#ive been feeling very Artsy these days

[kuratm]

lil sneak peak of my pookie goth uwu ~

[whorediaries-09]

hello! im kinda shy about participating in your birthday event so im submitting my ask though my old abandoned account but firstly, happy birthday!! i hope you have a lovely lovely one ahead, and that your year ahead is filled so much love and warmth 💗💗

i pick “you wanted to have fun 🪶”

i have brown-amber eyes, i’m 160-161cm tall (so 5’3? i think). i have one dimple, and i usually get called mild-mannered or sweet a lot (even in school reports 😓), based on my face and actions i think

i’m not very athletic, and if anything, i hate anything sporty. i’m an infp, i speak three languages, and i generally dress in a softer manner. i also never really cared for mbti types but ive been an infp for years, and every year, i meet new people who pick up on that without any prompting.

i am generally much more emotional (not in an overly sensitive way, but in the way where my heart with ache and ill probably cry for days if someone i loved was hurt). but im also really noisy and shameless with the right people, and i love that i have people like that in my life, who i feel safe and happy with. i can be loud and free, even in public settings, i just need to be happy and safe first. i used to get bullied and ostracised as a child (for being a little chubby, and quiet, and a book lover. sometimes i still go a little stiff or feel so weird when i get complimented on my face and body. especially now that ive grown up, and receive such compliments from strangers and friends. it just causes a really bad reaction sometimes.) so im always very grateful for the love i have in my life.

i like to read, write (i write on tumblr too! just for a different fandom, although i might write for the marauders soon, i just love them too much to write without feeling too soft inside bcs im just emotional like that), and i love to daydream to music while pacing around the house at night. i’m usually really good with crafty things like crocheting, embroidery, and just general crafts. i don’t think i’m very good at other artsy things, but i am studying a course which involves art history, but i plan to go into a literature field where i can also dabble in history.

last thing about me: i talk a lot, which i’m sure you may have already noticed 😓😓 ironic considering the fact that i used to have selective mutism from an anxiety disorder as a child. but still!!

i hope i havent rambled too much— i love the marauders, and ive loved them (oh omg its almost been a decade) since i was a child. i revisit everything every now and then, but this is my first time actually interacting with anyone in the marauders space.

i hope you have a lovely lovely day ahead, and thank you for hosting this game! stay safe and warm 💗💗

hello lovely! firstly i want to thank so much you for the wish, though i feel obliged to tell you that my birthday is on the day the event ends haha. and i usually don't say this but you seem like such a sweet sweet person oh my gosh! lastly, thank you for sending in a request!

i ship you with james potter!

james knows he's a goner since the first time he talked to you. he's completely entranced, head over heels if you will. and his feelings only deepen as the time passes by because how can they not? with every interaction you're crawling out of your comfort zone the more you interact with each other. as he starts knowing about your true self, he's just finds himself falling for you harder and faster.

you're not much into sports, and he's attracted to that fact, because to him, it's a nice escape from his professional life. he thinks it's a nice and a very much needed escape from the constant hustle and bustle from that life, since he's very famous and well known around the world.

he likes how emotional you are. he thinks it's refreshing because most people nowadays aren't very vulnerable; or show emotions. he thinks it's raw, and real. as someone who's emotional himself, he likes the fact that you're emotionally available, and not afraid to express yourself. so whether you're being shameless and loud or sad and gloomy, he likes every bit your expressive self. he likes that you're not pretentious about your personality and how you're true with your own self.

he's noticed that you resist and become uncomfortable when he compliments you. he doesn't comment on it, but he's taken on himself to make sure you understand that he means every compliment that he showers you with.

james is also very entranced by the fact that you carry such a bunch of artistic hobbies. he likes how you engage in the things that make you happy. he likes to read the things you write. he also tries to spoil you with books you even lay a finger on while strolling through the book store. he also buys you a lot of crocheting yarns in different colors for you to crochet. out of pure love, you crochet him a lot of beanies. you also love to embroider designs on his t-shirts, and he wears them with pride.

and last but not the least, he loves the fact that you're so talkative. james is a naturally talkative person and he loves that you talk so much, which is refreshing to him, because he's usually used to carry conversations. it's nice to stop once and listen to someone he loves so much.

hopefully the ship didn't disappoint! have a nice day/night ahead :)! (also if you ever write about the marauders, please do tag me, i'd love to read your work!)

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[lem-argentum]

hi would u like a post of all my favorite anime openings/endings. no? okay. here it is 💛 ^^

-my favorite dr. st.one opening is good morning world, please know that whenever i say “good morning world” it has always been in reference to that hehekmnf <333 THE SONG IS GREAT AND ITS A STRONG FIRST OPENING, IT GIVES ME EMOTIONS. my favorite shots are the one where gen appears + the suika sunflower scene, because the sunflower scene is important to me :) <3

^RAKUEN IS ALSO ONE I WASNT EXPECTING TO LIKE AS MUCH AS I DO, there are a lot of fun animation bits in it…… AND PLEASE KNOW TAIZURIHA ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME I LOVE THEM.

^IM VERY EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO THIS ENDING + IVE ALWAYS ADORED HOW IT LOOKS <3 the ending where do we go has such cool artsy visuals too i yelled when i first saw it EHEKNF <3. AND THE MOST RECENT ENDING WITH KOHAKU IS SO CUTEE I LOVE HER. OKAY IM DONE WITJ DC.ST

-bloody stream from jojo is the coolest opening in the world thats the only way i can express it i love the art in it. (it’s kind of funny that in my years of knowing jojo i never had a crush on joseph??? are you seeing him in this.) also because part4 is my favorite i have to mention crazy noisy bizarre town it is SO GENDERRRRRRRRR. <3333 alllllso because part5 gives me EMOTIONS i have to put fighting gold here too that song is SO sick. AAA.

-ONE P.IECE OPENINGFS. I CHERISH BON VOYAGE WITH MY ENTIRE HEART, KOKORO NO CHIZU MADE ME TEAR UP EVERY TIME I HEARD IT FOR A GOOD WHILE (u.sopp is my favorite character if you know you know), ONE DAY DOES THE SAME THING (IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOWWWWW ALSO THIS SONG IS JUST REALLY REALLYREALLY PRETTY), AND WE GO IS VERY FUN ALL AROUND (the part with the straw hat being passed down was always my favorite). <3

-oh right sgt fr.og. KERO! to march is iconic of course, sore ike!!! is really fun i always forget how attached i am to these stupid frogs until i rewatch these hfkdnfm <33 VIVA VIVA VIVA’S SONG IS FUN TO SING ALONG TO. MY FAVORITE ENDING IS PEKOPON INVASION ONDO. THE END (<- KERO.RO IS ONE OF HIS MOST INTENSE INTERESTS AND COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOR FOREVER BUT IS SHY ABOUT IT)

-i’m not particularly attached to de.mon slayer but i’ve always been SO in awe of its art and animation so i have to include gurenge & the entertainment district arc opening (not my main crush from the series but i did like u.zui. walkz away) ….. those songs are So good too augh <3 .

