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viemarin · 1 year ago

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breaking news: this mentally ill teenager has daddy issues!

#among other things #i will. look at *that* post when i don’t feel like dying bc of how embarrassed i am #sorry if you. saw it and read it. i need to stop doing this #i say and then i do it again bc im a moron #anyway yes. i can’t believe i have needs. not very cash money of me.#okay ummmm im stopping this here sorry again and all of that i don’t want to be annoying with my. problems.#its not. that bad anyway. maybe.#moth rambles

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hoshizoralone · 5 months ago

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reflection

#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind #And thinks about how she could have done better. like ‘if i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3’#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person #while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms #oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like ‘i dont think ppl will recognize them’.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gang’s deaths #okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid #samus aran #loneart #metroid dread #metroid prime #super metroid #metroid series #i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough #hall of fame

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heartorbit · 24 days ago

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figure skating set right now please. thanks

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #proseka #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #wxs #wonderlands x showtime #GUYS I AM PUTTING OFF WORKING ON MY COSPLAY SOMETHING STUPID. im tireddddd i like sleeepingggff i want to play and drawwwww #after work I literally ate a giant bowl of mac n cheese and climbed into bed. lifestyle choices of a 9 year old #anyways i want figure skaitng set. bad. PJSK HAS A WEIRDLY LOW NUMBER OF ACTUALLY WINTERY SETS... like 3. kind of.#i have some thumbnail sketches but im kind of stumped on composition for them. my idea was a nene focus set #(IF HER NEXT FOCUS ISNT PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THEMED INWILL DIE. BADLY. THEYRE GOING TO AN OPER AHOUSE. PLEADBR)#originally my idea was for nene to be biting a medal i was very sold on it bc i love nenes competitive side #however her outfit is so nice i want it to also be part of the art .. its heavily inspired by that one iconic eunsoo lim dress #from her somewhere in time program iirc. im really undatisfied with emus dress tbh my origimal idea was to give it a phoenix look #but a lot of the firebird/phoenix skating programs have very sleek dresses and i want emus to be fluffy. the balance is hard ..#and since i want her program song to be once upon a dream from sleeping beauty i swerved to make it look a bit like auroras ? but again #it definitely feels like the weakest of everybodys ... maybe i just love her too much and want her to look the best. sorry wxs.#tsukasas outfit is supposed to look like a shooting star. easy. program music moonlight sonata 3rd movement like from dazzling light. easy.#actually i like takahashi daisukes moonlight sonata program its a medley of the 1st and 3rd movement.. i think the calm at the beginning #is best. maybe smth like that.. for his card inhad him doing a haircutter spin but again. the outfits good i want the outfit visible. damn.#ruis the one im very set on even now. girl why are you so phantom of the opera.#it has a lot of beautiful programs to reference but the outfit i didnt really have any solid reference i kind of just balled #my main idea was to make it look a bit like both christine and the phantom.... gender Fluid.#my yapfest... i should be SEWING!!!!!!!!#despite my yapping im not that well versed in figure skating i cant really distinguish jumps i just like it . and medalist #i only do normal skating. bc i played hockey for like 7 years LOLLLL inlove skating though Heart.

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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domain expansion

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 264 #yuuji #help she entered a fugue state and finished a painting in 7 hours again #I still wish with all my heart that wed gotten megumi but HOLDS UP YUUJI THATS MY BOYYYYYYY #god his face is Messed Up i feel so bad #but i do think this is how ill go about drawing the injuries from now on :'>#just a Mess of flesh tones on that boy :((((( maybe shoko can kiss it better #anyway towards the end of drawing this my llsif pilled brain supplied 'domain expansion: happy party train' and i think its a keeper #yuuji if u havent picked a name yet pls consider thank u <3 #a train station tho......as much of a vibe as it is i SUFFERED #the high ceilings full of pipework...the parallel lines....thank god i make the rules and dont actually have to detail it all #i love u vague lines that convey Essence Of Room #i think it works !!! i feel like im waiting fr a train n watching time slow around me as the lights stretch #btw the rake brush is SO good fr making lil bits of stretched light like u r squinting . i love it i have fun #anyway enjoy !!! him!!!! we r truly in yuuji kaisen i never Once doubted my boy

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teh-inggris · 16 days ago

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pvp civ nation...... this aint much but pls take my contribution for this series bc im going insane i love hate this man so much get him out of my head

