#jai courtney baby daddy

[bluejaysandblackbats]

It Takes A Village

Fandom: YJ98, Flashfam, DC Comics

Summary: After witnessing Bart murder someone, his friends scramble to cover Bart's tracks and stumble upon an international scandal as a result.

(Minor background: Bart took a gap year, and Conner did two years of community college. This starts shortly after Bart's 19th birthday. So, Conner and Jenni are 20, Bart and Cissie are 19, Tim and Cassie are 18, I made Greta 17 for the sake of the fic, and Judy is 15. I decided to make Owen 22 and Thad 16 for plot reasons. Clark and Conner are brothers in this fic, and Clark is 12 years older for the sake of this fic, so he's 32.)

Chapters: 6/?

Characters: Bart Allen, Conner Kent, Judy Garrick, Jay Garrick, Joan Garrick, Cissie King-Jones, Cassie Sandsmark, Tim Drake, Greta Hayes, Jenni Ognats, Thad Thawne, Owen Mercer, Meloni Thawne, Clark Kent, Wally West, Linda Park, Courtney Whitmore, President Thawne

Relationship(s): KonBart, CissieCassie, WallyLinda

Additional Tags: Serial Killer AU, No Powers AU, Angst, Dark Comedy, Bart Allen Kills in This Fic, Minor Thad Thawne, Separated in Childhood, Some Smut in This

Chapter Six: Heavy

Bart slept in such a deep sleep that it unsettled him. His exhaustion wouldn’t let him wake long enough to come out of it. It felt like he was dying. He started to sweat as sunlight poured into the room, wrapping him in the summer heat. Beneath his skin lay an overwhelming terror almost worse than the rage. He lacked the energy to muster anything more than a whimpering breath, so he lay there in a slumber that felt physically heavy. The weight on his chest held his body in place. He wanted to toss and turn until he had no choice but to awaken. It wasn’t until Roy jostled Bart awake, talking him out of a deep slumber that he was able to pull free. “Hey, are you okay? I couldn’t let you sleep through lunch,” Roy stated. 

Bart clutched Roy’s shirt as he leaned forward, pressing his forehead into Roy’s sweatshirt. “Hey, are you sick?” Roy asked. 

Bart shook his head, still shaking as he held onto Roy. “I couldn’t wake up,” Bart breathlessly whispered. 

Roy awkwardly patted him on the back. “Yeah? Traveling probably messed up your rhythm. You didn’t sleep for a whole two days… Give yourself a minute to wake up,” Roy replied, “Don’t panic. Breathe.” Bart released Roy’s shirt and nodded.

“Okay… Sorry, I—.” 

“It’s okay. You don’t have to apologize. It happens. I used to feel like this when Lian was a baby. Those all-nighters used to kick my ass,” Roy chuckled. Bart took another deep breath, and Lian burst into the room with a smoothie. “Hey, pumpkin.”

“Daddy, try this,” Lian offered. Roy climbed down and took a sip. 

“Mmm, mango and pineapple… But why is it green?” Roy questioned despite knowing the answer. 

Lian took a sip and tapped her chin. “There’s no lime,” Lian answered. 

“No. There’s no lime… What does Mommy put in her smoothies for protein?” Roy asked as he picked her up and took another sip. 

“Spinach?” Lian asked. 

“Yup. Yummy, isn’t it?” Roy grinned. “Bart, come down and eat breakfast… Or drink it… We’re drinking breakfast today.” 

Bart slid down the ladder instead of walking down the steps on the opposite side. “I’m gonna brush my teeth. I’ll be out there in a minute,” Bart replied as he wiped his brow. “Actually, I’m gonna shower.”

“Okay, we’ll be here,” Roy nodded. 

**

The water pulled Bart to consciousness and his phone vibrated. Once… Twice. Three times… Phone call. Bart groaned as he turned the water off and wrapped a towel around his waist before getting out of the shower. “Hello?” Bart asked. 

“Bart… I—. Please don’t hang up,” a little voice peeped. 

“I won’t. I just got out of the shower so can you sit on the phone for a second while I get dressed and brush my teeth?” Bart asked. 

“Okay… You aren’t putting me on speaker, are you?” the tiny voice asked. 

“No. I won’t put you on speaker,” Bart answered as he put on his pants. “I’m gonna put the phone down, but I’ll uh—. I’ll—. One second. Sorry, my brain’s still asleep.” Bart finished getting dressed, pushing his hair back before brushing his teeth. After a few minutes, he rinsed his mouth and picked up the phone. “Good morning, Thad.” 

“Good morning… Hey, Bart… I um—. Did you know who I was?” Thad questioned. “When I called… Did you know when you answered the phone?” 

“No, I didn’t. I’m happy to hear from you, though,” Bart answered. The truth. Thad’s call meant that his probation was over. “Why didn’t you tell me? I went to the house, and you weren’t there. I wanted to surprise you.”

“I’m sorry. I—. Bart, I’m scared,” Thad confessed. Bart tensed, clearing his throat as he anticipated a lengthy explanation. “Bart?”

“I’m here. I’m listening to you. What are you afraid of?” Bart questioned. Their conversations were mostly straightforward and unemotional but something felt different. Bart was overflowing with emotion, and Thad craved it. Bart could hear the frightened desperation in his brother’s voice. “Is it me?” 

“No. Well—. Yes. But, I’m not—. That’s not what bothers me. Do you ever dream about the building? Do you ever dream of the two-way mirror? I have so many nightmares about it. I knew about you… When we were—. They used to show me photographs of you. They told me that you were my enemy—.”

“I don’t dream about it… But, I don’t like to think about it. I know our experiences were different—.”

“Are you afraid of me?” Thad questioned.

“Afraid that you’ll kill me?” Bart questioned in reply.

The question prompted a moment of silence between the brothers. “I don’t want to kill you anymore. I don’t—. I don’t know if you can love me knowing that I was raised to despise you. It’s taken a long time to accept you, but I think—. I called you to hear your voice. I wanted to know—.”

“You can come and see me whenever you feel like it. I know it doesn’t mean much, but I’d let you kill me if it could prove I loved you,” Bart whispered. Thad laughed, taking it as a deadpan joke, not realizing the complete transparency Bart offered in his statement. 

“No. I wanted to tell you that I understand now. It wasn’t your fault… And I love you. I can finally say it. I’m scared because I have to confront the truth. We were prisoners. As different as we grew up, we are brothers in suffering as well as blood,” Thad explained. 

Bart choked down the urge to vomit as he realized what that entailed. “What do you do with the anger?”Bart questioned. His hands shook as he fixed his hair, and he held his phone between his ear and shoulder. 

“I let myself feel sad. I don’t feel like I have the right to do it, but I get so sad that I forget I was ever angry. My doctor says I have PTSD and I suffer from depression amongst a slew of other things. Sometimes, I pretend I’m diagnosing you. I like to compare it in my head… And when I do, I get sad… I feel like I’ve left you behind. I don’t want to leave you behind. I want you to get help, too,” Thad replied. Bart sniffed. “Does it bother you that I said that?”

“Yeah… But only because it’s true. I—. I wanna continue this conversation later on… But I have to eat breakfast… And Thad? I love you too—.”

“Wait! One more thing. I promise I’ll be quick… Does Grandma like me?” Thad questioned. Bart chuckled.

“Grandma loves you so much. If she knew about you sooner, she wouldn’t have left you. That’s the thing about Grandma. She’d do anything for us,” Bart reassured him, “You should call her. I think she’d like to know that you think of her.” 

“Someday… Maybe,” Thad replied, “Bye, Bart.” 

“Bye, Thad,” Bart whispered before hanging up. He left the bathroom and joined his friends in the kitchen. Lian sat on Roy’s knee while they drank their own smoothies. Bart searched the fridge for something to eat, but he felt Cissie’s eyes on him. 

“Did someone call you?” Cissie questioned. 

“Mhm… My little brother called. I told him we’d talk later,” Bart replied. “I was bummed that I didn’t catch him in person, but I’m glad we talked this morning.” 

“Oh, how’s he doing?” Cissie questioned. Bart pulled the cake out of the fridge and cut a piece for himself 

“He was worried about something. I think it’ll be okay, but I’m gonna call him later on to talk about it… Oh, while I’m thinking about brothers, Owen might stop by today,” Bart announced. 

“Seriously?” Cissie asked. 

“That’s awesome, Bart. Are you looking forward to seeing him?” Greta questioned. 

“Yeah, it’ll be my first time meeting him in person if he shows up,” Bart replied as he checked his notifications. 

OWEN: in the elevator. are you awake???

BART: YES. I’ll meet you at the elevator. Hold on

Bart pulled his shoes on before rushing out the door. He ran down the hall to the elevator and leaned against the wall. The elevator opened, and Bart stood on his tiptoes as three people out of six exited the elevator. “Hey, you must be—.”

“Owen,” Bart interrupted excitedly. Owen smiled, lugging his sleeping bag and backpack. Bart took his bag. “I live with my friend Cissie now. You know about Roy. He’s Dick’s friend, and he’s—. He’s leaving this afternoon. Greta’s another friend of mine. She doesn’t live with us. This has been a hectic week, but I was hoping we could spend time together. I wanted to see you,” Bart rambled on and on. Owen made him nervous because he had a fairly normal upbringing for most of his life while still carrying their mother’s blood. Owen was everything Bart and Thad could’ve been… But they all suffered from the same emptiness. They were all displaced children searching for a way home. 

“Bart, I wanna show you something. Mom said you don’t talk to her much. She says there’s no need for you and me to hide anymore. We’re adults—.” 

“It’s not easy… Knowing I can’t see her in person,” Bart confessed. “Do you like Mom so far?” 

“Yeah. I like Mom. She sent pictures. Baby pictures. I was surprised that she had any pictures of me. I figured she’d have pictures of you, but I thought she’d have thrown mine away… Like maybe she would’ve wanted to get rid of any sign that I was there,” Owen replied. 

“Mom never throws anyone away. She preserves and protects… That’s all she knows. Keep us alive. Keep us away,” Bart whispered, “Before we go in—.”

“I know. I want it to stay private, too,” Owen interrupted. Bart smiled. 

“Okay… Good. They know you’re my brother. I’m—. Can I hug you? Is that weird? I really wanna hug you, but I don’t want to freak you out,” Bart nervously stated. Owen grabbed Bart by the nape of his neck and pulled him into a hug. 

Bart embraced his brother fully as he forgot their reality for a moment. Owen felt normal. So normal it felt contagious. Bart led Owen to his apartment and opened the door. “We thought you forgot something in the RV,” Roy chuckled without looking up. 

“Oh, no. My brother’s here. Owen, that’s Roy and his daughter, Lian. The one with the long hair is Cissie, and my friend in the tan sweats is Greta. Guys, this is Owen. He’s my older brother,” Bart introduced. Owen went around the room, shaking hands. 

“Nice to meet you guys,” Owen grinned. Bart took Owen’s sleeping bag into his room, leaving Owen alone with his friends. 

“So, what’s Bart like?” Owen asked. 

“Super sweet,” Greta answered without hesitation. 

“Lovable, but he’s got a little bit of a temper when people mess with his friends,” Cissie added. 

“He’s in his head a lot, but he’s a great kid. They’re all great kids,” Roy replied. 

Lian finished drinking her smoothie before answering. “He knows all the road trip games… And he knows how to skateboard,” Lian added. Owen smiled. 

Bart’s expression dulled as he watched Owen talk to his friends. “Hey, Bart…What did you have planned for today?” Owen asked. 

“Gotta get groceries and set up the LED lights in my room,” Bart answered. 

“I’ll go with you if you’re ready to go right now,” Owen whispered. 

**

Owen popped a CD in instead of listening to the radio. “Can I ask you something? You speak Interlac, right?” Owen questioned. 

“Yeah, I do. Did Mom say something to you in Interlac?” Bart asked in reply. 

“Mhm… Here, can you read this? She sent a few pictures that weren’t in English. I was wondering if you could read them for me. She means well, but I don’t want to ask her… She might stop sending things if she thinks I don’t understand,” Owen replied as he gave Bart his phone. 

“This first picture with the lavender paper. That’s your birth certificate. You were born at two-oh-eight in the morning. April fifteenth. Nine pounds two ounces… The second picture in the photo album next to your baby picture is a note. It says, ‘I will always remember how soft he was. He will always be my baby. Mine.’ Um… Owen, are you okay?” Bart asked. Owen’s jaw was tight as he stared at the road ahead. 

“Mhm… The other two… What do the other two say?” Owen asked. 

“The third one… It’s a copy of a list for your adopted mother. Mom put your birthday down and told your adopted mother everything you liked. ‘He’s not fussy. If you put him on his tummy and rub his back, he’ll calm down. If he doesn’t eat, don’t panic. Sometimes he just wants to be held while he eats. He’s social. Talk to him. It might be confusing to him at first, but keep saying his name. Tell him you love him. I know he is heavy but he likes to be held. Even if it’s for a little while. His laugh is breathy. It isn’t asthma. If you think he’s laughing too hard and not getting enough air, cover his eyes or blow on him. Owen is a sweetheart.’ And uh… The fourth one is a letter to your adopted mother. ‘Thank you for the picture but please don’t. My heart aches for him. His absence tears at my insides. It will kill me. Please. No more pictures. I love him. I miss him. No more pictures.’ Owen—.” 

“Fuck,” Owen gasped and tears fell from his eyes. 

“It would’ve been—. I hate what the president did to our family. Owen, I—. I’m so angry that we couldn’t be together—.”

“Well, I’ve got you and Thad now. I know our family isn’t complete, but—. Bart, we have something now,” Owen interrupted as he collected himself. “I’m learning to let go of the anger for how things should’ve been. I know it’s hard, but I want you to try. I’ve only been your big brother for a little while, but you’ve gotta take my advice on this one. That anger’s a distraction. You’re never gonna be happy if you spend every day being upset at what should’ve been.” 

Bart nodded, his jaw tight and his stomach in knots as he stared out the window. A rough hand on the back of his head, startled him, pulling him back into the moment. “I thought you didn’t like me… That’s why I’ve been putting off meeting you. You seem cool, though,” Owen stated. 

“It’s nice to have an older brother. I didn’t expect you to be as big as you are,” Bart replied.

“Guess I’m your big brother,” Owen chuckled. 

“Big brother,” Bart repeated in Interlac. “I can teach you the language if you wanna learn. I taught Max a little, and he’s old.” 

Owen snorted. “How old are we talking?” Owen asked. 

“I don’t know… As far as I know, he’s been alive for everything. He’s like a million years old,” Bart joked. Owen laughed. 

**

At the end of the day, Bart went out with Owen and they sat on the beach, drinking together. “What are you doing?” Owen asked. 

“Getting crossed,” Bart answered as he pulled a plastic baggie out of his sock. Owen chuckled. 

“You do this, right? Like you’re not gonna freak out or something—?” 

“I do this,” Bart interrupted. He lit up his joint and took a hit. 

Owen took a sip of Bart’s drink. “Fuck, this is battery acid, Bart,” Owen choked. Bart took another sip of his drink. 

“This is what I usually drink,” Bart replied. Owen’s eyes widened. Silence fell between them for several minutes, and Bart took off his shoes, digging his heels into the sand. “Yup… I’m done.” Bart held the bottle to his forehead, almost falling backward as Owen supported his weight. 

“Yeah. You’re definitely done. D’you wanna go home?” Owen asked. 

“No… I miss him,” Bart mumbled as he took his phone out of his pocket. 

“Wait, hold on. Who are you calling?” Owen questioned as he grabbed Bart’s wrist.

“My boyfriend. It’s okay. He won’t be mad… I just wanna—. I’m gonna tell him goodnight,” Bart replied. Owen nodded and let go. 

Conner picked up on the first ring. “Hey, Bart. You okay?” Conner asked. 

“I miss you… I wanna say goodnight,” Bart mumbled. 

“Okay… Baby, are you drunk?” Conner asked. 

“Yeah… But I think—. Hic. I think you are the most beautiful boy in the world,” Bart replied. 

“Thanks, babe. I think you’re beautiful, too. Where are you?” Conner asked. 

“The beach… My brother is here. He’s so nice. Do you want to talk to my brother?” Bart asked. 

“I would love that,” Conner gently whispered. 

Owen took the phone, and he rustled a hand through Bart’s hair. “Yeah… No, he’s okay… I’m letting him chill for a minute until he’s ready to go home… No, we’re not driving… Yeah, he’s great. You’re his boyfriend… No, you sound like an okay guy. Take good care of my little brother… Yeah. Alright. Goodnight,” Owen replied before hanging up. 

“Hey, Bart? Ready to go?” Owen asked. Bart nodded. 

“Are you gonna visit me again after this?” Bart asked. Owen nodded as he put Bart’s shoes on and helped him up. 

“Sure… Hey, you never told me you had a boyfriend… Did you think I wouldn’t understand?” Owen asked. 

“It’s new,” Bart replied as he grabbed Owen’s arm. “Gonna fall…” 

Owen laughed, holding onto Bart. “Don’t fall. Come on,” Owen smiled. 

“Can we… Can we get boneless wings?” Bart asked. 

“Everything’s closed, Kid—.” 

“It’s late… Isn’t it?” Bart asked. 

“Yeah. It’s late. We’ll eat a big breakfast in the morning. How about that?” Owen offered. Bart chuckled. “This is a steep hill.” 

Bart laughed the entire way up, and Owen ended up carrying him the rest of the way because he started to stumble and lag behind. “Am I heavy?” Bart asked. 

“No. You’re not heavy,” Owen replied, “You know what? I had fun tonight.” 

Bart grinned. “Me too,” Bart mumbled, “I’m gonna miss you when you leave.” Bart tightened his grip.

“I’m not that far away… I’ll come back. I promise,” Owen reassured him. 

When they got to the apartment, Owen took Bart’s shoes off. Roy and Lian were long gone. Bart leaned forward, mumbling incoherently. “What’s that?” Owen asked, half-amused by his brother’s incessant rambling. 

“I wanted to go home. I wanted to go home,” Bart murmured in Interlac. 

[writingismyhappytime]

Dauntless: Daddy Dearest (Part 6)

Eric x OC

Warnings: Language, Violence, Slight Seduction

A/N: Let me know what you think about the ending. Do you think Eric would sink that low?

"The hell do you think you're doing?" I hissed, grabbing one of the soldiers by his collar and jerking him around. "You think this is a fucking game!? I fucking told you to move those goddamn crates and I meant it!"

The soldier stared at me like I'd lost my mind, and I shoved him away from me, pissed. Mel had been letting everyone run around unsupervised until they felt they didn't have to follow orders!

Damned woman!

The soldier hastily moved away from me, heading for the crates he should have moved an hour ago. I watched broodingly, noticing all the hustle going on around me since I'd arrived last week.

I was already burnt out.

Mel had absolutely no control over anyone here. I'd let her give orders, just to see what was going on; she didn't try to instill any fear or respect into her troops, she just gave a flippant command and walked away.

You either gained the loyalty of the people following you, or you made them so fearful of you they knew they had no choice but to answer you.

I'd always been good at the latter.

I cut my eyes, turning to look behind me.

In two days I had that warehouse empty and the living factionless out of it. Perhaps the more naive Dauntless here thought everyone had been equipped with simulation darts, only making the faction less feel like they'd been injured, but not all of us had.

Still, more had survived then I'd want too, but that was my own fault.

I hesitated.

I'd been going to shoot that man, right between the eyes and put him out of his misery. He'd been scrambling like everyone else in those tattered clothes, and just as I'd started to squeeze I saw him lean down, pick up a wailing toddler from the floor and into his arms.

His son.

That shouldn't have stopped me, it never had before. I'd never let anyone get away from me, I'd never hesitated when it came to taking somebody out.

But I let him live. I let him run off with that kid and I'd turned the other way. I shouldn't have, but I did.

It bothered me.

I'd just --- I'd seen that kid, how it reached for the man in fright, and Kai crossed my mind.

He was making me weak already. I needed to separate my two lives again, the personal needed to stay at the compound, the soldier was what I needed now.

I needed to be the man who didn't let the thoughts of his kid stop him from taking a shot.

"Well, looks like you have this all under control," I heard Mel's dry voice behind me. "Don't see a reason I should stay."

"You're not going back to the compound." I said, not bothering to turn around to look at her. "I was ordered to come here and show you the ropes since you're incompetent."

"Ouch, right to the point as always." She sighed as she stepped to my side, her hands on her hips. She had her dreads drawn back against her nape, her shirt too low cut for the situation and not long enough either. She's supposed to command respect with how she dressed, not look like the white she liked to be.