-ZZZ FROM NI.CHIJOU. I CANT FIND A PROPER UPLOAD W/ THE ORIGINAL VER OF THE SONG BUT THATS MY GENDERRRRR WAUGJF!!!!!!! <3333

-NAMAE NO NAI AO, THE ENDING OF EI.ZOUKEN. AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry i adore the entirety of this anime. everyone please watch it. <3

-TOUCH OFF FROM THE PROMISED NEVER.LAND. literal awesome song AUUAGHJ!/!!!!!! NAA NA NA NA NA NA NAA NA NA NA 🎶🎶🎶 <333

-okay including something from the de.vil is a part-timer! feels ridiculous but i want to include the ending centered around chiho because i love her and we are birds of a feather (pink-haired sillygirls). okay thank you. <3

-HUNTER X HUN.TER HYORI ITTAI I LOVE YOUUUU.

there are definitely more from more things that just aren’t coming to mind but there u go c: so many interests ive never talked about oooo~~ <333

[khodorkovskaya]

05.09.23

okay so... deep breath...

im barely hanging on you guys. like. i am under so much stress.

so basically i had two exams to retake: probability and functional analysis. and it's the only ones i have left to complete my degree. but, here's the fun little twist! if i don't pass im out! i only have one chance to pass them. and if i don't, thats 4 years of studying down the drain. fun fun fun!!!!!

so the first exam was on the 28th and it was really hard. i studied a lot, made flashcards and everything. and it was like impossibly hard. the thing is, this was a yearly class, so the overall grade is the average of two semesters. i got a 4.5 for the 2nd semester, so i only need 3.25 to pass the year. but the exam was so hard idek if i got 3.25... the prof said that if we only fill out the theory questions, that's a 4. the theory questions counted up to 8 points, so like if i get 8 points overall, that's a pass. but guys... im so scared...

so ive been freaking out a lot. and taking anxiety meds. and when i think about this exam i feel this FEAR in all caps. like. it's so bad. i can't sleep, i can't do anything, my skin is breaking out, it's hell.

then the second exam was on the 4th, so yesterday. and i was this close to losing it like the pressure was too much to handle. i burst out crying right before the exam but i managed to calm down. and tbh i think i'll pass this one. it was also quite difficult but i think i did okay. but still. the FEAR...

like i can't even describe it to you guys. i don't know if i'll even be able to have the courage to open my grades when they arrive. like i went on the university portal yesterday and my hands started shaking and i like had to crouch down bc my whole body became so weak i couldn't stand. it was terrifying.

so yeah... im really not having a good time right now.

in other news, okay, so i wanted to find a video in my whatsapp messages. so i went to "media" and started scrolling and i stumbled upon some things B and i had sent to each other back in the day. and i saw his new profile picture and.... he's in budva.

and okay first of all call me fucking geoguesser. bc the picture is just a selfie of him standing in front of a mountain. and i knew it was budva just from the shape of the mountain alone. and his head in blocking most of the mountain too but i still knew that it was budva right away.

then out of curiosity i checked his telegram profile picture and it's him in the old town sitting on a boulder like the thinker. again, i knew it was budva right away lol. and it's funny bc i saw that he deleted all of our telegram messages. all of them! i wonder when he did it. and why.

and also it hurt bc budva is MINE. like when lucien went to budva i was super jealous. but like whatever, it's a touristy destination, it doesn't matter. but it's strange that B went there. i mean we have so many memories there together. it's like if i went to sarajevo all of a sudden. and i wonder who he went with. his friend from belgrade? his new gonzesse lol? anyway, yeah.

another weird thing is that okay my zurich friend was in town and he asked to hang out and i had to decline bc i was studying for the exam. and then i saw on instagram that he posted this one song to his story. and the story itself was weird, my oxford bestie sent it to me like "what is this? why is he so weird?". it was basically like a blurry photo of a dimly lit street but like whatever artsy.

but yeah, it gave me whiplash because i had posted this exact song to my story exactly a year ago. day for day. like isn't that a weird coincidence.

and usually you know how im very obsessive especially when it comes to music. like if i like a song i listed to it on repeat non stop for days. and because of that a lot of the music i listen to is linked to a certain period of my life. so the song my zurich friend posted is the song of me breaking up with B. that's why it stood out to me so much. it's so strange...

[attyrocious]

im somewhat more awake now and 2% more coherent. anyway this is just personal ramblings but lemme gush about mp100 a little and how it changed how i approach life in general.

in mp100 world, being a psychic is just a stand in for any skill or 'talent' in life. a psychic is given about as much time of the day as being a really good singer, video game player, or in what i can relate to, being an artist.

granted, i wasnt an art prodigy gifted kid, like most i just kept drawing and improving in my own pace but thats not the point of this. anyway, being ahead of the curve art-wise among my classmates, being the artsy kid made me feel special. enter college and post college, and ive been surrounded by fellow artists for the better part of the decade in art school, online spaces, and creatives industry. and just like mob with the espers, ive met my fair share of artists who made their entire personality their art, and valued people (including themselves) by how good they are. no respect for you unless you also draw good and/or have 10k followers in any platform. i've hoped that like mob you can beat sense into them but that's called assault in the real world, so i just kept to myself and hoped to find more level headed people.

the biggest lesson i got from it is that your skill is not who you are, you still have to work on other areas of yourself and be kind to people. you might be the protagonist of your own life, but not everyone else's. i'll endlessly trashtalk them but im very thankful for my gaming crew, the weanoobs, who gives zero shit about my persona as an artist and they mostly care abt what i am to them as their dedicated support player. they're like my own version of the body improvement club. like, they are aware, and theyd support me when i ask, theyre just "oh cool. anyway have you seen the new Morgana skin?" about it

watching mob psycho 100 right now and the funniest part of this show to me is that mobs status as an esper is well known at his school and no one gives a shit. and that would lead you to think that espers are common enough its no big deal to go to school with one but no theyre so rare one of his school friends thought he was the only one. and yeah they still dont really care. imagine how fucking wild it would be to transfer to that school and everyones like 'yeah thats mob hes kind of lame. also psychic or whatever' and when you reasonably respond with 'HES PSYCHIC????' everyones like 'yeah and kind of lame. anyway-' i would go insane. i would go insane!

