I told you," Chloe said. "I helped organize the visit from Santa for the families around the firehouse and I want to see the kid's faces when he shows up on the truck. And, someone needs to be here when our guests arrive."

"Merry Christmas," Beca said, as she opened the door to Chicago.

"Merry Christmas," Chicago said. "Is Chloe ready?"

"Right here," Chloe said, hobbling over on her crutches. "Let's go!"

"Be careful," Beca said as Chloe stopped in front of her for a kiss.

"I will," Chloe said.

"See you later, Beca," Chicago said as he and Chloe left the apartment.

Two hours later, Beca was playing hostess to friends and family.

"When will Chloe be here?" Stacie asked.

"She left at nine and said she'd be back in a couple of hours," Beca said. "So, I'd say any time now, we should be able to hear her clomping down the hallway toward the apartment."

"How is she doing since the accident?" Aubrey asked.

"She's actually doing better than I expected," Beca said. "She walks around on those crutches like the badass I fell in love with."

"Beca, we need some more punch," Mrs. Beale said.

"We have more in the kitchen," Beca said. "I'll be right back."

Stacie heard a noise and looked up. "Oh, my God!"

"What?" Aubrey asked.

"Is that Chloe?"

"Where?" Aubrey asked, looking around.

"In the window," Stacie said, pointing at Chloe holding a sign that read, "Where's Beca?"

Stacie held up a finger at Chloe, mouthing, "Kitchen. I'll call her."

Chloe nodded.

"Beca!" Stacie called out. "There's someone here to see you!"

Beca came out of the kitchen with a punch bowl. She placed the bowl on the table.

"Who's here?" Beca asked.

"Chloe," Aubrey responded with a smile.

"Where is she?" Beca asked, looking around.

Everyone pointed at the window. Beca furrowed her brow and walked around the tree to see what everyone was pointing at.

"What the fuck?!"

Beca ran over to the window and opened it. "Chloe, what the fuck are you doing? Have you lost your mind?"

"I'm recreating the day we met," Chloe said.

"Why?"

"Because I love you."

"I love you, too. But, I'd love you a lot more if you were safely inside. Would you please get in here?"

"I will. But I have a question to ask you first," Chloe said, clearing her throat. "Beca, I think I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. And, I know you're it for me, so will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?"

Chloe held out a ring box. Beca looked at it and then looked at Chloe.

"Oh, my God," Beca said. "You did all this just to propose to me?"

"Yes," Chloe said. "So? Will you marry me?"

"Yes, you weirdo," Beca said. "I'll marry you. Now get in here so I can kiss you."

"Okay," Chloe said. "I'm going to need a little help, guys."

Chicago came up the last few rungs of the ladder; Stacie was just letting Jesse and Benji in through the door; they hurried over to the window.

"Don't worry, Beca," Jesse said. "We got this."

The three firefighters got Chloe into the apartment without any problems. Once she was inside, Benji handed Chloe her crutches. As soon as she was balanced on her crutches, Beca grabbed her and kissed her. Chloe pulled back from the kiss and grabbed Beca's left hand, placing the engagement ring on Beca's finger.

"Merry Christmas, babe," Chloe said. "I love you."

"I love you, too," Beca said, leaning in to kiss Chloe as their friends and family cheered.

[sams-sass]

The Others pt 7

Here is the next part to The Others. Hope you guys like it, thanks for all the love, and as always: stay sassy.

*sorry if I tagged you already, I accidentally deleted the original post. 

Read Parts One through Six here:

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

Part Four

Part Five

Part Six

Pairings: Sam x Psychic!Reader

Warnings: Discussions of death, discussions of past and self doubt, angst, fluff

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You were laying across the backseat of the impala, Jenny laying on top of you. You felt her hot tears hitting your shirt and soaking through to your skin. You were taking her home. There was no need for her to suffer anymore than she already had. She had seen and dealt enough with the demons. Her family had been worried sick since she was reported missing at the school and it was time she went home. It was time she had the chance to recuperate in peace with people she loved and who loved her right back.

“I’m so sorry.” She said against your chest, her voice was small.

“Don’t be sorry. You have been so brave throughout this whole thing. You deserve some rest.” You ran your fingers through her hair and wrapped your arms around her.

“Y/N is right, Jenny. You have done more than enough, you should be with your family now. We’ll get the sons of bitches.” Dean said, looking at the two of you in the rearview mirror. Jenny sniffled and nodded, closing her eyes tight in fear.

“What am I going to tell them?” She asked, sitting up and looking out the window.

“As much of the truth as you want. If you want to make up a complete lie, I will back you up. If you want to tell them everything, I will back you up. Tell them whatever you feel comfortable with.” You found her eyes, sending her a reassuring smile and grabbing her hand. She tried to smile back, but you could still see the worry in her eyes.