"I had to come all the way out here go deal with your fuck up," I snapped, glaring down at her. I wasn't pleased I was here, and I was going to let everyone know it.

"You should have been here in the first place," she said lightly, cutting her black eyes up at me. "Not me."

I crowned. "Did you mess up just so I'd have to do this op?"

I wouldn't put something so stupid past her; Melanie had a way about her, she'd get something done the way she thought it should be in the strangest ways --- ones no one would notice. That's why Max liked having her around so much and tolerated her. When no one else could get it done, Mel could.

"Don't be stupid, Eric." She rolled her heavily painted eyes at me, the light glinting off the silver hoop dangling out of the center of her nose. "Why would I fuck my own self over to help someone like you?"

"I was asking myself the same question." I muttered, looking away from her and to the bustling men around me. I'd done the important part, gotten the factionless out of the way, so I would be heading back to the compound in another week or so regardless. Mel would still have it all to do, whether she wanted it or not.

"I just don't want you going soft on me, Eric." Mel finally said, keeping her voice low so only I could hear. "We have a reputation to keep, and doing what we do, we don't need that to go away."

I clenched my hands, staring ahead and not bothering to acknowledge her words.

"You know Max doesn't like wild cards, he's too paranoid." Mel continued, as if I was listening. "If you don't get your head in the game, he might think you're losing focus, that you're not putting his wants and needs first."

"Since when have I ever gave a fuck about those?" I muttered in irritation. "I don't even like him, he's a weak leader. We shouldn't have to gain the favor of another faction, we're strong in ourselves. The city wouldn't function without us."

"You might think so, Max doesn't view it that way. Just stop turning him down, Eric, before he decides he doesn't need you anymore." I didn't miss the tense edge to her voice that time, and I straightened, suddenly understanding.

Max was wanting rid of me.

I pressed my lips into a thin line, feeling anger start to make my blood boil. I'd been a loyal soldier, I'd murdered members of my own faction at his orders, never questioning whether they were guilty or not. I'd gone on countless missions no one knew about, traded weapons with those who shouldn't have them, tortured people just to get information out of them --- all because he wanted me too.

And now, now that I finally had my own small happiness that had nothing to do with Dauntless --- he thought he could take that away from me!? He ---.

"I'll rip his throat out if he so much as touches my family," I snarled, turning to look point blank at Mel and not giving a shit who heard me. "If he's so pissed, he better take it up with me. If something happens to my kid or my girlfriend, if one fucking hair is out of place, I'll kill him before the entire faction and anyone who tries to stop me." I spat the last words, making it clear whose side Mel better choose when the time came for power to change hands.

Her eyes widened, and she just stared at me, taken off guard. I shouldn't say that where so many could hear me, but I wanted to make that point clear; you touch my family, I'll destroy you.

Slowly.

~~~~~~

I sat in my room, my feet propped up on the table in front of me as I leaned back in my chair. It's dark, there's only a single lamp on, and I've been sitting there for a bit.

I was furious.

What had Max said to Mel that made her feel the need to warn me? Was he seriously considering getting rid of me, or was she overreacting?

He wasn't going to kill me.

He could try, he could send whoever he wanted after me and I'd take them down. I knew all the tricks, I'd made a few of them myself, and now I knew to be on guard.

Mel was good for something after all.

I ran a hand down my face, gritting my teeth. Shit was getting complicated much quicker then I expected.

Dauntless power shifting was a serious thing. The previous leader had to become unable to lead or fight, and had to either die or become factionless.

Most die.

Max would.

He was getting older, he's the only leader I could remember Dauntless having. He wouldn't stand up to me in a fight, he wouldn't even fight me, he'd put someone in their place. The only way to get rid of him permanently would be to finish him off.

However, it needed to be smooth.

If Max was to be overthrown, it would have to be unanimous. I would have to prove his incompetence, show he wasn't a valid leader anymore, and basically put myself on top of the totem pole.

Not as easy as it sounded.

I'd need support.

A lot.

That would take some time.

For the moment, I'd play his game. I'd make him think I was falling back in line, that he could control me again. I'd give him a few years, at least until Kai could walk.

Then I'd overthrow him and toss his useless corpse into the chasm like we had so many others.

I smirked, propping my chin on my hand as I gazed around the dark room I'd been provided with. It was basic, just somewhere to squat while the op was happening. Nothing fancy, and not something I was going to miss. A table, a cot shoved in the corner with a bathroom and small kitchen area.

Not fit for someone who'd be leading Dauntless in a few years.

I run a hand across my jaw with a scowl, realizing I was almost growing a full beard at this point. I didn't like facial hair on me, and Camille didn't either, so I always tried to keep it smooth.

Good a time as any to shave it.

~~~~~~~

"Move your asses!" I barked, glaring at the soldiers in front of me. "We gotta get this supplies to the building by noon! Let's go!"

"Oh, must you do all the shouting?" Mel groaned from above me, rubbing her temples as she hunched over. "I'm sure they hear you just fine."

I sent her an irritated look. She's sitting up in the passenger seat of the truck that's being loaded with the supplies to take down the warehouses. A couple drops of dynamite here and there would be sufficient enough to reduce the old buildings to rubble, and moving the debris shouldn't be too bad of a hassle.

Well, so long as everyone followed orders.

"You should be taking notes," I snapped at her, standing on the truck step as I looked around, making sure everything was going smoothly. "Not moping in there because you're hangover."

"Gotta have some fun," she muttered Crossly at me, leaning her head down into her hands. "Not all of us have turned into celibate bores."

I rolled my eyes, irritated. I wasn't celibate, and I wasn't sure what gave her that idea. I wanted to comment, but there wasn't the place.

So, I ignored her, barking some more orders to the men around me to get them moving. We were actually ahead of schedule, and I wanted to keep it that way.

I had someone to get back too.

"Alright, pack it up!" I called, seeing all the pallets and crates loaded. "Let's get going!"

"I hope you're driving," Mel muttered at me, her voice barely audible through the open window as truck engines started. "I can barely see right now."

Pathetic.

I dropped down from the truck step, striding around to the drivers seat and climbing in. I tugged the door shut behind me, glancing at Melanie as I started the vehicle.

I'd always thought her name was pretty, it reminded me of music, of something sweet. She was everything but that, of course, she was perhaps rougher then even Camille.

Mel had many men and women in her bed, but she'd never settled down with any of them. She might sleep with them over and over, but she wasn't partial to one over the other. We'd had our nights together, and admittedly I'd enjoyed myself, especially when she'd brought other women with her.

But I didn't love her. We had a friendship because of what we did together, she was the closest I had to a friend under the circumstances. She wasn't the type of person I'd invite to see my kid, or admit to Camille that I knew very well.

Camille didn't like her, but the feeling was mutual.

Camille might do some shady shit and follow orders, but she questioned, she wanted to make sure it was the right thing to do; that's what held her back in Dauntless.

Me? Didn't give a fuck if they were guilty or not, I'd shoot them.

Melanie was the same.

"You know," Mel said after a moment, slowly raising her head from her hands; her makeup was smeared around her eyes, probably from yesterday, and it looked like she did have a rough night. "I used to think we'd both end up like alone and drunk."

"Still might happen," I muttered, shifting gears. I turned the truck down the road after the first three, sighing.

"No." She shook her head after a moment, looking frazzled. "No, you have that kid now. He'll love you because you're his father. Camille will love you because she's a stupid bitch."

Well.

I grimaced, slowing the truck down a little as we hit cracked concrete, feeling the bumps and hearing Mel groan.

"Why are you so sentimental?" I asked after a moment, daring a glance at her. "Afraid you'll end up alone and die by yourself?"

"I might die by myself, by I won't be alone," she snorted, sounding a little more like herself. "I can have someone around any time I want."

"Having someone around to fuck isn't the same as having someone, Mel." I said after a moment; I'd never understood until I became serious with Camille that there was even a difference. "Companionship and all that."

"Oh what bullshit. Playing house has made you soft," Melanie scoffed, brushing her dreads behind her ear. "You never believed in that crap before."

"I know." I didn't think I'd ever have it either. I frowned. "Mel, look, I ---."

"No, Eric, I don't want to hear it." Mel cut me off before I could start. "I get it. You've changed, you're a family man, you give a shit now. That doesn't mean I have to or that I will. I'm fine with how my life is, I'm satisfied."

"If you're so satisfied why the fuck are you always on my ass?"

"Because I'm worried about you."

"What? Why?"

"I'm worried that you're gonna get all content and shit, and that your happy family thing is going to explode in your face." She finally said, massaging her temples. "Whether it's your own fault or not."

"That's life, Mel. Shit does that, you just keep going." I sighed. "It's not easy, but we survive."

"Yeah, well, I'd rather survive on my own then having people rely on me." She snorted, drawing her knees up to her chest, her arms wrapping loosely around them. "Nobody to worry about is easier."

With that, I did agree.

"Mel ---."

"Look out!"

I slammed on the brakes as the truck in front of us abruptly stopped, swerving sideways as something sent the earth exploding in front of it. Mel shrieked as our truck slid dangerously sideways, tilting up until I felt my stomach dropping.

My arm went out immediately, pressing against her chest to hold her against the seat as everything went in slow motion; my heart was so loud, it's all I could hear, my chest so tight I couldn't breathe.

I waited, knowing we were going to turn over, fall at any moment. Mel would crash into me, throw me against the door, all the supplies behind us would shift, the dynamite --- it didn't happen.

The truck slammed back onto four wheels so forcefully I was nearly thrown onto her side, a boom in the distance so heavy the entire truck shuddered.

I cut my eyes forward, seeing black flames rising into the air in front of us.

Shit!

"We gotta get out," Mel rasped, already reaching for the gun on her belt as she kicked the dented door open, brazenly climbing out. I cursed, glancing in the mirrors --- I couldn't move the truck, old hollowed buildings were on either side of us, the street was too narrow.

This wasn't how the day was supposed to go!

I cursed under my breath as I shoved my door open, my gun already in my hand. I didn't know if we were under attack or if there was just an accident, but I was going to be prepared!

Why was none of this going smoothly?

"You two, stay here and guard the truck, shoot anyone to tries to take it," I barked as I saw two soldiers stagger out of the smoke, covered in black soot. "Anyone who isn't Dauntless dies, got it?"

"Yes, sir," one wheezed, coughing into his hand.

I glanced forward uneasily, seeing the black smoke in front of us; fire wasn't good, not with all the dynamite we were hauling. I couldn't see anything in that smoke, all I could hear was shouting and the sound of my own heart.

I couldn't see Mel, I didn't know if she rushed into the smoke or not, but I had to know what was going on!

I started forward, clicking the safety off my gun as I headed into the smoke.

Fucking way to ruin my day!

I raised a sleeve against my nose asked mouth as I disappeared into the black, my eyes immediately beginning to burn and water. I held my breath the best I could, careful of my steps.

It was chaos, I could see people moving and running, but I couldn't tell who was who. I kept close to the truck that had been in front of us, heading for the doors to check it; we didn't need this shit stolen.

I held my eyes open, refusing to even blink --- all the water in my eyes was making it impossible to see and blinking only made it worse. I fumbled against the hot metal of the truck, finally finding the door and jerking it open. I scowled as a body tumbled out of it, Dauntless with a knife through his neck.

Figures.

Factionless shits just wouldn't stay down!

I leaned down, tugging the knife out of the guys neck; he wouldn't be needing it after all. I glanced around before slipping up into the truck seat, shutting the door and turning the key a few times. If I moved this thing, I could park it to the side, make the street open again. This thing being sideways wasn't helping!

Hope nobody was behind me.

I shifted gears, turning to look over my shoulder as I hit the gas, causing the truck to squeal tires for several seconds before gaining traction, jerking backward along the concrete. Even the cab was stuffy, hard to breathe in.

I hit the brakes the second I felt the bump of tires against the sidewalk, probably leaving black marks as I twisted the wheel sharply, edging one side up against a building.

I huffed, tightening my hold on my gun as I looked out the cracked windshield. Had someone surprised the guy driving this truck, jumped in the passenger seat and stabbed him? What made him stop, what's going on up ahead?

I wasn't going to put up with this!

I could sit there, I guessed, safely in the cab of the truck and just let chaos ensue around me. I could just watch it happen, not do anything, but that's not my thing.

I wanted to kill someone anyway, for putting me through all this shit. I was incredibly frustrated, all I wanted to do was beat my hands against the steering wheel and bellow at the top of my lungs!

I wanted to just get through this, get back to my girlfriend and my kid --- why does this gotta happen!? Why does everything have to be so fucked up and chaotic?

I just wanted some peace!

Dammit!

I turned, shoved the door of the truck open so hard I heard the hinges creak. Black smoke immediately billowed into the cab, and I grimaced as I hopped out. I held my gun to my side as I started back for my truck, my pace swift.

At this point I'd shoot anyone and ask questions later.

~~~~~~~

"Get down!" I grabbed the back of the factionless jacket as he hung off the back of the truck, jerking him so hard I sent him sailing across the concrete. The two Dauntless I'd ordered to watch the thing were nowhere to be found!

Useless!

The factionless couldn't get into any of the vehicles anyhow, the back doors were held shut with heavy chains and locks that only I had the key too.

I turned as I heard the factionless move, firing immediately and hitting him a couple times in the chest. He gargled a bit before falling, so that was good enough for me.

I strode to the doors of the truck, aiming my gun in front of me as I jerked the open. I was relieved to find they were empty, no one had thought to climb in yet.

"Eric!"

I glanced as I heard my name, lifting myself up onto the step of the truck just as I saw a flash of blonde dreads.

Ah, so she was still alive.

"The fuck is going on?" I demanded of Mel the second she was within earshot. She had some black soot on her face, but didn't look ruffled. "The hell is everyone?"

"Factionless took down the first truck, caused the engine to blow!" She gasped, her shoulder slamming into the truck. "It's blocking everything up there, we can't get past it. The threw some smoke bombs to cause more chaos, and everyone's running around like their head is cut off."

"So much for being well trained," I muttered sourly. Four must have been their trainer during their initiation, anyone Camille and I took care of wouldn't be so useless! "Get in. I'm ending this."

"Yeah? How's that?" Mel coughed, her voice raspy from all the smoke.

"I'm going to drive this truck to the front and shoot anyone I see," I grunted, climbing into the drivers seat and starting the engine. It rumbled smoothly to life. "You can come and help or run away like the rest of those bitches."

"You don't know how many factionless are up there, Eric!"

"Makes the game more fun." I muttered, glancing at her. "You coming or not?"

I wasn't going to wait.

I heard her curse, but she darted away, heading for the passenger side. I hit the lock for the doors, hearing them click as I hit the gas. Moving the other truck made it possible for me to drive half on the road and half on the sidewalk for a few feet, the truck adding more black smoke into the air as I floored it, sending both of us back into the seats.

No one fucked with my day.

I had people to get back too.

~~~~~~

"You did well today, Eric." Max actually complimented me as I looked at the computer screen in front of me, seeing him and his office. "We lost no cargo, and only a few dauntless. It would have gone much worse if not for you."

"Did Melanie tell you that?" I grunted, leaning my hands onto the table as I stared at him.

The day hadn't ended well. I'd run over a few faction less with that truck, felt the bumps as the wheels turned their bodies into mangled messes. They'd run off after that, leaving all the trucks behind when they realized they couldn't even get to the cargo.

The wounded had been carted off, everything was where it was supposed to be. I had a few bumps and bruises, but I was fine for the most part. Most of us were.

"No. I haven't spoken to her." Max shook his head. "You've lead this op admirably."

Why was he complimenting me so much? I didn't like it when he did this. He was up to something.

"I'm still leaving." I said after a moment, putting a little more weight on my hands. "When the week is up, I'm still out."

"You've already gotten the ball rolling, Melanie should be fine with the destruction of the buildings." Max didn't argue with me, which I found even more suspicious.

I frowned at him, wondering if I should be worried.

"When my kid is older, this won't be an issue in the future." I said after a moment. "He'll be in daycare soon and Camille won't pitch such fits."

"She'll also be busy with her recruits." Max added. "New initiates should be here in another month after the ceremony."

"Yeah." I rubbed the back of my neck.

That would be interesting.

"I'll have a car waiting for you at the end of the week, to bring you back to the compound."

"I'll get a ride myself," I shook my head immediately, distrustful. "Don't worry about it."

"Very well. See you then." Max ended the call abruptly, and I frowned at the screen in front of me.

It's hard to tell if someone is bullshitting or not through computer screens. I still wasn't sure if Max was out to get me.

I glanced over as there was a knock on the door of my small room, and I frowned as I straightened.

I didn't have time for visitors, I had too much shit to worry about. I ran a hand down my face, but the person merely knocked again, apparently not going away.

For fucks sake.

I huffed, shoving away from the table where the computer sat and making my way to the door. I jerked it open with a scowl, frowning when I recognized Mel.

She had a scratch across her forehead, but otherwise she looked fine.

"What are you doing here?"

"I brought a peace offering," the blonde woman lifted up a bucket of ice, bottles of alcohol chilling in it. "Plus I don't like relaxing by myself."

"All your current fuck buddies too freaked out after the day?"

"Something like that," she sighed, looking tired. "I can't believe it went the way it did."

"Yeah," I stepped back, holding the door open so she could walk in. I glanced at her curiously as I shut the door, seeing how tightly her black jeans clung to her hips.

Those were actually my favorite jeans on her, I recognized them by the scuff on the back pocket. I couldn't fathom how many times I'd jerked them down to her thighs and bent her over her kitchen table after a rough day for both of us.

I shook my head, immediately regretting the thought. Shit, I shouldn't even think of stuff like that anymore.

Mel dropped the bucket on the small table, tossing herself down into one of the chairs and crossing her legs. She reached for a bottle, popping the top off and quickly raising it to her lips.

She wasn't wasting time tonight.

I sat down in the chair opposite her with a sigh, grabbing one myself.

"Has Max called yet?" Mel asked after we'd sat a few moments in silence.

"Yeah. He's glad things went well and we didn't lose any cargo." I mumbled, enjoying the burn as the alcohol ran down my throat. After about six of these I'd have a nice buzz and could relax, they just tasted like shit.

"So he's not pissed?"

"He was suspiciously calm. He's up to something, isn't he?" I leaned my arms against the table, swishing around the liquid in my clear glass bottle.

"I don't know. He doesn't exactly tell me his devious secrets."

Huh.

I sighed, running a hand down my face. I didn't even enjoy this anymore, drinking and brooding. I just wanted to get back to the compound, sleep in my own bed and get woke up every fifteen minutes by my kid.

I never thought I'd miss hearing his screaming.

I slept decently here in the beginning, but not so much now.

I was eager to get home.

"Eric."

"What?" I reached for another bottle, hardly aware I'd had three already. I tended to drink this stuff pretty fast, but I couldn't really feel the affects yet.

"When was the last time you had sex?"

My fingers paused as I went to twist the lid off the bottle, eyes flicking to her.

"Mel..." My tone was warning, I didn't want to have this conversation again. Camille had been uncomfortably pregnant for the last nine months, so I'd say for the last four I hadn't been getting any.

It was frustrating, I wasn't used to going like this. I wanted the rough, wild fucking again, holding onto her as she gasped and came under me, yelping my name. I wanted to see her face as I made her cum, feel her lips around my cock.

Just the thought of Camille like that made me have to shift in my seat. I missed our sex life, but I wouldn't press for it; I got bitched at enough.

"That long, huh?" Melanie mused, gazing at me from across the table. "So you knocked her up and she cut you off? I would be pissed too but not that frigid."

"I thought I made it clear we weren't going to be having these sorts of conversations."I said flatly, but she merely shrugged her shoulders.

"Don't be so uptight, Eric. Since when do you not like talking about sex? You used to like telling me about all your conquests."

"That was the other way around, Mel." I rolled my eyes as I lifted my bottle to my lips, my mouth burning as the liquid splashed against my tongue. I drained it halfway, starting to feel that soothing numbness settle over my body.

"Eh, maybe. I'm guessing you don't want to hear about the guys I fucked last night?"

"No."

"Fair enough," she sighed, looking mopey as she leaned back in her chair. It grew quiet again, just the clicking of the clock on the wall as we both sat there.

What the hell was my life becoming?

I ran a hand down my face, feeling the cut on my cheek sting. I wasn't even sure how I got it, I hadn't noticed it until Mel had been smearing some healing ointment across it when everything had settled down.