[onemillionbuttholes]

one million buttholes

and you know. no one really asked for this, I myself am not sure this is something i even want to be doing or maintaining. just like, stream of thoughts. I never really got into journaling in a capacity that could be helpful or meaningful, despite actually having the want to do so. and is that a pen to paper thing? is it a pen to hand thing, in the physical sense (if its not a bic .7 easy glide, don't even try it near me) or just a continuity thing of holding myself accountable. maybe all 3. irrelevant now, though. we're trying this.

since reading more books, and writing more with izzy, i've been playing around with the idea of writing more. more so train of though, journaling, but only because that seems more natural, easier to begin with what's already going on in your head. but im also playing w the idea of creative fiction. after the flood when I was helping my mom clean and save stuff from her basement, i stumbled across a lot of my old high school stories and papers. frankly, i did very well. Reminded me of the imaginative way i used to think about things (still think about things?) ive been mulling around the idea in my mind that i'm a romantic, creative person. sounds so cringe, actually vain to write that down. but if I force myself to listen to what great minds have been saying; that cringe is freedom, that cringe is the opposite to happiness, I can allow myself to sit with these grandiose thoughts. I can ask myself if i was that girl who was creative, more romantic and artsy; what would i be doing? would i be creating more? well, probably, easily. and actually, that aligns with the goals i already have for myself anyways. spend less time doom scrolling (rant about social media will be later, surely) and more time stimulating my hands and mind. to quote julia, and whoever said it first i guess; an idle mind is the devils playground. doom scrolling is the easiest solution, but too fucking addictive. and horrible for you in every way; I'm going to compare it to nicotine. (not opiods, everyone loooves to use opiods to example addiction. but they're expensive and very hard to buy pure, and considering the fentanyl crisis; i wouldn't exactly consider them "easy." so; doom scrolling: nicotine. feels great in the moment, you do way more than you mean to when you pick it up, and feel like shit the moment you stop, and for a few hours afterwards, up until you start to miss it. cycle repeats. yes, i am trying to stop vaping! thanks

anyways, back on track. someone once said 'do not destroy the part of you that's cringe, destroy the part that cringes.' that sentence quite frankly changed my life. accepting the cringe things about yourself is to accept things that make you happy despite overwhelming noise that you should feel shame or otherwise different. i would even argue 75% of that noise comes from your own self judgement! not that I should be talking about fandom at work, but you get what i mean. we are the ones holding ourselves ack from true, ecstatic happiness and freedom. i'm in a world right now (2025, canada, educated, financially stable) that uniquely i can do and be whatever i want. and i choose to feel shame about things that make me happy??? girlfriend actually wtf. that is shameful, to not take opportunities others would kill to have.

tdlr; i think i'm going to start writing. i want to start writing. im thinking maybe a rant like this a day, a week? just to get the energy out, stimulate the juices. depends how much i like typing on my phone within the tumblr app or else this is really never going to happen on work days. meh, never say never. and regarding the onemillionbuttholes; it's a url i saved actually 13 years ago, when i was really active on tumblr in high school and thought it was the funniest shit like, ever, and it would be my claim to tumblr fame. i tried this morning to make a new blog for writing purposes, but every url i tried out (nooneasked, actuallynooneasked, uselessrambling) was 1) already taken and 2) im realizing now, super self deprecating! huh. funny that. so, i already had this butthole blog, untouched since 2011. why not use what we already have? if its not broke don't fix it.

[lettersfromcats]

August movies!!

hi doreen !!!

ive decided to watch at least one film a day this month for no reason, but i have been having fun. since i don't use letterbox to give proper reviews i thought it'd be fun to start documenting my thoughts on each one for the month :) (ratings based on intuition alone) (this will take a while/ in progress)

-the cabin in the woods: 6/10 i really wanted to like this cause i liked the vibes and it seemed right up my alley- i love a horror comedy; but i found myself really bored halfway through. i do like the premise but i think the characters were a bit too archetype-y for me, which i get is the point. i still found it enjoyable and i would watch it again- just probably with other people, i think it's a group watch film.

-the virgin suicides: 9/10 i'm using this to work through some of my watchlist and this was on there for a while, we talked about watching it and i was not disappointed. the exploration of grief from the peripherals really struck me as well as the depiction of girlhood. i understand the criticism of the girls stories being told by the boys but to me the film seemed very self-aware and deliberate in that depiction (and i do love an unreliable narrator). the utter foreboding that hung over the mystical haze of memory throughout the film was enchanting and i mean the cinematography and soundtrack, impeccable. i can't move on without mentioning the symbolism of the elm trees, it's as if a literary technique was designed specifically to get me to like a film. the elm in itself has such interesting mythos and history which maybe wasn't deliberate beyond the obvious symbols in the film, but still is really interesting, for example, in norse mythology, the first woman was made from an elm and in america elms became a symbol of war and liberation during the revolution.

-girl, interrupted: 10/10 started with simon and garfunkle and still got better. incredible performances from any lesbians idea of a stacked cast and jared leto dies at war so win-win. the depictions of illness while i can't say are flawless, never feel like the intentions are wholly mocking- (though i obviously can't speak for everyone) and are devastating when brought to focus. and there's a homoerotic friendship so i was always gonna like it.

-purple hearts: 0/10 i dont even want to talk about it, i was watching it ironically and i couldn't even bring myself to have fun. the politics are beyond confused and seem to boil down to a centrist mush of love everyone despite their flaws (racism) and war's okay if the soldiers are big pouty white men. the romance was even rushed i don't know how anyone enjoyed it.

-the lighthouse: 8/10 exactly my type of artsy bullshit, robert pattinson and willam defoe shine in this weird, gross, claustrophobic, anxious masterpiece and i was having a great time. so much and so little happened but the delirious descent into madness was wonderful and a little bit gay so score.

-saw: 10/10 i finally watched it and as i predicted am obsessed, i just love a horror that is just a little ridiculous. i want to keep billy in a cage and feed him carrot sticks, (is he an animatronic or a puppet? how does he cycle???) jigsaws motivations make no sense and honestly good from him, i'd go batshit crazy if i were him too. the editing is so 2000s i can't stop thinking about it. the bathroom trap is where i want to go when i die. the horror was a lot less visceral than i was expecting; i think the contained nature of the traps really just creates such tension, especially between the characters stuck together, which is so compelling to me. the reverse bear trap is crazy i love it and what lesbian horror fan isn't a little in love with amanda. im so glad i hadn't had the twist spoiled for me because oh my god. also score slapped: hello zepp.

-old: 4/10 so silly i think more rich people should pay out of pocket to make bad films unintentionally. i watched with my siblings and i love nothing more than tearing apart this sort of thing with a captive audience who have to find me funny or be bored.

-extra ordinary: 8/10 i didn't know this was Irish until it started and what a pleasant surprise it all was. such a fun watch i really enjoyed it. the supernatural elements were the good side of corny and the romance was cheesy but heartfelt, with quintessentially irish humour just a really easy to watch, fun little film.

-piggy: 7/10 i really enjoyed this despite the not-great dub i was watching. i like how the bullied girl revenge trope was subverted and saras character felt very real, her reactions to events came off as very genuine and the suspension throughout is pulled off really well. i do get the criticisms of it being a drawn-out short cause i did find it a little slow at times but not having seen the short i didn't find the plot at all diminished. i liked the aspect of detachment from the killings emphasized by none of them being on camera while the emotional impact remained as well as the almost haunting presence of the killer and his intentions.

-the florida project: 9/10 another one that's been collecting dust on my watchlist for a while now i was absolutely enchanted by every aspect of it. the honest depiction of childhood and a very american poverty was striking. the gorgeous use of colours brought the vibrance of childhood back even in the dilapidated americana of it all. the acting really shone, willam defoe slayed of course but the kids are what make it special. and that final shot.

