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Edit of Eddie: pitifulbaby
Chapters: Masterlist (Go here to see list of chapters, plotline and general warnings.)
Pairing: Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader
Tropes: Enemies to Lovers, Non-Traditional Omegaverse, Slow burn, Modern!AU, Mechanic!Eddie
â ïž18+: sexual tension, slight drinking, pining, jealousy, reader being childish, smacking, smut
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A/N: It's been a while, but it is here and it's steamy as fuck boys.
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CHAPTER 18
âIâm not going to forget you mom.â
Your mother was looking at you with tear filled eyes as you packed your last bag into the trunk of your car. Leaving your hometown was not part of your plan of the year at all. You figured you would be cradling your baby in your arms by now, having your husband at your side lending you a hand and messing up while changing diapers, laughing at both of your clumsiness even if you had prepared yourselves for it with books.
âItâs just, youâre moving far away from me. I wonât be able to visit you at all⊠Why donât you reconsiderââ
âI have to leave! I canât stay here mom. Itâs tooââ You slammed the trunk shut as your hands went towards your eyes, covering them as a sob tried to rip out from your chest. You felt your motherâs arms wrap around you and pull you towards her chest. Her hand went to the back of your head as she made soft shushing noises to calm the turmoil of emotions that started to unravel inside of you.
âI know⊠I know baby girl. Itâs painfulâŠâ Your tears started to wet the palms of your hands as you felt yourself lean on her shoulder. Her left hand went to your back to rub you in soothing circles, letting you cry one last time. This really was not in your plans at all. After a minute she pulled away from you and you lowered your hands to show her a pouty lip and tear stained cheeks. âIâm a phone call away, you know that.â
âYeah, I know.â You sniffled as she took a deep breath in, a small smile appearing on her lips.
âBut I repeat, donât forget about me when you start dating.â You rolled your eyes with a sigh at that, shaking your head.
âIâm done with that. I donât think Iâll date for a while.â Was your response, making your mother sigh with a smile.
âWhatever you say, my little dove.â
âNghâŠâ
You whimpered as you started gaining consciousness, hearing the birds chirp, andâ You felt like you were ran over by a fucking truck. Everything hurts. Every limb and joint hurts, even your jaw feels tense and hard to move, but there is still a sense of relief. Satisfaction.
Oh you were comfortable, like flying on clouds even if everything hurts. The pain was nothing compared to how accomplished you felt, or how satiated your body, even if spent, felt. You could lay here all day, on this soft mattress, with these sheets that were warm around you, with the fluffy pillow underneath your head, with the arm that was wrapped around your waistâ
Hang on.
Your eyes snapped open and your first view of the day was Eddie Munsonâs sleeping face.
He was laying on his side, facing you, while you were facing him. Your heart started beating rapidly as the memories of last night began flipping in your head like a scrapbook, and the more you remembered, the more flustered you got.Â
You cannot even recognize who you were last night. You were completely feral, animalistic, not caring about anyone or anything but Eddie and the pleasure that he could bring you. Pleasure that you havenât felt in a while, or maybe ever. You remembered him rising you from the floor, eating you out like it was his sole purpose in life. How his cock filled you, and how good he was in fucking you disrespectfully.
Your embarrassment caught up with you as you remembered how you moaned his name, how you teared up from the pleasure, from how good he was making you feel and then how he talked dirty to you. Your face was in flames, and your belly turned with nervousness as the kisses started flashing in your mind. So many kisses and whispersâ
âYou take me so well PeachâŠâÂ
You cringed slightly, but not out of disgust or second hand embarrassment, but because it flustered you. It was making you feel things you didnât want to feel right now, like butterflies for example. You wanted to shoot those bastards down, because Eddie was just a friend, and you two were only curious about one another, thatâs all.Â
You licked your lips as you started to wiggle out of his embrace, moving backwards on the bed towards the edge. He groaned in his slip as his arm flopped to the bed once you got out of his reach. You stared at him for a while as you inspected his sleeping figure. He looked so peaceful like this, pretty even. His lashes were perfect, his stubble was neatly done, his hair was untied andâ
You have to stop. You canât keep looking at him with intentions of staying. What makes you think he wants you here when he wakes up? It was just a quick fuck the remaining hatred out kind of thing, thatâs all it was for crying outloud. You bit your bottom lip as you got out of the sheets and turned to finally sit on the edge and pull yourself off the bed andâ
âSHITââ Your legs gave up on you, making you fall back down on the bed, ass hitting the mattress, making it bounce and of course, Eddie was shaken awake.
âWhaâ Whatâ?â He was sleepy, his voice raspy and it made your body shiver with its tone. You panicked as you realized you were completely naked, top to bottom, growing way too self-conscious about your situation. You grabbed onto a very thin polar fleece black blanket that had pooled at both your feet, and you put it all over the front but your back was still bare to him.
Your breathing was quick as you felt the bed move, and you closed your eyes while your heart wanted to kill you at the moment from how fast it was beating, threatening to explode. What is gonna happen now? What is going to become of the two of you? Did you two just fuck up your entire friendship? Your relationship? You have to say something, you canât be shocked all day, sooner or later youâll have to face him and talk, better that be now.
You turned your head around to look at him, and your breath simply cut off at the sight of him. He sat on the bed, the sheet covering his bottom half, his entire chest on display, his hair down as he rubbed one of his eyes. Your gaze went downwards towards his happy trail that went below the sheet, covering the trail you still wanted to follow. You didnât notice his eyes were already open and looking at you, and a lazy smirk displayed on his lips.
âWow, donât make yourself too obvious, Peach.â You snapped out of your thoughts, your eyes going back towards his face. Embarrassment took over you and you whipped your head around again, trying to calm your breathing. It was already pathetic to be like this when he was this calm in front of you.
But unbeknownst to you, he wasnât in the slightest. He was good at hiding his emotions, afraid people could know or read him as easily as he could with others⊠just like he knows you are completely losing your shit right now.Â
âUm⊠I, uh⊠I fell.â What the fuck are you saying? Stupidity, thatâs what. You heard a rough chuckle from behind you and you didnât know how his eyes were looking at your naked back. He wanted to reach out and rub his hand all over it, and he clenched his jaw as he felt his dick twitch underneath the sheet. He can only imagine looking down at your back as he rails into you andâ he needs to stop.
âI could feel that. Too rough for you?â There was mocking behind his tone, which sparked a bit of anger inside you. You stood up from the bed, and his breath hitched when seeing your bare ass for just a second. He bit the inside of his cheek as you turned around and damn you looked so good right now. Your makeup was all smeared, your hair a mess, and his blanket draped over your front as you clung it close to your chest with both hands. You looked fucked, literally fucked.
âOh? As far as I remember, someone got a bit pussy drunk yesterday.â He threw his head back with a loud laugh, seeing his adamâs apple bobbing up and down at the motion, making your legs tremble more than what they are now thanks to the soreness. Shit, you are not sure if you can do more than two steps without tumbling over.
âExcuse me? Iâm pretty sure Gareth who lives three blocks away heard you moaning my name Peach.â Your face grew fifty times hotter, your cheeks burning entirely as he looked at you once again. You were gripping onto the blanket against you as if your life depended on it. Your belly was turning in nervousness as you looked for the following words.
âYou moaned my name too, you arenât all that innocent either!â
âI know I did. You think Iâm ashamed of that? It was good.â His eyes were looking at you with an intensity you havenât felt in a while, just like when Bilâ You shook your head from that thought and cleared your throat.
âIt was andâ and uhmââ You didnât know what you wanted. It wasâ He was the best you ever had, there was no lie in that. Better than those boys from school before Henry, better than Henry, better than your hookups and better than Billy⊠Butâ he was also part of the friend group. You two were in the same group of people and if something were to happen between the two of youâ things like jealousy or one being mad at the other and then itâs just going to be back as it was a year ago.
You didnât want to go back to that place. You didnât want to lose Eddie again.
And Eddie noticed it as you looked down at the floor. The thoughts, the doubt, and he could not believe you were thinking about this. You two spent one of the greatest nights, and he knows you enjoyed as much as he did. He knows youâve never experienced what you have with him, just as he experienced something completely new with you and his fists were clenching the sheets underneath him, feeling anger rising in his chest.
Your mind was trying to come up with the words but if you said you didnât want to do this ever again, you would be lying. If you said you didnât want to feel him again it would also be a lie. If you said you didnât want to feel him inside of you, it would be a terrible horrible lie, the worst of them all because you never felt like that in your life.
But you wouldnât lie if you said you are afraid of what this might do to your friendship if it were to keep going. What might do to all the improvement you two did the past six months. What might happen in between the entire group of friends you have if it were to all fall apart. What if they took sides? What if you two broke the entire group apart, even between eachother, because of some fun?
âI swear to god, Peachââ He began, already knowing you had come to a resolve. An answer that only angers him terribly knowing you felt as great as he did the night before. That you enjoyed doing to him the things you did just as much as he enjoyed eating you out like he never did before to any other woman in his life.
âWe really shouldnâtâŠâ You began, not daring to look at him. You wanted to stop talking, to jump on the bed and into his arms, kiss him again, fuck him, ride him like last night already even if you were sore all over, muscles in pain, but he justâ
âAre you serious? After how we went at eachother last night? Youâre telling me you donât want to do this again?â His eyebrows were meeting in the middle, not even hiding the anger behind them. Your cheeks burnt once more as you cleared your throat, your eyes finding his again, your stomach flipping at the intensity of his gaze.
âI justâ What happens if something goes⊠wrong? I meanââ You bit your bottom lip, looking for the right words as you looked at him. â-- I donât want us to go back to where we were a year ago.â
He realized now with what you were conflicted about, and in all honesty, he never thought of it that way. He had thought of the consequences of fucking you and what could happen if you two fall apart because of it. With the two of you and with the group⊠But after last night, there is no way in fucking hell he cares for all of that now.Â
âWhy would something go wrong? What do you exactly mean by âwrongâ?â He was still looking at your entire figure, and it was rendering you stupid again. Your breathing quickened at how much you felt him burn you with his gaze. Scanning you like a predator, waiting to pounce at any given opportunity.
âIââ It was embarrassing. What if he thought you had feelings for him? Like, romantic feelings. More than simple attraction⊠maybeâ â-- What if one becomes possessive of the other? Like, it can happen. What if you see me with another person and you donât like that? It would justââÂ
And his fists clenched against the sheets as you mentioned that part. He knew where you were going with it, and he wasnât very keen on the idea of sharing you, but it wasnât unbearable. If sharing you was his only way of having you, then he would take it. He wondered thoughâ
âAnd what about you seeing me with another woman?â He raised an eyebrow at you, and you looked at him with a dumbfounded face.
âHuh?â
âAs far as I remember you were absolutely jealous last night.â You scoffed at his words, anger boiling as denial settled in your gut. You? What? Your arms left your chest in fury as you burnt all over.
âJealous!? Me!? I wasnât!â And you saw how his eyes traveled downwards, his head cocking to the side as he scanned you. You squinted at him, opening your mouth ready to cuss at him, wondering what the hell this man was looking at you, only to feel a breeze brush on yourâ
Your eyes widened as you snapped your head to look down and you gasped, yelping loudly as you bent down to grab the blanket again. You let it fall and he saw your naked body, in the full-on daylight that was coming through the curtains. Are you dumb!? Your hands grabbed onto the fabric and you stood up quickly, covering yourself only to look up to see a pair of eyes staring down at you.
And you didnât know how fast he had been, because he was towering over you, standing.
