#ive already applied to unis

[cherikdogfood]

Continued in the reblog

[shoelacemeowmeow]

discovered im not cut out for university even if im studying something i enjoy so after they kick me out im just gonna get a shitty overnight fast food or service station job and then make youtube videos for fun 👍

[ambersky0319]

I'm debating if it would just be easier to get a whole new phone/phone number and just have my grandpa cancel my line once I get it

[variouspositions1984]

oh btw!! i got into my course!! :D

[kittycatcarla]

This girl may not be growing tgirl tits yet buy she sure is growing her tgirl confidence

[gommyworm]

:^}

[shradsmanifestt]

hi, im sorry for bothering u right now. ive been asking around for advice everywhere because i really need all the help i could use right now. my anxiety is flaring up like crazy because my results come out tomorrow and im so scared because if i mess this up then my future is ruined. my mental health has been horrible and that has severely affected my grades but in most asian countries they dgaf about that and basically think it's nonexistant for minors so ofc i'm still undiagnosed, and if i were to apply to a uni i wouldnt get any good chances anywhere. if i could just get 3 Bs in my AS levels it would be okay or else i'd have to retake it and it's super costly here.. i don't wanna put my family through that because they'll talk me down, degrade me, destroy my self esteem which i've managed to build back a little. they were like this since when i was the topper and thats what made me burnout. undiagnosed adhd, trauma, depression also contributed to it

im applying the law, but instead of the feeling of success that everyone else gets i feel panicked. the 'feeling' people usually get when they're in the wish fulfilled state, the feeling of accepting it and it being real—im not getting that. i dont see a clear picture when i visualize. every time i try to, i end up breaking down and feeling like a failure... but I'm still trying to go on because why is it that the people who hurt me and practically ruined my life get to live successfully, while i suffer? thats not fair... i promised myself that if i could just get 3 Bs, ill turn my life around and work really hard... but is it over for me? i want to win, im trying to, but im scared

im trying my best to visualize myself getting 3 Bs, reenacting my friends faces when i get the results, praying to God and thanking Him for blessing me and continuing to bless me, but there is this fear still lingering at the back of my mind... i feel like I'm not doing it right. i have like one day left and I'm so nervous. im going over posts, tweets, and every time I feel a little better, it all comes crashing down because of doubts. theres only one thing one my mind right now: 'how am I gonna turn it around in one day?' i know that the 3D does not matter and that everything is done in imagination, but here i feel like its not done in imagination either

right now nothings clicking in my head, whatever i read is getting scrambled in my mind, i feel so lost and empty. could u please tell me what to do in this specific situation? u can be as harsh as you want if that's what's needed to get the point across. im really sorry for the bother and id be really grateful if u could please help out, ive never been this desperate before... my life cant be over before it even started

Hey love,

I get you, I really do but trust me when I say this.

THIS SHIT IS REAL AF. Manifestation is real af. It's as real as the fact that you are a human being. All you have to do is trust yourself that it is already done. If good results is what you want then that is exactly what you'll get. You need to choose to stop having doubts because it is already done. That is the simplest answer I can give you. Persist on what you want.

I am glad to tell you this but I just got test results for a major exam held in my uni today and I got into the 95th percentile just by saying to myself that my super power is aptitude tests and that I already scored great. In my friends group only 3 of us were eligible and I have 70+ more marks then them as well. If I can do it, you can do it. You need to stop doubting yourself. Atleast stop doubting manifestation. Cause at this point you're only gonna manifest your doubts.

I'll give you a scenario - If you're worried about getting bad grades, Trust me when I say this you're gonna manifest exactly that coz you will manifest exactly what you assume. You can choose to stop that right here, RN. Choose to accept that you got great marks. I mean don't even like aim for B's go for A's. I don't care even if you left the paper blank coz if you assume you're the topper, that is exactly what's gonna happen.

If you do get bad marks and I'm gonna be harsh here - You're the only reason why! You're gonna manifest exactly what you assume to be true even if it's good or bad. Your sc mind don't differentiate btw what's good for you or what's bad for you. It only knows what you feed it.

You got this, TRUST ME

Love, Shrads.