-we're all going to the worlds fair: 8/10 such an interesting film, nothing has ever quite captured the echoing loneliness that existence on the internet can create like this before. i loved the aspect of the accidental acting in search of connection, to me the lead-caseys-personal experience reads as completely honest without necessarily pointing to the spooky aspects being beyond her own mind. the film's atmosphere remains evenly eerie throughout, actually spooking me a little at times. the incredible, universal isolation of each character was really well portrayed with no conversations taking place without some barrier (a screen, a door) and i loved the framing of the fair itself, especially in contrast to the bleak monotonous world of empty snowed-in woodland and soulless frosty towns that casey occupies. the lead actress did such a good job portraying casey and her shifting identity and breakdowns. the director's transness cannot be ignored and the film as an allegory for dysphoria works so well. all this set to the droning instrumentals of alex g creates such a foreboding ambiance i couldn't help but love. definitely one of my favourite watches so far.

-shiva baby: 8/10 oh boy so stressful but also really fun. im starting to really like rachel sennott, looking forward to seeing more of her in stuff soon; speaking of bottoms looks like it's gonna be so good.

-red, white and royal blue: look, we know this is not my kind of thing, i get why people like it but for me this one especially with the indescribably weird political message is just not good, i didn't like the book and i don't like the film. gay people should have cheesy bad films though so its fine.

-when harry met sally: 9/10 this is one of those films i always thought i'd get round to eventually and i was suprised how much i liked it. really really cute, made me believe in love again or something. meg ryans hair was stunning also.

-marry my dead body: 7/10 i definitely enjoyed watching this but if i was being haunted by a twink drastic things would happen and they would not be good. i liked the characters well enough and the mafia(?) plot was fun, action sequences were okay and i'll be charmed by most ghost plots plus a kooky grandparent? great film recipe.

-juno: 10/10 knew i'd love this and boy did i! everything about it was just so charming, the dialogue and mannerisms of the characters (except jason batemans who was so so scary), the soundtrack, the aesthetics and did i mention the soundtrack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love kimya dawson so much. just a wonderful little film.

-submarine: 8/10 i'm a fan of richard ayode but i think this is his only directorial work of his i've seen and i have to say i really enjoyed it. the cinematography was really cool, i liked the use of symmetry and colour, especially the assigning a colour to each character, that's my shit; stand-out shot for me was the dream sequence over the dam drain thing- i love a water motif used to represent inner turmoil of a character- olivers basically kendall roy if logan was welsh instead of scottish. i know people love the score but i never got into the artic monkeys cause i'm not a huge fan of alex turners voice so a series of songs written and performed by the man didn't exactly stand out to me, but they seemed lyrically cool. i love the awkward stilted dialogue and the oddity of the main characters, they're not exactly likeable but that for me doesn't detract from the film. also his dad was a freak called lloyd and i love him.

-bound: 10/10 i mean what can i say, it's a lesbian crime thriller and if you don't think im gonna love that you're crazy. the plot is really compelling and corky and violet are an even more compelling. i enjoyed it. (also add this to my list of really good films made in 1996)

-bombshell: 2/10 lazy liberal feminism, i watched for margot and kate

-bones and all: 10/10 cannibalism in media <3<3<3 i also really enjoy a bit of Southern Gothic in my films so this was always gonna be a hit with me, even if i had to look past timothys presence. from the start the atmosphere is intense, the rural desolate setting, the immediate social and then literal isolation of maren really keeps the foreboding building only broken by the sudden violence. cannibalism works so well here as queer coding (and everywhere else, don't get me started). the weird balance of such realistic settings and this unchangeable almost supernatural aspect of biological 'survival cannibalism' is so interesting; and the romance element of the film worked really well for me.

-werewolves within: 6/10 a fun little horror comedy, i thought i would like it more but the humour wasn't quite my thing, a little millenial maybe. i still enjoyed it and it was a nice film to watch with my mam.

-as above, so below: 7/10 subpar acting and script writing made up for by such a good concept, Dantes Inferno as the catacombs absolutely slayed, and i was actually pretty spooked a couple times which doesn't usually happen to me beyond overreacting to jumpscares, which while im on the subject the jumpscares here were really well done, didn't feel lazy to me at all. it does need to be said that it really feels like they had a good concept but needed to work the script and plot more, the horror could use some backup from a better-written storyline and better justification for the character's endings.

-primal fear: 8/10 young edward norton was a real standout here. definitely an interesting legal mystery thriller, i think the twist would probably be more impactful back in 1996 (good year for film), it felt a little played out at this point but still very well done.

-slums of beverly hills: 7/10 i love a good coming-of-age and also natasha lyonne so i definitely enjoyed this. don't love the way some topics were glossed over but what can you do.

-fifty shades of grey: bad.

-vampires suck: 6/10 a funny little parody, mentioned the black eyed peas.

-weird: the al yankovic story: 7/10 daniel radcliff as a freak strikes again. definitely my favourite musician biopic i've seen so far. charming in its ridiculousness.

-ginger snaps: 9/10 a coming of age horror which conflates the begining of puberty to the transformation of warewolfism. i really appreciated the body horror elements as a cronenberg fan and i just think the horror was done really well. the two main characters were played so well and it was quite funny at times. i liked the interpretation of lycanthropy as a disease and the route of cure the characters used. would definitely recommend!

-insidious: 5/10 while i didn't find it especially scary i think the horror was well done and the plot was actually quite interesting! astral projection is quite a unique look at a ghost story and i loved that it was a person being haunted not a house, it was a good subversion. i did watch for leigh whannell and he made such a fun supporting character among some pretty meh main characters. definetely not a bad film!

-no hard feelings: 6/10 so fun! im so glad more stuff like this is coming out again and i mean jennifer lawrence slayed so hard. weird how people are such prudes about female nudity still, it wasn't like she was being overly sexualised in the scene but people are making such a huge deal out of it, i thought it made for a funny moment. i really enjoyed the characters and their relationship felt very real and cute! also depicted modern teenagers as very scary which i approve of.

-ghost world: 8/10 a really interesting look at two girls stuck in limbo between high school and adulthood. i really liked the depiction of enid avidly avoiding confronting moving on and how she inadvertently hurts everyone around her by being so casually selfish and how shes contrasted by rebecca (also scar jo slayed here gave absoloutely nothing, such a good character). the aesthetics of the film were really fun, with the delapedated city really highlighting the girls and also how fun the costuming was. steve buscemi also had a standout performance in which he was an awkward freak and a pretentious asshole about music! what a slay.

i really enjoyed doing this, it kind of forced me to actually engage in the media i was consuming past the casual level i usually find myself on. and it sure beat watching tiktok for six hours before bed.

[jcraft]

–“I’ll fucking kill you!”–

So Jakob does have a violent side

[alicetgwdlm]

you can run, but are you fast enough ?

have been trying to get back into actually liking doing art so ! very dodgy “grace chastity (?)” doodles w lyrics from a possible npmd song !