Dean pulled up to her house about an hour later, all the lights were on and you could see movement inside. Jenny’s lips parted and all the air in her lungs felt trapped. She closed her eyes and shook her head slightly. The door flung open and her mom ran out onto the driveway. You saw Jenny’s face twist in both pain and relief as she opened the door and ran into her mothers waiting arms. They cried together, holding each other tightly in the cool evening air. You touched your cheek and felt the wetness on your skin, realizing you were crying as well. You got out of the car and walked over to them, touched Jenny on the shoulder. They pulled apart and her mother quickly gathered you in her arms as well.

“Thank you. Thank you so much for bringing my baby home.” She whispered in your ear. Jenny pulled you to her after her mom let you go. You inhaled her scent and let it stay in your lungs for a moment. She pulled back slightly, still holding you in her arms. She looked you deep in the eyes.

“You can do this, Y/N. You go back there and you kick ass. You are so strong, I am so proud of you. You kill those bastards for what they did to me.” Her eyes were filled with tears, her face red and swollen. You nodded, holding back your emotions. She let you go and fell against her mom again, they walked inside holding each other as you climbed back in the car.

“Ready?” Sam asked, turning around to look at you. You paused for a moment and let the question settle inside you. You were ready. Ready to take the fight to them, ready to use whatever strength you had to get the job done. You were ready to end this.

“Ready.” You answered, your voice was even and calm.

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Jenny didn’t live far from campus, you pulled in about an hour and a half later. The three of you went into your apartment to make a plan and for a place to crash. You moved everything off the dining room table so the boys could lay out maps of campus, books bobby gave you, and a journal. Sam left to get you guys food, leaving you and Dean alone.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea if you come with us.” Dean didn’t even wait for the door to fully close.

“Sam already gave me the ‘I don’t want you to get hurt’ speech.” You answered, looking up at him.

“That’s exactly why I don’t want you to come, Y/N. I was with him when Jess died. It almost broke him. He had nightmares about her death for months afterward. He couldn’t mention her without almost breaking down, I still see him struggle with it. I also see that he cares for you deeply and I can’t watch him get hurt again, not like that. Especially because it’s this demon.” Dean had come around the table and took your shoulders in his hands. Looking directly into your eyes.

“Dean, I can’t imagine what you and Sam have gone through because of this demon. Your mom and then Sam’s girlfriend, it’s horrible and I am so sorry. I have to do this, Dean, I have to fight them for Jenny. She is like a sister to me, and what they did to her…and that I had to watch it. I want them gone. For good. For Jenny, for Jess, for your mom, and for you two. I completely understand that you don’t want me to get hurt. If I was in your shoes, I would be saying the same thing. I’m going with you. I have to do this.” Now it was your turn to look into Dean’s eyes.

“Well, you’re stubborn. You and Sam have that in common.” Dean laughed, taking his hands off your shoulders. You giggled too, playing with a strand of hair. Sam walked in with food and beer, handing one to his brother and then you. You ate in relative silence, most of the food untouched. Then you made your plan.

“I say, we just give them what they want. Me on a platter.” Sam said, taking a sip of beer.

“No, Sam, that’s just stupid and too risky.” Dean argued back. “Somehow we need to get in there so we can make devils traps in the house.” He leaned back in his chair.

“What if we go first thing in the morning and watch? We know how many of them are in there and they can’t all be missing class.” You suggested, placing your elbows on the table.

“Best idea I have heard all night.” Dean replied, standing and stretching his arms out. “I’m exhausted, night you two.” He then walked away and into Jenny’s room to get some rest, not giving Sam anytime to argue back. Sam let out a long sigh next to you and sunk a little in his chair, defeated.

“I’m gonna shower, why don’t you find something for us to watch.” You stood and ran your fingers through his hair, cupping his jaw with your hand before walking away.

After your shower, you joined Sam on the couch with your beer. He was still flipping through channels, his eyes clearly not seeing the screen. You reached over and placed your hand over his, taking the remote and turning off the TV.

“Wanna talk about it?” You asked, pulling your legs up onto the couch.

“Talk about what?” He asked back. There was a smidge of anger in his voice.

“Whatever is bothering you.” You answered, leaning closer to him.

“This demon. It killed my mom. It killed Jess. Dean and I, we think it killed our dad too. Y/N, if it does anything to you…I don’t think I could handle it. I don’t think I could go on. I have already lost three people and my childhood to this demon. I can’t-I can’t lose anyone else I care about. I really wish you would just stay here tomorrow.” He tried again to tell you how he felt. You could see the unshed tears and raw emotion in his eyes as he spoke. You licked your lips and looked down at the couch, taking a deep breath into your lungs.