He had quickly crawled to the edge of the bed and stood up before you the moment you picked up the blanket from the floor. Your eyes were wide, staring up at him with bewilderment in them, your heartbeat banging in your ears, threatening to pop your eardrum off. His eyes were hungry, his jaw was clenched, andâ You didnât dare to look down at him. You didnât dare to look at the thing that had filled you to the brim the night before because if you did, you didnât know what you would do.
âThen, what is your final answer Peach? We done here? One time thing, thatâs it?â You didnât know what you expected, but not this. He was asking if this was the last time, not really convincing you to say otherwise. Did you want to be convinced to let this continue? What were you expecting from him?
âIââ Your mouth went dry, not knowing what to respond, but your mind knew exactly what it needed to be said. This, even if your body craves it once more, you cannot allow it. He shouldnât either. You had to tell him that it was done but your eyes drifted to his lips at the same time he did to yours.Â
Will you be able to hold back from kissing him, knowing just how good it felt to do so? Will you be able to not look at him the way you have been doing for the past month? Will you be able to not think about how he fucked you speechless on those lonely nights of yours? You donât know⊠You donât want to know butâ
âIâll respect it. Iâll back off.â No. You donât want him to back off. You donât want him to stop, you donât want to stop this, but you canât let it happen. The group could be involved, the relationship you so craved of him would be destroyed if something were to happen. You closed your eyes as you swallowed harshly, to then look up at his eyes once more.
âIt was just this one time⊠We were curious, and itâsâ itâs done.â
You two stared one another down for a few seconds, and it was as if the both of you were expecting someone to break first. For one of you to grab the otherâs face and kiss them stupid. You could feel his hot breath all over your face, even if he wasnât that close. Thatâs just how hard he was breathing.
His jaw clenched once and then you saw him take a step away from you, turning and grabbing his boxers from the floor. You wanted to look. You really did but you couldnât. You fucking couldnât, so you turned your head the other way as you clutched the blanket to your chest. He put his boxers on and then stretched his back, looking at you once more.
âWell, then thereâs that Peach. Weâll go back to how we were before all this⊠or well, try.â You were puzzled by those words, looking at him as you felt your heart clench in your chest.
âTry?âÂ
âWell yes. Give me a little bit of time to forget about your tits and pussy, hard to look at your face when I have that in my head.â He was so fucking bold for saying this, making your face just flare up, and you looked away for him not to notice. You swallowed a lump of, you donât even know what, as you stared at his dresser to keep your mind occupied.
âI see.â You didnât know what to say. He wants to forget about last night and thatâs what you wanted right? So why does it hurt your fucking ego? Why does it make your heart clench? It shouldnât.
âRight. Okay. Well, Iâll let you put your clothes back on and you can go home.â And you snapped your head to look at him only to see him walking out after grabbing his shirt and pants, closing the door behind him. Your mouth fell open in disbelief and you slowly sat down on the bed once again.
What was that? Why did he agree so easily? But you wanted that? What the fuck is wrong with you? Why do you feel like this? Why do you feel like you lost? Like you are making the wrong decision? It was just sex for fuck sake! Thereâs probably someone out there with Eddieâs sameâ same damn cock size! Andâ someone who can fuck you the way he did⊠someone who ate you out the way he didâ
âAsshole.â You muttered through your teeth, not noticing you were showing them towards the door, a glare in your eyes. Fine, he wants to forget that night. He wants to forget you and your body. Perfectly fine, youâll do the same. Youâll do the exact same, because this is how it should be. You made the right decision.
You did.
Youâre enraged.
He really did not talk to you for the whole fucking week. You were basically back to how you two were a year ago, and you were hating it. You've gotten so used to talking to him everyday, sending funny memes to eachother, and just having fun, and now, itâs nonexistent.
But you sort of understood now what he meant about trying to forget⊠that. You understood because you can hardly stop thinking about it. You can hardly stop doubting yourself if your decision was the right one, debating the pros and cons about the situation. Of course the cons always won, it had to do with your friendship with him and the group, while the pros were⊠the pro was you could fuck him whenever you wanted.
You wanted to message him many times, but your dignity always won over as well as your respect for him to move away from you a bit to gather his thoughts once again. But fuck, you tried masturbating last night with the dildo you owned andâ it just doesnât satisfy you the way his cock did. You were enraged because Eddie Munson had ruined you for everyone else, or at least until you found someone that matches him in size and performance.
Robin doesnât know and she will never know, and you hoped Eddie didnât tell Steve. That was the last conversation you two had when you left his house, to keep this a secret. You couldnât even accept his offer of him driving you home, preferring to just order a car to take you. You were awkward and nervous and you probably looked completely stupid, but can you be blamed?
You fucked your friend! You fucked someone you never thought you would fuck in your entire life! And you liked itâ No, loved it and you wanted to do it again and again and again, but it just cannot be. You were also mad at yourself for wanting to do this again, despite knowing it was wrong. You hated that your body was already craving him desperately, wanting to feel him against you again, kiss you, fill you up and just turn you into a mess.
You wondered if Robin would kill you for it. She would probably be surprised and ask for details. You really need to stop thinking of him because tonight would be the first night you see him after literally riding him into oblivion and you have to pretend nothing ever happened between the two of you so your friends wouldnât suspect anything at all.
How the fuck were you supposed to act normal?
Your doorbell rang and you looked at yourself in your full sized mirror again. A black simple strap dress with a black leather jacket on top. Hair done, makeup done, and some low heels. It was good enough and the air was starting to become warmer so, you were absolutely fine with a dress.Â
You took a deep breath in and walked towards the door, opening it to reveal Steve, Robin and Jonathan holding their drinks up. You smiled, feeling the nerves invade your belly knowing he could come at any minute. The group decided to go out this saturday for Argyleâs birthday. He didnât want to celebrate his birthday but you all invited Eden this time so he gratefully said yes.Â
He decided on the club all of you were gonna go, and you could already guess it was going to be something different from the usual. Your eyes followed Steve as he entered the house with his boyfriend and roommate and you bit your bottom lip as your heart hammered in your chest. What if Eddie did tell him? Would he tell everyone?
You closed the door and you waited but no questions were asked and you didnât notice Steve looking at you differently in any way. Same with Jonathan and thankfully Robin as well. He didnât talk, which was good.Â
âSoâŠâ Robin began and your blood went cold. Jonathan and Steve smirked at one another andâ fuck, did they know? Did Eddie talk? Youâre gonna kill him, youâre gonna fucking murder him. âYou were glowing this week at work.â
âHuh?â You asked, trying to act innocent, trying to act like your blood didnât just run cold in your veins just now.
âRobin told me you looked refreshed. What happened when we left Eddieâs house, hmm?â Steve asked and you felt like your breathing was cutting off. You had to lie, you had to make up a lie, anything.
âNothing happened?â You busied yourself as you all stood in the kitchen, opening up the six packs of beer and putting them inside your fridge. Jonathan leaned on the wall next to it, arms crossed as he looked at you.
âOh, something did happen.â Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Lie, you have to lie.
âOkay, fine⊠Somethingâ happened.â You mumbled and you heard Robin gasp, and you turned around to see Robin covering her mouth and then Steveâs eyes were about to bulge out of its sockets.
âWith Eddie?â His voice seemed strained, almost angry through the shock. You winced and frowned, shaking your head.
âWhat? No! He hooked me up withâ with his friend Jeff!âÂ
Silence in the room. You gulped slowly as you looked at them, and then locked eyes with Robin. She was tilting her head in complete confusion as she stared at you. Her gaze fell on Steve who looked back at her and then you saw him sigh in relief.
Your shoulders fell down as you realized that it was indeed the right decision not to continue being friends with benefits with Eddie. By the looks of your friends, and especially Steve, you could see the fear behind the eyes. There was no happiness about it, or overall excitement for the two of you, just plain worry. Yeah, it was the better choice after all.
âYou never told me you liked Jeff?â Robin looked at you once again and you shrugged, opening a beer for yourself.
âHe looked nice that night and when you guys left he picked me up from Eddieâs and we went to a motel because he lives with Gareth.â You hoped they were buying your story because you would die if they didnât.
âAnd?â Jonathan asked, holding onto your shoulder with a smirk on his face and you cleared your throat, took a sip of your beer and opened your mouth only for the doorbell to ring again and your heart stopped.
âIâll get it! I want details so donât start without me!â Robin yelled as she walked out of the kitchen and your blood drained your face. No, you cannot be this unlucky. You gulped as you took a bigger sip of your can and Steve was next to you, and if you squinted you could almost see a tail wag behind him.
âYou never said anything! Like if it were someone random I donât care, but Jeff? We know Jeff!â You rolled your eyes at him as you shook your head, feeling the nerves in your belly grow tenfold as you heard the door opening. You had to get out of this situation and fast.
âI would prefer to keep it to myself, I mean, like you said, it is someone you guys knowââ And Jonathan rolled his eyes at you grabbing the rum and coke to start preparing his drink on your kitchen island.
âOh please, just tell us if he was good and all that stuff.â You should have mentioned someone random from the party, someone they didnât know. Thatâs why theyâre fucking curious about it and you dug your own hole. You wanted to run away and not deal with this but then Robin marched back in with a smile to her face, Nancy holding her hand, Argyle, Eden andâ
Fuck. He put his hair in a half ponytail just like you did that one time for him.
He was wearing a black button up linen shirt, open buttons at the top revealing his thin silver necklace. He was also wearing some worn out black colored pants, or jeans, you didnât know, but fuck he looked good. Warm weather Eddie was going to fuck you over wasnât he?
âOkay, continue!â Robin yelled as she sat on one of the stools, elbows on the counter and her chin on her hands with a smile on her face. Eddieâs eyes found yours andâ shivers went down your spine as a flash of that night came to your mind. Him on top of you, moaning, thrusting in and out of you and youâ
âContinue what?â Nancy snapped you out of your thoughts, making you look at her. Everyone was now waiting for you to continue and when you stuttered, not daring to look at Eddie, Jonathan talked for you.
âRobin said that since Eddieâs party, sheââ and he made a nod at you making you winceâ--has been in a special mood at work and now we found out why.â He wiggled his eyebrows at her and Nancy gasped, covering her mouth and her head snapped towards Eddie. His eyes were wide as he looked at you, a look that only asked one thing of you. âDid you tell them?â
Your mouth opened and closed as you looked at him and Argyle was looking in between the two of you while elbowing Eden to the side. You wanted to talk but Eddie was looking at you with anger or with confusion, you couldnât really tell, but maybe it was both. You stuttered a bit but Steve was the one who interrupted this time, and you wanted the earth to swallow you whole.
âShe just told us Jeff came to pick her up that night after we left.â He chuckled and looked at you while your eyes snapped to the wall on your side, not wanting to look at Eddie anymore. Your whole body and face was on fire as you wondered what his reaction was right now.
âJeffâŠâ By the sound of his voice he was starting to connect the dots together, and a dry chuckle escaped him, making you frown and turn your head to look back at him. âYeah. Didnât know he was that good, Peach. Special mood?âÂ
He was acting cocky now. A defiant look in his eyes and it reminded you of the Eddie of a year ago. Same look, same hateful gaze, arrogant, infuriating, making you want to walk over to him and strangle him until he couldnât breathe anymore.Â
But it was still enough to send shivers down your spine, making you move a bit in your place.
âIt wasnât that good.â Was your short reply, biting the inside of your left cheek and you just now noticed that she had been preparing drinks for everyone.