[lynnetendo]

                                (I don’t have a purpose in this world.) > Don’t worry, you don’t                                                 > That’s not true.             need one. man i love the feeling of death and dying! Inktober #2, a comic about the most depressing character in videogame history. You can say what you want about Fractured Milla, but I hope there’s a universe out there where she gets all the good things she deserved. She just makes my heart hurt every time I think about her. I like to think though that Ludger cared a lot about Fractured Milla and never forgot about her, even if the others did. And that Milla warmed up to him the most out of everyone, really being thankful for him having an unbiased attitude towards her. I’ve never seen someone do a comic for Inktober as far as I remember, so I wasn’t sure if I should really do one. In the end, my workflow was a lot better than I expected. I hope I can do a more lighthearted one soon.

[zombiedcattle]

hiiiiii guys this is the beginning of a series of posts im writing on why dst means so much to me as an autistic/trans/etc etc person . a very ramble-y simple thing thats been gnawing at my brain

ok so first up is wendy bc ofc it is , shes been my fav for 8 years lol. i feel like she tends to get characterized as a “tumblr sadgirl” or a dramatic kid bc of her nihilistic and flowery (pun intended) way of speaking, but the description for her victorian skin - “Wendy is the queen of strict, socially mandated mourning practices.” - got me thinking about this a whole lot :

wendy barely ever mentions her family (besides abigail obviously). her father only once, and her mother a handful of times, though with uncertainty sometimes (“What color were mother’s eyes?”). she never mentions having any friends before meeting webber. so we can infer that not only was abigail her best friend and twin sister, she was the only person wendy had ever really been close to at all. in her short we see that even before abigails death she was very introverted and withdrawn when shes not around abigail. so losing abigail wasnt just losing her sister, but losing the only friend she had, the only person she was genuinely close to and loved by. this would destroy anyone but wendy was also just a lonely little kid, only 10 years old in canon (possibly younger when abigail died)! shes a kid wrought with unfamiliar and overwhelming grief

so of course she turns to structure. acting and dressing like how youre expected during a funeral, with a set schedule to follow; reading popular poems and narratives crafted with objective literary devices; even taking and wearing abigails old clothing and parting her hair the way her sister used to. wendy is very set on boxing her emotions in by what she believes to be the standard set by people who have come before her. to her, grief should be artsy, clean, something mature that puts you above finding joy in the little things. a Tragedy with a capital t, nothing more and nothing less.

she remains loyal to this ideology because its the only way she knows how to cope. shes young and grief is such a messy emotion, so she just … doesnt deal with it. that, + the “Wendy clings fiercely to the grief over her sister's death, for fear that moving on would cause Abigail's memory to fade.” vignette, leads to this tragic, sophisticated persona shes cultivated bc she cant get over seeing herself as nothing more than only half of a pair

as an autistic person, boxing feelings neatly instead of actually feeling them bc its too overwhelming is something ive done more times than i can count . i also struggle with seeing myself as an actual person instead of just defining myself by my relationships to other people or by how i think people want me to be. i cant think of any other characters like wendy — her writing is handled so amazingly well, she is so nuanced and ive never seen any piece of media tackle portraying a thought process like hers. it means a lot to me and i feel very seen by it, so i wanted to put in my two cents

thanks for reading guys ^_^ i hope this resonates with you guys as well and maybe makes you consider wendys writing in a way you hadnt before. having a great day <3

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

What kind of things do you enjoy in a movie generally? Any movies you recommend?

I feel like this a bit of a hard question to answer because in general I’m pretty open to most movies! It’s different to novels or comics because they don’t nearly take as long to consume. So I can get invested in a wide array of different movies. As a standard though I pretty much hate all horror movies. I don’t like being scared lol. Which is why it surprised me how much I enjoyed Us.

My brother is very much into artsy films at the moment, so whenever I’m watching a movie with him he tends to pick those types. He’s found some really interesting ones too! He’s also super into “mind fuck” movies. I’ve definitely loved lots of the ones he’s showed me. That satisfying “WHAT THE HECK” when it all comes together is great.

I love anime and animated movies. Studio Ghibli in general is just an all round favourite because of the comforting atmosphere they have.

I’ve been enjoying Pixar and Disney lately as well. There newer stuff has been very impressive.

I don’t read an awful lot of sci fi but Ive noticed I tend to really enjoy a lot of the sci-fi movies I’ve seen. Whenever I watch a good sci-fi movie I get into a little kick about it and start looking up books to read that will give me a similar vibe. But I never seem to find any that make me feel the same way. So I think when it comes to sci-fi I’m definitely more of a movie person.

Sometimes I’ll occasionally want to watch a romcom but honestly as much as I enjoy romance books I don’t tend to like how rom cons are done lol. I like a lot of relationship building/ hurt and comfort stuff with my romance. Rom coms tend to be just a lot of miscommunication and wacky hijinxs lol. But sometimes they are nice to zone out too!

I guess it falls kind of into the sci fi realm for me, but I also like a good dystopian or apocalypse type movie. Surprisingly lol.

Gay isn’t a genre but I like gay movies too lolol. Though a lot can be a hit or miss for sure.

When I was in high school I was REALLY into marvel movies and the DC animated universe. I’ve massively dropped off from marvel though. I still watch them but I’m not nearly as invested as I once was.

There is that one movie coming out, I think it’s called Bones And All, I’m excited to see it. It looks super interesting.

I’m sorry that wasn’t really a good answer. I guess mainly I’ll try almost anything if it’s a movie. I’m a lot less picky then with books. But also I don’t consume movies nearly as much as I do books so that probably helps too.

I hope you have a wonderful day 💕💕

[dateamonster]

Shape of Water was too artsy for me, and Venom wasn't smoochy enough. What's a super smoochy less artsy monster love story you recommend for beginners?

aa i totally get what youre saying and i really wish i had like. a truly good answer at least movies-wise. i feel like there arent rly a lot of like Actually Canon monster/human romance movies that truly have that spirit of fun to them.

in terms of like approachable newby monster-romance media in general though.. this is probably Basic but ive been really enjoying the webcomic suitor armor recently. its not perfect but the romantic element and the way character relationships are handled is very genuinely sweet and if youre like me (ie grew up on the hokiest of ya high fantasy media) itll easily burrow its way into your heart.

if you havent seen disneys gargoyles series yet... well thats harder to access now that disney plus is a thing. it used to be all uploaded for free on youtube! still if u have plus or ur down to pirate i rly cant recommend it enough. its a fun, fantastical, very bingeable cartoon series with as much interesting lore as convoluted magical shenanigans and some real sweet slowburn monstery romance.

oh! hellboy! the original hellboy movie is really good! i have a real lingering soft spot for comic book based movies from the days pre-mcu and big budget grimdark superhero shows that are like visually well done and obviously have a lot of care put into them, but still maintain the special brand of weirdness that i think was kinda unique to the medium.

if youre willing to put up with my book recs for a sec, im a big big fan of the house in the cerulean sea, and a long way to a small angry planet. neither are strictly speaking romance-centred (because i dont rly vibe with that in books) but i think they both def fall into the category of fun monster/human romancey content. theyre also just a couple of my favs in terms of like, stories that focus a lot on character and interpersonal connections. the romances present in them feel really good and organic to me because theyre sorta just another facet of that theme.

