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bigmammallama5 · 1 year ago

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I hadn't realized I still had 16 days of vacation to take by the end of the year (they don't roll over, unfortunately) which means I had only taken barely four up until now, not counting some early Fridays we got this summer. No wonder I'm tired.

I'm gonna go hang out at the studio tomorrow and work on finishing up pots/pumpkins and making slip sample tiles. Maybe I'll take my little tripod and take some time lapse videos throwing stuff, I haven't done that in a few years. Maybe i'll make a poll for the first time and ask what yall are interested in seeing?

#arting #pottery #i also apparently have 40 POUNDS of porcelain on my shelf #so uh #im thinking i start to do something with that #its such a pain to throw tho #and i havent thrown in it like 5 years #but i need to use it bc that shits expensive #i should also be getting the rest of my dry materials in the mail today too #so i may try measuring and mixing that up tomorrow with an old school balance scale #but yeah like #should i make a poll #would that be helpful

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isa-ah · 2 months ago

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for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???

#my body has a lot of random weird pain frkm 26 years of bad things and every time im like #i should have written a will its really happening this time im about to drop dead #so i skitter around the house to stand close enough to someone else that theyd hear me if i fall over LMAO #insane behavior i know. i have a mountain of medical anxiety bc of my grandparents #but like i cant even wrap my head around what id do if i felt that way and was alone 24/7 at home #panic forever???#who makes you eat and shower bc its sure not MY executive function keeping me alive on the bad days LOL #id wither away if i lived alone i think #kinda sad my life went a way where thats never going to happen tho. to the end of wanting to know who id be #how would i dress and act and decorate?? eat?? what kind of dishes would i get. throw blankets too #what would i learn abt myself etc its an iteration of me that will likely never happen bc im happily married #hmmm #ur always going to wonder about the lifestyles you didnt have. thats normal #but it does make me wonder what i would have been like if i had friends and my own space #oh to be a fag making out with his friends in the privacy of his own home #or maybe thats just how i feel bc were literally married and have never been able to afford to live alone Together lol

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dvilsdesire · 2 months ago

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// Still taking a lil break as I recover from the hells burning inside my stomach from this acute gastritis and hives.

I realised that maybe I'm just becoming the devil I'm supposed to be XD reddened skin and infernal insides 🙃

#ooc #tbd #srsly tho its been really fucking painful the worst pain ive had in my life i went to the ED over it #the meds are sloooowly helping but i just need go destress and rest ✌️#love you all and im looking forward to throwing Haarlep back at you in a couple more days

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kitkatcadillac · 2 years ago

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if you piss all over a public toilet seat, and i mean just piss all the fuck over it, and then leave that for someone else to deal with because it "gives people a job to do" or it "isnt your problem" im cursing you, hexing you, dooming you a thousand lifetimes over

#like yeah okay i get the germaphobe thing and i mean dont let me as a stranger Guilt You if you really cannot force yourself to deal w/that #but for people who do this and just refuse to take responsibility and be like A Little Considerate about a space thats not theirs #im CURSING YOU cursing you cursing you. dear god #like people who throw trash on the floor in public places when theres a trash can like 7 feet away because 'gives the janitor a job'#like no. youre a slob and you have bad etiquette. outright. its so rude and nasty.#we have jobs that arent picking up the consequences of your shit attitude. i promise lmfao #skelly speaks #negative //#im on my first day of my period tho and its mega painful djdj so this is where my frustration is going LMAO #please be tidy and considerate thank you #besides like... not throwing trash on the ground makes a better space for everyone. just saying #like Everyone benefits from making better choices about making sure your trash goes into a garbage bin. thanks.

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coridallasmultipass · 16 days ago

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Me, the other night: "I may be going through a fuck of a life situation, but it could always be worse if I broke a flower pot in the shower again."

