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My jawline, or lack thereof, makes my face look disgusting when clean shaven, but as a trans woman I don't like having facial hair either. So admittedly I did just kind of give up and have had a full beard for the past few years. Which brings me to my point, which is that I blame a lot of my lack of having anyone attracted to me on beauty standards, and to be fair that is depressingly true to a large extent, but a large part of the problem is just that I haven't put in any effort into how I look for awhile now. Especially since I found out I was balding, and given my genetics I never really expected that to be a problem, since for the most part, save for a couple of cousins, balding isn't like a huge thing in my family. But whatever wigs exist and I always wore them anyway since I hated how my hair looked when I had it. But getting back to my point again, when was the last time I put any effort in, I haven't worn makeup for forever or shaved anything nonfacial either. I could be posting selfies on here again maybe, if I cleaned up. I did alright on here back in the day, granted the bulmia helped a lot with that. I guess when the porn ban happened and the horniness on this site really dried up I just didn't have much of a motivation to get dolled up anymore since I wasnt taking nudes or anything all that often anymore. I could start doing selfies and stuff again tho maybe, but again the facial hair is kind of the biggest barrier. You'd think with all the nonbinary people on the site, girls with beards would do numbers on here, but it just ain't a thing unfortunately. People don't like girls with facial hair as much as they say they want dismantle beauty standards, which is unfortunate but I guess understandable. Like it or not, even on tumblr, girls that fit conventional beauty are still valued the highest so the hair has got to go even if my jawline is gross. Contouring and shit helped with that anyway. Point is I've actually lost the point, but point is I need to talk to cute girls on the internet again, I am ready to get my heartbroken again and also probably catfished again lmao
#i never made a post addressing it but yes the sudden uptick in depressed rambling nonsense posts does correlate directly with#how bad things have gone for me recently#which is funny cuz its kinda antithetical to this post itself#cuz the depressed ramblings have always been the biggest wedge driving interactions away from my tumblr#and also embarrassing myself in front of all the trans girls that populate this site#but i have always used this site to talk about how much i want to blow my brains out its all i know#my true north is always making batshit deranged depression posts on tumblr dot com#its my calling in life
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Analysis so bad you don't even know what it's talking about anymore.
#chrambles#not a lily orchard video (i have never watched one in my life im sorry for whoever did)#being a homestuck fan alone is hell. people make shit up and call it canon unironically its painful#can be of any form of analysis btw your responses are so insightful (and also funny)#if you mention dirkjohn in the tags then youre the one who needs to reread the canon material again lol
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I wish we could have met in some other way.
Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates
If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3
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If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way
#death note#dn#light yagami#l lawliet#lawlight#oh god here we go#death note jdrama#death note 2015#death note 2006#death note musical#lctw#l change the world#dntm#lawlightweek2024#my art#collapses i am NEVER putting this much effort in one piece ever again /hj this was the Only one i had mostly prepared in advance#ironically the most painstaking part about making this entire thing was converting the images into an animated file#that wasn't either horrifically compressed or just. wouldn't loop. why do gifs have to look so BAD it's so inconvenient#and THEN i realized I had to forcibly Stitch the two animations together so they would actually be synced and it wouldn't look dumb#and the end result is STILL so compressed. because Tumblr. uhhh just don't click on it it'll look so scuffed LOL. anyways#this is what i get for watching Every Adaptation of Death Note. i am a death note multiverse truther#usually i'd have something clever to say in the tags but. this drained the life out of me just uh.#yeah. they're doomed in every universe. this is the only way they could've met. they are doomed by their own natures and the#circumstances that surround them. there is no universe where light tries to prevent L's death. and even in the cases where L Doesn't die#there is no universe where L can save light. there is no universe where he can truly “catch” Kira and make him see where he went wrong#(<- if you read LCTW you know. :) )#in every universe and adaptation L will call Light his first friend. in some universes they'll take that notion more seriously than others#no matter what one of them will die due to the other. its the only constant. it's the only way it can ever be. they are the others downfall
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Of @ghostreblogging, Where Danny has the same tax evasion skills as his parents. Kind of a coffee shop AU, but well, its gotham.