ANYWAY

i know some of you guys following have to have some other suggestions as well so pls feel free to add on while i try and search my swiss-cheese memory for cute monster romance media stuff i can actually recommend

[sunnyasswaffles]

Heyy I see you hit 100 followers, congrats! I like your writing a lot. 🎉

Since you probably don't know Suguru or Toji I was wondering if I could get hcs of me and Megumi (I want to exploit divine dog privileges) from jjk. I'm a girl, Pisces, INFJ, I'm pretty much chill and friendly, I'm that person with whom you can talk to earnestly without feeling self-conscious bc I love domestic stuff (fluff 🙃), exchanging opinions on variety of topics is fun as long as both parties are respectful, I always supported the idea that different thoughts can coexist and that diversity matters, I'm a good listener but I'm also very confident in my beliefs so people often say that I'm insightful or intuitive, I'm patient and understanding, I like to joke and I hate stressful or serious situations, sometimes I can be blunt but that's just me being honest and I hate faking whatever bc it's not my style. However, I can be mean if the person deserved it, I use sarcasm or leave the person be bc I avoid fights, I'm a v peaceful individual. I'm a former gifted student, artsy person (I'm doing digital art), in free time I watch Netflix, read manga, go on walks, listen to music, do some writing and games, I also like metaphors and symbolisms in literary works and media. People say I'm pretty and smart but I'm also modest which is smtng me and McGee (Imao I love this nickname, Gumi as well) have in common. My wardrobe is also dark and I wear dark makeup, I like grunge. I'd bully Gojo for him. 😂

That's it. Have a nice day!

a/n: TYSM! that means so much to me 🥰💕💕 honestly you seem like a great match for megumi im ngl ✋ i hope you like it! this was really fun to write :)

honestly, when you both first met he would’ve been a bit closed off like he is with everyone he first meets

but the fact that he finds you so easy to talk to is one of the things that brought you closer.

i feel like, for Megumi, being heard and understood is super important to him and the fact that you do that and want him to feel that way, is something he really appreciates from you

he really loves the fact that your blunt and not afraid to say whats on your mind, because he’s pretty much the same way. he doesn’t like things being sugarcoated, he tells it as it is 😤✊

and because of that i feel like your relationship would be very open. you wouldnt keep any secrets, and you feel like you could tell each other anything. and Megumi really appreciates that, because there’s not many people he’s really open with from what ive seen

i feel like he also would like domestic fluffy situations so for dates, it wouldnt be anything overly extravagant. maybe just chilling in his or your dorm, listening to music or playing video games. Maybe a nice walk out in the town and to a little cafe for a drink. I feel like nothing would really matter much, setting-wise, for dates. as long as you spend time together thats what matters most.

Oh my lord- if you offered to mess with gojo with him, or just say something back when gojo’s annoying him- Megumi would get down on one knee and whip out a ring faster than you could ever blink. Gojo gets on his fuckin NERVES so he think it would be fun to give him a taste of his own medicine every now and then (to spice it up, get itadori and nobara in on it too)

He would definitely love your artsy side tbh, if your working on something while you’re relaxing together with him, he would probably rest his head on your shoulder, silently observing and admiring what your doing.

He’s amazing at handling more serious situations bc he’s a pretty serious dude on the outside. when he notices that your uncomfortable or stressing over a situation like that, he would have no problem stepping in or helping you out, depending on the situation

he loves that you have a sense of humor though, your one of the only people that can genuinely make him laugh (and it kinda gives you an ego boost, rightfully so)

i feel like the way he would express his love and feelings to you is through acts of service and verbal affirmations. He finds you easy to talk to so expressing his love through words is easier for him when it comes to you. he isn’t sappy about it though, just a casual “I love you” or a “you look really nice today”

He loves to help you out with anything you need help with. you ask him for it? done and done no questions asked.

I feel like he would really care about your well being in general too. he would probably make sure you drank water everyday and that you eat and sleep good.

when he goes off for missions he likes to bring you back little gifts every so often.

he finds your sarcasm so funny dude you have no idea.

especially when you use it towards gojo or itadori, mans has to hold himself back or he’ll bust our laughing.

just like he loves your honesty, he also loves the fact that your not afraid to stand up for yourself if need be.

[lightsaberupmybutt]

Three’s a Crowd - Reader/Ben Solo/Poe Damerson (Modern AU)

alright so Ben/Kylo is a big ego kid in this, because of course. Also, Rey is ACTUALLY Lukes daughter in this, making them cousins. Ive fiddled with the plot okay sue me. 

Summary: Poe, Finn and their roommate have been living in a harmonious tenancy, but when Finn decides to move out for a year of travelling, the two are left with no option but to look elsewhere for their third body. Rey Skywalker, a friend of the group, proposes her cousin for the role. He's in a band, wears all black and all in all is somewhat of a social reject - but he's also all theyve got.  

“I think that one was actually somehow worse than last weeks” You tell Poe, as he pours himself a juice and settles down next to you on the sofa. You'd just finished showing around another possible roommate and you felt exhausted in every sense of the word. 

“How can he be worse than the neo nazi?” Poe shot you an unbelieving look and rolled his eyes, kicking his feet up onto the coffee table and knocking some of your papers in his wake. 

“Alex was a she, and they asked if they could hang their deer head in the front room” you grimaced even thinking about it, weren't all artsy college students supposed to be vegetarians anyway? why did you have to get saddled with the only blood thirsty one on campus. 

“Thats not so bad”

“Poe she showed me a picture of her taxidermied cat”

“Oh”

You had tried to find a polite way to stop her from passing you her phone, but you were too nice to make her feel uncomfortable, and now the image of the long dead tabby would remain behind your eyes for god knows how long. 

“was she hot?” You shook your head, causing Poe to sigh wistfully. 

“Not hot enough to cancel out her obsession with dead bodies anyway” you informed him, the hopeful look from his eyes gone. 

“Face it Poe, were doomed” You let your head fall into your hands, Poe letting out a laugh before wrapping his arm around your shoulder. 

“Hey we’ll get someone! who wouldn't want to live here?” You knew his question was rhetorical but when looking around the cleaner than usual flat, you had to admit it was missing something. Bare spaces on the walls from where Finn had taken down his pictures, the empty side of the kitchen counter that had once houses his overpriced coffees. You even missed picking up his empty cups after him, the room feeling like it had less character without them. It truly hadn't felt the same in the flat since Finn had left, and although Poe concealed it well, you could see it was getting to him too. Poe had, after all, known Finn first; Finn managing to get a very drunk and outspoken Poe out of a sticky situation he had found himself in when running across a local gang in a dive bar. The ‘first order’ as they so called themselves, had an infamous reputation around campus for being trouble makers and general doers of bad deeds. Ever since that night they had been an unstoppable duo, until they met you of course, and their duo became three. 

You loved Finn, and you knew told miss him like hell, but you also knew that Poe must be feeling that ten times over. 

“You wanna do something tonight?” You asked, changing the subject before his mind  drifted to where yours had. 

“what kind of something?” he wiggled his eyebrows suggestively, 

“Gross” 

“hey I'm serious!”

