#its in my mlist haha

[alpacaparkaseok]

How does it feel to fall in love?

When it's with the right person, it's very reassuring.

I can only speak from my own experience - which is imperfect and desperately lucky. For those that don't know, I'm married. I'm 24 & a college student and terribly bad at Mario Kart. I married the man that told me he was in love with me almost ten years ago and I laughed and said, "Thanks!"

Because...he was the boy next door. He was my big brother's friend. We went on trips together with our families and I had crushes on his friends but not him.

And we both continued on with our lives and he dated other girls and we remained friends. It wasn't until college when we'd hardly seen each other for years and I moved back to my hometown to transfer universities that we began hanging out again and I looked at him one day while we were out paddleboarding with some friends and a little piece of my heart went, "Oh."

Then we proceeded to go to dinner all together after and we just sat and talked about books the entire time. (the real way to any girl's heart)

And my brain went, "Oh $#&*"

He had a terrible habit of handing his entire heart over almost immediately, and I the sad inability to hand mine over to anyone. I'd tried to fall in love before. It always felt stilted, or horribly one-sided.

But with my husband, it was right.

I was still stressed, and anxious, and wondered if I was doing the right thing when, one week after the paddleboarding incident, we went on our first date.

I was falling for him when only a few short months later he whispered "I love you" in a cabin loft, extra quiet because everyone else was sleeping. I whispered it back, but I think even then, I didn't quite understand that I was still only falling.

I fell in love with him a month or two later, when we were staying with friends 10 hours away from home and we were the only two left in the house. And he asked me to dance, right there in the living room.

I'd always pictured something like this - despite my best efforts I have a tendency to be a hopeless romantic. When I'd pictured it, though, it gave me major second-hand embarrassment. But that night, we danced to "Grow as We Go" by Ben Platt (which we'd decided earlier that day while washing dishes together would most definitely be our first dance song), and I didn't feel embarrassed.

I didn't feel like I had to look away, or like I had to fill the silence. I looked at him and felt like I could do anything, so long as he was with me.

So. I've given you half my life story. So sorry haha. But when you ask me what it feels like to fall in love, I can only think of my love, which I'm still shocked that I possess. But, to give you a rough answer, this is what it feels like.

Like you want to give them just as much love in return. Safe. Real. Shocking. Beautiful. Terrifying.

Just, right.

Here's to hoping we all get to experience love with the right person.

p.s. we did indeed dance to "Grow as We Go" at our wedding, and all I could think about was washing dishes with him and dancing in the front room in our sweatpants. best memory ever.

[bindeds]

⊹・° ｡ㅤ BOYFRIEND VOX / LUCIFER / ALASTOR X FEM READER HEADCANONS ! — now i know alastor is aroace so i am once again making a post that acknowledges that as much as possible, meaning his headcanons can also be seen as platonic and his nsfw section doesn’t involve him engaging in the act of sex. i also made an aroace friendly headcanons post on alastor if you wanna check that out!

contains nsfw (+18) and it will be in a separate section <3 please credit me if you use these gifs!

mlist. request status.

VOX.

this man pampers the SHIT out of you and you cannot tell me otherwise. if you’re out walking in the streets of hell and you so much as look at a branded purse for a second longer than usual, it’s in your hands within the next five seconds. same goes for literally anything—clothes, shoes, sunglasses, books, anything you could want that isn’t a gadget, because he already gives you his latest models—only the finest for his girl.

he teleports to your phone screen whenever you ignore him, and you don’t tell him that you find it particularly endearing. the way he’s just so whiny for your attention that he’d act all petty and crash all your apps so you’re forced to look him in the face.

has the most funniest fucking pet names for you i just KNOW IT HAHA like think shrek’s prince charming. i just know that when you call him from a different room he’d definitely say shit like “just a second honey kisses!” like HAHAH I CAN’T GET THIS OUT OF MY HEAD

DEFINITELY loves having you sit on his lap while he works. i just know this man is a thigh grabber.

he loves when you dress in sweater vests, preferably in brighter colors but it’s cute when you use more muted colors as well.

relating back to my first point, this man loves taking you to extravagant AND I MEAN extravagant dates. i imagine one of them would be getting the both of you a literal floating table in the red skies of hell so you can see the entire pentagram from where you dine. he would have the food freshly delivered from the finest chefs he knows but he also seems like the type who would forget your favorite food, then demand that the food switched out with a snap of his fingers.

i’m judging this purely off of ‘stayed gone’ but he has a TON of terrible jokes up his sleeves, and they border on dad jokes at this point. you simply roll your eyes and kiss him for being so silly.

i just know this man comes home to you and WHINES. like, no matter what it is, he’ll always have something to complain about from work and you’re happy to listen to him bitch and moan about the smallest things ever. he also lays down on your lap and you to rub his shoulders and console him, whatever it is. you know he appreciates it because he usually always responds with something along the lines of “you’re right, baby, i do push myself too hard!” and you coo at him while continuing to console him further.

VOX NSFW !

i know he definitely gets irritated when someone interrupts his work but would be so into having sex on the job, and even loves ignoring calls from the vees for you. but of course doing it one too many times has its consequences, and he laughs nervously the one time he backs out. i can just imagine him going, “oh, haha, uh—sorry baby, i uh—listen i know we usually—it’s—FUCK um—just—just five minutes okay baby?”

i know this man’s hickeys feel like tiny zaps on your skin, and the marks reflect that instead of bruises

regarding the ‘sitting on his lap’ thing … you tried riding his thigh once and he DID NOT like that. seconds after you were sitting on his cock, crying his name from how he was just pumping into you mercilessly.

“still wanna tease me on my own fucking thigh, sweetie?” he clicks his tongue and grunts right after, his hands on your waist was enough to leave bruises.

that being said, he makes sure valentino never catches sight of you. the things you do to this man is beyond anything he could have thought and somehow, he feels uneasy at the fact that the way you have sex with him was DEFINITELY porn worthy and the thought of you being on camera in that way makes him want to wrap all of himself around you like a blanket to cover you from all of hell.