#senart #pvp civilization #pvp civ #I'LL MAKE A PROPER ONE I SWEARR I JUST NEED TO GET THIS OUT OF MYSYSTEM FIRST #if it turns out he gets a bad ending in ep 6 i dont think i'll be ok like #he deserves a good ending . or a villain arc at least. he deserves to go batshit crazy after how everyone treated him #ALSOO the chekovs gun video journal device thing?? The excessive 4th wall breaking?#Is it just me or does jt feel like evbo is gonna lose his memory/already lost his memory and was sent to the wood sword lvl with tabi #or like . Idk?? It feels kind of truman show ish. Well maybe not that but its just the vibe im getting w the way that everyone has their-#-own secrets. How the diamond swords seems to know who evbo n tabi is. How princezam knows about the diamond swords #and then theres also parrot whos just?? Weird overall?? Idk whats going on w him but i need to know his backstory wdym u think evbo will-#-hate you if he knows what you did??#ANYWAY BACK TO THE VIDEO JOURNAL AND POTENTIAL MEMORY LOSS.#I dont want jt to go that way (mostly bc i dont want to see evbo suffer more than he already did) but it rlly does seem like its heading to #that direction w the way that it also has become a way to narrate what he went through (ie when the ep shows his attempts to beat the-#gold sword lvl but hes narrating it from the future. from his video journal. where he already beat the lvl)#im going insane #Wait also what i meant by the truman show vibe in relation to the excessive 4th wall breaks it makes it sound like pvp civ is just a -#simulation #wait i just remembered its the matrix not that mb umm #anyways.#empty chattering

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collophora · 6 months ago

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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #tbb fanfiction #dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally #sorry the style is messy #now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses #because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes #Every fic is gold #Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics #this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff #but I don't liiiiiiiiike it #there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art #me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh #They're so flat too #yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like #yeah sure no #I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards #I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT #why is my brain not working v_v #look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them #brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this #anyway

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bacchuschucklefuck · 7 months ago

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while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best

#fantasy high junior year #fhjy #riz gukgak #figueroth faeth #sklonda gukgak #dimension 20 #this. mmmmhhh this is so. I did Not know how to draw this really.#I am very normal about riz (<- lying)#it's a brennan-dm d20 campaign the bad guy is always capitalism (I am saying this with clenched teeth)#riz out of all of them being aroace fucks with me SO bad. bc its also established that elmsville specifically and probably the #majority of solace is not. made for goblins. and that becomes sklonda being worked to the bone and pok dying on the job #and riz spending all his time trying to keep his friends together. maybe to the point of it being injurous #like. do u get what I mean. its an economy of time it takes your time it eats up your time #not just the gukgaks but everyone you have to spend time to get to live and you don't have a lot of time left in a day #and you have to spend it carefully. you have to prioritize #you're somewhere without an established community and companionship is bought with your time spent working #this place doesn't take care of you. at the end of the day who do you have who'd prioritize you. do you understand me #the evolved aroace loathing where if your friends and family are granted more time nobody would have to choose. we live in a society #holds ur hand we live in a society. idk if Im making any sense #anyway . uhhh riz is my favourite that's my statement thank you for listening. au revoir

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razormaze · 22 days ago

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what fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me (please don’t look at me)

#mouthwashing #art #anya mouthwashing #anya #illustration #artists on tumblr #fanart #mouthwashing fanart #lyrics from ptolomaea by ethel cain #abort that thang anya #i played the funny game #i have many thoughts. number one being i think we need to learn to not fandomify every piece of media #like yes please draw fanart and have fun and stuff #but maybe interact with the characters that are abusers and abuser apologists a little more carefully!#specifically curly. lots of people woobify him when hes an enabler #obviously not a bad person inherently but a lot more nuanced than it seems. i dont really like seeing anya x curly art #he took away her autonomy in the game after she told him abt jimmy. i think they cared about each other but its deeper than surface level #anyway good game. yeah

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lucabyte · 3 months ago

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A belief in Nominative Determinsim