ïżœïżœïżœReally?â Robin asked while looking at you as she took a sip of her drink. Your mouth opened to answer only for the motherfucker to interrupt you once again, while walking towards you, his hand reaching next to you to open the fridge and take a beer out.
âHmm, is that why Jeff agreed that it was a one time thing? Maybe the one that wasnât goodâŠâ and he looked at you, glares being exchanged, your heart beating into your chest as you looked at him and you saw his nostrils flare slightly as he continued, â-- was you, little Peach.âÂ
He slammed the door closed and you hissed at him, the sound startling you, but your anger was rising up, not being able to stop it as you fully faced him. Who does he think he is? Why does he feel that fucking entitled to treat you like this again?
âSlam my fridge one more fucking time Munson.â He cocked his head at you and Steveâs smile fell, immediately stepping in between you two, making you take a step back as well as Eddie, your eyes never leaving his, as he glared down at you.
âOkay, letâs not get too personal hereâŠâ Your breathing was deep, face burning with anger now, not knowing how to feel about this whole situation. Why was he acting so badly? He was the one who didnât want to speak to you for a whole week, and he comes to your house and acts like a child?
âI was just protecting my friend Harrington. Thatâs all.â Eddie responded and took a sip of his beer before turning away from you. Your heart clenched at that, not really knowing why. You wanted to do something but you were not quite sure what. Just do something to him. But what?
You sighed as you looked at Robin who was looking back and forth to you and Eddie, while the other gave you one last look before turning to go to the living room, or to your balcony. You know Robin is worried, and you are too. Your heart clenched once more, feeling a pang of anxiety in the pit of your stomach.
All you wanted was to avoid this treatment. You wanted to avoid going back to the old ways Eddie and you treated eachother, yet you are still back into it. It was wrong to sleep with him. It was so wrong because now your friendship might be over thanks to ego, to pride, and you felt like crying.Â
God, you knew he had become a close friend, almost a best friend you could say, and now realizing you fucked it all up for one night just made you want to hit yourself in the face. You wondered if he had the same thoughts or worries in his head. If he also didnât like this situation at all.
But even with all these feelings, as you walked out with everyone else from the kitchen, and you looked towards the balcony, you couldnât help but look at his broad back as smoke left his mouth while looking at his phoneâ
Wait, why is he looking at his phone? Is heâ Nope, you are not doing this. You are not. You are going to pretend the knot in your stomach is not there, because, why the fuck would you care if Eddie was talking to someone? He can! He is free to do so, and maybe one of his hookups will be at the club you were all gonna go and he was just securing a fucking pussy. Yes, and he has all the right.
Yet, you couldnât help but rush towards your table to grab your cellphone and turn away so no one could peek at your phone. You opened Instagram and saw Eddie had posted a story, right before he arrived. Your heart beat wildly in your chest and your finger clicked on his picture, only for the story to pop up andâ
You let out a sigh of relief, very quietly, as you saw it was a goofy picture of him, Nancy, Argyle, and Eden in the mirror of your elevator. Wait, why are you relieved? If he wanted to post a shirtless picture on the mirror he could. It would probably score him some girl tonight for him to fuck, and he has all the right to do so because he wanted to forget about your body. And, did he say you werenât good?
He fucking did. Anger bubbled up in your chest and you turned to see him in the balcony still, and you saw everyone else minding their own business, so you walked towards the sliding doors and stepped out, closing them behind you. Eddie looked over his shoulder and a dry huff escaped him before putting the cigarette on his lips again and taking a big puff.
âSo, Jeff, huh.â He mumbled as he let the smoke out and your eyebrow twitched as you walked closer, standing next to him.
âYou wanted me to tell the truth? I didnât know Robin had been talking behind my back about how Iââ Oh you chose your words wrong. A smirk broke on his lips, turning to face you with a piercing gaze, making you straighten up in your place.
âHow youâŠ? How you were glowing the whole week as Steve said? Or probably how satisfied you looked after riding my dick?â You gasped at how straightforward he was being. Didnât he need the space to forget any kind of thoughts regarding that night? Thoughts about you? You cleared your throat and looked away, into the horizon, avoiding his eyes completely.
âDonât give yourself so much credit. I bet you were also in a fucking great mood this week, letâs not forget how âI took you so well.ââ You heard a groan from him and you turned your head to look at him with a frown and he was looking at you with those sharp eyes, jaw clenched and his free hand clenching onto the rail of the balcony.
âNow it is you who is giving herself way too much fucking credit.â
âIâm literally treating you the same way you are treating me. I didnât know you would become a fucking asshole again after I said no!â You tried to keep your voice low, but high enough for him to know you were angry. He scoffed and shook his head, taking another puff of his cigarette before he continued talking.
âDonât you fucking remember? I can read people like the back of my hand, and that is why Iâm so goddamned angry at you.â Your mouth fell open as your body burnt from⊠anger? You didnât know anymore. You just felt restless, and you felt like he could see right through you at the moment. Could he see how there is a part of you that regrets telling him no? That you want to kiss him again? That you want to feel him again? Can he see all of that?
âStop with that bullshit Eddie. Did I crush your fucking ego? Is that the issue here?â You scoffed and you saw him clench his jaw as he straightened up, chuckling under his breath. There was tension between you, both are hunters ready to pounce, thereâs no small and defenseless prey here. Youâre both baring your teeth out at eachother to see who breaks first.
âYouâre really up on that stupid high horse, arenât you Peach?â His voice was rough, trying his best to probably sound cruel, but all you wanted was to pull him to your lips. You really need to fucking stop. âYou started the insult, and I finished it.â
âI didnât start shit! You made fun of my lieââ
âYou know what, letâs justââ He closed his eyes for a second and took a deep breath to then exhale, looking down at you. â-- letâs just move on from this. You slept with Jeff last saturday, thatâs the lie, letâs stick to it.â
âYes, and he had a good time with me as well, even if he wants to fucking deny it just because I donât want to do it again.â He was containing his own anger inside and you know it. He bit his bottom lip as he gave small nods while his nose flared up. He was pissed. Absolutely pissed. You were being a fucking hypocrite, and a liar.
âBelieve what you want. In the end, you seem to be the one who looked refreshed this week.â You frowned at that, crossing your arms over your chest.
âOh, and you didnât?â
âNope. I actually wasnât refreshed. Hopefully, I can change that tonight.â You frowned in confusion as you turned to look at how he put out his cigarette on the ashtray. What did he mean? You felt nervousness as he looked at you one more time. Without saying another word he opened the sliding door and stepped inside. You stood there, processing what had just happened, wondering what he truly meant.Â
Was he going to try to make a move on you tonight? The tension is there, the bantering is there and you should be disgusted or afraid of him making a move but why do you feel⊠elated? You feel happy or giddy from knowing that he is angry yet he might come onto you again.
Should you put condoms in your bag? Maybe, it doesnât really hurt, butâ no, no. You are not fucking him again. This is final. The group reacted badly when they suspected it was Eddie, which he was, but then they sighed with relief when they âknewâ it wasnât. You sighed yourself as you held onto the rail and looked out into the city.
This really wasnât supposed to be like this, but you canât deny you are attracted to Eddie. More than any hookup you had before. Itâs like you tried him once and it was enough to make you addicted. Nobody made you feel that way⊠well⊠exceptâ
No time to think about that. No time to think about anything. You have to go back to being friends with Eddie. You canât be salty or angry at one another because this little adventure happened between the two of you. You donât want to lose Eddie, and you were trying to avoid it, but in the end, it didnât matter, because it feels like you are losing him either way.
So you took a deep breath in and walked back into the living room, not wanting to look Eddieâs way but it was like you were magnetized to him. You tried focusing on getting to know Eden, and she was really cool, very Argyle in all the good sense. She was the perfect match for him, and her alternative clothes were a contrast to Argyleâs vibrant ones. It was cute.
You were on your second beer now, minutes had passed, almost an hour, and you didnât want to drink anymore. Eddie has not been interacting or looking your way, and you are restless for some reason. Didnât he sayâ No, if he does try something the answer is no.Â
Even when you two were left alone in the kitchen for a whole minute, you didnât share any words as you cleaned up to finally go to the club. You kept glancing at him, but he pretended you were non existent. Your heart ached at how he was treating you because before anything happened he was your friend first, and now you also lost that.
You opened your mouth to talk to him, tell him you didnât mean what you said, just something for him to finally talk to you the way he always did, but you were interrupted when Jonathan came into the kitchen.
âWelp, you guys ready?â He was sober, being the designated driver this time. Eddie only drank one beer and he stopped because he was going to take the people that came with him home as well. You nodded as you closed the trash bag and walked out the kitchen.Â
âIs everything okay between you and Eddie?â Robin asked worriedly. You didnât really know what to tell her. Everyone for sure noticed the cold shoulders between the both of you, or how you talked to one another before. They werenât blind, nor deaf.
âUm weâ It seems that my comment towards Jeff didnât sit right with him. And then he insulted me back soââ
âBut I saw you two talking outside?â She asked with a small slur on her tongue. You sighed and rubbed her shoulder.
âYeah, I am not saying sorry and he isnât either.â Robin rolled her eyes at the two of you, knowing how childish that sounded.
âSo, is everyone ready to go celebrate the great Argyleâs birthday?â Steve said a little too loud and you smiled weakly at his state of drunkenness. You heard Eddie laugh at him and your stomach flipped at the sound. This stupid crush towards your friend should be gone by now. It should, you already killed that curiosity, you know how it feels, you know how he does, it should be done.
âLetâs go amigos! Youâre gonna like this club!â Eden cheered at her boyfriend as you remembered your purse, walking to your room to get it. This was going to be an outing with friends, so you should act like it. You will try to do some innocent talk with Eddie, maybe things flow naturally between the two of you again if you try.
Maybe.
Or maybe fucking not.
He is avoiding you like the plague. Argyle brought you all to a club that plays Latin music mostly, so it was easy for all of you to just stand around a table, drinking as you talked, laughing when Argyle did a shot of Jagermeister and almost spit it out, but his girlfriend took it like a champ.Â
Steve and Robin were drunk, as always. Jonathan was sober trying to fix Steveâs hair while the other tried kissing his boyfriend, and Nancy was giddy, just hugging Robin from behind, and then Eddie⊠Eddie and you were sober. He was across from you, when a week ago he probably preferred to stand next to you, knowing the two of you were the single people in the group. You both shared that in common, and now you are separated while the couples around you were all over eachother.
You wanted to go dance, to distract yourself from it all, but no one was making any moves to do so. You turned around to look into the dancefloor, and the women were dancing sensually, exotic even, and then, a dark haired girl walked in front of you, her dress glistening from the lights in the club. You were mesmerized by her, not even hiding the fact you were looking at her, but she noticed, looking back at you.
She was really beautiful, and then she winked at you while walking away. Oh⊠That should have gotten you to make a move. To go after her, butâ Fuck, why donât you feel like going after her? You sighed, turning around to take a small sip of your glass of water only to find a pair of eyes, digging into your skull.
He was glaring your way, and you wondered if it was his ego once more. You got flirted at and he hadnât. Thatâs all it was. You rolled your eyes at him and grabbed your glass, turning back around to avoid looking at him again. You felt your heart accelerating as you tried to think of ways to not think about him at all.
But the more you pondered, the more you realized that you didnât go after that girl becauseâ Fuck, you canât, you canât want him! Itâs wrong, itâs wrong, itâs wrong. The two beers you had probably were enough to make you this stupid. You had to go dance with someone, or get away from Eddie, but you didnât have to. Eddie was heading to the dancefloor with Steve and Argyle, the two drunks. You only guessed he was going as a chaperone for them.