#dc x dp#dp x dc#danny phantom#danny fenton#batman#I cant write anything remotely serious to save my life#so here#Batman doesnt meddle with JLD entirely bc he doesnt fucking want to. also he might be a little banned.#this is why they have a wholeass dept. the issue may be in Gotham but the JLD also have individual members for this#aka it'll most likely be patched to Dick and Raven for both geographical location and the issue in question.#...who might call Tim. which will probably circle back to Bruce again because its more abt internal economy. Danny might need a lawyer#but for now he'll delegate it to supernatural-adjecent contacts. thanks#mistart#dc fanart
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team fortress 2 finally getting rid of the bots after 5 years
work on the team fortress 2 comic continuing after 7+ years
half life 3 development looking more likely than ever with legitimate code, file, and voicework leaks referencing a new non-VR single-player game from valve featuring a HEV suit wearing protagonist and Xen creatures and concepts
shoutout to the valve fan that found the genie lamp. you a real one
#liz blogs#valve#team fortress 2#tf2#half life#half life 3#what did i say. what did i fucking say.#once again the impossible becomes commonplace#valve exists as a company to walk into the gaming industry. slap their dicks on the table. and yell THIS IS HOW ITS DONE#and the gaming industry has never been in a more sorry state than it is now. maybe second only to the 80s i think. something something ET#in b4 its called Half Life Xen as all the files reference ''hlx''. hl3 fakeout. but its another half life game.#half life 3 has been ''made'' multiple times in various states but its never been up to standards. whatever this project is though sounds l#like its very far in development. maybe they didnt give up this time#ive never been closer in my life to actually saying half life 3 confirmed. its not confirmed but its looking really good for once#crazy year to be a valve fan i'll tell you what#its only the actual objective most anticipated game of all time. no biggie#edit - added a link for the comic news for those who dont know. and the bot bans havent been announced in one place anywhere#but you can literally just look it up on youtube or twitter. valve has been mass-banning bots for the last month. fixtf2 worked
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hades atla bisexual simulator
#id in alt text#hadesgame artstyle is the most poggers thing on this fucking earth let me just YOINK steal it#i haven’t played a single minute of hades in my life btw#but i’m familiar with its bisexuality#it calls to mine like a siren’s song#i wanted to add lil dialogue options to them but my brain farted before it got done so. this is what u get :3#zuko#sokka#suki#yue#pondering the orb#my art#also: LAST ART OF THE YEAR BESTIE BELOVEDS THANK U FOR MAKING THE MORTIFYING ORDEAL OF SHARING ART SO MUCH FUN#KISSES FOR ALL
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nami day!! 🧡💐🍊
#one piece#nami#that's incense and mandarin flowers on a big shell in the first drawing in case its not very clear!#(i'm alive!! life got busy again!!#i havent drawn nami nearly enough but i rlly do love her . thank u 4 all u endure .....#tmi: my laptop only has 1 usb port (sadistic) so until now i could only use my drawing tablet OR my mouse OR a hotkey pad#today i finally got a multi usb port (?) and i can use them all at once .... its insane actually .... so much better 4 my wrists#im sure itll boost my productivity- next drawing will be in 2 rather than 4 months .....#oH ALSO the font used here is called 'chiffchaff' and i believe it was inspired by old newspaper fonts ... isnt it so pretty!!
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...no...