“When I was 10 I had a crush on this boy down the street. His name was Riley. He was a year older than me so I thought he was really cool and mature.” You smiled at the memory, Sam smiled with you. “One day, we were playing outside. It was a nice sunny day out. I remember the smell of his moms flower garden. He touched my shoulder, nothing weird, but I saw it. I saw how he died. I watched him get hit by a car while he was on his bike. I saw his bike, the metal mangled and twisted in the road. I felt his last breath leave his lungs. I heard his head hit the pavement so hard it cracked. And do you know what I did?” You looked directly at Sam then, he was hanging on every word you were speaking. He shook his head and waited for the answer. “Nothing. I didn’t do a damn thing. I went home and never spoke of it to anyone. I was petrified. What would happen if I told someone? Would they yell at me? Would I get in trouble? Then, the most amazing thing happened. Nothing. Nothing happened to Riley, he went and lived his life. For two more years. On a warm summers night in the middle of July, fate took him. The crickets were so loud that night, and the moon was full and heavy in the sky. When he was 13 years old he was riding his bike home from a friends, it wasn’t too late but it was already dark out. The car didn’t see him. He died and it was all my fault because I kept this horrible secret to myself. I didn’t tell anyone because I was scared what would happen to me, and Riley died because of it.” You were crying now, the tears rolling down your cheeks.

“Y/N, it wasn’t your fault, you probably couldn’t have stopped it.” Sam leaned towards you, his hand running over yours.

“I felt it as soon as it happened. I was in my room, enjoying my Friday night and my heart stopped. I heard his breath in my ear. He never came to visit me, but I couldn’t get his face out of my mind. On summer nights when I am laying alone in bed, the wind outside will sound like his last breath. When the moon is full and high in the sky, I see the way the moonlight reflected off his bike in the street. When the nights are warm and the crickets are singing their endless song, I can still see his honey brown eyes and his curly black hair. Ever since the day he died I have lived in fear of closing my eyes, for what I might see when I do. I am always afraid of the cold and lonely nights when the air changes and I see my breath against the pitch black of night. Who will come into my room? Who will touch me with their boney, cold and grey skin. Who will whisper in my ear with their rotting breath?” You looked up at him. Your eyes wide. “Then you came. I touched you and I felt warm again, you kissed me and I saw colors again. I have to do this, Sam. I have to fight them, because if I don’t it will haunt me for the rest of my days. I will see those girls every time I close my eyes, just like Riley. I got pulled into this, and I intend to see it through.” You swallowed down your emotions, your throat raw from crying.

“I know what you mean. When I touch you, I feel warm too. I feel excited and calm all at once. When we kissed, I swear I could feel myself being filled from head to toe. I’m not sure what spell is over us, but I don’t want it to ever be broken.” He reached up, running his fingers over your cheek. “We’ll do this together.” He nodded once, looking you in the eye. You smiled and jumped on top of him. Your arms flying around his neck and holding him impossibly close to you. Your legs on either side of his trim waist, heat rolling through you. Your lips molded against his, bring all sorts of feelings up. The way his hands twisted into your hair, pulling ever so slightly. The way he listened to your every breath and sound, following your exact instructions. It was like the two of you were reading each other, never ending chapters written with heartbeats and breaths across skin.

The next morning you were in the impala outside the frat house. It was early. You yawned in the cold and staleness of morning, blinking your eyes. You held the coffee cup in both of your hands, keeping them warm. Movement. All of you turned and looked through whatever windows you could see into. Two boys left the house. They didn’t say a word the entire time, just walking with vacant expressions. About fifteen minuets later three more left, wearing the same vacant expressions. The three of you exchanged looks. Another twenty minuets went by and then two more walked out, one of them being Brandon. After they were out of eyesight you went in, Dean first with you and Sam behind. Sam kept you closely behind him. Sam had his gun raised in front of him. He was in a crouching stance as he silently walked around the house, clearing each room.  

“Hold onto my jacket.” He whispered, turning his head slightly. You reached up and grabbed a fistful of his jacket, stepping with him throughout the house. There was no one in the house, you were all alone.

“Well, once again, that was weirdly easy.” Dean said, lowering his gun slightly. Sam nodded in agreement. Even for you, it did seem too easy. The boys lifted rugs, moved beds, and rearranged furniture to paint devils traps on the floor. They stood on chairs and counters to paint them on the ceiling as well. You looked around the house, touching things as you went. Something was bothering you that you couldn’t quite put your finger on. There was a strange buzzing happening inside you, it seemed like it was leading you somewhere. You closed your eyes and opened your mind. Listening to the energy around you. It was pulling you towards the basement. You opened the door and turned the light on. The moldy and stale air hit you in the face instantly. You gingerly walked down the stairs and into the disgusting and grimy basement. Dirt and dust covered every inch. Insects and rodents, dead and alive, were everywhere. You moved through the basement, keeping your arms close to your side. There was a doorway, when you walked through you saw the room from your vision. This is where they hurt Jenny. This is where the yellow eyed demon spoke to you. This is where they would sacrifice you. The buzzing was back and stronger than before. You held up one hand as you walked, letting it guide you. Off to the side was a door. You touched the doorknob and took a sharp inhale.

