#its messed up

[nekosoda]

SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

In the quest we constantly brin up Mondstat,Dvalin/Stormterror,Ancient times,Working together/Rhythm,Time...

AND THEN THERES THIS LINE

"No one wishes to have their soul weighed down by gravity."

EXCUSE ME

THE PLACE IS UPSIDE DOWN MESSED UP,THE PLACE WE TRAVELLED TO DURING "Caribert" WAS UPSIDE DOWN,THE DEFILED STATUE OF BARBATOS IS UPSIDE DOWN,THE PRIMORDIAL SEA/WATER GOES UP,AS IF THE PLACE IS ALSO UPSIDE DOWN AND ITS DRIPPING FROM THE CEILING

WHATS GOING ONNNNN

[changelingsandothernonsense]

Saw a thread about how feeling positive emotions is generally really dangerous to interpersonal relationships when you are neurodivergent. Mostly because feelings of joy impead judgement and lead to the mask slipping. The mask slipping gets you in trouble as a general rule. So you put all your mental energy into maintaining a baseline emotional state that most people would associate with depression.

Because feeling joy is always met with a negative response from others. You feel joy and the mask slips. You might info dump on your latest fixation. You might talk a million miles an hour. You might start a conversation halfway through your thoughts. You might do something impulsive and stupid.

And that is always met with "you are bad/annoying/ horrible to be around etc." And may permanently damage a relationship because despite the fact that your brain works differently, you still want to be social. You still want to be loved despite being told that, as you are it is not physically possible for others to do so. You can not be accepted as you are, you can not be loved.

So in order to get that human interaction that you still need you learn to employ a base line depression at all times. You know that the negative feelings are safe, when you hate yourself and everything you are you suddenly become acceptable to others.

Feeling positive emotions in public eventually becomes associated with danger. It is dangerous to feel happy. Happiness means you come out, happiness means rejection. You are hypersensitive to rejection.

So you stop feeling it, when you do, you actually start to panic. You can only be safely happy if you completely isolate yourself from everyone.

So then you begin to isolate yourself so that you can safely feel and be you.

Because you are not acceptable. It hit hard.

Because this is my entire experience and then some. It makes me physically ill to feel joy. Unless I am alone, and I can never share it with others. Because my positive emotions are not ok, they are not acceptable and I can not be accepted or loved. It's not possible.

[flamboyant-king]

Oh my gosh your blog is 9 years!? I've been following you since the release of Fire Emblem Heroes gosh time really flies! Anyway I love your stuff <3

Hhdjshs over 6 years ago. It's wild. It's messed up man.

I'm glad you're still here though. I love you. 😭

Also they're at a waffle house because

[sydneyofalltrades]

am i the only one who thinks it’s sort of concerning when a media comes out and there’s this one character that’s like OVERLY sexualized? like?? it’s kinda weird

[strawberry-slushy]

i hate this fandom sometimes oml

for anyone who doesn't want to get spoiled, please stay off the owl house tag and filter out spoiler tags. also be careful on youtube.

[rakkzi]

auto manufacturers follow the demand but also making them the only option means people who don't want them (me) have no choice if we want a new-ish car

I honestly feel like the proliferation of LED headlights was the canary in the coalmine for the general attitude we see in the political climate these days and i'm not even remotely kidding

[soldrawss]

Something something 16yo 2k12 Mikey gets sucked into a portal and sent into the RISE universe and ends up helping raise the RISE kiddos AU

[bloominglegumes]

i love normal guys doomed by the narrative

[loudestcloud]

Bro is pissed

“I’m Just Ken" wins Best Song | 21st Critics’ Choice Awards (2024)

[dilfslayer1080p]

having fun with cell shading, also finally got around to adding multiple eyes just in time for spooky month

[woodox-earthtaurus]

Nashville school shooting families removed by state troopers at gun law hearing

This is heinous. Wtf is wrong with TN right now? I wouldn't visit Nashville if you paid me.

[wisteriaclaw]

not done (still procrastinating on the wings) but i think its safe to say everyone needs a lil pick me up rn. enjoy <3

[softness-and-shattering]

A previous therapist of mine described BPD as "what happens when neurodivergent people have c/ptsd". Sometimes it goes away when the stressors do.

As a late diagnosed autist I will say one of the most damaging but transformative experiences I've ever had was being misdiagnosed with BPD.

Everyday my heart goes out to people with BPD.

The amount of stigma and silencing they face is astonishing and sickening.

I took DBT for years. Therapists use to turn me away because of my diagnosis.

I would be having full blown autistic meltdowns, crying for help literally - but because I was labeled as BPD ANY time I cried I was treated as manipulative and unstable.

As if the only reason I could be crying was if I was out to trick someone.

95% of the books out there with Borderline in the title are named shit like 'How to get away from a person with Borderline', 'How to stop walking on eggshells (with a person who has BPD)'

I was never allowed to feel true pain or panic or need.

That was 'attention seeking behavior', not me asking for help when a disability was literally inhibiting my ability to process emotions.

There were dozens of times where I had a full meltdown and was either threatened with institutionalization or told I was doing it for attention.

My failing relationships weren't due to a communication issue, or the inability to read social cues. No, because I was labeled borderline, my unstable relationships were my fault. Me beggong nuerotypicals to just be honest and blunt with what they meant was me pestering them for validation.

Borderline patients can't win.

And the funny thing is - I asked my therapist about autism. I told her I thought I was on the spectrum.

BPD is WILDLY misdiagnosed with those with autism and I had many clear signs.

Instead - she told me 'If you were autistic we wouldn't be able to have this conversation'. She made me go through a list of autistic traits made clearly for children, citing how I didn't fit each one.

And then she told me that me identifying with the autism community was the BPD making me search for identity to be accepted - and that I wasn't autistic, just desperate to fit in somewhere.

I didn't get diagnosed for another ten years. For ten years I avoided the autism community - feeling as if I were just a broken person who wanted to steal from people who 'really needed it'.

Because of my providers - I began to doubt my identity MORE, not less.

Ten years of thinking I was borderline and being emotionally neglected and demonized by a system meant to help me.

To this day, I still don't trust neurotypicals. Not fully.

I know I'm not borderline now - but my heart aches for them. Not for the usual stuff. But for the stigma. And the asshole doctors. And the dismissiveness and threatening and the idea of institutionalization hanging over their head.

I love Borderline people. I always will. I'm not Borderline but if you are I love you and I'm sorry.

You're not a bad person. You're not a therapists worst nightmare, you are a human with valid feelings and fears.

Borderline people I'm sorry.

[broh3m3]

We got a real jam going down

[isjasz]

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