LUCIFER.

ironically, this man does NOT give you the world. instead, he gives you casual nights out turned into nights where you share all your secrets with him, and he tells you everything might not be okay now, or ever, but whatever it is, he’ll be right there with you. think going to your favorite diners, cruising and carpooling along the quieter side of hell, screaming at the top of your lungs. this man is all about authenticity. he wants the bond, not the experience.

that doesn’t mean he doesn’t spoil you every now and then—he definitely does research on the best bars in the ring and takes you out every month during your monthsaries and gets you at least 10 different gifts—half of which are little trinkets you and him picked up from your little adventures together.

unironically so fucking good at picking out jewelry for you. you don’t know how he does it, but every time you both visit a jewelry store, you always pick out necklaces and rings and he always comes to you with pieces that just look way more stunning on you. he always insists on being the one to slip the rings onto your fingers or chain the necklaces at the back of your neck, and he always flies up to do it.

he sometimes visits you as a bird and flies through your window. you like stroking his little cheek and it always causes him to transform suddenly which catches you off guard, and he uses this opportunity to kiss you.

he makes rubber duckies modeled after you!! all of them have different outfits from all the times you spend together.

forehead touches. so important for him, he does it so often and it’s nothing short of endearing.

this man COOKS and he COOKS WELL. every now and then when you both stay home he always whips up five-star restaurant grade steak for you, same goes for his carbonara, fish and chips, ramen, fried rice, stew—whatever it is, he loves making it with his own two hands and loves cooking for you.

lucifer makes his own clothes seeing as his hat has a gold snake and an apple on it which only really related to him, and he also has a unique circus vibe to his clothing. he made his clothes out of magic but after meeting you he wanted to get into sewing to make you something from scratch.

LUCIFER NSFW !

i absolutely agree with a lot of lucifer stans on him being a definite switch BUT i just know that if this man tops, he tops HARD. i mean, we’re talking about the angel who successfully seduced not just the FIRST WOMAN to ever exist, but the SECOND TOO. WHILE SHE WAS LOYAL TO ADAM. I FEEL LIKE THAT SPEAKS FOR ITSELF

he’d definitely do a multitude of things while trying out a few kinks to see just what kind of top flusters you. if you like service tops, he found out when he insisted on fingering you right after he’d brought you to orgasm with his tongue. dominant top? he found out when he crawled on top of you and said, “take it off for me, lovely.” all while leaving a trail of hickeys all from your jaw all the way down to your collarbone. the list goes on.

no matter if he tops or bottoms, this man begs, and its especially orgasm-worthy when he does it as a bottom. you’re riding him to your own climax and he’s close too and he goes, “ohhh god fuck please let me cum honey—let me cum please fuck! can i cum can i cum my love? i won’t until you say so oh fuck please baby—”

he knows when you’re pent up. apparently you give of a certain set of cues through body language only he sees and he’s observed it from you in all sorts of situations; going out with friends, sitting in bed with a book, tapping a pencil to your lip—it doesn’t matter what you’re doing. he can tell. and he never tells you how.

seeing as he usually has to fly up to kiss you on the lips, he takes every opportunity he has in bed just to kiss you. he could be going so damn rough on you that the neighbors can hear and he’d still be making out with you so damn hard.

definitely prides himself on cunnilingus. i know everyone mentions this because of the v he made to his lips but it just makes sense for him to do that if he’s good at it! he becomes a grunting, begging, whimpering mess when you suck him off but when he eats you out? you compare it to how restaurants have a signature dish—lucifer’s is whatever miracles he can perform with his tongue.

ALASTOR.

i think this is obvious because he literally hosts possibly the most famous radio broadcast in the entire ring, but this man has a way with words.

“to put it simply my dear, i just never thought the stars could walk on dirty streets, let alone ones that belong in hell,” he sighs with an almost dreamy tone to it as he rested chin on his knuckles, leaning closer to you from the other side of the table with his elbow propped up on it. “but it seems you’re living proof of that.”

you took that as his way of explaining his aromanticism and asexuality to you, even if he isn’t fully aware of those terms yet.

“how did a lovely thing like you end up with a gruesome animal such as myself?”

nonetheless, you and him are partners and he owns it, even if he’ll never admit that it is daunting for someone who has never felt this way about anyone else before. someone who has never liked anyone romantically before. he owns it because he doesn’t want the one person he’s ever loved to slip from his grasp. not when he was just so used to getting what he wants using his own bare hands.

seeing as he is aroace, he doesn’t kiss you directly on the lips but hugs you all the time and maybe kisses cheek-to-cheek.

he listens to your gossip and even arranges dates for you both to properly get together and just dish. he gossips back sometimes too, but not too much as he feels like that would be like treating you like the other friends he has. he’d rather spend this time he has with you focusing on, well, you, not other people’s foolish mistakes. but he sees how excited you are to tell him these things sometimes so, he listens still.

regularly slow dances with you, especially to old romantic songs the both of you like. it’s one of the rare times physical contact doesn’t feel foreign to him as he’s danced with many women, and he actually finds it endearing when you press your head on his chest. it shows that you feel safe around him, and that’s the best thing that could happen for him when you’re dating one of the most feared and powerful overlords in hell.

always does house chores with you even though he could use his powers to just speed up the process. something about cleaning up together just feels so intimate to him compared to physical touch.

ALASTOR NSFW !

he hates being touched, no question about that—but he also doesn’t like to see you pent up. he understands that everyone has their own desires, however filthy they might be—but your own are as good as sacred. you’re the one thing he treasures beyond all others and just as you can’t change the fact that he’s aroace, he can’t change the fact that you have needs.

so he comes up with something just for you; he asks if it would help if he talked you through it. praising or degrading you, whichever you prefer. telling you how much he misses having your hands on his, feeling you close to him. when he says this, he imagines you both dancing as you usually do, but of course, as you masturbate, you’re thinking of something else. this happens when he’s not in the room but he leaves his mic behind to act as a phone for the both of you.

“are you close, love? will you finish for me?” “y-yes …” “good girl.”

i imagine after a while of being with him, he would have seen you naked a few times on accident but he brushes it off well because there’s never anything sexual tied to it. so, when he is in the room while you get off, he’d use his powers to have a glowing green chain around your neck as he pulls your face closer to his.

“do you like it when i do this to you, hm? tell me just how much you relish being my good girl.”

[byuntrash101]

HELLOO I WAS THE ANON WHO ASKED FOR THE OTHER MASTERLISTS SKBFJS I HOPE I DIDN'T PRESSURED U OR SUMN 😭😭😭 BUT THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORIES WITH US 🫡🫡 IM GONNA BINGE READ NOW BRB

Omg noooo dw!!! I didn't feel pressured at all its just that the mlist was in my drafts and I needed to make it pretty haha but yeah now it's out.

I only have the ateez and tbz mlist out for now still working on exo skz and nct lolllll (blame my full time job)

Thank you for reading bby <3

[aphrodict]

hello hello! CONGRATS ON 300 !!