A girl laid on the table. She was bloody and old looking. Her eyes were wide, but unseeing. She was dead. You saw that she had the same brand on her chest that Jenny had. Brandon lifted her from the table and opened the door. He tossed her body in with the others before he wiped his hands on his jeans, his face a scowl.

You blinked back into the now, your breath coming in ragged. You raced back up the stairs and ran directly into Sam, wrapping your arms around him. He held you against him, his fingers tracing your neck.

“They are in the basement.” You mumbled against his shirt. “All of them, the girls. They are down there.” You felt him lift his chin off the top of your head. You leaned back to look at him, his face was one of worry.

“Sam, take her back to her apartment.” Dean walked over to the two of you.

“Dean, what if they come back?” Sam asked, letting you go.

“I’ve got an arsenal.” Dean replied, flicking his head towards his duffel bag.

“I’ll drop her off and then come right back.” Sam said, walking towards the door. You in tow. You wanted to help, but something told you there was something that needed to be done. Something that you didn’t want or need to see. You and Sam climbed into the impala and headed back to your apartment. It was two o’clock in the afternoon, most of the day spent at the house. You and Sam walked into the apartment, something didn’t feel right. A chill ran through you and you stopped dead in your tracks. You heard the sound of a hard object against a skull. Heard Sam fall to the floor. Then you felt the sharp pain yourself, you fell to the floor. Blackness took you.

You woke with a throbbing and heavy pain in your head. You blinked a few times, your vision blurry. You lifted your head feeling your body screaming at you. You groaned and tried to move your hands, only to realize they were tied behind your back. You panicked and began to wiggle, jolting your arms against the ropes.

“Hello, Y/N.” Your eyes widened and your head shot up towards the voice. Brandon. “I see you brought me a Winchester as well.” He was leaning against the doorframe into your living room.

“I’ll kill you.” Sam spoke, he was tied up too. His back against yours in the middle of your kitchen. There was suddenly banging on the door.

“Sam! Y/N!” Deans voice was panicked as he pounded on the door.

“Can’t let big bro get to you.” Brandon pushed himself off the wall and placed his hands on you and Sam’s shoulders. There was a whooshing sound and then you were in the basement. The filthy and disgusting basement. All the frat boys were standing around the table in the basement. Their bodies were covered in bruises and their eyes were a deep onyx. There was another man there that you didn’t recognize. He was older than the others and you didn’t understand why he was there in the basement. He had a large smile on his face that looked ghastly against the darkness of the situation. He turned his head slightly and you caught a glimpse of his eyes, a pale and spotted yellow. He looked directly at you. Directly into your eyes.

“Hello, Y/N, I have waited so so long.” His voice was grossly cheery in the dank basement.

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[cosmiceverafter]

Whiskey Lullaby

Summary: The aftermath of Alex leaving Roswell. 

Warnings: Mentions of alcohol, depression, death, abuse (shed scene memory). 

This fic is for @michaelguerinweek - Day 3: “I don’t want you to go.” (distance/separation) It’s quite angsty. 

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The whiskey was bitter and stung his tongue, but Michael devoured the pain.

Hell, he welcomed it.

Michael wanted to forget. Forget how the love of his life’s guitar calloused fingers felt caressing his naked body. The way that smooth tongue sucked deeply upon the sensitive skin behind his ear where it met his neck’s skin. But most importantly, he wanted to forget those damn soulful eyes and the way they had peered into his with a promise of forever.

More whiskey.

There would never be enough whiskey for this type of numbing tincture, the rational part of his brain exclaimed.

Michael swore loudly and chucked the empty glass bottle deep into the desert, hearing it shatter within the distance as if it had been his heart he had thrown instead.

God, he was so damn angry. Alex had just left, left without a word.

Fuck.

The reasonable and raw part of the whole ordeal was that Michael knew this was his own damn fault.

Michael bit his lip and tasted blood, cursing the tears starting to form in his eyes.

If only he hadn't pushed Alex away. If only he had told Alex the truth, not just about Rosa, but about who he really was.

God, he had wanted to and even replayed the conversation over-and-over inside of his mind.

But after that night with Rosa, Michael had changed. They were the monsters the humans believed them to be. How would Alex ever want him knowing what they had done? Rosa was like Alex’s sister, and they had erased her from oblivion.

Guilt, not for the first time, soaked his veins as the whiskey had.

The Pod Squad had covered up a murder and ruined the innocent image of a girl who had her whole life in front of her. All to protect one of their own. He would do it again for his found family, but it still made his stomach feel sick.