To think, I used to enjoy the thrill of a life or death situation; now it just stressed me out. I had a lot more to lose now then I did before.

"Mel."

"Yeah?" She looked up from staring into her bottle, her black eyes flicking to mine. She shifted in her seat, as if growing uncomfortable.

"Do you think Max is a good leader?"

"He's decent, I guess. I can't remember the one before him, I was a kid when the power changed." She shrugged her shoulders. "But he's kept us good so far, right?"

"I guess." I took a long sip from my drink.

"Why?" Her voice was wary.

"No reason. Just think he's getting old after all these years."

She snorted, lifting her bottle up to clink against mine.

"May we all get that old, Eric." She chuckled before draining her drink and tossing the glass into a waste basket. She wiped at her lips with the back of her hand, sighing.

She pursed her lips before standing, a little wobbly on her feet.

"Where are you going?" I asked in amusement. "You're already at your limit."

"I am --- I don't know," Mel hiccuped, her hand rising to press against her lips. "I just needed to get up."

Ahuh.

I took a slow sip of my drink, numb to its burn now. I leaned back in my chair, my eyes flicking to the only window in the room. The city was dark, no one's supposed to be using a lot of electricity at night anyhow. The sky was cloudy, so it was just black outside, reminding me of all the distance between me and my family.

Was a person supposed to think about their family as much as I did? Was that normal? They crossed my mind pretty frequently, I couldn't help wondering what they were doing. I hadn't spoken to Camille in weeks, I was starting to miss even her smartass comments.

What was she doing? Did she miss me? Was she glad I was gone?

"Eric ---."

Shit!

I jerked in surprise as Melanie abruptly tossed herself across my lap, causing my drink to spill across the table. I grunted as her arms wrapped around my neck, grimacing.

"Mel ---."

"You know you miss fucking me," she sighed at me, and I pulled away from her with a frown.  "Don't you? Don't you miss all those fun nights we had?" She shifted in my lap, and I tensed instantly.

"Get up." I snapped, gritting my teeth as she merely leaned into me, pressing her lips against the spot under my ear. My body went rigid as I felt her teeth nip at my flesh, immediately feeling a rush of heat against my skin.

Mel knew my body, she knew what I liked and what would turn me on. Not even Camille knew about that spot, and I shuddered as Mel worked her way down to my throat.

Shit.

I shouldn't be letting this happen, I should shove her off into the floor, I should --- it feels so good. Months going without any type of touch had really taken its toll on me, and now to suddenly have it... I didn't want to push Mel away.

She shuffled, slipping her thighs on either side of my hips so that she was straddling me, her hands rising to cup my cheeks as her black eyes gazed down into mine.

"Tell me to stop and I will," she murmured, grinding her hips down into mine. My hands rose, clamping around her waist, eyes drawing lower to the obvious swell of her breasts in front of me.

I didn't want her too.

I wanted this, I could already tell I was getting turned on. Mel knew how to use her body as a weapon, and especially as a lover. She knew tricks that surpassed even my knowledge, and she was currently using them on me. If this had been two years ago, I would have tossed her on the table and fucked her until she was screaming, but now ---.

"Come on, Eric," she cooed, her nails lightly raking against my jaw to grab my attention again. "You miss this, don't you? I can tell your body does." She chuckled, her lips on my throat once more, sucking and biting until my head was tilting back of its own accord, my hands slipping lower to curve around her hips.

Camille loved doing that, pressing on my shoulders when she was on top, taking the control away from me. She'd always giggle how easy it was, tease me that I let her have her way with me. I could already see her on top of me, her black hair framing her face as she gazed down at me with that mischevious glint in her eyes.

That's the thing.

Even if I fucked Mel tonight --- I would be thinking of Camille the entire time.

The thought made me sick.

Could I even do this?

Could I sleep with Mel, thinking about the woman who was waiting for me at home with our kid?

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malfoyswrites alternate fcs: armie hammer edition

as requested by myself, here are some fcs I think would be a good replacement for armie. since the tags are broken, I haven’t included gif hunt links but I’m happy to help find gif hunts or make gif packs of any of the below suggestions if needed! armie is currently 34 years old and all the below suggestions are 40 and under and could play in his age range!

adan canto - 39, best known for designated survivor

alexander koch - 33, best known for under the dome & lucifer

billy magnussen - 35, best known for tell me a story

boyd holbrook - 39, best known for narcos & the fugitive

chace crawford - 35, best known for gossip girl & the boys

derek theler - 34, best known for baby daddy

freddie stroma - 34, best known for harry potter movies, unreal & bridgerton

jai courtney - 35, best known for divergent movies & suicide squad

jesse rath - 32, best known for defiance & supergirl

jesse williams - 39, best known for the cabin in the woods & grey’s anatomy 

kellan lutz - 36, best known for twilight movies & fbi most wanted

liam hemsworth - 31, best known for the last song & hunger games movies

lucas bravo - 32, best known for emily in paris

luke mitchell - 35, best known for agents of shield & blindspot

michael trevino - 36, best known for the vampire diaries & roswell, new mexico

ricky whittle - 39, best known for the 100 & american gods

sam heughan - 40, best known for outlander & dickinson

scott eastwood - 34, best known for suicide squad & pacific rim: uprising

theo james - 36, best known for divergent movies & sanditon

tom hopper - 36, best known for the umbrella academy

rami malek - 39, best known for mr. robot & bohemian rhapsody 

william moseley - 33, best known for chronicles of narnia & the royals

winston duke - 34, best known for person of interest & black panther

zane holtz - 34, best known for from dusk til dawn: the series & katy keene

[weeb-alcove]

2020 English Playlist

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL77pv5URcE8ZBT4DTVUYXWSn9BPeC4JOL

In English:

100 Ways - Jackson Wang

21 - Gracie Abrams

88rising ♪ from their album Head in the Clouds ♬ History La Cienega

♪ from their album Head in the Clouds II ♬ 2 the Face  La La Lost You Need Is Your Love 

Aliso - Dylan Jordan

A Little Messed Up - June

All the Stars - Kendrick Lamar & SZA

All You Need to Know - Gryffin & Slander & Calle Lehmann

Are You Bored Yet? - Wallows & Clairo

Ariana Grande Goodnight n Go  Stuck with U

♪ from her album Positions ♬ Just Like Magic Motive  Positions

At Least I Look Cool - Sasha Sloan

Au/ra Broken Ideas

Ava Max Kings & Queens  Slow Dance

BØRNS American Money Faded Heart Past Lives

Baby I’m Yours - Arctic Monkeys

Backyard Boy - Claire Rosinkranz

Bad - Lennon Stella

Bad Idea - pxzvc & Shiloh Dynasty

Bad Ideas - Tessa Violet

Bedsheets - Tia

Be Okay - Jordan Fisher

Blackbear ♪ from his album everything means nothing ♬ Half Alive If I Were U  me & ur ghost Queen of Broken Hearts

Boy Pablo Beach House Dance, Baby!  Hey Girl

Breaking Me - Topic & A7S

Breathe Again - Corbyn

Bright Side of the Moon - Christian French

Broken Hearts - Davai & Lovespeake

Broken Record - Golden

Busy - Axel Mansoor

Call - Ocean Heights

Cancer - Twenty One Pilots

Candy Choppa - Warrenisyellow & Chasu

Cardiac Arrest - Bad Suns

Carsick - Maro

Cheat Codes Between Our Hearts  Stay

Choke - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

Cigarettes - Carlie Hanson

Clean - Hey Violet

Cologne - Alec Wigdahl

Come Through - Eric Nam

Conan Gray ♪ from his album Kid Krow ♬ Affluenza  Checkmate  Comfort Crowd  Fight or Flight  Little League Wish You Were Sober 

Cool Out - Imagine Dragons

Cutepink - Lukey & Raphael

Daddy Issues - The Neighbourhood

Daydreamer - Kidsnot$aints

dhruv Double Take  Moonlight

Doin’ Time - Lana Del Rey

Do You Love Me - Stephanie Poetri

Dreams Where Ur Murdered - X Lovers

Drunk Me - Davin Kingston

Dua Lipa Un Dia (One Day) 

♪ from her album Future Nostalgia ♬ Break My Heart  Love Again 

Far Away - Qaayel, Cnebce

Far Away - Utah & Kyl

Fletcher ♪ from her album The S(ex) Tapes ♬ If I Hated You Shh… Don’t Say It Silence  The One

Free Love - Honne

Gallant ♪ from his album Sweet Insomnia ♬ Compromise Sweet Insomnia

Get You - Daniel Caesar & Kali Uchis

Golden Dandelions - Barns Courtney

Halsey Be Kind  Graveyard

Harry Styles ♪ from his album Fine Line ♬ Sunflower, Vol. 6  Watermelon Sugar

Heat Waves - Glass Animals

Hell and High Water - Major Lazer & Diplo & Alessia Cara

Holiday - Lil Nas X

Homage - Mild High Club

Honey - Tyler Sellers

Hot Tub Dream Machine - Tobi Lou

Hummingbird - Mark Diamond

Hush - Ricky Himself & Kailee Morgue

I Don’t Know Why (Ellis Remix) - NOTD & Astrid S & Ellis

I Don’t Want No Champagne - Chimmi

i go high, you go low - Matt Sato

ily (I Love You Baby) - Surf Mesa & Emilee

Intentions - Justin Bieber & Quavo

Isaac Dunbar God, This Feels Good Intimate Moments Miss America Woman On the Hills 

♪ from his album Isaac’s Insects ♬ Comme Des Garcons Makeup Drawer Scorton’s Creek 

Jaden ♪ from his album CTV3: Cool Tape Vol. 3 ♬  Everything  Falling for You LUCY! 

Joji ♪ from his album Nectar ♬ Daylight Gimme Love  Pretty Boy Run 

July on Film - Zeauxi

Just Buried! - iamnotshane

Justice Carradine Limbo  Necessary Evil 

K/DA ♪ from their album All Out ♬ More  Villain

Keshi Don’t Leave 

♪ from his album always ♬ Always Drunk

Khalid Be Like That  Off the Grid  Suncity 

Lauv Mine (You Can’t Find Love in Mollywood) Slow Grenade Who

Little Mix ♪ from their album Confetti ♬ Not a Pop Song  Sweet Melody

Loneliness for Love - lovelytheband

Lonely - Finding Hope

Lostboycrow Candy Wine Devil’s in the Backseat  The World’s Always Been Ending

Lotus Inn - Why Don’t We

Love Birds - wimp

Love in My Pocket - Rich Brian & Eaj

Love Lost - Harbour

Love Me Like a Friend - Fly By Midnight

Mad at Disney - Salem Ilese

Madison Beer All Day and Night  Hurts Like Hell Selfish

Magic in the Hamptons - Lil Yachty & Social House

MAX Naked Take Over 

♪ from his album Colour Vision ♬ Blueberry Eyes New Life Working for the Weekend 

Medicine - Shawn Wasabi & Tia Scola

Monsta X ♪ from their album All About Luv ♬ Got My Number Happy Without Me Love U 

Moonmap - Meego

My Favourite Clothes - Rini

Natalie Don’t - Raye

Neon Trees ♪ from their album I Can Feel You Forgetting Me ♬ New Best Friend  Nights 

New Hope Club Paycheck Worse

♪ from their album New Hope Club ♬ Flight Away Just to Find Love Know Me Too Well Remember We Broke Up in a Dream

Next to You - Becky G & Digital Farm Animals & Rvssian

Nico Collins Happy?  Our Way Out We’ll Never Make It 

Niki Dancing with the Devil I Like U  Spell Sugarplum Elegy Vintage

♪ from her album Moonchild ♬ Nightcrawlers Plot Twist Tide 

Ok On Your Own - mxmtoon & Carly Rae Jepsen

Older - Shallou & Daya & Felix Cartal

On the Low - Justin Park

Paradise - Lil Uzi Vert

Paragraphs - Luke Chiang

Peach Tree Rascals Mariposa  Not Ok 

Pink Sweat$ At My Worst Icy

Play Date - Melanie Martinez

Post Malone (GATTUSO Remix) - Sam Feldt & RANI

Pure Imagination - Unclenathannn & Shiloh Dynasty

Quinn XCII ♪ from his album A Letter To My Younger Self ♬ Coffee  Sleep While I Drive 

R3HAB Am I the Only One Dream of You  Make Friends One More Dance Whiplash

Rabbit Hole - AViVA

Real Love - Rei Brown

Rockets - Waki

Ruel Empty Love Up to Something 

Runaway - Tiffany Young & Babyface

San Francisco - Galantis & Sofia Carson

Scrambled - Havelock

Selena Gomez Boyfriend It Ain’t Me 

Shawn Mendes ♪ from his album Wonder ♬ 305 Teach Me How to Love 

Someone Else - Duncan Laurence

Space Makes Me Sad - Fiji Blue

Splash - Public

Star City Cafe - Hevel & Evito

Stay with Me - ayokay & Jeremy Zucker

Sunlight - Maty Noyes

Surf. - Wave to Earth

Take Yourself Home - Troye Sivan

Tell Me U Luv Me - Juice WRLD & Trippie Red

Therefore I Am - Billie Eilish

The Vamps Burn  Hair Too Long  Part of Me

Tiffany Day Clout Chaser  Commitment Issues Gonna Be Okay

Time Flies - Drake

Tomorrow Tonight - Loote

Up All Night - Clevt

ur just a fan - Suggi

Watching You Walk Away - Stephen Puth

Will Jay ♪ from his album Perfectionist ♬ Must Be Nice  Talking to Myself  Writing a Song Pt. 1

Yellow Roses - Charlie Powers

Young Heart - Kara Marni & Russ

Zayn Rumors Scripted

In Spanish: 

Clandestina - FILV & Edmofo & Emma Petersz

Electronic:

Howls Moving Castle - Theodor Ellefsen

[lovingthereign25]

Never Again

CH 17

Today was the day of Levi's first birthday. You had been running around crazy all week making sure everything was delivered and ready to go.

Roman was supposed to be home yesterday but his flight got delayed due to storm. You haven't spoken to Roman for more than a few seconds since the night he found the divorce papers. His phone was going right to voicemail and the party was gonna start in an hour. All your siblings flew in as did you dad. All of Roman's family was here. The only one M.I.A. was Roman.

"He'll be here Y/n" Vanessa says helping you finish the decorations. 

" She's right. He wouldn't miss his son's birthday for anything" Courtney adds handing you more balloons.

"I know, I'm just nervous" you sigh

"He's fine, he's probably on his way here right now" Patrica reassures you.

As guests started to arrive to did your best to put on a smile and get on with the party. Everyone was having a good time. You went outside to check on the baby shark characters you had hired to entertainment for the kids.You tried Roman's phone again, it was finally ringing but no answer. 

"Sorry, I'm late, the flight was awful" you hear behind you.

You turn around to see Roman standing behind you looking like hell but with a smile on his face.

You walk over embracing him in a hug.

" You asshole, you had worried sick about you" you say slapping his chest.

"Ouch, damn it I had a rough flight and now you're gonna abuse me?" He asks laughing

"Shut up" you say slapping him again.

"Where's my birthday boy?" He asks

"Inside with everyone. Come on let's get in there" you smile taking his hand.

As soon as Levi and Luna seen their dad they both ran as fast could to him while Levi more like  waddle.

"There's my little Samoan rugrats" he laughed.

"We missed you Daddy" Luna smiled hugging her father tight.

" I missed you two more" he said kissing her head " Come on, let's enjoy the party, " he smiled. You sat down watching Roman dance to the baby shark song with Levi and Luna. These were the moments that reminded you why you fell in love with Roman. 

"You know if I weren't here to see this, I wouldn't believe big uce was out here dance to this" Jay laughed from next to you.

"Record it" Jimmy laughs 

"Don't you dare, leave him alone out there dancing with his babies" Patrica says

"He's such a good father" Courtney adds

"Isn't he?, Makes me love him 100 times more" you smile.

 After the party your sisters took the kids so you and Roman could clean up the hall. 

"Sorry if I had you worried" Roman says 

"It's okay, just don't do it again" you smile pushing past him playfully.

"Come here" he says pulling you into his arms

"We're supposed to be cleaning" you say wiggling to get free.

Roman presses his lips to yours. There was no denying you loved this man. He definitely had you wrapped around his finger but whether or not that was a good or bad thing you didn't know.

"How's this little nugget?" He says after pulling away placing his hand over your stomach

"Good, no more morning sickness so that's a plus" you laugh.

"Jesus can you believe in like 6 short months we're gonna have three kids" he laughs kissing your head.

"I can't. I can't even believe I let you get me pregnant again" you joke

"Like you didn't enjoy it" he teases

"Actually now that you mention it, it wasn't your best performance" you lie

"Oh really? I couldn't tell with the way you you begging for more" he laughs

"Ahem" you both hear from behind you

Jimmy and Trin standing there.

"You're pregnant?" Trin asks smiling

" Yeah, we weren't gonna say anything just yet" you smile back 

"Y'all really aint got no filter" Jimmy laughs

"We thought everyone was gone" Roman smirks

"How far along are you?" Trin asks 

"12 week today" you say placing a hand over going little swollen belly.

"Awe, Congratulations you guys!" Trin smiles hugging you then Roman. 

 You all finish cleaning and head back to your house to enjoy the rest of the night.

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TV Show Masterlist

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I made this blog specifically just for the masterlist, as my links keep disappearing from my description. Hopefully there will be an easier way to find it, as I will never reblog anything else.

Supernatural

Okay so right now they’re all basically Dean

Reckless,       Reckless Blood

Forgive Me, (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3)

Witch,    Witch? Where?,  Witchy Backlash , Witchy Woo, Witchy Consequences, Witch, Witch, Where Are You?,  Witches, Man, Liar, Liar, Witch on Fire, Hell Hath No Fury Like a Pissed Off Witch, Pound Me the Witch Drums, Life’s a Witch, and Then You Die, All Hail the Wicked Witch, Where’s My Witch?, Your Witch?, Do It, Witch, I Dare You, The Winchester’s Witch, As I Lay My Witch to Rest.      Witch: Overview

Wicked (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3)

Help Me Baby,  Kiss Me Baby,  Baby, You’re Bleeding, I’m Here For You Baby

Mommy Winchester   (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13, Part 14, Part 15, Part 16, Part 17, Part 18, Part 19)

I Hear You Calling

Hurtful Words (Castiel)

Entertainer

Human (Castiel)

Divergent

Dauntless (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, ​Part 8​, Part 9​, ​Part 10​, ​Part 11​, ​​​​​​​Part 12​​, Part 13​​, Part 14​​, ​Part 15,​ ​Part 16,   Part 17​, ​Part 18,​ ​Part 19​, Part 20, Part 21)

Dauntless: Jealous Much?

​Dauntless: Competition​

​Dauntless: Uh oh​

​Dauntless: What Are You Afraid Of? (​Part 1​, ​Part 2​)

Dauntless: Where is He!? (Part 1, Part 2)

Dauntless: Happy Birthday (Coming soon)

Dauntless: I Love You

Dauntless: Camille

​Dauntless: I Can’t Stop (​Part 1​, ​Part 2​, Part 3)

Dauntless: Caffeine, Baby?

Dauntless: Daddy, Dearest (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11) We All Fall Down

Dauntless: Eric and Camille

Jai Courtney

You’re Beautiful, Just the Way You Are

Star Wars

You Don’t Own Me (Part 1, ​​​Part 2​​​​​​​​​)

Dragon Age (video games)

Bad Luck Hawke

Inquisitor (Part 1, Part 2)

Mass Effect: Andromeda

There is no Ryder without Jaal Ama Darav (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6)

YouTube

Loaded Questions (Jacksepticeye,)

Marvel

I Know I Shouldn’t (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12, Part 13) (Loki)

Bucky Barnes (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11)

Oh, Bucky, You’re so Fine (Part 1)

Nurse! Nurse!

I’m Sorry

Harry Potter

Draco Malfoy and the… (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7) Aesthetic

I Can Hold the World in My hands

Criminal Minds

Kiss me (Spencer Reid)

Tom Hiddleston

Happy Birthday, Hiddleston

Wattpad: Kellyrages, LadytheMonster

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Queer Bops: Songs by queer artists or bands that include queer artists. [147 songs, 8 hours and 40 minutes]

Note: This playlist is best played on shuffle. I was tired of seeing the same 10 artists rec’d on every list, so I decided to compile one myself that includes people from a variety of genres and across all generations. While everything may not be up your alley, I hope you find a few bands and artists in here that you love! I’ll also later be making a playlist of my favs if you want to wait for something more narrow.