I’ve been reading your write-ups since you were only at 50 something followers and I’m so happy for you, it’s VERY well deserved! <33 Is it okay if I ask for a match-up? I’m bi, so any and all characters are fine!

I’m not really sure how to describe myself because I feel like I’m a bit of everything? Quiet but full of cheer, an extroverted introvert, and a seriously hard worker but sometimes very burnt out and sleepy, haha. I’m an INFJ personality type, if that helps? I love writing, drawing, and I definitely dabble with baking on the side! I can’t be too nice to myself LOL, so I do have to admit that I have quite a fierce temper when I’m mad, but it doesn’t happen often. Like… a dormant volcano?

Anyways, thank you in advance!! You’re doing absolutely amazing, I can’t wait to see you reach another milestone in literally… the next week or so, LOL

You already have a 🍀 anon, so hello hello, I’m your always hiding, but always reading, 🦊 anon <33

a/n: oml.. THANK U SM FOR BEING HERE SINCE THE START?? aghdjdj i hope u didnt cringe bcs of my old works T.T SO SORRY THIS IS LATE!

i pair you with… tartaglia and yoimiya !!

tartaglia

• a man that can cook n clean is probably what you need. feel like you two would just, click, you know what i mean?

• he loves how hard you work, he looks up to you since you’re so determined to finish what you started. buut, tartaglia also reminds you to sleep pretty often!

• if you needed, he’d even make you some food to help energize you if you refuse to sleep.

• ooh oh did i mention that he would ask if he could see your drawings? tartaglia compliments your work alot since 1. theyre absoloutely amazing and 2. he loves the proud look on your face!

yoimiya

• also another person for “a bit of everything”. shes the talkative and very hyper ball of sunshine

• yoimiya would also try to bake with you, though when you two fail you’d go and bother thoma to help. if you managed to make something edible, you’d bother thoma again to taste it and give you two tips

• shes also a hard worker who reminds you to take breaks, she knows how it feels to be really exhausted.

• when you’re mad, shes there to crack some light jokes during the argument. shes not invalidating your feelings, its just to lighten up the mood

@aphrodicts-imagination : event : event mlist

[hayjeon]

Practical Tips on getting your fics out there!

I’ve gotten an influx of these types of questions here recently, and the more i thought about what i was gonna add, it became really long :(  

disclaimer: a lot of the things i bring up are just from personal experience as a writer on this site, what my followers have told me they appreciate, and what i tend to look for when im looking for fics to read! If you don’t like these tips then pls move on :) 

although i’ll mention them, i’m also not going to be focusing on cliche tips like “write for yourself” or “grammar issues” cause those are pretty obvious!

1. accessibility of your blog 

when you’re trying to get your name out there, make sure that you’re creating an inviting experience for any potential followers! this includes:

a memorable url! be creative!

have some fun designing your blog’s aesthetic! (i love cute blogs because it reflects a bit of the writer’s personality), and (i prefer blogs with white backgrounds because it’s easier to look through/read, say, in contrast to a pitch black one where the words need to be white!) 

put your masterlist link in your bio (even better if you can link most recent fic! found this most helpful when i revisit authors that i like and can easily see if they’ve updated or not)

an organized and easy-to-navigate masterlist (personally, i prefer masterlists organized by band, instead of types of fics ie. i hate when i have to choose between drabbles, oneshots, and series masterlists; i really prefer to see them altogether!) --> see section 3 

organized tags (if you’re going to be posting a lot of non-fic-related content like pictures or videos, tag them properly so followers can sort through and find your fics easily!), or (if you’re going to be writing in different mediums like drabbles, or answering asks, make sure to use a unified #mine or #writing or #fics to centralize your content) 

2. get your name out there!

write write write! once you have some fics that show your talent, don’t be shy! 

join writing groups: when i first started out, I joined a bunch of groups that would reblog my fics in the midst of the content of much bigger writers; these blogs developed a following, and as a result of my content mixing in with bigger blogs’ content, so did my own tumblr! there’s been a stigma recently with these groups, but im sure you can find one thats supportive and not clique-y! 

send your fics to rec pages: what’s the harm? the only bad thing that can happen is that they ignore you! who cares! get out there! 

if you can do the above, i really encourage you to ask your fave writers for advice/to read your fic: again, the worst that can happen is that they say no or don’t respond or don’t have enough time, but it’ll be a good opportunity to get some feedback! i for one read (or try to read) every single rec that falls into my inbox. if i like it, i’ll #rec it, and if i don’t, unless the writer asks me for feedback, i move on!! 

utilize your tags!!: i’m not entirely sure if this is still the same or not, but from my memory, it’s the first 3-5 tags that matter the most? so utilize them well; push back the tags that aren’t really relevant (ie. #writing, #fics) and push more the main subject line of what you wrote (ie. jungkook fluff, bts smut, namjoon angst). these will populate your fics into the tags better!

headers!: when i’m scrolling through an infinite page of fics, the headers catch my eye the most; try being creative! you can find a lot of info out there on how to make ur headers super aesthetic, but i can share my tips too! --> see section 3

3. your masterlist 

here are some practical tips! 

organize by band, not type of fic/member/centralize your masterlist: i went onto a blog recently and clicked their bio mlist link to find a page full of 20~ish “JUNGKOOK MASTERLIST”/ “JAEHYUN MASTERLIST” and when i clicked on each one, they only had like 2 or 3 fics per member. i think it would’ve been better if she’d centralized all her fics! that keeps whoever is looking interested and more likely to click on another fic while browsing

add info about the fics!: when scrolling through a masterlist, it’s easy to get lost; try to add some snippets of info (ie. a short sentence you liked from the fic, a quick summary, a description of the au/scenario, or even a header!) this all gives some info about the fics you have tagged! 

headers: this isn’t a requirement, but i personally love a good header on fics i read and i love making them myself as i finish up a fic and get ready to upload it; here are free sources: unsplash for HQ stock pics, crop/edit/filter in VSCO, and then add aesthetic script with fontcandy) 

try to fill it up!: after i visit a blog after reading one good fic, i usually browse through their mlist to see if there are any more that i’d be interested in. if there’s a lot to look forward to, i’ll almost always follow; try to write as much as you can in the first few months to try and fill up your mlist and give blog viewers a reason to visit your blog again, follow, or even reblog your content!) 