He had thought he was a good kid. One that studied and tried for more. But that was the lie, wasn’t it? Michael wasn’t normal. He was an alien from another planet. He’d never truly fit in. And after what had happened with Rosa, the realization had made him stop trying.

Michael tried to pretend it hadn’t happened, but the way Alex had looked into his eyes every single time as they made love, he had felt like a fraud. It would push him to rebel even harder, even though he saw it was breaking Alex’s heart.

The guy believed in him for some reason, which he used to love but now loathed.

Alex was too good for this world. He would never truly deserve him. Jesse Manes had been the devil in his ear, haunting him at every move.

Michael looked down at his injured hand and clenched his eyes shut from the painful memory.

He had just wanted one good thing in this stupid life, even if he didn’t deserve it.

But it was too late for that. He had acted rash and ridiculous, throwing his future away as he drank himself into oblivion in the middle of the day, secretly pouring his stash of acetone into the glass.

Michael had gotten into bar fights and had once again been thrown into jail.

It was nothing new but this time when he had been released, everything had changed.

His love had left him.

The pain hadn’t settled in as he knew and hoped Alex understood he would’ve followed that human anywhere on this planet.

Michael had thought perhaps he was still in a drunken stupor, but the sad truth of the matter was that aliens recovered quicker to sobriety than the typical human.

This nightmare had been a reality check, the worst kind, and Michael felt sick in his truck’s back as he re-lived every second of it.

He had made his way to the Manes’ residence after he had been released, even though he had known Jesse would kick his ass. But he had realized this time in jail, that he needed to get his shit together before his once-promising future really did wash away.

Michael had wanted to go and find Alex and apologize for being a dumbass for far too long. He wanted to prove to be the man Alex believed he could be. And he also wanted to open himself up raw and finally tell Alex everything. Absolutely everything.

The thought was terrifying, to say the least, but it was worth it. He saw Alex by his side for the long haul. Michael didn’t know much, but he knew they belonged together. 

He had known this the first time he had heard Alex sing and play his music in school. The moment had touched him in a way nothing else had. For once, he had wanted to know someone other than his alien siblings. Michael had wanted something for himself. 

Perhaps there was more to earth than he had come to understand.

But that apology and the communication of who he was and what they had done that night with Rosa, wouldn’t happen, because as he had searched around Alex’s house, a neighbor had asked who he was looking for.

“Alex Manes,” he had said innocently, a bit out of breath.

The older gentleman shook his head and said the words that had crumbled Michael’s existence. “Sorry, son. Alex Manes enlisted into the army and left first thing this morning. He’ll be gone for quite some time.”

Michael had felt as though he had been stabbed repeatedly in the chest, yet the words refused to register inside his intelligent brain. “I’m sorry, what? He’s...gone?”

“He sure is. His father is proud of his choice to go. Serving his country and all.”

“I’m sure he is,” Michael had growled. That sadistic son of a bitch had forced Alex, Michael just knew it. This was no choice. Alex wouldn’t have left him...not like this. 

“I’m sure Sergeant Manes will leave you his son’s mailing address.”

Not in this lifetime. Michael shook his head, “Nah. Thanks, though.”

He hadn’t remembered walking away. He hadn’t reflected going to the liquor store and getting several bottles. He hadn’t recollected driving his truck out to the desert to his and Alex’s spot. But he had remembered taking his first sip that day.

Because that sip of whiskey had been a lullaby of a soulmate gone away; the missing void would now be a permanent hole shaped resident etched into his dead beating heart. It was the love who wasn’t coming back. The one that got away.

The only one.

“I’ve lost my human,” he whispered to the stars foolishly, talking to the family he’d never actually known, the ones who had left him, too.

Michael looked at the night sky, knowing that now the world would be a darker place. The sun would not shine as brightly, and the stars would be forever muted with their brilliance.

With each sip, he said goodbye to the future he had hoped to have. He washed away the dreams and desires and replaced them with self-hatred and a mask of someone he no longer recognized.

Which was fine by him.

This would be the new song of his life here on earth.

His whiskey lullaby.

[sunriserose1023]

One Last Job [Two]

WORD COUNT: 2957 WARNINGS: Angsty, emotional, talk of a stalker CHAPTER SUMMARY: You try to get used to having a bodyguard, and a seemingly innocent act proves why you need one.

Masterlist

PREVIOUS: CHAPTER ONE

You were up with the sun the next morning, foregoing the run/jog your trainer wanted you to do for a swim in the indoor heated pool. You waded into the water from the shallow end, taking a deep breath before ducking your head and swimming under the water. 

You lost count of how many laps you swam, and when your lungs and limbs were burning, you rolled to your back and floated. 

All you could think about, all that you’d thought about through your restless night was Bucky. Why, you didn’t have the slightest clue, but there was something about him you just couldn’t shake. He was attractive, that was for damn sure. But there was something else, something deeper … maybe even a little dark. 

