#its ok this isnt a vent im laughing

[wish-i-were-heather]

my mom just told me "you need to be assessed" 💀💀

[born2b-beheaded]

Can we normalize not making fun of people for their age like It is not my fault i just started highschool brother

[nebulastarss]

*watching someone die brutally in a horror movie*

Mom: what? Why don't you want to look at the screen? It's not real, it's just special effects.

*playing a video game where 2 characters we will never see again happen to be a happy lesbian couple (I only figured it out by context clues)*

Mom: ����😡

[crushedsweets]

How do they make fun of Nina?

AHHH i have such a long answer for this cuz its smth that i think abt a lot but i havent really talked abt it bc i get so frustrated On her behalf LOL...ill try to be quick

they'll harmlessly tease her for a lot of stuff like her clothes("who the hell wears knee high converse still"), dating choices ("and why exactly are you with that loser"), general dramatic behavior ("can you calm down nina its not that deep"), etc.

most of the time, she can brush it off like "OH MY GODDD guys you just dont get itttttttt" and giggle cuz she trusts theyre just teasing affectionately. but sometimes she gets defensive, or they catch her at a bad time, or it's a very specific phrase that gets her really worked up. and toby/clocky dont know when to back down, cuz theyre stubborn and think shes too sensitive if she gets upset

...so.

in that specific comic, i was imagining she was venting about stupid work drama. toby starts laughing at her, clocky is like "youre so dumb why are you getting involved with that shit". nina's been having a rough week so she gets kinda snappy going on about "its my job i spend half my week there and im friends with some of them like im gonna get involved clocky". meanwhile, toby and clocky just keep ragging on her about how shes alwaaayyysss in drama, always getting worked up, shes so sensitive, generally kinda talking down on her. and eventually shes like HOLY FUCK IHATE YOU GUYS SHUT UP

ok i know im the one who headcanoned them like this but toby and clocky make me so mad for this LMMMAAAOOOOOO

theyre huge stubborn hypocrites who think that THEIR emotional responses are displays of strength/self respect/power, while nina and jacks are displays of weakness/being a doormat. they believe that nina and jacks kindness, sensitivity, and desire for connection is pathetic, and these qualities of theirs get amplified when theyre together. which is why they validate their behavior while making fun of ninas

clocky is first to finally settle down and realize she's being an asshole because this is how SHE learned to protect herself through years of abuse and bullying, but not how NINA learned to protect herself through her own abuse/bullying. something about fight, freeze, fawn, flee all being different, but valid, responses to trauma

I'D ALSO LIKE TO SAY nina isnt the like group punching bag or anything by any means. theyre all still very protective of her, care about her, and do take care of her in their own ways. kate doesnt make fun of her at all (just cuz kate doesnt really sit around and make fun of anyone but toby), and jack is much more in tune with boundaries and her emotions. toby and nina are just the easiest to mess with cuz they both give funny reactions

[cursingcrona]

THE INTERNAL FIGHT I HAD WITH MYSELF OVER THOSE OPTIONS IS SO CONCERNING 😭😭 /sillywilly

i had to pick a neutral option because i feared like, its so stupid, but i had this thing say like "ohh wings are like so important to our relationship with apollon lets choose that" but then like "ok but if we get close enough to asmodeus for nicknames & symbols or whatever then we'll feel bad so" does that make sense????? im sorry lol

i decided to go with🦉because owls are my newest special interest at the moment, i hope thats ok!! (& speaking of nicknames, THANK YOUUU for wanting to give me a proper way of addressing, i love nicknames so much, ugh)

but, i don't wanna overwhelm you or anything with my questions, so i'll for 1 make this the last one for the day, and 2, do you have boundaries do you have that i should keep in mind?

and, you said anything can be devotional, how i can decide whats big and whats not.. thats so freeing but so worrying lol. like we know, i cant practice openly, so i try to do "discreet" things. for apollon, i paint for him, devote a plush and give offerings of matching jewelry, ect. i find it super easy to do devotional things! but, with the way i've seen people paint infernals in general online, it scares me to think i'll be like "my king!! (insert nickname or smth), i made you this!" or "i did this in honor of you!" and him going "... ok??"

i actually used to work with dionysus! (i plan to continue when i move out, but,) unfortunately i did have to distance myself and focus on a single deity, because i suck at multi-tasking my worship, and i have a serious fear of spending "too much" time with a deity, or, "too little." i don't want any of my deities to feel "unloved" or something because i feel shy or something around them at first.

i don't wanna seem weird, or cringey. especially with how sometimes i'll have to just randomly put up my pendulum or something in the middle of a conversation because my mom walked in or something.

i've seen a lot of people say "oh lucifer hates people with trauma" or something, and i know asmodeus isnt lucifer, but it's a little scary to think i'll end up ugly-crying in front of him one day and he's just gonna disappear. i really hate the thought of being abandoned, especially by my deities, so i get so skeptical of them at some point. like, apollon was reassuring me like 5 times a day or something that he wasn't tricking me, hating me, going to just pack his bags and dip out randomly, ect. and it scares me to think asmodeus is going to see my trauma, and, idk, laugh? i know it ultimately comes up to how our relationship goes, but, i genuinely feel safe with king, he doesn't scare me, per say. i just, don't know.

.. sorry if i got a little too heavy or something there! but, thank you so much for being really attentive to my long asks. it means a lot! i really appreciate the help <3

-🦉

Hi Nonnie!! I'll cover the non-religious here, then under the cut I'll dive into the ask!

I really like the Owl you chose! I wanted to keep your options narrow cause decisions scare me ^^"

I always, on all of my accounts, try to keep answers as long as I can; sometimes it's hard!

It means alot you'd even consider my boundaries!!

Honestly, I don't really care what's in my inbox! Vents, asks, questions, comments, corrections, concerns! I love it all!! If someone wanted to DM me I'd be ok there too! My only really trigger religion wise is cults, though I won't be getting into that ^^"

It's a very valid concern to worry about spending "too much" or "too little" time with your deities. I worry about that all the time with my five about to be six! I think you made the right choice going for something neutral!

I also understand, the gut wrenching fear of a deity abandoning you. It's not necessarily abandoning you. Many deities come with lessons, and once they've taught you their lessons, they'll leave.. It's sad, and hurts. When Lucifer and Lilith left me, it took everything in my power to not bawl. It hurt, but they had taught me what I needed to know, and knew I would be ok without them by my side.

Deities may be made out as if they don't want anything to do with your life outside of worship, but that's how you build a more personal relationship! Ugly crying in front of your deities isn't anything to apologize for, it's human. Naturally and truly human. You don't have to apologize for being human.

Deity work is alot, but i truly believe you'll make it through without being abandoned.

You can decide what's "big" and "little" based off anything! Expense, size, how it looks, etc!