SONGLIST UNDER CUT

People who asked to be tagged: @elleem, @genderneutralmilkhotel, @thosefinelines, @mutedcolors, @lesbians-love-taylor, @sirdorkalot, @jesuisfarouhe, @cuddlycuddlefish, @thisselflovecamebacktome, @iamgoingsomewherebeautiful, @georgianadarcies, @shaloved30, @andrewsrannels, @bukwrm, @nearlyheadlessmccree, @earlgreygoodbyes, @spoopyswifty, @zobothehob0

Everybody Wants to Love You by Japanese Breakfast

It’s Okay To Cry by SOPHE

Empty by Kevin Abstract

Seventeen by Troye Sivan

Slip Away by Perfume Genius

Saint by Blood Orange

Turn Out the Lights by Julien Baker

Direct Address by Lucy Dacus

Make Me Feel by Janelle Monáe

Father Figure by George Michael

Mourning Sound by Grizzly Bear

Change by Le1f

I Don’t Love You Anymore by ANOHNI

Drunk Drivers/Killer Wales by Car Seat Headrest

Karaoke (ft. Lizzo) by Big Freedia

To Die in L.A. by Lower Dens

girls by girl in red

Moth’s Wings by Passion Pit

Vicious by Lou Reed

Holy by King Princess

Ghost by Halsey

Islands by The xx

Bike Dream by Rostam

Depreston by Courtney Barnett

My Guy by Kele Okereke

Wait for Me by AW

Bobby by (Sandy) Alex G

bitches by Trove Lo

New York by St. Vincent

Body and Soul by teddy<3

Girlfriend (ft. Dâm-Funk) by Chris (formerly Christine and the Queens)

Gon Blow (ft. Rye Rye by Cakes da Killa

Sleeping with a Friend by Neon Trees

Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go by Wham!

I’m Not Calling by Hollie Col

Kiss the Boy by Keiynan Lonsdale

Send Me You by The Butchies

1 Billion Dogs by Jay Som

Chanel by Frank Ocean

Memo by Years & Years

Spread Your Wings by Queen

Honey by Kehlani

One for My Baby (And One More For the Roady) by Billie Holiday

What I Need (ft. Kehlani) by Hayley Kiyoko

Daddy by SAKIMA

Touch by Shura

I Know a Place by MUNA

DISTRICT by BROCKHAMPTON

I Don’t Feel Like Dancin’ by Scissor Sisters

The Crying Game by Boy George

Tutti Frutti by Little Richard

In My Defence by Freddie Mercury

Closer by Tegan and Sara

Demi Moore by Phoebe Bridgers

123 by Girlpool

Low Hymnal by Told Slant

Full Screen by Adult Mom

Loner by Mykki Blanco

I Think She Knows by Kaki King

Brujas by Princess Nokia

Dans la nuit by Coeur de Pirate

Rebel Rebel by David Bowie

Cosmi Dancer by T. Rex

Rocket Man by Elton John

Give Me One Reason by Tracy Chapman

We Got the Beat by The Go-Go’s

Go West by Village People

Opulence by Brooke Candy

Boys by Lizzo

Private Idaho by The B-52′s

Pretty Baby by Blondie

Grace Kelly by MIKA

William, It Was Really Nothing by The Smiths

It’s a Sin by Pet Shop Boys

A Little Respect by Erasure

Big Big Love by k.d. lang

She’s a Rejecter by of Montreal

Would You Be So Kind by dodie

You Make Me Feel (Mighty Real) by Sylvester

Hungry Ghost by Hurray for the Riff Raff

Know Your Name by Mary Lambert

War Paint by Frankie Simone

The Greatest by Sia

Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance

St. Patrick by Pvris

Skydiving by Lights

Transgender Dysphoria Blues by Against Me!

Lewis Takes Off His Shirt by Owen Pallett

April’s Fool by Angel Haze

Tommy by Gommy Genesis

Reality TV by Mal Blum

Fever by Adam Lambert

Die Young by Kesha

Celi by Entropica

Home by Mercy Bell

Sweet Talk by Avalon Young

Only a Girl by Gia

Maniac by Peaches

Nightcrawler by Aye Nako

So Real by Bloc Party

100 Years by Vagabon

Human Bog by Baths

Blooming by Shamir

brighter by Saint Sebastian

Bulletproof by La Roux

Lifestyle by Dizzy Fae

WHAT DO U LIKE by jesse saint john

Like Heaven by Zolita

Remember Me by VINCINT

Widdit by Lava La Rue

Free to Love by Brendan Maclean

Going To a Town by Rufus Wainwright

Are You Still Certain (ft. Mashrou’ Leila) by Herculues & Love-Affair

I Wanna Be Your Joey Ramone by Sleater-Kinney

Angels Would Fall by Melissa Etheridge

Bikini Kill Bill by The Magic Fountains

Promissory Note by Downtown Boys

Rebel Girl by Bikini Kill

Shake Em Off by Syd

Crazy Game by Indigo Girls

Cool for the Summer by Demi Lovato

Prove It On Me Blues by Ma Rainey

Livin’ la Vida Loca by Ricky Martin

Piece of My Heart by Big Brother & The Holding Company

List of Demands (Reparations) by Saul Williams

Out The Way by Nadine Shah

Fem in a Black Leather Jacket by Pansy Division

I’m Not Afraid by Holland

Baby Won’t You Please Come Home by Bessie Smith

You Know Jam Don’t Shake by Frankie “Half-Pint” Jaxon

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Green Day

The Village Green Preservation Society by The Kinks

Anyone Else But You by The Moldy Peaches

Zombie by Jay Brannan

Isende Lendlela by Faka

Resilience by Annabelle Chvostek

Chercher la femme by Coccinelle

Big Girls Don’t Cry (Personal) by Fergie

Colour by MNEK

GUY.exe by Superfruit

Ooh La La by Goldfrapp

That Was the Whiskey by Antigone Rising

Around Us by Jónsi

Saw You in a Dream by The Japanese House

Agoraphobia by Deerhunter

Black Tie by Grace Petrie

Here Is a Heart by Jenny Owens Young

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Dauntless: Daddy Dearest (Part 5)

Eric x OC

Warnings: Language, parenting angst

A/N: I think the panicked expressions on Eric’s face are incredibly accurate for this series lol also, if you want to be tagged in any dauntless updates, let me know! I don’t always post consecutively, sometimes there might be a few weeks in between chapters, and I don’t want anyone to miss out! Don’t forget to check the masterlist for the rest of my Dauntless, and where all parts of this series are tagged.

   I leaned over the crib, watching the infant sleeping in his blue blankets. Camille had him wrapped up like a burrito, still wearing his little blue hat, his face scrunched in his sleep. It was late, I'd just gotten in, but I'd wanted to check on him before I went to bed.

It felt... weird.

Really, my day wasn't any different --- I left early, came back late, the same time every day. Now instead of just Camille greeting me with a nasty look or a sweet kiss, there's also screaming.

So, not too different.

The baby didn't stir much, just moved his mouth occasionally, made some baby sounds. At that moment, my kid was just a screaming, pooping bundle. He's only a week old, so I guessed it would be a while before he had any personality, did anything other then lay there.

I sighed as I straightened, seeing a few strands of dark hair against his forehead, curling upwards against the hat. His hair looked black like Camille's, but I was kind of hoping he kept my blue eyes; someone had said baby's eyes change colors after they get so old, but I hoped his didn't.

Kai.

I'm a little surprised Camille so readily accepted the name, maybe she was just glad I picked something. We'd been fighting over that the last few months longer then we had anything else. I was just glad all that stress was over.

I stepped away from the crib, silently leaving the room and leaving the door only cracked. I hesitantly popped my head into the bedroom, seeing Camille was safely tucked beneath the covers, sleeping soundly. I felt bad about leaving her with the baby all day, but one of us had to be out there working.

New initiates would be coming in soon, maybe another month, and by then Kai should be old enough to go to the daycare in the Pit. I'd take him there myself every day if I had to, if it made Camille feel better about leaving him. I guessed it was a mother thing, being so attached to the thing she carried for nine months.

I shut the door, grimacing. I'd let her sleep, I'd hear the baby if he started wailing.

So far, there'd been a few congratulations for the baby, a snarky message from Melanie, and Max had clapped me awkwardly on the back before moving on. Tori had been over to see it, Camille said, and Zeke.

It's weird.

I felt like everything had shifted, that now that I had a kid, I... well, I was stupid as fuck. I shouldn't be worried about the fact having a kid would fuck up my reputation, but I was. Melanie was right, anyway, turning down leading the op was seriously going to fuck me over, and I knew she kept hoping I'd change my mind any minute now and take it, leave Camille and the baby to their own devices.

It was tempting.

I sat down on the couch, leaning forward to unlace my boots. I needed to get back out there, remind everyone that I wasn't going to take their shit, that having that kid in my life wasn't going to make me soft. It seemed stupid, even to me, but that's still how I felt. I knew Camille still wasn't feeling well, she was ill and pretty bitchy right now, but she was trapped in the apartment all day with the kid.

She needed some time off.

Hell, maybe I could send her to lead the op --- that would give her something to do and... no, I didn't want to be left alone with the baby. I'd only held it a few times, mostly when Camille begged me too because she was exhausted. It's been a week and I doubted she'd gotten eight hours of sleep yet.

The thing cried all the time!

I leaned up, running a hand along my stubbled jaw. I hadn't had time to shave in days, everything seemed so out of sorts lately. I hadn't felt the need to jump ship and run off yet, so I guessed that was a good sign.

Still, the thought of raising that kid --- I didn't want it to turn out like me. What if it turned out to be a big wimp though, defected to another faction?

Worse, what if it ended up becoming factionless? No kid of mine was gonna end up like one of those pathetic wastes of space! Hell, I didn't even want their to be factionless by the time he was old enough to choose!

Of course, he'd pick Dauntless, I'd make sure he grew up to be tough and a badass like me and his mother. We'd teach him all the tricks, show him the ropes --- he'd end up in leadership like us. He'd be the top of his class, I wouldn't accept any less!

No son of mine was going to end up a disgrace.

I'd chosen a strong name for him, now he better live up to it.

As if on cue, I heard him start to cry, at the top of his lungs just like every night.

Great.

I grimaced as I pushed to my feet, leaving my boots by the coffee table and hastily heading for the nursery. I nudged the door open, shutting it behind me so his cries wouldn't carry to Camille.

"Hey, kid," I muttered, stepping to his crib. "You hungry or somethin'?"

The baby's eyes opened for a few seconds at my voice before closing again, his face scrunching up as he let out another toothless scream. I sighed as I reached down, gingerly lifting the bundle into my arms, supporting his head like Camille showed me.

Where the fuck did she keep his milk, anyway? In the kitchen? I hoped it was already in the bottles and I could just shove it in the microwave or something.

It took me about five minutes longer then necessary to figure it out, especially with him wailing in my arms like he was dying. I ground my teeth together as I finally finagled the bottle into my hand, dripping the milk a few times on my arm to check the temperature like I'd seen Camille do.

Barely warm, that's how it's supposed to be right? I eyeballed the bottle a moment, hoped it was right, and popped the rubber thing between the kid's gums.

Almost immediately he began sucking on it, and I sighed in relief, my ears still ringing. Jeez, the kid had a set of lungs on him!

I gingerly sat back down, feeling awkward as I held the bottle up, his little arms too weak to do it yet. Feeding a baby definitely wasn't giving me any intimidation points, although at least it finally made him shut up.

I leaned my head back against the couch, staring up at the ceiling. The kid was so small in my arms, smelling like powder and detergent, warm. I could hear him eating, and I was relieved he didn't wake Camille up --- she needed her rest.

Fuck, I needed some rest and I wasn't even taking care of him!

I rolled my neck, hearing my joints crack before looking down at my son. Seemed strange thinking that.

His eyes opened for a moment again, still that same bright blue as mine before drifting back shut. It would be a bit before he could keep them open, before he could be out of the serious straight jacket his mother kept him in. She also kept weird little socks on his hands so he wouldn't scratch himself, and I didn't see how he didn't get too warm.

I frowned, pressing the tips of my fingers against his small forehead, but he felt fine. Not too hot, just the right temperature.

Oh, and he's done.

I tugged the bottle out of his lips, seeing him smack them a little bit; he'd about drunk the whole thing, hungry kid. I shuffled, leaning him up a little, hoping I didn't need to do the whole burping thing; I was afraid I'd tap him on the back too hard, I'd break one of his little bones --- I was terrified of injuring my own kid.

I liked Camille doing all that.

When he didn't immediately begin wailing, or throw up all over me, I took it as a good sign. He'd already ruined one of my t shirts, causing Camille to just laugh at me, as if she wasn't even phased.

Probably wasn't.

"Alright, kiddo, let's get you back to bed so I can get some sleep," I muttered, his eyes scrunching as my thumb ran along his soft cheek. My hands felt gawky, too big and cumbersome when I was touching him. I knew my skin was rough, scars decorated my hands, but I hoped it didn't bother him. "Why don't you sleep for the rest of the night, give mama a break, huh?"

I shuffled, reluctantly getting to my feet again, still muttering to him as I headed for the nursery.

"You gotta grow up, be a badass like we are," I said, tugging some of his blankets around in the crib, making sure they were sort of bunched on either side of him so he couldn't roll around and smother himself. Camille had given me a full ranting rundown all of the bad things that could happen to our kid if I didn't do everything right. "Get big and tough and kick the shit out of your peers. Show them that being my kid is a major advantage."

I gently laid him back into the crib, leaning on the railing for a few minutes. I wanted to make sure he was breathing okay, that I didn't still need to burp him or something.

"I don't know if you're gonna have any brothers or sisters, so you have a lot to live up too." I mumbled, propping my chin on my hand. "You're carrying on a pretty prestigious name, you know that?

"Mama is always gonna be here for you when I can't, but I'm gonna teach you everything I can when I am around. You're gonna be the best fighter, the best soldier Dauntless has ever seen. And when I'm leading this faction, you'll never have to worry about anything."

I gazed down at him, seeing he was already asleep, blowing little spit bubbles. I refused to acknowledge I found it sort of cute, and I hastily turned away. If he was conked out, it meant I could get a shower and crawl into bed before one a.m. tonight.

Nice.

~~~~~~

"I can't believe he slept all night," Camille mumbled as she stood in front of the coffee pot, still half asleep. "That's a first."

Ahuh.

"He didn't." I muttered, leaning down to lace my boots, my fingers fumbling with the black laces. "I got him."

"You did?" Camille sent me a surprised look over her shoulder, her eyes not looking quite as tired this morning.

"Yeah. You needed some rest," I stood, stretching my arms over my head. "He only cried twice, don't worry. I fed him and figured out the diaper thing."

After four tries.

Not that I was going to tell her that.

"You didn't have to do that, you're going to be exhausted," she sighed, slowly pouring a cup of coffee before offering it to me. "I'm home all day, I can take care of him."

"I don't mind," I pressed a kiss to her temple as I took the cup. "You're exhausted. Maybe putting him in daycare a little early wouldn't be a bad idea, give you a break some days."

"No," Camille shook her head instantly, looking disgruntled. "I don't want to out him in until we have too."

"Are you still worried someone will be mean to him?" I sipped my coffee, barely noticing the harsh burn. I gazed at her, seeing the troubled look on her face.

"Yes and no." She eventually said, turning away from me to pour her own coffee into a glass cup. "I just... I dunno, I'm not ready to let someone else take care of him yet. I mean, what if they don't feed him or forget him somewhere? What if ---?"

"Camille, he's barely a week old. Don't panic yet," I hooked my finger beneath her chin, tilting her head up. "You have plenty of time to spend with him."

"Only sixteen years," she corrected me, soft lips almost pouting. "What if he chooses another faction and leaves us? What if ---?"

"Too many what ifs this morning," I shook my head at her, pressing a quick kiss against her lips before stepping away, noticing the time. "Don't worry about any of that. He'll be the toughest soldier Dauntless has ever seen, he'll be running this faction by the time he's ten."

"That's some high expectations," she looked amused.

"He's my son, he has a lot to live up too," I shrugged my shoulders. "Now I gotta go. You gonna be good?"

"More or less, I've survived worse then a screaming baby."

I chuckled, seeing her hands on her hips as I strode for the door. "I'll see you tonight."

"Alright."

~~~~~~

"Is she fucking up already?" I asked in annoyance, standing across the table from Max; he'd summoned me up here a few minutes ago, apparently something important was going down.

"Erudite is less then pleased with her progress," Max responded in displeasure, pressing his hands against the table, a map of a city drawn into its top. "Her control over the movement of the factionless and the soldiers is less then acceptable."

"So she has no idea what she's doing." I ran my hands down my face, irritated. Couldn't Melanie do one goddamn thing right? I had enough on my plate to deal with her bullshit too! "She's fucking everything up."

"Essentially. She's managed to move most of the factionless out of the warehouses we need with few casualties, but production has seemed to stop at that point. She cleared these two buildings," he motioned at the map on the table before him, showing me the areas. "But the third is still crawling with them. If they're not gone by the end of the week, we'll be behind schedule."

"Why not just blow the place sky high?"

"It would draw too much attention."

Of course it would.

I rubbed at my scruffy jaw, in serious need of a shave. Maybe tonight I'd have time, if the baby didn't start screaming and Camille start crying because her nerves were frayed. I didn't mind getting up every now and then to soothe him, but I couldn't every night and work too.

"She needs to send in some units to clear it, have them armored and with enough weapons and ammo it's not a problem," I said after a moment. "Go through all the exits but one, leave the factionless with only one escape route so they funnel out into this abandoned part of the city with the rest of them." I drew my finger along the map. "Shouldn't take more then a few hours. Even she's capable of that."

"I wouldn't hold my breath," Max grumbled, and I glanced up at him; he wasn't one to bad mouth one of his soldiers, even lightly; she must seriously be getting under his skin with her fuck ups.

"Just send the order and she'll follow."

"I don't want to send another order, I want to send someone more capable." He shook his head, and I tensed at his words.

I ---.

"Eric, you need to lead this operation before it crumbles through our fingers," he finally said out right, dark eyes on mine. "I'm sending you to replace Melanie, there is no other choice."

Eh!

"I can't ---." I started instantly, curling my fingers into fists. "Camille ---."

"Camille is safe within the compound, her and your child. I need you to stop focusing on them, and focus on your duty to Dauntless." I straightened at the insulting words; did he really think I wasn't taking this seriously? "You need to lead this op to completion, or I'm going to find someone who can follow my orders to a T."

I narrowed my eyes at the hardly veiled threat. He wanted to replace me, did he? He thought he could find some other fucker to do the dirty work and not feel bad about it?

He'd fail, and we both knew it. I was going to call his bluff, I wanted too, especially to remind him how much he needed me.

However...

This might be a good opportunity for me.

"I'll lead the operation," I said thoughtfully, Max starting to smirk. "But not outright. I'll go for a few weeks, I'll train Melanie to get her head out of her ass, and I'll come back. If I think she's going to be shit at it, I'll say so, and we'll make something work. I'm not going to leave for three months at a time, I've got too much shit to handle now."

As I spoke, Max's face steadily soured, until he looked ready to shoot me outright. He ground his teeth as he looked at me, but I merely crossed my arms.

I wasn't changing my mind.

"Three weeks is what I'm giving you." I said flatly. "That's it."

In three weeks, Kai would be a month old, old enough for daycare. I wanted to take him on his first day, and I'd walk back to the compound if I had too. I wanted to make Camille feel better about being separated from him, and me taking him is the only thing I knew to do to set precedence.

You fuck with my baby, I'll kill you.

Pretty easy to remember.

"Fine. Only, however, the factionless are gone by the end of the week." Max said after a moment, deciding not to argue with me.