Me, today, waking up with a swollen and painful mouth infection:

#im in too much pain to find a better react #im so fucking tired #when will life stop throwing me multiple curveballs?? i dont even know how to juggle!!#im just getting hit in the face with each curveball. and it feels like it today too holy shit #im in the middle of teeth alignments for treating my tmj pain idk how im gonna go thru another root canal #my first root canal was only preceeded by hot/cold sensitivity. it never got swollen or hot #im so exhausted man. at least the regular dentist can see me today and hopefully give me antibiotics #im on immunosuppressants so i was crying this morning like damn im gonna have to go to the er for this i wont survive the weekend #im so upset tho it took me forever to fill my last prescription. so dont jinx it but i might still need to keep that er plan on hold #the good thing ab that tho is my back mri is tomorrow which is at the local er so i can do the mri and walk right over if needed #i just dont understand how this could happen i brush and floss after everything i eat or drink (so at least 3 times a day. thoroughly.)#bad genetics and stress strikes again i guess #vent #Cori.exe #Post.exe #god and i spent the last 2 days stress picking my face too so i look ROUGH right now #everything sucks lol #its right over where my wisdom tooth would have been too so like. way back there. im gonna be drinking soup for weeks #rip coris jaw. never had a chance

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darabeatha · 7 months ago

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/ ITS FINALLY HAPPENING FOLKS- c.onstantine is coming s o o n

#;ooc #ooc #HE'S COMINGGGGGGG WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭#if i recall correctly we are two years apart from the jp server #TWO YEARS..... BUT HE IS FINALLY COMING #IN ALL HIS STANDING MAN EMOJI GLORY-#i cant believe ill have him on my main account like #-cries in between my hands-#and im talking as if I'll get him BUT HEY! we gotta manifest 🙏#may everyone who plans to roll for him gets 5 copies amen 🙏#i love c.onstantine so much im im im im im #but then it hit me-- i cant throw all my savings because- RULER M.ORIARTY IS ALSO COMING-#c.harlie too but i feel like i can get him anytime for some reason; since hes quite popular im sure he'll drop more times in banners (?)#its going to be a pain to arrange my support team now bc- ody is my current main rider; but Constantine is also a rider #and i think i have billy on the special slot; AGH!#me holding my 47429743891103847 favorite characters: I CANT PICK ONE THEY ARE ALL FAVORITES #w.akamori wait for me.... -grabs his ahoge for emotional support-#I ALSI FINALLY GOT A.SHWATTHAMA! with the free 4 star ticket #i was really debating to pick him or n.ero-#i always keep delaying poor n.ero bc i feel like she drops more often on banners even tho i still dont have her #as for my savings on my jp account-- we dont talk about those 👹#-staring off the window at beautiful e.dmond d.antes that i did not get coughs-#I USED ALL MY M.OCTE AND C.AMAZOTZ SAVINGS TOO- SO IM BALD NOW #i also debated on nito my beloved for the free 4star but i thought i had her so i was like mmmm #i do have her but only on my jp account

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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SORRY TO TAKE SUCH A HARD LEFT BUT HOW DO YOU THINK JO FOUND OUT ARAKAWA WAS DEAD

IM GOING TO SCREAM IF I TRY TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOOOOO I GOTTA GET BACK TO YOU IN 5-7 BUSINESS DAYS WITH THAT ONE............

#snap chats #id shit and cry if aoki was the one that told him in a condescending/bitchy way yk what i mean #like as if to jab at jo like 'oh dont worry about dealing with dad- since you were too incompetent to do it i had someone else handle it'#not that word for word im SURE but yk what i mean. just GENERALLY thats the energy #the timing of this ask is soooo funny i was just talkin to my twit friend bout arasawa #and how youve been inspiring me to draw it more again as of late and this is NOT helping !!!! i am ADDING IT to my LIST #cause i want to be in pain i guess (;´༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`) I JUST SEE IT SO CLEARLY IN MY HEAD EGUUUGHH #im still gonna chew on the idea of How tho im still gonna chew on it cause i have other stuff lined up Obvi but..... OUGH PAIN...#verrrrry awkward when i post a thing in liek an hour cause that shit gon be a lil cute so then i just got this in the back of my dome ☠️☠️#thank you........#throwing up as i remember aoki being like 'you're acting strange lately' brb #OUUGHHGH dying.#LIKE IM JUST THINKIG OF ALL THE EMOTIONS JO WOULDVE BEEN FEELING- /ESP/ IF HE WAS IN FRONT OF AOKI #how would he even cope... i mean judging by the eye scene Not Well butu OUUGHvLKJVALKJ #ITS THE CONFLICTED FEELINGS AGAIN CAUSE LIKE he SHOUULDNT care as much as he does right...#arakawa was just his boss... but if THAT was the case why not take him out when jo was first asked too.....#aoki is his priority in life right...... arakawa wasn't supposed to be anyone important BUT THEN HE DID BECOME IMPORTANT #making myself throw up #anyway this is why jo shouldve been allowed to rip tendo to shreds. in my humble opinion. <- sobbing #NAWWW IT THE WAY I HAVE TO GO OUT WITH MY SIS RIGHT AFTER THIS WELKFJALFKJLKVJ #I CANT BE NORMALLLLL