[okthatsgreat]

i love it when i get uni assignments and i can easily take ideas ive already been exploring in my fic and just apply it to the short story i have to write. this rules

[socstudies]

01-10-23

tomorrow I go back to class for my second year at university !! I'm so excited !! also happy october everybody! (vent about masters applications below:)

but I know that it's going to get REAL very quickly bc I'm already overwhelmed by my workload... in addition to normal uni work, I will also be attending virtual uni open days as this time next year I will be submitting my masters applications......... what?????? ive already started to narrow down my options and do a lot of research bc I know that now and the Christmas break are the only times that I'll have to do this before I have to start writing the applications???? bc I'll be too busy during term and the summer to even think about thinking about thoughts like ?? WHAT??? I was a fresher two minutes ago and now I'm booking postgrad open days like hello???? what???? but I can't say I don't love it because it's soooopo exciting and I love my subject. I'm also aiming more ambitiously in terms of the universities I'll be applying for (will have safeties ofc) so that's VERY motivating. so yeah !! eeeee!!!!!

[sickknotdoom]

I've seen you pop up in the #sparkletag quite a bit recently, and as both a Patron and as a friend of Kneeby, I think I've had enough of your antics.

It's really depressing to see someone dedicate their entire online presence towards hating someone. It's extremely creepy and weird to obsess over every single thing kit does like this. I urge you to go find a better hobby, and I mean it. This kind of parasocial behavior is toxic and only serves to hurt everyone including yourself. Take a break from this and use that time to reflect on yourself and what you really want. Do you want to dedicate all of your time constantly rambling and raving about everything kit does online? Does that sound like a productive use of your time? I don't think it is.

all my posts boil down to "the pacing and prioritization of this comic could use a lot of improvement + i find it weird that the creator isnt raising awareness to a literal genocide going on rn" and you react by writing an angry essay. your ask seems to boil down to "you cant criticize my favorite comic because it might hurt the creators feelings" so im gonna respond with an angrier essay

there are good things about sparklecare, obviously. i resonate with it in some regards. but that doesnt mean its perfect, as nothing is. i dont even tag my shit under the main sparklecare tags (apart from the stuff about kneeby not raising awareness towards palestine) because i know people like you are gonna get upset if you see a conflicting opinion on your dash. the only tags i tend to use are #sparklecriticism and #sparklecare criticism, none of the main tags. block those tags if you dont wanna deal with me.

my criticism is valid (i think) since yeah. the comics writing has a huge problem when it comes to letting things happen naturally instead of rushing them, which results in kneeby having to explain things on the blog (which 99% of the time you have to scroll deep into since the main blog is constantly reblogging the cometcare one) rather than having the comic clarify it on its own. thats a genuine issue in storytelling so i feel like it should be addressed and worked on.

i have way more of a presence online than this blog, obviously. i just dont want this blog connected to my real identity for a wide variety of reasons (mainly not wanting to be harassed even further than i already am)

if youre a friend of kneeby then i think you should tell kit to actually DO SOMETHING to raise awareness to the genocide going on in palestine and other targets, PUBLICLY. not just an announcement in a private discord, a public statement, or AT LEAST reblog the fanart of uni waving the palestinian flag. all the social commentary ive seen (yes im still taking the social commentary into account since the comic was described as such until my blog popped up) has come across as performative to anyone besides the clowns themselves, id love to see kneeby talk about issues that dont just apply to kit.

i know damn well the sparklecare blog is kits biggest platform, kit should use it to raise awareness, i dont care if the topic makes kit sad, it makes me sad too, but i still retweet as much shit about it as possible whenever it crosses my mind because i actually care about issues that dont involve just me and i actually want to do something to change the world. im a teenager and i do more to raise awareness than a group of adults.

im just a kid with opinions

[spaceshipkat]

How did you get into freelance work/what do you do? Sorry if you covered this already, I'm just thinking working for other people might be out of the question for me.. I have a job currently but it's contract work and is shaky at best.

hey, happy to answer! ive talked about it a little but its been an age since im so bad at answering asks these days. so i freelance as a book editor—developmental editing and copyediting are my two mains, though i also do a lot of query reviews

really how i started was as a critique partner, and i was 18 when i first became that. i did that for years while going to uni, and then after i graduated uni w my bachelor’s i started freelancing. thankfully i’d built up a solid resume of books i’d worked on (i think nearly everyone ive CPed for has gone on to sell their books to the big 5) so when i applied to the company i currently work for they could see my track record and know i know my shit. but even then, it took me a year or two to actually get a solid base of clients and build a big enough reputation that i get consistent work.