I smirked. "Done."

~~~~

"Three weeks?" Camille nearly shrieked at me, and I winced as the baby immediately began to scream in her arms.

"Oh! I'm sorry, baby, Mommy's sorry," she sighed immediately, starting to bounce and rock him slightly. She glowered at me over the top of his curly black hair. "Eric!"

"It's Max's orders!" I shrugged my shoulders, watching her grit her teeth as she tries to quiet Kai. "I don't have a choice. Melanie is fucking the op up pretty bad for Erudite and it's becoming a problem. I should never have agreed to let her go." I sighed.

"But --- Eric! You're going to leave me here all by myself with this thing!" Camille gasped, looking ready to cry herself; I could hardly hear what she was saying over the kid, I was having to read her lips. It was just a constant barrage of high pitched screams.

"You're more then capable, and it's only for a few weeks." I said gently, offering my arms. Maybe if I held him she wouldn't have a mental break down on me. She handed me the baby readily, and I cradled him in my arms, running my fingers across his snarled nose. "You're alone with him all day."

"Yeah, but you always come home at night," she sat down on the sofa, running her fingers through tangled black hair. "You give me a break."

"Not all the time. Camille, you can do this. We're soldiers, we can handle anything," I said, holding Kai up against my shoulder, letting him wail into my ear; I didn't need to be able to hear anyway. "He's sleeping better now, right?"

"No." She stressed the word, dark circles still beneath her eyes. "Eric, you can't leave me here by myself. I can't do this."

I knew it was coming.

"Baby," I sighed, shuffling Kai a little against my shoulder, relieved he was finally starting to hiccup instead of scream. I stepped to Camille, sitting down on the coffee table in front of her. "I have to do this, Max isn't giving me a choice. This is big for us and Erudite building trust, and Melanie is blowing all of it up. I love you." I reached forward, taking her hand and squeezing tightly. "I'll be back in three weeks to drop Kai off at daycare if I have to walk the distance myself."

Camille gazed at me with those dark eyes, and finally she nodded, frowning. "Max is the leader."

"Yeah, for the time being." I glanced down at the baby, grimacing as I saw the spit on my shirt. "I'll take control one day and it won't be like this."

Camille snorted, shaking her head. "You really think you'll get Dauntless one day?"

"I'll got you, didn't I?" I arched a brow at her. "I convinced you to fall in love with me and have my child, the hard part is already over."

She almost smiled at me.

"You're so fucking dumb." She finally muttered, but leaned forward to kiss me lightly; her kisses are basically the only affection I've had since she started ballooning outward, and I missed it. I missed the sex like crazy, I'd never gone so long without it before, and I missed her giggles, those coy looks she'd send over her shoulder at me.

The moment she'd gotten that baby bump, all of that stopped.

I was still going through withdrawals.

I wanted --- needed --- it now that I had it.

Being trapped with Mel for three weeks was going to be torture. I wouldn't be getting sweet kisses or halfway smiles, I'd get... Mel.

I wasn't looking forward to it.

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Current Lip Sync Songs Masterlist

Listed in alphabetical order by song title.

A.

Aaron’s Party - Aaron Carter   (Richard Harmon, Pink: Round 1)

Africa-Toto   (Camila Mendes, Pink: Round 1)

Ain’t My Fault- Zara Larsson  (Nina Dobrev, Green: Round 2)

Ain’t No Other Man- Christina Aguilera  (Tyler Seguin, Orange: Round 2)

Ain’t Your Mama- Jennifer Lopez   (Perrie Edwards, Gold: Round 2)

All Eyez On Me- 2Pac   (Stephen James Hendry, Red: Round 2)

All I Do Is Win- DJ Khaled  (Sophia Bush, Pink: Round 1)

All The Small Things- Blink 182  (KJ Apa, Blue: Round 1)

Alpha Omega- MGK   (Dylan O’Brien, Orange: Round 2)

American Girl- Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers  (Elizabeth Olsen, White: Round 1)

Applause- Lady Gaga   (Courtney Act, Gold: Round 1)

Auston Matthews- SVDVM  (Auston Matthews, Red: Round 2)

B.

Baby One More Time- Britney Spears   (Ashley Benson, Purple: Round 2)

Back To Black- Amy Winehouse   (KJ Apa, Blue: Round 2)

Bad At Love- Halsey  (Hailey Baldwin, Red: Round 1)

Bad Blood- Taylor Swift  (Matt Daddario, Gold: Round 2)

Bad Medicine- Bon Jovi   (Sharon Needles, Blue: Round 2)

Barbie Girl- Aqua   (Alaska Thunderfuck 5000, Turquoise: Round 2)

Beauty and The Beat- Justin Bieber   (Sarah Drew, Blue: Round 1)

Believer - Imagine Dragons  (Lili Reinhart, Red: Round 2)

Best of Both Worlds- Hannah Montana   (Alfie Deyes, Pink: Round 2)

Bet On It- Zac Efron   (Zac Efron, Orange: Round 2)

Bitch- Meredith Brooks   (Lily James, Pink: Round 2)

Black Widow- Iggy Azalea feat. Rita Ora  (Jennifer Morrison Blue: Round 1)

Blow Your Mind (Mwah)- Dua Lipa   (Adelaide Kane, Yellow: Round 2)

Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen  (Taylor Swift, Green: Round 1)

Born To Run- Bruce Springsteen  (Troian Bellisario, Blue Round 1)

Bottoms Up - Trey Songz feat. Nicki Minaj  (Eliza Taylor, Green: Round 2)

Bye Bye Bye- NSYNC  (Darren Criss, White: Round 1)

C.

Cake By The Ocean- DNCE   (Olivia Holt, Green: Round 1)

Can’t Stop The Feeling- Justin Timberlake   (Chris Wood, Blue: Round 2)

Careless Whisper - George Michael  (Karlie Kloss, Pink: Round 1)

Caught Up - Usher  (Richard Harmon, Pink: Round 2)

Celebrity Status- Mariana’s Trench  (Marie Avgeropoulos, Yellow: Round 1)

Chandelier- Sia   (Marzia Bigonin, Yellow: Round 2)

Chantaje- Shakira   (Paulo Dybala, Orange: Round 1)

Chunky - Bruno Mars  (Joe Jonas, Green: Round 1)

Come To My Window- Melissa Etheridge   (Elizabeth Olsen, White: Round 2)

Confident- Demi Lovato  (Nina Dobrev, Green: Round 1)

Cool Girl- Tove Lo   (Adelaide Kane, Yellow: Round 1)

Cruella De Vil- Selena Gomez   (Genevieve Gaunt, Gold: Round 2)

D.

Daddy Lessons - Beyonce (Zendaya, Yellow: Round 1)

Dance Dance- Fall Out Boy  (Rose McIver, White: Round 1) 

Despacito-Luis Fonsi feat. Daddy Yankee  (Auston Matthews, Red: Round 1)

Dick In A Box- Justin Timberlake   (Katie Cassidy, White: Round 2)

Dirrty- Christina Aguilera  (Marie Avgeropoulos, Yellow: Round 2)

Diva- Beyonce   (Saoirse Ronan, Pink: Round 1)

Dog Days Are Over- Florence and The Machine   (Toby Regbo, Orange: Round 1)

Don’t Blame Me- Taylor Swift   (Keegan Allen, Red: Round 2)

Don’t Cry For Me Argentina- Madonna   (Bianca Del Rio, Gold: Round 2)

Drop It Like It’s Hot- Snoop feat. Pharrell  (Tom Holland, Gold: Round 1)

Dream On- Aerosmith   (Delta Goodrem, Orange: Round 1)

Drummer Boy - Misterwives (Sarah Hyland, Purple: Round 1)

E.

Emperor’s New Clothes- Panic! At The Disco  (Charlie Heaton, Turquoise: Round 2)

Encore/Numb mashup- Jay Z and Linkin Park   (Katie Cassidy, White: Round 1)

Everybody (Backstreet’s Back)-Backstreet Boys   (Dominic Sherwood, Turquoise: Round 1)

Everybody Wants To Rule The World- Tears For Fears   (Danielle Panabaker, Green: Round 1)

Ex Factor- Lauryn Hill  (Tori Kelly, Orange: Round 1)

Express- Christina Aguilera from Burlesque   (Olivia Holt, Green: Round 2)

Eye To Eye- From The Goofy Movie   (Brendan Urie, Green: Round 2)

F.

Felices Los 4- Maluma   (Paulo Dybala, Orange: Round 2)

Fight Song- Rachel Platten  (Madelaine Petsch, Pink: Round 1)

Filthy- Justin Timberlake   (Justin Bieber, Gold: Round 1)

Finesse- Bruno Mars feat. Cardi B.  (Dianna Agron, Blue: Round 2)

Flawless- Beyonce   (Amber Heard, White: Round 2)

Footloose- Kenny Loggins   (Jack Lowden, Turquoise: Round 2)

Forgot About Dre- Dr. Dre feat. Eminem  (Stephen Amell, Turquoise: Round 2)

Free Your Mind- En Vogue  (Tori Kelly, Orange: Round 2)

Fuck You- Lily Allen   (Selena Gomez, Purple: Round 1)

G.

Galway Girl- Ed Sheeran  (Domhnall Gleeson, Yellow: Round 2)

Gangsta’s Paradise- Coolio feat L.V.   (Lily Collins, Blue: Round 1)

Gas Pedal (cover)- Mike Stud  (Tyler Seguin, Orange: Round 1)

Girl I Know- Avenged Sevenfold   (Hailey Baldwin, Red: Round 2)

Girl Next Door - Saving Jane  (Eliza Taylor, Green: Round 1)

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun- Cyndi Lauper  (Zac Efron, Orange: Round 1)

Give Your Heart A Break- Demi Lovato   (Adore Delano, Yellow: Round 1)

Gold Digger- Kanye West   (Phoebe Tonkin, Green: Round 2)

Gotta Tell You - Samantha Mumba  (Caity Lotz, Yellow: Round 1)

Green Light- Lorde   (Lily Collins, Blue: Round 2)

Gucci Gang- Lil Pump  (Henry Cavill, Orange: Round 1)

Gust Of Wind- Pharrell feat. Daft Punk  (Bill Skarsgard, White: Round 1)

H.

Hallelujah- Rufus Weinwright  (Blake Lively, Turquoise: Round 1)

Happy- Pharrell   (Witney Carson, Yelllow: Round 1)

Harder To Breathe- Maroon 5.  (Chris Evans, White: Round 1)

Havana- Camila Cabello  (Bella Hadid, Yellow: Round 1)

Heartbreaker- Pat Benatar   (Willa Holland, Yellow: Round 1)

Hello-Adele   (Alaska Thunderfuck 5000, Turquoise: Round 1)

Here I Go Again- Whitesnake   (Skeet Ulrich, Purple: Round 2)

Hips Don’t Lie- Shakira  (Gal Gadot, Red: Round 2)

Holding Out For A Hero- Bonnie Tyler   (Benedict Cumberbatch, Red: Round 1)

Hold Me Tight Or Don’t - Fall Out Boy  

Hold On We’re Going Home-Drake feat. Majid Jordan  (Alycia Debnam-Carey, Blue: Round 1)

Home - Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes. (Zoe Sugg, Orange: Round 1)

Honey, I’m Good - Andy Grammar  (Grant Gustin, Red: Round 1)

Hook-Blue’s Traveler   (Roman Josi, Green: Round 1)

Hopeless Wanderer- Mumford and Sons  (Alex Galchenyuk, Orange: Round 2)

Hound Dog- Elvis Presley   (Bob Morley, Blue: Round 1)

Hot In Herre- Nelly  (Bob Morley, Blue: Round 2)

Hotline Bling - Drake (Zendaya, Yellow: Round 2)

Hot ‘N Cold- Katy Perry  (Kendall Jenner, White: Round 1)

How Long - Charlie Puth

Humble- Kendrick Lamar   (Taylor Hill, Gold: Round 1)

I.

I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith   (Chris Wood, Blue: Round 1)

I Get Off-Halestorm   (Alexandra Park, Blue: Round 2)

I Just Had Sex-  The Lonely Island feat. Akon  (Sophia Bush, Pink: Round 2)

I Like it - Enrique Iglesias (Crystal Reed, Yellow: Round 1)

I’m Real- Jennifer Lopez feat. Ja Rule   (Emily Bett Rickards, Purple: Round 2)

I Wanna Dance With Somebody- Whitney Houston   (Ashleigh Murray, Blue: Round 1)

I Want It That Way-Backstreet Boys   (Taissa Farmiga, Turquoise: Round 1)

I Want To Break Free- Queen   (Adam Devine, Blue: Round 2)

I Was Made For Loving You- KISS  (Adam Devine, Blue: Round 1)

I Write Sins Not Tragedies- Panic! At The Disco  (Rose McIver, White: Round 2)

Ice, Ice, Baby - Vanilla Ice  (Melissa Benoist, Turquoise: Round 2)

Idiot Boyfriend- Jimmy Fallon   (Margot Robbie, Pink: Round 2)

IDGAF- Dua Lipa   (Harry Styles, Pink: Round 1)

If I Had You- Adam Lambert   (Bill Skarsgard, White: Round 2)

If U Seek Amy- Britney Spears  (Natalie Dormer, Orange: Round 1)

Instruction- Jax Jonest feat. Demi Lovato, Stefflon Don  (Kat McNamara, Orange: Round 2)

In The Navy- Village People   (Alexander Skarsgard, White: Round 2)

It Must Have Been Love- Roxette   (Emmy Rossum, Red: Round 1)

It’s All Coming Back To Me Now - Celine Dion (Aaron Rodgers, Purple: Round 2)

It’s Gonna Be Me- NSYNC   (Darce Montgomery, Purple: Round 2)

It’s My Life- Bon Jovi   (Darce Montgomery, Purple: Round 1)

It’s The End of The World- R.E.M.  (Stephen Amell, Turquoise: Round 1)

J.

Just Like Fire- P!nk  (Jennifer Morrison Blue: Round 2)

K.

L.

Ladies Choice- Zac Efron   (Alexandra Daddario, Green: Round 1)

Let It Go- Idina Menzel from Frozen  (Blake Lively, Turquoise: Round 2)

Let You Go- Machine Gun Kelly   (Justin Bieber, Gold: Round 2)

Lights Down Low - MAX feat. gnash (Jordan Fisher, Blue: Round 1)

Like A Prayer- Madonna   (Danielle Panabaker, Green: Round 2)

Like A Virgin- Madonna  (Ashley Benson, Purple: Round 1)

Living La Vida Loca- Ricky Martin   (Delta Goodrem, Orange: Round 2)

Livin’ On A Prayer- Bon Jovi   (Skeet Ulrich, Purple: Round 1)

Look What You Made Me Do- Taylor Swift   (Domhnall Gleeson, Yellow: Round 1)

Lose Yourself- Eminem  (Daisy Ridley, Orange: Round 2)

Love Doesn’t Stand A Chance- From Once Upon A Time  (Zayn Malik, Green: Round 2)

Love on the Brain - Rihanna (Nick Jonas, Red: Round 1)

Love You To Death- Type O Negative  (Henrik Lundqvist, Pink: Round 1)

M.

Mama Don’t Make Me Put On The Dress Again- Trixie Mattel   (Katya Zamaolodchikova, Purple: Round 2)

Mama Say- Betty Who   (Gigi Hadid, Gold: Round 1)

Mamma Mia-Abba  (Emilia Clarke, Turquoise: Round 2)

Man! I Feel Like A Woman- Shania Twain   (Harry Styles, Pink: Round 2)

Mi Gente - J Balvin, Willy William

Milkshake- Kelis  (Henry Cavill, Orange: Round 2)

Miss You - Louis Tomlinson (Natalia Dyer, Yellow: Round 2)

Monster- Nicki Minaj   (Vanessa Hudgens, Gold: Round 1)

My Heart Will Go On- Celine Dion   (Cole Sprouse, Green: Round 2)

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light ‘Em Up) - Fall Out Boy (Nick Jonas, Red: Round 2)

N.

New Rules- Dua Lipa   (Bella Hadid, Yellow: Round 2)

Never Gonna Give You Up- Rick Astley   (Alfie Deyes, Pink: Round 1)

Nothing Compares To Uou - Sinead O'Connor  (Trixie Mattel, Turquoise: Round 2)

No Rain - One Blind Melon   (Stephen James Hendry, Red: Round 1)

O.

Often-The Weeknd   (Selena Gomez, Purple: Round 2)

One Dance- Drake   (Amber Heard, White: Round 1)

Only Girl (In The World)- Rihanna   (Gigi Hadid, Gold: Round 2)

On Top of You - Enrique Iglesias  (Jordan Fisher, Blue: Round 2)

Oops... I Did It Again- Britney Spears  (Saoirse Ronan, Pink: Round 2)

Out of Your Mind - True Steppers, Dane Bowers feat. Victoria Beckham   (Willa Holland, Yellow: Round 2)

P.

Paper Planes- M.I.A.   (Perrie Edwards, Gold: Round 1)

Paris in the Rain - LAUV

Part of Your World-  From the Little Mermaid   (Lindsay Arnold, Turquoise: Round 1)

Perfect-Ed Sheeran   (Emilia Clarke, Turquoise: Round 1)

Play That Funky Music- Wild Cherry   (Tom Hiddleston, Gold: Round 2)

Poker Face- Lady Gaga  (Natalie Dormer, Orange: Round 2)

Pony- Ginuwine  (Jason Momoa, White: Round 2)

Pour Some Sugar On Me- Def Leppard   (Danneel Harris, Yellow: Round 2)

Power- Little Mix   (Kat McNamara, Orange: Round 1)

Praying- Ke$ha  (Lea Michele, Yellow: Round 1)

Pretty Fly For A White Guy - Offspring  (Aaron Rodgers, Purple: Round 1)

Prince Ali- Robin Williams from Aladdin   (Camila Mendes, Pink: Round 2)

Purple Rain- Prince   (Toby Regbo, Orange: Round 2)

Q.

R.

Rap God-Eminem  (Alex Galchenyuk, Orange: Round 1)

Rebel Yell- Billy Idol   (Andy Biersack, White: Round 1)

Redneck Woman- Gretchen Wilson   (Danneel Harris, Yellow: Round 1)

Reet Petite- Jackie Wilson   (Jack Lowden, Turquoise: Round 1)

Reggaeton Lento (Bailemos)- CNCO   (Emeraude Toubia, Purple: Round 1)

Repeat Stuff- Bo Burnham  (Dylan Sprouse, White: Round 1)

Replay- Zendaya   (Tom Holland, Gold: Round 2)

Rockin’ Robin- The Jackson 5   (Ian Harding, Gold: Round 1)

Rhythm Nation- Janet Jackson (Sarah Drew, Blue: Round 2)

River - Eminem feat. Ed Sheeran (Sarah Hyland, Purple: Round 2)

Roar- Katy Perry  (Marzia Bigonin, Yellow: Round 1)

Roses- Outkast   (Lindsey Morgan, Red: Round 1)

Run The World (Girls)- Beyonce  (Troian Bellisario, Blue Round 2)

S.

S&M-Rihanna   (Alexandra Park, Blue: Round 1)

School’s Out- Alice Cooper  (Zayn Malik, Green: Round 1)

Sex Addiction- L.A Guns   (Henrik Lundqvist, Pink: Round 2)

Sex On Fire- Kings of Leon   (Zoey Deutch, Green: Round 2)

Sexy Back-Justin Timberlake   (Chris Evans, White: Round 2)

Shake It Off- Taylor Swift   (Lucy Hale, Purple: Round 2)

Shape Of You- Ed Sheeran (Madelaine Petsch, Pink: Round 2)

She’s Country- Jason Aldean   (Jensen Ackles, White: Round 1)

She’s In Love With The Boy- Trisha Yearwood  (Carrie Underwood, Red: Round 1)

She’s So High - Tal Bachman. (Zoe Sugg, Orange: Round 2)

She Thinks My Tractor Is Sexy- Kenny Chesney  (Roman Josi, Green: Round 2)

Should’ve Said No- Taylor Swift   (Lea Michele, Yellow: Round 2)

Shout- Lulu & the Luvvers   (Benedict Cumberbatch, Red: Round 2)

Sign of the Times - Harry Styles   (Louis Tomlinson, Pink: Round 2)

Sister Christian- Night Ranger  (Justin Baldoni, Pink: Round 1)

Sk8ter Boy - Avril Lavigne   (Trixie Mattel, Turquoise: Round 1)

Slow Hands - Niall Horan   (Louis Tomlinson, Pink: Round 1)

Smooth Criminal - Michael Jackson  (Grant Gustin, Red: Round 2)

Somebody Told Me- The Killers  (Dianna Agron, Blue: Round 1)

Something Bad - Carrie Underwood and Miranda Lambert  (Natalia Dyer, Yellow: Round 1)

Somewhere Over the Rainbow- Israel “IZ” Kamakawiwoʻole  (Jason Momoa, White: Round 1)

Sorry- Justin Bieber   (Emeraude Toubia, Purple: Round 2)

Sorry Not Sorry- Demi Lovato   (Niall Horan, Orange: Round 2)

Spice Up Your Life- Spice Girls   (Courtney Act, Gold: Round 2)

Starman- David Bowie   (Daisy Ridley, Orange: Round 1)

Stacy's Mom - Fountains of Wayne  (Joe Jonas, Green: Round 2)

Stay The Night- James Blunt  (Keegan Allen, Red: Round 1)

Step In Time- Dick Van Dyke from Marry Poppins   (Emmy Rossum, Red: Round 2)

Stronger (What Doesn’t Make You Stronger)- Kelly Clarkson  (Carrie Underwood, Red: Round 2)

Sucker for Pain - Lil Wayne, Wiz Khalifa & Imagine Dragons  (Cara Delevingne, Turquoise: Round 2)

Superbass- Nicki Minaj   (Kendall Jenner, White: Round 2)

Swalla - Jason Derulo feat. Nicki Minaj & Ty Dolla $ign   (Sebastian Stan, Turquoise: Round 2)

Swish Swish- Katy Perry  (Matt Daddario, Gold: Round 1)

T.

Talk Dirty- Jason Derulo feat. 2 Chainz  (Justin Baldoni, Pink: Round 2)

Talk that Talk by Rihanna feat. Jay Z (Alycia Debnam-Carey, Blue: Round 2)

Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge  (Dylan O’Brien, Orange: Round 1)

Telephone- Lady Gaga feat. Beyonce  (Darren Criss, White: Round 2)

That’s My Girl- Fifth Harmony  (Lucy Hale, Purple: Round 1)

That’s What I Like- Bruno Mars   (Alberto Rosende, White: Round 1)

The Bare Necessities- Phil Harris   (Tom Hiddleston, Gold: Round 1)

The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavinge  (Chyler Leigh, Green: Round 2)

The Boys (English Ver.) - Girls’ Generation  (Crystal Reed, Yellow: Round 2)

The Champion- Carrie Underwood   (Brie Bella, Pink: Round 2)

The Creep- The Lonely Island   (Dylan Sprouse, White: Round 2)

The Greatest- Sia   (Taylor Hill, Gold: Round 2)

The Look- Roxette   (Phoebe Tonkin, Green: Round 1)

This Ain’t A Scene It’s An Arm’s Race- Fall Out Boy   (Brendan Urie, Green: Round 1)

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things - Taylor Swift   (Karlie Kloss, Pink: Round 2)

Thong Song- Sisqo   (Sebastian Stan, Turquoise: Round 1)

Thrift Shop-Macklemore   (Taissa Farmiga, Turquoise: Round 2)

Tightrope - Janelle Monae  (Melissa Benoist, Turquoise: Round 1)

Tough Lover- Christina Aguilera from Burlesque   (Alexandra Daddario, Green: Round 2)

U.

Under A Paper Moon- All Time Low  (Charlie Heaton, Turquoise: Round 1)

Unwritten -  Natasha Bedingfield (Chyler Leigh, Green: Round 1)

Uptown Funk- Mark Ronon feat. Bruno Mars.  (Lindsey Morgan, Red: Round 2)

V.

Valentina- Alaska Thunderfuck 5000   (Sharon Needles, Blue: Round 1)

Violent Femmes - Blister in the Sun (Cole Sprouse, Green: Round 1)

W.

Wait (The Whisper Song)- The Ying Yang Twins  (Margot Robbie, Pink: Round 1)

Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go-Wham!   (Ashleigh Murray, Blue: Round 2)

Welcome To The Black Parade- My Chemical Romance  (Zoey Deutch, Green: Round 1)