Something you wanted to know more about. 

You ducked your head back under the water, swimming to the side of the pool. You got to the ladder and lifted your head, gasping as you gripped the ladder tightly. 

“Jesus, you scared me.”

Bucky smiled from where he was sitting, elbows on his thighs, hands clasped together. 

“I was making a round and thought I heard some splashing.”

You nodded. 

“I didn’t feel like running this morning.”

Bucky nodded, and for some reason, you kept talking, answering questions he didn’t verbally ask. 

“Ollie knows how to swim. He’s pretty good, but he also knows not to come down here without me or Clint or Natasha.”

Bucky nodded again. 

“That’s good.”

You went quiet, feeling suddenly self-conscious, despite the modest one-piece swimsuit you were wearing. Bucky cleared his throat and stood up, making you give a shaky breath when you saw the dark jeans encasing his thick thighs, the black t-shirt stretching around his muscular arms. He nodded back towards the bench he’d been sitting on. 

“I’ll give you a minute to dry off.” “Thanks. I was thinking about cooking some breakfast, if you’re interested?”

Bucky gave you one of those quirky half-smiles. 

“I never turn down food.”

You smiled and he walked away, and after getting a nice view of his backside, you ducked your head beneath the water again, sputtering as you came up, shaking your head and exhaling. 

You scrambled eggs and grated cheese into them, turning slices of bacon as you worked. Toast was in the toaster, and there were fresh oranges ready to be squeezed in the basket on the counter, which Steve was currently working on. Clint was standing by the coffee pot, a frown on his face and a mug in his hand at the ready. Bucky walked in when you set some bacon onto a plate and moved it to the center island, managing to grab one slice before glaring at Clint and Steve. You smiled at Bucky as you turned back to the stove. 

“You’ve got to be quick, or else you’ll lose a finger. But don’t worry. I’m planning on cooking at least a metric ton for Steve alone.”

Steve stepped over to you, a pitcher of freshly squeezed orange juice in his hands. He kissed your cheek, putting the pitcher beside the now-empty plate. 

“Are you sure you won’t marry me?”

You smiled. 

“Sorry, bud. My heart belongs to another, albeit smaller, man.”

Steve smiled, shaking his head as he crunched on a piece of bacon. Bucky swallowed as he watched the ease between you and Steve. Since he hadn’t had coffee, Clint wasn't coherent yet, and he purposefully wasn’t wearing his hearing aids so he wouldn’t have to talk to anyone. 

You turned to meet Bucky’s eyes, a soft smile on your pretty face. 

“Scrambled eggs okay?”

Bucky could only nod, and you carried a plate to him, setting it on a watermelon-shaped placemat in front of him. 

“Salt and pepper’s in the shaker there. Pepper grinder on the bottom, turn it over for salt. Butter’s in the dish there.”

He met your eyes and you smiled, color rising high on your cheeks. You went back to the stove, bringing another plate to the pineapple placemat beside Bucky’s. Another plate was placed on a placemat shaped like an orange, and the smallest plate was set on a lime wedge.

Bucky watched as you set a protein bar and a bottle of water on the counter by the door, taking a carton of yogurt from the fridge and grabbing a spoon before you hopped up onto the counter. You crossed your legs and dipped the spoon into the yogurt, and Bucky ducked his head as he studied the breakfast in front of him. 

A smile lit up your face when Ollie trudged into the kitchen, mouth open in a wide yawn. He walked over to you, putting his face at your stomach, and you smiled as you brushed your fingers through his hair. 

“Good morning, sunshine.”

He grunted at you, and you gave a quiet laugh as you bent to kiss the top of his head. 

“Your plate’s on the lime. Go eat before it gets cold.”

Ollie nodded, yawning again as he climbed up onto the barstool, propping one elbow on the table and resting his head in his hand. Clint shuffled over to sit beside him, second cup of coffee in one hand. Steve sat beside Bucky and started shoveling food into his mouth. 

And when Bucky looked your way again, he found your eyes on him. 

He watched your back straighten as the clicking of high heels could be heard coming down the hall. Ollie perked up, a smile coming to his lips. Bucky glanced over his shoulder and his eyes widened. 

Black stilettos, shapely legs, a tight black pencil skirt, a flowy white shirt, perfect crimson curls. Her lips were almost the same color as her hair, dark eyelashes hiding bright blue eyes that widened as she noticed the crowd in the kitchen. One perfectly manicured eyebrow raised. 

“My invitation to this party must have gotten lost.” “Auntie Tasha, these are Uncle Clint's friends. You know Steve, but this is Bucky. He’s going to Bancougar with Mom.”

Natasha slowly nodded. 

“It’s Vancouver, baby.”

Ollie nodded, whispering “Vancouver” under his breath. Natasha met your eyes, her eyebrow raising again. 

“So Vancouver’s still a go?”

