#its hard… its isolating
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#some friends of mine who live out of state where IN state for awhile#and we went out one night w our whole friend group to get dinner/watch a movie#and even though being presentable/sociable exhausts me#i had a lot of fun!!#it was good seeing my friends irl again#……………..*but—* while we were eating dinner one of my friends complained about the idea of people being ‘too tired’ to hang out#and i stayd quiet cause oversleeping/exhaustion was my excuse for rainchecking on the last Hang Out#but one of my friends pointed out like#didnt kingcunny say…#and i just kinda laughed it off#it kinda hurt tbh!!!!!#not even what my friend said#just like the idea that (GOD WILLING) people do Not and Will Not understand what im going through#its hard… its isolating#not fandom but irls follow me l#on main so….
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painting test with a limited color palette
here's the moon equivalent!
#my art#daycare attendant#dca fandom#hm... no character tags. guess!#really put off posting this since i had no clue what to write for the image id... but it turned out to be fairly easy. sorry if its bad tho#i've been having a falling out with this series recently#its hard for me to like it these days. like theres still a lingering bit of affection for it#but i cant help but wonder if its time to move on from it. hm#i know im probably talking about it in a weird way but... its always been mentally distressing to leave my interests behind!!#sigh.. i know this blog is fairly ''big'' but idk if i'd be missing out on much by leaving. considering how isolated i am from the communit#and also how much i tend to dislike the majority of the community too. hm#eh who knows... we'll see
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some business to take care of
#i was tempted to caption this as she was a skater boy and she was also another skater boy but#duck scribbles#midoyuzu#enstars#whats up guys im being embarrassing again on main#been wanting a new phone wallpaper and this was born. its the lesbian version though im not showing that#midori takamine#yuzuru fushimi#yuzumido#ensemble stars#also have additional doodles that r kind of corny and im too ashamed to add into the main post so i might add on a reblog or maybe not#midterms were so awful i had to keep reminding myself i can go ham drawing whatever i want once im done. and naturally its this#anyways ive always liked midos city rider fit it suits her so well#always wanted to find a good one to pair w it and the wink killer 2nd half xscout was toooo good i was inspired immediately#finally could use this good ref pic ive had saved since forever i need to draw backgrounds more too it was rather fun somehow#mental state has been yoyoing an insane degree lately like come on i dont need to be reminded i am a useless hunk of meat every other day#with nothing good going for them. college is amazing at reminding me of such god bless#i have bad tendencies to self isolate behind the excuse of concentrating that i am trying to fix . but its hard to get back when i do#not to mention the entire Big Event happening over in good ol amerika serikat!!! my apathy is naturally immense#but whats some peace of mind here and there idk. im gonna read yuri
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my hc is that lloyd cares so so much for dragons and feels a lot of personal connection to them but also. He's somewhat ashamed of/ distant to his own dragon heritage due to having largely negative experiences with his non-human side (mainly the oni stuff in crystallized, but it all feels the same to him). Also the mere fact that he's so nonhuman still feels kinda foreign to him considering he didn't even know about it until SOG, and continues to remain mostly irrelevant to his day-to-day life. His status as a dragon remains unmentioned in cases where it feels like it should be mentioned, because he just doesn't quite think of himself as one of them.
#lloyd garmadon#like he doesn't pipe up about being a dragon that can do spinjitzu bc like#.why would he?#he thinks of himself as a human most of the time#the guy has been so isolated from his own heritage its hard for him to count himself as one of them
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i was hacked by a very unhappy man!
#dimension 20#never stop blowing up#nsbu#d20 nsbu#g13#g13 nsbu#usha rao#MY TASTE IN FICTIONAL CHARACTERS GETS WORSE AND WORSE BY THE DAY!!!!!#sorgy. i cant help it every time a character is even slightly sympathetic i fall for it every time#i acknowledge that he is rude to everyone around him and the reason why he is so isolated from every body#is that he is egotistical and drives people away on purpose#like if u are not useful to him then he doesnt like you#but that in and of itself is so sad. hes just really sad#and a dick. and its funny#“we can have an old ladies night out” “maybe you can have that one by yourself” LMAO#ALSO USHA IS SO FUNNY U HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD I WAS LAUGHING TODAY#“i made my own alcohol during the prohibition�� SHES 100 YEARS OLD AT BEST. AND FROM INDIA#i think these two are my favorite characters this far and i dont know what that says abt me#oh not even mentioning the inherent tragedy of fictional character who knows theyre not real and wants to escape into the real world#tell me g13. why do you want people? huh? HUH?#im also being influenced by his nature of being a loser and also i like computers and computer symbolism#im normal you can trust me#i could go on about how usha and g13 are alike in their refusal to change#but i need to sleep#nsbu spoilers
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They're only silly on the weekends from 10-12
#a lamb ref 4 meee#so a little lore it's considered rude to show ur top teeth like out in the open bc typically when flashing top teeth is a sign of aggressio#but the thing is the lamb doesnt know that#1 bc sheep dont have teeth in the front part of their upper jaw instead it a hard pad soo them having top teeth is very new to them#2 they grew up isolated and only around other sheep so how would they know yknow?#its jarring for new ppl at first bc lamb has a habit of showing their teeth when smiling but after they figure out lambs chill theyre chill#but like no one tells them showing top teeth is rude#anyways#cult of the lamb#cotl fanart#cotl lamb#reference sheet#sort of#cotl#my art#cw cussing#ill draw a ref 4 god!lamb later
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i have a lot of thoughts about orym's character arc, seemingly resolved as it is, but most of them are really just my disappointment that the process felt so thoroughly disconnected from anyone in bh, except a little bit dorian at the very end. especially given that grief and self-sacrifice bordering on passive suicidal ideation are major parts of like. the majority of their characters.