All of these things can make something a big or little offering or devotion. But even if something dedicated to a deity isn't indicative of how worthy it is of a deity!

I think that's about all i have for this ask, very sorry it's so short!! Blessed Be 🦉 Nonnie

[hyunincr]

i hate school ♫

im at my “summer vacation” (here in brazil its not even summer btw) and i spent my whole vacation trying to became a better person, and change some behaviors in my personality that i dont like. i focused on myself and im really proud for that, i have been taking care of myself !

cw :: vent post

but yesterday i started to became anxious abt the first day in school (it’ll be next week), i remembered certain arguments that i had with some teachers and i was so embarrassed that i couldn’t sleep.

im really worried about reproving, im in the last year and i just want to be free of high school, i really dont want to make this year again. i suck in every subject in school, im always with bad grades, and my friends, family and teachers think that i simply choose to be like that. they think that having bad grades is an option…

last year i tried to focus A LOT on studying, and i still had bad grades. i was giving my best at that, and was really frustrating. i think that im so bad at this bcs i have adhd, but it’s not a plausible excuse. people don’t understand that, that i dont learn like the other people in class, and that im making my BEST every day.

the week after the vacation, the chemistry teacher #1 caught me on my phone, and he spent the next 1 hour dropping hints to me and talking that he would take off class the people that was on phone. and he has this obsession over calling me out. like leave me alone im not a horrible person bcs i committed a mistake one time.

and in the same week, but a few days later, the chemistry teacher #2 (we has different teachers to organic and inorganic chemistry) shouted at me and my friend bcs we are talking too loud. first that we aren’t the only ones chatting in the class, we count like more 3 groups talking too. but why he scolded us and not the others too ??? i was so sad bcs he was screaming and swearing at too 17yo girls just bcs they’re talking like ??????? it was so agressive and i was so uncomfortable. the kids that dont like me started laughing, and i was so sad :( he could have corrected us in a calmer way, i wouldn’t complain bcs he would be right, but screaming ? and swearing ?

but anyways, im so anxious to come back :( everyday its a fight to me, bcs its exhausting to be in a classroom when no one likes me and the teachers also dont like me. i usually just start to draw on my notebook, but the teachers say that im not paying attention to their subject. but its really heavy, i need to draw to clean my head a bit and distract to continue without having a burnout. their exam its like 10 questions (5 for side a, 5 for side b) but with 6 topics to study (each side) its even possible to study 12 topics, i cant even study one properly :(

its so heavy, and i just cant handle. im having 3 in EVERY subject (0 min. 10 max.). my self esteem isnt affected by this (i know that school’s not for me and its ok, im smart at other things) but i really care abt other people talk abt me and my grades. and sometimes it’s tiring to handle at my family’s reaction :/

but i’ll try to focus on myself again and not worry abt this until the comeback day.

[myownprivatcidaho]

ok so. why not. basically i got there and there were just 2 ppl in the room, Him & some other guy, both in the second row. i put my stuff down where i usually do in the first row. literally as soon as i started doing that he got up and moved to the first row one chair over from me

so its like. ok. youre doing that okay alright okay.

then another girl comes in and sits between us like this a few minutes later

so then we do warmups and there was a little game everyone played it was like 7 people in the class today and it whittled down to just me & him in the final round. im not gonna bother describing the sexual tension but you get the idea. also i made a joke about just fighting it out, and then made a reference to the song the final countdown that he got and hummed along and then we both made eye contact and went stiff like 😐😐🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️ then we played and we were both super focused maintaining eye contact but then i laughed and he won. thanks universe. and then i made another joke about just fighting it out (what can i say im a sore loser) and i think he thought i was a bit too serious cause he laughed more nervously but not even that much but there was Fear in his eyes. which is fair because i WAS a bit too serious.

anyways then i mentioned transferring schools and he was a little too enthusiastic when i said im staying in this area (for reasons ive vented about on here) (and also mentioned his school is one of my options) so we talked a bit about that. (his school is my least favorite option for reasons not even related to him tho). anyways ill elaborate on this later

THEN we taped our scenes (today was SUPER fun holy shit i loved it). so THEN when he came back in he changed seats so it was like this

by this point i wanted to punch his face and/or google if shaken baby syndrome can affect 19 year olds cause aside from excitement and flattery i wanted to enact physical harm. THEN after we taped AGAIN he moved seats AGAIN to sit right befuckinghind me

like okay jesus christ dude whats your deal.

so thats the most notewory stuff that happened. keep in mind ive mentioned on here that talking about shit that happens in everyday life is hard on a platform people go to for entertainment and consumption (like this is the same space people will discuss fictional stories and talk about Implications between people. irl stuff is incredibly underwhelming in comparison) so it all looks like im making mountains out of molehills. but bear with me yk this isnt the same as a written story where Unless its intentionally leading up to something it means absolutely nothing. yk?

anyways he also wasnt wearing his rings which. GOOD he should be consistent with people (still kinda stung to see tho yk. like that whole thing last semester was one of the most gaslightable things to ever occur. and like. heres acknowledgment and confirmation that there was a little game we had fun with and its only being recognized because its gone). but like. he was still looking at me throughout the class and looking away when i caught him (it happened much less though which is overall good). and also flexed his hands/fingers a little bit and idk if it was intentional (even though it was always where i could see it) but either way i paid it no mind. but yeah the moving seats continuously was especially weird (nobody else was doing it everyone was just sticking to their same seats so. ?????????). also like when i started walking out the door to leave he started hurrying out of the room despite saying something to someone else and ended up walking like a few feet behind me. again seems like nothing when its typed out but its weird as hell when it happens real time

so idk yeah thats today idk what that guy wants or if he was wanting to say something or if.he just likes being close to me and talking to me even if that never goes further. or if he was hoping to talk later i dont know. i dont know

[lemonietrinket]

How Day6 would comfort you when you come home crying

warnings: some foul language 

an: i was informed about how little day6 content there was (ty @justcuz-ican), so here is more these are written for people who prefer physical active comfort rather than being left alone when upset, so i may write a set of reactions for people who are the other way round

all members under the cut :)