But what if someoneâ
You looked at Eden and smiled, nodding towards the dancefloor to join the boys. She smiled back at you, linked her arm around yours, and dragged you to the middle where the guys were. You just wanted to dance, thatâs the whole reason you came to dance with them. Steve immediately grabbed you and twirled you around, making you giggle at how he almost stepped all over your feet.
âI donât know how to dance any of this shit, but I sure as hell will try!â You heard him yell and you shook your head at him, only to then be pushed on your back, making you stumble over. You gasped and tried to grab onto anyone. A pair of arms wrapped around you before you tumbled to the floor, and your face was pressed to a chest, the leather like cologne filling your nostrils, making your heart thump faster.
âWatch the fuck out!â You heard Eddie yell over the music, and then you felt as if he shoved someone. You wanted to remain here, in his arms, and thenâ memories of that night started coming to your mind. You felt yourself burning all over, and particularly downwards. FuckâÂ
âGod, there was enough space for him to go through!â You heard Eden complain and then you were being pushed away, gently, the arms unwrapping from your body. You looked up to see those brown irises looking back at you, reminding you of that time where he supposedly hated you, yet still defended you from an asshole.
You donât want this to be like that time, where he felt obligated to act heroic. He didnât hate you now, did he? Itâs just a rough patch in your relationship and you have to get over it. His hand squeezed your right shoulder and you felt shivers running down your entire spine.
âYou alright?â His voice was loud but he wasnât screaming. You gulped and nodded, feeling cold when the hand retracted. How long will it have to be for you to at least feel Eddieâs embrace again? A hug. Anything⊠butâ
âThanksâŠâ You muttered under your breath. He gave a single nod, looking back at Argyle who was now trying to twerk to a song, and all you could do is stare at his side profile.Â
Stop. Stop. Stop. You canât fuck him again.
He said you were jealous, and you werenât! You were curious only! You just wanted to know if he kept hookups as friends later on. Was that so bad? Was it bad to be curious about what a friend does in their life? In their relationships? No, it isnât. You know everything about Robin, and you just wanted to have the same level of knowledge on Eddie.
You werenât fucking jealous. You didnât like him that way even, it was just attraction, so how could you be jealous over someone you just like physically?
âIâm off to get water.â You heard him talk, and you saw him walk away, and now you didnât want to dance anymore. You bit your bottom lip as you stared at him until he got lost in the crowd. You wanted to follow him and talk to him, but you couldnât. Maybe tomorrow, because right now it is for certain he doesnât want to talk to you at all.Â
âCâmon brochacha, dance with me! Iâm the birthday boy!â You giggled at Argyle and he was right. You werenât enjoying your friendâs birthday because of these stupid thoughts. Because of Eddie. You tried to calm your heart and dance with him, laughing when he tried to show you and Steve how to dance this music, and Steve just failed miserably.
You were laughing, songs passing and your worries started to leave your mind. Jonathan, Robin and Nancy joined after, but no sign of Eddie. It didnât matter, because you were laughing as you were twirled around by Nancy. The music was not something the lot of you listened daily, but at least they were very well known songs.
Your bladder suddenly yelled at you for release. You have been holding it in for thirty minutes already, and you had to rush to the bathroom. You leaned over to Eden to yell to her over the music and into her ear so she could hear you.
âWhereâs the bathroom!?â
âNext to the left side of the bar!â You nodded and gave her a thumbs up. You told everyone you were going to the bathroom and you started swimming through the sea of people. You avoided a few men that tried grabbing your hand in order to dance with you, rolling your eyes at the insistence. You finally stepped out of the dancefloor and saw the bathroom sign over the entrance of a hallway, but as you walked towards it, your head turned to the left only for your face to completely fall.
Eddie was leaning against the bar counter, smiling down at a girl. Both of them with drinks in their hands. Didnât he say he was getting water? When did that change to alcohol? And how did he get to flirt with a girl this quickly? Your mouth was dry as you felt your belly turning, feeling your ego being crushed for some fucking reason.Â
You turned and walked down the hallway, your knees feeling like jelly. You rushed to get inside the ladyâs room and into a stall. You could hear all the girls talk but all you could think about was Eddieâs flirtatious smile towards this stranger. You should feel happy for him, like, good for him for getting some.
You relieved yourself, knees hurting from having to hold yourself up from not touching the toilet seat, and you walked to wash your hands, looking at your reflection as foam appeared on your palms. Your heart was hammering in your chest, and whyâ why are you thinking like this?
You feel sick. Maybe you are sick. You felt like you wanted to puke, your stomach was turning and your throat was closing up on you. Everything was spinning and you felt dizzy, and angry, and like your dignity was fucking squashed into the floor. At least he shouldnât flirt with her in your face? You didnât flirt with that girl before, and he is justâ
What the fuck are you thinking? He is nothing to you and you are nothing to him, so why are you thinking like this? You really do feel sick donât you? You need to go home, but everyone wants to stay most likely, so who on earth can take you home? Maybe just order a car?
Meanwhile, Eddie was outside, in the bar, having the most boring conversation there is with a girl that started talking to him out of nowhere. He was really going to get water, but maybe this was a good opportunity to try to go back to who he was before having a taste of you.
She wasnât exactly his type, but she was very pretty. She just seemed the typical airhead who laughs at whatever he says for his attention, the hand trick on his arm, the lip biting. Nothing like you flirted with him. It was subtle and you didnât even know you were doing it, thinking it was simple bantering.
Thatâs what it was at first, and now you two are back to how you were months ago. He didnât want to treat you the way he did, but he was angry. He knew you wanted him as much as he wanted you, and he understood you. He really did understand your point of view, and why you were so afraid, but fuck did he want you again. He knows the woman in front of him wonât satisfy him, but if he isnât going to be able to have you, then he should just refresh his contact list.Â
âAnd then, we just like, drank a whole keg and it was insane.â Her voice was nasal, and her topic of conversation revolved around her solely. He faked a smirk, and he was already told that Argyle and Eden were heading to a motel after this. He didnât need to know, but that leaves him with no passengers because he knows Nancy is leaving with Robin. So⊠he can easily take this girl back to his place.
He has to start trying to not think about your body because thatâs all he did this past week. Seeing you tonight, in that dress, just made him want to grab you and take you to your room and just bend you over on all fours on your desk and rail into you, over and over again. Make you scream the way you did a week ago. But he canât do that.Â
So, taking this girl back to his place is. He opened his mouth to talk to her only to be interrupted by a tap on his shoulder. He turned his head, frowning in surprise as he saw you standing next to him. You were nervous, and you were a bit shaky from what he could see. He felt his stomach do a stupid twirl, and he wondered if something happened to you.
âHi, sorry to interrupt umâ Iâ I feel sickâŠâ Now he was confused. His head tilted to the side in question, an eyebrow rising as he looked at you. You felt sick?
âUm⊠Alright Peach, go tell Jonathan.â Eddie was trying to understand why you were interrupting him, but he didnât have to wonder for long.
âYou promised me you were my ride tonight⊠Plus they donât seem like they want to goâŠâ Oh. Oh you were a fucking bitch. He didnât make such a promise and you knew it. You saw him flirting with someone else, and just like he predicted, you became jealous, to the point of interrupting him.Â
âRight. You feel sick and you want to leave now, is that correct?â Your jaw clenched while looking up at him with those glossy eyes of yours. You slowly nodded at him and he had to gather his thoughts for a second, his heart thumping in his chest in excitement. He didnât plan this at all, he really was going to respect your choice even if you were lying and he didnât like it either.
âAww, but I was having fun.â The girl in front of him pouted and fuck, he already forgot her name. The adrenaline of leaving with you overtaking him completely, excited to feel you around him again, hopeful to feel you cum around his cock and yell his name like seven days ago.
âIâm sorry baby, but I did promise her I was her ride for tonight.â He side-eyed you for a moment, and you were fiddling with your fingers while looking away. He wondered what you were thinking right now.Â
âCan I at least have your instagram? Snapchat?â His eyes turned to look at the girl in front of him again, and he chuckled, shaking his head.
âSorry, I donât own social media.â And before she could ask for his number, his arm wrapped around your shoulders, turning you towards the entrance of the club, making sure you didnât bump into anyone. He felt you tense up under his touch, or shiver, but it filled him with pride knowing he was making you feel this way just by touching your shoulder.
Once you two were out, he let go of your shoulders and he saw you looking back at the club, and then continued walking next to him. He didnât see you drink, just at your home and those two beers. He knows you are not drunk, and you did whatever you did back there completely conscious.Â
The car was not far away, and there were no words exchanged by the two of you. His heart was beating loudly, hearing his blood flowing, already feeling his belly burn with need. He couldnât believe how primal he became when you were next to him now. You were a fucking drug.Â
He opened the passengerâs seat for you and you looked at him as you slowly got inside, your eyes never breaking contact with one anotherâs. He felt his hands itching to touch you, knowing he is a few minutes away to actually get to touch you the way he did a week ago. He closed the door and while rounding the car, he messaged Argyle and Nancy to tell them he is taking you home because you were really sick.
He wondered if they were going to buy that lie. He honestly didnât actually care, not when his stomach turned with adrenaline at the thought of eating you out again, or feel you cum around his cock, very tight at the base, bottoming out completely inside of you. He got into the driverâs seat and he saw you were texting, probably Jonathan since he was the sober one.Â
But, he didnât see excitement in your face. He could detect hints of doubt, of worry, embarrassment? He was about to talk when your phone started ringing, your eyes frowning in confusion and answering it.
âHello?â You asked and motioned for him to start driving. He started the car and he got out of the parking space to start driving⊠to your house? His? âRobin, you are drunkâ Iâmâ Yeah, Iâm fine! Eddie is taking me home.âÂ
To your house it is, okay. He leaned over to talk over the phone so that Robin could hear him talk, knowing she wonât remember shit from this night.
âWeâre gonna go have sex with eachother Robin!â He felt you push his shoulder, and he could hear how Robin went âThatâs impossible!â and he snorted as he kept his eyes on the road. You cursed under your breath as you got on the phone with Robin again.
âHeâ Of course he lied, god Robinâ Yes, I do feel sick⊠Uh huh.â You closed your eyes, head thumping on the headrest of your seat as you kept listening to your friend. He fixed himself on his own becauseâ for some reason, there was anger bubbling inside of him, and he was hoping his intuition was wrong. âYeah, Iâll talk to you tomorrow. Bye.â
He saw you hang up and sigh, putting the phone into your purse again. Should he ask? Should he just drive to your place without a word? He was never in this position and now he is realizing just how different it is to fuck a stranger from a friend.
âSo⊠sick huh.â He started and you gulped, staring out your window.
âY-Yeah⊠Iâm honestly feeling icky. Nauseous and stuff.â And he frowned, his gut already turning with a bad feeling, an awful taste in his mouth at your words. Were you serious? No, he definitely knows you are lying.
âWait, youâre actually sick?âÂ
âYeah, I wasâ in the bathroom trying not to puke before talking to you.â Andâ Oh he was pissed.
âYouâ Oh my fucking god!â His foot stepped on the gas, and his speed raised a bit more as he turned left, completely getting off the route to your house. You gasped as you held onto the handle above the window, and he knew you were a bit afraid, but he wanted to murder you right now.
âWhat the fuck Munson! Take me home!â You could see how the buildings started becoming smaller, then housesâ
âNo, you and I are going to have a fucking talk, Peach.â He gave you an unamused laugh as you saw the trees coming closer, your stomach turning wildly from nerves, of anger, of excitement? You are not sure anymore. You didnât do anything wrong. You truly felt sick, you could feel it.