You nodded, setting the yogurt you had barely touched onto the counter. Natasha made a humming noise, sighing as she looked to the clock, then back to the kid. 

“Eat your breakfast, buddy. We’ve got to go soon.”

Ollie nodded, digging into his breakfast. Natasha pulled her cell phone out of her bag and made her way to you, focusing on the screen, missing the way you pushed the yogurt behind you. 

Bucky saw it, though. 

Natasha shook her head, blowing out a breath. 

“I’m so sick of these stupid magazines. How many times can I say ‘no comment’ before they listen?” “I got an email from Jesse at the—“ “No.”

You blinked. 

“No?”

Natasha shook her head. 

“We’re not giving any interviews since whoever at the police station let the news leak about …”

You and Natasha glanced to Ollie, who was giving Steve a run for his money with how quickly he was eating. Natasha nodded, speaking softly. 

“You know. That’s all anyone will want to talk about, and the focus needs to be on the movie and your nominations.”

You nodded, looking down at your hands. Bucky glanced over at Steve when his foot was nudged, and Steve shook his head as he drank from his glass. Ollie wiped his mouth with a napkin and jumped down from his chair. 

“Done!” “Go brush your teeth and get dressed.”

You and Natasha had spoken at the same time, and Ollie giggled as he ran off down the hall. Natasha blew out a breath and shook her head as she walked towards the bottle of water and protein bar on the end of the counter. 

“Send him to the car when he’s ready. I don’t want to be late today.”

The clicking of her heels was all that could be heard, and you gave a shaky sigh as you slid off the countertop. You turned and put your hands on it, hanging your head. Clint slid off his chair and went to you, laying a hand on your back, murmuring softly. Steve tapped two fingers against Bucky’s wrist, and he stood up, following Steve out of the kitchen. 

When they were down the hall in a sitting room or something—Bucky didn’t know half the terminology for the hotel-like house—Bucky shook his head. 

“What the hell was that?”

Steve sighed. 

“That was Natasha.” “Why’d she talk to Y/N like she was something stuck on the bottom of her shoe?” “She didn’t mean it like that. Nat’s practically her boss, so—“ “No, they’re sisters. Sisters don’t talk like that to each other.” “It’s a different dynamic here, Buck.”

Bucky shook his head. 

“She shut her down like she was an annoying kid. Did you notice how Y/N hid her food when Natasha walked in?”

Steve’s eyebrows furrowed and he glanced towards the kitchen as Bucky shook his head again. 

“That’s not okay, Steve.” “It’s not our business, Buck.” “But—“ “Save it. You’re just here to be her bodyguard, remember?”

Bucky grit his teeth. 

“Don’t toss my words back at me, you son of a bitch.” “Hey! Don’t get mad at me.”

Bucky shook his head, turning and walking out of the room, back down the hall to the kitchen. He stood in the doorway and watched you, as you slid plates into soapy water and washed them by hand. After a few quiet moments, he spoke. 

“All this money and no dishwasher?”

You glanced over your shoulder and gave him a tight smile. 

“Keeps me grounded to wash the dishes myself.” “Need a hand?”

You shook your head, turning back around and scrubbing some more. Bucky pushed off from the wall he was leaning against, opening drawers until he found a dish towel. He took a plate from the drainer and dried it, moving to place it in the cabinet you’d gotten it from. 

You watched him as he did the rest of the dishes that way, and you gave a shaky breath when you let the soapy water drain from the sink. You washed your hands and noticed Bucky’s raised eyebrow when he saw how pink your hands and forearms were. You swallowed and stepped around him, and he gently took hold of your upper arm. 

“Is she always like that?”

You closed your eyes, but nodded. Your voice was barely a whisper. 

“She’s just trying to do what’s best for us.” “And that’s treating her money maker like garbage?”

You opened your eyes, meeting his. He let go of you, stepping back just enough to cross his arms over his chest and lean against the counter. You swallowed, speaking softly. 

“She’s good with numbers and schedules and things. When my career took off, Mom asked me to give her a place in my …” “Entourage?”

You nodded, and Bucky spoke, just as softly as you. 

“That doesn’t give her the right to treat you like this.”

Tears filled your eyes, and you bit your bottom lip as you looked towards the window over the sink. 

“Ollie loves her so much. And she’s so good to him. I can’t … She stood by me when I was pregnant and when he was a newborn. They have such a bond, and I can’t break that. No matter how she treats me.”

You sniffled, laying a hand against your stomach as you tried to step away. Bucky took hold of your arm again, his fingers gently brushing your elbow. 

“You didn’t finish your breakfast.”

Your eyes widened as you met his eyes and he lifted a shoulder. You gave a shaky breath as he gave your elbow a gentle squeeze. 

“Can you get me your flight information for next week? And a list of people you normally associate with in Vancouver?”