Sungjin

he may not be used to openly discussing feelings but that does not mean he doesn’t care

he loves you so much and so dearly that seeing you cry will wreck him

i have no doubts he would drop everything for you if the time called for it

he’s a very good listener, and will remain quiet if you need to vent

he is a fixer, and so when you explain what happened, and if you want help, he will do his damn best to make it all ok again

will 100% sort it for you all by himself (if you don’t want him to, you might want to, like... stop him before he does real quick)

he’s very loyal ok so will take your side no matter what

when it comes to comfort it would depend on how long you’ve been together for

if it’s still early days (by his standards), he will try his best to offer verbal support, and then help you continue with your day to the best of both of your ability

however if you’ve been together for a long while

so long that no one, including yourselves, can see yourself with anyone else

he will be a lot more affectionate on top of the above

that’s when you know that you’ve caught his heart without a catch or caveat

will hold you close in a simple but in no way inferior embrace

and trust me, sungjin hugs are phenomenal

and so these are no different

he’s just so soft, you would be so warm and secure in his arms, sobs gradually coming to a stop as your tears dried upon his shirt

i have a lot of feels for sungjin ok

Jae

cuddles + distraction king

will send little messages of support throughout the day if you choose/are able to text him about how bad things are going

as soon as you come home he will take you into his arms

will dry your tears with his fingers as best he can

seeing you upset has the capability to make him very nearly cry too, depending on what it is and how bad (and his day too)

will take the two of you to somewhere comfortable

whether it be sofa or bed or wherever, just somewhere close and safe

he gets it, you need the security

will settle you into his lap and that’s it, that’s your home now

strokes your hair and will speak no louder than a murmur for you

if you want to talk about it, he will listen and comment where he can

lots of verbal support

won’t leave your side until you stop crying, no joke

if/when you need distracting, those movies are going on bois

or he will play a video game if you’d prefer something different

is not above deliberately being bad and making stupid commentary to make you laugh

by the end the sadness will feel like it happened in another time

jae is just that good

Younghyun

will not stop fawning over you

he’s affectionate anyway

so when he sees you upset he tries to give you as much of it as possible

back rubs, cuddles, forehead and cheek kisses, the full lot

so gentle

so good to vent to because his advice is really sound

he doesn’t want to leave your side, but will make exceptions

and so will bring you pretty much anything and everything to try and make it better

from tissues to snacks to his special hoodies you name it

once you stop crying, your treatment doesn’t stop there

nope, sorry, that’s not how kang younghyun rolls

on the day he will make you food, yes

and then he will coax you into sleep (probably spooning or with your head on his chest, he likes that) 

then the next time you’re together, prepare yourself

as even if your day has been fine and all your problems are sorted, he’s taking you out to a lovely restaurant 

or taking you shopping and buying the shit you saw in the shop window and didn’t buy for frankly no good reason

he wants the week to balance out at the very least

because he may not be able to fix the actual problems that made you upset, but in a way he can make it up to you

even though its 90% of the time never his fault

overall, get yourself a youngk yall

Wonpil

my babie is a sensitive soul

im not saying he’s going to weep with you when you come home after your god awful day

but will he tear up? 

yes

he’s a bit of an emotion sponge i get that and seeing you hurt just rubs onto him

doesn’t know what to do really, so may flounder slightly at times

he’s used to you being quite the rock

but he’s an affection king so prepare to be smothered because he isn’t changing now

will be 100x more gentle though

if that’s possible

...yeah it’s possible

cups your cheeks so carefully as if you’re made of glass

he’ll catch your tears on the corners of his sleeves

and then will proceed to do and give you everything that makes him feel better when he’s upset

so his plushie, his blankets, his food, the lot

and then will make it a special night for you

meaning, the softest night in you could imagine

understands you the best, and will say the right thing at the right time

loyal once again, so will always take your side too

and will hold a grudge

even if the problems are sorted the very next day, if a person caused them, he will not trust them until they give him a good reason to like... ever again lol

even if you insist that they’re not as bad anymore

they’ll just be known as ‘the prick that made y/n cry’ and will get glares from him if they see him in the street

of course if they apologise and prove that they’ve improved then he’s back to being a sunshine 

mostly

honestly i think wonpil could be strangely threatening if he really, really wanted to be

tho tbh i am biased bc if i disappointed him once i would cry on the spot so idk

Dowoon

sweet babe

wouldn’t quite know what to do at first

especially if it’s still early days in your relationship

not amazing at talking but will try his hardest

same applies for physical comfort

you may have to initiate if it’s the very first time if you want a hug sorry

but he will learn quickly

and will go from holding you close and secure while quietly listening to you vent

to recognising something is wrong by your text aura alone

and preparing things if he can for when you get home

would make a small pillow fort for you ngl

i then see him making small changes to his behaviour that mean big things

so yes, when your relationship is strong and stable, he will cradle you just how you like

and no kidding his back rubs are really comforting

but for the rest of the week he will be super careful

and so will take on a few more chores despite the fair distribution you have going so far 

when walking together in public he will normally hold your hand, but for the few days after he will actually put an arm around you instead

and when at home he’ll definitely sit a lot closer to you

going out of his way to work in the same room or a seat closer to you despite being already set up elsewhere

small text messages throughout the day checking if everything is fine, and if any people that caused you issues have done anything else

he remembers you see

he’ll probably return to his slightly shy and normal self after but it doesn’t mean you’re not important to him

after all, i can see him growing used to moving to join you when you come home, and so that may become a common occurrence once he is sure you want that too