4. try not to reproduce cliche fics: 

honestly tumblr’s writing community (and armys) has grown insanely these past few years and, unfortunately, even from my perspective, in the past 3-4 years, all the writers have sort of become blended together in my brain. but, i can say that the ones who consistently stand out are the ones who produce consistent content and think outside of the box! 

i tend to gravitate towards fics that have really interesting plotlines (ex. btssavedmylifeblr’s VOID is always a surprise to read because it’s sO unique! i usually don’t read ot7 fics but this one is legit my fave) 

I know it’s tempting to try and just write typical smut fics to try and gain some traction, but tumblr is already too overloaded by that kind of content; try to write something that’s special and unique! this will set u apart from the thousands of other writers here --> see next section

5. create unique fics: 

this is also personal to my writing style, but i get so bored writing just casual fics about the members, and it affects the fics i choose to read too; i prefer unique fics which you can achieve through: 

circumstance/au: create a fun au!; don’t just create an arranged marriage, create an arranged marriage in joseon dynasty, or between a werewolf and a hunter! (shameless self plug); don’t just give me friends to lovers, but give me spiderman!jungkook friends to lovers! (ie. cupofteaguk’s exchanges)

jobs: give them out-of-the-ordinary jobs; don’t just give me enemies to lovers, but give me rival!anchors who end up loving eachother! (ie. jimlingss The Newscasters)

fun dialogue: create good back-and-forth, (something i’m still working on!)! this will help your characters develop personality, and that way, readers will start to develop that themselves as well (ie. dad!yoongi from insemination wars by prolixitae is such a specific character that i love so much!, or obiwrites’ garden characters were so memorable!)

create memorable personalities: don’t give me a flat character, try to develop 4d personalities in all of your characters! (im still working on this too!) this way you can really make an impression on your followers! a great way to practice/recognize this is: “Ask my Character.” Can your followers ask a specific character a specific question, and would you be able to deliver an answer that is very specific to that character’s tone/voice/personality? If yes, then ur doing well! If not, try to think of ways that you can make tht specific character from a specific story, really unique and separate from your other characters.

6. some practical writing tips

be yourself, write for your own pleasure, blah blah blah; yeah you know already haha but here are a few more practical tips! 

grammar check: if you can, try and hone your grammar! makes for an easier read 

write like you: i personally LOVE this by obiwrites, but even the way she writes exudes her personality and is so specific; try not to be caught up in adding hundreds of synonyms and exquisite language; in fact, simpling it down and being more concise and honest with your writing is better than a superfluous sentence; this will also give ur characters so much more dimension and funk

use those commas/sentence variation: try to use more commas; this will feel like you’re the narrator to your own story; it also makes it more fluid to read in my opinion, over those short. clipped. sentences. (ie. “he came over, sitting down on the corner of your bed with an expression you’d never seen before” over “he walked over. he sat down, looking sad.”) 

half-half dialogue/narration: a fic with too much dialogue can get confusing, and a fic with too much narration can get dry; try to balance them out, and weave in and out of each! 

quality over quantity: don’t feel burdened to write a 30k word fic. in fact, i think some of the shorter fics (ie. any of versigny’s stuff) made a bigger impression on me over the longer fics because they were short, left me wanting more, and were just so high-quality in such small quantities. try out your hand at drabbles and one-shots, and don’t feel too burdened to try and develop a series right off the bat! 

abandon pigeon-holes: i’m guilty of this; i start series and then end up with no vision for the stories and they end up giving me writers block. its okay. just stop or discontinue them or leave them on a hiatus; it’s okay. your priority is yourself, and if abandoning certain works are part of that, then go ahead. it’ll help you progress more. 

and finally.......

i’ll add more as they come up! but if you liked this, then pls lmk! i’d love to give more tips and tricks; i think i started this blog 3-4 years ago when there weren’t as many writers here, but im glad you’re thinking of starting out/wanting to grow more! don’t feel intimidated! it’s not all about the notes/followers but creating a blog you’re proud of. 

so write what you’re proud of, or interested in, and keep going. i truly thoroughly had so much fun writing this post. if there are any writers who read through this and have some more advice, pls msg me! 

all the best to you! 

[hobidreams]

i found mlt when there was only about 3 chapters & i read them all immediately, i was hooked but i kinda forgot about it after not keeping up w it. months later when i found out there’s 30 ish chapters i was excited but was kinda bummed out when the (m) rating was so sparse & there was no mature warning in the middle parts. i thought that like a usual historical drama, there would be so much slow burn & sexual tension, but i was so wrong!!!! after caving in & reading & checking everyday for updates, i didnt know that the middle chapters will be the best moments in my opinion :( where they’re both happy & free to spend however much time however they want :( i selfishly want the ending to be super fluffy, filled with jeonha & oc raising their kids around the palace w/ jeonha teaching them about sword-fighting (girls & boys are treated the same in my world!! both are learning!) in oc’s garden w her overlooking them while she’s working on more potions & baking afternoon snacks 🥲🥲 but if it’s not the ending, i cherish everysingle dialogue and small soft moments that they share & hold them really close to my heart. thank you for writing such an amazing story with beautiful & complex characters 🤍

hi babe! thanks for reading! yes, the middle parts might not be smutty but they're absolutely important to the series. if you think about it, actually, bc of the length of each chapter, the mixture of smut is balanced if it were to be one very long novel. it just doesn't look that way on the mlist. anyway, thank you so much for enjoying the characters no matter how the ending will be 💞 they've been through a lot and its definitely been a long journey 🥰 please look forward to the ending !!!! while it definitely wont be exactly what you want (bc there isnt a timeskip haha), i think it'll still be satisfying !!!

[lovestrucked-again]

sooo..... mtl to date a tall girl? like over 170 cm? I just want to read cute lil scenarios about tall girl too haha. thanks ♥️

Masterlist | Mtl mlist

A/N: Saw your NCT127 message. I’m actually like 173 myself so honestly such a struggle to relate to the short ones. There’s only so much my imagination can do ahhaah. Grouped again.

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Johnny

He is just tall and to find a girl taller is pretty close to impossible. However, practically wise he loves a height in the 170s because honestly it gets a bit sore for him to bend down after a period of time. But he still doesn’t hold back in teasing you, calling you short and you’d constantly be going at him to remind him that your not actually short. “I’m not a very short person but you’re freakishly tall and it makes me feel tiny in comparison.”

“No I think you’re just short.” He’d say, and you’d roll your eyes at his stubborn playful attitude and not bother again.