What About Us- P!nk  (Gal Gadot, Red: Round 1)

What Dreams Are Made Of - Hilary Duff.  (Lili Reinhart, Red: Round 1)

What Lovers Do- Maroon 5 feat SZA   (Emily Bett Rickards, Purple: Round 1)

What Makes You Country- Luke Bryan  (Brie Bella, Pink: Round 1)

Whatever It Takes - Imagine Dragons  (Cara Delevingne, Turquoise: Round 1)

White and Nerdy- Weird Al Yankovic   (Ian Harding, Gold: Round 2)

Work It - Missy Elliott  (Caity Lotz, Yellow: Round 2)

Worth It - Fifth Harmony  (Lindsay Arnold, Turquoise: Round 2)

Wrecking Ball- Miley Cyrus  (Taylor Swift, Green: Round 2)

X.

Y.

Yonce/Partition-Beyonce   (Vanessa Hudgens, Gold: Round 2)

You & I- One Direction   (Alberto Rosende, White: Round 2)

You Don’t Know Me- Jax Jones feat Ray-Z   (Genevieve Gaunt, Gold: Round 1)

You Gotta Be- Des’ree   (Lily James, Pink: Round 1)

You Got The Right Stuff- New Kids On The Block   (Alexander Skarsgard, White: Round 1)

Young, Dumb and Broke- Khalid   (Niall Horan, Orange: Round 1)

You’re The One That I Want- From Grease   (Witney Carson, Yelllow: Round 2)

You Shook Me All Night Long- AC/DC   (Andy Biersack, White: Round 2)

You’ll Be Back - Jonathan Groff from Hamilton   (Bianca Del Rio, Gold: Round 1)

Z.

Zombie- The Cranberries   (Adore Delano, Yellow: Round 2)

#s.

7th Element- Vitas   (Katya Zamaolodchikova, Purple: Round 1)

[lovingthereign25]

Never Again

CH 18

The next morning Roman and you had finally decided to announce your pregnancy news with your families. You figured it was perfect since your side was in from the birthday. Roman called his mom asking her to call the siblings and ask them to come to the house for a pool day, you did the same with your siblings. You called a few of your friends too .Everyone was starting to arrive Roman had come upstairs to check on you

"Jesus, Y/n you are absolutely beautiful" he says coming up behind you wrapping his arms around you his hand resting on your belly. 

"Clothes are getting tight, I gained three more pounds" you say

"So what?, you have never been one to worry about weight" he says

" I know and I'm not it's just I'm gaining a lot more this time and I did with Levi and Luna" you says

"Y/n, you look great, so you're gaining a little more weight than before it's fine as long as you're healthy and this little guy is healthy that's all that matters" he says kissing your cheek.

Once down stairs you greeted everyone by the pool. Your Dad was playing with Levi, Luna was swimming with all her cousins, and both families were all together and getting along great. You loved it, you could feel your eyes filling with tears.

"Are you crying" your sister Sofia asked.

"I'm just happy to see the kids with both sides of their family here" you says wiping your tears.

" So you cry?" She asks 

" Happy tears" you giggle.

You and Sofia over to where everyone else was Roman taking your hand in his when you stood next to him.

"Ready?" He whispered

"Yeah" you whisper back squeezing his hand

"Hey,guys can we have everyone's attention?, Y/n and I have some important news" Roman says pulling you closer to him

"I'm pregnant" you say you putting your hand on your slightly swollen belly. Everyone congratulating you.

"Awe, Congratulations!" Vanessa smiles coming to hug you both.

"Y'all be reproducing like bunnies over here" Jay jokes.

"Can't help it, I can't keep my hands off her" Roman laughs.

"Hey, Ro, our parents are right there" you slap his arm.

It was the day of your gender reveal, usually you didn't do these you and Roman liked to be surprised. But Sofia and Courtney talked you into it. Roman of course swore it was a boy, so he was team blue along with Luna who always went along with Daddy. You thought it was a girl being that your pregnancy was a lot like when you were pregnant with Luna. Levi was team pink until he saw Daddy and his sister matching and changed his mind. You were just a little over 6 months your belly growing bigger every day or so you thought . 

"Okay, it's time to open the box!" Sofia exclaimed

"Levi and Luna come up here by Mommy and Daddy" Roman says

"On 3 Lulu and Bubba...ready?" You ask 

"1...2...3!" Luna yells helping her little brother open the box releasing 10 pink Balloons.

"Its a girl" Courtney yells 

"Told you" you smile at Roman

Roman pecks your lips

" does that mean it's my sister?" Luna asks

"Yes, baby you and Levi are gonna have a little sister" Patrica says .

"You guys have any names picked out yet?" Summer asks

"Still working on it" Roman laughs

"Well he wouldn't agree to girl's names because he swore she was a boy" you laugh.

When everyone was gone you and Roman sat on the backyard while Levi and Luna played with the dogs. You smiled at your children from Roman's lap. He kissed your shoulder lighty

"She'd be so proud of you baby" he says

"Huh?" You say 

" Your mom. She'd be so proud of you, you're an amazing mother." He says

"Thanks, but I think she'd be kicking our asses having these babies back to back like this"  you joke

"Yeah, probably but she'd be proud" he smiles

"I miss her so much, especially days like today when the whole family is together" you say.

"I know" he says holding tighter.

You lay your head back on Roman continuing to watch your kids play Roman put his hand over your belly as soon as he did she started kicking

"Another Daddy's girl" he said.

[phatpretty]

These niggas

Justin-baby daddy first sex partner got pregnant 15yrs old thought it was a relationship he was 18 I was 15 told me after I founded out I was pregnant it wasn’t his mother made me have an abortion-Trumatic moment kinda wished I had a choice in that matter

Jerry Clark-boyfriend who cheated had kids on me and I even had sex with him while he was in a whole marriage he choked me while I was sleep once talked crazy to me often treated as a sexual object he only came around at times and it was for sexual purposes only

Jerry Travis-started off good ended rocky throw me through a wall and choked me in front of my cousin who didn’t help me. Kicked door off the hinges after I was called over to kick it and a whole white girl was there said “i love you”

Jay bird-sneaky link only sex got caught by my mother having sex in here house 🤦🏾‍♀️

Rico-boyfriend (so I thought) really only sex went whenever he called was always there for me sometimes there for me especially when I was leaving my ex husband and when he felt like someone was hurting me he sometimes only came around when drunk and wanted sex mother didn’t approve the fought once and was sneaking to be with him too said “I love you”

Jason-ex husband started off getting high with the crew and he expressing his feelings while he would be in traffic finally linked over dinner and sex then one thing lead to another spent most of my weekend with him till my mom tried to stop it and I ran away from home got married pressed charges on my mom married maybe two days and was ready for it to be over. This relationship hurt me the most took things away from me that someday I feel I’ll never get back (like my true self) due to the fighting hearing lose knee surgery depression anxiety fears trust issues embarrasses easily if having to deal with shit publicly dated for many years after our married it’s was mostly based on sex tho after club hours mad shopping sprees said “I love you”

Cleveland-thought he was the one. Got engaged wasn’t based on sex made him wait verbally and mentally hurt me would say things that now I know shouldn’t not be said to anyone things like we need to go workout to get your body right or that I need some kind of help and told his family that I was sick meaning in my head sick went out of town for four days lied and said he left his phone charger only to find out he was laid up with random woman putting my life in danger didn’t properly end the relationship just stopped talking to me and I wanted answer that I never got

Valerie-🤦🏾‍♀️we was cool as hell started off as friends who tried to keep this thing private but living in the social media world how could you first girl experience ever sexual things where good until my baby died of sids and she founded him the next morning that sent our relationship on a down hill spiral she told me one time “I love you, but I’m not in love with you” my mom stopped talking to me during this relationship had a whole family gathering to pray the gay out of me I left and moved in with Val her family welcomed me with open arms said “I love you”

Courtney-loved me no matter what but I didn’t trust this bitch as far as I could throw her. We had mad fun always she moved in this relationship came right at the end of Val and I and it happened quick social media relationship for sure I felt fat all I did was eat but she loved all of my and still does but I was older and that was a problem and Kiki was no help cause she wants her back and would go to the ends of the earth to get her now where best friends who lean on each other in or times of need she still wants me but baby I’m 40 and she’s still in here 20’s at first it was based on sex then I just stopped having sex with her throw away everything she ever brought had a visual fight over fb with her and my cousin tan and crunchy got called childish for throwing the stuff away saw a msg from another girl in her phone she was still having conversation with her ex and still kicking it with her her mom played a big part in it as well always wanting something from me like money etc talks about wanting to do sexual things to me said “I love you”

Magic-just sex one time chynas baby daddy thought he was going to join in flirts but on a sexual level only

Shine Mello Tremaine-sexual situationships....

shine hit me up one night after 11:30 talking like his all concerned as to what I’ve been up too calling me beautiful sending cute snaps I pick him up we attempt to have sex but it wouldn’t stay hard🤣 next time we finally had sex at this point I’m out of my body I’m this other person playing this game would call to vent his issues I would help him work through the issues other times he came over he brought his kids thought he was going to trap out my house and my car started to call wanting rides then I just cut him off

Mello-the person I started the game with, game meaning the game of me wanting to know what the hype was behind these three clowns🤡 so went out and said some shit to him tremaine got mad and felt some type of way pushed me bruised my knee Mello txted basically saying what that mouth do pulled up on him showed him only to find out he had recorded it and sent it to his friends😮 shine mention this to me but tremaine confirmed it with many failed attempts his tried to slide back but has been lift on read

Tremaine-started with a fb video chat to seeing each other in RJ’s flirting catching a whole vibe chicken wing challenge🤣 to smiling and watching each other in the club to finally picking him up cooking for him talking hanging out one night to sexing each other for hours😮to me catching feelings to him thinking I’m bipolar to me asking what’s wrong with me him saying I’m to aggressive blunt when I talk to him i later apologized for that to him saying “so you gone suck my dick” took my heart right out of my chest I really thought he was my twin flame the vibe was unmatched it was unreal to good to be true even BOYFRIEND VIBES also while holding me asked me to just let go and don’t hold back

Big Tyme-sexual as fuck that’s it that’s all selling dreams getting mad when I didn’t answer my phone passed out boyfriend vibes when I didn’t have my own place was wishing I did so he could come set up show and trap

Lil Love-boyfriend at the age of 17 cheated on me with my cousin Kenya I spit on him and tried to burn him with a iron snuck out the house to be with him was with him behind my mothers back with several failed attempts has tried to come back

P.D-sexual when I was in my early 20’s

Chris Kendall-childhood crush I cheated on him very stressful relationship with kids involved plus a ex wife mother was all in or shit good times I knew it was over I cried about it kinda built on sex cause that’s how we linked one night after the club took him back to my cousins house said “I love you”

Rico Patton-one night stand

Darnell-sexual flirting lead to sex

Q-well meet him because I turnt his friend down (Murray state) played football I was getting high off coke🤦🏾‍♀️linked after a party me and the crew spent the night at they apartment had sex we linked and hung out maybe a few times after

Big Baby-sexual link that has turned into a sexual flirtation over pictures on Instagram to making plans to link to have sex again after 15 years has a girl I think still the sweetest txt to check on me

Lil Scrappy-flirted lied cheating having sex in his girls house when I had no clue of another woman put his hands on me verbally abusive fought a bitch for waking me up cause he was out in her car while I was in his bed

Terrence Biggers-years of flirting with me after ten years finally gave him some on the day my uncle died pure sexual

Lawrence Arnold-sexual hooked up once while I was in Murray state after a party for years have always felt like his my soul mate great connection

Cheese-sexual relationship dated for a few couldn’t get past the fact that his in to these modern day drug plus he has health issues mainly it was sex all the time we linked tried to get me to take a x pill left for many years only to resurface to think that after I had sex with him that he was back in no alter ego was still present and wasn’t going for it at all come to find out his a whole married man as well and also gave me a std

Jason dicky-head over hills for a whole criminal stole from me gave a std had a child that neither of us knew about sexual as fuck family stayed involved my mom stepped in forbidded us to be together we snuck around anyways my feeling didn’t matter

Siwel-sexual always wanted more thought he could be the one big ole cheater

 Ulysses-sexual sweet guy juicy lips

Ron Tharpe-dated when I was 18 always was so sweet behind closed doors mainly sexual never really had a public relationship linked back up but it was all about sex wanted kids with him thought it could be something f do founded out he was dating my cousin let that ass go

Deandre-recent clown ass nigga came in said all of what I wanted to hear typical street nigga bug broke as fuck Sarcastic af could have been something but was inconsistent going through his own personal shit sexed him twice kinda built on sex grabbed me in my face and told me “to shut the fuck up” in a club 😮do believe his a complete lyier was four mths out of a 14 year relationship was suppose to be hooked up with two other people but clearly he claims he didn’t want them no communication all started before his mom died claimed he loved me (lies) how after just three days 

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List of Banned Books

How Many Have You Read?

Children’s Books:

Allan, Nicholas. Where Willy Went

Allard, Harry. Bumps in the Night

Allard, Harry. The Stupids series

Allington, Richard. Once Upon a Hippo

Ancona, George. Cuban Kids

Avi. The Fighting Ground

Babbitt, Natalie. The Devil’s Storybook

Bailey, Jacqui, and Jan McCafferty. Sex, Puberty, and All That Stuff: A Guide to Growing Up

Bannerman, Helen. Little Black Sambo

Birdseye, Tom. Attack of the Mutant Underwear

Blume, Judy. Are You There, God? It’s Me, Margaret

Blume, Judy. Blubber

Brannen, Sarah S. Uncle Bobby’s Wedding

Brittain, Bill. The Wish Giver

Brown, Laurie Krasny, and Marc Brown. What’s the Big Secret? Talking about Sex with Girls and Boys

Brown, Marc Tolon. Buster’s Sugartime

Butler, Dori Hillestad. My Mom’s Having a Baby! A Kid’s Month-by-Month Guide to Pregnancy

Carle, Eric. Draw Me a Star

Christensen, James, C., Renwick St. James and Alan Dean Foster. Voyage of the Basset

Clutton-Brock, Juliet. Horse (DK)

Cohen, Daniel. Ghostly Warnings

Cohen, Daniel. Phantom Animals

Cole, Babette. Mommy Laid An Egg

Cole, Joanna. Asking About Sex and Growing Up

Collier, James Lincoln, and Christopher Collier. Jump Ship to Freedom

Collier, James Lincoln, and Christopher Collier. My Brother Sam is Dead

Collier, James Lincoln, and Christopher Collier. With Every Drop of Blood

Cormier, Robert. The Chocolate War

Coupe, Peter. The Beginner’s Guide to Drawing Cartoons

Curtis, Christopher Paul. The Watsons Go to Birmingham—1963

Dahl, Roald. James and the Giant Peach

Dahl, Roald. The Witches

de Haan, Linda. King & King

DeClements, Barthe. Sixth Grade Can Really Kill You

Elliot, David. An Alphabet for Rotten Kids

Fierstein, Harvey. The Sissy Duckling

Fogelin, Adrian. My Brother’s Hero

Fox, Mem. Guess What?

Fox, Paula. The Slave Dancer

Garden, Nancy. Holly’s Secret

Geisel, Theodor Seuss. Hop on Pop: The Simplest Seuss for Youngest Use

Geisel, Theodor Seuss. If I Ran the Zoo

George, Jean Craighead. Julie of the Wolves

Gordon, Sharon. Cuba

Grove, Vicki. The Starplace

Hahn, Mary Downing. The Dead Man in Indian Creek

Hanford, Martin. Where’s Waldo?

Harper, Charise Mericle. Flashcards of My Life

Harper, Kathryn. Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs

Harris, Robie. It’s Perfectly Normal: Changing Bodies, Growing Up, Sex, and Sexual Health

Harris, Robie. It’s So Amazing!: A Book about Eggs, Sperm, Birth, Babies, and Families

Harris, Robie. Who’s In My Family?: All About Families (Let’s Talk About You and Me)

Henkes, Kevin. Olive’s Ocean

Henson, Jim. For Every Child a Better World

Hergé [Georges Remi]. Tintin in America

Hergé [Georges Remi]. Tintin in the Congo

Herthel, Jessica, and Jazz Jennings. I Am Jazz

Hill, Douglas Arthur. Witches and Magic-Makers

Homes, A.M. Jack

Ignatow, Amy. The Popularity Papers

Jukes, Mavis. It’s a Girl Thing: How to Stay Healthy, Safe and in Charge

Kehret, Peg. Stolen Children

Kellogg, Steven. Pinkerton, Behave!

Kilodavis, Cheryl. My Princess Boy: A Mom’s Story About a Young Boy Who Loves to Dress Up

Kotzwinkle, William, and Glenn Murray. Walter the Farting Dog

L’Engle, Madeleine. A Wrinkle in Time

Lewis, Richard, comp. There Are Two Lives: Poems by Children of Japan

Lindgren, Astrid. The Runaway Sleigh Ride

Lowry, Lois. Anastasia Krupnik series

Lowry, Lois. The Giver.

Madaras, Linda. What’s Happening to My Body? Book for Boys: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Sons

Madaras, Linda. What’s Happening to My Body? Book for Girls: A Growing-Up Guide for Parents & Daughters

Martin, Michael. Kurt Cobain

Mayle, Peter. Where Did I Come From?

Mercado, Nancy E., ed. Tripping Over the Lunch Lady and Other Short Stories

Merriam, Eve. Halloween ABC

Merriam, Eve. The Inner City Mother Goose

Mochizuki, Ken. Baseball Saved Us

Nelson, O.T. The Girl Who Owned a City

Newman, Leslea. Heather Has Two Mommies

Okimoto, Jean Davies, and Elaine M. Aoki. The White Swan Express: A Story About Adoption

Opie, Iona. I Saw Esau

Orgel, Doris. The Devil in Vienna

Pardi, Francesca, and Tullio F. Altan. Little Egg (Piccolo uovo)

Park, Barbara. Junie B. Jones (

Parr, Todd. The Family Book

Paterson, Katherine. Bridge to Terabithia

Paterson, Katherine. The Great Gilly Hopkins

Perritano, John. Amityville

Peters, Lisa Westberg. Our Family Tree: An Evolution Story

Pilkey, Dav. The Adventures of Super Diaper Baby: The First Graphic Novel

Pilkey, Dav. Captain Underpants series

Pittman, Gayle E. This Day in June

Polacco, Patricia. In Our Mothers’ House

Pullman, Philip. His Dark Materials series

Quinlan, Patricia. Tiger Flowers