You nodded, and he held your eyes for a moment longer, then gave your elbow one more squeeze before he walked away. 

You paced your office as you flipped through the script you’d been sent, reading the lines out loud. You stopped when there was a knock on your door, and you smiled when Steve poked his head in. You lifted a hand and waved, and Steve smiled as he stepped in the room. 

“Am I interrupting?”

You shook your head, tossing the script on your desk. 

“I can use a break.”

Steve shut the door behind him, leaning against it as you went to sit in your desk chair. You met his eyes and smiled at him, speaking softly. 

“I like Bucky. He’s good.” “Told you.”

You laughed softly. 

“He’s very observant.”

Steve sighed, pushing off from the door. 

“Is she still riding you?”

You blew out a breath, leaning your head back. 

“She’s just trying to do what’s best for us.” “Y/N. Come on. It’s me.”

You closed your eyes, shaking your head. You pushed up from your chair, shaking your head as you started pacing the office. 

“I need to work. Now, more than ever. The nominations were nice, but I need to keep my face out there, keep the focus on me.” “Is that what she’s telling you?” “It’s what everyone is telling me.”

Steve just watched as you paced the floor, until you stopped and turned to face him. 

“And if I keep busy, I won’t be able to focus on how truly terrified I really am.”

Tears suddenly filled your eyes and Steve stepped forward, taking you in his arms. You clung to him, putting your face in his thick shoulder as he gently stroked your hair. 

“Easy. Take it easy, sweet girl.”

You shook your head, giving a shaky exhale. 

“I can’t sleep. I keep having these horrible dreams about someone breaking in and—“

You swallowed and Steve leaned his head against yours. 

“No one’s going to be breaking in, sweetheart. Not with all the reinforcements and bells and whistles Bucky’s added to this place.” “Really?” “Really. You and Ollie are just about the safest people on the planet right now.”

You put your face back in his shoulder and Steve smiled as he rubbed your back. You sighed as you stepped back from him, pushing a hand through your hair. You turned to look at the clock above your desk, then smiled at Steve. 

“Ollie will be home soon.” “Does he have any after-school activities?”

You nodded. 

“He does soccer and he wants to play baseball, he keeps telling me.”

You shook your head, and Steve smiled. 

“I’ll see if I can find a couple gloves, see what the kid’s made of.”

You rolled your eyes. 

“Go easy on my baby, Rogers.”

Steve laughed, the two of you turning as Ollie came running into your room. 

“Hey, Mama! Look what I found!”

The smile slid from your face when he held out the bouquet of blood red roses. Steve must have seen the color fade from your face, because he stealthily grabbed a tissue from the box on your desk and took the vase from Ollie as he spoke. 

“Where’d you find these, buddy?” “Outside by the gate. Did you know there’s a security guard out there now? He’s a big guy, told me his name was Dugan.”

Ollie shook his head as he walked to the chair you’d collapsed into. 

“What kind of a name is Dugan, Mom?” “It’s his last name, bud. He was in the Army with me and Bucky and your uncle.”

Ollie looked back to Steve, hazel eyes going wide. 

“You know him, Steve?” “I do. And he’s not as cool as he’s trying to make you think he is.”

Ollie giggled, and you lifted a shaking hand to brush over his head. He smiled at you, and Steve cleared his throat. 

“O-man, did you see anybody around these flowers?”

Ollie shook his head. 

“No, the flowers were just sitting by the gate. There wasn’t anybody around.”

Steve nodded, and you met his eyes. He smiled at you, motioning towards the door. 

“Come on, bud. Let’s go see what Uncle Clint’s up to.”

Ollie nodded, waving a hand behind him as he ran to Steve. 

“Bye, Mom!”

When the door clicked shut behind them, you leaned forward, putting your head in your hands. A few minutes later, there was a knock on the door a second before Bucky walked in.

“Are you okay?” “They’re from him, aren’t they? The—the roses. He always sends roses.”

You stood up from your desk, walking around it and shaking your head. Bucky stepped in front of you, closing the door behind him, watching as you paced the room, wringing your hands. 

“Was there a card? Sometimes he sends a card. Sometimes it comes a few days later, in the mail.” “Y/N.”

You stopped, turning to face him. He gently tilted his head, and you felt your bottom lip tremble before you burst into tears. Bucky was in front of you before you could take in a breath, wrapping you into his arms. You clung to him, digging your fingers into his back and crying into his shoulder, shaking your head as you choked out the words. 

“I’m so scared. None of this matters, because he—“ “Shh, listen to me, listen. I’m not going to let anything happen to you. Do you hear me?” “You can’t promise—“ “I can. I am doing everything in my power to keep you safe, and I’m not going to let him touch you.”

You put your face in Bucky’s shoulder, and he tightened his grip around you, gently rubbing a hand down your back.

NEXT: CHAPTER THREE

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