Jaehyun

Jaehyun is also quite tall and so I think finding a short girl is pretty hard for him. He just sees people who stand out in the crowd and you happen to be because of height. You’d have a few problems occasionally though one regarding the kitchen cupboards. There’d be ones that align perfectly with your line of sight and would be just a little below his sight. It’d be the most ideal cupboard height but he likes to mess with you one step further. He’d purposefully hide things like the salt in the higher cupboards, determined for you not to reach it when he wasn’t around. One day, Jaehyun called you and asked where the salt was, having looked in the usual cupboards.

“You started messing with me by putting stuff on the top shelf so now I’m getting back at you.” You simply told him. In the end, once you managed to get the item down, you placed everything in the bottom drawers/cupboards in annoyance.

Jungwoo

Jungwoo will always hold things at a height that you cant reach. He’ll prance around while you chase after him and attempt to grab your phone out his grasp.

“Give it back” you’d whine, jumping up to reach it.

“You have to get it yourself.” He says, not lowering his arm.

“I give up, you can have it.” You pout, finally giving up and walking away.

“Aww I’ll give it to you.” He says, lowering his defence. You take that chance to pounce on him and attack him with tickles causing him release your phone.

Middle

Yuta

He’d be drawn to a girl walking in heels and walking down the streets. When a girl has confidence and the long legs as she strides, he’s immediately attracted.

Taeyong

Doesn’t really say anything about your height difference since its around the same but poke at him once you have the chance to. Whenever your sitting on his lap you’ll tease him for being short since you’ve gotten the extra boost from sitting on his legs.

“How does it feel to be taller now?” he’d ask, not phased by your teasing. You’d probably just end up kissing him because he’s too cute and you didn’t want to push your luck.

Haechan

He had always imagined that when his girlfriend would wear his shirt, they’d look like an oversized cute pumpkin but when you put it on and tucked it into your denim shorts, it actually suited you better than it suited him. “No you are not wearing that in public.” He’d demand.

“Why not?”

“Because I said so.” he’d simply tell you, not telling you the real reason that he was actually sulky because it looked better on you.

Least

Taeil

Taeil will be towards the don’t really mind how tall they are. He just always tells you how you guys have “the best height difference” and that he just “wants to be in your arms 24/7 because it feels safe.” 

Mark

More towards the doesn’t mind area because he finds attractive charms in both short and taller girls. However if your of similar heights or slightly taller, he’d try and spike his hair or put in a little more volume just for the extra height.

“Did you spike your hair?” You ask, holding back a laugh.

“No, what are you talking about.”

“Wow, my boy looks so tall.” You’d tell him, wrapping your arms around his neck and poking at the stiffness of his hair.

Doyoung

I feel like he’d prefer someone shorter or of same height. He might feel a little insecure if she’s taller than him.

“I’m still taller than you.” He’d tease. You just slap him playfully. But when he says it twice in one day, you walk back to your room, pulling out your heels and walk around in the house with them on.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” You’d ask.

“That’s unfair, now your taller and sexier.”

[loneveenas]

(un)familiarity | anno domini | 04

      every lifetime is a new one. no actual reconnections to the past. but what if that reconnection is suddenly there?

     𝒘𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒅𝒖𝒔𝒕      𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒙𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒖𝒔      𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒆

a sakusa x reader multi-chaptered reincarnation au

words: 1,377 warnings: angst, post-apocalyptic world, mentions of death

jump to: 03 | 04 | 05 || mlist

anno domini tag list: @infamouswhitepaws @woozxs​ @kara-grayson04 @yams046 @of-heroes-and-dreams (let me know if you want to be added/taken off!!) as always, tysm for reading :)

Right as you got to work something fell off. You couldn’t put your finger on it and couldn’t find anything in the shop that could lead to it, but something just didn’t sit right with you. You walked around the shop, preparing it for opening, when you noticed the side windows being stained.

“The revolution was FAKE.”

The four words were painted onto the window in dark red graffiti. Nearly the entire window was stained with it.

You sighed. How had you not noticed that when you came in? Now you had to clean the graffiti off the windows — and before opening time as well.

You dialed your boss’s number, to explain the situation to him. He ended the call quickly with saying that he would be coming over to clean the windows for you, so you could finish starting up the store. But the off-feeling you felt from before hadn’t really passed at all. With unease in your mind all the way to fingertips you went on with what you started on.

Unable to put your finger on it, you quickly finished preparing and turned the ‘closed’ sign around to ‘open’.

“Good luck for today,” you whispered to yourself. You didn’t really know if you were ready to start working for today, at all, but you didn’t really have a choice.

The morning went on with ease. Kuroo hadn’t come around yet, but he probably had other things to do. A couple of near-human cyborgs had entered to get coffee aside from your regular human customers — the ones who weren’t in hiding from the revolution. Aside from the rumbling cyborgs it had been a quiet one.

And that’s when he entered the store.

Like the good barista you are, you looked up from the ringing of the doorbell. It resulted in an immediate feeling of the worst regret you ever felt.

What was he doing here? You furrowed your brows, noticing something was off around him. Why was he alone?

“What are you doing here?” you bit at him, voicing your thoughts.

“Well, hello to you, too,” he replied. “One regular black coffee, please.”

You watched him, not saying anything. Where are your bodyguards, you wanted to ask him. Why did you come here unarmed, you wanted to ask him. Aren’t you so special that you need bodyguards, you wanted to ask him.

But you don’t. Instead you put his order in the register and get started with the drink.

“Nothing to say?” you ask him instead, removing the coffee filters and adding in new ones.

“Can’t imagine why I would.”

“I can feel your eyes staring daggers at my back, so just spit it out already,” you spoke. You swallowed, hopefully not too loud, as you press the coffee button. The full sound of the machine filled the shop, giving him no space to speak and giving yourself some time to think. What could he have wanted from you?

The second the machine stopped he spoke. 

“I don’t trust you,” he said. His voice as cold as ice.

You huffed out. “That’s it?” you spat out, putting down the coffee on the counter and meeting his eyes. “That makes the two of us.”

He pulled his head back a little, as if in disbelief.

“Why is that?”

“Could ask you first, since you started it, after all.” You leaned on the countertop, yours arms stiff but ready to meet his pretty face if he were to make one single wrong move. Your gaze rested on him, eyes strong and emotionless. “Well?” you asked him after he didn’t budge at all in your shared stare-down.

“Unbelievable,” he whispered.

It took you aback. You frowned. “Unbelievable?” you repeated. “What is?”