i like freelancing bc i really enjoy helping writers with their books and querying ambitions. ive been in the tradpub industry long enough that ive seen and learned a lot and can help people figure out the unspoken parts of it (hence why there’s so many posts under my “publishing industry” tag) (and i also know who to avoid, be they literary agents or tradpub editors). plus i don’t want to be an acquisitions editor (the ones who buy books to publish) and i don’t live in nyc (nor do i want to) (despite many publishers saying they’re open to remote they’re really not, imo they just say they are to look better) so freelancing is a good middle ground to do what i love to and actually help authors directly.

but the biggest downside imo to freelancing is the lack of benefits, and the state i live in reeeally doesn’t like freelancers for things like health insurance (especially when you don’t live alone, bc they like to pool an entire household’s income even if that’s not how the household works). i am still trying to get health insurance. it’s fucked.

so there’s good and bad sides, but if you’re into freelancing i’d definitely see if there’s any companies out there that collect (for lack of a better word) freelancers in whichever field you’re in. im lucky with my company bc they do the marketing, as it were, for their editors. clients come to you, rather than the other way around, and being part of a company lends more credence to an editor than if you had your own website, bc editors have to get vetted but anyone with a vague understanding of coding can make a serious enough website to attract writers despite not being a good editor a writer should hire.

[starjxsung]

brb lemme book a flight so i can come to the u.s and do your nails 🫡🛩️

also omg life update ig butttt ive always dwelled on the fact that im taking an extra year at uni so im there for 5 years instead of 4. when the winter sem ended i went back to the doc where i tracked the credits/coures and other program requirements i had done–and the way i was shocked and had to double check if i was correct with how i was tracking my uni progress cos after this summer sem of taking 3 courses is completed, i'll have 5 courses left of my uni career for the coming fall+winter sem.

so if all goes well then at the end of the winter 2025 sem, i would have completed all my uni degree course requirements so i can apply for graduation. i'll (hopefully) be a uni graduate next year!!

going back to the whole dwelling thing, i focused more on how long i had already been at the school and i was completely blind to the fact that i'm almost done. i was completely blind to the progress i was making, too focused on the past instead of the future ig

but like holy shit i didn't realize i was almost done my uni career and it blew my mind when i did that tracking and rechecked and realized that i really am almost done.

since that whole realization, i've been thinking of what i'm gonna be doing after i graduate and it's still a big ?? but i do know im not going to grad school or anything, my time at uni just further cements the fact that school and i don't mix, i can't sit down and study for hours on end, so going to grad school would just be a waste of time and money. at the same time it'll be the first time where i wont have that school routine of attending class and doing homework which has also got me wondering how my days are gonna look once ive graduated. so ive been thinking about adulting recently and its quite daunting and scary so i try to save those thoughts for when im in my therapy appointments.

but that's my little life update, 🌸 anon is gonna be a uni graduate soon!!!! ~🌸

UNI GRADUATE NEXT YEAR LET’S GOOOOOOOOO IM SO EXCITED OJ MY GODDDMDKDKDJDK

I took 5 years too because so many of my course requirements shifted around when covid hit and everything was virtual. But no shame in it!!!! It was def something I dwelled on when I first realized I was going to be taking a little longer to graduate but now I look back and I’m like whooo cares the important thing is that eventually I graduated ! Completely feel you on missing sight of the fact that you WILL be graduating eventually and you’re so close to it, too! You should be so so so proud of yourself and I’M so so so proud of you!!!!

post-uni life is veryyyyy scary when you first approach it, but it’s so refreshing at the same time. It’s such a good period of time to just learn about yourself and figure out what it is that you want from your life and from your degree. There’s so many opportunities you have with a fresh degree and so much more time to just have fun and meet people and embrace adulthood for the first time without the barrier of school. Definitely scope out what you can do with your degree but remember it’s also a great time to do things for yourself and be happy. Don’t forget you’re just a human being at the end of the day and we’re all trying to make it here ❤️

I love you! And I’m beyond proud of you!!!!! Go get em 🫶💓💘💕💗🩷👼

[emeritus-fuckers]

grahhh now i rlly am tempted to know which papa you would match me up with!!

im a femme leaning non-binary person who goes by they/he, i just identify as queer. physical appearance wise: im 5'6, curvy n chubby (which im definitely insecure about unfortunately). i definitely look like like i listen to metal and rock exclusively, i have a wolf cut with neon green face framing highlights, (basically just think bright green 'e girl' hair) while the rest of my hair is dark brown. i usually wear glasses as i am as blind as a bat!