#i guess the change could have been motivated by fcg's death and what happened to laudna but its very hard to say#when there's only really circumstantial evidence of that#and orym is still brushing off anyone except dorian and other liam pcs which. lol. lmao.#simply think it is a waste for a character in an ensemble cast to not develop in push and pull with the other characters but in isolation#self-enforced isolation that in turn draws focus from the ensemble#crposting#cr meta
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step on me, fatui harbinger!yue 🙏🏼
#yue yaps#hello :3#i decided to do a harbinger introduction for fatui!yue just because landndmdkdnnccj#you know the scene where the harbingers have their names & codenames & rank on the screen when the players first meet them? yeah#i had a hard time trying to find a codename for fatui!yue aka like how scaramouche has ‘balladeer’ and arlecchino as ‘the knave’ LMAO#idek if i’ll post this but ya i hope ur decembers are going well! ^^#only five more days til xmas !! idk when i’ll come on here again but i’ll def be back for scara’s birthday hehe <3#also im so sorry for those who followed me for my works (especially for on going series) :C its such a disappointment on my side too#i just haven’t been creative writing-wise as of lte :/ and plus i just feel so meh whenever i come on here#though ! i have started reposting fics on my ao3 (atsumou) so !!! if i get the motivation to write i might just post on there!#its just been a rough month for me so like a lot of self isolating as my top coping mechanism but fuck it we ball >:) !!!!
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So Wu, any fond memories of your father? Must've been a lot of pressure for you and your brother, growing up as the children of the First Spinjitzu Master
#A lesson learned the hard way#is still a lesson learned :)#gheheehehehhe#ngl i wish rp profiles would react to this#wu ninjago#master wu#ninjago wu#ninjago#wu#ninjago master wu#ask!wu#its a whole headcanon that fsm isolated garmadon#and wu's punishment was excessive training#because wu was the literal golden child#he needed some way to discipline him#and garmadon never even knew about it#anywho
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It is incredibly isolating to navigate through fandom as an aromantic person. Aro experiences are so varied, and there is no definite aro experience that encapsulates the alienation that fandom spaces cause for certain people.
Fandom is mostly built and structured on shipping. And if not, the blorbofication of characters, which tends to go down the shipping pipeline; where does that leave the romance repulsed aro person who genuinely does not want to see any form of shipping? Platonic dynamics, right?
Yeah, sure. But by platonic dynamics, it's only "best friends" or "family" right? Where does that leave the aro folks with undefined labels? No, qprs aren't a get-out-of-jail card.
And qprs- they have no rules or standards set upon them by society, not even having a clear definition for what it is, because not all qprs are the same. Yet, for some reason, it ended up becoming the "nonbinary" option to a lot of people- not romantic or "regular" platonic? Qpr it is, right?
But where does that leave the aro folk who don't want a qpr? Who don't wish to see characters depicted in pairs or trios or so forth- who embrace the lack of a partner?
And these concepts presented; when aro folk talk about them, do you care? And if you do, do you understand? Do you try to?
If you aren't aro, but wish to be supportive, are you a genuine ally? Do you raise the concerns of aro folk you share the space with?
Or do you take a look at these concepts- and decide you understand them "well" enough? Do you decide to speak for aro folks instead?
Do you depict relationships outside of romance because you believe in the importance of platonic relationships? Will you accept the fact that not all platonic interactions will be familial or "best friends"?
Can you accept depictions of qprs outside of "more than friends, less than lovers"? Are you willing to accept it is not just "best friends" or "romance lite"? Will you accept that nothing is inherently romantic- and characters in a qpr may fall under your standards of lovers?