He moved closer, inching in on you and ended up leaning on the counter, reflecting your moves. “How do you even know my name?” he whispered again.

The question shocked you slightly. How… did you know his name? “I…” you started, but he interrupted you.

“My men couldn’t find anything on you and your family history — or history with me. So what is the deal with you? Are you some kind of a stalker fan?” His voice had turned up a little.

“A stalker fan?” By now, you should just get hired as a parrot. “I have no clue what you’re talking about.” The sentence came out as a question, more than a statement. You bit on the inside of your cheek, wary of what came next.

“In a sense, with you knowing my name — which is something I’m not going to say out loud,” he leaned in a little closer, softening his voice again, “because you never know who may be watching or listening in.”

You nodded slowly. You knew all too well.

“So,” he was stalling his question, and you were getting fed up with it. “We figured you belonged to one of the following options: you are either a stalker fan, or someone who can time travel or something.”

You bursted out in laughter. “A st-stalker f-fan! Time-hah! Time travel! Haha! You have got to be kidding me.” You wiped away a fake tear, slowing down your laughter. “I can’t believe that. Seriously, this is the most I have laughed in ages. You’re a funny one, Mister Jung,” you trailed your voice on the last words, articulating it clearly with your lips, only to try and get a reaction out of him.

But there was none. His face was set dead-serious.

“It’s got to be one of the two! It has to be!”

Staring at him like he was some kind of madman. That was the only expression you could give him. “And why is that?”

Before he could reply your head started pounding like crazy. He didn’t seem to notice, he was too busy trying to find his words.

Suddenly, a shout rang through your mind.

“You don’t have to pretend to be nice to me, just ‘cause you feel bad for me!”

You clenched your jaw. The shout was unbelievably piercing. Through your mind and ending its shot into your heart. It stang. Your heart started aching. You wanted it gone. And quick.

His frustrated groan got you back to your present self, forgetting about the stinging pain. 

“I don’t know!” he bursted out. Your stare changed into a shocked expression. 

You weren’t the only one being shocked by his sudden outburst, as he, in shock, slammed his hand in front of his mouth.

“Excuse me,” he murmured, quickly regaining his posture. “Forgive my loud action. I think it’s for the better that I’m leaving this conversation as is.”

“Riiight…” you dragged the word, “that might be for the better, alright.” You noticed the coffee — which was probably cooled down by now — and shoved it into his view. “Enjoy your coffee, if you still can.”

You wanted to tell him to not try coming back. He was starting to creep you out. But that was not everything. His expression even seemed to scare him, to the point of which he was losing his cool.

It must have meant something to him. After all, he came back to your café, unarmed with the over-protective bodyguards that called him ‘mister Jung’, but which was apparently not his name… 

Sakusa, on the other hand...

Who even was he?

You watched his back leaving the shop. You bit your lip.

What did it mean? If it even meant anything at all? And what had that shout meant..? The voice that had sounded an awful lot like your own.

A hazy dream came into your stream of thoughts. The familiar male body you had dreamed about so many times, and your heart was aching. Your heart was aching so bad, as if it wanted to burst.

Your heart wanted out. It was needing an outlet. And that outlet felt like biting through your ribcage and your chest. It wanted out. It felt similar to the pain that came after that shout, but it also didn’t. The familiarity was so unfamiliar.

The pain was becoming unbearable, and you sank to your knees, hiding behind the counter of the shop.

You rang Kuroo up. He needed to come over and quick.

[beanst0ck]

(pt1) Did i just slide into here? Yes😌. BUT I request a match up 🥺. I'm INFP-T and Aquarius. I dont like big crowds because they're too loud and i feel like im getting stared at and judged constantly and im very talkative when you get to know me but sometimes i get these spurs where ill just talk to people like no problem and then feel stupid afterwards because they'll look at me weird. But im really nice 🥺.

hello rat^2, also who looked at you weird 😡 ill throw hands with them

I match you with...

˚ 。﹒ ˚ ∘ Tetsuro Kuroo ∘˚ ﹒ 。 ˚

- haha alexis thought itd be oikawa

- WRONG ITS KUROO

- my second choice was oikawa tho, not because im biased towards my friend’s feelings but because i genuinely thought you two would be good together

- freshmen should never date seniors right?? good thing you’re in your second year of hs now 😌

- he’ll hold your hand when you guys are in public places because he knows you don’t like crowds and he doesn’t wanna lose you

- his hands are fucking gorgeOUS

- if that isn’t enough he’ll wrap his arm around you

- he can definitely tell you’re not comfortable with pda but will ask just in case

- like he’ll hold his hand out and wait for you to take it or just straight up ask if he could do something

- “ can i kiss your cheek? ;) “

- up to you whether you say yes or no say yes

- when y’all are alone YOU ARE GETTING YOUR WELL DESERVED FOREHEAD KITHES!!

- he will lay his head on your lap, cant change my mind

- once he finds out you rlly crave affection, hes gonna give it to you

- and i mean like a lot

- he’s glad to know that you’re vv comfortable talking to him 🥺

- if anyone looks at you weird or says anything bad about you he’s ready to throw hands ill join him

- he will defend you 😤

- if any of the boys from the team end up spooking you with their energy hes making them practice more cough cough lev

- HIS REACTION WHEN YOU RUB YOUR NOSE

- he’s definitely gonna be confused for a minute but when you explain he’s going “ AwEee “

- he’ll give your nose a lil kith whenever it happens because he just finds it aDORABLE

- watch anime with him 😌 he’s secretly a weeb

- there are some days when he’s not caught up with the twitter drama because being a captain is hard so it’s up to you to update him on everything

haikyuu mlist

[jjkfire]

I loved preydator! I never knew i needed racoon! Jk but here we are and im WHIPPED. Had a good laugh at the cotton swab scene ahaha i also say uwu out loud 😂 cant wait for part two! (Idk if its out already..i cant find it on your mlist) hope you have a good day!!

hahahah omg this is such a cute ask!!! yes bls join team raccoon! im really the oc. i love watching funny raccoon vids in my free time heh

also no there isn’t a part two yet haha i didnt even put preydator on my mlist because it was an impulse post......... i really had it sitting in my drafts for like a year ever since i made this post (also oc isn’t a quokka in the fic anymore hahaha i chose a diff animal!) but anyway im pretty excited for when i update that fic (plus rewrite it and just repost it as a huge oneshot maybe) because i think jk & oc have a really fun dumb energy dynamic HAHA. also me too i also say uwu out loud hahahaha.