i dress mostly grunge, aka band shirts, baggy jeans, leather jackets and whatever cute tops i can scrounge up at thrift stores; ive been told that i look intimidating to talk to lmao. my makeup i wear is, of course, also dark and heavy. i just realized as im writing this that i basically entirely based my style off of Nancy from The Craft LMAOOO, yeah just imagine her but a bit more curve + strips of green hair.

im 19 and currently studying biomedical sciences at uni, in my free time i love drawing and playing video games like elden ring, i also love a good horror or sci-fi flick!! if this wasnt obvious already, i love metal and rock, ghost (duh), type o negative and nine inch nails are my fav bands ever. im generally pretty extroverted but i can definitely enjoy some alone-time if i get overwhelmed, as i am on the spectrum and can go non-verbal at times. i love talking to people, my friends all basically use me as their shield whenever we're in crowded social situations where human interaction is immanent, as im pretty much the tallest and most intimidating looking given how i dress and carry myself.

id consider myself pretty funny and gentle, id literally die for my friends; if youre close to me, i basically treat you as family. given that i am a ghost and metal fan i of course, have daddy issues. womp womp. despite all that id consider myself an extremely positive person and im the mom of the group, always there if you need someone to talk to or if you need a problem resolved. wow this is a lot, thanks if you even read it!!

This post is a part of Match-up Event. The Event ended on July 15th.

Your match is Primo

He's really good at building your confidence. He'll always tell you how beautiful and amazing you are.

While he puts his paints on in the morning you often join him to put your makeup on.

You help each other out, he's an expert at applying black paint or eyeliner incredibly neatly. He struggles more now he's older but still its impressive.

He's very interested in your degree, although it's not his area of expertise he finds it fascinating.

He loves it when you draw outside and keep him company while he gardens. He'll sometimes grow plants into fun shapes or beautiful patterns for you to draw.

He's happy to read while you play video games, content in your company.

He'll sometimes join in and he's much better than you'd expect. After all he used to play with Terzo and Secondo when they were younger.

He apprecaites greatly the fact he can talk to you if he needs.

He's also there for you, you can talk to him anytime whenever about whatever, he's a very good listener.

He can tell when you are getting overwhelmed and he makes sure to take you somewhere calmer. If you want to be alone he'll leave you be, he'll normally just go in the next room so he's around if you need.

Or he's out in the garden and you know exactly where to find him. He'll have a fresh pot of tea brewed like he knew you'd be ready to come out at that exact time.

~

Written by Nyx.

[sentientgopro]

Hey y'all, not exactly active on here, especially when talking about myself, but I really need to get some shit off my chest right now. I had a couple realisations yesterday that culminated in some shit I never thought I would be saying or thinking.

I never thought I could be anything but straight. I liked women, so I mustve been straight. Im definately an advocate for everyone giving their gender true consideration, even when most will come out the other side cis, and confidently so, as did I.

Then I realised I didn't like women in the way most straight guys do. Afer clearing up some prior misconceptions about Aromanticism and asexuality, I realised those two labels fit me perfectly. But sometimes I wonder why I still feel a certain way about girls. There's just something about the way they look that's appealing to me, even if I dont find girls attractive...

Oh shit. That wasn't attraction. That was envy.

So that train of thought kind of went from 0 to 10 real fucking fast. This realisation brought to my attention feelings that Ive had for a good while, but have passed off as r/196 induced brainrot. Besides, and this is the biggest thing that stopped me realising this earlier, I dont feel that who I am now is wrong. I look in the mirror, and I see myself. But I've only recently kinda grasped the concept that being trans isn't all about dysphoria, having dysphoria is not always the way to tell. Although I dont think being a man is wrong, fucking hell, being a girl would be much better. And it feels so fucking weird actually typing that.

But what I'm saying is, atleast for the time being, I could manage to just not do anything. Which is for the better seeing as my parents would start screaming at me for saying anything remotely in the direction of being an ally. And I live on TERF Island. Transitioning would be an absolute pain in the ass, especially right now, so it kinda feels like why bother when the way I am doesnt really feel wrong. Transitioning could be quite dangerous and have big risks, it kinda just feels like I dont need that shit in my life, Im already running on fumes and a list of people I need to outlive. I usually hold a mindset of "if it ain't broke, don't fix it", but this usually applies to binary things, like if my team wins using the same strat a few times in a row in CS, "Do it again, ain't broke, don't fix", but this is not nearly as binary as that, this isn't a win/loss.