Can you resist the urge to put every character in a pair or trio or group? Are you comfortable with the notion of characters finding more joy in being by themselves, outside of all those lenses you see them in?
It's good if you can.
And if you can't, at the very least, do you understand why some aro folk in your space are upset? Embittered by your favorite ships? Starving for representation?
Did you depict these characters with these concepts with the knowledge that aromanticism is fluid?
#antihibikase.txt#Long Post#((I'm sorry. I have been thinking about this for weeks and I am unhappy.))#((Honestly? I have been feeling more and more isolated in fandom recently.))#((It hurts. I know non aro folks are trying.))#((And its hard to describe. It's alienating.))#((And the typical fandom response is more representation- which is well-meaning.))#((But. Specifically to non aro folk. When you depict these aro concepts are you normal about them.))#((Do you do so respectfully.))#((Reminder that qprs are not restricted to aro folks btw.))#((I'm so so tired. It's easy to say you care but then completely miss the mark.))#((And just in case- this is NOT alluding to anyone. Please allow me to let my rage be my own.))#((Or to share this with those who understand.))#((And if you as a non aro person feel attacked by this- sorry.))#((I did my best to word this as firmly as possible without sounding angry because I am aware that-))#((-many will read this in bad faith.))#((Okay to reblog btw.))#((This isn't one of my usual rambles despite it being under my txt tag.))
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"ultrus is right, i am weak and pathetic" / "callie believes the way she loves is fundamentally repulsive" / "all i ever cared about was being useful someday" . things i think about a normal amount
#these arent the exact quotes ... sols is a lil longer and i dont remember the Exact SR callies is from#also guess who wrote a mini essay in the tags AND THEN TUMBLR DELETED IT#anyway. ultimately . . tldr#sol is scared of being alone and believes that hes weak but also that if he Just works Hard enough he can be good and helpful and belong#and so is the inverse true. when people leave you its because you didnt work hard enough and its your fault#and callie whos been up against rejection her whole life and cldnt understand why except that she loved too hard and it drove people away#and in her moments of most intense loss going cold. overwhelmed by shame. why wld she think it wld go right this time. shldve known better#and maybe somethin abt callie being a poet. who always thought about what the world Could be. not what it is (cyra) or what it will (oliana#but ultimately with this overwhelming feeling that shes fundamentally unloveable and has to stop herself from daydreaming#then calder who. brothers ranger and mother ranger general. a family who is known aroind the ice knife as their protectors.#and the runt of the pack calder kilde. who was small and looked down on and overprotected and didnt dream of being a leader but a soldier.#dreamt of being a shield not a sword. use; and usefulness; in the sense of belonging. i am used because i am so valued and loved#anyway..... i just think duck team all have their . harrowing and peculiar relationship to like. self worth and loneliness#how the way they see themselves (weak/unloveable/small) intersect with how they feel isolated and abandoned and excluded#and how they react to that feeling in their own unique way....#these r just my silly little thoughts :3#noodles in my brain. ehehehe. im . i think abt it a normal amount#ramble tag#(and hey since were here hardwon who thinks he hurts the people he loves and isolates himself from his loved one because of tha-)#*i am escorted off the tags*#naddpod
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these are all kind of Bad but this was the best of the bunch so i am posting it :p
i've been trying to draw vanessa more... she is so important to me... sun is here too i guess
#my art#probably wont tag this until later i dont want this in the tags#im mainly posting this because i absolutely need to talk abt something its been bothering me for awhile#im gonna censor this stuff (i REALLY dont want this in the tags) so just bear with me#why doesnt the 🌞&🌜 fandom talk abt v/nessa more. why do we not do that#their entire character is meant to parallel her#there's like a million tiny parallels for them in the games. they were both teased in the hw1 dlc and are both associated with that#🐰 & 🌜's animations (and even their designs) have several similarities to each other#there's a lot of cutscenes and parts of sb where one shows up after the other does.. 🐰 going to the daycare after greggy leaves#🌜 dragging feddy away to parts and service and v/nessa immediately showing up there#the entire 6am ending sequence ???#literally like the only reason v/nessa isnt more popular is bc like 90% of her character is hidden in unused content#and because 🌞&🌜 are the skinny handsome mysterious and tragic tumblr sexymen#and when they become so isolated from their source all of their parallels to her are used to instead repackage her character into a more#appealing design for everyone to fawn over and consume#.. im being dramatic but AuUGGHTHHF IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH PLEAAAE3 pleaseee please i love her.#its so hard being in the 'i want to kiss this robot' fandom when you dont actually want to kiss the robot#i just think theyre an interesting character 😭 and also my adhd brain obsesses over them endlessly so im just stuck here HFJSJGJD#anyway these tags got way too long dont read these. im going to bed now
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eyllo myke ^-^/// 16 from your spotify wrapped :D
HI ARTSY!! You chose one of my favorite comfort songs that I tend to associate with the lonely from tma…. It’s specifically on Exodus’ section of the tma au playlist I’ve made for my dnd group, so I doodled something simple with him <3 thank you for the ask :D
#16: Nekton - Cosmo Sheldrake
#enthusiasm at its best#exodus#theros#theros tma au#dnd#dungeons & dragons#oc#original character#spotify wrapped 2024#YIPPEEE since this song doesn’t have lyrics it’s kinda hard to portray the feeling it gives#but since it’s lonely coded for me it rly is just…. nothing#I think it captures a time for exodus in the au where he’s rly isolated and it’s taking its toll on him#it’s being stranded in a space that feels like home but the people who built home for you aren’t there and it feels both wrong and right#anyways go listen to wild wet world
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"An ancient English law made it a crime to witness a murder or discover a corpse and not raise a 'hue and cry.' But we live in a world of corpses, and only about some of them is there a hue and cry."