anyway thanks for reading! and thank you for sending in this adorable message im sobbin 😭 i hope you have an amazing day too (:

[timextoxhajima]

Hunnnnnn!!!! I finished reading hostis omg.... okay firstly idk if its because I had been emotionally exhausted (in a good you-wrote-in-a-godly way kinda thing) from the juyeon fic, but I didn't feel as sad as I did with the juyeon fic - I think because the hate was mutual from the start? I did tear up at his pov chapter and felt sad at that point though :( the whole thing was such a wild ride though wow! I saved my fave chapters to reblog later with my essays haha. CAN I JUST SAY I SCREAMED AT THE SMUT AKDKDK like...I physically felt the response hahahahahaha that was a lot I never expected hyunjae to be that /hard/ especially since I try not to think about him in that capacity for sanity reasons....anyway, well done and I'm SO looking forward to your future tbz (and ateez who I just saw is in your mlist :D) works!!! - muvtharecca

Omg thAnK YOU LOVE 🥺💞

The smut was difficult to write ... :")

[loneveenas]

whispering into the night | 7

pairing: kenhina words: 2219 rating: t

total words: 7922 | previous chapters on ao3

note: yes this is chapter seven, which i posted to my ao3 a month ago. i’m close to updating the final chapter so i wanted to post this before hand. you can find the other chapters on my ao3

ao3 | mlist

“Hellooooo guys,” Shouyou yells into the camera. “So good to be back in front of the camera with Kodzuken!” He excitedly waves into the camera. He tilts his head to look at Kenma, who’s sitting next to him, feeling a little shy.

Shouyou nudges Kenma in his sides. It almost seems like Shouyou’s the one with the popular channel

“Hello.” Kenma continues to be shy and Shouyou giggles. “I brought Sho with me today. As you can see.”

Shouyou notices Kenma is very stiff today. He is hesitant if he should grab Kenma’s hand under the table. But it’s resting on Kenma’s thigh and Shouyou doesn’t know if he can go there.

Kenma found out about the video. It was bound to happen. It’s not like Shouyou could have hidden forever, the channel being Kenma’s and all—and the video getting a million views in 24 hours. The fans apparently couldn’t get enough of it. It was only a five minute video, but it exposed Kenma so much that he hadn’t talked about it to Shouyou at all. Except for Kenma sending Shouyou a text with “I can’t believe you’d expose me like that”. Shouyou was hurt. But it had been his own fault. And expose? Would that mean more than Shouyou had previously thought? Except he couldn’t bring it up right then, because Kenma would ignore even his simple ‘Hi’ and ‘Hello’ texts. Kenma never took down the video, though.

Today, luckily, Kenma called Shouyou again. Shouyou’s heart exploded when he got the call and rushed over to his place immediately.

“We’re doing a live Q&A session today,” Kenma said. “So if you’ve got questions, start sending them our way in the chatbox, and we’ll see what we can answer.”

“We are going to try and answer a lot of them!” Shouyou announced happily. His smile hasn’t died down yet and he hopes Kenma notices. “So start sending them in!”

They stare at the screen for a good minute. Shouyou is kind of well-aware that Kenma is sitting next to him. He notices from the screen that Kenma is barely sitting in front of the screen, and that it’s all of Shouyou’s body that is taking up two-third of the screen. He scoots to the right a little, tugging onto Kenma’s shirt, signaling that he can move a little more to the middle of the screen. Kenma simply moves along.

Shouyou moves his eyes back to the screen and smiles as he sees the comments welcoming them. A couple of the comments are also already sending in questions that they want to know.

—sho-kun so good to see you again!! —i missed you both!!!! —Kodzuken spare us a smile please. —say, Sho, would you like to be famous? —what’s you guys’ favorite holiday: Beach, Mountain, City? —Last film you watched? —first ride to go to in a theme park? —have you guys ever been to Disney World?

“Woah,” Kenma says.

“That’s a lot of questions already, you guys!” Shouyou comments, giggling and not stopping to read.

—which of you two is the laziest? —What are your shoe sizes? —who is the better dancer —Italian or Mexican food?

Shouyou can’t help but see the questions pop up that ask them… more private things… if Shouyou can call it that. It makes him uncomfortable.

—are you guys dating yet?? —please tell me you guys are dating. —I NEED THIS INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! —sho-kun we all know you like kenma and he likes you —just say yes to dating already ffs

“Okay, okay,” Kenma says, “calm down. Let’s start answering a couple first.”

“Yes!” Shouyou chimes in, trying his best to ignore those comments.

“Sho, this one’s for you.” Kenma moves a little closer to the screen to read better. “Sho-kun, it reads, how long does it take you to get your hair like that?” Kenma turns to Shouyou, waiting for an answer.

Shouyou laughs. “None! If I use a comb or a brush it will get super fluffy and that’s not what I want. So, I don’t do anything about it!” he answers with a bright smile.

—THAT’S SO CUTE —i wish my hair worked that way —sho-kun so cute uwu

���Kodzuken!” Shouyou says after reading a question. “This one asks what your first job was.”

“My first job?” Kenma moves his eyes away from the camera, thinking. “My first job… I don’t really worked somewhere… I started this channel right after high school graduation…”

“That’s so cool!” Shouyou comments. “I didn’t know that. So cool,” Shouyou repeats.

“Sho, this persons wants to know what your dream job is.”  

“My dream job, huh…” Shouyou starts grinning and Kenma looks at him, questioningly. “I don’t think even you know what my dream job is, Kodzuken.” Kenma’s eyes widen and he opens his mouth slightly, thinking he can immediately answer, but he closes his mouth as quickly as he had opened it. “Do you?” Shouyou asks him again.

“I… don’t think I do.” Kenma doesn’t know what face to make… He doesn’t know his dream job and Shouyou is laughing at Kenma’s cute reaction.

Shouyou moves to the camera. “What do you think my dream job is? Tell us in the comments and the side who guesses first can get a Sho-special!” Shouyou laughs softly. He doesn’t know yet what the Sho-special will be, but he’ll think of something.

While Kenma puts on his thinking face, Shouyou turns to scroll through the comments.

—sho-kun so cute www —i want to know what the sho-special is —Sho’s dream job is probably something in an office — Sho!! I bet you’d want to be a teacher! —@ that person saying Sho would work in a office, ur dead wrong www —sports player —social worker??????? —swimmer as they do in free!! that would be cool —mangaka… no i can’t see it —sports……. —NO A POLICE OFFICER —the sports comment makes me wonder too —yeah look at his biceps —sho’s biceps are unreal —wwww kodzuken could take some lessons from sho

Shouyou laughs loudly. Kenma looks up from his thoughts and Shouyou points at the last comment. Kenma laughs softly too as his eyes go from Shouyou’s biceps to Kenma’s biceps. Yup, Shouyou’s were at least twice the size of Kenma’s.