“what about Razor Crest, they are open late, we could grab some drinks and meet up with some people” 

Razor crest was the only worth while bar in town; it was certainly nothing to write home about, but it played fairly decent music and it had a marginally less sticky floor than others. Additionally, your other friends lived just over from the humble saloon, making it the perfect watering hole for you guys. 

It didn't take much convincing before you had Poe out the door and ready to socialise. Upon arrival, he headed to the bar while you were waved over by Rey, who had already found a booth and was already at least a few drinks in. 

“Look, i think i have a solution to your roomie problemo” She told you, peeking over her straw, a gleam in her eye that made you feel not all too confident in her yet to be spoken plan. 

“Go on” you told her, cautiously. 

“My cousins back in town” She told you between gulps. 

“The weird one?” You asked, 

“Hes not weird, just ...eccentric” the last word was more of a question, but you could tell she was on a roll, 

“He's just joined one of the college bands and Auntie Leia says him and Uncle Han are butting heads” 

“ah cool, weve always wanted  live music in our own flat at 2 am” Poe injected, rejoining the table and placing a drink in front of you before taking a sip of his own. 

“hes not BAD at it, he just plays loud i think” She corrected him, “anyway, he's not a total twat, I'm sure he would be considerate of your sleep schedules” 

“didn't he try and stab you with a stick when you were five” you asked her, you'd heard stories of this cousin before and none of them were quite savoury, 

“that was ages ago! he's like way old now” she was starting to slur her words, but you had a feeling this was something Rey was quite set on. Rey was stubborn, and when she got something in mind she would move hell to make it happen; she was also your best friend, and someone you trusted the judgment off. Had she gotten you into some weird shit in the past? sure. 

Did you have any other options; nay on that. 

“Fine, get Han or Leia to bring him round at some point next week and one of us will give him a tour” You tell her, and she lets out a little happy shrill at her own personal win. Poe, not so much. 

“Speak for yourself, weirdo cousin can see himself around” he crosses his arms and pouts, you give him a little nudge. 

“Hey, maybe you'll be best mates” you offer, but when he shoots you a death stare you go back to your drink.

The family turmoil must have been more vicious than Rey had let in on; It was barely the next morning before you had a tall, intimidating male knocking on your door. 

“Hey!” you offered him, in as cheery a voice as your hung over self would allow.

He looked down at you from his towering height, but gave no verbal response. 

“You must be Ben?...”  He offered you the slightest nod you'd had ever seen in response. Okay so, not much of a talker, noted. 

You waved him in, shutting the door behind him. God, he looked even bigger inside? is that possible? Rey had failed to mention the sheer height on the boy. You'd seen pictures of her and her aunt and uncle, it seemed like Ben was a scientific and biological mystery. Like how did he get clothes to fit? did he have to shop somewhere special or

you were snapped out of your thoughts by a clearing of a throat. 

“So, how much is the rent” so he DID have a voice, 

You informed him automatically, still part dazed. 

“Ill be in by the weekend” he told you, and with a nod he moved past you, making his way back to the door.

“But wait .. y .. you haven't even seen your room yet?” You stumbled, dumbfound by the lack of foreplay. The previous people you had shown around were full of questions; they wanted to know the ins and outs of the place. Ben had seen all of the door way and the front room and he was already signing the lease. 

“See you then” he didn't stop, hand on the door knob as if you hadn't spoken.

“But i don't have your phone number” you don't know why that came to you first, but it was true. At no point had Rey offered you direct contact with Ben, probably assuming he would. It seemed reasonable, that you'd need his number before he moved in, didn't it? Poe was always texting you about random shit in the flat, arguably too much, but it seemed like the norm for people coexisting in such a small space. 

He turned back at you and gave you a confused look, 

“why would you need my number?”

“erm... to talk to you” your condescending tone not completely masked, 

“but ill be living here” he stated, which, he had you there. 

Before you could even think of a response  he was out the door.

True to his word, Ben had his things over by that very same weekend. Although it was unsurprising considering just how light he packed. In fact, other than his bass and musical equipment, you couldn't really think of anything he had actually brought with him to the flat. You got to meet his parents when they dropped him off, both of whom seemed leaps and bounds more conversational than their son. Ironically, you got Leia’s phone number before her sons; her telling you to message if you ever needed anything. It felt like an indirect jab at Ben, a ‘if he fucks up let me know’, but you digress. The tension between Ben and his dad was blatantly obvious, them sharing no words before he got back into the car and Ben into the house. He did give his mum a small hug goodbye though, and you thought you saw a small tear in her eye before she managed to wipe it away. 

Since his move in, Ben had kept painfully to himself. You barely saw him at all in those first days, just heard him through the walls the odd time he dropped something - or saw a plate or cup gone from their places in the kitchen. To be honest , it felt more like a paranormal haunting than a new roommate. Poe was vocal of his apprehension to the situation, sharing glances with you when you would both be in the living room and you'd see ben scurry by or passive aggressively texting you when his favourite cup had been used by someone who wasn't him. it was a relatively small issue, but Poe had blown it so out of proportion that you had ordered a new set of cups from Amazon and sent him the link, shutting him up for a while before he found something else to complain about.

it was the fifth day before you actually bumped into ben again. He was on the sofa with his base set up, twiddling with his amp. The sight surprised you so much you physically jumped back, causing him to look up. crap. act cool. act cool. 

“hey” you offered him

“hi” hi replied back, looking back down at his amp. 

right, yer. his space, give him his space. Just get your stuff and go back to your room. don't speak to him, leave him alone. he clearly wants to be left alone. 

“nice day isn't it” you wanted to cover your mouth, the words coming out against your will. Truthfully, you had no clue why you said it. You hadn't even looked at the weather this morning. Its just what people say right? 

“Erm” his eyes shot to the window and then back to yours,”no”

sure enough, it was pissing it down outside. The sky was actually comically grey and you'd have laughed if you werent so angry at yourself. You were unsure of what to do, and he was still looking at you, almost assessing you. His eyes were so serious and dark they felt like they were burning tiny holes into your skin. shit, you had to speak now right?

While regretting every single life decision that had brought you into this kitchen at this time, Poe sauntered into the room like your night in shining armour, ignoring Ben all together and coming straight over to you, placing a big arm around your shoulders. You saw Ben drop his head back down to this bass, and you used all your might to not let out a sigh of relief.

“Tonight, I'm taking you out” He offered, a cheeky gleam in his eye. 

“Are you now” 

“Razor crest, drinks and dancing, be there or be square” He lists off as if he's a paid promoter, causing you to let out a giggle. 

“Whos invited?” 

“just the gang” he said, causing you to shoot him an eye roll, knowing full well you ‘gang’ consisted of all of three people, yourself and Poe included in that number. 

but then you remembered, there was another person now, whether they liked it or not. Poe’s eyes followed yours to Ben and then back to meet yours again, you saw the realisation change to disgust, as he shook his head silently at you. 

you knew this look, the ‘don't you dare’ look, the ‘not in 1000 years’ look. But you couldn't help it, your lips were moving before you could stop them for the second time this morning. 

“Are you free tonight, Ben?’

