#iyaks

[chr0nicles-of-rin3]

hiiii.... hindi niya ako pinapansin .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

will i just accept my fate of being alone next month sa lantern fest? /_ \

[sunlit-mess]

[mikkeneko]

my Pathfinder character during tonight's session, very drunk but very sincere: "Asp, you mean so much to me. You're like a brother to me, except that you're the wrong species, and also dead"

[grvntld]

21 june 2024—✨️🤍🎀👁💋👁🎀🤍✨️

i was out and about for half of this day bc—

🩺 obgyne visit ｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧┈• ｡ﾟ finally got my first dose of hpv vaccine. two more doses to go! also did my pcos routine checkup. results were as expected, and yet, i still cried bc of it. no surprises there, really. overall, im grateful bc duh, ive got no major thingy to worry about naman down there, ykwim.

🍵 chill tOime ｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧┈• ｡ﾟ went to one of my go-to cafe restaurants. im so happeh they opened this branch, and they finally hv meals on their menu! i stayed here for hoOOOOooOOOooours—for lunch i had their bacon slab something + sea salt latte, and then for dinner i had their buffalo chicken something salad + mango hibiscus. i also prepared an ig post which my brain turned into a full blown activity (((i had so much fun making the caption for this ♡))) all the while watching bones, and talking to my sibs + gOrL cousins. i miss them.

💆‍♀️ relaxation tOime ｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧┈• ｡ﾟ decided to get my monthly massage today. hihi. my body has been aching lately, especially my hips and lower back. got a deep tissue massage, and oh my gosh, i think ive found the masseuse for me. she was amazing! i really felt like all the tension has left my body, oh my gosh, i so love her!!! i took a mental note of her name so that i could request her for my next massage.

💞 home at last ｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧┈• ｡ﾟ surprised moosey with a custom vanilla bean latte ♡ i also surprised him by going straight home, instead of him picking me up. all my gala kasi, hatid sundo niya talaga me, and i was just feeling like ~actually~ coming home to him and to the furbebis this time, with a pasalubong in hand, so there i was booking a grab ride even though i was actually scared and anxious doing that (((bc my cousin had two unfortunate grab rides recently))). i also brought home my fave harry potter butterbeer. hihi.

🐶 furbebis missed me ｡ﾟ•┈୨♡୧┈• ｡ﾟ and of course, as usual, it was also sooOOOOooo heartwarming to see the furbebis so excOited to welcome me back home. they were all given hugs and kissies na diyan sa gif kaya mejj calm na sila. hehe. also, 5/6 sila diyan since di pa pwede much makipag-interact youngest namin hihi she got lotsa kisses too, of course!

—grabe, this day was indeed packed! i enjoyed it so much ˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ my heart, mind, body, and soul are all well-rested huhu thank you, big g!

[jillaxkalangg]

sana bukas mas magaan na :^)

[maybeyoursomedaydream]

another serye na naman po ba ng hindi matutulog sa bahay pero super tulog sa office 😣😣😣

[stephending]

Paano kung ayoko na

[raccoonskoodilypoopdungeon]

been listening to parokya ni edgar a lot lately and buloy is so emicole i think

[sunb0rn]

Daylily, Movements

hearing one of the songs that -saved- me and singing to it live.

[2truehearts]

faints and dies

[pupyuj]

i wanna post a fic so bad but my ass is getting KICKED right now i can't do anything else but answer asks AND I CAN'T EVEN MAKE THEM AS GOOD AS I USED TO... ano baaaaa 😭😭😭

[baconcolacan]

*Daydreaming of part-Filipino Paul*

Feed me adobo under the moonlight daddy

[imblocking-you]

Watching Death's Game because I like suffering 👍

[nice2meetyouu]

Nabasa ko 'yung replies at messages ng iba kagabi at kaninang madaling araw kaya lalo akong naiyak.

At iniyak ko na lang nang iniyak para matanggal na sa sistema ang frustration na 'di nauubos. Kaya ito, sobrang sakit ng mata ko at sobrang sakit ng ulo ko.

Thank you sa lahat ng virtual hugs!!! (Kung mababasa niyo man 'to.)

Nakakatuwa rin talaga ang internet paminsan. Kasi, kanino ko ito ikukuwento? Sa kapitbahay namin? Buti na lang may virtual supporters and friends sa online world.

Improvement na rin ito kasi kung 'yung dating ako ito, sasali ako sa gaslighting. "Totoo naman wala kang kwenta," "walang ginagawa," etc.

Pero hindi na ngayon, I love myself na. May kakayahan nang maging vulnerable sometimes at maging expressive kahit kaunti.

Mahirap manalo sa mga may PhD sa gaslighting. Sinong nag-oopening line ng "ako na lang lagi ang masama"? Luh.

// Bucketlist ko na lang (1) magpa-change ng citizenship para naman 'di ko na kelangan magpa-visa palagi pag bibyahe-byahe sa kung saan-saan, (2) maging physically fit, (3) magpa-derma, eyelash perm, at kung anu-anong related, at (4) maging multimillionaire.

Hanap bahay 2023!!!!!!!! Advanced happy new year sa lahat. 🫶

[grvntld]

hOi tuesday pa lang pero pagodt na ko ha malapit na ko mambalibag like (ノಠ ∩ಠ)ノ彡( o°o) seryoso ewan ko anong meron sa pasok ng week na to pero teka lang ha tEKA LANG SABI EH KAKALOKA AYAW PAAWAT SIGE KEYOW ≡/( .-.)\ ︵╰(«○»益«○»)╯︵ /(.□. /)̨

[kimhortons]

Back then, I didn't know why Why you were misunderstood So now, I see through your eyes All that you did was love

pinaka masakit siguro sa isang anak, yung late mo marerealize kung gaano mo kamahal at kailangan ang isang magulang. lalo na kapag wala ka ng magagawa para bumawi pa.

wala akong paki sa kanta na 'to dati pero ngayon sobrang halaga ng meaning nito sakin. ngayon lang nag sink in sakin yung lyrics nito simula nung nawala na si mame. para bang ginawa 'to para sakin, kasi lagi ko rin kaaway mom ko noon, lagi niya akong pinapagalitan, pero kahit nasasagot ko siya noon, never siya nagtanim ng sama ng loob sakin.

naalala ko nung unang away namin ni papa na nag layas ako samin, gusto niya ako ipakuha kay J, nung una inisip ko pinagtatabuyan niya na rin ako pero ngayon ko lang din narealize na hindi para ipagtabuyan ako kundi para sa ikabubuti naming lahat. biruin mo, nung siya na yung nag hihirap, ako parin inaalala niya.

kaya ngayon malayo ako samin, iniisip ko nalang na masaya siya para sa akin at ito yung gusto niya. wala talagang kapantay ang pagmamahal ng isang ina.