#mira & isa sitting at the other side of the room: oh that cannot be a healthy rationalisation. someone should deconstruct that QUICKLY...#change's strongest soldiers VERSUS one guy echo chambering themselves about a susperstition-based retributive model of the world. GO!!!#isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #sloops #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #hey look now. this is softer than usual isnt it? ignore the. ignore the subtle damnation of blame unto the self. its fine. theyre fine #this is in fact a slight adaptation of that headcanon of mine i linked! yep! turns out the way to comic-ise it was to. make it like #90% speech bubble and get kinda weird with the formatting. it's clunky and experimental but hey. im experimenting.#the next ones gonna have even more fucking speech bubbles if it goes how im planning. christ #then its gonna get followed up with something wordless so. all things in perfect balance.#DISCLAIMER: i like to write loop and siffrin displaying the maybe not so great logic-holes their seeming fear of 'retribution for not #sticking to (the script) what the universe intends for them' entails. i do not agree with their weird philosophising.#i in fact think this is . bad for them. and am exploring how fucking unhealthy their mindset seems to be even when 'mundane'#OCD siffrin real as hell whats with the doing arbitrary actions in specific ways lest Something Nebulously Bad Happen little dude?#anyway if you caught the extremely blunt symbolism of kissing a hand with a knife in it you win a prize! it's called self-satisfaction 🎉🎉#hmm. do people realise i kept calling this type of back and forth between siffrin and loop a socratic dialogue bc socrates was also just #arguing with himself? like he was just making up the other guys. complete thought experiment. i also call them that because theyre WORDY!!!

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obsob · 1 year ago

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happy and proud!!

✷(print shop)✷

#mine #original #sm how managed 2 miss pride month....but its pride month every month in this house hold #ive read two bad YA books so far this month as a break from th 2nd farseer book but now.....i am back.........i am reading th 3rd one #its gna make my brain explode i can feel it #n then idk what i will read. maybe th hands of th emperor #could i read smth other than 800 page epic fantasy pls #the YA books werent too bad for YA but they hve that YA cringe 2 it. idk how u people read it constantly #if i hve 2 read th word 'heck' one more time #also theres always like. disney channel vibes. like i read gay YA romance n its so sanitised n vanilla. its so superficial #like i get this is for 16 year olds but were is the longing. the yearing. these guys are fanfic tropes stuck 2gether 2 glue.#also. what is with nearly every mlm romance / fantasy being YA not adult fiction. whats up w that #anyway hve a good evenin im gna do knitting!!!!!!!!!!!!

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surreal-duck · 7 days ago

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some business to take care of

#i was tempted to caption this as she was a skater boy and she was also another skater boy but #duck scribbles #midoyuzu #enstars #whats up guys im being embarrassing again on main #been wanting a new phone wallpaper and this was born. its the lesbian version though im not showing that #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #yuzumido #ensemble stars #also have additional doodles that r kind of corny and im too ashamed to add into the main post so i might add on a reblog or maybe not #midterms were so awful i had to keep reminding myself i can go ham drawing whatever i want once im done. and naturally its this #anyways ive always liked midos city rider fit it suits her so well #always wanted to find a good one to pair w it and the wink killer 2nd half xscout was toooo good i was inspired immediately #finally could use this good ref pic ive had saved since forever i need to draw backgrounds more too it was rather fun somehow #mental state has been yoyoing an insane degree lately like come on i dont need to be reminded i am a useless hunk of meat every other day #with nothing good going for them. college is amazing at reminding me of such god bless #i have bad tendencies to self isolate behind the excuse of concentrating that i am trying to fix . but its hard to get back when i do #not to mention the entire Big Event happening over in good ol amerika serikat!!! my apathy is naturally immense #but whats some peace of mind here and there idk. im gonna read yuri

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xxplastic-cubexx · 14 days ago

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thoughts on hellfire gala charles? i’m obsessed with that design

Design Wise if we mean the one by lucas werneck, theeen...... i have no clue im divided on it honestly LOL

i like the halo idea, im just not sure im totally sold on the whole execution...

ive always wanted to draw it tho so. have a scribbly if you may :)

bonus cause i need to hang him up like a set of keys

#xmen #charles xavier #professor x #xmen comics #krakoa #snap sketches #take a shot everytime i draw a mfer reaching for the camera. hes projecting his period cramps onto me is that why ive been suffering lately #but yeah idk. im not sure exactly what makes me itch about it its just noootttt my favorite. BUT ITS NOT BAD just not my favorite #if we mean the Other yellow gala outfit he wore that matched eriks .... i think i like that one a lil more #nvm i just looked at it and the collar bit still makes me laugh bro what IS THAT. its still cute tho. i think. needa look at it more....#ill have to draw THAT design some day. with erik preferably. but thats for another day #anyways. should i eat? i should eat. if at least leave my room so i can pick up a package #ohhh but im not hungry ..... maybe ill have dinner later at least