overall, a caring boyfriend, just in a more subtle way

~~~

an: i feel this isnt as put together as my others but i hope its still legible and worthwhile

masterlist

[uwuowotf2waslife]

I broke (another) sewing machine and now I feel like a terrible human being can I get the mercs reacting to a S/O who gets really cut up over the dumbest things

although somewhat not relatble for me per say, please always remember that thats what being human is, as we say in my language “im a human i do mistakes, im a mistake i do humans”, hope my post helps

Scout

😶 he might be a dumbass, but he is a sensitive dumbass: he does the smallest slip up and then feels like a massive idiot and then he feels guilty over that and feels worse because he shouldnt feel like that..you catch my drift, he overthinks as fast as he runs

😶 starts cracking jokes at you to lighten up your mood

😶 so what you broke a sewing machine? he once kicked through a wall, or that  yeeted himself to the couch straight on one of his bros that was sleeping because he didnt pay attention to his surroundings or that time...just keeps talking to make you laugh and feel better

Soldier

😶 can’t relate but he sees you upset and he mad

😶 rocketjumps his way to the shop and (steals) buys you a new one

😶 makes a speech of how unamerican is the way you treat yourself and just sits down and promises you together will overcome that like the soldiers you are

Pyro

😶 concern, why s/o sad?

😶 they try to light up your mood by letting you burn down the sewing machine,if the problem is unfixable or taking it asap to Engie if the problem isnt as severe

😶 if everything fails , hey you can always draw together and snuggle with Balloonicorn

Engie

😶 ain’t a problem for this mechanical mastermind, just real quick fixes it up and perhaps add a new one or two features ( engie why a sewing machine has a nano-sentry on it? It needs more gun hun)

😶 for pretty much anything else, he just lets you vent your frustation while he works 

😶 will make you some ice tea tho, and give a good hug if you are too sad

Demo

😶 scrumpy time, sorry not sorry this man has bad copying mechanisms

😶 you two vent and just expell all your frustations till you pass out tangled up together

😶 ngl, its very cathartic and after the monster of  a hangover youll have

Heavy

😶 coming from a place where everything was in scarsity and now living the capitalistic utopia america is, he lowkey thinks you are exxeragating

😶 buys you a new one asap and just sits close to you while you sew, it brings back memories from when he was back in russia and his mother would teach him and his sisters basic sewing or when his mother would sew his coat after it was ripped to shreds by his bear hunting

😶 his vocabulary is limited, but he knows that everyday frustations can be solved easily by just listening to the other peson venting or just some good steaming tea and a good cuddle in front of the fire or tv

Medic

😶 a good doctor he is, knows the best medicine for frustation is logic

😶 so what you broke a stupid sewing machine? he has done medical malpractisies noone has even heard before, you didnt stole a mans skeleton for gods sake or inserted various questionable animal organs in your teamates bodies ( unethical scientific research its expensive you know, noone has money for bribing unwilling guinea p-i mean willing volunteers)

Sniper

😶 relates to an ugly extent

😶 tries to turn your frustation to prodactivity, whats the point of whining when you can learn essential life skills like shooting a snipeer rifle or making a fire using only your bare hands and a bunch of sticks?

😶 he just listens and nods, will hug you though at the end and kiss your head as a “ I understand but everything will be ok, Im here”

Spy

😶 being the psychotic control freak he is, he understandsyour frustation but too late, a brand new sewing machine is being shipped up from a master sweing-machine maker in Switzerland

😶 his only copying mechanisms are: ciggaretes, sophisticated wine drinking and sex so he’ll offer those optoions, it’s upto you to decide what fits better the situation

😶 ngl, in the relationship if you last long enough he will just shrug it off and just kiss you enough to kick your frustations out of the window

[revol-lover]

gotta vent.

so we live in an apartment, well a two family home but the same thing. We live on second floor. for the past 3/4 years the people who lived below us were the people who owned the house and they were really nice, we were all as considerate of each other and whatnot and we had literally no problems. not a single one. well last fall they bought their retirement home, a single family. so they rented the first floor out to new people who moved in in february. literally they have caused issues since almost the beginning. theyre super loud and inconsiderate with their music but we figured, like we’re not going to be here forever (or much longer hopefully) so we just dealt with it. until we started hearing them mock our child. ok. thats frustrating. but what can we do. we dealt with it. julia does wake up at 6am most days which is early, but we do our best and pretty much successfully keep the noise level down in the morning by letting her watch cartoons and what not. the girl who lives down ther works but the guy is home all day playing video games in the back room, blasts his games, swears and bangs his feet on the ground all damn day. its fucking annoying. but we dealt with it. because again. we’re hoping to move soon.

then the day before last night they were super loud. starting as soon as we put julia to bed (which they know exactly when that is because i’ve heard them mocking me singing you are my sunshine to her. really mature fucking assholes) they started stomping their feet, banging furniture, yelling and screaming noises and shit all night until literally 11 pm when they went to bed (their bedroom under ours) and were talking loud and laughing. opening draws and closing them. i had an anxiety attack that lasted literally hours and didnt fall asleep until after midnight.

then LAST night was the fucking worst. it started with music at 5:30 pm. ok cant complain about that. it wasn't late. then they had friends over. who were yelling and screaming. then the music got louder. stomping. yelling. banging on table. literally the music was so loud our floor was vibrating. completely inappropriate. this went on at max volume until 9:30 when i finally had enough. kevin was frustrated and loudly said something about them being fucking animals. so they started howling. great. they were very clearly extremely drunk or high by the way they sounded so we didnt feel comfortable even confronting them (they were being so fucking immature that i dont how anything would have come of it). 

so at 930 i texted our landord. i didnt know what else i was supposed to do. i let her know whats going on. she asked me if i thought they were doing it “purposefully” i mean? yes? tf? anyway she said they would come over and talk to them. an entire hour passes. they dont show up. music/screaming/banging gets louder and louder. meanwhile julia has woken up numerous times through this, clearly isnt able to stay asleep with the noise and vibration of the music. so an hour after i texted my landlord. their music stops and it sounds like the girl is on the phone. suddenly shes got the phony professional serious voice and says something about they stopped at 930 (not true). hung up. music back immediately along with screaming profanities and banging shit. this went on until 11 pm. landlord never followed up with me and i figured well shit they waited an entire hour to even call them not show up like they said they would, clearly they dont fucking care. 11pm came, their friends left, screaming in the hallway before they did then they were silent. i was so riled up on anxiety i got literally like no sleep last night before julia of course woke up at 5:40am because she had a horrible nights sleep.

this just fucking sucks. 

like why. i dont get it. are they seriously trying to retaliate for us having a KID? a 2 year old? who is stuck in the house for way more than she used to be since the quarantine shit? like she’s honestly not even that loud. yes she sings. yes she dances around and runs back and forth sometimes but like i’m sorry shes a fucking kid. how sick do you  have to be to try to punish a little girl for being a damn little girl? and its not anything else because kevin and i do not make noise. we never play our music or tv loud. we have always been considerate. i just cant believe that there are people like this out there that are this fucking immature.  and you know if you have a problem with a kid being a kid then idk maybe knock on our door and talk to us? see if theres ANYTHING we can do? dont just be an asshole and intentionally try to ruin her sleep at night. like i have never been a violent person in my life but these people make me so unbelievably angry with how cruel they are being. like yes it would bother me if it was just me and kevin dealing with this. but a 2 year old? theyre trying to bother a 2 yr old? like seriously?