âWe donât have to talk about anything! I just need to get home to restââ You hear him groan loudly at your response and he turns onto a dirt road, making the car swing around as he gets deeper into the trees around you. You knew there was some kind of countryside outside of the city, but not with trees. It looks more like an ecological park than anything.
Suddenly he comes to a stop, both of you jerking forward, stopped by your seatbelts. Your heart was pounding wildly in your chest as you looked at him, wide-eyed. He turned off the headlights, leaving your surroundings in complete darkness, and the only thing illuminating the inside of his car was the small navigating screen in the middle.
âYou are a fucking bitch, you know that?â His voice was low as he almost ripped the seatbelt off of him, running a hand over his face. He couldnât really believe what you just did, and the fact you are denying it is bringing back all those old feelings he had for you again. How much he hated seeing you lie over and over again in front of Robin. Lying about who you were. But this time, this involves him, and you are lying into his face and even fucking his night over.
âExcuse me? What the hell is your problem!?â You were angry at him because he basically kidnapped you, taking you far away from the city and your friends, and all you wanted was to get home and curl up in your bed. Didnât you?
âMy problem? Oh, I donât know, the fact I was about to score a fuck for tonight until you showed up and demanded me to take you home, LYING that I promised to be your drive back, when we both know I didnât agree to shit!â He was looking at you, both of your chests going up and down with heavy breaths. You felt your belly dropping lower and lower, the consequences of your actions now coming clean in front of your face, but you wonât admit that to him.
âIâ I had to do it because no one wanted to leave! Thatâs that!âÂ
âAnd your best option was to lie to me, when you knew I was actually busy? Youâre full of fucking bullshit and you know I know it.â His eyes were like daggers into your skull, your soul, your heart. He could see you and he could feel your lies and your tricks. Itâs not that you didnât want him to be with someone else, you just felt sick at the moment, thatâs all.
âI felt sick! I really did!â You squealed out, making him huff as he let out a fake chuckle, shaking his head.
âYeah, sick because I was going to stick my dick in someone elseâs cunt and not yours.â Your whole stomach, intestines, and lungs made a turn, knocking the air out of you in an instant. How dare he? How fucking dare he say that about you when it was nothing like that?
It wasnât.
âIâ The world doesnât revolve around you Munson! Why would I care about something like that? The fuck you think you are? The best Iâve ever had or some shit?â You wanted to scoff at that because you were lying. You were fucking lying but you cannot admit it to him. His face turned to you, a glare directed into your soul and you felt a shiver run down your whole body.
âI fucking know I am the best youâve ever had. And I know you are regretting saying it was a one-time thing.âÂ
Your body was set aflame at that, and you knew you were becoming aroused each second that passed. You were aroused at the bantering? Were you for real? You couldnât do this, you had to get home because you were feeling your body tremble with adrenaline as your stomach did somersaults.Â
âYouâre so fucking full of yourself, you know that?â He was angry, you could see it in the way his jaw clenched and unclenched, how he was looking at you with murderous eyes, and you didnât really have a way to defend yourself at this point but just keet arguing with him.
âMe? Fine princess. Iâll just pretend you admitted you regretted your fucking choices and so you ruined my night.â You were fuming, thighs rubbing together as your impulsiveness started to get hold of you. Your hands were restless as you looked at him, whole body flushed and burning from inside out.
âAdmit!? I didnât admit shit, and it wasnât like that! Why canât you just accept that!?â Your voices were loud, and you were glad no one was around you, at least nowhere close.
âBecause youâre a fucking liar Peach!â His whole body was turned to you and you felt your heart hammering in your chest, blood pumping in your ears and your breath was heavy and elaborated. Your eyes were scanning his eyes, his lips as they moved, the vein on his neck, his hand as he flayed it around when he talked.
âWhy the fuck would I lie about something like that!?â You gritted out of your teeth and you could feel the tension inside the car, how the air became heavy, two predators waiting for one to pounce onto the other. You dug your nails into your thighs as he rolled his eyes at you, a final scoff out of his lips.
âThe sooner you admit it, the sooner we can get this over with and fuck eachother stupid, because I know you want that as much as I do.â Your mouth fell open at that, jaw dropping to your thighs almost. Your hands gripped onto your seatbelt that was still tight on you, glaring at him with sharp eyes.
âNo, I do not.â He lets out a chuckle at that, shaking his head and then giving you one nod as his tongue licks on his bottom lip, trying to contain himself, his eyes looking forward and out of the windshield.
âAlright, then itâs done. Iâll take you home and Iâll go back to the club.â Your heart hammered in your chest because, why? Itâs already late, he wouldnât be able to get in. Would he? You felt your entire skin burning, your fingertips up in flames as well as your cheeks. Your body trembled and you couldnât pinpoint why. It felt like a mixture of things, adrenaline, excitement, euphoria, anger, andâ your ego being squashed.
That is all it fucking was. Your pride being destroyed right on your face. Why do you feel like this when you were the one who made the decision? He wanted to keep doing it but you refused andâ You didnât want him to fuck another girl, at least not in front of you.
Because you know you were the best he ever had.
You unbuckled your seatbelt, the noise of it making Eddie turn to look at you, your body immediately reaching for him over the console. You heard him take a sharp intake of breath, as if in a hiss, meeting you in the middle, the both of you breathing heavily, desperate for one another. Your hands grasped his face, his left hand moving to your waist, right hand on the back of your neck, and you two gave one another one final look, before closing your eyes and hungrily taking eachotherâs lips.
You kissed him with the purpose of taking his breath away. You wanted to leave no air at all in his lungs as the lip smacking could be heard inside the car, loudly so. Your fingernails went into his scalp, earning a groan from his part. You wanted to die from embarrassment because you realized how desperate you were to separate your thighs for him, so you rubbed them together as his hand on your waist gripped even harder, his fingertips digging into the fabric of your dress.
Your heads turned from side to side as the kiss grew more fierce, rougher, and sloppier. You wanted to feel him again, rub yourself on him, get him inside of you as quickly as possible. You donât even know if you have the strength to go to his or your house at this point, the need being too unbearable.Â
You moaned into his mouth when his hand moved downwards, gripping your ass and you felt a sweat moving all over your body, drenching you from how hot the car felt. How hot you felt. He chuckled into the kiss at your moan which earned him a tug on his hair from your part. He growled into his throat and his hand left your ass. You wanted to whine at the loss of touch, but then he pulled away, making the both of you look at one another, and then, his seat went all the way backwards, away from the steering wheel, his left hand on the lever underneath his seat.
You didnât hesitate, not a single second, your breathing heavy as you moved quickly over the console, not caring if you were flashing him at all, you just needed to sit down on the bulge you could clearly see on his pants. Feel him once more because who were you going to lie to right now? Lie about how you didnât think of messaging him all week and tell him to fuck what you said before? Lie about how you were close to visiting him at his shop and probably suck his cock under his desk?
Yeah, whatever friendship you had with Eddie, itâs gone.
Your knees were against the leather seat, one on each side of his hips and your hands cradled his face once again, leaning down to kiss his lips just like seconds before. Your head was bumping slightly against the roof of the car but you didnât care. It will be a bit uncomfortable but itâs not something you really care for right now.
His right hand gripped the lever on the side to lean the back of his seat downwards, just slightly, not all the way. You didnât stop kissing him for a second, and then your hips collided with his and he couldnât help but moan into the kiss, almost a whimper, which you reciprocated with a moan of your own. You could feel him through your wet underwear, rubbing deliciously against you and the zipperâs fly of his pants catching onto your aching clit.Â
Your hips were rubbing against him aggressively, not caring if he noticed how desperate you were because, by how his hands started gripping your waist, and by how his own hips swayed on the seat back and forth with you tells you he was in the exact same situation as you were.Â
Eddie grunted into the kiss as he felt his dick become harder, twitch at every movement, and he was probably leaking a lot of precum already. This whole week had been torturous for him, not being able to get you out of his head and no matter how many times he jerked off and dedicated his cum to your name, it wasnât enough.Â
And right now, this wasnât what he had planned. He had planned to meet a chick at the club to take home and try to satiate himself with her, even if he knew damn well it wasnât going to work out, he still wanted to try. He didnât expect your jealousy, or whatever it is called because the two of you do not like eachother, not in that way.
This was just physical attraction.
He knew he was territorial. He had his reasons to, but you, you were a mystery to him. Maybe it was your ego, your pride, and it probably really was. Maybe if you werenât there and you found out later, you wouldnât have cared. Would he care if he found out about you sleeping with someone else? Missing a night out and to find out you went out and fucked some guy or girlâ
The thought made his mind spin, his right hand flying up to grip the back of your head, yanking onto your hair so you would open your mouth. A gasp escaped you, your lips parting over his, and he took this opportunity to slide his tongue in your mouth in order to meet yours. Your moans filled his throat and he felt as if he came back to life once more after the fucking week he had.
Your hands, now clawed onto his shoulders, nails digging into the stupid shirt he is wearing that looks way too good on him and you want to see it in complete shreds. Your hips started circling onto him, and you moaned into his mouth as your clit was rubbed on, your cunt just getting wetter at each roll. His hips were jerking upwards, his need to be inside of you growing each second.
You were pathetically clenching around nothing. Fuck, he felt too good, and you were so stupid for saying that it should have been a one-time thing only, and he is not even inside you yet. His dick is still inside his pants and you already felt cockdrunk on him, but it feels too good to stop. You could already feel the coil in your belly turning, finally pleased to have what it has been craving for.
His tongue was greedily licking onto yours, tasting you and devouring you, eating you whole. He wanted to eat you out again, have your pussy in his mouth, and make you crumble under his touch, but it seems there is going to be another time after this. Your hands went down his chest, and your breaths were heavy against eachother, and he couldnât help but feel⊠victorious. He gripped your hair in order to pull away from you, keeping his lips close to yours and he smirked when a whimper fell from your pouted and puffy lips.
âOne time thing my fucking ass, right Peach?â Your eyes were glistening with lustful tears, and you glared at him, grunting at his cockiness. You responded by rolling your hips against his, making him choke on his breath.
âShut the fuck up Munson, my pussy drove you so mad that you didnât think rationally at all. One of us had to be the voice of reason, and it wasnât going to be you.â At your response, his eyes looked at you with a murderous stare, and his nostrils were flaring up at you, showing how pissed off your comment made him.Â
But you were right on that.
He wanted you so bad that he didnât want to see how it would affect the entire group and not just the two of you. He wanted to be inside of you again so bad that he was willing to risk it all. He wanted you again. He needed you again. But you are never going to hear that coming from his mouth.
âYou say that, yet I had the intention of taking someone home tonight, and trust me Peach, you werenât a choice.â And now it was your turn to glare into his eyes because, how fucking dare he? How dare he say something like that to you? Why does that hurt you? Why do you feel so angry? Why does it feel like he just carved a hole somewhere in your body?
Your hand flew to grip his chin, tilting his head back as his hand let go of your hair, letting you dive into his neck and biting him. It wasnât that harsh, but it was enough to sink your teeth in if just a little bit. He winced, clenching his eyes as he felt his whole body tremble at the sensation. You were marking him up. Fuck, if only you knew what it was doing to him.