The look of sheer betrayal on Poe's face made you wince, surely he'd understand right? he knew you well enough to know your verbal diarrhoea  problem. 

Ben didn't even look up, but he did let out a small laugh that felt quite antagonistic. 

“i dont go to Razor Crest” 

“i don't go to razor crest ugh” Poe mocked, causing Rey to let out a hysterical giggle, and you a sigh. 

You'd been out for all of three hours and you were all already feeling the effects of the alcohol. It was late and the bar was jam packed with students all raring to go. Poe had been making eyes at one particular red head  almost all night and you were half surprised he hadn't already made his move. Poe put out, it was a fact. You and Finn had at one time made a fridge chart for him, a gold star awarded every time he brought  girl home. Whether the goal was to make him feel proud of his conquests or embarrassed, you still weren't 100% sure, but after a month or so you had both lost count and given up. You told yourself it didn't bother you, that he was just a friend, and that he owed you nothing, but every time he left you at the bar for another girl something stung inside; something you pushed deep down but regrettably was still there none the less. 

Sure enough, as the night progressed, you and Rey ended up fending for it alone, and instead of feeling sorry for yourself you decided to do the responsible thing and drink more. 

After the third round of shots, Rey calls it in. 

“I think I'm gonna be sick” she tells you sheepishly, and you can't help but belly laugh in response. She starts to shuffle towards the door and you go to follow.

“Hey don't leave on my behalf” she tells you earnestly, but you wave her off. 

“Nah I've had my fill, I'm starting to forget which flat number i live at” you tell her, causing her to giggle this time. 

You both stumble out the bar, past the smokers and up the cobbled road towards her flat. She unlocks her door and lets herself in, not before giving you a drunken hug and a sloppy kiss on the cheek. 

As you ready yourself to make your way back to your own flat, you come back past the bar entrance; a particularly prominent cobble causes you to trip ever so slightly and gain a whoop from a group of boys who were passing round a box of marlboro straights. 

You suddenly realised just how dark it was and just how alone you were. Most nights you wouldn't stay out this late, and if you did, then you'd normally be walking back with finn. You let out a shiver, a mix of both the cold night air finally breaking through your drunken daze and a smidge of fear. The Razor Crests entrance lights were getting progressively further away, and although you know that you only had a maximum of a half mile walk back to your home, it felt like ample distance to get kidnapped or murdered in, most probably both. 

How many true crime stories started with a young drunk girl, scantily clad and out alone at night? You could hear the police reports now, which photo would they use? you prayed it would be a hot one, at the very least one after your thin brow phase. 

Being literally bumped back into reality, in almost a cruel humorous way, you felt yourself walk head first into a figure, their arms coming out to catch you as the sheer momentum bounced you back. 

Oh god, I'm dead. I'm literally going to die.  

“Hey, chill out” The voice made your heart beat both slow and race again, 

“Ben?!” you shrieked, voice hoarse through pure anticipation of your thought to be demise 

“Are you okay” he asked, and only then did you realise you were shaking like a leaf. 

“Im fine” you let out in a small voice, looking down at your shoes. You could feel the redness in your cheeks through pure embarrassment alone. This was not an ideal situation for him to see you in, and you kind of started to with that he had been a murderer, at least then you wouldn't have to deal with the second hand embarrassment in the morning. 

“What are you doing out here”

“why are you out alone” 

you both asked simultaneously,

“I was coming out for a smoke” He told you, flashing his tobacco pouch at you from inside his coat. His very warm looking coat, might you add. Another shiver ran down your body. 

“Im coming home from Razor Crest” you tell him, trying to be matter of fact but slurring your words just enough to spoil the show. 

“Yes obviously, but why are you alone” he shoots back in some what of a patronising tone, it wouldn't sit well with sober you and it definitely doesn't go down well with drunk you. 

“Im a big girl” 

“clearly” he makes, making extra sure to look you up and down from his towering distance above you, causing you to huff. 

“well i can take care of myself” 

“you shouldn't be out alone around here, its not safe” he ignores your response, looking you dead in the eye. 

You feel something inside you flutter, a warmth that you can't quite control. Okay, ben might be weird and a bit annoying it would seem, but he was handsome, thats for sure. The limited light danced off his strong features and dark shaggy mop of hair, making him look both dangerous and appealing. 

As if you were standing here mentally flirting with the idea of being with Res cousin; you made a mental note to punish yourself for the ludicrous thoughts in the morning. 

“Okay well I'm going home now” you tell him, attempting to push past him, but his large hand finds its way to your forearm and pulls you back,

“yes, you are, come on” If what he said before was patronising, he was now speaking to you like you were a dog he was walking. 

“go have your nicotine, ive got this one covered” you tell him with a mock salute, causing him to roll his eyes. He lets go of your arm and you take your win, trying to step confidently away without falling. You're proud of yourself for handling the situation when you realise he's following all  of 10 steps behind you, rolling a cigarette in his hands while holding a filter between his teeth. 

when he catches you looking, he nods down to his hands, 

“want one?” he mumbles between his lips, still holding the filter pride of place. 

“no thanks” you snap, picking up pace. 

Ben smirks at you, but you miss it, too focused on not embarrassing yourself and keeping your feet in line. 

[pascalpanic]

omg! ive been loving these types of ship games pls can i hop in rq if its not over 😳👉👈 congrats on your milestones, love! 💖💕

im about 5'4 or sumn, and particularly leaning on the curvier side in terms of body structure. so with this mind, i LOVE LOVE wearing big shirts or loose clothes in general (which means aha i will steal of the loml's shirts and hoods BET.) im instinctively attentive and tend to get selfless when it comes it. im overall very loose and like comfy around people im close with? "a fucking ball of energy and sunshine" as i would get called by some of my friends 😔✋ my love language is both touch and words bcs sometimes a bitch needs her daily hugs and reassurance huhu. i play either bass or guitar and sing often :) i would love to serenade my s/o and even cook for them whenever necessary! just basically love them thoroughly as they would with me bcs im part of the soft bitches committee 😭✋💖 TYSM 💞

first of all, that pic made me make that exact face I love you

I would ship you with Marcus Pike!

Marcus Pike is the touchiest, snuggliest Pedro character and you will learn that very quickly. He’s always sneaking you a kiss on the head or squeezing your arm as he walks past you, just because he loves you and thinks you’re adorable. He’s a bass player too, and he loves listening to you play. I mean, the man’s job revolves around art, so he naturally loves artsy stuff and he melts when you sing to him while playing your guitar or bass. If you’re a member of the Soft Bitch Committee, Marcus is the president. He falls hard, as we know, and he immediately is swept away by your energy and the good vibes you radiate. It’s his weakness when you steal one of his button-up shirts that he wears to work and just wear it around the house. Even if he was planning on wearing that tomorrow, he will never tell you to take it off. Not only is Marcus extremely physically reassuring, this man is practically a poet. He’ll tell you every little thing he loves about you, completely unprompted. Don’t even get me started on a day where you’re not feeling yourself; Marcus will take the day off of work to treat you!

Ship requests are opennnn keep sending them!!