#its not like i WANT to die im too scared for that but im also too scared to do any real living so whats the point

[suntails]

village lanterne

[our-queer-experience]

So so so (for context, i'm in latin america) Pride is in june and this is my second year going, right? First time i went very lowkey, since i was new AND im very much not out to my conservative family, and i would die if they saw me in the news. it was lovely, everything went fine, and nobody suspected a thing.

now, this year it feels important, and i want to do something flashy, but i'm not sure what

not helping the matters is that now i know more queer people (yay!), that i met in different contexts/places, and everyone has a different perception of my queerness, and i don't know how i feel about everyone seeing a part of me that they might find, contradictory i guess.

some of them know i'm asexual and aromantic

some of them i've talked with about my aesthetic attraction, and how i find people of all genders very pretty and cool and awsome

nobody knows i'm non-binary, and this one is a bit new and i feel very, vulnerable about it.

and everyone kinda sees me as... idk, i'm very openly sex positive, but also the kind of asexual that is "so, i don't have any attraction ever, but a lot of this is really cool (as in, to me personally), and i really like to learn about things like (for one of many examples) leather and the culture, even if i'm not sure i'll ever have sex", and ANYWAYS, having a good sex ed is IMPORTANT, but i guess people tend to see me as a prude???? for some reason??? maybe??, as an uwu asexual who doesn't know anything about sex

and like, it has gotten some queer friends baffled when we're talking about things, and i'm perfectly capable to hold a conversation about, idk straps for example. And they get all "how do YOU know about that????" ugh is so frustrating. one of those friends was a person who tried to put his penis in the urethral opening of his partner at the time not that long ago btw, and he assumed he knew more about general sex stuff that someone who cares about doing research and staying informed.

THE POINT IS. they are very much not expecting to see me showing much skin. ever. and ok, my usual style of clothing is not very revealing i'll give them that. But i really want to show off at pride y'know? i want to show off my thick and dark body hair, i want to show off my tummy because depression has made me lose a lot of weight, but i'm hoping to get better by june and be able to show the body i was really happy with. i want to show off my curves and big thighs and be proud of being non-binary with the body that i have.

And i want to maybe use something more revealing, because yasmin benoit is so cool, and seeing her leading pride was very important to me.

and i also kinda want something inspired by chappell roan, because i'm not immune to her ok

and i want to be loud about the aroace bit, because it meant the world to me to see others like me last year, and i want to be there for others too.

but i'm also scared, oh so scared of being filmed and recognized by someone dangerous. i'm disabled and young for fucks sake, i can't afford being kicked out or losing support. and, i know i'm not in the usa and that it's getting really really scary up there, but i'm also afraid of what will happen at the event, because my country tends to follow usa's lead, and our president is not exactly the best (a lot of us in latin america had also shit elections this last year lmaon't), and it'll probably be fine but i'm still worried. it'd be safer to go very lowkey and with the usual outfit for going to dangerous protests, but i don't want to have to keep myself lowkey, not when i have a choice.

gods sorry for the rambling, this got away from me huh.

anyways, any advice on anything? honestly even if it's only costume/outfit ideas i'll be happy to see them

id say wear a face mask- its good to do in public anyway- and a hat. borrow some friend’s clothes. if your family cant see your face and isn’t expecting you to wear “revealing” clothes…. you’d probably be fine :) good luck!

[astronnova]

doodles (as i avoid work) of the super awesome you wouldn't like me alive fic by @ectoplasmranch which i binge read in a 7 hour sitting yesterday

[bunnyboy-juice]

awawawawawawa

[skunkes]

if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

[plasterhound]

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[iwakuraz]

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[jackass-jones]

Yeah the mouthwash game is pretty good

[murmurmurl]

I made some bunbys + design notes

No idea what I wanna do with them, I was just mainly having fun. They're siblings because of course they are. I might wanna try to draw them as anthros and as regular bunnies too later,, also I thought it'd be fun to name them very typical bunny names

[snickerdoodlles]

there's a point at which someone's fear of being a dick wraps back around to them just being a dick anyways

[patron-saint-of-emesis]

its like im a sailor and i hear the most beautiful voice in the world. i follow it to a siren who looks demonic and hungry, so i sail away. but then i hear the beautiful voice again and surely THIS TIME it won’t be an evil creature who wants to devour me. so i sail back and the hungry siren is still waiting. so i sail away. but get this. i’m hearing the voice again

[savefrog]

me: okay we need to clean

stupid brain: i dont want to clean i only want to look at fish

me: if we clean we can get more fish

stupid brain: GO GO GO LETS CLEAN LETS GO

[caruliaa]

BARBIE MOVIE AND PIKMIN 4 BEING RELEASED ON THE SAME DAY I J REALIZED THAT I MIGHT ACTUALLY EXPLODE INTO A MILLION PEICESSS OMFGG !!!

[yveltalreal]

turning off reblogs on the bibi post cause of no one realizing 1: most of the text on that post is a joke mixed with complaining and agreeing as if bibis behavior is normal kinda pissing me off (its not normal if your buneary is that agressive normally something is wrong. buneary are small prey animals. they dont really lash out unless they're scared shitless and dont think they can run or youre not respecting their boundaries)

2: tired of it getting notes.

if any of you does the screenshot thing to spread it further cause you're mad rbs are turned off some people do ill legitimately kill you

//ooc: read ooc in the tags please ans thank you!!

[oetscop]

im CHOOSING to be SOBER and i AM NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME

[cat-skull]

god i am not doing well