Something that is both comforting and a little concerning is that no matter what, there is atleast a 2 year hold on this. I should be able to go to uni after that and start living my own life, but as of right now, doing something like transitioning is NOT an option. Ive got a 2 year long planning phase and Ive kinda just been taking stock tbh. I don't think "that" period of my life hit too hard, Im still skinny (Yeah, ik skinny =/= feminine but its better than being buff imo) kinda fuckin tall, if my growth follows the same as my brother did which it is so far Im gonna be like 6'3 by the end of that 2 years (6'1 now) so thats probably gonna be more of a mild annoyance than a genuine problem. My voice varies ALOT, I can have a pretty damn low voice, and a bit of a higher pitch, it naturally varies, I normally find I talk in a higher pitch when I'm happier and lower when Im trying to appear more... normal? idk, theres probably somrthing to think about in that.

Honestly idk, theres no real end point to this, I just wanted to talk about this somewhere. As much as I never saw myself being in this position, I use r/196, play ULTRAKILL, and Study Computer Science and want to continue it as a career path, cmon, it was only ever a matter of time, this was inevitable.

[compassionatereminders]

hi ive been having a lil dilemma n I've been following u for a while n know u tend to give good n honest responses so I was wondering if I could ask u for advice. my bf is working to be a firefighter n applied to a bunch of fire rescue departments in our state n recently got called from a town 7 hours away from where we live n he asked me if I wanted to move in w him there. we've only been together for a year (about to reach 1 year in January) but I'm currently unemployed n have no car as I just graduated from uni in spring. i like the idea of leaving our city but I feel unprepared to leave so soon n everyone around me is telling me I'm going to feel alone since its far n irll likely just be me n him. I'm hoping later into the year I get a car n job but as of now I just don't want to be dependent on him if I go w him, but I also don't wanna feel I'm just following him just bc or are rushing things in our relationship, sorry its long thank u n hope u had a good day <3

It sounds like you already know what you want, and it's completely okay if you're not ready to suddenly uproot your entire life. If you're still together in 6 months or a year once you have the ability to be more independent, it's another story. But for now, I wouldn't do it

[anggrosaurus]

regrets

the last time i wrote something here was when i was only 21, just a month short of 22. now im 31, 7 months away from being 32😅.

from now on, im gonna copy all the notes ive written in my phone here so that i wont lose them. i hope that one day i can share these notes with, idk, my future self? my offspring, if there's any? somebody else? never mind, its not too important. but i wish that someone will know the existence of this blog other than myself. idk if its even necessary. but, now let me begin.

so the world today is not the one i've been hoping to see when i was 21. prabowo won and jokowi has turned out to be an asshole. kinda regretted supporting him for the past 2 previous elections but okay. at least prabowo wasnt our president back then. work sucks but i choose not to care. people suck but its been always like that everytime. life sucks but good things happen. feelings change, happiness come and go. im stuck but ill go.

im still a kpop fan but now ive turne to seventeen. im not married yet because im still afraid but sometimes i want to. i dont even know what i want. i dont want kids but i always curious if i can raise a good one. might as well going to umrah again to ask for a different thing. Allah has granted my wish to continue my master this year and He gave me 5 LoAs already. i abandoned my dream uni because im lazy but maybe Allah knows best. i tried istikharah and i dreamed of meeting BP Lisa. my office mate told me that it meant i need to go to oz instead of other places. so okay😂 sometimes the regret of abandoning still hits me. tonight it hits me again. i need to buy a new tws. im getting distracted all the time. gotta improve myself before school starts.

also shouldve worn braces since eons ago. should shed my weight since many years ago. i procrastinate too much sometimes i regret not doing things.

university students are doing mass protests in the US. kids from the ivies and other prestigious unis. idk if unimelb children are doing the same. kinda regret not pursuing columbia even though ive been wanting it since my avid exo fanfics reader era. i remember wanting to go there because i liked kim jaeseop aka ukiss aj so much back then. idk where he is now. also the Office Antics fanfic that i read idk which exo member graduated from columbia in the story. but i felt so heavily influenced. things were kinda difficult at the beginning of this year. had a hard time making decisions whether i should just go with unimelb or if i should apply for cornell and columbia as well.