His dick twitched in his pants, making him groan in pain at how much pressure was being put onto him, your relentless rubbing against him making it all worse. His breathing was shaky, your tongue now lapping at the part where you had bitten. You proceeded to kiss him there, the burning in your belly becoming even more unbearable.Â
You pulled away from him with a pop, trying to not hit the roof of the car with your head, and his hands gripped onto your jacket, pulling it down your shoulders and you helped him with taking it off. His mouth latched onto your neck this time, and you sat down on his thighs as you sighed in delight at his kisses. He knew he couldnât mark you now, it would be too obvious since he probably has your fucking teeth engraved in his neck right now.Â
Your hands went to his pants, and you thanked the heavens he didnât wear a belt today. It was just a matter of seconds before you had unbuttoned him and pulled the fly of his zipper down. You were so close, and thenâ he pulled away.
âShit, fuckââ
âWhat is it?â You were infuriated. Why was he stopping? Why was he stopping you now?
âI donât have a condom sweetheart, and as much as I would love to fuck you raw, who knows what dickâs been in there.â That earned him a bite to his bottom lip this time, making him whimper against you. Fuck. This was another side of you that he never expected. He loved it. No one ever treated him like this, as if he was owned, as if he should know his place. This was new. You were new.
âIâm more worried about where your dickâs been. I have condoms in my purse.â And that earned you a smirk from him, his bottom lip now red and pulsing from your bite.Â
âSo, you came prepared.â
âAnd who says you were a choice?â At that, Eddie only leans in towards you, and you could see him inhaling, how his pupils dilated even more for just a second, and then focused on your face once again.Â
âOh baby, I know I was your only choice.â His and your eyes were locked on one another, fire and sparks flying between the two of you. Your jaw clenched, looking at the purse sitting on the passengerâs seat and then back at him.
âYouâre gonna put it on or not?â And his hand flew to reach your purse, without taking his eyes off you. He hands it to you and you take just one second to stick your hand in and then into the small side pocket to take the condom out. You could see your phone lighting up from the movement, and that you had notifications, more than thirty minutes passed since you left the club. It can wait.
He threw the purse back to the side, and you raised yourself a bit from his thighs as you opened the condom with your teeth. He was mesmerized by you, not being able to take his eyes off you as he raised his hips to push his pants and boxers down to his bent knees. You took the latex out of the foil and you threw it away, not caring where it landed really.
You looked down to see his cock, up, alert, red, and leaking for you. You wanted to bend down and lick it clean, to taste it again, but your pussy is begging for it. It has been begging for it for the past week. You gulped as you felt your mouth watering, the back of your head touching the roof of the car from being kneeled on the seat.
Eddie was seeing how you were biting your bottom lip, looking down at his cock andâ fuck you were going to be the death of him because if he is not inside you in the next three seconds, he is going to explode. He grabbed the condom from your hand, and immediately rolled it down, holding in a pathetic moan from finally feeling some friction, but itâs stupid to feel it from his own hands.
Your left hand pressed on his shoulder as the right one lifted the hem of your dress up towards your stomach, keeping it bunched up there, finally revealing your underwear to him. He licked the inside of his cheek as he saw how you pushed your thong to the side, and fuckâ he could see it. He could see how sticky your underwear was to your pussy from how wet you were. He felt his heart punching his chest with the need to go down on you again, but you didnât give him time to think at all.
You were already guiding yourself on top of him, the head of his cock gliding between your folds and catching onto your clit, making you moan with relief. Your body shook with adrenaline as Eddieâs hands went to your hips, bracing himself for the moment he had been dreaming of for days. He should have put music on because this was going to be loud, he knew itâ
His thoughts were shut off as you started sinking down on him, no need for foreplay, no time for it. It was stupid to try to stop this. It was stupid to try to make this a one-time thing. It was stupid to try to make it seem as if the attraction was not there. It was stupid to try to deny that the year of hatred just made you both want eachother even more. Craving a friendship, or this, you donât know.
A smile spread on your lips while you bit your bottom lip, your eyes closed as you relished in the feeling of finally having him inside, and you couldnât wait to feel like last saturday again. Full. Satisfied. Relaxed. You didnât notice how Eddie was fighting off closing his own eyes so he could drink you in. You were smiling while taking his cock, slowly, inch by inch. Fuck, he canât wait to feel you around him, to feel you pulsating, throbbing, and then the clench. That delicious fucking clench.
He threw his head back on the headrest as your mouth finally opened with a silent moan, and you looked down to where the two of you were connecting, finally opening your eyes. Your left hand on his shoulder while the other gripped the roof handle on his side for some leverage. If you didnât, then you were for sure going to sink down at once, and even if you know you can take him, you also know you didnât stretch yourself out first. Youâre wet enough to go slow, but not to immediately slam down on him like you did last time.Â
âOh, holy fuckâŠâ He moaned out, breaths leaving his lungs in huffs, holding himself back from thrusting his hips upwards. The more you took him, the more he was beginning to lose control of his movements. He didnât want you to be in charge, that was his job⊠but fuck, you looked so good like this.
You could feel him filling you up, finally swallowing up his base, noticing how his back arched from the backrest, just slightly, as well as a whimper leaving his lips. He looks so good, he feels so good. Your breath was completely out of your lungs as you adjusted to his size, walls fluttering around him, pulsating, sucking him in and not letting him go anywhere anytime soon.
He let out a loud grunt, almost a growl, opening his eyes when your hips finally touched his. He was breathing heavily through his nose as he looked where you clearly swallowed him whole, his cock deep inside of you, and your face did not show a single sign of pain, of hurt, of displeasure. He had some doubts from last time, that maybe the euphoria of it all let you take him the way you did butâ no⊠No, you could take him.
You can fucking take him.
âGod, yes...â You breathed out when you felt the tip of his cock just touch you in places youâve never felt before, or in a while. You werenât sure, and you really werenât. All you know is that now you feel amazing, and thatâs what matters, that he feels amazing. Your left hand gripped his shoulder tightly, your pussy suddenly clenching around him, making his eyes go wide, and his hips jerk upwards. You gasped at the feeling, the back of your head knocking on the roof, just gently.Â
âShitâ Sorry Peachâ But fuck do you feel goodâŠâ His ass was back on the seat, and you took the opportunity to hover a little longer so his cock would slide out of you a few inches, and then you slammed yourself against him, knocking the breath out of his lungs. Your eyes were glistening, the pleasure taking over your features and body.
âYou feel good Eddie, so goodââ You could admit that to him, just like he was to you. You rolled your hips against him, your G-spot being rubbed on and your mouth fell open in silent moans. Eddie could only grip your thighs, trying not to dig his fingertips into your flesh, not wanting to hurt you butâ
It was as if the two of you were made for eachother.
You raised yourself from him, only to move down again, swaying your hips just slightly as you did so. He let out a sigh of pleasure, rolling his head over the headrest as he felt you start to create a tempo slowly. He could feel how deep he was inside of you, and he kept wondering how it was possible. But just like last time, maybe some things just have no answers. âBecause it canâ and it was as simple as that.
You were now moaning a louder, your moves quickening as you felt him glide inside of you, feeling every vein and ridge of his shaft. You felt like you were floating on clouds by how good it felt, only the burning on your thighs from the work you were putting into bringing you back to earth.Â
He saw how there was some drool pooling at the corner of your mouth as it remained open with noises coming out of it each time you went down on his cock. He could also hear the squelching sound of your juices, of your wetness all around him. You look so beautiful and perfect right now, he canât help it. He leaned forward, his right hand moving to the back of your neck to pull you downwards and clash his lips onto yours.
You moaned into the kiss as your right hand now rested on his left shoulder, mimicking your left one. You kissed him back, instantly melting your tongue with his, savoring him once again as you kept moving your hips, up and down, quicker, faster, rougher, and his left hand moved from your thigh to your ass and thenâ
SMACK.
You gasped into the kiss, pulling away for just a second, your right ass cheek burning from the slap it received.Â
âEddieâ!â His hand pulled you back to his lips by the back of your neck. You moaned into the kiss, his hand now rubbing the area where he slapped and you just rutted your hips against him, the tip of his cock just abusing your g spot, tipping you closer and closer towards the edge.Â
You didnât feel like yourself and Eddie didnât either. It was weird to think that the two of you were just friends a few weeks ago and now you are roughly fucking inside his car, like two horny teenagers. The windows of it all fogged up, and you are pretty sure your moans can be heard from the fucking city.Â
Your belly burnt and twisted, and you felt like it was going to explode. Your orgasm was coming closer and closer and Eddie could feel it all around his cock. Your walls were throbbing against him and in all honesty, Eddie had been thinking about this for so long that his own orgasm was coming quicker than normal. He grunted when he raised his hips and then set a brutal pace on you, pistoning his hips into you, the slapping of hips loud inside the small room in the car.
You pulled away from the kiss, holding onto his shoulders and feeling his fingertips digging into the flesh of your ass. He had a death grip on you, helping him pull you down towards him as he thrust upwards into you.
âSo well. Taking me so fucking well Peachââ He groaned as he felt beads of sweat falling from the side of his face, your moans and the squelch of your pussy a degenerate but blissful sound in his ears.
âEddieâ Eddieâ oh fuckââ Your belly coiled, pussy clenching around him which made him stutter, feeling himself getting closer. He wished he wasnât, just to make you time two, maybe three times around his cock, but his body was betraying him tonight. He gave one deep thrust before pulling his hips back down onto the seat, making you slam down on him, a loud grunt escaping him.
You started moving desperately, trying to chase your high, needing it, and Eddie was just letting you use him at your disposal. You were moaning his name like your life depended on it and he was loving it. His right hand left the back of your neck to push one of the straps of your dress down, as well as the strap of your bralette.
He almost ripped the cup of the lace off you but he wasnât going to risk being yelled at by you, so he pulled it downwards, making your left breast pop out. His mouth immediately latched on your neck, kissing it sloppily. You were dizzy, your mind completely shut off thanks to pleasure as your hips kept moving on him, feeling the drag of his cock against your walls, and the tip of it hit you deliciously where you needed him the most.
You felt him unlatch from your neck to then feel your nipple being pinched by teeth. You let out a pathetic whine, a whimper, and you hear him moan against you as his lips envelop your nipple and he starts sucking on it, making you sweat all over as you feel your orgasm as if it were about to murder you.
He could feel you, smell you, and you were driving him absolutely mad. He was throbbing, begging for release, but he was holding himself back trying to wait for you to cum around him first. He needs to feel it. He lets go of your nipple with a pop and he presses his forehead against your collarbone, his face twisting as his entire body starts to shake from the impending orgasm.
âPeachâ Iâm going to fucking cum, fuckââ And for some reason, knowing she was making him cum by just riding him stupid was the drop that tipped over the glass.
âEdâ Edâ Eddieâ!â Your eyebrows were met in the middle as your mouth remained open with breathless moans as your walls clenched tightly all around him, making you stop moving. He threw his head back onto the headrest, feeling himself being engulfed by you, trapped by you around his base and it felt too good.
âYou feel so fucking good baby, god fucking damnitââ You were trembling on top of him as he moved back and forth in the seat so his cock would drag inside of you, helping you ride your orgasm out, and he realized you came with penetration only. His hands held onto your thighs now, his hips thrusting as much as they could, his breath coming out ragged as he still felt you spasming around him, and clenching on him. â-- sh-SHIT!â
He pushed your thighs down on him, seething himself deep inside of you, finally letting a loud cry escape your lips, and he clenched his eyes as he moaned your name, his seed spilling into the condom in huge spurts, and in great quantities. His hips twitched underneath you, the vein in his neck popping off from the intensity of the orgasm. He felt so good, so satisfied, his breathing coming in heavy as well as yours as you both finally relaxed, him on the seat and you over him.Â
The crescent moon marks on his shoulders thanks to your nails, your heart threatening to just give up on you at any moment, the fogginess of your climax starting to slowly wear off the more you catch your breath. Your legs were shaking, spasming every now and then and he winced from the overstimulation around him.