anyway. if you have any spare good vibes to give i’d really appreciate them. im literally terrified to go to our laundry in the basement because i dont want to face these fucking assholes. i dont feel safe here anymore. 

we have some potential moving options MAYBE coming up. so if you have any good vibes at all i’d really appreciate it. i just want my kid to have her own space so she can be a kid without this bullshit.

[bukatra]

Guys, i am going to vent about a guy i like. Im absolutely sure he isnt on tumblr, so its fine.

His name is Bret. He is sooo cute. Hes really tall and thicc and just badically is a giant next to my skinny 5'4 self. Hes like, thicc thor, but with tony starks goatee, but its all dyed bright colors. He is fae!kin and a street magician and can do all sorts of tricks with coins and stuff that never ever fails to amuse me. He is so funny in the kind of way that makes you groan like your dying because how can anyone have such aweful puns. Oh god. Hes spent whole days making me laugh so hard with his unending puns and word play. And hes super sweet. I have D.I.D, otherwise known as multiple personality disorder, and he makes each and every alter feel special and cared about. We all love him. He is super sensual too, evwn when he isnt trying to be. He just... Ugh. Some things he dpes send my belly into a tail spin and thei arent even sexual. Fuck hes so hot. Hes literally my best friend.

Heres the issue.

Now, im a transman, or a nonbinary afab who typically presents as male, and im also hella asexual.

Hes gay, and hella sexual.

Weve talked about getting together and he was like "i dont think itd work because 1. your ace and im not, 2. I honestly prefer to have sex with dicks, im not really attracted sexually to vaginas, 3. You have a child alter and i see in a fatherly way and thays sort of creepy to me." And i was like "ok, that makes sense. I understand. We can still be friends"

And we are. Except hes always so lonely and wants a boyfriend so bad and he thinks he isnt getting one because he is fat and unattractive and im sitting here just dying to date him and dying to kiss his belly and tell him how adorable he is and i just ache from wanting to be with him so bad. I keep wondering if we could somehow make it work, but i know if i sid the whole sex thing to make him happy id be Miserable. And if he gave up sex completely HE would be Miserable and it wouldnt be worth being miserable, but sometimes i wonder ig it is and ive literally cried because he is so freaking amaxing and it breaks my heart that i am the only one who sees it and i cant do anything about it because we are just too wromg for each other.

Anyway, thanks for listening.

[ocean-butch]

How is cas different from ur other girlfriends

akcjwjxia i had to wait like SIX HOURS to answer this bc of a goddamn test i had bUT OH BOY ANON AM I GONNA LOVE DOING IT alfjadjsk i just love talking about my gf i love her so much i wanna gush about her 25/8

the short answer would be basically in every way bUt imma do it part by part.

okay so, in a simplified version i’ve had relationships with people whose personalities worked well with me but who were shitty girlfriends or a good girlfriend who just didnt really fit with my personality. i’ve actually given that so much thought even before i met cass, but the point is that i met her and she was just perfect for me in both ways (technically its more complicated bc theres a bunch of logic into this that im not explaining bc my mind is weird and it would be Way too long but anyways). but ok let get into How she fits me perfectly.

first of all literally no one ever in my entire life has made me laugh as easily and genuinely as she does. im not even exaggerating, like laughing was never really A Thing for me to look for in girls bc it just never happened???? like i had fun conversations and stuff but there was never anyone that made me go “holy shit i have never laughed this much with anyone else” and we have So many inside jokes, which is a thing that i almost never have????? and i always used to wish i did bc everyone would talk about it and i’d feel like i just wasnt funny and That was the problem. and also this is really important bc its one of the things that made me realize that i liked (and eventually, came to love) her. bUT its not the only one so theres also like all these things that we like and we can talk about for HOURS like i remember when i watched infinity war and the first thing i did when i got home was call her and we talked about it for like 2 hours idek but it was great. the point is, we have a bunch of shared interests (which isnt like 100% necessary but its still really nice), wHICH LEADS ME TO: her music taste is amazing and i love that so much bc i love music With My Entire Soul and its the best thing in the fucking world (after cass & my friends and tied with the ocean) but yeah thats great too. AND i think more importantly than the last 2 things is that she is literally so fucking easy to talk to. like ever since the beginning we didnt really have that awkward phase where we run out of things to talk about and the conversation keeps dying like we never had that it just flowed so well and that was such a good feeling. another thing is also how comfortable i feel talking to her.

like i have never felt this way with any of my girlfriends bc i was always scared that i was gonna be annoying or say something Wrong and they’d start to realize i sucked and then break up with me, but shes just so kind and idk she just has this way about her that makes me feel at home and its always been there like i dont believe in love at first sight or anything like that but i swear to god the day after i met her i already felt like i could tell her anything and that was such a comforting thing and i needed that so badly at the time. i dont feel like i was able to describe this aspect very well tbh like im not doing it justice. like, she makes me feel like im not annoying at all, and like i could just randomly start ranting about anything and she would be like super invested in it, and just literally so comfortable in every sense of the word. she is my home, no ifs ands or buts, i just feel it every single time that we talk or that i simply think about her, and i have never felt this so clearly with anyone. and i think this comfort i feel with her is kinda connected with how she has always made me felt so appreciated, in a way that no one has ever done. like, i had like 2 tags about my wants and needs in a relationship, there was “my dream girl” to remind me that i shouldnt settle for anyone after i got out of a rlly bad relationship, and there was “things i wish someone would tell me” after my “first” relationship (i dont really count it bc Officially™ we only dated for a week) because my gf at the time would almost never be affectionate with me and it made me really insecure so i started that tag as a way to vent kinda. anyways my point is that i made those tags bc i would always feel super anxious in my relationships bc i never really felt loved or even wanted (aka the good personalities awful gfs relationships) i just felt like a burden and it was such a big thing for me.

okay now i’ll say that there Kinda was an exception to this before cass, because it would be unfair to say that that relationship was detrimental to my mental health, but it was still different. like, that ex did make me feel wanted most times, but not only did i still have A Lot of insecurities about the whole thing bc of some things she would say and do or not say and not do and i’d get like super uncomfortable or just sad really but also bc whenever the conversation would start to die out i was Absolutely Certain that she was gonna break up with me. it was pretty bad im not even joking. and like ofc my anxiety isnt her fault OR responsibility and like sure i still get anxious about cass sometimes but its not like that its basically just when she doesnt answer for a long time i think that something bad might have happened but even when my rude ass brain does try to tell me that she doesnt love me i KNOW that its not true, and that is a kind of peace that i have never ever had before. but anyways, so that was the good gf whose personality didnt fit mine and its weird now bc that is so obvious but i really didnt wanna believe it at the time even though i knew it wasnt gonna work out, but now its just really weird ngl (but i wont get into the why).