Reavin, Sam. The Hunters Are Coming

Richardson, Justin, and Peter Parnell. And Tango Makes Three

Rodgers, Mary. Freaky Friday

Rosen, Lucy. I Am Bane

Rowling, J.K. Harry Potter series

Ruby, Laura. Lily’s Ghosts

Sachar, Louis. The Boy Who Lost His Face

Sachar, Louis. Marvin Redpost: Is He a Girl?

Schniedewind, Nancy. Open Minds to Equality: A Sourcebook of Learning Activities to Affirm Diversity and Promote Equity

Schreier, Alta. Vamos a Cuba ( A Vist to Cuba)

Schwartz, Alvin. And the Green Grass Grew All Around

Schwartz, Alvin. Cross Your Fingers, Spit in Your Hat

Schwartz, Alvin. Ghosts! Ghost Stories in Folklore

Schwartz, Alvin. Scary Stories series

Sendak, Maurice. In the Night Kitchen

Sherman, Josepha, and T.K.F. Weisskopf. Greasy Grimy Gopher Guts

Silverstein, Shel. A Light in the Attic

Smith, Jeff. Bone series

Snyder, Zilpha Keatley. The Egypt Game

Speare, Elizabeth George. The Sign of the Beaver

Steer, Dugald. Wizardology: The Book of the Secrets of Merlin

Stine, R.L. Goosebumps series

Stroud, Jonathan. The Amulet of Samarkand

Stroud, Jonathan. The Golem’s Eye

Stroud, Jonathan. Ptolemy’s Gate

Tamaki, Mariko, and Jillian Tamaki. This One Summer

Taylor, Mildred D. The Land

Taylor, Mildred D. Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry

Telgemeier, Raina. Drama

Texier, Ophélie. Jean Has Two Moms (Jean a deux mamans)

Toriyama, Akira. Dragon Ball: The Monkey King

Willhoite, Michael. Daddy’s Roommate

Winter, Jeanette. The Librarian of Basra: A True Story from Iraq

Winter, Jeanette. Nasreen’s Secret School: A True Story from Afghanistan

Yep, Laurence. Dragonwings

Young Adult Books:

Adler, C.S. The Shell Lady’s Daughter

Alexie, Sherman. The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian

Alva0rez, Julia. In the Time of the Butterflies

Anaya, Rudolfo A. Bless Me, Ultima

Anderson, Laurie Halse. Speak

Anderson, Laurie Halse. Twisted

Anderson, M.T. Feed

Angelou, Maya. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

Anonymous. Go Ask Alice

Asher, Jay. Thirteen Reasons Why

Atkins, Catherine. Alt Ed

Atkins, Catherine. When Jeff Comes Home

Atwood, Margaret. The Handmaid’s Tale

Barnes, Derrick. The Making of Dr. Truelove

Barron, T.A. The Great Tree of Avalon: Child of the Dark Prophecy

Baskin, Julia, Lindsey Newman, Sophie Pollitt-Cohen, and Courtney Toombs. The Notebook Girls: Four Friends, One Diary, Real Life

Bauer, Marion Dane. On My Honor

Bauer, Marion Dane, ed. Am I Blue? Coming Out from the Silence

Benioff, David. City of Thieves

Block, Francesca Lia. Baby Be-Bop

Block, Francesca Lia. Girl Goddess

Block, Francesca Lia. I Was a Teenage Fairy

Block, Francesca Lia. The Rose and the Beast: Fairy Tales Retold

Block, Francesca Lia. Witch Baby

Blume, Judy. Deenie

Blume, Judy. Forever

Blume, Judy. Here’s to You, Rachel Robinson

Blume, Judy. Tiger Eyes

Bode, Janet, and Stan Mack. Heartbreak and Roses: Real Life Stories of Troubled Love

Bower, Bert, and Jim Lobdell. History Alive! The Medieval World and Beyond

Boyle, T. Coraghessan. The Tortilla Curtain

Bradbury, Ray. Fahrenheit 451

Brashares, Ann. Forever in Blue, the Fourth Summer of the Sisterhood

Burgess, Melvin. Doing It

Card, Orson Scott. Ender’s Game

Cart, Michael. My Father’s Scar

Cast, P.C., and Kristin Cast. House of Night series

Chambers, Aidan. Dance on My Grave: A Life and Death in Four Parts

Chbosky, Stephen. The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Choldenko, Gennifer. Al Capone Does My Shirts

Clerc, Charles, and Louis Leiter, comp. Seven Contemporary Short Novels

Cohen, Susan, and Daniel Cohen. When Someone You Know is Gay

Clinton, Cathryn. A Stone in My Hand

Colasanti, Susane. When It Happens

Cole, Brock. The Facts Speak for Themselves

Cole, Brock. The Goats

Colfer, Eoin. The Supernaturalist

Collins, Suzanne. The Hunger Games Trilogy

Conly, Jane. Crazy Lady

Cooney, Caroline. The Face on the Milk Carton

Cooney, Caroline. The Terrorist

Cormier, Robert. After the First Death

Cormier, Robert. Beyond the Chocolate War

Cormier, Robert. Fade

Cormier, Robert. Heroes

Cormier, Robert. I Am the Cheese

Cormier, Robert. Tenderness

Cormier, Robert. We All Fall Down

Coville, Bruce. Am I Blue?

Cox, Elizabeth. Night Talk

Crawford, Brent. Carter Finally Gets It

Cruse, Howard. Stuck Rubber Baby

Crutcher, Chris. Athletic Shorts

Crutcher, Chris. Chinese Handcuffs

Crutcher, Chris. Deadline

Crutcher, Chris. In the Time I Get

Crutcher, Chris. Staying Fat for Sarah Byrnes

Crutcher, Chris. Whale Talk

Daldry, Jeremy. The Teenage Guy’s Survival Guide

Dandicat, Edwidge. Krik! Krak!

Danforth, Emily M. The Miseducation of Cameron Post

Davis, Deborah. My Brother Has AIDS

Davis, Jenny. Sex Education

Dawe, Ted. Into the River

Dawson, James. This Book is Gay

Dessen, Sarah. Just Listen

Deuker, Carl. On the Devil’s Court

Doctorow, Cory. Little Brother

Dorfman, Ariel. Death and the Maiden

Dorris, Michael. A Yellow Raft in Blue Water

Draper, Sharon M., and Adam Lowenbein. Romiette and Julio

Drill, Esther. Deal With It! A Whole New Approach to Your Body, Brain, and Life as a gURL

Duncan, Lois. Daughters of Eve

Duncan, Lois. Killing Mr. Griffin

Eleveld, Mark, ed. The Spoken Word Revolution: Slam, Hip Hop & the Poetry of a New Generation

Elish, Dan. Born Too Short: The Confessions of an Eighth-Grade Basket Case

Ellis, Elisabeth Gaynor, and Anthony Esler. World History

Ellison, Ralph. Invisible Man

Erlbach, Arlene. The Middle School Survival Guide

Ferris, Jean. Eight Seconds

Fitzgerald, F. Scott. The Great Gatsby

Forman, Gayle. Just One Day

Franco, Betsy. You Hear Me? Poems and Writings by Teenage Boys

Frank, Anne. Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl

Frank, E.R. America: A Novel

Frank, E.R. Life is Funny

Freedom Writers. The Freedom Writers Diary: How a Teacher and 150 Teens Used Writing to Change Themselves and the World Around Them

Freymann-Weyr, Garret. My Heartbeat

Friend, Natasha. Lush

Gaiman, Neil. Neverwhere

Gaines, Ernest. The Autobiography of Miss Jane Pittman

Garden, Nancy. Annie on My Mind

Garden, Nancy. Good Moon Rising

Gardner, John. Grendel

Giles, Gail. Shattering Glass

Glenn, Mel. Who Killed Mr. Chippendale?

Going, K.L. Fat Kid Rules the World

Golding, William. Lord of the Flies

Gould, Steven. Jumper

Gray, Heather M., and Samantha Phillips. Real Girl/Real World: Tools for Finding Your True Self

Green, John. An Abundance of Katherines

Green, John. The Fault in Our Stars

Green, John. Looking for Alaska

Green, John. Paper Towns

Greene, Bette. The Drowning of Stephan Jones

Greene, Bette. Summer of My German Solidier

Haddix, Margaret Peterson. Don’t You Dare Read This, Mrs. Dunphrey

Halpern, Julie. Get Well Soon

Hartinger, Brent. Geography Club

Hautzig, Deborah. Hey Dollface

Heller, Joseph. Catch-22

Hernandez, Gilbert. Palomar: The Heartbreak Soup Stories

Heron, Ann. Two Teenagers in Twenty

Hinton, S.E. The Outsiders

Hinton, S.E. Taming the Star Runner

Hinton, S.E. Tex

Hinton, S.E. That Was Then, This is Now

Holliday, Laurel. Children in the Holocaust and World War II: Their Secret Diaries

Holmes, Melisa, and Trish Hutchison. Hang-ups, Hook-ups, and Holding Out: Stuff You Need to Know about Your Body, Sex, and Dating

Hopkins, Ellen. Crank

Hopkins, Ellen. Identical

Horowitz, Anthony. Snakehead

Hosseini, Khaled. The Kite Runner

Howe, James. Totally Joe

Huegel, Kelly. GLBTQ: The Survival Guide for Queer and Questioning Teens

Hurston, Zora Neale. Their Eyes Were Watching God

Hurwin, Davida. Time for Dancing

Huxley, Aldous. Brave New World

Hwa, Kim Dong. The Color of Earth series

Jahn-Clough, Lisa. Me, Penelope

Johnson, Maureen. The Bermudez Triangle

Jukes, Mavis. The Guy Book: An Owner’s Manual

Kehret, Peg. Abduction!

Kenan, Randall. James Baldwin

Keyes, Daniel. Flowers for Algernon

King, Stephen. Carrie

King, Stephen. Christine

Klause, Annette Curtis. Blood and Chocolate

Klein, Norma. Beginners’ Love

Klein, Norma. Family Secrets

Klein, Norma. Just Friends

Kleinbaum, N.H. Dead Poet’s Society

Knowles, Jo (Johanna Beth). Lessons from a Dead Girl

Koertge, Ron. Arizona Kid

Koertge, Ron. The Brimstone Journals

Koerge, Ron. Where the Kissing Never Stopped

Korman, Gordon. Jake Reinvented

Kuklin, Susan. Beyond Magenta: Transgender Teens Speak Out

LaCour, Nina. Hold Still

Larson, Rodger. What I Know Now

Lebert, Benjamin. Crazy: A Novel

Lee, Harper. To Kill a Mockingbird

Lester, Julius. When Dad Killed Mom

Levenkron, Steven. The Best Little Girl in the World

Levithan, David. Two Boys Kissing

Lipsyte, Robert. One Fat Summer

Locker, Sari. Sari Says: The Real Dirt on Everything from Sex to School

Lockhart, E. The Boy Book: A Study of Habits and Behaviors, Plus Techniques for Taming Them

London, Jack. The Call of the Wild

Lopez, Tiffany Ana. Growing Up Chicana/o

Loux, Matthew. SideScrollers

Lyga, Barry. I Hunt Killers

Lynch, Chris. Extreme Elvin

Lynch, Chris. The Iceman

Mackler, Carolyn. The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big, Round Things

Mackler, Carolyn. Love and Other Four Letter Words

Mackler, Carolyn. Tangled

Mackler, Carolyn. Vegan Virgin Valentine

Martin, W.K. Marlene Dietrich

Martinac, Paula. k.d. lang

Mazer, Harry. The Last Mission

McBain, Ed. Alice in Jeopardy

McCormick, Patricia. Cut

McCullers, Carson. The Member of the Wedding

McKissack, Fredrick, Jr. Shooting Star

McNally, John, ed. When I Was a Loser: True Stories of (Barely) Surviving High School by Today’s Top Writers

Mead, Richelle. Vampire Academy series

Meyer, Michael, ed. Bedford Introduction to Literature

Meyer, Stephenie. Twilight series

Morrison, Toni. Beloved

Morrison, Toni. The Bluest Eye

Morrison, Toni. Song of Solomon

Mungo, Raymond. Liberace

Myers, Walter Dean. Fallen Angels

Myers, Walter Dean. Hoops

Myracle, Lauren. ttyl; ttfn; l8r g8r series

Naylor, Phyllis Reynolds. Alice series

Nix, Garth. Shade’s Children

Nixon, Joan Lowery. Whispers from the Dead

Nunokawa, Jeff. Oscar Wilde

O’Brien, Sharon. Willa Cather

O’Brien, Tim. The Things They Carried

Oates, Joyce Carol. Sexy

Ockler, Sarah. Twenty Boy Summer

Oh, Minya. Bling: Hip Hop’s Crown Jewels

Orwell, George. 1984

Parish, James Robert. Whoopi Goldberg: Her Journey from Poverty to Mega-Stardom

Park, Barbara. Mick Harte Was Here

Parks, Gordon. The Learning Tree

Paulsen, Gary. Harris and Me

Peck, Robert Newton. A Day No Pigs Would Die

Pelzer, Dave. A Child Called It

Picoult, Jodi. Nineteen Minutes

Pike, Christopher. Bury Me Deep

Pike, Christopher. Chain Letter 2

Pike, Christopher. Die Softly

Pike, Christopher. Last Act

Pike, Christopher. The Listeners

Pike, Christopher. The Lost Mind

Pike, Christopher. The Midnight Club

Pike, Christopher. Remember Me 3

Pike, Christopher. The Star Group

Pike, Christopher. Witch

Plum-Ucci, Carol. The Body of Christopher Creed

Pomeroy, Wardell. Boys and Sex

Pomeroy, Wardell. Girls and Sex

Rapp, Adam. The Buffalo Tree

Reiss, Johanna. The Upstairs Room

Rennison, Louise. Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging

Rennison, Louise. Knocked Out By My Nunga-Nungas

Rennison, Louise. On the Bright Side, I’m Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God: Further Confessions of Georgia Nicolson

Reynolds, Marilyn. Detour for Emmy

Riley, Andy. The Book of Bunny Suicides: Little Fluffy Rabbits Who Just Don’t Want to Live Anymore

Rivera, Tomas. And the Earth Did Not Devour Him

Rowell, Rainbow. Eleanor & Park

Salinger, J.D. The Catcher in the Rye

Sanchez, Alex. Rainbow Boys

Santiago, Esmeralda. When I Was Puerto Rican

Sapphire [Ramona Lofton]. Push

Satrapi, Marjane. Persepolis: The Story of a Childhood

Schouweiler, Thomas. The Devil: Opposing Viewpoints

Scott, Elizabeth. Living Dead Girl

Selzer, Adam. How to Get Suspended and Influence People

Shakespeare, William. Romeo and Juliet (No Fear Shakespeare)

Shusterman, Neal. Unwind

Sidhwa, Bapsi. Cracking India

Sittenfeld, Curtis. Prep: A Novel

Skloot, Rebecca. The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks

Smith, Lee. Fair and Tender Ladies

Smith, Patrick. A Land Remembered

Snyder, Jane McIntosh. Sappho

Sones, Sonya. One of Those Hideous Books Where the Moher Dies

Sones, Sonya. What My Mother Doesn’t Know

Sonnie, Amy, ed. Revolutionary Voices: A Multicultural Queer Youth Anthology

Speare, Elizabeth George. The Witch of Blackbird Pond

Spies, Karen Bornemann. Everything You Need to Know About Incest

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The Grapes of Wrath, by John Steinbeck

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[route63rp]

julianna maycee storms

36 | passionate - impulsive - nuturing 

warning: DISORDERED EATING, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, SUICIDE ATTEMPT, GUN VIOLENCE, DEATH OF PARENTS/LOVED ONE.

julianna was born in cocoa beach, florida. however, she moved to madison county when she was a year old after her grandfather died. jules is a hard headed little thing who likes to keep people at a distance due to the tragedies that she has endured in her life. after losing her parents at a very young age julianna fell into a mindset of needing to please everyone and be the "perfect" person. in her attempts to do so she ended up in a battle with depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder that is still not completely under control. this issues lead to her being out of coltorl as a teenager and a suicide attempt when she was fifteen. she straightened her act up to the best of her abilities after getting pregnant at sixteen and giving birth to her only child.  

jules is a very extroverted person who can talk to anyone or anything without caring if she gets a response. she works as a game warden for north carolina wildlife and also helps out at her family's ranch.  growing up on a ranch she has always had a special love for horses, but she honestly loves all animals which is why she decided to go into the line of work that she is in now.

her family is the most important thing to her, even though she and her sisters often fight and bicker. three strong storms are just too much to deal with sometimes, but there is so much love in the family that it makes up for all the snarky comments.

looking for: younger sibling - open gender and occupation, age range would be anywhere from 32-35. potential face claims: elizabeth olsen, katee sackhoff, and scott eastwood. baby daddy/best friend - 35-37, robert buckley. this is the man that she grew up with who was her best friend and high school boyfriend. despite the fact that the two mutually agreed that they were not meant for one another shortly after their daughter was born, the two remain close friends and have worked together to raise their daughter minnie. coworker/best friend - 30-40, open fc but jai courtney is suggested. this is the man who has her back no matter what, and she has his. they work together as partners for nc wildlife and have grown close over their time together. so close that two years ago julianna shot a man to save her partner when a subject opened fire on them.

[writingismyhappytime]

Dauntless: Daddy, Dearest (Part 4)

Eric x OC

Warnings: Language, Fluff, Labor

A/N: Parenthood is upon us! Baby Eric is coming!

Shit.

This wasn't working.

"Camille, I don't think that's right."

"What are you talking about? It looks fine."

"Uh, no, it doesn't."

"Fuck you, Eric, it looks fine."

"It's crooked."

"You're crooked," Camille huffed, crossing her arms. She took a few steps back, coming to stand beside me before frowning. "Okay, it's a little crooked."

I chuckled, leaning back on my heels.

The nursery was coming along. I'd figured out how to put the crib together, and I'd tentatively put my weight on it; it didn't immediately collapse, so I figured it was safe enough. All the baby stuff had migrated into the room across from ours, so if the thing started screaming, we'd be able to hear it.

"If we knew what it was, you could decorate better," I said after a moment, glancing around. A rocking chair, the crib, a dresser, and then a shit ton of toys were the only additions to the room. It wasn't big, by any means, but it would suffice for a burrito that couldn't move around on its own anyway.

"Shut up. We'll know soon enough." Camille sighed, leaning her shoulder against the door. I glanced at her, but didn't comment.

I guessed we would.

She was due in a few weeks now, the time was almost up. We were going to be parents and in charge with not killing something.

Comforting.

The room is an off-white, just like the rest of the apartment, with a fluffy carpet of matching color. I hope it could withstand a family of Dauntless.

"You should be able to train the next batch of initiates." I said after a moment. "You'll be strong again by the time they come around."

"I should be, yeah. I can get back in there and show them how to really fight. Four is too easy on them, he does a piss poor job," Camille grumbled. "I like the new rules better."

"I know you do," I pressed a kiss against her temple as I turned away. "What are you gonna do with it while you're training?"

"I was going to carry it in a sling on my back, what else?" She rolled her eyes at the question. "I get a month off after it's born, but I... well, I don't know. Do you really want to put it in the daycare?"

"He'll be fine there," I said absently, checking the time. I had to go to the armory in a few minutes, I was filling in for Melanie while she was away on her op. "No one is going to mess with our kid, Camille. They're terrified of us."

"That's what I'm worried about. What if we do something to piss someone off, and they take it out on our baby?" She pressed her hands against her stomach, the dark circles beneath her eyes only making her look more worried. "What if they're mean to it because of us? Eric ---."

"No one will be mean to it," I said firmly, turning to look at her as we step into the living room. "I swear I'll fucking break someone's arm if they even think about it. I'll take him to daycare the first day just to make a point."

Camille gazed at me a few moments, chewing her lip. "Are you sure it's a good idea? I mean, I could just stay here for a little longer ---."

"You're going to drive yourself insane with nothing to do," I shook my head. "You don't want to miss the initiates. The baby will be fine."

"You know you called it a he earlier, didn't you?"

"What?"

"The baby. You said 'him,' not 'it'."

"So?"

"It's just... I've never noticed you do that before." She shrugged her shoulders. "Do you think it's a boy?"

"I don't know, Camille. Why don't you ask?"

"Where would be the fun in that? It irritates you more to do it this way," she grinned, and I rolled my eyes; I knew she was just doing that to be a bitch. I fucking knew it.

"I gotta head for the armory, make sure it hasn't imploded," I said, seeing the time on the clock. "You staying here today or going to see Tori?"

"I'll go see Tori, staying here makes me stir crazy. I really don't see why I can't be involved in stuff right now, I'm pregnant, not brain dead."

"No, but you're too close to term, you don't need to be somewhere you can't reach the infirmary quickly." I reminded her, pressing a swift kiss on her soft lips. "Don't punch anyone today, alright? Pregnant women shouldn't fight."

"Peter deserved it."

"He always deserves it." I grinned at her, brushing at her dark hair where it fell from her loose bun. "I love you, Camille."

"I love you too."