At least.

Shouyou looks back at the comments. There’s one particularly comment that catches his eyes and that he can’t let go. That’s funny, he thinks.

“Someone came very close just now,” he mentions, eyeing Kenma’s reaction and the comments at the same time. Kenma’s eyes widen and he pushes his chair closer to the screen. He starts scrolling up and down the comment section. His squinty eyes make Shouyou laugh: he probably can’t find the answer.

“Sho, I can’t find it. None of these seem like something you would want to have as a dream job…” Kenma says, his eyes still plastered to the screen.

“I didn’t say the exact answer is on there, I just said that one of them came really close,” Shouyou replies, a little mocking towards Kenma.

Kenma huffs. “That’s unfair.” A little pout formed its way to its mouth.

“Haha! It’s not unfair. I’ll tell you later. Maybe,” he adds after a short stop when Kenma looked up at him, with an even bigger pout. “Anyways!” Shouyou wants to continue. A different question caught his eyes just now and he can’t wait to hear Shouyou’s answer.

“Anyways what?”

“I saw a question I want you to answer.”

“What is it.”

“Kodzuken, tell me and the viewers. What is your favorite game?”

Shouyou looks at Kenma as his face becomes pale. His frown becomes very deep and Shouyou immediately thinks back to that time. Kenma’s face is painted the exact same way as the secret-not-so-secret-anymore video that he took of an asleep Kenma. Just like that time, Kenma is muttering words that sound like “what is my favorite game?” but not in a complete sentence at all. Shouyou laughs loudly.

“It’s okay, Kodzuken, you can stop now,” Shouyou says, laughing with his hand in front of his mouth. “It’s okay, let’s not do this you to another time.”

A couple comments on the screen tell him there are people who haven’t seen the video yet, and other comments going wild to the soft reference Shouyou made just now. Kenma’s frown tells Shouyou he isn’t done thinking yet and Shouyou has to move closer to him to forcibly remove his hands from his hair and stop the frowning. “If you keep on frowning you’re going to get those ugly lines in your cute forehead, Kodzuken.” Shouyou smiles softly at the boy in front of him, who looks up shockingly.

“What did you say just now?”

“You’re going to get ugly frown lines in your forehead if you keep up frowning this deep,” Shouyou repeats.

“Oh.”

Kenma eyes him and Shouyou is confused. Had he said something odd just now? He doesn’t think he did. Shouyou moves back to the big screen in front of them and reads a couple more comments that are directed at him out loud and answers them.

Kenma is silent.

He doesn’t see Kenma staring at him, but he can definitely feel his eyes burning in his back. Shouyou tries to ignore it, but it’s nearly impossible to do so. He just wants to turn around, face Kenma, and embrace him in the biggest hug he can. But he can’t. Because they are currently live. And that is the only reason, Shouyou tells himself.

Shouyou leans back after answering around twenty quick questions by himself and makes sure he can share the screen with Kenma again.

“I’m hungry,” Shouyou mentions. “What should we eat tonight?”

—ahh are you guys going to eat together? —i wish sho would cook for me —bet sho is the better cook lol

Shouyou laughs at the comments. “I’m probably only the better cook, because Kodzuken only stays behind his computer twenty-four seven.”

—they would be so cute, cooking together —ugh dream couple —cant they stop being so unbearably cute —cute ahhhhhhhh —blushy kodzuken again pls —sho-kun dream husband

Shouyou can’t help but feel uncomfortable again. He looks at Kenma, but he invested himself in a detail with his Switch.

“Guys! Send us some more Q&A questions,” Shouyou asks of the crowd, and it makes Kenma focus his thoughts back to the camera. He probably got a little distracted just now, and Shouyou has to withhold a giggle.

“Yes. Shoot.” Kenma raises his knees to rest his chin on them.

So cute.

The new comments are innocent at first.

—who is the bigger foodie —Favorite cafe in Tokyo? —which animal do you want to be? —any weird habits you guys have? —Last film you watched (together)? —kodzuken what’s the color of your eyes hihi —i still want to Know what sho’s dream job is —kodzuken when are you going back to black hair —favorite childhood memory please.

And Shouyou laughs at them. Just as he finally wants to answer the ‘dream job’ question, his eyes catch… more uncomfortable questions. And not just questions.

—when did you start dating —who kissed first —kisssssss —Say I love you to each other please. —when did you start sleeping together —share a kiss come on —come on. stop pretending you guys are just friends. —No need to hide any longer <3 —know we ship you guys!! —kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss —the act is over we know you guys ain’t ‘just friends’ —act lovey dovey please. —come out already

The last few comments made Shouyou swallow loudly. He blinks a few times and doesn’t know how to respond. He wants to say something, anything, but words aren’t coming out.

Kenma speaks up before he can say anything. “I think it’s time to end the live. Good talking to you all again. See you next time.” Kenma’s voice isn’t his usual monotone voice. It’s even more low and flat and Shouyou barely recognizes him. He watches Kenma closely as he shuts down the live, shuts down his computer and makes his way to leave the room.

“Kenma!” Shouyou calls. He stands up to rush after Kenma, who already passed the door. “Kenma…"

“Shouyou,” Kenma interrupts anything Shouyou wants or wanted to say.

“Yes?” he answers, hesitating, afraid of what Kenma is going to say.

“I think it’s better for you to go home now, instead of staying over for dinner.”

Shouyou can’t see Kenma’s expression, but his voice said enough.

“Oh.”

“Sorry.”

“No… No. It’s okay. Really.”

Kenma watches Shouyou as he packs his things together, ready to leave. He leads him to his front door and wants to apologize again, but Shouyou stops him.

“It’s okay, Kenma. Don’t apologize.”

He sets his foot outside the door and right as he wants to walk away, he turns around one more time.

“It was pro-volleyballer, by the way,” Shouyou mutters. “My dream job.”

Kenma laughs, his face smushed between the doorway. He looks cute. “That’s… How could I not have guessed that. That’s so typically you.”

“Let’s talk about it another time, okay?” Shouyou laughs, too. His eyes are squinted at Kenma and he tries to hide his tears.

He quickly walks away.