and now cass. wow okay let me tell you about cass. she is perfection. she is literally everything i have ever wanted AND things i didnt even know i wanted. she is everything no one else ever was and i just remembered that when we started dating in may i said that exact same sentence to abby. its just so true, she really is everything that no one else could be. because theyre not her. i’ve said this a lot of times but i really dont see how i could ever love anyone else after loving her, it just doesnt make sense to me because she really is like,, as good as it gets. there is no one better than her for me. we’re literally meant to be i s2g like when we broke up for a while i would tell everyone i wasnt really trying to move on at all bc i just hoped she would come back to me and i couldnt miss that chance. i knew she was my soulmate, although at some points i lost almost all hope (but never all) and i started thinking that maybe she was the love of my life but i wasnt the love of hers. and thats bc she really is everything ive ever dreamed of like she has all these little things that she does or say that sometimes wouldnt even mean anything to other people but to me they are So important bc theyre things ive dreamed about while my ex girlfriends ignored me akcjsjxn like, i was talking about how comfortable she feels to me and a big part of that comes from little things like the fact that even when we were just friends she would spam me when i was gone for a long time and that not only made me feel missed and appreciated but also it meant i could do that to her and it wouldnt be annoying bc she felt the same!! like, she missed me too! and me knowing that she actually Wanted to talk to me and the fact that she actually showed me she cared was super great when we started dating bc it made me feel like if i was feeling sad or insecure, i could literally just ask her to be a little more affectionate and it wouldnt feel fake bc i actually knew she cared. and you have No idea how much that meant to me bc i literally didnt know it was possible for me to feel that way. like honestly i thought it was an innate aspect of who i am that like if i asked for affection it would be meaningless? bc i’d be lowkey forcing the person to say something? but with her it felt different bc we had enough intimacy for me to feel comfortable enough to do that.

HOWEVER i never actually Had to do that bc i got insecure exactly once (1) on the first night we started dating back in may bc i didnt know how much she liked me and i was like in love with her so i thought she would think i was too much and then i told her i was sad and that i was gonna sleep and the next day when i woke up she said something along the lines of “how are you babe bc i remember you said you were sad last night and i couldnt stop thinking about it bc i want you to feel good all the time” and thats something so small but wow it just meant so much to me bc i would cry and beg any fucking force in the universe to make my last ex do Anything At All to try to make me Not Sad and it would be awful and i would feel so so unloved and then cass just said that and something clicked in me and i never doubted her feelings to an actual Meaningful extent while we’ve been together anymore (like ofc i get insecure sometimes and especially when we broke up, but while we have been dating ive never gotten like actually Sad™ specifically bc i wasnt sure she liked me) but it gets even better because some of the things she does are so so special that i never even imagined them like shes literally unreal, i literally never thought someone like her existed and its just so wild to me that i get to be with her.

and i know im saying a bunch of cliches but i mean it all so much like i remember when i was dating one of my exes i was learning her first language but she didnt try to learn mine and i really wished she would bc i just always loved the idea that someone would do that for me?? (and she was like the good gf so yknow,, just how that relationship literally did Not even compare to cass) and guess what yes cass is learning portuguese and its the cutest thing ever btw bUt the point is she does all the little things ive ever wanted in a partner (i literally have a post with a list of things i appreciate in a partner and she does all of them!! well, the ones that arent like irl or smth) also i literally have a draft in this blog that is a list of cute things cass has done/said that means a lot to me personally but i didnt post it yet ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and like theres just so so many things that i havent talked about, like how im not even sure if i was ever in love with anyone of them anymore because what i feel for cass is just so different and so much more, or like how cass actually makes me want to try to get better, which ive never actually wanted before bc it always seemed to scary, like she literally makes me wanna be not only alive but also happy bc she makes me feel like i deserve it. she has been such a good influence on me and my mental health and thats so important and its the first time someone has been this good for me.

but anyways the point is that cass is right for me in every single way like she really is my other half she literally just is everything that she is and thats how shes different from my ex girlfriends.

[mariposas-reylo]

Im Free!!! So the other day my hubby ran into an old coworker and she told us our Ex had gotten married. She literally ghosted us 6 months ago and now she's knocked up and married. My hubby called me and told me and I started laughing! I mean I always thought I would cry hysterically because I really did love her despite all the trauma she caused me and I was really surprised that I started laughing. So naturally I checked and I laughed even more. I mean I'm happy for her but im so happy that she'll never ever get to emotionally abuse me ever again. Than it hit me i wasnt laughing at her (that's not me I wish her the best) I was laughing because I was finally free! Im free of her abuse, her lies and her false promises. She knew about my depression, my suicidal thoughts, my anxiety and my insecurities and she didn't even hesitate to abandon me the minute she found a new sucker to believe her. I couldn't stop laughing because after all the dirt she did to advance her life she ended up in a dead end town, knocked up and married in a backyard in less than 6 months. Not that theirs anything wrong with that to each their own but everything she did to my husband and I, all the people she cheated on and left for someone who could give her more opportunities in life here in NY and now she's stuck in Alabama forever! But I realized I never have to wonder again. I never have to feel less than. I never was! Im the fucking prize and I get to live this adventure of life in the greatest city in the world ,travel, experience things at my pace and I have a King by my side the whole time. Karma is beautiful truly. Why? Because she never took time to heal she jumped from "i want to do this right i miss you, I love you, im yours" to "oh no wait this guy is putting a roof over my head and he believes all my bullshit without questioning it so im going to marry him Bye!" I mean who does that?! When you don't take time to actually heal your wounds and set right your mistakes you are doomed to repeat the same mistakes. But this time she won't use me as a punching bag. Im the healthiest ive ever been, im happy and I have found a new purpose in life. My conceincse is clear and I didnt have to cause anyone pain to achieve it. I was honest with my feelings the whole time and I never lied. I told her I supported her and would be there every step of the way in her healing process because i do believe people can change.. mistakes don't define a person its what they do after that defines them. This was her choice. I was smiling so much I took this picture and sent it to my husband. "Were Free!! She never gets to abuse us again and now she's stuck isnt Karma wonderful." I text my best friends who were with me the whole time and they were so happy for me (they really didn't like her) and they laughed with me ( I love my girls) "Yooo After all the pain she caused yall thats where she ended up..deadass?? Lmaoo thats perfect 🤣🤣" Now I get to wake up in NYC everyday, im so fucking happy and Free!! I keep saying it cause it was like I could breath again. My abuser is gone shes gone and she's never coming back and im so happy!! In life you don't get to hurt people, abuse them, lie to them, cheat on them and than abandon them and get to live a happy life it just doesn't work that way. Karma always catches up, I hope she's happy and lives the best life with the family she has chosen. We are more than ok without her and now I take the lessons I learned from her and move on and be the best possible version of myself. Im so happy! Im free! I survived!