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vodid · 3 months ago

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zero's pressure

#running out of gas. running out of money. out of time. out of energy. i'm running out of everything #and ofc my solution is to. avoid it. ignore it. do nothing productive.#zero's pressure turns into zero pressure #i'm trying to be kind to myself. i really have been trying. but it's hard when youre still headed to 0 on everything with no solution #because of yourself #i cant get a job. my art doesnt bring enough. i cant keep producing new products on the regular. i cant finish major comms on time #what CAN i do?#vent #just some adhd things #and maybe anxiety. and bad stress management #sorry for being so raw on main. its therapeutic even if it doesnt really lead to anything. it does force me to confront my feelings ig #i tend to get a burst of motivation after hitting a low like this but its a constant cycle that in the longterm really doesnt improve.#ill probably get some products done and do some quick comms. just one of those alone can cover gas for me #anyway some positivity to toot my own horn: i love the palette of this piece. went harder than i thought

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 10 months ago

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they continue to be Thee besties ever. number one duo spot in my mind!

#well. maybe number two #well. im very bad at ranking it fluctuates daily #Theyre One Of The Most Duos In My Mind!#anyway wally riding barnaby like a horse is absolutely Hysterical to me #giddyup pardner....#what's the reason? whimsy? to make people tilt their heads? to show wally what it's like to be tall?#so that barnaby doesnt have to walk slower? simply because they Can?#< these are the important lore questions #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #sometimes i think about them and then i punch my hand through a window #very casually. yes theres blood everywhere dont worry about it #its nbd. im Normal. not unwell at all!#why is there glitter in the blood? Dont Worry About It.#im simply full of microplastics

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insanesonofabitch · 1 year ago

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I’m a firm believer of the idea that the writers had to get Cas and Dean to stay away from each other as much as possible in season 9, especially after everything that happened before, during, and after their time in Purgatory—like Goodbye Stranger, for example—because if they stayed together, destiel would’ve already been canon.

So just imagine if Gadreel wasn’t a dick who was being used to keep them apart, and they let Cas stay inside the bunker. Cas is human, complete with fresh, new, and intensified human desires. Who’s also canonically in love with Dean, by the way. As for Dean, that motherfucker literally almost confessed in season 8. They wrote an entire subplot about Cas being brainwashed with the intention of breaking him out of it by having Dean confess his feelings towards him. By telling him he loves him.

Do you fucking see where this is headed towards?? THE natural progression of these events??? That the writers had set up and trapped themselves in?????

Human Cas safely staying in the bunker with Dean would’ve been such a perfect environment for more intimate moments between them. And they couldn’t risk that. Dean having to guide Cas through mundane, day-to-day human things he never had to deal with before literally sounds like the plot of a cheesy romantic series I’ve seen. Which makes me wonder about what the hell took place between the night Dean stayed with and took care of Cas after their fight against Ephraim, and the morning when he drove Cas back to work. That was one of the few moments in that season where they could be alone together. And also something that they chose to skip over.

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welcometogrouchland · 4 months ago

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(ID in alt) hi sorry for back to back marvel fanart I swear I still have dc stuff lmao. However I did recently read X-Men: first class and got a bit carried away doodling this after Lmao

#marvel comics #x men #scott summers #jean grey #hank mccoy #bobby drake #warren worthington iii #charles xavier #anyway #picked X-Men: First Class #out of sheer curiosity and desire to know more about the X-Men and I really enjoyed it!#Idk how in line with canon it but. Whatever tbh. Anyway that was the inspo behind this #just the og 5 fooling around and being silly teens #jean being the flirty one probably isn't very in character at this time period (jean doesnt really show any interest in scott in first clas #but it was too cute to pass up #also charles looks so much more pissed off than i intended 😭 there's this one issue of first class where he's just BERATING the xmen #just yelling at them psychically and eventually its revealed that it wasn't actually Charles but i didn't question it at first #which is kind of mean to charles. but idk i haven't gotten far with the x-men (im being very casual in my reading rn)#so maybe he deserves it #also i keep making bigger and bigger drawings bc i know that those print well #but i keeo forgetting that tumblr murders the quality of the image when you upload it. bwahhh #anyway i think i am finally going to knuckle down and open commission slots for part of july #idk how much a bad boy like this (lined coloured and shaded w/ multiple characters) would cost but we're gonna figure that out #honestly i might slightly under price them just to encourage ppl to spring for them #okay that's all for now I PROMISE I HAVE DC DRAWINGS TO SHARE i was just in a serious drawing funk and drawing some characters-#-that I'd never drawn before (like shulkie and now the xmen) helped break that funk!#mine

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