~~~~~~

"What the fuck kind of organization is this shit?" I bellowed at the boy in front of me, seeing him cringe. "How the fuck do you expect to find ammo quickly if all of it's mixed up in this box?"

"Melanie ---."

"I don't give a shit what Melanie does, while I'm running this armory, it's going to be orgnaized!" I hissed, glowering down at him. "Fucking put the ammo in boxes, and make sure one kind goes together, not this bullshit! I want this done by the time I get back in here, do you understand me?"

"Yes, sir," the boy squeaked, his face white as he stared at me. Melanie might not give a shit, but I did. If I'm going to be forced to take her cozy job, I'm going to make sure it's done right. No more slacking off, the guns need to be dusted, it didn't need to get down into the barrels. They needed to be cleaned, covered, and away from any moisture so they didn't rust.

How the fuck had this place not burned to the ground under Melanie's control?

Could that woman do anything well that wasn't fucking?

I stepped out of the ammunition room, hearing the boy let his breath go just as I slammed the metal gate shut behind me. I glanced around, looking up at the two levels above. The room was large, and open. Two metal walkways were above me, every wall lined with different types of guns, most of them behind locked cages. Other Dauntless milled around, doing inventory, making sure every weapon was accounted for.

Easy job, one that didn't require much effort.

Well, it would now; everyone was going to suffer while I was here, just as I felt I was being punished for having to do this bullshit. Maybe they'd all complain to Max, make him realize this was a mistake.

I'd wanted to stay here for my girlfriend, for the child I was about to have. That didn't mean I didn't want to be included in the rest of the leadership decisions or meetings.

Melanie might have been right about more then I realized.

I hoped having that kid didn't fuck up my advancement.

I sighed as I looked around, growing bored.

There wasn't much to do here, it pretty much ran itself. I leaned back on my heels, wondering how Camille was doing.

Her pregnancy had been good so far, no hitches, and I hoped it stayed that way. She definitely wasn't one of those women who enjoyed it, that's for sure. We wouldn't have this issue again, though, I definitely didn't want another child, and it didn't sound like Camille did either.

At least we're on the same page there.

I glanced back at the ammunition room, hoping that stupid fucker was doing what I told him too. If I went in there and it was still a disaster, I'd ram his head through the wall.

He'd fear the ground I walked on.

"Eric!"

Oh, what now?

I scowled as I turned, glaring at the Dauntless standing on the other side of the metal cage, waving frantically at me. Fucking Zeke, of course. They had to send him.

"What?" I snapped, irritated. The day was already shit, what could it be now?

"Your girlfriend's in labor, dude. They need you in the infirmary." Zeke gasped, looking winded; did he run all the way here.

Wait.

"Labor?" I hesitated, tensing.

Shit!

Wait.

No!

It's too early for that!

I still had a few weeks left!

"I didn't stutter, Eric." Zeke quirked a brow at me through the metal separating us. "I could hear her down the hall killing one of the doctors, they requested someone get you immediately."

No, no, no!

I didn't immediately move, my legs wouldn't work. All I could do was stare at Zeke in panic, my mind suddenly blank.

Labor.

Camille's in labor.

With our child.

Our baby.

Now.

Oh fuck.

Oh, fuck, fuck, fuck ---.

"Eric! What the fuck? Get moving! Don't just stand there!" Zeke barked, and I cut my eyes at him; he didn't need to get a fucking tone with me. "I'm serious, that baby is coming and Camille is having a coronary!"

It just --- it wasn't supposed to be today!

I forced myself to walk, feeling like I'm walking right into a fight.

Oh fuck me.

~~~~~~

"Don't you fucking touch me, you goddamn idiot!"

Yep, that's Camille alright.

I sighed as I opened the infirmary doors, hearing my girlfriend's sharp voice echo through the room. I know she's in the back, in the room where they deliver all the babies, and usually they have the door shut where it doesn't carry. The infirmary is deserted right now, I figured because people would rather be sick or dying somewhere Camille couldn't get to them.

I let the doors close silently behind me, feeling like there was rocks in my boots. My stomach was twisting itself into knots again, and at any moment I felt like I was going to puke my guts out into the nearest basket. I kept going, making one foot move after the other, a little faster when I heard Camille groan in pain.

Shit!

I made it to the door, seeing Camille was already in one of the beds, her hands pressed against her face. A doctor was leaning over her, timing her contractions no doubt.

Oh fuck.

She's having contractions.

Was this really happening!?

Is that thing ---?

"Eric!"

My eyes flicked to Camille, and I realized I was just standing in the doorway, staring at her. She reached for me immediately, and I went to her, taking her hand and squeezing it tightly.

"Is it ---?" I hated how hushed my voice was, as if someone was dying instead of being born.

"He decided he liked today," Camille said weakly, her face glistening with sweat already. She's reclined back, her hand flexing around mine. "I'm two minutes apart right now."

"You're doing great," The doctor said, and Camille glared at him.

"Shut the fuck up, Ivan!" She hissed. "Don't tell me I'm doing great when a fucking watermelon is trying to come out something the size of a lemon, you fucking ---."

"Camille," I squeezed her hand, deciding to spare the doctor the bad mouthing I was used too. Her eyes flicked to me, dilated and a little glazed, so I hoped they gave her something for the pain. "How long have you been here?"

"An hour, maybe."

An hour!?

"Why didn't you ---?"

"Get you earlier? Because I wasn't sure if it was happening or not, no sense in wrecking your day," she sighed, letting her head fall back as she looked up at the tiled ceiling. "Fuck, this hurts. I'd rather get shot again."

Pleasant.

The doctor frowned slightly, glancing between the two of us. I didn't know him, his face wasn't even familiar to me.

"I'm going to step out a moment. If the contraptions start coming faster, just call --- the nurse and I are right outside the door."

"Alright." I nodded my head before Camille could rip him another asshole. He quickly stepped out of the room, no doubt relieved to get away from her. She didn't handle pain in the most gracious way, after all.

I sat down on the edge of the bed, brushing the hair clinging to her face out of the way. She had a permanent grimace on her face, looking more nauseous then anything else. I knew it had to hurt, she'd already been having some issues, I should have figured I wouldn't have any time left.

"Oh, fuck me," she suddenly grunted, her nails suddenly digging into my palm. "Fuck, this hurts! Why does this hurt!?"

"It's going to be okay," I murmured, covering her hand with my own and squeezing. I couldn't help her right now, all I could do is let her break my fingers. She whined again, pushing her head back against the pillows in discomfort, her breathing getting harder as the contractions no doubt worsened.

Shit.

This was really happening.

That baby was coming out.

My baby.

Our baby.

A baby.

Oh fuck.

"Last chance to guess the gender," Camille said after a moment, her voice still weak. I glanced at her, seeing her eyes on my face. "Boy or girl? If you guess it right, you can pick the name."

I snorted. "Yeah, right. You already have some picked out, don't you?"

"Of course I do. But you're a shit head and won't say which one you like the best."

"Because they're all shitty."

"Yeah, well, you better guess the gender right then," She growled at me, shuffling again, unable to hold still. "So boy or girl, asshole?"

"Boy," I said after a moment, her dark eyes flicking to my face.

"Is that what you want?"

"I don't really care what it is. So long as ---."

"It doesn't have three heads and spits acid?"

"Well, the acid part could be useful."

She rolled her eyes at me, but I could see the faint smile on her pale lips.

I reached forward, catching her face, tilting it so she had to look at me.

"You got this," I murmured, letting my thumb caress her reddened cheek, my eyes not leaving hers. "This is nothing for you. You've overcome so much, Camille, this isn't anything to worry about."

"But it hurts worse then all of those," She whispered, her eyes creasing at the corners. "It hurts, Eric."

The words were nails right into my chest, leaving a painful pang right in the center. I tightened my grip on her, swallowing hard. She'd never said those words to me before, not like that. I couldn't imagine the pain, as if you're being attacked from the inside out.

"I'll see if the doctor can't give you something else, to help," I said after a moment, leaning forward to kiss her, molding her lips against mine. She clung to me, not wanting to let go, but I was only stepping to the door, I wouldn't leave her.

"Doc," I called, my voice sharp. He was leaning into one of the open cabinets, and he turned immediately at my words. He had something tossed over his arms, gloves clutched in his hand.

"Yes?"

"Is there anything else you can give her for the pain?" I asked, clenching my hand around the doorway as I stared him down. "She needs something."

"I've already given her what I can for the moment, it hasn't kicked in yet. She's already progressing, so this should be a quick labor," The doctor said, already pulling on scrubs. I watched anxiously as he slipped his gloves on, one of the nurses coming out of the back dressed similarly. "Here, you'll need to wear this. We need the area to be sanitized."

I frowned as he handed me a pair of scrubs.

Right.

I should wear this.

I grimaced as I shrugged it on over my black clothing, feeling ridiculous.

Wait.

Oh fuck.

I was going to have to be in there, wasn't I? When she pushed the thing out?

Couldn't I just ---?"

"ERIC!"

Fuck me.

I turned sharply, seeing Camille desperately reaching for me, a look of panic on her face.

"I'm here," I said, bringing her hand to my lips, feeling her fingers dig into my hand. "It's okay, it's ---."

"Goddammit, stop saying that!" She hissed, sweat beading on her brow, her breathing coming in sharp, short bursts. "Fucking hell --- fuck!"

The doctor swept forward, his hands closing around her knees and prying them apart. I frowned, not quite sure how I felt about that, seeing as he was looking --- ow, shit, my hand! I winced, feeling Camille's nails dig into my skin, her other hand so tight around the metal railing of the bed it was white.

"Okay, looks like your baby is ready to meet the family!" The doctor said brightly, the nurse coming to stand beside him. "You're dilated at about a nine. I'm going to need you to steady your breathing, alright?"

If she hadn't been in so much pain, I could only imagine the smartass comment she would have said to that. I ran my hand across her forehead, pushing her damp hair back out of the way, the ugly gown they had on her already clinging to her skin. I could tell she was trying to control her breathing, trying to keep it even, but it wasn't possible. She squeezed her eyes shut, finally just whimpering.

For fucks sake!

"Okay, Camille, you need to push," the doctor said, slipped right between her knees. "Control your breathing, it's going to be alright."

The look on her face said otherwise. I glanced at the monitor in the room, my eyes following the lines attached to Camille. They're supposed to monitor her contractions, but I didn't know how any of this stuff worked. I knew he said he gave her medicine, but it definitely didn't seem to be kicking in!

"Breathing," the nurse said gently, standing at Camille's side, her eyes on the monitor. "It helps."

"Fuck you, it helps," Camille snarled, her eyes flaring. She was so tense, hunched almost, a look of concentration on her face. She wanted this baby out as much as I wanted it to stay in.

"You got this," I murmured, leaning down, keeping my face near hers. Her fevered eyes flicked to mine, her chest rising and falling rapidly as she listened to the doctor. "You're doing good, just, just push, and scream. Push and scream, baby." I smoothed my hand through her hair, my entire body so tense one sharp movement would break every bone I had.

Camille was pushing, she was screaming --- I was tempted to scream with her! This wasn't going as quickly as I'd thought it would! Sweat was pouring down her skin, the room was incredibly stuffy, so hot my skin was prickling. I just kept talking in her ear, keeping her from screaming at the doctor anymore then necessary, my fingers running through her hair. I kept waiting for her to punch me, shove me away, yell at me that this is my fault and she hates me.

But she never did.

She just held my hand, squeezed my fingers until I was sure they were bruised, and pushed.

"Okay, whoa, whoa! Stop pushing!" the doctor suddenly gasped, and Camille sent him an incredulous look.

"Stop!?" She gasped, her voice breaking. "Stop!?"

Why did she need to stop!? Shouldn't she be pushing until the kid came out? Why stop?

"The baby's coming, but on his or her own time," the nurse said hastily. "If you push too much, you'll tear, and we don't want that! You just need to breathe, blow out the candle, it helps to stop pushing."

"What fucking candle?" Camille wheezed, her head falling back once more, rolling to press against my arm.

"Just do like this," the nurse held a finger in front of her lips, acting like she's blowing out a candle on a birthday cake. "You can do it, it's easy."

What did she mean, tearing?

What ---?

"Good girl, Camille, you're doing great," I heard the doctor say, Camille glowering at the top of his head. He better be glad she couldn't reach him. "Alright, take a few moments, breathe --- okay, here comes another contraction --- push!"

I held my breath as Camille hunched, yelling again with the effort, her eyes squeezed shut as her faced flared red. She clutched at my hand, her skin slipping against mine, my head starting to grow light. I felt sick, like at any moment I was going to pass out instead of puke. This was happening, she was having the kid, she was having the kid ---.

"I can see the head! You're almost done!"

Oh no.

Oh no, no, no , no!

"One more push, Camille. One more!"

One more.

One fucking more.

"One more, baby," I cooed, wiping at the sweat on her forehead with the end of a blanket, trying to keep it out of her eyes. "Then you're done!"

Then we're parents.

Then I'm fucked.

Camille's lips trembled, and she pressed them into a thin line, swallowing hard before readying herself for that final push that would let us meet our kid.

"One, two, three! Push!"

Pushing, screaming, and then ---.

"It's a boy!" the doctor announced, a sense of nausea washing over me as I hear my child enter the world. Camille fell back immediately against the bed, gasping for breath, her fingers going limp in mine. There's a moment of silence, and then loud screaming fills the air, replacing Camille's.

It's here.

No, wait, he's here.

I have a son.

I looked at the wrinkled, red, screaming thing the nurse was wrapping in a gray blanket. It's dirty, it's pretty ugly, and it had one hell of a set of lungs. The nurse turned, Camille already reaching forward, her fingers eager to hold the child she carried for nine months.

She cradled it against her chest, staring down at it.

"Eric," she murmured, and my fingers brushed through her hair again, out of habit more than anything.

"I'm here, baby."

"Look." She mumbled, her eyes still dilated, and I wondered if the medicine only kicked in now. "It's... oh fuck, you win." She suddenly scowled. "You get to name him."

Him.

I heard the doctor snort, and I glanced over, seeing him and the nurse changing out their scrubs.

"Well? What do you want to call him?" Camille asked, and I looked down at the little thing, frowning. He's still all red, although a little cleaner now thanks to the nurse swiping a cloth lightly against his face. "He's certainly as loud as you are."

"That's all you, Camille. I could hear you before I even stepped into the infirmary."

"Shut the fuck up, Eric."

I grinned, pressing my lips into her temple, staring down at the boy in her arms.

Fuck, I'm a dad now. I have a son, a real fucking kid. He's right there, screaming for dear life, his hands bunched into little fists. I didn't want to touch him, he's so small, just like --- well, like a loaf of bread.

"Would you like me to weigh him?" The nurse asked for a moment, Camille finally looking up. She hesitated, looking down at the baby, before nodding. She didn't want to give him up just yet, but she did, letting the nurse step across the room with the newborn.

She laid him down on a curved scale, still wrapped in his blanket.

"He weighs seven and a half pounds at twenty inches even."

Big kid.

"How did I even push that out of me?" Camille moaned, pressing her hands against her face. "Fuck, he's a watermelon."

I chuckled, caressing my thumb against her hair.

"Camille, how are you feeling?" The doctor asked after a moment, stepping over to her side and trying to get her attention. "Pain?"

"I'm numb now."

"That's okay, that's probably the medicine kicking in."

"Fat lot it did," Camille mumbled, suddenly looking drowsy. "It fucking hurt."

"I know, but you did great. Your son is healthy," the doctor complimented, scribbling down on a chart. "He was born at nine fifteen a.m. What's his name?"

Camille looked at me pointedly.

"We... haven't decided yet," I said, ignoring her glare.

"That's fine, you have time." the doctor shrugged. "We'll put the last name on the glass until you come to a decision."

Great.

"Would you like to hold him?"

Huh?

I glanced down, realizing the nurse had approached me, holding the screaming bread loaf. I stared at her like she was crazy before looking down at it --- no, him. They'd given him a little blue hat, and his screaming had lessened a little at this point.

"Uh ---."

"Eric, hold him." Camille frowned at me. "You won't break him."

She didn't now that.

He's so... small.

"You just hold him like this," the nurse explained gently. "Support his head, here --- yes, just like this." She rather forcefully placed the kid into my arms, and I tensed, staring down at him.

He weighed nothing! My hand was bigger then his head!

The kid opened and closed his mouth a few times, his little tongue pink behind his lips. He stilled looked like a raisin, all wrinkled and scrunched, but much cleaner now.

Now who did I give him too? Who takes him now? Do I need to keep holding him, or...?

I glanced around, but the doctor was speaking to Camille, who apparently was now a little too out of it to answer properly. The nurse was cleaning up, and what the fuck was a placenta?

What the fuck was everyone talking about?

And what's this about tearing?

What tears?

What?

Maybe I should have read those stupid books Camille wanted me too.

I looked down uneasily, unsure what to do with the bundle in my arms. I didn't want to move too much, what if he started flailing and fell? I doubted he would bounce.

The baby waved his hands a little, and after a moment, his eyes opened.

He had blue eyes.

My eyes.

I hesitated, my thumb lightly brushing against his little cheek. He's soft, his little nose is smaller than my finger. He waved his little fists again, his eyes already starting to close.

I never doubted it was my kid, but... well, seeing his blue eyes, hearing him screaming...

"Well, congratulations." I looked up as I heard the doctor speak, giving both of us a smile. "You're parents with a very healthy baby boy."

"Great." Camille sounded completely disinterested. She looked over at me, giving me a soft smile. "He's so tiny, though."

"He's a good sized baby." the doctor said, and I leaned down, letting Camille hold him before I dropped him or something. She shifted slightly with a grimace, her hair spiking in every direction, eyes still dilated.

She brushed her fingers down his cheek, much like I had.

"He's so ugly," she sighed after a moment. "He looks like a raisin."

I thought the doctor nearly died, the look he gave her --- newborns were definitely not pristine when born, nor were they beautiful. I didn't think either of us were quite as ready as we'd thought --- I knew I wasn't.

"What are we gonna call him, Eric?" Camille looked at me, frowning. "Don't you dare give something stupid, you asshole."

I chuckled, leaning forward to kiss her cheek, stroking her hair again --- I couldn't stop touching her, as if I was petting her, telling her a job well done. She'd had our baby, after two hours of being in labor.  He was healthy, no longer screaming, and had the prettiest blue eyes I'd ever seen. I hoped he got her dark hair, more of her features then mine.

"Kai." I said after a moment, her eyes flicking to my face. "I like Kai."

"Kai." She tasted the name, frowning. "How about Kaiden, Kai for short?"

"Fine with me." I looked at the baby.

Kai.

My son's name was Kai.

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