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#what does one do when their perception cannot b trusted? im so physically and emotionally exhausted #and i can go from feeling hopelessly terminally bad to completely normal for no apparent reason. and on occasion i can go from normal to i #think i can stay up all night. i never have to sleep again. look how great i can focus. i could kill god.#and i have no emotional object permanence so it feels so stupid when im normal. i cant sympathize with myself in altered states of mind #and it doesnt matter but it makes me crazy the idea that i might not b bip0lar but i just push myself so far that under pressure my mind #splits into the catastrophically positive or negative. but i feel like this is how i have to live. i have to b perfect or pay a blood debt #and thats just how it is. and thats how its been. so at this point ive spend thr last idk 15 years of my life being d #some measure of miserable for no reason. i dont kno y i do this to myself and im 26 now and idk how to stop bc even pushing myself as hard #as i can im so far behind. how am i supposed to do less and not #and not just quit. im compulsive for a reason. there's a fundamental barrier between myself and understanding language but if i do more and #more and more then i can at least try to keep up with everyone else. idk im so tired. and im 26 and im afraid im stuck like this #and i cant even... its like ive split my head in 2 to cope. ive created distance within myself so that i cant fully feel how terrible i make #things for myself. half my brain is always like lol suffer idiot. it throws off my therapists bc i cant take my own pain seriously. ill #laugh and smile while im like yea i feel horrible like most of the time and i dont kno what to do lol. idk so it goes. i think im gonna stop #with the birth control tho. as it doesnt seem to help with my sadness levels. idk if ite making ot worse or not. guess well find out #itll b easier once i dont have to b trained on things. then i wont have to ask a question and burst into tears on my lab mate 🙄#unrelated

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phagodyke · 2 years ago

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istg one of these days.......

#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game #one of my fave posts ever in the world #anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me #its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭#ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭#like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay #bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS #anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!!#its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought #so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy #but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr #itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST #i wouldnt do that to him god forbid #buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am #this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night #need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:|#its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves #i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good #ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone #muah all round #.diaries

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firefly-fez · 2 years ago

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what no one tells you about autism is that befriending a new autistic person is a process of learning their own unique language of love. are they comfortable with eye contact? physical touch? hugs or no hugs? special interest? what textures do they like? should we converse about the special interest or just spend some time with limited conversation just vibing in each other’s company? for neurotypicals there’s like this boring standardized List of Rules that you Have to Follow Or Else! but for my autistic friends out there the rules don’t apply!! they way they connect is each so unique and personal to them that the discovery of getting to know a new person ceases to be this laborious task of following Social Rules until you get comfortable enough to do away with them, but with autistic ppl you get to throw away the stupid rule book right from the get go and embark on a personal adventure of friendship anew, like there’s a secret language you’re uncovering and evey time you successfully connect you feel that magic of blossoming friendship tenfold. shoutout to all my autistic homies out there, you’re not weird, you’re not a burden, there’s nothing wrong with the way that you specifically connect with others and actually i have decided that it is beautiful ✨ ✨

what no one tells you about being autistic is people just don’t like you. maybe you make friends, but they get tired of you fast. even if you’re not actively bullied, your peers just…. don’t pay attention to you. something about you is offputting and weird to mostly everyone, and you literally cannot stop it no matter how hard you try.