With one hand he managed to press the button to pull the window down, letting the cool air come in and it felt like a punch to the face, a punch of reality. You felt quite shocked suddenly, pulling the strap of your bra and dress over your shoulder, fixing it on you. Eddie was just like you, just staring at your middle because the adrenaline started to wear off andâ fuck.
You slowly moved your hips upwards, pulling him out of you, earning a wince from the two of you. You saw the filled condom, making the situation more real than just a passing dream. You were trying to catch your breath yet as you moved, trying not to make a fool of yourself and just fall on your face, going back to the passenger seat, stepping over the console. Once seated, you fixed your dress, looking forward completely wide eyed, feeling your juices dampening your now fixed underwear, covering you once more.
Eddie was staring at the windshield, starting to get clearer, the fog of it coming off thanks to the window being open. He gulped as he looked down and took off the condom, hearing you still fixing yourself on the passengerâs seat. He tied the latex up, and opened the small trash can container that is underneath the radio. He has to remember to take it out the next day.
He fixed his pants, then the seat and then it was just silence as the two of you looked forward into nothingness. You were slowly putting your jacket back on, and then you could hear just how quiet the outside was, making the entire situation even more embarrassing.
âWe⊠have to talk⊠but tomorrowââ You started, and he quickly answered.
âAgreed.â He knows the two of you are quite in a state of shock right now, so talking about this now was not the best idea. He sees you putting your seatbelt on, so he copies your movements, and before he can askâ
âWant to⊠sleep over?â
end of chapter 18
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#nothing like talking to my mom to make me completely unravel and reconsider every one of my life choices đ« #casual cry at work bc i dont know what to do with my life and i have no goals and i will never be well enough off to satisfy my mom looool#like i know shes scared bc we grew up super poor n she struggled to get where we are now massively but like#why do i need to make 200k to make her happy lol#like im making a decent salary at my full time job and i want to pursue more school so i can expand my horizons and look into diff careers#bc i find my job boring ! altho im very thankful for it !#but i dont wanna do this for the rest of my life !!!! id literally rather be dead than sit at a desk writing emails for 40 years !!!!!#i was talking to her about going back to my uni and making my minor into a major so i can get a secdon degree#since i already took the majority of the courses i can finish the second degree in 1 year ! i already planned out all the courses n stuff!#but shes like what do u want to do with that why are u wasting ur time doing things that wont put more money in ur pocket#im gonna be applying for my masters this year anyway so i was like might as well do something entertaining with the next year#get a degree out of it n all and then hopefully attend my masters program the next year ? like isnt that cool and impressive or whatever ?#its for my ego ! it makes me feel like im progressing rather than staying stagnant at my job i dont like !#but she just wants me to make more money lmao like i know moneys tight and its hard n everything#eugh#and shes like increasing the mortgage payments bc she qants to pay the house off asap but making our monthly bills cost more#so it always feels like were one step away from being in a hole we cant get ourselves out of#like why is my entire life focused on making money and supporting a famkly rn lmao im 25 and ive barely been able to live#i judt want to do soem things for myself ! make myself feel good about myself !!!#im sureounded by stem people with nice jobs and good degrees !! all these 22 year olds with masters under their belts and im stuck !!!!#boring and useless and havent lived up to any potential lol im so tired of my stupid inferiority complex i just want to feel like#an interesting and accomplished person like everyone expected me to be !!! especially myself !!!!#this fucking sucks#looking at law school applications again#might try to do an lsat in september or something ig#gommywords
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a kiss from the moon | jjk
pairing(s): jungkook x reader
summary:Â All these years, all these summers, Jeon Jungkook has loved you. His problem? You have no idea. Mostly because he has always said it far too platonically and thrown up in your lap after saying it. Drunk. Fuck. Oh, yeah, and you're also Park Jimin's best friend since preschool. Shit.
warnings: language; alcohol consumption; pining; JK gets distracted by (your) tits during his quest, typical; non-idol!BTS - purple-haired!Jungkook x sleepy af, noona!reader, ft Park Jimin and Kim Taehyung radiating big soulmate energy; childhood friends-to-lovers
yes, it's JK from the 'Butter' beach photos
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âI love you!â
You lifted your head out of the mountain of pillows, groggy and hazy, squinting at the moonlight filtering through the floating curtains. The night breeze was warm, drifting in softly with the low hum of cicadas. But what was that other sound? That other sound was familiar, wasnât it?
You heard your name being shouted, followed by, âWake up!â
You made a face and stumbled out of the bed, sticking your head out of your bedroom window, your own hair flying back and smacking you in the face.
âYah! Jeon Jungkook, are you trying to wake up the whole damn neighborhood?!â
âGet down here!â
You put on your best disgruntled expression and peered down at the form on your front lawn, shoving your own hair aside.
âWhat are you going on about?â you muttered, seeing Jeon Jungkook looking up at you, puffing his cheeks, long wet purple hair fading to gray because of the chlorine from swimming all night at that party Park Jimin had invited you to earlier today, to which you had responded, no thanks, Iâm going to sleep all day, I worked three double shifts in a row and I have zero desire to be flung into your familyâs swimming pool at this time, but I will acknowledge that your offer is very generous, and then promptly passing out for a good â you glanced at your phone with the pink bunny case Jungkook had given you two summers ago â ten hours and it was still not enough for you to comprehend why your best friendâs best friend was standing on your front lawn yelling at your parentsâ house that you were watching for a month while they were in Italy getting drunk on far too expensive wine and eating cheese they probably couldnât pronounce.
Jungkook was shirtless, clad only in orange swim shorts and sandals like a fucking hooligan. He was clutching a plastic red Solo cup and he threw it at the house, yelling your name again.
âOh my fucking God, donât litter, you idiot!â you bellowed back, throwing yourself away from the windowsill and crawling on the floor to your bedroom door like the evolution of mankind, making it from all fours to two legs by the time you got to the stairs â good thing too, you might have broken your neck if you were still disoriented â and you dragged yourself downstairs, yanking your white slip dress straight. Not your choice of pajamas. Your momâs, who told you to be more ladylike, whatever the fuck that meant, and who also informed you in the same breath that it was your only choice of pajamas since they donated all your clothes from high school.
Awesome.
You go to university and your parents yeet all evidence that they had a child and go vacationing.
Good for them.
You wrenched your front door open and shoved your feet into your dadâs giant brown sandals and clapped your way over to the pink-faced, mildly drunk, shirtless man in swimming trunks on your front lawn.
âItâs two in the morning. Why are you standing here drunk and professing your love like some kind of deranged Romeo?â you sighed, rubbing your eyes. âWhy arenât you at Jiminâs?â You spied the red Solo cup and picked it up, whipping your head back to Jeon Jungkook.
He was staring at you with his mouth open.
Charming.
He didnât say anything for a good ten seconds.
âAlright, fine, let me call my loser of a best friend and tell him to pick up his loser of a best friend, so I can go back to sleep,â you muttered, about to turn around.
Jungkook seemed to sputter back to life. âWait, um, noonaââ
âHe speaks! Heâs not dead.â
âA⊠Ah⊠UmâŠâ
You squinted at him and reached up to knock the side of his head. âHello? Anyone in there?â
Jungkook blurted out, âI love you.â
His breath smelled a lot like alcohol.
âYeah, I got that. You also said that when I got you through your Chemistry and World History exams. Both times. You also say that to like, what, six of your guy friends? Donât get me started on the amount of times youâve said it and thrown up in my lap right after. Donât do that this time,â you added sternly, prodding at his chest. âIâve got one set of pajamas because my mom forgets that human beings change clothes, so throw up on the grass.â
âUh⊠thatâs pajamasâŠ?â
âLady pajamas,â you grumbled sarcastically, lifting the lid and chucking the crumpled Solo cup into your parentsâ trash can. âSince Iâm not lady enough apparently according to my mom, even though Iâm ninety-nine percent sure giant band t-shirts are completely unisex but, whatever, itâs just a dress, not a big deal.â
âUm.â
You looked at Jungkook, who looked back at you, who put your hands up and gestured him to say something, who in response rose his hands and flapped them in confusion, giving you absolutely zero helpful communication. The movement reminded you he had gotten his right arm and hand tattooed in the last couple years, the black ink standing out against tan skin. You hadnât seen him too many times during your university years, too busy completing research papers and staying late nights in laboratories, only to now end up working on hospital software and sitting on your ass all day. Life, eh? These past three days were spent on working through bugs for the next software update and you had maybe lost all social skills as you attempted to unravel lines of code that you stared at for forty-eight out of the past seventy-two hours.
Fun!
âDo you need a cookie? A shower? The Bible?â you offered, waving your hands. âMaybe tell me why youâre here, yes?â
He was staring and you realized you were slightly bent over in your gesture, your breasts firmly pressed into the cups of the slip dress. You straightened and Jungkookâs wide dark brown eyes went back to your face.
âI⊠I didnât realize you had come back, noona.â
You raised an eyebrow. âWhat are you talking about? I told Jimin last week. He said he was hanging out with you and Taehyung. I figured heâd just tell you guys then.â
Jungkook shook his head quickly, gray-purple hair flying about. He pointed to the left, where Jiminâs house was several blocks over. âHe only mentioned it just now, when he was throwing up in the bathroom from doing eight shots in a row because Taehyungie dared him.â
ââŠ. Maybe he needs the BibleâŠâ you muttered, shaking your head.
Then the realization hit you.
âDid you walk here from Jiminâs and straight up abandon the party?â
Jungkook tilted his head and thought about it. âYeah.â
You looked around to find the camera and see if you were being pranked, but there was no camera because this life wasnât purely for entertainment, right? Nah, this wasnât The Matrix.
Mhm.
âHah, well, whatâs wrong? Are you upset I didnât go to the party or something? I had three double-shifts this week, I wasnât going to be any fun passed out before actually drinkingââ
âYoongi-hyung was passed out before drinking.â
âIn some ways, I swear that guy and I are the same person,â you laughed, shaking your head. âAnyway, Iâm sorry I didnât go and Iâm sorry I didnât tell you, I really banked on Jimin not being an airhead, but once again he is, so maybe I should reconsider him as my best friendâŠâ
âNoona, IâŠâ
You looked up from your mental consideration of Park Jiminâs pros and cons, the first pro being he punched that ex of yours that cheated on you with some Tinder hookup and that was already enough to stop contemplating, so you blinked at Jungkook curiously, looking into wide brown eyes, long strands of ash-purple floating around his handsome face from the night breeze, brushing against his parted lips, highlighting the mole underneath them, placed perfectly in the center like a kiss from the moon itself.
âCan I take a shower and sleep it off here?â
You tilted your head. âYeah, sure. You can borrow my dadâs clothes. You should call Jimin though. You donât want him to panic that he lost you.â
âY⊠Yeah, okayâŠâ
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Jeon Jungkook really thought he could say it this time.
Collected all his courage and ran, ran as fast as he could, couldnât believe Jimin had neglected to say she was coming home over the summer for more than a day, days without her reminding Jungkook that he was a coward for not saying it when he could have, having lost his most important person in the world because he was too afraid of telling Park Jimin that he was in love with his best friend.