--Adam Hochschild, King Leopold's Ghost
#reading tag#history#imperialism#cultures of dissociation#my posts#it is v hard to isolate quotes from this book because like all good writing the whole is greater than the sum of its parts#(also bc much of it is quite grim)#but ultimately my casementblogging is just an elaborate book rec#for a book which is only tangentially about him anyway. correctly so because the story is much bigger than that.
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venice's levantine synagogue was built in 1541 for use by wealthy sephardim coming from what's today palestine, lebanon, and syria. the synagogue is located in venice's jewish ghetto, where italian, sephardic, and ashkenazi jews were sequestered. all of venice's synagogues were forced to close in 1917 to avoid an austro-hungarian invasion and remain inactive today.
#italy#venice#architecture#interior#worship#jewish#sephardic#my posts#good a time as any to remind people that jewish migration history is a lot less monolithic than it's made out to be#yes people were moving from poland to syria and syria to poland. even after the crusades. east/west divisions are super recent#Europeans Only In Europe Asians Only In Asia etc is not at all how society works that's racist bullshit#you know why so many european countries have their own version of dumplings? turks and mongols#you know where hijazi architecture got a lot of its influence from? east africa#people in the past weren't all tradwives who only talked to people of ''their'' own culture#and very very very few are completely isolated all the time#very hard concept to grasp for some people#i try to show this in my blog as much as i can
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Im so tired of ppl demanding characters be interpreted as butch then get mad if the people who do "make them a man." (In quotes bc no ones even rlly done that. they just mde em masc at most)
And to be clear what I've heard called "making them a man," Ive see things like:
"Making them tall" (hi! 5'10 butch here!! who would have probably been taller if i could have done t when i wanted. Also women can be tall. there are record of tall ass over six foot women thats not a man thing!!!!)
Calling them boyfriend, husband, good boy (All terms ive seen m a n y butches enjoy)
Giving them he/him pronouns (me and many butches use those)
Them prefering to top with a strap (Many. Many stones have spoken on this I don't even think my two cents is needed)
Doing sports (Women dont do sports now? femaninity and sports can't go together?? do u want a butch or do u want to remake gender roles u cant have both.)
Eating "too much" (Get help. Just. Get help.)
Shaved head. Even when the character canonically hates long hair.
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These are all just normal things for various butches/studs. And you know what multiple femmes do this shit too so yonow what this is dumb all around actually!! What kinda of stupid shit !!
Don't seek out butch content, or masc lesbian content and ve shocked if theres masculinity over there! And also stop labeling random shit as masc!!!!! Its weird!!! Let a butch be feminine and like sport or be femanine and enjoy he/him what the fuck??
(I used mainly butch as I honestly rarely see ppl put the effort into hc anyone as a stud, which is its own conversation of racism, id wanna make seperate. But many of these apply to studs and I wouldn't be shocked if they got the same treatement if they were thought of as often.)
#like u dont need to be into masc butches#but putting us down and claiming hcs that involve us#and stuff that is irl is Making Us A Man#discredits many butches#including me and i AM a man#but i dont do all of those to be one many of those are reclaimed femeninity for me#responding to petty fandom drama i know#but fuck as a butch the fanfic community leaves me isolated sometimes#and sometimes i wanna read fics and hcs and not read accusations that the writer isnt a real lesbian for liking ppl who Are Me#lesbian#butchphobia#fandom#fandom discourse#and no sdly its not just t/rfs being transphobic im watching “pro trans” lesbians do this#also a strap can get hard if its built in and she still prefers to call it that (which ive met before)#trans women lesbians are right there and some do use their dick/strap believe it or not
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