#sl spoilers#secret life#grian#grian fanart#etho#ethoslab fanart#mumbo#mumbo jumbo#mumbo fanart#its hilarious how close he was imagine if he called them both out before they even have done anything#my artstyle is changing as always but ill do anyting to finish a piece#my art
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photo of a REAL BILLBOARD that my best friend sent me on their daily commute, in case anyone needs money-laundering advice you know who to call
#better call saul#but make it massachusetts#still beyond words bc they described it to me last week at the bar and I was like 🤨 mhmm#so today they sent me proof that its real#breaking bad#this is EXACTLY what saul did to HHM in BCS THO!! but its REAL LIFE!!!!!!!#WHAT!!!!!!!#the LORE my brothers#ok to rb
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if you wanna listen to naddpod you should know this about the hosts: brian murphy is a straightman to his inner most core and he's the funniest person alive, these things exist simultaneously and would not exist without the other. emily axford is clinically insane to a point where it's easier to not try to follow her logic when she says things. jake hurwitz is a certified cool guy but he's the biggest loser in a room of nerds playing dungeons and dragons. caldwell tanner can only be described as exactly what a 1930's cartoon describes as a rascal. three of them are a throuple and the fourth is their boss.
#naddpod#not another dnd podcast#brian murphy#emily axford#jake hurwitz#caldwell tanner#8 bit book club#bahumia#trinyvale#eldermourne#ba2mia#and yes i know theyre not technically a throuple its just murph and emily that are a couple but if the intro to your podcast is 'my life#slash comedy partner my wife and my other life slash comedy partner caldwell' im calling you a throuple
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hi heres art so you pay attention to me now go read the tags
#ive been rewatching episode 7 like its the only thing on youtube and made note of many things#first off. the solver can only have one host. nori mentions skyn wants to kill off all the other solver hosts (with the dds) and disregards#the idea of both uzi and doll being its current host when they get chased#plus the main solver possessions only occur when skyn is out of the picture (the fightt in ep 7 is only after n decapitates “tessa”)#solver uzi is possible too but i dont count her cause she doesn't have the yellow#personal theory is that its more an instinctual response to overheating or something and not full on possession#second off nori calls the solver cyn. how does she know that name#cyn was on earth and only showed up to copper 9 recently and i presume nori's been here her whole life#it probably wasn't the other dds cause none of them made it down and they're all more savage beasts#since cyn specifies n's team retained their personalities and that makes me think the other teams didnt#also also we should've immediately questioned tessa arriving in the same type of pod as the mds when they were revealed to not be sent by j#im running out of characters also the people who dont like when i use tags like this can bite me#murder drones#murder drones nori#artori? that sounds cool#ill probably just stick with nori though#i have so many solver heart refs now#art#episode 7#murder drones episode 7#murder drones episode 7 spoilers#using the same black for shadows as my lineart doesn't work when i have to draw thin things over it#murder drones spoilers
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Genuinely being a single woman in my thirties, living alone, is such a mixed blessing sometimes. I do love my house and when I'm here I literally never want to leave. But on the other hand, I do get tired of leaving to go hang out with people, even though I love seeing them. Especially because I have such a great group of friends but they live all over the place, geographically, and therefore most of them don't know each other. And I actually really love hosting? But I never have people in my house because logistically it's always more practical for me to go to them than vice versa.
But sometimes I buy new old dishes and wanna just have a little fancy wizard party, but all my guests are far away. Please may I have the teleport spell. Or a high-speed commuter rail system.