He remembered that smile wearing nothing but a large t-shirt, sitting on Jiminâs bedroom floor, crushing all of them at UNO and cackling as Jimin blew up for ending up in last place for the third time in a row, yelling that the game was rigged, and Jungkook remembered thinking, I should tell her tonight.
And he didnât.
He remembered her saying to Taehyung that she just wasnât into girly things. They were having this argument over pizza and Taehyung was waving his around saying she should at least try a dress on every once in a while, never know, might actually like it, and her rolling her eyes as she shot back that she didnât have to do anything just because it was stereotypical for her gender. Taehyung told her to stop using big words and waved his hands, accidentally flinging his pizza slice into her lap, and Jungkook remembered thinking, I should tell her after we clean up.
And he didnât.
He remembered seeing her prepare to leave for university once again, holding a small package from the internet and handing it to her, a small but practical belated birthday gift, both of them surprised when she opened it, not the matte black phone case he had ordered, but somehow mixed up with a pink bunny phone case that had no business being owned by someone who didnât like girly things.
âOh, shit, Iâm so sorry, I didnât order thisââ
And she laughed, shaking her head. âThatâs okay, I gotta go, thanks anyway, Jungkook!â
The years went by and every year Jungkook told himself, this is the one, and every year he just couldnât say it.
He thought he could say it now, drunk and furious at Jimin for not preparing him for this moment, but on his way here Jungkook figured that perhaps this was preferred, that maybe it was better that he couldnât sit around nervously overthinking what to say.
But, of course, the problem wasâŠ
He had already said it in a platonic way.
Shit.
He really fucked himself throughout the years.
Jungkook sighed, now wearing borrowed clothes, holding the note of her handwriting as he rubbed his hair with the towel.
I washed your shorts and theyâre hang-drying now. You can sleep in the guest room. I left a glass of water and some hangover meds. If you need anything, Iâll be asleep but you can attempt to wake the dead if you want.
He walked down the hall, towel around his shoulders. Her bedroom door was open. He stood outside the entrance, sighing, seeing her sleeping form and her bedside table, her phone sitting on the charger.
His breath caught in his throat as he recognized that pink bunny phone case.
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âWhereâs Jungkook?â
âProbably at her parentsâ place, confessing his love,â Kim Taehyung snickered, picking up the beer bottles left behind next to the pool.
âHah, of course he would leave without cleaning up,â Park Jimin grumbled, pushing the recycling bin along as Taehyung tossed each bottle inside.
âYou think heâs gonna tell her?â
âHe didnât even tell me,â Jimin muttered, shoving used napkins into the bag hanging off the side of the recycling bin that he was going to toss into the trash later. âI had to find out from you. I think heâs hopeless. Why does he like her anyway? Sheâs fun to be around, yeah, sheâs good at school, yeah, knows a lot of random facts, yeah, if you get into philosophy with her like Namjoon-hyung does, you begin to question humanity and reality, yeah, but other than thatâŠâ
âYou hitting on your best friend, dude?â
âI mean, sheâs kinda hot, she wouldnât say no to me.â
Taehyung snorted.
Jimin smacked him in the ass with the recycling bin.
âAnyway, heâs probably just standing in her bedroom creepily watching her sleeping.â
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Jungkook stared down at her sleeping form.
He looked up, looking out the window into the late, late night. He was tired, and yet he couldnât sleep, too busy wondering.
I donât deserve her if Iâm not brave enough to say it.
âJungkook?â
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You squinted at the large form in your bedroom.
âWhy are you just staring moodily out the window?â you mumbled, rubbing your eyes. âIs something wrong? Are you hungry? I can make you a snackâŠâ
âNoona, do you know what the worst feeling in the world is?â he asked softly, still looking out into the warm night.
You grunted and scrunched up your face. âStepping on a Lego?â
You heard Jungkook laugh and you smiled a little despite your groggy state, hearing a little bit of his old self, the younger Jungkook hanging out with you, Jimin, and, later, Taehyung, the four of you getting up to no good. Somehow, in the past few years, he had gotten quieter and quieter, at least around you, but then again you only came home to visit for a day or two before going back to university.
âHave you ever been in love, noona?â
âYeah, with the red bean popsicles they used to sell at the ice cream trucks, but then they stopped, those assholes, Iâve never been so heartbroken in my life,â you grumbled, remembering the day where the ice cream man told you they were sold out and your young teenage heart shattering.
âI love you, you know.â
Was this a fever dream? Why did he keep repeating himself? You looked over to his back, still looking outside onto the street, the street where you all used to run and laugh every summer, pretending you were surviving in the wild and not in the middle of a suburban neighborhood, sitting around sipping lemonade and complaining about the heat even though you all could have gone inside, lighting sparklers at night and seeing whose would last the longest even though such a thing was only based on chance anyway.
âIs that the worst thing youâve ever heard?â he added quietly.
âThe worst thing Iâve ever heard was accidentally hearing Jimin jacking off. Twice.â
Jungkook finally turned around, giving you a disgusted look. âWhat?â
You placed a hand on your face and sighed heavily, trying not to remember. âFor some reason he thinks the bathroom isnât echoey or something, like, at least do it in the shower, so the water masks the soundâŠâ You chuckled, shaking your head. âAnyway, I would much rather hear you say you have love for me than listening to Jimin getting off.â
âI donât have love for you.â
You raised your hand from your face and shifted your gaze to him, half-smile lingering on your lips from remembering Jiminâs carelessness. You made eye contact the second the words left his mouth, those brown eyes shrouded in shadows, but still so clear, a little helpless, a little sad.
âIâm in love with you,â Jungkook whispered softly.
Your eyes widened.
A soft breeze swept through the window, lifting the purple-gray strands from Jungkookâs face, revealing his lost, desolate expression.
The cicadas hummed.
A car alarm honked loudly, screeching through the night.
Both you and Jungkook jerked to face the window. You bolted out of bed and you both threw your hands onto the edge of the window, yanking it shut, wincing at the loud noise.
âAh, jeez⊠what the hellâŠ?â you groaned, slumping to the ground.
âWhatâs with peopleâŠ?â Jungkook muttered, falling to the floor beside you, yanking the towel off his shoulders.
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âFuck, I pressed the wrong button!â
âTaehyung, what the hell, turn it off!â
âI was just trying to put the tangerines your parents gave me in my car!â
âI donât care what you were doing, turn it off!â
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âAnyway, sorry, you were saying something important and you got interrupted by some dumbass,â you sighed, nudging Jungkook with your shoulder.
âUh⊠well, that was itâŠâ
You blinked at him, tilting your head. âWhat, that youâre in love with me?â
âY⊠Yeah?â
You blinked some more.
âNot the, want to go to the arcade and see who can get the highest score in PAC-MAN or go watch shitty action movies and rate the unrealistic plot lines or dare each other to eat whatever expired delicacy is in Taehyungâs fridge, kind of love?â
Jungkook made a repulsed face. âI regret eating that tofu. Donât think I can ever look at uncooked tofu without gagging a little nowâŠâ
You leaned over and caught his eye.
âDo you mean the⊠want to date and get married and make babies, kind of love?â
His lips parted and the moonlight lit the small mole placed perfectly underneath his lower lip.
A delicate kiss from the moon itself.
Then you realized he was staring at your tits.
You yanked the neckline up a little and Jungkook started, looking back up at you with wide eyes.
âSorry, Iâm just not used to you in a dress, sorry, Iâm being really rudeââ
âIt assures me that youâre at least interested in the making babies part,â you chuckled.
His ears turned red and he reached up to cover them, trying not to look down. âS⊠SorryâŠâ
âSoâŠ?â
He chewed on his lip, messing with his earrings with his fingertips. âUm⊠yeah, that kind of love. The latter kind.â
You lowered your hand. âYouâre not messing with me, right? I swear, if this is one of Taehyungâs elaborate ideas to mess with me, Iâm going to kiââ
Jungkook shook his head quickly, purple hair flying about. âIâm not joking around. I wanted to tell you for a long, long time, butâŠâ His eyes darted about, panicking a little, before looking back to you helplessly. âYouâre Jiminâs best friend, besides Taehyung, and what if⊠what if you thought I was gross or something and then I donât think I could hang out with you guys anymore, but then you went to that prestigious university far away and I thought, Iâm so stupid, I should have said something, anything, but every time I could even think about it, I didnât know what to say, nothing seemed rightâŠâ
He let out a big sigh and tapped his head against the windowsill, closing his eyes.
âAlso, I said it before and threw up in your lap right after, so that kinda fucked me up.â
âCanât say I was really feeling the romance, yeah.â
He groaned and covered his face with his hands.
âIâd date you though. For real.â
Jungkook removed his hands and blinked at you. âWhat?â
You chuckled. âWhy are you acting so surprised? Iâm not going to date Jimin, blergh, Iâve known that guy since I was in preschool. Iâm not dating Taehyung, Iâm pretty sure heâs on a different brainwave than other human beings.â
You smiled at him and turned around to pick up your phone, holding it up.
âI donât like girly things or cute things very much, but I kept your gift because it was from you and, funnily enough, I think it made me realize that I was rejecting femininity because society puts such a negative connotation on things young women like and because my friends growing up were primarily male, thus I wanted to seem cool or relatable so I rejected stereotypically feminine conceptsâŠâ
â⊠What?â
Now it was a confused what.
âUh, never mind,â you laughed awkwardly, putting your phone back on your nightstand. âAnyway, Jungkook, you made me realize things about myself, and I love being around you, but I thought a handsome guy like you would want to date a pretty girl, and Iâm not really that.â
Jungkook furrowed his brows. âWhat are you talking about? Youâre the prettiest girl in the world. No one could ever be prettier than you.â
You felt your neck heat. âYo, donât inflate my ego when itâs not the truth,â you chuckled sheepishly, waving a hand. âYouâve been drinking anyway. Alcohol makes everyone prettier.â
âItâs the truth.â
Was he drunk or were you drunk? Why was Jeon Jungkook getting closer?
âWould you really date me?â
You stared into those chocolate eyes and smiled.
âYes, I would.â
And you leaned forward and kissed him.
His eyes widened, staring at you and you closed your eyes, pressing your lips to his, inhaling his scent, memories of hot summers and mirthful laughter filling your head, standing beside Jungkook and kicking Jimin and Taehyungâs ass at table tennis even though Jungkook was doing most of the work, finishing a movie together after Jimin and Taehyung had passed out on the couch on top of each other and talking excitedly about it until you both fall asleep, getting lamb skewers after Jimin and Taehyung went off to eat ramen in a huff, unable to agree on the same meal as a foursome, but it was fine, no, better than fine, perfect even.
Because you were with Jungkook.
You broke the kiss and opened your eyes, smiling at him.
He blinked slowly, looking down at you.
âNoonaâŠâ
His hand raised, fingers spreading out longingly. You quickly reached up and pushed it back down.
âJungkook, I swear, I do want to touch you in a less than holy way, but maybe not when youâre wearing my dadâs clothes, including his underwear, because thatâs really fucking weird.â
Jungkook looked down at the brown t-shirt and beige shorts. âOh. Yeah. Right.â
âYou know, come to think of it, I feel like Taehyung has slowly stolen Jimin from me over the years, so maybe this was fatedâŠâ you mumbled, remembering at the moments you had shared with Jungkook were because your other two friends had abandoned you.
âI feel you, sometimes I feel like a third wheelâŠâ
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âIâm so sleepy.â
âIâll tuck you in first, but Iâm going to get us some water so we donât die tomorrow morning.â
âUgh, Jimin, bring another pillow please.â
âHah, fine, but youâre buying breakfast tomorrowâŠâ
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