I know noone will probably read this and maybe im being a little petty (thats ok ive earned it) but I had to put into words what I was feeling cause I haven't been able to stop smiling. Im so happy I didn't take my life, im so happy im still here. Im so happy my hubby and I worked on our relationship and are the strongest we've ever been and that he never abandoned me even on my darkest days.. im happy I got help, I can only control what I do and im going to keep going on this positive path and keep improving She was right I do deserve nothing but happiness I deserve a life of happiness. Im happy I fell in love with myself. I hope shes truly happy now and stops her cycle of abuse but she's not my problem anymore. Im free! Im finally free!

And if anyone does read this, Stay! Stay its gets better i promise you. Don't give up, get help and live your life. Please don't give up. You are loved ❤❤❤ ☺

#personal #keepsmiling #karma #healing #movingon #venting #happy #reallove #selflove #selfcare #suicidepreventionmonth

[sunnysidewrites]

Husband!Seokmin

Requested by anon: Can you do a married!au with Seokmin where he asks you to dance with him after a long day? Like super romantic and stuff? Thank you! 

AAAAAA HERE IT IS MY LIL BBY!!! I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE REQUESTED THIS IM 100% CONVINCED YOU WERE PERSONALLY OUT TO GET ME!!!! JUST LIKE FOR WONWOO, I CANT CONTAIN MY FEELS FOR SEOKMIN EITHER LJSFDLJ THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U DOUBLE BIAS AAA also im sorry its been sO long since i did a request!! HAPPY READING MY CHILDREN!!!! <3333

warnings: super romantic, super cheesy, super fLUFF THAT I ACTUALLY HAD TO TAKE A BREAK FROM WRITING BC IT WAS SUPER SWEET!!!!

CAN WE JUST APPRECIATE THIS CONCEPT

MY SUNSHINE, A HUSBAND

I CAN TBEL IE V E

I LUV SEOKMIN SO MUCH AND IM SAD HES SO OVERLOOKED :((((

i hope yall enjoy this piece as much as i loved writing it <33333333

The sizzling of the stove and soft BTOB melodies crackled from your speakers, the only sounds that drifted from the kitchen

You were humming along to the harmonies, the cute pastel pink apron Seokmin bought for you last month wrapped securely around your waist as you twirled with a spatula in one hand but u didnt twirl that much ok pls dont burn the house down

You were about to reach the peak of the song when the familiar bell rang

You glanced at the clock and smiled to yourself

“7, just as expected”

You quickly wiped your hands on a nearby towel and scurried off to the front door

“Welcome home, honey!!!” you chirped

He had a slightly worn out smile but the second he laid eyes on you, his eyes lit up and the tired grin became the embodiment of the sun and blinded you lmao i luv death!!!

“AaAhHhHhHH, who’s this cutie pie??!!??!” he says with his pearly whites displaying and bear hugs you, rocking you back and forth can he just be a model for all toothpaste commercials

Im dead do u hEAR ME IM DEAD

Your face is squished into his chest and he keeps cooing at you like

“SEOKMIN P L S WE HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR YEARS ALREADY!!!!” you laugh, wrapping your arms around him awwwwwww :’)))))))))))))))))))))))

“YOU’RE JUST TOO CUTE <333333333333”

Gives you quick but a lOT of pecks on the head, cheeks, literally scattered every inch of your face

“Omg seokmin,,,, pls you are too much!!! But i like it” you say but you’re also pouting bc he kissed everywhere but your lips

He’s more than aware of that

“Oh? You want me to stop though?” he cheekily grins at your frown

You’re about to lean in when you smell something a little burnt

“oH CRAP MY BURGERS!!!!” gotta go fast

As you’re running towards the stove he follows shortly and he’s like oooo burgers omg????

And you’re like o ok its just slightly burnt nothing too serious phew

You’re in front of the pan doing your thing when he comes fROM BEHIND AND BACK HUGS YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

“You cooked burgers today??? What’s the special occasion?” you feel his chest vibrating as he gently rests his chin on your shoulder

Ok im sorry i need a breather wow ok im crying omg this is real husband material pls someone hOLD ME

He turns his neck to the left and gives you another cheek kiss and you’re trying to decipher whether your cheeks are flaming from him or the proximity between you and the heat emitting from the stove

Maybe its both maybe its maybelline im sorry i rlly gotta stop bUT I LOVE THAT JOKE LOL

He giggles at the wide grin on your face and he just gives you aNOTHER ONE :’)))) PLS DATE OR MARRY ME SEOK

“Omg ok seokmin i love you but pls im about to finish w these burgers!!! Have a seat!! It should be ready in a few more minutes”

He pouts and puLLS YOUR WAIST CLOSER TO HIM LSJDFDLJFSDJSFDFJS

“:(((( but i missed you aaaallll daayyyyyy”

“We’ll have more time to ourselves after dinner hun!!!” you briefly kiss him on the cheek and turn back to the pan

Error: Lee Seokmin has combusted

He’s sitting back at the dinner table while admiring your back view and he’s literally the heart eyes emoji

The look on his face with the soft stare and the corners of his lips slightly lifted upwards aaaAAAWWWW

You present him with the final product on a plate, one in each hand of yours for the both of you

“Bon appetite!!!” you say as you place it front of him and place his utensils with it

His heart eyes are almost as intense as they were when he looked at you but he’s stuffing his face so it’s kinda hard to tell LOL

“Mmghglg so good!!!” he says in between huge mouthfuls

And you’re like :’))))) i luv my hubby also u have something on your face lmao

He starts venting about his day at work and how rehearsal was just insANE

“We practiced for 5 hours without a break,,, and then we took half an hour ish break,,, and went back to dancing for 4 more and repeated this cycle since 7am”

“Soonyoung told me this really lame joke”

“Why do you always laugh tho”

“That’s what friends do!!! Laugh at your bad jokes bc of how bad they are!!!”

“We also went in the studio to record more of the new songs”

“Jihoon kept wanting me to redo it,,,, i think we all did at least 15 takes. Individually.”

And his lil chatter mouth kept going on and on but you’re just happy listening to his voice

In the midst of ranting about how complicated the footwork is, he notices you just sitting there and staring at him

“You’re not gonna finish your burger?”

And you’re like oH RIGHT LOL

“I just always get so captivated when you talk,,,, it’s so soothing”

And at first he’s like “huh?” with a little confused look and then when he finally registers he breaks out into the bIGGEST SMILE EVER AND HE’S EMBARRASSED

“aaAAAHHH YOU’RE SO CHEESY HONEY”

“UM DID YOU NOT PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT YOU WERE DOING HALF AN HOUR AGO”

As you and seokmin are finishing up your meal, he’s like aaa that was the best meal ever bless ur soul

You’re like alright time to clear the table and you get up and start gathering the dishes when he’s like wait!! and grabs your wrist

“Let’s dance” he says with a gleam in his eyes

“Seokmin we gotta do the dishes first ok? And aren’t you tired of doing your choreo for practically the entire day??”

“I’ll never get tired of you though :))” uM MY HEART I HAVE CHEST PAINS

“Ok,,, since you asked so nicely,,,,,,,,,” you reluctantly agree while you place the dishes in the sink

When you meet him in the living room he’s already at the speakers and scrolling through his phone to find a song

“Ah perfect!” he taps on the song and turns back to you

You’re both getting in position to slow dance and you’re just like

“This is the cheesiest you have ever been today,,,, are you sick?”

The familiar first guitar strings of “Photograph” start playing and he softly smiles at you

Wait can u guys actually play it rn

Like. right now. Now. at this instance.

Just pause reading and play it

You can continue now