#Hazard of moving to a city where i dont have people locally i guess#a very insular city at that#and honestly i am not lonely! I have lovely freinds! But I do miss the college days of everyone basically living in walking distance#in one city#as opposed to now#where DND takes me the width of the state on a weekly basis#usually the only time there are groups of people in my house is around christmas for the family holidays#and like...in the overall balance of my life this works#me going to my people is the logical choice#and its not a bad thing#but most of my friend groups are...local clusters where I am the out-of-towner these days#which again: fine; i knew that going in when I decided to move where I did and overall its the best call#but also sometimes I want to just load up the whole crew in detroit and tell them we're heading to mine this time#dont worry there'll be fancy little finger sammiches when we get there#just give me an excuse to use the wizard plates
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Slip-Up
#i put way too much effort than intended hhh#I LOVE DRAWING BDAY ART... ITS A SHAME NONE OF THE BOYS HAVE A CANON BIRTH DATE#but yeah this is how i imagine how Soap and Gaz would learn bout Ghost's bday cuz bitch nEVER SHARES#also ngl... this is also based on real life exp HSAHSHASH MY SHS FRIENDS FORGOT MY BIRTHDAY CUZ WE WERE SO STRESSED ABOUT MIDTERMS#they bought me a small cupcake with a candle and this sort of blueberry cheesecake and it was so good!!#my art#2023#call of duty#call of duty: modern warfare#call of duty: modern warfare ii#call of duty: modern warfare iii#cod#codmw#codmwii#codmwiii#modern warfare#mw2#mw3#ghost#soap#gaz#simon ghost riley#johnny soap mactavish#kyle gaz garrick#task force 141#tf141#141#art#fanart#digital art
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she’s like if the virgin mary smoked a pack of pall malls every day 🚬
#sims 4#the sims community#simblr#ts4#sims 4 edit#mysims#drawing/editing these tears took actual years off my life#editing this in general did but the tears were my hell#her name is norma jean named after her grandmother but she goes by either jeanie or jj#she works at the local convenience store and bartends at night when shes able to pick up shifts#shes the worst bartender in existence and refuses to lift anything over 2 pounds#she once convinced a customer to buy her a sweater because she looked a little cold while working#she lied and said her manager never lets them turn on the heat and casually mentioned pennys was selling her favorite sweater#and then described in detail exactly where the sweater was in the store#all she had to do was blink her big brown eyes and call them baby a few times and they immediately folded#she goes to church 7 days a week even though she hates it because that's what she did when her mom was still alive#and its one of the few things that helps her feel close to her mom#her mom died after she had to drop out of highschool to take care of her#she holds a lot of resentment for having to give up such a big part of her life#but at the same time blames herself for not being able to make her mom better#she doesnt believe in banks and hides money around her house to store it but she's also super forgetful#she'll randomly find money around the house and then treat herself like it was present she meant to leave for her future self#she loves crosswords but treats it like a fun game and refuses to check if her answers are ever right#there's ur fun little facts about jeanie 🫵🏼
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(Bruce and Jason meeting for the first time after he came back from being presumed dead (lost in the time stream))
Jason: really? Copying my flow and coming back from the dead? Be original. *voice wobbling* you should have stayed dead, we were wayyyyy better off, it was quiet for once *bursts into tears and runs away*
#bruce touched and concerned: are you crying??#Jason: NO ITS JUST RAINING (he’s wearing a waterproof helmet)(the sky is as clear as it can get in Gotham)#jason: my dad who i refuse to call my dad who i hate and love but will never admit i do just died#and came back to life#Jason Todd biggest fake idgafer#he gives so many fucks#silly#batman#dc comics#bruce wayne#batfam#dcu#batfamily#dc robin#jason todd#red hood#incorrect batfamily quotes#incorrect dc quotes#incorrect batman quotes
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I think everyone needs to experience technology in a rural area at least once in their life. I'm talking out in the boondocks, where the lines between modern and old blur in ways that almost make you believe that something else exists out there with you. Where your phone will register 5G in a spot 50 miles from any semblance of civilization but still won't load anything. Where the office computer is fully updated to the latest windows and hardwired into the internet and won't run certain programs, but only in the afternoon. Where the cell service cuts when a storm rolls overhead, and the phone lines at your work will randomly stop for a few minutes on a sunny day and IT can't figure out why so you all shrug and move on until they're working again. In a place where the home wifi router has to be wrapped in tinfoil otherwise turning on the desktop causes Netflix to stop working on the TV. Where the jokes about an entity living at your office feel a little too real, where no one truly believes in the paranormal but take the superstitions a little too seriously. Don't run this program at 4:50pm. Ask the computer nicely and it may just load what you need. Knock on wood if you joke about the phones going down today. And whatever you do, never run the microwave and the printer at the same time, even though they're on seperate circuits. We're about to head into the winter months, are you prepared? It changes your relationship with technology I think, when you've been to a place where the standard of reliance has to follow the whims of an ancient aura in the air.
#american gothic#gothic americana#old gods#cybercore#rural gothic#rural aesthetic#can't call this creative writing cause its all based on my real life experiences lol#work
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