“No,,, i just need you to know i appreciate you,,, whether you’re doing chores that i can’t do at the moment or just plainly lending me an ear,,,,, I love everything you do”

You’re so mesmerized by him that you can only gape back with your mouth slightly parted open

“Seokmin…”

He shakes his head and chuckles, “you don’t have to say anything. Just relax”

As the song progresses you rest your head on his chest, your bodies comfortably pressed against each other as you slowly sway

He gives you another kiss on the top of your head and murmurs, “i’m so lucky to have someone like you” lsjddfsjdfjl my HEART MY H E AR T

“The person who has the luck is me, being able to find a catch like you” you respond, a small smile creeping on your face

He twirls you around, the both of you laughing without a care in the world

The song is about to come to an end when he dips you low and stares into your eyes LJSFDJDFJDFDF IM EMBARRASED AND THIS ISNT EVEN HAPPENING TO ME BYE

You’re both looking at each other so fondly and you barely notice how he lifts you back up bc you’re both leaning in

One arm is holding your waist up, and the other is caressing your cheek as your lips meet

His soft kiss has you weak in the knees despite how you should be used to them by now but he always takes away your breath every time

You break away, your foreheads touching

“,,,,,,,oH RIGHT THE DISHES you’re helping me wash” you say and drag him to the sink

All he can do is laugh and silently pray that he will always come home to this :’))))))))))))))))

[skywarper]

health update, readmored cause rambling and medical/health talk (finger guns

i have a doctors appointment tomorrow... im lowkey dreading it yknow

see i did what my doctor asked me to do. i finished my vitamin courses and ive been moving and getting out more and my pain isnt getting any better so

i need to revisit pain meds i think. i dont care if i have to take several months to figure out what works for me, im not getting anywhere at the moment . i cant even sleep. my pain is worse than i thought, ive just been constantly distracting myself and never really noticed how bad it IS until megs has been here

it feels awful cause i can barely even hug/cuddle with him everything just hurts like shit

saw my social worker/counselor today. she gave me a list of things to add the doctor about that arent morphine based. she wants me to ask for gabapentin/pregabalin . its really hit or miss apparently but its an anti-convulsant primarily used to treat epilepsy or something

she also wants me to ask to see a specialist. theres a pain centre in my city but its so unfamiliar to me, yknow? and im not really assertive so standing up to my doctor is gonna be hard. he did tell me if exercise + vitamins didnt work to come back to him about pain meds so.. yeah

i smile and try to laugh at the small things but i just feel miserable instead honestly? i want to go to college or work and just do something . i want to be able to hug my own partner for longer than 10 seconds. i want to be able to sleep for once in my life? everything sucks a lot idk why i feel depressed probs cause a lot of stress and i basically lost an entire week to pain and i cant stop feeling bad about it

i couldnt even stand up for long at the youth centre. my social worker noted how i was kinda hobbling/off balance . my DOG even hates it. he barks at me if i hobble too much. yknow shit sucks when ur dog takes issue. anyway yeah i need to lie down or smth. we went to a cafe today though it was nice and cheered me up so yay

((im not asking fr sympathy incase anyone feels bad im just venting my feelings ok.. noones obligated to say anything)

[pacman-tattoo]

what would it be like if you were just a part of the deh friend group and everyone talked about their emotional problems with you and everyones parents just love you sm

honestly i can relate a little bc people talk to me about stuff and parents tend to love me. probably because i’m very :))) around them because of The Anxiety. that or i dont seem like i do illegal shit which is valid i guess

anyway

so it kinda started with evan, although you did grow up in the same neighborhood as the murphys so you kind of knew connor and zoe and sometimes talked to them

but anyway u befriended evan and at some point he started missing school days consecutively and u immediately start worrying about him like??? evan u ok

u go by his house to bring him notes and stuff he missed and to check up on him and heidi’s there and she’s like ‘aw its so sweet that ur here for evan im glad he has a friend’

evan was surprised to see you tbh but you offered to talk and he kind of rejected a little before u promised that everything would stay between u two, just in case he was worried about that or something

evan swears he’s fine and u tell him ur there if he needs you before leaving

heidi is confused bc she’d thought u might stay longer but she says ur always welcome and she’s just a sweetheart

evan comes back to school and he hangs around u a bit and jared kinda wanders ur way as well since ur friends with evan, y’know, u cant be that bad, right?

jared actually likes u a bit more after playing video games 

u befriend alana after an project together and she’s v sweet?? but u just kinda get this feeling from her

her parents loved u from the moment u walked in tbh??? apparently u just have this aura of caring around u

jareds parents also rly love u??? u get along rly well with jared and they’re glad he has more than just evan!!

u dont remember how exactly zoe started talking to u but she did randomly approach u and ask if u lived a few houses down from her one day??? and ur like ‘yeah’

eventually she kind of just… popped up and invited u over if u wanted

the murphys recognized u and it turns out u used to come over when u were little and were friends with connor n zoe

u tried to reach out to connor and he kind of snapped at u bc zoe probably put u up to that, right? or maybe fucking kleinman just wants another laugh-

u tell him ur here whenever he needs it, because honestly you’d punch jared for that sort of shit. zoe u would probably just leave but u would punch jared kleinmeme

connors like ‘…k’

look at these friends

jared probably made some self-deprecating joke and laughed it off and ur like ‘wait, dude-’

he got defensive over it

ur like ‘k’

eventually alana comes over to ur house because stress n shit is getting to her and ur like ‘i got u’ and she just kinda confides in u about shit

the two of u are really close after that

evan missed school again

u head over there and heidi isnt there and evan lets u in after being surprised bc ur there??? again???

theres a lil more trust there

eventually evan opens up to u a little through his rambling and then ur basicaly like ‘evan im here for u, alright??’

zoe came over and vented about connor to u

:(

jared eventually vents to you??? he’s insecure and it sucks and u do ur best to talk to him

eventually u kinda try reaching out to connor

it takes a while but eventually he suddenly texts u at like, 2 am, and u meet him out on his front lawn and he ends up yelling about his problems and its kinda scary but he’s breaking down and holy fuck

he’s surprised when u dont run off

he’s also surprised when he goes to school and doesn’t hear people giving him shit from telling u said problems

he approached u like ‘wtf we need to talk’ and its :) well im dead what did i do

he asked u why the fuck didnt u tell anyone and ur like

‘… because thats personal shit and i’m not gonna spill everything because that’s really fucking shitty for someone to do’

suddenly connor starts… actually talking to u?

everyone talks to u???

theres a group chat eventually of friends and sometimes at 3 in the morning theres memes

and then sometimes at 3 am u get someone texting u and talking to u about shit

evan once vaguely mentioned needing bandaids and u were at his house in twenty minutes and he didnt even do anything he just accidentally got scratched by something but like

wow u actually drove to walmart to buy a box of bandiads and came to his house at two in the morning, what the fuck ur nice

ur just kind of a constant shoulder to cry on and someone to vent to and its rly appreciated

heck, one week u missed a few days of school due to being sick and connor murphy was at ur fuckn house checking on u???

and like, at some point ur not having a great day and they just kind of band together to get some of ur fave snacks and have a movie night and its a nice little surprise??? like wow

thats all i got nonny theres just a lot of gratitude toward u because ur there??? and u care and listen and do ur best to help them if u can